I woke up early today, and got up, rather than lying around in bed, so that I would have time to write here today. Unfortunately, the downside is that it's not even 7am and I want breakfast. I will wait until closer to 8am, although..... when I do this (wait), I sometimes forget to eat breakfast. Yes, I get caught up in preparing for work that I forget to make something for breakfast, to eat at either home or work. That's what happened yesterday, and it's happened before.
I had a very good yoga session last night. It was more challenging, reminiscent of days when I was in the studio, and I was able to keep up. I had a wonderful idea over the weekend, which really excited me (for some odd reason). I think I'm going to take my other yoga mat to work, so that I can do a short yoga video in a room that nobody uses. The only issue is that the room is a little chilly, and there's furniture in there, so I may have to move a chair. But the plan is that I would "take a break" - either a separate break or connected with my lunch hour - and go into this room and do a 10-15 minute sequence of poses. I plan to take my mat today. That is the first step. Then I have to be intentional in making this time while at work. Doing this will help me establish boundaries with my time, which will be very important once we get busier. Well, we'll see how it goes.
On Sunday, I got the idea in my head to study to be a meditation guide. I heard about an affordable self-guided program that I thought would work for me. Then I started getting boggled down with comparisons between programs, reviews, pros/cons, accreditation, etc. Well, something to think about. I still think I want to enroll in a teacher-training yoga program, but I'm just not sure I'm ready, plus I think I'd like to do an in-person class versus online, but I haven't found a studio to study with, yet.
Work drama was just too funny yesterday. Nice Lady is nice, but she is all about creating drama around herself. I don't know why I keep falling for this. She'll set up something for herself - this time, it's getting dental implants - talk about it with EVERYONE for WEEKS, and then at the very last minute, some crisis will come up where she might not be able to follow through with it. This diversion causes a whole new drama, and then she'll quit or chicken out. I told the Boss that if Nice Lady doesn't get her dental implants, then he is going to be the one to tell her that she needs to wear her false teeth to work. It's ghastly when she comes to work with no teeth! Thank goodness for face masks!
She's getting the implants today. At least that's the last I've heard. She gets so nervous about anything medical. Then why do this??? Geez!
Anyway, Nice Lady will be out of the office today and tomorrow (to recover), which is good because she keeps walking by my desk a LOT which means I have to wear my mask all the time. Associate Attorney will be out in the morning to take care of her, because he can't function without her. (They came to our firm together, although she was never supposed to be part of the employment deal.)
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
I woke up super early today, which in a way is a good thing, becuase I want to be awake for as much of my day(s) off as possible. I had gotten up early to use the bathroom - a result of drinking into the night to meet my water quota - and I swear the clock said 2:34am but when I checked a few minutes later, the clock said 3:48am. I got up shortly after that, so around 4am.
I had a lot of chores to do yeseterday so today is a day of relaxation, for the most part. Here are my random thoughts:
These are "thoughts" not tasks, so I won't be updating my list, as to what I've done or not done. However, I may post an update later today.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
as soon as return L&C book to library, why don't you request it again asap? seems you really like that book! very interesting to read about history.
history. some people are very up on it and some are not. i'm part of the latter category. never paid attention growing up to news or class history lessons. the folks i work with are actually very into to history / current events. well, even though i won't be able to add too much to discussion, it's nice to be around educated people ;)
Good morning! Oh I love Saturday mornings! And although I slept in quite a bit today - didn't get up until almost 7:30am - I was eager to weigh-in this morning, to see ifi I was able to shed any of the Holiday Bloat - and the answer is YES! (I am wondering if I had avoided that white chocolate problem on Thursday, if my weigh in would have been 144.5....) So now I am at the "10-pound" mark. I'm kind of excited to work on this!
I will be busy today, cleaning the floors and doing laundry. I already have a load of kitty laundry started, then my own. A clean house is a happy house. It won't be a totally clean house, but it makes me content to have these things done.
Things on my list today:
EVENING EDIT: I pushed myself to get everything checked off my list today. Hmm, I'm not sure that was exactly the right thing to do. Kind of stressed me out in the evening, to get the yoga done, but it's done. I chose an 18 minute session on YouTube. I found myself getting annoyed with the instructor (Yoga with Adrienne) because she talks too much and was holding the poses long, which made it really hard. I guess that's the point, LOL.
Struggling to reach my water goal tonight...
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
your entry looks like mine today with all your "DONE"
this entry sounds very positive and uplifting!
to actually make a worthwhile comment that you can relate to, my good friend who lives slightly north of me in NYS, has been trying to lose weight for approx 2 YEARS with no real change. she is the one that was always super skinny until several life changes (good and bad), health changes (anxiety medicine added, birth control added). but birth control for many years, not just the past two.
So, she's been trying to lose weight. AND DOESN'T OWN A SCALE. until she bought one, on amazon, today.
she texted me, haven't talked yet, telling me she was at her parents house and hopped on the scale and it read some weight she has never seen. ...very soon after i realized and said to her, she has to know her starting point and buy a scale to take action.
basically, i feel, she's been in denial about it. to make any change, you have to understand where you are to start.
weight loss, i feel, can be effective if a person uses a scale weekly.
i think she's already off to a better start than the entire last two years.
so, when you spoke of weight and your goals, it reminded me of this whole texting convo with her this AM.
it would be logical to use a scale, just like you and I do and everyone on here. we use it as a tool to reach and maintain our goals.
I think it would be hard to set a weight-loss goal without knowing your starting point. I feel that it's usually the number on the scale that gets people started on changing behaviors to lose weight.
I suppose that a person could lose weight by realizing, "Hey, my clothes don't fit well any more" and start calorie counting and exercising. Most people don't think they weigh THAT much until they see it on a scale.
I've mentioned my 7-month experiment when I was around 23. I weighed myself on January 1st, and then told myself I would not weigh in again until my birthday in early August. I modified my intake, started walking, etc., with NO measurement of my progress. Lost 20+ pounds... But I think I needed that end date to eventually find out the fruits of my labors.
either way, like you said, changes must be made. a person must give up the comfort of habit to lose weight. habit being whatever got you to the higher weight in the first place.
yes, she was shocked at the scale. and in my head, i believe it's denial...and time to take action for her. she once blamed gainnig weight on medicine (i think it's more just a couple pounds, although anxiety medicine can work to either make you gain/lose depending on how you act/eat when you are less anxious)...but not she said she thinks the scale is wrong. so, i guess that's denial. she said she'll see what her scale says when it comes in a week or so.
Oh yes, your friend sounds like she's in denial. It's funny that you said that she blamed the scale for the high number, rather than internalizing the weigh-in. Hmmm....
Meds can cause weigh-gain and make it harder, but at the end of the day, Does she want to weigh less or not? Basically that's what it's all about.
Inspired by Annie and Jacky, I'm thinking about taking light weights to the office, to use during my lunch hour, since my walking has been limited to walking around 1 block, only, because of the weather and snow/ice on the sidewalks.
I slipped up yesterday, in the afternoon. Around 3:30 or 4p, for some reason, I thought it was a good idea to open a bar of white chocolate candy. Once I got started, it was very hard to stop. I did not eat the whole thing, and stopped when I felt satisfied but by then, it was 500 calories eaten.
There are other things I could have done: drink water, drink flavored water, walk away from my desk, jumping jacks in the closet, etc. Maybe I will write out a list that I can look at, when this feeling comes up at work again. When I get this feeling to stress eat, it's hard to think clearly. A list could help.
The loan officer guy did not call last night, so I'm kind of done with that. I'll still take his call, but I do not want to be busy like that. My husband is retired, and I want to spend MORE time with him, not less, but I do need to work. Even though my job right now is not ideal, it is manageable.
I stayed late last night waiting for Associate Attorney to type out a letter he promised would go out yesterday. If I didn't have to wait for that, I could have left on time or even a little early. Frustrating because he took Wednesday off, which is why he's so behind in letters. He'd better catch up today, that's all I'm saying.
I did a mile on the treadmill last night, with some jogging. And I forgot to mention I did 2 leg exercises with my weights on Wednesday night. I did no yoga last night, but did some reading about it. I'd like to start doing 1 sun salutation a day, so I was refreshing my memory on the sequence of poses. This might help me stick to my yoga goal.
Progress as of today: 38.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Good idea taking some weights to work.
Do you use ankle weights for your leg exercises?
Oh my word... After the chaos at the capitol yesterday, I'm done with 2021. I said to Nice Lady (before the riots started), that surely better times are ahead. Then the riots. Now I'm not so sure.
I came home from work, and Mr. Donkey is glued to the TV, but I insisted that we have a normal dinner at the table. I know he stayed up to watch the House finish their votes.
The phone call from the loan officer did not happen. He texted me at 6:45p saying he was running 45 minutes behind, could we talk today or Friday. I was so relieved, because I was in no frame of mind to talk about anything after everything that had happened earlier.
But this is a good example of why I would not want to work for him. It's 6:45p and I've had dinner with my family and was getting ready to enjoy my evening. He's still at work! And then add a 1+ hour commute? No thanks!
I met and surpassed my water goal yesterday but could not bring myself to do yoga. So much for my 30 days of yoga challenge. I'll do my best to do some yoga tonight, even if it's only 20 minutes or so.
Progress as of today: 38.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
It was 8:45 am here when Congress finished their votes.
I did not meet my water goal yesterday. I need to work on drinking more water, intentionally, at work. That's why I'm struggling, and that's why I fell short yesterday. The problem is that I reach for coffee instead of water. Drinking coffee serves a purpose, too, but I need to work on this. Just saying...
I received an email from a loan officer yesterday, asking if he could call me to discuss something. This guy offered me a job a few years ago, which I did not take, because the commute would have been horrible. I'm wondering if he's going to try again, now that everyone is working from home now. Frankly, if this is it, I'm pretty sure I'll pass. I'm looking for something completely different, I think. The last thing I need is a more stressful job that involves more sitting at a desk. Well, we'll see. He's calling me tonight.
I have been hedging on eating. The past 2 nights, I've done a little nibbling on chocolate after dinner. Need to watch this carefully. I should weight it out on my new food scale, so that I know exactly what I'm doing.
Progress as of today: 38.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Any ideas what kind of job you'd prefer?
I just don't know if I could do that for 8 hours a day. Physically speaking, that is.
is the drive that bad? if so, maybe it is not worth it. long drives aren't good for the LONG TERM! lol. laughing bc i think i consider my commute a hike. several of the very higher up men are housed in the city, walking distance from the building i work in! they all live FAR...and with the covid traffic, all of those guys would have commutes that are 2 hours + each way minimum. mine is under that, more like 1.5hours. a "good commute" would be an hour each way. LOL!
It would be more money but a LOT more work and stress. Not worth it in my opinion.
I feel like I was a lot busier at work than I should have been. I Mentone to Nice Lady that if I didn't need to walk outside to clear my head, I wouldn't recommend it because the sidewalks are coated in ice.
I am eating less and eating healthier foods, but I am not sure if I am doing enough to lose weight.
Had yoga class, drank enough water, still no reading... I didn't realize it until I read comments on yesterday's entry, but my inability to focus enough to read may be due to stress, possibly depression that I am not *consciously* aware of, but is in fact there and interfering with my cognitive abilities.
Progress as of today: 38.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
For me, continuing to have to say I didn't do something that I felt would be a relaxing activity would only create more stress and anxiety.
Maybe, the best thing you can do for yourself right now is the yoga and the healthy eating, and let everything else go for now.
A joke around here is that by the time the pandemic ends we'll all be in AA or in WW or both.
next, sorry you've got icy sidewalks. everything here has melted mostly from a storm we had mid december. it's been perfect for walking outside, i will take myself outside for 5-10 minutes tomorrow bc it is not good to stay inside all day...haven't done it yet, but, we are entitled to a lunch break. i'm a slow eater though, so do not want to be outside too long. will just start with 1-3x around the block!
i tried too - to do that for lunch. my lunch was some mashed potatoes, small amount meat, and some veggies. i'm trying for balanced lunches and to get away from chips and do more rice/potato/wheat bread...and less chips/crackers.
After I commented on Annie's post about cutting & pasting my entries, so that I can keep a copy of my writings, I realized that this means I would have to write from my laptop, and that's not always convenient for me to do. I usually post comments here, using my phone, but writing an entry can go either way, depending on available time (biggest factor) and where I'm at.
I had a productive weekend, as far as goals go.
I'm hoping that with the holiday and bad weather that there aren't a lot of new contracts today. In fact, it would be OK with me if there were no new contracts. I have enough time-sensitive tasks to do today without having to worry about new deals coming in today. Just for today.
I really wish that work did not dominate my time and headspace as much as it does.
Progress as of today: 38.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Found a terrific book on one of the last living slaves to America from Africa. He was extensively interviewed in 1927. Came here on the last slave ship. The Clotilda, or something like that. Fascinating.
So I remembered to weigh in today.... This definitely explains why my underwear has been feeling too tight lately.
I've had 2 epiphanies in 2021 (so far):
I've already started getting off the "eating train" and I'm drinking more water.
I woke up with hip and back pain, so I've already done yoga, targeted to the hips (which cause the back pain), and it's really helped. I hope that once I get back into the work week that I can keep doing a little yoga every day. That's why I really appreciate having this goal for January.
I did ALL of my usual weekend chores on Friday and Saturday, so today is basically a free day. How nice! I was a little down on myself yesterday, because I realized that after my daughter came back from staying overnight with her friend for NYE, that we're actually quite dull people: puzzles, reading, watching TV & movies, etc. But I'm appreciating my introvertedness a little more today.
You see, yesterday, on a local FB group I belong to, someone asked what restaurants are serving indoors "for teenagers to hang out". OH. MY. GOODNESSS. Hello, we're in the middle of a pandemic??? And some folks pointed that out and got slammed. I was talking to my neighbor while shoveling outside and he mentioned that his daughter is doing 100% remote schooling (senior in highschool), because a lot of her classmates' families are not abiding by the COVID restrictions, and she (his daughter) really wants a spring Track season, so she's doing her best to stay healthy.
So all of that had me honked off, frustrated, and just sad. I mentioned all of this to Husband, who was equally dismayed. So, for today and just today, I am going to be proud of myself for being content and satisfied with a quieter life.
Progress as of today: 38.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
I keep losing the same weight over and over too. Sigh.
Tight underwear is bad. I can't get my wedding ring on my fat fingers.
I'm rather disappointed in my disorganization and lack of focus, seeing as it's a New Year and all. I'm just not feeling the magic of a new year, new day yet...
I forgot to weigh in this morning. DANG. So do I weigh in tomorrow? Or do I wait a week and weigh-in next Saturday? I've decided that - if I can freakin' remember! - I will weigh in tomorrow morning. The sooner I get a "start weight" for 2021, the sooner I can start working on it.
I think I will stick with the list of goals that I mentioned yesterday. I'm not very satisfied with the way I set up my written journal, but will proceed forward with it. I took some selfies so that I can measure any progress I make during the year. I did a short yoga segment and kept my mat out for today's session. Tried reading but I'm stuck with the Lewis & Clark book. I have 2 other books I want to read, too, but I feel obligated to finsih this book first.
Sadly, I don't have anything exciting planned for today, and Daughter is off. I feel like we should do more together. I will see if she wants to do yoga with me, perhaps. Until she wakes up, though, I need to shovel the driveway (again) and finish up my laundry, which is in various stages of drying.
MORNING EDIT: Inspired by Maria, I took a look back at my last entry for 2019. Oh my I had such high hopes for 2020! That hope is what seems to be missing this year. It might be distrust, it might be fatigue. I *KNOW* that I am hopeful for this year. I'm just not feeling it yet.
If we go by the last weigh-in for 2020, I've gained 10 pounds - and frankly, it's probably more, but I don't know for sure because I forgot to weigh in today (DUH!). That's OK - a 10-pound goal is enough for me to tackle!
Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
do what you need to do for you. don't compare.
10lb goal is good. imagine it was 50lb. 10lb is doable, easier, for sure. it's more "maintenance" with a couple changes. 50lbs would be a whole new journey. thankfully not. you can use what you've learned...you're good! better than you think you are. retain your confidence. judge yourself less!
You're absolutely right - I need to do this for ME, so making comparisons isn't fair or productive. (This is different than taking tips or learning from others' stories.)
That's the thing about this negative energy. It keeps me from focusing on what's important, what's positive, what's good. And having a shorter journey of 10 pounds is definitely a good thing. I lost sight of that. Thanks!
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I try to hold off breakfast until 8am as well. I have a big mug of tea with milk when I get up which takes the edge off.
Glad you have a good yoga session. I used to do meditation but could never get myself disciplined enough to do it daily.
She comes to work without her teeth??
I kid you not - she comes in with her top front teeth missing, up to, and maybe including the incisors. I try not to look too closely, if you know what I mean. I cannot tell you how ghastly it is to look at.
I'm sure you can imagine my shock the first time she came in without her upper denture plate in. She made a big deal about getting her teeth pulled and getting this denture. Then she made a big deal about how it hurts and she doesn't like it.
The yoga I do on Monday nights, with teacher Jean, has a 5 minute meditation in between flow and slow yoga parts. I tried using an app to help me.
I find it hard to sit still with myself.
bearcountrygg on 01/12/2021:
I always hold off on breakfast or at least 90% of the time.....it seems to cut down the hungry times in a day.
I was able to hold off until a little after 8am - perfect for a work day. On weekends, I try to wait until 9am.
My thing is that I delay eating in the morning, and then I forget! So I'm at work, then, without a breakfast. There is food there, so I can sometimes make do, but it's almost always foods that I would not choose.
Yesterday, I found a "Sweet & Salty Almond" granola bar. Calories were OK, and that was the best choice available to me.
grannyannie on 01/12/2021:
I went to a beginners meditation workshop weekend at Soto Zen monastery years ago - maybe 2006. It was great! They helped everybody find the best mediation position for everyone depending on their body and flexibility. I found that a low kneeling bench was best for me and hubby built me one. It's sitting in my gym in the corner.
legcramps on 01/12/2021:
I think meditation guide training is a wonderful idea!
And I too would feel awkward if someone came to work without their teeth, unless of course it was absolutely necessary for whatever unexplained reason.
Horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2021:
for the first time in years, i've been losing my appetite easily because i'm so busy at work. but i still come in and try to eat some breakfast or i'll be thinking about it all morning and that's no good! i keep all my food with me, and the fridge is close by too, so it's been easy to eat when hungry. :) that's worked out!
oh, so i get what you mean by getting caught up and forgetting to pack or make a breakfast. may i suggest an easy bar or something when that happens?
sounds like a good plan for work. at my previous job, when i was in the Queens office, there was a cheap gym right next door. a rare about, but a couple of us, would go there during lunch. before my injuries way back, i would go and walk on the treadmill when it was too cold/icy outside! i thought it was genious to be able to get in exercise during lunch even if i couldn't walk outside, i'd just hop on a treadmill next door to work. a few others would go there during lunch break for a whole workout, but like i said, that was rare. most didn't have time to stop in during lunch! but your thing sounds wonderful bc it's a short thing. you could seriously just do a couple poses. nothing major. holding them awhile. could be a nice stretching routine if anything. i think stretching helps a lot to make my body feel better. i do a few stretches that are yoga related, learning them mostly from some former days of yoga practice in my early 20's (so like 15 years ago).
Horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2021:
i do agree that an in person teacher training yoga class is way better than online.
Horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2021:
I can understand why someone would get nervous about getting tooth implants, but i also know it's a pretty common procedure. my dad has a few implants. they are wonderful when they are not having any problems...which means they are pretty wonderful almost all the time :)
i'm glad you will have some "you" time tomorrow with nice lady off :)