The scale reminded me that one cannot eat too many chocolates at work and expect to receive favorable results. This week, I really struggled eating too much. I would eat most of my snacks around 10am, leaving nothing for the afternoon, which would then lead me to the chocolates. Not drinking enough water. Even drinking more coffee would be better than reaching for candy. You can't outexercise a bad diet.
I will endeavor to do better this week. I've been struggling with a sore throat lately. Last night, when I came home from work, my throat was quite sore, and this morning, it's still hurts quite a bit. This feels like a sinus infection.
Of course, I had plans today, and now I'm not sure if I should go, or if I should wear a mask, or what. I wanted to go to the plant store party (1-year anniversary), since she's having a sale... oh yes, and a taco truck (LOL - for Husband). Also, there's my usual gym time. I have library books to return, and maybe pick one up. How can I do all of this if I'm sick?
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!
Yesterday was a very bad day at work. I just felt like everything was falling apart, especially me.
Eating was not good. Not food fits, but definitely not good choices. Too many chocolates at work. Too many carbs at dinner.
I did chest weights yesterday (Thursday) and had intended to do legs this morning, but I had a hard time getting out of bed this morning - so running late - and by the time I got to the point in my bike ride where I would normally stop and do weights, I noticed that Boy Cat was curled up comfortably on my weight bench, hanging out with me. So I just rode the bike for an extra 10 minutes.
My Boss is getting his heart zapped today, to re-establish a normal heart beat rhythm. This is presuming his blood test at 1pm is within the range that the doctor wants. So also presuming that this goes according to plan, he will be out of the office this afternoon, which should make for a more relaxed day.
I might walk with Mistakes Girl and her baby at lunchtime. That would be nice.
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I think HoP is onto something by turning off email alerts. Also, I think she’s right about some of my alerts from her or Bear were because I commented in their threads or feeds or whatever they’re called here. So I may get alerts every time Bear or HoP update. This happens in fish forum threads. If you comment, they will send email alerts every time someone else comments in the same thread.
Fortunately for me, the emails contain a link to stop further incoming alerts, so I can shut them down.
I do not receive emailed updates. I opted out of that.
It was hard for me to imagine eating a cactus, but I know that they do that in Mexico. Some cacti is edible.
like you said, it's good there wasn't a particularly bad 'food fit,' as i feel those are the most detrimental.
glad i'm not getting my heart zapped, wow.
nice to see you doing chest exercises. sometimes sleep is most important, in my mind, over the exercising.
Happy Friday to Donkey!
So yesterday, I come home from work to find that "someone" (probably the same chipmunk friend) has taken my avocado pit from its pot! I took the pit outside, hoping that the bright sun might bring forth more growth. Now it's someone's dinner. Fortunately, I wasn't too attached to the pit, and thought it was kind of funny actually. AND the best part was that my other plants were left alone.
I decided to take another chance with Monster and put her back into clean soil. That was last night, so we'll see how she does. She suffers from root rot, which I've tried 2x to remediate. IDK maybe I panicked. We'll see what happens.
Also I brought home some cuttings from work, so again, bringing stuff home gradually. The only plant left at work that is mine is an aloe in Male Co-Worker's office.
I've been training the new person, telling him that I'm being thorough right now because I might not always be there. Frankly, I can't see this guy staying with us for more than 2 years but who knows... Male Co-Worker has 2 more years left before he reaches 70 and will retire. Nice Lady says she will be retiring at the end of next year. When I mentioned to Husband that MCW has 2 more years left, he said that he doubts that the Boss will have even that much left. I do not think MCW will stay if the Boss leaves.
But now that the Replacement Kid is gone, things have quieted down and are starting to settle more into routine.
It was not a good eating day overall. A title company treated us to pizza, and I inadvertently took a very large slice. Then we had another title company drop off some chocolates, so I had a couple. WHY??? Because I was feeling very tired - like my body battery had just fizzled out. So I tried (?) to recharge myself with some sugar. It only sort of worked.
At home, dinner was light, which was OK, but then I finished up the last piece of chocolate cake last night, and boy did I regret that. It sat heavy and was very uncomfortable afterwards.
It was a very rough TOM this month, physically and emotionally. I'm glad that things are starting to settle down. This has been a very rough month.
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I knew I was on my way out of my last job when I started taking things home with me on a regular basis......
I hope things are starting to settle down for you...you deserve it.
Yes, if work would just settle down a bit, then I feel like I would have enough energy (mostly mental/emotional) to regroup.
My plant hobby has evolved from a rescue mission to a learning experience. I'm learning to appreciate life cycles and seeing how death has its place, how life goes on.
I resisted the chocolate cake last night, and I'm very good that I did. No indigestion, no sugar rush, no bad sleep, no guilt or disappointment.
It's a lovely day out here, with sunny skies and cooler temperatures. In fact, I'm waiting for it to warm up just a bit before I take my plants back outside. (I brought the outside plants into the garage because it was too cold outside last night!) Some chipmunk broke off the tops of the baby banana plants (called "pups") in Hannah Banana's pot yesterday. I was so mad and sad. I don't know if the pups will stagnate or die or regrow a new tip. I'm trying to keep things in their proper perspective, but I'm rather attached to Ms. Hannah & her pups. When I take the plants out this morning, soon, I will try to put them higher up, so that they are out of range for the chipmunks.
Also, dare I say it, but the Monster plant seems to be growing new root fibers - very delicate and thin. I noticed this when I got home from work. So there's some hope there, I think! She'll be a beautiful plant if she can pull through.
No weights today - just taking a break. Had a longer morning bike ride, though.
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
AWWW...darn chipmunks......he wasn't being bad...just being a critter doing what critters do......but what a bummer......I hope you can find a solution so it can go back out again and the critter can't make it his breakfast.
Hopefully your Monster plant gets strong and hearty!!!
At least they didn’t get the gigantic one, supposedly 80 years old at time of purchase over ten years ago. I went to a lot of estate sales when I was renovating a Victorian home. Not looking for plants, but there it was, biggest one I ever saw and cheap. Matt had left it inside that summer, saying too heavy to carry out and he’d put it in wheels. He never got around to it & I will never put another cactus outside.
I had no internet this morning, which totally disrupted my morning routine. Fortunately, the problem was reconciled early in the day, by Comcast, as they apparently were making upgrades. I was very worried that Husband would be without internet for most of his day, because he uses so much of it to fill his day. And I was not very enthusiastic about having to buy another router, setting it up, syncing it, passwords, blah blah blah -- thankfully, we avoided all of that.
I rode my bike and did back weights. I did OK with eating - no chocolate cake tonight - but I wish that I would be more mindful when I eat. The Boss' daughter, the one who owns the physical therapy clinic, apparently is on a diet to lose weight, so that kind of helped - when I could remember - to resist certain temptations.
The Replacement Kid is gone. Long story short, it was decided that today should be his last day, and not Friday, because of the long commute and limited work available for him to do. It's just not worth his time or money to come all the way out to do very little work. I agree, but I will miss him. We talked a bit about his experience, both positive and negatives.
The only 2 negatives I mentioned were that I felt he wasn't trained very well, because Mistakes Girl had been so busy with everything that she didn't really have the chance to sit with him. The 2nd negative was that, once we found out that he would be returning to school, it did change the way we moved forward with his training, which is actually OK, because it's much better that he's going back to school. It's just he didn't have the opportunity to learn more. I think that's the most polite way of putting it.
I think that now that he's gone, hopefully everyone on that side of the office will settle down and be quieter.
Zoom Grief Group was not very helpful last night. I seem to be consumed with sadness. It's all quite near the surface, harder to suppress. I'm also noticing that I'm making a lot more mistakes and/or omissions. Just not thinking very clearly these days.
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I'm very proud of myself for getting more done that I had thought I would be capable of doing, especially during an emotional weekend.
So on Saturday, I purged quite a bit from the Plant Room. There's more to go, but progress is being made! On Sunday, I went through 2 drawers in Son's room, and did some evaluating of what is left to go through. There are 2 pieces of old furniture that need to be tossed. I would say that there are probably 6 boxes of stuff at the max (probably more like 4) to get packed up for storage. That's doable.
I went to the gym both Saturday & Sunday - good. I did upper body weights at home on Saturday; I did not do leg weights yesterday, but instead did them this morning.
Unfortunately, I ended up having 2 pieces of chocolate cake yesterday, one after lunch and one after dinner. The dinner one sat heavy and was uncomfortable. When WILL I learn to be kinder to my digestive system? More than dieting, my stomach just can't handle heavy calories like that too close to bedtime.
It rained all day yesterday, so it was harder to distract myself with outdoor things or repotting plants. The emotions continued to swirl, but aside from the 2nd piece of chocolate cake, I think I'll pulled through reasonably OK.
I was discouraged by my plants yesterday.
Both of these plants were from Facebook Marketplace. :-(
Anyway, looking forward.... It's hard to look forward. Well, I'll just concentrate on getting through today, then. One step at a time...
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
See below what I wrote to Bear, that I know that I will get to a point where I can get rid of some of the stuff that isn't sentimental/practical. I just don't want to have to face all of it at one time, right now. Which was the main purpose of renting the storage room and boxing things up. It also helps to have the purpose of displaying some of Son's things to remember him and to honor his accomplishments.
This doesn't pertain to certain items of clothing that I plan to keep and probably use myself.
I'm learning a lot from you on how to keep moving through grief.
Some folks are just better left behind.
Not very diet & exercise related below, but it's what's going on. I did get to the gym yesterday and I have serious intentions of going today, too. Did OK eating wise yesterday, which is great even though it's my "relax" day, but then I "relaxed" with a small slice of chocolate cake around 8pm with a cup of decaf.
I had a pretty good day, actually, until the evening, when Husband and I started talking about Son's room, Son's death, Son. It would seem as though Husband and I have a difference of opinion on how to set up his room with his medals and honors. I had hoped to put some plants in the room, as a decorative touch (and they make the air smell fresh, clean, and good). I think Husband thinks I'm taking over another room with plants. I decided to de-escalate the conversation by agreeing to put a desk in the room where we can put & use Son's laptop (eventually, when we get it back from the military). He doesn't want the room to become a shrine, but I want a place to display and store Son's stuff. We'll see... No point in getting upset about it now, because it's all just talk.
Then we started talking about events surrounding the suicide. It made me realize that when we finally DO receive the investigation report, it won't be easy to read. I'm already anticipating needing a couple of days (or more) to process it. Not to be a negative Nelly, but it helps me to prepare for the worst.
Anyway, it's been over 4 weeks since we were told the investigation was done, and we haven't heard ANYTHING from the AF, so Husband will have to make that call on Monday. It's not like they would make it easy for us, would they? No, it looks like something we will need to pursue every difficult step of the way.
Needless to say, all of this caught up with me when I went to bed, and I just cried until I couldn't cry any more. Eventually I fell asleep, but I woke up to bad stupid work dreams, trying to cut & paste 12 Russian names onto a deed, and the computer kept kicking me out.
It's raining out today, and should rain for most of the day, so it will be difficult to do any re-potting. I discovered last night that a few of my Ficus plants (rubber trees, of different varieties) are staring to have roots shoot out from the bottom of the pots! It's not so bad that it can't wait another week or so.
The plant store that we visited during that first week after Son's death is having their 1-year anniversary next weekend, with a sale, a raffel, a food drive, taco truck, etc. I mentioned this to Husband and he said we should/could go. He's quite interested in the taco truck, lol...
So that's something to look forward to, as well as the suicide survivor's Zoom group on Monday night and the Illinois Zoom grief group next Saturday morning. I found that there are more Zoom groups that I can attend, if I feel like I do, when I need a group sooner than the suicide support groups. They are military-related losses, but not limited to suicide, and not limited to parents. I still have to check out Compassionate Friends, too, which is non-military but that's OK.
The organization that sponsors the military Zoom grief groups also has an 800 hot-line 24/7, but I don't think I'm at the point of needing that. Besides, I think I go to these groups more to listen than to speak. IDK....
OK, visiting with plants, gym, maybe some reading, leg weights at home. I'm very proud of myself for clearing out quite a bit of stuff in the plant room yesterday.
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
One of the things I invested in - and have yet to set up - is a 4 shelving unit cart thing, on wheels where I can put plants on, and wheel them around, temporarily. So, the shelves-on-wheels will have their place, but if I'm doing yoga, I can move the cart out of the way or to a different wall. And if I'm visiting in Son's room, I can bring some more plants with me for a different vibe in the room.
I can’t imagine what a suicide investigation would have to say. Maybe I watch too much Dateline but the investigations are usually to rule out homicide, especially in younger people. And so what If they found drugs or alcohol were involved; they so often are.
I would keep an eye on moving sales to see if ppl relocating are letting plants go for next to nothing.
Oh my goodness, let's talk about people having moving "sales" on Facebook. A lot of those are for very large plants, which is great (yes!), but you would think they are selling gold at the prices they are asking. $65, $75, $100 -- OK, I get it. It's an establish plant, and you're also selling a large pot, but aren't you desperate to rehouse your plants?
So needless to say, I haven't come across any great sales yet. But I guess in a way, that's OK too, because I'm almost at my limit for plants, at least until I have Son's room and the Plant Room better cleared out and organized.
And then there are tacos.....LOL.....can't blame him for liking taco's..
I don't blame him - or anyone - for being interested in a taco truck ;-)
Well, I don't know how this happened, but I am (trying to) keeping the trend of numbers heading downward as per Maria's advice/comment several days ago.
I worked biceps and shoulder weights this morning, which is quite unusual for me to do weights at home on the weekends, lately.
I'm so glad to be home today. I was really honked off at work yesterday, mostly thanks to technical computer problems that I spent my lunch hour working on. This means my walk was delayed, so the stress just kept buidling up. Then add some snarky (rude) ladies down in the physical therapy office, who IDK if they thought they were being funny, but their snarkiness was certainly unhelpful. Needless to say, I felt much better after my walk, even if it was hot and muggy and I stunk afterwards.
But the computer problems got fixed. I stayed until almost 5:30p to make sure my files were in a good spot before leaving for the weekend. Of course, some realtor sends me a contract at 5pm....
It is going to be VERY hot and VERY humid here today. I definitely have plant work to do today. Also laundry, which will dry outside.
Husband and I went to Home Depot last night, so that I could buy a BIG plant. However, there were no good sales, really, and most of the plants looked not-so-good, so I picked up some small plants (and cheaper plants) instead. OK, one was a good deal at 50% off. The other 2 were $5 each.
I'm also going to try to salvage the Monster plant I bought. Most of the leaves are turning black, which at first I thoughr was bruising from falling down, but now I think are root rot that I didn't manage to remediate, unfortunately.
I hope to go to the gym today, but with it being so hot out, I'm not sure I want to go and sweat at the gym. If I go, I think it will be in the afternoon.
I'm just glad to be at home with my Husband and my plants. I'm grateful that there will be some Zoom support groups available next week.
Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I have no plant talents and it doesn’t help when I’m so cheap I buy steeply discounted ones with issues. Never found much at local Walmart. Best ones for me at Lowes. There all the time, today and yesterday as a matter of fact. It’s only a few miles away. The Home Depot is way across town. Lowes has a store card that offers 5% off everything at the time of purchase. That’s nice! We bought 4x4 support posts for under the flooring where the new tank will go. Matt said the price of lumber is really going up. Just like everything else I suppose.
I really admire your ability with fish, and to think things through with set-up. I presume, too, that you're getting pretty savvy with water testing?
A friend's husband got his job with public works (with the city) because of his experience with water testing his salt-water tanks.
When my alarm went off this morning, I seriously thought that it was Saturday morning. Had to do some thinking about what I worked on yesterday to figure out that today was Friday.
So one more day to get through.
I had hoped to go to Home Depot last night with Husband, to see what kind of plant sales are available, but mainly to purchase some supplies. However, everything was so delayed with dinner that we didn't end up eating until 7pm! By the time we finished cleaning up, it was already 8pm, and I felt that was too late for me. It had been a long day for all of us, but I was disappointed.
I was kind of disappointed in the plant books I had checked out, too. Not bad, but just not satisfying.
Eating was OK, but then I had chocolate cake after dinner. Just one piece, but I certainly don't need that. I was a little upset (?) because what I really wanted was a little bit of ice cream, but Husband ate all of it. I'm so disappointed that he's getting fast food for lunch too. He's not even trying to take care of himself any more. I know that he's just trying to cope with grief, sadness, stress, too. But geez, some of us want ice cream too...
It's going to be very hot here over the weekend, but I would like to try to work on the plant room and Son's room. I also want to stop by a nearby nursery to check them out. I hear they are having amazing sales, and if nothing else, it would be fun to check them out.
PS I forgot to mention that:
also, i'm glad you had one piece of cake and not two xx
remember, seasoned veggies / cooked veggies / salad can be part of takeout, making it healthier to have that on the side.
Well, I stayed about an hour late at work last night, but I am very happy to announce that I am now completely caught up at work. That was a wonderful feeling at the end of the day.
After dinner, I had the opportunity to buy more plants, but I want you all to know that I resisted this, and instead, bought 2 t-shirts that have pictures of plants on them. (lol) Also, I have 2 plant books to pick up at the library. I'm hoping that the plant books will:
Eating yesterday did not go very well. Too much take-out and not enough fruits & vegetables. DEFINITELY NOT enough vegetables. So I will work to turn this around today.
I woke up earlier today, so I had time to do weights! I did upper body weights this morning. I'm still (?) having lower back aches. I think that this may be hormone related and that this may just be a bad month. Or maybe this is related to perimenopause. Anyway, having an achy back doesn't bode well for weight traning, but I did all that I wanted to do - my favorite dumbbell exercises. For now, that's fine. I hope to have time to do leg weights tomorrow, but maybe tonight, unless something else comes up.
Thursdays are my favorite day of the week, so I'm hoping that today goes REALLY well. Maybe I'm setting myself up for disappointment, but IDK, I just like Thursdays :-)
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
My local library has huge gardening section and even if my well laid plans fail to execute, it’s always fun looking at the photos.
Congrats on getting those weights in, you are one self-disciplined woman. I admire you.
Good job getting the weights in this morning, but sorry to hear your lower back is sore. Try some stretching exercises to see if that helps at all?
There ARE some exercises that my yogi taught me, that help and I really wanted to do, but I never managed to pull out my mat last night. Dang it - I *should* have done that. Pretty much all of the floors in my house are hardwood.
OK, I'm going to do this - yes, DO THIS - tonight. I owe it to myself.
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I've been on a sweets kick lately as well......but that will get old too...and we will be over it!
Maria7 on 08/13/2022:
I've been on a sweets kick, also, especially while on vacation. I hope to correct it after we get back home. Hope you feel better. Take good care of yourself.
horn_of_plenty on 08/13/2022:
are you bringing enough to eat at work? this week, some of my lunches weren't filling...i needed more veggies on some days..and missed them.
if you are sick, you should rest more so you can do more next weekend.
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