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Donkey - Sunday Dec 06, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

Is it bad to want to start drinking wine before 10am?


Last night was so difficult, and while this morning seems better, don't think that I haven't thought about uncorking that bottle of wine already. 

Oh what a battle it was last night NOT to go out into the garage  to grab a slice of frozen cake.  Thought about it several times, and REALLY struggled with this.  However, I did win this battle.  Somehow I was able to resist.  I'm not sure how, because all of the "go-to" tools that I said I had (brushing teeth, chewing gum, etc.), never popped into my head.  I guess the one thing that DID help was that I said to myself, If you are going to have a slice of cake, you need to log into DD and make an announcement before doing so.

While I was having this raging internal battle, I DID manage to hop onto the treadmill and do 4 laps (1 mile).  I thought to myself, in the middle of this cake war, Why don't I do this more often?

I had planned to settle down with reading, but Husband decided that he wanted to spend time with me instead.  (Usually, we do our own things at night.)  So rather than having this time alone, we were watching TV together - and even though it was a show of my own choosing, I was feeling an illogical rage inside --- same sensation about the cake battle, but just now other things (ideas) to rage about.  To be clear, I was not angry AT my husband, nor was I angry at the cake or angry about not eating the cake.  Just a feeling of silently having a tantrum - an overwhelming feeling of anxiety, frustration, discouragement, etc.

Frankly, I think it was the harshness of all reality affecting me, but fortunately, Donkey was grown up about all of this to keep it self-contained.


I've mopped the floors and have 1 of 2 loads of cat laundry started.  I will knit some, and I want to sew a string of cranberries for the birds and squirrels.  Husband bought 2 bags of cranberries, and I'm just not in the mood for those this year.  And of course, I can do the reading that I wanted to do last night, today as well.

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
Love how you feed the critters! So do I! Buy scratch grain at Tractor Supply and 40 pd sacks of wild bird seed at Walmart. I understand that sense of frustration. You handled or well.

Love frozen cake! I watch TV with the husband until he gets tired, 8:30-9 and then go to my own bedroom and binge on medical dramas until 11 or so. Doing Nip/Tuck now, a weird one! Too much sex, often bizarre. I FF over some. A unique medical drama! Lots or crime and suspense, which I do like. They can keep the pervy 3-ways.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
Around 2009, I started watching TV series that I had missed because I don't have cable TV. I watched Nip/Tuck until they moved the practice to Los Angeles. Not interested in it after that. And I NEVER understood the appeal of the wife/girlfriend character that they were fighting over. Not a pretty person - inside or out!


grannyannie on 12/06/2020:
I understand wanting alcohol before 10am! And I'm having a lot of trouble resisting everything.

We are all having a lot of stress now with this damn virus and life not being normal.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
I'm trying to find that panacea that I can eat in moderation but will satisfy me. I don't think there is such a thing.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
Perhaps this is why I appreciate still going to work, to keep some "normalcy" in the day. The unstructured weekend is harder to handle - at least this time it is.


Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
Nip/tuck is populated by unsympathetic characters, Donkey. Weird show! Last night the wife/girlfriend was banging that dwarf guy you see around. Think his name is Peter Dinklage. Good actor.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/06/2020:
to your comment back to me, yesterday, i think the journey is always about moderating. like me, for example...i am sorta on a pretty darn unhealthy run now..a little too much junk even for my liking...and it's about just learning to tweak things, moderate things, to where it works best...i'm still learning that too.

nice job to have a cake war and win by going on the treadmill for a mile! that is huge! great exercise, jdonk! applause sent your way, seriously.

i am sorry to hear you weren't very content last night and quite aggravated with some things. it happens, it's ok to experience emotions. i understand it.

enjoy your writing. i may write about some things i felt today, negative thoughts, kinda like your rage...that just can't be helped and it's just emotions that sometimes we feel, that i also felt and let go of during the day today.



Donkey - Saturday Dec 05, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.0

 Good morning!  It's so nice to be home!  It is clear & sunny, but cold.  I need to fill my birdfeeders and do a quick return/pick-up at the library.  Then I think I'm pretty much at home for the remainder of the weekend.

I have laundry started, the dishwasher running (so it will need to be emptied), and I will need to do a little mopping either today or perhaps tomorrow.  After mopping comes a load of cat laundry, so that the mop-head can get washed too.

As I didn't get far with the Lewis & Clark diaries, my brother recommended a book about L&C that is written by Stephen Ambrose.  I'm picking that up today to see if it's easier to read.  I hope I will find the "storyteller" account, rather than diaries with poor grammar and incomplete sentences, to be a more successful read.  While I was waiting for my inter-library loan to come in, I read and finished "When Talking to Strangers", which is non-fiction.  I found it very enlightening about how we interpret conversations with people we don't know.

Finally, I want to replace some of the outdoor porch/deck lights with red or green bulbs.  So that's on my to-do list too.  It will make our house look a little more festive on the outside :-)


It seems as though I've dropped most of my holiday weight.  Once again, I am *so close* to getting back into the 130's.  

I've discarded the goal of using flavored decaf coffee at the end of the day, but having this as a goal really helped me learn something for myself.  I much prefer the straight up cream in my coffee - the real deal, not artificial.  Also, I like having a little dessert every night.  What's wrong with that?  So rather than trying to fight this, I'm going to fit it into my daily routine.  Just like I've started taking 6 dates to work, as a snack, I will incorporate a chocolate candy after dinner.  I think that in the long run, this will be more constructive towards a good life, rather than trying to win an internal battle every single night.

I need to use the treadmill today for my other December goal (one of them).  I think I can do that.  I don't know if I'll do any weights.  I'm wondering if I should get into the 130's first before I start weight training again???  IDK - maybe I'll do legs today.  Those are usually easier to motivate myself to do.


Thank you all for your feedback on the Christmas Card drama at work.  I plan to wear a Christmas sweater and celebrate that day, but I haven't decided yet what option I will take for myself.  I'd much rather if we all ate upstairs, kind of distanced from each other but still together.  We can do that; it would work.  For the actual card signing in the conference room, we couldn't be 6 feet apart, but someone wrote "Masks and Hand Sanitizer Required" on the calendar, and I think I'd be comfortable with that.  Maybe the lunch part will be eliminated - after all, it's more about the cards than anything else.

Progress as of today: 45.5 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/05/2020:
I know about that internal battle every night!

We don't have xmas decorations. We aren't here at xmas normally - maybe twice in 20 years. But of course we are this year. I have a huge weeping fig tree so hubby suggested we get lights for it. So one string came today but it wasn't enough, so I've ordered 2 more and might string one of them across the mantle over the fireplace.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
It seems to me that people are putting up more lights than usual. It's very cheery. You inspired me to put an extra set on our mantle! It lives up the room.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
PS the nighttime battle was SO difficult last night.


Jacky82020 on 12/05/2020:
Never could taste much flavor in the flavored coffees. The aroma is usually nice though.

I have a big weeping fig in the sunroom. Love it. Also lots of huge philodendrons. They grew outside in Southern California.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
I should be more clear, but I was too lazy to type more (lol!): the coffee isn't flavored, the creamer is. I wonder if part of the problem is that I'm using a good, solid dark roast. The flavored creamer kind of ruins that, while the real cream enhances that roasted coffee flavor.

I have plans to add an oak tree to my collection. There's a baby oak growing in a precarious location at work, and I fear it won't survive the foot traffic in the area. In the spring, I want to dig it up and bring it home.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
Does your fig tree bear fruit?


Maria7 on 12/05/2020:
I have watched a Lewis and Clarke movie long ago. Was very interesting.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
What an adventure! And to think, I've been there! (Well, Montana...)


horn_of_plenty on 12/05/2020:
I’m so glad you’ve found your interest in learning more about L&C! I had no idea you didn’t like fiction books! ...

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
It's not that I don't like fiction, but it's difficult for me. I like the classics more than contemporary works of fiction.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
I find that I start critiquing storylines (not being realistic or rushing the plot) and quality of themes.


horn_of_plenty on 12/05/2020:
Yes I like this idea of incorporating a treat after dinner ! I believe we humans are meant to have some Sweetness and that’s how I’m making it thru Covid....

Yes it’s totally more about the card signing than anything else ...

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
I'm wondering if my journey is more about learning to moderate (food, emotions, interests, etc.), rather than abstain.


Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
Nope, the fig tree just sits there and looks pretty. Love the flavored creamers. The husband uses the Italian Cream sugar free. Still too many calories for me, must contain fat. I use the chocolate flavor protein drink & have quite a collection and of sugar free syrups.


Jacky82020 on 12/06/2020:
I’m 100% with you, Donkey, on preferring classic fiction over contemporary crap. Read mostly nonfiction.

Donkey on 12/06/2020:
:-)



Donkey - Friday Dec 04, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Very short on time - I'm so sorry I haven't had the opportunity to comment on entries from yesterday.  I am reading & keeping up.  You all are doing so well.

I just couldn't get on the treadmill last night, so I went for a walk outside (quite chilly!) to look at all of the Christmas lights.  Well, I got turned around and by the time I figured out where I was, I had gone much farther, for much longer that I originally planned.  So when I got home and saw what time it was, I decided not to knit but rather to read.  I read until almost 11pm - way past my bedtime. 

So of course, this morning, I woke up very tired and later than I wanted. 


I'll tell you what has been bothering me.  My boss asked me to arrange a time where we (all staff) would sign Christmas cards that we send to realtors.  So I did, and I sent out an email saying that this is when we're signing cards and we might get Subway for lunch.  I didn't want to include Queen Bee in the email, but I did, because I didn't want to seem like I didn't like her - which I don't. 

Anyway, Male Co-Worker replies to all (except my boss, who doesn't use email) saying he doesn't want to eat as a group and would rather not sign cards in a group.  Well, DUH!  Buti don't shoot the messenger!!  So I've been feeling really bad about this.  However, in trying to process this, I realize 2 things:

  1. My email may seem tone deaf, especially after having traveled recklessly.  
  2. Male Co-Worker is right.  

Ever since my co-workers turned on me 2 years ago, during a very, very stressful time in my life, I have stopped eating with them unless absolutely mandatory. So heck no, I don't want to eat with these people.  And NO, we should NOT be meeting together to sign cards - think like an assembly line.

At least there's some relief in knowing that Queen Bee will not be stopping by to eat and sign cards.  That's the most important thing, so who cares about the rest of the drama, right?


Odds and Ends:

Found out yesterday that Mortgage Guy who works from home (but stopped by yesterday) has tested negative for COVID, but his wife has a stubborn case of COVID.  Um... So Male Co-Worker and Nice Lady were really upset about that.  I guess the COVID announcement happened while I was gone, so I was completely unaware until yesterday and couldn't understand why Nice Lady was so upset.

Went to the the thrift store yesterday to buy some Christmas sweaters, to help me feel more in the Christmas spirit, even if we can't celebrate like usual.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/04/2020:
Jesus, why isn’t the Mortgage Guy keeping his butt home? I sure wouldn’t want to deal with all the card signing. Why don’t they pass the cards from person to person vs a mass signing?


legcramps on 12/04/2020:
Holy Mortgage Guy, what the heck?!


grannyannie on 12/04/2020:
WTF with Mortgage guy!


Horn_of_plenty on 12/04/2020:
sounds like a nice walk outside! it's been quite chilly here, too, as of late!

yay to Queen Bee not coming along to the card signing! I see no problem for everyone to sign cards together...just wear the masks...like don't you already all work together!? (except Queen bee, that is!) Also, i think Male Coworker is quite annoying...i don't think he needed to reply all...someone can just pick up Subway to distribute to the staff. why's he so adamant to not do anything!? maybe he's just a nervous type. Story sounds like a piece is missing. but also, i wouldn't be too upset, Donkey, after all, you said you were just "the Boss' messenger!" your boss isn't exactly careful with Covid situations. i wouldn't give it too much more thought. passs the cards around, distribute the Subway (if there's someone to go around and collect everyone's order and what they want?) Subway might be a difficult one, with difficult orders...

Mortgage Guy did wrong. If there's someone in his house with Covid, now's the wrong time for him to come by your office.



Donkey - Thursday Dec 03, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 The best thing about yesterday is that it's behind me.  I didn't do well at work - just didn't have it together. Nothing that can't be fixed,  I suppose, but I could see that I wasn't on top of my game,  and my co-workers could see it too.  Not a pleasant feeling,  but I suppose we all need a little humility to keep us humble.  I will remain positive in attitude. 


I figured out that my recent decaf problem is the flavor of the creamer. Can't taste it without using a ton of it.  I tried a different flavor with more success.

To answer Bear's suggestion,  tea just doesn't do it for me,  as far as curbing my desire for sweets after dinner. I do drink herbal tea - orange is my current favorite,  with mint being a close second. But for after dinner, I need something a little thicker?


I met (sort of) my daily goals,  but may have to rethink the knitting goal,  as I went to bed with my wrist complaining. Dang!  

I'm looking forward to making today a good,  positive day!

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/03/2020:
Nobody can be 100% all the time. Just not possible.

Might not be to your taste, but I developed the habit of putting milk in my tea. At night if you want to take the edge off drink decaf black with milk.

I also drink chamomile sometimes but it's definitely not 'thick'.

How about packets of low cal hot chocolate?


Jacky82020 on 12/03/2020:
It will get better, Donkey. We all get the blues and feel under par at times. I can only drink iced tea. I’m content sipping on diet root beer after dinner. No caffeine.


Maria7 on 12/03/2020:
I love my coffee, too! Which I have learned to drink it black.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/03/2020:
this is a comment i left on granny annie's page: if jacky or donkey is reading this also, that's why i do not overdo my protein anymore. a lot goes a long way. that's why i even, many times, cut a burger in half...i feel that a lot of meat is just a waste of calories and that a little meat will satisfy just as much!


Horn_of_plenty on 12/03/2020:
also, i re-read my comment that i left you yesterday, ugh!, so many typos! i hope you could read thru those horrible typos!

i totally understand you on wanting something "thicker." i find that i am not satisfied to think about making a tea for myself, but i think the truth is that i'm too lazy to make it!? this is not about you, but it is certainly about myself. i should get into teas again, they are so healthy...

but i hear you on needing something more satisfying, like a coffee, to hold you over. i feel that if you want a coffee with some sweetener, to do it...or, if not sweet enough, perhaps add stevia unless you do not like that sweetener. (or another sweetener that you do like?) i still use my stevia most days, especially in my coffee..

are there any stretches for your wrist? try not to overdo it...LOL...i know that's a hard tip to follow!

lastly, like the others say, sometimes we have those days where we find it hard to reach our own standards. you just got back from your trip and if i'm correct, you'll be feeling far better after this coming weekend! and tomorrow is friday!



Donkey - Wednesday Dec 02, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Work is definitely slowing down,  yet I come home at night,  after sitting on my butt all day,  and feel mentally and physically exhausted.  All I want to do is sit and relax with my phone,  catch up on the day's news and events. And the pain is real. I feel achy in my knees,  sometimes hips. 

Oh last night was a struggle not to dip into chocolate... or even dates.  As Horn said,  there's nothing to say that I can't have a couple of dates after dinner - as long as it stops after a couple. That's one issue.  However,  my goal,  for December at least,  is to stick to decaf after dinner,  so that's what I did. Having this goal in mind helped a lot.  And,  moving forward, I will remind myself of Jacky's self-discipline, to help me.  Also,  brushing my teeth, chewing gum.  So those 4 tools I will use, to prevent me from going off the deep end at night. 

I felt pressured and stressed to get to my knitting goal last night, but after completing 2 rows, I was glad I had done it. 

I am dreading starting up yoga again, which is silly, but I'll be mailing my payment today. I think it's the demand on my time that is stressing me out,  even though this is something I want to do.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/02/2020:
You'd probably feel better is you started yoga again.

I find that if I brush my teeth right after dinner that's a signal to me that I'm done eating for the day.

Donkey on 12/02/2020:
That's what I think - that once I start up yoga and actually DO it, I will feel much better.

I'm doing OK tonight, but I will try the brushing teeth thing soon, and see if that helps.


Jacky82020 on 12/02/2020:
The only way I can resist things like chocolate and Reese Cups is to keep them out of the house. Couldn’t stop at 2 dates either! Unless there were only 2 in the house.

What do you think the pain in your joints is? I am reading just about everyone over 30 has some degree of OA. Gets worse as ppl age and can become devastating. I have it in my right thumb of all places. Surely other areas too that I don’t know about. Never had any images. But when I was 30 or so, the damn thumb got swollen & painful, so I thought I fractured it when I ran up the stairs to catch the trolley and fell, The doc said it was OA. Pain comes and goes.

Donkey on 12/02/2020:
I hadn't thought about it being OA. In the morning, I presume it's because I don't sleep well. After work though... Hmm... Now today I came home and I was fine.


grannyannie on 12/02/2020:
Guess I'm lucky, so far. No joint problems. I did injure my shoulder getting too ambitious with heavy dumbbells, but that was my fault. It's okay now but I'm careful. My husband has arthritis in a couple of fingers but doctor said that's expected when he had football (soccer) and rugby injuries when he was young.

A lot of elderly get new knees or new hips here.

Donkey on 12/02/2020:
If you had asked me 5 years ago, I would have predicted that I would eventually need a new right knee, but now I'm thinking hip replacement in about 15 years.

Maybe it's tightness from not doing yoga. There are yoga moves to help stretch and relax the hip flexors.


horn_of_plenty on 12/02/2020:
Just wanted to say thank you for reassuring me how my familiar isn’t a total failure and that a lot of the work I did was still worth it. I appreciate it. My French friend said the same. And I know you are both right and I appreciate your caring thoughts sent my way the other night when I took the test. It’s been easy for me to forget about it and I just wanted to thank you bc I know I didn’t previously.

If the yoga is too much, try to do a shorter set of it or just do half. Some is better than none. You did love your yoga practice.

I remember the times were the ample sitting at work, then too much OT sitting, also made me feel excessively tight and pained my legs. Do get up or set a timer if you can during the slow periods just get up and stretch will help. However, I do think the pain may be more THe mental game of getting thru work than actually the physical- maybe. Bc I spend loads of time on my couch ...and I’m not necessarily in pain but then again it’s a more relaxed position for me than at a desk.

One thing I can suggest is that you rest your legs on a garbage or something under your desk so that they aren’t constantly on the floor. Not sure though if you’d like that, I can’t picture you doing this at all actually!

Not sure these comments are up your ally....haha

Donkey on 12/03/2020:
You are most welcome! I think you got this, but I wanted to offer my observations, from afar. I wanted to share some objectivity.

I hope you are right about the pain and fatigue I am experiencing. You know, I just realized, from your comment, that I may need to adjust my chair and sitting position at work! I know some of the fatigue is mental - maybe more than I realize!

When I start yoga up again, I know that I can pause or modify the poses if I need to. There are cheaper options than this class, but I needed something to get back into yoga. The $ expense will help me stick to it.



Donkey - Tuesday Dec 01, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Happy December!  I am looking forward to all of the possibilities this month!

When I returned to work, my file racks were noticeably thinned out, which is good for where I'm at mentally.  I'm really looking forward to a slower, calmer real estate month.  Mistakes Girl did a good job of keeping up, although she does things differently.  So about 5-6 times, I had to ask her, Where is this?  What is this?  What about that?  That's actually not too bad at all!  I remember one year, I came back from Thanksgiving week to something like 60 emails.  It's not a vacation if you have to come back to twice the work.  So I am blessed and grateful.


 While I was out of town, I decided that I was going to try to revert back to my habit of having decaf coffee after dinner with a flavored (artificial) creamer, rather than a more natural, heavy whipping cream, to help satisfy my sweet tooth after dinner.  I thought that having 35 calories of Coffeemate was better than having 90-120 calories of candy.  So I did that last night, and now the flavored creamer does not quite satisfy like it used to.  Maybe I need a smaller coffee cup?  It was very hard not to succumb to the candy craving.  I was even thinking about diving into the dates!  However, I was able to remain disciplined and went to bed instead.

  • Oh wait that's not entirely accurate.  I had the last 4 sugar-free gummies I've been saving.  Well, those are gone, so tonight will be a test.

My December Goals:

  • Get back into the 130's - quite difficult with all of the eating this month.
  • Use my treadmill 1x a week
  • 100 ounces of water a day - that's almost 3 liters
  • Knit 2 rows of the Prayer Shawl I've been working on for 2 years - I need to complete this project and donate
  • Read 10 pages or 20 minutes a day
  • Start yoga again - going to sign up with my old teacher Jean via Zoom.  I'm purchasing a 10-class ticket, and then I will see what other options are available to me

I have semi-goals that I want to work on too, for this month:

  • Leave work before 5:30p
  • Abstain from sweets after dinner and opt for the decaf & flavored creamer combo

These 2 things aren't going to happen all the time, but I would like to establish these as HABITS, not goals.  I won't always be able to get out of work on time, and I probably won't pass up dessert on any holiday celebrations, but these are exceptions.  

 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/01/2020:
Wonderful goals! I have some terrific decaffeinated coffee beans. A little shot of canned whipped cream doesn’t add many Cals. Maybe 30. You can add cocoa & an artificial sweetener to the coffee too. Sounds like you work for a real estate attorney?


legcramps on 12/01/2020:
I like your goals for December!


grannyannie on 12/01/2020:
Very good goals. Glad work wasn't as bad as expected.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/01/2020:
regarding your entry a few days ago...i also find a lot of people, even just my sister's 2yr old, actually...a LOT to handle! so i understand you completely!

when staying at someone's house, boy it can be hard. it's not a full vacation as you have to watch yourself somewhat and you cannot just always do exactly what you want to if you were "free" at a hotel. but at least you were able to go there, enjoy nature, and not have to pay for a hotel!? ha. i'm sure the hotel rate would have been crazy low, but we're not talking about that!

what about a coffee after dinner with one or two dates / one or two chocolates? nobody says you can't...



Donkey - Monday Nov 30, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 Just a quick post before I leave for the day.  I am dreading going back to work.  My brain feels like mush when it comes to recalling how to do my job.  I'm sure it will all fall into place as soon as I sit down and figure out where each file is.

My lunch is leftovers.  I eat breakfast at home now, since I wear a mask all day (pretty much) at work.  I'm not sure what to take as an afternoon snack.  I'll take some frozen fruit.

I just realized that I will need to sanitize my workstation and phone, so I'll log off and leave for work now.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/30/2020:
I remember how hard it was to go back to work after a holiday, or just time off.

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
This time seemed particularly difficult - as though I couldn't get my brain to switch to "work thinking" as I started to prepare, mentally, for work on Sunday. Maybe that was my brain just trying to squeeze out the very last minute of my time "off".


Maria7 on 11/30/2020:
Hope all goes well at work and you enjoy getting back into your familiar routine. Fruit is always a good choice.

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
I just realized, from your comment, that in the summertime, it's easier to reach for raw vegetables for a snack or in a meal. This enjoyment fades in the colder months. So yes, I should switch to fresh fruits to hold and fill me. Not as good as vegetables but much better than chocolate, cookies, etc.

Thank you!


Jacky82020 on 11/30/2020:
It’ll be like riding a bike, Donkey. You’ll get the groove back soon!

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
Yep, you were right - it all came back to me. A little wobbly at first, but some of that may have been due to an unwilling brain, lol.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/30/2020:
I Plan to write more later and comment about your previous entry...

for now, i'll just comment on today's entry, since it is shorter and i can tend to it now...

I'm sorry you have to go into work on a Monday. I hope you try not to rush at things and take it easy. I remember in my experiences, I had my sister's wedding one weekend and after that weekend, i felt HORRIBLE going into work on Monday. I felt outside of myself, just not relaxed or back to myself after a weekend of nerves and stresses.

good luck today, you will do great.

if i can give you advice for this week, really try not to overdo it at work...ease in as much as humanly possible. try not to get a regular cold bc of being rundown after a vacation and working right after.

to make you feel better, in just a few weeks, you'll have Christmas and new years off from work xoxo

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
It was a very busy closing day that I came back to, this time - the last day of the month. I saw my boss for 5 minutes at the beginning and about 20 minutes at the end - LOL!

Anyway, busy closing days mean that the phones are quiet, and they were. It was odd.



Donkey - Sunday Nov 29, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 I'll say it again:  OH IT'S GOOD TO BE HOME!  And I've started making up a list of goals for myself for December - not all of them are directly weight-loss related, but also include things to help develope my well-being (mental health, so to speak), which I feel is equally important - maybe more so in the midwest winter months.


My COVID test was very easy and efficient.  I adminstered it to me myself, so it was not as comfortable as my test in August.  Perhaps the swab was bigger?  But quick and easy.  I should have my results in 2-3 days, which would be... Tuesday?  Not ideal for going back to work, but that's kind of how the Boss operates.


It was a nice visit - I really love mountains and hiking.  BUT there were a few things that, I suppose you'd call regrets:

  • The plane was way too crowded.  When I flew Delta over the summer, I felt very confident that they were taking measures to protect everyone in the plane.  This time we flew American Airlines, and I felt like, COVID be damned, we're packing the plane tighter than washboard abs.  We ended up paying more to sit up closer to the front, with the extended leg room, and this was 100% worth it.  Oh Lord, thank you for not having us sit way back in the plane, as I worry a LOT about those folks.  
  • I found myself losing patience with my family.  Not a pleasant feeling.  Kind of disappointed in myself for feeling this way, but on the other hand, be true to thine own self.
  • I found myself wanting to spend this time in my own way.  I'm really much more introverted than I realized.  My brother has 5 kids - a set of twins and a set of triplets - and just their family alone is a LOT to handle.  
  • As always, the food was out of my comfort level.  My brother and SIL always have so much food around - candy, cookies, snacks.

Oh well, I've definitely had enough travel for now - I definitely pushed myself way out of my comfort zone this year.  I am ready to hunker down for the winter and brace for the next surge. 


One thing I wanted to mention:  although we did our best to clear out the refrigerator of food before we left, I came back to find that my daughter's supervisor gave her a delicious flan cake for Thanksgiving.  So I came back to many slices of this beautiful cake that need to be eaten.  Not exactly what I wanted to face when I returned home.  The cake is almost gone.  I had 2 slices on Friday, when we returned, and 2 slices yesterday.  I've had enough, so any slices that nobody else eats will get thrown out.

I went for a walk after dinner last night, and it's nice to see so many people with Christmas lights up this year.  I have Christmas lights in my house on, all year round, as nightlights.  I have a flickering, mult-colored string in my kitchen, a string of white around my front door, and a short string on our balcony upstairs, if anyone needs to make a trip to the bathroom or go downstairs in the dark.  So I love Christmas lights any time of the year!  But it's especially nice to see this year.

 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/29/2020:
I love to travel but not during this time.

Families can be difficult!

There is a plot against you by cakes!!!

Donkey on 11/29/2020:
The flan cake is gone. Please, no more cakes! (lol)



Donkey - Saturday Nov 28, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 HOME SWEET HOME!  It's so good to be home!  And although I think I would have been OK with a quiet week at home, it was good to see family again.  I'm not a good traveler, although I tried to be this year, so I'm glad and relieved to be home and stationary for a while, as we hunker down for winter.

I am waiting for my appointment to get COVID testing, so I'm doing laundry, catching up on internet stuff that I only do on my laptop, filled my birdfeeders, etc., until I leave at around 11:40am.  My appointment is at noon.  I'm not nervous about the test or the results, but just the anticipation of having something new to do, with new people, makes me very nervous. Once I've taken the test, I am free to enjoy the rest of the time off I have.


 I did manage to weigh in this morning, and although I am not happy to see this number again, I do understand why it happened.  

  • Way too much eating out (carry-out only) - out of my control, even though I tried to make wise choices most of the time.
  • Not enough activity - we did some hiking on Tuesday, but after that, we kept to ourselves at my brother's house.  I fell below 10,000 steps on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday.
  • Not enough water, especially on traveling days.
  • TOM - oh the joys of traveling with TOM.  This should be over in time to go back to work on Monday.
  • Constipation - like I said, I'm not a good traveler.
  • Some anxiety-eating on snacks and sweet things.  I don't know why I can't just "go with the flow".

Now that I am back home, though, I do anticipate being able to shed most - if not all - of these pounds and get back to work, although....

Thanksgiving usually kicks off a month of eating.  I kid you not.  Usually by New Year's Day, I'm so sick of eating.  We have:

  • Thanksgiving
  • Office Christmas Party - this wll definitely be different or not at all this year
  • Office Card-Signing Party - this may not happen.  It's bad enough to be sitting around each other signing cards, much less eating, drinking, talking, laughing with each other.  No thanks.
  • Christmas Eve
  • Christmas Day
  • Anniversary (Dec. 28th)
  • New Year's Eve
  • New Year's Day

That's a LOT of eating.

However, I am still going to set some December goals for myself, a couple which may be repeats of some of the goals I had for November.  This month, unfortunately, just didn't pan out the way I had planned.

 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2020:
I think i am JUST as happy as you are...to hear that you are HOME! I'm sure that home never felt as good to you as it does during THIS year, Thanksgiving weekend! Welcome HOME!

Will this be a "rapid" test with results in two days or less? Yes, enjoy your time home!

You know, i've got to say, i REMEMBER your writing from last year (possibly other years too) because it is SERIOUSLY very, VERY SIMILAR to what you wrote today!!!! i remember you, in the past, listing those holidays (no, i'm not teasing or telling you that you shouldn't NO,NO...). but i remember your nerves about the eating situation on these particular dates and this time of year.

i honestly feel, with your son away, with your hubby and his health needs, with your wonderful daughter home...i honestly think that if what you want is to have better choices, rather, MORE options at holiday time, THIS IS THE TIME / YEAR to do it!

what i mean is, with this covid situation, less and less people are enjoying meals together. less of the family is getting together. it's almost like an open invitation to make different food / prepare different sides....AND DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO this holiday season. do you feel this way?

even in my family, nobody's being held to any standard. my mom made brisket, not turkey, since nobody really wanted it aside from myself / my dad...that's not enough to prepare an entire turkey for!

OK...this is getting VERBOSE!..haha the VERBIAGE is tough in this comment.

what i'm saying is, anything goes this holiday season. try to be open to "new" and ways to get thru it in possibly a SLIGHTLY different way. can you get thru it in a way where you are more satisfied and do not gain more than a couple pounds or even maintain? what can you do to make this season go easier than in past years?

if what i wrote is too anxiety-provoking to think about, leave it be! :)

also, your weight is good, you got this. you did a great job with maintenance these past few months.

Donkey on 11/29/2020:
I will write more about my COVID test in today's entry. I'm told that I will have the results in 2-3 days, but with today being Sunday, I'm not sure if they count that as a day or not.

I know *exactly* what you are talking about with making holidays our own this year. I love doing that, and I kind of feel like, with Thanksgiving, I didn't have that opportunity. It was more structured. I'm actually looking forward to celebrating Christmas, anniversary, New Year's, in our own way, with my own little family.


grannyannie on 11/29/2020:
Hope you and husband's tests are negative. I'm sure you enjoyed seeing family, and yes, travel and eating right are difficult.

Donkey on 11/29/2020:
You know, visiting family is like having cake. At first it's really good, but at the end, you've had your fill and now it's time to get back to vegetables and proteins.

I hope so too, regarding the test results. So far, we both feel fine. I could use another day or 2 to self-quarantine, but my employer doesn't think the same way I do.



Donkey - Sunday Nov 22, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 139.0

 Soooo....  Today was crazy.  Several times today I thought that maybe I'd be staying home, but it seems as though we are moving forward as planned.  I have a cloth mask and a disposible mask, and I'm going to add a few more disposible masks to my bag.  Santizing wipes.  Hand sanitizer.

My goals are:

  • To drink as much water as possible.
  • To keep my Fitbit goal of 250 steps per hour from 7am to 7pm
  • To make healthy food choices/portions and then leave it at that. 

At my brother's house, all they eat are carbs.  The kids are very particular eaters.  My sister in law is very tiny and doesn't eat much.  My brother is happy with meat and potatoes.  I could easily fill up on carbs and more carbs.  I have to pick my portions and then STOP with that.  So even if I'm a little hungry at the end of th meal, that will be OK.  REMEMBER THIS, DONKEY.

I would like to spend as much time as possible outside, even though it will not be very warm outside - 60's.

I will be thinking about December goals for myself.  I feel like this month just slipped through my fingers far too quickly.  I had GOOD goals for November, but unfortunataely, circumstances didn't allow me to partake in them.  I'm going to try again, and I think I have some more to add, as well.


I've wanted to talk about somthing, after I've struggled this past week with eating well, since I was not feeling good.  Low carb went out the window.  Had toast at home for breakfast.  Had trouble drinking enough water (drank enough water for a body, but did not meet my 100 oz. daily goal). Had some chocoaltes, etc.

The day I had all those chocolates at work - I realized, just how hard this healthy eating is to do.  I thought of Happy's dad, making unhealthy food choices, and how she battles with him on that.  Happy is absolutely right, but for a moment, after having eaten the chocolates, the difficulty of this struggle is - and I'm relatively healthy!  I don't have any major health issues that would prompt me to mandate that I eat better.  

I can see WHY and HOW it's so, so hard.

Progress as of today: 47.5 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/23/2020:
So hard to eat right when a guest at someone's house!


Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
well, please buy some fresh veggies to cut up so you can eat the carbs and just fill up on veggies for the rest of the meal when you want to stop on the meal!...eat the meal and follow up with your veggies, just cold veggies, for that week...when you get there, or if she can pick up for you - not sure she will - you can go out, get a load of veggies to last the week.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
others will prob want your healthy veggies too...whenever i bring a veggie platter to a party, people love it and love to eat it...


Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
who knows, just do a big shopping trip for extra veggies...it'll be worth it and easy to prepare. just cut.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
eating healthy is hard. but, at least you get your veggies in, etc. you are a step in front, more than a step in front, of people that don't try or plan. all the efforts you have put in have got you to where you are and that's even many steps in front of where you used to be.


Maria7 on 11/26/2020:
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your Family!


Maria7 on 11/27/2020:
Hope you are having a good day.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/27/2020:
Safe travels to you on your way back home from the holidays!



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