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Donkey - Monday Aug 09, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 156.5

Having a hard time staying focused.  Did not drink 8 glasses of water on Saturday, but still managed to walk every damn day...

Yesterday, I spent most of my morning up at our old house, the one we are trying to sell but may end up renting if nobody buys it before winter sets in.

I found out that the toilet in the kids' bathroom has a crack at the base, and was leaking water.  So I mopped it up and turned off the water to that toilet.  I didn't flush it again (to empty out the basin), but hopefully it will be OK.  I am headed up there later this week to mow, and if dh comes with me he can take a look at it.

Trying not to let the stress get the better of me.  THREE nights in a row, now, I have heard the emotional eating urge beckoning me.  And all three times, I have been able to resist.

It's that after-dinner snacking urge that I'm fighting.  It's when I do the most damage. It's very hard to resist.  And of those 3 nights, there were at least 1 where I just wanted to drown myself in buttercream frosting.

Still, even with resisting this temptation, I am worried that I will not lose this week.  I just have not been putting forth 100% effort.  My own fault.

Progress as of today: 11.5 lbs lost so far, only 21.5 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 08/09/2010:
Was just talking about this snack/emotional eating urge this morning, myself. My tool I am practicing to re-wire myself at those times is this: Three questions: What am I wanting this food to "fix"? What is irrational about that? Then, what do I need? You are already identifying the urge and determining that it is emotional - you are stopping yourself (resisting as you pupt it) - that's 85% of the game you are winning! But understanding more and re-wiring thoughts is taking it a step further, I think......let me know what you think! I'm determined to figure more of this out!


KathyBlue on 08/09/2010:
It is indeed very hard to resist after-dinner snacking. I tried to resolve that by staying out until late and then fall into bed... it worked but it couldn't happen everyday of course... But I believe this has to do with the lifestyle because when I lived in an other country where life started earlier and ended up later (no tendencies for late night dinners, etc.) I could easily stop eating at 5 pm.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/09/2010:
...going to comment more, but YES, my eating is definitely over the top ridiculous!!!! :-) definitely so unhealthy for a month straight. so many binges. it's hard to believe, actually, that i came out OK in the end after all this food. oh man!


legcramps on 08/09/2010:
Hope you manage to continue to control the evening snacking; I always have a hard time with this and when we're not 100% into resisting, it's even more difficult!


biscottibody59 on 08/09/2010:
Enjoy your day!


moogy on 08/09/2010:
I know that urge well. I was OK last night however, I find that sometimes if I have a good dinner (600cals) and do something with my hands, or read a book to get lost in, or even a good movie that helps get me through. I find that the evening munchies are cyclical and hit me worst when it is almost my TOM - how about keeping track of when they are worst. You are in control of the food not the other way around.



Donkey - Friday Aug 06, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 156.5

I now have a tangible goal:  to fit back into my navy blue wedding hostess dress.

It's plain and dark, with short sleaves.  It's very soft.  I don't know how many more pounds I will have to lose in order for it to start fitting properly.  I like it because while it has a certain sillouette to it, it can be worn well at numerous weights/sizes.  The tag says "10" but I think that's being generous.  Maybe once I hit the 140's, I'll be able to fit into it reasonably well, once again.

Today I went for a walk and ran out of steam half way through.  The only thing I can think of was not enough carbs yesterday.  It was warmer than I had thought it was going to get.  These cooler nights can be deceptive, once the sun comes out and starts to shine brightly.

I hostessed a wedding this afternoon, so now I must resist the temptation to reward myself with a piece of cake tonight. 

Progress as of today: 11.5 lbs lost so far, only 21.5 lbs to go!

grumpy on 08/06/2010:
Thanks for the visit and the cheering, Donkey! I need it! I have a lot os catching up to do. Starting all over. I gained more than I was at when I first started, crazy no? Now I already lost some, but it's just the beginning. I put a higher goal than my real goal, and seeing that bar fill up in yellow does help motivating me. More than anything, everything is looking brighter to me. Mom had cancer and now she's back to her old form and coming to visit me in a week! :) And just the fact that I stopped and started eating healthy again, even if I am way bigger than before, makes me feel better and prettier. Looks like you also started losing again. 11.5 is great! congrats! How have you been girl?


KathyBlue on 08/06/2010:
aww, sounds sexy: navy blue wedding hostess dress! :D Exciting! So by then we want a photo... :D The 140's!!! It's not that far!!! Check the bar! :)


cleaneating on 08/06/2010:
You will get into that dress :)


just42day on 08/06/2010:
Great setting a goal! I'm sure you'll reach it! I've been volunteering at the same place since January. 99% of the time it's fine. As all I do is provide "administrative assistance" like answering phones, updating databases and dealing with walk-ins for info, most of the time it's ok. The "now we don't need you" situations are typically because the volunteer coordinator is a bit scattered and forgets she has enough employees on hand. Thankfully, there was only one instance when I showed up and then informed I wasn't needed. Most of the time she'll cancel the day before if I'm not needed. Because I'm unemployed (unfortunately!!!) my schedule's pretty flexible. Sorry you've had disappointments volunteering as I know that can be very frustrating! I hope you fit into that navy dress soon! :)


moogy on 08/06/2010:
Yep! If you are eating only a few carbs the body can't get enough fast enough to replenish the ones you are burning up. I remember doing my gym circuit(when I went to the gym)whilst on low carb and almost passing out half way through, no carbs to burn. I had to sit down and wait for the energy to get back to the car. The dress sounds as if it would be good for you to keep always as a marker of how your weight is going.


skinnygrlwithin on 08/06/2010:
Thank you so much... I'm really so glad that your thoughts of me were able to push me through your workout... you can do it...the more you do it the less like you feel like you need to push through and the more it just becomes natural... that and I bash myself in my head when I feel like I want to give up while I'm running... probably not the best approach, but it's worked for years


V on 08/06/2010:
i am sure the dress will be amazing on you :)


V on 08/06/2010:
I am always happy to entertain you all with my crazy tales!!! i am sure my vacation entries will be the best ones yet :) Thank you :)


WI3 on 08/07/2010:
Glad you have a goal!! YAY! Congrats on hosting the wedding :)


biscottibody59 on 08/07/2010:
Hope you're okay--sounds odd for you to run out of steam like that!

Have a good one there! (BTW, I appreciated your comment to HoP about recovery. Keep putting one foot in front of the other!)



Donkey - Wednesday Aug 04, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 156.5

Just checking in with my weekly weigh-in today...

I might have had better numbers had my dinner not been so salty last night.  The weather is very humid and somewhat hot -- although hard to tell because the humidity makes everything seem tropical.  So I have been craving salt like crazy.  Not so much the ice cream, in fact.

Today I took an awesome bike ride to church for noon services.   I plan to walk this evening, as well.  Dh and I are having an early dinner tonight, with the kids out of town with Grandma (my mom) this week.

Progress as of today: 11.5 lbs lost so far, only 21.5 lbs to go!

just42day on 08/04/2010:
Sounds like you have some great exercise planned for the day! Good for you!


KathyBlue on 08/04/2010:
awesome! Bike rides are sooo much fun!!! I really miss it... I cannot bike around here anymore :(


V on 08/04/2010:
Enjoy your kid free week! :)


Maria7 on 08/04/2010:
Sodium will do it EVERY TIME!!!! :-)


moogy on 08/04/2010:
That salt, I tell you, we need to avoid it a couple of days before weigh in!!! The walks should help to balance you out, drink plenty and it will flush out your system. The half pound counts,it takes a lot of work to move half a pound.Good luck.



Donkey - Sunday Aug 01, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 157.0

I realized after I had my breakfast that I should have weighed in this morning for an August 1st weight. 

My goals for August are:

1.  Lose 4 lbs.

2.  Walk every day -- 20 minute minimum (what it takes to walk around my subdivision)

3.  Drink 8 glasses of water every day.

I also want to start doing some kind of weight training or resistance training, but I haven't formulated a plan about that yet, so it probably won't happen this month.

Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

KathyBlue on 08/01/2010:
yeah, exercise plan is something that doesn't come in a sudden. I had my MONTHS of trying to elaborate a plan, seeing places, timetables, networks, contracts, money issues, etc... But then, I know that aerobics doesn't work with me. I'm not the one who starts doing exercises at home - happened before but it won't happen for a long time as I know myself, way too lazy, and I need some competition...


moogy on 08/01/2010:
They are good acheivable goals. You go for it girl.


hollybelle on 08/01/2010:
Great, realistix goals. You have inspired me to walk EVERYDAY in August.


just42day on 08/01/2010:
great goals for August! Good luck w/them all :)


V on 08/01/2010:
We all know you can do it!


WI3 on 08/03/2010:
Great goals, Donkey! I am so glad you are back :)


loveray on 08/04/2010:
this is a great goal list. you can definitely do this!! xo



Donkey - Wednesday Jul 28, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 157.0

Just logging in my weigh-in for the day.

I broke my walking streak yesterday.  It got too outside before I could get in a walk and then I had a sinus headache in the evening.  It was terribly humid outside yesterday.

So hopefully I will start a new streak today.  This morning was my last morning of ESL classes (where I volunteer), for the summer term, so I was unable to walk this morning.  I will take a short walk around the neighborhood this evening, weather permitting.  I usually take it easy on weigh-in day.

I'm so sick of summer though.  I welcome some cooler temperatures.  Not cold, just a wee bit cooler with not so much humidity....

Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

moogy on 07/28/2010:
Lots of people don't understand the whole sick of summer thing, but I do. I hate summer, I am dreading summer, I don't enjoy spring because it leads to summer. OK I will get off my soap box now - but I know how you feel. Just to breath cool refeshing air, too feel a cool refreshing breeze. Will August be hot where you are or does it start cooling down earlier than the east coast?


Maria7 on 07/28/2010:
I LOVE the fall, but am thankful for the summer at the same time. Next month the scuponong grapes will be coming in and I am looking forward to that! As for the summer, I think the humidity is the MAIN THING about summer feeling so extra warm. Anyway, I hope you have a good evening. Just hang in there. :-)


Moody3 on 07/28/2010:
Summers in WV are horribly hot and humid~specifically July and August~when I get off work at 7 in the morning, it's already humid out~and in the upper 70's usually, so I totally understand the whole "can't wait for summer to be over thing"~

Hope it cooled off enough for you to get out for a nice walk this evening!!


V on 07/28/2010:
I hear you girl! Here it is either hot or hotter! LOL


WI3 on 07/31/2010:
I agree, I've had enough of this hot humidity LOL I think it is great how far you've come. I take my hat off to you!



Donkey - Monday Jul 26, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 159.5

Still walking, still drinking water, still watching portion sizes, for the most part.

Lately, I eat and it sits heavy in my stomach.  I was thinking about this during my walk this morning.  While it is "full" almost to the uncomfortable, in some ways, it is comforting too.  This is very odd.  I know that when I say "full", it is not because I have eaten too much, because LOGICALLY, I know the content of what I have eaten.

Then there are --- or rather, now I can say "were" --- times when I felt that no matter WHAT I ate, I could not get to that point of feeling full.

I think this goes hand-in-hand with my recent bouts of feeling (not) fat.  This is quite different for me to be experiencing, after years and years of a dysfunctional relationship with my physical self.

Since I am currently unemployed, one of my biggest passions is ESL literacy advocation.  I love to help beginning students in ESL classes.  Not so much the advanced classes, where they are more comfortable with English -- or at least not so afraid to try -- but the very beginners who seem to be floating adrift in a world of English.

THESE are the people I want to help.

Anyway, I was helping in this one class for nearly a year, when this other lady started helping out too.  I could not help these feelings of competation with her, even though, LOGICALLY, I knew that there was no reason to feel this way.

She is retired. Her husband is passed. Her children are grown with children of their own. She lives in an apartment.  So she has quite a bit less than I do, at this present time.  And yet, she has more freedom, in some ways. So of course, she is going to be able to volunteer more because she has more free time.  I have my children, my house, my husband --- all of these things to tend to.  I think I was feeling resentful, yet, again, LOGICALLY, knew that this was irrational.

And she would say to me how happy she was with her life, how "full" she felt.  Between her ESL work and her work with the homeless and the health clinic (for those disenfranchised), she was content.

So I'm wondering if my feelings of "full" and "not fat" are somehow a sign that I am headed in the right direction.  I think I am.  Yesterday, during my walk, I told myself that I am not doing this to achieve some vanity goal of thinness or numbers on the scale or cardio minutes.  No, this time, I'm doing this because it's what I need to do to become a better person.

But thank God for that Logical Self, because she's the one that keeps me in check!

Progress as of today: 8.5 lbs lost so far, only 29.5 lbs to go!

moogy on 07/26/2010:
It is good that you are doing all this thinking and analizing, I think it is part of the journey. Eventually, we work it out and come out the other side feeling happy with ourselves, who we are, and what we are despite what weight we are. Keep thinking donkey, you will get there.


V on 07/26/2010:
Well said! We all find ourselves here for many different reasons but figuring out how to fix our outer shell and inner self permanently takes time love and patience. We are right here with you :)


Umpqua on 07/26/2010:
That's a great attitude. I think we need to listen to our inner voices a whole lot more - if we just pay attention and listen, the answers are often right there inside us!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/27/2010:
powerful entry! :-)

everything you are feeling sounds wonderful. Our bodies do tell us and give us signs when we are treating our minds/bodies well! Apparantly, when we take our time, take small steps, and try "a little less," it works out to our benefit a little more!

Between the months of feb-april, maybe even January, I was headed in a very positive direction. I was losing weight, almost 10 pounds. It is when we try to take the little steps that everything works in our favor. The moment we get greedy, want to much too fast, that's when the ball stops!

So keep on keeping on! :-)



Donkey - Saturday Jul 24, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 159.5

Trying to stay current and accountable here on DD...

I don't feel as fat as I am.  I feel as I felt when I was in the mid to low 140's, but I know that I am in the mid to upper 150's.  This is what I weighed when I was in high school -- and felt fat.  This is what I weighed after Baby #1 (after all the hormones settled) -- and felt fat.

Not only FELT fat, but WAS fat.

But now, even though the numbers are the same as they were back then, I do not FEEL this heavy.  I know I am because I'm in a size 14 (sometimes, 16).  So I am not as I was when I was in the 140's (size 10-12) or 130's (size 8-10). 

Last week, I did the minimum 20 minute walk around the neighborhood most of the days.  This week, I have been trying to extend myself and do a little more.  Yesterday, I mowed a big yard in really hot weather.  Then I came home and went for my 20 minute walk.

This morning, I went for a longer walk, and I plan to get in another short walk tonight.

It is my hope that a couple of days of double workouts will help bring better results on the scale this week.

Progress as of today: 8.5 lbs lost so far, only 29.5 lbs to go!

loveray on 07/24/2010:
every small gesture in the right direction helps. wishing you lots of peace and love on your journey:)


just42day on 07/24/2010:
Good for you for being so consistent w/good activity. Yes, I'm in the Chicago area too. Weather's been horrible. More rain for most of next week. Oh joy.


Maria7 on 07/24/2010:
Be careful about being out in hot weather. You can become dehydrated easily and also get heat exhaustion quickly. Don't do that. (I learned.)

You're really doing well getting to your goalweight.

Very interesting entry. Also, I shop at the thrift stores, too. :-)


moogy on 07/24/2010:
Isn't that weird, I always think I am attractive, sexy and showing off what I have got. The reality is I have lots lots more than I should have but it doesn't seem to affect how I feel about myself. With all the exercise you are doing I am sure your body will soon match your what your head feels You go girl.


don'tstoptrying on 07/25/2010:
I totally understand about not always "feeling" fat even though the fact is I am. For me I know I'm just so use to this body it's comfortable for me and even though which I know sounds crazy at times can even be a comfort. Right now thankfully I'm fully am aware of how bad I look and feel, but there have definately been those times when I've been just as overweight as now and seem to feel comforted by it. I'm sure a psychiatrist would have all kinds of things to say about that! lol


biscottibody59 on 07/25/2010:
Keep posting, keep walking! Do what you can to not lose ground--things may turn at any moment. We know the weather's gonna change--gotta work as well as possible with what's in front of us:-)

Happy Sunday!


Moody3 on 07/25/2010:
Doing a great job getting your exercise in!!! Fantastic Donkey!!!!


just42day on 07/26/2010:
thanks for checking in. You're doing so well with your walks. I'm sure you'll start to see and feel great results soon! Keep up the good work!



Donkey - Thursday Jul 22, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 159.5

Feeling slightly more on track today.  Truthfully, I did not lose weight because I did not put forth the effort.  That is to say, I did what I could under the circumstances of stress I am under. 

While I did not plunge into food or alcohol to sooth my nerves, I was not entirely careful with portions or choices.  So I have only my efforts to blame, which is fine, because then it makes sense:  Didn't lose weight because I didn't try hard enough.

What's really maddening is when you do all the right things, bust your donkey at the gym, drink tons of water, abstain from any treats --- and then you don't lose anything.  Or worse, you gain a couple of pounds.  *chuckle* I've had that happen to me so many times....  This time, doing that is not worth it to me.  But I do have to put forth a little more self-control if I want to see some progress on the scale.

I have taken up knitting again, to help with my anxiety at night.  I stopped in the middle of a project I was working on because I was running out of yarn for this particular item.  I guess I didn't think it was worth the $4 for another skein of yarn, but now I have decided that this money must be spent for my peace of mind.

A lot cheaper than therapy, anyways...

Progress as of today: 8.5 lbs lost so far, only 29.5 lbs to go!

don'tstoptrying on 07/22/2010:
You have a plan and your worth it, keeping our hands busy really helps when we food junkies want to soothe our emotions. I know how you feel about feeling like your doing everything right and still not seeing results. I learned about paying attention at W.W. to our BLT'S (bites, licks and tastes.) I realized I was tasting more than I thought, so those of us that don't lose quickly or easily we have to be vigilent about everything we really are eating. I'm glad to see you posting again. Keep it up you can do it!


Umpqua on 07/22/2010:
I like the idea of knitting at night! I often work on my projects at night too to keep busy and stay away from snacking. I hope you have an excellent day!


skinnygrlwithin on 07/22/2010:
Thank you!! If you dont mind me asking whyd you leave????


moogy on 07/22/2010:
Busy hands = no food in mouth.LOL


V on 07/22/2010:
We all hear you!! I am probably the most impatient person you will ever meet.I was really excited when I began my diet,I lost 11 lbs the first week,6 the next,5 and now when I have a 1 lb week I get all crazed. I must learn that it takes time



Donkey - Sunday Jul 18, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 159.5

Feel like quitting...  Been really really hard to get myself to do ANY cardio the past couple (few?) days.  I don't get up early enough, so that when I am finally ready to face the world at 9am, the sun is already out, blazing away, heating up the humidity....

Most days it's very hard for me to get out of bed.  If I can at all afford to sleep in, I do.  Then I oversleep.  So I sleep some more, until I realize that  I have no other choice than to get up and try to live another day...

 

Progress as of today: 8.5 lbs lost so far, only 29.5 lbs to go!

V on 07/18/2010:
Please don't give up! You are doing great as far as your weight loss...It is funny how impatient we are when it comes to losing it.It is an everyday battle.Maybe if you find something really fun to do like Zumba, spinning class or kickboxing. I have a stationary bike, Ab lounge and weights at my house and I don't have an excuse not to workout, however I have to mix it up a little by going to the gym. Sometimes I walk up to CVS instead of driving there.Stop beating yourself up would you. Just remember you always have us for support!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/19/2010:
Donkey! What!? What's up here. Don't quit. Do it for you, your kids. When you feel this way, STOP! stop for a moment, and make yourself think of something POSITIVE. anything at all positive. You need to stop the negative cycling whirling around in your head because it is destructive. So you must try to distract your negative thoughts with something much lighter...something positive. you have to!



Donkey - Thursday Jul 15, 2010
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 159.5

This week's weigh-in was not so successful.  Up 1.5 lb but I expect GREAT numbers next week.

Three reasons for this week's weigh-in:

1. Salt cravings took over night before weigh-in;

2. Portion control on salty food went out the window -- stress eating or mindless eating -- just lost count of how much I was eating.

3.  The ol' TOM, which seems to get worse as I get older.

 

So the combination of all three factors -- I was sunk.

The weather has been unbearably humid in the Chicago area. If I don't get out there and walk first thing, I can forget it.  Today there was a breeze, so I was saved, but still very sweaty when I was done walking.

Then later, I went for a bike ride with my daughter (10).  I love to do this with her but so many times she's playing outside with the neighbor kids. So this was really nice.  Plus, it's a nice change of pace every once in a while.

I've been doing well on the water too.

I just have to keep thinking positive and looking forward.  It's been really really really hard lately....

Progress as of today: 8.5 lbs lost so far, only 29.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/15/2010:
hi! you are doing well - this was a great entry. it's good to see you not give up and actually say you are looking foward to next week's progress. so many of us on here usually stick to the immediate present, so that's nice to hear you are looking ahead, positively!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/15/2010:
my TOM was worse than normal a few times this past year. I'm hoping it doesn't continue to get worse! hopefully better. I bet that if I were to eat healthier and lose weight, it would be better. LOL.


loveray on 07/16/2010:
good to hear from you and glad to hear you have such a positive outlook. hope you have a great weekend.


Moody3 on 07/16/2010:
Hey Donkey~Yep, this week is done, so look forward to next week~Sounds like you are fully aware of the things you need to focus on!! Wonderful attitude!

You're doing great with your exercise~I admire those of you who get out there in the nasty weather and get it done. I live in WV and the heat and humidity are horrid~Thank God for my treadmill because I know myself and know I wouldn't get out in this nasty crap!! Yuck!!

Wishing you a beautiful Friday!!


legcramps on 07/16/2010:
Glad to hear you're doing well - keep at it!



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