Donkey is back - after a hiatus of, what, 3 years or so? It's been so long that I'm "new" to many of the DDer's here.
Now that I've most of the other areas in my life back on track, now it's time to turn back to my health. And even if the rest of my life isn't all that under control, I realized that I can't delay addressing the extra weight (and the problems that go along with that) any longer.
So one of my resolutions has been to be more accountable and not allowing myself to slip into denial about the current state of my weight/health.
Plan of attack: start exercising by using the exercise bike I have in the basement until the outdoor weather improves. Drink water at every meal. Portion control, starting with no second helpings.
I find myself in the habit of taking second helpings to prolong the dinner hour I have with my family. Especially during the week, when I work late, I cherish the time I spend with the husband (if he's not sleeping) and my teenagers at dinner, but once everyone's done eating, the magical time is done. So I keep eating to extend the "magic". This is not a healthy thing to do.
Unlike 2015, I'm feeling anxious about 2016, but inaction or status quo isn't going to help alleve any apprehension, so now is the time to start.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 31.5 lbs to go!
I wish I had gotten a chance to log on a couple of days ago when I was so sick of being at this larger weight. I really could have used the vent....
So Husband, who has a form of rheumatoid arthritis, FINALLY made an appointment with a rheumatologist in December who told him the first thing on Husband's agenda needs to be to lose 100lbs. OK? OK. We decide to go into it together because I have about 50lbs to lose myself. We gradually start the last week of December and by January 1st, we're in the low carb groove.
I decide that I'm going to weigh in on the 1st and 15th (approx.) of every month to monitor my progress. OK? OK.
Husband does the same thing. He has lost 29lbs.
I weigh in: I have lost 0.5lbs.
What??? WHAT????? OMG half a pound in two weeks??? Really??? And I think the only reason why I "lost" that half a pound is because dinner was stinky fish the night before and I didn't eat much of it.
Wow. IDK but losing only half a pound makes me rethink if I should have gone ahead and had that chocolate, etc. I mean, I was maintaining while eating a bunch of crap. And now that I'm eating healthy, I'm still maintaining!!!!!!
Meanwhile, Husband is complaining that his pants keep falling off his ass. Who's the REAL Donkey now?
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 47.5 lbs to go!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!
Happy New Year...
Today was weigh-in day -- I weigh in once a month when I volunteer at the legal clinic. My philosophy is that since I see these people only once a month, they will be sure to notice any weight I've lost.
Of course, with only 2.5 pounds lost, nobody noticed today -- ha ha -- but I was glad to get the 2 pounds OFF that I had added back ON after a week of stress eating. I want to look forward to being in the 160's at next weigh-in.
I started classes this past week. I hope that this semester is less depressing than last semester. Last semester I cried every night. Seriously. This was situational and not depression, although the situation was very depressing, if that makes sense. I leave work early 2 of the 3 days that I am there so that I can get to class on time. Monday night will be the first test of my nerves because I go from the law firm directly to school and don't get home until 10:30p. So I am away from home from 8am-10:30p. I don't like that.
I was very heartened to receive a phone call today from the teacher of the ESL class I have been volunteering with. I like her a lot and I think she likes me; we work well together, that is. But she understands that I am busy with my schooling, so she asked me if I would be able to help with her classes this semester. I told her that I did not receive any sign-up sheets so I guess I was out of the volunteer program.
Let me tell you, it really hurts when you are REJECTED from VOLUNTEERING.
The teacher told me, though, that I was already signed up for Wednesdays. Well, I cannot make it Wednesdays, but I could make it Thursdays. So even though I had chalked it up to "God's Will" when I thought I was rejected, I am happy to be re-included and agreed to help out. Do I have the time to do this? Not really, but I figure if I am more disciplined with my time, spending LESS time on Facebook, I should be fine. The problem is that now I'm addicted to Words With Friends, thanks to Alec Baldwin.
Anyway, being busy keeps me away from the refrigerator, hopefully, and keeps my spirits up >>> very important for weight loss.
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 35 lbs to go!
I have not given up!
I've been trying to get a handle on the stress eating, and I think it's been working a little bit. Probably relying on that evening glass of wine (or 2) a little too much though. So that's the next thing to cut out, and more water is the thing to bring in.
I will weigh in this Saturday. I volunteer at a legal clinic that meets once a month on a Saturday. This Saturday is Legal Clinic Saturday. Since I see these people only once a month, I thought it would be cool to monitor my progress that way. But with the recent rise in stress eating last week, I don't think I will have lost any weight.
Classes have started. I think I will be OK. If nothing else, it gets me out of the law firm early. On the other hand, there's less time to get work done at the firm. It's always a double-edged sword... They are forecasting a snow storm tomorrow all day, so I anticipate that my 1 hour commute home will be extended to around 2 hours. Isn't that a joy to look forward to?
I've been having problems with my foot with plantar fasciitis again. This is even WITHOUT being active :-( I wish I could keep this in the forefront of my thoughts before I reach for something to eat. The extra weight I'm carrying around cannot be good for my poor foot.
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 37 lbs to go!
As long as you don't give up, that's what matters. Have a great day.
I do not expect a good weigh-in. I am amazed how quickly the stress eating has come back with a vengence. The mindless nibbling to cope with anxiety.... Not good, not good.
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 37 lbs to go!
My weigh-in day is Saturday morning. I did not lose any weight this week, BUT....
Friday night I came home from work and was so tired and stressed. My husband was upstairs having a bad day -- didn't even see him. He didn't come down to meet me and then he went to bed about an hour after I came home. And I was very hungry.
So I had a larger dinner, but it was very very salty. I think these two items combined, plus the fact that I weighed myself after having 2 cups of coffee and toast for breakfast, led up to the bad weigh-in.
This week is a more "normal" week as it is a full work week, so I can space out my 3 work days M/W/F instead of Tu/Th/Fr. Those consecutive days zap out my energy for sure. Now they want me to come in on Saturday OR Sunday mornings to do misc. work on the foreclosure files??? I don't know if I can justify that with a 2 hour round trip commute.... PLUS, with classes starting in 1.5 weeks..... But the extra money sure would be nice.
But all of this is an example of why I am working at losing weight this year: Because stress will always been there.
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 37 lbs to go!
i hope that you are feeling better than you did on friday, after this weekend! wishing you the best, always!
I didn't get the job.
Needless to say, I was disappointed. I was so looking forward to a short, local commute. And more independence and responsibility. I have to think that this was for the best, for whatever reasons it worked out this way.
I was very upset last night, though. Not so much that I didn't get the job, but more so because the interviewer told me (on the voice mail message she left me) that she felt that I belonged at a large firm. I really resented that. And I think that just proves that she either wasn't listening to me or didn't understand me at all, because I've already done the "large law firm downtown Chicago" thing and I'm done with that.
But this was my first major "diet test" of the year. This exemplifies my purpose for "starting over" and trying again. I could not keep putting off trying to get back to a healthier life --- or remain at the point where I continued to GAIN weight -- as a response to the stressors in my life. If it's not school and tests, it will be the internship/commute, or the learning a new job with new responsibilities, or whatever.
Believe me, after listening to that voice mail, and then sitting down to dinner (probably not the smartest choice of order to do things), I wanted to eat seconds and thirds of dinner, topped off by an ice cream dessert. And I ain't talking about no Skinny Cow dessert either!
But I didn't. I had a little extra cabbage and then I called it an early night. I'm glad I did.
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 37 lbs to go!
I had a good day today, a great way to start off the new year... Mostly drank more water and watched what I ate. The wind was just wickedly cold here today; I had to cancel my gym membership for financial reasons last year. But I'm OK with starting off with small steps.
Tonight my husband and I celebrated our wedding anniversary by going out to dinner. Our anniversary was a few days ago, but this was the best day to really have time to go out and enjoy ourselves. Unfortunately, I spent most of the evening talking about my job dilemma. I'm glad I did though because I felt better afterwards, like we were on the same page. I realize that I have more questions to ask if I am indeed offered the job. And if I'm not then I will be content with where I am at right now.
"Things that must be done are best done cheerfully."
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 37 lbs to go!
Most disappointed but not surprised with my weigh-in today. I knew that it was going to be bad by the way my clothes were fitting on me. Frankly, with the holiday, I did not do much to continue the direction of the scale. Actually I'm OK with this in respects that it brings me (almost) to my Start Weight, and if this is going to be my journey in 2012 then at least I'm starting at the very beginning (minus 1/2 poumd).
It has not been a good week. It has been very stressful. And this is the time where I should be relaxing and recharing in between semesters.
I had a job interview this week, and it went well. I would say that I think I am going to be offered the position. The problem is that it is with a lawyer who is just starting to grow her practice. I currently work part-time at a small law firm, but they are well established. They have a solid base, more benefits, etc. The problem is that I'm not very happy there. I really need to sit down and write out a list of pros and cons and then pray on the matter.
The details are not important. It's been stressful trying to decide which is the path for me. I think I would be happier in the new position, but then, maybe not, as it could end up being just as stressful as the job I'm at now. I have to be careful that I am not changing jobs because I am afraid.
Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 37 lbs to go!
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Welcome back!
Thank you!
biscottibody59 on 01/03/2016:
Good to see you back here:-)
I'm glad to be back!
Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2016:
so so so so good to see you here too (and not just on fb!) I have missed you...and will be writing more but must get ready to run out the door to work!
So happy to see you, J!
Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2016:
You have an excellent plan of attack. I also will add to really eat more veggies instead of other food. You can always have extra helpings of veggies, by the way!
If you are still wanting to sit at the table, maybe chat in the living room / den with your kids! Also, you can drink seltzer after dinner? Maybe see if you can buy something so you can make your own carbonated water ?? Maybe it would save you money over time? Hmm...lately I drink a ton of seltzer (but I buy it - but will maybe look into making it but prob not) and I add extra stevia in - it tastes just like a fruit drink! drinking it now, in fact!
I wish some others would come back...like rlovell...and some others. miss them too...
yeah, being accountable helps. I was very unaccountable for a long time - so my weight didn't change! I never changed my calories (blaming my weight only on lack of exercise when I should have adjusted what I was eating to lose the weight) and now i'm learning how to readjust to lower calories. I'm getting better at it.
it's all relearning the good habits and dropping the poor ones. for me as well!
Yes, trying to arm myself with more veggies or fruit, as a second choice.