Coffee&Calories - Thursday Jan 13, 2022
Hi DD, happy new year 2022! I think I did try to do an entry awhile back, but had trouble posting and then didnt get around to it until now. Holidays were spectacular and weight gain was part of that package :) Not too much, but boy I overdid it! It's so hard when hubby usually isn't home much b/c of work, and then we spent many nights eating doritos and other junk in bed while watching tv. Some things are just worth it. Weird that he partakes once a year with me LOL. As you may remember, he is not a snacker/junk food eater.
Covid got spread around the family, but all good, no one got sick. My brother in law did only a little, one day feeling flu-ish. I think this variant is more mild compared to previous one. I'm sure it helps that we're all vaccinated (kids only partially so far). My 74 year old mother said it was worth it to spend holidays with family, as being alone all the time is no life worth living. She did not have any symptoms, thank goodness! It's funny because in all this time, what 2 years or something, I don't know anyone that got covid and then over a two week period literally every person i talk to says they all got it. Shows me how much more contagious Omicron is (but also more mild). No one had any issues, so happy to hear. I usually get a horrible cold every year, that leaves me coughing for a month or more, but since all this covid stuff, I havent had anything. Can't complain about that part ;)
Ontario is in partial lockdown. Kids have been virtual schooling since the holidays but are supposed to go back on Monday. Dare I say I have actually really enjoyed having them home this time. My oldest just turned 8 and she's completely independent, even my 5 yr old twins can do it alone with exception I log them on.
Okay, weight stuff. So, I really, realllllly struggled to get back on track. I tried and tried to no avail. I'd have a good day, but then followed by numerous bad days. I actually didn't gain weight over Christmas, but more so afterwards. Two days ago when I was planning to start a strict calorie counting diet, I weighed myself and was 120.6. I thought to myself, if I can eat THAT much (eating until way past satisfaction, usually feeling sick) I don't need a strict diet, I just need some kind of normalcy. Never had luck with it before, but decided to give it a real go.
I decided to do Intermittent fasting like a youtuber I had watched with a similar lifestyle to mine. It's not letting me copy & paste but the channel is called the Daily Connoisseur (Jennifer Scott). I think sometimes I watch people who are in such a different stage of life that it's very hard to replicate their patterns. Young, single 20-somethings are fun to watch but its not realistic for me. Long story short, I've had the best couple of days I've had in ages. Basically, I am aiming for three meals and one dessert per day eaten between 9am-5pm. This is what she does and it really works for me. Many people do different windows but hers very much agrees with my lifestyle. I know there is no magic, its the calories, but a different way to corral them. I immediately lost the 2-3 lbs I put on and I'm aiming to makes plates of food instead of snacking my way through the day. I'd like to post my meals for accountability but this site isn't letting me post more than one picture. I'll try.
Just wanted to update and hope I can keep myself on track with this.
Breakfast: Egg white French toast, blueberries & banana, plain yogurt which I sweeten myself with vanilla bean and sugar free syrup.
Lunch: buttered noodles, meat sauce I made, garden salad (no rhyme or reason why it's posting sideways)
Coffee time: Starbucks black coffee and chocolate chip cookie (with icing on it I tried to scrape off). Yet again it's sideways :-/
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!
Coffee&Calories - Sunday Dec 05, 2021
I haven't been weighing super frequently but I do keep an eye out. Not sure how my weight dropped to 116.6 but I'll take it. Wow. I should check my scale is accurate with weights.
I feel like I've been getting the hang of things much better. I haven't had perfect days and I have not had any low-calorie days, but it seems that the lack of overeating/binging is allowing my weight to drop. I'm trying to give myself 1600 cal a day and I just track it in this little app I used to use many years ago when I maintained around 110. It's not a tracker like my fitness pal, it's more like you just write down the food and input the calories yourself so I don't have to keep it in my head but to me it's much faster than the typical trackers. I suppose a beginner would be confused but since I know calories really well it's easy for me just pop it in there real fast when I'm eating. It helps me keep things under control because when I try to do it in my head I easily forget and then I give up Because I have no idea what number I'm at anymore. While most days I've gone above above my limit, I'm not letting it turn into giving up
this group has been infinitely helpful. While it's no secret that dieters should be heavy on vegetables and fruits, I never really acted on that knowledge enough. Like last night when I was making dinner, since I didn't have to focus on my husband who eats big proper meals, I made myself eggplant parmigiana, asparagus, and stuff like that which filled me up and kept the calories low. I mean these are all obvious things, but it's just working differently now. I'm trying to work my day around Foods that will fill me up and foods that are fun, knowing I can eat anything I want just not all at once. Here's a picture of the eggplant thing I made in the air fryer for about 300 cals.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!
Coffee&Calories - Thursday Dec 02, 2021
So my good eating streak ended on Friday. The excuse this time was the kids were off school, fighting a lot for some reason, and it just triggered me to overeat. I couldnt get myself together all weekend either. It doesn't help that I am an introvert and constantly being busy really drains me. I love keeping a journal like this, always used to in my youth, but barely any time these days. Can't complain, it's the life I always wanted, but man there are things that just suck sometimes as a grown up LOL.
Okay, so I managed to pull myself together I think on Monday and Tuesday...but then stayed up late on Tuesday getting stuff ready for advent (kids get the calendars, the "elf on the shelf" comes to visit for the month and it's PURE JOY for them. But takes some prep on my part. My willpower was low, my tasks were high and I gave in even though I *knew better* I just couldnt resist the call of food.
I'm not sure how a person who watches their weight, and eats for emotional reasons, ever gets to a point where that stops happening. Is it just a willpower thing? Will habit eventually kick in? Like, people who have never been on a diet typically don't act this way, I feel it was brought on when I started wathing my diet as a teen. How do I stop "using" food? Maybe I just need to be really really disciplined. I tend to pick at food and then forget exactly what I ate - maybe I should portion and serve - absolutely no random snacking?
On a positive note, I have an easy time maintaining my losses overall. I just find it absolutely awful to actually lose it first!
Husband left for a conference in California this morning. I am happy for him, he's always wanted to go there. I could have gone but no one to watch all these kids and dogs. To be honest, I have no desire to leave them, as much as I would love to go to California.
Progress as of today: 7.2 lbs lost so far, only 8.8 lbs to go!
Coffee&Calories - Friday Nov 26, 2021
Food intake today:
Breakfast: 250 2 frozen waffles - 200 Handful raspberries and bite leftover kids yogurt parfait - 50? 1 black coffee and 1 black decaf*
Lunch: 400 I made a really good low-calorie chicken chilli yesterday. Each huge bowl is 280 cals. Adding some sour cream 20. Broiling some cheese (70 per slice of Monterey Jack) on top of it and it's so good with diet 7-Up. Leftover veg soup 30
*I started drinking coffee more throughout the day and it's really helped my energy levels. I think I thought it is bad to drink coffee in the afternoon so I generally wouldn't or would have a decaf but then would be so extremely drained and tired by the evening I just felt like I couldn't move my foot one more step - and would use food to give me energy. When I realized how ludicrous that is, I started drinking coffee for energy even after dinner. Who cares what The general public says about coffee and how it's bad to drink and it will affect your sleep… It has surely only made my week completely successful in both calorie intake and I have no trouble sleeping. Problem solved. The reason I had a decaf this morning is I just wanted a drink but I didn't need the energy. So I don't want to overdo the caffeine as it could make me jittery, if I drink a whole bunch at once, and then ironically I end up crashing and feeling more tired. So I just want to have enough to take the edge off my tiredness without making my tolerance too crazy high. In the end I'll probably only drink 3 to 4 cups which really isn't bad.
Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!
Coffee&Calories - Thursday Nov 25, 2021
Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends! I think most of you here are in the US, so if you're celebrating I hope it's delicious and cozy with family & friends :) We celebrated mid-October in Canada.
ive been meaning to update but I'm doing really well. I just took all the great advice here, listened to all your comments and finally something clicked. I don't want to jinx myself by talking too soon, suffice to say I'm feeling in control and very happy about that. I couldn't believe my weight was holding despite the overeating I was doing. That helped to motivate me to see that my body was responding so well to keeping the weight off.
Im basically just counting calories, but upped back to 1600 and thats my hard limit I try not to go over. I don't exercise at all, no energy or desire, but my life has built in activity so I typically get 10,000 steps a day which is apparently good to shoot for.
I haven't had a "what the hell effect" episode going on about 4 days now. Pardon me stating the obvious here, but I'm learning that I can feel hungry or 'not done' eating, and simply ignore that feeling. It passes anyways, and then I feel so good for having stayed in control. It's kinda mind blowing how I typically just give in to every whim. If I can get this truly under control, I'll have this weight thing figured out.
Coffee&Calories - Friday Nov 19, 2021
It's been a very busy week. I had I think one really good eating day, the rest not so much. I guess I should clarify I don't really binge in the true sense of the word, rather I just abandon counting calories because I don't like to see the number climb beyond, say, 1600. But then since I'm not counting, I figure go wild on random junk.
Got my hair done, ended up taking 4 hours by the time she did my whole head and cut it. I keep my hair blonde, natural colour light/med brown - no grey yet - and I keep it on the longer side. Was happy with the outcome. Super pricey but it does make me feel good.
Saw my friend who is moving down to Florida. Although we don't get together much bc life gets in the way, I feel very sad. She was like a sister growing up. I hate that we did not get our kids who are close in age, all girls, to know each other better. Ayways, what a treat to see her before she leaves.
I have been vacillating between diets in my head. Not really diets, but what I should do with my eating. Wanting to get back on a good track, or else I'll lose all the progress that i made getting into the 'teens'. At this point, I think I need to be okay that some days will go into the 2000 calorie range, or I'll just keep overeating when I see I won't make a low number. Dang, wish I wasn't so caught up in my head all the time.
Coffee&Calories - Tuesday Nov 16, 2021
Donkey asked me a great question.
"Maybe look at your days to see why a "good" day is a good day, and what makes a "bad" day bad. What works to make a good day?"
This is probably the most important thing I could figure out when it comes to my weight/dieting. If I could make the time to think about this at the end of each day, write it down so I remember, and try to find some patterns that I may not realize or know I can actually fix. I overeat pretty much every day, and I don't care by the end of the night, figuring I'll just do better the next day.
I can blame it on my busy family life, but honestly I weighed a lot more back when I was single. I'll start to contemplate this a lot more.
Any tips? How do some of you never say "screw it" and give in to food just because it's fun to eat - with the mindset that you'll start over tomorrow?
Coffee&Calories - Monday Nov 15, 2021
Coffee&Calories - Monday Nov 15, 2021
The weekends are always so busy because everybody is home, so I don't get much downtime to myself. I also spent more days than not overeating. I seem to follow a good day/bad day pattern. I definitely lost the motivation I had in september/oct. Now I am just trying not to undo the weight I did manage to lose.
Anyways, I typically dont bake because I end up binging on it, but I made these zucchini apple muffins. Dang, they're good. I just calculated the calories for each of 12, came to 152 not bad at all. I only used 1/2 cup sugar, and the other 1/4 was fake sugar, plus I don't put the topping on. Link in case anyone interested :) HOP, try these - and I hear you on bran muffins, seriously have to read the labels right. https://www.thekitchn.com/recipe-apple-zucchini-muffins-recipes-from-the-kitchn-207380#post-recipe-10727
Also made air fried brussel sprouts. OMG these were amazing. Reminded me very much of the fried ones they are serving all over the restaurants in recent years. Steamed a bit, then spray oiled, air fried, topped with tbsp of Nando's sauce. I'll try to post a pic.
Lets see today's calories:
B: keto bar and coffee - 200
L: brussels and muffins - 550
Coffee&Calories - Friday Nov 12, 2021
Up early 5am. Usually don't sleep much past this time. Happy Friday everyone!