YET ANOTHER POUND GAINED... And I double-checked with my fancy scale and yes, I've gained a pound.
With the symptoms that I was feeling this past week, along with the weight gain and no food fits, I'm becoming concerned to the point that if this continues, I will see my doctor. First, though, I think I will need to track calories for a bit, to see if that's the problem. Not so much for losing weight, but rather to show my doctor, "Hey look - this is what I'm eating and I'm STILL gaining weight."
The weather has moderated a bit, so I have turned off the AC and opened the windows. I had no fatigue in my leg muscles this morning. In fact, I woke up at 4:10a to use the bathroom (too much water!), and couldn't fall back asleep, so I finally got out of bed at 5am. I figured I can always take a nap later on today. This NEVER happens during the week. But right now, I feel pretty good. I'm not sure if it's the weather, or knowing that I don't have to go to work, or what.
This may be just a bad spot that I'm in temporarily.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
Today especially, but all week actually, I've been feeling a growing sensation of deep muscle and joint fatigue. I used to feel this way right before TOM when I was anemic and not taking iron supplements. But I take my iron faithfully. And I'm certainly eating enough.
All I can think it is that it must be the heat -- except that o silence most of the day inside in the AC. I have been very busy at work. I've had headaches Tuesday and Wednesday (the worst, all day long, just on the verge of a migraine)... But that shouldn't equate to physical fatigue -- at least not to the level I'm experiencing.
I'm glad tomorrow is Friday.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
is something you are eating draining the iron anyways?
I don't think that I am eating something that would negate the iron levels... I probably don't eat enough red meat, but UGH, I just get so beefed out after 2 days of it. And I DO NOT eat liver or any organ meat AT ALL. I'd rather take extra iron if that's what it takes.
One of the "nice" things about Nice Lady being upset with me and not talking to me I'd that I am able to focus much more in getting work done. I feel bad for her because I think she is lonely. My boss has become the same way. Talking just to talk. This drives me nuts. Is this my destiny as well? To become like this? Will younger people write me off as lonely and annoying too? Probably.
I had too many tortilla chips at dinner last night. That WAS my dinner because I just couldn't handle having tuna salad again. Then, after yoga, I dove into a bag of marshmallows.
Needless to say I have more energy today! Gone is the fatigue I've felt the past few days, although my joints still ache a bit.
I think last night's yoga will be it for this week.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
also, i don't think you have the tendency to be a "chatter" when you are older! i'm glad you can do your work today.
Took today to rest, so my steps will be under 20,000 today.
Still feeling quite discouraged about everything, but I'd rather keep this to myself.
Not even sure I want yoga this week.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
Gained 3 pounds... Wow. I don't even know what to say.
I'm not even sure what to change because I feel like I'm doing all the right things....
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
happy 4th! you don't have to ever make a thousand changes at once. try to think of only a little change or to keep doing what you are doing for further results! <3
thanks for asking about me!
I think I could have done without this past week at work. I won't spend any more energy on the negatives there. I am off today (Friday) for the July 4th weekend - thank goodness, much needed time away. Somehow it doesn't feel right to be at home, but I'll take it.
Because of the extra day, I've washed the bedding and it's hanging outside to dry in the sanitizing sun. It is already uncomfortably warm and promises to get only warmer as the day moves on. Once the afternoon comes, I would like to work out in the front yard, which will be in the shade, to do some weeding.
In my funk this week, the only goal I could come up with for July is to "just get through it". And that made me so sad, because this is our summer month. (OK, August is too, but that has a twinge of autumn in it. July is the REAL summer.) What made me sad was that rather than wanting to enjoy summer or seize the day or make something of this time, my only goal was to hurry through it so that it would be over :-(
A LOT of THAT attitude is because of work and the rotten week I had. I'm only going to get busier, which is ridiculous. I just realized that a BIG part of the drain of work is all the DRAMA. I need to shed all of that **** and focus on my balance.
I truly do want to enjoy this summer month. Even just little joys like sitting out on my deck. Watching birds build their nests. Watching my butterfly garden come to fruition. I'm so filled with negative emotions by the time I get off of work that it's impossible to enjoy the time I have at home.
So I do have a couple of goals for July:
I think that's it.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!
That's right....enjoy your summer!!!!! Just enjoy this July as you should! go outside when you can, take walks maybe later in the evenings when it's cooler out (after 7:30!)...try to adjust your schedule and NOT be at everyone beck & call.
enjoy the summer you deserve to have. you work hard. play hard ;)
i don't mean tire yourself out, i mean enjoy the july month as you want to.
i surely won't stop you!
Oh yesterday was quite the challenge. I don't enjoy getting yelled at by clients and agents for things that are not of my doing. Mistakes Girl caused some of it with her mistakes. The other was a client going off on me because his well & septic evaluation is taking too long. Just pitiful to hear a grown man act like a baby throwing a tantrum. And me getting the brunt of it.
Yoga was very much needed last night. I think I was the only one signed up, though. And that's sad.
Afterwards I had some ice cream, which was a stupid thing to do. Husband complained that there wasn't enough ice cream to fill a bowl, but when I looked into both containers, there was plenty in both! So I had some of both. DUMB!
AND I did this after being secretly jealous of the officer manager at the PT clinic downstairs (the one who had the weight loss surgery) because her legs are so skinny, while mine remain the size of tree trunks.
No weight training, no bike last night. My mood is foul. I'm feeling rather depressed.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!
also, i also dislike grownups who have temper tantrums!
i also struggled to exercise last night and it left me out of starts. i guess we have to plan it to be more important!
Today will be tougher because I did not sleep well at all last night. So I'm starting the day very tired.
Slipped up a bit last night and had too many tortillas chips with dinner ~ 3 cups worth, give or take. Well, at least I didn't have any dessert cravings after that. The chips are so good when first opening the bag. Ahh... This is why I weigh too much.
I did not do weights, either. I just not work up the motivation to do so. Just sad.
I'm signing up for online yoga for tonight and Thursday. My daughter has plans tonight, so it will be just me, and I think online is fine.
I'm not going to Tuesday yoga because the instructor posted pictures on Facebook that she had a family get together over the weekend - no masks, no social distancing. I don't like doing her classes online, so there you go.
On this topic, Associate Attorney posted a video on his Facebook feed that he took at my church. It was a celebration of an Eagle scout project - again, no masks, no social distancing. I was SO tempted to call him out on that, on Facebook, but I didn't want to make any church enemies - BUT I might talk to him about it in person.
I'm so glad it will be a short work week.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!
Guess working in the garden tonight is a priority.
One wrinkle in this going-to-the-gym debate is that the hours have been curtailed. Instead of being 24/7, now they are open from 5a-10p. Since my daughter works 2nd shift, the 10p closing time doesn't work for her, since she gets off at 11p. She could go before work, but she's not really a morning person.
Alls I know for sure right now is that I'm SO glad it's a shortened week this week, because of the 4th of July holiday this coming up weekend.
I did legs and chest and back weight training yesterday. Not a lot, but enough.
I realized this morning that I've basically wasted my time this first half of 2020. Well.... maybe that's not fair of me to say, because everything changed with COVID. Perhaps if I had been able to continue at the gym, that things would have been different.
This is the year that I turn 50 (soon), and I decided that I'm going to give myseklf the rest of this year (2020) to work my inner thigh problem. And at the end of the year, if I'm still struggling with my fat knees (and fat inner thighs), I am going to consult with a medical professional about doing something about it.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!
This is the last weekend weigh-in for June, although for my goals, I can still weigh in on Tuesday, June 30th. I'm not sure if I will or not...
I did not get into the 130's as I had hoped. I had a couple of rough weeks where I strayed away from being focused on my goals, but I was able to see where the problem lies - I EAT TOO MUCH - and made some progress this week.
Last night was tough though. Dinner was shrimp and salad, and I was fine, but it didn't hold me, so I went to bed a little hungry. Oh how I wanted a dish of ice cream, but I wanted the best possible weigh-in today, so I made myself a big thing of flavored water (artificially sweetened, unfortunately) and went upstairs to get ready for bed.
Today, my gym opens up for the first time since the COVID shelter-down. With COVID numbers going up - although I think Illinois has been keeping it lower and steady - I think it's too soon for my comfort level to go back. I can put my membership on hold, but my husband and my daughter can't WAIT to get back into the gym. My hesitation comes in where, what if I suspend my membership for July and then regret it because I can't go with them?
Granted I wouldn't be able to go with them often because they usually workout at 11:30p when my daughter gets off of work, but on my daughter's days off, we would all go together -- unfortunately, going to the gym with them on M/Tu/W would cut into 2 of the yoga classes I attend at the studio.
Also, I'm starting to think that I should do studio yoga from home - this too because of COVID. The Tuesday class is best when it's attended live - the instructor doesn't translate well online - but she does this deep breathing (very common in yoga) that is shooting germs into the air! If I'm the only one in the studio, I can stand farther away than 6 feet from her, but ... UGH!!! The expulsion of the breath is exactly why we should all be wearing masks -- and then to go to a class where I'm actively doing this on purpose???
Finally, my last reservation about going to yoga or the gym is that I'm not all that confident that I am 100% healthy. I was talking to Nice Lady about this, because she thinks it's only a matter of time before we all get it. I said that maybe we all have had it (non-symptomatic) and just don't realize it. But then I reconsidered that because I think if COVID came into my house, my husband would have serious symptoms due to his auto-immune condition.
In spite of the heat and humidity here, I have outside stuff to do. I would like to repot 2 plants, gotta hang the laundry outside, I want to hose down a large rug and let it dry in the sun.
This is the last weekend I have to read the yoga book I checked out from the library before COVID. I might try to do that.
Mostly, my goals this weekend are to:
With asthma, I'm in the risk group so just not doing anything with extra risk I can do at home. Contemplating canceling Disneyland pass as well. I'll still do stuff like hiking, food shopping, try to go back to work when I can...
I think it's not a matter of not getting it... Just controlling when you get it... Give it enough time for health professionals to have some idea of what works and what doesn't. Supposedly a vaccine could be out in September/October. And it is summer anyway. Time to be outdoors.
I've heard that the vaccine won't be out until early next year, but by Sept/October there could be some promising anti-body therapies.
But for husband who has a suppressed immune system, HE's the one that should not be going anywhere. Yet, I completely understand WHY he really wants to go.
i agree with you, and others, who say that it's not the time to head back to the gym. i totally think you should wait it out and maybe not go back for AWHILE. i think that by going to the gym, you are setting yourself up (and all the others going back) to get sick.
It's "Slow Flow" yoga, and the point behind it is to become aware of one's breath, and then to connect one's movement with one's breath. But exhaling hard and open-mouthed --- just like Horn said above, This is not the time to be doing that.
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I didn't get on the scale this morning which is my usual day. Afraid to!
May I laugh at this? Only because I can relate, although I'm feeling like I am almost daring myself to weigh in nowadays.
Horn_of_plenty on 07/11/2020:
this has been a really stressful spring/summer for you especially as you have pretty much worked straight through. maybe you can take a day off here or there? for mental release?
also, look at your chart: your weight went up during this stressful season of Spring, then you successfully lowered it in JUNE.
you were doing something very right to lower your weight back down in June - maybe look back or think back to what you did to successfully lose weight then.
you CAN do this. you know how.
not every change needs to be done at once. try to repeat successful things from june now in july and august.
try to take also time out for yourself.
your health matters.
try instead of focusing on the scale to focus on your movement and/or what you are consuming. cakes and cookies, especially a moderate piece of cake, add up a lot. I cannot really eat CAKES or other medium/large pastries due to this reason which is why i stick to cookies and things that are smaller and fit in better.
don't give up on yourself. you have your job and salary which is really so great at this time. and you have us of course here. lol?!
but really, i am trying to say don't let this unpredictable time and stressful time in history force you to have to undo all of the diligence and efforts you put in to moderate your weight.
are you still eating a lot of veggies?
when i go back to work, i may find myself back to more veggies.
of course it's easy for me right now because i am not up as many hours of you during the day to get as hungry over that many hours as you - try to stick to your proven methods to fill yourself up.
are you still having teas / coffees at work? are you still eating raw veggies? are you bored of them? can you have fruit and tea in the summer at work? a few almondss and fruit and tea?
if you crave carbs, have them. just keep it to one portion. i like to eat them mostly at the end of the meal to satisfy my need for sweet / carb / cracker / bread / etc.
go back to your entries, if you really are nervous about the weight, to when you were at your lower end...do what you did then. i really do think doing things like this should work for you.
You make some really good points here. I'm still eating lots of vegetables, although perhaps I am eating more carbs, although (with the minor exception) the portions are controlled.
I think I may be drinking more coffee... although if I am, it's only by one more cup. There are the calories that come from the creamer. One more cup of coffee is 50 extra calories.
I'm more stressed out. I'm lifting weights more consistently, although I see no improvement on this.
Hmm... well, you are so right that there are other positives to focus on. It's just so frustrating.