current diet: my own diet, in which diet pills, "miracle diets" and anything other than natural food and calorie counting is not allowed.

i would put my measurements, but, and i am telling the truth here, i confounded lost the tape measure. so--i'll post when i find it.

i am feeing very depressed and generally have wanted to be thinner for almost a year and all i have done is lose 8 lbs and gain 10. and lately i have been stress bingeing which keeps me up here like some blubber balloon. i was doing really well before, i think, at the very least better than i am doing right now. :-P

today was a good day. i worked out for half an hour, and went to 2 1/2 hours of dance classes. dance is the reason i want to diet. i want to be a) all muscle, and b) 90 lbs.

at exactly the same height as natalia makarova and 4 lbs lighter, at least they won't be able to say i'm too fat to be a ballerina.

so anyway, what i ate today so far was... b--cereal, milk, strawberries, coffee l--water throughout midday, but basically skipped, wasn't home long enough to eat and wasn't home at all till 2:30 for 5 mins, returned at 4:30 again and chewed half a stick of sugarless gum. still chewing, 5:39. at about 15 cals an hour burned. d--i'm planning a salad, a banana, and a cup of diluted calcium orange juice.

calories--560. i don't always eat this little, but since i need a bit of a kickstart to my diet this is like a toned-down fast, first few days.

ciao...don't chow!