The best thing about yesterday is that it's behind me. I didn't do well at work - just didn't have it together. Nothing that can't be fixed, I suppose, but I could see that I wasn't on top of my game, and my co-workers could see it too. Not a pleasant feeling, but I suppose we all need a little humility to keep us humble. I will remain positive in attitude.
I figured out that my recent decaf problem is the flavor of the creamer. Can't taste it without using a ton of it. I tried a different flavor with more success.
To answer Bear's suggestion, tea just doesn't do it for me, as far as curbing my desire for sweets after dinner. I do drink herbal tea - orange is my current favorite, with mint being a close second. But for after dinner, I need something a little thicker?
I met (sort of) my daily goals, but may have to rethink the knitting goal, as I went to bed with my wrist complaining. Dang!
I'm looking forward to making today a good, positive day!
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Work is definitely slowing down, yet I come home at night, after sitting on my butt all day, and feel mentally and physically exhausted. All I want to do is sit and relax with my phone, catch up on the day's news and events. And the pain is real. I feel achy in my knees, sometimes hips.
Oh last night was a struggle not to dip into chocolate... or even dates. As Horn said, there's nothing to say that I can't have a couple of dates after dinner - as long as it stops after a couple. That's one issue. However, my goal, for December at least, is to stick to decaf after dinner, so that's what I did. Having this goal in mind helped a lot. And, moving forward, I will remind myself of Jacky's self-discipline, to help me. Also, brushing my teeth, chewing gum. So those 4 tools I will use, to prevent me from going off the deep end at night.
I felt pressured and stressed to get to my knitting goal last night, but after completing 2 rows, I was glad I had done it.
I am dreading starting up yoga again, which is silly, but I'll be mailing my payment today. I think it's the demand on my time that is stressing me out, even though this is something I want to do.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
I find that if I brush my teeth right after dinner that's a signal to me that I'm done eating for the day.
I'm doing OK tonight, but I will try the brushing teeth thing soon, and see if that helps.
What do you think the pain in your joints is? I am reading just about everyone over 30 has some degree of OA. Gets worse as ppl age and can become devastating. I have it in my right thumb of all places. Surely other areas too that I don’t know about. Never had any images. But when I was 30 or so, the damn thumb got swollen & painful, so I thought I fractured it when I ran up the stairs to catch the trolley and fell, The doc said it was OA. Pain comes and goes.
A lot of elderly get new knees or new hips here.
Maybe it's tightness from not doing yoga. There are yoga moves to help stretch and relax the hip flexors.
If the yoga is too much, try to do a shorter set of it or just do half. Some is better than none. You did love your yoga practice.
I remember the times were the ample sitting at work, then too much OT sitting, also made me feel excessively tight and pained my legs. Do get up or set a timer if you can during the slow periods just get up and stretch will help. However, I do think the pain may be more THe mental game of getting thru work than actually the physical- maybe. Bc I spend loads of time on my couch ...and I’m not necessarily in pain but then again it’s a more relaxed position for me than at a desk.
One thing I can suggest is that you rest your legs on a garbage or something under your desk so that they aren’t constantly on the floor. Not sure though if you’d like that, I can’t picture you doing this at all actually!
Not sure these comments are up your ally....haha
I hope you are right about the pain and fatigue I am experiencing. You know, I just realized, from your comment, that I may need to adjust my chair and sitting position at work! I know some of the fatigue is mental - maybe more than I realize!
When I start yoga up again, I know that I can pause or modify the poses if I need to. There are cheaper options than this class, but I needed something to get back into yoga. The $ expense will help me stick to it.
Happy December! I am looking forward to all of the possibilities this month!
When I returned to work, my file racks were noticeably thinned out, which is good for where I'm at mentally. I'm really looking forward to a slower, calmer real estate month. Mistakes Girl did a good job of keeping up, although she does things differently. So about 5-6 times, I had to ask her, Where is this? What is this? What about that? That's actually not too bad at all! I remember one year, I came back from Thanksgiving week to something like 60 emails. It's not a vacation if you have to come back to twice the work. So I am blessed and grateful.
While I was out of town, I decided that I was going to try to revert back to my habit of having decaf coffee after dinner with a flavored (artificial) creamer, rather than a more natural, heavy whipping cream, to help satisfy my sweet tooth after dinner. I thought that having 35 calories of Coffeemate was better than having 90-120 calories of candy. So I did that last night, and now the flavored creamer does not quite satisfy like it used to. Maybe I need a smaller coffee cup? It was very hard not to succumb to the candy craving. I was even thinking about diving into the dates! However, I was able to remain disciplined and went to bed instead.
My December Goals:
I have semi-goals that I want to work on too, for this month:
These 2 things aren't going to happen all the time, but I would like to establish these as HABITS, not goals. I won't always be able to get out of work on time, and I probably won't pass up dessert on any holiday celebrations, but these are exceptions.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
when staying at someone's house, boy it can be hard. it's not a full vacation as you have to watch yourself somewhat and you cannot just always do exactly what you want to if you were "free" at a hotel. but at least you were able to go there, enjoy nature, and not have to pay for a hotel!? ha. i'm sure the hotel rate would have been crazy low, but we're not talking about that!
what about a coffee after dinner with one or two dates / one or two chocolates? nobody says you can't...
Just a quick post before I leave for the day. I am dreading going back to work. My brain feels like mush when it comes to recalling how to do my job. I'm sure it will all fall into place as soon as I sit down and figure out where each file is.
My lunch is leftovers. I eat breakfast at home now, since I wear a mask all day (pretty much) at work. I'm not sure what to take as an afternoon snack. I'll take some frozen fruit.
I just realized that I will need to sanitize my workstation and phone, so I'll log off and leave for work now.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Thank you!
And also - see my comment to your other comment below :-)
for now, i'll just comment on today's entry, since it is shorter and i can tend to it now...
I'm sorry you have to go into work on a Monday. I hope you try not to rush at things and take it easy. I remember in my experiences, I had my sister's wedding one weekend and after that weekend, i felt HORRIBLE going into work on Monday. I felt outside of myself, just not relaxed or back to myself after a weekend of nerves and stresses.
good luck today, you will do great.
if i can give you advice for this week, really try not to overdo it at work...ease in as much as humanly possible. try not to get a regular cold bc of being rundown after a vacation and working right after.
to make you feel better, in just a few weeks, you'll have Christmas and new years off from work xoxo
Anyway, busy closing days mean that the phones are quiet, and they were. It was odd.
I'll say it again: OH IT'S GOOD TO BE HOME! And I've started making up a list of goals for myself for December - not all of them are directly weight-loss related, but also include things to help develope my well-being (mental health, so to speak), which I feel is equally important - maybe more so in the midwest winter months.
My COVID test was very easy and efficient. I adminstered it to me myself, so it was not as comfortable as my test in August. Perhaps the swab was bigger? But quick and easy. I should have my results in 2-3 days, which would be... Tuesday? Not ideal for going back to work, but that's kind of how the Boss operates.
It was a nice visit - I really love mountains and hiking. BUT there were a few things that, I suppose you'd call regrets:
Oh well, I've definitely had enough travel for now - I definitely pushed myself way out of my comfort zone this year. I am ready to hunker down for the winter and brace for the next surge.
One thing I wanted to mention: although we did our best to clear out the refrigerator of food before we left, I came back to find that my daughter's supervisor gave her a delicious flan cake for Thanksgiving. So I came back to many slices of this beautiful cake that need to be eaten. Not exactly what I wanted to face when I returned home. The cake is almost gone. I had 2 slices on Friday, when we returned, and 2 slices yesterday. I've had enough, so any slices that nobody else eats will get thrown out.
I went for a walk after dinner last night, and it's nice to see so many people with Christmas lights up this year. I have Christmas lights in my house on, all year round, as nightlights. I have a flickering, mult-colored string in my kitchen, a string of white around my front door, and a short string on our balcony upstairs, if anyone needs to make a trip to the bathroom or go downstairs in the dark. So I love Christmas lights any time of the year! But it's especially nice to see this year.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Families can be difficult!
There is a plot against you by cakes!!!
HOME SWEET HOME! It's so good to be home! And although I think I would have been OK with a quiet week at home, it was good to see family again. I'm not a good traveler, although I tried to be this year, so I'm glad and relieved to be home and stationary for a while, as we hunker down for winter.
I am waiting for my appointment to get COVID testing, so I'm doing laundry, catching up on internet stuff that I only do on my laptop, filled my birdfeeders, etc., until I leave at around 11:40am. My appointment is at noon. I'm not nervous about the test or the results, but just the anticipation of having something new to do, with new people, makes me very nervous. Once I've taken the test, I am free to enjoy the rest of the time off I have.
I did manage to weigh in this morning, and although I am not happy to see this number again, I do understand why it happened.
Now that I am back home, though, I do anticipate being able to shed most - if not all - of these pounds and get back to work, although....
Thanksgiving usually kicks off a month of eating. I kid you not. Usually by New Year's Day, I'm so sick of eating. We have:
That's a LOT of eating.
However, I am still going to set some December goals for myself, a couple which may be repeats of some of the goals I had for November. This month, unfortunately, just didn't pan out the way I had planned.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Will this be a "rapid" test with results in two days or less? Yes, enjoy your time home!
You know, i've got to say, i REMEMBER your writing from last year (possibly other years too) because it is SERIOUSLY very, VERY SIMILAR to what you wrote today!!!! i remember you, in the past, listing those holidays (no, i'm not teasing or telling you that you shouldn't NO,NO...). but i remember your nerves about the eating situation on these particular dates and this time of year.
i honestly feel, with your son away, with your hubby and his health needs, with your wonderful daughter home...i honestly think that if what you want is to have better choices, rather, MORE options at holiday time, THIS IS THE TIME / YEAR to do it!
what i mean is, with this covid situation, less and less people are enjoying meals together. less of the family is getting together. it's almost like an open invitation to make different food / prepare different sides....AND DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO this holiday season. do you feel this way?
even in my family, nobody's being held to any standard. my mom made brisket, not turkey, since nobody really wanted it aside from myself / my dad...that's not enough to prepare an entire turkey for!
OK...this is getting VERBOSE!..haha the VERBIAGE is tough in this comment.
what i'm saying is, anything goes this holiday season. try to be open to "new" and ways to get thru it in possibly a SLIGHTLY different way. can you get thru it in a way where you are more satisfied and do not gain more than a couple pounds or even maintain? what can you do to make this season go easier than in past years?
if what i wrote is too anxiety-provoking to think about, leave it be! :)
also, your weight is good, you got this. you did a great job with maintenance these past few months.
I know *exactly* what you are talking about with making holidays our own this year. I love doing that, and I kind of feel like, with Thanksgiving, I didn't have that opportunity. It was more structured. I'm actually looking forward to celebrating Christmas, anniversary, New Year's, in our own way, with my own little family.
I hope so too, regarding the test results. So far, we both feel fine. I could use another day or 2 to self-quarantine, but my employer doesn't think the same way I do.
Soooo.... Today was crazy. Several times today I thought that maybe I'd be staying home, but it seems as though we are moving forward as planned. I have a cloth mask and a disposible mask, and I'm going to add a few more disposible masks to my bag. Santizing wipes. Hand sanitizer.
My goals are:
At my brother's house, all they eat are carbs. The kids are very particular eaters. My sister in law is very tiny and doesn't eat much. My brother is happy with meat and potatoes. I could easily fill up on carbs and more carbs. I have to pick my portions and then STOP with that. So even if I'm a little hungry at the end of th meal, that will be OK. REMEMBER THIS, DONKEY.
I would like to spend as much time as possible outside, even though it will not be very warm outside - 60's.
I will be thinking about December goals for myself. I feel like this month just slipped through my fingers far too quickly. I had GOOD goals for November, but unfortunataely, circumstances didn't allow me to partake in them. I'm going to try again, and I think I have some more to add, as well.
I've wanted to talk about somthing, after I've struggled this past week with eating well, since I was not feeling good. Low carb went out the window. Had toast at home for breakfast. Had trouble drinking enough water (drank enough water for a body, but did not meet my 100 oz. daily goal). Had some chocoaltes, etc.
The day I had all those chocolates at work - I realized, just how hard this healthy eating is to do. I thought of Happy's dad, making unhealthy food choices, and how she battles with him on that. Happy is absolutely right, but for a moment, after having eaten the chocolates, the difficulty of this struggle is - and I'm relatively healthy! I don't have any major health issues that would prompt me to mandate that I eat better.
I can see WHY and HOW it's so, so hard.
Progress as of today: 47.5 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
I was completely surprised by my weigh-in this morning, considering how I had struggled with chocolates and marshmallows earlier this week. The only thing I can think of is that it's the weight training that causes me to gain weight. Well, at least I won't have to struggle with the box of chocolate any more.
I am off for an entire week. I plan to take Horn's advice to enjoy it, regardless of what we decide to do. I will not go into the office this next week if we end up somehow canceling our trip. I do not think we will though because Husband has already made plans with our son, to help him with some laptop issues, during the visit.
I struggled yesterday with a cough. Some of that is because wearing a mask dries out my throat more, it seems. And some of that was just part of the sinus infection moving along. (It's always the same stages when I have a sinus infection, just sometimes it's very mild and sometimes it's raging.) I realized that if I'm in a terminal or perhaps on a plane, with this dry cough, they may not let me fly! My husband asked me not to cough any more (what?!?) and said that he can't make the trip alone. (This is true - he is just too encumbered by his limitations that he really truly cannot travel without assistance.)
In Illinois, the gyms can no longer have group classes, and we're supposed to wear a mask AT ALL TIMES. I just don't know if my particular gym is enforcing this policy. I admit: yes, it is uncomfortable and can be very difficult to do cardio with a mask on. I have no plans to visit the gym this weekend.
However, I am putting up more Christmas lights outside today, to help get into the Christmas spirit.... well, the house will look pretty when it's lit, anyway. Bah humbug...
Progress as of today: 47.5 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
please try to also be moderate with your sleep and how much you are going to push yourself with this trip. not not to overdo, if you can. or, try to at least be able to unpack and rest a bit when you come home. if you have to quarrantine or something when you get home, just do it. bc i don't remember the last time you had a week off!
i'm sure your cough and sinus infection will continue to heal. maybe keep that to yourself (don't mention at the airport!)
yeah, i wouldn't trust the gym for anything. it's not the place to be.
show us a pic, if you want, of your lit up home!
I have a mish-mash of things to say.
Woke up with my right ear feeling clogged, so I have a sinus infection. I will take a decongestant to help my ear feel less clogged. I'm still wearing a mask at work. I will wash my hands even more and sanitize my desk area a couple of times today.
Nice Lady did not come in yesterday. She had a fever and chills and fatigue. She is getting COVID tested today, she says. This may be as a result of the flu shot she got on Tuesday. You should have seen the reaction of my co-workers when they found out. Everyone is wearing a mask when they are not at their desk. My problem is that my desk is in the middle of everything so I have to keep my mask on almost all the time because of people walking by.
The training session last night was very informative. It helped me make some decisions for myself as far as my future with the clinic:
I had trouble with food again last night. Had some marshmallows, some peanut butter. It wasn't overindulgent but definitely not good choices. Definitely stress and fatigue.
I am only now starting to tell people online but my husband and I will be flying to Vegas next week, to spend a week with my family. We made these reservations in August when COVID numbers were down. Unfortunately, our nation did not do enough to keep the numbers down - "we're turning the corner on this" - A BIG LIE - and now we're flying in these insane conditions. I'm very stressed, very conflicted, we've talked about canceling, but I guess we're going.
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
I get plugged up ears often - very waxy so use ear drops once a week. Sinus headache pills might be helpful.
Turning the corner on this was always a lie as was anything he said. It's getting up to 2,000 deaths a day now.
All I can say in response to your traveling to see family is yikes!
I cringe when I think back to August when I was encouraging my boss to book a tour trip to Italy again, with his daughter, in November. Good thing he didn't do that!
But again - what the bloody &^%$ was I thinking???
They are talking about how you should wipe down everything, and use hand sanitizer - yes, if she can remember to bring the sanitizer this time!
There seems to be conflicting opinions about whether a long direct flight or a layover (2 shorter flights) is better. You know, this makes me MAD. Get together and get it right!
It's kind of like the mask thing - if CDC had just said at the very beginning, We're not sure, but wear a mask, it couldn't hurt, it probably would help -- rather than saying (back in February), No you don't need to wear a mask. I feel like if they had gotten it RIGHT at the beginning, we wouldn't have half of the conflict and problems we are having now.
I haven't seen my family in a long time; my immediate family lives about 2,200 km away from me, and through two provinces. I can understand wanting to take a mitigated risk to be able to see them. It makes me tear up every time I think of them :(
i'm looking forward for you, for your trip to Vegas. Please relax when out there and enjoy the time. just be safe and mask up and take those extra precautions on the flight.
a neighbor has returned from Florida and she is just fine, no Covid. my next door neighbor, in fact.
My sister won't get together with family for Thanksgiving or xmas. Someone in her grandsons school was positive. How would she know if one of her grandkids has it?
Just found out my favourite aunt and uncle who are in their 80's are going to have family for Thanksgiving! I hope they are both still around for xmas with them.
An expert on tv said stay home on Thanksgiving so you aren't in ICU on xmas.
I did better yesterday but did have 2 chocolates at work at the very end. I'm almost done with the chocolates, but let's see if i can hold off eating the last 2, shall we?
This week is almost over and I've done no weight training. Mostly because I've been trying to get into bed as soon as possible, and there's always a million chores to do beforehand.
Tonight, I have a training webinar for the legal clinic, to discuss ways to reopen the clinics during COVID. Here's my suggestion: DON'T. I have absolutely zero interest in holding/running clinic once a month right now. But I'm willing to hear what they suggest.
Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!
sorry about no weight training, rest is more important though. you don't need to have lingering colds all winter.
i was talking to my friend about how just about nobody is going to be as produtive as they were pre-covid. like, even at work, with the anxiety and stresses of covid, i feel that most people are not able to be as efficient or productive (to a degree...). My opinion. so i totally agree with you about the reopening of the clinics and how it poses another level of stress on top of regular stresses right now. you do what you can right now...and at least the webinar tonight can hopefully educate / inform you in some helpful way whether you pursue it or not. you do you.
If you need extra rest then you should skip muscle work for now.
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I hear you about the wrist hurting after knitting...me too......and I have a pile of things that need mending or buttons...and have to now use a needle threader to even get the needle ready ( I remember giving my grandma one when she was living at my parents.....She loved it.....and now I am her.)..GULP! I like the flavored tea too.....luckily for me...it is satisfying which tells me I'm not really hungry.....you probably do feel hunger then.
grannyannie on 12/03/2020:
Nobody can be 100% all the time. Just not possible.
Might not be to your taste, but I developed the habit of putting milk in my tea. At night if you want to take the edge off drink decaf black with milk.
I also drink chamomile sometimes but it's definitely not 'thick'.
How about packets of low cal hot chocolate?
Jacky82020 on 12/03/2020:
It will get better, Donkey. We all get the blues and feel under par at times. I can only drink iced tea. I’m content sipping on diet root beer after dinner. No caffeine.
Maria7 on 12/03/2020:
I love my coffee, too! Which I have learned to drink it black.
Horn_of_plenty on 12/03/2020:
this is a comment i left on granny annie's page: if jacky or donkey is reading this also, that's why i do not overdo my protein anymore. a lot goes a long way. that's why i even, many times, cut a burger in half...i feel that a lot of meat is just a waste of calories and that a little meat will satisfy just as much!
Horn_of_plenty on 12/03/2020:
also, i re-read my comment that i left you yesterday, ugh!, so many typos! i hope you could read thru those horrible typos!
i totally understand you on wanting something "thicker." i find that i am not satisfied to think about making a tea for myself, but i think the truth is that i'm too lazy to make it!? this is not about you, but it is certainly about myself. i should get into teas again, they are so healthy...
but i hear you on needing something more satisfying, like a coffee, to hold you over. i feel that if you want a coffee with some sweetener, to do it...or, if not sweet enough, perhaps add stevia unless you do not like that sweetener. (or another sweetener that you do like?) i still use my stevia most days, especially in my coffee..
are there any stretches for your wrist? try not to overdo it...LOL...i know that's a hard tip to follow!
lastly, like the others say, sometimes we have those days where we find it hard to reach our own standards. you just got back from your trip and if i'm correct, you'll be feeling far better after this coming weekend! and tomorrow is friday!
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