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Donkey - Friday Feb 02, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 138.0

Day 2 of Mission completed .... sorta.

I did not binge last night either, but I way overdid it at dinner time. And you would think that would be enough, but then I had quite a few Jelly Belly jelly beans last night too. So while I feel that I did not techinically "binge", I walked that fine line mighty close. Certainly not my best effort.

We had a late dinner, and my husband, who is a total meat-eater, obliged my way of eating. He was going to pick up Chinese food at the grocery store deli for us, but since they didn't have anything vegetarian, he bought 2 vegetarian pizzas instead, and we had one last night.

However, I paid for my pizza indulgences today in the bathroom. It almost felt like the stomach flu I had last year. When this happens, I always tell myself that I MUST treat my stomach much kinder. Why do I continue to abuse my poor body?

I did weigh in this morning. I am essentially back at 138.5 but I will not change my Progress Bar until tomorrow, if I should still weigh 138.5. Giving myself a chance to redeem myself.

The kids are both still sick. My son has a temperature of 102.4 but felt good enough to have breakfast, take a shower ("to help me feel better") and make a get-well card for his little sister. My daughter had a temp of 104.4 but I think it's down to about 103.0 now (hopefully).

So I am home with both kids, while my husband is at the house trying to get the phones hooked up. So far, he has done the majority of the moving of boxes, although to give myself credit, I did most of the packing. Still, I know he's not feeling 100% either. I do feel guilty. I do not know how much moving of boxes I will be able to do over the weekend. We are expecting frigid cold temps and my daughter (and probably my son) should not be out in the cold at all. Even being in the car is probably not a good idea, when it's this cold out. So I don't know.

At least I don't feel so guilty for not being at the gym. So there is one saving grace.

If the weather would just warm up a bit...

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

borntocry on 02/02/2007:
That's funny - my stomach seems to like pizza, while it detests fruits and vegetables. It's like Homer Simpson, this stomach!

It's very sweet of your husband to go vegetarian with you last night. My husband is also a meat-eater, but he likes going vegetarian with me once or twice a week, as he says he feels healthier. So maybe this could be a good thing for your husband, too.

I'm sorry your kids still aren't feeling well, though. I do hope your daughter's temperature goes down soon.

Thanks for your comment, but I must disagree - go COLTS!!

WorkingIt2 on 02/02/2007:
Veggie pizza sounds good ro me right now lol. So sorry to read that the kids are still with fever :( Poor babies, and how cute your son is for making the card for sister!

It is FREEZING cold here as well and only going to get colder. UGH, winter.

Take care and you really are doing great!

greengirl on 02/02/2007:
Oh dear what a shame the kids are still ill. It can be very worrying, cant it? I'm sure their high temperature will come down soon. Take care :)

Donkey - Thursday Feb 01, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 138.0

Day 1 of mission completed.

I am happy to report that I did not binge last night at all. Dinner was very satisfying and I had a square of Lindt dark chocolate to top off the meal.

However, last night, both kids went to bed with fevers. They were up at 3:52am this morning with various flu problems. My son was feeling sick to his stomach and my daughter sounded like she had croupe. Very congested, little one. So I ran a hot shower and had her sit in the bathroom. Her temperature was 102.0 (F) and his temperature was 104.1 (F). I apologize to the Europeans and Canadians here who go by the metric system. I am not very good with temperature conversions. Pretty good with distances though (probably because of running). At any rate, that is pretty sick.

I'm not sure how they do things on the East coast (NY) or in Europe, but I think 4am is kind of early to be waking up.

So I had planned to get in lots of activity today by packing and unpacking my car with boxes to take to the new house. That probably won't happen like I planned, since I think the kids should stay indoors and rest in bed. Hopefully, though I can get boxes packed here at home.

I did not weigh in this morning as I had hoped. Waking up so early, first thing I did was take care of the kids and then I poured myself a cup of coffee.

I am a little concerned. I had breakfast early (for me) so my eating schedule is off. I will probably eat a morning snack. I hope snacking doesn't do me in, today. Let's see if I can get a Day 2 of my "mission" completed, eh?


Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Justine6Robert3 on 02/01/2007:
Sorry to hear your little ones are both feeling sick. Sounds like you all had a pretty rough night. It's even harder when they both get sick at the same time! You must be exhausted!

I remember 2 yrs ago my son (who was only 1 and a half at the time) and my daughter and my husband all woke up within minutes of each other and all three of them were vomitting. What are the chances of that happening! Thankfully there was one able body (me!!) to run kids to the bathroom, change bedding etc etc. It was awful! One of the kids would start vomitting so I would run in and within 30 sec the other one would start. I ended up sleeping (or trying to between all the upset tummies) on the floor beside my son's crib with a bowl. Everytime he stirred or whined I would sit him up and stick a bowl under his face, my poor husband who was also running to the toilet himself, had my daughter in bed beside him and was trying to take care of her because I couldn't be in two places at once and I was running out of clean bedding!! Hope that wasn't to descriptive and gross!!

I know what you mean by getting up early and being off your usual schedule. I had that problem yesturday. I did end up going over on my calories because I did a little to much snacking. I ate breakfast at 7:00 am and I was ready for lunch by 10:30 am!! I hope it works out better for you.

I am Canadian but I'm used to making those conversions because I have been working for an American based company for almost 11 yrs now. I'm likely more familiar with your way because when I was working full time I was working out everything American style. I mostly dealt with American customers all day. A fever of 102 and 104 F are pretty high temperatures, your poor kids must have been feeling awful!

I hope your able to get some of that packing done and hopefully your kids are feeling better!!

borntocry on 02/01/2007:
We used to measure temperatures in Fahrenheit when I was a kid and I remember having a 104� fever and everyone praying around me, so I guess it is pretty high! Maybe you could try sponging them with cold water to bring the fever down?

Thanks for your advice on my knee. I am not planning to run today as I don't do it two days in a row. In fact I wasn't planning to run again until Saturday, but I had wanted to run 10 miles on Saturday, and I'm kind of worried about that. It was at around this point in my training for my last half-marathon that I hurt my knee pretty badly, had to take two weeks off, did the race anyway and never fully recovered.

Well, I hope the kids feel better soon. Good luck with the packing!

greengirl on 02/01/2007:
Sorry that your kiddies are feeling so poorly. I live in the UK and I still think in fahrenheit when it comes to body temperature. Anything over 100 is bad in my book!! My kids are grown up but I still remember how unnerving it can be when they are running a temperature and I've been there with the tepid sponging and running a shower to help with the breathing!! Good luck with the moving. That alone is stressful enough without dealing with sick children too. You take care :)

WorkingIt2 on 02/01/2007:
Sorry that your children aren't well...that is always so difficult :( I hope your day went well on your diet front! =)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/01/2007:
sorry about your children and the early wake-up call! I also depsise waking up majorly early, because I, too, get hungrier all throughout the day compared to when i wake up later!

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 31, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 138.0

No weigh-in today. Today the moving begins and the bingeing stops. Well, it's good to have a dream. But seriously, I am hoping that now that my "anxieties" will becoming reality, that my anxiousness will dissipate. Hence, my urgent feelings of needing to binge ("sugar fix") will no longer exist, although, I may need a week or 2 of detox (i.e. South Beach phase 1).

I am seriously considering what "Born to Cry" has suggested, about needing to eat more because of the vegetarianism. I think that's very valid. I feel full because the meat just sits in my stomach and takes a long time to digest. As she says, I cannot have just an apple because it sends my blood sugar all over the place and I end up feeling hungrier or shakey or what have you. I may have to go back to eating fish and poultry and lean cuts of beef. I do not think I could return to eating ground beef. I feel bad that the vegetarian thing might not work. I feel like a failure (what a perfect excuse to binge, eh?).

Today was supposed to be my last day at the gym. Unfortunately, my daughter came down with a fever last night and this morning it was even higher. So she is home with me today; so no gym. Lucky little 6 yr old gets to come to a 2-hour house closing meeting with me today. That should be real fun. At least she's not having bathroom issues (one way or the other) that I/she would have to contend with.

It is just as well that today is no gym. Good-bye's are incredibly difficult for me. I only told 2 people that I was moving and both of them were women (my friend -- who I fought with last week, and the "Judy" who is a physical therapist at the gym). I exercise with the senior citizen guys and I don't think I could say good-bye. Especially "George" who was almost like a father-figure to me, as much as one can be at the gym.

I was finding it increasingly difficult to exercise at the gym too. My motivation was down in the toilet. Anything I did there was such a chore. I get like this every so often, where I need a break from the gym. Well, now I have one that's for sure. And so hopefully, when I'm settled, I will be *wanting* to go back to a gym and WORK on myself.

FIRST EDIT: Just had lunch, my usual. I am killing time until we leave for the walk-through inspection of the house and then go to the closing. I notice that today, I am able to resist eating so much. So yes, some days, I don't eat as much as other days. It's a very scary day when I wake up and WANT to eat.

SECOND EDIT: Just finished my VEGETARIAN dinner. I ate heavier than usual (rice, beans, not so many vegetables) but feel confident that I can get through the evening without bingeing. Of course, the fact that we closed on the house this afternoon -- and that it went well -- is a HUGE relief off my mind. Yes, now the hard part of moving all our stuff comes, but that's ok. It will keep me busy and provide some exercise/activity since I am gym-less right now. The gym thing doesn't bother me either, because my daughter is still running a fever; she will be staying home tomorrow from school.

My only goal for today (other than to get through it) is to not binge tonight.

My only goal for tonight is not to binge. (yes, repeated)

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

borntocry on 01/31/2007:
Wow, I would hate to think that something I said helped to turn a vegetarian back to meat! Now I feel like a failure, too!

Of course, it's your decision, but I owe it to my conscience to tell you that you do have other options! There are other ways to feel full on a vegetarian diet. You could include vegetarian sources of protein like low-fat cheese, yogurt, beans, etc. Even oatmeal works pretty well for me. Or you could go with the volumetrics approach. A big bowl of soup or a huge plate of steamed vegetables is bound to fill you up, with very few calories, and lots of nutrients! I don't even like soup all that much, but last winter I went on a soup craze, trying out dozens of new recipes, and I could generally have two or bowls for 300 calories. And I was totally stuffed afterwards. Or I'd have a whole head of broccoli with a small sweet potato - stuff like that. I had to cut down on vegetables because I have IBD, otherwise I'd go with this approach any day!

I hope the moving goes smoothly. I am sure you will feel much less stressed once this is over. I also binged a lot and gained a couple of pounds when I moved into my new apartment just over a year ago. So I feel for you!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/31/2007:
I always wake up and want to eat! you're not the only one. and, as you see from others like BTC, we are not the only addicts here! LOL. yeah, I'm finally doing MUCH better these past few days! safe moving to you!

Donkey on 01/31/2007:
Dear BtoC, do not worry about turning me back towards eating meat. That hasn't happened yet, nor do I think you are the reason for me going back to eating meat should that happen. I really want to give this vegetarian thing a good try, without major life stressors interfering. So don't give up hope yet!

And I'm glad I'm not the only one who wakes up and wants to eat right away. ;)

girliegirl6486 on 01/31/2007:
Thanks for the comment you left, I agree with you...I miss the memories, not the person. I wouldn't ever want to get back with him anyway because I know it wouldn't be the same. I am going to stay thankful for the guy I have now and I want to hold on to this one for sure :)

Also I hear you on the motivation/gym thing...my eating is going fine but any spare minutes I have I want to spend sleeping or doing homework, not working out!

maria777 on 01/31/2007:
Hope your little girl feels better.

Donkey - Tuesday Jan 30, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 138.0

I'm not even going to finish yesterday's entry. Done is done, yesterday is over.

Made it to the gym today, but only did the hour of cardio (plus 15 minutes of cooldown -- 3 machines, each one with a 5 minute cooldown). No weights today.

Tomorrow we're closing on the new house, so I'm just trying to get through today.

Breakfast - 1 cup All Bran, 1 cup light vanilla soy milk

AM Snack - 1 med yellow apple, 1 cheese stick (80cals)

Lunch - High fiber taco w/vegan "meat", 1/4 cup salsa, lettuce; 4 carrots; 1 Lindt chocolate

PM Snack - air popped popcorn, 1 apple, 1 cheese stick

Dinner - 1 cup whole grain spaghetti w/spaghetti sauce; 1/2 cup chick peas (garbanzo beans); 2 cups steamed vegetables; parm cheese; 1-2 oz part skim moz. cheese; 1/2 cup frozen raspberries

Dessert - 1/2 cup ricotta cheese dessert (South Beach Diet recipe)

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 01/30/2007:
Great job on the cardio!

hollybelle on 01/30/2007:
One thing I hae trouble figuring out is why somedays I am fine with very little to eat and some days not....I think it is a combination of things. We are not machines that run the same very single day we have a variances. Good for you -chalking up the past and starting anew! You'll be very busy with the new house so that should keep you on track for awhile????? Perhaps.....

borntocry on 01/31/2007:
Umm... you asked why you need to eat so much to feel full. Do you think it might be because you're vegetarian? I've also noticed that I need to eat an enormous amount of food to feel full, and I'm vegetarian. But then geevee has the same problem, and she's not vegetarian. Still, she does seem to eat mostly fruit and vegetables. I've found that if I don't feel as hungry if I add extra protein to my diet. I can never have just an apple, for instance. It always leaves me totally ravenous. But if I have a yogurt before or afterwards, the combination seems to fill me up more. I am also a big believer in protein bars. They're not very natural, I know, but yesterday I tried making some of my own with dried milk, peanut butter, syrup, quinoa crisps, soy beans and almonds. Am going to have one for lunch today and see how it is!

Donkey - Monday Jan 29, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 138.5

After a horrible eating weekend, I have decided to start over again. I refuse to give up this battle. I'm going to keep fighting tooth and nail to get this weight off. As you can see I have adjusted the Progress Bar to reflect my "new start".

I refuse to give up. I'm not going to let this past weekend stop me or bring me down. Each day is a new opportunity to take care of myself and to nurture myself in ways other than excess nutrition. This whole moving thing will not take me back to 2005 when I relapsed with 20lb extra afterwards. I'm not going back to 150.5 (my relapse weight) and I sure as heck won't go back anywhere near 180.0 when I started this journey.

I think geevee said it best, it is something that I need to be ever vigilant about. I need to focus on this, and I need to do it for me. I've decided to not pack one of my scales (the 0.5lb one, the one I started out with) and i will just take it with me in the car at the end.

I might have to do this forever, I might not. But I can't let life's stressors be an excuse for this continued self-destructive behavior. I can't and I won't. I deserve so much more.

Breakfast - 1 cup All Bran, 1 cup light vanilla soy milk

AM Snack - 1 med. apple (not the best choice for a snack, I realize now)

Lunch - Big salad with:

2 cups red lettuce 1/2 cup raw cauliflower 1 celery stick 1 Boca "chicken" patty (160 calories) 2 TBSP Newman's own salad dressing (90 cals)

AND In a bowl together:

1 cup leftover steamed broccoli with 1 cup leftover sauteed onions/peppers/mushrooms (sauteed in olive oil)

AND 1 square of Lindt dark chocolate (85% cacao) (53 cals)

***DID I EAT TOO MUCH? I had the salad and I still felt hungry. I also find that I don't feel "complete" unless I have something to finish off the meal. I am feeling so frustrated. Why do I have to eat so much to feel full?

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 13.5 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 01/29/2007:
Yay! No giving up!

borntocry on 01/29/2007:
It's already a good sign that your relapse weight was nowhere near your previous high weight. That is pretty impressive. I think you've got what it takes to get this under control. We may be at it for the rest of our lives but the results are worth it. We might not think so right now but we'll definitely think it after we've gained 50 lb. The time to act is now!

biscottibody59 on 01/29/2007:
I should count the (recognizable) times I've started over in the years I've kept this diary. At least 20--possibly 40 or 50? I don't know--all I know is there's no other way that I know of.

Trying to do this in the midst of moving/selling a house can't be easy--hang in there!

Donkey - Sunday Jan 28, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 135.6

It seems as though yesterday has carried over to today. However, for the first time, I took a bite of my All Bran cereal and said to myself, "This tastes like horse manure." Not that I've tasted manure before, but this tasted a lot like it smells. So what did I do? I proceeded to have another piece of pie. As if eating pie would solve any problems.

The kids are grating on my nerves this morning. I must remember to keep my feelings composed, as they don't deserve to receive the contempt I have for myself.

Breakfast - 1 piece of mixed berry pie, 1 cup of All Bran, 1 cup of light vanilla soy milk (I think I have probably tasted the last of both.)

Lunch - big salad w/ 2 carrots, 1/2 cup beans, 2 TBSP balamic vinegarette, 6 almonds (1/4oz), 1 med apple.

PM Snack - 1 cup fat free cottage cheese

Dinner - 1/2 spaghetti squash (yes, I ate one half of an entire squash, made with 1 TBSP Smart Balace Light & 1/4 cup parm cheese), 1 Boca burger on 1 whole grain bun, 1/2 cup asparagus, 1 cup sauteed onion/green pepper/mushroom mix.

Dessert - 1 square Lindt chocolate

... which proceeded to another binge. Not good.

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 10.6 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 01/28/2007:
Looks like you are just in a bit of a 'funk' from having weighed yourself on your conflicting scales and showed a gain on one, a loss on the other. How you can do that without going crazy is beyond me lol. So, anyway, don't beat yourself up and realize that we all have those times where everything is going great and then we just fall off track. We are still human even if we are accomplishing some pretty good things with regard to our health. Even doctors have problems with weight and controlling what they eat =) Having said all that, I know how you feel. I've felt really crummy yesterday and today and all I wanted to do was to lay down and eat..and eat the creamy foods like peanut butter, mac and cheese, grilled cheese..in other words, all my trigger food cravings come to the surface when my defenses are down because I feel poorly. You will be ok, just do the best you can. Have a much better day and I hope you feel better! =)

Moody on 01/28/2007:
Your lunch sounds wonderful!!

Are you feeling any better than you were yesterday?? Take care of yourself!

Donkey on 01/28/2007:
I'm doing better today, although it's been difficult. At least I'm not so angry at myself.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/28/2007:
hey! if you don't like the all bran, DO NOT eat it! find a substitute! well, of course it doesn't have to be pie! there are plenty of other things to choose from: small fiber filled muffin or english muffin with fruit on the side. you don't have to eat the same exact thing every day. meaning, if its time for a change, change it up a little. i've been learning that. sometimes routine can lead to bordom which leads to wrong choices. however, sometimes we just need a moment off so that we can get back on and feel good to be back in routine. you have to decide what makes you feel best!

biscottibody59 on 01/28/2007:
I've had routines of food, I guess you'd call them food fads over the years. And once I sort of get over them, I never can return to them. Speaking of the smell of food, I had bought some (what I really thought was good) caramel sauce for ice cream during the holidays and the first taste I took of it, before it had been chilled, had a hint of ammonia of all things.

WorkingIt2 on 01/28/2007:
Spaghetti squash is great!

Donkey - Saturday Jan 27, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 135.6

Oh boy, I can just tell that this is going to be one of those days where it will be hard to keep the eating under control. I woke up feeling all congested and tired. But I got up anyway to go to the gym. It was unusually crowded there today, so I only did my hour of cardio. But I was so bored and unmotivated. There were so many weekday people there, it felt like a Monday.

I am trying very hard to resist having a piece of peanut butter toast.

Pre-Workout snack - 1 med red apple

Breakfast - 1 cup All Bran, 1 cup light vanilla soy milk, 1TBSP natural peanut butter (defintely a trigger food for me, so I need to be vigilant today)

AM Snack - 1 cheese stick, 1 grapefruit, 1/2 cup sugar snap peas

Lunch - high fiber tortilla w/ 1/2 cup chick peas, 1/2 cup salsa, 1/2oz moz cheese; 3/4 sweet potato; 3/4 cup frozen berries w/ 1/2oz walnuts

PM Snack - 2 pieces of peanut butter toast (2 bread, 2? TBSP of natural peanut butter)

It has not been a good eating day....

Dinner - 3 egg spinach and feta omlet, 1.5 pieces of "whole wheat" toast

This was eaten at a restaurant. When we came home, I proceeded to finish most of a giant Hersey bar, a bag of walnuts, a piece of pie... It was not a good eating day...

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 10.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/27/2007:
your lunch sounds sooo good. I seriously may start having tortillas if i continue to read diary entries like this one! sometimes, you do need to give into your temptations. if pb is what you really wanted, maybe it is good you gave in? it's not like you went totally overboard. have a good evening!

Donkey - Friday Jan 26, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 135.6

I weighed in this morning and much to my chagrin, I have indeed gained a little weight. The "binge" weight is coming off and I seem to be maintaining. Still, it would have been so nice to step on that scale and see something like "133". But I said I would be truthful about my weigh ins. (Too easy to hide in denial, if you know what I mean.)

I suppose the bright side is that I also weighed in on my 0.5 scale and that showed that I lost weight (134.5 to 135.0 to 134.0 today). I definitely have issues with my 0.2 scale. I still keep my 0.5 scale because it's so much nicer to me. But it is insane to continue to weigh in on 2 scales. It's just a number, after all.

Today I made it to the gym. I felt bad because my friend, who I argued with yesterda at the gym, did not show up. I hope that's not because of me. Regardless of what people think of me, I do not want to discourage anyone from working out. But that's her decision. I really didn't feel like working out either. I'm on the treadmill, chanting to myself, "Don't like this, don't like this". But between the treadmill and the crosstrainer, got in 60 minutes (plus 10 minutes of cooldowns).

I worked my chest and back exercises. Learned a new technique for the back muscles - AMAZING. I am sure my muscles will be sore tomorrow. (This is actually a good thing for me.)

My sinus infection is almost gone. Now my son is getting it. If I went to the doctor every time I had a sinus infection, I might as well move into her office. I don't really do antibiotics. My body will eventually adapt to the antibiotics and then they will be ineffective. I'm just letting my body fight off something that it can fight off naturally (with the help of my good friends Mucinex and NyQuil).

Listen to me, I'm quite the chatter box today...

Breakfast - 1 cup high fiber cereal, 1 cup light vanilla soy milk

AM Snack - tried to resist having anything but ended up eating 2 smal dill pickles (jar says 0 calories; I don't believe that)

Lunch - high fiber tortilla w/ 1/2 cup black beans, 1/2 cup roasted vegetables & 1/2oz cheddar cheese; 1 grapefruit.

PM Snack - 1 cup fat free plain yogurt, 5 radishes, big bowl of air-popped popcorn (about 1/4 cup unpopped)

Dinner - about 1/2 of a large sweet potato (so I figure that's kind of like 1 small one), 1 Boca burger patty, 1/2 cup broccoli (steamed), 1/2 cup sugar snap peas (steamed)

Dessert - 1 square of Lindt dark chocolate 85% cacao (the healthy chocolate that has antioxidants in it) (55 cals), 1/2 oz almonds (90 cals) -- VERY SATISFYING

SECOND EDIT -- Sorry to keep barging in here. Kinda started to feel out of control with my PM Snack and I thought by posting here, I could nip it in the bud. I think I would like to start a habit of having air-popped popcorn as a snack on Fridays, as well as having a dessert on Friday as well. I had the yogurt and still felt "unsatisfied". Then I remembered that I had been wanting popcorn all week long.

THIRD EDIT -- Ran into my gym friend picking up the kids from school. She said that she wasn't mad at me, but didn't make it to the gym because her daughter had a leg cramp and asked to go home. So all is well there.

I made a MAJOR decision this afternoon. I have decided that I will not renew my gym membership for February, since I am moving. I was thinking of renewing the membership for Feb and going in very early for an hour of cardio for the 1.5 weeks that I'm still here (before we move). So I will be without a gym for the entire month of February. My husband said I will be "gym-sick" after 3 days and want to go back. But I don't think so because I will be busy moving and packing and driving. I can push my butt out the door and walk if I feel that I need the exercise that badly. Or be like "BorntoCry" and go running outside -- now that WOULD be desperate of me, to run outside in front of everyone.

I hope I will be able to maintain my weight without the gym.

Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 10.6 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 01/26/2007:
Is it possible that it's lean weight showing up--from harder workouts?

I hear you on the scale dilemma. I had one scale for 15 or so years and it wasn't broken, but I knew it wasn't going to last forever. I lucked out and found a digital one that weighed just about the same. I promptly sent the old one to Goodwill.

Have a good one!

amanda8419 on 01/26/2007:
Hey thanks for the comment. I filed for child support against my will over a year ago but they claim to have been unable to find him. Im in no rush to find him either. Ive told them his home address, both his home address' the adress of his parents and am in contact with his sister so I dont see why they cant 'find' him but like I said, Im not interested anyways. he has 3 other children who he does support but he didnt want them to know that he was having another child, even though my daughter was planned..wtf right? well i guess he changed his mind, I was 2 weeks pregnant when he kicked me out and I thank god everyday for that. Im getting my life together right now and I know we will be more then okay. I work 7 days a week, go to school, I graduate in like 2 months, one more month of class and then one month of externship. We live with my parents so there is no fear of being homeless. Its just very stressful sometimes. my mom is very big into chocolates and cakes and cookies. there isnt a day that goes by without a fresh cake, fresh batch of cookies, ordering a pizza. However, shes lost something like 70 lbs just by not eating too much so they fail sometimes to see why i need to buy healthy things. About the water, thats ALL I drink. Sometimes a little milk but the only thing I drink 99% of the time is water. Also cant chew gum lol...I swallow it. Cant help it, always have, and now that Im training to be a dental assistant, Im just not a fan of gum. lol weird huh? thanks for the comment though. I'll figure things out somehow

WorkingIt2 on 01/26/2007:
Glad to read you are feeling better! How cool to learn a new exercise! I hope your son is better very soon, sinus infections are so crummy to have :( A coworker of mine makes the air popped popcorn and he will put cayenne pepper on it or garlic or some other combo of spices..he likes the hot and spicy stuff I guess...a friend of mine puts cinnamon blended with splenda on hers..I just buy the 98% fat free light butter stuff lol. Have a great evening!

borntocry on 01/26/2007:
Sometimes I find that when I'm really craving something, it's better to let myself have a little of it than to try to substitute something healthier instead, because often I just end up having both. And popcorn isn't really that bad as far as cravings go!

So both of us have done our weight-lifting today - yay! I also hope my muscles are sore tomorrow. Otherwise I am never sure if I've really done enough.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/26/2007:
foods look great...good idea hopping on DD instead of eating more!!! sometimes i kinda do the opposite, eat more and then hop on here!? ugh, your decision was much better~

Justine6Robert3 on 01/26/2007:
Sounds like you had a good work out. That is a good idea coming on here to avoid the munchie attach. I have the hardest time resisting food at night when I'm alone with the food! I'm always the last to go to bed! I try to keep the kitchen out of sight when I'm feeling tempted! It kind of works out because it forces me to go to bed earlier before I can't stop myself.

I'm glad to hear all is okay with your gym buddy. I had a bit of a falling out with my best friend 1 year ago this March. It was really silly and we both acted childish. We didn't speak for over 3 months because we were either to stubborn or afraid that we would get hung up on if we reached out to one another.

I missed her so much, we have been friends for 14 yrs and we talk almost everyday. I realized how much a part of each others lives we had become because everything reminded me of some experience that we had shared together. We were there for each other through so many things, Long story short, my girlfriend and I decided that the next time we had a misunderstanding we would talk through it because we can't stand the thought of not having each other in one another's lives.

I'm glad your starting to feel better.

Justine6Robert3 on 01/26/2007:
Not quite sure were all that came from, talk about babbling on:)

Donkey - Thursday Jan 25, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 134.4

Ever get the feeling that the whole day is ruined before it even hardly starts? I was supposed to be at the gym bright and early this morning when they opened up. But with this sinus infection, I wake up feeling miserable and all I want to do is sleep some more. So now my whole day's schedule is delayed. We have less than a week now before we close on the house, so we NEED to pack. What is my husband doing? Upstairs playing on the computer, when he should be packing! What am I doing? Playing on the internet (here) and then I'm off to the gym. UGH!

Last night I had the ricotta cheese dessert, and I regretted having it. I should have had the chocolate w/ a few almonds instead. I think I would have been more satisfied with that. I weighed in this morning on my 0.5 scale and it said I was up 0.5 lb. It could be the cheese, but it's probably more due to monthly water bloat. I think I will pack away the scales today...

FIRST EDIT: Went to the gym and got into a big fight with my friend at the gym. Great. We're on the crosstrainers arguing. Great.

Breakfast - 1 cup high fiber cereal, 1 cup light vanilla soy milk (I'm such a creature of habit)

AM Snack - 1 grapefruit.

Lunch - high fiber tortilla w/ 1/2 cup black beans and 1/4cup roasted vegetables; radishes

PM Snack - 1 med yellow apple, 1/2 oz almonds, 1 cheese stick (80 cals)

Dinner - big salad w/ 1oz cheddar cheese & Italian dressing; 1 orange (eaten while preparing dinner --- a very nasty habit I have)

Second Edit: In spite of starting the day off on the wrong foot, it ended up being somewhat of a good day. I found the envelope with Girl Scout cookie money in it that I had misplaced. Spent 2-3 days looking for that thing (see previous entries about husband and I getting into arguement). It only contained $21 for my brother's cookie order, but the idea that the money was in the trash and that I'd have to pay for his cookies because of my forgetfulness was not a good feeling to have.

AND we packed up most of my husband's clothes, I packed up the coat closet as well. I think i will be able to get more packing done tomorrow with husband being at work.

I do not know if I will have dessert tonight. I would like to, because I do not think that the salad will hold me through the evening. And Husband is going to bed at 7p, because he has to wake up at 1a to go to work. So I tend to binge when I am left alone like that at night. Instead of going to bed, I stay up, watch TV and eat. I was hoping to hold off on dessert until tomorrow night (Friday), as I like to have something "special" on Friday nights.

Tomorrow will be my last weigh-in until after I unpack the scales. Today, I weighed in at 135.0 on my old scale (up 0.5) so I figure I am around 136.4 on my new scale. I didn't exactly want to report here that I have gained 2 lbs. But tomorrow I will weigh in and be truthful about it.

FINAL EDIT: Had 5 carrots and an apple. I was definitely hungry as I thought this snack was amazingly delicious.

Progress as of today: 2.6 lbs lost so far, only 9.4 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
LOL I do my best work when I'm under the gun to get it done! I know exactly what you mean. If my day starts out on the wrong foot, it is heck trying to get it back under control or make sense out of it. Sorry to read that you got into an argument with your friend. Kudo's to you on getting your hour of cardio in every day. I used to do 90 minutes of cardio then I got hurt and lazy and so here I am..back at the 30 - 40 minutes. Keep up the great work and doing what you need to do for you, to feel better!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/25/2007:
I LOVE HI FIBER CEREAL WITH SOY MILK. it's so sweet, like a dessert. lol, maybe that's just how i think.

lafemme_loca on 01/25/2007:
Your menu looks so good ! Good luck with packing. I know that I am such a procrastinator that I would be freaking out and binging... That is also great that you are working out everyday... Keep up the good work !

WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
How nice that your day ended better than it started! Good!! =)

Justine6Robert3 on 01/25/2007:
Sorry to hear you have a sinus infection, they are so unpleasant! Have you seen a doctor because if it has turned into an infection I don't think it will go away without an antibiotic. Unless you don't like to take medicine. Hope your feeling better just the same.

That's great that you are aiming for 60 min of cardio a day. I try to do the same, so far I've managed to keep it up. I just hope I can stick with it. I do love to exercise (yes, I'm strange, or so all my friends and family tell me!) but I just have to be consistant with it.

I just bought new cereal to try because I don't seem to be getting enough fibre. I hope its good, I'm terribly picky and like yourself a total creature of habit. Don't like to much change myself although your right thats what makes life fun and interesting. I try not to resist change to much, it just stresses me out more than the average person.

I read your bio and some of your diary entries, I would have to agree you are quite funny! I was having a good giggle with some of those entries. Thanks for the smiles, I love your sense of humour!!

Good luck with the move and the job search!

borntocry on 01/26/2007:
I can't believe you guys get so much cardio. And here I was feeling proud of getting 20 minutes in yesterday!

Thanks for your comment. I would love to join a gym, but they are just too expensive over here! The cheapest deal I found was still over $1000 a year, and that's a discounted rate. And they're only open until around 8 at night, whereas I finish work at 7, so on week nights I tend to go running from 8-9. My husband plays semi-professional basketball, so that's how he gets all his exercise indoors!

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 24, 2007
(Portion control w/South Beach Diet (vegetarian))
Weight: 134.4

Still struggling with my sinus infection. My husband is home today so I am going to go through all of his clothing with him, to see what fits and what I can give away, and pack most of the stuff that he doesn't normally wear. I also have to get to packing all the stuff under the bathroom sink cabinets. I found damage to the base of the cabinet under the kitchen sink from detergent. That will have to get fixed before the house goes on the market, for sure.

I made it to the gym today. My goal has been to get in 1 hour of cardio a day. I did the usual crosstrainer for 45 min and then did a very challenging hill program on the treadmill for 15. Both had 5 minute cooldowns. Then did lower body weight training, using lighter resistance. My legs feel heavy, probably due to the sinus infection wiping me out.

I took a sneak peak on my scale (that measures to the 0.5lb, not the one that measures to the 0.2lb; yes I have two scales and yes, that's insane) to see if I was maintaining. It seems that I am, which has been my new goal until we move and get settled.

I found out that I do not get a corporate discount to the new gym through my husband's job. So once we move, if I join a gym, it will probably be much more expensive to do so. Right now I pay $25 a month with no intiation fee. Can't really get better than that. It is not worth it time/money wise to drive back up here and use the gym that I belong to now. So this will be a challenge.

One thing I need to do is to find a job, once we move and get settled. It seems as though life is one change after another. I do not deal well with change. But that's what keeps life exciting I suppose. I will reconcile the gym problem first, because finding the right job will take some time. I could forever use that as an excuse to eat and not workout (job hunting).

Breakfast - 1 cup all Bran, 1 cup light vanilla soy milk

AM Snack - 1 apple

Lunch - high fiber tortilla w/ 1/2 cup chickpea & 1/4 salsa; sprinkle of cheddar cheese; 1 cup (?) of brussle sprouts.

PM Snack - 1 cup fat free cottage cheese, carrot sticks

Dinner - 1/2 acorn squash, 1 Boca veg. "chicken" patty, stewed tomatoes (w/peppers and onions), roasted vegetables (mushrooms, onion, red & green pepper), 1 deviled egg.

Dessert - don't know yet, but I will be having something tonight. Either a ricotta cheese dessert or 1 square of Lindt dark chocolate (85% cacao - 53 cals)

I will probably not update any more tonight, as my son has been a total butt today and therefore has lost his computer priviledges. Rather than tempt him, it's better to just shut the machine off.

Progress as of today: 2.6 lbs lost so far, only 9.4 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/24/2007:
mmm, food sounds great. I might just end up taking the cereal route soon enough to get more fiber in the morning. some bran or something like that! you have kids? if you do, see if you can be an aide at the school. that might be good so you can get to know everyone!

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