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Donkey - Thursday Feb 05, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 134.0

OK, well, at least I was at 134.0 again this morning.  But why am I weighing myself every morning??  No weigh-in tomorrow.

Maybe it's the change in the exercise routine that has me paranoid.  Must learn to *breathe deep* and *let go*...  No weigh-in tomorrow.

I had not planned on writing tonight but I am feeling depressed.  I am going to start seeing a new therapist.  The old therapist and I had a conflict of morals.  I was going to see him again, but Husband said, "No way, he's a JERK!" and put his foot down.  And I don't object, because I know he's right and he's only looking out for me, even though it saddens me that I failed myself with yet another therapist.  Am I really that unrepairable?

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 02/05/2009:
NO YOU ARE NOT unrepairable!...... Nor do I believe your unattractive with long hair...... I have tried to wear longer hair, but had a barber for a dad.... I was often called a "boy" when I was growing up with the bocked hair cuts.... and being obese at that time in my life as well.... I LOVE shorter, spiky do's, but not til I get to goal or even lower will I attempt something so risky..... I will tell you a lil' secret or 2 too..... I LOVE the look of a tiny nose stud (wouldn't mind having one, but my family would "Freak out"..Hubby wouldn't as I have asked & he said as long as it wasn't gawdy looking...) and I also wouldn't mind getting a "hidden tatoo" to commemerate my 82#'s being gone to remind me of all the hard work it will have taken to reach that goal...Probably neither will ever happen as far as piercing or tatooing.... Just a couple fantasies...

Hang in there with the therapist situation(s).... Sometimes I think those type of things area bout like buying a "sued car"... Have to go through some lemons to reach a dependable...... Feel your self-worth my firend, cause you are worth the effort you put into bettering your physical & mental health, but within reason of course (hint hint)...

Not to sound corny or anything Donk, but everyone (or most I should say) here @ DD has a piece of my heart and I say "I love you" just as you are.... I'm far from perfect and have a long ways to go, but I think it is important for us to spread what love or positive vibes each other's way in each of our struggles, no matter what that may be.....

Have a good evening and I'm thankful for you hubby stepping foot down to protect you!

thinnside40 on 02/05/2009:
Geeze.. A USED car... I can't read beyond a certain point in the comment field when I'm typing....

mama_nurse on 02/05/2009:
Gosh...I'm sorry you're having a tough time...hope you have a great night:)) and good job for posting and sticking to your routine!!!

loveray on 02/06/2009:
im feeling really down this week too...maybe its something about winter! i am actually seeking a new therapist as well. at least you are willing to take a look at your "stuff" and possibly receive help. happy friday- take a deep breath and smile. xoxo

Donkey - Wednesday Feb 04, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 134.0

OK, bear with me.  Donkey is having a VERY BAD DAY.

First -- WTF with the weight?  Up, down, up, down, up, down.  I'm so sick of it.  Just read 120 and be done with it.

Second -- I went to the doctor.  I told both the nurse and the doctor that I was a compulsive exerciser.  They didn't seem too concerned about that.  So I guess it must be OK.

I injured the bottom of my foot which has compromised my gait, which in turn injured my knee.  The good news is that the doctor could feel no structural damage to the knee.  No misalignment either.  The BAD news is that I can't use the elliptical for at least a week.  Maybe longer.  I can use the bike, which not only puts my butt to sleep but doesn't do anything for me.  He said it would help me from "losing your edge".  So at least he empathizes.

I'm to wear running shoes at all times, from the minute I wake up to the minute I go to bed.  No barefoot, no flats, no slippers, no heals.  He gave me some honkin' horse pills that don't DO anything.  If I feel better after my prescription is out, then I'm set.  If I don't, then we're talking either cortizone shots in the foot (OUCH!) or a referral to the orthopedic doctor.

Needless to say, Donkey is very displeased with ALL OF THIS.  If you're going to give me a pain pill, make sure it DOES something.  I don't think it's too much to ask to be able to exercise.  I'm p*ssed but I'll get over it.  

I just wanted to get this off my chest before I try to stuff it down with food.

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 02/04/2009:
What may I ask did he give you for the "pain pill"?... Cortizone...NO WAY for me..Did that once & I'll NEVER do it again.... The pain still radiates from the injection sight at times, even after 8 months..The tendonitous is better... But I don't like trading pain for pain personally.... Sorry this has you in a fowel mood.... I can understand it.... I'm also glad that you came to DD, instead of turning to food...NOW, step away from the cupboard/fridge/freezer/whatever... LOL!

Thanks for stopping by & for the "cheer"... Appreciated very much!

mama_nurse on 02/04/2009:
Sorry to hear about your day.....hope you have a good evening

omahagrl on 02/04/2009:
Better days are ahead. I also think it is funny that i can help predict your weather. Have a good night

biscottibody59 on 02/05/2009:
Wishing you all the best while you're on the mend!

As always, make sure your running shoes are fresh--pain somewhere is usually my first clue that I need new ones.

Donkey - Monday Feb 02, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 138.0

Well, since I'm logged on, I thought I'd report a weigh-in.  I don't know why I weighed in this morning.  The weight is heading on down slowly, once again.

I hate this.  It goes slowly down, I binge, it goes way up.  Repeat.

No --- wait!  Don't repeat!

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow afternoon to see if my compulsive overexercising has caused any long-term damage or if the doctor can help me with my knee foot hip back whatever problem. 

Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

WI3 on 02/03/2009:
Congratulations on the lost pound! I know how hard it is to lose it and how good it feels when it isn't on the scale. Thank you for your message in my journal. It is always cool to hear from you at any time, and especially when the chips are down in my life. You know exactly what I mean about the anger..and not having to explain that to someone is a relief lol. I was really angry last night, I was making text messages to people but not sending them. New way of writing letters and not sending them I guess lol. And you are right...falling off the wagon would only lead to more depression and poor choices. I've had enough of that game! I wish you the best at the doctor today!!!

Donkey - Sunday Feb 01, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 139.0

I ended the month as I started the month, with binge-eating.  I'm not proud of this, but I'm committed to keeping it real.  No denial.  Just what it is.

In spite of the misleading number on the scale this morning and the bad 1st and 31st, it was not a bad month.  Oh, it was painful enough, but I made a lot of progress on the inside:  realizations, subconscious motivations, etc.

I'm looking forward to this month.  4 weeks even, starts on a Sunday, ends on a Saturday.  Lent begins.  Maybe some of the snow will start melting away.

My biggest regret is that I doubt I will be able to resume outdoor running, due to my knee and foot problems.  I see a doctor THIS WEEK for sure.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 02/01/2009:
Have a great Sunday! :)

grumpy on 02/01/2009:
Be gentle to your knee and foot! And I am with you, no denial and looking at the big picture!

starfish on 02/01/2009:
Hi Donkey :-) Here's to a great February!

thinnside40 on 02/01/2009:
Just 28 days in this month..... Exactly 4 weeks... I don't like the shortness, but that means that much closer to SPRING... YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Evening!

loveray on 02/01/2009:
february is the beginning of a new hope- a spring hope...take care of those body parts and rest! xoxo

Donkey - Saturday Jan 31, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 134.0

Well, well, look at me.  Have I ended the month pretty much where I started, weight-wise?  If so, WOW.

I can't believe I didn't weigh myself this morning to do so.  Actually, I'm planning on doing so tomorrow (weighing in) and doing measurements too, I guess.  ???  I hate measuring.  My butt sags so much that my hip measurement is not truly indicative of how big my rear end is.  Plus, it's so self-defeating to see my chest measurement decreasing and my hip and waist measurement stagnating.  Oh well, at least they aren't increasing....

I'm having some serious problems with my knee and foot, connected with my hip and back (disc) problems.  I plan on seeing a doctor this week.  This is what overexercising has done for me.  I'm hoping it's something  that can be healed quickly, but I already know what will be prescribed:  NO EXERCISE.

And THEN what will I do???

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

WI3 on 01/31/2009:
I've not taken my measurements yet either. I am not going to LOL. I know what size i am in now and not interested to know how that translates into 'big' lol

I wonder if your symptoms are similar to this: http://www.aafp.org/afp/20050415/1545.html

It is fantastic that 99% of your body is muscle, and the definition will come with proper training. Don't kill yourself trying to get to the end, otherwise you will create a new end. Wish I could be there in person to support you. As I cannot, I'll just wish you all the best from where I sit! Stay strong, Donkey!

thinnside40 on 01/31/2009:
You'll sit and worry about how your going to make it without exercising I guess.... Naw, really.... Just keep in mind what got yout othe place of "pain" and lear nself-control in the knowing when to wuit exercising... It is one of those things where we eat too much, exercise too much, worry too much or we don't do them at all.... Never once giving thought to to reasonable (healthy) amounts are... I am a feast or faminer personally... It is hard to learn "comfortable"... Why?!?!?!? don't know! Workin' on it!

Thank you for your kind words in comment.... I honestly DO NOT know where my weight would be, over this last year but up up up up up had I not came to DD when I did... I can't leave that behind.. It has been the greates thing for me in the last 30+ years of up/down/up/down/up/down...Not moving "down" none too quick as of late, but workin' on that to :O)

Have a great Sunday!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/31/2009:
thanks for your words of wisdom today. i perhaps should have taken those words more seriously....arg. self defeat has been the name of my game all week. i can't believe i'm fighting myself.

as for you, why not just exercise less?? rather, if you feel pain, STOP. meaning, if you are on the treadmill and you start to feel some pain, lay off or stop so it doesn't get worse. i know it must be easier said than done but exercise should not hurt.

mama_nurse on 01/31/2009:
Thanks~ My menus are kind of "different" sometimes but I'm glad you enjoy reading them! :) I like reading people's menus too ~ gives me some ideas/tips or what have you! Hope you had a great day ~ it's late here so I'm going to bed soon.....til tomorrow :) PS I agree with HOP above, exercise should not hurt :(

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 28, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 134.0

Now I know what I weigh....

Needless to say, I am conflicted.  It is very unusual to see ACTUAL changes in one's body for the better and yet have some stupid scale tell you something negative.  However, logically, I was prepared for this.  I told you when I started my new weight training program that I anticipated gaining around 5lb.

I have a scale that tells me my body fat %.  My % is around 21 (would like it to be lower so that my muscles are more defined).  BUT the more important figure is my muscle weight, which supposively -- according to this scale -- says is 99lb.  So 99lb of me is muscle. 

So I have concluded logically (of course) that the only way for me to really lose any more weight is to have my liver and possibly a lung surgically removed.  Perhaps my uterus too.  I figure that should take around 15lb off of the scale.


Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

loveray on 01/28/2009:
aww it looks like you are doing a great job, and muscle really does weigh a lot more than fat...sux though sometimes! i hope you have a peaceful day. xoxo

thinnside40 on 01/28/2009:
Sounds like you have all the #"s figured out to a "T"...... I say hang onto what ya got and live happy healthy!

Thank You for your "sympathy".. I feel like it would of felt better to be dismembered than to look in my dad's eyes as I asked....

Have a great day!

mama_nurse on 01/28/2009:
You are doing awesome, :) have a good day

panda22 on 01/28/2009:
LOL @ getting your body parts removed to lose weight! Omg I was rolling when I read that! lol. Anyway, thank you for the comment! It's not too late! =D have a great night!

WI3 on 01/28/2009:
LOL I had my uterus taken out and lost nada! I know you don't advocate anything unhealthy, I was just worried 'bout you =)

Have a great Thursday!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/29/2009:
so congrats! congrats on all of your progress....especially the muscle part! wow. nice job. keep it up. :) more commenting to come...

oh, and muscle is VERY important. you probably look better now than before the shift to weight training!

Donkey - Sunday Jan 25, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

I have no idea what I weigh.  Last Sunday, I had a binge, and then I struggled again on Wednesday.  I think Wednesday was worse, but I can't remember.  All I can remember thinking was "If this binge had a title, it would be "Pop Tart Party"."  Each Pop Tart has 200 calories EACH.  And I can tell you, I had more than one.

But that was last Sunday, and this is THIS Sunday.

My weight training program is going well.  Cutting down my excessive cardio to 1 hour is also a good thing too.  But it seems now that I have replaced the excessive cardio with more weight training, and now --- if I do everything I WANT to do at the gym --- I am there for 3 hours.  If I don't allow myself to do all the weight training, then I can cut it down to 2.5 hours.  Which is still too much time, in my opinion, but nobody seems to mind, so, so what?

And then I do another 15-30 minutes of training at home in the evenings.

You would think I would be chiseled or buff, but unfortunately, I am not.  I have so much leftover fat and skin from my pregnancies and prior abuses in weight.  It's like I have this thick layer of blubber covering up all the muscle.

I've tried going low carb to bring out the muscle definition, but all that has lent me is an offensive smell of ammonia when I workout (because my body is burning protein for energy, not carbs or fat).  This is not right.

I was so angry and disgusted with my therapist on Friday that I've decided that I will probably not do much more work with him.  We've been working on the issue of "Forgiveness".  He seems to think that crimes committed against children are indeed forgiveable.  I told him he was a sick, sick man.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

WI3 on 01/25/2009:
If you are exercising so much, it is no wonder you are eating so much. And you are right...it isn't right. You know how I feel about this. I won't beat you up over it, but I sure don't agree with the excessive exercising. I still, however, care a lot about you.

thinnside40 on 01/25/2009:
Thanks for your comment on the "graphics".. I feel like that momma with the hipster baby sometimes.. She "hit home" with me when I saw her!... I enjoy the homelife.....

Sorry to hear of your difficulties with the therapist... Forgiveness is a HUGE word!... God will take care of those that have been the offender... They will have to deal with Him ultimately either way...

Have a good evening.... Take Care!

mama_nurse on 01/25/2009:
Have a great day:)

selina on 01/26/2009:
Hi Donkey! It sure sounds like you are doing a lot of exercise, WOW! I can't exercise that much, I don't think, but, that's just me... How old are you, if I may ask? Maybe I would be able to do all of that if I were younger, not in my mid forties... I didn't know that burning fat as opposed to protein did smell differently... living and learning!

Thanks for the comments on my cats, they are indeed a lot of fun!

panda22 on 01/26/2009:
Thank you for the comment! It brightened my day =D. I think you are on the right track with realizing the exercise could be a little too much and I hope you are able to find a happy medium. It sounds like it may have become an "addiction" of sorts in your life, maybe to deal with emotions, and things like that are never beneficial in the end no matter what form they present themselves. On the other hand, exercise is a healthy thing, and even though 3 hours is a lot, if you compensate it with eating more to keep your body going then it won't take as much a toll on your body. If it's something you feel you need to do, then just give yourself those extra calories and energy each day so that you stay healthy! Sorry to hear about your therapist. Personally I've never preferred them and find them hard to work with as opposed to talking to someone I care about such as my family or friends, but I hope you are able to take care of that situation and maybe change therapists because it definitely won't be beneficial if the one you are seeing has different ideals than you and expresses it because then that will become the main focus of your feelings and it's not beneficial to you at all! Hope you have a good day today! Smile! =)

skinnyjeans on 01/27/2009:
LOL - Pop Tart Party! That is funny and made me smile. :) Happy Tuesday!!

YepItsMe~ on 01/27/2009:
Hey Donkey~thanks for the welcome back! Wowee, I didn't realize you worked out so much~I say do what feels right for you, just listen to your body.

Wishing you a great week!

Donkey - Friday Jan 16, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

Finished Week 1 of my new program.  :-)

My upper body feels slightly sore, and only temporary.  So I know that some progress is being made.  I'm also *itching* to make the transition from weight machines to more free weight exercises.  I'm wondering if this is reflective of my internal struggle as well.  Of not wanting to stay restricted into other people's ideas of what should be, but rather doing my own thing.  Hmm, that's something to think about, eh?

Another lesson learned:  Just because you use lighter weights on lower body exercises, if you go SLOW enough, you will start to shake and ache just as much as if you were using much heavier weights.  Again, to me -- a sign of progress.

OK, and last...  Should I tell you?...  OK, I will because I'm *so* excited!:

12 days without bingeing!!!!


I know I'm not out of the woods yet.  I did have 3 days where I went above my calorie level by about 300 calories.  But that's not the same thing.  If I'm wrong about that, please let me know.

And the compulsion to weigh-in this morning was VERY STRONG.  I'm glad I didn't.  Just.... too risky at this point.  My weigh-in days are Wednesdays -- LEAVE IT.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

skinnyfatgirl on 01/16/2009:

greengirl on 01/16/2009:

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/16/2009:
congrats on the sum of all of your accomplishments. and you are smart to not get obsessed by the # on the scale and start weighing yourself all the time. it's good to stick to your schedule!

grumpy on 01/16/2009:
You are not wrong about that at all! Congrats on your 12 days! Going over around 300 is very different than binging. xo

WI3 on 01/19/2009:
I am always impressed with your exercise! Keep up the great work!

Justine6Robert3 on 01/20/2009:
Great job on the 12 days with no binging! Sounds like your enjoying the change in your exercise routine and being a little sore is a good sign of something happening for you :0)

I think your right about the "winter blues".....I do seem to feel this way in the winter.....particularly after Christmas.

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 14, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 131.0

(Ignore that "Current Weight" number.  It will be back up to 135 tomorrow if I weigh in.  My calories were a little on the low side the past 2 days but I am within range today, so I assume my weight will increase as well.)

OK, DDer's here's a question for you:

What is a "butter face"?  For example, people commenting on pictures of celebrities and they say "she's a total butter face".


My new weight training program is going very well.  I cut down on the cardio, going slower and harder, and doing intervals (either low/high intervals or low/medium/high intervals, which I call "steps"). 

Then I started lifting heavier on the upper body to build up and lighter on the lower body to "lean out".  I want to go out in a sleaveless shirt and hear gasps or see eyes pop.  ;-)


EDIT:  I can't remember if I mentioned this in my last entry.  I want to be completely honest with you all.  I plan to gain 5  pounds with my new weight training program.  (It's my own program of my own design, not something from an infomercial or a book.)

Which will put me up to 140. 

I don't know why I'm doing this.  Honestly, I have no idea where the motivation to do this is coming from.  Logically (or illogically perhaps), I would tell you to your face 100% truthfully that I want to be thinner & lighter.  Yet I feel driven to do this.  Not in a pathological sense, but ... well, it's just weird.  I don't know why I'm doing this.

I just do it.

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

panda22 on 01/14/2009:
Hey there! Was browsing diaries and thought I'd stop and leave a comment. Sounds like you're doing a great job with everything, and your new goal to weight train and gain 5 pounds isn't crazy. I feel like it will give you more energy and be better in the long run because it'll make you stronger as well.

Good luck with it!

Ps - A butter face means that "everything looks good...'but-her-face' "...I've heard of it before. In my opinion it's completely rude and whoever thought of it is messed up in the head, but that's just me.

Have a great night! =D

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/14/2009:
i am beyond stressed right now. lots of tests but i'm trying to balance going to yoga EVERYDAY with school. it's a bit of a rush to sometimes get there and always a rush to get home...i live really close though, like 5 min or so away. however, i get home around 7:30 which leaves time for a shower, late dinner....and then i'm constantly studying too little and going to bed too late.

but this isn't my stress. my stress is school with studying not enough for the things that are MOST important...not that i'm doing badly because the tests have been put off till next week....but just hoping that things go right. but really a couple students in my class are pissing me off completely.

so i've made no sense just now.

i've GOT to get out of this stressed state of mind and body. i know yoga won't be possible tomorrow as i'll be on my feet all day. hopefully i don't pass out due to all the swelling/food in my body and trying to be physically agile. i know i'll be fine but it'll be tough tomorrow. lots of sweating for sure due to the excess food and calories in my system.

thanks for supporting me.

see what happens with the muscle. perhaps we build a little muscle and then it's easier to lose the weight?

WI3 on 01/14/2009:
If you are planning on gaining because of building muscle, I don't see where that is a problem because we need to build muscle while we are younger, which also helps our bones. I looked at Oprah who says she is 200lbs and she doesn't look like the SAME 200lbs she used to look like...her body is in better shape this time. Interesting.

Have a great evening!

omahagrl on 01/15/2009:
Dear God: The lady reading this is beautiful, classy and strong, and I love her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most, and let her know when she walks with you, She will always be safe. Love you Girl!!!! Now you're on the clock!!!! In 9 minutes something will make you happy. ;-) But you have to tell 9 sisters you love them, including me. Go!!!!

greengirl on 01/15/2009:
Hey Donkey, I used to know a girl who was quite well muscled and looked really good, and I couldnt believe it when she told me how much she weighed. Definately weighed more than you would have guessed, so I think if you put weight on building a little muscle instead of fat, you could still end up looking slimmer and in better shape. Good luck with your efforts girl :)

Maria* on 01/15/2009:
I love you!

Donkey - Saturday Jan 10, 2009
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 135.0


I have been at 135.0 for the past 3 days without much trying.  That is to say, if I don't binge, and I don't restrict, and I just stay within calorie range and exercise like I do, I stay at 135.

If I could do this at 130, I'd be more pleased. 

I started my new exercise program today.  I am very excited about it!!!  I have learned that I NEED to do some cardio every day or my back starts to tighten up and it hurts.  So the weekends are for light, fun cardio, 1 hour.

I'm going back to weight training on Monday, focusing on heavy weights on my upper body to build it up, get definition and increase strength.  Lower body will be lighter weights (more reps, performed slowly), to decrease the "bulk" of my legs.

I've changed ellipticals at the gym, and I prefer to do a slower, harder workout on the machines that have the moving handlebars.  So I will do that M-F.

I'm decreasing my cardio, if I can.  I think an hour a day is enough.  Of course, I think I can do this because the weather is so crappy outside.  Once it warms up and the snow and ice melt away, and I can start running outside again....  Well, look out, here we go again.

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

grumpy on 01/10/2009:
I wish I could do that and stay at 155! it would be enough for me! Just saying this for you to really think what a different those 5 pounds would really do in your life and body. Sounds to me like you do great at exercising, so I am sure these extra 5 pounds are mainly muscle and look great on you! xo.

grumpy on 01/10/2009:
You are totally right. And even if now it's all flowers for them, I know soon enough it won't be. I think he will only settle if he finds someone who will put up with everything. I did longer than I should have, but in the end I didn't and that's why we're not together. All the fights we had in the past few months I started, because I stopped putting up with crap. So if this is smart, at some point she will let him go too. And when he does find someone who will put up with all his nonsense, I am sure he won't be happy. So yea, I see what you're saying. It's just hard for me right now and will be for a little while. I was thinking of my comment to you also. I think it's great not to give up from losing your last few pounds. But it's good to make peace with them and think of them for what they are. 5 pounds. I don't know what's the highest weight you've ever been at. So maybe your experience is very different than mine, but I was at 202lbs at some point. And I have to say, that did not feel good at all. In any way. Im sure if you think of your highest also, and think that now you're at a place where you only 'have' to lose another 5. Think of that process and be thankful to where you are now. ALL this is much easier said than done. And it also works for me. I keep complaining about me, how i look, and my thighs, and all that, but I could be still at 202. And If i am not, it's only because of my effort and work. So we have a lot to pet ourselves in the back for. Thanks so much for your support, really. I love thinking that they're having a horrible time and he's hiding his phone from her so she doesn't see txts from other girls and that he is looking over her shoulders for other women, and that hopefully she is smart enough (i dont wish her bad at all) so stand up for what she deserves and put him into his place. ARGHHHHHHHHH! haha. Xoxo

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/10/2009:
i'm so pleased to read this entry and see how much more positive it is than the last one, which is a good thing for you! you sound confident and in control of your actions.

as for me, thankfully, i have done everything in my power to NOT fail. this includes taking an extra yoga class so as to prevent too much time on my hands and binge! of course, i also did another class because it is a challenge and, if done right, it is really, really good for my body.

luckily, i don't believe a need cardio everyday. well, i believe i do actually, but because of time and commitment, i don't do it very much. only when i have some extra time. if i weren't studying or in school, i would definitely fullfill the recommeneded at least 30 minutes of cardio a day.

i'm impressed to read how much cardio you do. just make sure you stretch and that your being careful with your body. if you go to a gym, and they offer free classes, see if there's a yoga class. it may help you to take it once a week or so. especially to relax your joints and muscles from the cardio you do!

selina on 01/11/2009:
Happy New Year to you!

greengirl on 01/13/2009:
It's great to see you writing so much like your old self Donkey. Good for you! Go, Donkey, Go !!

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