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horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

20.0 Hours in the Sun/Cardio :)

organize clothing so i can drop off a donation whereever i can find an open bin to donate clothes this coming weekend...

tonight: upper body weights; since snow/rain i will not do any cardio extra on commute.


kombucha 50

breakfast thicker bread end 200, cream cheese 50, egg 100, coffee included..

snacks thru 10am: 100 cal granola bar, some candies 50...HUNGRY / tired lol...but i did get better sleep last night...so i will do my weights tonight :)

Noon healthy but indulgent lunch: salad with some olive oil 100, chinese leftover chicken 150, rice 200, minimal sauce 50? small persimmon 50, gummies 100, black coffee. 600...very indulgent and large volume - now extremely tired and sitting with a black coffee...makes me want to skip my workout tonight...but, i'll just try to get it done, i'm sure i'll feel better later....

5:30pm dinner: will be my cauliflower steak prepared with some sauce 150....., large amount, and with it will be more of the chinese chicken 200 :)....chinese broccoli 150,...500...tortilla chips ..200....700...hungry day...fruit persimmon 50...kombucha 50

2000...

if hungry late at night: chocolate again?

lol, i'm missing my guinea pigs...i can't wait to snuggle with them when i get home. they are beyond used to me....and it's the cutest thing EVER how we get along so so so well!

 


 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
We used to have bins for donating clothing, but I prefer to choose my charities to donate to. I love to browse through the charity shops here as you can find some real treasures for very cheap. We have charity shops which benefit the heart assocation, cancer research kids, Oxfam, and Red Cross, and churches.

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
that is great too!


Donkey on 01/26/2021:
I have options for donating clothes as well, but with COVID, some folks aren't accepting donations at this time. I'm fortunate that I have a spare room where I can keep the bags of clothes to be donated. If I just wanted them o-u-t of the house, then I might just drop off at any bin accepting donations.

I will aim to do upper body weights today/tonight as well!

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
Yes, i'm in the out of the house club for my clothes right now!! haha


Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
That is a big job organizing clothes. Hope you have a good day.

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
i did some in Spring...now some more :)


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
I never did know how to count those thicker slices of bread.....usually doubles or 1 1/2 times the cals...

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
yes, the ones on the ends of the loaf!!! instead of throwing them out, decided just to use them.


legcramps on 01/26/2021:
Yum, bread...LOL. I'm just hungry right now for these things - bread - and it's hard to not salivate at your post haha.

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
just wayyyy too hungry here in mornings...not used to so many hours in the morning leading up too lunch...early mornings compared to when i wasn't working, LOL


grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
I've gone a couple of weeks with no bread but will pick some up tomorrow. I'd like to have a sandwich at least once a week for lunch, maybe twice. Freezing the rest.

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
good idea...i haven't ever frozen bread...sounds like a great idea!

as i get even more experienced with my eating, i will work to save more and more food in the freezer...great idea!


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
It seems like a lot has happened since I’ve been here! Congrats on the new job. How long have you been there? I totally hear you on the hungry mornings when working. I remember getting up 5:30, eating so early and lunch seemed like a distant dream in the misty future lol And I freeze stuff ALL the time. I buy stuff on clearance like bread and freeze hehe. It stays perfectly fine, then I just toast one slice at a time.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Yeah, I got to donate too. Remembered a cool black lacy hippie top I bought last year, knowing it was way too small (on sale) & it almost fits now.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
HOP, I freeze bread, cakes, cookies, pies almost everything you can think of. Even milk and creamers. Cheese too. About the only things I know of that don’t work well are certain fruits

horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
And also veggies right ? And eggs


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Never tried eggs, but not using the second carton of EggBeaters, so thinking about it. Only veggie I ever had the need to freeze was corn on the cob when purchased in bulk for my parrots. Cooked after defrosting in microwave and it was fine.


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Jacky82020 - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021
(CR & IF & Exercise)
Weight: 113.2

Doing soy protein powder mix for change today.  marvelous flavors and great texture, very thick and rich when mixed with water in the blender.   used chocolate mocha today, had a cup cold and another hot.  100 cal per serving, 27 gms protein.  

 

Just accidentally deleted all of my January posts and lost my precious bar graph!!!

this single entry should restore it.

Progress as of today: 20.8 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
It did! So only takes one


horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
so techy.

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
lol Having fun! Still pissed I deleted my august and September bars. Will likely never have the motivation again to lose at that rate unless I pork up again which ain’t happening


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
Have you lost weight!? I sooo want to be where you are :-)

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Lost 20 pounds or so since 8/20/2020. Aiming for 110 pds.

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Lost 20 pounds or so since 8/20/2020. Aiming for 110 pds.

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Need to say this a few more times. Hate these multiple posts.


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
That’s amaZing! Great job! I see it says CR. Is that calorie restriction (cron?). If so, I read a book and was super interested in it, did it for a little while and fell off. Still want to do it though.. you

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Yep, that’s what it is. I stumbled across an ebook at the library called The Switch that reminded me of the calorie restriction research. I am far more interested in disease risk (cancer, CVS etc) than weight loss at this point, but dropping the 20+ is good! Terrific book that sums up all the research.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Book looks interesting

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Loved it so much I bought both a digital and print copy. The $50 I spent to get a library card for the Brooklyn Library was definitely worth it! So many ebooks! All the new books. Sometimes a wait, but not long.


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
I’ll look it up! Thanks!


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coffee&calories - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021
(Calorie Counting and Steps)
Weight: 0.0

 Been awhile. Life is so so busy with my family and especially so with lockdown and elearning. I joined DietBet back in December and although I regret it immensely most days, I will probably meet my goal because I'm too cheap to lose money. So in that sense it's good. I bet to lose 10% of my weight in six months. So that would bring me down to about 112.5 pounds. I really struggled to make any progress but my weight was artificially high at the beginning so I didn't really have to. The next weigh in is on Sunday and I need to be 117.5. I over ate yesterday so I went up to 119.8 but I was 118.6 before that. recently counting calories has just led me to over eat, I just couldn't get myself together. I saw a blog post on bright line eating and while I had heard of it before and wasn't interested, it did peak my interest for some fast weight loss. It feels like I am eating a ton and that's what has gotten me going. I don't think I will do it indefinitely, but it does force me to eat healthy foods, I feel very full, and good grief I do lose weight! But the moment I start counting calories during the day, and start thinking if I counted I'll just add this ice cream etc. I start to go off the rails. Why is that? I'm thinking that counting calories is a good strategy for me to maintain my weight when I can eat more, but when I'm losing weight and I can't eat much maybe I'm best if I just stick to a fairly rigid plan. I'll try to post my meals for accountability! I wonder if I can take pictures of them to post...

hope everyone is doing well!! 

Pictured for Breakfast: 2 eggs, 1 packet oatmeal, 6 Oz fruit

Lunch: huge Greek salad, fruit, Diet Coke (oops- small cookie and bite of ice cream -not pictured)

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Is DietBet the one I've heard about where you can win money is you lose? How do you prove how much you weigh? Or is this in person?

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
Yes that’s the one! You have to weigh in with a photo and they give you a code word for that particular weigh in. If it’s suspicious they make you do a video.


Donkey on 01/26/2021:
I would recommend, then, if you are currently having problems incorporating "treats" into your daily plan, and you are still trying to lose weight, that you stick to your regular "rigid" plan. Having the same foods day after day tend to help when losing weight. You know the calories, you know the nutrition.

You can add treats once you are maintaining - or even when you no longer have money to lose on the DietBet program. Something about trying to add them while trying to lose weight can just trigger a person to go off track.

Good luck! You've done quite well!

PS Yes, you can post pictures here. Many folks have done so - BearCountry, Grannieannie, Horn of Plenty, Inner Peace.

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
I think you are spot on with your advice Donkey.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Never heard of Diet Bet. How does that work? My sister in law works at a place that periodically has employee pools where everyone chips in and the one who loses the most takes the jackpot. She usually wins!

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
You choose a bet, for example 4% in 4 weeks, 10% in 6 months, weigh in with a picture and the code word they give you. In my bet, they have monthly weigh ins with a goal to meet. Half of the money is towards the final weigh in, and each month before its split up (so the first weigh in I got like $21 usd). I don’t care about making money, but if I win my money back plus a little extra I’m taking it all to spend on new clothes :-)


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Re pics: When you hit edit, you will see an icon to the left of the calendar icon. Hit that. You will be promoted to upload a pic from your files. It has a dimension field. I use 300 for the upper. The lower usually fills in automatically. I had trouble with it initially, but you’ll catch on fast enough. Let me know you need more help.


Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
Hope you are having a good day.

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
Thank you! You too!


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Great pic! Wonderful breakfast.

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
Thanks!


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Nice pic....looks delish!

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
:-D


legcramps on 01/26/2021:
I love your breakfast! Fantastic job; very nutritious and balanced.

coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
Thank you! I’m trying harder lol


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innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021

Weight: 293.1

Sunday night the girl texted me and told me her mother said some very hateful things to her - like - "i wish you would have died on the table with me when you were born" and "i should just wreck this car and kill us all" and "both you and your brother are the worst kids ever" - I mean who says things like that to their kid? The straw was on Monday morning the step-dad said 'they would all be better of dead" this is when the girl texted DH and then he tried to do something. He was worried about her safety. He spent most of the day with the lawyer and at the court house. He also called children services and was told they don't take those types of threats seriously because "everyone says stuff when they are angry".

DH had a zoom call with the magistrate this morning and was able to get the girl over here termporarily until the 8th - for the next court date.

It's been a really hard last two days. I'm still freaking out the POS will show up to take the girl at 8:00 when DH is at work...this will not bode well for my nerves.

Monday - blood sugar 123

B: yogurt and granola, vanilla iced cappachino

L: bread - left over pasta from Sunday night

D: left over beef and brocolli from the Friday night Chinese Food

Tuesday - blood sugar 115

B: yogurt and granola, vanilla iced cappachino - 1 piece of toast

L: string cheese, granola bar - waiting for the girl at the orthodontist

D: TBD - thinking of wrap from diner

Busy at work most of yesterday and some of today.

I just have no words and am still very emotional over the events. My son called and talked to me and calmed me down a bit. Miss that guy!

Have a Tuesday! IP

Progress as of today: 44.8 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
OMG who the hell says all that to their child??


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
I don’t know the context here but YIKES. This is awful. Are you a foster parent?

innerpeace on 01/26/2021:
Step-parent


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Seems you take everything this kid says at face value. Teens lie like hell & love creating drama says me, longtime high school teacher in the big city. Remember how Judge Judy says you can tell a teen is lying: their mouths are moving. Nowadays must be the fingers.

innerpeace on 01/26/2021:
well the POS and her husband tell me all the lies too - it makes me wonder. I will take the word of this girl over any adults who lie to my face...especially if her safety is in question. This woman as a Protection order against her husband...that is all!


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
You’re right, better safe than sorry. Hope you can get permanent custody soon.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Sounds like things are completely out of control......and the social worker is nuts right along with the evil mother and her idiot husband. These people are on the edge of insanity......Sounds to me that you will get custody....especially now.....but Mom will still want that child support check......UGH ((HUGS))


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Jacky82020 - Saturday Dec 05, 2020
(CR & IF & Exercise)
Weight: 115.2

 

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Progress as of today: 18.8 lbs lost so far, only 5.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/05/2020:
How is the knee feeling now?

Jacky82020 on 12/05/2020:
Very painful! Getting worse. Staying in bed with the dogs and reading. Walking with awful limp like I have a huge fork shoved up my butt.


grannyannie on 12/05/2020:
Ouch! Take it easy and don't make it worse!


Maria7 on 12/05/2020:
Hope you knee gets better.

Jacky82020 on 12/05/2020:
Thanks, Maria. Sure it will, only a matter of when. I am dreading the possibility of surgery. The pain! The expense!


Horn_of_plenty on 12/05/2020:
i really also hope your knee gets better. i struggle with ankle and leg former injuries as well, sucks.

1000 cals doing nothing is like being an elderly woman who is bed-bound...you burn more, i am sure!

sorry some garlics were bad but it sounds like you got a lot of good ones! how awesome that you are into these types of experiments. you'll have to let us know on this natto, i'd NEVER had tried that on my own if you paid me! (well, depends how much you'd pay me! ) hahaha

Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
Yep, the one thousand is for going nothing or next to it. Sure the average person (my size) self-isolating and not exercising would burn closer to 1200. Averages are just that, averages. Do believe I’m at one end of the bell curve & my BMR is below normal. So, the 1000 is not the old bedridden lady in my case.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/05/2020:
i hope you are able to learn something more than you already do now about your knee. for me, it was terrible and endless and painful for YEARS. then i just learned i'd have to let it recover, like you are, i took 3 months off everything and got very depressed...that's what i needed to start the recovery...

Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
Very anxious to see what this guy has to say. Too bad the appointment was so far out from when I called, but on the other hand I felt being triaged to the basement meant it was a minor injury that may well heal before the appointment. He did say call if it gets worse and I should have. This has gone on 2-3 months. I am terrible with dates!


Donkey on 12/06/2020:
At least some of the garlic turned out. Imagine how disappointing it would have been if nothing turned out.

It will be intresting to see what happened to your knee. I foresee a scan of some sort. (I hope that's not delayed by covid.) Then, I predict either physical therapy or a consultation with an orthopedic surgeon. PT is fine and fun. The other option... not so much.

Let's see if I'm psychic!

Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
Your psychic abilities are 100% in alignment with my own! The Image Center is in the same building. I do know it closed down for three months earlier in the year. My mammogram was postponed. Maybe they did certain images? idk. Also know several surgeries including joint replacements etc were deemed elective and weren’t done. Haven’t followed all this lately Don’t watch local news & cancelled subscription to local paper. They did say the two sports PCPs worked with orthopedic surgeons in another location. I am really hoping for a DX tomorrow.



legcramps - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021

Weight: 0.0

January 22 - work at gym; burned unknown calories.

January 23 - hike; burned 282 calories.

January 24 - yoga; burned 113 calories.

January 25 - REST


Trying to intentionally slow down, taking a weekend break to try and avoid "Weekend Warrior" burnout. It worked well since it was too cold to stay outside for too long anyways. Monday early morning was something crazy like -48 degrees (celsius) with the windchill.

Athletic therapy this afternoon and hoping for a ride on the spin bike as well. BF wants to get in another yoga session later on tonight, which is ok too.

Ok, i'm just going to say it. I'm hungry.

Not - HUNGRY - like i'm not eating enough food because HAHA that's funny. Hungry like I want to eat something other than the same things i've been eating every day for the last two weeks. My new mantra is "ONE MORE WEEK" and then I can finally start re-introducing. The last two weeks have felt like a very long and isolated time. Like I just want a potato. Or a slice of toast and peanut butter. Also red meat would be great. 

Having said that, I can't complain since I have only had a couple of instances where i've eaten something that negatively affects me and gotten sick in the last two weeks. And even then, it didn't last as long as it normally would have. Not being sick EVERY DAY has been really nice, and if i'm honest, i'm a little frightened of giving that up.

At least now I know - if I do have a flare of intolerance to a certain food - what I can eat to get back to normal. I imagine the next few months will be a lot of back and forth like this; eating something, having a flare, getting back to normal, repeat.

Oh well, I have nothing better to fill my time with!

Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Wow! Do you live at the North Pole? To think I thought 30F is frigid. So you think the food intolerance is certain fresh fruits? I could live with that as long as it’s not bananas. Love them.

legcramps on 01/26/2021:
Not sure what it is yet. Definitely apples and pears since I tried to eat that on the elimination diet and that didn't work out for me at all. Think eggs and dairy also, possibly some grains and maybe peanut butter.

Unfortunately, my Mom had some allergy testing done a few years back and turned out to be allergic to a lot of foods, so if it's hereditary or genetic I might be in trouble.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
When I found out I was allergic to bananas I was not happy about it..........and avoided them for many years...it got easier until one day I tried one...and was no longer allergic....been fine ever since...so there is hope that at some point...the allergies may stop. ( the same thing for walnuts)

legcramps on 01/26/2021:
Yes, I believe this is not permanent. I keep telling myself that over and over haha, so that I don't feel so bad about having to give up certain foods. I tell myself I can try them again in a month or maybe two months and see if I can tolerate any better at that point.

Work in progress! Thanks for your comments :)


grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Yikes that is seriously freezing! I remember being -20F when I lived in the UP of Michigan.

Hope you aren't allergic to many more foods!


horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
i'll just say, my days are increasingly hungry as of late...especially in mornings bc my mornings are so long...getting up much earlier these days! LOL


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
I totally get the whole “I’m not Hungry but I’m also not satisfied” feeling


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bearcountrygg - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021
(Intuitive eating and adding carbs as needed)
Weight: 0.0

I know I have spoken about seeing multiple numbers here before as in 1111, 222,333,444, 555 etc.....and I'm seeing them multiple times a day....( usually on a digital clock)........What surprises me is that months can go by without seeing any....then it starts again.....it has been very intense these last few days.  currently 1111 , 222, and 444.  I never see it as a negative....no matter what it is supposed to mean.......and it is always at a time where I am doing a lot of soul searching.  I do not think it is a coincidence.........and I find it encouraging.  I wake up out of a sound sleep and see them on the clock.......I think there is so much more to life than I know or understand and I think it provides  guidance. 

My soul searching has been centered around the fact that I have always been  a caretaker type.  Going back to my earliest years....I was always working on making sure that everyone else was fine.......specifically....I recall that in junior high ( middle school to you younger ones).....In art class....we were told to go get some clay from the counter......I believed that there wasn't enough for the entire class.........and I was right....the person ahead of me took the last of it...and I made sure I was the last in line so that I would be without instead of someone else........BUT.......while there was no clay for me......there was something sitting there...a milk carton full of hardened plaster of paris........I wondered if the teacher would let me carve that instead.....I told the teacher there was no clay left and asked about the other alternative......he smiled and said yes.......I carved to my hearts content.........and got an A on that project.......everyone else was elbow deep in clay.

Around the same age....my Dad told me he would pay me 1 Cent for every leaf I picked up...I have  a very clear memory of not wanting to take his money...I picked up 10 and collected my dime..........LOL...now if he had asked me to help him rake...I would have done it happily.....without pay.  I know he took it differently because he said so many years later.......( I wish I had thought at the time to explain my not wanting to take his money)......

Basically I see that I have devoted my life to making sure everyone else was okay........at the expense of myself. 

I see  that while I was taking care of others.....they were expecting me to fix everything for them and not working on fixing things for themselves.

HOW DO YOU CRIPPLE A PERSON?  You cripple a person by doing things for them that they could do for them selves.

Did you know that when you stop enabling people they get mad at YOU?????

DID YOU KNOW THAT PUTTING EVERYONE ELSE FIRST MEANS YOU ARE PUTTING YOURSELF LAST WHILE AT THE SAME TIME THEY ARE ALSO PUTTING THEMSELVES FIRST?

When people stop working hard for what they want.......they lose.......

Hard work is  what makes people tough...resilient and capable.

When you baby someone.........you take away their power........

I see that while I have spent my entire life being a caretaker....it's time for me to stop that....and devote what is left of my time here working on me.  I need to better myself...and allow others to better themselves.... I go to bed at night hoping that family members get home from work safely........I stay by the phone in case someone needs me.........I set up my days to suit others...say yes when I want to say no.............do things out of love for others  to make them happy while it's not making me happy......

I think I need to work on me........Selfish is not a word that I am too familiar with....I wonder how it feels to be selfish.......I think that I am going to make it my job to find out!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
Wow...you must have written today's post about caregiving for me. It's all I've ever done. And still do. And you are so right...when you stop doing everything, they get very, very MAD at you and let you know it. Your caregiving becomes expected instead of appreciated. And taking time for yourself? What is that? Isn't everything supposed to only be about taking care of others and forget ourselves??? We know the answer to that, don't we? So why do we not ever consider ourselves? I know. 'Cause we can't 'relax' until we know everyone is okay. Right?

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
I'm glad and sad that this resonates with someone else Maria....We really put ourselves out there and people are more than happy to take advantage......Maria>>....WE NEED TO work on PUTTING OURSELVES FIRST...at least more than we have been!!!! Lets do some things for US TODAY!!!!!!


legcramps on 01/26/2021:
Great post today!

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Thanks......I've been aware for so long...but was never able to break that cycle.....but working on it now.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Isn’t there a happy medium? Doing for others and letting others do for you? Wow! You were a terrific, caring compassionate kid and grew up to be a good, kind, caring, person. Don’t know about the numbers. I have no supernatural beliefs. I’d have to say, therefore, you’re looking for repeated sequences, maybe subconsciously. idk. Very interesting!

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
There should be a happy medium...but some people ( me)..just seem to be focused on making others happy.... The number thing happens in groups...not looking for it....for long periods of time they don't happen.......I think there is a lot more out there than people know. I had an athiest grandfather who saw heaven minutes before he died...and said so....he said it was beautiful. This has all started since my parents passed away.


horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
great quote, will write more later...didn't read your entry fully yet.

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
:)


grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Great post! You must have a huge heart but you are right, you do need to take of yourself as well.

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
I don't take care of myself well enough........it can be hard for me to focus on that.....I usually seem to be in helping mode.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Yes, Bear, listen to Annie Take good care of yourself

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
I'm working on it.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Yes, Bear, listen to Annie Take good care of yourself

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
:)


coffee&calories on 01/26/2021:
I resonate with this sooo much. I’m a push-over, in addition to a giver, it’s just my nature and I have a VERY hard time standing up for myself...

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Me too.....I hear you....and I'm working on taking better care of myself....people pleasers are born I swear....it is our nature but we can also learn to be more careful with our self care I think.


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Donkey - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Quite a bit of snow last night, and there's still a light snow (flurries) coming down.  This is one morning I'm glad that I don't have the pressure of having to go to work!

My routine is off this morning, because I had to shovel first thing, rather than ride my bike.  I had to shovel, you see, because today is garbarge & recycling pick-up, so I had to get the cans to the curbside, but had to shovel first.  It took me a little over an hour to do.  Afterwards, I was hungry, so now I'm eating breakfast, rather than riding my bike.  Because I have no work today, waiting for my COVID test results, I can ride my bike later this morning.  It's just unusual to eat before I ride the bike.  My back is a little achy from shoveling, so I will take some Aleve and then ride the bike to stretch out the ache.

Yoga last night was wonderful!  I was able to keep up and stay coordinated.  I was trying to connect my movements with my breath, and stay in the moment.  I had a little trouble remembering the sequences, so if I didn't have the verbal cues, I wouldn't know what move to do next.  Well, that's what the teacher is there for, right? 

I do not have high ambitions for today.  I'd like to work on the puzzle, READ, upper body weights (maybe), looks like I'll have to shovel again, perhaps.

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
Wow, shoveling is a lot of hard work...that is exercise, itself. Hope you have a good day.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Hope your test comes back okay! Is your daughter still staying in her room?


legcramps on 01/26/2021:
My lower back always gives me a little trouble when I shovel. Must not be using proper body mechanics; I do tend to only throw snow on one side of my body rather than switching it up and using both sides.


horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
I'm so glad you are home too..

the storm is coming down here but not sticking due to warmer than freezing temps, thankfully.


grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Shoveling is a good workout.

Glad you had a good yoga session. Hope your test is negative.


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grannyannie - Tuesday Jan 26, 2021
(Healthy eating, exercise)
Weight: 159.0

Picked up shopping at 10am as usual. 

Our driveway was a bit icy so I asked hubby to back the car up to the road. I have a fear of sliding across the road and into the loch! Had drizzle on the way home so it isn’t cold enough to snow.

I’ve been getting hungry mid morning and mid afternoon. So I’ve bought some filling snack bars - the quinoa/peanut/dk chocolate, and some fruit and oat bars. 

No workout today. I'll try to make more progress on the jigsaw puzzle. 

Menu: 

Total:  under 1200

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/26/2021:
The snack bars are a good idea, as long as you can limit them to 1 per snack. None of this "eat the whole box" sort of behavior, lol...

I've been making progress on the lighthouse by the shore puzzle. I was determined to work on the sea, and ended up making significant progress on the sky. Go figure! I find it very relaxing. I listen to news on the radio while doing the puzzle.

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Yes, definitely to one per day!

I'm finally making good progress on this beach and palm trees one.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
Snack bars sound fabulous! The poor husband had a hard time shoveling snow from the driveway last Saturday when we did the Walmart pickup. Also got RX from the shoot. They have a call and a send button. You hit call and ID yourself and they send the RX down the shoot in a plastic box, looks like a little suitcase. Then you empty it, insert into the slot and hit send. Noticed more ppl using the shoot, they added a second.

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
We never have enough snow to shovel plus we couldn't - gravel driveway.

I always pick up my repeat prescription from the doctor's office. One person allowed in the entryway at a time - tell them through the speaker what you want and she slides open the window.


Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
Congratulations on being in the 150s! Well done!

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Thanks! Finally!


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Congrats on breaking that number barrier.

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Thank you! Now for the next goal.


horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
sorry you got a bit of ice going on...we got the snow flurrying all day but it should melt because it's just above freezing! :)

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
We got a bit of sleet and some wet snow but should be gone in the morning as it will be upper 30's tonight.


Jacky82020 on 01/26/2021:
That’s interesting. Don’t know of any docs here that deal with meds. Think some now closed pain mill places did that and maybe diet pill mills earlier.


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Horn_of_plenty - Monday Jan 25, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

 19.5 Hours in the Sun/Cardio :)

organize clothing so i can drop off a donation whereever i can find an open bin to donate clothes this coming weekend...


kombucha 50

breakfast thicker bread end 200, cream cheese 50, egg 100, coffee included..

snacking: some sucking candies and a granola bar as of now..200

healthy lunch: tofu 100, 1small wraps 100, leftover cooked veggies 150, small orange 50. 400 maybe a black coffee. 

dinner the roasted breadcumb & cauliflower leftovers...but what meat???...may just do chinese takeout and save cauliflower for a different day, will order chicken with broccoli for dinner - chinese came with an egg roll fried, so ate the inside cabbage and small pork pieces and just a piece of the tasty fried shell 200, chicken and sauce 200, broccoli with sauce (tried to take some sauce off bc it's heavy chinese sauce but is very tasty and cheap by me - so i may keep ordering this!) 200. 600...dessert  4 kit kat fingers 210. 800 total....kombucha 50....

1850.

got some cardio via my commute...rounded it up to an hour bc i was also not sitting at my desk all day and was up running up and down the stairs a bit...to go to the office next door to drop things off.

 

 


plan to take it somewhat easy tonight...no exercise, just light cardio.  i went to bed late last night and already want to try to sleep earlier tonight.... :-)

have a nice day all!

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
Have a great day at work and this evening. I have clothes to give away to charity shops (British Red Cross or Oxfam), but they are all closed so it needs to wait.

horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
my closets are still so packed...time to get rid of more just so my shirts aren't wrinkled due to to much clutter in the closet! :) nice of you to donate as well, when you can!


Donkey on 01/25/2021:
I hope you have a good day at work! I don't blame you for taking Monday easy tonight. This could change as you get more and more comfortable with your job. Personally, I don't know how people do it with having an evening packed with stuff to do. I guess they can function well on like 4-5 hours of sleep all the time. Sometimes I think of all that I could accomplish if I didn't need to waste time sleeping (LOL!)...

I noticed you've lost weight. How do you feel about that?

horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
yes, like you, i need sleep and cannot go on 5 hours and not get sick or feel great with less...my dad was a little better than me, much better, on doing work on little sleep. but i really prefer not to do that. it doesn't work out as well for me as my dad...

yes, the weightloss happened both as i was eating less leading up to the job and then in general with a change of schedule and stresses of new job, the weight stayed off...

i feel really, really good at current weight. clothes fit perfectly, really..

though - i'm not sure if i will maintain this weight or if it will eventually go up...not sure...it's a "new low" for me that i was at shortly last fall when i was in hospital...the time i took away from here if you remember...but now as a healthy weight, from regular life situations, i am not sure i can maintain it, though i'm going to see...and would love to ;)

last year when i was this weight, i didn't feel right, but this time i lost the weight gradually, and i feel fine at this lower weight (by a few pounds only!)


Donkey on 01/25/2021:
PS That's so cool about fostering guinea pigs!

horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
i just love that they "aren't mine" and therefore they aren't mine to have to look after for years and years in addition to mine...i kinda like being just a foster for any pigs more than my 2 that i own...my dad would flip, for instance, if i wenton vacation in the future, and he's stuck watching FOUR pigs....another reason i'm liking this short-term foster program. who knows, maybe i'll be fostering even more in the future, like 4 pigs in addition to mine! how cool would that be! HAHA


Donkey on 01/25/2021:
Well, if you "gained" weight but it's all muscle, then that would be great :-) I think your body will let you know where it wants to be. You're very lucky like that.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
i think you are right and i'm a bit lucky...but i used to have terrible binge episodes if you remember? so glad i am majorly past that! i think it helped to take some anxiety medicine...to help me not binge...because i think i was bingeing partially to help/food medicate my anxiety and that i didn't realize it till later that was the case. (but i did figure this out years ago!)


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Donkey - Monday Jan 25, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

It feels odd to be at home today, and I imagine that this feeling will only increase as the day progresses.  Even though I've been tested before, I'm still a little anxious about my appointment today.  I'm also feeling a little edgy about the anticipated snow storm we're supposed to get this evening into tomorrow morning.  

I did so much laundry yesterday.  I asked daughter for ALL of her laundry, which ended up being something like 5 or 6 full loads.  I did not sweep.  I did not do any yoga.  Opted to watch football last night instead, while doing laundry.  I read last night, but stayed up a little too late to finish the chapter I've bene chipping away at.  I do not want to spend whole my day today watching TV.  I can see myself sinking into re-watching Great British Baking Show or reruns of Midsomer Murders.  

I have yoga class tonight.  I would like to do upper body weights.  I would like to do treadmill.  

I think it will be a quiet day.


EVENING EDIT:  Feeling quite a bit anxious. Is it because my boss texted me to see how I was doing?  Is it because Nice Lady got rapid-tested today and I don't have my results yet?Is it the impending snow storm we're supposed to be getting (which I think we will indeed get a ton of snow)?  Is it the tightness in my left hip?  Everything?  Nothing?

Funny enough, I don't feel stressed about yoga tonight.  I'm looking forward to it.  I did walk on the treadmill, but no jogging - just my "usual" lunchtime walk.  

I decided not to do any weights today.  I decided to conserve my energy instead.  It's hard to explain, but the efforts to weight train differ than the efforts involved with walking or riding on the recumbent bike - at least for me they do.  I did sweep the floor, did a litlte reading, and took what felt like a much needed nap.

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
I used to watch Midsomer Murders years ago and have watched the baking show. But the goodies make me crave sweets! Husband used to watch the Saturday cooking shows but has stopped. They would make my hungry, usually for something I shouldn't have!

Hope you enjoy the yoga class.

Hope you and especially your husband avoid catching Covid from daughter!

Donkey on 01/25/2021:
That's a good point about seeing all those desserts and savory treats. I've seen all these shows, so they are mostly comforting background noise, more than anything else, while I ride my bike, or in this case, walk on the treadmill.


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2021:
The only cooking like TV show I ever liked was when Gordon Ramsey was swearing and yelling at everyone. It was hilarious!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
we are learning more about ourselves everyday. i'm 38 and i also haven't figured out exactly who i am...but i DO know right now that both myself and you...we are worth it. we are nothing less than anyone else. we do not have to yearn to think we should be better. i like how you put it in your comment back to me today...a dissatisfaction...you are right...and that's a good word...we should work to always be satisfied with where we are, as long as we have tried our best. if we haven't, well then we should reconsider...but if we try...that's all we can do...and we should be satisfied. good adjectives for that...

naps are ok on your day off...lol, i haven't napped so much in a long time...on the weekend, i napped both days which is not like me...but i'm still getting used to my job/commute...

good luck on your covid test....it is nice your boss checked in on you :) and nice lady...LOL....hopefully her test is negative.

rest up while you can and don't overdo on the time off....unless you want to overdo!

Donkey on 01/26/2021:
Last night, I found a bit of that satisfaction during yoga. I was able to keep up, and on the Zoom camera, I thought that I didn't look too bad in the lower body. I really dislike how chunky my legs are, from the cankles up to the thunderthighs.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
the place for guinea pigs is an hour away and i'm unsure if i will get chosen as a foster...i hope i do get chosen bc i know i would make a good piggie mom for two more pigs...we'll see :)


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grannyannie - Monday Jan 25, 2021
(Healthy eating, exercise)
Weight: 159.0

Scale: 159.0! First goal reached. Changing to next goal of 149. 

Change sheets and duvet cover and clean bedroom. 

Had some rain last night and it froze. High in the low 40’s later today. Husband went out on his bike at his usual 7:30 and came back in 10 minutes. Too icy. He’s gone back out now - 11 am - as the sun has been shining for a couple of hours and the temp has gone up. 

Menu: 

Total:  under 1200

Workout: increasing some weights and reps

Floor routines:

 

 

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/25/2021:
Woo hoo! You reached your first goal!!!! AND you are working on "the last 10 pounds" - well, at least for now.

I noticed you're increasing a little bit of the weights or reps that you're using, too! Progress!

That's kind of scary about the icy roads. I'm glad your husband turned around and came home. He doesn't need a spill on his bike, either! Wow, that must have been some 10 minutes on the bike - I'm trying to imagine what that feels like, to bike on ice. :-0

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
Thanks! Next goal after this one will be 140 and that will be the final one.

Felt ready to increase except for any that targeted shoulders. Still want to be careful not to reinjure my shoulder.

If hubby hurt himself on the bike I told him I'd have to do the cooking. That makes him extra safe. LOL. It's hilly here so makes it even tougher. Our postman said some of the roads in town were like a skating rink this morning.


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2021:
Great you made that goal, Annie. I was wondering if you’d reset it, as saw how close you’ve been. Major Congrats!

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
Thanks!! Finally!


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2021:
Been meaning to tell you my friend who was born & raised in that Scottish orphanage loves your pics! Posted that last one and a few before, of the ships. She plans to visit when all this covid stuff settles.

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
Does she get to visit often?

Dunoon used to have a US submarine base here for about 30 years and many of them do reunions here. A few of them stayed behind and married Scottish lasses. And everybody has some kind of relative by marriage who is American. Many went back to the US with their Scottish brides.


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2021:
No, she never returned. She was in the Marines, a medic, who saw active duty in Afghanistan etc. But your pics inspire her to want to visit home.

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
She should visit! When it's safe, anyway. Right now borders are shut.


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2021:
Sure she will!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
congrats on reaching your first goal! how nice! 2021 has been good for you!!!!

grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Thanks! I'm feeling motivated by thinking about how I will maintain once I finally get there and I won't screw it up again.


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Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 24, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

18.5 Hours in the Sun/Cardio :)

starting again to gather up more clothes that i do not wear to clean up my closets / donate..have a small pile so far of around 8 tops to give away, trying to clean up my closets more.  Realized i have a LOT more gray, warm shirts than i thought!!!


8am breakfast: oats 150, raisins 150, almond milk 50, kombucha 50...400....

11am-11:45am healthy meal: lots of chips/pea crisps 350, 2 slices munster cheese 120, cauliflower oreganato (with bread crumbs and olive oil and spices, roasted) 200 and a little more especially of the breadcrumbs 100 and a sweetened black coffee 

4pm meal: fruit x2 200, fage 5% greek with apricot 150, black coffee

dinner: ????................

7:30 light evening snacking during weights: choc filled wafers 150, pb 150, water. 300.half a sparkling cider 50.

1900-1950...prob sleep early after weights....got lower body in also today.


.............will be my tofu and leftovers from i forget exactly when last week so I do not need to throw them out/waste them before buying any more food this week :)??? may eat this all for lunch tomrrow & bed early????............this will be tomorrow's lunch.

 


On my way home from work tomorrow or at lunch tomorrow, I may do takeout of chinese to bring home for dinner... :)...but first I'll eat tonight what I have at home in my fridge!  i also have some frozen meat, already cooked, that I am going to start eating more of :) I'm lucky i have those meat leftovers in my freezer - both my own cooking and my mom's.  I will be making good of the food I have at home as well as doing takeout on cooked veggies until i am better organized and used to the commute and my weekends slow down a little without the extra errands (like yesterday's driving to victoria's secret and spending lots of time out, shopping around. next weekend, i will pick up 2 guinea pigs (more) that i will be a foster mom to - until they are adopted! i get a cage with them too! so, that's a big deal for next weekend because it's around an hour's drive away to pick up the pigs....so when things die down, I'll cook more....


 NO COOKING today....i'll get by on salads for lunch most days at work and takeout veggies for dinner this week...may do takeout from a place by work and take it home with me :)...yup...probably tuesday bc it seems i have enough food right now for dinner Monday night still with leftovers!..maybe even enough food at home until Wednesday...willl try to be conservative with using up food and not wasting it as much as possible!

PM after walk Laundry and guinea pig cage cleaning - done early in AM DONE!

1-3pm nature walk, 20 min away by car locally, i signed up for...should be more relaxing than taxing...good way to end the weekend! we seriously walked a total of like 15 min out of the two hours! mostly just standing, listening to her teach us about the trees...i gave feedback that it'd be better to cover at least a mile walking over 2 hours, if not 1.5 miles (round trip)...it's not even to walk not even half a mile over two hours. that's wrong in this cold !!! lol. but, it was very informative. DONE!

fell asleep after the snack after the walk....for like a half hour....just laying on couch...then weights...

 AM PM after walk upper body weights before nature walk so that i can come home and know exercise is all done and i'm relaxing the rest of today.....hopefully...weights may go on tonight AFTER walk....because i'm not sure i want to rush them /eat / get laundry...so i'll do them tonight...should be OK as basically the only thing i need to do this evening :) in progress, halfway done at 7:30...to DONE!


 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

grannyannie on 01/24/2021:
Sounds like a healthy day and a nice walk.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
in two hours, we seriously walked less than 1/4 mile round trip...i def gave feedback that besides educating us, we must be able to walk at least a mile or a mile in a half, roundtrip that should be the minimum, for a TWO HOUR walk!...otherwise, it was very educational, but we stood still for most of two hours.


Donkey on 01/24/2021:
Oh enjoy your walk! I wish we had organized walks around here.

And afterwards, you can come home and enjoy a restful evening...

Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
i'm lucky...there's so many opportunities that i've learned about while not working...i had no idea there was such amazing opporunities around...i have another one coming up in February...i think i'm done till then but there might be something next week...gotta look at my calendar!


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innerpeace - Sunday Jan 24, 2021

Weight: 293.1

My heart is crushed.

The girl had to go back with her mom, with the step-dad who still has the active TPO. I just don't understand why this is OK. It's like the bad guys always win!

Elections, cheating sports quarterbacks, useless mothers...all seem to come out on top, just blows my mind.

So this active PTO for the mother against her husband does not also cover minor children...this is especially disturbing because the girl is scared of him, but the finest of my city, made her go back because her mother is the custodial parent, regardless or not if she is a good parent...just that the court deemed her the custodial parent...anyway so upset about this situation it effected my stomach and I have been on the toilet all afternoon.

DH is sad, mad.

Despite that my weekend was ok. Walked the doggos twice a day on both Saturday  & Sunday.

Friday night we did have Chinese Food - General Tso Chicken, peanut chicken, beef & brocolli and mongolian beef - whole smorgasboard of food...still have some now.

Saturday;

Blood sugar - 118

B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte

L: left over Chinese food

D: hamburger, lettuce, tomato (Tony Bologna was over)

We took him home about 8:00 and stopped on the way home and I had a stuffed chocolate chip cookie and a scoop of ice cream from DQ covered with peanut butter...so didn't need this and was over my calories by a lot...almost 700.

Sunday

Blood sugar 123

B: scramled eggs, bacon, biscuit

L: brioche bun

D: Itailian chicken pasta recipe DH got from Facebook - very good with Ceasar Salad.

Still just really, really sad...a dispair I was not prepared for. I even texted my son and let him know if ever there was a time in his life he didn't feel loved that I was so very sorry. I only wanted him to be happy and his happiness was how I based all my decisions when it came to where he lived and with who..his dad or me...unlike what I witnessed today.

Have a Sunday Night! IP

Progress as of today: 44.8 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
I'm so sorry :-( What a sad situation. The problem is the custodial agreement needs to get changed. I'm no fan of the police, but they are just enforcing what the court order says.

I can totally understand how this would affect you physically. Ugh...


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
with the girl, maybe this is not the end. for now it sounds very unfortunate as you and donkey say and i agree....

i agree with all, of course, it's very logical who she should really be with concerning her welfare.

just keep doing what's right for her awhen she is ith you...and perhaps it will improve in the future.

don't let your anger get the best of you...you have to take care of your health too and so does DH. do not let her mother's negativity affect you and DH's health. just a suggestion...easier said than done.

as with what i said to donkey today on her entry, and i spoke of myself too, do not think of yourself in negative ways feeling you need to apoligize for anything in the past...with when you called your son. you can apologize 1x...but after that, i am pushing with myself to feel positive, feel more secure in my decisions, know i am capable, i am good...and not question it or think i am not as good as others...so keep your head up...and keep being you because you are GREAT.


grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
So sorry! What a nightmare!


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2021:
So Terrible, you poor kid. Hope you can get custody and end this nightmare. I always thought they allowed teens to choose custodial parent, under most circumstances.


Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
So sorry for the sadness you are going through. Prayers.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
It seems like nothing makes sense anymore.....((HUGS))


legcramps on 01/26/2021:
[hugs]


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Donkey - Sunday Jan 24, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Good morning!  Happy Sunday!

I accomplished almost everything on my list yestserday with the exception of the following:

I plan to accomplish these things today, except for the nap, unless I need it. 

Let me just get all of this out there:  I'm sad that I did not do any yoga yesterday.  Why is it so hard for me to do?  Last night I could have done yoga in the evening, but I was a little full from dinner and opted to walk on the treadmill (no jogging) instead.  I think I'm a person that needs to be in-person.  The Zoom yoga I do on Monday nights has to be live or I'm inclined not to do it, even if I pay for it.  I've been very tempted to say, "Screw COVID", buy an annual class pass to the local yoga studio, and attend as many in-person classes as I can.  But then I see posts on FB from the yoga studio and realize that there are too many people there for my comfort level.  PLUS, then I struggle with paying for yoga that I can get for free if I would just get my butt to the gym that I belong to and already pay for!  Am I trying to be someone I'm not?

My daughter's sense of smell returned yesterday afternoon.  Her temperature has been normal since Friday night.  Having said that, last night she received her COVID test results, and she is positive.  I'm kicking myself that we weren't more careful with her and with ourselves on Thursday and Friday.  I feel fine; husband feels fine.  I will need to call my boss to see what he wants me to do, as far as work is concerned.


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AFTERNOON EDIT:  I am scheduled to have a COVID test tomorrow morning.  My boss asked me to stay home until I at least get my test results back. So that would mean I'm off Monday for sure, probably Tuesday, and maybe a little on Wednesday.

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/24/2021:
So glad to hear your daughter is doing better! You and husband should quarantine.

Maybe you should hold off on yoga until it's safe to go to a studio?

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
I think that I will have to hold off on any kind of in-person yoga until it's completely safe. I'm thinking 2022, unfortunately, because there are too many fools out there. And yoga is so breath-focused. There's actually a practice of exhaling loudly through the mouth. Um, no thanks!


grannyannie on 01/24/2021:
Yea, I wouldn't go to a yoga class or to the gym or anything like that until it is very safe. Hoping to go to Thailand next January and I will join the gym there as I intended to this month.

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
Yes... I think my thoughts stem more from my frustration than rational thought. It felt good to say it.


innerpeace on 01/24/2021:
Sorry you were exposed. I pray you get no systems. Stay active.

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
Thank you! I'm not worried so much for myself as I am for my husband.... and, believe it or not, for my more vulnerable coworkers.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
i'm glad you will have this deserved time off from work....LOL>...but seriously, be safe and healthy!

next, you asked a question above saying "am i trying to be someone i am not" or something like that.....don't even attempt to question yourself like you don't deserve to be someone you want to be, etc....you do you and never think you aren't good enough....because you ARE GREAT! listen to me, i'm telling you the truth!...i have been starting to have a lot more confidence in myself, too, despite all my "failures," or learning experiences, like i was saying the other day i finally feel much more mature and experienced with a lot in life...and i'm not going to give everyone the credit that i used to give....and i am finally understanding the fact that what i do, the choices i make, what i do, IS WORTH IT being me. and that i'm not going to try to consider the fact that i'm not living up to the standards of society...i am trying to move on from this and it's what i suggest you do. life is too short to debate if we are good enough.

Donkey on 01/25/2021:
You're 100% right. I'm very guilty of wanting a life that is not mine. I often think, "Why can't I (do this)? Why can't I (be that)?" A perpetual self-dissatisfaction with who & what I am. Why can't I just be content with where I'm at, what I am, and who I am, right now in this moment? Ugh... 50 years old and still trying to figure it out.


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grannyannie - Sunday Jan 24, 2021
(Healthy eating, exercise)
Weight: 159.2

Damage assessment from indulgence day:  159.2! Some may be fluid, but I'll take it. I was 160.0 on Weds morning, then indulged all day in celebration.

My goal is to have no big indulgence days until my birthday in just under 5 weeks. But doing low cal every day until then is a very bad idea so I’ll do one or two days a week of higher calories but mostly adding healthy food and not junk. And one or two beers a week.

Cleaned bathrooms today. Walked down to our friends’ house (2 miles roundtrip) whose birthday it is today. Brought him a bottle of his favourite wine, and a bag of biscuits, sweets, crisps. Got more snow on the ground and it hasn't melted. It's just about 32F now. Very unusual for us.

Our First Minister (leader of Scotland) just said this morning that the 70+ will be getting notified about their vaccine beginning this week. 80+ are nearly done. So that'll be hubby soon. And I'm in the next age group. 

Menu

Total:  just over 1200

Workout:

Progress as of today: 11.8 lbs lost so far, only 0.2 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/24/2021:
Still no precise timeline for vaccines here, other than frontline workers 1st, then over 75/frail, then over 65 & then the rest like me. Some talk of Walmart pitching in along with a few other big chain store pharmacies.

Admirable of you to venture out for a walk in the snow! Must have been lovely.

grannyannie on 01/24/2021:
They had been doing 5 year increments but decided against that. Much easier to do 10. And Scotland sets its own rules when it comes to healthcare and there are less than 5 million who will get the jab. We will get notified by a blue envelope of appt. time.

I dressed really warmly and the sun was shining as we walked so it was nice. Stood out on their deck and chatted for about 10 minutes.


Donkey on 01/24/2021:
Well done on the scale! I agree with adding 2 higher calorie days into a week of lower calorie days. As your scale demonstrated, your body seems to do well to having higher days now and then. Plus, overall, it can keep you from going off the "deep end" at times, perhaps. Those deep-end food-fits are awful. Also, I agree with seeking better nutrition options when indulging, rather than resorting to junk. Still, if you want junk, you know you can have a bit of it.

I like your First Minister. At least she seems to have some sense, but in comparison to others, the bar has been set low. Anyway, I'm so glad to hear that your area is getting the vaccine rolled out. The vaccine is life and hope.

grannyannie on 01/24/2021:
As long as I don't have anything in the house to tempt me to binge, I should do okay. Just have to get tough! If I really, really feel the need for junk/sugar I could always pick up one single candy bar.

I like our First Minister too. She is sensible unlike the idiot prime minister who screwed up how he handled England cases.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
we have the same cold here with breeze so it's been feeling frigid even though it's 32...which should be manageble. my fingers were freezing on the walk every time i took them out of my gloves...but we were mostly standing still which i think is why i felt extra cold!

you are doing great leading up to your bday...work it lady!

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
When I still lived in Michigan 30 years ago and went for xmas every year I would have thought 32 was not that cold. But I'm not used it at all now, plus normally being in mid 80's temp all winter since 2014.

grannyannie on 01/25/2021:
Thanks!


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Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jan 23, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

16.5 Hours in the Sun/Cardio

vitamin gumies 2 servings elderberry 50 cal....very tasty lol lol

10:30 breakfast: oats 150, raisins 150, almond milk 50, kom 50..400

noon snack choc 100, coffee 50. 150

3:45pm full meal leftovers tofu 100, rice 200, thai veg in sauce 150..450...dunkin donut! bavarian cream 250-300 ...i really wanted boston cream, but they had hardly anything left at 3pm today!  750, black coffee probably...yes. And still fell asleep for a half hour 

 6:30 Blueberries 100

latr snacking chips and gummies 500

1950 total 

cardio ends up being an hour while shopping/walking woohooo 


Saturday Plans:

call geico, get my new rate after defensive driving, pay bill over phone asap...bill was $550 with discount but they also credited my previous 6 months for a discount, so my bill today was around $510..nice it wasn't the original $600! saved almost $100. DONE!

get few items from dry cleaners that were mostly resewn and repaired from last week along with a dress shirt I got dry cleaned that I only wear very infrequently and is a great shirt to be maintained in it's quality thru proper dry cleaning :-) DONE!

i have a coupon for two free victoria's secret panties if i buy anything in the store....so i want to do that...basically, it will be worth it, financially, as long as my purchase is very minimal...so i'll see how cheap i can go tomorrow in order two get 2 free new pairs of underwear. there used to be many more victoria's secret stores by me, one on my way home, but i learned they have closed....so tomorrow i'll be driving specifically to a store in order to get this deal, which is very worth it because the one purchase has no minimum meaning i can purhase the cheapest thing in the store to get two pairs of underwear, which i could use; DONE!

in the shopping center i went, there was an Express Outlet clothing shop - bought two shirts on clearance, one a thin turtleneck but i liked it was a turtleneck, though just cotton for $10; the other a warm sweater less than $20...figured i could use more and throw away some ugly sweaters that i should never wear again (like a bright green one i don't even like looking at!)..in the shopping center, i found a LARGE gourmet supermarket - picked up not much but a few prepared veggies that haven't been cooked - it's designed for me to heat up and already seasoned ...cheaper than the already cooked ones, so i got these and i'll get to eat them fresh from my oven - cauliflower oreganato. half the stores in the shopping center were closed for good - very sad the way things are changing.

i may do weights - upper only -  in the evening?? Tomorrow 

not much planned for cardio, minimal walk to cleaners....


Sunday 

local nature walk :) 

 laundry day ?

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

Donkey on 01/23/2021:
I've been taking the elderberry gummies too! Husband takes them all the time as part of his daily regimen but I've only been taking them this week, since I've been fighting some kind of bug off. They are SO yummy!

I think we're living parallel lives today, as I'm doing a ton of laundry too. If you do weights, I will do weights. Upper body for me today, I think.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2021:
yeah, those gummies are addictively sweet and tasty.

i decided to leave laundry for tomorrow most probably...and just do weights tonight :)


Donkey on 01/23/2021:
I hope you are able to rest up this weekend, too. I think you're right about lack of sleep contributing to negative emotions like sadness, anxiety, etc. I'm going to write more about rest in my own entry.


grannyannie on 01/23/2021:
Enjoy the weekend and get some rest in.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2021:
i slept real long last night...from around 10:30-8am today...better :) could have slept more...but wanted to get some things in order so after laying in bed, i decided i might as well get up and start the day!


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Adam - Saturday Jan 23, 2021
(Cutting Back)
Weight: 330.0

Wow, kind of depressing -- the last time I posted here I weighed 284 pounds, and now I'm at 330.

The "good" news is that my high between then and now was 417.

That's right, my high used to be 372 and I lost all the way down to the 280s... and then, even though I SAID I'd have to stay vigilant to keep it off, I didn't. And about 3 years later I ballooned up to 417 pounds. 

I hung out in the 390s for a few years and then gradually got it down to the 360s for a few more. Then I escaped from Alaska and lost 20 pounds the first year in Arizona, and 15 pounds the second year to get me where I am now. I seem to have plateaued at the 330 level for the last six months, so I need to do something "different" to get things moving down again. 

 

Progress as of today: 87 lbs lost so far, only 110 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/23/2021:
You’re way down from your all time high. Excellent. You can do it! I am pretty much on a plant based diet, some salmon and some dairy. My latest find is soy powder from a place called True Nutrition. Wonderful flavors. They also sell on Amazon, but MUCH cheaper going directly to them. Also cooking soy beans in my Instapot. Eat with stir fried cabbage and onions, almost everyday.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
Welcome back! i just read your previous entry and see that you've been here before indeed!

life is about experiences and learning how to moderate our weight. all your "ballooning" as you call it and weight gain and loss will help you realize how to be more moderate now and in the future!

it's a learning process so there's no need to be angry at yourself or upset...just take it, learn from it, and do better going forward. i'm sure you learned some things on what to do now so it doesn't happen exactly the same way again!


Donkey on 01/24/2021:
Welcome back! I don't know if I was a member of DD while you were actively posting.

I agree with Horn's reflections. Learn from the past and do better for yourself in the future. :-)

I've found that the easiest step to take is to start drinking more water. For some reason, drinking more water lays down a foundation for other weight-loss factors to fall into place easier. That is to say, when I don't drink enough water, everything seems to fall apart, LOL.


innerpeace on 01/24/2021:
Welcome..I hope you can find the tools to get you back on track!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
haha...and I agree with donkey and the others' suggestions and support above too! donkey gives good advice to drink more water, helps me also at work!, and jacky says some good things including increasing plants / veggies in diet!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2021:
i like how you are calling your diet "cutting back!"...very thoughtful and it makes 100% sense! that is what i have been doing too, for years!


Maria7 on 01/26/2021:
Welcome back. Wow, you have come a long way. Congratulations to you. Happy to have you with us and thank you so much for your dedication in keeping this site going when you were keeping it going. Have a blessed day.


legcramps on 01/26/2021:
welcome back!


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Donkey - Saturday Jan 23, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Happy Saturday!  I seem to be swaying between 148 and 145 this month.  Nice to see that I shed most of the bloat from TOM, at least.  


One thing I've noticed this month is that I really enjoy dessert after dinner.  I'm done fighting this craving or need or whatever it is.  It is who I am.  I love dessert, and want to make peace with this aspect of myself, rather than to be at a perpetual war, which sometimes implodes into a food fit.  So, I've decided that life is too short, and I need to find a way to incorporate a "dessert" into my life that is compatable with my goals. I've been able to be satisfied with 2 Hershey's kisses, or graham crackers.  I think I can expand on options, with the help of my food scale.  

I"m not giving up on my weight-loss goal, though.  I'm still very motivated to reach a more comfortable weight of 135.  


My goal for this weekend is to rest.  Last weekend, I felt so busy with chores.  Even though it was a great weekend, I need to rest until I feel back to 100%.  I want to do some of the following today:

I still have things to do today, though:

Hmm, that doesn't look too relaxing, does it?  The laundry chores, is a relatively passive activity, except for folding & putting away (a chore I detest, so it's just better to get it out of the way)


Next weekend will not be so relaxing because I have to drive Husband to the VA hospital to get his 1st COVID vaccine shot.  Very, very glad that he is able to get this sooner, rather than later. This will take up my entire morning next Saturday, unfortunately, but it's totally worth it.  

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/23/2021:
Love desserts too. Easy does it. Like the 180 cal M&M tubes, but getting kinda tired of them. Filled bird feeders too! Lots of jays, cardinals, juncos and woodpeckers around. The peckers love suet.

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
I find that when I get tired of a dessert, that I start to eat more of it, maybe just to finish it off? IDK, this time, now that I have a food scale, I can mix things up without overdoing it and KNOWING that I'm OK.

I got a hook for a hummingbird feeder from Santa. I put a birdseed thing in the shape of a bell, and the little birds love it. I'm going to get another birdfeeder for either seed or maybe a suet holder (to hold the block of suet & seed) to use when it's not hummingbird season. :-)


grannyannie on 01/23/2021:
Glad husband is getting his shot. How is your daughter?

If you need dessert you can find some lower calories treats. Or smaller amounts of higher cal ones.

I'm seriously missing my popcorn, and if I could stick to one bag a day I'd buy more.

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
My daughter's fever broke and she has regained her sense of smell. I will write more about this in my own entry today. Her appetite has remained consistent. Hard to tell about her energy levels, because she naps a lot when she's not working anyway.

You nailed it on the head about portions. Like you with popcorn, I really struggle to keep it down to 1 portion. I struggle with this at work, I struggle with this at home. Most days I'm OK, and then I'll have a day where I want to eat the whole thing.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2021:
YES!!!! my support is 100% in your resolve to enjoy your desserts! yes!...there's a way. you can have a light cooked dinner of veggies and just a little grains like rice or something...and have your dessert...i did this for lunch yesterday but i also had some calories to spare from not eating much earlier in the day...but i will say, it's all possible. your goals are GREAT regarding this. they are the same as my goals - to enjoy all the food i like in moderation as best as i can...i still rely on veggies for a full feeling here and there, especially this weekend since Friday night.

Rest is so important. I am doing that this weekend too. I have saved both laundry and weights for today, because of changes to the day yesterday :) and I have a nature walk...but i'm planning so that the day is actuallly very enjoyable and not rushed :)

Donkey on 01/24/2021:
I'm going to keep trying with the desserts. I think it was yesterday that you mentioned that you are an all-or-nothing person (we were talking about goals, I think?). I have the same issue, and perhaps desserts is my key to learning to moderate these tendencies in myself.

I saved cat laundry for today, in case there was more to clean up on the floors today. It's never-ending.


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horn_of_plenty - Friday Jan 22, 2021
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 110.0

15.5 Hours in the Sun/Cardio

Weekend plans:

Saturday

call geico, get my new rate after defensive driving, pay bill over phone asap...

i have a coupon for two free victoria's secret panties if i buy anything in the store....so i want to do that...basically, it will be worth it, financially, as long as my purchase is very minimal...so i'll see how cheap i can go tomorrow in order two get 2 free new pairs of underwear. there used to be many more victoria's secret stores by me, one on my way home, but i learned they have closed....so tomorrow i'll be driving specifically to a store in order to get this deal, which is very worth it because the one purchase has no minimum meaning i can purhase the cheapest thing in the store to get two pairs of underwear, which i could use.

saturday will be laundry day also.

i may do weights in the evening, saturday.


Sunday 

local nature walk :)


 My phone SIM card just flat out died. Therefore, my phone doesn't work at all!  So yes, i'm updating while at work here.

At lunch, i'm going to go to a nearby Tmobile store to replace it....what a hassle! LOL. who would guess a phone that's only 2 years old would have a SIM card just flat out stop working. It means i have no internet on the phone, cannot text, cannot call, cannot surf web. basically, it renders the phone useless.  Hope to fix during my "lunch hour." And you all know I will not stay late today at work. no no.


kombucha minimal

breakfast, rushed and annoying bc of my phone and making phone calls at work to Tmobile: one of my fancy nutritious bars 230, coffee 50, a small cinnamon roll tiny 120. 400...

snack: TBD pb on bread 300

lunch: healthy - leftovers curtosy of myself.  If i need caffeine, i'll make a free coffee at work (no monster today...or maybe a diet coke from the store, since i'll already be out...yes!) corned beef small amount 200, wrap 100, salad with light dressing 100. 500

dinner: i have leftovers still...had my own tofu 100, with some rice 150, thai veggies in a light basil sauce 250, picked up thai on the way home, quite a bit, large serving, kombucha 50, persimmon fruit i bought on the way home 50, chocolate filled wafer cookies 200....800..(very indulgent, but i knew i had calories to spare, hard to satisfy myself).

cider 100

2050....goodnight

 


I plan to buy some takeout on Saturday ;) already planning to do that...cooking is not really on my agenda too much for now...i have a lot of other more exciting activities to think about for this weekend.

I'm glad i did weights last night and i also stayed up late watching some tv in order to relax after lifting.  The shows were fabulous...seems that I may start changing my routine, dealing with less sleep every so often (as always), but also starting to watch some engaging tv shows and dateline news stories. my mind is searching for information and knowledge at the moment.!!! :)

have a great day, all.  catch up with you over weekend, it's been a busy bee week!


 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost and already at goal!

legcramps on 01/22/2021:
Sorry you're having issues with your phone, that's the worst! Enjoy your weekend plans!

horn_of_plenty on 01/22/2021:
Thank you, i will be going on a nice nature walk on Sunday :)


grannyannie on 01/22/2021:
Never heard of a sim card dying. I guess anything can go wrong.

horn_of_plenty on 01/22/2021:
yes...very rare....and it happened to me! lol.


grannyannie on 01/22/2021:
You'll be looking forward to the weekend.

horn_of_plenty on 01/22/2021:
No doubt !


Donkey on 01/22/2021:
My husband wants to know what kind of phone you have, because he's never heard of a SIM card dying either!

I hope you got your problem fixed.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/22/2021:
at TMobile, they told me it was a very rare occurance:

iphone xr! (10r)..shouldn't have had a problem...really pathetic!


grannyannie on 01/23/2021:
Enjoy your walk on Sunday!


Donkey on 01/23/2021:
I'll let my husband know. He's always very interested in these techy things. Yikes!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2021:
so nutty! agreed...just was an ounce of bad luck re the SIM


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