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Donkey - Wednesday Apr 27, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

Yesterday was a hard day.  I got so crabby at work, at the Boss, that I wondered if I am now needing a walk in the morning, too, to reduce my stress level.  I did not have the chance to walk yesterday, before work, and we're getting to the point now, at work, where I'm so busy that I'm sitting too much. 

My eye doctor's office has been pestering me to move up my 4pm appointment today to earlier in the day.  Long story short, I decided that this was meant to be, so my appointment is now at 1:45p. I will leave work at 1pm and not come back.  By the time my eyes recover from being dilated, it will be almost 4pm anyway.  And I need a break, a rest.

The Boss was SO bored yesterday.  He just kept going from desk to desk, to talk to people about the meaning of life, why it's good to come to work, what's for lunch, landscaping plans, evening plans, etc. I asked him if he was bored, and he said no, but that didn't stop him from visiting with people.  I had to apologize for being so crabby at him, because I really didn't mean it.  I just need a break.  Ever since returning to work, I've felt/thought at least 1x a week that I don't know how long I can keep going like this.  We're not here to babysit the Boss. 

Eating went well yesterday.  Did lower body weights last night - nothing new or challenging, although the muscles were burning at the end of each set.  Before weights in the basement (with Husband), though, I had to walk on the treadmill to get in my steps. 

My church is starting a grief workshop.  I call it a workshop because it's only for 6 weeks - so not really a support group.  It's on Friday nights, at 7pm.  This would interfere with Veterans Chair Yoga, next Friday, but it might be something worth trying. I'm thinking about it. 

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2022:
The earlier dr appointment is a blessing in disguise.....I'm glad you will be getting a little break from the office today. That's a bummer about the 2 things both being on Friday night......that will be a hard decision I'm sure. Both are important.


Jacky82020 on 04/27/2022:
See about taking the AM walk! Walks are good.

The church group sounds like a very good thing right about now.


horn_of_plenty on 04/27/2022:
re below, i didn't even know you ate a lot of calcium products? but i have heard it can be just too much protein...maybe you just need more water too?

also, if you want to, you can try to cut your protein amount at dinner into half that. you'll save on calories. keep the carbs a good amount and increase veggies (especially if you have cooked ones as they are easier to digest) to keep you feeling full...maybe water will help with the calcium...

i wouldn't want to be a vegetarian either...

the new guy interviewed sounds good re below...


horn_of_plenty on 04/27/2022:
in all honesty, if i were in your position re friday night choice you have, i'd continue doing the chair yoga with your husband bc it's active after a long day. i think you can find grief workshops like you did, online, or at more convenient times.

that's good you have the eye appt.

at work while you are at that company, it is your job to babysit boss, though mainly do your work....it's his company. so whatever goes is up to him....lol


Jacky82020 on 04/27/2022:
Donk, just read mention of “laughing Yoga.” Study said as effective as benzodiazepines for stress related disorders.



Donkey - Tuesday Apr 26, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

I do not have much time to post today.  I do not know if I will have time to update later tonight. 

Eating was good, I think.  I did not do as well as I had hoped with water -- sorry, Bear!  I'll try harder with the water today, yes, I will.  I did upper body weights last night.  I hope to do legs tonight.  I did not have time to walk on the treadmill or outside this morning (or yesterday) so getting in steps today will be a challenge.  I will try hard with this during the day, at work.

I received the results of my urinalysis, and I have too much calcium in the urine.  Thank goodness the creatine was normal.  Websites recommend eating less animal products, less calcium foods.  So what I do I eat for protein?  (I am predicting here that Horn would say that I don't need that much protein.)  IDK why can't I be a real donkey and be content with eating barley and oats....

They interviewed the Male Replacement yesterday.  The Female Replacement never did come back.  This guy was 29 minutes early to his interview!  He reminds me very much of New Guy, except with a bushy beard, but it was hard to tell because he wore a mask.  He's kind of loud, but maybe that's just to exude confidence.  Anyway, if he speaks Spanish, I'm sure that they've hired him.  I'll find out today...

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2022:
I try not to do over 50 grams of protein a day. Per Blue Zone practices. Americans consume far too much protein & ditto for almost everything else. This is a generalizations that excludes elite athletes like Legs.

Does high calcium level predispose one to kidney stones? Think I read that once.


bearcountrygg on 04/26/2022:
I didn't reach my water goal yesterday either...so don't feel bad. HOP might say to go heavier on the veggies? I get anemic when I cut back on meat...but haven't seen it associated with calcium....do you take Vitamin D? I think there may be an association between Vitamin D and calcium....can't remember how though.


happy-1 on 04/26/2022:
You’ll get there with the water!!!

Spotted this on Redditt… someone with thyroid issues and Garmin body battery discussing charge rates

https://www.reddit.com/r/Garmin/comments/uci1g7/body_battery_wont_charge_past_60_since_i_started/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf



Donkey - Monday Apr 25, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

A very brief entry this morning, because I have to finish getting ready for work and take my "collection" jugs to the lab to drop off on the way.  SO GLAD this is over.

Male Co-Worker comes back from vacation today. Relief...

Not very warm today.  We'll see if the Replacement lady comes in today. If not, there is the interview with the male applicant this afternoon at 5pm.  I warned my Husband that I may work a little later, just to get a good look at him. 

Eating went relatively well, although had 2nd helpings of meat at dinner.  Walked/jogged on the treadmill.  Worked triceps as weights.  That's all I could do.

It was a very difficult, sad weekend for Husband and I.  Weekends ache so badly, because that's when we would speak.  I am overflowing with regrets.

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2022:
I bet you are glad that the test is over.......Unfortunately regrets do show up after a loss......that is so normal....((HUGS))


Jacky82020 on 04/25/2022:
Oh, Donk, I’m so sorry. Such sorrow takes ages to fade, but never does entirely.

I have a friend who does the jug this all too often. This it’s for cortisol


Jacky82020 on 04/25/2022:
Please excuse typos above. Getting ready for scary MD visit! Surgery on the horizon! (Insert cry me a River emoji here)


Maria7 on 04/25/2022:
So sorry you and your Hubby going through this. Will be praying. Hope everything works out for the best at work. Thanks for saying I would be 'Nice Lady'...that is so sweet! Smile!


horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2022:
you may regret things; but realize it is something a lot bigger than anything you regret. we are here for you..

i'm glad you are done with the pee testing.



Donkey - Sunday Apr 24, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

I'm pretty sure that I will be staying home today.  No gym, but I can take walks outside as long as the rain stays away.  I saved my laundry to fold & put away for today. I have already done 1 urine collection (ugh) and I am very, very glad that I am doing it at home.  If anyone here ever needs to do this procedure, do it AT HOME.

Husband and I went for a hike yesterday, but because it had been raining the day before, the trails were mucky and muddy, huge puddles impeding our path at times.  My Garmin said that the hike was a little less than a mile, but for me, it was exhausting. I'm not sure if it's because I walked much, much slower to accommodate Husband, or if it was the humidty, or what.  I have taken 3 mile hikes that were not nearly as tiring.  

Afterwards, we went to a taco place to pick up dinner and bring it home, so that we could watch a movie and eat.  We had been trying to do "dinner & a movie" during the week, but I just couldn't get into it.  So this is Justice League, which is definitely more of the type of movie Husband likes, but I was OK with it. Almost fell asleep at one point... BUT the problem was that I ate too many nacho chips while watching the movie.  So by the time DVD disc #1 was over (2 hours), I felt like I was on fire.  My metabolism was so fired up, trying to work on burning off all those carbs...  This is what happens when there aren't enough vegetables served at dinner.  DVD disc #2 (another 2 hours) is tonight.

I stayed up until 11pm, to allow my stomach time to digest most of the chips, and to work on cooling off my body.  I was successful at cooling off, but then I stayed up too late.  

I have not done any weights since... Thursday?  Wednesday?  I will try to find the motivation to do something of that sort today.  I could say that my arm is still sore from the shingles vaccine #2 shot I got on Thursday, but I know that's not the REAL reason why I have struggled with weight training, at least lately...

 

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 04/24/2022:
Cumulative/rolling PEM with thyroid and sleep quality issues, stress from having the car come home and recovery, a week of work, zoom calls in the evening and a big dose of sugar from all the cake would do that.

Donkey on 04/25/2022:
I did not eat the cake :-) But I hear what you are saying... Maybe the hot chocolate though -- and increased fruit intake during the week. It's all sugar and adds up.

But definitely yes to those other things. I had not considered that. (Also, see my answer to you below)


happy-1 on 04/24/2022:
For the hike being harder. What did your body battery look like yesterday?

Donkey on 04/25/2022:
I hadn't looked at the time, so I went back to the chart. It's kind of hard to tell exactly, but it looks like I was hovering around 40 for the body battery. I may have been even in the 30's like 38 or so. I had not considered this.

Also, it was a very difficult weekend for both of us, together. We were both feeling very sad.


Jacky82020 on 04/24/2022:
Matt is def a Justice League type of guy too! I just get bored and Tweet and Eat.

Donkey on 04/25/2022:
Tweet & Eat -- yep that was me!


horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2022:
when i eat tacos, i also want more veggies than are in the taco too...not enough volume for me either! :)

it's good you got the shingles vaccine as that's an aggravating thing to come down with!

Donkey on 04/25/2022:
I may not have gotten the shingles vaccine if my Boss hadn't come down with it twice (maybe 3 times). The first time was an actual breakout on his hamstring, so at least I didn't have to look at it. The 2nd time, he was able to get an Rx from his doctor at the first "tingling" of a breakout. This "tingling" episode may have happened again, which is why I say 1-3 breakouts.


coffee&calories on 04/25/2022:
I just wanted to say that your comment on my entry about hunger is so true. I often have to remind myself that hunger isn't an emergency, and it won't build and build until I can't take it, but will often subside if I ignore it. Hard to remember in the moment, my willpower muscles are still VERY weak!

Donkey on 04/25/2022:
I'm glad I shared that with you :-) I must be more aware of this "anxious hunger".



Donkey - Saturday Apr 23, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

Weight is coming down a little bit...  I need to keep up the momentum.  I realized this morning that I allowed myself to get into the 140's again.  I'm not passing judgment on myself, but rather, I realized just how hard it is for me to GET into the 130's and STAY in the 130's.  Even though the numbers are down this week, it will be interesting to see how challenging it will be to cross over into 139.

It is sunny this morning and supposed to be quite warm (upper 70's!), but windy in the afternoon.  I hope that Husband is up for a hike in the afternoon, but if not, that's OK.  I plan to finish up here and get to the gym for a quick elliptial session.  Most likely I will not be able to make it to the gym tomorrow, because of the urine collection process.  The old bladder isn't what it used to be.  Well, we'll see.  I am keeping an open mind this weekend.


Work was exhausting.  I was already exhausted from poor sleep, and then to have to go into work, carrying a heavy grief, pushing it down, trying to be cheerful and patient.  We had a slight domestic violence incident at work.  Two adult sisters fighting - literraly, fighting in the parking lot - about the proceeds check from the sale of mom's house.  With 90-year old mom literally in the middle of them as they swore and gestured at each other to their cars.

I relayed this to Associate Attorney (his client), who promptly called the title company and stopped payment on the proceeds check, because we can't be sure mom is the one who will decide where to deposit it.  (One of the daughters snatched the check from her mom's hands and drove off.  I would not put it past her to forge a signature and try to deposit the check.)  So on top of my own grief, I get to watch this happen.  I lost all will and motivation to work, but sadly I was obligated to do so.  And since the check was canceled, this ain't over yet. 

Like Nice Lady said to me yesterday, It's much harder to work on a file when the client is a jerk. 


Eating and walking went really well though.  Between my morning walk and then my very rainy, wet lunchtime walk (shorter than usual), I got in almost 2.5 miles!  That's good!  But I think even better was my eating.  I had a more substantial lunch, which kept snacking and cravings away for pretty much the rest of the day.  Dinner was on the lighter side, but I didn't feel depraved or anything.  Had hot chocolate for dessert, along with a very very small chocolate square (30 cals?).

So today is a warm, sunny day.  On the agenda that I am mostly looking forward to:

  • Laundry
  • Repotting more plants
  • Hiking with Husband
  • Netflix movie with dinner with Husband
  • Gym - elliptical, possibly 2 upper body weight machines if not too busy.
  • Getting set up for tomorrow's urine collection day. (OK, not really looking forward to this.)

 

 

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/23/2022:
Every elders nightmare there for that senior citizen Mom.....How sad for her...that her own child would treat her that way......You did the right thing for her......and I personally want to thank you for that Donk!!! I hope your weekend goes a lot better for you......I don't think tomorrows "collection" will be too bad....plus it will be a good thing to be done with.


coffee&calories on 04/23/2022:
I hope your weekend will be relaxing and you can get that hike in. It sounds like such a nice activity to do.

Donkey on 04/24/2022:
Repotting some of my plants and taking them outside to enjoy the warm & sun was extremely relaxing and rewarding, for some odd reason.


happy-1 on 04/23/2022:
THAT sounds like elder abuse and should also be reported to APS. Good job reporting it to your boss. Sounds like a company and team with integrity even if you have some drama. Feel good about being granny’s invisible hero.


happy-1 on 04/23/2022:
If you have bladder issues, aloe is a miracle. I do cactus. In combo with my vitamins I can jump up and down on a trampoline just fine now. https://www.pelvicsanity.com/amp/2017/06/01/the-best-supplements-for-interstitial-cystitis


horn_of_plenty on 04/23/2022:
i agree with Bear and Happy. you did a good thing for that elderly woman!


horn_of_plenty on 04/23/2022:
.....reading back on your entries re the replacement person...omg so much drama...i'm glad your boss is considering this male as a replacement. yes, you need someone reliable.

Donkey on 04/24/2022:
I don't mean to imply that just because it's a male that there's less drama. I'm just getting a much better vibe off this guy.

And as Mistakes Girl pointed out, if he CALLED us, then that means he WANTS to work and will make it a priority.


horn_of_plenty on 04/23/2022:
in terms of eating too many carbs like fries etc at dinner as you mentioned on an earlier entry, i would advise you to lower your quantity on proteins bc they have calories too. and up it on veggies. and then, if you overeat carbs, at least it was just carbs and not also a big serving of protein?

lately, my carb servings can go to 2 servings at a meal, but i stick to one serving for the meats. seems the most satisfying to me?


horn_of_plenty on 04/23/2022:
you are doing GREAT staying active and with your exercise and other home activities. way to go!


horn_of_plenty on 04/24/2022:
honestly, i think it will be a little easy for you to lose the first few pounds....you really got used to being able to maintain 130's....you did it for at least a year or approx a year....once you get into these longer periods of maintenance, it will be easier to snap back to where you were....bc it becomes uncomfortable to weigh in the higher numbers where you haven't been in awhile.


happy-1 on 04/24/2022:
Just posted a photo of how I am steaming my food.



Donkey - Friday Apr 22, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

Running very late, partly because of the amount of laundry waiting for me today, but also because I took a walk outside, in between the raindrops.  It felt good to walk outside.  Now that we are headed towards warmer temperatures, I'd like to make morning outdoor walking more of a habit.  "Warmer" even though we are still getting highs in the upper 40's next week.  DANG!

Long story short, I persuaded the Boss to consider a male for the bilingual legal assistant.  He is interviewing on Monday.  I think I like him already.

I did OK with eating.  Like I mentioned to Bear, it was not "diet mode" but no binge-eating and a limited but pleasant sweet after dinner, with a cup of no-sugar-added hot chocolate and a smaller chocolate square.  Total for dessert was probably 160 calories.  Better than finishing off Daughter's birthday cake, which I will freeze if she tells me she is done with it. (3 small pieces left)

I am very, very tired.  My Garmin tells me that even though I sleep 7+ hours, my sleep grade is still "poor" -- and I feel it.  More than ever do I need the weekends to rest.

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 04/22/2022:
Hugs. I feel you on the sleep quality.


Jacky82020 on 04/22/2022:
Hope the guy works out!

Walking outside is a great idea, you go,girl!


happy-1 on 04/22/2022:
So… read this article on thyroid and adrenal fatigue… sounds like if you want to avoid the boat I am in you need to do the things I am doing. Hanging onto a salary might be worth tossing the leftover cake.

“Many practitioners believe that the thyroid is the true canary in the coal mine for adrenal fatigue, and alternatively, an even bigger culprit of potential exhaustion, weight gain and malaise.”

https://feedmephoebe.com/adrenal-fatigue-101-symptoms-testing-diet-and-supplements-to-support-adrenal-burn-out-recovery/

Donkey on 04/23/2022:
This was a really good article with some good ideas for things I could be doing to help myself.



Donkey - Thursday Apr 21, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

I woke up late this morning and THEN realized that today is shingles shot day, so I have to leave at least 15 minutes earlier than I usually do.  The good news is that most of my daily food is already at work.  I just need to pack some proteins for my snacks.

I just *HAD* to tell you all this though:  The Replacement did not come in yesterday either, because (this is the story) her brother was involved in a semi-truck crash and was in the hospital.  I am seriously not making this up.  SHE might be making this up, but I'm just telling you what we're being told.

So the Boss had a meeting with myself, Mistakes Girl, and New Gal, to decide what we do.  I have to say, New Gal nailed it on the head:  we need someone who is reliable and stable (consistent).  Why would we bring MORE drama to our office than we already have?  And I couldn't argue with that.  My advice was to reactivate our help-wanted ad ASAP, and then take the Replacement on a day-by-day basis.  I'm willing to give her the benefit of the doubt; maybe this was just really bad timing for her to start.  But we defintely need to find a better candidate.  With less drama.

We'll see if she shows up today.  I can't imagine starting a new job while suffering the loss of a friend and my brother in the hospital.


I ate too many carbs at dinner last night.  Had seconds on fries and onion rings that Husband made to go with our burgers.  Dang...  They sat heavy in my stomach, but that didn't stop me from having 3-4 chocolate covered nuts (larger nuts, so it must have been pecans or something).  I could not muster up the motivation to do upper body weights, so I will try to do them tonight.

However I WILL do better today with eating.  

And on the bright side, I did REALLY good with eating at work.  Really stuck to what I had brought to eat, no issues.

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2022:
I hope that whatever the new girl is dealing with won't affect the office if they keep her on...but...I agree totally that dependability is of the utmost importance and if her life requires her to work only half of a day on a new job in her first days and she doesn't...then she really doesn't look like a dependable employee......Probably time to keep looking there. Hope that your eating today makes you happy and proud......I'm recommitting today and so far...so good...I hope you have a good day too.

Donkey on 04/22/2022:
She emailed New Guy on Wednesday (I think?) saying that she wouldn't be in for the rest of the week.

I am OK with how eating went yesterday. It was not the best. It was definitely not "diet mode", but it was stable and reasonable.


happy-1 on 04/21/2022:
There’s something wrong with her, stay clear. You don’t want her to fixate on you. If her brother really was in an accident, all she had to say was family issue.

Donkey on 04/22/2022:
Good point!!!! We all wondered if it was the guy who had the accident with the cows on the interstate. That guy was charged with DUI. But I don't think it was him, because he was kind of old to be her brother.



Donkey - Wednesday Apr 20, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

Our Replacement lady started yesterday - and promptly left at around noon.  I'm told that she will be back today.  Appears she was fired from her other job, and left to -- -pick up her stuff?  I'm not sure....  So maybe that means that she'll be working with us every day.  Very odd.  Apparently, she was connected to someone who was shot & killed at a nearby gym (saying it was not a random act, so probably gang or drugs), and her co-workers decided they were no longer comfortable working with her, so they fired her.  Umm... way too much drama for your first day at our firm.

Anyway, eating went well - but I did eat more fruit than usual.  I think that's OK.  Did a relaxing bike ride and lower body weights after Grief Group. I will graduate and join other Zoom Grief Groups.  One is for moms, one is for parents, and one is for loss after suicide.  I think I will start with the suicide group first, and that may be enough.  I'm grateful to have this resource.  Thank goodness for Zoom.

I am going to log off now and take an ourdoor walk around my neighborhood loop.  It s a little under a mile and takes about 20 minutes.  I may or may not have time to write tomorrow morning.  I have my 2nd shingles shot at 9am, so I will be late to work, but that's OK.

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 04/20/2022:
Hope all works out well with new person for Y'all and for her. I have been eating more fruit, also...I had peeled and cored apples yesterday, microwaved in a little margerine till tender and soft and added a little cinnamon (very good for many things I have read) and sugar on top of them. Was so good! Love your idea to take an outdoor walk around your neighborhood...I might do the same in a little while. Take care.


coffee&calories on 04/20/2022:
Donkey, just wanted to pop on here and tell you that I think of you often. I hope you are managing. I feel silly saying that I hope you're doing okay, because surely you're not. Everyday must be a struggle but I am glad to see you are attending Grief Groups, I really hope it helps you cope. xoxo

Donkey on 04/22/2022:
Thank you so much -- I know what you are saying and meaning, and I appreciate that, very much.


Jacky82020 on 04/20/2022:
Wow! That office of yours is better than a soap opera! Keep us posted.

Glad you’re finding good zoom groups.


Maria7 on 04/20/2022:
Re: Jacky's comment above...I almost feel like I work there with you! Let's see...who would I be???

Donkey on 04/23/2022:
I've been playing with casting DD members in my workplace roles. Who would be Mistakes Gal? Who would be Male Co-Worker? I think you'd probably be Nice Lady.


bearcountrygg on 04/20/2022:
Oh man...I hope the new girl doesn't bring her "problems" with her.......and I'm glad to hear that you found some more zoom groups.


Maria7 on 04/20/2022:
Hubby and I took an outdoor walk in our neighborhood today, also.


happy-1 on 04/21/2022:
Yikes!!!! She did not need to tell anyone that!!!

Big hugs. You are working through this slow and steady.

Donkey on 04/23/2022:
I do feel like I am working through the grief, but it is not a linear path.



Donkey - Tuesday Apr 19, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

Could not go into work to make up time on Sunday (besides, it was Easter).  Glad I did not go into work yesterday.  So I can only imagine what kind of circus I'll be walking into today at work.  I am not looking forward to this.

Tonight is the last Grief Group support meeting, so no matter WHAT happened or happens at work, I need to leave by 5pm -- and it would be helpful if I could leave up to 10 minutes early.

I did upper body weights last night and a couple of lower weight exercises this morning.  As I told Horn, I may do more leg exercises tonight, after Grief Group, if I'm up to it. 

Eating yesterday was heavy, but that didn't stop me from having a leftover piece of Daughter's birthday cake.  As I was eating that piece of cake, I felt a mix of feelings about not having a cake for Son's birthday.  Well, I'm sure, diet-wise, it was better NOT to have another cake. (That would have made THREE cakes.)  Perhaps it was sufficient to just have a piece of cake, even if it was leftover.  Husband had a bowl of ice cream later.  So I think we both tried to make a connection, with food, for Son's birthday. 

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/19/2022:
Cake is cake....and the same for ice cream.......I think they did serve the purpose.....((HUGS))......I'm glad that the support group is working out.....maybe there are more of them as well....Hopefully work isn't too trying. ((HUGS))


Jacky82020 on 04/19/2022:
What Bear says! HUGS


horn_of_plenty on 04/19/2022:
i hope your last grief group gives you some extra closure tonight; extra strength to keep on! i know it will...

i will do legs exercises tonight for me and you. maybe you'll join me!

maybe to come, you can celebrate his birthday still to remember him on his bday....well, that's talking really far into the future.

sending you positivity and hugs, as well as a kiss. <3 you stay strong, for all of us here!


happy-1 on 04/21/2022:
Hugs. You are walking a hard road. I’m glad you got a treat and downtime.



Donkey - Monday Apr 18, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

A late entry this morning, because I went to the lab for my blood tests.  Only 2 vials.  I also picked up the equipment for the 24-hour urine collection.  It's a lot more complicated than I had initially thought.  I still plan to do it Sunday to drop off the collection containerS (yes, dual containers, testing for 2 substances) to turn in next Monday.  I will go to work from there, even if it means getting to work early, which is fine. But gosh, what a bother!


I am glad that I took today off.  As I explained to my mom, it's a lot harder than I thought it would be.  We are planning to see a movie this afternoon, and then maybe take-out.  Daughter may have dinner with her Boyfriend, but either way, that's fine.  I am looking forwrd to "losing myself" in a movie. 

I woke up to a beautiful covering of snow on the yard, the trees, the deck, the cars -- but not the streets or sidewalks, which is good (i.e. NO SHOVELING!).  It is beautiful, but I am quite done with winter.  We will have weather in the low 70's (maybe) by Thursday.  


Yesterday, for Easter, I went for a lovely hike with Daughter - took her to the same trails that Husband and I did the weekend before, but we were able to complete the little extra "oak trail" that Husband was not up to doing.  We had a good talk.

Then, we came home, I spoke with my Mom. It seems as though she and my Brother have done a LOT of planning with respect to the weekend of Son's memorial service in June.  OK....  We found a restaurant that was open that we could order pizza from and ate in front of the TV while watching an Agatha Christie mystery movie ("Crooked House" - British, had not heard of it here). It's not often that we 3 eat dinner together, and to watch TV during dinner is quite a rare treat.  It was fun.

I noticed though that because I had a larger, heavier dinner, I did not want any snacks OR sweets afterwards.  I was quite satisfied, not stuffed, not uncomfortable. A good feeling to have, physically.


I have not done any weight training over the weekend. I would like to do upper body today - don't want to lose my gains - but I'm not sure I'll be up for it.  Maybe tonight....  Lately, cardio has been a lot easier to do, because I can just forget everything while I do it.  That's OK, too.

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/18/2022:
D had his bloodwork this morning too.....I'm glad that you decided to do the remainder of the testing on Sunday. The walk sounds nice and I'm glad that you some time with your daughter...I know how much you enjoy that.


Maria7 on 04/18/2022:
Glad you had a good weekend with your family. Thinking of you today. Take care.


legcramps on 04/18/2022:
I hope you are able to enjoy the day in some way today; an afternoon movie sounds really nice - and not having to cook even better :)


happy-1 on 04/21/2022:
Hugs. A hike, a movie, a day off… all sound like good self care.



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