Okay, I'm going to be completely honest here and say that I'm really feeling the apathy creeping in. I have no motivating reason to go to work, even though there's good work to be done.
I realized that this apathy is the reason why paying for online yoga classes works, and using free online yoga doesn't work. If there's no push, I don't do it. Making the monetary investment is enough to prompt me to start, and once I get started, I'm okay. So something to think about, if I'm going to sign up at the Other Yoga Studio for the month of May. (I would sign up for a monthly pass. )
Tomorrow is the last day of the pushup challenge, and I am thinking of starting a squat challenge for May. I guess I'm taking this week off from weights, lol...
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Yesterday was so draining. Even the anticipation of yoga vanished, and I left the office exhausted. We had a closing in our office that was strewn with technical problems, and then, in the end, it didn't go through so we have to do it all over again tomorrow or Thursday. It's bad enough having outsiders in the office, and then all for naught.
When it came to doing yoga, then, it felt like another task to take care of rather than a relaxing reward. It was a good session, though, with my daughter except that the cats kept acting up throughout the entire class.
Throughout all of this, I had that awful bloating. I think it's the protein shakes, so I'll skip that today. My eating was good but I did have 2 Stoopwaffel cookies after yoga. That's about 400 calories. Oh well.
Did my push-ups.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Well I’m glad you did the yoga and I know what you mean by it sometimes feeling like a standard task and not a totally free minded relaxation! But there’s benefits to that yoga :) muscles !
Wishing you a better day today - try not to take offense to people and things that you cannot change :)
It's 7:02 am and I've already reached my limit of patience with stupid. So today may be a lower social media day. Hopefully, work will cooperate.
I tried a bedtime yoga session last night. It was the wrong session (painful to my back and the stretch wasn't a good stretch, either). Tonight is Yin yoga with the Studio owner, so no need to look for another bedtime session until tomorrow.
Did push-ups last night. No weights because I had hip pain Sunday morning and decided best not to test my back. Probably a good thing, especially after the bad yoga session at night
I've been feeling out of sorts this weekend, with bloating.This morning is particularly uncomfortable. No pain, just bloat. The iron pills I take are hard on my GI system, sometimes more so than others.
Anyway, I'm not going to let my morning get me down. I'll just change my focus and make it a better day.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Perhaps I was too occupied, mentally, at work, to appreciate the yoga reward awaiting me.
I hope your Monday improved and if not, tomorrow will be better xo
Had a little struggle last night, but I still feel like I did ok. I had an extra cookie after dinner, and was able to keep it at that. And that's not so bad. Bad would have been feeling like I had to finish the cookies, or go on to some other food, in a food fit. No, I had an extra cookie and then I was done.
My right shoulder/arm/elbow/hand is very achy today. I may have to switch my push-ups to wall push-ups tonight. Wall push-ups don't aggravate my arm as much. Yesterday, for weight training, I did shoulders and back. Even though I used only 5 pound dumbbells for the shoulders, maybe that was too much. I took some Aleve but I'm still in quite a bit of pain.
I also did some knitting last night - about a hour! - and I wonder if that's why I'm feeling this pain in my hand too. It goes straight up the middle finger.
I did a little reading last night, but I'm only in chapter 8 of a 30+ chapter book. (Each chapter is about 3 pages long.) I looked at the table of contents,though, and I think the next section may be more interesting, as it deals with suffering. This first section is "principles" of yoga. For example, one principle was to detach ourselves with the material and focus on the spiritual, or refocus from the external to the internal, if you will.
My plan is to do lower body weights tonight. I hope to enjoy some of the sunshine today, but it's not quite warm enough to make it truly enjoyable. But that's OK - I'll take what I can get :-)
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
I just typed up a long entry and when I went to submit it, the website said it "couldn't be reached" and I lost everything I typed up! Maybe I'll come back here later to write more. Or maybe I'm just done with this site for the day.
OK, I'm going to try again, I think in short intervals, perhaps, as Bear recommended. See, folks, even Diet Diaries is feeling a little testy lately!
Today is gray, rainy, and cold, but I have a nice little list of things to do that I like to do, with probably the exception of mopping up the floors, but that has to be done because of little kitty. She seems to have been struggling with her lower half all week, and not just bathroom issues.
I am glad to be home today, and I realized that this feeling is because I am still able to go to work during the week. Being able to go to work has enabled me to keep up a general framework of normal routine. And for this I am grateful. I think I'd feel completely different if I worked from home or if I were unemployed.
I *WANT* to knit, read, and start this new puzzle. I'm still having difficulties reading this yoga book. I read a little last night and enjoyed it. Very easy, very enlightening. Why is this so hard to get to the point of where I'm holding the book and cracking it open??
If I'm going to watch TV this weekend, aside from news, I want it to be something different. I have season 3 of Ozark and season 4 of Better Call Saul to watch. I WANT to watch these, but like with reading, I'm struggling to get started. What is this all about?
Finally, next week's schedule from the Yoga Studio has posted and it's the same as last week's. That's unfortunate. There's another studio that is offering more classes that I'm thinking about signing up with, just for the month of May, for a monthly pass. I would probably not go to this studio in real life, because it's a little farther away, parking is an issue, and they have more students, so the room is pretty full.
But then, why would I pay for something when maybe I can find something comperable online for free? Not sure. I checked out the website. I have a few days yet to think it over, before May starts.
Anyway, for now, I'll be doing Yin Yoga on Monday night and Flow-Yin on Thursday night.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Maybe with the yoga book less is more - go for reading like 3 pages and then do something else ?
I guess free is best but only pay If you want to support local ? But I can see If you just go free and it’s up to you and you can change your mind another time
What can I say about yesterday? Illinois has extended our shelter- down for one more month, through May 30th. I'm ok with that. Masks will be mandatory. I'm ok with that. Mistakes Girl is making cloth masks. I've asked for 2 or 3, if she's willing. In the meantime, we have 3 masks here, 2 disposable and 1 no-sew.
I fought a good fight with food and WON. Twice I caught myself going towards cookies, once at work and once after dinner, and STOPPED myself. NOT EASY.
The thing is, this is an ongoing battle. I was victorious yesterday, but I will be confronted with this challenge again, often, and it will still be a struggle to win. And I may not always win - I'm sure of that.
All I do at work these days is nag. The constant chasing after lenders to have the loans ready is wearing thin on my nerves. It gets old really quick. This nagging gets me cross, crabby. Nagging all day long is NOT a pleasant feeling , not how I want to live my life!
The office was treated to lunch yesterday, and I had half a sandwich, plus vegetables that I brought from home. I find that I do better when I have some carbs. I've also started having oatmeal for breakfast, and that is working well too , as it seems to hold my hunger away longer.
Finally, I've started having a protein shake at home before I go to work so that I'm not so hungry when it's time for oatmeal. We'll see how that goes for a week or two , and then reevaluate.
Fast-Slow yoga was much needed, and my balancing was good for most of the session, but I had trouble with left and right coordination. Yoga is about balance. What is done on the left must be done on the right. So I'll keep on trying!
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
I’m glad you are victorious today xo
Yes I’m finding the same with carbs now. I’m eating more of them and it has really diminished my cravings
I’m glad you are pursuing yoga and keeping with the activities important to you
Running late this morning, even though I went to bed relatively early last night. I need to sign up for tonight's yoga class, so I'll probably be late to work.
I did well with eating last night, for a change. Did not eat all of my take-out dinner (Italian beef sandwich with cheese), added fresh vegetables, had a piece of chocolate, and then after my evening bike ride, I enjoyed half a cookie, so about 100 calories. This is HUGE for me because I'm usually seen all or nothing person, and member of the Clean Plate Club. I can have the other half tonight or whenever.
I decided to start eating more in the mornings, to balance our calorie intake. I hope that will help with that edgy after dinner feeling.
One thing that's been helping is telling myself, at night, Go to bed, if I still want to eat (whatever), I can have it in the morning. That's helped a lot.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
For me being home I’m allowing a lot of carbs and letting my eating be quite different from when I was working . I’m not even eating lots of veggies now, but trying to get some veggie in daily
I also love leftovers mainly bc it saves me cooking !!! There was a vote on Facebook weather people like leftovers I was surprised how many people won’t eat them?!
So it's official. I now know someone who has COVID-19. One of our agents is sick. How many showings did she have before she became symptomatic?
Today we have strangers (clients) coming to our office. I will be wearing my mask and sanitizing the room after they leave.
It looks like Illinois will be extending the shelter-down order into May, which sounds prudent to me. I'm very interested to see how the states that are opening will do. Georgia is opening up guns next week. As much as I miss the gym, I would not go at this time, even if it means I'm paying dues. Same goes for three yoga studio.
Enjoyed my evening bike ride and did my push-ups. After dinner eating, i.e. NOT eating after dinner, went ok. I had a price of chocolate and a cup of decaf. I look forward to the same, tonight.
Today is supposed to be warm temperatures but rainy. That's how it rolls in Illinois. Oh well, if it were really nice outside, I'd want to be outside and not in my windowless office. So there's always a bright side.
I have ambitions to develop a daily yoga practice. I felt so good after Monday night's session. Just can't seem to fit it in.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
I like that you want to start practicing yoga daily, although it might be more reasonable to check in daily instead; some days, your mindset may show the 'need' to practice more than other days. In my opinion, that's when it would benefit you the most! I'm definitely reaping the benefits of doing a quick routine in the morning :)
I think I could benefit mentally by doing yoga in the morning, for sure.
We also had one day of warm temps and rain - it’s cold these couple weeks !
Yesterday, work was just difficult. I just realized that I have to get to work as early as possible for a particular file. Ugh...
I will say that doing Yin Yoga last night with the studio owner (and my daughter) really helped with the tension and soreness I was feeling all day in my upper back, shoulders, neck.
Did ok with after dinner eating too.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
I really think yoga is so calming, and really sets the tone for the rest of my day. Yesterday I managed to stay calm the whole day LOL, which is saying a lot these days!
Thanks for your comment on my post yesterday. I'm glad you're 'ok' too. I guess, right now, that's the best we can hope for. And 'ok' is better than the alternative, right?
Now, if you could just give me some pointers about the after dinner eating...yikes, I was a bit of a wild animal last night.
It will be interesting to see if there are any new contracts today. Sunday's weather was nice - not quite warm enough for me, but not cold. I can't imagine anyone wanting to buy or sell right now.
My daughter took too long to eat the last piece of her birthday cake so I ate it last night. I admit, I was looking forward to it, wasn't even trying to resist. Then, I had a couple of brownies. I was feeling tired, sad, lonely .
Tonight is Yin Yoga, slow paced, holding poses for an expanded period of time. My daughter is home today, so she will join me. (This is on Zoom, through the yoga studio. ) So there's something to look forward to, during the work day, to keto me moving forward.
I will try to do better with eating today.
Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
We have a two day rule in our house. If it's still in the refrigerator after two days of being claimed it is NOW free game for DH to eat.
Enjoy your yoga!
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I do think that apathy is a good word to describe how moods are everywhere....We are weary....and stressed....and just plain bored and blah. Finding ways around it that work for you is the answer....and great that you discovered a way around it......run with it Donkey!!!!
I see this time as an opportunity. I think that's the main motivation to keep battling against the apathy.
WOOT! :-)
innerpeace on 04/29/2020:
Though you may feel apathy - i find your commitment inspiring. You have resilience and commitment. These are things I look for but have yet to find.
I will try a challenge for May! Have a good day.
Thank you!
It just occurred to me that it may be this encroaching apathy that I'm really tired of, and not so much the trying.
Horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2020:
Great idea on a squat challenge!
Speaking of squats, I haven’t done a lower body exercise in awhile so that should be good for me to do tonight thank you for the reminder !!!!
I totally get the apathy and I have also paid more for things that get me up and going. And perhaps you do like the pay classes maybe better than the free ones ?
I hadn't thought about the paid classes being better than the YouTube classes. That could be!
I'll talk more about my thoughts on a May challenge in my entry today. :-)