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Hi All :)
kombucha 60
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A few positives for today:
I am working an hour OT so that I can have 7/5 off and I planned it so doing OT is very doable and less impact on the rest of the week.
My exercise was done yesterday so i can relax after work today.
If i have time, i'll be able to cook up a new recipe so I have tasty eats for the rest of the week :)
I am going to hopefully give R some of the corned beef and potatoes I made on Saturday evening for his dinner / lunch tomorrow if he wants it.
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Last night i came home and cleaned the hamster cage even before my workout even though it was late, i was motivated to get it cleaned up. I ended my workout, with breaks including making breakfast sandwiches for the week and getting my lunch for today together, around 10pm. It's the latest i have had in awhile and it's because i should have done it before I saw my family, but i slept in instead. It's a reminder that i could have planned better and not to rely on doing much on days where i am going to my parents / family for a get together/holiday. all is good.
I didn't look around when i left my parents, so i accidentally left all my books at my parents house (2 i brought with me and 1 i was taking from my parents). i know, weird! My dad will hopefully bring them to work and leave them at the front desk for me to take much later tonight (there's security there till around 9pm so i have time to get the them!)
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!7:45am breakfast: cinnamon spice oatmeal packet 160, almond milk 20, whipped cream (ran outta oatmeal!) 130, iced coffee 30. 350
Then, i fell back to sleep until around 11am :)
11:15am Dang keto protein bar 210, iced coffee with almond milk/stevia 30. 250.
Nut butter 100
4pm early dinner cucumber salad 100, pepper salad 100, potatoes 250, kale salad 150, small piece steak 100, chicken 100, salmon 200, frank 100...1100, watermelon 50
started workout around 8pm
8:30pm during workout -apricot 50
10:30pm (very late and latest workout night in a long time due to family obligations - they weren't keen on me leaving earlier so the clock kept ticking and when my sister said she was going to give her baby a bath, i finally left! haha) after workout: bar 200
total today is GREAT 2100 - VERY glad i only had tea and watermelon and no pie or other desserts bc i ate well, enjoyed plenty of food AND have good calories at the end of the day !
2day avg: 2225
i didn't get around to cooking veggies this weekend - hoping to do it tomorrow after work, but we'll see - i am working an hour late tomorrow & really there's no need to be up later than expected two nights in a row.. part of the reason i didn't cook is bc i slept in today. i'm glad i did since i am up late anyways working out! anyways, a good day even if plans were a bit of a mess.
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Supermarket items to pick up today: seltzers, wraps, kombucha, yogurt, berries, italian seasoning
Seeing parents for BBQ today - not sure if i'll swing by supermarket before or after it.
My strength workout will happen tonight, when i get home, after bbq, around 5pm is my goal. I may have to leave the BBQ early - as i'm arriving at noon, but my sister may not arrive with her baby / husband at that time.
Keep working those weights!
it was a good day overall..
Happy Fathers Day...a day to celebrate for sure.
I asked D if he wanted to go out to dinner or if he wanted me to make him a T Bone steak.....he chose the steak....so that will make counting a lot easier for me today...I just know if we went to the restaurant I would not be as good points wise........Living away from the kids sure does change holidays......very different from when we all lived near to each other. We have all spread out now and while we all live where we want....we have lost the closeness....always a phone call away...yet so far. Asked D if he wanted me to make a dessert...and he said no...so that helps too.
Breakfast =
Fage FF yogurt 0 points and 120 cals
Mrs Buttersworths lite syrup ( 1 T.) = 1 pt and 25 cals
orange = 0 points and 62 calories
2 cups coffee = 0 points and 16 cals
Won't bore everyone with anymore pics today...I'm making a nice Fathers day meal for D...but I'm eating leftovers because what he is having isn't really going to fit into my points........so......I plan to stay within points...and get a few more cals today though...yesterday was a bit short.
Next, i just ordered a sugar free stevia type of maple syrup on amazon and i think for this week i'll buy regular / plain greek yogurts so i can use my syrup as a mix in!
breakfast looks light and tasty!
So I think you would understand why I kind of want to stay here in Illinois to be with my daughter for as long as possible... It's already kind of surreal without my son around, although I'm extremely proud of him for moving forward in his life in a meaningful way.
Happy Father's Day.... Mr. Donkey was going to grill outside today with his brand new grill but since the weather's been kind of wet and rainy, now he's not so enthusiastic. I hope he changes his mind. This reminds me that he did not buy any corn on the cob to cook on the grill for our daughter, so maybe he was never intending to cookout today. Hmmm....
I am waiting for the lady selling her dumbbells on Facebook to contact me for a time and place for pick-up. Let's see if this one ever comes to fruition. I'm starting to think that rather than buying heavier weights, to invest my money in some resistance bands. They are a lot cheaper and take up way less space. I think if Dumbbells Lady doesn't come through today, I'm not going to pursue them any further. Today or that's it.
I realized this morning that when I worked out with weights yesterday, I did a full upper body routine. So today, I will do legs and more ab work - if my back will permit it. I woke up to a really sore hip/back (as usual). My morning bike ride seems to have helped immensely with that. I will also do some floor stretches here in a little bit to realign my hips to my back. *sigh* gettin' old...
I've also noticed that I'm getting tired of meat. This past week, I was to the point where I cannot eat any more bacon for a while. I wasn't eating a lot of it, but while eating it, realized, I've had enough, I don't want any more. I have some summer sausage in the refrigerator that I've also "had enough" of. I'm not sure if it's the high fat or the flavor or what.
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost and already at goal!
Did you guys bbq? I took home steak for R but he told me he cannot chew it so i now will freeze it in the corned beef extra liquid i have...
Those dumbbells are a GREAT price! what a great idea. i should have looked into more options when i was purchasing mine! did you end up picking them up?
also exercise bands, using them slow and with resistance, i know can be just as effective as weights. so that would be a great option too of course!
I am reading something interesting, my book on success that i forgot at my parents' house boohooo...and well your routine on your bike is really nice bc you are moving and doing something very positive at the start of your day.
Thankfully I've been able to stick with WW through all of the family ups and downs.........toyed with it a bit...and felt that maybe I should just play the game the way it is set up...........Toying with the process worked many years ago....but as the years go by ( mine)....and the ww program changes........I think this program works well without my own personal adjustments...........Personal coaching is nice....certainly much easier that dealing with meetings so far away.........all the coaches have been super so far......They all have gotten the fact that I know the program...and won't really have any questions....and that I am basically using them to keep me accountable. I can use the same coach each week or try different ones...so far...I've chosen 3 different ones.....and was happy with all. D's Drs appts and tests continue through this month....and still waiting for the ok for a specialist appt. We will both be happy to have some answers and get this out of the way.
Raining again today....so no outside things.........plenty to keep busy with inside....
So far over the last 16 days I've just counted ww points....but with so many zero point foods now ( 200 of them)....I think I would like to not only count points but calories at the same time. I've gotten curious about how many calories I'm eating now.......zero point foods are all healthy...but they still have calories....and the old calories in/calories out is still the way it works.
Clothes are still fitting loosely....and I can see that they will need to be donated in the near futrure....right now...I'm just enjoying the looser fit for summer. Still putting off breakfast as long as possible...that just helps me soooo much. Today I will be testing out the 2 cups of coffee in the morning again...lately I'm drinking the McDonalds pods for keurig...and likeing them so will see how this goes. I miss my Fitday software.....disc broke and it's not replaceabble...so I'm just googling cals now..
Breakfast
2 cups coffee = 0 points and 16 cals
2 boiled eggs = 0 points and 154 cals
1 slice Aunt Millies 12 grain bread toasted = 3 points and 100 cals
20 sprays of I Can't believe it's not butter spray = 0 points and 0 cals
1 Heaping T. Walden Farms Grape Spread = 0 points and 0 cals
36 green grapes = 0 points and 72 cals
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Breakfast = 3 points and 342 cals
Lunch
Banana = 0 points and 105 cals
Salad = 2 points and 88 cals
Turkey sausage and peppers and onions cooked with 1t olive oil = 3 points and 169 cals
Dinner
Flatout wrap with mustard, lettuce, tomato and 2 deli chicken breast slices = 2 points and 196 cals
2 lite mozarella sticks = 3 points and 100 cals
Built bar = 3 points and 110 cals
So far today 1,110 cals and 16 points..........Should add a few cals and a few points...will see how hungry I am later...may just leave it at this. Almost 9 now...and not hungry...so this will be my day.....really could use some more points...but oh well...not going to eat when I'm not hungry....time to think beore I eat...LOL
I love that accountability aspect of WW.
I think a calorie vs. points comparison is helpful every so often. I don't know that I personally would do it every day - and I realize you're not saying you'd do it every day either. I must say, your breakfast looks mighty yummy and healthy this morning!
i cannot believe there's 200 foods on the no points list! that's a TON!
i love the Flat Out brand wraps...speaking of wraps, i gotta buy some soon! i prefer wraps to bread.
kombucha 60
Pre-race: wrap with egg and butter: 300 coffee 50
half banana and protein shake samples 150
10:45am brunch at a place similar to Subway, but, like a cut above with slightly better cold cuts ;) almost the same but very popular now on Long Island (forgot the name!). I got a mini sandwich with a lot of turkey and some cheese and mustard. they warmed the meat and cheese and it was very nice. 550. it's called JERSEY MIKE'S!
1-2:45pm caffeine, apricot 50, strawberries 100, whipped cream 120. 270, 2 hard boiled eggs 150
5pm early dinner leftovers from thursday's takout at buffet in the city: leftover seaweed salad 100? small but full serving of salmon 250?, roasted veggies not too much 100-150?. total here: 500 or so.i am actually still hungry, but, i know i'll have to wait this night out, maybe have a protein bar later and call it a day.
6pm-6:30pm snack orange 50, lg apricot 50
later snack ?: protein bar 200, almond milk 50
2350, good. longer day.
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most of the day just relaxed after the race. we were quite tired and just wanted to be home after we got home around 11:30am! i did get laundry done and put a corned beef with onions and potatoes into the slow cooker for next week though!
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Charity Race #3 so far that i've been a part of:
Up early for a walk/jog event. I am planning to both walk and jog it. :) and see how i do when mixing the two compared to the race where i only jogged around a month ago.
I have plans to do these races once a month, to see how i improve in general throughout the summer until October. They're just another form of planned fitness in my lifestyle.
JULY Next race is mid-July.
After that, decided to skip August due to other commitments on weekends and seeing other friends.
SEPTEMBER Next, September I have one scheduled the first weekend and i also am walking in the Labor Day Parade the second week of September.
OCTOBER After that, I have another walk scheduled for early October.
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Then, the weather will be shifting. I may try to do a couple more walks in November and December if there are any available. But, after October i may change up my routines again due to it being close to Winter and seeing what's going on with court officer stuff. I may be doing even more agility / personal cardio stuff to get ready for the beep test in the Fall. Not sure.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
PS I commented on your entry from Thursday. Could you take a look?
The race was super. the weather was great, the course was winding and interesting as it wasn't just boring and straight. there was even a little hill at one point. (mostly flat though!).
got a lot of freebies there, some caffeine drinks just to try even though i do not drink many energy drinks at all anymore bc they cause me to break out due to the aritificial ingredients. there was tons of cool things. even free waters - they gave me like 4.
I paid $25 per person for R and I to do this walk (he has now started to tell me that he'll do the walk free / no shirt and just join me....so we might try this if i sign up for a November race lol. anyways, i got so many freebies, it def added up to at least $25 :)
i'm really glad i'm not in the class today.
I realize in the past my goals weren't focused enough (cop) and that i didn't prepare well enough for that physical. so, i have to def plan more and better and practice better and more disciplined to the tests this time around :)
Thank you for answering my question; it helped me see the entire situation and how this fits into your training strategy -- and frankly, also for your plans for the future.
Just from my personal experience and an observation from this corner of DD, if you felt immediate relief from dropping the class, and that you have no regrets, tells me that this is right decision at this time. Where I'm coming from is this: have you seen someone try to force a situation? I'm not talking about putting forth effort or working hard, but rather, trying too hard to make something work that just wasn't meant to be? Or just wasn't the right fit? As I see it, THAT is what you have avoided here. Perhaps you can take it again at some other time in the future.... or maybe not. But that's OK too.
Did not weigh in today and that's fine. I did think about weighing in and then decided that now was not a good time.
Friday was a better day for me at work. Nice Lady is starting to talk to me again. I decided that I cannot live my life trying to manage the feelings of other people. If she is mad at me, then that's on her, and how she chooses to act or react is her decision. By the way -- I caught her AGAIN, yesterday, trying to work on one of my files. Do I do that to her files? No. I didn't call her out on it, but just kind of finished the task she started. I complained to my husband that said I need to find another job, because this is driving me nuts.
Overall though, it was a good day though - and this is bad - because we're not so busy. That's not good because I should still be busy until the end of June. Then real estate slows down a little for the 4th of July week, picks up again until the beginning of August when people start thinking about going back to school. So that there is a lull NOW is not a good sign. But I don't care, because I realize that I have to look out for my OWN well-being, and being less stressed out is what is important to me, personally. In fact, I started thinking yesterday afternoon about taking shorter hours when the work is less, rather than trying to find things to do, to work a full 8 hours. On the other hand, I did put in 3.75 hours of overtime this week overall....
I would like to get flowers for all of my flower pots today. I do not know if I will do that. I also have to get to the bank today as well. Heavy weights for shoulders/chest/triceps today. Already not looking forward to it, but I have a TV show at noon to watch, so that's some incentive there.
My husband sprang a couple of surprises on me today: wants to go grocery shopping (no thanks) and the hardware store (no thanks). Plus we're having a "money talk" sometime today, while my daughter is at work because these talks can get kind of loud.
I hope to update this post later on today...
EVENING UPDATE: If you read my comments to Horn below, you will see that I ended up running errands with Mr. Donkey. It was a good time. It had started to rain, and I think he (and me) got afraid that he might slip and fall again. That changed his mind from "I'll do it myself" to "OK, let's go when you're ready."
I bought some impatience flowers for my flower pots. I'm hoping that it will stop raining long enough for me to be able to pot them tomorrow.
Did heavy weights but different exercises.Afterwards, I really felt it - in a good way. I don't feel any pain now. Also, to my daily push-ups, I'm adding sit-ups in some form. We were all talking about this at work, and I think working on my front (abs) will help with my back. I realize that I don't do nearly enough to improve my posture. I'm starting to think about spinal disc compression or degration as we get older. Trying to avoid that.
Oh and some good news -- an inquiry I put in on FB Marketplace for 20lb dumbbells finally answered me this evening. I hope to pick them up tomorrow. 40lbs total for only $10!
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost and already at goal!
Add to this mix that a lot of my boss' top producing realtors have either retired or are retiring out of state, seriously sick (cancer), or have died. My boss will be 69 this year in October, and he has not done too much to gather young realtors into using our office.
Maybe go with the flow the rest of June at work until it seems busier? Is this a good thing if work is steady but not necessarily busy?
I hope you get some of your to-do list activities if not all of them accomplished today! Let us know what you did!
I think your hubby tends to surprise you a LOT with things he wants to do. Perhaps you can tell him you'd like to plan it in advance with him - bc there's some things you also want to do? I think it's alright for you not to accept everything he's asking to do bc he's got to give you some notice or discuss as a team? no? that's my opinion anyways!
Also, with my husband, I tried to turn it around, so that rather than thinking he's being so rude by not taking my time into consideration, that perhaps he wants something to do together. I told him after my TV show (and weight training!!!) ends at 1:30p, I would be happy to go with him wherever. At first he resisted but when it started to rain, he changed his mind. We had a fun time.
Tomorrow, the weather is going to be AWEOME and I am not taking the class this time around. Instead, i'm happy to say i can do the walk with R that we signed up for at a large, beautiful park around a half hour away. This walk i think will have a large attendance and also more giveaways and snacks than typical. should be wonderful.
i do not regret not taking the class as at the time my goal is needing simplification - stay in tune with cardio / more exercise opportunities. the class would not be a good idea at this time. it will still be around in the future as it's offered frequently.
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AMEN, it's FRIDAY!...and...lol, it's that TOM right now! hahaha....better today to start than as a surprise during the walk tomorrow!
Kombucha 50
8:45-9am Coffee 50, wrap with egg, butter 300. chocolate yogurt filling 100. (craving sweet & have calories to spare).
10am Dang Protein bar :) 210
12:30pm out to lunch, basically really healthy, decent servings and portions, mexican food, avocado/chips/salsa/tastes of flan dessert but not much, shrimp. really nice 750 tops. espresso also...omg strong!
4:30pm snack apricot
5:30pm-7:30pmon the way home / snacks before cleaning bathroom around 8pm: multiple drinks bc not eating much and strawberries 100, lg apricot 50
Light dinner: chocolate protein muffin in microwave with whipped cream. 350.totally feeling like i forgot to list something earlier today?
total i think: 2000, AWESOME!
7day is pretty good: 2140 (but can still be improved a little bit)
There was some extra walking throughout the day today. a great day overall!
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out to lunch for my supervisor / office mate / coworker's bday today. she's just about a year older than me, turning ripe young age of 38 :) i will find veggies on the menu ;)
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Looking forward to going on the 5k i signed up for early tomorrow morning. It starts i believe at 9, so we'll be leaving at 7:45 to get there in time to register and get our walking time tracking tags. Super excited to keep on with my most important journey - cardio.
I am super excited for the weekend, in general.
Lots of free time to do things and make sure I plan these in:
FRIDAY EVENING- clean bathroom shower / tiles - priority - maybe tonight!!!!
SATURDAY afternoon - do a bigger laundry including sheets saturday afternoon?, iron a pair of pants to wear next week. also cook veggies in slow cooker recipe 1
SUNDAY MORNING - cook veggies in slow cooker recipe 2- because i got another shipment in from Misfits Market - - i have so much! / ladder workout
SUNDAY EVENING - weights workouts sunday evening (both scheduled for SUNDAY) and prep some wraps for the week as well as meals
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
Om.
Woke up at 3:30am this morning with all-over body aches and pains. I think it is either arthritis or general aches and pains from the strain of cleaning rugs and hauling my mom around at the last minute appointment to get a pickline for chemo... Apparently she starts next week. Even though "Everything hurts and I'm dying", I am grateful to be back on schedule and have some early morning hours to myself to get my head together. I spent my morning creating a functional desk, nightstand, and workspace in my new room.
I did get to yoga on Wednesday, even though I was too out of it to leave the house and go... I tried an online live yoga app (Yogaia, but there are others). I don't know why I haven't before except that now that I finally have a door I can close, space to stretch out in and a clean carpet. I just went out to my car and grabbed my mat, blocks, blanket, and strap... good to go. Today I set up my tripod for my phone to give the instructor a better view of my poses... I still need a good mirror... and like 3 more feet of space on all sides!!! But one step at a time. I don't do yoga videos because I want the pose corrections from an instructor... I've wasted so much time with this neck injury and worked so hard to pull it back together I don't want to do anything to knock it out of position. Online and live seems like a good happy medium and a decent solve while I struggle through taking care of two terminally ill parents.
Yesterday instead of yoga though I went and got a haircut. I love my hair stylist, She's so nice and I destress so much. I really appreciate her tremendously. I was so desperate for something to make me feel human and this really, really helped. I actually got to feel like my old self again for a few hours last night. This was also helped by my Old Navy splurge on tall size yoga clothes and a salmon tank top. Everything shrinks and gets too short I swear. So not buying anything regular size ever again.
Today, I will continue to spend the morning on a million tiny tasks to set myself up for success, and possibly make up a couple of meals I have the ingredients for. Then I want to do a yoga class at lunch, then try to get my parents out of the house in the afternoon for some kind of outing. Burn off the shut in crazy a little if I can.
Tomorrow I see my guy!
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!Online and Live yoga!? amazing!!!! that sounds awesome indeed! And so convenient to do at home. that's cool.
yes, i've had issues i believe with old navy and shrinking / short size pants getting too short!
i'm glad you got your hair cut and feel good. I need to get highlights, but, since time is sorta racing lately, i'm actually just letting my roots show for longer and don't really care! if i had more gray, i think i'd care, but, since most of my roots are brown i figure who gives.
good for you on cooking!!!! lately i cook a TON since ordering the veggies! :) I like to google recipes for what i have / want to make and choose that day. i have so many herbs and spices that i do usually have what's needed to get a veggie dish right! also wanna make a corned beef i have in the freezer :)
Have a nice day, you do sound good!
Workouts June 10th to 16th:
Monday - Ugh 
Tuesday - Ugh / Coach 
Wednesday - Swim 1,025 / Slow-pitch
Thursday - Swim 1,500 / Bike 10
Friday - Swim 1,500 / Coach
Saturday - REST
Sunday - Bike 80 kilometers
I really appreciate everyone's comments on my entries this week; I know i've been feeling rough and trying to figure it out, and I appreciate that this group is always ready to 'talk it out' with me, no matter the result! So thank you for being here!
I was interrupted while on the bike yesterday and only managed to get 10 minutes in, but it's 10 minutes more than zero.
I woke up early again this morning (I didn't want to) to go lane swimming. As soon as I started swimming, I could feel the muscles in my arms and shoulders screaming at me. Three days in a row of doing something I hadn't done for a couple of weeks. After I warmed up it was better. I was able to stick out the whole 1,500 meters without feeling like I wanted to quit today, so that's a definite improvement.
And I got my period yesterday, as I thought. So I wanted to stay home this morning even more than usual. But this will pass, and maybe the iron and B12 will start working through my system, and hopefully by Sunday I will wake up with enough energy to kill my 80 kilometer bike ride! Fingers crossed!
All I know is i'm reading what makes someone successful now. I have read this before of course and it's common sense. However, the book is better than many I have read. And what is says is a repitition of what we know: practice makes BETTER. the more you practice, the better you'll be. (but of course in sports, we also must "listen to our bodies...). so that can be difficult to make sure we don't overdo but also not underdo!
anyways, pushing yourself out of bed when you'd rather sleep is what the book would call the mind of someone successful. we won't always have the momentum on our side, but when we do, it can be the most wonderful thing. sometimes getting to that period of feel great takes a lot of work.
sometimes, when women get their period, they are very low on energy. i have felt this way time to time.
I often feel that heavy physical feeling before and during TOM. While you say that TOM usually gives you a burst of energy, things may be changing. Or maybe -- say, if you're anemic - your body has been trying to handle things, but now needs some help. I think that's what happened with me at least, because TOM has always been very heavy -- that hasn't changed -- but I wasn't always anemic.
Amen, it's Friday!!!
Stuck to my plan and did light weights yesterday. Want feeling particularly motivated, so I had to dig deep.
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost and already at goal!AMEN IT'S FRIDAY!
do you have a nice plan on the weekend?
EDIT: I PULLED OUT OF THAT CLASS. I DO NOT THINK I CAN DO IT WITH EVERYTHNG ELSE GOING ON AND IT"S A DISTRACTION RIGHT NOW. I ALREADY FEEL BETTER.
it feels like a whirlwind today at work....EVERYONE is anxious. 5 people laid off / quit on Friday and the project is winding down in a year...everyone is nervous - who will be fired next?!
not me - but, the atmosphere is not good in the office.
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Today i used over an hour helping my coworker move her stuff. she's really my supervisor actually. it's emotionally draining - but i have enough energy right now to say i'm LOOKING FORWARD TO MY WEIGHTS ROUTINE TONIGHT and then getting to bed as early as is manageable.
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Despite a restless sleep, i feel ok this AM and am looking forward to getting my weights workout in tonight. I was going to do it Friday night, but, I really want to get it done so i have more options of when to do my weekend weights workout (and not be forced to do it Sunday night)...Now that i'm getting busier throughout the week, I'm feeling that need for more prioritizing. There's a concert tonight at a park by me, but, weights are more important than being out late to watch it. It's too much and weights are priority right now.
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Midnight woke up a bit restless. large, fresh apricots approx 60.
kombucha 70
8:45am breakfast 8:30pm wrap and egg 200 and butter 100. coffee 50. 350.
10:30am snack: not sure, feeling like a nice keto bar :) 200 (the brand i tried for the first time, not impressed at all with the consistancy. will not order again after i finish this box).
11:30am dark choc dusted almonds a little over 50 cal
lunch: little seaweed salad, cooked cabbage dish with beef leftovers from freezer- i've actually almost used my leftovers up - time to cook another corned beef i'd say!), maybe chips (not sick of them yet!) 600
snacks: almonds / large apricot 150
BEFORE STRENGTH: too much milk iced coffee 100 and granola bar 150. strawberries 100. nut butter 100. had a different times.
DURING STRENGTH:aminos, nut butter 100
AFTER STRENGTH: probaby protein bar..200
2250.
6day 2160, good.
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I'm taking lots of success / motivation / guidance types of books out of the library and they are really opening my mind even more: I will only get what i want by doing more and MORE correct / positive actions and breaking away from more and MORE old habits.
A big habit for me to work on breaking is to end my strength workouts earlier, so i can go to bed even eariler on those nights.
Another big habit of mine is to get more balance going thru the workweek so i am NOT mentally drained / exhasuted going into the weekend.
Basically, I want to always be on a MORE EVEN KEEL. i want to feel good all month...by always planning and prioritizing so that i can do more :)
I'll write about it here and there, those goals above.
With the court officer running projects (beep test training and illinois agility run) i have, (ladder right now), my goal is to not be doing the same things for more than a MONTH! meaning, ladder workouts or any workout, there must be changes each month or less. I am much better at the ladder moves, soon to be changing some up i think for new ones! The idea is to KEEP PROGRESSING FORWARD.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
I think you are doing an awesome job of prioritizing and making any necessary changes to your routine so that you can focus on what's most important. It's been really cool to read through your days and see the balance you are achieving (even if it feels slow-coming!)
this time around, i'll just work on NOT exhausting myself. i can do this. i'll just have to say NO to anything else that comes up and is more than i can handle...thank you!
Losing one's job is traumatic, but it occurred to me last night that it can be quite stressful to not get laid off, too, watching repeatedly happening to other people around you...
but for the short time ahead (1-2 years), i can say i'll be OK. i think i'll be on the job i am on for at least one more year if not a little bit more.
Yes, i do believe there's going to be even more changes in the personnel on the job, indeed in this next year. i do think people will quit or be laid off additionally after what has already gone on.
it's something that is sad to witness, but seeing it is a learning experience as to what is happening right now in this industry and also what goes on to people when there's just not enough work. it has to do with so many things.
the people who last are usually the best of the bunch (i'm saying overall, the ones the remain are usually in my honest opinion the best workers - aside from anyone there bc of connections).
Overslept this morning, not sure why my alarm wasn't set. My dog didn't even whine and wake me up as usual. Feel draggy and dirty at work.
Took the dogs on a walk last night, I think they enjoyed it. Back started hurting mid-way through, but we made it home.
I had a piece of chicken, cherry tomatoes and a piece of garlic bread for dinner.
DH grilled about six/eight chicken breasts on his new Father's Day grill and there are a few more in the refrigerator for dinner tonight...great I don't want to cook.
I like most food, but trust me I usually go off of texture and a mushy sqash is something I will say no too...always. Mushy squash, zucchini, eggplant - cook it in a way it won't be mushy. Dh was aggravated because I wouldn't eat his squash, sausage, shrimp soupy thing he made. He can take it for lunch everyday until it's gone. I don't want it.
Still dealing with depression and I have another appointment with the therapist to see about medication adjustment. Happy life, good job, nice home, I just can't fight this weepy, sadness all day everyday for no reason. It sucks.
IP
Progress as of today: -11.5 lbs lost so far, only 123.1 lbs to go!lol i like the sound of DH's soup..
keep looking at the positive. in your entry, i urge you to write about 3 things that went well in your entries - or even one thing. I'm going to have to practice this too!
I truly feel for your struggle. I've dealt with serious depression for most of my childhood, 20s, and 30s. Not so much now as I approach 50... I do not dare to compare my depression to yours, but just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. It's really, really tough. (((hugs)))
I am also looking to be more positive - it's a habit to break out of always thinking towards what is wrong.
i support you always. It's hard to change long ingrained habits. i am here with you, also trying this.
Workouts June 10th to 16th:
Monday - Ugh
Tuesday - Ugh / Coach
Wednesday - Swim 1,025 / Slow-pitch
Thursday - Swim 1,500 / Bike 30
Friday - Swim 1,250 / Coach
Saturday - REST
Sunday - Bike 80 kilometers
This morning, BF told me to go back to sleep when he left for work at 6:00, but the sun was shining so brightly that I decided to go lane swimming again instead. This time, as I was walking up the sidewalk to the pool, I felt a short burst of energetic joy to be swimming. Then, about 300 meters into the swim, I just wanted to quit and go home. Like, EVERYTHING felt wrong. Just wrong! Oh my God, it's driving me crazy that I can't pinpoint WHY.
I stuck it out for 1,500 meters and by the time I was done (about 40 minutes later), I felt good again.
I've started taking an iron pill before bed each night, and B12 in the mornings. About five days in with this, so i'm not sure if i'll feel an effect yet or if I need to build it up a little bit longer.
I am pretty sure it isn't my sleep - last week I got an average of 7 hours and 48 minutes and this week so far i'm around 7 hours. Not unusual.
My nutrition hasn't changed much, aside from two higher carb days (Saturday and Monday), but I would think that should give me more energy rather than less. My protein levels have been pretty normal; I have been trying to cut my carbs this week, but that too hasn't been drastic enough to force such a negative change. I track my nutrition so completely, I can't see there being a deficiency here.
As per Donkey's suggestions, it could be hormones. I should be coming up on my period at the end of this week HOWEVER, usually the week before my period I have higher levels of energy and enthusiasm. So not sure it is that either.
It could be depression; in fact, i'm leaning into this a little more than anything else it might be (other than a flu bug). I do have some of those symptoms - heavy limbs, slow to concentrate, difficulty focusing. I am not stressed or over-worked or so busy that I can't think straight, but maybe I am just simply a little down.
Maybe after you add the iron (which def contributes to feelings of muscle weakness/heaviness) and B12 for a little longer, you will feel better.
sometimes we just need some extra rest. :)
keep us updated.
Obviously, online here, I don't know the whole story, but to me, this doesn't sound like depression. You got up, took a swim, and hit a wall. That sounds more physical to me, but I'm by no means an expert, and please understand that I'm not downplaying your symptoms and feelings. And I do not mean to downplay the contribution emotions can have to our health.
This must be so frustrating, especially with the physical events you have planned for the summer. Were you feeling overwhelmed? This sure is a conundrum. I hope you feel better soon.
Yesterday ended up being a better day, I think, because I was able to leave work at 5p and because my daughter was home for dinner.
My husband fell yesterday, going to the doctor's office to get his blood tested. It was raining, his cane slipped on a wet surface, and down he went. Thank goodness Daughter was with him, but she needed help from a man passing by to lift my heavy husband up on his feet. He landed on his elbow. I'm waiting to see how he feels today.
So it was a quiet evening last night. Daughter had a staff meeting at work at 7p, so I did my bike and legs workout. Happy with that. Tonight is light weights. Got some good shows to watch while I do this. I love working out with the lighter weights, high reps .
I'm finding myself more and more resentful of work taking up my time. Rather than feeling like I'm helping make people's real estate dreams come true, I feel like I'm walking into a boxing ring or firing range, and each day has become a battle to survive. That's not the right mind-set!
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost and already at goal!I'm sorry you're feeling resentful of work right now; I hope this is just a passing phase for you and that things will get better soon. If not, it's never too late for change...
My husband is doing much better today. He/We dodged a bullet on this one!
Trust me, at my job there's politics and all kinds of nutty things going on, especially as of late.
Try to change your mindset - write a list at the end of the day for yourself of 3 positive things that happened at work - try something to see the other side of the coin.
I'm really sorry to hear about your husband and i do hope he will be OK. i'm glad there was help nearby when he fell. now he will have to be much more careful going forward.
it's good that you know what kind of weights workouts you like to do. when you enjoy your workout, that's a wonderful thing that helps you keep your momentum.
Random blessings... Landlord mysteriously chose to fix concrete where my mom's wheelchair ramp ends and replaced our broken screen door. Big Lots is giving me a grace day to return the carpet cleaner. Social worker was kind to my mom.
For my mom today, I was there for her in general and got her bed trapeze setup swapped out to a better position. I also brought her a Jamba Juice shake and found her glasses.
For my dad today, I moved some paperwork along and also advocated for him to be moved into the queue for PT and a nutritionist.
For my dog today, I moved her beds around and now she can get in and out of my bed on her own by using one of them as a stair. I like it when my dog joins me all on her own. She's a senior dog and I think snuggles take effort.
For my guy today, I said yes to a date and ordered his birthday present... one of them at least. A leather keychain with an inscription. I'm looking at passes to a horror convention near us in August. I finally have someone to go to haunted houses and watch scary movies with.
For myself today, I checked my hormone panel results. Kids are pretty much out of the picture. At least I know.
Before today ends, I will go to the post office and to yoga.
Mantra for tomorrow: I will get stronger and things will seem easier.
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!
This year is going to prove to be emotionally challenging. with too many changes and a time sensitive project i'm part of at work, things will be constantly changing around me. I'm taking the union class, like i've mentioned, but, i'm not planning to put a lot of work into it...my goal remains to spend my energy on getting better at cardio...staying positive. I CAN DO THIS.!!!
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It's a fine morning, Just overwhelmed because life is a little busier than i like it to be.
kombucha 50
sf dark choco 120 coffee 80
wrap and egg, butter 100. 300. rest of the week is butter - i'm out of fresh avocados :) but did pick some up today!
11am roasted, dark choc dusted almonds 100
Noon lunch corned beef small amount 150, potato small amount 150, seaweed salad 150. squash small amount 50 500. also caffeine drink. around 30.
1:30 a small swiss fudge cookie yummy :) 100
snacks: apple, almonds 200
5:30pm iced coffee and granola bar 150
Light tasty dinner: mango yogurt and raspberries 250, peanut butter 150. 400
2000 :)
5day: around 2140/day
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Ladder Workout tonight.
During lunch i have the time for myself, and less people here to watch how i spend it or how long i go out, so, i'm going to H&M to see about any good deals...i don't have a lot ot spend, but, i could also use some flowy office pants instead of all the tight ones i wear....something that gives.
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I'm reading a new book that i HIGHLY recommend. It's called The Compound Effect and it's about small actions everyday either bringing you towards or away from success. It's a short, easy read by Darren Hardy. Good Book for people that need a kick in the buttocks to move forward and not remain stagnant. i'm going to keep on with books like this throughout the year.
I have a long commute, so i'm able to read a LOT. (many days it's over an hour of reading time, some days even more)
One of the first things recommended in the book is to CHART / TRACK everything! Like we all do here, planning food to remain of a certain weight / health, planning / charting workouts / planning financially is what the book is about. If you take no action, there will not be success.
So for all of us on DD, that track our progress and plan in a way to grow successfully, the book is showing we are doing it right.
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Moving offices again today (4th move in since i got here to this location 1.5 years ago), just across the hall. i'd be happy staying here, but it's a bigger room and more spacious since my current room is def very crowded with two people (i think it's meant to be a single person rm). After i have my coffee and do my time, i'll recruit someone to help me move my computer...not gonna do this rushed first thing...coffee and time first. as well as log in here. my mind and body will not rush any faster than this today...
The move took me around an hour and a half to move things and set up computer (luckily a male coworker helped with it). took from around 9:30-11am...now resettled, threw out a lot of junk!, and relaxed at new desk :). glad to throw out a lot of old stuff and have a clean setting again.
Now, i have to concentrate on getting some work done today! a lot of dust has been dusted and cleaned off. good to be in a bigger, more spacious room. i was previously in a room fit for ONE person, not the two of us. so now, we'll be in a bigger room, meant for 2-3 people :)
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In some ways, i could have skipped out on this offering of the Saturday Proj Man class. but i'm sticking to my decision and taking it - I only signed up for the Saturday course beause it's helpful and a good learning experience
but i cannot deny it's holding me from using the time to help me with the fitness goals and this class, working extra hours, and a union meeting upcoming this month is definitely more than i'd like. I also scheduled two drs appts for the dermatologist for skin tags and also a hyperhydrosis botox treatment (excessive underarm sweating) both appts are in the next month. I've been waiting, so it's not like they can be delayed longer.
the more a person balances in life and day to day, the less involved they can be on every activity they balance...
Progress as of today: -2.5 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!I am in the same boat. I have taken on 2-3 days coaching as well as my full time job; I try my best to get in 6-7 workouts each week; I have also been taking training through work to progress towards leadership, even though right now I have no desire to be in a leadership role there! I'll graduate June 20th (I started in September last year). After that, i'm taking a break for the summer and then i'm sure someone will find something else for me to do LOL.
Some months or weeks are always going to feel a lot harder than others, but you know we still get through them. Try to keep the stress low and the happy high!!
my situation went from NO PLANS for summer to lots of extra stuff thrown in for the next 6 weeks. funny how that happens?!
I'll make the most of it! :) you gave good advice.
While some days may seem long and tiresome, overall, at the end of summer, I think you'll look back and be quite pleased with your efforts.
also, i will just make sure my priorities are always in check...and to really not give up the bigger focus which is primarily to keep on with the workouts, all workouts, and not get behind.
i'll take days as necessary.
and i've decided that in September i usually take 3 days or whatever week days we have off for Jewish Holidays but this year i'll probably work them as I will not have enough days left for Winter...prioritizing.
first time ever in 8 years i'll work on a Jewish Major Holiday. but, gotta do what works for me - my dad will be angry - it's totally not up to him though.
For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16
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Hello, Friends.
Asking for your prayers for my very dear, sweet Aunt. Hubby and I just got back from visiting her. She was sleeping.
She is Mom's only Sister.
She is in a hospice care place. She had a stroke last week. She has always been an outstanding, very good, sweet, loving Aunt. One that could be depended on for help when anyone needed help. A wonderful Christian. She is almost 91 (next month), almost 3 years older than Mom. This is a very sad time. We all love her very much.
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Hope you are having a blessed day in the Lord.
Love, Maria
Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!
I come here often to read posts, and I'm still trying to get myself together.
One weekend planting flowers, I hurt my back or hip and was in such pain for about a week. I couldn't lift my left leg in or out of the car or on the bed it was just horrible and so hard to get dressed. After a few visits to the chiropractor and two weeks I think I am finally able to move around freely, at least I can get dressed.
Had two instances at work that I reacted badly too. I had to go home and think about it before actually saying something. I'm glad I go home and think about what happened instead of going off right then and there and making a scene. This gives me a chance to cool down and look from different view points. I read that if you let something continually go on you're giving people permission to walk all over you, so before that happens, I had to put a stop to anything. I hate being disrespcted and having someone flat out just be rude. I think I handled myself in a professional manner and I can come to work and not hold grudges or bite anyone's head off.
The last two weeks I have been taking an continuing education credits to keep my COR certification. This has taken lost of my time at work, but I should be finished by Friday.
DH and I chaperoned the girl and her boy friend on a movie night. It was ok, the boy was nervous and the girl acted weird.
This weekend she wants him to come with us to a festival we are going to, DH said ok, but don't make this a habit. Have him go to your mom's house. The festival we are going to has an Hawaiin theme and I wanted to wear Hawaiin shirts and this girl has nerve to say...I don't look good in floral. WTH!! Who says stuff like this. Oh, I'm sorry because it's not black you don't want to wear it, maybe because the boy friend will be there...who knows. I hate kids.
DH and the exwife are not agreeing over time with the girl, this is an ongoing thing and frankly I'm sick of it. That woman is so selfish and I see these traits in the girl. DH said he wanted to go to this town wide rummage sale, the girl, said she didn't want to go. DH is like, well I don't want to do a lot of things like go get your eyebrows down and buy you music books, but I do. Sou because it is Father's Day weekend we are going.
I took Monday and Tuesday off next week and hope to get a plan started. I can only hope because my body is telling me things I don't want to hear.
Anyway, have a great evening. IP
Progress as of today: -11.5 lbs lost so far, only 123.1 lbs to go!Don't you worry - everyone is trying to get themselves together and you have a lot of good things going on for you always, i know!
I'm glad you are feeling a bit better for hurting your back/hip.
Yes, I really like how you professionally handled that situation. Proud of you for thinking about it, taking your time, and not blowing up at work but doing it in a professional manner. more power to you!
Like you taking a class, so am i soon...takes up a lot of time, but it's good for you to do.
kids are kids especially teenagers. Yes! teens are SO PICKY at what they wear! I used to hate whatever my mom would suggest i wear haha...and now i gladly take all her clothes and whatever she wants to give me :) (yes, especially now at 36, she gives me things here and there that were hers and still have lots of life in them!)
but that's so nice she feels comfortable enough to bring the boy with you guys!!!! that's really wonderful. trust me!
good answer to DH to girlie about it being father's day so you are going! :) hopefully you can all make a good day of it :) doesn't have to be all day !
nice post!!!!!!!!!
Over here, no expectations for Father's Day. Mothers Day was a disaster. I'd rather have an ordinary day than a horrible day ruined by some stupid holiday.
Also, kids are so ... TESTY sometimes! And, the ongoing theme, selfish. I agree with your DH - it's his day, he should be able to decide what you guys do. Hopefully she doesn't ruin the day being grumpy the whole time.
I also agree with HoP in that you guys should be happy the girl wants to bring her boyfriend around you. At least you know what they are up to...
One foot in front of the other.
For myself, I am doing a good job of picking ok meals, avoiding temptation, and testing before I eat.
For my mom, I went to the cancer networking meeting she wanted to attend on her behalf.
For my dog, I removed my dad's oxygen machine from my room so it is less hot (she gets locked away when our nurse is over) and worked on moving it to a separate room. I also put the dog gate back so the door doesn't have to be closed and freshened up her bed.
For my dad... Making up a chicken breast with peas, carrots and rice.
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!