Home. Exhausted. Worried - got a text from our son who arrived at tech school saying it's hell on earth. Did I mention exhausted?
Did fairly well with food, except for Saturday night when we went to the celebration dinner at a real Tex-Mex restaurant. Got back on track the next day. Working on launddry -- I feel like burning all of my clothes. Airports are so dirty.
I think I missed 2 days of push-ups. Remembered, and then forgot to do them. I want to dedicate myself to more muscle building.
Glad to be home with my cats :)
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only -1 lbs to go!
Doing a re-group, getting back to what worked before.
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only -1 lbs to go!
Yesterday was definitely a "relax" day as far as food goes. Must have eaten too much because I woke up in the middle of the night with my metabolism revved up. Not a hot flash, but literally feeling the heat from my body trying to burn up the extra calories. Can of whipped cream was my downfall last night.
So today is Mother's Day -- happy Mother's Day to all the moms, whether you have kids or fur-babies, I hope you have a wonderful day.
All I do is try to do better today, which won't be easy. I'm being faced with sugar, carbs, and missed expectations of my husband. Took an extra dose of CBD oil to keep me calm, so that I can be positive. But to be honest with you, not feeling very positive or happy today.
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only -1 lbs to go!
Friday night i actually was sweating again, bc i did overeat slightly. i did wake up a little bit moist with sweat.
are you not feeling positive due to eating extra last night? try to make it a new day. you have SO MUCH to be thankful for!
PS - i forgot to mention i hadn't realized your trip is coming so soon! SO EXCITING for your son's graduation. remember, set a good example for him - and something MY OWN PARENTS didn't ever do, remind him to keep trying, to not give up, and he'll have a long career in this field. that's a good opportunity indeed. it will NOT be all easy. then everyone would have taken that path.
some things in life harden us, we learn from them, to do better and be better. same with the diet and exercise. maybe now i'll get off the couch and do my own upper body and abs...i just motivated myself with this last paragraph.
Funny you mention about setting a good example if not giving up, because yesterday, I seriously felt like giving up.
I guess I feel a little better today, not sure.
for this year, i have my own goal to try NOT to worry about where i'll be working or if i lose a job...i simply am going to let those thoughts go..so i can concentrate on training / cardio.
i'm going to not leave work late...i'm going to have to say no to more people / events / in order to get what i want.
my recommendation, solely for you, is more sleep if you feel upset. i seriously think that not sleeping enough will do this to you. i could be wrong, but that's what happens to me, solely the reason, aside from any usually WORK stressors.
i usually let things go easier, fights with people or family or bad situations of work, if i'm overall feeling good.
Gained a pound, but still within the maintenance "back and forth". Next weekend, I won't be weighing in because we'll be in Texas to see my son graduate. I am giving serious contemplation and prayer as to whether to resume weekly weigh-ins when I get back. This might be the time to break away from this.
I belong to a Facebook group for older folks into bodybuilding & fitness. A woman a little older than I posted a similar struggle with the scale, and this really spoke to me. She had lost 35 pounds and now is working on building muscle. But the conflict between the muscle gains and the numbers on the scale was discouraging her. I could have written that post!
I pretty much struggle between wanting to lose another 20 pounds, trying to be happy with where I'm at & comfortable in my own skin, and then wanting to eat everything in the house. (Warning to all jars of nut butters in my house - you're on my list!) Add to that the fantasy of wanting a lean body, with defined muscles. It's crazy!
Miscellaneous thoughts:
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only -1 lbs to go!
Also,you have to consider what is actually possible and what is a dream. ME TOO. you must remind yourself, that to get to where you are now,you did things, made choices, and stayed consistent.
there's someone i follow also on facebook, in the group Fit and Single called Chelsea ...i forget her last name right now. she's tad younger than me,maybe like 5-6 years younger right around 30yrs old. she boasts that she doesn't need much sleep that as a teacher, she works out both before and after school and she enters bikini figure competitions. she looks great. but i know that I AM NOT HER - and i could never live that kind of structured routine without rest even - she says she doesn't think sleep is so necessary to need like 8 hours a night, no way she says. i wonder if she'll last.
Your three points above about work are spot on. if you look at most of the successful workers /leaders, they DO NOT let things bother them forever - it's a waste of your energies to keep yourself feeling negative.
everyone DOES make mistakes. the point is not to repeat an already made mistake and to learn from it as much as possible for the next time....
my sister is very different from me. it's almost comical how much so.
she does what she wants, when she wants - even more than i do. yesterday for mother's day she went for a walk- bc it's healthy to do for the baby in the stroller ;) ....
i had luckily already ran a 5k earlier, so i helped me mom in the kitchen for our early mother's day...as my sister went out with the baby and her husband...nobody tells my sister that she can't. and now she uses the baby excuse for everything ;)
my point? do for yourself. stay positive. that's what a lot of other people are doing...and yes, let me take my own advice. try to see the things, as you stated, from another lens....
Not a good day... that seems to be a common theme here for today, May 9th.
I could tell pretty much early on that today would be challenging. A very hungry day for pretty much most of the day. In fact, I have forced myself to stay in my room for the rest of the night, otherwise I would eat everything in sight downstairs. And I've done enough damage today and tonight.
Very tired, doing push-ups, going to bed.
Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
i will remind you of what i do when i'm always hungry....eat really big servings of cooked veggies along iwth my meal, stuffing myself when i am in that horrible, hungry mindset.
Last night, I had keto lemon cake for dessert, kind of to finish it up, but also because it's delicious. I ate what was probably 2 servings, or possibly 3 small servings, and now I am experiencing bloating and inflammation. So I think I'm done with keto desserts for a while. I have 2 more slices of keto bread loaf (not sweet) that I want to finish up, and then I'm done with that for a while. I will have these slices for breakfast today and tomorrow.
Title company party tonight. I can do this. Looking forward to grabbing my husband with me, to show him this part of work. Male Coworker is being dragged to this, so I'm sure he'll eat beforehand (because he's doing keto) and come late. I, on the other hand, am going to try to make good choices and eat there.
The eating part of this journey never seems to get easier. ..
EVENING EDIT: I ate well at the party, kept it pretty much keto. Had fun with my husband. Left after about an hour. Sometimes these things are conducive to networking, but this wasn't one of them, which is A-OK with me.
Came home, rode my bike, chilled out with Facebook, gonna do my push-ups and get ready for bed.
Thinking about adding squats and planks to the rotation, but not sure if it should be a rotation or an all-in-one daily thing.
Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
enjoy bringing your hubby to the dinner. i'm glad you are going and can bring your man! there should be enough food choices, i agree, to not have to eat before or after or come late. better to stick with it, as you are.
the eating part of the journey may not get easier, but instead of thinking that way, it's your journey. there will always be eating choices, challenges and changes. you can accept them - they will always be there is exactly right. try to keep that in mind, that you'll be making food choices always.
i have stopped planks to save time, but, they are considered extremely valuable and work many body parts, similar to pushups.
squats are just great. i do THREE varieties of squats in my workouts. i have gotten better. they help a TON with butt muscles, at least for me. they don't seem to help with "leaning out," but more with giving a sexy shape.
I love squats!
Survived the stress! So glad. Now we can focus on 2 things: selling my daughter's used car and traveling to Texas to see our son graduate from boot camp.
Work was not so busy. Quite surprising after a weekend of beautiful weekend. Perhaps the contracts will come in today. Title company party on Wednesday night. Asked if I could bring my husband ---sure ! So that takes care of dinner for Wednesday. Hope there's low carb options...
Got a nice walk for lunch, but rainy weather all this week might make this more difficult as we move forward.
Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
i think there IS alwqays low carb options, even taking meat out of a sandwich, etc. you can always have tea back at home later with fruit or a decaf coffee when home if you want it ;) enjoy not prepping a meal!
Managed stress well yesterday. Got a lot done as far as decluttering, for the cleaning lady on Monday. I hope to get more clearing done today, so that I don't have to do anything last minute on Monday, as Monday morning will be rushed and stressful as well. I just can't win this stress battle....
Have to get through lunch with my mother in law, her brother, his wife (who is very judgmental, but talks a lot so at least I won't have to do much of that), my husband, and my daughter. Food and cake.... *sigh* I'm not sure you have any idea how hard this is.
Then decluttering, cleaning... I hope to get a walk in today, maybe with my daughter - that would be so nice.
Monday morning, at 8am, I have an appointment in another town, about 30 minutes away, to discuss health insurance options. After getting flooded with that information, I have to rush home and finish getting ready for work, rush to work, dive into a cesspool of stress over there.... but hopefully come home to a cleaner house.
Well, my mother in law just decided to make this all more stressful by asking us to stop at Walmart before we pick her up to get her a dozen cookies for a meeting she has tomorrow. Great.
Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
Here, many vape shops sell CBD drops, which is the way I probably should have gone. Instead, I did a Google, gave my husband a list of 4, and he ordered. This was originally supposed to be for his pain, but he didn't stick with it.
I have a lower concentration, 300mg I think, and use 5 out of the 8 drops per recommended serving. It might be psychological, but I swear that I can really tell when I don't take the drops.
PS also helpful to take a night for sleeping.
Glad to see the scale move down, even if I'm in maintenance mode.
Wow, yesterday the anxiety was just incredible as I was walking into the office. I realized what it was: I forgot to take the CBD drops that I usually take to start my day. Maybe it's psychological, but I find that on days that I take the drops, I walk into the office fine. When I forget, I walk into the office feeling edgy. So in spite of feeling edgy in the morning, I think I got through it pretty good. Male Co-Worker and I have been discussing the stressful workload, as I mentioned earlier this week. Even though he's doing the keto diet and trying to lose weight, his big struggle is with his high blood pressure - we're in a world dominated by numbers, aren't we? So that's what he's been focusing on trying to control this week. He says he just has to walk away, let it go, take one step at a time. So I've been trying to apply that mindset to my own work as well: one file at a time, one phone call at a time...
Too much of my life is being consumed with stress.
Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
i'm also waiting for my weight to come down. i gained around 3lb over the winter.
i could be so wrong,but at a first glance i am thinking keto and blood pressure may be a hard thing to mix because i'm thinking that the meats and everything can contribute to high blood pressure, but someone would have to actually google this to see if my hypothesis is true..
Aside from the stress at work, keeping me inactive, keeping ne at work waaaaay too long every day, I've been doing much better with food these past 2 or 3 days. I seem to have a handle on the evening anxiety... or at least I've been strong enough to avert disaster as a result of feeling anxious.
Still keeping up with the push-ups, bike riding too... lunch time walking has disappeared, due to rainy weather and too much work to do! This is bad! This is wrong! I deserve a lunch break! But if I take one, I come back to a windfall of emails and phone messages!
Tonight is chair yoga and date night. I'd like to relax this weekend but it will be very stressful with picking up the house for the cleaning lady on Monday and then lunch with in-laws at a restaurant with birthday cake... very stressful.
Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only -1 lbs to go!
I'm dreading the mess I'll come back to after we return from Texas (for my son's graduation from boot camp!).
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It's always nice to get back home. We always were glad to get back home so we could relax...LOL
horn_of_plenty on 05/20/2019:
Welcome Home!!!! I know your so. Can do this !!!!! Keep cheering him on !!!welcome home !!!!!
Horn_of_plenty on 05/21/2019:
Remember, your son isn't alone in this...lots of young men have gotten thru. try to keep him positive :) let him know he did the first step, to keep on!
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