ok well this is my umpteenth time attempting weight loss and overall personal betterment--but i have faith this time will be better--it seems as though im attempting the impossible, but a lot of other things in my life are going or have already gone downhill-so maybe this one thing will happen for me. Im determined to start anew, refresh myself and finally be ME again. I am newly single yet again-this time for good-no hubby no cry (haha) i swear this time, im done, i kno what i deserve and i kno that its more than what ive gotten myself. So my goals are on a personal inner being level and also outer level as well--i want to shrink outside and grow as a person. I aim to lose about 30 or so lbs, but mainly the numbers are not my concern, its the amount of crap hanging out over my jeans LOL ive given up on stressing over stretch marks, i just dont care about em now--im defonatly motivated, just will power--thats my weakest link i guess. i tend to only belive in myself in short spurts. but im working on that, i kno i can do it, its just doing it that is hard. today i went for a walk for 30 mins, and im planning on doing some other form of excersize when i get off this stupid computer. for breakfast i had a mini corn muffin, not great, but its better than nothing--or so i hope lol/ im feeling very alone lately-lonely and bored and just blah--i hate being alone, and it only makes everything i want to do that much harder. oh well, that just is how my life is going right now, im sure things will be better soon, its just not visibly clear to me right now. Anyway im going to go measure my arms and all that jazz so i can keep track of all of me lol. yea now i feel like a whale LOL ok well im gonna go do some type of excersize now.--- ok i just did some moderate impact aerobic dancing and stretching for 30 mins with my daughter, it was actually fun too lol