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breakfast: blueberries 80, whole milk pumpkin yogurt oikos 160, oatmeal with stevia/pumpkin spice 170...410.. cocoa butter 90, coffee 50...550.

lunch wrap, egg, mustard/ketch up 250, rest of my brussel sprouts 150, chips horseradish flavor wow!  150...550

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Feels like I have whiplash.  Thankfully,  my neck is the only thing that hurts from my slip & fall.  But oh my does this hurt!  I will be alternating warm and cold on my neck.   Out of Advil, so aspirin until I can get some. 

This feels worse than when I had my car accident.

Poor husband is sick with a cold and had to go out to shovel and snowblow the driveway.   

We need someone to take care of us. 

Weigh in today.  Numbers are down --- oh those figs were calling to me last night!  But I went upstairs to get ready for bed instead.  It's really sad that I no longer have lost 50 pounds.  That is my first goal.

Since walking outside in the winter is now a dangerous thing, I have to think of an alternative. This blows...

Funny how your life can change significantly in a single moment.  

Woke up a smoke detector beeping...it's needs a new battery....so switching out all of them today.  Luckily we had enough batteries on hand but the pkg says best if used before 2020....LOL.....Using them anyway!

Used up the last k cup pumpkin latte this morning and it's 5 WW points!!!   NO MORE OF THOSE!

Coffee was a pumpkin latte at 5 points and 100 cals

Breakfast was 2 leftover beef and bean burritos = 17 points and 530 cals

Super tired and will write more tomorrow... but I have had 3 on track days and feel like I have leveled up like in a video game.

Go team.

Up and still wheezing and now a headache......not letting it stop me today though...sitting around yesterday was enough to last me for quite awhile.........there are plenty of things to do here.

Coffee = 0 points and 2 cals

The kitchen island is making me so happy...BUT,....it was damaged in 3 places.......We ordered it from Overstock.com and when i notified them of the damage with pics.....they have handled that very well...and the new replacement wood panels and top arrive today..( hopefully they aren't damaged...UGH).......but I'm happy with their response to the problem...love the island...I think I love this kitchen now...no more griping about that.

Breakfast was 2 egg omelette with 1 slice american cheese and lots of med salsa = 9 points and 298 cals.

Lunch was chicken bites, sweet potato waffle fries, lettuce with ranch, cherries = 15 points and 771 cals

1,069 cals so far today

Evening was a raspberry Built Bar and a mini bag of Quaker rice crisps and a cup of tea = 5 points and 192 cals for a total for the day of 1,261 calories

The back folds up to make more counter space or a snack bar for 2.......the boxes with the replacement parts arrived today ( they are in the boxes to the left).......

once again, up too late for any situps in the AM, so i'll do them in the PM tonight along with the bike. 

I have a LATE New Years resoultion which is to END my laying in bed habit listening to the radio during the weekdays.  I do like listening to the radio, but, it's screwing with my morning routine and fitness commitment.

kombucha 50

8:30AM breakfast: greek yogurt stevia 140 with blended (can) pumpkin with extra stevia 60, coffee 50..300..

10AM snack: GRANOLA BAR 110 sunbelt banana oat so good!; almonds 100

12:30 lunch: portabella burger with a lot of goat cheese 500, small salad 50, coffee 50. 650 tops

3:45pm snack clementine, baby apple 50

dinner veggies 50, small amount brown rice and black beans from ricky 200, crackers horseradish flavor so cool 200...450, kombucha 50

1750, good end to the week I'm glad !

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going out to lunch for college helper's last day here (he was off during January from college so he came and worked with us like he did this past summer...and he actually was assigned to ME! surprisingly, i have enough work to give him the whole time he was here!! and the work was very simple, but, it was nice to be the one to explain to him how to do it and for him to do it RIGHT. :) He was a good worker and did the work well, not with any crazy mistakes or anything, so it worked out very well.

snack: tbd

dinner: maybe tofu/brussel sprouts....and cranberries/whipped cream (couldn't find sugar free whipped cream since we are off season with it...but i got the light one, def not as good as the sugar free...it's even more airy and not as rich tasting - it has half the fat of regular).

I do plan to sleep in tomorrow as long as i want to, no therapist this weekend and starting next week i'll be coming DURING THE WEEK which will be....interesting to say the least....and a little tiring....but i feel it's better for me than such a cut into the weekend every week and sleeping over parents every weekend bc it felt like i was wasting my time and being even lazier at my folks.

I might do some baking with my coworker Linda this weekend on Sunday, but not sure. We'd be doing both the black bean brownies and the snickerdoodles, both sugar free.

For the last two weeks I have been looking for tahini because I have a few recipes that called for it. I can never find it at the stores, or else I don't know where to look. I looked by the peanut butter the Asian and cultural sections and I can't find it anywhere.

Last night my cauliflower shwarma called for tahini, so I decided to make my own. Yeah, not a fan. My roasted sesame seeds tasted burnt or my blender got too hot blending and made them taste this way, after blending the sunflower seeds with olive oil and salt, I added a little lemon juice and plain greek yogurt, it was nice and creamy but I still tasted hidden notes of burnt. I wilted some kale with garlic and mixed my roasted cauliflower with the kale and a little tahini on my wheat pita bread and it tasted very good with the spices I used. I may make this again...with something different than tahini - is the tahini what makes is shwarma? I may never know, but I think even taziki sauce would have tasted better or I just don't know how to make tahini.

DH was home early and was able to eat warm food, but he was off to bed quite early as he had to be at work at 7:00.

Another traffic issue this morning...man weather or no weather, people here in CLE are having driving issues...I was late for work, but the operations people were listening to the radio and heard about all the traffic issues, I wasn't the only one late.

B: toast with hazelnut spread

L: left over shwarma

D: TBD, DH and the girl are taking care of dinner

This weekend is supposed to be snowy again, we have some errands to run.

Pants for the girl, pick up love seat, the girl has a craft class at the library and grocery shopping on  Saturday

Wind Symphony concert on Sunday we need to go to

Busy weekend. Have a great day! IP

 I was walking outside at lunch and slipped on a sidewalk that was not properly cleared.  Under the newly fallen snow was a sheet of ice.  Fell straight on my back and the back of my head hit the icy pavement hard.  It made a noise when my head hit the sidewalk.   My jaw jarred shut from the impact. 

Quite an interesting experience. I felt ok, although I admit not quite 100%.  Skipped yoga tonight.  Going to bed after taking a hot shower.  I am anticipating some soreness tomorrow. 

Still waking up late, but got the pushups done for AM; PM - upper body/arms

Morning kombucha 50

8:30 breakfast: last of my pumpkin bread 200, greek yogurt 190, extra sweetener, coffee 50

10:30 snack: Chocolate 70

lunch: tomatoes 50, beef cabbage soup, 300, chips 300. 650

snack: almonds?  chocolate 100

dinner: seaeed salad 100, scallops and veggies 150, rice 250, whipped cream 120, jelled cranberries 80....600

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planning to take my alternate 7 train home; have dinner & do remainer of exercises; also use my now weekly home hair remover laser device - last, after exercise...

You know it is going to be a bad day when you meet a truck on the highway and it turns around in front of you with flashing lights "FREEWAY CLOSED - PREPARE TO STOP" Oh yeah, days like these, I just love to sit in my car for an hour on the freeway, so I flossed my teeth. I called DH and told him to leave and go that back way if he wanted to make it to work on time.

I sat in traffic for 45 minutes, I was late for work and I was almost late for a seminar about a new safety program I needed to know the changes about. Crazy, crazy morning.

I do have a webinar this afternoon to learn about inventory, that i've done for the last five years, so this will probably be a snooze fest.

I picked up the girl last night and she was "allowed" to spend the night. She ate periogies, I ate the toasted raviolis. She talked about her Grease play and she is in the ensemble - not the entourage.

B: sprouted grain toast

S: tiny slice of lemon pound cake at the seminar.

L: nachos with black beans, roasted corn, tomatos, onion, avocado, a little cheese and sour cream (and I mean a little - very little) This after watching Scary Dairy - but I can't just throw it away, maybe I should.

D: Cauliflower shwarma a recipe I found

We have the girl this weekend and I think we are going to go buy jeans. Oh - we are supposed to get our new loveseat today...but DH is working daytime, so I guess we can do that on Saturday.

Have a great night IP

Moving slow around here today.......asthma and wheezing and just moving slowly....coffee but not hungry......days like this are just slow and sleepy...will see how it goes.  Common for this time of year so just need to rest and let it calm down......Not planning on counting points today...usually not hungry anyway.  This too shall pass...it always does....

Slept the morning away.......feeling a little more human, wheezing continues but tomorrow will get back to life as i know it regardless.  Just drinking coffee and no actual meals..just a little snacking.....and probably another nap......Sometimes this ends up in pneumonia but I guess I have never been able to prevent it in the past...so no sense wasting any more time trying this time.....will just have to wait and see.  Allergic to all penicillen and sulfa drugs so can't use those unless it becomes a lot more serious. 

Tomorrow  will be back to normal and life goes on. 

One highlight is that I did drop down a size so getting close to where I plan on maintaining.....need to get the scales out and check soon.  Need to find those goal jeans!!!! 

On Tuesday night BF and I went to see We Will Rock You - a musical set to the music of Queen. It was really good, and a nice change of pace for us.

I took Wednesday off work because we got home quite late on Tuesday night, so I was able to sleep in a bit and have a relaxed day. I still did some things though...two loads of laundry, cleaned the kitchen, went for groceries and got the mail, and completed two bike rides on the spin bike at home.

Ready for Thursday! Work, then coach!

We bought a vegan pizza while in the city on Tuesday, and i've been eating those leftovers ever since. Should finish it up for lunch, and then supper will be a surprise because I have nothing ready! It would have been lovely if I had prepped something yesterday, but alas, I did not.

Still stuck in neutral.  Work has become mind-numbing.  Very frustrating dealing with Associate Attorney.   It would be one thing if this was his first year with us,  but this is year 5, and I'm not seeing much growth in ability or leadership.  

A realtor wants us to do a real estate workshop for seniors. Associate said he'd have to ask the boss.  Why?? No,  you don't.  Just say yes!  We'll figure it out the details.  He has to grab these opportunities when they come up.   BE A LEADER!  LEAD US!!

Yesterday,  my daughter and husband went to a job fair that the military  recruiter's office had.  Oh my....  so hard to realize that my last chick is getting ready to leave the nest.   She may or may not move forward with that path,  but eventually she will leave too.  Which is a good thing,  of course,  but with a sad element for me. 

We met at a diner afterwards,  and I did not do so well but oh well. We did not talk about the job fair at all.  I do not want to influence her decision at all - especially negatively. If she wants to talk to me, she knows I'm here. 

Fast-slow yoga is tonight.  Looking forward to it except that I'd much rather do nothing than something.  (Not a good attitude)

The Disaster Yoga studio is going to be offering Fast Yoga on Wednesday nights. Additionally,  they have started offering Slow Yoga on Tuesday and Thursday mornings.  It's too bad that my first experience (Donkey's Yoga Disaster) was so bad,  because this studio really  has a lot of nice classes. 

I just have to get through today.  I can't even think about the weekend yet.  Just working on today. 

AM Situps quickly in 5min  / PM Bike/stepper & early to bed!

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kombucha 30

Breakfast: big slice of pumpkin loaf 400 (indulgent mood, but stupid because it just uses up calories too fast when i eat that much!!), greek yogurt 150, coffee 50

snack: almonds 100

lunch: going to buy from buffet or salad not sure (in the mood for either meat or tofu but a good serving size, maybe even salmon?) / my own cherry tomatoes also..salad greens and dressing 200, corn 50, bread 100, clementine 50, tofu large amount 200..600-650

snack ? small apple 50

1450

dinner : 800 big Japanese , one fried shrimp50, heavy black rice so good 250, scallops and veggies in sauce 300, seaweed salad 150-200 800 approx Diet Coke 

supposedly out to eat with Ricky where we get off the train in Queens before we drive the rest of the way home (15min) in his car. I may get a diet coke to enjoy with maybe sushi or something...i may keep the volume of the meal smaller which would help my stomach as i'm eating very large volumes of food lately. and maybe i'll drive a little bit tonight, since i'm going to get home after i eat i can go straight to my car from Ricky after he drops me at home which also means skipping some of rush hour when i drive on the roads (it'll be after 6, maybe closer to 7 when i get home).

I'm happy to finally be back today.........Between power outages and grocery shopping last friday and buying pizza and other unnecessary foods...I have been off track and I'm not happy about it.  On Friday that shopping trip started a bad food habit back up ( I also bought some very good things)...I'm positive right now that pizza seems to be a red light food for me...then the next day...I was eating more pizza...and then the power started to flicker and go out...we got a notice that the power would be off for repairs to our entire town over several days this week...and apparently that gave me the idea that I should just go throw caution to the wind and have a free for all at the table.....( although that may have happened anyway because of some food that I had already purchased on friday)...so who knows.........................but from friday until yesterday....I ate what I wanted....pants are tight....I'm wheezing....and just generally uncomfortable.  I also stopped counting calories or figuring WW points......I guess I should call it a food fit....because that is what it was.........I'm over my little tantrum now...feeling crummy and ready to clean up my act...the power is back on and working perfectly......and I have a better mind set......and I'm ready to clean up my act again.....I'm also just realizing that just before all of that...I also just noticed that I had dropped a clothing size...which even after the 2 days of pizza.......clothes were still too big...and then it caught up with me.......I'm wondering also if I panicked.....about getting rid of a bunch of favorite clothes to trade them in for some old ones I don't like......( I suspect that is a thing).....but acknowleging that will help in the near future when I will be dealing with it again.......( in reality..just a few days).  BUT...now I know...In times of stress..I sabotagae myself.  One step forward, one step back.......not so unusual I guess...but the power is on and working well......there is good food and not so good food in the house and I need to deal with managing a happy medium between them........and life goes on.

So far this morning  is coffee = 0 points and 2 cals

To top all of this off the Hound with the jaw cancer has taken a sad turn and D is on his way to the vet this morning to have him put down.........It's been a rough few days for all of us.

Breakfast = 1/2 Cup fage 0% yogurt, blueberries = 1 point and 209 cals

I'm now realizing that all of this happened with the sick hound....I actually went shopping friday to get him some yogurt, hamburger and anything that would be edible for him.....the pizzas were not on the list...but they went in the cart.......the sick dog was actually the first to add to my stress levels........This all was a food fit...eating like I did....did not make the dog get healthy again, it didn't keep the power on through a storm, and it didn't help in any way ( although I am still wearing my favorite clothes for a few more days)...........I am a stress eater...I knew that.....but I hadn't resisted it...coping skills need to be worked on here.  D is going to come back home from the vet today very sad.....not a good day here...but that doesn't mean that I have to kill myself with food as the weapon.

Lunch was a lenders bagel, 2 t, butter, a jif to go, cucumber, banana and blueberries = 19 points and 774 calories

Dinner = 1 cup unicorn cereal, unsweetened almond milk, 2 cuties and a cup of tea = 6 points and 1,286 cals......still have points leftover for the day but they will roll over to weeklies.....and I already have in 1,200 cals...so just letting them rollover........

Calories for the day = 1,286

I made the spinach artichoke casserole with rice. NOTE TO SELF: Vanilla unsweetened almond milk is still sweet!! OK lesson learned. Needless to say, this didn't work well in my casserole. I could still taste a sweetness that I didn't like. DH had some when he got home and he said...don't make this again! LOL.

Tonight I have to get the girl, she has a dental appointment for a cleaning. She also is in the entourage for the Grease play at her school. I hope she likes it. She also found her earbuds, which I am happy about.

They are messing with DH's schedule at work and I think he is working 9 am - 7:30 pm. He should be home by 9:00 pm so I will get to see him a few more hours.

B: toast

L: left over spinach artichoke dip (i couldn't do this so I dumped it) - strawberry poptarts, clemetines

S: sweet and salty granola bar

D: probably toasted ravioli - haven't though this all the way through - dental appointment is messing with schedule.

have a great night! IP

Day 36 on Noom
Day 4 of enforcing boundaries around time management with dad
Dad tantrum count this AM: 8
3 night streak of controlled bedtime eating (counting last night as controlled because I didn't eat enough during the day) 

Support group last night was helpful. I think I horrified two very well maintained older ladies who care for their husbands and are good friends. They are the type who go to book groups and drink wine. I hit it off with a lady who takes care of her 90+ year old mom, and she invited me to a shop ride and a bike clinic. I declined the shop ride... I don't think I can keep up right now, but I said yes to the bike clinic. I will be there Saturday with bells on.

The support groups are helpful but I feel bad after... Like I freaked everyone out. But at least the lady last night didn't run away screaming.

Plan for the day is to take dad on errands... Doctor, McDonald's, Ralphs... Then come home and collapse. I don't think I want to eat anything at McDonalds. They have a chicken southwest salad, but it's a lot of sodium and preservatives... and not that good. I'll bring something in from my cooler while dad eats that, see if they say anything.

• Work on boundaries with dad
• Adult loss of parent support group

Day 35 on Noom

Today is day 2 of enforcing boundary wih dad assignment from therapist. 2 business, 1 errand, and 1 quality time session, 2h each. If he passes, we try again at the next schedued session. He has been talked through it with the bereavement counselor, the pro organizer showed him how to use the calendar and shopping list. I reminded him of today's session last night, and managed his resulting tantrum. I went out at the appointed time and tried to get him started and he threw a tantrum and passed on the session. I went and hid in my bedroom and had breakfast and coffee in there. I spent the time woring on getting Alexa to work better for him and documented the instructions. Then I went out to get food and managed the next tantrum. Then I realized that since Thursday of last week the house has gotten gross again. I gave up, showered and I started in my bedroom and hung up clothes, vacuumed, etc. I still have piles and piles of tools and christmas ornaments in my bedroom. 

Augh.

4pm and I am too exhausted to go to yoga at 5pm... probably the infection on my foot which is at least better than yesterday with the antibiotics and I can walk on it again.

I am taking a break and watching Hulu. Then I will get up and go to the caregiver support group. Tomorrow is another day.

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Coffee: Coffee, Lairds Unsweetened Creamer, nonfat milk powder

Breakfast: Apple, cheddar cheese stick, 2 hard boiled eggs

Tea: Tea, milk, stevia

Lunch: Lean cuisine chicken parm, 4 cups veggies

Tea: Skipped

4 PM Hangry Snack: 1 cheese stick, tortilla chips... Would have had carrots, but tantrum.

Dinner: Skipped

Tea: Just plain decaf tea

Extra Snacks: Chicken teriyaki leftovers, tortilla chips and salsa - Hot chocolate mug cake, Protein pancake, 1/2 a pbj on wheat. Red because of bedtime eating.

Exercise:

1 Thing to Move Forward:

• Set boundaries with dad
• Worked on configuring Alexa for Dad's calendar, to do list, and shopping list 

Up late after laying in bed almost an HOUR! what!? lol...gotta work on my habits in the morning, i guess.

Breakfast: pumpkin loaf (i like it!) 200 with yogurt greek 150 and extra stevia in it, coffee 50. 400 so good 

11am more pumpkin loaf 200

lunch: cabbage meat soup 250, chips and guac 250, clementine 50. 550

snack sucking candies 50

bigger dinner: big serving black bean chips 350, same soup as lunch 200-250, few roasted brussel sprouts 50 ; and dessert - jelled cranberries large amount 60, hot coffee/coconut milk 60. 

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Well....I think They have the electrical situation taken care of.........and it didn't take as long as they were thinking it would.......all worked out well...I'm glad to get back to the pics tomorrow.......didn't take any the last couple of days and I kind of miss it.  It has been in the blow zero range off and on here...so glad to have things working properly again.