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Donkey - Thursday Jun 03, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 Yesterday, I felt that I had a very well-balanced eating day for weight loss & muscle gain.  My fat/protein/carb ratios were a little off, but I met my calorie goal.  I could have eaten more - I WANTED to eat more, but I didn't feel deprived.  I was just slightly "munchy".  This is what an appropriate calorie deficit feels like.  

However, today is a different story.  I did not prepare the hard boiled eggs I've been eating for 1st breakfast, so I reverted back to my peanut butter wrap.  I could/should have switched out 1st breakfast and 2nd breakfast, but that peanut butter was calling my name.  So I think I'll have a protein shake for 2nd breakfast today, and then I plan to come home for lunch, to FORCE myself to take a break.

EDIT:  I was reading in my women's weight lifting group that other members have had some problems with food tracking apps (all of them) - that they can contribute to disordered eating.  I do not want this to be me.  I know I'm very enthusiastic about the Lose It app right now but only because I'm finding it to be so helpful and eye-opening.  Still, I will head caution.


Yesterday,  I felt like I could NOT catch up, until, at 4:15pm, I realized, I'm pretty much all caught up.  Still, I stayed late to check on Mistake Girl's work for mistakes -- and yes, there were a few glaring mistakes that would have caused me angst in about 5 days...  Daughter had an early dinner break, so I didn't feel too bad about not working late and missing her.  Maybe I'll see her today, when I come home for lunch :-)

I was dealing with a toxic client for most of the afternoon.  She was blaming me (or our office) for not helping her, when she is clearly in the wrong.  We can help you, but not when you're wrong.  She failed to plan accordingly and is now blaming me/us for not being able to make her wishes come true.  I told Associate Attorney to deal with it, please.  I'll be done with her after June 11th.


Today is leg day for weights.  I did my morning routine, and so hopefully I will be motivated enough to do more leg weights this evening.  I can always redo what I did this morning if I'm finding my motivation lacking.  

On days that I do weights at home, I cut my bike ride by 10 minutes.  You know, I'm thinking about doing that anyway.  It will still be a good bike ride, and it will help balance out my morning time a little better.  

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/03/2021:
The client sounds as annoying as hell! Hope the attorney handles her.

You need one of my cute turquoise egg makers! Thanks for the reminder. Haven’t used it in a few months. Does 7 eggs at a time. I like to slice them and cover with hot sauce. Not too much though. Stuff hot and salty.

Donkey on 06/03/2021:
I do need one of those egg makers. My husband can make eggs in the Foodie, but that's way too complicated for me. Plus I don't want to make 12 hard boiled eggs at once. I usually make 4 at a time, to last me over 2 days.

I got mine ready for tomorrow!


horn_of_plenty on 06/03/2021:
will write more, but, no the gym will not help with rush hour. i leave work at 3:30 and that is rush hour already...! haha it only gets WORSE...will write back to your entry today.

Donkey on 06/03/2021:
^ Got it. One of our main roads that connects most of the towns, heading south, the rush hour starts at 2:30pm when school gets out. If you are on the road any later than 3pm, the commute is 10x more difficult. I thought that was a joke until I got stuck on that road at 4pm. That is why going to the gym straight from work doesn't work for me -- no backroads to take.


Jacky82020 on 06/04/2021:
You don’t have to do the whole 7 eggs at one time. You could easily do less and they’ll cook quicker.

Donkey on 06/04/2021:
I was JUST going to ask that!!! I'm having 2 hard boiled eggs right now, and as I was peeling the shells, I was like, "I wonder if I'd have to make all 7 eggs..." I think I have something to add to my Santa list.


horn_of_plenty on 06/04/2021:
great planning with food and it's ok to enjoy the pb wrap SOME days. remember, it's not supposed to be 100% deprivation. do a balance between some days with pb wrap and some without. you also will not get bored....this is something i have learned. that's why i'm doing pumpkin pie (1/8th) for breakfast. i'm giving myself mostly what i want (but hoping it doesn't send me into diabetes later)...and i think that my portions are relatively ok and that it shouldn't have too bad effect yet on my health. with all the prepared foods, it's a lot of salt, but, since i do no have issues yet, i'm letting it slide...not the smartest, but, i figure i'm ok right now - at least i eat my veggies, i tell myself. i'm not aiming for 100% eating for health. my goal is just to enjoy my eating as for many years i challenged myself and hurt myself with food - i can finally eat fast food without binges, so, i'm just enjoying that feat i've overcome.

you are going into that app with more knowledge than most users. i do not think it will resort to an eating disorder in your case because you are going into it with both knowledge and experience.

like you, i'm motivated to get my strength/weights workouts in. I've resorted back to mornings for upper body right now - as it's a real pain to do upper body at night because it ends up taking me a long time to get it done as i waste the night away on it. cardio though, if weather is nice, can be done leisurely for me after work...i feel that walking/biking/even the stepper is a nice thing more for the evenings.

in terms of legs, i am considering doing them in the AM also, along with some bike.

Donkey on 06/04/2021:
Yesterday turned out quite well, so I think it was a good lesson. With the high fat breakfast (peanut butter), I had a protein shake for my 2nd breakfast which ended up balancing out things quite nicely.

Right now, I realize I'm a little enthusiastic and focused on the app; I appreciate your words of support. I don't think it will become an obsession. I expect you to call me out on that!

Weights in the AM seem to be the way for me to go too. I need that bike ride in the morning, to stretch out the kinks in my hips and back --- but I think I spend too much time on the bike.



Donkey - Wednesday Jun 02, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

It dawned on my last night that I've already formulated my June goal, without even realizing it, which is to track my food for a whole month on the Lose It app.  So, this is kind of a repeat of my May goal, but with better tools, mindset, and feedback.  According to Lose It, I should reach my weight-loss goal by the middle of October. I'm not too worried about that, but just want a better appearance.  Yes, it may be vanity, but I want to show off my arm muscles!  Otherwise, my arms just look big, which is NOT what I want.  A little muscle definition in the legs wouldn't be a bad thing either...

I read this lady's story in a Facebook group, how she was working out 6 days a week for 2 hours at a time and was "stuck".  So she stopped exercising for a month, just to focus on eating.  WOW!  That's kind of where I'm at, although I don't think I'm at the point where I need to stop exercising.  I was going to send her a "friend" request until I checked out her FB feed/page, just to see that I think she's either selling a product or a program.  Her entire feed is "success stories" from her clients.  So I did not send a friend request, but I AM glad that she posted her story.  I'm not alone!

I finally pretty much met my "macros" on Lose It yesterday, but completely changed up my breakfast & morning snack.  Good-bye peanut butter wraps - at least for now.  Eating too many nut products is what's causing my nutritional ratios to be off.  My daily diet has been a lot of fat -- which might be why my muslces aren't showing through???  I don't know, there are plenty of people who follow keto, and they look very chistled. 

Anyway, I have my June goal, and I'm glad about that.


Work was something else yesterday.  I tell ya, these 3-day weekends just aren't worth it in the long run.  I was very much comforted that Male Co-Worker came into work -- he had the day off on the calendar, but he decided to come in, so that he wouldn't fall farther behind.  THAT"S JUST NUTS, isn't it?  What's the point of a vacation if you're so far behind when you come back that it's painful?

Mistakes Girl had a huge drama yesterday too.  The Boss was getting on her to do yet another task, and she finally told him, I cannot do any more than what I am already doing!  (This is true.)  Also, there is friction about her taking vacation time.  The Boss says that either Queen Bee or Queen Bee's mom (who worked in law firms for years but is since retired) has to come in to cover her desk.  Well, having the Mom come in is just ridiculous -- she knows nothing of our computer system, and so she would need to be taught from scratch --- and nobody has time for that.

Our work flow system is broken.  My husband pointed out that we've acquired 2 more attorneys and lost 2 assistants.  THAT is the problem.  

Anyway, Mistakes Girl was almost in tears over not being able to take vacation, and frankly I don't blame her. If the Boss keeps this up, we're going to lose her.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 06/02/2021:
Yes, doesn't sound like a situation I would like to be in, one can only do so much! I agree taking vacation, even just a few days, you spend that much time trying to get caught up and figure out what the hell went on while you were away.

I'm glad you are tracking on the Lose It App, I hope it helps you achieve your muscle definition seeking goals.

Donkey on 06/03/2021:
I'm going to write more about Lose It today. I'm not addicted to it, by any means, but I am finding this to be an incredibly useful tool!


Horn_of_plenty on 06/02/2021:
THANK YOU for the good luck wishes on Tuesday, that was soooo thoughtful! of course with a new job, i've been away from here a bit much in terms of catching up with everyone. i'm glad i looked back!!

for the first time in a long time, now that i'm driving to work...i contemplated joining a gym, but, since i realize it's still a long day and i will prob have to wear a mask, i'm putting off the gym a bit more...but i'm considering it (like if i have trouble maintaining my weight or if i don't want to do other activities like volunteering or maybe a different season, not sure)...but the gym was sounding good as a place to go right after work the other day in my mind! LOL. i think my schedule is still too packed, but if i had a slightly shorter commute, i might consider it in the future, that's for sure.

yeah, i agree, you do not need to "stop exercising" like she did completely. you love to. you love your bike. and it's healthy.

pb sandwiches never fill me up for a long time in the AM. they are def satisfying with a coffee though....and compared to my really carby vbreakfasts, maybe i'm wrong with my initial statement - and they are a better breakfast than i thought? it's just the nut butter has a lot of calroies. even a cheese wrap could be a lighter option...if you stick to one piece of cheese (and throw in like a tomato slice?)...but like you said, i'm not a fan of veggies in the AM either...

Donkey on 06/03/2021:
I understand the temptation to join a gym! I found that exercising with the paper masks is better than most cloth masks. Also, it does take some adjusting. Here in Illinois, we don't have to wear masks IF we are fully vaccinated. I suspect that many here in this red county just don't wear a mask to defy the vaccination effort -- conspiracy theories and "don't tell me what to do" thinking. So short sighted.

On the other hand, it might just be nice to get home as soon as possible. Going to the gym after work -- would that help you avoid the evening rush hour traffic?


Horn_of_plenty on 06/02/2021:
THANK YOU for the good luck wishes on Tuesday, that was soooo thoughtful! of course with a new job, i've been away from here a bit much in terms of catching up with everyone. i'm glad i looked back!!

for the first time in a long time, now that i'm driving to work...i contemplated joining a gym, but, since i realize it's still a long day and i will prob have to wear a mask, i'm putting off the gym a bit more...but i'm considering it (like if i have trouble maintaining my weight or if i don't want to do other activities like volunteering or maybe a different season, not sure)...but the gym was sounding good as a place to go right after work the other day in my mind! LOL. i think my schedule is still too packed, but if i had a slightly shorter commute, i might consider it in the future, that's for sure.

yeah, i agree, you do not need to "stop exercising" like she did completely. you love to. you love your bike. and it's healthy.

pb sandwiches never fill me up for a long time in the AM. they are def satisfying with a coffee though....and compared to my really carby vbreakfasts, maybe i'm wrong with my initial statement - and they are a better breakfast than i thought? it's just the nut butter has a lot of calroies. even a cheese wrap could be a lighter option...if you stick to one piece of cheese (and throw in like a tomato slice?)...but like you said, i'm not a fan of veggies in the AM either...


Horn_of_plenty on 06/02/2021:
sounds like your boss is not addressing the current staffing issue and maybe not even noticing or slow to notice.

Donkey on 06/03/2021:
It's a delicate balance. Hiring a new person cuts into his profits. Also, when (if) things slow down over the colder months, as they should, then having an extra person would just be... well, extra.


innerpeace on 06/03/2021:
Have you ever considered an intern or volunteer to do the menial tasks that need to be done are time consuming but take no real brain matter? We have student volunteers over the summer, those that are taking meteorology courses and want to do weather - they do data entering and data collection for projects and get the lay of the land for what it is they want to do. Of course they have shadowing days and sit with the meteorologist and watch what they do. Just a suggestion. But then again the learning curve - would probably be time consuming...so never mind! I would make Queen Bee's mom do it....i'll stop now. I hope you have a better day.



Donkey - Tuesday Jun 01, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

New month, new goals -- except that I haven't made any new goals for myself this time.  To be honest it never occurred to me.  I *DID* come up with something new, but I can't do it until I get less busy at work...  At least that's my determination at this time.

As part of my gym membership, I have access to some classes, one of which is focused on upper body.  It meets 2x a week, but I could only do the 1 class on Thursday nights, at 6pm.  I would have to struggle to leave work exactly at 5pm, to get to the gym in time for class.  Theoretically, I could slip into the yoga class that follows the upper body class, too... It would make for a mighty long day, especially if I did both classes, and not spending much time with Husband, unless he met me at the gym to do his own thing.

Definitely noticed a change in the quality of sleep I get on nights that I have to worry about waking up for work the next day.  I woke up before my alarm and definitely heard my alarm go off today.

I know it will be a busy day at work.  These long weekends end up not being worth it, most of the time.  Well, I'd better be going...

 

GOOD LUCK TO HORN TODAY ON HER NEW JOB!   

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/01/2021:
New gym classes sound great!!!!!

Donkey on 06/02/2021:
I'm hoping that maybe I might make a friend or 2... And get some ideas for my at-home upper body weights, too.


happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
Gym date night sounds good!

Donkey on 06/02/2021:
That is a GREAT idea!!!!!


happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
I like that you start new goals every month!!! Makes it cleaner… I get frustrated or have a new idea and just change my goal willy nilly.

Donkey on 06/02/2021:
Thank you! I realized that I found my new goal, even though it wasn't intentional. I'm going to write more about it today.



Donkey - Monday May 31, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/01/2021:
Is the cat fat or is it an optical illusion? One of mine porked up from 11 to 15.5 pds in the last year or so. The other 2 are both ~11 pds. I’m am no longer allowing unlimited kibble. They get wet food in the AM and kibble from 4-8 PM, then I take the bowls away.


happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
Ha. The cat I got my mom was ridiculously fat when my dad was feeding him… he was a bowling ball with feet



Donkey - Monday May 31, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

I was having some problems with the website earlier this morning.  I am hoping I can post this entry.  Grr...

Today feels odd.  It definitely does not feel like a Monday, and yet, it is not a Sunday either.  The gray sky does not help, but it is warming up and will be a pleasant day, temperature-wise. It is a solomn day of rememberence, and yet, I am also grateful just to have the day off.

I did not sleep well.  I did not check  my sleep score on my FitBit, but after having a week in the 90% range, last night was a fail.  I had to get up to go go the bathroom around 2:30am, and then had a difficult time falling back asleep.  My stomach was sitting heavy, probably from the meat that I ate at dinner.  Oof!  Woke up very tired-- never heard my alarm go off, which is troublesome for tomorrow morning.  I'm not sure if it's allergies or dry eye or strain or what, but my eyes have felt irritated and unfocused all weekend.  The eye problems contribute to feeling more tired as well.

I plan to go to the gym today, to get out of the house while the cleaning ladies are here.  After I am done posting here, I will start picking up and clearing out, so that they can clean better. That's my plan but my right hip is nagging me.  IDK, we'll see.  If I go, it's cardio only - at least I think so.  I might try some machines that I haven't tried before, depending on how busy it is...  I could opt to stay at home, in the basement, and watch a movie and cuddle with any willing cats, too.  So we'll see what wins out.  Right now, my mindset is going to the gym.

I am happy to annouce that yesterday -- I finished my "black cat in the library" puzzle.  1000 pieces!  I will try to post a picture of it here later today, if the site cooperates and IF I can figure out how to do it.  Woo-hoo!

 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/31/2021:
i still do not think your protein is too low, but, i'd do research before overstating it... i doubt that's the reason for your hair either... maybe just genetics / age? I have also noticed my hair thinning in a particular part of my scalp, too. it's in the front, near my part. it's not noticeable as much to others, but i see it well. i did buy something, a serum, but haven't used it enough / not religiously or with the right frequency regularly. will work on it. though, i do not think it'd help. i should look into shampoos, maybe? though, they might mess up my keratin. it's something to think about for later, for me. then again, we have no idea what people really are doing with hair loss - i'm sure many celebrities get extensions, etc and we do not know..my honest opinion there..

i had glitches today too on the website, but i'm so glad the kinks were out by later in the AM because i really wanted to write down all the thoughts circulating in my brain for the past few days! haha

same here, it has def felt more like a monday or extra day but not a sunday, either. it's been SO NICE. it warmed up here too, from something rather cold this AM. so thankful we are heading back into warmer territory this week!

i'm really sorry you aren't sleeping well. i am not having that problem hardly ever this year. i slept enormous amounts all weekend, i'm sure due to some emotional drained aspect of my week.

sometimes it's good to have more meat at dinner or meat in general. i def crave it every so often and feel good when i eat it as there's the iron and just other compounds in meat that are not in poulty the same way or flavor. i like to also switch between foods and not eat the same thing day in and day out.

your puzzle came out so well, i would NOT enjoy doing it at all. i can see how relaxing it can be to work on it, at your own pace, and finish. i'd rather do homework! ha!

i cuddled so much with my pigs this weekend, it was fantastic!

Donkey on 06/01/2021:
Even my "poor" sleeping is pretty good, at a strong B grade or even B+. So I probably shouldn't complain too much. :-)

The thinning hair is both genetics and age, but I do think I'm not getting enough protein. Trying something different today.



Donkey - Sunday May 30, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Good morning!  Knowing that I have tomorrow off has made this morning feel a little surreal.  Just enjoying the morning.

I started tracking my food using the Lose It app -- thank you, Inner Peace!  From yesterday alone, I can see 2 things:

  1. I don't always eat enough calories - even to lose weight -  which is probably why I end up having food fits every now. 
  2. I don't get enough protein - at least not during the weekends.  (During the work week, I try to make my afternoon snack a source of protein, which I am sure helps.)

But I'm not making any radical changes until I have a week worth of stats, at least.


It suddenly dawned on me yesterday that there was a time in my past when I would have been very happy to have the body that I have now.  My 186 pound self would be very happy with my 145-pound self of today.  And, without sounding vain, I realize that there are other women who would like to have my body as well.  Women with physical pain, skin issues, etc.  I have a pretty much well-functioning body, healthy, muscular, etc.

The flaws that I see in myself would be forgiveable to (some) others.  Is my body "perfect"?  Not by any stretch - I have cellulite, thick legs, the "mother's apron", strech marks.  I've lived a life.  

What I'm try to say is that it's time to appreciate what I have and not focus on what I'm not - and what I will never be. Changing my focus from negative to positive.


I had a wonderfully productive day yesterday.  I did some yardwork, fixed & filled my fallen bird feeders, laundry, and went to bed at around 9:15p.  I made significant progress with the puzzle. I went to the gym by myself and did upper body weights.  I tweaked my lower back a little bit, by using poor form on one of the weight machines.  Ouch!  Still feeling a little bit of it today, so I will take care.  I enjoyed a nice session in the steam room, showered, and came home to enjoy a nice dinner with my husband and a relaxing evening.

I did not read, nor did I spend enough time with my cats, but I've already started to work on these 2 items today.  I'm going to give myself a "foot mask", to help soften up my feet, this morning, at which time I will read and relax.  The mask itself takes an hour and I need to soak my feet first.  This was a gift to me for Mother's Day, and I'm looking forward to doing this for myself.  It forces me to take an hour of my day to just stop moving and sit.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/30/2021:
I also wrote you back for Yesterday. it is so nice to be home again tomorrow!

like i was saying in my previous comment in your other journal entry, i do not think having enormous amounts of protein is necessary. (my non-medical opinion). although, i am sure almonds once in awhile could do me better than my afternoon chocolates! ha!

the good thing about protein with fat, like the almonds, is it might stay with you longer, but, also a snack, FOR ME, is helpful if it raises my blood sugar a little, i seem to feel better. hence my chocolate eating lately.

yeah, there are a lot of women your age that would be happy with your body. you are more active i'd say that a good majority.

by reading about your productivity yesterday, you inspire me to do either lower body or upper today :) i feel very down/unmotivated this weekend like i just want a rest. so i'm sorta doing that...but i'll do a short leg routine tonight since it is a rather short one :) you are my inspiration here.

your day sounds nice. i have gotten some things with my course out of the way, and also i learned (as it wasn't clear), the actual syllabus as well as WHICH CHAPTERS of the textbook are included in the coure and which are not! i think it's done to confuse people on purpose as some will read the whole textbook and therefore pay more money to spend more time taking the course (we pay a monthly fee, not a one-time course fee). (it's going OK so far!)

Donkey on 05/31/2021:
I'm looking for a 40/30/30 ratio of protein/carbs/fat to build muscle. To lean out, I should decrease the carbs and increase the protein. Right now, I'm getting about 15% protein, which in my opinion is way too low. Maybe that's why my hair is thinning out too.


Maria7 on 05/30/2021:
Ya know? When we were quite heavier than current, how HAPPY we would have been to be the sizes we are now! I am actually at my first goal I had set when I was at 205. But, are we appreciative and happy for our hard-earned work to get to where we currently are? No, we are not. We feel like failures in our weight journey simply because we are not a lower size we fancy ourselves wanting to be (which actually might not be best for us). So, I am happy to read what you reminded us all of...take the time to 'smell the roses' along the way, so to speak, be thankful for where we are TODAY. Hugs!


Horn_of_plenty on 05/30/2021:
I love what Maria said!

Donkey on 05/31/2021:
I do too :-)


Horn_of_plenty on 05/31/2021:
donkey to answer a question you asked me, CUNY doesn't have shorter programs (certificate programs) for Master Public Administration, but SUNY does.

I'll prob start with something shorter at SUNY and finish up at CUNY. but i should stop thinking about it a little bit; until i'm done with accounting that i'm taking now; and finish the business law class with the Center for Legal Studies.

After these two courses, i'll think about what exactly I want to do..it's good i just looked into it; after you asked me :)


Horn_of_plenty on 05/31/2021:
donkey to answer a question you asked me, CUNY doesn't have shorter programs (certificate programs) for Master Public Administration, but SUNY does.

I'll prob start with something shorter at SUNY and finish up at CUNY. but i should stop thinking about it a little bit; until i'm done with accounting that i'm taking now; and finish the business law class with the Center for Legal Studies.

After these two courses, i'll think about what exactly I want to do..it's good i just looked into it; after you asked me :)



Donkey - Saturday May 29, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

So..  I remembered to weigh in, and my weight changed not one bit.  As I mentioned yesterday, my clothes do not fit any better or differently (still a little on the snug side).  My wedding ring still feels just a tad snug - can't wear it if there's any water retention. 

I realized from comments that I just don't want my diet goal badly enough to make the changes that I need to make.  I am much better at making changes that require an action; I am not so good with making changes that require refraining or abstaining.  So it's easier for me to add cardio or weights, but much more difficult to refrain from eating.  This would explain why intermedite fasting never worked for me.

I'm going to look into the "Lose It" app this weekend to track what I eat.   During the work week, I usually pack everything I'm going to eat for the day, except for dinner.  My breakfasts are all the same - peanut butter in a low-carb wrap.  So tracking 80% of my daily eating should be relatively easy.  Dinner is always the wild card, depending on what kind of day I've had at work. 


How nice it was to wake up this morning and realize that I didn't HAVE TO get up, and just loll around in bed, drifting in and out of dreams for about an hour.  It is a clear sunny day, but rather on the cooler side.  I don't think temperatures will get out of the 60's today.

My list of usual things to do this weekend is pretty much the same. I'm happy to say that I've already found 3 or 4 puzzle pieces that fit.  Slowly chipping away at that.  I definitely want to spend more time relaxing though, whether it's with my cats on the couch, or reading a book, or both.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/30/2021:
The days i have the most trouble with dinner are the days i eat the lowest cals at work.

i know you mentined you don't eat enough protein, but, for meat eaters like us (and by that i mean poultry too), we get in a LOT more protein in our diets than many vegetarians.

just saying, some days i do crave a bit more protein, but i do not eat too large serving sizes of it at meals, anymore - unless it's something new and different and i might indulge. or if i'm ravenous.

i'd say make sure to have more cooked veggies at your dinner. i know that a woman at the supermarket said to me that she likes the frozen veggies already chopped and she turns them into stir fries with little effort. I should do this...i'm saying maybe add cooked veggies to dinner?

let us know what the lose it app has on it, how it helps you. i always like to learn about different products.

that's nice indeed we have the extra day this weekend, yes, it feels beyond wonderful!

we have a second day of rain, tomorrow we'll have your weather, thankfully, which will make it easier IF i decide to run to the supermarket. we'll see.



Donkey - Friday May 28, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

I had a very bad dream and woke up early.  Decided to actually get out of bed, in fear of falling back asleep into the bad dream.  I *did* dream about my step-father, but it wasn't a good dream; I burned down the garage of my childhood home (accidently!) and caught the house behind us on fire too - oh my!!!  But I have to say, my step-father looked very good - very trim and with completely white hair!  Oh what might have been, if the cancer had not taken his life.

So I have plenty of time this morning, which is kind of nice.  Just goes to show how much time there is available to me if I don't lie around in bed or get side-tracked with a kitty on the lap. 

AND I just realized that all 3 attorneys will be at closings this morning at 9am, so I don't have to rush into work.  Should I go back downstairs and do some leg weights?

Had a little wine last night.  Took 2nd helpings of pulled pork that my husband made.  Buckled under pressure when the Boss offered to buy Chinese for lunch -- asked for a hot and sour soup.  I had that in addition to the lunch I already brought.  New Guy has gone out to lunch with the Boss - one way or another - this week.  I can't keep asking him if he's still eating clean, so maybe I'll just check in with him weekly (LOL -- I'll be the Lunch Police). 

Because I'm so ahead of schedule, I'm trying to wait to eat anything.  As I've mentioned here, I'm thinking about having a protein shake at home and then oatmeal at work around 10am...  However, I am still in love with my peanut butter wrap (2 TBSP of natural peanut butter on a low carb wrap = 190 cals + 30 cals = 220 cals).  The other way would be 170+150=320 calories.  Drinking my calories makes me a little nervous too.  Well, when I'm ready to make this change, I will.

This weekend, one ot the things I want to do is to research apps that will track not only calories but also macros (protein, fats, carbs).  I've heard that managing the macros is where it's at.  

What I really want is just more definition in my arms, and maybe my legs.  I feel like I have a good foundation, but I have a layer of fluff that doesn't let that muscle definition show through.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 05/28/2021:
Reading your entry brought back another military moment...inspection time. The Command Sergeant Major (CSM) of our Battalion was doing the inspection. He found multiple things wrong with some equipment and was asking the NCO in charge why these were still obviously NOT ready for the inspection. The NCO babbled on and on about all the other things he had to tend to and or take care of. In the end the NCO just said he ran out of time. The CSM looked him straight in the face and asked...did you sleep last night? The NCO replied, Yes! The CSM just said...then you had time.

I will never forget this, I felt bad for my friend and realized then that that old saying of...if you want it bad enough, you will make the time...if not than you will make the excuse. I am full of excuses these days!

I use the lose it app...well when I use it, it has an option to track macros or calories you can toggle back and forth..

I hope you have a great day! We are being rained out here in NEO.

Donkey on 05/29/2021:
"Lose It" app was one of the ones recommended. I am glad to hear that you use it too. I will be checking this one out.

The CSM is correct. That's why I stay late at work most of the time. Hmm... I guess you're right: I just don't want it enough. I don't want my goal weight enough. Hmm...


horn_of_plenty on 05/28/2021:
i had my cheap blueberry infused wine (the one that was 6.99 a bottle!) and it is so sweet, it's almost like drinking juice. it's low alcohol. but the nice thing - i had a few phone calls and then i knocked out not too long after and got some good sleep. planning to have a bit more wine throughout this weekend and also possibly with the new job. not saying i'm becoming dependent on it, but it works to relax a person, yes, and i guess i should keep my low tolerance, only have it in a single serving and just enjoy it...and let it help me relax in the evenings. it's just so high cal, it could mess me up even at once glass, but one glass is decent and not overindulging.

your mind had been on your father. it's only a dream all those bad thoughts, do not worry <3.

oh, i did my leg exercises yesterday, outside standing in the shade, on my lunch break! thank gosh i did it then, bc all exercise since then has been a wash! lol

pulled pork is delicious...i may eat that more now...i am not religious and i noticed pulled pork is sold now in supermarkets in the refrigerated section. i can bring it to work for the week. good protein, etc. (or i can make it myself in the slow cooker....)

i don't like drinking too many calories either...never fills me.

when i restart work at the other site, i may need to amp up the protein in my breakfasts...but i may be nervous, and lose my appetite just a little bit like i did when this job started - not sure...

but my breakfasts have become very carby and i love them...but i become hungry and low blood sugar under 2 hours later, so i snack on pb...and it's fine...but i'm not sure i'll be able to heat up waffles lol at the new job...i have to see...

Donkey on 05/29/2021:
I like a sweet breakfast, not a savory one. So those folks who have eggs, or toast with avocado, or meat for breakfast - not my thing.

Your new job will be a fresh start. You know names and so I would presume that they know your name, but you have a whole new opportunity to make a first impression. :-)



Donkey - Thursday May 27, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

So yesterday, I tried not to eat as much at work.  I cut out my morning snack entirely.  By 10:30am I started to develop a headache that never really went away.  It felt like sinuses, so I took a sinus pill and a Tylenol.  Didn't help.  Later, at around 3pm, I took 2 more Tylenol.  Didn't help.  Ate too much dinner. 

I'm going to try again not to eat as much at work.  What I'd like to try is having a protein shake here at home, and then 1/2 cup of oatmeal at work around 10am, and see how that holds me.  It was REALLY hard not to eat through the stress of the morning yesterday.  That's eating for the wrong reasons, though.

Thought maybe having the wine at dinner was causing problems, so no wine last night.

This weekend is the last weekend of May, so I will step on the scale to weigh-in, to see how my "great May project" went --- which it went nowhere.  My clothes don't fit any better.  My rings don't fit any better.  And my eating hasn't gotten any better. 

One thing that HAS gone pretty good is that I've been able to leave work at a decent time each day.  Last night was the exception, where I was out the door at 5:33pm (which is still pretty good for me).  I wanted to talk to the boss about a problem that came up at the very end - and I didn't want to have to think about it at home.  Turns out, it's not a problem at all -- UGH!!!  But that's OK. Still had a nice dinner with my family and a good bike ride, no wine, bed at 9:30p. 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 05/27/2021:
Because of your mileage suggestion I have joined a 30 mile challenge in the month of June...we'll see how this works out. I even downloaded an app to track my miles. Thank you!

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Ooo, how exciting!!! I admit, I'm really into Associate Attorney's journey. He takes photos during his walks, too, just like you!


Jacky82020 on 05/27/2021:
Oh, well, there’s always June. Could the headaches be from seasonal allergies? Lots of that going around.

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
I think it's either allergies or something in the building. It's not a very clean place to work, very dusty, musty, and mice.

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
I thought it might be the mask I wear, but I'm keeping the mask on.


horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2021:
I think you need only 1 to fly: passport OR real id (within the US)...you may want to check this. for my driver's license, i plan to just keep the basic license, not the REAL ID NY State driver's...

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Right - I only need one or the other, but right now, I have neither and that's not good. I need the passport to get the Real ID. My license has expired because I need a vision test, and they weren't doing those during COVID. I may just have to renew with a regular license and upgrade to a Real ID when it becomes mandatory.


horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2021:
also wrote you back below and will comment on today..

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Thank you! I will go look and respond.


horn_of_plenty on 05/28/2021:
yeah, why pay for the real ID if you do not need it. i wanted to get the real ID, but i had an unofficial tax return so they turned me down - so i just got the basic. works..


horn_of_plenty on 05/28/2021:
I will say that you work hard at work, mentally. maybe not physical, but your brain needs energy. i would say to keep your snacks every 2-3 hours so you aren't ravenous.

what i do is the breakfast only at work - even at new job, i will eat when i'm at my desk and not at home. new job will start a 7am, and over a 1.5hour commute...not sure exactly until i do it. 1 bus, 3 trains...i may drive, not sure...have to look into it more. the commuting was good exercise, so i may leave it or drive only sometimes...

i like your goals and how you met some if not all of them this month. it's ok not to reach every goal for afterall, we are a work in progress....

we can only learn from these experiences.



Donkey - Wednesday May 26, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Took care of renewing my passport yesterday.  It's a long story, but I thought someone had stolen my passport.  So I over-panicked and reported it as stolen.  Found it later on in the day.  So I finally went to the post office to see about getting a new passport.  I was very stressed out, but my husband was there to help me, too.  It kind of scared me because I realize that I depend on him to get me through a lot of these real life grown-up situations.  I don't like being THAT dependent on someone.  I don't think it's a question of laziness, but just an inability to cope.


I was able to get in a really good upper body weight workout last night, to compensate for my shortened session in the morning (due to lack of time).  Oh it was hard to push myself to do that last exercise, but I did want to do something that focused on biceps so I did it.

But you can't out-exercise a bad diet.  It always comes down to that, for me, at least.  I eat too much at work.  


This week at work seems to be flying fast, and that's a good thing.  

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 05/26/2021:
Do you need that passport or a Real ID to fly?

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Yes, I need both and right now, I have neither. I need the passport in order to get my Real ID.


horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2021:
i'll review that wine, google it later / not at work... sounds like you may not be picky, but you KNOW your wines!?

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Oh no, I don't really know wine that much at all. I'm not very discriminating. I like most all wines except for the very sweet.

There are some inexpensive wines that are actually quite enjoyable! :-)

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Actually, though, now that I think about it, I would like to become someone who DOES know a thing or 2 about wines. I've been wanting to go to a wine tasting event. The local store has had these from time to time. Maybe I will revisit this when I'm more comfortable being around others who aren't wearing masks.


horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2021:
you've never ever mentioned that you eat too much at work?! are you sure?

also, it's OK to rely on someone for "life situations." that's what relationships are about. i'd say enjoy it - take his support. life is not meant to be lived alone and without support.

one day, i hope to have someone's support (and by that, someone besides my parents or friends!)

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Great question! Honestly, I'm so distracted by the stress that I don't know if I actually do eat too much at work or not.

That is to say, I know that I CAN eat too much at work, e.g. having a huge bowl of chips every afternoon, or eating an entire cup of peanuts (oof!).

Often, though, I feel like I'm eating at work for the wrong reasons, which makes me think I eat too much.

Eating only what I bring with me to work has cut down a bit on eating "too much" but I honestly don't know.

I seriously need to track my food.

And thank you for your reassurance. I don't feel like much of a grown up sometimes.



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