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I'm lazy today. Eating is going well, I'm putting my menus in the MyFitnesspal right now. 

My breakfast:

Street view from yesterday afternoon:

Hello girls!!!

My friend suggested I use MyFitnessPal. Do you have any experience with it? It's great that it lets me scan bar codes, but it doesn't let me change the names so ... almond butter came in Spanish... My OCD shrieked... If I could change the name to English, I could just screenshot and copy / paste here...

I had a generic doctor's appointment today but I cancelled it... It's just to get blood and urine regular checkup prescriptions, but I feel too lazy and shy today...

Today's menu:

08h00 - two slices of rye bread toasts with some almond butter, and a slice of bacon. A huge coffee with milk - make it two... :-)

11h00 - coffee with milk, again.

Lunch was red raddish, cheese, bacon... like a snack.

Dinner was awesome though, 3 eggs omlette with mozarella cheese. :)

Today's picture:

Regular street view from the city. Yet another typical landscape, and a typical painting on an electricity box. The storks are very popular in this city, and one can find literally hundreds of them on top of buildings, often their nests full of babies nowadays.

This photo is not the best in terms of view, but I really like how the different tones of the color blue are present all over the place. And as I explained yesterday, the run-down, abandoned buildings are also part of the old city.

 Gained 3 pounds...  Wow.  I don't even know what to say.

I'm not even sure what to change because I feel like I'm doing all the right things....

 Happy 4th!

will have breakfast, late one, and do a weights workout. Want to do a little walking or biking outside also. Then I'm going to family in the afternoon for dinner. May not do any assignments today, we will see.

Actually did a workout this morning. 

Beer day even though I had wine on Thursday.

Dreary and damp here, again.  We were getting so spoiled by gorgeous weather in May and early June. 

Lockdown is easing here, but at the same time Scotland has finally made masks mandatory in shops.  We don't plan to change anything.  My brother is shipping the extra ashes of my son for me to sprinkle in Glencoe (gorgeous mountain area which my son loved) and by the time they arrive we'll be able to drive the 90 miles to get there and maybe have lunch outdoors.  So we'll pick a warm, sunny day.  Saving half of them to sprinkle on the D Day beaches of Normandy because he always wanted to go there, so his brother and I will sprinkle them next summer.

Menu:  still not counting calories though I should

• B:  toast, soy yogurt with fresh blueberries, tea
• S: quinoa bar and coffee
• L: salad with hummus, cheddar and boiled egg
• S: popcorn, beer
• D:  curry, tonic with lime
• S: popcorn

Workout:

No upper body with dumbbells

• 2 sets x 10 lower body with dumbbells (squats, lunges, calf lifts)
• 2 sets x 10 bum and thighs with ankle weights
• 2 sets abs, planks, push ups
• step aerobics
• jump rope 3 x 20
• 3 sets of a Tae Bo routine

 I take a lot of photos of our garden so here's one:

 It looks like posting or getting online at all will need to be done early morning or later at night....so excited for high speed internet on the 13th.....haven't had that in a long time....( the country life is looking up a bit)..........Lots of fireworks lately...as long as they don't set the forrest on fire then it's actually nice to hear.....BUT...it is dry here soooooo.......Our flag is always out weather permitting and today I wear my US flag shirt......no fireworks for me.....I used to hold my breath until all of the kids fireworks were used up many years ago....they loved them and we didn't want to deny them that fun....and they always made it through that with all of their fingers......this year...something a little different...hand sanitizer and fireworks don't mix....who would have ever thought that it would be an issue...but  then who could have ever imagined life right now anyway?

Today I plan to just eat what ever I want....with no set goals for the day other than to just relax and have a nice day.  

Tomorrow.....back to counting and goals....Happy 4th of July to my American friends and havea wonderful day to everyone!!!

 10am, noon also Dunkin' Donuts 650

kombucha 50

early dinner flatbread with no flavor really, maybe partially stale? 250, few slices turkey 50, full pint of blueberries over a large period of time 250, some homebaked sweet potato fries (was ok) 200. 750...lots of health in these foods overall! over a wide period of time like 2 hours while doing some work for the paralegal course...did i eat gummies today? 100

10:30pm snack: cookies, still working (most of afternoon) on week 2 of paralegal. just want to get it done :) 150 - seriously am going to try to finish the first half the course in a relatively short time...should take 7 weeks to finish the first half, gonna try for 3 weeks...will have gummies now too

1850...

I have now finished weeks 1 and 2 worth of assignments in just one and a half weeks, it is still taking long, but i think i have a way to knock it down a little bit!...i am planning to again do two weeks at least of work this coming week...unless i get called to work, which i don't think is going to happen just yet...so i will just keep working on the assignments.

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some walking with Ricky today in the heat. he wasn't too happy :(...now i'm home and going to do some reading..need to do weights later in the afternoon or early evening.

once again, i may skip weights tonight and just continue to work on the class notes - and continue to work on the paralegal assignments thru the night

i might just do the weights tomorrow and deal with 1 day skipped this week of weights :) no worries here.

A couple of our friends wanted to try out their bikes last night just after dinner so came down to our house and we sat outside.  Of course that meant we both broke our no alcohol day.  Wine for me, beer for hubby and our friends had both.  Unfortunately I didn't have any cold rose' which is lower alcohol so had red wine.  I drank it like I normally drink the other wine not thinking about how high the alcohol content was.  Serious hangover today!! 

Received a box of popcorn today but a different kind - sweet and salty - almost like caramel corn.  Higher cals than the one I've been having, but not much more.

Menu:

• B: toast, tea
• S: quinoa bar, coffee
• L: cheese sandwich, packet of crisps
• S: popcorn
• D: veg and chicken curry
• S: popcorn 

Not exactly a healthy food day.  But too tired to bother.

In front of my house:

I think I could have done without this past week at work.  I won't spend any more energy on the negatives there.  I am off today (Friday) for the July 4th weekend - thank goodness, much needed time away.  Somehow it doesn't feel right to be at home, but I'll take it. 

Because of the extra day, I've washed the bedding and it's hanging outside to dry in the sanitizing sun.  It is already uncomfortably warm and promises to get only warmer as the day moves on.  Once the afternoon comes, I would like to work out in the front yard, which will be in the shade, to do some weeding.

 In my funk this week, the only goal I could come up with for July is to "just get through it".  And that made me so sad, because this is our summer month. (OK, August is too, but that has a twinge of autumn in it.  July is the REAL summer.)  What made me sad was that rather than wanting to enjoy summer or seize the day or make something of this time, my only goal was to hurry through it so that it would be over :-(

A LOT of THAT attitude is because of work and the rotten week I had.  I'm only going to get busier, which is ridiculous.  I just realized that a BIG part of the drain of work is all the DRAMA.  I need to shed all of that **** and focus on my balance.

I truly do want to enjoy this summer month.  Even just little joys like sitting out on my deck.  Watching birds build their nests.  Watching my butterfly garden come to fruition.  I'm so filled with negative emotions by the time I get off of work that it's impossible to enjoy the time I have at home.

So I do have a couple of goals for July:

• Losing 2 pounds - still aiming for those 130's!
• Weight training 2x week

I think that's it. 

 Breakfast life cereal 200, currants 150, almond milk 50, kombucha 50 450.

snack 2 cookies, little more kombucha 50. 150. 200.

lunch tbd- prob eggs or chicken bacon! English muffin with butter 200, bacon 50. 250. Chips 100

4pm snacks plum 50, pb 80 on a  cookie 70. 200

6:30 dinner flatbread & chicken bacon 300, wine 250

totally forgot if i had a snack when i got home before doing work? Chocolate 60

snack: leftover wine, seltzer, i know i had cookies, 

1950-2000...

decided on stepper 10 min in morning and a leg workout after lunch. Later at 8pm, I'll walk a little bit.

Things to get after today, in any order:

1. Just get up and face the day, despite the exish not having invited me to his birthday yet, or possibly at all - Knocked him in the head till we made plans

2. 

3. Critical errands to do today:

    3A. Pharmacy - Done
    3B. Amazon returns
           i) Pack items
           ii) USPS - Done
           iii) UPS - Tomorrow
           iv) Fedex - Done

4. 

5. 1 item of critical business

    5A. Dad business session. Filing his papers. Call to a company that is messing up - Done
           
    5B. My stuff. My papers.

6. 1 item of household management:

     6A. Pick up bedroom. How does this chaos keep happening? - Done
     6B. Clean out and organize fridge
     6C. Kitchen floor
     6D. Tower in Dad's bedroom
     6E. Garden (after hose washer delivery though... leak is depressing)
     6F. Flies. Where are they coming from?
     6G. Find tarps to put down for bedroom floor and dog.

7. To feel better

     7A. Another round of straight Metally to try and get rid of more black dye
     7B. Clean up the gantt plan I made for my life
     7C. Paint my toes.
     7D. Order a third summer dress in a happy pattern - Done
     7E. Try on jersey maxi dress from Shein order. Fingers crossed.

8. Prioritize getting to bed on time.

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Almond milk, instant espresso

blueberries, cottage cheese

Salad

stevia soda

entire bag of potato chips (oops)

2 apricots

Internet is so sketchy now........not my first time posting today.....the rest failed.........high speed comming on the 13th....so hopefully it will improve things along.

coffee

pizza

halo top

still haven't figured calories,,

Getting some things done today but afraid to write too much and then not be able to post.......

 Hey Amazing people of DietDiaries!

I feel so motivated! I'm not measuring anything regarding to weight, or anything... I only measure my happiness, improvement in mood and improvement in physical aspect (not the looks, but for example if I feel less exhausted, if I can do things I couldn't do before... exceed my limits basically).

So I noticed several improvements today and I really feel very motivated and happy. My foods are still full of dairy and I have the impression that not everything is logged - for example I remember having a slice of chourizo last night and it's not listed on my food list yesterday, lol. I think it was a sudden craving or something. And I also think it's okay until it's not in excess... My main problem is that sometimes I won't stop at the first slice... sometimes it's craving overcoming my mind completely, and sometimes it's the guilt telling me "f... it , I already scr..wed it up so it doesn't even matter anymore if I have more...". I don't feel these nowadays, and I'm extremely happy about it.

Today's menu:

08h00 - 3 slices of thin rye bread with cottage cheese and fresh veggies, coffee milk

12h00 - coffee with milk

14h45 - few slices of chourizo, 2 slices of cheese, cherry tomatoes and raddish. Lovely! A 40gr sugarfree ice-cream.

 17h00 - a strong cappuchino (had sugar) from Lidl 330ml.

19h00 - cold milk, and a very small amount of fruit juice.

Today's photo (I will post one photo per day of my city):

This is a typical view of my city. They painted all the electric boxes with paintings related to the county or the country. Another "feature" of my city is the big quantity of abandoned houses. I understand this city was full of life a century ago or more, when the center of the cork production was here. But when it closed, people moved out because the available jobs reduced significantly. I guess that some of these buildings cannot be sold because it's very difficult to find their legal owners now. Even this apartment we aqcuired last September when we moved here, had certain challenges because it was a heritage and all the documentation had to be digged up from old records.
Still, about the cork: We have a huge, also empty at the moment building called "A fábrica do Ingles" (the factory of the Englishman - direct translation).  It's an important heritage of the region, as it once was an important cork factory, and the region was one of the most important cork producers in the country. Sadly it's closed now so I can't post photos of it but I will try.

Did some housework today - dusting, hoovering, sweeping.  Did 30 minutes on the exercise bike but have yet to do muscle work.  My shoulder is a bit sore again and no idea why.

Weather is still yucky.  I don't want to power walk as there's a good chance of rain.  But I'm going to start listening to audiobooks when I do walk.

Since my son is gone I have no rights to see my granddaughters (nasty divorce).  So I have to try to get along with their mother (it's hard!).  She's grateful that I'm buying the girls laptops and that I'll pay for drivers ed next school year for the oldest one.  I'm hoping she'll let me take the girls next summer for a week at Lake Michigan like we did for a couple of years with my son and the girls. 

Also hope she doesn't give us any problem in 3 years when the oldest graduates. I told gd I'd give her a trip over here and take her to London and maybe Belgium or somewhere else she'd like to go.  She's only been to Scotland where we are. 

Menu:

• B:  toast, soy yogurt with fresh raspberries, tea
• S:  quinoa bar (2 - oops), coffee
• L:  egg salad sandwich and crisps
• D:  some kind of curry that husband is now cooking
• S:  popcorn

I'd love to have a beer but this is hubby's second no beer day.  I'll have a beer with him tomorrow. 

I tell you my life is a freakin' roller coaster.

We are having  the backsplash installed in my kitchen - yeah so it's been about 18 months since the new cabinets and granite counter tops were installed, it takes me this long to save enough money to do the project...because I detest credit card debt and refuse to get myself back in that endless depth of hell.

So because Barry (the awesome handyman guy) is installing the tile, I went to the office twice this week. Here are some in progress pictures.

excuse my dirty, crumb filled toaster

So far I love it and can't wait for it to be completed. Barry took off for the Holiday weekend and won't be back until Monday...so we will have to make do.

Tuesday we ate out twice - McDonalds and Taco Bell. Trust when I say I paid the price all day yesterday at work and even when I returned home...stomach/bathroom issues ALL day!

I blame it on the food, but looking back I think it is because we had a run-in with the exwife yesterday. She is a piece of work. The girl had a contact lense appointment and wanted to stay the night and the ex wasn't having it, saying we had the girl all last week and she needed to see her (not that she doesn't live over there 80% of the time, but she missed her and wanted to see her). 

BACKSTORY - I have been trying to get this girl contact lenses since February - we go they give her a trial pair, tell her to come back, give her another trial pair, tell her to come back give her the last trial pair and then COVID comes around (the lenses were only 30 day lenses so she had to throw this trial pair away) When she finally gets another appointment they start all over with the trial pair - they couldn't get one of her eyes right. Anyway, she was to go back for the check and to actually get the supply of contact lenses.

Anyway the ex is like I've been wearing contacts for 37 years and never have I had to go to this many appointments to get my perscription. Right...and how long has the girl been wearing contacts....uh NEVER! So she was going on and on about we pick the girl up too early and instead of coming to get her at 10:00 she needs to be picked up at 3:30-4:00 because the divorce and visitation says so! And she is just going on and on.

This aggravated me....because she is always throwing this divorce and visitation up in DH's face and I'm like it's funny how you never remember that that agreement also says you back 38% of medical expenses that you have yet to pay one dime of...so back off you spawn of satan.

So today the girl has an orthodontic appointment at 2:30 so I told the girl that once she is finished with her appointment to have her mom drop her off over here, because it will be right about 3:30 when she is finished and as per the above complaint we were not to pick her up earlier. SO NOW all of a sudden because this piece of sh1t mother don't want to take the girl to the appointment it is OK for DH to pick her up early. She is a scam artist, a control freak and a bully. I have never in my life detested someone so much in my life.

Anyway my theory is that this visitation agreement was fine when the girl was 8, but she is almost 16 now and knows when and where she has to be somewhere and tries to make it easier on both households...but this witch don't see it that way.

Now the girl wants to go to court to get the residential parent changed....this will cost us a bundle and OMG...I just have no energy to deal with this right now.

However on a lighter note, we are still supposed to go to Oklahoma on 7/11 for a few days....long drive, but I think we just need to get away.

I hope you all have a great 4th of July.

I work a few hours today and will be off tomorrow. No real plans, just hanging out and cleaning the house in case my mom decides to come back with us. She always nit picks about dust...so I will get the house up to her standards over the next week.

IP

Had a really decent day today. I even put on a pretty dress, makeup and tried to do something with my hair. The effect was decent. I ate 2 salads. I controlled other temptations.

The caregiver came today so I was able to go down and see the Ex-ish for long enought to watch a movie and hang out after. It was just to watch a dumb movie... but oh the infinite luxury of another person to sit and watch a stupid movie with when you are really down. It was more fun than a rock concert at Disneyland.

It's his birthday on Sunday. Last year, I gave him tickets to a horror convention and all it entailed to go... which bombed horribly and laid the foundation for our 60 day no-contact breakup... So this year... I dunno. I bought a Letterkenny DVD set off Amazon that gets here Friday. Not a really great, extravagent thing... but at least something to unwrap. He had his closet door open and I saw the gift bags from Christmas and Valentine's Day there, neatly folded. Seemed odd. I didn't think that meant much to him... Or maybe he's just frugal.

I wish it didn't feel like "if he doesn't invite me to his birthday, he's just not that into me." I know I turn into a puddle and want to crawl into a hole if anyone asks me what I want to do for my birthday. I would practically rather run headlong into a pole than have anyone go to any effort to do anything related to my birthday... or be expected to be happy that day in any way, shape or form.

I did not get nearly enough time with their dog though. Such a good girl.

My poor girl did not do so well with the caregiver... She has the runs and pooped the rug. I hope the caregiver comes back.

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Coffee, almond milk

salad

2 pieces pizza, 1 hot wing, 1 apple cookie, 1 piece bitter chocolate, 2 dark chocolate cherries. I left the bag of dark chocolate cherries with him. He is a walking appetite and can have the calories.

Dad's ice cream

another salad

3 apricots

In bed.. 12 AM Still hungry... hmmm

 9:30 breakfast life cereal 250, currants 150, coconut almond milk 50. 450.

snack kombucha 50, leftover cereal lol, cookies 150

2:30 late lunch: toasted english muffin 150, chicken bacon 50.200. nachos 300

fruit & gummies 200

5:30 1350

7:30pm Dinner: salad with olive oil 150, the rest of leftover fish 150, Italian bread 200 small. Beer with lime 100.

1950. 

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upper body weights workout at noon - soon - was going to ride bike but feel it's more important to get the weights in 

studying week #2 out of 14 weeks assignments.  found one book that has audible...which is usually a faster pace than i read, so i got that...but the bigger textbook that takes the most time to read is not on audible, so it will continue to be the challenging read of the class for me, which is fine. i'm thinking i'm probably going back to work soon...

Slept really well...and weather is beautiful........D headed out early for blood work...at the hosp there was a 2 hour wait standing outside........so they gave him the option to go to his doctors office and there was a 30 minute wait there......he asked how many covid patients in the hospital ...they said 2 to 4........BUT...some businesses in our town have been reported as places where there are multiple infections lately but they won't tell us which ones......seems like we should be able to know that.......so I stay home until I can't wait anymore.

2 cups coffee, Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich, chili and scallped potatoes with cheese = 1,763 cals today

Basically ended up spending the day trying to keep the old computer running ........it didn't cooperate...so I got the new one i bought last Christmas time...and now It and I are getting to know each other......that was a full day job

PLUS

1 package arrived...things sure are taking a long time to get here

got some more laundry plus washed up all of cats things

vaccumed the den

mail out/mail in

made bed

garbage to garage

dishes washed

 I don't remember what I had last night for dinner :(

So I noticed I am forgetting small snacks or details of my foods... and sometimes there's no way I can note it down immediately. I also don't want to become obsessed, given my historical, I could become obsessed in a very short time... 

08h00 - 3 slices of thin rye bread with cottage cheese and fresh veggies, coffee milk

11h00 - one more coffee with milk

13h00 - grilled salmon fillet with cherry tomatoes, a sugarfree ice-cream (40gr)

16h30 - coffee with milk

18h00 - two slices of cheese, almond butter and 2,5 slices of bacon

19h30 - milk shake, banana, berries, semi skimmed milk

22h00 - some cold fruit juice (200ml, 66g carbs) and a greek yogurt with fruits no sugar added.

Hey, how about a photo of my little beautiful city again? This part is always part of my morning walk.

Planned on doing some muscle work and aerobics, but didn't.  Did do lots of laundry and some hoovering.

Menu:

• B: toast, yogurt, tea
• S: quinoa bar, coffee, last sesame snack
• L: salad, hummus, cheddar
• S: popcorn
• D: Massaman curry
• S: popcorn 

Husband has decided he needs to lose some weight - he weighs less than me!  But he just has a bit of beer belly.  So he's going 2 days a week with no beer.  Today and tomorrow.