Another warm beautiful day -- even better than yesterday, because yesterday was a little too windy.
I did well with eating yesterday. I got hungry around 4pm, but refrained from eating (much - had a couple of strawberries) because we were having dinner at 5:15p, when Daughter comes home from work, for her dinner break. I was very tempted to have a small glass of wine to relax and enjoy, but didn't because I was plannig to drive to the gym later. I didn't have second helpings, but did reach for a couple more Brussels spouts. Second helpings on vegetables and fresh fruits are always OK.
However, I did *not* go to the gym last night. I realized that I am out of the habit of going to the gym --- wow, that didn't take much to fall out of that habit! - so I need to re-establish this habit. Like Happy said, Sometimes the answer is do more not less.
I ended up having my evening treat at around 8:30pm when I started feeling hungry again. 130 calories in Graham crackers. Perhaps I should have tried to skip it and just go to bed. I did not have this as dessert, earlier, because I was still feeling full from dinner. I'll have to think about this. 8:30pm might be too late to eat, unless, of course, I had gone to the gym in the evening. UGH!!!
Still I have no regrets about skipping the gym. I felt it was important to focus on relaxing, especially since I was stressed and anxious earlier in the day. My dear Husband called and got an estimate for a fence. I think he has a couple of more fence people coming out for comparison estimates. I'm just so sad that it's come to this... but like I said yesterday, climbing the trees is where I draw the line. I mentioned to Husband that this year, it seems as though the trespassing has become worse. Just total disregard for respect of one's private property -- mostly kids, but some adults too! Goodness gracious!
My plan is to go to the gym today. I can either do an upper body weight training session or try to make it a full body workout, depending on time. With the weather so nice, I'm hoping the gym will be emptier than usual.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Is it a good morning? I'm not sure. My husband and I are having a difference of opinion over a problem we're having with people cutting through our yard to access the neighborhood part. This started last night, and we haven't had any productive conversations about a resolution. I think I'd rather just be quiet about it - and everything - for a while today, perhaps this weekend.
I do not want this to overshadow my time off, which is very precious to me - at least right now. My days off are very important to de-stress and re-set myself mentally. I don't need friction with my husband to interfere with that.
Anyway, happy May! Happy new month! I was surprised, actually, to see a little weight loss this morning. This will be my last weigh-in for May -- I haven't decided if I will weigh in on May 29th (the last Saturday of the month) or if I will just wait until June 5th. The idea, the goal, is to focus on healthy habits -- I know what I need to do -- and see what kind of results I get at the end of the month.
I think those will work for me. Well, it's just for May. In June, I can change things up again.
Something was up with Nice Lady at work yesterday. She was SO chatty. She would go from the Boss, to me, to Mistake's Girl , to Male Co-Worker, all day long to chat. I mean, she would go back to her desk in between chat sessions, but oh my goodness. I could tell in the later afternoon that this was REALLY getting on Male Co-Worker's nerves. He gave a look that said, "WTH?!" but I kind of just ignored that --- that is to say, I didn't feed into that.
Then she broke the main copy machine where several people in our office print from. I don't even know why she was using THAT machine, because she has her own delux copier/scanner/printer. I think she expected someone else to call the repairman, but we made her do it. Monday, someone from Konica Minolta will call us to let us know when the tech guy can come out to fix it.
Taking a cue from my observations earlier this week, I tried hard to not let her neediness get to me. Breaking the copier/printer/scanner kind of was my breaking point, but it was at the end of the day, so I just went home.
Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Thank goodness it's Friday! This has seemed like the longest week ever. Oh my, just never-ending. Even getting up this morning was so hard, because I need a weekend. Some of this difficulty might be due to allergies or something that is causing some minor stuffiness in my head. Pressure is probably the better word for what I'm feeling.
I started a lower-body weights workout last night, and got a headache -- felt like a caffeine headache, so I'm thinking allergies/sinuses -- and didn't get done as much as I had wanted to, but I did push through to complete what I was doing. So I kind of woke up with that same headachy feeling.
I've been mulling over the questions and observations I brought up yesterday. Get this - so Male Co-Worker has been experiencing a lot of the same stress that I've been feeling (at least it seems that way to me), which has been affecting his gut. His doctor suggested a therapist, and yesterday was his 2nd session. I asked Male Co-Worker if his therapist had any magic solutions to dealing with the stress at work. (Was I trying to get a freebie without having to undergo my own therapy?) He hadn't, but he said he'd mention it.
He came back and said that he talked about work stress with his therapist, and when I heard him describe what we're dealing with to his therapist, it sounded so comical. Like, Why are we even getting upset about this stuff? LOL...
I plan to explore my questions/observations during my "Month of May" journey.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
In fact, I thought of this wise advice yesterday, when I was going over a file with the Boss. I realized that when this deal closes, it will be done and fade away from my memory. I may remember what I've learned, as examples for future files, but all of the energy and emotion poured into this file will be gone.
It was this same file that caused me to have the epiphany on Thursday about "why am I letting other people's problems get to me?"
I figured out a thing or 2 yesterday and asked myself a couple of important questions:
I asked myself,
I did not do well with evening eating last night. I rewarded myself (UGH) with a big bowl of vanilla ice cream, only to cause major tension between 2 of my cats who also wanted to share my bowl of ice cream... More stress.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I can commiserate with your stress and I think it is because you WANT to help, you WANT to solve the problems, you WANT things to run smoothly. Feeling stress over that for your personality type might be something that you have simply "normalized" over the years, and continuing to search for ways to negate this, day by day, maybe hour by hour, might be your only recourse. I wish you luck with that, and if you figure it out, let me know so I can try out your ideas!! There are a lot of daily resilience exercises you might be able to incorporate to help with this.
I do also believe that negativity breeds negativity.
I was asking the wrong questions. It's not the "why" that's important but rather "how will I react" - because you're right, negativity breeds negativity.
sometimes it's the carbs in the food that calm the stress thru additional seratonin. there is a self-medication thing at work and it's scientific.
that's why i do have have more carbs and why i am not into the keto anymore....it didn't work for me due to a need, i think, for seratonin. just my own thoughts on it...
so my point is that you will get hungry but there needs to be some satisfaction from eating something to help you but within reason.
i find that small amounts of what you really want will help. i supplement my snacks with liquids at work...or i'd remain entirely too frustrated / hungry / unsatisfied.
at work, liquids - even water...does help. i will have a carb of fruit or something less healthy and when i add liquids to it - i help myself immensely.
I've started having carbonated water with my lunch, sometimes my afternoon snack, to help fill me up.
Also, having a BIG cup of chamomile tea in the mornings (at work, only) to help keep me calm and warm me up. This has helped a lot. I'm not much of a tea drinker, actually.
i have been having salty dinners, and sometimes on my way home - like yesterday - the fruit stand guy selling fruit/veg at somewhat of a discount compared to the city supermarket prices has decent raspberries for $3 for that size container. easy to wash and eat....easy dessert after dinner...no prep needed (most important thing for Jackie here!)
the reason (IMO) why you get stressed from other people's problems is you have that quality where you are affected, empath. but always remember those problems are theirs....and take care of yourself, your hubby, your family. that's your only real thing to care over.
However, I think I'm going to try a delay tactic first, to see if that helps.
Woke up before my alarm, so this morning I have time. I'm enjoying the quietness of the morning with a freshly brewed cup of coffee.
I had forgotten to send out positive, calm vibes last night, with eating, until around 7:30p or 8p. Then I remembered, so I started focusing on trying to feel calm. That is about the time that I finished my upper body weight training. I had a couple of sips of a protein shake and then 2 sugar-free licorice sticks and called it a night. That would have been fine, except that I'm not sure I even needed to be eating that stuff. Dinner had a lot of protein.
What I really wanted was something like a Graham cracker square to top off my palate, but we don't have any. Besides, that's carbs, and so not ideal after weights.
Ohhh, getting this eating thing in a "good place" is hard. I think May's challenge is going to be harder than I thought. This "need" for a sweet after meals is tough to break.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
Whipped cream cheese topped by sugar free jam on a rice cake hits the sweet spot nicely. Sure there are variations like sugar free syrups one could try instead of the jam.
Ran out of time this morning. Part of it was because I did some upper body weights after my bike ride - I thought I had more time to do what I wanted to do, than I actually did. Also, my husband is in a very chatty mood today and keeps interrupting me while I'm trying to write comments.
So I'll make this very short, to say that I really struggled with eating last night. I had 2nd helpings of chicken salad -- OK, I'll let this slide -- but then I fought REALLY HARD against having 3rd helpings! What's up with that???
I kept cutting slivers of the gluten-free cinnamon coffee cake I made for husband, too... I finally cut it off at having 150 calories worth of the sugar-free licorice sticks. Those are not very good, but they do help with sweet cravings. They are not low-calorie either. I'll finish them but I won't buy more.
So tonight is upper-body weight training, but I will also be focusing on remaining calm and focused with food, from dinner to bed.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
i have to find those sf licorice sticks...they do not cause bloat?
What an odd weekend it was. I didn't do much Saturday, and I did probably even less on Sunday. On Sunday, I spent 3 hours on the couch, napping with various cats in my house. Very unusual for me. No gym, no weights, no yardwork, no walk. I'm not entirely sure it was laziness. Part of me felt like I just needed to try to recharge as much as possible for whatever lies ahead this week. That and TOM is especially difficult this month. I need to make a doctor's appointment for annual bloodwork. Not urgent, but not to be put off for much longer either.
Tonight is yoga. There are 3 opportunities coming up to do outdoor yoga -- 2 of them require a $10 donation to the conservation district, which I'm fine with, 1 is free at the library. I'm not sure though.... This would require stepping out of my comfort zone. Not sure it's worth it to do so.
No museum this coming up weekend -- I'm not interested in the Children's Musuem -- so I could be available for yoga. I just don't know if I want to put the effort into being with other people, new experiences, etc., right now. As I am an introvert, pushing myself to be with new people and new places, new experiences --- that all takes effort.
I suppose it will depend on how stressful work is, except that if I'm going to register (and pay), I need to do so soon.
So... let's talk about cake. As you may recall, from Saturday, I had come to the conclusion that I'm done with Daughter's birthday cake, that is now sitting in the freezer. Well, last night, I guess I wasn't fully convinced of my conviction, so I had another slice. And it was still not good - of course, this didn't stop me from finishing it. But now, NOW I'm pretty sure that I'm done. And there isn't much left, anyway (ha ha).
Eating, eating, eating.... The struggle is real.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
Choosing the best yoga class sounds challenging! Know you’ll make a good one, and if not, run. That’s what I do. Few things are cast in stone.
You have a really good point. If I don't choose a yoga class, so what? I can still do something else really rewarding with my time.
for example, the notary license i got - i use every week at work, that was a great endeavor on my part. i need to find things that will help me to succeed by having them, not necessarily a masters, but individual courses that will help me more.
lol, the more alternatives to cake you have, the less appealing it MIGHT be. i could be so wrong.
Good morning! Wow, yesterday went by so fast, and wasn't nearly as busy or productive of a day as most of my Saturdays are. Hopefully today will feel a little longer, before I have to jump back into Monday... and another long work week.
As I was headed up the stairs last night, to get ready for bed, I realized that I didn't get much done. So today I will fold and put away my laundry. I did not go to the gym yesterday, as I didn't feel quite right. I did not ride my bike in the evening, after dinner, but rather watched TV.
I did not eat quite well yesterday either. I realized that my May goal of "eating less" -- first of all, will be more difficult than I thought, and second of all, needs to be re-worked. I don't mean eat less per se, but to eat more mindfully and make better food choices.
I'm not sure how I came to the conclusion that I would have a piece of the frozen birthday cake (from Daughter's birthday), but I did. It was not very good at all. The cake part of it has dried out and is flavorless. The frosting was just too much. I think I'm done with that cake. So that's a little good to come of it.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I was not productive yesterday - needed to relax. Luckily, I was motivated and got everything done today !! I guess not having homework to do frees up the day !
That’s good the cake seems not worthy of being eaten. Good. I like that with food - when I decide that certain junk food isn’t appealing to me at the time dor one reason or another
Hugs! Missed u!
Yeah that cake has got to go. And after I write this morning, you'll understand why this is even more true.
Good morning!!! When my alarm went off this morning, I had to try to think if I had to get up or not. I didn't, so I went back to sleep but had a disturbing dream about working at a garage sale and taking stuff that I had permission to take, but didn't pay for.
TOM is here in full force, so it's hard for me to tell if what I'm feeling today is a result of the vaccine or TOM. I really think it's TOM. I've taken some pain relievers, but I'm not sure about going to the gym today. I'm feeling muscle fatigue in my legs, so I'm wondering if the anemia is back. And I'm having lower back pain, which is quite typical with TOM. My arm where the shot was is only the slightest sore now - only if I press on the area. We'll see.
I'm looking forward to having a relaxing weekend, with the usual chores. I won't list those here today, because it's the same old stuff, but let me just say, after almost a week away from the puzzle, I've made some *amazing* progress today. (The crowd goes wild -- LOL...) It felt good to focus on the puzzle and just kind of zone out. And that's kind of the whole point of a relaxing activity.
I'm very excited for the month of May. I'm going to be stepping away from the scale after May 1st, to focus on what I eat -- mindful eating, getting a handle on the stress-eating, etc. Not following any specific plan or program other than to eat less -- but not restricting calories per se, but just eating less than what I would norally eat (that's the "mindful eating" part). And NOT reaching for food when I get stressed out at work -- that's the "stress-eating" part of my plan.
I will be cutting my morning cardio by 10 minutes and incorporating weight training in the mornings, still sticking to the Tu/Th at home workouts, and then Sa/Su at the gym (as far as weights go).
It will be cloudy but a little warmer today, which is perfect for me. I'd better get out there to make my bird friends happy. Then it will be on to mop the floor, etc. Today's musuem tour is the National Museum of Mexican Art. I love art, so I'm really looking forward to this.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
Thanks for your kind words of encouragement re Little Flash. I’m on the porch with her now. I am both shocked & delighted & amazed that she let me pet her & apply the topical after a day! She is somewhat skitterish
Great May goals and I’m cheering for your progress on the puzzle !
Recently, I've been seeing older posts pop up on Diet Diaries - coming up as more recent entries. Is it me or is something happening with this site?
Yesterday was quite odd. The first 40 minutes or so at work was so drama-filled that I wanted to just go home. I guess we're going to be finding a replacement for Mistakes Girl. I don't know if we can even do this. Isn't firing someone for having a complicated pregnancy against the law? I mean, she's not going to get FIRED fired -- I'm sure the Boss will dress it up as a "parting of the ways". Mistakes Girl won't fight it, I'm sure.
I wish I could have gone home early. I started having some side-effects - just the typical ones that you read about - to the shot, and it would have been nice to go home and rest. Instead, because we're short-staffed, I pushed myself, worked until 5:40pm, came home, ate a weird dinner, and got ready for bed. When I say "get ready for bed", that takes me about an hour. I clean cat boxes for the 2nd time, shower, charge my phone and Fitbit -- all of that takes time. Lights out at 8:30pm.
I woke up in the middle of the night, when Husband came to bed, and then kind of floated in and out of sleep for the remainder of the early morning. I slept in and had a really easy bike ride this morning. Didn't push myself at all, just to work out the kinks in my back...
No weights last night. No weights tonight - I'm having a Zoom call with my friends from the Legal Clinic. There's "news" so that's the reason for the meeting.
My arm is still quite sore, but perhaps by tonight, that will have worked itself out. If I feel this way tomorrow, I will not go to the gym - no need to do a strenuous workout. But if I feel better, then yes, I will go to the gym. I *should* feel better tomorrow. I've signed up for the virtual museum tour - this week it's Mexican Art. I'm really looking forward to this!!!
First, I just have to get through the flotsom of today.
Progress as of today: 40.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Honestly I think there should be another paralegal but maybe lacking experience that you train a little - at your job
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Relax, relax, relax on your weekends! Sounded like you had a hectic week.
THANK YOU -- I really needed to hear these words today :-D
bearcountrygg on 05/02/2021:
Very good control of your food......you will go to the gym when you want to and then you will give it your all when you do. It is a shame when people are so disrespectful of others property.....but good fences to make goo neighbors......D isn't ready to put up a fence here yet but he did have me order him some rolls of the window stuff that makes seeing in a window difficult. He will put those on the barn windows that face their house. Funny how there have been neighbors in that house full time in the past and he never wanted to block the windows like that....now these people come up for a few days and he either doesn't want to see them or he doesn't want them to see in......and not to mention we were talking about a place we almost bought 6 years ago that had zero neighbors you could see.......we ended up deciding to just add onto this place......we may have made the wrong choice.
Thank you for these wise words about the gym. Hearing this actually helped me go today.
It's a delicate balance between the need to rest and inertia. It's not laziness that I struggle with but inertia. Reading your words though helped frame this in a different way. It went from a "I should go" thing, but became "I want to go" thing.
Horn_of_plenty on 05/02/2021:
yes, i DO find grapes to be very sweet even when not frozen (commenting back to you from your old comment you left me below...) I will work on catching up on your entries, i am behind, as usual, since the weekend started!
No worries - I know that you're really busy :-)
PS I also appreciate your responses to my comments to your diary too, if that's easier :-)
horn_of_plenty on 05/03/2021:
Response to your Friday entry: Oh - you have Spring allergies too? Me too...not that bad this year bc it stayed so cold. But my eyes this year are very itchy, so i take some allergy meds that i have leftover from last year and also bought new allergy eye drops which do help a little bit. And yes, long week it was..!
Responding to your Saturday entry: I guess you can put up a fence / gate so people do not come thru (but that is money) another thing is the planting of bushes, another "road block" of sorts...
I like that you are reducing your cardio when you do weights...like a give and take so you do not feel so torn to fit things in. i support that thinking.
LOL, we have Konica machines at work too. they seem to mostly work very well :)