This week has been a busy week, homework assignments are starting to come in, meetings with clubs, figuring out what is going on with said clubs since people don't like responding to my emails anymore of what is going on. >.<

These past few days have been incredibly stressful for one particular club I'm involved in. People are deciding that they can't do their position anymore, and others are just lazy and schedule events before checking to see if anyone can even do them, leaving me with trying to figure everything out, all while trying to appease everyone else in the club. arg.

I've eaten panda express more times then I would have liked in the past week. Heck, I've spent more money on food than I would have liked, but having classes so close together it makes it hard to cook something rather than just buy a sandwich on campus. And having a roommate that thinks I don't eat enough because I don't eat 2500kcals a day, who then looks down on me if I don't eat lunch doesn't help me or my wallet either. :(

This morning was crazy. I didn't realize how long it would take me to do 9 physics problems, and ended up going to bed at 3am. Then somehow I managed to turn my alarm off in my sleep and miraculously woke up 30 min before I had to leave for work at 6:30am. Then having class till 3pm, I don't know how I didn't pass out from exhaustion. (Ok maybe I fell asleep on the bus, and during a quiz ((don't worry I didn't actually have to take the quiz)) and during lab...but only for 3 minutes at a time! I swear! haha)

B-Cereal-150

L-chicken sandwich-450

D-pasta-350

Total-950

EEP. That now seems low. I'm finding it hard to sometimes get in 1200-1400 kcals, some days I'm just not as hungry. Maybe my body wont revolt against me if I only do it once in awhile. -maybe-

On a positive note, my parents are coming for a visit for the extended weekend. Which means I get to buy groceries! :D

Current Goal - 6 lbs lost so far, only 34 lbs to go!

Today just ended up being a bad day for eating. :/ I gave into hunger and practically bought everything I ate today. Overall the kcal isn't terrible, but they weren't the healthiest options that I could have chosen.

On a better note, I signed up to take an acrylic painting class for 6 weeks! It's been over 2 years since I've taken any sort of art class and I'm really excited.

B-cereal-250

L-pineapple/strawberry fruit cup-60

S-sausage pizza slice-350

D-panda express fried rice with orange chicken-1000 

Total-1660

Current Goal - 5.2 lbs lost so far, only 34.8 lbs to go!

 B-cereal and strawberry/pineapple fruit cup-550

L-Egg sandwich-400

S-sunkist-190   D:

D-tootsie pop-60

Total-1200

I ate a really late breakfast/lunch today and I'm just not hungry for dinner. :/ Hopefully I don't end up pigging out before I go to bed. 

I'm finally down below 160 again! Maybe it is only by a little, but its a little milestone none the less. Next goal is to be under 150 by Halloween, 140 by Valentine's day, and finally under 130 by the time school ends in early May.

Current Goal - 5.2 lbs lost so far, only 34.8 lbs to go!

B-none

L-Chocolate chip pancake, potatoes, salad with cheese and ranch-700

D-mashed up tater tots, so essentially hashbrowns-400

S-cake-150

Total so far-1250

My feet are just killing me. I'm really debating about forgoing dinner and just sleeping. But I know that's unhealthy. I'll try and make something but I just don't want to cook any more today. 6.5 hours of making food just takes it outta ya. haha

Hopefully everyone else's Saturday was enjoyable. :)

*updated what I ate for dinner. I seriously can't wait until this cake is gone. I keep telling my roommate to eat some but she just wont, so I've managed to eat half of it by myself.

Current Goal - 4.8 lbs lost so far, only 35.2 lbs to go!

B-glass of orange juice-130

L-Gyro-570

D-popcorn and peanuts-250

Total so far-950

Long day today. Had to go straight from work to class. By noon I was so hungry my insides wouldn't stop trying to digest themselves. Thank goodness I actually had time to eat today. But now I'm not hungry so I can't even think of what I should eat for dinner. Possibly more pasta or just a salad to use up my lettuce before it goes bad.

And as for that muffin I had yesterday, I'm still baffled at how many calories were crammed into it. I tried finding out how much batter they use for each muffin but I've already forgotten how much of a cup a #6scoop is. Maybe I'll try and remember to look it up at work tomorrow. OHH I get to work an extra 3 hours tomorrow! This means that I get paid more (duh!) and will actually have money to spend on things other than just food and bills!

Current Goal - 4.8 lbs lost so far, only 35.2 lbs to go!

I failed to record what I ate on Tuesday and Wednesday, but I'm guessing I stayed between the 1200-1800 range for each day.

Today however I thought I was doing good..then I looked up how many calories were in my blueberry muffin. 520! In 1 muffin! It wasn't even that large!! Time to stop wasting $2 on those things every now and again, and go for the fruit cups instead.

B-muffin-520

L-half an apple-50

D-spaghetti with sauce-1000-1200

Total-1570-1770

I also didn't intend on eating all of my pasta, but I turned into a vacuum and couldn't stop eating. :( The stress of already having homework and reading assignments and no books is really getting to me, and I need to stop turning to food for comfort.

Current Goal - 4.8 lbs lost so far, only 35.2 lbs to go!

 B-Cereal-400

L-silly classes getting in the way of my lunchtime :(

S-Chicken sandwich-350

D-pasta with meat sauce-500

S-cake -200

Total-1450

I almost lost another pound :) but I'm pretty sure thats just water weight right now. :/

Classes started back up today.  yay. (-sarcasm- >.>) Pretty boring day, except I did call my sister, my grandma, and my mom and dad all just to chat. I've been nagged about not calling often in the past so I thought I would change that this year. Hopefully I'll keep in contact more regularly.

Current Goal - 4.8 lbs lost so far, only 35.2 lbs to go!

B-Oatmeal-450

L-glass of orange juice-150

D-Ribs and mashed potatoes-600

S-cake-400

Total-1600

It's not overly bad, but I did end up pigging out on cake batter. :/

Current Goal - 4 lbs lost so far, only 36 lbs to go!

 I found a scale! I can actually have an accurate measurement. YAY! It's my roommates, and I'm going to sneakily keep using it. :D

Worked 6 hours today with only a 10 minute break. I was only supposed to work 4.75 with a 30 min break...but that didn't happen. :( And I was lifting heavy items again, then going back and forth making sandwiches for a straight 2 1/2 hours. So busy, but such a great workout! The guy I worked with said he was glad that he got someone that actually knew what they were doing, woot for doing a good job!! 

B-cereal-450

L-didn't happen since I never got my break. >.>

D-will have sliced chicken with mayo sandwich, leftover mac n cheese-600

Total-1050

Current Goal - 4 lbs lost so far, only 36 lbs to go!

 I slept wrong last night and woke up with a sore neck, then at work I had to lift 10-20 lb boxes of food into the freezers. For the first 10 minutes I was pumped thinking I was strengthening my arms, but after about an hour of it I wanted to give up. Thankfully it was only an hour, but now my neck and shoulders ache. :( At least I don't have to do that again tomorrow.

B-none

S-brownie-70

L-finally ate that leftover chicken-100

S-brownie-70

D-mashed potatoes, green beans, mini salad with ranch, mac n cheese-(idk...I didn't actually calulate...) 800-900 (?)

Total-1040-1140

I keep thinking that I'm hungry, but I know I'm not. This is the one habit I want to kick in the butt, the eating until I'm too full to eat anymore or even move. I just need to keep busy for another few hours before I start making dinner, hopefully I'll finish organizing my room tonight.

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 40 lbs to go!

I stayed up freakishly late last night, mostly looking at adorable pictures and videos of cats. haha I only managed to get 3-4 hours of sleep before I woke up, and some how I'm not tired. I know I should start getting ready for bed in a few hours so I'll actually be able to wake up at 5:30am for work.

Well when I figured that I should make lunch, I started to get out everything to make a hamburger. I was determined to make it tastey, but in the end the vent fan wasn't doing its job and the smoke alarm started to go off. Frantically I started running around the apartment to open windows and set my fan in front of them to blow the smoke out. I stood under the alarm for what seemed like ages just waving a dish rag at it to make it turn off. I managed to salvage my burger and went back to my room to sulk in peace at the fact that I had managed to set the alarm off. Not more than 40 minutes later and the stupid alarm starts going off again! I checked all the burners and opened the windows back up. It wasn't smokey at all and I started to freak out that the whole buildings alarm was going to go off and the fire department was going to show up. D:
Thankfully it shut off, but I hope it isn't faulty, because I think my roommates are about to start cooking dinner soon and I don't want to hear the annoying beeping anymore for the rest of the year.

B-none

L-Badly cooked burger :( -450

D-I'm too scared to cook dinner! haha Prob just some fruit and cereal -350-450?

S-leftover chicken again-100

Possible total-900-1000

:/ 

Updated!

One of my roommates came back and cooked dinner for herself, but she made too much she pawned some of it off on me. I refused the meat, but did eat the corn! Then we made brownies...well I made them as she watched. When they were ready to come out of the oven they started to smoke a little!!! I almost set the alarm off AGAIN!

D-1 plum and some corn-200

S-brownies-250

New total-900 (lower than what I'm aiming for ((1200)) but I just felt crummy all day with a stomach ache so I wasn't that hungry)

I still have yet to actually eat the leftover chicken from a couple nights ago :(

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 40 lbs to go!

Yesterday I didn't do that bad for trying to get back into managing what I eat. Today is even better too!

B/L-1 small potato, half a small onion, 1 egg, 3 pancakes-600

D-pasta with sauce-400

S-leftover chicken-100

Total-1100

While getting out the pasta sauce I came across the funfetti cake mix. Now I really want to bake it, but I know that I'll just end up eating the whole thing within a few days. :/

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 40 lbs to go!

 Well I just realized that I had at one time been tracking what I've eaten here, and that I should probably start back up again. The weight estimates I previously gave where wrong, because now I really do weigh 165, I gained about 7 pounds over the summer. And all of it was some how in the last month. I think my body is rebelling against me.

Since my sister is getting married in 9 months, I hope to lose the 40lbs. Which is roughly 1lb a week. Now that I've moved into an apartment and chose to opt out of the meal plan package and buy all my food I can actually monitor what I eat a lot better. I've been calling my future diet the 'I'm poor diet'. :)

B-I didn't have time for breakfast this morning, big mistake. Working for 3 hours serving delicious smelling food is torture. haha

L-chicken sandwich, sweet potato fries, salad -950

D-grilled chicken with hashbrowns-450

total-1400

Current Goal - 0 lbs lost so far, only 40 lbs to go!