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Grazing on fruit later at night and in morning 2 bananas and also raspberries very 360
8am oatmeal and almond milk 180, small brownie 100, whipped cream 150 430. and a ton of seasoning from the mushroom packet my coworker gave me...amazing. and stevia.
9:30am snack: coconut choc bar 170
12:30 after 2 hr nap: egg and egg white 100, most of half avocado 100, pita 120. 320, blackberries 50, some caffeine and bite of chocolate
...Snacking afternoon rest of the pita 120.
At gym another banana and a bigger one 2 of them due to lots of issues to write about later or another time - unexpected visitor and did lots of sriving
1750 before dinner
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Because of the short week, i'm skipping out on Laundry this weekend...and going to workout at the gym today for a long session instead...Laundry can seriously wait...or, i'll just do some of it later on but not bed sheets...either way. Looking to simplify things & actually make it to the gym for a workout there this weekend. Haven't been there in a LONG time...maybe Oct 21st was my last time...would be a good challenge to work out there today instead of at home.
QUICK RINSE AND OFF TO THE GYM GET THERE BEFORE 3:30 :)
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!Nothing too much to mention today. Making it a lightly active day rather than a restful day. I've done well with food and water.
I ordered myself a Christmas gift. Is that bad? It was a fundraiser for a small animal shelter that rescues cats and horses. They were selling "Snap It" jewelry, which is like interchangeable gems/pendants or "snaps" (some are metalic, some are made out of glass). So I bought a necklace and some fancy, shiny snaps to dress up my work wardrobe. This past Spring, on the very first really nice day, all these office workers were out walking on their lunch break and I saw a cute little petite lady who was wearing black capris and an orange sweater with 3/4 sleaves - and had a necklace, and I was like, "What a nice touch to her cute little outfit!" So now I can be like her, at least with the necklace. The "cute little petite" thing... maybe not so much.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost and already at goal!
Breakfast = 2 Kodiak pancakes, spray butter, a little less than 1 T Aunt Jemima Lite, 1 egg, 1 sausage, 2 cups coffee
477 Calories and 13 WW points
As I was typing out Aunt Jemima Lite....an old memory came back...when I was 10...I was given a locket....they told me I could put a picture in it...so I went to the kitchen and cut a little picture of Aunt Jemima from the box and put it in my locket. I guess I was destined to love pancakes.....but in reality...I think it was the only picture I could find that was small enough to fit and I would never have cut out anything from a photograph.....but Aunt Jemima stayed in my locket until I lost it....I'll bet whomever found it was surprised...LOL
A little bit of a rant here.....this time of year...I start looking for toys to send the 2 Great Grandsons for Christmas...I raised boys and had grandsons too...but times have changed and these 2 little Great Grandsons are living too far away to really know well...so I used to rely on just Googling toys for boys in their age groups (Justin is 6 and Carson is 4)...and this PC thing has gone too far........to find a list or group of boys toys now involves sifting through princess dresses , teething toys and make up kits for kids who want to look PRETTY! These 2 boys are BOYS who like being BOYS....finding a group of toys that are appropriate for boys their age is impossible now because calling them boys toys might offend a girl that likes them...I'm all for kids playing with any toy they want to play with...boys playing with dolls, fine......girls playing with trucks...fine...but when I'm shopping online for kids that I don't know well because they live so far away.......I can't isolate age approriate, boys toys for boys that want to play with boys toys....Maybe we will just send them checks this year and let their parents take them shopping.....but on the other hand...if you have a boy that wants a princess dress and makeup...then you will find shopping online easy this year.
Lunch
Beef stew, pear, dasani water = 582 calories and 16 WW points
Dinner....must be the cold weather...I was craving warm filling meals today....but need to stop letting the snow dictate what I eat.........
2 Beef/bean burritos and an orange = 689 calories and 20 WW points
1,748 calories and 49 WW points for the day
Regarding your rant, as an aunt to a set of twins (boy/girl) and a set of triplets (boys) in the same family, who live far away, I gently suggest that you either ask Mom and Dad what they think would be appropriate - especially since you don't know them well -- or go with gift cards or money. I've always given my niece/nephews gift cards or a check (made payable to the parents), mainly because of the distance, but also because they get SO many toys from everyone else -- and in multiples, because everyone has to have something. For example, you'd have to give 3 Nerfs to the triplets so that each one has his own. (Insert eye roll here.)
They just moved to a larger house and they have SO. MUCH. STUFF. I was quite pleased that last year, my older nephew bought books with my money gift.
I get what you're saying about the shopping though. Way too many choices. It does not play well for my OCD or whatever it is. I get so overwhelmed and finally just say forget about it. I have a hard enough time shopping through options for myself. (LOL)
I meant to comment yesterday on your entry that I too have been adding spice to my meals. My choice is red pepper flakes. I think it's helped a lot. I love the flavor, the extra flavor, I eat slower, and I drink more water.
I absolutely lost track of what I ate today. Out of shame, probably.
Anyway. Today is as good a time as any to get a plan going. Will I be able to stick to it? I haven't been able to stick to a plan yet. *depressed wink* But here's what I got: Remember that I promised to not eat convenience store food. Work on getting 10k steps every day. Actually buy food.
Yeah... making that plan was grueling. *can't even laugh at own sarcasm, it's so dumb*
| Breakfast | sausage cake (... I think?) Red Bull (I'm half-certain) |
| Lunch | rice with spinach and stuff sausage mixed veg with 1 whole egg, ketchup flavored coffee |
| Snack | fish sandwich tunafish rice ball cake |
| Dinner | leftover rice 1 whole egg |
It's Sunday today, and I had work. After being very lazy Saturday, eating whatever, I wasn't exactly ready for work this morning. Also, I was in such a weird state yesterday. I think the lack of anything to do made me feel a bit sick. (Or it was all the junk food and sleep. Who can say??? *sarcastic shrug*)
One of my bosses was with me, supporting, and I spent more time than I want to admit looking at his stomach and wondering just how he stays so thin. The man is a rail. To be fair, I already know how, so I will never ask for his "secret". I just have to get back on track and figure out my own way there.
Tomorrow, work. I don't do a lot of walking on Mondays, so I'll take a walk to the grocery store after work. :| I have some eggs still, so that's breakfast and dinner covered, but that's all I have in the fridge.
Tonight, cleaning. TV. Taking out the trash for the morning.
Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 87 lbs to go!
Strawberries 200, spiced (added a special spice packet given to me by coworker and it's really nice) unsweetened almond milk and blended it with small amount stevia 50...250, small pumpkin brownie 130 sooo darn good!
small croissant 200, Bellini 200, 2 coffees 100, healthy egg whites omelette 200 800 tops....oh salad with dressing 150
snack free at butcher shop! Tastes of eggplant dip 50 and pulled pork quite a bit 150
Dinner bought at butcher shop: 3 marinated portabella mushrooms 300, brocc raab sauteed 200
dessert: small pumpkin brownie, greek yogurt 2%, stevia chai latte flavor 250
2300 :)
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it's a friend's bday brunch at 11:30 and around 20-30min drive....Brunch menu isn't great for health conscious ...but i did find something outstanding on the Lunch menu..
Regarding that powder to mix into a drink, above, i am not going to buy it...it's expensive and i am not going to start with it. tho, they would be so tasty in OATMEAL!...but it's a spice blend and very expensive. it's like powdered special mushrooms mixed with cocoa, and i'm not about to spend $30 and maybe $50 after taxes and shipping on it right now. i buy enough products as it is ;)
On my menu for the crockpot cooking today will be CORNED BEEF AND CABBAGE. after brunch, i'll pick up the beef! I
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!Brunch always screams "Eggs Benedict" with a side of hashbrowns to me. I'm sure there's a way to eat small portions of it and / or make it healthier, but I'd guess the way I like it would be 1500+ calories.
But making oatmeal of if I have "milk" and cookies or a protein bar or my brownies, the glass will be filled with 30 cal almond milk and sweetened with my liquid stevia and maybe added cinnamon. Even two cups of unsweetened almond milk is a combined 60 cal and half of a cup of milk !
I got lucky with the egg whites :) they weren't even greasy and had nice mushroom and spinach :)
Breakfast = Nature Valley Granola bars, and Snack Factory dried apples, 2 cups coffee
259 Calories and 10 WW points
Lunch = Tuna salad sandwich, sesame seaweed, 3 bean salad
440 calories and 12 points
Dinner was early...I was starving...and thinking way too much about having some dessert...so I decided to eat an early dinner....all zero points ( not zero calories though...ugh)...so I fixed a huge meal for myself...and could only eat part of it...so the apples will be nibbled on over the next couple of hours....my eyes were bigger than my stomach I guess...but it was all healthy so no harm....BUT...more calories than I have had for awhile
2 small roasted chicken breasts, 1 T Of Vietnamese chili/garlic sauce, Fage 0% yogurt, 2 small/medium apples, diet vernors
902 calories and 0 WW points
I have had the chili/garlic sauce for awhile but had never opened it...it's hot alone...but not as hot when it is on the chicken.....I'm not sure why but as I get older...I'm liking hot/spicy foods more...my Mother did too...maybe it is because flavors are not as intense in old age..taste buds do chnge..........but as I hear that spicy foods help burn calories......I will be using it more.
Calories for the day = 1,601...WOW that is a lot for me....and WW points = 22
Never been a huge fan of dried fruit, although occasionally I do get a craving for some dried banana chips or dried apricots (usually on road trips).
As anticipated, numbers were up. My fancy scale says that I gained a pound of muscle... It also registered a 1 pound gain rather than a 2 pound game as my cheap, but favorable scale. So whatever this number is, it's temporary.
Your comments to me on my last entry were so helpful - thank you!!! I really thought about what you all said.
My weigh-ins can be around this number for the holiday(s). I think a slightly higher weigh-in will help me more with maintaining sensible portion control & food choices than depriving myself and suffering the consequences (crabby, sad, tired, aches & pains, no energy, etc.). Moderation will be the most forefront goal, rather than restriction.
Still intending to reduce weigh-ins in 2019. This is a definite goal of mine this year.
I've reached and surpassed my goal number, although, like Gains said, I'm not even sure what number my body is happy at. But it is worth a couple of extra pounds or pound-fluctuation range, if it means feeling better, having more energy, and being of good cheer. I might need reminding of this, but I know it is true.
I realized this morning that I am at the weight where I was when I was in 7th grade. I'm also pretty much at the same height that I was when I was 12. I distinctly remember this, because I struggled to fit into my size 7 blue jeans that had this very pretty vine/flower embrodery pattern on the back pockets. And I was "fat" back then.
Well, here I am at the same the numbers... am I still "fat"? Here I am, lately thinking I'm at "goal", victory achieved! Other people have acknowledged my weight-loss and call it successful..... And then it really hit me, Wow, I'm pretty much back where I started! Why was it not OK then but now it's OK 36 years later?
I'm so confused...
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost and already at goal!
(My computer or DD is acting up... sorry for the disjointed response.)
Day 53 completed successfully. 17 of 30 walks completed.
Yesterday was relatively straight-forward. Was at my max calories allowed. Was going to have a decent deficit, but ate a couple things I was sort of craving right before bed (piece of bread with peanut butter, small cheese quesadilla).
Today is cold, snowy, icy. Roads are extremely slick right now. Have to pickup my youngest from a sleepover in a couple hours and will probably hit the grocery store while I'm out. After that, not planning on leaving the house much today. Supposed to warm back up in a couple days, so hopefully it will all melt before Thanksgiving.
Looking forward and back to my math-ing (math used as a verb). Was originally hoping to be at goal by Thanksgiving. My body obviously didn't agree with that hopeful timing. When I saw that wasn't going to happen, I've started hoping to see 179.9 by Thanksgiving and goal by Christmas. Ideally 179 by Thanksgiving and 169 by Dec 20th when we leave for vacation. Really doubt it'll happen by Christmas, but I can dream. Whatever the time frame, as long as I stay on-track, I'll definitely be to maintenance-land in January. Looking forward to it. An extra 500-800 calories per day will be awesome.
Enough day-dreaming. On to conquer day 54....
Progress as of today: 101.8 lbs lost so far, only 12.2 lbs to go!
"Math-ing" - LOL, I can relate!
Kombucha 50
bone broth awesome type of bar flavored peanut butter / choc chip really good, trying for the 1st time. 250, coffee 50.
Mid Morning: 1/2 avocado 160, wrap 90, egg 100. 350....didn't finish it. almonds 50
Lunch: will be buying it out...buffet and extra veggies. . looking towards a BIG VOLUME lunch. Turkey light and dark larger serving 200-250, roasted brussel sprouts, tomato and cucumber salad 550, coffee 50
almonds 50
dinner: dark meat turkey small amount 100?and veggies 150, 2 egg whites 50, cauliflower pizza crust has a little cheese in it and is VERY satisfying - i just microwavedit from the fridge and it was a little different concistancy from when i bakethem but still great! 300 600-650; seltzer with stevia ...later a pumpkin brownie 150
2200 :)
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After Work Plan: maybe walk home a little bit - yes did the full 3+ miles
if the snow has melted on the sidewalks a bit more.
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Tomorrow, i'm going to a brunch...after i'll come home get laundry done. hang around my apt, cook some things.
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Sunday's plan is a major weights workout at the gym, but thinking MAYBE to go Saturday night instead....and do laundry Sunday
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My sister is due to have a baby any day now but we aren't close. I didn't get the shot - i thnk for Whooping Cough - to be able to be around a baby.
In the past i have group phone texted / messaged her and my parents to stay in communicatoin and send photos - and she had said that the texts were too much and to stop...she pushes me away by being a retard!
My sister and I arent' friends on facebook and the reason we aren't friends on facebook is i'd post things and she'd tell my parents and make them upset at me. then, she didn't wish me a happy bday on there. i also invited her to celebrate my bday - a facebook invite, and she didn't reply either way yes or no to that facebook invite in September. And, she mentioned around this time that "facebook is not real life." therefore, i told her if this is her belief, i cannot be friends with her there! :) i'm actually happier now about it!
So, the ball is in her court when she wants to invite me to see the baby...but i will not push at all. i've got my own life, busy life. and she making me a far priority is now how i regard her. low priority.
i'm uninterested in goign out of my way to appeal to her to see the baby or visit...she needs to make the offer to me...totally out of trying to be in touch with my sister. my dad accepts this 100% with me.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. John 3:16&17
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Good evening...
Is it cold enough for you? It is even chilly here in SC, but nice.
Scale at 154 when I weighed today.
I may not post every day but most days I come here and read your posts. You are all doing FANTASTIC!
Wishing you all a Happy Thanksgiving!
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Hope you are having a good day...
Remember, every day with our Lord Jesus is a good day!
Love, Maria
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!
Happy Thanksgiving - there is much to be grateful for...
One thing I noticed over the last couple of days was that I missed taking the meal pictures. I also missed not counting calories or WW points. The new WW has made me look at things in a different way....and that is...you don't need to watch the scales if you just do the right things...the scales will adjust themselves. I like the theory because happiness and health are the ultimate for me...so I removed my weight and weight goal because actually I feel pretty good right now...there is still weight to lose and I'm positive that it will continue to go as it has been......but the best bonus for me has been that I have been feeling really good. I know well that the natural fluctuations in weight can make or break a day and I'm not giving that piece of metal control of my life. I will know when I am most happy, healthy and comfortable.......I'm likeing WW and I'm likeing posting meal pics here and as long as those things make me happy I will do them...when it stops being a positive thing then I will stop.
multi vitamin, extra C, omegas, Zinc, turmeric and 2 baby aspirin
Breakfast = 2 cups coffee and a container of Real Medleys Blueberry Hazelnut Oatmeal
279 calories and 9 points
Lunch = 1 cup chili, 1 pkg of Off The Eaten Path Crisps, pear, perrier water
563 calories and 10 WW points
Dinner = Fage 0% yogurt, organic unsweetened applesauce and Planters Drizzle ( almonds with dark chocolate drizzled on them) ( you get 20 for 160 calories ) and we tried them for the first time today and we really love them.
390 calories and 5 WW points
Calories for the day = 1,232 and 2 WW points
Water for the rest of the day
But I wholeheartedly agree that you have to do what works for you, both physically and mentally. I bet you find yourself weighing in from time to time, perhaps out of curiosity, but not on a set schedule or anything. ;)
Personally I need the constant daily reminder that the scale gives me to stay on track. If I could stay on-track without it, I'd probably be happier without the daily roller-coaster of emotions that the scale can bring.
Right now the scale is a necessary evil for me. My hope once making it to goal is that the scale will then become a daily reminder that I've finally conquered this part of my life.
Like Donkey, I selfishly hope you continue to post the meal photos......
I do not watch my scales.
I only watch the scale to prove that i'm in the "green zone"
Whenever i am feeling like i have gained or a little bloated is the time i stay away from the scale because i know what to do...the scale is only a "validator"
I've been taking Buckley's like a champion for the last three days, and finally today I feel like I am slowly getting back to normal (crosses fingers and knocks on wood). I hope so, because it's going to be a busy weekend!
I am working today, then coaching at the gym tonight. I want to get my own workout in too; I decided against working out last night and gave myself another rest day instead. The best decision, because I feel so much better today, and ready to giver again. BF is meeting me at the gym and then coming home with me for the weekend.
Tomorrow morning I coach again, two sessions. I imagine we will work out afterwards, and then I want to head home and get some cleaning done. BF is having a scope done on his knee on Tuesday, and he'll be staying with me while he recovers, so I want to get some stuff cleaned up and ready for next week so it's less I have to worry about.
I am hoping to talk BF into a spin session on Sunday morning. I know it is a rest day, but I haven't done much this week and we both have a free ride to use up, so I think we should get it done before his surgery and while I have some energy! Then it's meal prep again, and I think I will try and come up with a 6 week strength program for myself to start next week. I need something to work towards, and the FEMSPORT workshop has been scheduled on a day that I can't attend, so I guess that's out for me. I would really like to get rid of some belly and hip fat; try and lean up a bit more. I guess this is where all my training will come in handy LOL. I could share my plan as I go along if anyone is interested!
I had a sandwich for supper last night, and some lay's potato chips. Went to sleep early - the workday really sucked my energy up.
Today - toast with peanut butter and honey, coffee, water, oranges, chicken, rice, veggies, water, oranges. Supper might be eggs and toast or eggs and rice; that's what BF likes to eat and to be honest, I don't mind it either. I haven't been eating too many eggs so it would be a good meal for sure.
One meal we'll be having on the weekend is baked salmon with roasted brussel sprouts and potatoes. Can't wait - so delicious!
Yesterday's hope for cheerfulness before I logged off to go to work quickly vanished, as almost all of my co-workers and myself brought a sour mood to our office. The boss - serious but in a good natured way - said that we all had to reconsider our attitudes and cheer up a bit. LOL... Once I got in another large cup of coffee and the Aleve kicked in to help with back pain, I felt much better. It was a good day, I think.
Last night, as I was riding the bike (for 25 minutes), it dawned on me how much energy I had. My legs didn't ache, I pushed myself to pedal faster, it felt good. Then it hit me that it's probably because I'm eating more food this week. I've mentioned here a couple of times that I feel like I'm eating too much. Healthy foods but too much.
So thus is the struggle I have. I really love the lower numbers on the scale, but staying there on a long-term basis is hard. HARD.
Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost and already at goal!
I don't know what my ideal weight number is right now. It's changed so many times and I'm sure it'll change in the future too. When I weighed 283 last year, I thought my ideal weight would be just getting out of the 200's. I thought 195-199 would be awesome. And it was initially, but then I found I didn't really like what that felt like. So figured high 180's, but still had more tummy fat than I wanted. Sat in the 170's for most of this Spring and it felt good, but still had some belly fat I wasn't happy with. So now think dropping into the 160's might allow me to get to a place I'd like to stay. I'm determined to make it to my goal of dropping into the 160's, but don't know if that's where I'll end up being comfortable maintaining at. Once I'm there, I'm hoping that I'll be able to transition to daily maintenance and hoping that it will be do-able without all that much effort. If it turns into a constant struggle trying to maintain that number, I'll probably decide to go back into the 170's to see if that's a more easily sustained number.
All of that to say: If I get to my "goal number" and it's way too hard to maintain, I'm going to change my goal number. Losing the weight is hard and mentally taxing. I can deal with that on a temporary basis, but can't live the rest of my life like this. I hope to learn to maintain at a weight that allows me to relax, feel good, look decent, and just "live". Don't know what that feels like and don't know what I'll weigh when that goal is accomplished, but hope to find that happy number someday......
like you, eating more over the past 3 weeks has done something really remarkable with my body and just like everyone here saying their goal is to Maintain during the holiday season, my goal is very similar. I noticed HUGE definition in my upper body...and it's due to looking "swole" which happens to me when i'm fully hydrated / not thinning out / eating a bit more.
and i had thought about it last night briefly, how now my most important goal is NOT to be the thinnist / lightest. it's not to look "perfect" in a bathing suit.
my goal now is changed. I was the strength. i don't want necessarily to gain weight or gain a size, no. but, it's def not to lose at all.
in order to be a court officer, i need to still gain the strength and muscle still. and that's the only goal :) I actually hope to raise my metabolism still where i will be burning even more calories per day in the future :)
try to think of ways to change that last few sentences you wrote!
you MUST find ways to make it SIMPLER and EASIER to keep the #s on the scale.
for me, it's paying exorbitant prices sometimes on all the health items i like...
and it's also keeping up with exercise.
but you have great ways too...your munching on fresh veggies...you may want to experiment with adding a piece of salami or two with the veggies, for a fatty / more satisfying snack. for just 50 cals more...
try to make changes always...improve upon yourself.
if you are bored...or depressed over the difficulty, your creative mind needs to think of "new"...
take my advice.
and def let your coworkers be negative all they want...try to see the positive.
i would prefer to weigh / look a hair lighter, except, my body prefers where i'm at now. seems like a comfortable point for me.
***but no doubt i count my calories and stay in check to remain here since i love food and eating***
Having the energy to do the things you love to do?
Or struggling to keep a number on the scale and being unhappy and perhaps not getting in all the nutrition your body requires?
I don't like playing Devil's Advocate (ok, maybe I do), but I really think you should reconsider what part of your life should be HARD, and what part should be reasonably controlled and maintained without having to struggle every single day.
I bet you anything (because I know for a fact) you would enjoy those bike rides so much more and for so much longer if you actually had the energy to motivate yourself to keep going.
Day 52 completed successfully. 17 of 30 walks completed.
Yesterday went alright. Tried for another very low calorie day, just trying to mix things up and get the scale moving again. Was low for most of the day, but ate a fair amount right before bed (still under calorie allowance). Was trying to also stay lower-carb, but gave in to a couple bags of 100 calorie popcorn and a grapefruit.
Today has some regular work, some running the girls around to things, and a family game night thing. The game night thing is at church and also has a potluck meal element to it. The wife and kids are looking forward to it, but it's not real high on my list of priorities and I haven't decided on a plan of attack for avoiding the food that will be sitting there. Don't think there will be anything to derail my streak tonight, but wouldn't be surprised to see my calorie intake right at my maximum daily allowance either.
Right now the plan for Thanksgiving is to just continue with my current eating plan. Set number of calories and that's it. I've had that plan before and suddenly abandoned it in the middle of the meal because I started eating and just didn't want to stop.
I do know that this current streak will come to an end sometime. I see it ending in one of two ways. I either ride it all the way to maintenance-land and make a smooth transition OR I have a major one-day blowup bingefest. Right now I'm hoping to ride it out, but know that falling off the wagon in a spectacular way is also a big possibility. I know riding it all the way to goal is the smart move. I also know that a big one-day screwup can often times add a sudden 5+ lbs overnight to the scale, which can make me slightly depressed and cause a one-day screwup to become a several day disrailment.
With everything else in my life mostly stable / in control, I don't know why food is such a struggle. I guess I should be thankful that my vice is food and not something more destructive.
On to conquer day 53...
Progress as of today: 102.1 lbs lost so far, only 11.9 lbs to go!
It's OK to eat at your max on days that are atypical like this potluck. try to do your best to fit things in. enjoy diet coke if you want to keep your mouth occupied (this helps me greatly at dinners out).
Your plan of a calorie allowance is good. keep good food choices around and in stock at your house, so you can stay on your plan. it's all about CONVENIENCE. they easier it is for you to stay on plan, the more on plan you will stay. I've done TONS of reading on instilling good habits - James Clear publishes a lot of free online materials / articles.
You have quite a bit of experiences of riding it to "binge-fest." ...you have it in you to try to do things to prevent this...
you have more to learn about how to control your bingeing...
try to come up with a plan...
maybe really nice meal of a good steak but tons of seasoned, cook veggies or your roasted squash first, then a nice big steak...a potato too...so mostly a good meal, just bigger on the steak...
then, indulge in a lot of fruit for dessert, followed up with a decaf coffee and a chocolate muffin...
so, here is a "planned super indulgent meal"...but, it has a start and end.
calories are high, higher than you'd like for your meals, but, it will not derail you at all in the long term.
plan your indulgence. plan it bigger so you will not be upset or feeling like you are deprived...
PLAN your plan of attack.
it gets easier.
I think your advice to "plan" the off-plan day is smart. When I go off-plan I currently buy large bags of every type of candy, fast food, etc and don't keep track of anything. I eat until the day ends or I run out of food. I suppose if I planned the day in advance, I could still buy pretty much everything I would want, but just get small portions of each item. Dispose of the rest before starting eating. I'd still be over the normal calories, but it would be a controlled off-plan day instead of a crazy 6000+ calorie free-for-all......
i have had my fair share of times, back in the day, where i also had a 6,000 cal day. you are totally not alone. I'd drive, like you have, from fast food joint to fast food joint, ordering everything i could get into my mouth. those were the days....
...i am more in control of my choices now.
...and i understand how to indulge and not sulk into a state of depression afterwards, too.
...in the past, my binge days kept on...and were deeply related to my mood. it was a VERY ROUGH emotional time for me....mid 20's.
i had two times in my life this way where bingeing totally influenced my mood and i had no control (lost control) over my food choices. I was thin leading into both times and will never let it happen again. meaning, i've dieting down to a lower weight 2x in my life and will not deal with the ups and downs again. i prefer maintenance.
1. First time Senior year of high school thru Sophmore Year in College.
2. Second time of weight gain and hardship was during another time of change in my life, leaving one job and deciding to go back to school, ages 25-28.
then from 28-30, it took me that long to lost most of my weight. then i got injured, but only gained like 10lbs over the course of a couple years? and lost it as i added exercise back, no biggie...i don't count that as a time of losing control.
and from 33-36 has been my years of most stable weight as an adult...current position i'm in.
Yesterday was rough. I got out of bed late and was late for work, so breakfast was a Red Bull I had in the fridge and a pack of chocolate almonds that have been in my bag for maybe a week. I didn't have time to stop. I spent most of the day tired and stressed out over the weekend work. I kept falling asleep at my desk after lunch, but I think everyone's sleepy after lunch anyway.
A friend invited me to a tangerine-picking trip on Sunday. I haven't seen them since May, but :( I work this Sunday.
I managed to put together a skeleton lesson plan, but none of the materials. I did that early this morning before work. I groaned out of bed yesterday at 6:20 when I had no plan, and all but pounced out this morning at 5:00 when I had one. Work stress is definitely killing me.
I kind of went a little nuts today. Well, I went to a restaurant and got a Starbuck latte. So wild.
| Breakfast | Red Bull sausage (Johnsonville brat, I think) 2 boiled eggs cottage cheese cheese and onion bread (420) |
| Lunch | ramen with soy sauce-based soup potato cake-looking thing ... think there's a salad. I don't remember. |
| Snack | 8 pieces of chocolate (probably) 2 cups of coffee (50) |
| Dinner | conveyor belt sushi restaurant: 9 plates of sushi and tempura-fried mozzarella sticks (1110) Starbucks: coffee cream latte (tall) (311) |
Tomorrow no work, hallelu. It's not even 8pm yet here, but I'm so ready for bed. All I want to do tomorrow is sleep.
But I have a lot of writing and cleaning to do around here...
Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 87 lbs to go!
overall great eats, not overdone! :)
tangerine picking sounds fun - they last a long time in the fridge :)
is it a work holiday?
Tangerines are a great winter fruit, hands down. I wish I was free to go.
Just a day I didn't have to work. The weekend class is usually on Saturdays, but this week it was on Sunday.
Weeklies = 17
Dailies = 23
Breakfast = 3 Kodiak pancakes, Spray butter, 1T lite aunt jemima syrup, 1 egg, 1 sausage patty, 2 C coffee = 477 calories and 13 WW points
Also...I made a 100 calorie mistake on last nights snack...but didn't want to bring yesterdays post back up to the top of the page so I corrected it in the comments. Yesterdays calories were 1,282 ( which is exactly where I want it to be).
1 T of syrup is still getting on the plate.........I need to consider even less....funny how according to the bottle 1/4 Cup is a serving.
Well........I guess I won't be posting anymore pictures for a few........Friends are coming up and I don't want to be taking pictures in front of other people...LOL.......My holidays apparently just got started earlier than I figured.....Starting today....I guess I will be weighing in daily and just working on maintaining until the new year......luckliy I'm happy with the weight I am right now.....so no problems probably. They eat very healthfully....( they are the ones that provided so much watermelon and so many cucmbers last summer, which we really enjoyed.)....anyway.......I will get back when I can......and hope to maintain until january 1st.
Kombucha 50
Breakfast: pumpkin brownies 260, whipped cream 140. coffee 50.
snack: bar 230 (very healthy bar - EXTREMELY expensive called Gary Null - Coco Magic Bar - Flavor is Almond-Chocolate-Coconut and it's an extremely high quality bar and very nutrition with like 7g sugar, high fat, stevia) btw - this bar is EXTREMELY high priced but my spending is very relaxed when it comes to food and the ingredients are seriously outstanding if you read the label. and decaf hot green tea
Lunch: veggies in chicken soup and chips total 550-600
Snacks: couple clementines, later few almonds 100
choc and lg coffee 140, bang drink, no caffeine type
2 bananas while working out and loads of stevia drinks 250, blackberries 50
After workout: cauliflower italian pizza crust. 300-350
2250, and very healthy.
Bus and train delays this AM, will have to leave 15min late today, but that's it...as commute will be messy...snow. ...but that will NOT hinder my exercise :) i'll caffinate up! :) with a nice cup of coffee :)
Last night i got good sleep...tonight i'll exercise at home ;) once i get there! :) and after a coffee.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
After all the darn oranges i've been eating non-stop, just to keep away all the viruses that are going around, and what do I end up with for the weekend?! A COLD! I started feeling sick on Sunday, and was actually sick from work Tuesday and Wednesday. It feels like it's starting to loosen up, i'm super phlegmy today so maybe it's on the way out.
I didn't have the best weekend. I tweaked my back at the gym on Friday and then I had to sit in a car for 9 hours on Saturday to go with BF to pick up his daughter. I collapsed into bed that night while BF and his daughter stayed up to watch a movie, then he went to work early Sunday morning and didn't get back to my house until 10:30am. His daughter and I just watched tv and played games, but by the time he got back I needed to DO something, and he wanted to nap on the couch. Plus his daughter really wanted to see her friends, who live in BF's city, not mine, so I mentioned to BF that maybe they should go home that day so she could see her friends. They ended up going home and I went to the gym. Then I found out she didn't even see any of her friends until Monday. Aggravating, they could have stayed had that been the case, but I suppose it was my fault for sending them home?
Then on Monday, BF won some tickets to a concert we had bought raffle tickets for. I texted him when I saw that he won, and he texted me back, but then proceeded to CALL his ex-wife to let her know ?!? He told me he phoned her because they still share an email account for his daughter's school, and that's where he got them to send the tickets so he didn't want her to delete the email... but to me it felt like he wanted to share the good news with her, which feels threatening to me - does that make sense? I was not very happy anyways, and being sick never puts me in a good mood. Working out ALWAYS puts me in a good mood, but unfortunately i've been too sick to work out much!
That brings us to today! I'm sticking it out at work today, and so far it's going well. I'm happy that I remembered to bring my own box of kleenex LOL, and a lot of oranges to eat. I'm going to kick this thing before it gets too out of control! I might try to get in a home workout tonight too, I know it will help me feel better.
My food over the weekend is not memorable...I had some Coke Zeros, and a few freezies, but otherwise I stuck to chicken, rice and veggies. Oh, I made black bean burgers on Monday night, with garlic parmesan sweet potatoes fries - man, those fries were delicious! It was a good meal, and I had enough leftovers for supper last night.
Thursday - water, toast with peanut butter and honey, oranges, chicken, rice and veggies, oranges, chicken, rice and veggies, lots of BUCKLEY'S!!!
Hope everyone's having a great week!!!
a couple times i've already felt so lethargic like i was fighting off a cold..like my body was fighting something and i feel that by getting sleep i feel better the next day. trying hard, because i do not have any days to use - i have saved them on a two week vacation to miami (staying with a friend) in the new year!
Day 51 completed successfully. 17 of 30 walks completed.
Yesterday was shaping up to be a very low calorie day, all the way up to date night around 8:30pm. Then I started eating and eating and eating. I still stayed under my calorie allowance for the day.
The thought of temporary discomfort vs longer term discomfort has been going through my mind lately. If I stay on track like this, I might be down to goal by the turn of the new year. If I just stopped eating, I'd be down to goal weight in approximately 2 weeks. Just a thought.......
On to conquer day 52...
Progress as of today: 100.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!Please consider this too. When you reach your goal weight (or weight range), stay on plan for a week or 2 (or 3 or 4) to stabilize mentally and physically. Then you can start making variations. Just something to think about...
When you do indulge, try to keep it more in line with maintenance, that's all.
even a 2,000-2,500 cal day for you can be considered an ok day here and there along your journey without contributing to any huge setback.
This day already seems difficult... Feeling bloated... Work has been a battlefield every day, usually with lenders or other attorneys... Holiday stress is already getting to me with all this Black Friday talk... I received a larger medical bill from when I hurt my back in summer 2017! Insurance had appealed this, I guess, and so the $600 balance that I end up owing is DUE NOW. I'm going to have to dip into savings to pay for that, because right now, my checking account has a little over $500 in it. My back is tight -- probably from the stress -- and it's supposed to snow again today. I had hoped that my son would mow the backyard today to mulch up all the fallen leaves.
It just seems to all be piling up on me at once, and it feels overwhelming.
Well, a grumpy disposition will do nothing to solve that, so I might as well be cheerful and take one task at a time. And all I can do is try to make the best food decisions for myself today. The weekend, next week's class, the holidays, all of that will wait... Right now, my focus is getting through today, as kindly and as cheerful as possible.
I do hear you about difficult days though, and wanting to wallow in the misery of it, even for a little while!
but trust me, Jdonk, please try to be thankful for the positive things. look for them. smile.
your end sentences here are good...that you will get thru and try your best. that is all we can do.... <3
I'm so excited for a short week!!!!
oh, me too!!!!! so happy about it.
bc my sister (tho not close with her) is pregnant and was due to give birth and hasn't yet i am thinking my family may not do anything at all for Thanksgiving. my parents will be involved but i'm staying out of some of it. she even told me i "don't need to be at the hospital" so i've decided to consider that to be "do not go to the hospital."
I am very thankful for the extra days off.
BearCountryGG on 11/18/2018:
Napping going on around here today too.
Donkey on 11/18/2018:
I agree with your assessment regarding your sister. Just let her be...
I'm starting to regret not gojng so I told my parents to keep me in loop
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