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Donkey - Friday Apr 13, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.5

Do the right things, gain weight... *sigh*

Queen Bee took today off, so I will take this opportunity to wear my new pants. This will allow me to get used to the form fitting fit, so that I'm in a stronger place when I wear them and she's making her obnoxious comments.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/13/2018:
But remember what i said - try to be your own person even when she's there...how's her body, btw?

I'm glad you wore your new pants!

Happy Friday!

bearcountrygg on 04/13/2018:
The same thing I just said to HOP...It's normal...the scale is just a snapshot in time.

Maria7 on 04/13/2018:
Hope you have a good day.

jayhawkjen on 04/14/2018:
New pants, yay!!!

Donkey - Thursday Apr 12, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

It is my daughter's birthday today!!!  She is 18 years old - WOW, how did THAT happen?

Woke up early today on my own - that's a good sign of a great day!  Had a great workout, probably going to leave early to get to work early.  Warm and sunny out :-)

While exercising, I was thinking about adversity and dealing with disappointments in life, how it's important to keep trying, no matter what, and that what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.

We have not heard from our son, so maybe he managed to get himself another week to try to pass.

Thank you all for the birthday wishes for my daughter.  I baked her cake tonight -- oh my, the house smells SO heavenly.  Yes, this is what Heaven must smell like:  freshly baked yellow cake.  If Love had a smell, this would be it.  

I may not get around to frosting/decorating until tomorrow morning, because the cake has to be completely cool.  I'm sure there's short cuts, but I don't want to mess this up by rushing it.

Today was the last of the warm weather without rain/snow.  I had a wonderful walk at lunchtime.  I'm really surprised my final step count wasn't higher for the day.

I've been sticking to my plan to update FitBit at the end of the day.  I seem to hit 10 or 11 of the 12 days with enough steps.  So close!  But it's better this way, to help keep me sane.

I will do my best to remember to weigh in tomorrow morning.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/12/2018:
Very true...and Happy Birthday to your daughter.

horn_of_plenty on 04/12/2018:
Yes, your son can still do something like train to be a PO or something? Apply to be a firefighter if it's paid...all the civil service jobs are good....a court officer makes ok money too...if he leaves that first opportunity, even garbage men around here make GREAT money. just saying. civil service jobs seem good...he's still have to exercise but he's young enough to be able to actually get fit quicker i think than me at least.

I agree with what you wrote below...

Happy bday to your daughter...18 sounds so young to me...but that's definitely a milestone! :)

But, if he wants to train to do one of those jobs, he has to also work in a field that's on his feet, i'd say, is preferable to a desk job...

i hope though he just passes the pushup test.

horn_of_plenty on 04/12/2018:
sometimes, the adversity and disappointments are what cause us to become stronger...usually that's the case anyways.

trishpiglet3 on 04/12/2018:
Happy Birthday to your daughter! :) Major achievement raising a child to be an adult

Maria7 on 04/12/2018:
Happy bd to your Daughter. :-)

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
What about fire inspector? https://www.firescience.org/how-to-become-a-fire-inspector/

Happy birthday to your daughter!!!!

Good job cougar mom!

Donkey on 04/12/2018:
"cougar mom" - LOL :-) You help me really look at myself in different ways. THANKS!

Donkey - Wednesday Apr 11, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

So.... as you know, my son did not pass his push-ups test today.  He had a meeting at 2pm this afternoon with his training instructors.  We thought we might get a call this afternoon with instructions on when to pick him up at the airport tomorrow, but we haven't heard from him.  So maybe we'll hear from him tomorrow?  IDK... he will come home to no job, no medical insurance, no car insurance, and no car.  All of that has been changed and can't be changed back easily or at all - especially the medical insurance!  Well...  failure is an opportunity to challenge yourself.  Lord knows I've hit rock-bottom myself more than once in my life.  It will just be difficult.

I was pretty much useless at work after I got this news.  Finally told my boss at 4pm so that he would know why I just couldn't deal with some of the files that needed help. I need to go to bed and start a new day tomorrow.

I almost weighed in this morning, but didn't because it's a Wednesday.  I'm not sure I want to weigh in tomorrow, as I did not eat much because the news put a damper on my appetite.  I did not have my 2nd breakfast --- yes, I'm a Hobbit --- and I did not have my second piece of fruit, didn't finish my broccoli, didn't snack on my raw vegetables.  Oh, what I did have was the rest of a small bag of Jelly Belly's that one of the agents gave as a gift.  That was about 150 calories.  I don't want to weigh in on my usual Saturday because dinner on Friday will be salty, and there will be cake for my daughter's birthday.

That's how much my weight fluctuates.  Having a special dinner or dessert can really sway the numbers in a big way that isn't very reflective of where I actually am overall.  Very frustrating.

So my plan for tonight, to get through it:  a little cardio to warm up, upper body weight training, shower, tv, bed.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/11/2018:

Donkey - Tuesday Apr 10, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

So I realized that by the end of the week -- end of tomorrow, actually -- all of my recent worries will be resolved:

  • Hormone/lower back pain  
  • Son's fate
  • Need Spring-like weather

Making tomorrow morning very difficult to get up and face the day.

My dear daughter's birthday is Thursday, but we are celebrating Friday. So I think I will try to weigh-in Friday morning - if I can remember - because dinner is sure to be salty.  I will do my best.


Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/10/2018:
Sometimes its easy to wish future days away...I'm doing that myself right now.....I guess they will come soon enough. Hang in there.

Maria7 on 04/10/2018:
Glad you at least are looking forward to having relief of your worries. Stress is not fun. Hoping all goes well for everyone.

horn_of_plenty on 04/11/2018:
My fingers are crossed for your son. Is it easy to be in touch with him?

Always proud of you!

Maria7 on 04/11/2018:
Hope you are having a good day. Getting closer to Friday! :-)

bearcountrygg on 04/11/2018:
I'm sorry to hear that your son didn't pass...but when 1 door closes...another opens.....hopefully there is a job/occupation that will be a better fit for him...I firmly believe that what happens is what is supposed to happen...and we don't always know why...but over time...the reason will show its self. He will figure it all out. Hugs to you...I know you were hoping that he would find himself there...

Donkey - Monday Apr 09, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

All of my recent stressors will be resolved by week's end.

I thought I'd come back from the bridal shower all b****y, wanting to kick some workout butt and WOW everyone with arm muscles and shapely legs at the wedding in 6 weeks.

Instead, I left feeling sad that we're all getting older, regretting some of the choices I've made in my life that would have made things easier or better now. Just sad.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/09/2018:
Just remember that the choice remains yours on how you want to see your life. What i mean is, you can take the negative view or the positive. SAME FOR ME.

I saw a girl at the gym yesterday. She had the most negative sad face on. It never changed. I saw her arrive and saw her again later. I almost wanted to ask her what was wrong. But i didn't because she didn't look approachable..

It is up to you how you choose to represent / present yourself. Seeing her at the gym reminded me that I SHOULD put a smile on my face. I should attempt to look my best (lol, i totally don't on this end clothing wise and based on what i wear, no way...).

but, what i'm saying is, you are saying you are sad about things that you cannot even change, literally: you are feeling sad you are getting older. you are regretting PAST choices. This is not healthy bc you CAN'T change those things.

You can ONLY change the now and the future.

So, try to continue with the things that DO make you happy now. Those things do include exercise and you DO want to change your appearance you've said a little bit...the nails, the clothes. This is good and you are on a good path.

Your mind i think is looking to the past as a habit as what you've always done. Try to see yourself at the preset. At the present, you are successful! You look beautiful! You are improving your fitness! Keep this.

Perhaps you do not love social gatherings? For me, they are stressors more than not...perhaps (i may be wrong here) you were stressed by the gathering, people getting older - made you think of the past - and perhaps that started your self reflection on the past in general.

But that is NOT you now!

You DO look good now.

You are kicking the workout butt ...

Maintenance is another beast, yup!

Being negative is a hard habit to break. I've actually let it seep in a little bit into my workouts - by thinking i cannot get better or that the possible has certainly become impossible.

Try to lift yourself up a bit by remembering the success you DO have now.

You have to give yourself credit for your success not only think of your failures!

Ok...you cannot change things completely in 6 weeks. and you do look good now...

you are already at maintenance...pretty much same for me.

I think the wedding is a good goal, but perhaps instead of only a weight focus, also focus on your happiness and plan things to do to make yourself feel better...like other rewards.

i'll have to give this more thought later. i'm in a similar boat as you.

horn_of_plenty on 04/09/2018:
oh, with myself, the goal is to now get to a new workout level. To move to higher weights...i think i was letting things slide...and forgetting how hard i did work and push myself when i was starting the routine. for me, as winter passes and those low feelings and small weight gain, i'm ready to do things differently now.

but i guess happiness is all of life..not just weight and workout goals.

horn_of_plenty on 04/09/2018:
other ways to be happy for me include being outdoors more, and doing 1 fun thing on the weekend (usually social with Ricky) to expand our minds...see a movie at home, walk at a new park, go somewhere new.

i think you have to try to get out of a rut by doing something different :) but also balancing that with some time to relax (for me, i need this).

perhaps by planning your next day off from work.

Maria7 on 04/09/2018:
I couldn't agree more with what all HOP has taken the time to write above, bless her heart...this is actually good advice for all of us. WTG, HOP! Cheer up, Donkey! You're beautiful, just as you are! (AND you are YOUNG!!!! You should have no stop signs in your way of your aspirations at your age, especially.) Perfectionism can sometimes get the best of us all! We all love you! Be happy (don't worry)! :-)

bearcountrygg on 04/09/2018:
Basically...NO ONE ever feels totally put together...only we know all of our failures personally.....and so often the ones that come off as together...are really the most insecure. Instead of reminding ourselves of our problems...we instead reminded ourselves that EVERYONE has problems of their own...and that we all only have a certain time here on this earth and we are supposed to take care of each other and take care of ourselves...and relax a little and just enjoy our time together. Shortly you will all be at a wedding together and your opportunity to have some time together may possibly be the last time you see many of them....you can just relax and enjoy yourself.

bearcountrygg on 04/09/2018:
Well...rereading what I wrote sounds ominous...LOL...I meant you may not ever some of the oldsters again.

Maria7 on 04/10/2018:
Hope you are having a good day.

Donkey - Sunday Apr 08, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

Argh I forgot to weigh in again today!  I realized it after I was mid-way into my workout, already having had a fully cup of coffee and halfway through my 24 ounce water bottle (3 cups, 750 mL), so no weigh-in this week.  I'm OK with that.

Yesterday.... I finally took a step forward and bought some pants for work that actually fit me.  Before yesterday, I have the sport-knit jersey pants with elastic waist from Lands End that are now way too baggy.   My co-workers have commented several times --- especially the Queen Bee who feels that she needs to voice her opinion about everything -- that my clothes don't fit any more.

So I dragged my dear daughter to Goodwill to help me discern if the pants I chose actually fit or not.  I truly cannot be objective about this any more, especially in fitting rooms where the mirrors and lights play tricks on my perception.  She was sort of laughing at me because she could see that my judgment is impaired when it comes to clothing on myself.

I am short, so petite sizes are best length-wise, but I am not small, so I have wide hips and thick thighs.  Petite clothing is cut for a short AND smaller frame.  I think I need to start a line of sizes called "Petite Plus" for us solid shorties.  Also, because my pelvis is misaligned, I cannot wear anything that isn't flexible, so like the stiff waists that you find in jeans are totally out, because the constriction causes the misalignment to affect my back.  

I pulled 5 pairs of  "stretch" petite 8's, 2 black, 2 grey, and 1 beige (for warmer weather).  I THINK they all fit -- so hard to tell because they are form fitting around the thighs and seat, but I think that's how work slacks are supposed to be.  HOWEVER, I just could not bring myself to buy the beige pants...   Too revealing, I think.  I have completely mixed feelings about this.  On the one hand, I'm proud that I did not spend money on something that would most likely sit in my closet unworn.  On the other hand, I feel like I lost a little of the battle of body-image.  IDK -- my daughter said, There will always be a pair of beige pants you can buy at a later date.  Honestly, I know she just wanted to get out of there, but she's so right.  I raised a smart, wise girl.

And the whole time, I'm thinking of Queen Bee at work making comments -- and she always talks SO LOUD:  "OH ARE THOSE NEW PANTS?"  "WOW WEARING PANTS THAT FIT!" etc., etc.  I mean, how do I answer that?  What am I supposed to say to that?

Anyway... on to today.  I am leaving soon to attend a bridal shower for my husband's niece, so another food challenge.  I had a volunteer appreciation breakfast yesterday, which I think I did pretty well at, choosing protein and fresh fruit, stayed away from pastries - but I've been there before, so I had a pretty good idea of what to expect and planned appropriately.  I'm compeltely out of my element with this party though.  I won't know many people, and those that I do know, I don't like and they don't like me.  I'm rather fascinated by my niece.  While she is beautiful, she is quite overweight.  And yet, the extra weight didn't impare her from finding a nice, handsome man to marry.  I will write more when I return from the party, as I have several thoughts about how this will relate to food, goals, exercise, and overall mental well-being.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/08/2018:
PS Wedding ring with engagement ring is still a little tight, so I'm just wearing the engagement ring. It's not a big stone, but I do like to admire its sparkle :-)

Maria7 on 04/08/2018:
Hope you have a good day today.

Donkey on 04/08/2018:
It was nice, if not a little tiring and overwhelming. I really treasure my quiet time, and today was not quiet, but it's good to mix it up with family, so I'm grateful.... Just wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow, LOL.

bearcountrygg on 04/08/2018:
Sounds like an interesting day....and I say good for you...on leaving the beige pants behind...from a distance women look like they are naked when they are wearing beige pants!!!Just my opinion! And talk about revealing...when I wore scrubs to work I occasionally wore white ones.......then many wearings in....I caught two co workers with their heads together saying...YUP...you can see right through those white pants! Well...guess who never wore white scrub pants again. LOL Your coworker sounds like a big mouth jerk......I've worked with people like that too...I guess there are plenty of them out there unfortunately. And finally...on your husbands overweight niece and finding a nice man...when it all comes down to it...looks fade...and the personality remains...marry the personality that you can live with...because years down the road...the body will be different...count on it.

Donkey on 04/08/2018:
LOL on the white scrub pants story! Oh I'm so sorry that happened to you, but it was kind of a funny story.

That's so true about bodies changing over the years. The young couple is very lucky to have found each other -- they both seem so nice.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2018:
I'm happy your daughter was able to go with you to get the pants. To make you feel better, i don't generally wear beige either. but if you did buy them, just wear them like a QUEEN that YOU ARE!

As for the queen bee, she reminds me a little of my sister's husband. He's a big man, literally he's prob around 6'2" and a decent build muscularly. he just has a big ego and thinks he does no wrong. he'll say things to people and not really care what effect he has on them or their feelings. he can act like a little kid and somehow people take him like a man. it doesn't really matter what he says or does - people listen.

Well, regarding him, he recently pissed me off (well he always does) but this week i was thinking a bit too much how i'm not friends with my sister's husband on facebook! and when i go to take pictures of the family sometimes just to have because we do not take photos together too often, he says "don't take any of me." and i have to listen of course! but i do not like mostly that he will not consider being my friend on facebook. i think i was friended him, i am not sure, and he didn't accept! for a long time, i was so annoyed i blocked him. he's friends with other people...but me - i just have to be the one not on his list and i'm the sister of his wife. Ricky told me to just turn my head to it. but my coworker, who i shouldn't speak to but of course i do (he's 70 and retiring and it's only us working together in a small room)...well i told my coworker who said it's this simple: your brother in law just doesn't like you! so my brother in law, by not wanting photos taken by me or posted by me and not wanting to be my friend on facebook - means he doesn't like me which made sense once my coworker put it that way....

what i'm saying is, i let the stupid things get to me. and shouldn't have. next time he tells me not to take photos..or of him, what i should do is act like a big guy myself and say - "i'll take photos when i want to."

he tried to actually get me in trouble at a dinner recently one week ago. when i was taking extra veggies that my mom didn't want me to take, when parents weren't looking - he called me out on it! he tried to get my parents to actually notice and get annoyed! i couldn't believe it! I should have said quietly to him later, "I can eat what i want when i come here, whether you like it or not, Peter..."

so, with your pants and the coworker....

i'm not saying pick a fight, oh no...and i'm not saying to be rude to her.

if she comments...just say, i'm glad you noticed i bought new pants. ??????

or i guess you can say...you've gotta say something that shows you just don't care what she thinks or feels about what you do.

you can't let her see or know that what she says bothers you. and it should also try to put her in her place...but i doubt it will bc people like her don't get phased...

I'd just say something like, yes, nice you noticed! and just go back to work. just end it. like, a short reply a smile and just move on....

don't worry so much.

some people are just J*erks.

Donkey on 04/08/2018:
I'm going with "Thanks for noticing - yes, these are new!" and then walking away. Taking the high road, here.

PS I'm sorry about your BIL... I would just ignore what he says and do what you want when you are with your family. If it helps, my BIL completely ignores me. Not one word in over 10 years.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2018:
honestly, i think it would do her some justice if you wore the beige pants haha...

some people are so nasty. no care in the world. it's like they think they are gods.

but those people, they don't seem honest to me. I think they are the fake ones.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2018:
i think as the Spring arrives we all around here on DD will be feeling a bit better and going out more. keep on.

remember that a lot of people don't realize their affects they have on your feelings.

Donkey on 04/08/2018:
THIS. TRUE. 100%.

trishpiglet3 on 04/08/2018:
Ouch! Co-worker! ...hmmmm I have encountered similar persons in my life and have (with increasing success, starting from not very much success) tried a different number of ways of tackling, depending upon the person. Sometimes, perfecting a smile, a laugh, and an eyeroll, can do wonders. In other cases, taking the person aside and asking them to please not comment on your appearance can be helpful. I once had a co-worker who said to me, loudly, across the office "What happened to you? you've got really FAT!" to which I replied, not quite so loudly but audibly to everyone who'd heard what she said "I've had a recent bereavement so I haven't been keeping up with my exercising" (this was true btw). Co-worker then tried to turn into concerned and caring person to which I eyerolled and walked away. I don't think anyone is naturally evil, excepting psychopaths, but I think people lose their way/have bad influences, and sometimes those people like to try to pull themselves up by dragging other people down. You are the better person because you *don't* do things like that.

Donkey on 04/08/2018:
For dealing with this co-worker, because she's just a nasty person, it's better to just laugh it off or answer positively so that she can't use it against me in the future, as she's done with others in the past.

Actually, one thing I do appreciate about her is that what she usually says IS true. It's just not always kind, and most of the time it's hurtful on some level. So I know though that if I ever need the truth about something, she is the person to go to. Maybe I should have taken HER pants shopping with me - HA HA HA! ;-)

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
What a bitch! Who is she to make personal comments? If she was a nice person she'd have said you look nice today is that a new outfit or did you do something to your hair?

Kohl's has a line of petite plus wear, but why waste money on retail?

You should look for pictures of what you want to look like and make a vision board. Then whatever you see out there you will gravitate to and have a goal for and not be stressed by human pigeons.

Donkey - Saturday Apr 07, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

I FORGOT TO WEIGH IN TODAY --- I think this is a good thing, too.  I mean, I really wanted to know what my number was, but I love that the numbers, the ritual, isn't so enmeshed in my brain that it's compulsatory.

As I was getting dressed, though, I could hardly put on my wedding band.  Decided to take off the rings, and couldn't get them off without soap and water.  So only wearing the engagement ring with the thin band.  Ah, so maybe weighing in today wouldn't have been a good idea, anyway.

I'm kind of in dangerous territory today, because I don't have anything that I MUST do.  I'm fighting the compulsion to see if I've gotten in my 250+ steps every hour -- NOPE, not gonna do it, not gonna sync the FitBit until the end of the day.  Yesterday, even though my stepcount was lower (but still over goal), I managed to reach the 250+ steps every hour for 12 hours.  

My daughter says now I have to start bulking up, by eating more, lifting weights, and doing squats.  Lower body exercises are a hard one for me because of my back/hip/knee/feet issues, but also because I tend to bulk up instead of slim down in the legs.  

And then, if I gain weight because of the extra muscle, that's not very positive or morale boosting either.

EVENING EDIT:  I didn't throw away any of the remaining pastries at work because I was not the last one to leave the office -- at 6pm! -- and didn't want to be blamed for anything.

The co-worker that I bought the air fresheners for seems very thankful for my gift, LOL!  I think she's being sincere, but she was so pleased with the one scent that she was telling everyone what I had did.  (Now I'm wondering if she was being sarcastic, but that would be mean, and she is a very nice person.... so hopefully not.)  I'm looking forward to her trying out the other scents when she gets to them, personally speaking.

I did buy a nail buffer yesterday and a nice nail strengthener polish (clear).  I'm not impressed with the buffer, because its shape makes it hard to use.  Also, it seems like I'll go through the buffer's usefulness quickly, but it did do the job.  My nails are almost all the same length.  I'm not sure if I will apply a color or not.

Too bad my fingers are too swollen to wear my rings, though -- oh the irony!


Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/07/2018:
Does bulking up mean muscle? I guess if it defined muscles...but it would be my luck to just make my legs bigger...LOL

Donkey on 04/07/2018:
Yes, that's what she means, but my body seldom cooperates. Then again, apparently thick legs and round butts are in style...

bearcountrygg on 04/07/2018:
BaDonkADonk!!! ???????

Donkey on 04/07/2018:

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
Muscle always looks better. Strong is sexy. Plus it burns fat... so build that muscle!

Donkey - Friday Apr 06, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

I love it on days when I wake up early on my own and can get my butt out of bed without debating for 45 minutes on whether or not I have the strength to face another day... 

I'm in a funk.  I don't know if it's hormonal, or seasonal/weather related, or the stress with my son, or what...  We're supposed to have warmer weather at the end of next week, and by then, we'll know our son's fate, so that will just leave hormonal, which also might work itself out by the end of next week.  So I think I can hang in there for one more week :-)  Otherwise, once my card for new crappy health insurance comes in, I'll make an appointment to see a doctor. 

Yesterday afternoon, I was getting really frustrated with my co-workers.  I was sitting with the gal who makes a million mistakes on each file, to watch how she orders title.  I don't think she knows how to type, because she's constantly making a bunch of mistakes and going back to correct what she's typed out.  Considering how many mistakes when she's entering in data, it's amazing the number of errors that she DOES catch and correct.  But that's why there's a million mistakes on each file --- everything she types has errors that she has to go back and correct.  What a waste of time...  But she speaks Spanish, and that's why we hired her, so oh well.  Not my place, so let it go...

Anyway, that's not why I was frustrated.  I was frustrated because this gal's desk is by all the snacks, and I swear, what's not gone today is getting tossed.  Seriously.  Nobody at work needs this ****, and I'm sick of seeing it every time I go by the fax/scanner, which is a million times a day -- helps me get in my FitBit steps, but it's counterproductive to keep walking by all the pastries to do so.  

At least it's Friday.  I'm going to reward my successful bid at no nail biting by purchasing a nail buffer this weekend and maybe a bottle of clear coat nail polish.



Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/06/2018:
i was thinking of you...lately i've been messing up my nails more than usual. i have been constantly picking the cuticles a bit...so i'll lay off. It makes me almost want to go get a manicure too, once my nails get longer. they are too short as well due to constant cutting and filing...i guess i haven't even realized i'm doing it?

Oh, nail buffer is the best to give them the shine. My male fried just bought one, his nails looked GREAT when i saw them.

It's difficult to always stay motivated - i have that same wavering pattern as you. But, you will have to keep motivation to keep the weight down - same as me right now - and not cave into everyone's temptations...Ricky last night was angry i didn't order a whole heavy meal from Applebee's and in the end i luckily ordered what i wanted but did end up trying a few bites of his appetizers. Luckily not too much damage. no regrets. It's good i stuck to my plan basically. otherwise things get so out of hand. I think being an adult includes making decisions that are best for us, not to always please others! As well as finding lower cal solutions so we can indulge with far less consequnences.

I'm praying for your son so hard...i think he needs a mental shift in the game. They would have tossed him by now if he couldn't pass. He needs to change his vision...tell him to "Just do it" like Nike. that he will have a safe future if he does!

bearcountrygg on 04/06/2018:
Sounds like you have a plan...and I agree...you have a lot of stress...and while I'm not sure of your age.....I hate to say it...but menopause is right around the corner. That comes with it's own crap!!! At first I thought it was funny when D asked my dad how long menopause took...and my dad said "about 10 years"...everyone laughed...and I thought it was funny...until I looked it up...he was RIGHT!!!! I thought it happened in a month or 2...NOPE...it's a long process. Then at 48..I had a total hysterectomy...and went into full blown surgically induced menopause and the hot flashes went on for years...it was no fun at all. What a relief when that stopped...I had no idea. Now 20 years later I can look back and see it all so clearly......unfortunately health and strength and body beautiful is wasted on the young...they have no clue...I had no clue....I thought I would be the exception I guess...well...that didn't happen...but life did.....at 48 I was in good physical shape as far as my weight went..( I did have a heart attack at 29, and I had hashimotos thyroiditis, fibroids and endometriosis) plus.....but weight wise...I was right on.....your weight is great...if you can keep from gaining a lot...and letting it get out of hand ( which I did)...you will be far better off for the rest of your life....safe, regular exercise without going over the top ( joints)...will definitely be your friend. You are really in a good place....you have the ability to be active...and not really have to work on losing...but maintaining.....

Maria7 on 04/06/2018:
Sometimes I say it is better to toss those nearby temptation foods than to WEAR them! :-)

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
YAY FOR THE NAIL BUFFING! Look for a pink tinted clear polish so it doesn't yellow as the week goes on.

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:

Donkey - Wednesday Apr 04, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

Really rough day.  

Started out real bad by waking up to more ******* snow.  WTF it's freakin' April already.  And I know what's going to happen, just like Keri from another title company told me today: we're going to go straight from winter -- which is what we have here, essentially -- to summer, with maybe a week for Spring if we're lucky.  

Back still sore, but not as bad as it had been. A couple of Aleve helped a lot.  Hormones are still not right, out of balance.

It did not help one ******* bit that my co-workers are bringing in desserts for breakfast!  Monday, Lyn brought in Italian cookies (my weakness),  Tuesday my boss brings in giant muffins, today Terry brought in leftover carrot cake/cheesecake combo (bottom layer is carrot cake, the top layer is cheesecake, and then iced with cream cheese frosting and topped with walnuts), and then Dave from the title company brought in 2 boxes of cookies, a cherry kringle (Google:  Racine kringle to know what I'm talking about), and yogurt smoothies (shakes, really).  So I had a very thin slice of the carrot cheesecake thing, and only ate the cheesecake part. 

Then I got the really disappointing news that my son did not pass the Air Force push-up test AGAIN....

So he has one more chance next Wednesday to pass.  If he does not pass, he will be deemed physically unfit for service and discharged.  While I miss him immensely, he cannot come home.  There is nothing for him here for his future.  He is not an academic, not very motivated career-wise, as we thought this would be his path.... I'm not sure what he will do if he has to leave. 

After that, I had an Italian cookie (110), hot chocolate (80), and whole fat vanilla  yogurt (180).  Felt gross, but came home and had dinner anyway, which was BLT's.

Oh well, at least I know that after this week, it's over, one way or the other.  He either moves on or comes home.  Nothing else to do or say about that.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/05/2018:
Praying that your son passes this time, it does sound like the service will be a good thing for him. Food wise...what a tempting array of sugar! You did well...holding it just some...that was hard I'm sure....but the uncomfortable feeling after says a lot doesn't it...I wonder why we never seem to think of that in the moment...been there...done that...too many times to count.

Donkey on 04/06/2018:
Praying HARD over here...

innerpeace on 04/05/2018:
I hope your son passes his pushups.

Donkey on 04/06/2018:
Thank you - me too... I just don't see good things ahead for him if he isn't able to stay. But like my mom says, everything happens for a reason, so I'm trusting in the Good Lord to watch over my son. There's nothing I can do from here.

horn_of_plenty on 04/05/2018:
Sometimes with the pushups, a day of rest can help immensely. with weights in general, a day or two off can give him the strength he needs...also, he needs to do supersets...like, less than he can do, rest a little, then go right back...like 3 times in a row. the supersets should add up to more than he can do currently in one set...this always helps me improve.

YOu need to talk him into just getting it done and working through the pain. but i think he also needs a day or two off. ???

and that sucks with all the sugar at work. no good.

Donkey on 04/06/2018:
We're not able to communicate with him except on the days he's tested and failed. He calls my husband, since he's at home, and I'm at work. So I can't give him any pep talks. I haven't even been able to write to him in the past 3 weeks. Finally husband told him that if he's injured he needs to tell someone.

horn_of_plenty on 04/05/2018:
cold here too, 34F.

sorry about the snow...there's still time for a Spring - it's only April...I wonder what May will bring??

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
You need to stockpile snacks that you like better in your desk drawer even if they are on the expensive side. Like cashews or pemmican or some dark chocolate. If you have something you really really like you will stay out of the cheap crap. Besides, your coworkers are all about sabotaging each other and snarkiness anyway. They carry bad karma.

Donkey - Wednesday Apr 04, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

Very unmotivated today... waking up to fresh snow covering the ground just... no words. I guess it's pretty, but just so discouraging especially regarding my we weight loss journey.

I know that the weather should not have that much influence on my ability to ... reach my goals.

You know, I don't even know what my goals are any more. I'm just blah.

At least the jelly beans are gone now. *sigh*

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/04/2018:
I hear you....I'm not motivated right now either...although I do have a time in mind where I will get back at it...somehow right now feels like a free for all ( I'm not eating badly really...just not caring so much)...and my pants were tighter this morning.......the snow definitely set me off....plus we have had to eat out more lately and that won't stop for a couple of weeks so...I'm just going with it...and planning a restart UGH....we need spring! Today I am sorting through things and taking out everything that doesn't help...and I'm boxing it up to make it harder to access...That usually helps me....I refuse to give everything up...I just want to limit it better.

bearcountrygg on 04/04/2018:
Funny how I have to keep...boxing things up......when one of us gets things from a box...they end up staying out....we are our own worst enemies here!!! UGH

horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2018:
did you sleep enough? bc i'm telling you - by having poor sleep...i'm craving just about everything today. i'm hungry and it's not for any reason other than being tired and irritable. it could be sleep...


graindart on 04/04/2018:
I've been feeling on the verge of a binge-fest lately. Haven't screwed up yet lately and am hoping that the feeling will go away before I give in. Also my daily 3 mile walk has been tedious the past few days. I was doing so well with it for the past several weeks and the time seemed to pass fairly quickly. But now I find myself checking my progress every 1/4 mile, which makes it feel like forever.

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