I would invite anyone - including myself, if I'm reading this entry retrospectively some time in the future - to read my replies to yesterday's comments. Your comments really helped me realize what was bothering me: distraction, lack of focus, loneliness. I appreciate all support. I cannot thank you enough for your help. I am ready to move forward, wiser, carefully.
I come to the realization that I need help with my eating. I've become terribly unbalanced. Last night, we had take-out , to support a local business, and it was like I could not eat enough. Not a binge but just really poor choices and lack of restraint & self-discipline . Then I had too many chocolates. Again, lack of focus, lack of balance.
Needless to say, my whole digestive system is upset this morning. Not the best way to start a day. And because I wasn't feeling too good, my day got off to a late start, so now I'm scrambling . Oh well. ..
Part of the problem is that I missed my noon walk so that I could leave at 4p. I need to get out of the office in the middle of the day. Take a break. A REAL break. Also, I did not make good use of the extra hour I had at home. So that whole idea backfired on me. Again, if I'm leaving early, it needs to be EARLY, like midday, and I'm too busy at work to do that right now unfortunately.
The better lesson is that my time of must be *intentional* and not just trying to squeeze in time off.
Did chest and back weights last night - YES!!! That is a positive. Let's leave on this positive note :-)
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
After today, the next 4 days are going to be rainy and cloudy, so I hope to get outside as much as possible to enjoy the sun and warmer temperatures today. I did not get to leave early yesterday - too busy. I will try again, but my task list today is longer than it was yesterday so I'm not too hopeful about that.
As I thought, my husband did not work on my laptop /TV yesterday . I hope he will today. I would really like to try the Fancy Gym yoga classes online... I'm not doing any yoga, other than working on balancing on one leg.
OMG I have to tell you about the work drama. So ALL last week , Nice Lady was pitching a fit about how she wanted to work from home. That's all I heard about - that's all everyone heard about. Associate Attorney even went to the boss on her behalf to ask him if she could take the computer home. On Friday, the boss finally agreed. She came and got her computer on Saturday. Monday was so nice and quiet, I could actually get my work done.
She comes into the office yesterday (stayed 10a-4p with no computer ) because she needed an ethernet cable and her son was putting together her desk. By the end of the day, though, she decided she wasn't going to work from home any more because she's too depressed working from home.
WHAT THE HECK ??? All that drama, all that "noise"... For NOTHING.
Male Co-Worker said he's at the point where he's just going to have to tune her out. Unfortunately I can't do that because my desk is in the middle everything and she stops by mdesk all the time on her way to the rest of the office. And I'm BUSY. Did I mention that???
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
I need yoga.
i hope that you do get to do some yoga soon and take advantage of sunny days for walking outside!!!!!!
I feel conned.
I have run out of time to write a full entry this morning, but wanted to say that yesterday, I was crazy busy at work. What is WRONG with people? Phones were ringing off the hook yesterday until around 3p.
Got 4 new contracts yesterday. What??? People, now is not the time to be moving!
Thinking about leaving work early today but might just wait until tomorrow when we'll have a warm day before the rain comes in for a dreary Thursday and Friday.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
Is it because people are panicking and just want to sell homes and downgrade!? that is weird. i guess they are home, have more time, are starting to actually make the calls!? that's soooo weird yes! wow 4 new contracts? i guess they figure this is all passing over so quickly they will be able to show their homes in the later spring!?!?
Did you end up leaving early? i hope you can manage some walks in :)
No, I was unable to leave early. Not happy about that.
So I get a text from Associate Attorney that says that one of his clients (the wife) signed closing documents and overnighted them to our office, and now she's showing symptoms of COVID-19, to be tested on Monday (tomorrow). When those documents come in, you can believe I ain't touchin' them one bit. This affects me because these sellers are also buying on the same day. Our system here in Chicagoland isn't set up to close remotely, so.... I'm not sure what will happen. I was thinking I'd have to prepare "power of attorney" documents - what a pain in the a$$ for me - but the reality is more like the closings would be post-poned altogether. I can't rid of these particular people fast enough. Oh, and the husband works for a nearby village, so all of his co-workers are now at risk.
That wife was trouble on BOTH transactions from the very beginning.
But it will be interesting to see what work is like on Monday. I am planning to leave early - 3pm? - maybe tomorrow, but Tuesday and Wednesday for sure - unless I'm insanely busy - so that I can spend a little time with my daughter, who will be off of work. She is so stressed out from her retail work.
Oh I almost forgot to mention: I had an AWESOME weight training workout yesterday! (lol) Actually, I broke it up into 2 sessions and worked triceps in the afternoon and biceps at night. I think today I'll do a little legwork. I'm also practicing standing on one leg in several different positions, to work on my balance.
The Fancy Gym is putting their yoga workouts online. I REALLY want to try this. I'd have to use my laptop, which is not ideal because the angle of the screen changes depending on how I'm standing so the screen is not always a clear picture. (This is why I do not take the online classes from the Yoga Studio.) These FG online classes are free, and it would be my chance to see what level their classes are like without having to risk another "Donkey Yoga Disaster - LIVE!" episode again. So maybe I'll try that this afternoon.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
that's really good you are working on your balance. my balance is actually not the great and it's something i could do...though some of my squats exercises are one legged so that's enough for me, for now.
there are cords that hook up laptops and phones to the tv. i always forget what they are called, let me call r to ask him...also, i wrote some comments in your two entries below :)
Go to help bar and type in “cast” or cast to tv. The help file might help you ....
LOL.
It can be done with a DVI cord if you have it but also now people can connect remotely!
Sunny but cold this morning - I'd rather have warm and cloudy. Snow forecasted for tomorrow afternoon. Doesn't do much to lift the spirits here, but now that I know where I stand, I'm feeling better, more centered.
Ironically, it feels sort of comforting to be considered "essential". Now that Illinois is on official "shelter down" status starting at 5pm today, it will be interesting to see if I get any new contracts next week. Will people rush out today to buy a home? My boss and Male Co-Worker say that they don't think anyone is thinking about buying right now. I had 4 contracts, maybe 5, that canceled this past week, suddenly, because of the "non-essential" business shut-down in the restaurant and hospitality industries.
With this in mind, I tried to see if I could sign up for the online yoga classes at the Yoga Studio - nope. I can only do that through my phone or laptop - neither which have good screens for a 2-way conference, since the screens are so small.
Had a food-fit last night and ate 2 bowls of ice cream and some gummies. This morning, my GI system had a reset, so now I feel much better.
Doing lots of laundry today. I plan to have an AMAZING weight training session this afternoon. I still have one yoga book that I want to read. There's always knitting to do as well, but now my hands get achy so I can only do that for about 15 minutes or so before I have to quit.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
The bright side is that, because I didn't really take a REAL vacation last year, I had like 32 hours of vacation time carry over into this year. So I have it if I need it, although my boss said that i have to be responsible in how I use it. I can't take 6 weeks off all at one fell swoop. I guess even if I get sick, I can't take 6 weeks off.
sometimes you can hook a phone or laptop up to a tv screen if you have the correct cable. i always forget...is it hdmi?then you have a nice big screen to look at..
i'm surprised your boss doesn't worry with his wife so sick!
i just read gummies, which ones? i am out of them unless i get a delivery from amazon of which i've ordered some again..helps keep me sane at home.
have a good weights session today! (i did mine last night at it was STRONG!)...it was long due to distractions but it was also STRONG!
I'm not sure what happened, but we at work are going on lockdown today. No walk-ins. Only the boss is willing to meet with clients, downstairs in the conference room. Nobody but UPS comes upstairs from the outside. Male Co-Worker made a nice sign and the boss said, if locking the doors is what you want, we'll do it.
Nice Lady is making arrangements to work from home, at least part time. This week, she started doing a certain pedicure through email and phone, instead of in person at the office. She's like, why haven't I been doing this sooner? It's much easier and doesn't stress me out. So that will most likely remain changed.
Associate Attorney is taking most meetings over the phone, but the Boss just won't - or can't - make that adjustment. We could all work from home - after all, Queen Bee does every day, right? He could do more but won't.
And work might not be so bad if we're didn't have a physical therapy clinic on the first level that had sick people!!! The owner of the clinic is the Boss's daughter. She says she cannot make payroll if she closes the clinic. So she calls off sick and has her workers come in to bear the brunt of all of this.
I've really lost most respect for my Boss and his daughter. I never respected her husband who tries to run both businesses like a dictator.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
I just don't want to be around people...I don't want it. He would probably be in the middle of all those at the beach in Florida too...WTH!!
OK maybe it is over reaction, but I just want to be safe and healthy and can only hope others do as well, but I guess I'm wrong.
Stay strong and update us with your own work situation.
EVENING UPDATE: So we workers had a plan to limit our exposure to the virus from outsiders, but the boss nixed all of it. He has no plan, and thinks we're all overreacting.
So if I get sick, I get sick. And if my husband gets sick, with his autoimmune disease, then he gets sick, and good luck.
Yesterday, I was beyond livid. Tonight, I'm beyond where I was last night. If I get sick, I will be at work until I get sent home or get carted out in an ambulance.
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My boss has no idea what to do about the virus. Yesterday we had 2 disgusting people come in as walk ins. The physical therapy office downstairs has sick staff and sick clients.
The inaction by my boss is infuriating. The real reason we gave to go to work is because he doesn't want to stay home with his difficult wife and doesn't want to be alone in the office without anyone to talk to.
With no gym and no yoga, I worked out at home and am staying to catch up on new tv shows, rather than being stuck in reruns. Yesterday was chest and triceps. Today will be back and biceps.
I didn't work on balance (standing in one leg in various yoga positions) but this something I want to start doing regularly. Also, no abs work, which I can also do on my yoga mat. So, something to work towards.
For fun, I tried to write up a schedule for myself, like I've seen being done for parents teaching kids at home (since all the schools are closed now). It was easier to schedule my morning time than my afternoon. I got stuck because I was looking at this as a not- working situation, not working from home, nor social distancing. So I kept thinking, where am I going to schedule my gym time? Ha ha ha. I want to go back to my "fantasy schedule" and focus on now. How would I structure my time for where we're at now....
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
i may start to add balance moves into my legs workout...but i have to research it. for now you are stimulating me to think about it.
On the bright side to all of this self-isolation, since I have no obligations after work, I'm hoping I can get myself to do weights tonight! Wouldn't that be nice?
I have a couple of TV shows I want to catch up on, via streaming online, but instead, I find myself sinking into reruns of "All in the Family" and "Roseanne" - so I'm gonna get tough with myself and watch something NEW tonight while I work out.
Yesterday, Mistakes Girl asked me if I thought the boss would let any of us go, if business slows down too much. I answered for myself, that if I'm let go, I'll just go. (I'm so ready for a change.) But then I realized that she was really asking for herself. Awwww... So I reassured her, with several reasons in why it wouldn't be her that would be laid off.
This virus issue is showing me that my heart lies elsewhere. I may still have to go to work, but I'm going to use the remainder of my time, on a daily basis, to do better for myself.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
I am at work too today. Many of us are still here. Obviously we want to be paid...and i think we are the fortunate ones at this time as many people have already been just laid off - not my business - but in hospitality and food service...many just lay their workers off.
So the Fancy Gym finally closed down today. I'm kind of relieved that they finally made that decision.
When I drink cold drinks, I tend to cough. I also sneeze. So I'm sure people wished I had stayed home today.
Some law firms are working from home but my boss says that would be a bad idea for us, and that we're "essential" workers - that a state -wide or national shutdown wouldn't apply to us because we're essential.
We may be essential - which we aren't - but don't think for one damn minute that we're not expendable.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
we are also at work...would be difficult for us to work from home (some could, but some cannot due to the materials / computer software all being at work).
Several random things:
Something changed in the way I ate yesterday, and I had way more energy for my morning bike ride this morning. I've increased my starting resistance level (which I then increase as I progress. I go up and down, but never below than my starting level.) and I've been DRAGGING to keep my pace up. This morning - WOW! I was able to get it up consistently and then some.
I went to the Fancy Gym yesterday early afternoon; I usually go at night, so this was a change. I always distance myself from other people working out anyway, and ALWAYS wipe down the areas I've touched. I won't make it to yoga today, unless I go at 7pm, but I'm watching the (maybe last) debate tonight, which starts at 7pm, so I don't think I'll make it. As an informed voter, I feel it my civil obligation to hear ALL SIDES before casting my vote, and although I've already voted in the primary, there is still the general election in November, and I'm not yet committed to any particular candidate. So that's why I'm staying home to watch TV rather than going to the gym. *Oh my grandmother would be turning in her grave at that statement.*
I am having second thoughts about not participating on the online yoga classes at the Yoga Studio. I should be clear, not all available classes, just the one that I go to on Thursday nights (Fast-Slow). I'm thinking that my reluctance to adapt to modern technology is a sign of being old in my thinking. I do think I have a valid point of needing live feedback when I do yoga, because I tend to compromise my form if I'm not mindful of it (bending a straight leg or hunching over my shoulders).
I had an awesome weight training session this morning too. If I could do that 1-2 times MORE during the week, that would be great. There just isn't enough time before and after work, unless I cheat on my sleep.
Speaking of which, I slept in this morning until almost 7am, and that was wonderful! I think I will discard going to Sunday morning yoga at 8am at the Yoga Studio, and sleep in on a regular basis. Especially if I can do the same type of yoga (Yin Yoga) at the Fancy Gym. (This is to be applied after the Studio opens again.)
Finally, I was told that the Legal Clinic that I volunteer at once a month, is going to be canceled AGAIN this month because of coronavirus precautions. I'm actually OK with this, because that would have been a really LONG day and consumed a LOT of my Saturday, and I NEED 2 days off, not just one. You see, the legal clinic would have been from 8:30a-1p, and then the clinic leader's dad passed away last week, and his memorial service is on the same day, at the same place as legal clinic would have been. So if everything had happened, I would have been at this church (for clinic and then services) from 8:30a-3p or longer.
Since clinic has been canceled, now it will just be the service for an hour or so, and that would be much more manageable for me, mentally but also emotionally, as far as wanting to pay my respects.
Progress as of today: 48 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!
gyms in nyc are now closed until further notice. i'm so thankful to have home weights! although, i realize i should be more thankful to be in good health right now!
it's good you had the whole weekend to take care of what you need to do. did you end up going to the funeral? or was it canceled or made smaller because of not wanting a large crowd there?
stay safe and get enough rest at this time so your immune system stays strong!
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I can relate to unbalanced eating! My husband is terribly angry right now, so much so, I think he makes himself sick with upset stomach and diarrhea. Is it anger or worry, I can't tell.
I hope you have a better day and can find time for your breaks and walk and just enjoy some of the day.
Thank you! I had a lovely walk yesterday. What a difference!
I empathize with your husband. I doubt think I'm experiencing anger... This situation sure does reveal people's true colors though.
I have a quiet dislike for some people, now.
bearcountrygg on 03/26/2020:
D seems to be frustrated now too.......i suspect it's because we really can't do what we want to do....we feel trapped.....I'm hearing a lot of people eating differently right now...most...are overeating....you aren't alone.
Logged into my laptop to respond :-)
I've heard a lot of people struggling with eating lately too. I think it's a natural response - stress, boredom, change in routine, etc. So I know I'm not alone - and in a weird sort of way, that's nice to know. Kind of like, we're all in this together.
"Frustrated" is a good word for what I'm feeling lately -- maybe what a lot of us are feeling. For myself, I'm not sure it's feeling trapped - although I can certainly understand other people feeling trapped, indeed. For me, I think it's more about the uncertainty -- which is why it's even more important now to remain calm.
I'm an introvert and a homebody, so this shelter-down has not changed my life too much. On the other hand, a extrovert go-getter like my boss is really struggling with staying at home on weekends with his wife. And, as I'm sure you can relate, our weather is not really conducive to being outside. If it were warmer, he could work out in the yard. I would like to do that too.
My backyard has these large willow trees - and I have a TON of branches that I would like to gather up to be hauled away. If it were warmer and not raining, I could start working on that. Unfortunately, we're expecting really bad storms over the weekend... *sigh*
Horn_of_plenty on 03/26/2020:
try to stick with your walk, even if other people aren't taking theirs.
i TOTALLY get you about leaving work earlier and how early is early enough in order to actually accomplish something extra when you get home....TOTALLY get you 100%.
try to stick with what is good for you and try not to feel bad about it. continue to take care of yourself during this crisis.
one day of poor eating isn't a whole totally unbalanced thing. you can get back on your wagon :)
also, i'm glad you did the weights :)
I'm trying, gotta keep on tryin'! I'm seeing each day, moving forward, as an opportunity to try. Try what? To stay focused, calm, positive, quiet, content.
I'll write about weights in today's entry :-)