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Home: some kombucha 50, not much.

Breakfast: wrap 80 with one egg 70 and half small avocado 150. 2 coffees at work 100. 400.

9:30 dark choc covered raisins with the second cup coffee...just doing what i have to do to feel good here. 100

10:30 protein cake bites, not great, but filling. 250

800.

I brought my lunch :)

and snacks :) clementines :)

No OT today...going home to do my wonderful weights routine :)...doing it today because tomorrow i have a Union Meeting back near my apt at 6pm after work. So, no OT tomorrow. Wednesday, the schedule is more OT again, just one hour as to not exhaust myself...Thursday will be a nice exercise session  in the eve again at my apt, and Friday i have a LONG OT scheduled, 4 hours, WITH COWORKER...and you can bet we'll be heading over to a HAPPY HOUR and ordering a glass of wine (like a lunch break) during those hours of 5-9pm overtime. When in the city, there's a bar at every corner just about...so yeah. It's the only way...NOBODY else is working these hours in the office.

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Anyone wondering, yes, my sleep was nice and long. could have even slept longer. just up to pee twice. probably slept from 6:30pm-5:45am. My muscles actually feel stronger today, let i can sit up taller at my desk here at work :) I may do this technique of a long sleep next Sunday, too.  It's not a good habit to have, but good once in awhile under the kind of boredom / long hours i'm having at work it's good to just "knock out" before it begins again...today :) 

Wrapping up the Christmas cards today....and then some other paperwork while I do laundry......Will have to head out soon for postage stamps.......( today..or tomorrow?)..Depends on road conditions....and other than that just some general household things..........I'm thinking that calories in and calories out will be my basic plan for the new year......there is truly no food that I am ready to never eat again if I want to.......giving up whole food groups will never be for me......and I like junk food.....I like kid food...I like all food ( except snails, frog legs and some sea food).....According to a friends Dad...who is an M.D.......everything in moderation, never ban any food group or type of food, eat a variety of foods daily..........and that suits me........I've lost weight in the past eating everything......what I failed to do at the time was continue to eat small portions of everything.......that is where I plan to make the change this time........I don't want to count calories for the rest of my life..but I am prepared to do just that if needed.

I'm stepping up my activity levels........and the more I lose..the easier that gets..........I'm looking forward to opening up some more clothes bins that have been taking up room in my closet.....it's kind of like Christmas every time I open another one........getting rid of clothes as they get too big has been a big help...because I refuse to buy new in that size again......so if something suddenly starts getting snug.....that is an easy/quick clue that I need to cut back again...because who wants to wear tight clothes.......getting away from the scale has been a life changer for me......no one knows what I weigh...( including myself)...we don't go around wearing signs stating our weight and clothing size...........we go around with energy and confidence and we do what we need to do...and no one knows anything else. 

Aside from the love and caring of family and friends........My only other goals in life are   to feel good, to work hard , and to live life with a sense of happiness and gratitude. 

Everything else is just a bonus. 

It's all about portion sizes.........calories in and calories out...........Learning that balance...is how it's coming off and learning that balance will keep it off...........

I haven't taken any pictures today...so i will probably start again tomorrow.......some days I miss doing that...some days I'm glad I'm not....but I admit...I do like going back here on some days and reminding myself of what I ate...and the pics make that very easy.......so I'd like to get that going again.....I keep a notebook...and WW has it all there...but the pics just make it easier to keep things in perspective.

The plan is to reach my goal in 2019.......The last few pounds are slow.....so I have a year to achieve that....sooner would be wonderful......but at any rate...........Happiness is my main life goal....for this year....next year...and beyond...because if I'm not happy...then I have nothing worth having. 

I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

Day 76 completed successfully.

Not much scheduled for today yet.  Will see what comes up.

So I've been considering when my streak will come to an end.  The smarter option would be no going off-plan until reaching goal, but I've also been dreaming about food on Christmas.  In particular I've been dreaming of cookies.......gingerbread, chocolate chip, sugar, pumpkin spice, etc.  Last year I had a very long streak going into Christmas and decided to go off-plan for just 1 day.  That ended up extending to a 1 week off-plan bingefest where I gained like 15 lbs or so.  It was an artificial gain and dropped back off within the next couple weeks.  So I don't know and probably won't make a decision until Christmas Day when I sitting down staring at the goodies......

On to conquer day 77....

I was determined to be ready to leave for work so that I could watch a TV show at 8am for as long as possible before having to leave, but then I thought that I'd much rather log on to DD and chat with you all.  I made the right choice!

I woke up this morning, not doing so well, though.  First I noticed that I was sneezing more than just an irritated sneeze.  These were deep, tingly sneezes that you feel dissapating through your body when you're done.  Then my nose kept running.  And coughed up a small glob of congestion (albeit clear, not infected) from the throat/sinuses.  So I am swabbing zinc up my nose all day today. Cannot get sick.

But even worse, my back started acting up -- for no reason that I can discern!  At first I thought it was just a morning ache/twinge.  But then it kind of kept happening, like it was saying "I'm thinking about popping out of alignment - nope.  Oh maybe this time I'll pop out - nope."  In the spirit of turning my back's NOPE into my HOPE, I am wearing my truss/girdle/brace thingy today.  Oh it is so uncomfortable - bulky - but it really does help keep my frame stabilized.  My back acts like a brat, and if I cater to it early on, almost all of the time, I can prevent it from getting worse.  So that is what I am doing.

If I had a job where I could just call in sick, I would take today - or at least this morning - off, so that I could alternate lying flat and walking nice & easy, and work those hot and cold compresses.

Queen Bee will be out of the office today and tomorrow, delivering our firm's Christmas gifts.  So that will be a blessing to me today.  Gotta find these little blessings where we can.

Slept really well after a good workout last night :)

8:30am Light breakfast on purpose: half a peanut butter lenny & larry's protein cookie 200 and a kombucha 50

10:30am 2nd breakfast: at a colombian place where friend lives, surprisingly it was excellent. bigger coffee seems extra milk 100, some kinda dessert 300, and tastes of an empanada 100/ total here 500?

12:30pm snacking while doing errands 150 granola bar

2pm light meal: greens 50 and some of the bhindhi masala i picked up 350 approx.follwed a bit later by an egg and like half another egg. 150

4:30-5pm greek yogurt, cooked cranberries 200; other half pb protein cookie frpm this  morning, laundry is done,  bed soon. never made the pumpkin cheesecake - next weekend.

1800..done!

2day:2000 - needed this..

...i think it may be a lighter week in terms of cals...also, i'm going to make sure to stick with my OT schedule, and not do extra that doesn't need to be done...bc i am starting to get tired out.

wow...i just added a few pinches of saffron into cooked cranberries with stevia...perfecto addition.

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Going to meet my friend at 10am for a small coffee / brunch, the one that last time had forgotten her keys at my gym!, for breakfast to catch up. we're eating by her, since she doens't have a car, i'll drive to her and it's near her. we'll catch up and discuss what we're each up to...and it should go better than it did a few weeks ago with all the excess driving and stress a few sunday nights ago!

we were supposed to use my $25 gift certificate for hibachi style japanese and it would have almost been a free lunch, but, she turned out being busier than expected so we moved our get together up to 10am from the previous 12pm...it's fine, and better than having to cancel completely as i was looking forward to being social and seeing her.

I'll be then picking up the cream cheese to make the cheesecake, also picking up a few fruits and veggies - no need to buy any meat...maybe a tofu pack though.

Lastly on my list is laundry...and i may take a sleeping pill around 4pm to go to bed extra early (like around 6pm) as i'm feeling way too tired already today since it's a very stressful month with the OT and extra commitments for me, and i would like to have extra rest tonight if possible...I'm just tired due to long days and lots of sitting in the same spot doing the same work. I don't mind tonight to conk out early :)

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Turns out i had unintentionally signed up for MTA easy pay program (i was thinking i could recieve a half fare price, half what i pay now, but it wasn't the case and i had a difficult time cancelling it - so little did i know i've been charged ever since i filled out the forms online.  ooops...big oops) and I have been charged $30 per week since at least OCTOBER! I haven't used this program, so i'm going to fight for a full reimbursement.  It's $360 in charges after i did the math, i need to check my bank statements. I caught it late, so late, because i don't use the card often and hadn't looked at the statement but was wondering why the costs were increasing so fast on the card...sheesh.

I already use a pre-tax commuter benefit card from the MTA...so, i hope they see that i do not need TWO unlimited metro cards when one unlimited card is simply enough for one person!....

...I really hope to get these wasted charges credited back. A lot of my $$$ issue then will be 100% better. This is another reason why i have been feeling so strapped for cash lately.!!! I didn't realize this until this morning.

It's good i paid more attention this AM to going over the charges on that card....

I am very good at finding mistakes and scams on my cards. This MTA issue i do wish i had noticed earlier though. 

  For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. John 3:16&17

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Taking a little quiet time to get online.........It's been a busy few days......and having food already prepared has been a big help....I thought I would sit down and make out Christmas cards today....so that will be my afternoon.  D is out plowing snow with the tractor...and while it isn't "quiet"....I do have the house to myself and it's a good time to sit down. 

I've reached the point where I'm ready for the holidays to just be over with....and I'd like to just get back to life as I know it.  But all is well...the snow is covering everything...and there is nothing quite like snow on top of all of the old brown fallen leaves and dead ferns....to make everything look nice and clean again......

Using restraint with holiday foods is interesting........and do-able.....and it is kind of nice to know that eating 1 serving...is really just as satisfying if not more satisfying...then eating aimlessly and then feeling badly about it........I have always watched the commercials where you see a person take 1 cookie......and act as if...that is enough......and then I realized that after all of these years...I could be that person...and actually enjoy 1 cookie a lot more...than eating several......There is a lot of satisfaction in me taking control over food instead of letting the food take control over me....

For some reason, I woke up this morning, really motivated and excited about working my maintenance program.  Not sure why, LOL.  Just looking forward to my bike ride and doing well today.  Yesterday, I was doing some research into yoga classes through the parks departments.  We actually belong to 2 park districts, so I have 2 options.  I have to do the calculations with the cost per class.  One of the classes is led by the woman who leads Chair Yoga.  Going back to my previous entry about feeling some discomfort at Chair Yoga, I'm not sure I want to take a weekly class with her...  The other class (in the other town) is harder to get to and get home from.  I don't think a small difference in price can override that, especially in nasty-driving winter weather.

There is an actual yoga studio that is much closer to my home.  Theoretically, in nice, well-lit weather, I could ride my bike there.  However, it's more expensive, and I'm not sure any of the packages would work for me.

I found a yoga DVD, that I tried a long time ago, at Goodwill.  I'm thinking maybe I should use that before I start searching out classes.  It may be all that I need.  It's Rodney Yee's AM/PM Yoga, two 20-minute programs. Using that would definitely help me get started, especially with the yoga benefits themselves. I'm giving this to me for Christmas.  I came across a cookbook at Goodwill that was something like 365 veggie burger recipies.  Ever since I saw that episode in Walking Dead where the one guy (who was later consumed, along with his pet goat, by zombies) survived on veggie burgers, I've been interested in trying to incorporate something like that in my life.  Not the zombies, the vegetable-based burger.  Not to cut out meat entirely but rather to explore more plant-based meals. 

(I think a couple of you may be smiling & rolling your eyes at me right now at my wishful thinking.)

That goal would go nicely with my goal to try more vegetable side dishes.  I have a crockpot cookbook that has some delicious sounding vegetable sides that are easy and fairly keto  Like InnerPeace said, ya get tired of eating green beans after a while...  The same thing happens to me with beef and chicken, though, too.  

Our new kitty is missing in the house, LOL.  She came out a little more yesterday and this morning, but now has gone into hiding.  It's better if she comes out to us on her own terms anyway.  

Day 75 completed successfully.

Yesterday was a bit more of a struggle concerning food control. I really wanted to snack.  It was Saturday, so the family was home. Due in part to lack of sleep, I really didn't want to do much of anything. I kind of wanted to go to a certain restaurant for lunch, but knew if I ate a decent amount of calories that early in the day, that it would be a major struggle not to go off plan by the end of the day.  The thought entered my head that this current streak of days "on plan" will have to come to an end sometime. And I thought maybe yesterday was that day.  Then I thought it would be a lot smarter to continue this streak until I hit my goal.  So I made it through the day without going out to eat or going over my calorie allotment. 

The struggle is real with my first world problems (having way too much food available).

Like a lot of overweight people, I've tried or thought about trying just about anything over the years to help lose the weight quicker or easier. I've gotten better this time around and have mainly focused on controlling my food portions, but my mind still thinks that there must be an easier way. So my latest thing I've decided to try is wearing a weighted vest to add additional resistance throughout my normal day. My thought was that I'd wear this 20 lb vest all day long and set it would help burn more calories without much extra effort. The reality of it is that a 20lb vest feels a lot heavier than it sounds. I've worn it 2 or 3 days, but I've only been able to wear it for about 2 or 3 hours per day before it just felt way too heavy to continue.  The main reason is that it puts the vast majority of the strain on my shoulder area, which must be constricting blood flow or something because it's been causing small headache type symptoms.  I plan on continuing to try to use it to see if it gets easier over the next week or so.

On to conquer day 76.....

Oh man, my weekend was a rough one. I got sick Friday night, and just felt terrible. My left wrist started to hurt. My right ankle started to hurt. Wrapping them up helped, but I found myself thinking two things: a, I wrote a story where the main character's joints all stiffened up and now it's happening to me!, and 2: so is this how I will die?

I have no clue what happened, the mysteries of the aging human body, and I spent Saturday with stiff hands and a sore throat. Swallowing hurt yesterday, but most of the trouble cleared up today.

I actually ate more today than I did yesterday. I'm hungrier now than I felt yesterday, too, but it's already 8:30 and I don't feel like hunting down food at this hour. It's cold.

Tomorrow, work. I really wish I could stay home, though. Work is stressful.

Anxious. I think I botched it with the kickboxing instructor. Only time will tell. I see him Monday for a movie. 

8:30am Breakfast and earlier: small banana 100, oatmeal 150 made with almond milk 50, chai latte stevia, pumpkin pie spice, and a small pinch of saffron!, icelandic yogurt  and slightly sweetened really tasty 130, coffee 50

10am snack: a small protein bar that i found pretty good. 180

11:30 brunch: these two wraps that say 70 cal but i am not so sure...by Mission and they say they are low carb. so 2 of them 150, one egg 100, half avocado 150, little sea salt too. 400 tasty. some of my baked acorn sqash fries 100

snacks 2 clementines 60, part of caffeine drink 

4pm-5pm more of caffeine bang drink, another tortilla 70, with cooked cranberry spread 30 and choc protein spread 200....350 or so, clementine 50 small banana 100

1650....workout soon - seems it'll be a home workout at it's 4pm now and pretty cold out, so i don't really want to go outside at all...may as well do it at home and save time and energy. tomorrow i'll drive around and pick up the cream cheese, that's all. gonna rest up and do a home workout, it was a long week.

another banana during workout ??? 120

after workout: tofu 100, wrap 100, 1/2 small avocado pinch saffron 150: 350, gingerbread light ice cream 100

2220, good.

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i did a bit of reading today...to finish a short book i was reading on the commute, the Alchemist. good read and very, VERY motivating and inspiring Winter read :) It's about soul searching, finding your path, not being afraid of failure and working on your life vision. Definitely relatable.

I have 3 other books at home to start on, so it's good to finish off one of them! :) The next book on my list is written by an army vet i believe..will update after i start reading it! lol

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I will be cooking & baking this weekend, using what i have, not buying much except for what i'm using this week. i really have no money to spend as i just paid rent last week, and my union dues last night which are close to $300 each 6 months and also paying back credit cards again..haha...no biggie, just typical how i spend...too much on food, but, that's my life!..it is better to bring food from home most days to work though! what i need to do is change the percentage i am saving in my paycheck for retirement, but i'm putting it off as long as possible bc i don't like the idea of making it less..duh! it's ok, i'm doing just fine and no real money issues.

I don't splurge often on clothes or large travel plans. I travel very economically when i do. I don't have expensive taste in material things. so, food it is! :)

Cooking & Baking items: 

-pumpkin pie cheesecake - i have all the ingredients i am using except need more cream cheese. so i'll be picking that up later. it calls for almond flour but i may just use coconut flour and i'm aware it's not a simple swap as the properties are really different. but this time i know it and i'll be very careful about the consistancy. i have so much coconut flour so i am going to work on using it up before purchasing any more baking flours.

- veggie soup (hoping the veggies i bought 2 weeks ago are ok - they should be)  in a bone broth (ordered powdered bone broth similiar to boilliion cube).  bone broth is slightly expensive and very healthy, so i will be drinking the broth all week. they are already flavored too, not just "bone broth" but flavored nicely like chicken soup. so, it will be really nice to have all week, next week, to enjoy a cup or so when i bring it for lunch. i already checked it out, opened the lid, and everything smells absolutely fabulous in the pot!

- roasted acorn squash

I'm surprised that my weigh-in wasn't higher this week:  didn't walk at lunch, didn't ride my bike in the evening, had a very salty dinner.  Plus bathroom issues (which resolved themselves AFTER weighing in) and hormones...  It seems to me that ANY week that I do weight-resistance training (whether it be hand-held weights or body-weight counterbalance, e.g. squats, push-ups), the numbers on the scale are higher.  ALWAYS.  I see that this is an issue that I want to reconcile within myself.  Perhaps weighing in less often will help.  I almost did not weigh in this morning with the bloated feeling I had in my hands, I thought for sure the number would be much higher on the scale.

So -- I did not walk at lunch yesterday because we adopted a new kitty!  I thought she would be a good fit for the cat that we already have, but now that she's out of the shelter and in our house, the new kitty is very shy.  Last night, I was a little down in the dumps, thinking that I chose the wrong cat.  I hope that it will just take some time.  In fact, I think that's mostly it, because she's not a bad kitty.  She's just a little scared & uncertain right now.  She likes to be held, she's eating and using her box, so she's healthy.

Chair yoga was OK.  Apparently, it's not a highly attended event.  The same 4 or 5 guys that were there in July were still the only ones who attend.  No wives, although we're invited.  IDK, I like the yoga enough -- not in love with it, but maybe its the instructor and/or the room we're in, too - but I feel not exactly comfortable there.  My husband likes it enough to get out of the house, and that's the important thing - to get him out of the house, around other people.

The Veterans Christmas party went well for myself.  My husband had a really good time.  I had scrambled eggs, 3 sausage links, and 3 cups of coffee.  I had completely forgot that they said we could bring something to share.  Now that I know, next year, I will bring more coffee supplies and fresh-cut fruit platter or salad (just cut-up fruit in a big bowl or tray).  I hope that we can be more involved with this group next year.  Out of the activites that are planned for 2019, there at least 6 outings that we can do together.  Bowling and dance lessons are the 2 that I'd like to do, but I don't think my husband can do that any more with his limitations.

Between last night's greasy, salty dinner and today's brunch, I am craving fresh vegetables.  I plan on having a bunch for either 3pm snack or at dinner.  Brunch is sitting kind of heavy right now, but took 2 Tums, which I hope will help.  I'm doing laundry now and have to get started on decorating my ugly Christmas sweater for Friday's party.

Have a case of cranky today. Just up a couple of pounds and didn’t get enough done this week and missed yoga last night because I was dehydrated and yoga today because I wasn’t getting moving fast enough. Also my hair isn’t falling into place like it was when I got it cut a month ago and my clothes feel messy. 

So just need to shake it off and walk my dog. Make things better. Work harder.

This was good on realigning when you are feeling overwhelmed... https://www.thecultivatedcareer.com/blog/overwhelmed-seven-strategies-to-help-you-realign

Happy Friday! December 7 we are up to...still pretty early this Holiday Month!

Kombucha and seltzer with stevia...extra liquids at home 50 cal...did the trick

Breakfast: Starbucks Egg White Spinach Wrap 300, coffee 50, few of my dark choc raisinets 100

Snacks: office keurig hot green tea with stevia, dark choc covered raisins 100

Protein cookies - not great, will not buy again 200...we shall see...i will be snacking hardcore today...anything to get me thru this day and back home to bed tonight.

1pm Lunch: buying it at the buffet...will load up on veggies. hungry day already...different types of veggies, light dressing, 250, 2 very small fried potstickers 150, seared tuna steak 250. 650. 

Snacking, so tired so done but got a bit of walking at lunch and was asked to do another errand, so, i'll be trying to stay till at least 6:30...at least 1.5hours OT today...i can do this!...so far part of brownie and clementine 100, later a coffee 50, maybe more brownie later 100

worked ot 2 hours till 7pm!

1700, all healthy....popcorn and micro small lasagna 550

2250 :)

weekly avg: 2240

Dinner: i have food at home to eat- leftovers are def enough for a couple meals at least at home - just no time to plan to bring meals from home today due to being more busy than usual this week..

Bed will probably happen for a long time ....long sleep i mean...tonight.  and i cannot even wait!

 I will be needing extra snacks along the day today...to get this work done and bc i'm feeling very tired and groggy.

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I successfully survived the holiday party last night.  A nice coworker gave a bunch of us a ride home (3 of us living on the same block, 1 out of the way) and himself the driver. So nice...got home by 10pm!...the party was around half hour only away. THANK GOSH it took relatively a short drive to get home at that hour of the night, 9:30pm or so.

All was good, nothing negative at all to say about the party.

Food was good. Had a little of everything. All was tasty.

On to today, FRIDAY, now!

Tonight i'll work only ONE 2 hours OT...as if my ankle is feeling up to it, i want to do some walking like i did on Wednesday eve, on my commute home from the subway. we shall see how i feel later. At lunch, i'll def be going outside to walk also, with a coworker... 

ABOUT LAST NIGHT, only one thing bothers me today: i said hello on my way out to an administrator who is sorta high up on the roster at the company...he said hi and "how is your pop!?"...didn't ask about me how i'm doing even - i don't work with him and i do not believe he even likes my father...he was being political at that moment. ..jerk....just went in for it..for the kill...sorta like saying, you are here bc of him. well, f you to that administrator. :)

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Tired.  Got up way to early after only 2 hours of sleep.  Wanted to research some stuff online and just kept researching.  Don't have anything planned for today, so have the option of going to bed whenever I want.  Rarely take naps, but today might be one of those rare times.

Had friends over last night.  The wife and girls had fun playing games with the other women-folk.  Us men-folk talked building & racing cars.  Which is what prompted my hours of research.  Have been contemplating starting on my 1975-ish Triumph Spitfire.  Haven't quite figured out which direction I'm going with the engine yet.

On to conquer day 75....

Got the girl and got home about 5:30 - a little later than usual because of the snow and crazy drivers. I cooked probably not the best meal, chicken fried chicken, creamy chicken rice and corn. The girl made a comment about the corn being a starchy vegetable. Yes I know and I shouldn't have served it with rice, but I get tired of green beans all the time the brocolli was spoiled in the refrigerator and I detest frozen brussel sprouts and you don't like carrots and I don't like peas, so...CORN!

She showers and changed her bed sheets and her mom gets her at 8:00.

DH gets home at 10:30 and tells me he has to work all weekend. WTF!! He is OK with this as he thinks they will close his factory down the week of Christmas...maybe! I have annual leave scheduled the week of Chirstmas, so I guess if he works, I will work too and save my leave for another time.

Tree is still not finished...maybe tomorrow.

Baking tomorrow, I have baked for my mom, aunt and two older cousins (like my mom's age) who can't really bake anymore or get around too well for that matter. I box them up and send them for Christmas, they love it and are appreciative of my efforts.

Thinking of making a stew tomorrow.

Anyway...on to the weekend! PEACE! IP

Day 73 completed successfully.

Sigh of relief today as I stepped on the scale and it didn't jump right back into the 180's.  Yes, I know there's no real difference between 179.9 or 180, but seeing one over the other makes me feel better anyways.

Not much happening today unless something comes in within the next few hours.  Not sure what project I'll be concentrating on if regular work doesn't appear.

On to conquer day 74....

Trying hard not to dwell on discontentment that work brings me during what should be a pleasant time of year.  Why does it upset me that they are giving my work to my Nice Lady Co-Worker (the one who is 68 yrs old -- me in 20 years)?  As long as I get paid for what I do and have insurance from my boss, why should this bother me so much?  It bothers me because this doesn't follow the protocal.  It's "outside the box" -- "outside the lines".  She's not supposed to be doing ANY real estate.  But then they gave her the files with an agent who didn't want to work with me any more.  OK, that's fine (truly a blessing in disguise). 

But now they're talking about giving her another realtor, who only wants to deal with one person - so that person would be Nice Lady, because there is nobody in the office who can see all files from beginning to end.  (I do purchases from beginning to end, but not sales.)  This structure is the way my boss wants it done; other busy law firms have each assistant see their files from beginning to end.  Whatever.  

My husband is like, this is something you can't control, you spoke up, they dismissed your statement, so it is what it is.  And he's RIGHT.  The only thing I can control is how I react.  THIS SHOULD NOT BOTHER ME.  Why would I want MORE work for the same wage?  I shouldn't.   And logically, I don't.  I guess what really bothers me is that they're giving this work to Nice Lady, and that my boss is letting this happen.  

Another unexpected party announced this week.  We will be having an in-office pizza party as we gather to sign the Christmas cards we do for a mass-mailing.  There are like 200 cards to sign that we send out to realtors to wish them happy holidays.  So I can handle this one of 3 ways:

• Ask my boss to order me a salad a la carte from the menu;
• Bring my own big salad to eat;
• Bring my own raw vegetables to eat with the pizza toppings without the crust, so that all I would be eating from the pizza is the cheese & toppings.  This isn't truly keto because the pizza sauce has sugar in it.  But if I have raw vegetables, I can limit myself to 2 square pieces of pizza toppings.

I'm leaning towards #3 as the most polite, least offensive option.

Tonight, my husband and I are going to Chair Yoga, and then grab a dinner at a simple diner. These things are hard to do the night before weigh-in.  

Looking at a busy day here today.......lots to do....and basically it will run through the holidays.....I've been prepping food ahead for the next couple of weeks to make things easier...so lots of repeats of recent meals.... probably won't be posting pics  unless i make something more interesting....I really don't like repeating meals and posting them...LOL.......I'm also trying to up my daily cals a bit......and just  want to enjoy the holidays...........since we are now only a couple of weeks away from Christmas. 

I'm giving lots of thought to some new changes for the new year.....still ignoring the scales in favor of rather or not I fit into specific clothes....getting there.......and then looking forward to staying there.....I'm guess that when my WW contract ends ( around April )...I won't need to renew it.......especially since I am also counting calories along with ww points...probably won't need both anymore.