Happy to report that my weight has stayed the same and so has my body fat %. I am quite pleased with this.
Today is Day #2 of the low fiber diet. I ended up having the stuffed cantaloupe (stuffed with chicken salad) rather than the low-carb skillet, because I'm supposed to stay away from red meats for this low-fiber thing. So yesterday was a lot of cheese, some scrambled eggs, Greek yogurt, honeydew and cantaloupe. I miss my vegetables something fierce.
Chair yoga was challenging. There was one movement that I felt pain in my left shoulder - like, Yikes! We did another stretch that I was so surprised was a challenge to my upper thighs -- what's that all about? Then had a nice dinner at the local diner with the less-than-satisfying stuffed cantaloupe (normally, I would NEVER order that -- completely NOT my style or taste). Treated myself to sugar free chocolate cream pie for dessert, but ate too much of the crust (has carbs).
Sadly, though, we got home and Husband and I got into an arguement over laundry. He started yelling and banging his cane on the countertop. I'm like, "I'm done, you win" and went upstairs to get ready for bed. So no evening bike-ride to help with digestion, but whatever....
So for the third time in a row, this stupid chair yoga has ended up with me completely stressed out. I don't think it's worth it any more, and I am seriously contemplating whether I will attend any more sessions.
The fatigue - I think - is related to the anemia. I'm still taking the prescribed iron pills but they don't seem to be helping with feeling fatigued. The only thing that they seem to have done is totally mess up my GI routine, with awful nausea in the morning from taking them on an empty stomach (as I'm supposed to do) to constipation.
This sucks.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
The fatigue has become impossible. I was so tired after work that I had to lie down for about 20 minutes before getting up to eat dinner. And again this morning, like yesterday, woke up exhausted. So hard to get up... instead of feeling recharged, I still feel drained.
Today starts the modified diet to prepare for the colonoscopy cleanse on Monday. Fortunately, husband and I should still be able to go out for dinner after chair yoga. I looked up the menu online and I am torn: should I go for the low carb skillet (not exactly on the modification diet) or do the right thing and order the stuffed cantaloupe?
I just hope that I can leave work on time and have enough energy to do all of this. And remember to do push-ups!
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
It's ok to be tired. I think over the weekend you should try to sleep a little extra and let your body rest. Let your mind rest / wander in your dreams.
Also, i think emotionally this (fatigue) has something to do with your son being away.
Is the cantalope stuffed with cottage cheese? that will not be enjoyable, i don't think. if i were in your spot, i'd have chosen the meat :)
remember to take each day at a time, do not worry - you will do ok with the cleanse for the colonoscopy. remember to enjoy the moment (the chair yoga, the dinner, and your pushups!)
you can do this. you don't have to regain again the weight you lost and are doing such a great job maintaining. just take this weekend to rest in / sleep in when you need to.
i already feel better today with my decision and i did sleep in a couple hours and i'm glad i made this decision to not go into work today! Today is just a way for me to catch up and have a bit less to accomplish this weekend.
When my trip comes up, i will be really busy and i am glad to have a low key day now, but manage some productivity in also.
I would also choose the skillet over the stuffed cantaloupe :)
As I was preparing my food for work, yesterday, I reread the list of low fiber foods and saw that I only need to eat that way for 3 days before the clear liquid diet the day before the procedure. So I loaded up on raw vegetables, walnuts, and all the other high fiber foods I love to eat. Friday starts the modified diet, thank goodness.
Completed day 3 of my push-up challenge. 3 sets of 20. The last set is still difficult to complete at the end.
Despite going to bed earlier last night, it was so hard to get out of bed this morning, feeling like I could use another hour. So I'm running a little late this morning.
Work was still stressful and busy, even with Mistakes Girl back, handling her own workload. I guess it's just going to be that way until real estate calms down in the fall.
There is a job posting for the job I do, at another firm (a blind ad) but with retirement benefits. I was very tempted to apply, but have decided not to. If we move - which now seems unlikely, any time soon - I want to be able to do that, without feeling inclined to stay because if my job. And if I do end up switching jobs, I am thinking of doing something else.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
Had a good day yesterday, but the best part is that it is over, which is kind of sad to say. My work load will go back to normal now that Mistakes Girl is back. Also, no events scheduled for the evenings until Friday when we have chair yoga. Being on a Friday though, is not the same thing as having stuff during the work week.
I was thinking to myself as I was walking into the library last night, that I limit myself by not doing things after work, during the week. Usually, I come home, have dinner, ride my bike while watching TV (usually 30 minutes), weights at home, and then start getting ready for bed, read in bed for about 15 minutes, lights out. Not much time for anything else.
Like Legcramps suggested, I would like to start developing something more for myself, during the week, for myself. Now that the kids are mostly out, I can do this. I don't know what this would be or where to start.
Speaking of kids, we received 2 letters from my son. He's doing well , although it's still very difficult. Not camp is not easy. It's quite different this time, with much less free time, but he wrote that he's feeling more confident, and does pushups and planks whenever he can.
Wish me luck as I start modifying my diet to more easily digestible foods. I guess low fiber foods are easier to digest completely and thus easier to clean out when that day gets here.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
Do you mean that Friday activities are better bc you can sleep in on Saturday? I have legs planned for Friday, but sorta frustrated bc i cannot sleep in on Saturday LOL...yes, that's a complaint! LOL
About your son, i love the part he mentions about doing planks and pushups whenever he can! Soon, they'll be one of his strongest suits! Remind him that challenges in life are what make you stronger!!! :) he's doing great, i'm very happy for him. icing on the cake is having a job and not needing to go apply to jobs after being in his current training. as long as he keeps on,he'll make a career of it. that's amazing.
Good luck on your diet - thankfully it's not going to be a lasting thing and you'll be able to get back to your regular menu soon!
We did not get a phone call from our son on Sunday. We hope everything is ok.
Yesterday at work was just too much; I just didn't have the energy to fight back. Queen Bee and Male Coworker were just too much of a force to reckon with, so I stayed as low as I could. Got 5 contracts and was only able to open 2. I will try to open at least one more today, but I do expect to get more contracts today. Mistakes Girl comes back tomorrow.
The client that dumped on me last week is just so overbearing. My involvement with her sale is almost over, and then I will only have to deal with her purchase. That will help a lot, I hope.
Part of the problem this week is that I signed up for 2 free seminars at the library, last night and tonight, so I cannot stay late at work, at all. Well, that's just too darn bad. This is for me. I'm allowed to have a life too . Last night was about investing. When I got home, husband and I had a nice talk. It felt good to know we're on the same page. Tonight is about planning financially for long-term care, i.e. assisted living, memory care, and nursing home.
I have my pre-op consultation with the surgical nurse this afternoon. Waiting to see if s/he will recommend a low fiber diet. On keto, this will be hard to do. I'm absolutely dreading the liquid diet on Monday, and the laxative prep Monday night.
Did my pushups last night.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
save your energy, it's not worth fighting or arguing or even making a point with QB or MC. they are typical bullies and aren't changing soon. just be you and be low in the limelight.
great library briefings - that's awesome you got to take advantage of those and yes, it's your life and i'm glad you went. you cannot always but your life on hold...good job doing exactly what you want to do! :) YES YES YES!
sorry for the pre-op. it'll be over before you know it <3 also, i doubt she'd recommend a low fiber? is this is typo??
HAPPY APRIL! A new month, new goals, new opportunities abound!
I heard something last night that really caught my ear and made me think: "Thank you for the privilege of your time." When I woke up this morning, I looked out my window to see perfectly blue sky and thought, I have the whole day in front of me to do something.
Well, as it turns out, the day has started to get cluttered with things to do. I have to vote early today, because I signed up for 2 free seminars at the library on Monday night and Tuesday night (electon day) that I *REALLY* want to go to. So I asked my husband if he'd like to go with me to vote, and he said he would, which makes me happy because it's more of together-thing. I proposed that we stop at the library on the way home so that he can pick up a new library book to read, and he's good with that too. We're becoming an old married couple that you see roaming around town running errands.
I have a few television shows that I'd like to catch today, if I can. One is a travel show on Scotland, one is an interview with the author of the book "Zero to Hero" about a boy who was bullied in school, but went on to be a decorated Vietnam war hero. This is a book that I've wanted to read, but my library system doesn't have it - yet. Depending on the interview, I am thinking about buying this book for my son, since he had a really hard time growing up. I'd like to read it first, though, really, before I give it out as a gift. Anyway, the TV interview is on today, so that I can do most immediately. Because TV is so time consuming, I will also use this time to weight train. I will also fold and put away my laundry while watching TV.
Speaking of laundry... This is not diet-related, but I am washing my son's bedding this weekend, and inadvertently found what ended up to be a load of his clothes (in various places on his floor, LOL), so I'm feeling a little nostalgic today too. We are hoping he will call today. My husband said this morning, "I really hope he's doing well." Me too...
APRIL GOALS:
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
I hope your son is doing well - did you hear from him?
Did not hear from our son.
Lately the "busy bug" has napped me too...I think my entries might start to get weird on here and also when i respond. Feeling the trip coming as well as typical long weeks mostly until then LOL. wah wah (as you say!)
New opportunities do abound with Spring in Store!
I do think it's nice to do errands with someone sometimes! I have done it, not that often but i used to with a good friend and also here and there with guys but not often as i don't really "date" and it's fun to do things with someone else bouncing ideas and just breaking the monotony of being alone! it's nice.
yes, def read the book to see if it's worthy as a gift to your son and also so you can chat with him about it when he's done! :)
Remember to reach out to your son when you can. Don't guess how he's doing...keep in touch, write letters, send your supportive words along as often as possible encouraging him to keep his head up, act maturely, be responsible for what he says, be professional, and also to be proud of himself, how far he's come, how he'll keep producing success as long as he keeps trying and keeps his head up and studies? just, keep him focusued but also write about some fun things, a joke here or there...things to keep him happy and down to earth i guess!
I can't believe I entered a whole long entry about my weigh-in and the problem at work and my pre-op challenge ahead, only to receive "504 Internal Error" when I hit "submit".
Wow.
OK, giving this another try, in short spurts, only because I feel inspired by the lessons I learned about myself.
I am at peace with the number on the scale. I would have liked to have seen 131, but had I seen that, I may have been inclined to try to get back into the 120s again.
Confronted the client who dumped on me on Thursday. We had questions to ask her about her sale, and rather than hiding and not dealing with this, by having Nice Lady call the client, I took the file and made the call myself.
We talked about my questions relating to her property, and then she chose to bring up her dissatisfaction from Thursday. It turns out that she's more frustrated with my Boss that with me. Also, she's comparing her last transaction from 10 years ago to this one, and things have changed so much. So I explained what I could to her and then tried to explain where maybe my boss was coming from (in fact, I know where he was coming from, but I'm done with defending other people - and I'm especially done with defending my boss). I invited her to speak with my boss next week to address her concerns about our service. She seemed OK with that.
Then I took extra time to answer her questions and explain more about what she'll be doing next. She did mention that she's really stressed out about having to buy and sell. I agreed, it's a lot to handle one, much less both at the same time.
I felt much better, and learned a couple of things for myself:
Title Company Dave brought in Panera pastries during his customer service rounds. Queen Bee was lamenting to me that this isn't WW friendly, that he didn't bring fruit, and we talked about how much we would have preferred fresh fruit - which he doesn't bring any more.
I went back to my desk and about 10 or 15 minutes later, walked by the boxes of Panera, and she had already taken half of a muffin top. Yep.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
Yes, i was just thinking relatively a short while ago of the advice that it's very important to "make peace" with yourself and love yourself as you currently are. like, that woman who posted the knee fat / knee musculature on facebook. bodies and muscles just don't change overnight and some in fact is genetics. but changes take a long time and also we cannot just "change our jobs / lifestyles" and we have to learn how to be content with our work so far, the bodies we have.
i have cellulite on the back of my legs - not big on muscle as you know on my legs. and i just know that in the summer i'll walk at beach and be happy with where i am at. you know, you have to love yourself for what you do to work your body and make it how you'd like. but, the worst thing is to wake up and hate yourself and that's why you exercise.
be happy your legs work and that your body can do the types of exercise you use to keep it conditioned. after all the work is done, you have to accept so far where you are at. nobody is critiquing your legs or any other part as much as you would.
this is the same for me. have to learn to love even the parts that are imperfect and more than we'd like.
LOL Panera pastries. since when is any pastry exactly diet friendly. they must be quite large.
So yesterday, I finally managed to get caught up. The day was exhausting, busy, chaotic... and then at the very end, one of our clients - who was spazzing out all day about her transactions - crapped all over me, accusing me of not caring about her closings. Just great. So after all that hard work, I get to go home and feel like crap.
It is getting to the point where it's just not worth it, but I know that any other job that deals with people has the same kind of crap, too. What is wrong with people?
I've been witnessing another work drama at a nonprofit that my boss is involved in. The director lady has dedicated her life to this organization, only to be fired in the end. I get it. I mean, she's 81, has been missing a few things, missed the deadline for a $ 40000 grant. My point is, you can't give too much of yourself to your job because in the end, they'll break your heart -- every time.
I apologize for this entry this morning, as it's not really weight loss related. I will try to write a new entry that is more goal focused, later today or tonight, but if I don't have time, I'll write tomorrow after weigh-in.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
Not everyone treats everyone respectfully..like hello!?...Ricky!? he's so rude to the public.
don't expect to be treated well by everyone...and when they do rude things to you, try to realize they've got the problem, rather than go home feeling sour.
you are right! there's always work drama. just observe it and keep working. if you keep quiet, the drama will not be about you, most of the time.
i've been in several industries, and teaching it seems, by far, was the LEAST dramatic. probably bc i spent only 4 years there.
but there's drama everywhere. best way to avoid it is to lay low. let the big mouths be big mouths, even if they are wrong.
it's just not worth it...unfortunately, to teach anyone any lessons otherwise, especially as in trying to teach a bully. bullies are bullies forever. now i'm just speaking in general, not to you, but from my own experiences.
life is short. remember that work is work...and that those people are not necessarily who you'd choose as friends - same as your clients. and they aren't acting like your friends.
Sometimes, it seems like every time you try to be positive, there is someone just around the corner ready to take you down a notch or two. Chin up! Life will be better the faster you can let it go without letting it get to you.
Weight training never happened last night. Long story short, I ended up staying late (again) yesterday to finish opening up new files. I am quite pleased to say that all of our files are opened up. I just have to order 2 titles, and then Nice Lady can contact the clients to welcome them.
This peace of mind was totally worth the tradeoff, except that then we didn't finish up dinner until 8p! That's why no weights.
So what will I do tonight? I missed upper body last night? Do I do lower body tonight? Or a shortened combo program? My daughter is home today and wanted to spend time with me tonight by running some errands. And then, there's the possiblity that I'll have more contracts to open today! I think I will opt to forego weights and overtime in order to come home and spend time with my family. These days with any kids home are getting more and more limited. I want to seize them while I can.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
good job finishing your work and getting organized! i know exactly how nice that feels!
Pulling back.... I am now finished with my supply of fat bombs and not making more. I seem to be running into issues in the evening wanting a lot of dessert. This is turning into an ongoing problem, so I'm going to start working on it.
I want to be a mindful eater, in food choices and at the pace in which I eat. That's going to be my new focus and goal.
Work: it was disheartening to receive 3 more contracts. Will I ever catch up? Nice Lady offered to help, so I have her reaching out to clients to welcome them and getting more information and answer any questions they have now at the beginning. I am grateful for this, as it is out of my comfort zone and it can also be very time consuming.
If I get no more contracts today, I should be able to catch up completely on new files.
I found a huge error Mistakes Girl has been making on all files on a very important deadline date. I will need to show her what she's missing and then figure out a way to correct her procedure so that this doesn't happen again moving forward. It could bite us/me hard if we miss this in the future.
Male Coworker started harping on me yesterday about opening up these new files. I said, Working on it! He is out of the office for the remainder of the week. In fact, this morning, it's just me, the Boss, and Queen Bee, whenever she decides to show up. (She usually comes in at about 9:30a.)
Tonight is upper body weights. Hopefully, I will have the time and energy.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
Mindful eating is a good habit. I am sooo not even close with that!
Great job on getting thru your work and i'm glad that you are getting some help from nice lady! awesome!
yeah, in order to fix mistakes you've gotta explain it to the person making them or they'll just keep happening!
Have fun doing upper body. Do an extra rep for me, ok!?
i always have better weights sessions when i'm well rested...hence my eagerness to get to bed early tonight to have a great workout tomorrow!
This reminds me that I can discuss joining a gym with the family tonight at dinner. My son's training was the only thing motivating anyone else going to the gym. Now that he's gone, no one goes. I wish I could go, but I have no membership... and no time.
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Cantaloupe sounds nice with a chicken salad ! Wayyy better than typical cottage cheese ?!
I am also missing veggies and will find some for dinner ! Oh, I just realized I have tons of cabbage at home ! Woohoo ! That’s what I’ll have :)
Try a few more weeks of the iron pills before giving up.
If you don’t enjoy the chair yoga - or it’s stressful on a Friday, skip it. It’s your life and be true to yourself even before your husband I think !
Sounds like we both indulged in dinner last night :)
I do not have a choice with the iron pills unless we can find the source. I'm having the double scope to see if I've got internal bleeding in the GI tract.
I asked the doctor, "How do you know the anemia isn't just diet-related?" and she said that the numbers are too low for this issue to be just food-related (and frankly, I agree because I do eat a lot of dark green leafy vegetables and red meat).
I will write more about yoga in today's entry, but you're right - it's OK to give myself permission to skip chair yoga!
Maria7 on 04/07/2019:
Hoping you feel better. Congratulations on maintaining so well. Happy for you. Hope you have a good day.