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graindart - Thursday Nov 15, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 182.2

Day 51 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.

Yesterday was shaping up to be a very low calorie day, all the way up to date night around 8:30pm.  Then I started eating and eating and eating.  I still stayed under my calorie allowance for the day. 

The thought of temporary discomfort vs longer term discomfort has been going through my mind lately.  If I stay on track like this, I might be down to goal by the turn of the new year.  If I just stopped eating, I'd be down to goal weight in approximately 2 weeks.  Just a thought.......

On to conquer day 52...

Progress as of today: 100.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

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horn_of_plenty - Thursday Nov 15, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 50

Breakfast: pumpkin brownies 260, whipped cream 140. coffee 50. 

snack: bar 230 (very healthy bar) and tea decaf 

750.

 

Bus and train delays this AM, will have to leave 15min late today, but that's it...as commute will be messy...snow. 

Last night i got good sleep...tonight i'll exercise at home ;) once i get there! :) and after a coffee.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

graindart on 11/15/2018:
Today is our last decent day of a slight break in the weather. Tomorrow we get snow and colder weather again. The cold has really stopped me front wanting to walk or do much of anything. Just want to hibernate.....


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Donkey - Thursday Nov 15, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

This day already seems difficult...  Feeling bloated...  Work has been a battlefield every day, usually with lenders or other attorneys...  Holiday stress is already getting to me with all this Black Friday talk...  I received a larger medical bill from when I hurt my back in summer 2017!  Insurance had appealed this, I guess, and so the $600 balance that I end up owing is DUE NOW.  I'm going to have to dip into savings to pay for that, because right now, my checking account has a little over $500 in it.  My back is tight -- probably from the stress -- and it's supposed to snow again today.  I had hoped that my son would mow the backyard today to mulch up all the fallen leaves.  

It just seems to all be piling up on me at once, and it feels overwhelming.

Well, a grumpy disposition will do nothing to solve that, so I might as well be cheerful and take one task at a time.  And all I can do is try to make the best food decisions for myself today.  The weekend, next week's class, the holidays, all of that will wait...  Right now, my focus is getting through today, as kindly and as cheerful as possible.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost and already at goal!

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happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(Change everything every minute. All things thru C)
Weight: 219.1

Grrr... Getting after it. Did lots of worthwhile things to be a functional adult again. I can do this. For the tally... A bunch of housekeeping things to get ready for the water to be turned off for 2 days tomorrow (city maintenance). Then I womaned up and handled personal business I have been slacking on. I am working every day to be worthy of the last 2 guys I met and was *almost* good enough for.

Although... It should be noted... I did get a nice good morning text from the crazy hot kickboxing instructor. But he has not made plans to see me, lol.

Did not keep track of my food today... getting a little lost without Rise so I need to restart that... Maybe next month. Breathe. One foot in front of the other.

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9:42pm... in bed. Dying for the kickboxing instructor to text me again but guess not.

Here’s what I think I ate today... 

B: 350 cal oatmeal, protein, nuts and fruit + seed mix and grated ginger

Snack: Peanuts 

B2: protein powder and espresso powder, only drank half

L: 1/2 chicken breast, bbq sauce, seeet potato, butter

Snack: 2/3 of a frozen pizza 

Snack: Strawberry lara bar with 1 ghiradelli dark chocolate squares

D: Chicken thigh, rice and seed mix, 2 cups broccoli with butter 

 

Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2018:
Wait...no water for two days straight!?

grated ginger! how cool. did you grate it yourself...? i have large pieces of ginger at home, haven't decided what to use them for, yet.

your foods are awesome. so healthy, so tasty! nice job Happy - you are getting it wayyyy back on track 100%


Donkey on 11/15/2018:
No water for 2 days??? What the heck??

Hey, are you being affected by the fires at all?


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horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha but so minimal..not counting calories.

Healthy breakfast buffet I picked up bc running early and didn't have a good dinner: just YUM:

8:30am Egg whties huge portion scambled 150, sauteed broccoli 50, canadian bacon 100, roasted potatoes 150 (small amount).coffee 50 (from work):  500 cals only!

10am Snack: RXBar (not a major fan, but a good change of pace) 200

11am choc 70 really good from coworker

1pm lunch: chicken soup lots of chicken / veg 400, too many chips 200

almost 3pm fruit from coworker, a diff one! 100 :)

ok serious indulgence now.hummingbird cake. 450 cal? more? lots of icing, walnuts, it's rich.

5pm almonds 50.

around 7:45pm during errands still (small supermarket trip and to pick up a quick thing at the pharmacy) this cool natural bar and a sf drink 250

2200, good.

5day:

no workout tonight, bed early...not sure what to eat...i think laying light. protein bar / drink / bed.

 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/14/2018:
I commented on yesterday's comments. I'm very sorry :(

Breakfast sounds delicious! Here's to a wonderful day!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
i want you to know, i do take your feedback as helpful always...that i do come here looking for advice and am glad for getting it always..

it was the best breakfast in a long time!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
and you did nothing wrong, you have no idea the importance of getting your feedback...something you said reminds me though...to be true to myself, i need to realize that the friendship will always be changed. and i will have to perhaps bring up again to her, if/when necessary, that i'm sorry i am not as available as i once was on several levels including emotional, unfortunately. but this is not something to discuss out of nowhere with her :) just something to keep in my mind as what is best for ME.


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Looks like a nice breakfast you had there.......good way to start the day.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
yummy.


graindart on 11/14/2018:
???? You went to a buffet and left with 500 calories or less? That doesn't even compute in my head. Don't think I've ever left a buffet without eating at least 2000 calories.......

Good job.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
yes, but it's a buffet but you pay also by the weight...and it was a TAKEOUT to bring to work to eat! hahaha

also, most of what i got was the eggwhites, around 1.5 cups of it..then a side of broccoli under a cup, two pieces candadian bacon (slices), and around 1/2 cup of potato roasted..! that's why! maybe just over a half cup of the potato...all egg whites...getting extra to feel full. LOL.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
the food is very tasty too...high quality!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
so not a sit-down buffet...just to get my breakfast, choose exactly what i want! :)...wasn't in mood for a breakfast sandwich which i could have gotten anywhere, any deli or takeout.


graindart on 11/14/2018:
Poor little hummingbirds.....

Can't believe there's a dessert I've never heard of. Googled it and it looks tasty. Some of the photos make it look kind of like a carrot cake, with pineapple / banana instead of carrot. Just another thing to add to my list once I make it to maintenance mode....

Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
yes, it tasted a bit like carrot cake, yes!.

it was REAL good, but, so NOT WORTH the calories. and screwed me over for the rest of the day. i shoulnd't have taken a slice. grrrrr! lol...

this dessert, a larger piece too, really wasn't worth it. everything high cal...the cream filling / outer and the nuts galore...i guess it's good in small amounts, but it was new flavors and i couldn't stop halfway thru...kept eating till it was gone...grrr, see...

Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
lately i splurge a lot and i'm at the very high end of my calorie needs...even a hair over as of late!


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happy-1 - Tuesday Nov 13, 2018
(Change everything every minute. All things thru C)
Weight: 219.1

219.5... YAY. I'm not going completely off track while I get my paperwork together.

Spent the day contemplating moving out. Friend from church needs a roommate and I offered her a temp sublet for a month or two so she can find someone... but it turns out she’s not renting the whole room by itself... she’s doing a sharing setup with multiple people in one room. She’s also trying to rent out her couch. Basically as many as 6 roommates at a time in a 2 bedroom condo. It sounds like escalating crazy and I don’t think it’s a good idea. She also doesn’t want anyone who is dating as a roommate. That’s not going to work, lol.

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Deleted all of the kickboxing instructor’s digital trail. It won’t work out... He doesn’t have his own place and I am on my parent’s couch still... and I’ve pretty much wrecked my life... so I’m not competitive enough. I’ll text back but I won’t bug him first anymore. He’s got more than enough going on without my complications.

I need to give myself a hug, get up and get back on track.

Got a lot done today. Real progress. Feeling pretty good about that. Onwards and upwards.

Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
If she's open to trying it out on a short-term basis, I think the month-long "stay-cation" sounds like an excellent idea. You might learn a lot about yourself during this sabbatical.

happy-1 on 11/13/2018:
Hugs. Couldn't hurt, right?

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
Not going to work out... She’s looking for someone to share the room so she can rent it to multiple people


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Multiple people renting from a renter...sounds like a disaster to me...That could all fall apart in a horrible way.

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
Worse than a renter... a homeowner with financial crunch

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
Worse than a renter... a homeowner with financial crunch


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
I agree with Donkey, it could be a nice "staycation" and good change of pace for you!...but wouldn't do it long-term :)

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
Yeah, but at least I know I am ready to go when I do find the right situation. I guess when my neck got back into alignment so did my priorities and ability to make decisions


Donkey on 11/14/2018:
Oh my, I didn't realize that's what your friend had in mind with renting out. No, I don't think that would work... at least not for me.

I'm sorry to hear about Kickboxing Guy, but I trust that you're making the right decision for yourself. GOOD!

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
Yeah... Discontent may be the rock upon which change is leveraged, but I have learned from OOMLG that I don’t need to invite extra. I can’t seem to delete my online dating profile and give up hope... but it’s not the best time for me to be dating


graindart on 11/14/2018:
Multiple people that are unrelated and don't really know each other trying to live in one room? I don't think I could handle it, unless I didn't own anything and worked 15+ hours per day and just needed somewhere cheap to crash at night. And it would have to be really cheap, because with that many people sharing a room I doubt it would be very quiet at any time of day or night......

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
I did it when I had a 90% travel job... It was cheap beach living, and basically like summer camp or a travel hostel... but that was fun and we all had real jobs with a few super hot teachers and fitness instructors thrown in. I have no idea what she’s going to do in an inner city area recruiting from a very conservative innercity evangelical church. I have a feeling it’s going to be a lot of crazy.

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
And also I have a feeling that now that I did the CERT class, I’m going to be changing to a church that does the local CERT team or runs a tutoring program so I can be a free math tutor. I wasn’t feeling so great before so I wasn’t up to tutoring but I feel better and I’d like to get to know my neighbors.


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
I had to laugh when you said no one could have a boyfriend....LOL............I get the feeling that no one will have a key either...except her....just stand in the hallway until she gets home...then she will frisk everyone....give you bathroom time assignments, and everyone has to leave when she leaves....RUN...RUN FAST!!!!!

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
You can have a boyfriend, you just can’t be getting jiggy with it... even at his place. I support that for anyone under 30, but at 40+ I’m not signing a legally binding anything with a guy I haven’t known for at least 3 years. There’s too many complicating factors that can impact retirement.

happy-1 on 11/14/2018:
And I was fine when I thought it was no dude-enhanced sleepovers there... that meant I wouldn’t have to deal with any crazy guys she might be giving a test run... but that’s too restrictive.


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BearCountryGG - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 174.9

Weeklies = 17

Dailies = 23

Breakfast = 3 Kodiak pancakes,  Spray butter, 1T lite aunt jemima syrup, 1 egg, 1 sausage patty, 2 C coffee = 477 calories and 13 WW points

Also...I made a 100 calorie mistake on last nights snack...but didn't want to bring yesterdays post back up to the top of the page so I corrected it in the comments.  Yesterdays calories were 1,282 ( which is exactly where I want it to be).

1 T of syrup is still getting on the plate.........I need to consider even less....funny how according to the bottle 1/4 Cup is a serving.

Well........I guess I won't be posting anymore pictures for a few........Friends are coming up and I don't want to be taking pictures in front of other people...LOL.......My holidays apparently just got started earlier than I figured.....Starting today....I guess I will be weighing in daily and just working on maintaining until the new year......luckliy I'm happy with the weight I am right now.....so no problems probably.  They eat very healthfully....( they are the ones that provided so much watermelon and so many cucmbers last summer, which we really enjoyed.)....anyway.......I will get back when I can......and hope to maintain until january 1st.

 

Progress as of today: 80.9 lbs lost so far, only 29.9 lbs to go!

graindart on 11/14/2018:
Breakfast photo looks good. I miss pancakes, will add them back in once I'm to maintenance. Have always loved traditional breakfast foods, but rarely take the time to make breakfast, especially while trying to lose weight.

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
It seems that I can lose by staying in the 1,200 to 1,300 calorie range...regardless of what I eat.....I did it that way before and it still seems to work for me.....but I know not everyone gets away with that.


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
i had myself a complete breakfast too. so good. very "extra" on the scambled egg whites, since it's an option at the buffet by me...and quite a filler. but then completed the breakfast with all food groups :)

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Love a meal with all food groups!!!!!


Donkey on 11/14/2018:
That egg looks SO yummy!

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
And zero WW points...so WW is pushing them.....I feel sorry for my Dad now...back about 30 years ago...my Dad was BIG egg eater...then he had to have a triple heart bypass...and they told him no more eggs.....he missed them until his death at 83...now eggs are good for us......hurrrrrumph! To point out how many he ate though....I was probably the only kid in the country that thought you were supposed to leave Santa a fried egg and then go right to bed....LOL...never caught Dad eating that egg though...LOL


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
keep up the great work...your success is your own doing!

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Dieting with support is always the most successful......this group is fantastic when it comes to help and feedback.......I don't think I would have done it without all of you! Thanks to everyone!!!


graindart on 11/14/2018:
Your comment about leaving a fried egg for santa caught me off guard and caused me to laugh. If we did that sort of thing, I would've had my daughters leave out a thing of Mtn Dew.....

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Not to mention that the Easter Bunny used to bring me only certain colors of jelly beans...LOL....Suspicious...very suspicious.....


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Donkey - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

I'm getting a little ahead of myself, but I wanted to talk about this now, so that I can plan.  Having a plan is essential to weight-loss and/or maintenance ("After-Land").

Next week, with American Thanksgiving, starts about a month (a little bit more) of holiday eating:

The year I got married, there were at least  additional 2 engagement shower-parties thrown into the mix, and by the end of the year, I was so sick of eating out.

My husband has already declared that holidays should not be Whole 30 or restrictive, but I don't agree with that, especially, since this has essentially become a lifestyle change for me.  My plan is to make the best choices possible, and whenever possible, have healthy or low-carb or keto side dishes.  My concern is that I may just decide to "pitch it" and throw abandon to the wind.  That happened a few years ago, and I gained back all the weight I had lost.  Oh my no, I cannot let that happen again.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost and already at goal!

graindart on 11/14/2018:
Haven't made any solid decisions on what I'm going to do about the holidays yet (food wise). Right now, I'm thinking I might be ok at staying on-plan for Thanksgiving. But I always think that right up until the day of the celebration comes around and I suddenly decide that I don't care about being thinner, I just want to eat all of that delicious food!

Christmas will be the major challenge for me. We're always on the road visiting family. Road trips at Christmas always make me want to constantly snack / eat just to stave off the boredom / monotony of driving 20+ hours each way. Then when we visit various family members, they all have the best holiday food / snacks set out. Then we always have a few select restaurants that we miss the rest of the year, so try to hit each and every one during our stay.


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
I'm mulling it over myself. I don't want to go backwards but at the same time....this is LIFE....and the holidays are stressfull enough that I have already pretty well figured that I would not post pictures starting on Thanksgiving and running through the end of the year. I love the feeling of being where I am calorie wise, I know that I can and can't get away with...and I want to have some happy holidays. I'm thinking that I may...starting on Thanksgiving...just start getting on the scales daily.....and monitoring myself so I don't get too far out of line...I really don't want to count anything at all....just basically maintain.......But....this is all subject to change....at any rate...one the first of the year starts...it's smooth sailing until Easter...LOL


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Well...I guess it just happened....friends are heading our way as I speak....so we will be very busy for a few days....and then Thanksgiving...so I'm going to work on maintaining until the new year.....I refuse to take pictures of my food in front of guests...LOL.....Luckily I feel like I have a handle on things now anyway......so I plan to just weigh in daily to keep inline and manage maintain/ loss that way...


Horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2018:
totally with you! lately at work, already desserts are coming around more and more...

but back to you, i do not think it's a good idea to throw abandon to the wind! no!!!!

if you eat in ways that you have practiced and that help you to feel good, why would you want to TOTALLY forget it for a long period of time.

even the holiday meals, you can try without taking seconds.

there are things we can do to make our choices less detrimental to the maintenance process.

I, for one, do not plan to gain weight back on a larger level at all this season...the struggle to getting it off is not fun...

however, even with a few indulgences and then eating our normal ways, we wouldn't gain much...so that's food for thought.

however, if you can enjoy those holiday meals and eat as you usually do all the other days, there will be no major catastrophe.

your husband's mindset, being so new to the "whole 30", is so different than yours which is a lifestyle change.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2018:
some people, i always notice a few folks at work, are OK being "yoyo dieters" but i for one cannot handle that kind of inconsistency in lifestyle choices.


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graindart - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 182.2

Day 50 completed successfully (corrected number today).  17 of 30 walks completed.

Yesterday I needed to shake things up.  I've been getting frustrated with the way the scale has been dropping too slowly.  Since I've been getting frustrated with the status quo, something needed to change.  Either jump off the wagon and have a cheat day or double-down on the weightloss direction by changing my food intake.  The 49-50 day in a row streak is helping keep me working towards the weightloss direction, so I decided to change-up the food intake somewhat.

Yesterday was a lower-carb and lower-sodium day.  No popcorn, less salt, less calories, and no grapefruit yesterday.  Saw the drop in the scale number this morning that I wanted.  Yes, I know it's not "real", but it is something to provide additional motivation to stay on-track.  And being at an area of frustration lately, I needed something to increase my motivation.  I'm now back at having lost 100 lbs since I started this weightloss April 2017.

On to conquer day 51....

Progress as of today: 100.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Good for you!!!!! I can't say enough about shaking things up!! Congrats on the loss and the new milestone!!!!


Donkey on 11/14/2018:
What a milestone that is - congratulations!


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
i'm so glad that you have had such a continued success now. 100lbs is not just amazing, but remarkable. many people have trouble to keep it off, going back to their old ways, forgetting all the effort they put in, forgetting the journey will always be ongoing once the weight is gone. losing their focus, losing their desire to put in the effort...etc etc...

you have kept on. you have come up with a why you continue to strive for health. to strive for what is better. to be active. to learn more about your body and what it needs!

graindart on 11/14/2018:
I was already in the 170's for most of this Spring, but stopped caring after the cruise in June. Slipped back into the old ways of eating whatever whenever and gained back 40 lbs over Summer. Now still working on losing what I gained during the Summer. Every single time I make it to or near goal, I always irrationally think that I can go back to eating whatever whenever and it won't cause me to gain weight "this time". I know it's not logical, but that's how it always happens.

Not this time! I actually have a plan after making it to goal this time. This "losing" phase is way too tough. Once I make it to maintenance, I will learn to live within a more relaxed set of boundaries that balances food intake needs / wants.


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pinklatte - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(..um...)
Weight: 248.0

I've been very *thumbs down, fart noise* about what I've been eating lately. I haven't eaten more than I usually do, I think, but I haven't really been thinking about what I'm eating. I'm just... tired, man.

Today, the schools were closed around here, but I still had work. I worked a special event, international cooking with the kids, and helped a group of girls make chili and rice crispies squares. There was a lot of food, and I helped myself to almost everything that the other groups made. The kids ~*loved*~ the chili, a couple of kids ate four servings, but I think it came out too sweet. (Adding the ketchup was def. a mistake, I think.)

Afterwards, I went to the movies, finally. I saw Venom. It was okay.

Breakfast cake (340)
... Red Bull? I don't remember.
Lunch (US) small bowl of chili, rice corn flake crispie square
(South Africa) square of bobotie (sweet meat with egg "crust"), part of choco chip cookie
(New Zealand) bacon pie, pavlova (strawberry, kiwi, the cream wasn't sweet at all.)
(UK) scotch egg (I was too full to try the UK dessert, it looked *rich*)
Snack cola (16 oz, my guess)
Dinner chicken and veg sandwich (300)
steamed bull (220)

Tomorrow, work. Tonight, I have a book to read. I promised to return it tomorrow, but I haven't gotten around to it yet. I've had it for a week, but *thumbs down, fart noise*. ... Maybe I can read/skim through it during work tomorrow? Probably not?

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 88 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
You eat some of the most interesting things I have ever never heard of!!!!


graindart on 11/14/2018:
Steamed bull? Which part of the bull?


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
steamed bull? did you mean steamed bun?


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
is it an educational boring book?


Donkey on 11/14/2018:
Oh my what a smorgasbord of delights!


Horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2018:
wow. i will google those foods.


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horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Nov 13, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 50, later coffee 50

Indian treat 340 from coworker from Bangladesh! very good! and tastes of my coconut brownie 60

after 10am snack: tbd 270 natural bar. balanced amount sugar, carbs, fats

Lunch: 230 chips, chicken breast 250, veggies 150 630,

3-4pm clem oranges 100

5pm salt and vinegar almonds 100

evening snacks small chocolate, fiber one bar, and a pumpkin brownie so good!

2000 total today :)

4day: 2225, better...

Walked around 2mi home :) then as i was walking a bus stopped seriously next to me, the door opened right beside me, and i got on for the rest of the way home! :) lol...

Stayed at work extra late till 7pm bc i wanted to finsih some extra work, as i was very distracted today :) I feel good about this.

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Regarding traveling w/ the friend and if i could trust her after what she said to me during our heated argument a couple years ago:

Ended up texting her and it turned into another heated argument over the phone yesterday afternoon where i reminded her what she said to me. She didn't recall saying everything that i told her because of course the words would have a greater affect on me, the receiver as they were about me. I forgave her, as she apologized saying it was because things were heated and that she didn't mean the words (that i'm a failure / failed teacher, embarass my dad every chance i get, amongst a few other things).  I forgave her, she admitted she said them only because things were heated, that she hadn't actually meant them or believed it to actually be the case with me. she said she hoped i didn't actually take her words to heart (of course i did) and she hoped i don't believe those words today (they still ring in my ear - especially when facebook reminded me thru one of the memory posts...).

i forgave her, explained how i do not know if what she says is truthful or not because she had said these things to me...that it's like being two-faced...i YELLED so loud thru the phone, making sure i could explain as well as possible what's going thru my head now.

she started to compare her friendship with me to mine with Ricky.....and i stopped that right away. i said, do not change the subject!...i explained there's no reason to bring him up - for MYSELF even to have or want to think about him...that she was practically giving me a headache. i said i wasn't eager to even discuss him. and so the topic eventually turned back to me and her....and the main important point....she did try to tell me how bad ricky is for me...but in the end, it's my decision if i'll ever speak with him again (i haven't yet)..

..but i told her to stay on the topic which is my friendship with her, not a comparison to Ricky...i said to her, do you really want me to start to have to compare you with Ricky? i said, you know he has some issues and problems...and i asked her, do you want me to start to think about you that way? i questioned her why she'd find it necessary to start to compare herself with other friends and how they treat me....i explained the situation was about me and her...she didn't yell once over the phone...only me....because i needed to get my points across.

there's a lot more we discussed.

early on she said i have changed....YES, I HAVE CHANGED!

my life has been so different these past almost 8 years in this field of work. Far away from my original line of work as a band teacher. too much has changed for me to remain the same in the least.

and my time is more precious than ever.

she did complain about mostly texting and not talking on the phone...and this is something i think that'll have to change a little in the friendship unfortunately the reason is my lack of time outside work especially during the week.  i just cannot devote myself to the phone calls as much as i did...i'll have to explain this to her at another point, because we didn't talk too much about that.

because of all the changes to my life especially the changes in my free time (the amount of it) outside work, i have to prioritize differently...a game per se - a game of give and take...or of priorities.

the only reason i have the home gym is that i don't even have the time anymore to want to or think to drive to the gym during the work week...it's just too much after a public transportation commute. it would cramp on the hours i'd like to be ASLEEP.

so many things have changed. i had to make changes to keep some things the same...like have a home gym if i want to keep exercising.

it's been a lot of change. i've had to change as my entire experiences have changed.

and this has affected my friendships and time managment.

and in turn, i cannot be the original Jackie she had as a friend years ago....tho i enjoy being her friend.

there's a lot more to this.

the argument we had ended positively and we were on the phone over 2 hours which worked out because it was a slow day for me as well as her.

so the friendship is better now. after much talking and discussion.

but it's true that what i'm able to give to the friendship has changed over time due to my own experiences and life changes. i know she's changed too, but the way we have both changed differs greatly stil.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

graindart on 11/13/2018:
I'm surrounded by brownies. I can handle reading about your daily brownies because I can't smell them. However last night my daughters baked 2 large pans of chocolate brownies for a school project. They smelled sooooooo good. Thankfully they were all for school and left the house this morning.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2018:
i wouldn't want fresh baked brownies here either...

when i make them in these nutritious ways, it also helps me a little bit to eat less...


BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
What was in the Indian treat?

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2018:
On the box, made in India, they are called "Soan Papdi" mostly made with sugar, ghee, almond powder, spices"


happy-1 on 11/13/2018:
feel you on growing apart from a friend. Hugs.

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2018:
i still want to be her friend, but our life experiences have changed the friendship.


Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I confess I'm not sure why you're lying to this person about your real feelings and trying to salvage the relationship. "To thine own self be true..."

Horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2018:
wait, but i'm not lying now?....what do you mean?

i enjoy her friendship now, but not the way it was before. i enjoy it now but my experiences have changed me, how she mentioned that she thought i changed..

she apologized telling me she said it bc she was heated and did not mean it...

Horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2018:
do you feel i'm not being true to myself?


graindart on 11/13/2018:
Looked up Soan Papdi. Looks mildly interesting for a change of pace, but I don't think it'll be replacing the chocolate bar any time soon. I'm sure it tastes nothing like it, but some of the photos I found make it look kind of like a completely dry piece of baklava.

I've been avoiding nuts due to lack of portion control and higher calories if I eat too many, but love several of the Blue Diamond almond flavors. Salt & vinegar, smokehouse, wasabi and soy sauce are all delicious (and I don't even like the taste of plain almonds). Just checked their website and they have a flavor I'm never tried before = toasted coconut. Might have to give those a try when I get to goal.....

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
Yup it looks like a dry baklava and is very light - falls apart easily. It's very light and melts in your mouth. Sorta like a meringue does.

I also do not like plain almonds. I tried toasted coconut and do not like it - it was too sweet and not satisfying !


graindart on 11/13/2018:
Had to come back and further comment on the coconut flavored almonds. Wanted to see how they described the taste / flavor of them on the website. They described the flavor and then added near the end "Order a case of six 14 oz resealable bags today!". Had to laugh a little when I read that. It appealed to my online ordering / bulk ordering tendencies. Did a little math and those 6 bags of almonds would equal 13,440 calories. While it might take me awhile to eat them all, that's just too many snack calories to allow in my house at any one time....

Just found it odd that they didn't say something like "buy a bag at your local grocery store", but rather that you should order a case of six 14 oz bags.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
Yeah right ! I'm soooo glad you didn't order them. They aren't that nice mix of sweet and salty like all the other flavors you mentioned that you like! These toasted coconut are only sweet in my opinion...


Donkey on 11/14/2018:
I mis-read what you had written, with respect to your friend. I deeply regret this and extend a wholehearted apology to you. Ironically, in reading more carefully, I see that you were actually being true to yourself and getting everything out in discussion.

You're very forgiving; the world needs more people like you (especially in politics) :)

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
cute joke...politics...oh how i can't agree more! ;)


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Donkey - Tuesday Nov 13, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

EVENING UPDATE:  Today, I had just had it with the back-stabbing in my office, so I took out the mail and just kept on walking, walked around the block to clear my head.  It really helped bring my mind to a joyful place, to be outside in the morning, walking.

I still feel like I am eating too much during the day.  I know that part of this is because I am struggling to drink water like I did in the leaner, summer months.  I can do this with more focus; but, this week, it's been easier to reach for another snack than it is to drink.  PLUS, I am having some bathroom issues that need to resolve themselves soon.  That could be part of what is causing discomfort.

Queen Bee will be out of the office for most of the day tomorrow, doing marketing at real estate offices.  PRO:  the office will be so much quieter without her around.  CON:  she's taking The Girl who Makes a Million Mistakes with her, so I'll be the one answering phones, which makes it harder to get my own work done.  However, if I don't have much work to do, then it's OK because it will keep me busy.

Last thing tonight, I am happy Donkey tonight because The Great British Baking Show has uploaded a new season on Netflix, and I watched episode 1 with my daughter.  I look forward to watching the show with her.... and fantasizing over the food, LOL.


I ended up eating a lot more than I had planned yesterday.  Queen Bee made an announcement that the little fridge in our upstairs office would be cleaned out at 5pm, so I had to move my food to the large refrigerator downstairs, and making re-arrangements with what I ate.  I ended up eating 2 cheese sticks and no cottage cheese.  And, unrelated, I ended up eating the entire can of garbanzo beans - it was so yummy!  But way too many carbs.  I also ate the banana - which upon peeling, decided it was a LARGE banana, not a MEDIUM one - AND ALL of the grapes - again, way too many carbs and sugars.

So with all this extra eating, I hoped I would have more energy for my morning bike-ride, but alas, I still found myself having to push myself a little bit.  The performance was there, but the motivation was a little weak.  Still, got the job done.

Adjusted my evening de-stressing bike ride so that I accomplish my goals.  I think a 25 minute ride does the trick, and it's just long enough to get in most any episode of Golden Girls or any other sitcom or game show.

I am hoping to schedule the closing for a couple of really troublesome files today.  Also, next Tuesday, I will be home all day because I am taking an online state-required continuing education class for one of the licenses I hold.  Thanks to WiFi, I plan to view this seminar and still walk on the treadmill or ride my bike or chill out in my bedroom.  It's from 9am to 6pm.  Can you imagine sitting the whole time???  YIKES.

 

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost and already at goal!

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
That is a super long time to sit through a class....i HOPE THEY GIVE SOME DECENT BREAKS! You probably already know that I'm all for changing things around with the diet......I suspect it probably was good for you......and at least you got prior notice that the fridge was getting cleaned out......on to plan B and it was completed successfully by you...GOOD JOB!!!

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I plan to unplug the laptop and move around to any room during the course of the day. I can take it into the family room and walk on the treadmill. Or downstairs to the basement and ride the bike. Or upstairs to the bedroom and knit.


graindart on 11/13/2018:
I miss beans. I've been avoiding them because the portion size I like to eat ends up being more calories than I'm willing to expend. Looking forward to adding them back to my menu when I get down to maintenance mode, like you and HOP.

End up having continuing-ed every couple years for my job and it's always mind-numbingly boring. Used to have to sit through the real in-person class with 20-30 others. Couldn't believe some of the questions asked by some of the people. These were very basic concepts that should've been learned prior to even obtaining a license. Some of the questions they asked made me wonder how exactly they were supposedly doing their jobs at all. Thankfully now everything's transitioned to on-line and I can sit there in my jammies.....

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
Mind-numbing is right. I had to attend a live 2-day class to get my license, originally... The 2-hour drive there alone was enough to cause me a nervous breakdown.

Now it's either live webinar or self-study. If you do the webinar, like I've signed up for,there's no final exam. I did the self-study last year because it was cheaper (and because I ran out of time to attend a webinar) and I was ready to pull my hair out. An 8 hour class took me over 16 hours to complete. And then I had to take the final exam! NOT THIS YEAR!


graindart on 11/13/2018:
The nice thing about the online continuing-ed classes I have to take is that they're pretty easy to knock out in much less time than they count for. I'll usually get all 28 hours of continuing-ed done in one 8-10 hour work day. It still irritates me that I feel like I'm wasting time and money on it, but at least it's not also killing 4 work days like it would if I had to physically show up somewhere.

Donkey on 11/14/2018:
I spent $120 on the online course and then I have to pay $186 to the state for their processing fee. There is a strong possibility that I will let my license lapse after 2019.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
maybe drink herbal tea also instead of just cold water at work? they offer decaf green tea keurig cup option at my work, so sometimes in the afternoon mostly i'll grab one to hold me over or warm me up or just to enjoy!

Like you, i'm having many experiences at my office lately where i can hardly believe the words / ideas / opinions / crap coming out of coworkers' mouths...

FOR INSTANCE, there's a nice woman a work with. She's opinionated but her opinions, after you remove her tone of voice she says them in because she DOES speak with confidence so she could easily fool you to thinking what she says is a "majority" opinion...she's in the minority comparatively in politics of NYC. i'll write more later, but, let me leave it with this: She is first generation Italian born here. She's 45 - so similar to you. and grew up here her whole life. Her parents both from from Italy countryside...

Well, I made a comment about Columbus Day perhaps being a "white man's initiated holiday" saying that those were the people in the Colonies at the time...just saying WHO was here...

and she said, bc she does like to say the complete opposite, without even realizing what she's saying, but this time she had thought about this statement...

She said, in response to COlumbus Day and Thanksgiving (which is not a white holiday, i corrected myself - at that point slaves were being freed and african americans were able to celebrate it too - initiated by President Lincoln who African Americans credit for helping greatly with freeing them)

OK, HER COMMENT (she's ITALIAN!) - "I AM NOT WHITE."

I googled it, and considered it...

Her comment is so old, so NOT a current statement it really turns my stomach to hear her say that....BECAUSE...

JEWS, like myself, were once also thought not to be White.

but now, European Descent is considered WHITE!

Is Italy not in EUROPE!

so....there you go.

there's my coworker.

she literally feels she's not part of any group...tho she does identify with Christianity and feels her pastor would never guide people to support any candidate?

when i went to temple, they did mention politics.

is she sleeping during her Church services? i find it hard to believe that the church would not help unify and guide it's participants toward certain causes / politicians. in fact, i can't even consider it not to be the case! __________________________________________

About all your carbs with the beans and fruit, at least they are natural and healthy. this is an important thing to realize. maybe the servings too much, but way better than other options of indulgent eating...

i hope you plan something nice to eat / relax to some tv or something small anything small...on the day you are home :) maybe an extra decaf coffee ;)

i hope you have a great day. keep your head up. some people are just "crazy and deranged" haha. jk.


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BearCountryGG - Tuesday Nov 13, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 174.9

25 weeklies

23 dailies

Breakfast = 1 container Umpqua oats and 2 cups coffee = 301 calories 10 ww points

Lunch = deli ham and mustard on 2 slices 80 cal bread, pepper strips , grapes and diet vernors

552 calories and 9 WW points

 Dinner = Fage % yogurt and an orange, = 179 calories and 0 WW points

 

Total calories for the day = 932

Did get hungry in the evening and thought about how low todays calories were...and because I know what too low can do to metabolism...I decided to go ahead and eat more  although I have been working on not snacking...I will make more effort to get my calories and points in during the 3 meals......in the future......

Evening snack was 1 pkt of Quaker sandwich mini's Peanut Butter, and 1 pkg of Nature Vally oats and Honey granola bars

250 calories and 12 WW points

 

totals for the day are now 1,182 calories and 31 WW points = a safer calorie range

 

Progress as of today: 80.9 lbs lost so far, only 29.9 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
Looking good! Hot cereals (when I was eating them) have very nice "staying power" in the morning.

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
Yes they do.....and no dishes...or pans....LOL I think right now they are also keeping the sweet tooth satisfied...I'm not craving desserts much...so the things like this...and the fruit...are taking over right now.

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
Yes they do.....and no dishes...or pans....LOL I think right now they are also keeping the sweet tooth satisfied...I'm not craving desserts much...so the things like this...and the fruit...are taking over right now.


graindart on 11/13/2018:
I've been eating a packet of instant apple/cinnamon oatmeal daily. With the weather cold, the warm bulk of it really hits the spot. It makes a mess of a bowl, but the oldest daughter is in charge of the daily dishes, so I use as many bowls as I wish.......

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
I think the packets are less calories....


Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I agree that it's better to eat a little more and be in control than to try to resist and then end up with either a low blood sugar crash or out-of-control munchies.

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Yes...it took the hunger away and all was well.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
your meals = yum! i remember you used to snack on a lot of carbs (i'm generalizing) throughout the day or your meals (i think it was you!) used to include double items...do you remember this?

i think you eating is great now! healthy mixes.

are those the mini sweet yellow peppers? i like the mini peppers too!

also, i'm googling Umpqua oats and the quaker sandwich thins - i don't seem either of them yet by me!

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
I remember you mentioning that I was eating 2 apples and could eat just 1. Yes...they are the mini peppers...we enjoy those a lot. Boxed is where we got the umpqua oats and the Quaker sandwich things...I see the sandwich things in our local store now.


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
I'm seeing a math mistake yesterday....my evening snack should have been 350 cals to make a daily total of 1,282.......I won't correct it on the post because that would make it go back up to the top of the page....just wanted to correct it.


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
i'm going to google the two items now :)


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graindart - Tuesday Nov 13, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 185.2

Day 48 completed.  17 of 30 walks completed. 

Have some regular work today.  

Was going to complain more about my scale weight not dropping like I think it should, based on yesterday's weighin of 188.  In this round of cutting, I initially touched 188 back on October 24th, which was 3 weeks ago.  So for yesterday's weighin to see 188 again after being 100% on-track for 21 additional days was depressing.  This morning's weighin of 185 calmed some of that irritation.  It's times like yesterday that make you question whether it's worth it or not.  When you don't see any visible progress and yet you've put in the time / effort, it's just hard to justify continuing on the path.  Yet seeing today's number at 185 gives me some hope.  Three lbs in 3 weeks isn't what I'd ideally like, but is at least worth the effort in my mind.  

Yesterday I was thinking about shaking things up with a drastic move just to see the scale numbers move.  Today with the lower number, I'm feeling less inclined to change things up.  I know if I stayed away from salt / popcorn for a day or two, I'd probably see a drop in the number.  But of course the numbers would climb again when I ate popcorn / salt again.  And I love my popcorn with heavy salt / seasoning.

Maybe a few low-carb days just to mix things up?

On to conquer day 49....

Progress as of today: 97.8 lbs lost so far, only 16.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
Happy to see that your scales made you happier......It is tough when the scales are disappointing....but you prevailed. Some low carb days may be a big help....and some low salt days definately would help.........back in the old WW weigh in meetings...we all avoided highly salted foods for a couple of days before weigh in...of course that isn't fat...it's water...but the numbers make it easier to stay on program......Day 49...WOW

graindart on 11/13/2018:
Yeah, I'm torn on whether or not to shake things up. I know it would be an artificial drop, but part of me just really wants to see some decent change in the right direction.

I feel like I'm nearing a crossroads, where there's going to be a change one way or the other. I'm either going to jump off the wagon for a day and enjoy some food I've been craving OR I'm going to change my current diet foods to try to achieve a drop in the scale number.

If I jump off the wagon, the scale will instantly jump 5+ lbs and take a week to normalize. Of course with Thanksgiving next week, the scale number might make me depressed and cause me to fall off the wagon again around Thanksgiving.

So I'm leaning towards changing things up on my current diet just to hopefully see a drop in the scale number. If I'm bored and need to see a change, the artificial scale drop option seems like the lesser of the 2 evils.


BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
I'm all for the artificial drops....and sometimes they aren't artificial at all...they just help break a cycle that is going slowly or no where at all.....I believe in the tricks...and even if they are mind games...they keep us moving forward.......I am afraid to step off the wagon right now...with Thanksgiving coming up I'm afraid I would give myself a pass UNTIL THANKSGIVING.....and then there are leftovers...so I'm working at it hopefully right up until Thanksgiving ( which I can imagine will cause a setback).....tough time of year...but back in the old days...I would wait until New Years day to start...and pig out up until then.....NOT THIS YEAR!!!

graindart on 11/13/2018:
Not sure what I'm doing on Thanksgiving, but knowing it's next week is a little depressing right now. When I got back on-track back in August, I calculated that I should be to goal somewhere around Thanksgiving as long as I stayed committed. Now my projections are I might possibly be to goal by the new year...... And if the scale doesn't cooperate, that might not even happen.

Calmly vented to my wife tonight as we were walking through the grocery store. Kind of trying to figure out if I was "happier" day-to-day being fat and eating whatever / whenever. Just want to get to goal and give my maintenance plan a real solid try.


Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I'm with Bear in that I would be very careful about going off plan (even if for "just a day") at this time.

That happened to me... I remember this distinctly because what kicked it off was eating an entire 1lb bag of cashews. And even the bathroom side-effects the next day wasn't enough to stop me... ended up gaining it all back + 10 pounds.

graindart on 11/13/2018:
Concerning food and dieting, I'm kind of hating life right now. But know I'll be even more frustrated if I take a day off and gain 5+ lbs. Just need to keep plugging away at it and make it to maintenance-land......

So no falling or jumping off the wagon today. The streak will live on at least one more day.....


Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
yes in terms of salt and popcorn, if you don't have issues with salt, i don't see a reason to remove them just to see the scale drop and then rise. calories are calories and those are what makes the scale change. but eating too low is also bad as i'm sure you get that!

just keep on, the process and getting to know it is the hardest part, in my opinion. i would say i love maintenance - which is a totally fun journey in my opinion - you see what i'm eating.


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
you wont believe this...i read something about feeling bloated and salt intake...believe it or not, the feeling of being bloated can hardly be blamed on salt consumption...unless it's really in excess!

because, what we take in is usually what we also eliminate...our body's design to work at balance of what goes in and goes out...i do not know the medical exact term. read it today.


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
or rather, as you said, the body will also correct the balance soon after :)


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happy-1 - Monday Nov 12, 2018
(Change everything every minute. All things thru C)
Weight: 219.1

No weigh in today... Not enough sleep and forgot to do it. I did get back down to 220 over the weekend. Fell off track a bit with sleep, eating and exercise Fri night - Sunday... But I am back on track today. Got up at 3am and couldn’t get back to sleep... but I walked my dog to the park, drank lots of water, ate my oatmeal, and next I will bike to the store to get my dog her favorite bagels.

Made some progress yesterday on paperwork. Getting back to being a functional adult.

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6:30pm. Spent the day not terribly productive, except for 2 dog walks and a bike ride. Cannot get guy from Friday night off my mind. He is literally occupying all the available space in my brain. Those must be some pheromones... Or it was the secondhand nicotine. Geez. Who was OOMLG? What was so great about him? I don't remember. Something something. What did he even look like? Seems hazy.

Fighting off the urge to down an entire pizza to bury inconvenient emotions.

One foot in front of the other. Logging here as I go for "virtual" company as I conquer paperwork tasks that are between me and getting to know a super tall, super hot kickboxing instructor that thinks I'm adorable.

Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Getting some exercise there...that's good.

happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
one foot in front of the other


Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
As long as you are back on track, that is what matters!

happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
Hugs! Never give up!


Donkey on 11/13/2018:
Play it cool :)

happy-1 on 11/13/2018:
Too late... I was too nerdy and showed that I like him too much... but that's ok. He is a smoker anyway. Big ego boost that I really needed though!


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Horn_of_plenty - Monday Nov 12, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

7am Tasty Breakfast: 2 smallish pumpkin choc chip brownies 260, with larger serving whipped cream 140, kombucha 50.

8:30am 2% greek yogurt, chai latte stevia, cinnamon 150

9:30 just bigger hunger lately, so i ate something satisfying: 2 pieces salami 50, egg and egg white 100, 1/4 avocado 80, wrap 100. 330.

...now def waiting till lunch time for the next eats...planning on a cheesy riced cauliflower by bird's eye in my freezer.

1:30pm lunch: salami 100 (because it's around and fast), 1/4 avocado 100, 2 corn cakes 150. 350.

2:30 snacking leading into workout 120 choc chip fiber 1 cookie and caffeine 

4pm tasting the chicken soup 100, banana 100, strawberries after workout 50

caulifower crust 300 and more soup veggies 100, i think going to indulge in a brownie.150

2200...good!

3 day: 2300....EXCELLENT.

 

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I was totally again thinking to go to gym today....but decided, again - just like what happened Saturday, on a home workout. just set on staying home for the whole day :) There's simply no good reason to leave my apt...it's cold out & i'd much rather stay home & save time by skipping out on driving to gym....yes :) and that leads to more time to probably spend cleaning the tub / bathroom as i should! it's about time! ;)

Catching up on some cleaning today - Hamster cage, i swiffered the floors and vacuumed the rugs...i should clean the bathroom a bit, but, it might wait again...lol. laundry is put away. very organized for the week.

i will get in a weights workout tonight at home. laying off a lot of cardio this week, until ankle and legs feel close to 100%.  i was very slightly sore in my thighs from the walk, it didn't bother my ankle at all.

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Happy Monday !!! I woke up around 7am because i went to bed before 8! i was so tired after the walk maybe i was feeling that way because it was also so cold out which potentially can wear you down?

Either way, Yeserday was sooo much fun! I'd never walked the bridge, and still didn't actually finish :( because our route went 2/3 over the bridge and turned around so anyone parking at the site would be routed directly back :) a good idea, i'd say :) If it was nicer weather, it'd be fun to walk all the way over the bridge from Manhattan to Brooklyn and enjoy lunch at a restaurant there after and stay in Brooklyn. But, being that i was so tired and all, it was better how it worked out and that i'd be able to come home yesterday with time to do laundry and get organized so that today i can relax a little bit again and also cook Chicken Soup in the crockpot since i'm home in honor of Veteran's Day holiday off from work :) 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

graindart on 11/12/2018:
A couple years ago we did a California vacation and one of the places we visited was San Francisco. Parked at one end of the Golden Gate Bridge and decided to walk across it with the family. Seemed like a good idea at the time. Made it halfway across and was starting to regret the decision, but was determined to make it across and we did. The walk across in one direction was mostly fun, but the return walk back across wasn't much fun at all. But it's another thing on the family's list of things that we can say we've done (and never have to do again).

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
if you had to, you could have taken a taxi back!...honestly, i'm keeping that option in mind for other trips / adventures hahahaa.

that's awesome you walked it...i hope to walk it someday too!


BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Seems like Sunday! This week is going to be confusing.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
oh, as long as it's a short week, i'll take the confusion :)


Donkey on 11/12/2018:
I wish I had today off... Well, maybe it will be a quiet day, since the banks are closed.

I recently bought myself 5% Fage Greek yogurt. O.M.G. -- SO GOOD and, more importantly, SO FILLING!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
yes, i'm totally a lover of the higher fat yogurts. i find 2% to be at least satisfying, and stay away from fat free :)

sorry you are at work!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
regarding the friend, please read my comments in my previous entry.


BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Yogurt...I'm happy to see that appearing here....so much nutrition in that and great for the gut. ( intestines, not pot belly...LOL)..because you and Donkey don't have pot bellies anyway!!! LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
the yogurt which followed a few sips of kombucha earlier today....is all working on me lol...glad to be home.


happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
Walking the bridge is a big windy workout!!!

horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
Is was very windy but also very sunny :)

horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
It was a good workout !


happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
Some days we all get out of bed like this.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atUuy4_m4NE

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2018:
i will watch this later......


BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
I watched Happys you tube video above......and that gal made me super nervous.......had to turn that off........

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
Darn Ty for reminder to watch it...


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BearCountryGG - Monday Nov 12, 2018
(Between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day)
Weight: 174.9

33 weeklies

23 dailies

Breakfast = 2 cups coffee, Fage 0% yogurt, blueberries from frozen

168 calories and 0 WW points

Lunch was full of nutrition and full of calories and ww points...this is why I had a zero breakfast...I knew lunch was going to be high.  Loads of veggies and good fats....so I'm happy.

1 johnsonville brat, 1 whole avocado, 1 sweet potato, spray butter, leftover cabbage, carrot, onion and red pepper saute, a few peas, diet vernors

833 calories, 31 WW points

Lunch is still sticking with me...and it was a lot of calories...so since I'm not hungry then I'm not going to eat just because it's dinner time.....

TODAY

1,201 calories and 31 WW points

Kinda missing not taking that 3rd picture.....I even considered eating an orange so there would be a 3rd picture.........now that is CRAZY......I'm not hungry.......still drinking the vernors and still sipping water.....settling in for some TV now.

 

 

Progress as of today: 80.9 lbs lost so far, only 29.9 lbs to go!

graindart on 11/12/2018:
Breakfast looks good. I'd be tempted to sprinkle a little granola on top for some crunch / texture.

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Yes...that would be tempting......after the last 2 mornings breakfasts being high point though...I wanted a low point meal...I'm a little afraid that the big breakfasts could get to be a habit......this one ended up being no points and low cal......and I have to say that it took awhile...but that FAGE 0% yogurt isn't as disgusting as it used to be.


Donkey on 11/12/2018:
LOL I love Fage! The blueberries make it look so pretty :)

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
It truly is a good, healthy solid food that keeps me full...and NO COOKING YAYYYYYY!


Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
breakfast looking great...Fage is my favorite also.

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
I use the 0% only because it is zero points......and fruit or maple syrup definately are game changers.....


Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
OMG.....your lunch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so good!

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
LOL a whole avocado is a lot at one time...especially calorie wise...but it was on it's way out...I don't think it would have lasted another day ( it was hiding in the fridge) LOL


happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
yummy! and super happy to see fewer processed foods

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Processed seems to be higher points!


happy-1 on 11/13/2018:
Lol... That youtube video made you nervous? Why? She's just doing modern interpretive dance to a good song illustrating an internal struggle of will vs. emotion.


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Donkey - Monday Nov 12, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

While I feel better today, if not a bit sleepy, I have no motivation to go to work this morning.  None whatsoever.  So I thought I'd log in while I wait for my raw broccoli to dry off a bit after cleaning.

I went to bed early last night -- 8:15pm?  But husband was watching TV, so that kept interrupting my sleep.

On Saturday, I bought some nice treats for the work week:  Fage Greek yogurt (plain) 5% milkfat, cottage cheese 4% milkfat,  more cheese sticks, and a small flavored creamer for those afternoons that are difficult.  Yesterday, I had the yogurt for lunch.  Today, I am taking some of the cottage cheese.  I still have 2 cheese sticks at work, so I'll keep my pack at work until I'm out.  And the creamer is coming with me today.

Here's a look at my food menu today:

 

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost and already at goal!

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Your foods look GREAT.....lots of nutrients there, protein, calcium..........I'm surprised that you have to work today. I've been eating the Fage 0% because of WW....and also a lot of grapes.....today I added blueberries...but I'm going to branch out and add some other fruits...and mix them in.....loads of good things there!!!


happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
Watch the decaf for the chemicals and the creamer for the chemicals and trans fats. Think about coconut oil with cinnamon and stevia for a healthier creamer

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I hear you on the creamers, but right now, I'm not fighting that battle. You're 100% right, though.


graindart on 11/12/2018:
I'm with you on lack of motivation to work today. I'm always like this when I know other people have the day off.

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
Yes, that must be it. I agree!


Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
I haven't had cottage cheese in a long time...it's sooooo good!

How is the collagen working out for you?

Lunch sounds great, great idea with the squash and beans!

great eats!!!!!!!!

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I love the foamy-ness that the collagen adds to my coffee, but I haven't seen any visible improvement with my hair. And for the expense that the collagen cost, I do not think I will be buying another batch.

Also, for the same reason above, I am not going to buy any more hair/skin/nails gummy vitamins any more either. After about a year of buying these, again, no improvement in hair or nails. I think my nail problems are seasonal: in the winter they peel and chip so easily. My hair... well, I think I need something stronger. Going to discuss options when I meet with my new PCP in January.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
lately i've been enjoying decaf as a nice snack also. usually on my commute home i stop into 7-eleven and get a decaf with a flavored creamer! :) just like you!


Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
yes, if you see literally no change in a year, why continue!


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graindart - Monday Nov 12, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 188.1

Day 47 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.

I headed to bed last night at 8pm.  Messed around on a tablet until going to sleep at 9pm.  Woke up at 2am.  Checked my phone / email.  Then decided to get up for the day.  Have got a lot accomplished with everything being quiet and no outside world interuptions.  I'm sure I'll be grumpy / tired by this afternoon.

Some regular work to accomplish this morning, then just working on the software transfer stuff to the new computer system.  Think I might actually be done with the majority of the computer transfer by the end of today.

On to conquer day 48...

Progress as of today: 94.9 lbs lost so far, only 19.1 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Back in the day when I worked, went to school and had kids...I did my homework at 3:00 A.M......it was the only time I could actually work in peace......and essays got done much easier then.

graindart on 11/12/2018:
Actually worked out well today and wasn't tired or abnormally grumpy. Got my work done and some of my extra stuff I needed to get done.


Donkey on 11/12/2018:
Maybe you can get in a nap? Be sure not to confuse hunger with fatigue. Drink more water, perhaps...

graindart on 11/12/2018:
Hate the idea of naps. It just feels like I'm wasting time. Made it through ok and shouldn't have a problem falling asleep tonight.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
yes, maybe a nap in afternoon?

i am sure you feel great for getting so much done without interruptions! i'm catching up on cleaning today.

graindart on 11/12/2018:
I do feel a little more accomplished today. Wasn't overly motivated, but since I had the extra hours of being awake I was actually able to get a fair amount of stuff accomplished.


happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
That’s some streak!

graindart on 11/12/2018:
The streak is going well, but the weight isn't dropping like I think it should. Will write more about that in tomorrow's entry.


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Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Nov 11, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

2 small pumpkin brownies 230 total. Coffee 70. 300. peanut butter 100

Wrap 300 popcorn 100. 400 150 huge apple 

sorta light lunch, but i doubt calories were accurate? entire beef hamburger from Shake Shack. 400 ? really!? that's it? 450-500 is more like it?

back at home, doing laundry and relaxing the rest of tonight with an early bedtime :) few strawberries 50, some raspberries 100 and some sf drinks.

...and relaxing the rest of today at home, glad i could take care of laundry now.

5:30 dinner: salami 100, napa cabbage and broth 100, tortilla chips and avocado 350. 550 total...dessert: pumpkin choc chip brownie, by far my FAVORITE!!!!!!!!!!! 150 cal only, small piece.

7pm and 1 more pumpkin choc chip brownie 100 smaller piece! sooooo darn good!!!!!!!!!

2350-2400 total...maybe a hair more but counting on sleep early, too tired to do much else today.

2day avg: 2350, fine...been pretty active.

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Chicken soup will have to wait until tomorrow....since i'm not sure i'll be up enough hours today to pack it away out of the crockpot lol. so tomorrow i'll cook it.

 

 

 

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have to be somewhere close, just under 10 min walking, at 7:45 today. meeting friend to go downtown near WTC area and brooklyn bridge for the "Kidney Walk" fundraiser for all Kidney Diseases.

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24 pumpkin brownies, small size, 130 cal each. i had two of them at 2am lol...230 cals. too much caffeine in afternoon finally affected me, so i'm up a little at night, it's ok...still have two days left of this weekend :)  the brownies are better at room temp...so, they'll be good this week for work breakfasts.  they are less good straight outta the fridge bc using almond flour, they are a bit dry since the recipe called for whole wheat flour, not almond. i still like them...def cannot share since i was eating out of the pumpkin puree all week and it's the same puree in these brownies lol.

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NEEDING TO VENT SOON ABOUT ISSUES MAKING PLANS. UNRELIABLE FRIEND. AND SAME FRIEND WISHES ME TO MAKE THE PLANS FOR A GROUP BC SHE'D RATHER GO WITH ME SOMEWHERE AS A GROUP!? LISTEN, IF YOU WANT A GROUP TRIP, BE ACTIVE ON IT.  IT'S A FRIENDSHIP I'VE REKINDLED BUT THAT I'M NOT CLOSE WITH HER ANYMORE. FOR THIS REASON. THERE'S SOME LACK OF TRUST IN THIS FRIENDSHIP. USED TO BEST FRIENDS, BUT NOW, I REALIZE MAKING PLANS WITH HER IS SO HARD....THAT I SHOULDN'T REACH OUT ANYMORE FOR TRIPS...TRIPS WERE ALWAYS HARD WITH HER...AND WELL, I'M REMINDED WHY SHE'S NOT MY BEST FRIEND ANYMORE. THIS IS A WOMAN WHO TOLD ME IN THE PAST THAT I'M A FAILURE. THIS IS WHY THE FRIENDHSIP ENDED. BC I TOLD HER I NEED A BREAK...AND SHE TOLD ME I'M A FAILURE AND EMBARASSMENT TO MY FATHER EVERY CHANCE I GET.

HER LACK OF UNDERSTANDING THAT I TRY TO DO THINGS AND PLANS FOR US AND THAT I GO OUTTA MY WAY AT TIMES....

RIGHT, THAT'S WHY SHE'S ONE OF THE GROUP...AND WHY I SHOULDN'T HANG OUT WITH HER ONE ON ONE...OR GO ON A TRIP WITH HER ALONE.

SO, NOW THAT 'VE THOUGHT IT OUT, ABOUT THINKING TO GO ON A TRIP WITH HER JUST US, YOU HAVE MY WORD THAT I'LL NEVER DO IT.

SHE'S STILL A FRIEND, BUT NOT A FRIEND ENOUGH THAT I'LL TRAVEL ONLY WITH HER. I'M NOT SURE IF SHE'S FAKE OR REAL WITH ME AND HOW MUCH I CAN TRUST HER. 

AFTER ALL, SHE TOLD ME ON THE PHONE I'M A FAILURE. SO, EVEN IF HER WORDS WERE SAID IN ANGER, I NEVER EVER SAID ANYTHING LIKE THAT TO HER. AND THAT'S THE DIFFERENCE. I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER HER WORDS TILL MY DEATH BED.IF SHE'S READING THIS, LET HER KNOW HOW HURTFUL THOSE WORDS WERE! CAN YOU IMAGINE!

THE REASON I REMEMBER THIS TODAY IS THAT I HAD A MEMORY ON FB WHERE I WAS VENTING ABOUT THIS SITUATION.

FRIENDS BRING EACH OTHER UP...I ASKED HER ABOUT A POSSBILE SUMMER TRIP...AND SHE FIRST SAYS SHE'D LIKE TO GO WITH A GROUP....WHICH IS FINE. BUT, I'M NOT DOING ALL THE PLANNING OF THIS GROUP THING...

LISTEN, I JUST KNOW. I KNOW BASED ON THE PAST. SO, YEAH. 

ANNOYED SLIGHTLY AT MYSELF FOR EVEN ASKING HER TO GO ON A TRIP. 

I HAVE FRIENDS THAT TRAVEL, THAT WOULD JOIN 1 ON 1 AND THAT I CAN VISIT, I'LL STICK WITH THAT OR GROUP TRIPS INVOLVING THIS PERSON...BUT NEVER JUST THIS ONE WOMAN. 

TOO MUCH HARD FEELINGS / MEMORIES AT STAKE..

LEARNING FROM MY MISTAKES, THIS IS WHERE I AM AT AT THIS MOMENT OF EMOTION TONIGHT. 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/11/2018:
I can sleep after drinking caffeine too...never did keep me awake.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2018:
sleep will soon come for me tonight, and it's only 7pm.


graindart on 11/11/2018:
Guess I drink so much caffeine, that it doesn't alter my sleep patterns anymore.

Good to see your will-power and self-control. If I had 24 freshly baked brownies in the house right now, I'd fall off the wagon and be stuffed by bedtime. Only a handful of them would probably survive until the next morning, when they'd be eaten for breakfast......

Horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2018:
the more and more i get used to maintenance, the easier it becomes to work on portions. i try to never let myself get too hungry and snack often so that i do not get into one of those modes where i want to eat everything i see.

these pumpkin brownies have sf choc chips in them...they are simply AMAZING.

i will make them again soon.


Donkey on 11/11/2018:
Vent away, friend. I do remember this "friend" from some time ago, when you had decided, "that's IT, no more". I'm surprised to hear that you let her back into your life, but I get it. There's a lot of history there. Unfortunately, it sounds like things haven't changed with her? Or maybe the wounds haven't healed? Those were some pretty harsh words.

But I'm proud of you for at least trying again. You have a kind heart.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
nothing has changed for her - if anything, she's more lost than ever, meaning i feel he hasn't grown or changed at all.

her words i'll never forget as they were beyond hurtful. and if my mind thinks it'll be ok to do any trip with her just, i'm reminded first to think of those words she yelled over the phone at me.

reason i had reached out last Spring to her is because i thought it'd be nice to go to beach with her a few times this summer and stuff...which it was.

but i have had plenty of reminders already this year, that i cannot rely on her for very much.

there are things she has helped me with, it's her crockpot i use bc she lent it to me (i've offered tho to give it back and by my own - seems she didn't like the crockpot which is why she lent it)...and other things she's helped and shown me...

but just the backstabbing and hurtful words..and her expectations that if i ask her to go on a trip (like i did), that she expects me now to plan it into a group thing (which requires a lot more responsibiliity at COMMUNICATION on my part with many people)...she just can't have such expectations anymore bc i will NOT fulfill them.

now, if i ask her to do something, and she says "maybe so and so wants to come to"...i'll tell HER TO ASK THEM.

I'm no intermediary. she can COMMUNICATE for hereslf.

i tried making mutliple diff plans on Saturday, trying to see availability in group form...she did not thank me for it...and i did it for her.

therefore, less expectations on my part of what i gotta do for her....because she is not thankful! :) she cannot just expect me to know her schedule (she got mad at me bc i asked her why she didn't respond all day saying to me, jackie, you know i have class.." - i didn't realize bc it was a long weekend - i didn't know she had class....

what i'm saying is, COMMUNICATE girl!

if she's so difficult to communicate with, i just will walk away slowly again. do less with her.

i don't have time for someone who thinks i should jsut memorize their schedule!

i don't know anyone's schedule but my own! like really!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
jdonk...it's like everything she does, she pushes me farther and farther away from accepting any kind of responsibility other than being an acquaintance with her.

everytime she tells me "maybe this person wants to come, or lets do it with the group"...she should be saying, i'll ask so and so...or let me help you out to make the plan with a group.

she's just assuming i take all responsibility. um, NO.


happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
Hugs. Stuff our female friends say sticks with us waaaay longer than anything a guy we are dating does. It hits us in our most vulnerable spots because we let them into our safest spaces.


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