Date update from Friday night: 

I kinda expected it not to work out....he was 34, I"m 27..he looked a bit older than his photos (we had never met in person before the date) and he arrived about 20-25 min late! So, the start was already downhill in my mind, but I don't hold a grudge and I let that all go pretty quickly.  In the meantime, I spent time talking to one of my girlfriends for the time he wasn't there.

We had coffee and had OK conversation.  He suggested a movie and it was across the street. At first, I debated it in my mind, because I knew I wasn't really interested in him beyond this date. But, I decided I hadn't seen a movie in awhile, he was paying (yes, i used him for a movie it seems) and I would go.

During the movie he says "since I have long arms, can i put my hand here (his hand on my knee)?" so i just laughed and said sure...i felt like i might as well give him that benefit. it really didn't matter to me. then, he asked me to hold my hand....in my mind none of this should have happened since i had just met and felt nothing towards him...but held his hand, which he seemed to enjoy. Again, I felt i'd just entertain him with the thought I was enjoying this all more than I was.  I figured he paid for me to see the movie anyway.

....THEN, he says "would it be alright if I kiss you?" well, Hel** NO! of course that's not alright! I just met him and it's not even the end of the date yet! so, hel* no! So i said, "Umm, I prefer to wait with that." And then,the movie gets to a point where the girl realises the guy may not be right, as she says so. that's when I  let go of his hand and say I needed a break for a bit! haha.

After the date, I felt awkward walking out with him as he looks much older than I, graying hair. I know I should always remain confident in myself, but I totally wasn't at that point. Then, I said I thought it would be time to go home. I showed him the direction back to his car, he offered to show it to me! I said, "oh, that's ok, i'm going to go the other way," and walked back to my car. No way would I sit in his car with him! who knows what he'd try!

He said he had a great time, texted me that to my phone when he got home. I didn't reply that night. then he called in the morning, suggesting we go hiking upstate (3 hours up) and that I should call him back. I texted him back and said I didn't think we had enough in common to continue dating but thanks for a fun night.

the end, that's the story of my date. he was a little weird and i was turned off.

Today: 

breakfast: grapes 50, oatmeal and almond milk 190, yogurt 130: 370 :-)

Current Goal - 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

happy labor day, day off for so many. i'll be at the beach for that late morning/early afternoon with my best friend.

snack: grapes 40

breakfast: oatmeal w/ almond milk 190, greek 2% yogurt 130: 320

lunch: tofu on bread 200, green pepper slices 20: 220

snack: ices 130

healthy large dinner: lots of steak 500? grilled veggies 150? salad 100: 750

may have a snack tonight :-) peach 80

total: 1550 or so.  GREAT....tofu and strawberries, final total 1650, good.

exercise: TONS of walking at the beach....like, 2 hours worth!

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

snack: grapes 150

feeling under the weather. still exercised a little and did weights.

1450-1500 total.

overall good day.

spent doing a variety of things including teaching 3 lessons and visiting my grandma.

(3 day avg - 2240 or so.  = very good only because it's in a normal calorie range)

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

snack: blueberries 100.

breakfast: yogurt and chocolate mix: 180, oatmeal and almond milk 190

snack: orange 70

540

late lunch 

total around 1700-1750.

exercise: 4 miles, walking.

"work" - helping grandma, 3 hours including dinner...not really work...doesn't look good to write that, either...rather, family obligation, sounds bad too.

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

breakfast: oatmeal w. almond milk 190, yogurt w. chocolate powder mix: 180, apple 100: 470

snack: cherries 100 and ice cream = 550

pretzels 80

HUGE binge: tons of large cookies 420, biscotti 430 , honey mustard chips300?, peanut butter and jelly 400....1550, bread w. pineapple cc 350

3000 and full and hot and sweaty...should have exercised this morning...talking a half approach and applying for jobs.  ugh.

snack after gym: 200 -protein bar.

3200...and coffee when i meet up to go on a date tonight...yes, after this kinda day....

exercise: very hard and rough, hope i can be awake on the date....hour of elliptical, over an hour of weights, back, abs, pushups.

coffee 100

large tomato and peach: 180

 total: 3500 approx. today, not as bad as i thought it would turn out. glad it's not over 3500 and realizing that if i went to be thin, i will have to start thinking thin and stop giving in to these binges!

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

breakfast: 500 cal, healthy, oatmeal and yogurt and fruit.

snacks: tofu, coffee: 200

lunch: croissant w. egg white and bran of course 400, milk 100, apple 100: 600

tsf: 1300 :-)

snack: 200

dinner: sandwich 300

snack: red pepper 40, peach 80, bran 30

total: 1950, great.

exercise: 4 mi walk at the park, nice and HOT! :-)

teaching lessons tonight, about 10 of them.

Current Goal - 2 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Good Morning :-)

Today I have a Bris ceremony to attend for a newborn baby boy....so i've pulled out some clothes to wear! hope they fit! lol.

breakfast: large apple 160, oatmeal flakes 50 on yogurt 130, peanut butter 100: 450 or so.

brunch: lox, tomatoes, bean salad, seasoned broccoli, coffee, diet coke, fruit: all probably around 350

snack:fruit 80

late lunch: tofu on bread 220, almond milk and bran 150, ice cream 400: 770 or so.

tsf:1650, good.

dinner: tofu sandwich 220, apple 100: 320

late cnack: egg on biscuit w.bran added 40: 340

total: 2310. ok.

Current Goal - 2 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!