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BearCountryGG - Saturday Oct 05, 2019
(WW points, calorie counting etc)
Weight: 0.0

Guess I am just being obstinate but......

1.  I'm refusing to drop calories below 1,200 a day because of the damage it does to the heart muscle.

2.  Refuse to give up carbs because I love them and a life without them would not be worth it.

3.  I refuse to diet for the rest of my life, that just sounds like drudgery.

4.  The more I think about food, and write down what I eat, and focus on what I eat, the more I want to eat.

5.  When I don't spend any time at all thinking about food and only eat when I'm hungry and only eat what sounds good at that moment, I'm satisfied, my hunger goes away totally until the next time I feel hunger, usually about 4 to 5 hours later.  I think that is using food for fuel.

6.  The scale just makes me sad and anxious, my clothes tell me all I need to know.   My cravings tell me what to eat. 

7.  All of the above is how I lived my entire life literally from birth to in my 40's where and when I was always thin and active.  When a major stress appeared in my mid 40's everything changed and I started eating my feelings........after that, food became a coping mechanism and then a very bad habit.....today....dieting is really my only stress.......and to eliminate that dieting stress, I need to stop dieting. 

8.  Today I am 100% accepting that dieting is not my friend, that eating only when hungry and eating only cravings will be a better path for me...a path that I know well and have had great success with.  If I'm supposed to lose more it will happen naturally and if that does happen my clothes will let me know.

9.  I probably won't post my own diaries because I want to take all pressure to diet off of myself ...but I will continue to read about all of your journeys and comment.......

10.  It's been a long time coming and was my lifestyle for the first 46 or so years of my life and it worked.  For the last 24 years...it's been a struggle ...scales going up...scales going down, yoyoing has been my life over that time period.  If what I have been doing worked...it wouldn't have been such a struggle.....so going back to what worked is what appears to be my answer.

11.  I'm not going anywhere, I will still be reading your posts and enjoying the comraderie around here...you guys are great.

grannyannie on 10/05/2019:
Good luck to you! You have to do what feels right for you and what you know you can and should do for yourself.

BearCountryGG on 10/05/2019:
It works...I lived it and never had a weight issue until stress changed everything.


Donkey on 10/05/2019:
I love this - especially #8 and #10. I would invite you to explore your emotional connection when eating - that is to say, how you feel. But if you find that you need to step back completely from (mindful) eating right now, I get that too. And so that is what you should do - what's right for you, right now.

Does that make sense, what I said? What I mean is that sometimes if we think too much about anything, it can drive us nuts. That is what I meant about mindful eating - if it helps you not to think about it at all, then do that.

Of course, #11 is the best - you have a lot of very constructive insights. I've always appreciated your input, so I do hope you will be commenting on entries (especially mine, lol)!

BearCountryGG on 10/05/2019:
I will be here...reading and commenting.....Not leaving...just not posting foods....


Donkey on 10/05/2019:
Oh but I did want to ask: how do/did you like the Mindful Eating book? Did it help you to get to this point? Or was it not a helpful book at all? Or somewhere in between?

BearCountryGG on 10/05/2019:
I'm finding the book kind of dull...I will continue to read it...but it isn't calling me...LOL.....I would say that I based my whole minset on my past and what I did, and what worked effortlessly. The book does come with a CD...so I am going to listen to that today or tomorrow....I really want to be interested in it.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/06/2019:
different things work for different people. i do not like to "diet" either and sometimes i also do better when i'm not so focused, so i understand you.

also, 46 years is a LONG time to do things that worked for you, so i think of course you can do it again.

one difference in body type is that you were more active and had more muscle then - you probably burned a LOT more calories, working/taking care of kids/housework/cooking than now. so that would account for a little gain while you get older.

i feel like everyone has a tendency to gain a little bit as they get older and most of the time we have to just be "mindful" and take a step back to make sure we aren't just gaining and gaining.

of course, being moderate helps and keeping a healthy mindset at least some of the time into good food choices but i have found there needs to be room for some treats and things or what is the point right?

you do what works for you. after all, i know plenty of people that wouldn't want to eat all the veggies i eat :)

BearCountryGG on 10/06/2019:
The way I ate then made a lot od f sense...the big stress that happened and that changed things totally changed the way i ate......but it doesn't apply anymore so I need to break that cycle.....so starting the old/new habits again will have a better result i think.....I'm already noticing a difference.



BearCountryGG - Friday Oct 04, 2019
(WW points, calorie counting etc)
Weight: 0.0

Had trouble getting into DD this morning...I was getting a security warning,,,That along with the logging trucks that have once again appeared to basically cut down the state forrest around us...are affecting the under the road wires...so wifi is sketchy. 

When I can...I have been watching a you tube channel called BE INSPIRED....it's powerful.  Many videos by many different people that cut to the chase and bring everything in life down to just the basics.......it is so simple and makes so much sense. 

After not feeling well for a couple of days and then having a carb filled day because I was craving them and realizing  that I felt better that day carbs and all........spoke to me.  Eating my cravings just works for me and it occurred to me that eating my cravings does not mean large quantities, it might just mean 1 or 2 bites.....or only until I'm satisfied or no longer look forward to the next bite. 

Getting dressed this morning made me realize that I'm quite happy with my weight right now.....it's not perfect for my height....but it is not a bad place to be.  I think I will just continue with cravings led eating and control the quantities ( food as fuel). 

This morning we got a weather warning for the next few days.....snow...apparently lots of it. 

With the internet issues I don't know when i will be able to get back online......when I get cut off I  lose everything I'm typing here...and that is super frustrating.  I can read on my phone using the verion internet but posting is rlly hard with that.

Anyway...this morning I was craving meat and cereal....weird combo but I'm satisfied and have no desire to eat anything else.....small servings of cravings are what I will be doing.

I'm hearing a loud truck coming...so better get off and post this before I lose it.

Donkey on 10/04/2019:
I'll have to check out the YouTube channel!

Being satisfied for where you're at is a wonderful thing. It's the best way to be for maintaining successfully. There is nothing wrong with staying with where you're at. I have found this site to be immensely helpful in maintaining. There were other things that I had to lose - not just the weight - in order to find the balance I want in my life. (I'm still working on this, LOL.)

Snow already? I guess so... I confess that I am enjoying the cooler, fall-like weather. A LOT.

My problem with succumbing to my cravings is that usually one of 2 things happens: >> I either feel obligated to finish the whole thing, and not stop when I'm satisfied, OR >> I take too many bites before it registers in my mind that I was satisfied several hundred calories ago.

BearCountryGG on 10/04/2019:
That you tube channel is life changing for me.....I feel like it is my tribe...they get me. Like old home week. I was getting caught up in servings...and learned to make smaller servings...instead of a sandwich ( as I knew them)..I have been making 1/4th or 1/2 of a sandwich....and than making another one if necessary. After every bite notice if youare eating more because it's there or because your craving isn't over yet......it does take some practice...I fall down at times...but always come back to tiny servings...and thinking between bites. I notice that when i post pictures I just fill a plate....yet when I don't post photos..i eat...bite by bite.....


grannyannie on 10/04/2019:
Feeling happy with your weight is what matters. If you are able to do just a few bites of what you crave, more power to you! I wish I could. But if I eat a cookie, I'll eat half the pack or more.

BearCountryGG on 10/04/2019:
I have to take a cookie or two...and then put the rest away...if I leave them out...I do eat more.


grannyannie on 10/04/2019:
Putting cookies away wouldn't help me - I'd go get them no matter how out of reach they were. Remember my peanut bingeing?

BearCountryGG on 10/04/2019:
Buying in a single serving may be the only answer then.


legcramps on 10/04/2019:
I'm glad you've found something that works for you! After all, that's what it's all about :)

BearCountryGG on 10/04/2019:
Very true.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/04/2019:
yes, that's why i eat my cravings as well - i have learned to enjoy cravings in mostly smaller amounts. it's helped so much to not completely avoid things!

BearCountryGG on 10/04/2019:
Eating my cravings literally takes thoughts of food out of my head.



BearCountryGG - Thursday Oct 03, 2019
(WW points, calorie counting etc)
Weight: 0.0

Back on track and feeling a lot better today........

Yesterday I didn't count calories or WW points.....but today I did count the points.....it was the obvious ( to me) old bad habit of having a free day/pity party/grain,fat,sugar day.....I was just going to ignore it and move on....but today...after counting up the WW points...it was ridiculous..I did not count calories but I'm sure they were HUGE!!!  I also realized this morning that while I had intended to take vitamins daily...I have been forgetting.

Full confession of what yesterdays food looked like...and is so typical of what I fall back on if I am not staying on top of things........1 cup black coffee, 2 bottled coffee drinks one starbucks and one from the dollar store...LOL...1 pkg of 2 pop tarts, 2 slices of raisin bread toasted with butter, 2 slices of oatmeal honey bread toasted with butter and peanut butter, 1 cliff bar and 2 starburst candies, 2 tiny mini pks of red licorice and 1 tiny pk of sour patch kids, 1 tiny pkg of gummy bears, starbucks reg caramel in coffee.....WW points = 78

Today....took vitamins

1 thomas light multigrain english muffin toasted , spray butter, walden farms grape spread, 2 clementines, Two Good vanilla yogurt,1 cup black coffee....= 250 cals and 5 WW points

Edit

Lunch was beef brisket, green beans and potatoes....14 WW points

meal 3 = protein bar, cheese/crackers, 2 whole wheat cookies

grannyannie on 10/03/2019:
Sounds like a carb feast! I crave breads and sweets when I'm being disciplined. Also salty foods.

BearCountryGG on 10/03/2019:
Yup...it was a food fit fore sure...carbs are by best friend as well as my enemy...but it's done now...back on track again and counting....carbs are still allowed on WW...but this time I count first.


legcramps on 10/03/2019:
Those days are tough! But we all have them, and we all move on from them. Good for you for getting back on track right away!

BearCountryGG on 10/03/2019:
I was ready to get back to it.....but I will say...I felt good with all that sugar...LOL


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/03/2019:
nice to see you back on track. i tried that brand of yogurt but it was too boring for ME. instead, if you are interested, i like the chobani 2% types with fruit on the bottom...that's my preference - nice and sweet, but not over the top.

BearCountryGG on 10/03/2019:
I actully bought several different braands to try the other day....not sure if any were chobani....I can eat just about any yogurt...even the plain zero point...LOL



BearCountryGG - Wednesday Oct 02, 2019

Weight: 0.0

Well....after a rainy night of muscle cramp agony......I just want to sleep and just exist.  Rings went from tight to loose randomly all night.  I was ready to start taking bets on rather the next cramp was going to be calf or thigh...right leg or left........got up to drink water and woke D and the cat up accidentally...both welcomed me and wanted to party!!!....NO...NO PARTY!!!...both were in pleasant moods and wanted to help....well at least D wanted to help...Sampson just wanted to snuggle...NO......The more I try to control the more things go wrong.  Bladder infection is improving nicely....but I swear...apple cider vinegar hates me........ ears are itching...always an allergic reaction...I really don't know rather to itch my ears or work the muscle cramps out first........Today I just want to exist.....nothing more...nothing less.  Today...no counting anything....and no apple cider vinegar....I never did like pickled things for a reason I guess. 

Grannyannie on 10/02/2019:
Any idea what causes the random muscle cramps? Hope they stop soon!

Glad your bladder infection is getting better. I'm not fond of the taste of vinegar although I've grown to like salt and vinegar crisps (chips).

BearCountryGG on 10/02/2019:
Lack of electrolytes....gator aid usually fixes that although I just drank water....I can tolerate the vinegar in water....but I'm getting suspicious that I'm allergic to vinegar...ears are itching terribly and have all night....for me...that and itchy hands are an alleric reaction


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/02/2019:
i will tell you that too much kombucha/diarhetic (sp?) / caffeine / liquid loss will cause cramps...it could have been from the apple cider vinegar maybe. i'm sorry you are in pain. when i get bad pain as i also do like you, i will have 1-2 bananas that day and pain meds.

BearCountryGG on 10/02/2019:
Out of bananas here...but we do have gatorade...that helps....I think the vinegar is just a problem for me in so many ways...but i will attribute the vinegar to helping the bladder infection...it really does work for that....but while I am most likely allergic to it ( itching ears)....it does work as a diuretic.....all in all...the bladder infection is doing good....now for the after affects of the vinegar...LOL...can't win!


Donkey on 10/02/2019:
Do what you have to do to get through this. Yikes!

BearCountryGG on 10/02/2019:
Taking today off...still watching what I eat...just not counting.


legcramps on 10/02/2019:
Oh no, i'm so sorry you're struggling with cramping! I hope with the morning the cramps have gone!

BearCountryGG on 10/02/2019:
The cramps did stop this morning...drinking lots of liquids....ears aren't itching as much now either...darn vinegar...yet it really did help the bladder infection....double edged sword.


grannyannie on 10/02/2019:
Re muscle cramps - I was thinking it could have to do with lack of potassium.

BearCountryGG on 10/02/2019:
It definately could.......they have stopped now thankfully!!



BearCountryGG - Tuesday Oct 01, 2019

Weight: 0.0

Full of energy today but I think I have a bladder infection.....so D suggested apple cider vinegar in water...and it sounds like it might work...since it has antibacterial properties......so drinking that.....although downside to that is lowering glucose....but...so far so good......Not hungry and holding off on meal #1 until necessary.

coffee and water with apple cider vinegar......0 points, 0 cals

Vinegar seems to be working........so to counteract the lower glucose from it...I went ahead and ate breakfast with some sugar in it....feeling good and will have to stay around the house today anyway because a ton of dog food will be delivered today by a freight company.....has to be picked up at the road with the tractor...so we are stuck here.

Meal #1 skyr icelandic strawberry yogurt and 2 cuties = 190 calories and 4 points

Meal #2

chili, strawberries, spindrift = 581 cals and 14 WW points

Calories so far = 771 WW points = 14

Definately need to get at least 1,200 cals today and between 7 and 10 more points.

Meal # 3....was using up some fridge things...starving for some reason and I didn't care what I ate...I was just going to eat....burned the toast, a whole lot of peas...a dab of mac and cheese and the 2 leftover little spare ribs

730 cals and 12 WW points

That may win the prize for an ugly dish club!  The peas were taking over!

So no more eating for me tonight....just zero beverages,......still drinking the vinegar water and no low sugar affects from it  possibly because I had fruit and the cinnamon raisin toast to add some sugars......

Calories for the day = 1,501  and WW points were 26

grannyannie on 10/01/2019:
If it doesn't help in a few days, I hope your get antibiotics. I remember something about cranberry juice for that?

BearCountryGG on 10/01/2019:
It usually doesn't last long...I'm a big water drinker.....I will go the cranberry route if it's not better in a couple of days....none in the house at the moment. I don't feel bad...just living in the bathroom with little result last evening....and continuing overnight.....it will get better...it always does.


Donkey on 10/01/2019:
Ugh, those are never fun! I never considered the apple cider vinegar as a cure. I'll have to remember that!

I hope you feel better soon...

BearCountryGG on 10/01/2019:
I think the vinegar is helping...D thought of it...glad he did.


legcramps on 10/01/2019:
Interesting about the apple cider vinegar...it's good for so many things! BF puts it in his morning smoothies all the time.

BearCountryGG on 10/01/2019:
It really is so useful...I'm glad that D thought of it...i think it caught it early enough before it really got bad...luckily I have felt fine...just a whole bunch of running for the bathroom for apparent little reason last night into this morning....but now..that seems to have really slowed down....I know a lot of prople that clean their house with it...no toxic chemicals....amazing stuff.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/01/2019:
i hate infections...instead of apple cider vinegar...do you have cranberry juice? that will not mess as much with your sugar levels...and retain them, i mean.

your food, delicious!

BearCountryGG on 10/01/2019:
No...no cranberry juice on hand....but I do think the vinegar is working.....not 100% yet but definately better.


Donkey on 10/02/2019:
"The peas were taking over" - ha ha ha! :-D

BearCountryGG on 10/02/2019:
They marched right in there and touched everything on that plate...LOL



BearCountryGG - Monday Sep 30, 2019

Weight: 0.0

Started this morning with a cup of coffee....and putting off breakfast as long as I can.

I spent yesterday planning a diet routine  that I believe will work for me.  I took a bit here and there from several diet plans and left out the parts that often throw me off track. 

I know that the earlier I start eating each day...the hungrier I am all day and the more calories I take in, so to combat that I will eat breakfast later and only when I am very hungry.

I plan to photograph all foods I eat and the time of day I eat them.  Coffee, tea and any zero cal beverages probably will not be photographed unless they are used as part of a meal.  I will post pics here.

I know that I like to use up whatever is in the fridge or last bits of food in packages in cupboards, so instead of worrying about what is appropriate to eat at certain times or what makes a nice picture....I will just use this desire to use things up , photograph it and post it .  Many meals will be odd and funny looking....so be it.

There is no bad food....any and all food, healthy or not can be eaten.

WW points and or calories will be used  as a way to control intake.  I usually eat between 1,200 and 1,500 on my own anyway....but I want to make sure I'm sticking to the lower end for weight loss.  It appears that 1,500 calories actually cause a gain or at least maintenance.  I want to make sure to get in at least 1,200 a day though. 

There may be liquid fast days, intermittant fasting days, Intuitive eating days, as well as one meal a day type days.....but mainly it will be just random foods/meals using what is on hand.  The days foods may not be well balanced as far as nutrition goes so the aim will be to balance things out nutrition wise over several days...which just seems to happen with me anyway since cravings happen regularly for me with intuitive eating.  I will also be taking vitamins daily.

I will be exercising randomly....when I set a schedule I fight it...so I will just exercise when the mood strikes me...

I will be drinking a lot of water and zero calories beverages.

I will be reading daily from numerous books that will give me new ideas and motivation.  Louise Hays book titled Heal Your Body will live on my desk permanently.  It is a perfect reference book for me.  It really hs nothing to do with weight loss but eveything to do with how we think and what affect it has on our health problems...and gives affirmations to repeat to ourselves to combat the affect.

I have rejoined WW because it has worked very well for me in the past...I have had times where I swore I would never join again....and times where it has had a huge influence on my weight losses......this time I am in the right frame of mind to use it to the max.....I need to be able to accept the fact that it is a lifestyle...not just a means to lose and then leave what I learned behind.

Today I start reading Mindful Eating by Jan Chozen Bays, MD

1st meal of day 11.50 A.M.

salami , cheese, horsersdish sauce on a whole wheat roll and 2 cuties = 680 cals and 23 Ww points

2nd meal of the day 4:30 P.M.

Quaker Instant pumpkin spice oatmeal, a banana , strawberries and spindrift

424 calories and 7 WW points

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Total cals for the day = 1,104 and Total WW points for the day = 30

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I wouldn't mind getting my cals up a little but this may be the last of my eating today....If I eat more I will post it then...most likely though i will just drink no cal beverages tonight.

 

 

 

 

grannyannie on 09/30/2019:
Whatever works for you is the best plan! Good for you experimenting and motivating yourself.

Have you tried doing small meals through the day? I wake up hungry so have my porridge/berries by 7am, and it fuels me for they gym or muscle workout. But then I have a coffee/cappuccino along with my healthy cranberry bar mid morning. My problem time is watching tv at night.

BearCountryGG on 09/30/2019:
I have tried small meals...and it just always leads to me grazing and wanting to eat non stop.....I really do better with putting off breakfast...so today is going really well so far....I'm not a big exerciser...but I do like to stay busy arounbd the house...and coffee seems to fuel that...LOL...night time can be a problem for me too...especially if I stay up later...and I NEVER get out of bed at night to eat...so i will probably just go to bed earlier and read...


legcramps on 09/30/2019:
Have an awesome day!

BearCountryGG on 09/30/2019:
Thank you...so far so good.


innerpeace on 09/30/2019:
Everything starts with a plan. I do love pictures.

BearCountryGG on 09/30/2019:
The motivation is there this time......so that's good.


Donkey on 09/30/2019:
LOVE the food photos! It's ironic that you posted the book about Mindful Eating because the New Yoga Studio is offering a class on this in November, and I'm signing up! ($5 for a discussion led by a psychologist.)

BearCountryGG on 09/30/2019:
Your class should be very interesting...I'm enjoying the book so far. I went to post today and my wifi was down....I just about flipped out...that would have been very bad timing......did a test...and they said to unplug the modem...and it still didn't work...then all of a sudden...it came back..apparently it was a Frontier communications problem.....that would not have been a good thing...today of all days...LOL


Horn_of_plenty on 09/30/2019:
loving the food photos!!!! i love looking at food! :)

also, i am reading about your delaying breakfast. i do this also. on weekends, i'm happy to eat when i get up, because it's usually later in the day than weekdays. but when i eat breakfast during the week, it's already when i get to work - i eat it at work - because if i ate it at 6am and not 8:30am at work, i'd also have a problem of being continuously hungry...and just eating too many calories. good idea to delay breakfast a little bit. staying busy on my commute is what helps me delay it.

louise hay book i like the title and i like what it's about so i'm going to request it at my library :)

BearCountryGG on 09/30/2019:
I love looking at food too...shoot...I love everything about food...LOL..I just eat less in a day when I eat breakfast later....You will really enjoy the book....It isn't one that you sit doen and read a story in...it is more of a reference book that explains what causes what when it comes to our thinking...I'm wearing mine out...it's falling apart...i Love it!



BearCountryGG - Sunday Sep 29, 2019
(intuitive eating , around 1,200)
Weight: 0.0

This morning I had last nights dinner and day befores dinner leftovers...and it reminded me how much I love dinner for breakfast...LOL...people talk about breakfast for dinner...but rarely the other way around.  So todays breakfast was BBQ pulled pork, scalloped potatoes, rice a roni and corn..and coffee..I'm full and happy and didn't count anything.....tomorrow I plan to clean our the fridge....I know there are things hiding in there that need to go...so that is on the list for monday....other things going on today.

I cleared off my kitchen counters...clutter had taken over...small appliances were taking up space and gathering dust and worse..........this kitchen is small...and I have spent the last 4 yearss bemoaning that fact......I came from a place where the kitchen was enourmous and I loved it......here...I have been super guilty of whining...and complaining about this one.....and because of the lack of storage space.....just used the counter..to store things...which ultimately took up my working space......it played a mind game with me that just made me hate it more...........finally....I've cleared the counters of most of the clutter...and I'm am beginnng to enjoy this kitchen.......of course it is still small....but it is a lot more fun to work in now.............If I could just get out of my own way.....I swear......things could work better for me...........

I was never a rebel...I loved rules...they were my guidelines...and somewhere along the way I became a rebel.......I didn't want to follow rules ( of couse I follow LAWS..that is different) but I didn't want anyone or any diet program to tell me what to do..........those were optional.....I was a free spirit....i follow my own drummer......but what if I throw convention out the window...?  What if I create my own plan...what if I build a program for myself that incorporates parts of other progrms, contains quirky things about myself that make it easier for me to follow......what if I make a diet program from all the components and take what I know what works for me...and discard what doesn't......?  I've done this before but always fell back into feeling like I was messing with a national program (WW and FitDay)...and then rebelled against them and quit....( yet I had lost a lot of weight on them when I was following them)...classic case of cutting off my nose to spite my face!!!!  UGH 

I had kind of pushed all of my diet materials and books aside...but I think I will take today...to make up a custom weight loss program for myself with the materials I have here........my weight loss lately has stalled...and I want to kick start it again......I can see that some intense work needs to be done...so i will cherry pick a new multi faceted program for myself......today.....and get started on it tomorrow morning..........it will be different...it will suit my needs and will be personalized to keep my interest.......if it works....then all the better...if not...it can be changed a bit.  So...devoting all day today to making up my new personalized program......need to dig out the books, videos, CD's and anything else I can find......

EDIT

While digging out diet related books...I ran across my old copy of Louise L. Hay's book titled HEAL YOUR BODY....the book itself is amazing...basically has nothing or little to do with weight...but has everything to do with how we think and how our thoughts make us sick......I have always found it to be spot on for our family.....I see myself totally in every ailment i have ever had and my thought process that very well could have caused the ailment.....my book has been read so many times it's falling apart.....i will again leave it out......it names an illness, condition or ailment...gives the thought process that created the ailment...and then gives a sentence or two of an affirmation to change the way we think........life changing.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/29/2019:
even if you follow a diet a little bit as a guideline, it's you who chooses what you will actually have. you're at home and nobody is watching you (haha, except us on here!) and you are fully in charge of you.

have dinner for breakfast isn't heard of as much, but awhile back i was reading online about people that prefer it that way instead of cereal or other carb loaded items - that they preferred more meat and stick to you meals in the morning.

BearCountryGG on 09/29/2019:
I love leftovers.....probably because they are usually dinner foods...plus it calms my desire to use things up...qwirky me...LOL


grannyannie on 09/29/2019:
Hope you come out with your weight loss system that you can follow. Your own rules.

I know a few people who like dinner for breakfast, but I'm not one of them. Thais eat what I what call dinner food for breakfast. I do like breakfast for dinner, but not the other way.

BearCountryGG on 09/29/2019:
My husband would only eat dinner for breakfast if he was physically forced too...he can't phathom the idea ...LOL He is stuck on fried eggs sausage and toast.....everyday! I love the change.....


Donkey on 09/29/2019:
I'm not a big eater in the morning, most of the time. and neither is my daughter - so we're not a good family for brunches. Many times when I go out for brunch, I'll order off the lunch menu. So I guess that's kind of like dinner for breakfast, if it's my first meal?

There have been times when I've craved vegetables for breakfast, so I go with it. Why not? :-)

I want to cheer you on for designing your own plan. Maybe this will give me motivation to do the same for myself.

BearCountryGG on 09/29/2019:
I'm excited to start tomorrow...no rules...except the ones that really click with me...my problem has always been...if I join a program and I make a mistake or mess up a day...I quit.....probably the same reason that I go through so many notebooks...If I make a writing mistake...I rip the whole page out and start over again......and here at DD....I make typing mistakes all of the time and if I don't notice it....usually...I post and can't delete......that for me is part of the "therapy" of DD...I'm forced to deal with the mistake...DD is good for me...technically I'm sure I have OCD...and I LOVE that everyone seems to be able to tolerate my mistakes...LOL



BearCountryGG - Saturday Sep 28, 2019
(intuitive eating , around 1,200)
Weight: 0.0

Dark and dreary ouside today.....D running hardware store and auto parts store errands......and I'm doing paperwork.......and laundry.

WE have decided to make more of an effort to budget better and cut expenses........and use what we have instead of being lazy and just ordering or picking up more instead of using what is already here....today he repairs the trucks tail light instead of taking it to the mechanic......and that's a good thing.....it will also make me a lot more aware of what i bring into the house....and it will cut the junk food for sure....we still have a lot of it here to use up...but that is already said and done.....when it's gone...we will not replace much of it or at least make better choices.  Making up a budget is always fun for me...i love the challenge....but we have not been budgeting these last 4 years........not good.

Breakfast for me was a slice of leftover pizza and coffee

snack = 2 cookies and a can of spindrift.

The main meal was a bunch of leftovers......pork, rice a roni, corn, scalloped potatoes, roll and blueberries....working on using things up so I can really clean out the fridge in a couple of days.

Donkey on 09/28/2019:
Very good goals. As you know, I cannot even get through my pantry. Well, I started last weekend, and found out that a lot of the stuff we have in there is expired. I don't know how to dispose of it properly. I don't think cans belong in a landfill.... but do I open everything up so that it can decompose and recycle the containers (cans, boxes, etc.)?

So I am the example of what not to do. I applaud you both for taking this on. It's a great goal to have.

BearCountryGG on 09/28/2019:
Canned goods are actually fine past the date on the can...if they are bulging or smell bad then toss them....you can put full cans in the garbage if you want to...we don't have any way to recycle around here so everything goes to the curb.


Donkey on 09/29/2019:
^^ OK, well, most of my canned goods were for crockpot dishes, so maybe some good can come of them anyway. I'll pitch the expired cat food though.



BearCountryGG - Friday Sep 27, 2019
(intuitive eating , around 1,200)
Weight: 0.0

Well...interesting start to the morning...Sampson tipped one of his litter boxes over......and it's a large box.......muscleman tactics.......and now I have to go clean that up! 

It seems like I'm staying in this size clothing too long without any change....so today I will check myself with cals and points.............measuring cups and food scales.......it's too easy for portions to creep up......I did go on a few sites last night that assesses how many calories are needed for wt loss...and all said 1,200........and one said 900.....now that scares me...under 1,200 was always alert time.....I've always heard that heart muscle is compromised below 1,200...so I'm not interested in doing that for more than 1 day.....there is just such a fine line between healthy and destructive here....so today I count. 

Coffee with zero caramel = 1 cal and 0 ww points

Friendly Farms yogurt = 140 cals and 5 ww points

pulled pork on a roll, corn, spanish rice, cookies

donuts ( 3 tiny)

calories are in line with the 1,200.........I guess as Maria says...we are wondering if the sweets we eat are stalling our losses even though we eat low cal.  i know i could never eat low carb or keto because those lower blood sugar and my sugar tends to be so low already.......when I don't eat sugar I drop on a daily basis and need sugar to being it up.....I've tried to raise it by eating protein but that doesn't work when i do that.....I'm not going to drop my cals any lower....and I'm wondering if this is just where my body wants to be..........

Donkey on 09/27/2019:
Our new kitty - when we first got her - tipped over her litter box 2-3 times a week. While not fun to clean up, I've had worse messes to deal with. Most of it is just sweeping and/or vacuuming. She's gotten better with her litter box habits, but some days, she's a regular poop machine!

Ah the ol' portion control monster creeps up again. It's probably a good idea to count or measure for a day or 2, every so often. I am asking Santa for a food scale this year, just to keep myself in check.

I don't know that I'd go under 1200-1300... EVER.

BearCountryGG on 09/27/2019:
Agreed...and I put my response to you accidentally under your diary...>LOL This is the first time for the spilled box for me...with any cat.....and he is scattering litter all over the floor though from his feet I guess........weeping isn't working well though...need to switch to the shop vac I guess.


grannyannie on 09/27/2019:
I don't trust my judgement so always weigh and measure everything. Got a nice little gram scale that sits on the counter, so no excuses.

I read your other reply about a hysterectomy. I had one way back when I was 41. I don't remember not being hungry but I was very uncomfortable and the medication made me sick.

BearCountryGG on 09/27/2019:
It was uncomfortable for sure...I stayed numb for weeks and I suspect that it is why I wasn't feeling hungar...i was 48. I wasn't on any medication after the surgery other than estrogen patches which I was allergic to so we stopped those a few months later....But I did have a nasty draining incision infection that took a few weeks to heal....she removed my staples from the incision on the 4th day and it popped open on the way home from the hospital and was quite the mess...


Maria7 on 09/27/2019:
No, I don't think that dropping calories below 1200 is very wise, at least not on a daily basis...might get away with it here and there but not on a regular basis...We don't want to get weak from too few calories...We don't want to jeopardize our health...Which a long time ago...years ago...when I first began losing weight and had no idea how unwise it was for me to do only 300 to 400 calories low-carb a day, I ended up in the hospital, couldn't hardly even walk I was so weak...Silly me for real! Learned my lesson, too. So, I remember my doctor at that time advising me to never go under 1200 calories a day. But, there have been a few days I may have gone a little lower than that over the years, but not many of them. More important is staying well and healthy even if it means not being the exact weight and size we want to be. I truly do believe that is we persist in eating healthy (mostly) and eat smart in keeping a tally on the amount of calories we consume each day that eventually we can all reach our goals. Persistence is key. Starvation is not. Starvation just sets us up for setbacks and disappointments. It sets us up for big cravings that are extremely hard to resist and it causes the hard work we have accomplished to become undone and then we have to work even harder to get back to where we were initially.

BearCountryGG on 09/27/2019:
Well said Maria...I agree totally...I also once went to a place called THE WEIGHT LOSS CLINIC....and they put me on a 400 cal a day diet...and in fact...I was only 130 pounds...my boss told me I was destroying my metabolism and I think he was right.


Donkey on 09/28/2019:
^^ So many good things in what Maria wrote above. I was blown away by "... even if it means not being the exact weight and size we want to be." BOOM!

That and "persistence is key". Spot on. She's so wise.

BearCountryGG on 09/28/2019:
Yes....she is exactly right.....what we want and what we get are all too often different....



BearCountryGG - Thursday Sep 26, 2019
(intuitive eating , around 1,200)
Weight: 0.0

Been out running so many errands lately preparing for winter...and I look forward to staying home today........I have no idea why the dining room table becomes the place where everything seems to land....but it does...It's happened in every house/apt we have ever lived in...maybe because it is a large flat surface just asking for clutter........but today......everything will be put where it belongs and the table will be cleared...I think I will just continue with that and give the kitchen and dining room a good cleaning and reorganizing.....this place is only a fraction of the size of our last house and I admit that I have never fully embraced it's "compact" size......also...adjusting to cooking in smaller quantities....something i never fully got a grasp on.......cooking for 8 was a joy for me......3 times a day.....even though there has only been 2 of us for a very long time....I still tend to cook in quantity...as well as shop in quantity....apparently I don't adjust very well....habits are so hard for me to break........

For the last few days I have been craving spicy sandwiches...( salami and hoseradish sauce)......and that is what I had for breakfast today plus 2 tiny cookies and coffee with zero caramel.....that should hold me for many hours.,..it always does....I ill admit...it opens my sinuses...maybe that is why I've been craving it....horseradish sauce is amazing.

 

Donkey on 09/26/2019:
Reduction in food prep is exactly what I've been trying to get my husband to do. He's getting better at it, but it really is an adjustment.

I love horseradish!!

BearCountryGG on 09/26/2019:
Horseradish...over the counter sinus meds...LOL


innerpeace on 09/26/2019:
Summer is hanging on here, I want it to leave so the snow and cold can come and get started so it can leave again. I just feel when the snow starts later, it never freaking ends and we have snow at the beginning of May like last year. I will never get used to this north thing. We have a breakfast bar that collects all the mail and crap we bring in, it gets a good cleaning at least once a week. I can't stand clutter.

BearCountryGG on 09/26/2019:
the midwest seems to be half nice and half ice......it's cooler here right now...in the 60's.....but we are a lot further north.....although the rain reminds me of spring.


Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2019:
cooking is quantity and shopping in quantity is nice for the leftovers ;) but i get you!

on a similar note to shopping in quantity and i used to do it much more - when i like something - clothes / shoes - i tend to buy more than one of it for fear i'll never find it again LOL - at times it's proven to be wasteful shopping to always buy more than one (similar shirts, jeans, cardigans, etc)...i have always done this.

BearCountryGG on 09/26/2019:
Oh I definately do that with clothes...I have multiples in tops that I like...but in different colors...pants that i like....i have no problem buying them in black in multiples.



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