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The new and in control Angela. Here's my game plan which is kicking my fear of failure, making mistakes out the door. I'm going to buy the house that I've been pulled toward for months now. It is a 2 story, 4/2.5 circa 1970's "Amityville Horror" house that I just adore. It has a huge backyard, although the front yard is on an incline and I don't fancy that too much. But I was talking to a friend and there might be something I can do about that.
I have just sat aside and allowed life to happen to me these past 3 or so weeks, mainly because I've been too ill to think about it. But I am back, feeling much better.
As for the eyes (Herb, you're wonderful but of course you know that :), yes went back to the young, perplexed Dr. J and his conclusion is that my muscles are "fatigued" and that I need eye therapy, i.e., exercises where I move my eyes in various directions to strenghten the muscles much like toning exercises for the bod I suppose. I have a therapy center and a referral, but I am going in on the 25th of June for a second opinion. (yes that is the soonest I could get in. Sucks huh) As for right now, I am fine; the eyes are functioning great and no nauseousness.
As far as the kitty is concerned, I'm getting the kitty cat. Maybe it's destiny. Who knows? At any rate, getting into the new house will solve the room problem (in a majorly spacious way) and lil' Desi Arnezzi will have many rooms to enjoy.
As far as the routine is concerned, I have accepted that right now exercising at a gym is not possible. I've been assigned to the grand jury which is the group of citizens (12) who for a term (3 months nere) indict or "no bill" felony offenses. As the assistant district attorney what I do is "present" cases to them all day, every day (including holidays and weekends if necessary). It's a very weary assignment, but it is one of those things that everyone has to do. You know paying your dues. (smile) So I am not going to bemoan it. It is where I am right now in my career and I've accepted that.
With that being said, I am going to purchase a treadmill (yes, Herb, a used one if I can find one but they go quickly around here) and until the house is closed upon I'm going to put it smack dab in the middle of my living room and exercise and just fold it away when I'm done. Yes, I know that sounds like a lot of trouble to go through, but my exercising means the world to me. It has helped me out so much since July and I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep it going. As far as the sports stroller for me and the Faithster, I'll have to check those out. It would be fun, but with my work load I wouldn't be able to use it until weekends (if that).
Sooooo, goals for June:
1. Purchase treadmill by 9th of June and in the mean time go to gym as much as possible.
2. Stay within my point range, going back to the lower end of the range.
3. No ice cream bars (skinny cows, fudge treats, etc). I can't do the totally no sugar thing, but I will forego ice cream bars AND cookies. Yes, COOKIES and ICE CREAM BARS will not grace my lips this month.
4. Celebrate my weight loss thus far. I seemed to have forgotten how far I've come, but gosh it was so easy to make this journey the focus of my life when I had a schedule (work). I could basically schedule everything in. Now I scramble just to grab lunch and have been doing that on the elevator. But as one friend said to me two nights ago (keeping in mind he is male and asked me out again after the movie a couple of weeks ago and I refused as I don't have time right now for "that"), "You love what you're doing, Angela. You know you do." And in some weird love to stay too busy to think way, he is correct.
5. Final June goal is to find another Weight Watcher's meeting next week. Now that I'm working longer hours, I can't go to my usual Monday 9:30 a.m. meeting (in the past I worked Monday nights). Yesterday I just went, weighed in and left. The group leader said, "Oh please stay. It'll be fun." But I just shook my head and walked out.
Something I've learned about myself is I detest change. I'm the kind of person who has to think about a subject for months to get use to the idea and finally I do it, i.e., buying this house which has remained vacant for all this time. It is the cutest. As soon as I get a chance I am going to take pictures. I like old homes. They have such character. This baby has hardwood floors that are in excellent condition. The staircase spirals, and the rooms are so large. I looked at some model homes, but didn't like the small rooms. You pay double for these new homes and get 1/2 the space. I had the house inspected months ago and everything checked out fine. So last night I told my friend who's a RE agent to make it happen, that I am "now" ready for the change.
I'm excited (as if you couldn't tell) about it and nervous too. I've been here for 3 years now and I like the neighborhood, my neighbors. Getting use to new people, places, sounds, etc. Change is good right. That is my mantra for June. Change is good. Change is good.
Sincerely
A Changing Angela
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Comment left by Kyrin on 06/01/2001:
Wow! You are psyched up for a fabulous June! Congrats on the housing decision...and on purchasing a treadmill...and on all of the wonderful progress taht you've made toward your goals (weight and otherwise).
You've come a long way, baby! Change is good. I'm looking forward to an adventurous month...and can't wait to see what else you're going to do.
Have fun, Angela!
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Comment left by sparkymel on 06/01/2001:
Sounds like you've made alot of executive decisions. Good for you. I know you'll enjoy the kitty cat. Have a great weekend-Mel
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Comment left by SoccerMom on 06/01/2001:
Your soon-to-be new home sounds wonderful. I love those older homes, with lots of woodwork, and charm. Does it have gardens? You could always terrace the sloping yard, and replace the grass with flower and herb gardens. That's what we plan to do with our sloping front yard....as soon as the time/money presents itself! hahaha
So you're getting the kitty, too? That's great. Our three kitties keep things interesting around here......and with the big happy dog, too, I'm never bored. (Of course, add a couple of kids to that, and we're quite the busy family.)
Yes, change is GOOD! I think it helps us break out of the "comfy routine" to challenge ourselves to be more than we thought we could.
Have a great day, and congrats on the new house!!
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Comment left by Krispy on 06/01/2001:
Hi there Angela
Don't seem to have spoken to you for a while! Love the idea about the house, its the same here in England - new homes are half the size and no way near the quality of older ones! Ours is a 1930's and has so much character!
Yes change is so good for you, I think sometimes we all get stuck in a rut and it does us good to climb out once in a while!
Have a great day and look forward to hearing all about this new house!
JANE
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Comment left by carrie on 06/01/2001:
Wow~ What a WOMAN! I have such admiration for you! I just love it when someone takes action! I am glad you made the decision to buy the house that has been drawing you! How exciting! And the treadmill idea is a good one too! I am glad you are feeling better! You sound focused and ready to charge............
God Bless! Carrie
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Comment left by pastagal on 06/01/2001:
You sound great and your goals you have set forth for yourself seem really good to,,tho i hate to see anyone give up Sugar totally,cause in the long run its almost for sure you will go back to it,i just know for me it is best to just keep it under control and if i want some,,ok,,and if not ok,,but to forbid myself from none at all has never worked for me,i always always binge eventually,,,but i will be cheering you on and the rest who are doing this:}}
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Comment left by thatmochagirl on 06/01/2001:
What a great attitude....! GOod luck to you.. and change can be good for the soul... immensely... HAve a great day!
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Comment left by herb on 06/01/2001:
When you went to Cancun did you stay at Club Med?
Talking about the house you say "It is a two story, 4/2.5 circa 1970's Amittyville Horror house that I just adore." What is 4/2.5 circa?
My friend Ronnie has just come aboard, he's a great guy and I hope you get to know him.
When you see the opthamologist ask him if the eye is a muscle? If so, should it be exercised, and could one of those exercises be reading in poor light.
As an "ada" is it true you can indict a ham sandwich? Is so indict one for me, put mine on rye with mustard, and swiss. See you, and I'm glad your eyes are feeling better.
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Comment left by pushedtothewall on 06/03/2001:
It seems that I haven't commented you for such a long while. It is an odd thing.... certain things that you have entered in your diary struck a certain cord here and there. I thought that something was up, something weird almost and I did not know how to respond. I have an e-pal in Moscow, Russia. Whenever it has been awhile since she has written me back she uses these words: "Connie, my dear, please forgive my silence on your previous matters." I always smile when I read how Russian translates into English and now I offer the same to you if you will have it. Angela, my dear, please forgive my silence on your previous matters. I have missed you. You are becoming the leaps and bounds woman!!!! Bringing the treadmill to you! Deciding on those new digs for you and Faith! I am just SO for you. It will be fun taking this adventure with you. I don't know a thing about Ft. Worth weather. I will have to check on that just for fun today. I wanted to say though, that I once had a beautiful old home on Foothill Dr. in Phoenix. It looked down upon all of the lights of the city, but was, at that time considered to be on the outskirts of it. The back yard set right into the mountainside. It was a steep angle up the driveway and like your "intended" had quite a slope of a front yard. My clever husband just met with that pile of rocky dessert soil and lots of nothing by junk growing there and he terraced it down from the top with no plan! Just began at the top doing a simple thing and then put in rocks to hold the soil, here and there and there as a border and then we went to Mexico for a month, came back and saw that it had quite naturally grown down into something quite lovely and as it went he went across again and the following year again. Everyonce in a while a car would stop and someone would come up to the door and ask us about the logistics of it because they also had a "problem" yard. It was kind of unbelievable to them that we did not have it planned and landscaped. That it just became itself! Well, I just thought that I would pass that on for whatever it is worth. I hope that you are able to have some time to yourself this Sunday... just you and Babygirl. I think of you so often, Angela. I am glad that you are feeling strong these days. Don't go to manic town! :) Connie
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