BearCountryGG - Wednesday Oct 23, 2019
I'm kind of stunned this morning......didn't eat much during the day yesterday...and wasn't hungry...but decided to eat something around 9 last night because i figured I would get reflux during the night if I didn't....so a little after 9...I had a peanut butter and honey sandwich, potato chips, and a little chocolate......I took tylenol and vitamins......and headed for bed at 10:30 and slept all night...( maybe turned over once)...never got up for a bathroom break...woke up at 5:30 and wide awake....and I'm full of energy again.........cause and effect.....considering the food basically contained protein, fat and sugar...the vitamins covered everything else...and the tylenol just has a calming affect on me....although not the healthiest thing to be ingesting...but the results...results don't lie......and I'm a bit surprised.
6 A.M. black coffee
Just made an observation........a few days ago while cleaning out a closet....i came across 2 quilted mattress covers...there was already 1 on the bed...so these were extras......I really didn't know where to move them too....but didn't want to get rid of them...they were nice and in great shape.....and it occurred to me that there are NO rules about how many mattress pads can be on a bed....there are no bed police...LOL....so I put them all on the bed at once.....and this bed has never been more comfortable......i really think that a big part of the reason i an sleeping so well is that the bed is just so comfy....and while i am not a big honey eater.....I suspect that last night that whole grain bread/peanut butter/honey sandwich just made sleeping a lot easier.........I can't remember how long it has been since I actually slept through the night without waking up or heading for the bathroom...I'm sure the tylenol made an impact on this all too......and that isn't a healthy thing to do...........I know I have never been one that needs breakfast......once again....trying to fit into a mold deemed necessary by others really doesn't work.....all of those years trying to fit into the 3 meal a day routine and then overeating in the evening and messing up the whole day........was so frustrating and futile............I just need to block everything else out....and seriously do what my body says it needs........this morning...I keep thinking about that honey/peanut butter combo....I think it may have been an epiphany.....( the fact is...I was found to be allergic to peanut butter many years ago...I have craved it my entire life)......obviously no really bad reactions.......and so i eat it.......but this morning....that combo keeps comming back to mind.......possibly a key to something here. It doesn't hgurt that it was all in WW points..............and d and I have fell into a habit where I cook for him and I eat when and what I want.......and no one is offended....no more eating what i don't want when i'm not hungry...no more eating something because it's there.........and the fact that he needs to control his high blood sugar while I need to raise mine.....brings it all into perspective....we can sit and have precious time together...but no where is it written that we need to be eating at the same time....it is freeing.
BearCountryGG - Tuesday Oct 22, 2019
Up and full of energy again....lots to do today. Starting with black coffee as usual and not yet hungry. I did order the rebounder so I'm looking forward to that..........finding out that I can just use the zero point foods and not worry about the WW dailies changes the game for me.......why didn't I know this before? Online WW is just not as effective as meetings or what ever they now call them.........( a rose by any other name is still a rose).................
6 A.M. ...black coffee = 0
8 A.M. grapes = 0
D is off to the dentist and I am enjoying a little alone time....boy have I needed that!!! Being retired is a lot like having little kids...there is a continual come here look at this....you need to hear this....will you come here and do this.......I could use a little help over here.....AGGGT..............finally...a little peace and quiet and it's glorious! There is a very good reason why people can't become parents in their old age......because they become children themselves.....and I'm about to give my old child a time out!!! Just sitting here soaking up the quiet!
9 A.M. Lipton iced tea mango peach drops in water = 0
Lots of reorgnizing and sorting going on.....looks like a promising day as far as chores go......hip improving and I'm learning what movements aggravate it.....avoiding those and doing much better for the moment.
noon a few kidney beans = 0
2 P.M. parmesan crackers and pimento cheese spread = 12
Just not a hungry day at all today but did end up eating a sandwich, chips and a little chocolate when I realized how long it had been and I knew I would end up with reflux all night.
BearCountryGG - Monday Oct 21, 2019
Started out with coffee this morning as usual and waiting to eat breakfast......finding out some new things about WW that I didn't know...because for the last 5 years I have used online only...there definately is more info at meetings..( actually they don't call them meetings anymore...everyone is so confused...LOl)....but any meetings that are available to me are an hour away....so I continue with online and hope to pick up on the other things with you tube videos....I never knew that we don't need to use our daily points.....after years where we had to...apparently that was one of the changes I never learned about..so no more eating to use them up when we aren't hungry.....makes sense. They apparently do want us eating 3 meals a day though....but we can pick the times.....Looking forward to the new changes in November...right now...I will be switching to a different plan within WW.....one with less zero foods and more tracking...That just suits me better......never was a total fan of the zero ones...that can get out ofd hand......I like the old count everything plans.
I've been considering getting another rebounder ( mini trampoline).......I had one years ago and liked it.........not sure if I want to tke up the room with one though..........they are supposed to be good for the immune system and also burning cals and just general movement.......at my age...I would get one with the bar to hold onto.....balance problems do come with age...and it would make me feel safer........maybe I will come to a decision today.
Lots to do here today...housework is truly never done.
Breakfast started with coffee at 6 A.M. and eventually had apple cinnamon yogurt at 9:30 for 5 points
BearCountryGG - Friday Oct 18, 2019
Lots of thingf on my to do list today....and realizing it's 9:30 and I had better get started. Didn't count the points yet...maybe later......but had coffee and a quite a bit of salami this morning.....feeding the craving and feeling motivted and full of energy...better get busy while getting things done feels like the perfect option.
It looks like a good day to cram all of those things I have been putting off into a DONE list.
BearCountryGG - Tuesday Oct 15, 2019
New day....bad snack choices last night...I wanted junky stuff but if healthier options had been readily on hand I think I may have chosen them........today...I plan to boil eggs, and cut up some fresh veggies to snack on for evenings.....i also think I can work the junky stuff into meals instead of heading for those things in the evening....I also see that 3 meals a day may not work every day.......late evenings can be tough...I just need to get tougher..........split secon last minute choices need to be better.
Breakfast so far coffee = 0 points
never did eat breakfast.......went out and ran errands all morning and picked up a rotisserie chicken and Bob Evans mashed potatoes from the cooler section for D.
I ended up eating leftover chicken and onions from yesterday ( I swear I could live on that)......some of D's mashed potatoes, lettuce and dressing which came to 16 points (dressing and potatoes)...everything else was zero.....glad to have gotten these errands over with.....they have been on my mind for awhile.....had to drive around the post office 3 times before i could find a parking spot.....next time...I will go there first. I think we are both ready for naps!!!! Funny how when you are a kid you hate them...but adults love them........problems with muscle cramps in leg and fingers today........need more something!!!
Drinking lots of water and had dinner...40 points used today...and just fine.
BearCountryGG - Monday Oct 14, 2019
So it looks like I am recommitting to the WW program and will be using the freestyle program until the new programs roll out around Nov 10th.
I like the idea that it doesn't have to be about weight loss anymore...or it can be......
I would be ok where I am...but wouldn't mind losing some more......but definately do not want to put anymore back on.
So...starting with black coffee.....and after reading through what i can find on their site....they really don't have many rules anymore.....just count points.....they reward for 3 meals a day...but don't care when you eat them.....( so intermittant fsting is possible).....they aren't pushing numbers of servings of anything now....but do reward sometimes when you eat veggies......( reward points can be used to exchange for items like bags, water bottles etc)....when you get enough.......I also see that they are rewarding online weight loss ...and the little key chain things arrive in the mail without having to ask for them.........
I'm fine with online only........and since I don't go by the scale.....the studio visits don't really serve a purpose for me........and they are all at least 1 hour away and while that would be fine from may thru October....the rest of the year would be impossible for me because of so many miles of desolate forrest driving with nothing but trees for miles on end......so winter driving is impossible through that area.......so...I will continue online.....if sometime in the future...like next spring....going to meeings might be interesting for a few months..........will wait until then to see.
For now...Freestyle is easy...and do-able.......and will be fine until the new green prograam rolls out with it's fewer zero things and more points.......
Today so far
black coffee = 0
OH WOW........made up a plate for breakfast that included an orange 0 points, a container of mixed berry quark 3 points and 1 pumpkin muffin from a mix that when I figure in the olive oil that it took totaled 17 points for a 20 point breakfast.........YIKES...it isn't the end of the world...I have more points and lots of zero foods...but WOW
Lunch was 3 points and was chicken breast, sauteed onions, celery, cucumber, yellow mini peppers, mixed lettuce and 1 T dressing
Dinner was more of the chicken breast and sauteed red onion, green beans, over ripe banana, 1 cutie and a cup of lemon ginsing green tea = 0 points
Done eating for the day...will continue with water and possibly more tea and or coffee.
And then in the evening hunger hit and poor choices were made...i knew better...and ate it anyway...really need to work on this with better choices handier...but here it is...well within points but need to do better.15 points for this snack and 38 total for the day.
Today I gather all of the curent ww info...and get ready to start again tomorrow.....freestyle.......then on Nov 10th the new program rolls out and the freestyle progrm will be called the blue program....I plan to switch at that time to the green program....and then there is the purple program that is really intense...and sounds like it will have great results if one can stick to it. I also see that anyone can now join starting at age 18........and you do not need to lose weight...in the past...you had to be at least 10 pounds over weight.....no longer...now you can just join to eat healthier........apparently kids under 18 can no longer participate.
I do notice that for the last week or so my pants were getting tighter.....so the time is right.
I am not going to be shopping specially for ww...I'm using what is already here......and since there are no banned foods...it will work out...and comes down to portion size.......my only problem will really be a toss up between frozen mystery packages and any type of bar or cereal...we have lots of those and they are my kryptonite.
I also need to clip my nails because I am really having typos galore......always happens with my long nails.
The yard is in full color this morning.......It poured rain all night...and the front porch flag is on the roof.....need to go out and fix that. It's a cold and wet 40 degrees.
I've been a WeightWatcher ,WWer off and on for many years...I've lost a lot of weight over the years....on it....it works when you work it...like any diet program....I can't say I really ever did it by the book...I don't think I ever followed their recommendations for servings etc ( protein, fruit, veg)...But I did count points...admitted...some weeks I used up all of my points in 5 days and then had to have 2 zero point days...LOL.....I tweeked the program when I thought I needed to....but never actually read and followed it...just figured and counted my points...stayed within those each week ( or most weeks)...and the scales were cooperative....it really isn't anything more than calories in and calories out.....tweeking it never stopped the losses and in fact enhanced them at times. The bottom line is some foods make you hungrier...some foods make you crave something...some foods keep you full longer, some foods are so low cal that you can litereally fill your stomach for few calories.....but there is no magic.........
I've been watching reports of people on keto, and people explaining the new MY WW program that will be coming out soon...and people that count calories....and I have to chuckle...so many of the daily posters of videos tthat have to report ( by their own choice) daily weigh ins...make so many excuses....one that "is so knowlegable" about progrms had to finally admit yesterday that she weighed EXACTLY the same as she did on that day last year........and is still more than 100 pounds over weight...a whole year of carefully counting calories showing her daily meals and admittedly the pictures and recipes were looking delicious...BUT..her servings were GIGANTIC!!!!! Proof ...that healthy food in huge quantities is not a weight loss diet....LOL...and I suspect that she was dipping into the dessert a bit that she wasn't bothering to show or tell about....yet she is revered as a diet guru..........Proof that you really can't believe everything you see on the internet....or at the very least....you can't make low cal recipes and then eat 8 portions for 1 meal.....LOL...which reminds me that my Mom at one time thought that if she ate a frozen diet meal...and then ate anything else she wanted for the rest of the day...meant that she would lose weight...as if there was some magic in that frozen meal....it was hard convincing her that it was just PART of a diet...and that the 1 meal did not equal weight loss on it's own. She stopped buying them in disgust.....angry that dieting was so hard...and I wonder why I am a diet rebel myself...LOL
Anyway......I'm watching the new MY WW plans with interest......you can choose between 3 plans...and switch anytime you feel like it between the plans....I have in all of these years NEVER actually looked at how many proteins,fruits, vegs that ww was advising us to eat...I did just wing it....and it worked anyway.........like I said above...I'm a diet rebel...as was my diet rebel Mom.......that switching it up continually yet actually following their total guidelines tweeks my interest........as well as I have never really put my TOPS subscription to use either >>>>>>>SUCH A REBEL>>>>>> with winter settling in I will be stuck inside here or more factually snowed in or worse yet iced in.........I will have more time to work on it...well...I'm gathering the info and making the plans and figuring it might just be fun...I can still eat my cravings...as I am...I can still pick my own mealtimes...and I can just tweek the suggested types of foods and add them on.......
Actually I would be just fine staying at my current clothes size....but losing a little more wouldn't hurt...and I sure don't want to regain any .....and eating a well balanced diet (nutrition wise)...would be a plus....right now i notice that I have cravings for a high protein day....or a high fruit day...and even a high carb day...then I crave veggies...but...balancing that daily would also be a good thing...it would all work into the program as I understand it......
All in all while I'm really happy doing what i'm doing...I can see it would also work with the new program ( MY WW).....so I will most likely go back to the points counting....I will definately have the time this winter.......I'm just hoping the rebel in me can keep that desire to change things around quiet...........I shall see!!!! If I could just keep out of my own way for awhile...LOL
Monday is calling me......will probably begin counting points than...it had always been my meetings day back in the day...and it has a soft spot in my heart...or is it just that everyone starts a new diet on Monday...LOL..whatever!
EDIT.....right now as I see the online WW...has NO guidelines for numbers of servings of protein, or fruit/veg a day.....very differnt fom the old days where they pushed LIVER weekly...........they are right at this moment saying it's different for everyone...and with adding the 3 new progrms...there will be something for everyone and it will add variety for those that get tired of a program quickly.
I've been reading daily....but not posting.....looks like everyone is doing really well.
When I stopped posting I took on a new attitude that stopped putting my emphasis on weight loss and put it on activity and I love it.
I'm still using craving and hunger led eating so I never have a menu and I do keep an array of things available so the cravings are met.....I do keep a menu for D and prepare his meals with his likes and dislikes in mind and we are both very happy with that set up.
I still have a WW subscription which I do use to make sure that I am getting enough calories per day and that helps remind me to eat more or slow down the eating.
I probably have never mentioned it here but I am also a member of TOPS....( you sign up by the year for online subscriptions.) TOPS means well and does have very basic info...they do not promote any weight loss diets over others...how you choose to diet is up to you. They do have online member chats 2 times a week that I can attend online but I find them quite dull and usually leave the chat early. They do have an interesting book that arrives when you join and I do read that occassionally but i don't think I will be renewing that subscription.
Weight Watchers or currently WW...will apparently be changing it's name yet again next month...looks like it will be known as MY WW........and will be offerering a choice between 3 plans...which you can choose from or switch around as you choose. There will be a quiz to help pick a plan. They usually make yearly changes.....or occasionally every 2 years.
Since taking my emphasis off weight loss ( actually I am accepting where i am right now although a loss would be fine...it is no longer my end goal)...........I have just naturally become more active...I have no idea why but it just happened that way.
Recently I have been filling my days with activity...all kinds, in our small home gym ( now I wish I had some of our old equipment back)......walking, deep house cleaning, and just generally less sitting and more action. I've taken to spending some frequent spa time.....epsom salt baths, facials etc. and just enjoying better self care. The more I do the less I think about food until the knawing hunger pains start and I take time to think about what i'm wanting to eat instead of just aimlessly eating.
Slept really well through the night and got up and had a cup of coffee while watching the news.. and drinking water. Today I go pick up a Walmart grocery order that is an hour away....so basically that will fill my morning. The grocery pick up simplifies shopping so much for me and stops impulse purchases. I may not even get out of the car for the entire trip and that is fine with me. The order contains mainly meat, poultry, fresh fruit and vegetables and wild bird seed for the coming winter. Since it is in the 40's around here now...winter doesn't seem too far away. No desire for breakfast so far and will be leaving here in an hour so will see about that. I'm super happy with my new change of attitude and not thinking about weight anymore is so freeing....
And.....wanted to add this little gem!! Life is good!
1. I'm refusing to drop calories below 1,200 a day because of the damage it does to the heart muscle.
2. Refuse to give up carbs because I love them and a life without them would not be worth it.
3. I refuse to diet for the rest of my life, that just sounds like drudgery.
4. The more I think about food, and write down what I eat, and focus on what I eat, the more I want to eat.
5. When I don't spend any time at all thinking about food and only eat when I'm hungry and only eat what sounds good at that moment, I'm satisfied, my hunger goes away totally until the next time I feel hunger, usually about 4 to 5 hours later. I think that is using food for fuel.
6. The scale just makes me sad and anxious, my clothes tell me all I need to know. My cravings tell me what to eat.
7. All of the above is how I lived my entire life literally from birth to in my 40's where and when I was always thin and active. When a major stress appeared in my mid 40's everything changed and I started eating my feelings........after that, food became a coping mechanism and then a very bad habit.....today....dieting is really my only stress.......and to eliminate that dieting stress, I need to stop dieting.
8. Today I am 100% accepting that dieting is not my friend, that eating only when hungry and eating only cravings will be a better path for me...a path that I know well and have had great success with. If I'm supposed to lose more it will happen naturally and if that does happen my clothes will let me know.
9. I probably won't post my own diaries because I want to take all pressure to diet off of myself ...but I will continue to read about all of your journeys and comment.......
10. It's been a long time coming and was my lifestyle for the first 46 or so years of my life and it worked. For the last 24 years...it's been a struggle ...scales going up...scales going down, yoyoing has been my life over that time period. If what I have been doing worked...it wouldn't have been such a struggle.....so going back to what worked is what appears to be my answer.
11. I'm not going anywhere, I will still be reading your posts and enjoying the comraderie around here...you guys are great.