Trying hard to plod through this week. That's the perfect word for it: PLOD. And I dislike that. This is a beautiful week, weatherwise and things are slowing down just a little bit at work. So why do I feel so sluggish with time? I'm going to try to step away from my desk as much as possible.
The Boss is trying to set up an interview with a new candidate for our part-time help. I was truly hoping that this new person would be able to do proof-reading, but I can tell that English is not her first language, and from the conversations I've overheard, I'm not sure her mastery of the English language is 100%. It's whatever... I'm not really involved in any of that. And it seems as though the clients this week have just gone cuckoo. Very odd problems that I had to deal with yesterday morning. It really stressed me out. I was just, What hit me this morning? That's how impacted I felt.
I managed only 2 bicep exercises last night, but used heavier weights. It was lights out by 9:15p.
I couldn't persuade myself from having a peanut butter wrap today for 1st breakfast. It's that sweet-tooth of mine. I'm torn between having fruit or a protein shake for my 2nd breakfast (at work).
Today was just cardio. Wouldn't it be nice to go to the gym tonight for more cardio on the elliptical? And then take a shower at the gym and get into my PJ's and come home and go to bed? That WOULD be nice, but then that would mean only 6 hours of sleep or less...
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
Good morning! I was able to resist diving into a jar of peanut butter last night. I think some of this craving was caused by hormones. Had some uterus discomfort yesterday. Ahh, those hormones...
Woke up hungry. My hunger did not wake me up, but once I was awake, I was hungry. Rode my bike and did upper body weights first (with coffee)... Then a peanut butter wrap. Thawed frozen fruit for morning snack. Off to a good start. Husband says he plans to gril some meat tonight.
This morning was triceps and shoulders. Tonight will be biceps, and maybe more shoulders. I can use only lighter weights with the shoulder exercises, due to either arthritis or something that starts to hurt if I go heavier.
Yesterday was a "calm" day at work. I took my husband's advice, that if I ever catch up and have nothing to do, take that opportunity to step away from my desk - go for a short walk, even if it's down to the breakroom. Go outside & sit or walk. I had only 1 opportunity to do this, but I did it. I will continue to do this, if I can remember to do it.
Mistakes Girl told me that she thought I should continue to do yoga, even if I don't "feel" like it because she knows how beneficial it is for me. I really like this much slower paced Yin yoga, with a focus on functional strength.
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
I woke up at 3, couldn’t get back to sleep & ate two 70 cal little bags of frozen M&Ms. Dang, they were so good! And right now I’m peddling as fast as my little legs will go.
last night at 9pm when i got home, i actually didn't have an appetite at all. but i prepared something to drink and some chocolates to eat...and those spiked my hunger. but after having them, and then a few sips of wine, i told myself it would be quite "dumb" to have a lot of food since i was just going to go to bed. luckily, i refrained from anything else and went to bed after that. i needed to settle down after the long day when i got home; couldn't just jump into bed. i think it's good i had the small snack as i did sleep thru the night afterwards...
This morning i was also a little hungier than usual but told myself to just get in the shower and leave when i could; so that i could get some walking in before work and it wouldn't be a total wash...i refrained from eating still, until i was at work, knowing i could enjoy breakfast once i was here as i am not rushed first thing or in general at this job right now...
your husband's advice is good, but i'm not sure i agree to use "free time" to get up and leave my desk. instead, i'd use it to research something or look online at somethign.
however, it is good i guess to stand up and walk, if you really do not do that all day....i'm not sure my feelings on any of this..
i wouldn't listen to mistakes girl. only you can judge what you want to do. i DOUBT mistakes girl would do things she doens't enjoy just bc they are good for her....yoga's an extra, not manatory, if oyu need time away you can take it (my opinion).
Good morning... Well, it's a Monday.
The weather has cooled down, after getting some awesome rain yesterday and last night, so I think we can turn off the AC and open up the windows. Fresh air!
Had a good workout yesterday at the gym. Found out that the upper body weight class I was looking to take is no longer offered on Thursday evenings. I'm not sure if this is a summer change, or if it's permanent. Still, I'm making progress on my own, and right now, I'm too busy/stressed with work, so I will look again in September, presuming that the market will slow dow a little. I would like to use more of my gym membership other than just on weekends.
I was within calories, and the macro percentages weren't bad. Success. But today is a new day. I'm trying to hold off on eating until I get to work...
In looking back, I'm glad that there was no legal clinic this month. They are going to try to hold a clinic in July. (We'll see if that happens...) I hope that I do not feel that clinic is an infringement on my free time.
Well, we shall see what adventures await me at work this week...
EVENING EDIT: I don't like the way eating went today, so tomorrow, I'm going to back to eating a little something at home, and then having a snack at around 10:30am at work.
Breakfast works out better if I have either 2 eggs or a peanut butter wrap at home, with fruit (for carbs) at work in the morning. My afternoon snack needs to be something protein-packed like cottage cheese or plain Greek yogurt.
Very grateful that Husband grilled chicken for dinner. It fit in well, with tracking, to bring up the protein percentage of my daily calories.
Still.... I REALLY struggled tonight with wanting to eat everything in the house. Gotta dig REALLY deep and stay true to my goal.
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
I found out recently that New Guy works at the legal clinic (in the same network) at HIS church. Small world!
Before COVID, we met once a month. With COVID, all of that stopped, and I found out that I'm actually OK with not volunteering. I don't give advice since I'm not an attorney, but I do set up and administrative stuff.
If I didn't need sleep like I do, it would be great to go at 8pm.
living in this apt, with blinds, i almost never need the AC. only when it's really hot out, like 85, do i need to think about putting on the AC because as long as most of my blinds are drawn, the sun has almost no effect. OH, if i'm exercising, i may use the AC during that time, yes. In an apt with few rooms, it's so different than paying for AC for a whole house. my AC is also included,so no effect, but i try not to use it. don't need to to sleep yet. prob will hardly need it all summer to sleep! bc bedroom is on the other cooler side of my apt. less sun in afternoon.
yeah, it can be hard with work and other engagements to make too many changes or plans for fitness outings or classes, etc. i got you there. but i know you enjoy your classes, so when time is there for you, see hwat you can do..
nice plan to hold off eating until you get to work. do not feel bad about eating at your desk, i'm sure others do it, too.
you can do it :)
hope to hear more from you soon.
seems i have a union meeting to attend, they just started those again, in August i believe? it's during the week, after work...i'll see how i have to mesh it into my schedule...similar to your legal clinic but yours is a full day obligation.
My legal clinic is usually half a day (not a full day, thank goodness). So then I leave feeling like I only got 1.5 days for the weekend, even though what I do at the clinic is different and not nearly as intense as what I do at work.
Today's eating did not go as well as I had hoped, which is why I logged in this evening. Started with replying to comments first.
anyways, back to you...
nice job sticking to your guns and having a better dinner so it fits into your day. ugh, that's what i had to do too. but honestly, it feels good when we do make it work and the day is not a total waste / loss. it's efforts until the next day, which is a fresh start again. that's the better thing about not having too many tallies and going each day by itself fresh.
if you remember, i used to do tallies, to see how long i could last at things: keto, low cal, exercise, etc. and the tallies couldn't go on forever. and many times, at leats at the beginning, i'd really go off the deep end after the tallies would end. i do better day to day..."one day at a time."
soo, overall, nice job today!
Yes, I do remember your tallies! And I admire tallies, but I don't seem to do well with them myself, for some reason. I too am finding the "one day at a time" concept to be more workable for me, at least for where I'm at right now.
I suppose that could change, right? Tallies have their time and place, and can be very helpful tools, too.
Good morning! I woke up this morning and could not remember if it was a weekend or a work morning, LOL. I honestly thought it was a workday at first thought.
I did not plant sunflowers yesterday, so I may do it this morning. Rain is expected this afternoon, so if I am going to do it, it needs to be in the morning, while I have the motivation and energy to do so. I've got 2 loads of laundry drying outside, and I am baking gluten free blueberry muffins for Husband. I *NEVER* turn on the oven while the AC is on, but since today is Father's Day, and we're not doing anything else "special", muffins it is. He loves them, and it will be a nice treat for him. And the temperatures right now are low enough outside that the AC unit isn't turning on (much). The Daughter has to work today, so nothing else planned for Father's Day... *sigh*
Yesterday, my "goal date" changed to July 26th - LOL! I'm not going to give up trying to figure it out, but I just had to laugh when Lose It told me that. My fat % intake was a little lower (40%) yesterday, so maybe that's it. That's probably it.
Yesterday, I had a good workout at the gym, working on chest and back. 20 minutes on the elliptical helped work out the soreness in my quads from Thursday.
I'm thinking of skipping yoga tomorrow night, but I need to check with my daughter regarding her schedule before I reach out to the teacher to cancel.
My husband takes his medicine today, for his AS (arthritis), and it usually knocks him out for a nap in the afternoon. So I'm planning on having a wonderful, nice quiet day, with a trip to the gym.
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
Good morning! Oh how nice it is to be home -- I love being home.
Glad to see the scale crawling towards goal. I know that I will have to crawl and fight for every loss moving forward, until I reach goal. I'll tell you a secret: I think I'd be perfectly content being at 137.0.
The Lose It app keeps pushing my "reach goal" date out. Every day I log in seems to add another day to goal. Now it's August 6th. Why is this happening to me? I'm within calorie range. So all I can think of is that it's because I'm not reaching the macros percentages correctly. Is that it? Well, I'm not going to focus too much on that, but it's kind of frustrating and puzzling.
I really think that it's the heavy whipping cream that is skewing the macros (too much fat), but it holds my appetite in check. I might try doing a day where I open a protein shake single-serve carton (thank you, Jacky), and use that throughout the day as my coffee creamer, to see if that works. I know that would be hard and not as satisfying. I think it's worth trying. So I'm saving that in my back pocket. I think that will be good to try if my weight-loss stalls.
Also, Horn had a good observation that, in the morning on a work day, eating at home still means that I'd have to eat at work (in the morning). I realized yesterday that I work best, at work, if I have carbs at around 10:30am -- usually it's fruit -- regardless of what I have to eat at home (around 7:30a). At home, I can just hang in there and have lunch at around 11:30a or noon.
My legs are still sore from Thursday's leg workout. If doing lunges at home, with no weights other than body weight, has caused this soreness, what the heck have the weight machines at the gym been doing for the past few months??? Going up and down stairs is the most painful, but it's better than it was yesterday. Sunday is leg weights at the gym, so let's see how that goes.
I'm going to plant sunflower seeds today. I got these small pots for free (like you would see at a garden center or nursery) and Husband was kind enough to purchase garden and potting soil. It's a little late in the season to plant, but I know that my bird and squirrel friends love to eat the seeds once the flowers have bloomed. It's worth a try, to me, to plant more. The challenge is that I'm not using very good seeds, but it's the endeavor that counts, for me. It's good therapy.
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
No matter what the Lose It App is doing, pushing your weight out, you have lost an incredible amount as of late, like i said above. seems the app is good for you.
with the heavy whipping cream, it might be skewing your goal. why don't you have some of your coffees with it and the others with milk? or do heavy whipping cream on some days only?
and yes, the eating in the morning before work has always been wasted calories for me...although sometimes it is hard to change that since our bodies get used to eating at homme...even now that i know the drive better, i've started to be able to just eat at work, since the drive in the morning is only just over a half hour - if i leave early enough...(public trans is 1.5 hours, but, i can wait it out (eating) since it is so early in the AM).
i am a bit roughened up too today since yesterday's commute. will take off from exercises....usually i do not like this, but this year i have felt the need (since returning to work) for more rest days than usual.
sunflowers are pretty...fingers crossed they will bloom!
Went to bed last night too late. Slept well, except for being woken up by loud thunder at around 3:45a (?). Thank goodness for the rain.
Forced myself out of bed on time at 5:15am and had lots of time this morning. I haven't eaten yet, because I'm not sure what I want, and I'm not even sure I'm hungry quite yet. I hate eating breakfast at work, but it may need to work that way today.
My app pushed out my "goal date" now to August 5th. I wonder if this is because I'm still getting too much fat in my diet. I'm too low in fat for keto, but too high for becoming lean. Still, this tool has been incredibly helpful (keeping me away from the food fits) and insightful
Nice Lady is starting to notice the Boss' forgetfulness and mistakes now too, and says she's concerned. The gal that the Boss wants to hire for part-time help isn't calling us back. I suggested to him that if she does not connect with him today, that he needs to move on to another candidate.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
I always have to have my coffee in the morning, like almost first thing.
Delaying eating, for me, for 4 hours is difficult. 2 hours is doable.... as long as there's coffee ;-)
i would hope the boss or you or someone could post the job on linked in...you'll get tons of candidates...it would be easy to find someone...but someone will have to do the work of posting the job...or, i am sure it would also be easy to see "who knows someone that needs a job." i wonder how your boss even found this candidate? hmmmm...should be an easy position to fill as people need jobs out there...the job market is flooded with applicants...
i'd definitely keep on with calories rather than keto or not-keto, but that is my preference and may not be a helpful comment to you...it's my opinion that calories are king.
I'm not focusing on keto or non-keto - really trying to get a nice balance of nutrients and variety of foods. I just happened to notice that the percentages seem to be leaning more towards keto. I cannot do keto -- I love fruit WAY too much.
Whoa, I did not do many leg weights this morning, but I am really feeling it. Makes me wonder what I'll feel like after sitting at a desk all day *sigh*.
Staying on track with macros and calories. Oh my but yesterday was tough. Husband made himself a dish of ice cream. I have frozen banana slices that I could have eaten but I was done logging food for the day and didn't have much wiggle room left.
Thing is, with the Lose It app, last week I was told that I could reach my goal weight by July 29th. Then, as the week progressed, it kept moving to later: July 29th, July 31... last night it was August 3rd. Now how discouraging is that? Especially since I've been slightly under calories for all but 1 day (where I went 28 calories above, about 2 weeks ago) and hit the macros pretty well. Anyway, I'm looking at the Big Picture and telling myself that if I stay on track, dedicated and disciplined, I should be able to reach my goal by the end of July --- just in time for birthday cake!!!!
Thank goodness it's Thursday. All day yesterday, it kept feeling like a Thursday, only to be hit with the reality that it wasn't.
One thing I realized about work and the hiring of a new person: I was getting discouraged because the Boss wants to hire someone young, doesn't want any one who is "old" (30's) and has habits and ideas that might challenge the way we do things. Well, guess what? I don't want to work for someone who is old, who makes such glaring and embarrassing mistakes. I was venting to Male Co-Worker last night (dangerous to do, I know, because he's a back-stabber), and he said it's the "New Normal". Yes, it makes more work for us, to backtrack and correct the Boss' mistakes, but that's where we are right now.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
in terms of your morning legs workout, i always find morning workouts more challenging. maybe your legs just feel like that bc you aren't used to morning leg workouts?
nice job with yesterday and not doing the temptation. i also still have days like this...especially during the week where i'm up many hours...where i have to resort to eating something that will fall into calories left or just not eat again before bed because calories are up...i think this happened on the weekend for me, last weekend. i feel you. happens to me as well.
may write more later on other parts of your entry...
however, i do feel that it doesn't matter the age, as long as the person has the right mentality for the job. you are right, age shouldn't matter, it's the aptitude.
I am in a very odd spot right now. Trying to get things sorted out.
Tracking macros and calories is going well, I think, but I'm wondering if the slight decrease in calories is contributing to my moods.
Also, I've stopped taking melatonin to help me fall asleep. Ran out and haven't bought more. So my sleep IS different. Ironically, Fitbit says that my sleep scores are GREAT. It's not feeling GREAT though. Let's see how the rest of the week goes. I might buckle and buy some over the weekend, if I feel it would help.
I had awesome arms weight training, both morning and evening.
So why don't I feel better? Why don't I feel anything? I feel numb and tired.
Did I mention that we're hiring someone at work, part-time, to help with "clerical" duties. I was told this person would not be involved with files, but what we really need help with is opening new files. That is SO time consuming.
I have a lot of mixed feelings about a new person coming in. Not the actual person, but what I'm observing: Boss wants to hire someone young that will take the crap that he dishes out without pushing back. So this makes me wonder if I'm too old to be working for him any more. Because I do push back. Male Co-Worker pushes back too. Mistakes Girl is starting to push back, but only because she has reached her limit.
I got a raise yesterday - a dollar an hour more - and felt no joy about it. I think I got the raise because I was talking about going over to Wal-Mart to work, LOL.
IDK like I said, I'm trying to sort things out. I think Bear hit it on the head about needing to take a break. At work, Mistakes Girl said that I probably need a break (when I told her I was struggling with anxiety -- didn't mention anything about depression).
Do I need a dieting and exercising break???
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
Hmm... Well, for now, at least, I'm hoping that I would be able to maintain at around 135. That is to say, once I reach 135 (goal), I could increase my intake a little bit to maintain, and operate at more optimal nutritional levels.
i'm glad someone new is coming. honestly, i think their progress is much affected by the training they receive at the beginning...i hope you will teach them. i would teach slowly and in detail. make sure they take notes on a notepad.
congrats on your raise. i think you may be underpaid. i see your work as much more valuable where you are than at walmart. maybe look for a better opportunity in the field you are in. when you have experience, you can get a lot of money as a paralegal...unless your area in chicago is cheaper living and low salaries, though, i would doubt that as you live right by Chicago which is a busy city and i'd think competitive salaries...????
Am I impatient? It would not be honest to say that I'm not; it's my personality. And who wouldn't want "instant results" (lol)? I'm at the point where the water weight is gone, and now I've got to dig deep to stay on track, if I want to reach this goal.
It felt last night that the anxiety dissolved into depression last night, and this morning, I feel more myself. I don't see any correlation between any of these emotions to events or specific triggers. I'm not sure it matters, other than to feel positive in the moment.
I boiled eggs this morning, so my morning will be protein-packed. I had a great bike ride and did arm weights this morning. I'm hoping to do more arms (biceps, triceps, and shoulders) this evening.
Yoga last night was good. I'm glad that she didn't do the same routine as last week. She said she would, and then went off track. I think that's one of the problems with the Zoom classes is that she's repetative with the poses that she does, but there are also positives to working with her. I may take a short break after my 10-punch ticket is up. OR the problem may be that I just need a change in teachers, not necessarily to stop yoga altogether.
I went into the session feeling depressed and came out of it feeling more positive and relaxed. It's cheaper than therapy.
(I will respond to comments on yesterday's entry tomorrow, as I am short on time this morning already... Yikes!)
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
However, a prolonged depression is not worth it, so I will keep an eye on this, and continue to monitor my mood.
breaks are good with routines. like taking a break after your classes are up.
like bear said the other day, the break gives you just enough time to miss it and come back to it!
In fact, Mistakes Girl pointed out that it's been a while since I've had real time off, and that might be what I need. Time off from work, time off from yoga --- just time off.
today with the public trans, the busses and trains espcially are PACKED in the AM you wouldn't believe it. it's a time construction workers on packing the trains and also in general people are just not all sleeping even normal hours it seems here in NYC...so my point - i felt tired from the commute but also invigorated from the walk from the train to work (gotta figure it out better as it's not a straight line - the last part!)...but it was good to move around, is my point. way better than getting out of a car just to sit at work. it was worth it....now i just need to get used to getting up...
i am not focused on it now, but i want to do it or at least do the smaller 3-course certificate. only applied to the other MBA-type cert program - didn't yet apply to any MPA...but it's a lot of money and i have enough to think about...i will work on it when i'm off a day or something...not priority.
Just trying to brace myself for a new work week. It seems as though some of the staff may have seen "In the Heights" movie over the weekend (not together), so I am already preparing myself for the chatter over that. I never realized how irritating I find small talk. However, I'm grateful that I work in a law firm with an inviting atmosphere I guess, rather than one that is cold and quiet.
I did not prepare hard boiled eggs this morning for breakfast, so it will be a struggle to get enough protein in today. Failure to plan is planning to fail, that's for sure.
Yoga tonight -- I keep forgetting this. Last night I had the sudden thought that I think I'm done with yoga. WHAT???? Now, if you know me, you know that it usually takes at least 6 months from when I have a thought to actually following through with such thoughts. Had COVID not hit, I probably would have quit legal clinic a long time ago. Logically speaking, I believe that I should KEEP the yoga - it is beneficial to me, because it takes me places I don't normally go (stretching, relaxing, meditating, etc.). Maybe what I'm trying to say is that I'm longing to be back in a studio. I wish the studio near me hadn't closed down.
Speaking of which, last month I was told that we'd be starting up legal clinic again this month, but I just logged into the calendar, and it says we're still closed, no appointments available. Oh well, fine by me!
Well, I'd better get ready for work and do just the best that I can do. I can feel, with the anxiety, that it will be harder to achieve a positive attitude. I use my cynicism as a defence mechanism.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
well, in terms of walk-ins to your work, thankfully you got your shot. at least you have some kind of defense to the virus. thankfully.
it is true that plannign helps. even though i like to plan, i do not always follow-thru with everything and there's a TON more people much more type A than me....who have crazy diets / crazy workouts / don't sleep as much. oh! anyways, i find myself in the boat with you on failing to plan is planning to fail in terms of my commuting and actually doing any cardio at all. working on a better plan :)
well, are there any other nearby studios for yoga?
you can do this, don't talk yourself up for a failure "negative" day because that's what you think it will be.
i wish you could work with my peoples. they are OK. but i have some other things to share with you in a private place.
There are other studios around me, but most of them have odd methods of payment/class participation. There are 2 near work, and 1 relatively close to home (near my old gym, many years ago). This is what my short-search has brought up. There may be more farther away.
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You can do more cardio back in your neighborhood outside or on your home exercise equipment..if you do not want to skimp on sleep.
personally, i'd say sleep is more important than venue where i do cardio. i do view sleep as high importance; pretty much more important than exercise most of the time (not all the time).
however, that shower at the gym is golden as it would make your home routine quite simple tonight and into tomorrow morning (i assume you wouldn't shower again?)
i also am not into the higher protein breakfasts at all. also, they require a hair more prep on my part; except if i eat an egg frittata but those are not appealing with their prepackaged ingredients of extra salt / fat / too much flavor even at 7am at work...not yet.
i wholeheartedly agree that the person being hired should at least know good english written and spoken and be able to proofread or not make a lot of spelling / grammar mistakes...lol, i cannot believe there's no more candidates. not sure why your boss is going with the half-a## ones...
bearcountrygg on 06/23/2021:
English is not her first language....OMG!!!!
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