It was not a good day yesterday. We did end up going to the library but I did not check out a yoga DVD. I did not manage to get in a walk yesterday. We had a conflict with a girl in the neighborhood, and I'm not sure if it was her or if it was me or my daughter or what. But needless to say it bothered me all afternoon.
My husband announced that he had to go to bed early last night, because he has a 12-hour shift today. I know that on nights that he goes to bed early, I do not deal with this well. And last night was no exception. I had a binge of sorts, only to be stopped when my daughter walked in on me eating butter cookies in front of the TV. I felt so bad, because the cookies are for the kids. But I was relieved that her entrance into the room stopped me from eating.
My Husband thinks that we will sign up for one of the smaller (and less expensive) gyms for now. I admit I felt disappointed, but I cannot stick up for myself and say, "No I want to go to the fancy gym" because I am not bringing in any money into the family and I can hardly justify the cost to myself much less to him. It's not that I wanted to go to the mega gym per se; it's that I don't like being told it's out of my reach. How immature is THAT??? DUH!
Tomorrow afternoon, I *WILL* be making phone calls around to local gyms to get prices.
I have no exercise ambitions for today as I am stuck with both kids at home all day. My son prefers to do activities on his own (like his mom) and my daughter is too little to go the distance that I require. Too bad, too, because it's going to be a beautiful day. High of 65 on Tuesday? Highs of 30 by Saturday. I hate this.
UPDATE: Just took my measurements. UGH, what a BIG BUTT I have!!! 40 inches???
EVENING UPDATE: Today's total calories ended up being around 1100. Huh??? That doesn't seem right, but that's what the calorie counter says. And I measured, too. Hmm... But it ended up being a nice day after all. I spent about 2 hours outside with the kids. It was so nice to have warm, sunny weather. I still needed a jacket and gloves, but it was nice.
I do hesitate to weigh in tomorrow. My jeans are starting to feel oh so tight. I've got my list of phone numbers and questions to ask when I call up gyms tomorrow!
Ooo, are my legs ever SORE today! This is a great thing. it's been a LONG time since I've felt that ache in any of my muscles.
My goal is to get a walk in today. I'm going to try to keep running to every other day, I think, until I build up some endurance.
I neglected to report yesterday's calories, which I believe came in at around 1570, give or take 10 calories. I also did fantastic with my water intake, with 12 cups (nearly 3L for you metric folks).
New situations are difficult for me, but I hope to try to get over to the public library and get library cards for me and the kids. Husband is at work today. Maybe we could go when he gets home from work. But I would like to try to see if they have a yoga DVD to try out. Normally, I hate exercising to videos, but yoga sounds like it would feel very good right about now.
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
I was a very bad Donkey yesterday. Total calories consumed: 3108. Yes, and most of them were consumed between the hour of 2p-3p. I was feeling tired and ugly and frustrated that I am useless. I could have gone for a walk. I could have taken a nap. Instead I decided I would try to see what it was like to be a fat housewife and eat with abandon, which I could do since nobody else was home.
So I was out of sorts for the rest of the day. I told myself last night, as I was driving my son to Chess Club (which is actually next week; I had the wrong date in my calendar) that I MUST remember what this feels like so that the next time I feel like going on a sugar binge, I will not do it. I felt just horrible.
This morning I was determined to start anew. Only to find that my husband did not buy me a box of my cereal (the almighty important All Bran) when he stopped at the store last night. Oh well, a constipated wife is an unhappy wife, I told him. So I substituted Total Raisin Bran, which isn't the best choice (diet or otherwise - YUCK!), but it will do, since I already had a half cup of the All Bran and my soy milk in the bowl.
A beautiful day today, with 50 degree weather. AND everyone but Weather Channel is predicting 60 degree temps by next week.
Let's see if I actually DO anything exercise related today.
UPDATE: I DID IT!!!! I actually got my butt out the front door and went for a jog! I ran for 40 minutes, and I felt wonderful. Afterwards I did toning exercises with my dumbbells. I could feel that wonderful ache in my quads that told me that I pushed my body physically today. But I don't want my legs to be so sore that I can't walk tomorrow! So I did a lot of stretching, and then I also went for a 30 minute walk later on in the afternoon, before the kids got home from school. I wanted to explore the walking trail in the other direction.
Let me tell you, running on the ground is sooooo much different than running on a treadmill. Now I know why Born To Cry runs as often as she does. It's a wonderful feeling! And thank you, Biscotti for letting me know that you run outside too! I hope that this is the beginning of a wonderful thing for me!!
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Great job Donkey!
Thanks for the birthday wishes! It was my husband who gave me the DVD, actually, not my brother (he's in England). I've already seen the movie - I also liked it but found it very depressing.
Today it is nice and sunny outside. Once again, I overheard the weatherman saying 60 degree weather by next week, only to find out that Weather.com says one day of 50 degree (MAYBE) and then the rest of the days are in the low 40s until we plunge back down into the 30s. Well, if they think that means I'm going to get my winter coat out again, they are WRONG. I am hoping for better temperatures than they are forecasting.
I am trying desperately to motivate myself to go running outdoors. I just can't seem to do it.
I have also re-evaluated going gym shopping. I think I would like to do that. I am not sure when I will do so. That might be a good thing to think about while I'm outside running, don't you think? Hmm... Well, we shall see.
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
Ok, a new day, a new opportunity to make a difference.
Well, yes, there's snow on the driveway and it HAS to get shoveled because I am expecting a delivery of furniture today. I look out my window and see that the snow is still coming down and it is blowing around too. Great.
Not only do I have to shovel here, but I have to go up to the other house and shovel there. And my good shovel is at the other house to boot. I plan to take my daily shower at the old house, after I get done scrubbing the tub and walls again. So 2 shovelings and one or 2 heavy cleanings. At least I'm getting in my exercise today! YAY!
I did not do well with eating yesterday, but I am hoping to improve upon that today. And I am sure I will, as yesterday was more of an exception than the rule.
I must get my day started, so that Husband will get his started as well. He and I have already spent too much time on the computer this morning!
EVENING UPDATE: Total calories: 1692, as best as I could say, with the majority of them being eaten at dinner.
I have high hopes for tomorrow though. I went to the old house and brought back 2 sets of dumbbells and adjustable 10lb ankle weights. I will now be able to do some weight training at home.
Also, I finally put away my long puffy "marshmallow man" winter coat, the one I use for extreme cold and/or snow. I'm sure we'll have more snow, but if we do, oh well too bad, I will be out there shoveling it in my light coat, because I'm officially declaring winter to be over.
I took delight in seeing the walking path cleared -- yet again. And I plan to be using that tomorrow in some capacity, either walking or jogging or both. I've decided that it's high time I got off the hamster wheel (treadmill) and became a real runner by taking it outside.
(Not that treadmill runners aren't real runners, but I have to say something to myself to motivate me to get my butt out there, as I do not belong to a gym, yet. Believe me, if I had a gym membership or a treadmill at home, I would be using it like crazy.)
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
I have mentioned this to Kirt in the past but I guess he wasn't really hearing me because the chips just kept coming in the house all week. I think after I told him I was putting them all in the trunk and he would have to go and get them when he wanted them he finally listened!! So thank-you Donkey for that idea!!! He agreed that we would just buy them for our family night and not during the week, YAY!!! Now I just have to listen to the kids complain a little but they will get used to it and in the long run and maybe they will thank me.
It seems like a never ending task for you getting the old and the new house clean!! Your going to be so sick of housework after all of this!! I hope you see an end to all of the snow soon, I'm also very tired of the cold!! I'm not much of a Canadian am I, ha,ha!! Actually, alot of us (especially the girls) prefer spring, summer and fall. Anything but winter cold!!!
I'm glad your in better spirits today. You will definetly be getting your exercise in today with all of that shovelling and cleaning!!
Have a good day, good luck!
Thanks also for your advice about the doctor. My doctor does have a tendency towards nonchalance, it's true. But I've had these "reproductive issues" all my life and am not really in a hurry to get dozens of scans and ultrasounds and blood tests at the moment. After dealing with this UC bombshell last year I've had enough of doctors and hospitals for quite some time. It's just too depressing - I can't deal with it. This is one of the rare times in my life that I've felt really good about myself and I don't want to blow it!
Our weather is generally mild enough winterwise that I was able to get out whenever I wanted to jog. I didn't do much of it this winter. Summerwise I have to get used to the heat, which hasn't been a problem. In fact I'd rather run in the evening in the middle of summer when it's 90ish than in the bitter cold.
I think I'd rather have a really high-quality elliptical later on than anything else. Unless I lived where I had the potential for extreme winter, I don't think I'd use a treadmill at home. Having said all that I haven't been on a treadmill in more than 10 years, so the new ones could "wow" me--you never know!
I checked Fitday and for my weight shoveling snow burns 5 cal/min--so in addition to the housework you're probably getting in more activity than you think.
Also, I like the "new day, new opportunity to make a difference." You really have to have that attitude to get to where you want to be!
Have a good one!
I can just tell that it's going to be one of those days where I fight tooth and nail to keep the calories under control....
Today is Husband's day off and he's driving me nuts already. Great guy, but he totally messes up my usual routine. But I'm glad he's home. We are going to the old house to work today. I hope to get in some "exercise" with cleaning. That house must get SOLD!
He said he was going to get himself a gym membership. Yep, ok, fine, go ahead. We'll see....
EVENING UPDATE: Had a totally self-defeating day. I only got to one bathroom today in the old house. It was so hard getting those hard water stains off the surface of the shower. Really the only thing to do is to get into the shower while it's running and clean it. So tomorrow I am going back to the old house and take a few showers until that damn shower is clean.
And then I have to start on the shower/bath in the master bedroom, which is nearly as dirty as the one I did today.
Met up with a contractor and the realtor to get the house on the market. The contractor will be replacing some flooring. The set-up of the kitchen is awkward and frankly, wrong (impractical) and so we will probably do some remodeling as well. This has me all in knots, so my eating was very out of control today.
Final calorie count: 2570 calories. A huge lunch, a huge dinner. And still no exercising. This is going nowhere.
Oh..... and I forgot to add: It's snowing again. I'm ready to jump off the edge of the earth.
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
WEIGH-IN DAY
(Let me clarify yesterday's entry: Donkey does NOT eat pizza rolls whatsoever.)
***Is any of this worth it?***
Is passing up desserts and second helpings worth it if I see no results on the scale? I weighed in this morning at a disappointing 136.0. Earlier last week, I weighed in at 135.5. I thought I'd be even lower than that by now. I skipped dessert, I passed on the cupcakes my daughter made yesterday, I've passed up on second helpings even though I was still hungry. I'm falling within a 1400-1680 calorie range every day, so I'm eating enough. And I am not eating any junk food (except for my allotted dessert of 150-170 calories). Yet the scale only goes up.
If it would only warm up a bit, so that I could be active outside. Oh well, I suppose I should be GRATEFUL that it's not SNOWING outside, as it is expected to do tomorrow. WAH!!!!!! I'm a Depressed Donkey.
AFTERNOON UPDATE: I'm trying to pull myself up from this discouraged frame of mind, and get myself back on track with some positive thinking. I've made some revisions, some changes.
One thing I've decided to do is to log in my calories here (quite like BTC and HOP and many others do). I won't bore or tempt some of you with lists of food that I eat (I remember Biscotti saying that she finds food lists to be boring, or something to that effect). Besides, my breakfast is nearly always the same thing. But I think it sufficient to show how much I'm eating.
I need to consider whether to list my exercise here too. This would be easier and more exciting if I worked out at a gym, but I'm hoping it will give me incentive to get my butt out the door and do something. For example, today I have done basically nothing.
I contacted my old gym buddy (my pal that I used to workout with). She recently moved out to this area that I did and I want to ask her where she's working out. She had a free month's membership at the "la-dee-da" mega gym I'm checking out tomorrow, but she did not think she could afford to purchase a membership herself. So I'm wondering where she's at now. Hopefully it will give me an idea of what to do myself.
EVENING UPDATE: Calories consumed: 1407, which is a little low for me but I did not exercise beyond the few cleaning chores and some toning.
My exercise buddy did call me back. It seems as though she is working at the "la-dee-da" gym, so now she gets to workout for free. I am happy for her, because she has gone through some really tough times personally and financially. I'm glad that not only does she get a fancy place to workout for free AND she gets paid for it. Not much, but something.
However, the call was extremely disappointing for me. I felt when I spoke to her that she kept trying to sell me a membership (even though she's not in sales, so it's not like she gets a commission). She went and spoke to a staff person in sales and she calls me back and said that I had to make an appointment with this person and I'd get a $25 gift card. Initiation is $159 and it's $59 per month for one person.
OK, that's good to know but I just turned sick at the thought of making an appointment. I didn't WANT to make an appointment!!! I just wanted to walk in and hear what they have to say and get a tour and take the literature and go home and think about it.
So I guess I'm not going to the gym tomorrow.
Husband and kids have vacation the end of March, so I guess that is when I will go by myself and see. I will go on a day that my friend is not working there, so I can be as anonymous as possible. And so I have another month of being gymless.
I like how Husband turns to me and says, "Well, if you don't sign up there, then I'll find a gym where I can go workout, because I'm going to workout." Yeah, right. This from the guy who said, "Well, we can join but I won't go every day to workout." You do that, Dear.
This has been one of the worst Donkey Days I've had in a long time.
Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
If you're really feeling hungry, though, I think you will see a loss soon. Hunger is generally your body's way of telling you that you need to eat. If you ignore that signal, you should lose weight.
You're doing great. Try to switch things up and see if that helps.
I hope tomorrow is a lot better for you! Sleep it off. :-)
Hang in there otherwise, the weather for one has to get better eventually and I hope everything else falls into place real soon!
Maybe you should just go ahead and sign up with the basic gym nearby. Do these places not have short-term memberships? Over here one can join for a month or even just get a pass for a dozen sessions. That could tide you over until you decide what to do in the long run.
Hope you feel better soon!
I got all excited last night because the weather forecast said 40 degree weather all this week, with a high of 50 on Friday. Then I check Weather Channel online this morning and we won't reach even low 40s until Wednesday (after more snowing on Tuesday). And no 50 degrees on Friday either.
On my way to church, I notice that the walking trails need to be cleared of snow AGAIN. And with the forecasted snow on Tuesday, I doubt my running will re-commence any time soon.
Saturday, I was determined to keep my calories under 1500, which I did by not having dessert. So I weighed myself this morning, as sort of a "sneak peek" for Monday's weight-in (when I will update my Progress Bar here). Not only did I deprive myself of dessert but I also had to keep dinner small too. I would have expected some change in the scale this morning, but I was met with disappointing, familiar numbers instead.
To summarize this weekend: disappointment at every turn. (With the exception of church, which I actually felt more at home, even though it's huge and new and different.)
I emailed with Husband at work today and we are going on one of his days off (Tuesday or Wednesday) to the la-dee-dah gym (the one that costs $90 a month for a family) for a tour, a sales pitch, free passes for a day (for both of us) and accurate pricing information.
I discovered this morning that he bought 2 bags of pizza rolls (which are like fried egg rolls with pizza topping inside) last night and had some, in addition to the dish of ice cream that he had. I told him that if he continues to eat like that, I will just get a single membership at a basic gym, because I don't need all the bells and whistles that come with the comprehensive $ gym. I just need a place to do basic cardio and lift weights.
I want to see if he will use his free pass, if and when (time of day) and how it works for him, before signing up for anything. I remain skeptical, although I really do wish he'd take better care of his health. He's got about 30 extra pounds on his belly that need to come off.
Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!
Man, those pizza rolls sound good. I've never heard of them before, but I feel like I could eat several dozen of them right now!
My husband also eats very badly - he'll eat a whole two-person pepperoni pizza and then several slices of mine, wash it down with two litres of pop and round it off with half a pint of ice-cream. And then throw in a couple of bowls of cereal just to make me suffer, haha! I wonder how we can get them to improve their eating habits before it's too late?!
Not much new today. More snow, therefore, more shoveling. Oh well, at least I'm getting my cardio in. And I'm sure that there will be something to shovel up at the Old House, which I will probably go to on Monday for more cleaning.
I am actually looking forward to Monday's weigh-in. I went back into my records and found that on Jan. 1, I weighed 136.4. I think I might actually weigh less than that now, so that would be good. The important thing though is that I feel more in control of my eating, of portions and caloric intake. Of course, it gets somewhat tedious to have to measure everything. *sigh*
Today I signed my daughter up for summer softball. She's 6 yr old but already quite a socialite. It's funny how some people just NEED to be around other people. Right now she is craving a playmate but with winter, nobody is outside playing. This will change but it will take some decent weather. (Another reason why I'm really sick of winter!!!) At any rate, even if she is a social butterfly -- and good for her that she's not a shy loner like me -- I'm glad that she likes to be active. I love to watch live sporting events, and I even volunteered The Husband to be an umpire.
I should probably mention NOW that one of the drawbacks is the fundraising that comes along with this event. Selling candy bars.
It's a never-ending battle.
Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!
Come the end of this winter I bet if you never see another shovel again it will be too soon! hahaha. It seems like you've always got a driveway or walkway to shovel.
You're right, it is a never ending battle but you are winning so far! I bet it gets easier as it goes along too. :-)
I weighed in today at 135.5, but I am not changing the Progress Bar until Monday's "official" weigh-in.
I am feeling very unmotivated today. I am not going up to the old house because of the blowing snow. This wind is just out of this world. And Weather Channel says that although it's 28F outside it "feels like 12F". Well, who the **** wants to go walking when it feels like 12 degrees out?!? And even that's not so bad, but the wind is just impossible.
I jokingly said to myself at the kids' bus stop this morning, that Born To Cry would go running in this wind. I doubt she would go with the cold and snow and ice though. The sidewalks are totally impossible with thick sheets of ice on them. I nearly fell on my butt walking home and had to switch to walking in the street.
So I don't know what to do today. I do not feel like unpacking more toys. I suppose I will try to wash floors here by hand in the bathrooms. Yay. <
UPDATE#1: It is a GOOD THING I did not go to the old house to do cleaning. There is a HUGE multi-car pile-up accident on Highway A en route to the house. So either that might have been me! OR I would have no way to come back home. Now the radio says that they are thinking of closing Highway B to Highway A (with the accident) because of blowing snow and white-out conditions. So even if I got past the accident, I still might not make it home! So far, I have been able to ward off the "snackies" with carrot sticks and a cup of coffee and lots of water. So far so good.
My daughter's bus was cancelled again today (it was also cancelled yesturday because of this storm) and I have to admit I was a little relieved that I didn't have to go outside in the cold this morning to walk Taylor to the bus!!
Donkey, stay away from that kitchen, you can do it!! I hope your in better spirits as the day goes on. Take Care!
Saturday, March 3, 2007 The courage to be you You are unique, with your own special beauty and value to give to life. What a terrible shame it would be if you were to let that beauty be hidden behind your fears. When you worry that you're not good enough, you allow others to control you, and their domination will soon make you miserable. Or when you fool yourself into thinking you're superior to everyone else, you deny yourself the exquisite joy of offering your own special gifts to life.
It takes courage and faith, effort and initiative to be who you are. And it is so very much worth the effort.
Though no one else can do it for you, you have what it takes to be magnificently successful at being you. From the deepest secrets of your soul to the face you put forward to the world, every bit of you is meant to be the authentic and original person you are.
Listen to that quiet, persistent voice inside that you know is always right. This is your opportunity to fulfill and express the real and lasting joy of being you.
Let the beautiful person inside of you come more fully to life as each moment passes. Let yourself, and the world around you, know the joy and fulfillment that is meant just for you to express.
-- Ralph Marston
Justine6Robert3 on 03/02/2007:
Good job on loosing 1.5 lbs! I know what you mean, it usually takes my body a few days of bouncing up and down a pound before it sticks! We also have sheets of ice all over outside. We had freezing rain last night, nasty weather! I think everybody here at DD will be so much more motivated when spring hits and we can all get some sunshine and fresh air!! That is for those of us who aren't living in sunny warm places right now, I'm so envious of all the girls in the with cozy warm weather right now!! If only I wasn't so broke I would want to jump on a plane and escape all of this cold!!
borntocry on 03/02/2007:
I actually did try running on ice once. It wasn't a good idea. I was running so slowly that I probably would have gotten a better workout raiding the refrigerator. I must say, it is pretty cold where you are right now, though. It's nowhere near that cold over here. Hope it warms up for you soon. Oh, and I'm glad you were nowhere near that multi-car pile-up on the highway! See, sometimes it pays to be lazy - at least that's what I always tell myself. No, seriously, you did the right thing staying home in such conditions!
borntocry on 03/02/2007:
P.S. I wouldn't have gone running today if it weren't for you! But your view of me was so flattering, I felt I had to live up to it! Thank you for that!
WorkingIt2 on 03/03/2007:
I am so OVER winter LOL. Have a good day today! =)
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Hi Donkey! I was kind of leaning towards the more basic gym anyway. It'll be summer soon, and you and the kids will probably want to do more outdoor activities anyway. If you really get a lot of use out of the gym you can always sign up for the more expensive one next year, or in six months or something. I'm sure your husband will support you if he sees you're really going to benefit from it.
Thanks for your comments and for wishing me luck before my race! And also for the warning not to pig out on those macadamia nuts... you were right about that... I found out the hard way!
borntocry on 03/11/2007:
I just read your comment... thank you for saying that!
biscottibody59 on 03/11/2007:
My 2cents: Isn't the job (uncompensated) as "housewife" and major caregiver to your children and all the stuff you've been doing to put your old house on the market worth something? Especially if you're eventually going to go to work at some point. Imagine what you'd have to pay someone else to do all that.
borntocry on 03/11/2007:
P.S. 39 inches here!
biscottibody59 on 03/11/2007:
In addition: You may still lose the argument or the desire to choose the more expensive, fancier gym. But your time and effort is certainly worth alot!