Amen for weekends! How nice it was to sit down at my laptop and visit with you all on this nice leisurely morning. No kitty issues this morning, and she used her litter box properly over the course of the night. I'm pretty sure that this is a behavioral problem, but kitty has a vet appointment on Tuesday just to be sure.
All of the plastic has been cleared off the couch, and my husband started putting the weight bench together. He didn't get very far, but he started. He claims it's a 2-person job, but daughter is never around to help him. I'd rather not put together my own birthday present, but maybe I'm being a baby about it.
Last night, I was feeling a little anxious/sad/lonely... and maybe a little hungry? IDK, but I had a few spoons of peanut butter - out of the jar nonetheless - until I had had enough. At first, I was wondering if I should feel guilty about that, but then I realized that with the keto diet, I did exactly what I'm supposed to do: limit your carbs, meet your proteins, use fat to meet your saitety. When I was full, I stopped. Woke up feeling OK - not gross like after a binge or bloated or any of that. Had a great bike ride this morning, too.
Losing weight was OK (not easy per se, but OK) once I got started and stuck with it. This maintenance thing is HARD. What do I eat? How much do I eat?
I've recently been plagued with thoughts that run along the lines of: What if I did everything I could do to lose/maintain and found out I was actually gaining weight and unable to stop?
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
I do not need all this stress before I go to work. Son is struggling, daughter is driving into the city tonight for a concert, and new kitty is having litter box issues again. Turns out, nobody took her to the vet the last time she had problems! Hopefully this time my husband will get off his fat butt and do something.
I'm still waiting for my weight bench to be put together. Parts are wrapped in plastic on the sofa in the basement. The cat is peeing on the plastic. WTF. I don't have TIME in the morning to be dealing with this $#!*.
So after it happened this morning, I got off my bike to do some quick cleaning, and lost my workout stats on the bike, because it times out after a minute or so. Grrr!!! Don't mess with my morning workouts!!!!
Husband has gained a lot of weight. Really noticed it last night. There's no talking to him about it. He has enough difficulty moving around with his disease, much less with ask this extra weight.
And now I get to go to work and deal with all that crap!!!
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
I actually ended up having a pretty good day in the end after all.
first, i'd like to know more about your son...it's NOT going to be easy for him. but if he can just stick with it, and remain well behaved, he'll make it. try to talk this into him. it's not easy i am positive of it! but, it's a well paying career!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry about your new kitty seems this kitty is particularly finicky and difficult.
sorry to hear about your husband also. it's too bad he isn't concerned with his health as you are. some people just continue to hurt themselves which is rather sad. similar to my friend R who smokes...every time he's just pushing the limits he no longer has.
with hubby, perhaps do not purchase or purchase limited amounts of what he eats or perhaps tell him he should eat what you eat.
but if your hubby won't listen, i guess you should just ...let it be...if that's really how it's going to be,very unfortunately.
other than that, your kids will have struggles at times as they are just beginning life. try to get your son to stay engaged.
and as for you, you are doing very well!! we are always encouraged by you!
I'll write more in my entry for today.
Cat issues...grr. Husband issues...grr. I hope he sees the affect the weight gain has. I am so uncomfortable with my extra weight. Have a great weekend! IP
Thank you for reassuring me about the military. I know that because he was able to pass boot camp, unless something really bad happens, the AF will make good use of him, whether it's in this job or in another capacity. I think he just needs to get out of Texas. It's brutally hot there.
Checking in... I've decided to take this week off from push-ups and sit-ups. This to help with fatigue, plus I've had some aches in the arm joints. So just rest.
Yesterday, I was so unmotivated, probably as part of feeling so tired. In the afternoon, I started yawning -- loudly. I couldn't help it.
I found Bear's comment on my entry yesterday to be quite illuminating. I've been eating more fruit lately, and I think the extra sugar is affecting me.
Yesterday was a low carb day and this morning, I feel better. I hate to pass on the delicious watermelon. *sigh*
Might be hormonal too. This was a harder month than usual, although all months are very difficult.
Anyway, so my goal for today is less sugar and a nice walk at lunch.
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
Like you, when i'm feeling tired i also have taken off from certain exercises. it's ok.
it can also depend of course on the TYPE of sugar you are having...i know you know this.
i was reading the comments between you and Bear and sometimes i also feel like i've had too much sugar and it does affect my system. so i understand what you mean.
i hope you feel better. the sleep thing can be weird when you do get just about enough...but it feels like not enough. i can relate and have been there, feeling abnormally tired, many times.
Just a quick entry... and I'm sorry for not commenting on your diaries lately.
Feeling very tired, since Sunday really. Although I'm going to bed on time, I feel unable to catch up on sleep.
Also very bloated. I might be gaining weight. I must make it a point to weigh in on Saturday to keep myself in check.
It was all I could do to get up this morning.
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
I think I did OK food-wise yesterday, even though lunch was half a sandwich (the leftover Reuben I did not finish after Chair Yoga on Friday). I looked up the carbs, and figured if I was careful for the remainder of theday, it would be OK. And I think it was.
Now that I am no longer using sweetened flavor packets, I find that getting in 100 ounces of water a day is a real challenge. I fail most days. When the water drink is sweet and flavored, it was no problem to drink 124 ounces. Still, I think this is the better route, to go with plain water, iced water, lemon or lime juice, herbal tea (no caffeine - like Celestial Seasonings Peach or whatever).
I stayed up really late, first watching the PBS shows until 11p and then reading. I didn't turn off the light until after 12:30a. I forced myself to get up this morning, though, in hopes that either I can take a nap later on today or go to bed very early tonight.
I hear some activity in my neighborhood, so I think I'll for for a short walk. Also, I think one of the houses got new windows earlier this week, so I want to check those out. It will help clear my mind. It was a difficult news morning today, with yet another Walmart mass shooting and then Dayton, Ohio...
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
i got a really bad sleep last night due to coming home late and not being able to relax my mind / body before bed so i woke up on and off. no biggie though but it happens. good plan for you tonight to go to bed early!
too bad with both those shootings that happened! so many killed.
also, did you like the new windows?
I've come to the realization that I really need to focus on eating better. I'm having a hard time getting back on track -- whether that means keto, low carb, portion control --- none of that is happening. I probably should have weighed in today, to check myself.
After I posted yesterday morning, I remembered that it was Chair Yoga night - we had totally forgotten! I went into the yoga sessioin with a more open mind, even though I was still carrying a lot of stress from the workday. I started with a sour mood, and then caught myself, made the correction in attitude, and gave a concerted effort. Not to try would only hurt myself. Mostly, my issue was physical (aches, pains). I did alright.
Afterwards, husband and I went out to dinner at the local diner. That is where the eating took a nose-dive. Reuben sandwich, then buckled and had a slice of sugar-free chocolate cream pie. Must remind myself, NO MORE PIE. I knew I shouldn't have had it, regretted it afterwards. So I told my husband to REMIND me not to order it next time. (I think I did that last month too and he didn't remind me this month - lol.) Well, I hope that **I** remember. I don't mean that I regretted the experience, but rather that the pie just isn't that good. THAT is why I am chastizing myself for having had the slice of pie.
Today will be kind of iffy as to what happens. I do need to go to the library, I did laundry and it's outside drying. I took care of my plants and filled the birdfeeders. I did not take a walk (yet), and I do not know if I will.
I found another offering of free chair yoga. One of the public libraries is offering Chair Yoga, once in August and then once in September. So I signed Husband and I up for August's class. The "problem" is that it's offered at 2p, so I will be leaving work at 1pm. I NEED A BREAK. If he likes the class, I will sign him (us) for the September class too.
This same library is offering a free Yin Yoga class in September, so I signed myself up. It's at night, so I won't have to take any time off from work.
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
I also am going to take advantage as there's a church right near work with a yoga class at 5:30 which is just perfect as i get out of work at 5pm!! :) i am excited to try it out!
sounds like you are having a good start to the day.!!!
yeah, sometimes eating the pie is just not worth it...
it's the exercise i haven't picked up...eating has been more moderate actually but no weight loss like i usually have in summer bc i have been less active than previous summers.
If my church (with which I'm having a serious conflict with right now -- well, for the past 2 years) offers the Pietra Yoga again, for free, I will try it.
it's ok once in a blue moon to leave work to take care of yourself.
Had a lovely time with my husband on the realtor boat ride! Could not have asked for a more beautiful day, weatherwise. Afterwards, I went home instead of going back for an hour (or more). Exercised, dinner, evening walk, TV, bed. The birthday cake is gone.
And now that the cake is finished, I can go back to focusing on very low carb eating.
I was a bit resentful yesterday morning, because it looked like I would have to come back to the office to reconcile a mortgage deadline. Not fair! That's one thing I HATE about my job is the time sensitivity. This aspect is what keeps me chained.
Fortunately, this time, I was able to enlist Associate Attorney's help in getting this covered in the morning, before we all left for the boat trip.
The boss took those left behind out to lunch to celebrate Mistakes Girl 's birthday. When he asked me, I said, I'd love to but I have to go on this stupid boat ride.
If I had to go without my husband, I would not have had a good time.
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
i'm so glad your night was good and i'm so grateful to hear you didn't go back to work, for an hour. !! :)
if i were in your position, i'd also have not gone back to work for sure :)
happy Friday. Happy weekend!!
Today starts a new month. I want to make this a really good month for myself. Especially since July was not so great.
Had an issue with Associate Attorney and Nice Lady at the end of the day. She infringes on my files and AA is so dependent on her that he lets it happen, and sometimes invites it. I've mentioned this to him and to my boss: when Nice Lady gets involved, I don't know what is going on with my files because she's interfered. My complaints are heard but nothing changes.
So after I called them both out on that, the last thing I wanted to do was to go on some stupid boat ride with them. That is when I made the decision to go (separately) with my husband, since I really can't get out of going, and just enjoy it as an activity with him.
Then, I'm going home for the rest of the day to enjoy the late afternoon and evening.
Tomorrow, no self-imposed pressure to get through emails, and will make it a point to leave in a timely manner at 5 pm.
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
today, when i was walking around lunch, i went into a nearby church and they had a brochure for church yoga...and it takes place after work! i may try to go...! it's year round.
The last 2 days at work have just been crazy. Not crazy busy - although I am busy because we're incredibly short staffed due to various health issues among the staff - but like, insane clients. I took my walk too late - I should have gone earlier. I realized this after I started walking, how caught up and stressed out I was by the chaos. The key is to walk earlier (not at 2:30p) so that I can release the start of tension, and then coast in the afternoon.
I have not been taking walks in the morning. Instead, I've been doing the sit-ups and push-ups to get them out of the way. It's harder, mentally, to do these at the end of the day, when I just want to start relaxing before bed.
Tomorrow, there is this boat cruise at a nearby lake for realtors. Our firm has 4 tickets to go, to mingle and meet realtors. This was before the boss' heart attack. I thought he and I would go, along with Associate Attorney and, of course, Nice Lady -- where he goes, there she is. Peas in a pod -- which, frankly, gets annoying at times but whatever. The boss cannot go, now, because of the heart attack, so now I have to go alone, which I do NOT want to do. I really dislike doing things as a third wheel with AA and NL; it's like being on someone else's date, and I'm just there. Plus, I hate these social things. I'm an introvert. Finally, there will be food and wine - which brings up other issues I have. Food and stress and social -- not good for Donkey.
So I'm thinking of taking my husband along to use the 4th ticket. Male Co-Worker will be out of the office (wife had knee replacement surgery) and Mistakes Girl is doing his work and her work. Boss says someone has to be at the office - we can't close down. And so if I end up going with my husband, I'm thinking that I will just go home afterwards - on company time.
Work is hard enough without having to do all this outside social stuff. BUT if I do go home after the boat thing, then I will have a lot of emails on Friday.
I just realized that I cannot win in this situation. Either way, it will not be very pleasant.
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
Understandably, time away creates more chaos at work; but even though you may return to more emails, you'll have created a balance between work and play that we all need, regardless of what you return to. There will always be work. Will there always be the opportunity to do these things with your husband?
Regarding all the emails that you'll return to, maybe give yourself some leeway to catch up to them in 2 days rather than the next day, like, give yourself till the end of the day monday..
i'm an introvert too, so i also do not always enjoy socializing all the time ! lol i know what you mean.
Today is Donkey's birthday. To treat myself, I took an extra walk at work and had a Diet Coke.
During my regular walk, which I thought about cutting short, I asked myself, Why am I in such a hurry to get back to work and worry? Just enjoy the walk, make it a little longer and enjoy it.
So I did! And I'm glad I did! I don't know why I always feel so rushed to do things during the work day. That's how mistakes are made.
Having a slice of chocolate ice cream cake until it's gone. Now it is half way gone. That's ok!
Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!
Rushing does cause mistakes. Many times at work i don't need to rush and when i do, def a mistake is made.
Where did you get that cake for your birthday!? did you make it? it's beautifully presented on fb.
take care and i'm really glad that you were able to enjoy your bday to the fullest xo.
The author has his critics, especially when it comes to the Holocaust.
I definitely needed something more positive to read after that. Now I am in the middle of a book about awareness meditation.
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Yes, I agree with you...losing weight to goal weight is one thing, but maintenance is a 'horse of a different color'... It is easy to become complacent in maintaining and get back into old habits, which we can't allow ourselves to do. (Not talking about your little peanut butter last nite..) We have to stay constantly vigilant lest we regain and lose what we worked so hard to achieve...There are no rights or wrongs, as each of us is different and we know what works best for ourselves... But for me, it is simply about forming new habits to replace the old habits and sticking with the new, healthier habits...just sayin'...
Funny you mention that about habits, because some stick with me and some don't.
For example, that push-up and sit-up habit -- not a problem letting that one go.
Portion control and limited servings --- oh the STRUGGLE!
Horn_of_plenty on 08/11/2019:
yep, sounds you are going to have to help hubby put the weight bench together!!! lol. they aren't really hard to put together, they aren't so many pieces, but they are usually quite heavy and awkward. don't feel bad at writing how it's not done yet - when i moved from gym to home workouts, some things took over a month to get set up...and it took me several months to organize the whole thing, and be happy with my at home set up! like, it took me from mid summer to mid fall to be satisfied and set up completely...some pieces of equip i even had to purchase and return bc i wasn't happy with the weights of the weighted bars, etc. lots of guess and test...and waiting for Ricky to help me put everything together.
You are smart and good at managing yourself. Maintaining is hard you are right. for me, i have a TON of tactics to help me. you know them - seltzers, lots of veggies at least at one meal usually a day, good amounts of fruit, iced coffee, stevia...list goes on further. find your tactics. you know some - your raw veggies you like to have at work. there are so many choices. have you tried raw fenel??? not sure you like the flavor, but it's a good change of pace from celery!
but maintainence, like maria mentioned above, is different. instead of being happy with the scale only - you have to definitely be happy with YOURSELF! instead of eating less to make the scale lower, you have to keep that eating less calories to keep where you are at. but its true - the body is everchanging - and part of maintenance is learning how to moderate tings and live a normal life where maintenance fits in.
as i have maintained, i have had times of weight loss and DEF weight gain...increasing cardio was always the easiest way to increase my calorie burn. but with injuries, i cannot even do that so easily anymore, and i more have to work at food choices.
this is one of the first summers in several years where i haven't lost weight "easily" and it's more of a maintaining summer for me.
really, what i want to say is, we (me, you, all the maintainers) def have to be ready for change (most of us - expcept for the few people that prefer extreme routine eating same thing all the time) and variety and learn how to work them in.
i have an example - Ricky. he is able to limit his servings of sweets and the size. he eats sweets often, so it's nothing new to him. he'll buy a huge slice of cake, but break it into just smaller few bites each night.
when you order a slice of cake at the diner after dinner, you can eat just a part and bring the rest of home to freeze. you can order a decaf coffee (low cals!) to drink with it if you want to feel full.
many times, i use a drink with higher calorie food to slow myself down and learn how to have less.
with us, we both have to learn how to stick with the idea that the first bite tastes best and it's only with us while we taste it in our mouths....and if we can limit the number of bites, we are more well off.
another tip i'd like to mention - proteins. i actually learned this style of eating from my former very thin friend. she was mostly a carb eater...ordering chicken fried rice as a meal. she'd eat mostly the rice and just a little chicken. but thinking about it over many years of knowing her - it sorta makes sense. we don't need huge amounts of protein (not even on keto), and eating large portions of protein has become to me a waste of calories. i do not eat large portions, at all, of protein except once in awhile. i make sure to have some at most meals,but, more importantly FOR ME is to have plenty of veggies, some carbs because i personally am not able to do keto, and a little protein. def my servings are more typically not bigger than a deck of cards for beef. for chicken sometimes a hair bigger. when i make my turkey burgers,i usually cut them in half and it's enough unless i'm craving protein....
the above paragraph is how i have worked to shave a few calories off.
if i have a hot dog, it's typically the whole thing lol, but proteins that i eat a lot of and often, it's easier to limit. especialyl when i'm freezing portions, i try to keep them on the smaller side for protein.
That's very interesting about smaller protein portions. I do not know why I feel compelled to have large servings of protein - especially if it's not meat.
I'm going to have to think about that.
Horn_of_plenty on 08/11/2019:
the last thing that is bothering you that you wrote about is negative thoughts that i recommend you kick to the curb. it's stemming from maybe not believing you are capable. but you fully are. unlike your hubby, you know how extra weight is also unhealthy to being able to move your body...it's harder to exercise with excess weight as well. it's more important to you than many people to keep it off. keep working on it. try to shave some calories here and there. and come up with little things that help you.
at work, i drink tons of water, and some herbal teas after having a littlle fruit if i'm actually feeling low energy / and that is my snack 2-3 hours after lunch most days...but after the fruit, it's more water, more herbal teas. and when i have almonds now, i have 100 cal servings (half the serving size) and stretch it...
One thing I HATE about clients is when they start spinning the "what ifs". A **LOT** of wasted time and energy spent on that.
I think I just answered my own question - LOL