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horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jun 17, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

 14.75 June Sunshine Hours; 

Keep track of jury duty check i should get in a couple weeks as of 6/11/21.(see if i get the reimbursement jury duty day's pay check by 7/6/21) If not - call union...

Lookahead Dates: Last TOM - 6/3...

Accounting Currently Studying chapters 3 (Topic 5 complete) & 4 (Topic 6 in progress) & 8.(topic 7 next...) my plan is to get thru these chapters and be on the next chapter next week...(in my second month now of payments to Straighterline).

Business Law - Sesson 5 - 8/23/21 thru 10/8/21

LIVE CHAT ON MY DAY OFF, maybe,...Finalize if any prereqs needed - using the school chat option per CUNY email - if i don't hear back about / and maybe submit the actual applications for both the following:

  1. CUNY school of professional studies certificate in Management - 3 course certificate program -  see if they ALL transfer to Lehman College's 10 course Master's program.  If not, maybe don't do the certifiacate program..
  2. CUNY Lehman College masters in business with a concentration in human resources management 10 courses, 30 credits.

 

6/17/21, Thurs - Public Trans workout; studies...no, driving, didn't wake up with alarm clock slept later not enough time to take bus/trains.

I was early enough driving to work to get in over a 20min walk in the AM and i'll also walk 5 min at lunch, adding up to 30min walking. :) recorded above in my tally...

Tonight is a rest night, I may take more notes on accounting to be able to review on my commute tomorrow, if i wake up early enough (means i must go to bed very early...).  I am not going to be able to wake up so early if i do not go to bed with enough hours to sleep. I'm practically 39 in a few months and cannot run on empty...

Breakfast: banana smallish, coffee, small cheesecake 400...

snacks: 9am almonds 50, Salted cashew halves 100, cherry filled hershey's kisses really good..100

lunch, healthy mix: egg/egg white One egg was bad lol 100, broccoli sauteed 150, potato chips 200, one tiny clementine incl....450

snacks: cashews and hershey kisses, small amounts. 150-200

1250-1300...

dinner:Thai sautéed veggies a lot of them 200, gummies 50, animal crackers 200. 450.

1750...


6/18, Friday - do public trans ? - so i can study on commute ?....

if i want to study, public trans is the way to go...it's just so darn early to get up (4:30am); i feel like i'm hit by a truck at that early hour, very hard to move, get out of bed before 5am (for me, it's VERY hard because i'm also not used to going to bed so early - i may attempt it Thursday night..also means i can go home and relax/sleep early after a commuting day bc i will have exercised before even coming home - thru the commute...).


6/19/21, Saturday, HOME.

Upper/lower strength :-)

...Read Topic 7 / Chapter 8. After i finish Chapter 8, I can take both Exam #2 and the Midterm. Then, i'll be almost 50% done with the course..


Sunday, 6/20/21: Father's Day: going to beach with parents, their plan, i'm going in support of Father's Day (don't love beach with parents....like it more with my friend C only). feel weird in bathing suit with parents.


6/21/21, MONDAY OFF - Taking this coming Monday off as a vacation day #2 for this cycle (have 15 vaca, 5 sick)...yes...will put money on laundry card, get oil change???..and study - advance and take 2 more exams on accounting course online..as well as a weights workout.  Then, i also will not feel rushed on father's day to get home before Monday...time for a day off.

Check EZ pass billing..should only be on credit card? - MAY NEED TO CALL AND FIX THIS ON DAY OFF, MONDAY...


Tues, 6/22...

Wed, 6/23...

Thurs, 6/24...

Fri 6/25...


Saturday, June 26thhome; take care of things like cleaning up, taking notes to study..

I'm an alternate for a walking tour, if i get it - it was a free tour, i'll skip the farm on Sunday....


Sunday, June 27 -

10:40am Dr appt nearby derm. for  Botox for underarm sweating - injections stop overactive sweating for 3-6 months. i've noticed some extra sweating lately. this will be good for summer / my work situation...clothes less smelly that i keep at work (fleeces).

1-4pm Queens Farm volunteering - excited - but also i will try not to overdo ...we'll see how it goes. maybe there'll be a free veggie to take home for myself or my piggies, depending what it is - maybe asparagus.


 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

Donkey on 06/17/2021:
I used to open up a coffee shop at a train station, many moons ago. I think I had to be up at 4am, maybe 4:15am in order to have the shop ready for the first train's commuters. I KNOW what you mean about how difficult it is to get up that early, that feeling "dead" or "zombie" in mind and body... And I was much younger back then, so I was able to do it. I think I filled in for a vacation, and then moved to 2x a week? It was hard though because I had 2 little, active toddlers that needed my energy at home after my shift was over.

What time to you have to go to bed in order to wake up at 4:30am? How does that compare with driving days? Just curious. I cannot remember my coffee-shop bed-time. Thing is, I could take a much-needed nap at 1pm. You cannot do this. With the nap, I think my bedtime was 9pm -- but I was in my early 30's, so there's really no comparison other than knowing that Zombie feeling.

horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
no, your situation is comparable. everything is comparable - with the early wake-up thing.:)

the difference between wakeup times on driving vs public transporation days is a little under an hour in wake-up times (i can get up approx an hour late when i drive...no joke!) i also get home around an hour earlier when i'm driving home.

in order to wake up at 4:30, in all honesty, i'd have to have been sleeping at 8:30 at least to feel good in the AM, i would think.

i also know that varying wake-up times is difficult in scheduling...it's been stated in articles that to keep wakeup times the same is easier on the body to adjust daily, than to keep changing them...i'm still thinking if taking public trans will work out - or if i need to change my days i do it...still thinking about it all.

public trans is only really valuable, i guess, for the study time of being able to read over the notes i've taken at home, to learn them thru repetition on the commute by just continuously looking them over...that's really the only value i think to public transportation. it saves money, but it's just a long commute and the money saved doesn't compute as a value. like i said, it seems the real value is reading / study time.

even driving to work lately, i feel tired because i get up and go without spending much time getting ready...which is fine.

still getting used to the new scheduling of this job / location / etc....

i was thinking to just look over my notes even if i'm busy at work, to just work them into the day...if i do not take public trans. if i do not review my accounting notes, i cannot remember them just be studying weekends...

...still figuring it all out...

but the early wake-up is not very conducive to a regular wake-up lifestyle, but helps me study. thinking to do it maybe just tuesdays (early in week, i have energy)...and fridays (go home and rest, no need to get up early the next day...)


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Is you alarm too quiet? If you push the snooze button then you can always put a louder one across the room so that you have to get up to turn it off.

horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
I have 3 alarms. one is my phone, not very good.

i think i had only set one alarm, and not the other loud one, so i think i only woke up once both were going...yes, it could have been an issue of alarms as well...


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Jacky82020 - Thursday Jun 17, 2021
(CR & IF & Exercise)
Weight: 110.2

 Made these with parmasean cheese, garlic powder & oil spray.   air fried. 

The bariatric scale in the Cat Room gave me a good scare when I weighed my fat cat.   I really don't like how this thing talks: Ready, Step On, reading, Thank You.   Forgot it says: Bye after a pause.   So I put the cat down and was watching him when I left the room.   just as I closed the door, the scale said Bye and the cat opened his mouth a little.   For a split second thought I needed a shrink.   you know, auditory hallucinations.

 Saw interesting article which I like because it shares my opinions.   Said Counting Calories works best, better than keto and intermittent fasting.   But is discussed calorie restriction counting.  25% less than needed resulted in greatest weight loss.   I try to do 15% less, 25% is too hard, but I am not going for rapid loss.   I'm after the disease related benefits.   Especially cancer and heart disease as best described in the book: The Switch. 

Progress as of today: 23.8 lbs lost so far, only 2.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
and being that me and you are already thin, 25% is unreasonable. you have to also figure the starting weights / BMI of a person....

and yes, i'd agree with that article that overall calorie intake is KING.

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
I can see doing 25% less for overweight ppl like that 467 pd physician in My Big Fat Greek Diet who did like 800 calories of protein drink a day. Very extreme but he was very fat & only did it until he reached a good weight. He looked terrific and as fat as I know, kept it off.

Wonder if he had the book contract before embarking on his cross country journey. Talk about motivation!


Donkey on 06/17/2021:
When it comes down to it, it's the calorie intake. I agree with that. But whoa, 25% -- that takes dedication and determination, that's for sure. The input ("advice") I've been given lately is more around the 15% restriction. This lower amount helps prevent that deprivation feeling (I guess?) and is easier to do over a longer period of time, hence more productive in establish a long-term habit.

OK, so that's the "official" spin on it, but I gotta tell you - it's all hard. All of it.


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
It is the calories...it's just that some food stick with you longer and help keep you away from food....carbs allow hunger quicker but if you can deal with that...then carbs will allow you to lose too. I know so many plans try to make you think their plan is magic.....but it isn't. I remember my aunt saying that she and my uncle share a sandwich......basically...i guess we have to be willing to do that kind of thing.

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
I like low calorie foods high in volume. Which is some vegetables like cabbage and spinach etc

I always share a footlong sub with the husband, or big other sandwiches. All depends. Some of the Burger King small burgers are only 350, so no sharing there!

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
I find protein far more filling than carbs.


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Protein is a lot more filling....carbs make one hungrier faster......for sure.

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
I’m really glad you introduced me to Box which has the Flex Protein Crisps. 160 calories and 10 gm protein. Love the BBQ flavor


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
I'm glad you like them...they also have a feature that tells you the expiration dates on their things...I've never seen that anywhere else.....but cans come dented ( from them and every where else)so not ordering cans any more.

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
Can you get a discount from dented cans? LOL Remember when I got all the free rice crisps?


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
I have reported it...they ask for pictures...and are good about it...but recently i got 2 cases of vegetables...the cartons looked perfect...but every can was dented except for 1...i cannot figure out how that happened....i'm just going to use them this time.....I do think that cans are not as thick as they used to be.....I think I will stay away from them now though.

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
Probably a good idea to avoid especially if you have good alternatives


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Taters look good!!! I made shrimp yesterday...just tossed it in olive oil and lemon pepper and old bay and bread crumbs....they took longer to crisp up than i figured they would but they ended up tasting great...we aren't huge shrimp fans normally but these were really good.

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
Same here, not a big shrimp fan. But relieved to see they are only 500 Cals per pound. Surprised, thought they were higher.

The AF’s come in different wattages. Think my smaller is 1300 and the larger is 1700.


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
You made me curious...I had to go look...mine is 1700..............I think it actually took about 20 minutes all together...I checked them about 4 times....the oil and bread crumbs were gooey but i figured if I kept them in they long enough they would crisp up...and they did. Will certainly be making those again. This one is a 5.8

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
I liked the cod better. Have some frozen salmon to try soon. Need another bag of potatoes!


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Are you SURE it wasn't the cat..>LOL


Horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
those fries look AMAZING. are they nice and pretty crispy!?

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
They were!


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Maria7 - Thursday Jun 17, 2021
(Prayer, counting calories,and intermittent fasting)
Weight: 157.0

 For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

If ye love me, keep my commandments. John 14:15

 

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Thank you for your prayers.  The Lord is helping me with this.  I love you all and appreciate your loving support and kind comments.

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Hope you are having a blessed day in the Lord.

 

Love, Maria

 

   

Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
(( HUGS )).....I know this is a hard time for you...hope you are doing well.


Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
Hi, Maria! Hope you’re having a good day.


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bearcountrygg - Thursday Jun 17, 2021

Weight: 0.0

Up at 5....chilly out and should be nice.  Started with coffee and waiting for the repairman to call today.......hopefully he can do some repairs because it looks like buying a new washer and dryer would be hard to do right now......so few available out there.......keeping my fingers crossed that he will be able to even get parts for these.

coffee = 2

small bagel with butter, peanut butter and jam

mixed green salad with peppers and carrots and a few leftover shrimp

shaved steak sandwich...( with chick fil a  sauce...that stuff is addictive)

 

Repairman came ....will have to order parts....in the meantime we went to the store and I literally could not reach into the bottom of any of their washers or to the back of their dryers....what is up with that...i know I'm shrinking but I did not think my arms got shorter..........I really want to get  mine fixed now.....will see how long that takes...I will deal with it.

 

 

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
Have you ever considered used washers & dryers? We did in the past and all was well. Think we got some from private parties and some from used appliance stores.

The last ones were new from Lowe’s. I always get the 10% off coupon which saves a few hundred.

Cute meme! Good morning to you!

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Haven't considered used...we wear them out ourselves...LOL...I cannot stand getting up in the morning and putting on clothes that have been worn...same thing with pjs...Tried it...grossed me out...LOL...so I do a lot of laundry....we only use bath towels and wash cloths 1 time...hand towels at the sinks for 2 days....kitchen...clean towel and discloth daily.....i'm weird like that ....we are hard on laundry appliances.


horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
really!? are the prices spiked or something for the washers and dryers? i am sure lots of people are buying home improvement items & equipment like those since the pandemic since people are all home more...

i'm sure you'll save money if it's just a repair...

they even sell units that wash and dry in one now...

it's soooo chilly here too, by the water. got in a nice walk, nice views. so many fit people exercise at this park, lots of runners and very fast street bikers! i am amazed by their exercises...i'm just happy to take my leisurely stroll!!!!

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
NO...there few available.......people are waiting months for appliances....it's not the prices....I set up to pay $1,800 yesterday for a washer and dryer set....but they are not available.....( We will see what the repairman says when he gets here...hoping we can just get these fixed)...friends just went 3 months without a stove...another can't get a refrigerator until september....there are a LOT of things that we just can't buy right now.


horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
yes, a cute photo :)

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
I wish they had spelled sass right though....LOL


Donkey on 06/17/2021:
Great point about getting it repaired if at all possible. And Jacky has a good point about maybe buying "new used", if the repairman doesn't work out. The lack of supply of washer/dryers is driving up the cost. Thank you China.

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Fingers crossed here......I wish the guy would hurry up and call....>LOL


Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
When we bought our latest washer and dryer, the price had gone up because of Trump tariffs. But the ones that came with this house were I don’t know how old when we moved in and we used them for 10 years, so no choice but to replace. I do have pretty shiny metallic blue ones now.

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
The guy that bought our previous house put in some stackables that are blue.


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happy-1 - Thursday Jun 17, 2021
(BP1,10cr,4ns,30pln,14fs,2do,2500cal,7w,10Kstp,9bed)
Weight: 216.0

Incrementally back on track. Yesterday was rough on 3 hours of sleep (first day of activity... a 35 min walk and household chores after being sick, eating and not moving and raising glycogen stores led to insomnia) but I still managed to wash my car, pick up my prescription, , buy supplements, and get the cat post out of storage. Unfortunately I forgot the part that secures it to the window, so I have to go back again tomorrow. I did figure a better way to secure it, so there is a home depot run in my future. Didn't make it to the botanical gardens... I had to cut errands short yesterday and come home and just give up for the day because I was so tired I was making a lot of small mistakes. I was exhausted and it was too hot... so I just sat and watched Netflix and ate way too much. I went to bed about midnight and slept 8 hours.

So glad I rescheduled the sleep study. I was in no condition to drive all the way to LA at 7pm last night. I couldn't even get through washing dishes. Was just too tired. 

Trying to figure out the order of benchmak habit proiorities to pick up today to get back on track. Start with getting dressed enough to run errands if dad "activates" and goes anxious on me. Probably whatever is most physically taxing to get back to that 9pm bedtime. Coffee, planning, 10k steps, 10m core...

And hot wings. I must get hot wings.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
I thought you l lived in LA. I lived in San Diego for a while and have visited LA.


horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
good wording on "incrementally back on track!" and also a good thing!

yes, if i only get 3hrs sleep, it'd be a rough day...ouch!

when you do make it to the gardens, i'd love to see some photos of those gardens by you!!! love when people post photos here.

10m core sounds good. when i do core, it's around that, maybe even less. perfect amount of movement to work it. :-D


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Donkey - Thursday Jun 17, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

Whoa, I did not do many leg weights this morning, but I am really feeling it.  Makes me wonder what I'll feel like after sitting at a desk all day *sigh*. 

Staying on track with macros and calories.  Oh my but yesterday was tough.  Husband made himself a dish of ice cream.  I have frozen banana slices that I could have eaten but I was done logging food for the day and didn't have much wiggle room left. 

Thing is, with the Lose It app, last week I was told that I could reach my goal weight by July 29th.  Then, as the week progressed, it kept moving to later:  July 29th, July 31... last night it was August 3rd.  Now how discouraging is that?  Especially since I've been slightly under calories for all but 1 day (where I went 28 calories above, about 2 weeks ago) and hit the macros pretty well.  Anyway, I'm looking at the Big Picture and telling myself that if I stay on track, dedicated and disciplined, I should be able to reach my goal by the end of July --- just in time for birthday cake!!!!

Thank goodness it's Thursday.  All day yesterday, it kept feeling like a Thursday, only to be hit with the reality that it wasn't. 

One thing I realized about work and the hiring of a new person:  I was getting discouraged because the Boss wants to hire someone young, doesn't want any one who is "old" (30's) and has habits and ideas that might challenge the way we do things.  Well, guess what?  I don't want to work for someone who is old, who makes such glaring and embarrassing mistakes.  I was venting to Male Co-Worker last night (dangerous to do, I know, because he's a back-stabber), and he said it's the "New Normal".  Yes, it makes more work for us, to backtrack and correct the Boss' mistakes, but that's where we are right now.   

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/17/2021:
Your app sound interesting......like my shapa......it just keeps encouraging.....( I'm still green)...looks like we maintain just fine...LOL


Jacky82020 on 06/17/2021:
Your boss sounds like a jerk!


horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
TOTALLY get you on not wanting that longer commute. sometimes less pay is worth it. though i'm not sure you are being compensated fairly based on what you've told me previously.

in terms of your morning legs workout, i always find morning workouts more challenging. maybe your legs just feel like that bc you aren't used to morning leg workouts?

nice job with yesterday and not doing the temptation. i also still have days like this...especially during the week where i'm up many hours...where i have to resort to eating something that will fall into calories left or just not eat again before bed because calories are up...i think this happened on the weekend for me, last weekend. i feel you. happens to me as well.

may write more later on other parts of your entry...


horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
I feel that 30's is better than 20's...because a 30's person has work experience.

however, i do feel that it doesn't matter the age, as long as the person has the right mentality for the job. you are right, age shouldn't matter, it's the aptitude.


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horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jun 16, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

 14.25 June Sunshine Hours; 

Keep track of jury duty check i should get in a couple weeks as of 6/11/21.(see if i get the reimbursement jury duty day's pay check by 7/6/21) If not - call union...

Lookahead Dates: Last TOM - 6/3...

Accounting Currently Studying chapters 3 (Topic 5 complete) & 4 (Topic 6 in progress) & 8.(topic 7 next...) my plan is to get thru these chapters and be on the next chapter next week...(in my second month now of payments to Straighterline).

Business Law - Sesson 5 - 8/23/21 thru 10/8/21

LIVE CHAT ON MY DAY OFF, maybe,...Finalize if any prereqs needed - using the school chat option per CUNY email - if i don't hear back about / and maybe submit the actual applications for both the following:

  1. CUNY school of professional studies certificate in Management - 3 course certificate program -  see if they ALL transfer to Lehman College's 10 course Master's program.  If not, maybe don't do the certifiacate program..
  2. CUNY Lehman College masters in business with a concentration in human resources management 10 courses, 30 credits.

6/16/21 - after work upper bod / maybe legs too - driving to work so I can sleep a half hour more.  I think i'll drive to work MWF (the days i work out strength)...and T/TH I will take public trans / study / do more walking on commute. also taking public trans 2x a week will offset the toll and gas expenses when i'm driving the other 3 days.  driving will also save me time for days when i want to get home earlier to have more energy to lift at night :)

was going to study last night (take more notes on Ch 4), but got caught up in a phone call...and tonight i have weights, so, we'll see but i don't think it may be possible for me to take any more notes until maybe Thursday, if i get the chance after work....

Walking 15min by work, 5 min at lunch. mile - really that's all i will do today because tonight is upper body :) and possibly lower body...may have to go back to doing those two workouts at once, to free up my days and schedule and planning is just easier...

breakfast: banana and coffee 200, cheesecake small 200

snacks: almonds 50, chocs 100 (will bring in more of almonds and chocs...)

550....

lunch: tofu 100, rest of the sauteed zucc 150, mini bagels not great sorta old 150. black tea not coffee . 400 

snacks: - n/a - i don't think i had.

early 5pm dinner: mcdonalds 4 nuggets with buffalo sauce 200, fries 350, kombucha 600, passionfruit beer (similar to grapefruit, but much sweeter and really nice!!) brand is schofferhofer, imported from germany. 250 found t supermarket a couple weeks ago. mix of beer and passion fruit juice the bottle says.

decided to take some notes to study so i have new accounting material to study during my commuting tomorrow...doing this before i work out...will skip doing legs and just do upper body...

7pm hungry / cravings as dinner wasn't the best especially with the high cal beer. reached for these dilll pickle spicy almonds, very good! first time trying. 120

1920..


6/17 Thurs - Public Trans workout; studies...no, driving, didn't wake up with alarm clock slept later not enough time to take bus/trains 

6/18 fri - do public trans - skip evening strength workouts - to do Saturday, study on commute ....


6/19/21 Saturday, HOME. Upper/lower strength :-)

...Read Topic 7 / Chapter 8. After i finish Chapter 8, I can take both Exam #2 and the Midterm. Then, i'll be almost 50% done with the course..


Sunday, 6/20/21: Father's Day: going to beach with parents, their plan, i'm going in support of Father's Day (don't love beach with parents....like it more with my friend C only). feel weird in bathing suit with parents.


6/21/21 - Planning to take Monday off as a vacation day #2 for this cycle (have 15 vaca, 5 sick)...yes...will put money on laundry card, get oil change..and study - advance and take 2 more exams on accounting course online..as well as a weights workout.  Then, i also will not feel rushed on father's day to get home before Monday...time for a day off.


Tues, 6/22

Wed, 6/23

Thurs, 6/24

Fri 6/25


Saturday, June 26thhome; take care of things like cleaning up, taking notes to study..


Sunday, June 27 -

10:40am Dr appt nearby derm. for  Botox for underarm sweating - injections stop overactive sweating for 3-6 months. i've noticed some extra sweating lately. this will be good for summer / my work situation...clothes less smelly that i keep at work (fleeces).

1-4pm Queens Farm volunteering - excited - but also i will try not to overdo ...we'll see how it goes. maybe there'll be a free veggie to take home for myself or my piggies, depending what it is - maybe asparagus.


July oil change..maybe due on Sat, June 26th? ...but thinking to take off Monday (after Father's Day)...to stay home, study...

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
I realized last night that if the public transportation route takes you longer in the morning, then it will also take you longer in the evening! Ha ha ha - this never even occurred to me until I realized it. DUH! So if you're eager to get home as soon as possible, then driving would be a more attractive option.

I kind of like the MWF and TTh idea -- see if it works for you. The public transportation is nice because you get exercise and study time. But you give up free time (sleep, home) in exchange. I see this as a fluid situation, depending on how you feel, weather, time.

How many more cheesecake slices are left? :-)

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
3 left...brought them all to work - 2 more this week, i'll eat the last slice next week! haha...and i still have sweet potato pie at home! should be good if i keep it in the fridge, i may even freeze it.

yes, public trans is GREAT for reviewing of notes as the route is quite lengthy and i have 20 min per each piece of the commute to glance at notes. AN HOUR of reviewing on public trans days.

next, the commute is extra long in the morning, yes, using public trans...but in the evening, it is similar to the morning (and just a half hour more or so than if i drove in the evenings). but in the morning, bc of lighter traffic, public trans is an hour more than driving - if that makes sense.

it is good for exercise. my legs were tired expecially due to irregular exercise or lack of cardio lately...so i found the public option was good for Tues / Thurs but right now too tiring to do daily. i feel i can do weights better when i drove home...

yeah, you get me.

and yes, weather will have an effect too...

have a nice day. i feel i got used to all this pretty fast - as i'm older and used to commuting / bringing food to work, etc.

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
I still think calories were off on the cheesecake, but they are only around 1-1.5" wide at the top of the slice and 2" long. small slices.

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
I still think calories were off on the cheesecake, but they are only around 1-1.5" wide at the top of the slice and 2" long. small slices.


bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
Mixing up the commute sounds like a good way to handle it....

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
yeah, so everyday is not a crazy crazy wake-up call :) and also so not everyday is me coming home late. :) and then on the early wake-up days, only 2 that are crazy early, i'll want to get up, knowing that the next day i can take more time at home...it's like an incentive to do the early thing 2x a week only. :)

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
THANK YOU!


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bearcountrygg - Wednesday Jun 16, 2021

Weight: 0.0

Chilly here...and it looks like a beautiful day............Went  out to meet the new dog yesterday and she is a sweetie......Rayha is 2 years old and beautiful....the other dogs in the kennel are very curious about her......and her run is right in the middle of theirs........she is a really nice addition around here....D can't wait for quiet time in our woods to end and  start working with her......July 8th can't come fast enough for him.

I'm still working in the pantry with rotation......got a late start on it this month.....so today will again be spent in there......one of our guys that comes to pick up downed trees to get his potential heating logs set up for fall came last night and got a trailer load........and that's good..it helps us by getting rid of them and him as a free access to heat for the winter......still waiting for our tree service to come and cut down some more...any day now...in fact he was due here 2 weeks ago.......but we are at his mercy.....oak wilt is killing them faster than we can get them cut down............we  may not have a lawn...but the trees keep us busy anyway.

Feeling great.......getting in enough exercise to keep me sore...LOL......Put shrimp out to defrost for dinner...accidentally put a hot chocolate pod in the keurig this morning so that was fun and unexpected......coffee next though.

Shapa says green= maintain

Well....got into setting up  the purchase with lowes for new washer and dryer....had to give them all of the cc info...they tell me they can't deliver them...even though before all the info...they could deliver......feeling like there are some very  "unusual" practices going on these days....and don't trust any of them

Ended up calling a repairman........to attempt to fix what we already have......either later today or tomorrow......will just be nice to be able to do laundry again without 1 load taking 12 hours...LOL.....either way.

Breakfast

hot chocolate, coffee, banana, 2 small bagels, butter, pb, jam and a hand full of caramels.......let the tension over washer and dryer get to me...guess I'm a stress eater......BUT...I can make up for it later today with no problem because the rest of the day will be lower cal things anyway.

 

I think the news is getting to me......prices here are ridiculous...gas at 3.20........a marked down steak ( was $12...marked down to $7 yesterday that D cooked for himself was like shoe leather...and almost unchewable.........)......groceries are up here and the store is almost empty midday........I think so many people can't afford to shop with these prices.....and are just making do....with what they have.  That is beginning  to make sense to me too........Here in our tiny town...there are so many elderly and poor people that struggle in the best of times...and I'm sure that the way things are now...they are really suffering......It's sad to watch the businesses here closing.....they were never high volume places in the best of times....just little local places and their small restaurants and diners and trying to make a living.  D just left to locate a new dog supply business that is trying to open a few miles away.......the new dog needs some things...so hopefully he can find the place and get what he needs there and help that guy out. 

Now that I think about it...I'm hoping this repairman can fix the washer and dryer....at least he didn't ask for my credit card numers before telling me that they can't do the work.........it's funny how Lowes can truck deliver right up until they get your payment info...and then suddenly they aren't delivering by truck........almost makes me want to cancel that card.

 

Lunch = small garden salad ( lettuce, pepper, radish plus olive garden dressing, air fried shrimp...We loved it....and some sf jello

 

Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
We used to have an outdoor wood burning furnace when we had the huge Victorian. Bought wood from the Amish. Saved the big bucks over gas heating, but some labor involved. Used gas in the warmer months when not much was needed. The house had a gas well in the backyard when it was built in 1870. The 7 beautiful marble fireplaces ran from that gas. I never even could find the well!

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
We had fireplaces in the past and one winter there waas an ice storm and that fireplace saved us......but not here and i miss it. Your place sounds great...7 marble fireplaces are amazing.


Donkey on 06/16/2021:
My folks struggled with the oak wilt on their land (Wisconsin) too. It's awful and awfully sad.

What a nice surprise and change to have the hot chocolate in the morning! That sounds like a wonderful start to the day!

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
It was different and unplanned...LOL


horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
nice job on Shepa!

also, congrats on this new dog of yours. so nice and young and full of energy, i presume. lucky you. i love seeing dogs around - i try to pet them whenever i see them being walked because they are mostly adorable, all breeds, all ages!

it's been chilly here also - especially the mornings. i was walking along the wide hudson river this AM for a few minutes and the winds were practically as strong as when you go to the beach and you get a breeze off the large ocean. so chilly!

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
That sounds like a really nice walk.....good fresh air off the water even if it was windy.


horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
nice job on Shepa!

also, congrats on this new dog of yours. so nice and young and full of energy, i presume. lucky you. i love seeing dogs around - i try to pet them whenever i see them being walked because they are mostly adorable, all breeds, all ages!

it's been chilly here also - especially the mornings. i was walking along the wide hudson river this AM for a few minutes and the winds were practically as strong as when you go to the beach and you get a breeze off the large ocean. so chilly!

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
:)


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
Yeah, those fireplaces were truly beautiful. The house was built by a local judge who struck it rich with his oil wells. Many ppl in the area did the same, several extravagant Victorian mansions around.

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
They sound beautiful. Were they in town?


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
In a very tiny town and that’s why I moved away. Used to the big city.

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
We were inner city...then suburbia...now so rural that we have few amenities.....I had gotten used to all of them eventually......but here it's hard to find the things we are used to getting easily......That is why we order so much....but the occasional things like repairs and doctors are a real issue. So many who live here are older people who are having a tough time.....so many in tiny places that used to be summer cabins or hunting cabins.........we also have a lot of Amish here...but they aren't as affected by the times right now although their stores are not doing well either because they rely on sales from other than the Amish. All in all...I can live anywhere and be fine...we are here because D had always wanted to retire up here....he loves it....I deal with it...it's another experience......but all in all.....i just adjust to what ever...LOL


horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
oh, nice to hear you will be getting the new washer / dryer!!! :) that's nice.

if i lived in the country / wasn't working, i might also hang dry more items to save money on drying. but then again, if you like your clothes softer and dried more evenly, the dryer is king! :)

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
Right now....not new...we are having a repair man try to fix the old ones.....hanging to dry is an issue too...the washer is leaving things super wet...so they would be really stiff....so fluffing them in the dryer ( no heat)...is taking hours...funny that both quit at the same time...UGH>


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
I can’t live anywhere and be fine, but would if I had no choice. Could not take a really big city anymore. Here, I’m in a reasonably sized city but have 7 heavily wooded acres. And Walmart is less than 2 miles away. Also big mall and hospitals and everything else maybe 15-20 minutes away.

My goal was to look out the window and see only trees, no houses and ppl. Pretty much achieved it.

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
I see only trees when i look straight ahead or straight behind here ...but there are houses on each side of us...but we each have 4 acres...previous place was so much more secluded and quiet...actually more like northern Michigan than this one is...since this place is a resort town. I just adjust to the surroundings...although i really would not like to be inner city any more. In our 54 years...we have had some temporary places that were kind of funny while we were building houses...we lived in a garage that looked like a 1 room apartment inside and a garage on the outside...( I'm sure it was illegal)...my parents log cabin ( no heat)2 different times...1 tiny apartment while I was caring for my parents...It was a place I went to to get a break at times that you felt like you were on a tilt a whirl most of the time because...the floors were so slanted ( that was 6 years ago)....and larger apartment on a canal also used when caring for my parents..at an earlier time....and apartment with 2 active boys..( now that was tough).....plus the 4 houses..... We have lived in a lot of places.....some safe....some not.....all an adventure to me though...


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
I think having different experiences like that is marvelous! I’m glad I lived all over California, from the biggest cities to small towns and on the east coast as well. Makes life more interesting. My first years were spent in a Black housing project. It burned to the ground during race riots long after we left & upscale housing was later built there on the bay.

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
I think so too....we experienced a lot of things and figured out we could deal with all of them. Life has NEVER been perfect...and I don't think it is even possible. I always enjoyed the challenges and liked the changes.....and found out that we could tolerate a lot more then we thought we could....and still be happy. There was that time when we were building and staying in my parents summer cabin with no heat...we got by until into October...but the night I had to put the baby to bed in his snow suit was the clue that we had to get out of there....that was when we moved into a garage...LOL...and we lived through it.....life goes on....


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
I think having different experiences like that is marvelous! I’m glad I lived all over California, from the biggest cities to small towns and on the east coast as well. Makes life more interesting. My first years were spent in a Black housing project. It burned to the ground during race riots long after we left & upscale housing was later built there on the bay.

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
;)


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Donkey - Wednesday Jun 16, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

I am in a very odd spot right now.  Trying to get things sorted out.  

Tracking macros and calories is going well, I think, but I'm wondering if the slight decrease in calories is contributing to my moods.

Also, I've stopped taking melatonin to help me fall asleep.  Ran out and haven't bought more.  So my sleep IS different.  Ironically, Fitbit says that my sleep scores are GREAT.  It's not feeling GREAT though.  Let's see how the rest of the week goes.  I might buckle and buy some over the weekend, if I feel it would help.

I had awesome arms weight training, both morning and evening. 

So why don't I feel better?  Why don't I feel anything?  I feel numb and tired.


Did I mention that we're hiring someone at work, part-time, to help with "clerical" duties.  I was told this person would not be involved with files, but what we really need help with is opening new files.  That is SO time consuming. 

I have a lot of mixed feelings about a new person coming in.  Not the actual person, but what I'm observing:  Boss wants to hire someone young that will take the crap that he dishes out without pushing back.  So this makes me wonder if I'm too old to be working for him any more.  Because I do push back.  Male Co-Worker pushes back too.  Mistakes Girl is starting to push back, but only because she has reached her limit. 

I got a raise yesterday - a dollar an hour more - and felt no joy about it.  I think I got the raise because I was talking about going over to Wal-Mart to work, LOL.  

IDK like I said, I'm trying to sort things out.  I think Bear hit it on the head about needing to take a break.  At work, Mistakes Girl said that I probably need a break (when I told her I was struggling with anxiety -- didn't mention anything about depression).  

Do I need a dieting and exercising break???

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
A few days to unwind sound like a good idea...not sure how that could or would happen but you may just need a break.

Donkey on 06/17/2021:
You're right, not sure how that would happen. In July, Mistakes Girl is taking a week off, and that's gonna be rough - really rough, especially with the burn-out that I'm already feeling.


bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
Dieting and exercising schedules are a lot in themselves...along with a job and other responsibility's take a toll on the body.....I've done it...( it was years ago)and I have to say...it was a huge stress...and probably unnecessary......but something I felt compelled to do......filling every day to the brim is really hard to maintain long term. And I know that I imposed that on myself.....I will say that I was too busy...but not too happy.....I was crazy enough to have 2 teenagers, 4 foster kids between infancy and 4...and I actually started a childrens clothing business at the same time...took photos, had catalogs printed....ordered shipments...and was hauling all the little ones around with me to okay things......i look back on that now and feel like i was trying to prove a point...I wanted to do everything and was going to prove that I could...I wanted to have it all ( not money...but something else)...I had to prove to myself I could...well okay....I proved it.....but it didn't make me happy.....so there really wasn't a point to it....other than exhaustion....

Donkey on 06/17/2021:
Now that's a good point - If you're not happy, what's the point of the effort?

Hmm... Well, for now, at least, I'm hoping that I would be able to maintain at around 135. That is to say, once I reach 135 (goal), I could increase my intake a little bit to maintain, and operate at more optimal nutritional levels.


horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2021:
regarding the first part of your entry, it sounds like you are impatient/wanting more of "instant results"...it takes time...it sounds like you are antsy and want something quicker. regarding melatonin, if it helps you, buy it...i wouldn't even question something that helps.

i'm glad someone new is coming. honestly, i think their progress is much affected by the training they receive at the beginning...i hope you will teach them. i would teach slowly and in detail. make sure they take notes on a notepad.

congrats on your raise. i think you may be underpaid. i see your work as much more valuable where you are than at walmart. maybe look for a better opportunity in the field you are in. when you have experience, you can get a lot of money as a paralegal...unless your area in chicago is cheaper living and low salaries, though, i would doubt that as you live right by Chicago which is a busy city and i'd think competitive salaries...????

Donkey on 06/17/2021:
I could make more money if I worked closer to the city. The thing is, I do not want the commute. I'm not doing that again.

Am I impatient? It would not be honest to say that I'm not; it's my personality. And who wouldn't want "instant results" (lol)? I'm at the point where the water weight is gone, and now I've got to dig deep to stay on track, if I want to reach this goal.


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horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jun 15, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

 14.00 June Sunshine Hours; 

Keep track of jury duty check i should get in a couple weeks as of 6/11/21.(see if i get the reimbursement jury duty day's pay check by 7/6/21) If not - call union...

Lookahead Dates: Last TOM - 6/3...

Accounting Currently Studying chapters 3 (Topic 5 complete) & 4 (Topic 6 in progress) & 8.(topic 7 next...) my plan is to get thru these chapters and be on the next chapter next week...(in my second month now of payments to Straighterline).

Business Law - Sesson 5 - 8/23/21 thru 10/8/21

Finalize if any prereqs needed - using the school chat option per CUNY email - if i don't hear back about / and maybe submit the actual applications for both the following:

  1. CUNY school of professional studies certificate in Management - 3 course certificate program -  see if they ALL transfer to Lehman College's 10 course Master's program.  If not, maybe don't do the certifiacate program..
  2. CUNY Lehman College masters in business with a concentration in human resources management 10 courses, 30 credits.

6/15 Tues - commuting via public trans, depsite the early hour. will study a bit on train but also need to learn the route and not miss my stops. it's a bus, a train and another train. don't wanna mess up. left my apt at 5:15 and was just on time to work at 7am...need to leave earlier...may ask to come into work at 7:30...really think i need to come at 7:30...or maybe i'll just push thru, to leave early.?? will continue to try out public trans this week...

breakfast banana coffee cheesecake small 400

snacks: almonds 50, choc 100

lunch: little bit leftover lamb 150, sauteed zucc 150, 1/2 bagel lg 200, clementine 50. 550 tops.

snacks: none

dinner: tofu 100, veggies roasted and leftovers 150, 1/2 bagel 200..450....

White choc before Bed100
1650. 


6/16 Wed - after work upper bod - driving to work so I can sleep a half hour more...

6/17 Thurs - legs AM or PM

6/18 Fri after work upper bod


6/19/21 Saturday, 


Sunday, 6/20/21: Father's Day: maybe just go for bbq? OR, skip the bronx thing on Saturday which is a better idea...


Saturday, June 26thhome; take care of things like cleaning up, taking notes to study...


Sunday, June 27 - 1-4pm Queens Farm volunteering - excited - but also i will try not to overdo ...we'll see how it goes. maybe there'll be a free veggie to take home for myself or my piggies, depending what it is - maybe asparagus.


July oil change..

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

Donkey on 06/15/2021:
If it were me, I'd get up early to take public transit and arrive at work on time. I would not ask to start late, not at least until I had more time at the new location you're at -- AND not at least you've done public transportation for a month or so. No need to cause waves at work until you're sure of your request. It may not be needed.

I read stories of people getting up at 3:30am to get to the gym to work out before work. I would see this in a similar light. In fact, getting up early like that is something I would love to do, to have more time in the morning. Unfortunately, that *would* mean going to bed earlier - much earlier I think. Like I'd have to be very disciplined in lights out by 9pm (or before).

And there's nothing to say that you have to do public transit every day. Maybe alternating days, so you have 2-3 mornings of "sleeping in".

Just my thoughts right now... An interesting proposal.

horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
yes, those are wise thoughts. and yes, you are right, it is too early to ask for a time change at work. people come at varying times, but the majority is indeed here before or at 7am. so you are right, i should try to keep it.

also, since i live alone, i "should" be able to go to bed earlier if i want to be more refreshed for these early mornings.

lastly, i do agree, it may not be something i do everyday - though - that could be confusing on my body - all these different start times...but you are right...to def wait it out and keep trying the options out before saying anything!

plus, coming at 7am, i have time to settle down before working...it's like a free half hour where the main boss isn't here and i can slowly adjust..another reason to keep the 7am and not short-change myself on missing out on the less stressful, first half hour of the day when everyone is just easing into work....along with me, not me after everyone...good points here, def all things i must consider.

horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
and yes, i was able to review my notes decently. will just keep this method if i want to review Accounting notes...during public transportation...

horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
again, great advice to not ask just yet to change my schedule as it would be a somewhat big change and i have yet to try public trans for more than one day.


bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
Looks like you will be enjoying a cheesecake breakfast for quite a few days...sounds really good.

horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
yes, it's fun. prob not the most substantial thing, but i do like it's high fat and not totally just a carb...

i'm enjoying fun breakfats, yes.


Donkey on 06/16/2021:
Just to be clear, my comment above was focused more on not making any waves at work, at least for now. :-)

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
YES YES. you are right. but i will be putting in for a vacation day as thinking about going to the beach with my folks is making me a bit anxious to then come to work the next day...i just want to relax after being with my folks...and haven't had a day off in two months, so it's ok in my mind.....! i appreciate your good advice.


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happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 16, 2021
(BP1,10cr,4ns,30pln,14fs,2do,2500cal,7w,10Kstp,9bed)
Weight: 216.0

 Today was a slightly demoralizing day. All the bizarre flack here from pushing the sleep study out to get a valid baseline (per OT instructions) definitely set a tone, which is a little strange. Nobody on here is really here in my everyday life. But still it carried over. Interesting. I guess the support that picks me up a little also rocks me a little.  

I did my best. I can only do my best. Tomorrow I will wake up and do my best again. I got a little down because I overslept (yuck) felt a lot better this morning and was headed to walk to the post office when my dad sucked me into his drama. Because the cat was in my bathroom, I used the main bathroom when I woke up groggy, and got sucked into dad drama. I ended up dealing with his stuff and not my errands. Cat goes without tarps and a different scratching post one more day. I didn't get to pick up my prescription. Ugh. Tomorrow, I just get up and leave. First thing.

Looking forward to the botannical gardens.

Moved endocrinology out a month to have results back from sleep study befre I go.

Big achievement today was getting out for a walk, setting a timer for 35 minutes, then sticking it out to get 10,000 steps.

Also, my new template for my calendar and to do list works really well.

  1. BP1, no
  2. 10cr, no
  3. 4ns, yes
  4. 30pln, yes
  5. 14fs, no
  6. 2do, yes
  7. 2500cal, probably not
  8. 7w, no
  9. 10Kstp,yes
  10. 9bed, no

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
And… All I can think about is chicken wings and pizza


bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
You are correct...I will give more notice in the future to the fact that I don't have all of the facts......Didn't know that the OT gave you that instruction....I apologize.


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2021:
I don’t even know what OT means!

Yep, all one can do is the best one can. I admire your attitude and how well you articulate it.


Donkey on 06/16/2021:
I wholeheartedly apologize! I realize now that my comments were insensitive and might have come across as critical, although PLEASE understand that they were not meant that way at all. But now I see how what I said could have been interpreted as a criticism.

Honestly, I had either forgotten (not good) or was unaware that eating before sleeping was contributing to insomnia. So when I commented, I was only commenting from what I experience. I am quite fortunate not to have to deal with insomnia or acid-reflux as a result of eating too soon before going to bed. I've been thinking quite a bit about this. What a struggle that must be! How many times have I wanted a snack or felt hungry at around 8pm... To choose between sleep and hunger... Not easy!

And regarding the sleep study, I did not know/realize/remember that you had consulted with your OT (occupational therapist, for Jacky) regarding this. And even if you weren't, you're absolutely right not to have the study done if you're feeling it's not the right time for you. I did not mean to come across as pushy or critical. My intent was to be supportive in that, while a person may think that the sleep study went poorly, that often, they can get enough data. This is from the stories that I've heard from people around me who have gone through it.

Again, I apologize - and you're right: I didn't have all of the information. And I have a big mouth and a poor memory, so there it is.


horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
I am not sure i saw that post about your sleep study and pushing it off? If i did comment, i do not remember what i wrote? I'm sorry if i offended you - although i have no remembrance of exactly what you wrote...

but i can say we are all here to try to support you in any way possible! we want the best for you! i sure do!

sorry you were distracted by dad's issues.


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bearcountrygg - Tuesday Jun 15, 2021

Weight: 0.0

Up at 4:30 amd it's a beautiful day.....D had promised a friend that he would go check on his cabin up here....so we went....and did that...and then spent the next 2 hours looking for bear tracks.....and found some ...

 

Other then bear tracks in 2 different places...we saw a turkey, 9 deer and porcupine tracks......and unfortunately for the friends...a porcupine has chewed his way into their shed..............The went past a cabin they would like to buy if it ever goes up for sale........so that was a morning.

Shapa is still giving me green on weight....but is giving me teal on the fact that I stop eating before full........but still green on waiting too long to eat......it wants me to eat the moment I notice hunger.......that is just not me......but I guess if I want teal for when to eat...I will have to......( wondering if it's one of those deals that think eating 6 times a day is preferable...it's looking like it.)

 

 

 

Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
Bear claws,

No porcupines around here.

What’s giving you a green light?

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
Shapa...the scale that doesn't give weight numbers......maintain is green...teal is progress.... Yes....a larger (300 pound boar) and a 200 pound female..walking together.


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
Tried anything else with the air fryer?

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
I had a box of Nathans bagel dogs in the freezer and tried those yesterday...320 for 4 minutes.....worked great....

I did order the same cookbook you have from Amazon...it was $15...so didn't get a deal but that will be fine...I'm sure I will make good use of it....looking forward to getting that.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
i just think not every company is going to be so accurate in coming up with the calories in the first place for their products....

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
It does explain how the numbers on the packages are always even and appear rounded...besides....1 item could be larger or smaller...a lot of processed foods are not uniform in size.


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
Probably not. I usually check several to get a consensus.

I was surprised to see a glucose meter is considered accurate if it’s within 20% of a blood test.

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
I was too.........but as I tell D...at least we know he isn't around 300 or even 200....so if he stays under 150...he will be fine. .....for me( I'm low)....I can go by how I feel usually...so if i read low but feel fine...i don't worry about it.


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
You’re gonna love that cookbook!

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
I think so too...I need the temp and time settings to get me started.....Then i will try some recipes......I Love how fast it is.......I didn't mind paying full price for it...I will probably wear it out...LOL...


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
Mine has a rotating basket that hooks up to the rotisserie setup, but it wasn’t included. Paid $60 for the AF which did have several other accessories. They want $25 for the basket! Plus shipping! So they can keep ot.

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
Mine is very simple...does have a little wire thing to lift things off the bottom if desired.....Many years ago I got a rotisserie...and I will say that the chicken ( whole)...on the spit was very good......didn't use it much..it was a mess to clean up....I have so many small appliances around here that don't get used...that is why I took so long to get this one...but it's worth it....


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
The AF came with a cute little rotisserie cookbook. Doubt I’ll ever use it.

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
Mine came with a pamphlet on how to cook lotus root and hairtail...( fish?)...LOL...not too usefull!


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
cool, that's great you can identify all those diff types of tracks!

sounds like you got a good hold on shepa!

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
D can...he's the one that knows that stuff........shapa thinks I'm maintaining just fine....LOL


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
Lol! That’s funny!

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
I love those insert papers that use broken english too...LOL


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
LOL what weird recipes coming with your AF! lol lol.

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
I don't think I could find a lotus root if I tried...i looked up hairtail...it's an asian fish...I suspected that...


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
Yep, I’ve seen some in really bad English. Often comical. You’d think they could do better.

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
You would think...But i have heard that english is the hardest language to learn because we have so many different sounds using the same letters...it isn't uniform and so many words that soung the same but have different spellings and different meanings....


Donkey on 06/16/2021:
That's very interesting about the feedback you're getting between eating and timing. Hmmm.... I tend to delay eating, too. But perhaps the idea is that delaying eating lends itself to overeating when we finally do eat? Possibly?

Well, if you're getting green feedback, does that mean that you're good at maintaining?

bearcountrygg on 06/16/2021:
Green means maintaining...with an average of over 10 days. I do wait to eat...and I'm getting the definite feeling that as soon as I think of food...they want me to eat a very light amount...it reminds me of the throw back days when they were pushing 6 small meals a day....not sure how I feel about that.


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Donkey - Tuesday Jun 15, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

It felt last night that the anxiety dissolved into depression last night, and this morning, I feel more myself.  I don't see any correlation between any of these emotions to events or specific triggers.  I'm not sure it matters, other than to feel positive in the moment.

I boiled eggs this morning, so my morning will be protein-packed.  I had a great bike ride and did arm weights this morning.  I'm hoping to do more arms (biceps, triceps, and shoulders) this evening.  

Yoga last night was good.  I'm glad that she didn't do the same routine as last week.  She said she would, and then went off track.  I think that's one of the problems with the Zoom classes is that she's repetative with the poses that she does, but there are also positives to working with her.   I may take a short break after my 10-punch ticket is up.  OR the problem may be that I just need a change in teachers, not necessarily to stop yoga altogether.

I went into the session feeling depressed and came out of it feeling more positive and relaxed.  It's cheaper than therapy.

(I will respond to comments on yesterday's entry tomorrow, as I am short on time this morning already... Yikes!)

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
I sometimes get depressed for no apparent reason. Think it’s biochemical.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
YES - I must always keep this in mind, that it may be hormonal or biochemical. I wonder if, with the decrease in calories (from tracking), if that's contributing to my mood too. YES.


bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
Agreed...sometimes a mood comes over me out of the blue too....and then disappears just as fast...no idea why.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
I think Jacky had a good point about some of it being physical in nature - hormones, maybe decrease in calories, carbs? I thought of you last night, how you've said carbs are happy food and you like to be happy. Very true, but for where I'm at right now, I opted to go to bed instead. I'd like to reach my goal weight first.

However, a prolonged depression is not worth it, so I will keep an eye on this, and continue to monitor my mood.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
I'm glad you are beginning to feel back to yourself. also, i LOVE hearing you are prepared with eggs. regarding eggs,sometimes you'll just need a break anyways.!!!

breaks are good with routines. like taking a break after your classes are up.

like bear said the other day, the break gives you just enough time to miss it and come back to it!

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
YES, I think you're right -- Bear's comment was like mind-changing -- distance makes the heart grow fonder.

In fact, Mistakes Girl pointed out that it's been a while since I've had real time off, and that might be what I need. Time off from work, time off from yoga --- just time off.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
yes, exercise is good for the soul.

today with the public trans, the busses and trains espcially are PACKED in the AM you wouldn't believe it. it's a time construction workers on packing the trains and also in general people are just not all sleeping even normal hours it seems here in NYC...so my point - i felt tired from the commute but also invigorated from the walk from the train to work (gotta figure it out better as it's not a straight line - the last part!)...but it was good to move around, is my point. way better than getting out of a car just to sit at work. it was worth it....now i just need to get used to getting up...

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
Wow, packed??? Who would have thought? But it makes sense, I suppose. There are a lot of people out there who start their days very early.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
i get in depressive moods, but mostly from less self-care and sleep.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
Yes, very true -- I think both of these could be affecting my mood, especially the sleep part. I'll write more about this.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
yes, i'm still thinking of the Master's but it's on the backburner. i have to speak on the phone to someone or apply - never applied to the two offerings...to see if i need any pre-reqs.

i am not focused on it now, but i want to do it or at least do the smaller 3-course certificate. only applied to the other MBA-type cert program - didn't yet apply to any MPA...but it's a lot of money and i have enough to think about...i will work on it when i'm off a day or something...not priority.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
OK - was just checking in with that. It's a huge investment in time and money, so it's good to be thinking of all options.


horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2021:
sometimes here i feel like i'm having a private conversation with you...like my journal entries are specific for your info HAHA

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
Me too! :-)


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happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 15, 2021
(BP1,10cr,4ns,30pln,14fs,2do,2500cal,7w,10Kstp,9bed)
Weight: 216.0

Oops... hit post. I don't think the dates stay straight when I edit a post from my phone, so please bear with this second post for today.

Still no progress getting this cat to use the scratching posts. I have a bunch of tarps... if I cover the rug and all she can access are the scratchpads and posts... maybe I can release her fronm the bathroom and have a house cat. Nothing competes with that delightful feel of carpet.

I tried to chest cuddle her this morning and got hissed at. Challenges.

I have no idea what to do for the Ex-ish for his birthday. Nothing I do will be right and I have to do it anyway because what he really wants is for someone to twist his arm and force him to have a happy birthday.

 

  1. BP1, yes
  2. 10cr, no, but i can try tomorrow... feeling better
  3. 4ns, yes!
  4. 30pln, yes!
  5. 14fs, yes! Tonight I had a hard time with it though. I didn't eat enough. I miss the Factor meals. And yoga studios. Omg.
  6. 2do, yes
  7. 2500cal, no... ate snacks late. Messed it up
  8. 7w,
  9. 10Kstp,
  10. 9bed

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/15/2021:
Bah… did it again…

7w, no… 3 10Kstp, no… lazy 9bed, no 10:40… lazy


Donkey on 06/15/2021:
I find my DD experience to be... different when I'm on my phone versus on my laptop. It's better on my laptop.

Looks like a good day though. I miss yoga studios too. There is one that is open. It's very good, but I kind of don't like the attitude of the owner.

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
Yeah… that ruins the yoga experience for sure. Anything on meetup.com for you to try?

I’m a little spooked on yoga classes till at least January and we see how vaccines play out with cold/flu season and all the variants.


bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
I prefer my laptop too.......phone is not easy to use here.

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
Right??? I love my ergonomic setup but I am missing having a laptop.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2021:
your cat sounds like my guinea pigs. well, my 3rd guinea pig, the young one! he gets into all the messes, finds ways to go under his fleece bedding and crawl thru it like it's his private tunnel. he makes everything more messy. he is creative. sounds like your cat!

yes, keep trying to cuddle so that she'll eventually give in...

...that's what i did with my GP's. the older ones will sleep on me as soon as i pick them up they now relax and stay put. but not the younger one. i think it'll take the younger one at least 6 more months. Young one is only like 5-6months old - lots of energy.

nice job on your goals.

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
I picked her up tonight and got big, fake purrs. “Oh let me out of the bathroom, I promise I will leave your carpets alone!!!” Lies. Shameless lies.


Jacky82020 on 06/15/2021:
I have not have much luck with cat scratching polls, but haven’t tried the sisal rope Bear has. I did buy some of that rope and will wrap it around the existing floor to ceiling pole, on the lower section.

My cats really like the corrugated cardboard scratchers that come with a little bag of catnip. Know what I mean?

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
Yes! That’s what I bought. Diff shapes and sizes. She wants carpet.


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happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 15, 2021
(BP1,10cr,4ns,30pln,14fs,2do,2500cal,7w,10Kstp,9bed)
Weight: 216.0

Today I got through most of my to do list... which included an MRI. A little scared to look at the results... if nothing is wrong, then I'm nuts. If something is wrong... F. 

I also asked for a ct scan of my kidneys to look for kidney stones. About 7pm I started feeling a lot better though. Tomorrow I will walk to the post office.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/15/2021:
If you feel comfortable sharing the results of your scans, I'd be interested in hearing about them. I hope everything is OK.

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
Checked the results today. All greek to me.


bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
((HUGS))

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
Hugs!!!


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Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jun 13, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

  13.00 June Sunshine Hours; 

Keep track of jury duty check i should get in a couple weeks as of 6/11/21.(see if i get the reimbursement jury duty day's pay check by 7/6/21) If not - call union...

Lookahead Dates: Last TOM - 6/3...

Accounting Currently Studying chapters 3 (Topic 5 complete) & 4 (Topic 6 in progress) & 8.(topic 7 next...) my plan is to get thru these chapters and be on the next chapter next week...(in my second month now of payments to Straighterline).

Business Law - Sesson 5 - 8/23/21 thru 10/8/21

Finalize if any prereqs needed - using the school chat option per CUNY email - if i don't hear back about / and maybe submit the actual applications for both the following:

  1. CUNY school of professional studies certificate in Management - 3 course certificate program -  see if they ALL transfer to Lehman College's 10 course Master's program.  If not, maybe don't do the certifiacate program..
  2. CUNY Lehman College masters in business with a concentration in human resources management 10 courses, 30 credits.

STILL debating using public trans in future, regularly as to "save my car" and save a lot of money. and to get regular exercise. it will be a mile, extra, without even trying...i'm still thinking this will be the future way for me.

today was little traffic, but, i didn't do any cardio practically. not even at lunch bc too much time was wasted and i felt bad about going out, which i should have done anyway, really; or i don't get any exercise. i do not like to exercise hardcore only after work...i may try public trans tomorrow...as long as i get to bed and see the route and know what time to leave to not be late (5:15am - which isn't too much earlier than if i drive i must leave by 6:15am...but that's if i do not walk before work near work...so it's really the same, is what i'm saying...and i may be able to start studying on the train / bus once i am comfortable with the part that is new...i'm thinking driving is such a waste, yes.

because i'm not using my "extra time" in the AM to do anything and i'm not fulfilling any cardio goals, i may as well take public trans.  I have been reading on the couch at home - something i can also do on the train....i may as well do it then...

...it was good to drive and i got more used to it this week, it even felt better today, but i shouldn't do it regularly right now...when i can use the time more wisely...will try to start the studying / reading on public trans TOMORROW (Tuesday). perhaps i can drive like 1x per week when i want to shop or something after work? gotta see...

i'm just not using the extra time well except to relax on the couch. so i'm not helping myself.

grrr...i have to leave at 5:15am to get to work before 7am...it's slightly too early...what should i do? ask to come in at 7:30? but then i have to leave at 4 and not 3:30...should i just try it...see if i can get my body to be awake before 5am so i can leave that early? do i shower at night again???

lots to think about...

maybe driving is still a good idea on some days...like the days i lift? 

my mind is def not made up. 5:15 is too early to leave everyday it means i need to be up at least at 4:45, or just after 4:30..ugh!

if i start work 7:30, perhaps i can leave at 5;45...that's better....more "normal"...

but everyone in my traiiler starts early...perhaps i can have an earlier bedtime and make this work.

will work on it.



....oops deleted Sunday haha..now into Monday!!!!....

truth is, i'm enjoying studying and relaxing all day on the couch on one of the weekend days...and i can see myself doing that for a long time...i just have to decide if i can actually get more studying done than i do now...as i realize i only took 2 pages of notes yesterday...i did a little more reading and was watching videos of the course from the previous chapter, which is why i only took two pages of notes from the new chapter 4...i will need to focus slightly better to accomplish courses on time in the future...something to think about.

6/14/21 Monday....

No exercise AM - rain, left later for work

PM - upper body weights & LEGS, maybe rest day for cardio or a tiny bit of stationary bike..not pushing it though.

breakfast: banana 150, small cheesecake 200, coffee 50. 400..

snacks: 100 half a good tasty bar, shared it with coworker

lunch: leftovers healthy - tofu 100, indian eggplant 150 and throw out anything leftover bc it's old, sauteed squash 100, chips 200; 550-600

1100

snacks:

dinner: veggies/lamb at home, side of chips or rice...

maybe some reading of my novel before bed :)


6/15 Tues - commuting via public trans, depsite the early hour. will study a bit on train but also need to learn the route and not miss my stops. it's a bus, a train and another train. don't wanna mess up.


6/16 Wed - after work upper bod

6/17 Thurs - legs AM or PM

6/18 Fri after work upper bod


6/19/21 Saturday, 


Sunday, 6/20/21: Father's Day: maybe just go for bbq? OR, skip the bronx thing on Saturday which is a better idea...


Saturday, June 26thhome; take care of things like cleaning up, taking notes to study...


Sunday, June 27 - 1-4pm Queens Farm volunteering - excited - but also i will try not to overdo ...we'll see how it goes. maybe there'll be a free veggie to take home for myself or my piggies, depending what it is - maybe asparagus.


July oil change..

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

bearcountrygg on 06/13/2021:
I know those mixed cheesecake slices...decadent! I'm sure they are made to eat slowly and savour.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/13/2021:
yeah, and i think the calories are totally off...the chocolate one is wayyyy too rich to only be 200 cals. ahhh, lies. but i will just record it as the package says. LOL.

yes, that is what i'm talking about. there were ones by Junior's for around $17 a box; and the ones i got were by Father's or something and they were $6.99 for same size container. so i bought them, LOL.


Donkey on 06/14/2021:
It will take some time to adjust your time allocations. Sounds like you did not have any difficulties in spite of leaving for work later, so that's a good thing.

Those sampler cheesecake things are fun to try.

horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
that's right, i left early enough that despite a downpour i still got to work 10 min early....and couldn't work out walking or do leg exercises outdoors due to drizzle / wet grounds!

that's right i need to adjust my time in AM for nice weather days, i do not come early enough to actually do a walk before work, YET!

i will not buy this brand cheesecake again - nothing special enough and the calories may be off - which annoys me lol.

horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
but i like the cheesecake was on sale. will see if i can freeze it.


Donkey on 06/15/2021:
So have you decided not to pursue the Masters in Public Administration?


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bearcountrygg - Monday Jun 14, 2021

Weight: 0.0

Up at 5 and feeling good.....coolish weather...D out working in the yard and I'm inside roating the pantry....really late at that this month..july will be easieer...I'm done with that now..other than for moving it to the right shelf. 

Like the calories on food packages...which only have to be within 20 % correct........so are the glucose monitors.....I felt good...but sugar registered at 82 this morning...that is usually bad for me.....questioned it and used D's...his said 105...so I went on to my old one and it said 85........around 20% difference........trusting the numbers is basically innacurate....and are questimations....

I can see the problem with numbers and counting on them to be accurate .....maybe under 1,200 cals a day isn't so bad........after all....some days i have to work to get in 1,200...maybe it isn't that important.....of course they could also be under by 20 %...and when it comes to food...what is the likelyhood of that?.....I doubt that any food manufacturer would overestimate the cals in something they are trying to sell.....

Because of the 2 lower numbers for glucose...we had a carb heavy lunch...although i feel fine.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
yeah, i guess handwashing is gentler.

nice to be up with the coolish weather, here too - LOVING IT! low 70's, mornings 60's.

yes, lots of estimations on everything. can't trust it completely; but gives a general idea, yes.

yeah, most wouldn't overestimate cals except on accident; agreed...

carbs do make a person feel better in general and we all know when we could use them (at least me and you tend to do better with them higher at times..)

hope your day was good into the evening!

bearcountrygg on 06/14/2021:
Looks like calories aren't easy to get to be exact.....I need my carbs...


Donkey on 06/15/2021:
We've had cooler temps the past 2 days, too -- oh what relief! Now if we could just get some rain.

That's interesting about calorie labels being off by 20%. Hmmm....

bearcountrygg on 06/15/2021:
it is...which makes calorie counting not real efficient.


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Donkey - Monday Jun 14, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

Just trying to brace myself for a new work week.  It seems as though some of the staff may have seen "In the Heights" movie over the weekend (not together), so I am already preparing myself for the chatter over that.  I never realized how irritating I find small talk.  However, I'm grateful that I work in a law firm with an inviting atmosphere I guess, rather than one that is cold and quiet.

I did not prepare hard boiled eggs this morning for breakfast, so it will be a struggle to get enough protein in today.  Failure to plan is planning to fail, that's for sure. 

Yoga tonight -- I keep forgetting this.  Last night I had the sudden thought that I think I'm done with yoga.  WHAT????  Now, if you know me, you know that it usually takes at least 6 months from when I have a thought to actually following through with such thoughts.  Had COVID not hit, I probably would have quit legal clinic a long time ago.  Logically speaking, I believe that I should KEEP the yoga - it is beneficial to me, because it takes me places I don't normally go (stretching, relaxing, meditating, etc.).  Maybe what I'm trying to say is that I'm longing to be back in a studio.  I wish the studio near me hadn't closed down.

Speaking of which, last month I was told that we'd be starting up legal clinic again this month, but I just logged into the calendar, and it says we're still closed, no appointments available.  Oh well, fine by me!


Well, I'd better get ready for work and do just the best that I can do.  I can feel, with the anxiety, that it will be harder to achieve a positive attitude.  I use my cynicism as a defence mechanism.

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/14/2021:
In agreement...I find idle chatter irritating...but 1 good thing....if you haven't seen it...it will be a good reason to stay out of the conversation ...which might just be nice. Was that your subconscious speaking about the yoga???? I love it when the mind goes into free form mode and reveals things......I agree...you probably miss the studio atmosphere.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
Yes, I think it was my subconscious speaking about yoga, but I think it was an impulsive thought, too.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
the type of tracking you do is almost like accounting / statistics (well, it is!). very nice. was that something the boss had asked you to do in the past or you chose to? also, that's a great "monthly" preoccupation and repetitive task which sounds right up my alley! ha!

well, in terms of walk-ins to your work, thankfully you got your shot. at least you have some kind of defense to the virus. thankfully.

it is true that plannign helps. even though i like to plan, i do not always follow-thru with everything and there's a TON more people much more type A than me....who have crazy diets / crazy workouts / don't sleep as much. oh! anyways, i find myself in the boat with you on failing to plan is planning to fail in terms of my commuting and actually doing any cardio at all. working on a better plan :)

well, are there any other nearby studios for yoga?

you can do this, don't talk yourself up for a failure "negative" day because that's what you think it will be.

i wish you could work with my peoples. they are OK. but i have some other things to share with you in a private place.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
The lady who had my job before me tracked statistics, so I just kept it up. I honestly don't know how long he's been keeping track of stats or the history of it.

There are other studios around me, but most of them have odd methods of payment/class participation. There are 2 near work, and 1 relatively close to home (near my old gym, many years ago). This is what my short-search has brought up. There may be more farther away.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
let me wait till i'm ready for that last part, you don't need to remind me. just need to wind down when i'm ready to write it; if it's still on my mind.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
I've been really struggling with my thoughts about the people I work with -- not so much the individual people or personalities, but rather, working with old people, working with new people, being open to new ideas, seeing things that "aren't working" and yet feeling powerless to change that.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
not sure if you knew this: in accounting / business, there's a regular closing of temporary accounts. they get dialed back to "$0" in all the temp files and anything that was in them goes into permanent files. therefore, some of things accountants (or similar occupations) are a regular, and many times monthly, repetitiion of ending of the accounting cycle, tallying thins, balancing files, CLOSING, and then starting fresh every accounting period (many times monthly). so, what you are doing, has some similiarties to accounting, surely, and i'd bet statistics. i didn't take that, so it's a good presumption! ha! it is, afterall, stats you are doing. ha.

Donkey on 06/16/2021:
I would agree with that assessment. I realize that there are limits to the stats I keep, the way I do them. That is to say, I could go deeper into the stats keeping, subcategories and such, but then the process would become much more work. I'm not sure the Boss wants that extra data for his purposes.


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happy-1 - Monday Jun 14, 2021
(BP1,10cr,4ns,30pln,14fs,2do,2500cal,7w,10Kstp,9bed)
Weight: 216.0

Sugar was way too high last night and today, but started dipping down again this evening. Fingers crossed it will be back in range tonight. Maybe feom the fasting. Maybe from the antibiotics. If it is in range tonight I don't have to reschedule the sleep study.

I hope I hope I hope.

Tried to calculate more calories for my favorite meals for meal planning purposes. Had a hard time focusing, mostly because I don't feel well.

Cat ignored all scratch pads again and went after carpets.i got her a little carpet and sissel one for the bathroom for $5 today. I also clipped her front claws.

I am very worn out, but feeling a little better.

 

Sunday, Today:

  1. BP1, yes
  2. 10cr, no... still foggy and sick
  3. 4ns, no
  4. 30pln, yes... spent way too much time redoing my daily template instead of actually doing stuff I need to do... but hopefully it will help me focus
  5. 14fs, yes
  6. 2do, no... spaced completely on even looking at it. Too tired and sick.
  7. 2500cal, possibly. Didn't eat enough today. Too tired then I missed the fasting cut off
  8. 7w, no... just too tired
  9. 10Kstp, no but I did get out to buy a scratching post
  10. 9bed, no, stayed up because I ate keto cookies at 7:15 and needed to wait to go to bed.

Saturday, Yesterday:

  1. BP1, No
  2. 10cr, No
  3. 4ns, no
  4. 30pln, yes
  5. 14fs, yes
  6. 2do, not sure
  7. 2500cal, no
  8. 7w, no. Just too wiped from uti to finish them
  9. 10Kstp, no
  10. 9bed, no... kept snacking so I stayed up late to not eat 3 h before bed and start 14h fast.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/14/2021:
When I find myself doing too much busy work...and not enough doing things that need to be done...I set a timer for 10 or 15 minutes and work on accomplishing something until the timer goes off.......I end up feeling a lot better......sometimes when I really do not want to exercise....i do the same thing and it seems to change my attitude......If I find myself wanting to sit down too much...I do the same...it seems to break me out of a habit that is bugging me......I'm not sure if I'm using the right word...but for myself...i call it ruminating.....and that's when the timer comes out to break the cycle.

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
I like timers… especially for breaks. I use a pomodoro timer


Donkey on 06/14/2021:
I don't think I personally would delay going to sleep based on when I ate last, unless it was a meal or food that was making me physically uncomfortable to sleep -- especially if I had to wait 3 hours.

Bear has some good ideas. I wonder if I could do that for myself at work... I have a carpet pad on one of the stairs, because the cats seemed to want to scratch there. There is also "anti-scratch" spray that you can get that somehow deters the cats from scratching in a particular place. Or may be try catnip spray on the scratching post?

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
All good ideas.


bearcountrygg on 06/14/2021:
Stress raises sugar levels....do you get reflux if you go to bed after cookies? ......I would not cancel the test tonight......unless you are actually physically ill.....it is nothing to be afraid of....and rather your sugar is up or down won't change anything from your norm.....I'm not so sure they are going to be doing a brain wave test...this is a sleep study...they are looking to see how long you stop breathing for....if your sugar is up or down will be a typical situation for all time......I agree with Donkey...why stay up because you ate later....you can do a 14 hour fast awake or asleep...just go to bed and sleep through as much of it as you can...you will still be fasting in the morning anyway until your 14 hours are up. Diabetics have sleep studies.....rather their sugar is high or not.....they have a certain number of rooms with testing being done in.....canceling at the last minute might mean that it will be hard to get another appointment time.....I would go through with it.

happy-1 on 06/16/2021:
High sugar levels mean insomnia… not being able to sleep at all in the study… Alternately… They also mean REM suppression. A false positive for central apnea, which hides the rem brainwave issue. Tonight is Tuesday… I ate on plan today, I did my to do list, and I went for 10k steps… because I feel better. This exercise and chores raised my activity level while glycogen stores are high from eating and not moving… creating insomnia. It’s 3am and I can’t sleep. Not what I want for my one shot at a sleep study. It’ll take me a couple of weeks to get this sorted out.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2021:
glad you clipped her. can you put those nail covers on her? i think i remember they sold something like that??? or is that bad idea?

i hope she will only claw at the cheaper carpet you got her. she's still getting adjusted surely!


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Donkey - Sunday Jun 13, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

 Remembered to weigh in this morning, but forgot to set up the coffee pot and run the dishwasher last night.  So after going to the bathroom, I came downstairs, started the coffee, ran the dishwasher, and then went upstairs to weigh in, get dressed, etc.  The next week will be harder, now that the weight loss is slowing down, and as I get closer to goal.  I remain firm in my dedication, but I can see how discouraging it might become if the numbers don't keep going down.  


The gym was pleasant yesterday, but they have taken away all of the COVID precautions except for leaving the extra cleaning stations around.  I thought hard about whether or not I was going to wear a mask.  In the parking lot, I decided that I do believe in the efficacy of the vaccine, and so I did not wear a mask.  I did take care to social distance and wipe down EVERYTHING I would touch (before and after usage).  There was only 1 person wearing a mask, and that was the front desk person as I was leaving the gym (after the shift change).  So we'll see...  I am mentally prepared to resume more COVID precautions going into the winter months, but maybe we won't need them.

At work, our COVID precautions have been removed, and we are now accepting walk-ins again.  I'm not thrilled about it - I hate walk-ins - but I was already mentally prepared for this change.  The locked front door was never meant to be a permanent thing, and I always knew that.  The Boss started to console me about the change, but I told him that, ironically enough, I was anticipating this change several days before it happened, so I was OK with it.  


Husband came home last night, and I'm glad he made it back.  I'm also very glad I did not go.  It was very hot downstate - about 10 degrees hotter than it is up here, and that's really bad - and there was family drama, bad storms on the way home (which would have been very hard on my PTSD).  Yep dodged a bullet there.  I was very relieved that Husband was able to make the trip alone, although he did run into a little minor difficulties due to his disabilities. 

He told me last night that he doesn't do so well without me (physically speaking), and this morning, I told him that I don't do so well without him (emotionally).  I discovered that when he's not around, I really like to just do things alone, but the problem with that is that it gets lonely. Also, last night and then again this morning, I started experiencing some anxiety that has been very difficult to manage.  

I think last night, it was kind of a release of what I had been holding in, and the anxiety just started to pour out.  I couldn't fall asleep, I just felt it bubble up and overflow.  I started tearing (not sobbing, not really crying, but just tearing).  It's been a while since I've had such a strong anxiety experience.  I hope that this feeling dissapates soon. It's not feeling nearly as strong as it was last night.

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/13/2021:
I know exactly what you mean.......There are times when i need the alone time and then after that for awhile...i start hoping he gets home soon and relieved when he arrives......I just had this same conversation with a friend the other day........and I'm reminded of a favorite saying..."How can I miss you if you don't go away!!!!" There is so much truth in that......I guess it is a good thing that we have times apart for a bit...it does make us appreciate each other more.

Donkey on 06/14/2021:
Very true - I hadn't considered it from this perspective.


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