I should be unpacking or cleaning, but since I'm online anyway, I'll post an entry. I weighed in this morning at 137.0, so my weight continues to come back down from the "moving weight" I put on.
I also managed to get my butt out the door and walk. I thought I had walked longer than I actually did, though because when I returned home, I saw that I was gone barely 30 minutes. I found a bike path that I can walk tomorrow though. It has been shoveled/plowed. I realize though that I am a gym person at heart. I need to get to the point in unpacking & living where I feel comfortable seeking out a new gym.
My "woman" problem continues to improve, although it is still not 100%.
Them durned cats kept me up all night again. Bouncing, jumping, hacking up a hairball, not so much crunching though. I am hoping that this is because things are still new for them. But both Husband and I agree that something has GOT to change here, because this is ridiculous.
I'm planning on having a big salad for lunch. It has been about a month since I've had a salad. YUM!
EVENING EDIT: I got a substantial amount of unpacking done today. I have 12 boxes of various sizes left, and half of them say "books" on them. I still have lots of cleaning although I did do some of that today too. But I figure cleaning will never be done. So I made a deal with myself that once I am done unpacking, I can go shopping for a new gym. Probably next week.
I did very well eating-wise again today. Not so good on the water intake. I'm almost out of cranberry juice. I'm still working at the water though. I guess I'll be up all night anyway with the cats, so I might as well go to the bathroom while I'm awake.
We attended Ash Wednesday services today, looking for a new church. OMG, the church we went to was 3x the size of my old church! Holy ****** my daughter couldn't even see the priest! Everyone but me liked it. I'm ok with it, but I miss the intimacy of my smaller church in my old town. Unfortunately, it's too far away to drive to that church. Besides, most of my neighbors go to St. Mary's, so I figure we should too. My husband is open to visiting 2 or 3 more churches though, before making a final decision. I think I'd like to do that. I managed to not eat meat, and while I did not fast -- because for me, fasting triggers bingeing, which defeats the whole purpose of fasting for Ash Wednesday in the first place -- I did well on portions.
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Oh what a day and it is not even evening yet.
First of all, let me just say that one of the disadvantages of having hardwood floors and vaulted ceilings in the same house is that if you own cats, you will be awakened many times throughout the night with the noise from their nighttime mischief. I never knew that cats crunched their kibble so LOUDLY. And of course, there are 4 of them, and they all have to eat at separate times throughout the night. Then came hours of chasing, jumping, scratching (?), meowing, and spatting. Needless to say I did not get much sleep last night.
Because of this lack of sleep, I neglected to weigh-in this morning. I just reached for that cup of coffee this morning to wake myself up. The good news is that I have my Thinner scale and my Tanita scale upstairs in the bathroom. I may be giving my Thinner scale to a friend, although it is much kinder to me than the Tanita. And personally, I think the Tanita scale is full of It because it says that I have been gaining like 4 lb of muscle in a week. No, I don't *think* so.
Secondly, I am tired of having strange men coming into my house. Today the furniture men came and I don't know what happened, but the wood floors in my son's bedroom have a huge scratch (in a very interesting geometric pattern, I must say) on it. Damn! Please pardon my language, I mean no offense; but that really hurts. Fortunately, his bed covers up the area that is scratched. I think it is too big of an area to be repaired with touch-up stuff.
And even this wouldn't be so bad except that my husband is working overtime tonight, so he won't be home until after 7p. He has been having a bad day, I have been having a bad day. I did not get a walk in, today -- another d*mn! So my day has been stress filled as well. I can only hope that my kids had GREAT days at school. Otherwise, I say, let's call it a day and go to bed at 4:30p.
On top of ALL of this, I seem to be battling some kind of infection or irritation. I will spare you all the unpleasant details except to say that it is a "woman" problem. So I have been drinking cranberry juice (actually, I dilute it with water 1:3, so I am drinking plenty of water), eating yogurt and trying to remain calm, because when I stress out, it hurts more.
The BEST part about today is how wonderful I will feel tomorrow morning waking up to a new day and a fresh start. I do hope I will be able to go for a walk/jog tomorrow. I am really going to try hard to do so.
At any rate, the reason why I am writing this NOW is because if I don't, I will be eating. So I figured it would be better to write in my Dear Donkey Diet Diary than to eat. And I do feel a little better now.
EVENING EDIT: I have done pretty well today, considering all the stress. I am a stress eater extraordinaire, so I am pleased. Of course, my husband isn't home yet to see the big gouge in the floors.
I hope to remember to weigh in tomorrow. If I could be at my starting weight, then I would be cool with that. Sad, isn't it...
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
And believe me, if you think having hardwood floors can be an inconvenience, imagine what it's like to live in the apartment below an apartment with hardwood floors! I can't sleep for the sound of the neighbour clomping around in her high-heeled shoes at all hours of the night! And when she drops something on the floor it could wake the dead!
Thanks for your comment. You're right, I did come back all sweaty after running on my lunch break, and that was kind of a problem. I normally don't sweat much but it was kind of sunny yesterday. I had to clean up as best as I could at the sink. But don't forget that I'm in France so I was probably still cleaner than the average person here, haha!!
It's a bit early to be logging in but I thought I should grab the opportunity while I had the chance.
Today I returned to the old house and got my old scale. It is still in the trunk of my car though. I am stuck here all day tomorrow until the furniture people come -- and they only give a delivery time "window" of 4 hours. So I figure I will do more unpacking and cleaning tomorrow, with what's in my car, etc.
At any rate, I spent nearly 3 hours cleaning 3 bathrooms (but not showers) in our old home. Yuck. When i returned home, my husband had cleared out a lot of empty boxes in the family room.
I"m still doing very well eating wise, but again, I did not get out and walk or run. I'll get back into exercise soon enough. I weighed in at 139.0 today on my Tanita scale. Since my weight is continuing to progress downward -- now that we're not eating out any more! -- I will not change my progress bar.
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Today went very well eating-wise. Hooray!!! Ate in moderation, had 3 meals, 1 snack, and 1 dessert. I have decided I am going to try to follow the principles of "You on a Diet", which is a lot like South Beach Diet, with more of an emphasis on regular exercise and a little more flexibility on the carbs.
Ironically, speaking of exercise, I never did get to my intended walk today. My outdoor gym shoes are still at my old house, as is my old scale (name brand: Thinner). So I guess I will weigh in on my new scale (name brand: Tanita) tomorrow. I weighed in on Saturday and I was at 141.6, sad to say. I plan to return to our old house to pick up some things, including my shoes and my scale. I'm also hoping to do a little cleaning while I'm there but I don't want to spend a lot of time there. I want to come back home.
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Happy Gym shopping! I hope your able to find a nice gym to suite your needs by March 1st!
It's good to be back! I had written a nice summary of the past few days' events only to be kicked off the computer through a series of missteps; my entry for today was lost.
Suffice it to say that it is a great relief to be moved in. There is still lots of cleaning and unpacking to be done, but we are home. The kids are happy in their new schools so far. My husband and I keep telling each other how happy we are with our new home.
Unfortunately, my weight has suffered, somewhat greatly. I won't waste much time dwelling on such negatives. Most of my weight gain is due to not enough water and too much eating out. But now that we are settling into our home, I hope (HOPE!) that we will be eating home-cooked meals again. I definitely need to start drinking more water and exercising regularly. It is a hopeful goal of mine to find a gym by March 1st, but we shall see.
It is good to be back!!
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Now that things are settling, you should be able to get back into the routine of things in no time!! Good luck!
This is my last entry until we are relocated. My husband informed me that he will be taking apart this computer when he gets home and then I do not know how long it will be before I have internet access again. On the bright side, having internet access is a high priority for my husband too, so I know he will be setting up the network before he unpacks his underwear. ("Don't worry dear, I'll do that for you.")
I can physically feel the extra weight that I have put on. I feel it especially in my hips and thighs. I can see it too, in the mirror. 10-15lb. *sigh* The good thing is that we are expecting "warmer" weather in the 30s next week and I hope to start a dedicated walking program, 30 minutes a day no matter what.
Today my husband took my son to the doctor for his ear infection. In the middle of a snow storm. His car ended up in the ditch, but thankfully there was no car damage and nobody was hurt. I went outside to shovel 3 times today. I decided not to drive the kids all the way to their new schools today. I think that was the only school district that had school today. Our old school district (where we are living now and will be moving from, tomorrow) did not have school today.
So this move has definitely been something: snow, cold, sickness, car accident, delays, weight gain - egads! At any rate, I do look forward to when I will be on the computer again and can truly TRULY rededicate myself to living a healthy, stable lifestyle.
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
You haven't been having the best time of it. I hope the move goes well and your son is feeling better! Ear infections are not very pleasant for the little ones!
I do think you should take a day to relax after this move!!
Hang in there and good luck with your move!
So Day 11 is as far as I got. Had a binge last night. I think this just proves to me that I cannot let my guard down, especially during this stressful time of moving.
On top of all this moving chaos, my daughter takes my husband's "Maybe you can have a sleepover before we move" suggestion to heart and makes sleepover plans with a friend. Very last minute. I felt so foolish explaining to the girl's mother how this came about. The sleepover went well, though, but I had some extra food here that I normally wouldn't have otherwise (ice cream) and that was my downfall. I take full responsibility.
It just irks me to no end that my husband does this with the kids. He'll talk about things or activites and then not follow through. So the kids expect that we will be doing or getting something and then Husband is like, "Where did you get THAT idea?" and I will remind him, "You mentioned it 2 weeks ago, DEAR." I think a lot of this comes from his past, as his father was an alcoholic, and I'm sure that this kind of passive-aggressiveness happened to him all the time. ("Broken promises") I'm just thankful that I'm here to do damage control. I also explain to my husband that he CANNOT make empty promises to the kids like that, because they remember what he says and then expect some type of follow through. It's also not fair to me that he do this.
I don't mean to make Husband seem like a big jerk, because I do think he's a good dad. I just don't think he realizes that he does this, for one, and that when he does do this, he doesn't realize what the impact of his actions (or rather, inactions) are on the kids.
So while it's not healthy by any means, if the worst thing that happened last night was that I ate too much ice cream (and peanut butter), well, then I'll take it in the shorts for the sake of my family's overall sanity. This time.
Still weighed in at 136.5. If I don't see a change by tomorrow, then I will adjust the Progress Bar.
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
Day 11 is done. Unfortunately, my weight was up to 136.5 this morning on the scale. Again, I will give it a day or 2 to see if it's a water issue.
Essentially, I am in a waiting pattern until we move. Most of the food in the house is gone, although I did ask Husband to purchase some fresh fruit yesterday, so that I don't start eating old candy in the house, in search of something sweet. 2 of the 5 nectarines he bought were rotten, but he tried.
I was thinking how unfortunate it is that you are "meeting" me --- and that I am endeavoring to do a diary --- under these circumstances. I feel that this is not a good representation of my abilities (results) when I am really focused on losing weight and exercising, as I was, say 4 months ago.
I am hoping today to project a more positive attitude here at home. At least our moving date will not change again (I hope). Hopefully, it will help with the bickering between my husband and myself, which is important with the kids home now until they start school on Tuesday. I am excited for them! I am excited for all of us, starting over again.
Starting over again. I realized on Wednesday, that it took me about 3.5 years to start feeling at home in this community: school, library, church, having people who recognize you and remember you (also known as "friends"). And now I have to start over again. Meeting neighbors, making contacts, finding regular stores to shop, eventually making friends and recognizing names in the church bulletin or newspaper. And of course, finding a new gym, which is most important, right?
Your husband seems to be just as useless at grocery shopping as mine is, and that's not an easy feat. On the rare occasion that I have to ask my husband to pick something up for me, I never know what he'll bring home. Once I asked him to get a cucumber and he came home with a zucchini. Then another time I told him to get olive oil and he brought home grapeseed oil (bragging about what a great price he got)!
Thanks for your comment on my running. It's nice of you to be concerned for me!
borntocry on 02/10/2007:
Don't be silly - I am so impressed at how well you are doing under the circumstances. If I were in your shoes I wouldn't even be trying.
geevee on 02/10/2007:
You're right. I'm very fortunate to be able to get such wonderful fresh fruits and vegetables. Agriculture is one of the main industries in Florida, plus we're now getting all kinds of good things from South and Central America, like the papaya and eggplant both of which were only 50� lb. The papaya comes from Guatemala. I'm not sure about the eggplant but it is so fresh: firm and glistening.
greengirl on 02/10/2007:
Moving house is one of the most stressful of life events so bickering with your husband is normal under the circumstances. Starting over sounds an exiting prospect. Hope everything goes ok with the move and the kids new schools. Good luck!!
Workingit2 on 02/10/2007:
Aww, that is such a bummer when you find out that the fresh fruit is rotten :( I've had that happen a couple times. As far as the moving, that is one of the most stressful events I've ever seen between couples, including when I was married lol. You are doing great considering everything you are going through...soon, you'll be past all of this and doing just great!
Day 8 and 9 completed, although Thursday night was not the best example of control, after Husband and I got into an arguement. We used to have very heated exchanges but now I just walk away, even if it means no dinner with the family. I had "stuff" to eat afterwards and one thing kind of led to another. But then it stopped.
Believe it or not, I was supposed to be moving into my new house today. That got changed to Monday and then yesterday, the appointment was changed to Wednesday. Unfortunately, I have already made arrangements with the new schools for the kids to start on Tuesday. So Monday, they will be home for no apparent reason, then Tuesday, I will drive them 1 hour to their new schools and get them situated. Then in the afternoon, I will drive down the house and meet the kids at the bus stop. And this would be fine too, except that the kids' pick-up and drop-off time differs by 30+ minutes.
Wednesday, too, I will have to drive them down to either the school or the bus stop, but that's ok, because it will get me out of having to be at the old house for the moving van.
Some day, indeed, I will be settled in my new house. This is very frustrating and aggravating, to say the least.
Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!
I find when my hubby is tired and grumpy that I, ofcourse, get the brunt of his moods. He doesn't even realize how grumpy and nasty he can be to me when he's tired and stressed. I don't really feel like its fair that our hubbies take everything out on us!! Do you find you get the same?! I feel so upset lately because we don't normally fight. I don't like to argue and especially infront of the kids, they don't need to hear that!! I have also found myself just removing myself when he wants to pick fights, I'm exhausted and fed up with it. I left the dinner table the other night also just so my kids wouldn't have to listen to us carrying on for no reason!!!
Lately, I just feel myself pulling away from him more and more. I just don't have the energy and he has no idea how much he hurts my feelings when he treats me like this. How can he not see how he is acting towards me?!
Anyway, enough about that!! Its great that you have successfully completed day 8 and 9!! I hope today gets better for you. Hang in there!
Day 7 of Mission completed and I'm about to finish Day 8 with no bingeing. Today was difficult. I realized with registering the children today at their new school that I would be starting over again. The lady at the registration office said, "I noticed you don't have anyone listed for an emergency contact for the children. Is this correct?" to which I had to say, sadly, "Yes, we don't know anyone around here."
These schools, this community, the church --- they seem so massive! Well, they are, in comparison to my sleepy little town here. On the drive home, all of this realization hit me. It's a little scary (a lot scary) and I have to put on a brave face for the kids. I don't dare express my doubts/fears to my husband because he will see it as criticism on his part. I don't think they are real doubts, but just fears of the unfamiliar.
I am still coughing something awful. A hot shower and bed await me. I weighed in this morning, thinking I'd be down a bit. So imagine how discouraged I was to discover that I had gained a pound. I believe this is only temporary and I will re-evaluate tomorrow before changing my progress bar.
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I think its normal to feel scared and even overwhelmed with change. I think once everybody gets settled in and you get into your new groove, you will feel better. Its very stressful just to move, not to mention to move to a whole new town with nobody familiar around. I would be "a lot scared" also!!
How are your kids with the move, are they excited or nervous? My daughter has such a little circle of friends both at school (she's in grade 1) and also on our street that I know she would be very upset to move. My son just doesn't like any kind of change!! We were hoping to move before my son started school but since he is starting this Sept. that's not going to happen. We had planned on moving this spring but with my hubby starting his own company and everything we just feel like we need to wait it out a little and make sure everything goes well before we make a move.
I love were we live but we want to buy a larger, fully detached home. We currently own a Semi-detached house.
Great job on another successful day with no bingeing!! Your doing very well with everything that is going on. Its hard to stay on track when so much is going on, you have done very well keeping your eating under control!
I'm sorry your still not feeling well. I hope that hot shower and a good nights sleep makes you feel better tomorrow morning! Take Care!
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Yes, much as I try to appreciate the outdoors, I think I am also a "gym person" at heart. Hope you can find a new one soon!
greengirl on 02/21/2007:
Salad sounds good. Enjoy!!!
WorkingIt2 on 02/21/2007:
LOL cats can be noisy creatures. Happy that your moving weight is going down and that you found a nice path! Take care =)
Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/21/2007:
its good your husband is open to visiting some more churches. you should be comfortable wherever you go!!! ...you know i'm only kidding with you, when i call you "the donkey," lol, in my journal entry. I love your frank comments...they do me some good! THANK YOU!!!
hollybelle on 02/22/2007:
You are so smart to realize that the fasting triggers the binge. It took me a long time to realize that. I kind of have an "all or nothing" personality if I don't watch out for that type of thinking. Sounds like the moving in process is moving along. About the bigger church - Not sure of your child(ren) age(s) but we have found that there are a lot more activities (church related) in the bigger church. That can be a good thing. I prefer exercising in a group, too, but I have adjusted to not goign to a gym. since teaching aerobics for so long (14 years) and I am very social person I found it more energizing to workout at a gym. Hope you find a new one soon.