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Donkey - Friday Feb 11, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

Yesterday was OK.  The Boss was there right when we opened up, and that rather upset me.  If he arrived home at night, sleep in and regroup.  However, he left before noon, so that he and the daughter could have their intervention with the Wife.  He didn't come back.  We'll see how that went --- but actually, now I'm thinking that maybe it would be best if I didn't know how it went.  I'm not sure I want to carry all of that around with me. It's not my burden.  Why would I want to hear someone else's bad news?  I guess we're all presuming it didn't go well.  It's a difficult conversation to have with a loved one, even under better circumstances, much less when you're dealing with someone who is cruel and abusive.

I'm so glad that today is Friday.  I realized this morning that I REALLY need a day off, so the weekend will be most welcome.

I had a nice chat with Male Co-Worker about his whole YouTube adventure and now that I understand why he's doing it and what he wants to do, I'm all for it.  I am feeling some pressure from him to subscribe to his channel, but it's not really a big deal for me, since I don't spend that much time on YT anyway. It's not really my thing.

But all this chatter about co-workers with these really creative ideas (that have money making potential) got me to feeling kind of down on myself.  I think a creative outlet is definitely missing from my life.  Having something creative to focus on could be very helpful to relaxing, mental well-being, etc.  IDK, maybe I'm being too hard on myself.  Right now, I'm trying to work on my emotional well-being and growth (trying to become that "half-glass-full" person) , and that's no small undertaking!

Well, it seemed to snow or ice overnight, so I'd better get out there and try to shovel some of it, before getting ready for the day.  It's Friday - YAY!!!

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/11/2022:
My days have been so confused all week.....and Friday sure came around fast for me......yup.....search out a new interest and have fun with it....don't force it...just enjoy it or move on to something else...maybe try a few things.....maybe it will be fun just looking for something of interest.

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
We laugh at each other when we get our days off. The worst is when the alarm goes off and I think it's Saturday -- GROAN. The 2nd worst is thinking it's Friday, when it's some other dastardly weekday (like Tuesday, LOL).

Thank you for your gentle guidance and helpful suggestions on pursuing a creative outlet. Yes, this is a good approach to finding a creative outlet. I will start thinking of things to try... maybe NEW things to try, actually.


Jacky82020 on 02/11/2022:
Most creative money schemes fail. Too much competition! Too many people with huge followings & name recognition.

Sounds like the Boss’s wife needs therapy if she wants to keep her family together. But that’s on them. Don’t let it get you down, Donk! Focus on yourself & your fam.

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
THANK YOU for the reality check!

The Boss reminded (us) yesterday that after her stroke, the doctor had showed Boss a scan of his wife's brain, and there are black spots all over her brain where there is no longer activity/function.

So yes, she needs therapy, but I don't think the capacity is there. And I would bet money that those black spots have grown over the years, because she has noticeably declined just within the past 2 years or so, since her stroke a little over 10 years ago.

Just a very sad situation.


legcramps on 02/11/2022:
I agree with Jacky, we humans spend way too much time worrying about how other people are spending their lives. What do we have control over? Not their life, that's for sure!

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
Definitely 100%! And I think I'd be more happy with myself if I stopped looking at others, being influenced by others' dramas, and found my own passions or pleasures (e.g. jigsaw puzzles), with no self-judgment or self-criticisms on some of my nerdy things I like to do. Or things that I like to do aren't "good enough". And so on. Oh I excel at putting myself down. Maybe I could try excelling at lifting myself up, instead.


Maria7 on 02/11/2022:
I agree with Legcramps...We have no control over other people's lives. So, we may as well just tell ourselves that we are going to work on being happy and try not to worry about what we have no control over...like in the serenity prayer...

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
That's exactly what I need to do, work on being happy with myself, in myself, and let go (LET GO) of those things that I have no control over or don't really affect me.

I'm going to try short daily meditations over the Serenity Prayer this upcoming week, perhaps today, even. Sit with the prayer and absorb it. I think that's a good start :-)


Horn_of_plenty on 02/11/2022:
I am so sorry that you were struggling yesterday, especially with food too bc of emotions and stress. I can understand and have not only been there in the past; but now am struggling not with food but with emotions also because of STILL continuing issues with older lady at work. so i can relate.[I call her OLDER bc she is older than me lol since i know she's a little bit younger than you...but that's besides the point!]

i know that you KNOW what to do, too....but the difference is, you wrote that you "just can't do it." but this is NOT true. you can do it. you must not stop trying. and yes,perhaps talking it out with hubby can help with these work stresses. having a person at home as your soundboard is helpful. also,,there is phone therapists if you think that could be something. i am NOT saying i think you need a therapist. just, if you want an impartial party to give advice that it could be an option. of course you have me here, too. so please, it is definitely ok to vent here and hopefully we can help you.

funny thing is, i can't believe i again have a bully at work. - 44yo older lady. she evidently thinks she has done NOTHING wrong and that I AM IN THE WRONG 100%. with everything.it is now a problem.

oh, so my point with the last paragraph is that some things just repeat themselves in life...it seems come challenges remain challenges. they are always hard; and we must try to rise above....now i should take this advice!

so, do not forget your past and how much you've improved with the emotions/food aspect of things. you can do it. maybe not completely yet all the time,but you can continue to get better and better.

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
I absolutely needed to hear everything you wrote here. I must continue to reaffirm with myself that I CAN DO IT. I am foremost, my own coach and as Coach I need to be encouraging and uplifting. Not a drill sergeant, not a task-master, no. But kind and encouraging to myself.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/11/2022:
i've also had pressure from an acquaintance that i sometimes go out with to watch her youtube channel. thing is, i have trouble as is catching up with my better friends. i have yet to watch more than one of her episodes. but may do so just to appease her soon. just ONE more. she's been doing this most of the pandemic if not earlier. and like i said,i have watched ONE.

i think most you tube channels are not mone-making. don't let it affect you that way,i understand exactly where you are coming from. i also know people that seem to be involved with these sorts of things. there are things you are good at too. and you have passions in things they do not. you are a cat lover,spending a lot of time caring for yours. i know it is hard; but we cannot compare ourselves to others.

relating to you, i have never been a money-making adventuresome type. i'd rather volunteer for free or for some food! ;) i'd rather help people than line my own wallet; assuming i live alright i am not a greedy person and neither are you.

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
Since I don't spend much time on YouTube, I realized that it's no skin off my back to subscribe to his channel. If nothing else, it's good PR at the office.

I want to thank you for sharing your perspective. I know a lot of people are very focused on money-making, but I don't think that's ever been me. I mean, I wish I were paid what I am worth, but I seem to be satisfied with less.

On the other hand, I feel guilty for not being more focused on making money like other people are or seem to be.



Donkey - Thursday Feb 10, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

Loss for words.... So let me just dump it all out here.

The Boss is coming back to work today, but will not be working, because he just needs somewhere to go - away from his wife - to think about anything but his wife.  Supposively, he and the daughter are having a mini-intervention today.  This impending event, PLUS one of my essential computer applications (at work) not working hurled me into a food fit --- well, OK, TWO food fits, one at work and one at home.

The one at work, because of the application not working and not being able to do anything about it because I was stuck in the middle of a very boring webinar. I felt frustrated and helplesss.  These emotions resulted in eating probably the equivalent of a full sized milk chocolate bar -- and I don't even like milk chocolate all that much.  Turns out the application's cloud was experiencing issues, and the application was restored shortly after the webinar concluded.

Then at home, after dinner, I was so upset about the Boss and his stupid selfish Wife, that I went into the freezer and brought out that frozen sour cream cake from Christmas.  It's a single layer Bundt-shaped 8 inch cake.  I ate slice after slice until about half of it was gone.  

Bear shared a meme yesterday that I want to repeat here: 

OLD KEYS WON'T OPEN NEW DOORS.

This morning, I realized that I could have leaned on my Husband for support to divert my attention until after the anxiety passed.  I could have left the house for a walk --- this may have been an easier option if it weren't so dang cold and dark outside.  Taken a shower....

Ugh, I'm so discouraged with myself.  I keep stumbling on the diet part of the equation.  I'm almost wondering if I could use a nutritional coach or maybe some very short-term therapy to deal with this.  The thing that just gets me is that I **KNOW** what to do, but I just can't do it.

On the bright side, I suppose, I had a lot of energy this morning for a bike ride and weights.  Worked out my arms today, and did barbell squats.  So there's no great loss without some small gain.  Just hope that scale doesn't show that gain on Saturday.  UGH!

 

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/10/2022:
You'll get it back under control (beginning today). Sometimes, I believe, it does our systems good to have a full-eating day for a change, like a reset...because it is very nourishing. Then get back on track the next day. I've done this same thing, many times. Always got back on track. Try to distance your emotions from your work and concentrate more on what makes you happy and focus on positive things...yes, I know...'easier said than done' but you are a strong person and you can do it. The job will probably still be there after you have left it and someone else may or may not be worrying about it but you can have freedom from anxiety today...if you choose to...and I know that you do. Take care and feel better. Love, Maria

Donkey on 02/11/2022:
Perhaps all of this drama has been a blessing, to help me recognize what's really important to me, and how to work on controlling - moderating is a better word - emotions so that they don't get the better of me.

I've been thinking about the full-eating day suggestion, and I think that's definitely something that I think might actually work for me, for my goals. Thank you!


bearcountrygg on 02/10/2022:
The boss sounds like he has the caretaker blues.....It's so hard taking care of someone else and still feeling like yourself. Isn't it interesting how we go to food...( but never carrots)...when we need soothing? How and where did we learn that? Was it being rewarded with food as children...or being told we could have dessert after dinner and only if we ate dinner? Were we conditioned that way.....what if we had been taught that a piece of lettuce or celery was a reward? Would we have headed towards to those when we needed soothing. I wonder why we head for sugar or salt....and never something else. I wonder if we could change that.

Donkey on 02/11/2022:
I think the urge for sugar or salt (with fat) is more of an instinctual thing, from caveman times. I say this because you're right. We don't reach for the celery, do we? I suppose in a pinch, a banana or a sweet apple might be somewhat comforting (kind of a stretch on that), but overall, it's the sweet or the salty, and always the fatty.


Jacky82020 on 02/10/2022:
Donk, what’s up with the Boss’s wife?

I literally thought you meant old keys won’t open new doors because we had so many door/key problems in the big Victorian house.

Sorry it sucks at work. You’ll get past it & land on your feet. You always do. right?

Donkey on 02/11/2022:
She's become emotionally abusive to her family. I guess she ruined Christmas with a tantrum. And if she could manage to hit him with her cane, then I'd say she was physically abusive to the Boss too, but he's quicker than she is.

She's a hoarder, a smoker, a compulsive online shopper... Which even that wouldn't be so bad but the abuse stuff - that's a no can do.


legcramps on 02/10/2022:
Sorry you're feeling frustrated about work situations. I hope this will get easier.

Donkey on 02/11/2022:
I'm actually learning a lot for myself, on how to handle my own emotions. I'm pretty sure this will be my last year at the firm unless something truly miraculous happens.



Donkey - Tuesday Feb 08, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

This site is working slow for me this morning, and it takes very long for my comments to others to upload.  This morning, after my bike ride, I had a thought of what I would do with my time if DD was no longer available.  I made a list of things (chores) that I could do (today, or any day, really), but none of them are as nice as logging in here to see how everyone is doing and to empty my own head before starting the day.

I did not sleep well.  I fell asleep OK, but awoke at around 1:30am (maybe later) when Husband came to bed.  I was too hot, and Old Kitty had fallen asleep with me, so I was not able to toss and turn.  Then my hips started aching to be stretched.  Ugh, it was not good.  The "hot" feeling was due to several factors, including having eaten too much earlier, I'm afraid.  Not a food fit, but still.  Having the protein shake after yoga was probably not a good idea, as I think my body was working to metabolize that.  Also, I had a teaspoon of peanut butter and some cocoa covered almonds.

I had also eaten too many of the cocoa almonds at work, in addition to a piece of chocolate.  Not sure what was causing the stress yesterday, but I was definitely craving a sugar fix.

I reminded myself last night, though, as I was getting ready for bed, that I won't reach my goals unless I get a handle on the eating.  Can't out-exercise a bad diet. 


That whole YouTube / Male Co-Worker thing really had me bothered all morning yesterday, and I don't know WHY it bothered me so.  However, I was able to dissolve those feelings by rationalizing that perhaps he's doing this for his grandkids to watch and enjoy.  Nothing wrong with that.

When I discussed this with Nice Lady though, since she saw his post on Facebook, about his new YouTube page, SHE pointed out that with all of these "adventures" he has planned this year, he certainly won't be here at work, working.  Great.


I had to ask New Gal something for work, to which she replied that she would work on it.  I realized at that moment that maybe my tone of voice may have seemed harsh - I didn't think so, but with her who knows - so I did my best to let her know that I was asking for her help, not criticizing. I tried hard afterwards, to be appreciative of her help.  (She had made a mistake, and that's why I couldn't find what I needed.)  Also, she took an angry attorney call in the afternoon, to which I said I wouldn't take.  But then I caught myself immediately, realizing that I would be putting her into an unpleasant situation with the call, if I refused it.  So I immediately changed my mind and told her I would take the call, because I didn't want her to have to deal with an angry lawyer.  I couldn't help the man, but it actually turned out OK in the end. I'm glad I spared her that, because that is something I that I would have appreciated, if that happened to me. 

She tries too hard to be too helpful, but that doesn't mean that it's OK to put her into difficult situations on purpose.


We're getting a slight weather warm-up today and tomorrow, so I am already looking forward to my lunchtime walk.  

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/08/2022:
Can we see his you tube video?

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
Yes, I will post the link sometime soon. It's not a bad video, honestly. It's very "homegrown" and midwestern. I may watch some of it again in the context of, This is for the grandkids. It's a 24+ minute video.

Plus, I wouldn't want anyone to post negative remarks, or mention, Hey there's a person you work with who thinks your video is bad. That would really hurt my feelings, and probably his too.


bearcountrygg on 02/08/2022:
The possibility of DD disappearing is a distinct possibility as we have been warned in the past.......Since I can't locate anything else online that is even similar...I know I will have to just do without. I'm sure it won't be easy..........I have taken breaks from DD here and there over the years and always come back. I like the longevity of this group....we have "years up our sleeves"...of knowing each other and that is HUGE. It makes it so much easier when you know a person to be able to understand where they are coming from and possibly suggest something that might help them or to just "get" what they are saying and let them know you get it.

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
I agree with everything you've said here :-)


Maria7 on 02/08/2022:
Having been on here since 2000, I surely would miss this if we didn't have it. I am very thankful to our DD Webmaster whom has been keeping it going this long. Thank you, DD Webmaster!!! You are greatly appreciated. This is MORE than a diet website. It is a FRIENDS website, too. I have an old email I check infrequently that I will post in my today's entry, in case anything happens and anyone wants to keep in touch with me. I will use it just in case it gets spammed. Smile. I will put it up and then I will delete it after it has been on my entry a few hours. I love you all and there have been many, many wonderful people through the years that have come and gone and I always wondered what happened to them and missed a lot of them that were especially interesting people.

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
I missed it, but let's try again sometime in the near future -- let some time pass for any trolls to move on by.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/08/2022:
i, too, enjoy coming here and getting feedback and also reading what you are all up to! i've been here almost as long as Maria, under a diff name previously, i think since 2003? I always forget. i may be off and I may have come here later.

sorry you are struggling a little with the food at work. one of the things that helps me lots is to drink. i think i drink the most / almost the most of the 11 or so people in the large trailer. if i could, i'd drink even more; but it looks bad lol to keep getting up and taking water / going to bathroom...but this is what helps me not eat..

that was really kind of you to take the call. she will have to experience some of that at some point, but, nice of you to spare her this time!

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
Yes, I haven't been drinking enough water. Garmin adjusts my water goal, based on the other parameters that it measures. It's been a while since I've met my water goal on Garmin. I haven't been consistently meeting my water goal on FitBit either. So this is an excellent place to start making improvements.

Today, I mentioned to New Gal that if she had trouble with a certain task, to let me know, and I would help. I actually said to her, "We will get this done together" - like a team - and I think she appreciated that, actually... Although she did not ask me to help her, but rather went to Mistakes Girl, who told her no. (lol)



Donkey - Tuesday Feb 08, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

(Added replies to comments on my Monday  & today's earlier diaries - editing this on Wednesday to make sure this is at the top of my diary entries)

I am logging an entry tonight, rather than tomorrow morning, because I have a webinar tomorrow that I must be prompt (early) for, in order to get the continuing education credit for it.  So I will need to get to work early, and thus not have as much time to write tomorrow morning.

I did much better with food today.  One of the things I did was to drink more water, which Horn had also made a comment about.  This really helped today.  I have not been reaching my water goals, and that's usually where the trouble starts.  Also, I packed more fruit and my own plain but delicious almonds for my snacks & desserts.  I'm finding that a couple of dates is quite satisfying as a sweet treat, and has more nutritional value than chocolate. 

I took a walk outside after dinner, in order to meet my steps goal AND to add more mileage to my Garmin challenges.  This time, I took the neighborhood loop PLUS the cul de sac, and that ended up being 1.28 miles.  So taking the cul-de-sac extension helps, if I have time and/or energy to do so.  The breeze felt almost warm, and reminded me very much of an early spring.  So the walk was actually kind of pleasant.


Work was just unreal though.  I guess the Boss is returning on Thursday but it was made VERY clear to everyone that "he's coming in, but doesn't want to do any work."  Husband says that must mean they had a big fight.  The Boss could not convince his wife to stretch out the vacation another week, and in fact, it's my understanding that she is pushing really hard to get home tomorrow (Wednesday).  That's a lot of driving!  But she won't hear anything else. 

The Boss's wife is a hoarder.  Their only daughter, the physical therapist that works on the first floor of our building, was supposed to be working on clearing out their home to get rid of some of the excess while they were gone.  I don't think that happened - I don't think she ever found the time to get started on that project.  However, if it did, the Wife will be really mad and make everyone miserable for a few days.  How sad for my Boss.  Her behaviors, this childish behavior and the hoarding stuff is starting to  - or has been, for a while - affect the quality of his life and compromising his health (mental & physical).  It's been said that the Daughter put her foot down, but we'll see if it actually sticks or if they all go back to appeasing the Wife and return to their dysfunctional lifestyle.

For myself, though, I don't want the Boss back if he's not going to work.  I know I shouldn't complain;.it's not my place to do so.  I mean, if I'm paid to sit there and listen to him or whatever, then that's what I get paid to do.  On the other hand, that's not what I want my job to be.  The office is not a sanctuary.  We're not there to entertain him or keep him company because he doesn't want to go home and actually do something about his reality.

So this is stressful. I must remember not to eat my stress tomorrow, in anticipation of the Boss' return.  

Oh yes, this and the New Guy has decided that it's OK if his fiance doesn't pass the Bar exam (she failed the first time), because he can earn enough for the 2 of them - even though she spent 3 years in law school.  Besides, she wants to open a boutique, and maybe the Boss can help them with that.  WHAT????  NO!!!!  You pass the Bar and THEN you decide what you want to do next.  This is JUST INSANE, folks.

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/09/2022:
I totally agree on waiting to post the YT channel.....I wouldn't want anyone to associate you with that either. I wouldn't even post a link.....I would just randomly ...in the future sometime just give the name of that particular video .........I love to watch new youtubers...I like to encourage them with a thumbs up. I have a lot of favorite you tube channels I watch instead of TV...and I like to go back and look at their first few when they just started making them...they are almost always awkward and they get so much better and relaxed over time. I know better than to mention you...but can't speak for anyone else of course. I hope they have fun with it.

Donkey on 02/09/2022:
It never occurred to me that part of my irritation with his YT video is the awkwardness that comes from being a newbie. Of course this makes sense. I'm really glad then that I wrote about this, so that I could work through the emotions (as silly as they were) and come out feeling positive and encouraging.

Yes, I will do that in the near future, for the page. Thank you so much for your suggestions and insights.


bearcountrygg on 02/09/2022:
Walking your in your neighborhood sounds perfect. I have a friend who is a hoarder....her husband bought a large empty trailer and emptied their house into it while she was on a trip....she never forgave him. The stuff stayed in the trailer and she just filled the house up again. Hoarding is a metal problem and not cured with just taking their things away. True hoarders keep garbage, piles of papers etc....broken things...etc....Much of that is caused by a past loss of some kind and needs treatment...taking away their hoard just makes it worse. If his wife is a collector of some sort of "clean" things that could be something else and It is probably a good thing that the daughter didn't get that stuff out of there.......That lady needs mental help either way. I know a lot of people with very costly degrees and never end up using them in the way they were intended. Some went back and got another degree after that.......I always wonder if they just enjoy being ...students. But actually doing the job is too intimidating to them. Sometimes "walking the walk" is a lot harder than "Talking the talk".

Donkey on 02/09/2022:
The Wife isn't working with a full deck, since her stroke over 10 years ago. She wasn't this bad before, though. That is to say, she has been declining, and yes, I think they are at the point where they need outside help for her.

And I DO get that it's easier to make ultimatums but much harder to follow through. It's just so frustrating to witness this. Feels like enabling to me.

You know though, it's kind of like the YouTube thing. These things aren't really a part of MY life. And rather than spending time & energy fretting over these outside dramas, I could be channeling that energy into my own life, my family, etc. Things that ARE really part of MY life.

Perhaps my life is boring or empty that I crave getting involved in these other people's problems. I should think about this. Hmmm....


bearcountrygg on 02/09/2022:
If the wife had a stroke...than it sounds like there is enough brain damage that she probably can't help herself. It's true.....Their lives are their problems....of course by being around and hearing about their lives does drag you in....Your life should be your main concern. It's easy to hear all of the "noise" ....but not necessary to rent it space in your head.....if you know what I mean. Sometimes we just need to throw ourselves into our own lives and "spruce" them up.......make some changes that are enjoyable for you. One day those people at work will literally walk out of your life ( or you will walk out of theirs) and you will most likely never hear from them again...But you will still have your life and nurturing that will make that enough!

Donkey on 02/10/2022:
SPOT ON with EVERYTHING you said. I need to be a little selfish here and focus on MY life, not the drama in other people's lives. This doesn't mean I can't sympathize, but I need to do what's right for me.

Sadly, last night, I did NOT do this. I will write more about this today (Thursday).


Maria7 on 02/09/2022:
Hope your webinar went well today.

Donkey on 02/10/2022:
I had 2 of them. The first one was VERY good - it focused on what we need to do. The second one was not so good, as it focused more on the law part of it and the presenter didn't have answers to a lot of the questions asked. I'm glad I took both of them.



Donkey - Monday Feb 07, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

A lot of mixed feelings this morning...  I'm already feeling the anxiety creep up from my lungs to my throat/neck.  I do not want to go to work, even though there's nothing specific that I'm dreading, that I can think of.   

I was billed $275 for the doctor's visit in December.  I'm not sure if it was the vaccines or the blood tests.  Unreal.  So now I have to find out what I did wrong, so that I don't do it again.  Goodness, if it was the blood work, can you imagine what the thyroid panel will cost me????  

And I just looked out the window, and it's snowing again.  It's light, but geez, just demoralizing.

At least I'm happy to report that Baby Kitty seems to be doing better, or at least OK.  She's pooping much better, so that will keep her away from the vet.

And because I woke up early, but it's not a weight-training day, I took an extra long bike ride for myself.  So that's good.

Last night we got take-out sandwiches, which I ate 1/4 of, so I have lunch for work for the next 3 days.  SO RELIEVED not to have to think about work food other than vegetables, fruits, and protein for snacks.

I brought home some of the cocoa covered almonds from work to eat over the weekend, rather than keeping them at my desk.  I had small batches (around 10-15) here and there, and I came to realize that they just don't taste that great.  I mean, they are yummy, but they've kind of lost their appeal, if that makes sense.  I hope that helps me resist them at work.

Husband is actually talking about set-backs and relapses in his MOVE weight loss support group (the same program, different group that Inner Peace is working).  He gave me his workbook to read, to see what they recommend.  I didn't have a chance to read it - didn't make it a priority, but I will do that.

OK, last words here:  Male Co-Worker has started a YouTube channel of "adventures" that he and his wife have, about town.  Episode 1 is about shopping for nuts and nut butters.  OMG, it's so painful to watch....  I'm not even sure what to say.  Believe me, I'm not at a loss for words - oh, I have several of those. Perhaps it's not meant to be pretentous (Look at us, our lives are so interesting) but rather a satirical commentary on a mundane life during pandemic times.

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/07/2022:
Oh....I would LOVE to watch your co workers channel!!! One just can never learn too much about nut butters!!! LOL I don't know if it would be advisable or not but I'm wondering now that baby kitty is doing better,,...if you could put just a drop of veg or olive oil or coconut oil or maybe even a dab of butter in her food every couple of days...to keep things moving. I'm talking really tiny amt. Maybe you just finally got the chocolate almonds out of your system......eating something long enough can really make it lose it's appeal.


legcramps on 02/07/2022:
LOL, everyone wants to make a buck off You Tube :) :) :)

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
Right? I'm not sure if that's what he's trying to do. I think it's more of a "just for fun" thing.


Jacky82020 on 02/07/2022:
I’m with Bear. Please tell us how to see it.

You got that right, Legs! LOL

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
I will share the link soon. You all must promise me not to leave negative comments though. Remember, outside of work, he's a grandpa making a video to share with the grandkids and friends.


Maria7 on 02/07/2022:
I've begun drinking 30 calories (reduced calories it says on box) hot chocolate. It is very good.

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
Now that's an idea... That's a very good idea. Husband brought home a box of Smart Pop low-cal microwave popcorn from his mom's house - she didn't like the flavor. I've started eating some of that, from time to time. Kind of a nice change.

The hot chocolate though might help me through some rough spots. Yes, I will look into that. Thank you!!!


Horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2022:
i hope the bill is not that high. perhaps insurance wasn't billed ? if they take it? so sorry. maybe it can be fixed? fingers crossed. please let us know what happens; so we can also learn from it.

we were both biking this AM. i thought of you; thinking, "i am donkey!"

sorry you don't like the cocoa covered as much as the chocolate covered! personally, i do like them. but, like you say, it's easier to limit them bc they are a little less sweet than actual chocolate.

a male coworker i work with, i had introduced them to him LAST week; he was amazed that for the cocoa covered, it is same calories as regular almonds - because cocoa has hardly any calories!!!! haha, he was AMAZED. plus, there is some health to cocoa.

on that note, this is why i do indugle practically daily in small treats here and there. i want the real thing too.

hopefully there's red velvet cake slices still at work tomorrow, that will be my breakfast; with pb...gotta balance it a little bit or i'll get shakey again.

back to you, there's always room for smaller indulgences. xo

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
Yes, you too can be a donkey - lol! Anyway, I'm happy to have "company" on my bike rides :-)

Husband is working with the doctor's office to see why the lab work wasn't covered by the insurance. Perhaps it was an error on their end that could be corrected and re-billed.

My MAIN concern is that IF it ISN'T covered, please tell me what I did wrong, so that I can do it right the next time. I have enough in my savings to cover this bill. I admit that if the thyroid panel wasn't covered by insurance, that I am a little worried about that.

I did better today with smaller indulgences. I would agree with that. It's when I'm vulnerable that the smaller indulgences become bigger -- then it's a problem. Practice, practice that moderation!


Jacky82020 on 02/08/2022:
I promise! I’ll say the sweetest stuff ever!



Donkey - Sunday Feb 06, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

Went to the gym early and had a great workout!  Not too busy at all, and by the time I left at 10am, a bunch of people were coming in.  Perfect timing!  I could go even earlier, but I like to ride my bike while having a cup of coffee & reading social media (news, FB, Twitter, etc.).  I should challenge myself once or twice (on a Saturday and a Sunday) to see what going much earlier is really like.  after all, I'm open to change and trying new things, new routines, right?  (Um...)

Some poor lady at the gym knocked over her water bottle but didn't notice it right away.  So I grabbed some paper towels but that wasn't enough.  I got my own towel and soaked up the rest.  She kept say, "Oh you don't need to do that", but why not help her out, especially since I think she was kind of embarrassed.  Something about cleaning at the gym is fun --- at home, not so much, LOL.

I got a lot of the puzzle done yesterday, BUT I was standing for too long, and aggravated my right foot (plantar fasciitis).  I hope to work on the puzzle a little bit more today, but either not for as long, or break it up into 2 sessions.  Husband felt bad and said, "I need to do more to help with the puzzle" but I actually am perfectly OK with working on this alone, while he does his own things.  It's very mentally relaxing for me, which I really seem to need lately.  

Daughter is home today, so I'm glad I'll get to see a little bit of her.  

The Boss is supposed to come back this week, but we think he's managed to stretch it out for another week.  As I said to Male Co-Worker, I have mixed feelings about him (the Boss) coming back, and MCW agreed.  But I'm not going to think about work right now, because it's Sunday, and it's my day off :-)

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/06/2022:
Hubby and I got in a walk today, even though cold outside (in the 40s). Sweet of you to get up the water for your friend.

Donkey on 02/07/2022:
That is excellent, Maria! It's so hard to get outside when it's colder out -- takes a little more prodding, doesn't it? I guess it's helpful when there's 2 of you, so that you can prod each other, to get out there.


bearcountrygg on 02/06/2022:
Isn't that the truth...it is more fun to clean anywhere but at home. Nice of you to help her out.

Donkey on 02/07/2022:
OK, good, so it's not just me that feels that way about cleaning. Why is that so, I wonder.

I haven't mentioned this to anyone else, but I actually thought about picking up a 4-hour shift at the gym as a cleaning/laundry assistant. I could get my gym membership for free. So what's stopping me? I think I would start to feel resentful of others for being so sloppy and messy, and not enjoy being at the gym.

So I haven't pursued that yet, but if it becomes that a gym membership isn't affordable in our budget, I might actually pursue this.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2022:
that's really kind of you to help the lady out :)

let us know indeed if your boss comes back tomorrow!

have a good evening.

it's really good to hear you had a nice workout; i'm planning on a good workout today; too.

Donkey on 02/07/2022:
I'm hoping that the Boss won't be back until next Monday (February 14th). That's my hope.



Donkey - Saturday Feb 05, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 135.5

Technically, there was a 1 pound loss, but I see this as maintenance, as I seem to be hovering at this number, give or take a pound.  I'm surprised, actually, because I did have quite a few cocoa covered almonds from work, PLUS a frozen banana around 8:30pm -- partly from exhaustion, partly as a reward for such a stressful day.  Baby Kitty came home last night, and there was a LOT of clean up to do - TWICE.

Must remember that until winter is over, everything is maintenance.

I need to get to the gym before the rush.  I will update this entry later today.


I'm glad I went to the gym when I did, even though I kinda didn't want to go. I even considered skipping today, but now that it's done, I'm glad I went.  It REALLY behooves me to go early (earlier).  By the time I left at 10am, it was getting WAY too crowded for me.

I am starting to increase my weights again on a machine for the back (called a "mid-row", where you are stationary, but you are pulling weights by using a rowing motion).  So progress is being made!

Inner Peace & Bear:  On my way home from the gym, I saw a little lady pushing this huge snowblower (kind of like what we have here at my home).  Some day, that will be me.  I will heed Bear's advice about keeping fingers away from any place but the handlebars.


We are having some major computer problems here, with our network.  I'm on the WiFi here with my laptop. Can't stream on some of the TV's. I hope he can finish up the repairs but in case he can't, I plan to spend the rest of my day relaxing with laundry, working on the jigsaw puzzle (YES!!!!!), riding my stationary bike (had to cut my morning ride short), cat care, etc.

Baby Kitty is home, and for the next night or 2, she will need to stay in our powder room bathroom, until I can be sure that the laxative meds aren't causing her diarrhea.  She's a lot thinner and lighter today.  Noticeably!!!  Well, she's in the right family, because we're definitely a family with butt problems and litter box issues (depending on if you are human or feline, here).

Progress as of today: 51 lbs lost so far, only 2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/05/2022:
In response to you doing snow removal because hubby isn't able...That is very relevent....if he can't....I think I would personally get a lawn tractor that also has a snow blower that he could ride and mow grass and move snow with...........but...I think you enjoy doing that so it may not be important to you. For several years when D was up here and I remained downstate while taking care of my parents......we had a house that sat near the back of 10 acres........to get out of the driveway...was up hill........I was there for several years...no snow removal at all.....I dealt with it by literally driving my Buick Rondevous.....That thing was awesome.....I drove back and forth and back and forth over it as many times as it took to pack that snow down......It actually pushed snow...it was an awesome vehicle..........and it got me through several winters until we sold that house......and If I was ever stuck here by myself again...I would do that.

Donkey on 02/05/2022:
A couple of years ago, when Son left home in fact, because it was at that point where I realized that I could not manage our yardwork alone, Husband and I strongly considered getting a riding mower/snow-pusher thing. I know exactly what you're talking about. We did some serious thinking about this, but in the end, decided to hire a lawn service in the summer, and get a snow blower for the very heavy snows in the winter. I can do small snows. I can do more quantities of light, fluffy snow.

It's that wet, heavy snow that I can not do alone. Husband cannot/should not help. Daughter is a lost cause on this front. I know that eventually, I will learn how to use the snowblower. The hardest part is getting the thing started.


Maria7 on 02/05/2022:
Wow...Y'all have a lot on your hands with keeping the snow gone...this is something we have never encountered here...when we get snow, which is not the usual thing, even though we got some this season, it is usually gone within a day or two. I was helping Hubby the other day and was in strenuous position on the floor, holding something up for him, that reminded me of what it must be like to do yoga, and I was telling myself to think about Donkey who does yoga and that helped me to stay in that position of holding that up for Hubby to accomplish his task.

Donkey on 02/06/2022:
I find that a lot of staying in a yoga pose is mental. The slower the movement, or the longer I stay in a pose, the more mental it becomes. Shoulders back, glutes soft, focus on the breath, relax muscles & let gravity do the work....

I'm glad I was able to "help" :-)


Horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2022:
there's a park by me with the same deal as yours below. the park is a little under a mile with an extra area that adds on if you want to; for about a mile. i much prefer outdoors walking.

re below, yes, take things on a perspective of keeping the environment happy/calm and not to stir things up.

lol obviously that guy that screamed at you in the email below is quite full of baloney.

Donkey on 02/06/2022:
Trying to keep everything as positive as possible at work. It's SO HARD to do though when you get screamed at. The day after that happened, it was SO difficult for me to face the day with a cheerful face (at work; at home I was fine).

Donkey on 02/06/2022:
The only thing for me that makes treadmill walking bearable is having Downton Abbey to watch. A good TV show REALLY makes a HUGE difference.

I find that outdoor walking is more challenging physically and also helps me clear my head mentally for that "positive environment" at work. (see my previous comment above)


Horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2022:
good job on your maintenance. also glad you got in your gym routine. you always impress me on weekends when you go out early to the gym :) it's a good commitment and habit.

do you think the storm is causing the internet/tv issue? i hope it gets fixed. that's the worst on the weekend.

Donkey on 02/06/2022:
No, I do not think the storm was the cause of the internet problems. Either the provider has made changes - which is entirely possible, because I've been seeing a lot of cable being installed lately - yes in winter! Or it could be our equipment dying ... or if it's the provider, then our equipment might no longer be compatible. Not happy about that.



Donkey - Friday Feb 04, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 136.5

As if I did not have enough on my plate, I signed up for 2 more Garmin challenges, LOL.  One is walking 30 miles this month - easy except that now I will have to walk outside on weekends (treadmill miles don't count because no GPS to register the miles).  The other challenge is a February step challenge.  I guess the 300,000 steps challenge is January - March, and it is part one of a year-long challenge that has several stages to it. 

The walking miles challenge made me take an outdoor walk last night, around my neighborhood. I was right: the neighborhood loop is about a mile, and there is an extra cul-de-sac that I can take that would push it to a little over a mile.


Work was very stressful yesterday.  In the morning, the anxiety just about shot me through the roof, thanks to poor training of New Gal.  She is closing out files and throwing out way too much that is in the file.  I finally asked Mistakes Girl - who trained New Gal - Um, did you train her to do this, because this isn't right.  She said that back when she was on bedrest, she was all set to train New Gal, but when she came back, New Gal told her, "Queen Bee taught me. You don't need to teach me anything.  I know how to do it."  Well, no you don't.

Mistakes Girl was like, I can talk to New Gal and try to retrain her, and I told her not to bother with it.  I don't think it would go well, since you can't tell New Gal anything, and I wouldn't want to put Mistakes Girl in that position. 

In a way, New Gal is taking us towards a paperless firm, and that's honestly the way of the future.  She has good ideas, but that's not the way we do things!!!  Oh well, Mistakes Girl will be gone in a month or 2, and I don't think I will last the year here either.  So who cares... Better to leave things happy than to cause negative drama, if we're all leaving soon anyways.

Then, on top of that, around 4:30pm, I get screamed at - via email - by a lender because he can't get the loan ready on time.  He said I was rude and offensive and that I had offended more people "then" I know.  So I called our agent, because that's who I really care about and said, "Have I offended you?"  She laughed and said no.  So we kind of regrouped - she and I - and once the lender finally IS ready, we'll schedule the closing.  I just don't know if he'll be talking to me, since I've offended him so much, to let me know that the loan is ready.

Great way to end the work day.


Come home.  Had a short spat with Husband because he leaves his workbench stool pulled out too far and I accidently tapped it with the car.  I've asked him many times before, put the stool back.  Doesn't do it.  So now I hit it.  He said it was my fault. 

Baby Kitty is not well, and we're running out of options to treat her.  She will have to go back to the vet for more enemas.  Gosh, we're a family of butt problems over here.  Anyway, that aside, I found myself feeling very sad last night.  Sad for Kitty, sad that perhaps the end for her is nearer than I had thought. Sad for me because I'm rude and offensive.  Sad for work because nothing is being done properly any more, and nobody cares. 

Anyway, these emotions started welling up and I found myself thinking about treating myself to something sweet at home.  You know how that goes:  one piece of chocolate leads to another, leads to eating something else, and then another, and another....  So I stopped that right away.  Didn't even go there, although I was very, very close to doing so.  So I did well for myself, at least.


I'm quite relieved that it's Friday.  I need a break from work for sure.  

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/04/2022:
The older I get the more I understand that it may just be better to let everyone make their own mistakes....pay the price for them.....and hope they learn something in the process. I'm just kind of angry at myself for learning that too late.

Donkey on 02/05/2022:
Yep, I agree 100% with that. Mistakes Girl and I had a talk about that, yesterday. She is learning that lesson early on. It took me about 7 of the 10 years at the firm to learn that lesson.


innerpeace on 02/04/2022:
Oh people at work, just do what you know is right, let others worry about their own stuff. I just about had our office paperless, because that was the goal...now I find one person reverting back to paper and binders...senseless to me...and I feel all the work I did was for nothing, but NOT my program, so there's that! Feel sorry for baby kitty and I hope it can prevail and get better some how. It was Mr. Donkey's fault...for leaving the bench out! Put it back where you got it...as I was always told. i hope your Friday is better.

Donkey on 02/05/2022:
Interesting perspective from the other side. And at first, I had the same criticism of New Gal - all this work you're doing is for nothing, because we don't use it in our procedure.

But then I started thinking that what's wrong with doing things differently that are more progressive (such as going more paperless)? Are we that inflexible? More importantly, am **I** that inflexible and "old" in my thinking that I can't be open to new ways of doing things? So do not think that your work was for nothing.

Baby Kitty -- well, she is home at least, and we are about $700 poorer. Obviously we cannot keep doing this every 1-2 months, so hopefully the laxative and high fiber food will keep her regular, without causing diarrhea all over the place.


bearcountrygg on 02/04/2022:
That is sad about Baby Kitty......hopefully she will come around and feel better.

Donkey on 02/05/2022:
Right now, this morning, as I type, she's curled up and sound asleep on my lap. This is the best. But see my comment to IP above about the cost. Plus, it's not fair to her to put her through the severe constipation and treatment on a repeated basis.

I'm fine with a more expensive food and regular laxative, BUT two things:

We cannot keep having enemas every 1-2 months.

We cannot have diarrhea spatters and droplets all over the house.



Donkey - Thursday Feb 03, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 136.5

What is it that Happy says?  Inch by inch?  That's kind of how I feel like this week has gone.  Checking off really hard "to do" things off of my list. 

  • Make Endo appointment --  CHECK:  April 14th, Husband ended up making the appointment for me.  Chicken butt donkey.
  • Snow storm -  CHECK
  • Husband's PT evaluation - CHECK:  3.5 freakin' hours.  So boring for me, but at least I wasn't at work.
  • Baby Kitty vet appointment - severe constipation again.  Hopefully she can get in today or tomorrow for, once again, multiple enemas.
  • Get furniture from MIL's apartment for Daughter - might happen today. This is up to Husband & Daughter.  Good luck.
     

The PT evaluation was longer than I had thought/hoped, and it was hard on Husband.  I probably should have just dropped him off, but I stayed the whole 3.5 hours.  I'm proud to say though that I only missed 2 hours of steps according to my FitBit.  So on top of everything that he has to deal with, health-wise, the PT told him that his spine is starting to curve to the right.  Great.

I sat in the small lobby and I noticed that the receptionist/medical secretary pretty much sits all day.  Whoa, I thought that *I* had a sedintary, sitting job.  Oh  my goodness, my job is active in comparison to hers.  See, this is what I'm talking about.  Don't complain about what you have because it could be much worse.  My current job isn't perfect, but it's probably better than many other jobs.

Speaking of jobs, I did a good thing yesterday at work, by leading Associate Attorney to a top-producing and well-respected realtor. I did this by bringing something to his attention, saying to him, This is an opportunity, and I think you should take it, if you want it.  He acted on my recommendation immediately!  In fact, so immediately that it surprised me. He thanked me afterwards and called me Wonder Woman.  LOL...  IDK, with all the changes that are happening, and perhaps past behaviors or negative opinions that I've had or voiced ---- I can't change the past, but I'm trying to do kinder things moving forward, to try to make it right.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/03/2022:
Really glad that your appointment was made. Agreed...at least you weren't at work and happy that hubby's appointment showed progress...I'm sure he was glad that you stayed and waited for him........funny how the grass always looks greener on the other side.........Good vibes initiated by you at work!!!!! Good for YOU!!!!

Donkey on 02/04/2022:
Husband's appointment actually showed more deformation of the spine. So not only is it completely fused together but now curving to the right. He will look like Hunchback of Notre Dame in the future. It also worried me that he had so much swelling in his legs after a few hours of light movement. This appointment was for his disability hearing. He has a doctor's appointment coming up in a week or 2.

I'll write a little more about "vibes" at work - I don't like to dwell on it too much - but yes, you get it. I'm trying to generate some good vibes at work! We definitely need more of that, for sure.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2022:
Below is a SOLID GOAL for monthly steps. sounds like a real challenge that you can MASTER!

like you here, my week has been really rocky too. lots of frustration with work people and just having a really hard time with communicating with them / them communicating effectively to me as well. not pleased. i'm only talking about the females. ugh! just UGH! i did try with the older one, but yesterday i think she forgot what was in her drawer; documents in needed; and instead of just scanning them; as i didn't know she had them bc she didn't tell me; i had to open all the emails she forwarded to me; around 45; which she fowarded from this guy who didn't name the emails or the files...so it took so long; 2 HOURS; because i had to keep opening the emails, saving the files named right; deleting emails (and every email looked exactly the same)...horrible. wrote the guy back and copied her explaining the emails need to be with subject date and what he's emailing about....and then she tells me she had those 45 pages in her desk drawer....she should have mentioned that to me yesterday. and she's annoyed at me for saying i had extra work saving them!? she should realize she didn't tell me yesterday!? ugh. and then the younger woman; i do not trust her much anymore.

glad to hear you made your endo appt. glad your snow was powdery; that's what we had last time. now we're getting an ice storm tomorrow into Saturday. yuck!

at my job too; i do sit a TON; but, i can get up to use the bathroom often; drink a lot; so get up to fill water in cup...and i do...i also try to get up here and there, unlike if i had a job, say, as a cashier, where you must stay in the same place for a more determined period of time.

sounds like a good interraction between you and associate attorney.

i am still getting along quite well with the men, except for the angry one; but the women i am sick of. like, totally 100% had enough of both of their personalities. and the older one especially; bc she is just so "butch" when she thinks someone is hurting her; she doesn't speak gently to me; she always thinks i'm trying to bring her down which isn't the case. she comes across harsh and i hate talking to her because she doesn't really know she's doing it and it is the most annoying thing to have to calm myself and not react to her harsh voice / thoughts that i am trying to bring her down. it is so annoying. as for 24yo, i do not trust her much anymore; so just because of that; i am annoyed by her and the little things i see about her that rub me the wrong way everyday.

Donkey on 02/04/2022:
I think between COVID and winter, everyone is just really close to the edge of being completely stressed out. I think even we all here, in spite of having different lifestyles (work, work from home, retired, etc.) are feeling this.

I can relate to the extra work. Oh my, yesterday New Gal inadvertently caused me so much anxiety. I was seriously having a very hard time coping with it. Unfortunately, no one can correct her without being accused of yelling or being mean, so there's nothing I can do.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2022:
are they thinking to give your hubby a back brace?

Donkey on 02/04/2022:
I don't think so, but perhaps. This curvature was a big surprise to both of us. I know that there is a belt that he can order that helps relieve the pull of gravity on his back. I've hesitated to pursue this because he is/was trying to lose weight, so the size of the belt would change depending on his size. The belt isn't meant to be worn all day, though. Just in short spurts for temporary relief.

I am hoping maybe more PT would be prescribed. We'll see.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2022:
are there any cat supplements that soften the stool? i use a tube of a gel that you give a specific amount to your pet; based on weight...i'll show you:

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B06XK2699C/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_title?ie=UTF8&psc=1

Donkey on 02/04/2022:
Yes! She did not like the one that was previously prescribed to her, so we have another one to try, that "cats really love". I remain skeptical about THAT, but it's gotta be better than the previous one, that she couldn't keep down.

Also, we're going to try a prescribed high fiber food for her. I think she's going to have to go back in today, for another flush, though, since she didn't have a BM last night, as the doctor had hoped.



Donkey - Wednesday Feb 02, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 136.5

The snow did not miss us after all.  I've already been out to shovel and it's still snowing.  I'm quite lucky that it's the light fluffy stuff, so *I* am able to shovel it.  Otherwise, I would need help.  A lot of help.  My neighbor who shoveled at 5:30am is out there again shoveling (2 hours later).  I won't have time to shovel again.  Oh how I dread the drive to work.  My car (Prius) does not handle well in snow AT ALL.

Husband will pick me up at work at 10:30am to drive together to his functional capacity test at the physical therapist office.  I will bring a protein shake and a book, just in case the appointment ends up being 3-4 hours long. 

Eating yesterday went OK.  I had a few chocolate covered peanuts - maybe 10?  And a packet of roasted pecans, which were also seasoned and sugared.  However, dinner was on the lighter side.  I feel that it all evened out.

Today was supposed to be leg day, but instead, I used that time to shovel.  I think tomorrow will be leg day.

Oh, I meant to mention that I did go out to the freezer to see if I had any frozen banana slices and I DO -- but I also discovered the sour cream Bundt cake that Husband bought around Christmas (for some unknown reason).  I knew we weren't going to eat it, so I froze it right away.  And now it's there.  Sitting there.  Innocently....

Also, I want to clarify that the 300,000 step goal is for this month.  If I get 10,000 steps in 30 days, I should be able to reach the goal.  The problem is that February has 28 days, so I'll have to hustle a little bit more, but I usually get over 10,000 Garmin steps (not FitBit steps, not fake "biking" steps) a day anyway. Yes, I have to push myself to do so, but if I make that mark, then I should be able to reach this goal.

OK, better get ready for work, to give myself extra driving time... 

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 02/02/2022:
Just put the device in an ankle strap and get fake steps. That’s how I got up to 30K some days on the old bike. Can’t do on the new one though. Still challenged by Level One.

Seems like you have a lot more self control than I do on the nuts. I’d polish them off in a few days. Saw some milk and dark chocolate ones in the aldi ad. Want to get more granola bars and see if they have whole coffee beans. Guy in a fish forum who lives in Germany where Aldi’s was established told me they have fresh beans, cheap. I’m fussy about grinding fresh beans every morning & doubt their beans are as good as mine, but certainly willing to try.

I wouldn’t want to be gone 12 hours a day either. Exhausting!

Donkey on 02/03/2022:
I still wear the FitBit on my ankle for "fake" bike steps. Oh yes, I know I have 2 ankles, so the Garmin could go on the other one, but.... I dunno. For some reason, I feel differently about the Garmin (and how I utilize it).


bearcountrygg on 02/02/2022:
I think the days where you have treats are just fine........I find for myself that those kinds of days can be a problem only if I let it be.......it can go either way....either start a food fit with it...or stop and ask yourself if you are really hungry or if you just want to eat that......( after having some goodies)...and then go on and maybe have slight smaller servings at the next meal ..........Managing food is really not all that difficult.....once I figured out that I can have everything...just not all at once....and not in huge quantities......and if I slip up and let it control me instead of me controlling it....then.....i pass it off as a fun day but the next day I need to eat plenty of healthier choices and get back to making healthier choices........I'm finding that too often on the days when I eat more of the dessert or salty things...I don't feel as good......that gets to be a huge turnoff quickly for me.

Donkey on 02/03/2022:
Hmm, I hadn't thought about the sweets in that way. I guess that's what I'm doing lately, having just a little bit (relatively speaking) rather than a food fit.

I am still struggling with managing food, BUT I do realize and acknowledge that I've improved somewhat in limiting food fits.

I think where the difficulty is, is in balancing the activity level with the food intake. That and stress management.


horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2022:
will come back to reply, recently very distracted off line with all different little things going on like helping someone get connected and a job interview for them.

Donkey on 02/03/2022:
No worries - I completely understand. How exciting to help someone make those connections for a job hunt!



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