Comment left by pushedtothewall on 05/31/2001: Carrie! You are so central to my life here! You have such a wonderful way about you and you are so caring of all of us, slackers or not or whatEVER! You are struggling with this area at this time, but you have so much to bring to us each day Mrs. Patriotic United States of America I think that I'll just go get my flag and repress it because I just want to look at it and then I will sit my dog named after my heart's longing right in front of the flag and take his picture there and pass around the photo that my friend pasted together of my Patriot and another flag! AND, I will just do every thing for everybody and raise my little Christian children to be all that they can be and then I will just haul my tired little self out to the white waters so that we can all have the togetherness thing and pray for my husband and Connie, you can DO this and everybody else: "You can DO this." ! and, jokes and Carrie you make peoples world go 'round!!!! A center place somehow for so many of us in this circle. I don't know how you got that role. You were here before I was, but it was clear then that you had this "thing". Don't step out of the circle, Carrie, even in your mind. NOW HEY! You mentioned the adrenal glands. My daughter was sick and sick and way sick for almost two years. No one could discover what the problem was. She even had to be hospitalized on two occasions. She would get bloated over what I would describe as "nothing" calorie-wise and she would get weak and cranky and her head would spin and some times for no particular reason she would gag or feel like she might vomit. It was a hell of a deal. We were all going nuts! Then, one day a miracle occurred! A doctor called MY home (her emergency number) and said that he discovered something in looking over his note on her. He was just on the verge of retiring and he discovered this adrenal thing, contacted her NEW doctor and it was just as simple as that! Addison's Disease. The cheapest medicine in the world.... one little pill for life, immediate results and she is a wonder today. That doctor told us that it was a wonder that she was not discovered face down in a ditch (suicide) for all of the hopelessness she lived through and discomfort and more, before diagnosis. She (and we, really) wondered if she wasn't just nuts! I am so ashamed of that, but as you are experiencing yourself, it seems endless and so open-ended. I know that you must know that Pres. Kennedy had Addison's Disease, Miss America. It was not told at the time because it was considered a security risk. I don't know why I felt compelled to tell you ALL of that, but I just wanted you to know that there was something that I had PERSONALLY lived through that sounds similar to your health situation, and I just wanted to let you know that. Please have a wonderful day, Sweetie!

Comment left by minea on 05/31/2001: So you're not feeling overly positive today, and you don't feel like a good example. Well so what! That's the whole point of this website dear, everyone has good days and bad days and it's the balance of those two that get us through it. I have a good day, I help others, I have a bad day, others help me! Don't close up shop, don't shut up, and don't go home! We need you here, to live and change our lives together and support each other doing it. I know you can do it, I know WE can do it. Tomorrow is another day, and another after that. It's the choices we make each of those days that counts. Take care of yourself dear. Have a great day. Love M.

Comment left by Krispy on 05/31/2001: My Dear Friend Carrie,

You are so wanted here good days or bad! That's what this place is all about - you sound so much like me, I only like coming here when I'm doing well and feel like I am helping everybody else, I don't want to feel as if I need to be helped but sometimes we need that support and yes I am here, even if it is all the way across the Atlantic!!!

I haven't had a very good day, think it was kind of like a last supper sort of thing, eaten quite a bit of chocolate knowing that I am not getting any for a whole month - does that sound crazy or what!!!!

Well tomorrow is the beginning of the month - hope you are feeling more your usual self when you get here, we are going to do this this month and if it means each of us holding the other up to cross that finishing line then that's what we'll do!!! OK!!!

Take great care of yourself and I am thinking of you - watch out for my best wishes winging themselves over to you!!!! JANE

Comment left by pastagal on 06/01/2001: I went and read your entry from yesterday,i am sorry i didn't see it sooner,,i to had a bad day yesterday,,,not bad in the sense that i was down or anything like that,just physically felt out of wack and my grandson was really fussy and i could not seem to console him ,he just cried so much,,and it was not because he was hurting,just pissed off for some reason,which he does quite often,,and gosh i hope he grows out of this.Anyway,,,,

I read your entry and trust me ,,you are not alone when it comes to having those types of days,,gosh i use to go through that sooooooo much and would throw in the towel,at least your talking about it and not throwing in the towel,,so that is a start:}} And one of my reasons for taking on the saying,,ONE DAY AT A TIME is because ,,i have found in my past,if i try to look to far ahead i fail,,,stay focused on TODAY only,get up each morning and tell yourself this is the day i am going to do it,,look at each day that way and it makes it alot easier,,,and give yourself the TIME,,don't rush it,and be CONSISTANT,,consistancy is so very important,,and thats not to mean we don't or can't slip up from time to time,,,when you do,realize it and the next day get right back on track,,,i realize i have lost the weight i set out to lose,,but i have seen people go on diets and lose 70 lbs or so in 5 or 6 months,,but i know i can't do that,,it takes me longer,,i just never have been able to lose like the majority of people do,,and why i don't know,but i do know,,that it can be done if you just take it slow,,,One day at a time and be consistant with what works for you,,and to not deprive yourself,,cause when we do ,we seem to always fail at some point,,its like the mind says secretly,,ok if you deprive me of that i am going to make you pay big time ,,,,lol,,right??So when you have a bad day,don't feel your putting burden or pulling our motivation down,thats what this place is for,,,thats why we are here,to help each other,to listen and give advice and hey,if you need someone to cry with or a shoulder,or to lash out at,,,i am here:}}} Your a dear carrie and your only human:}}}