Day 35: Probably not a good idea to drink a beer before logging on to Diet Diaries but I was so disgusted with the girls' softball coaches after the game that I felt it best in everyone's interest if I had something that would take the edge off of my mood. Of course, now I'm ready for a nap...
Funny thing is that before the game, I could feel the anxiety starting to build and I really had to try hard not to eat out of anxiety. Of course I did a little bit, but it was a real battle. And then after the game, I wanted to come home and eat for comfort. Hence the beer. I had some broccoli. I never realized that broccoli has that many calories in it. Oof!
Praise God that I have only 2 more days left of this softball insanity (Thursday and then the 20th of June). And then I hope to God that I never ever see any of these men ever again.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 34: Donkey did it. She got up early to workout, now that the kids are off of school. It was NOT easy I tell you, to do the elliptical crosstrainer at resistance level 15 (out of 20) at 6am. But I did it. And I did the whole 60 minutes, even though I felt like quitting half way through. And then I did weight training on my lower body (damn legs) even though I had told myself on the elliptical that all I had to do is finish the cardio and then I could go home.
At the gym today was a woman with the most amazing legs. You could see every muscle fiber in them. And they were so nicely thin. She looked like a runner, but she went on a crosstrainer too. I could hardly stop staring at her legs while she was working out. Just watching the muscles flex and the tendons on the sides of her knees. She has that little bone from her shin bone sticking out on the side below the knee too. Really motivating to watch. Not that Donkey will ever EVER have legs like that on her own, no matter how hard she tries.
But I digress. Now we have a very tired Donkey with a long day ahead of her.
NOTE: Today's weight is correct. Donkey weighed in today at 136.0 lb.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Martial Arts, we are a tae kwon doo/tang soo do martial arts school (Pak�s Martial Arts) based on Korean martial Arts. Our main school is in Jacksonville Florida (that�s were Grandmaster Pak teaches) My school is locally here in South Georgia, but we are only an hour from the main school.
Regarding reading non Buddhism, a lot of the literature I have is written by HH the Dalia Lama or Thich Nhat Hanh. For me they were good starting points. I�ll look some more over the weekend when I get home. There are also a couple magazines out there you may be interested in looking at, one of them is Tricycle (the Buddhists review) Again I�ll look more at length when I get home.:-)
Have a wonderful weekend!!
Day 33: After today, everything changes. Today was the last day of school, and tomorrow the kids are home all day. So Donkey will be waking up EARLY to workout at the gym as close to 5a as she can manage, to workout before the husband goes to work and the kids wake up. Throughout the summer the kids will have activities in the morning that will prevent me from going then anyway, so it's best for me to get into the early routine now. The sooner the better. *yawn*
We managed to get in the girls' softball game despite terrible storms headed towards IL. I did not pitch, but I still got in a lot of exercise. I hope that once softball season is over to continue getting in a second workout in the evenings 2-3 times a week, as I do now with the softball stuff.
I am starting to think that I am going to need some assistance in getting to my goal weight (or lower; lower is fine too). I just "met" online a woman who is 144lb and is using Medifast to get down to 120. Isn't Medifast what Oprah used to lose all of her weight that one time? I thought you had to be obese to use that program. Yes? No? I emailed the woman to ask her questions about her experience.
I also heard an ad on the radio for some man who lost 35lb using lap band surgery. That would bring me down to around 105 or so. For my height that's not insane. 35lb is lot a lot of weight to lose for something as drastic as surgery to lose weight. (I could be wrong on that, so correct me if I'm wrong.)
I would love to get liposuction but first of all, I don't think the doctor would take out enough fat, and secondly, that would prevent me from doing any cardio for a few weeks and then I'd have to start all over again, building up my endurance. I don't want to do that.
But some of the conversation (see Amanda8419 for reference) that we've had about getting assistance to lose weight (other than portion control and exercise) has started me thinking. I think that this healthy eating and dieting is futile for me. Look at where it has gotten me - same weight or maybe a bit higher than I've been before. That stinks.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 32: No weigh in but I measured my hips and I lost 1/2 lb. I'm still a fat Donkey (or other word for donkey), as I carry all my weight from my knees to my waist.
Last night I pitched for girls' softball (ages 5-7). The pitching itself was fun, but the coaches are such jerks. If we're going to let people who are "out" stay on base because we feel sorry for them, then we totally deserve to lose every game that we do that. So there I am, thinking that the inning is over and lo and behold it's not because we're giving free passes. Then the **dads** from the other team start heckling me. Thanks. We give your girls a free ride and you go and put me down. Thanks. My jerk of a coach (another MAN) said, "it's not worth it." Yeah, I can tell, my feelings aren't worth it. And it's nice to know that you don't think the final score of the game is "worth it" either, even though our girls work their donkeys off. Thanks again. (Men and PMS do not mix well, methinks.)
I met a couple of cute little girls from the other team, though. One was Savannah, who I kept thinking was going to get beaned in the head with the ball, as they kept throwing the ball back to me after the play and she's right next to me. She had some funny things to say, like "Wow that pitch almost hit her face!" (Oops!) and "Is this where I should stand?" (Ask your coach) and my personal favorite "Where do I throw the ball to if I get it?" (You should throw it to first base.) (Eh, what the heck? if we're giving away outs, then I'll give away advice.)
Then another cutie I met was Chloe, who was wearing a Navy sweatshirt given to her by her brother who just returned home from duty somewhere. I kept calling her "Navy". "Hey, Navy! Way to go, Navy! Good play, Navy!" Her brother flies planes on the Navy carrier ships. My brother flies planes out of Air Force bases. So this was kind of a cute dialog, considering that there's nearly a 30 year age difference between the two of us.
So Donkey's feelings weren't totally crushed by the end of the game. But those feelings of resentment and hurt came back to me today during my workout --- which I *HATE* because it ruins a perfectly good workout, to contaminate a good thing with awful feelings like that.
That's why I'm so glad I have Diet Diaries to come to. I keep a journal on Sparkpages too, but I try to keep that one light and fluffy. This here is the real Donkey, manure and all.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
So does this softball stuff all tie in with the "everyone's a winner--no one's a loser" thing? If so, how frustrating. Crazy at any rate--but you're in there doing it, which is more than alot of parents do!
It would be so much more fun to teach 'em the fundamentals and let them have at it on their own. And work out their own arguments, while still watching just in case something dangerous is going on. If they're all going to get the same prize at the end anyway . . . When do kids just PLAY anymore?
Oh, we used to play scrub (softball, but you rotate, so everyone gets a chance to do it all) and that game where you just catch fly balls (can't think of the name) at recess twice a day sometimes. I'd play it today if I could.
I'm sounding old and crotchety, so I better go:-)
Day 31: No weigh in today. Woke up feeling "heavy" in the stomach. I was mad at Husband last night so I put a LOT of raw garlic on my dinner salad. He ate half a pizza; I had one slice and a big garden salad (with the garlic). Donkey needs not fear any vampires, that's for sure. Of course, with breath like that, Donkey can hardly stand smelling her own breath.
Garlic is one of those flavors (onion too) that "causes" me to eat more because I'm trying to get the taste of the garlic out of my mouth. Coffee seems to be the only effective thing I have found. But last night, I enjoyed the taste of garlic (repeatedly) in my mouth, and then used the coffee "mouthwash" this morning. Enough is enough, after all.
I had a great workout at the gym, but the rain showers that we've had in IL are keeping me from seeking a second workout outdoors. I haven't given up on being a regular runner yet!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 30 --- Husband's day off and he's driving me nuts. I gotta try really hard not to eat in reaction. Ergh....
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 29 --- somewhere I lost count and today is the REAL "Day 29"
I find that on days that I have to wake up early (because I don't get up early unless I have to), I want to eat more. I'm not sure if this is because I am tired or because the day is longer or what. Both Saturday and Sunday (today), I had to wake up and get going earlier than usual (for a weekday, and much more so for a weekEND).
Saturday I went to watch my friend run a race. Sunday I worked at a ministry table at church for the earliest Mass. Had more coffee than usual too, but I find myself fighting the "munchies".
That's ok though because I am determined to stay on track and committed to my diet and weight loss program. So far, I'm still within calorie range for being after lunch and so if dinner is reasonable, which it should be, then I should be just fine.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 29: You know, I may not even go to that stupid dysfunctional family reunion on Day 50, but I continue to count down anyway...
Had a great game today at girls' softball! It was so hard at the end, hot and tired, and the girls get those Hostess cupcakes (and a juice box) for their treat. Oh my, I can't even remember the last time I had a Hostess cupcake. So I came home and had a Fiber One bar instead. Probably about the same amount of calories, maybe a little less, but the FO bar has 9g of fiber! BornToCry would be proud. *sigh* I miss her here on Diet Diaries.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 28: Totally feel back on track and super motivated to STAY on track. Focusing on vegetables and fruit and fiber.
I see that gas prices will be affecting the price of milk (all dairy products) and meat soon, so I may be switching to vegetarianism just because that's what we can afford to eat!
Exercising is going so well. I've been focusing on doing slower workouts with more resistance on the elliptical, to get those super toned (skinnier) legs that I so long for.
AND I started weight training my upper body again! Yesterday was the first day since the April challenge ended. I've been having some shoulder/arm aches so I stopped doing that for a while. But now thanks to my new close and personal friend, Tylenol, I'm able to do some weight training with light(er) weights.
Rock on, Donkey!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Day 26: I did pretty good yesterday until after dinner when I had a dish of sherbert. I'm thinking about cutting out sugars like that altogether. Seems as though many people dieting do that, the all-or-nothing routine. And I think this might work better for me because having sugar in moderation just doesn't seem to to work.
The weight is still coming down from my visit with my mom. Just not as quickly as I packed it on. I'm just not feeling as motivated as I have been in the past. I don't know why. I'm wondering if it's because I am unable to maintain my losses. So eventually it becomes "why bother?" because somewhere in my mind I "know" it will come right back on.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
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Wow, you sound stressed!! I hope the beer helped. Good for you for not eating for comfort. I fall into that habit too. Have a relaxing Sunday!