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Donkey - Wednesday Dec 19, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 130.0

Just a quick note here to confess my eating "sins" again last night. Ugh, it was horrible. My tongue feels so gross, from eating so much salty foods. I couldn't even run today because I was so bloated and gassy. I did the elliptical, took the resistance level WAY DOWN and it was STILL so difficult. It should not have been; I am better than that, when I'm eating correctly.

So that just proves to me that junk food is just poisoning my body. I've got a game plan in store for tonight, so you may be hearing from me again, if I start to feel anxious, edgy, or munchie. After today's dismal workout failure, I realize that IT STOPS NOW. I'm not going to let myself throw away my successes, my goals, my hard work.

Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/20/2007:
yes, let it rip! lol, get on here if you feel any urge!!!!! its sooooo true....that food poison is a total KILLER. so bad for the body. I think that's why i've been having such trouble at work in the morning...i think my body goes through sugar withdrawal! haha, actually i'm not kidding! I think it takes a long time for our bodies to get adjusted to new ways of eating...and i also believe that just like riding a bike, our bodies NEVER learn to loose the bad habits, they're ingrained. so, we can only work on bettering ourselves and learning to eat better, although we may never loose our memories of the past!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/20/2007:
yes, that was me rambling.

fritters on 12/20/2007:
You sound very determined. Junk food is poisin to our bodies. If I eat very much sugar, my whole body bloats and my hands swell and get hot. It can't be good!! I hope your determination stays with you.

Donkey - Sunday Dec 16, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 130.0

MONDAY EDIT: I don't think it's the stomach flu, but rather from all the crap I ate. I did the elliptical on Sunday, and today I did the elliptical again PLUS ran 3 miles on the treadmill. If I were really sick, I don't think I'd be able to do either of those. So I just have to get this stuff out of my system. Bleah...


I'm either getting sick or I'm hung over from the Neighborhood Christmas party last night. I didn't drink that much but I had all sorts of crap food. Is there such a thing as a food hangover?

Anyway, I think I might be getting sick with the flu because water does not sound appetizing at all (and I usually like to drink water). I went to the gym today and thoughts of being sick to my stomach came to mind several times. Then again, I had a great workout.

I think the real test will be tomorrow, how I feel. I really do not want to be getting sick.

Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 12/17/2007:
Hope you are able to stave off the flu monster! Take care of yourself as best you can and I'll keep my fingers crossed (while saying a prayer, of course)!

jmarie60 on 12/17/2007:
HA... food hangover! I totally believe in that.

Great exercising!!! I'm sure it's what made you feel better!

Take care and I hope you get over your illness.

workingit2 on 12/17/2007:
So happy that you don't have the flu virus!

hollybelle on 12/18/2007:
Sometimes just taking it easy is called for.

fritters on 12/18/2007:
If your body isn't used to all the junk food, I believe that it can make you sick. I hope that is all it is. This is not the time of year to have the flu!

Donkey - Saturday Dec 15, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 130.0

I'm in a dark mood today. We're expecting more snow today. Gosh but I'm sick of winter already. And it's not even officially winter yet. Oh well, at least the snow looks pretty. But I've had enough of it. Today is my rest day from the gym, so I usually walk outside. More snow certainly doesn't help that. Maybe it's written in the Fates that I'm destined to be fat. Bleah...

Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

shadetree on 12/15/2007:
But on a bright note, days start getting longer next week!

fritters on 12/15/2007:
I love the snow, but am sure tired of being cold - can't wait for spring!!! When it is cold, I want to hibernate!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/15/2007:
yuck, snow!!

If I had been put to sleep, I would not be able to drive home...so, i opted just for the numbing. However, I am definitely in some pain now and I realize yoga would be a very, very bad idea! :(

why are you destined to be fat? you reached your goal!!!!!!! Keep at it, nothing at all in life is easy....but you can be successful and be happy about that! :)

Donkey - Friday Dec 14, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 130.0

To quote Moody2: "Well crap!"

Today's weigh-in was *extremely* disappointing. Not only was I unable to maintain the 3lb weight loss, but I gained 2.5lb of it back! I know I should be OK with this weigh-in; it is my goal weight after all. (To clarify, 130 is my goal weight.) However, after having a taste of the 120s, I was trying very hard (eating-wise) to STAY in the 120s. And now here I am back in the 130s again.


Why did I gain this weight? Well, for one thing, I did not run this week. I think running on the treadmill hurts my hip joints. My hips feel so much better after taking a week off. (I did not intentionally take the week off from running; it just worked out that way. I still do 1 hour of the elliptical 6 days a week, and I take a 1 mile walk after dinner, every night.)

But I thought I compensated for this by staying at the low end of my calorie range. Consistently. Maybe TOO consistently? I do not know. Since I wasn't running, I didn't feel as hungry. And I'm actually OK with doing less and eating less, I think. It's just if I do eat/do less, I expect to be rewarded with a lower weigh-in. I don't think I should have to workout 2x a day, 3x a week (I run 3x a week, so 3x a week, I get a double cardio workout) to achieve/maintain weight loss. That just isn't fair!!! Not to mention a ridiculous strain on my time. Not everyone has time in their day to do 2 workouts!

Meedless to say I am EXTREMELY frustrated. I'm not maintaining, I'm not losing, I'm gaining. I should be happy with my numbers but I'm not. And then I have this eating party on Saturday night with the neighbors looming ahead of me. I just feel like it's coming at me from all sides, ya know?

Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

borntocry on 12/14/2007:
Hmph - same here exactly! And man, it is frustrating!! I have worked so hard for the last couple of weeks - running every day (when I am NOT used to that at all!) and eating much less than I would have liked! And same here - not losing, not maintaining, but gaining. It's just not fair and it's not right.

I'm also wondering if I've been too consistent. (You remember, I share your theory about "changing it up" from time to time.) But in that case, I'm set, because in my current frame of mind this weekend is going to be an impending disaster for me, too. Okay, not as much as yours, maybe. (But I have a buffet lunch at work on Monday, which could spell disaster for the whole week to come!) As for your house-to-house party, I suggest you position yourself as far from the food as possible. You'll get trapped into conversation with someone and won't be able to help yourself to the food. At least that's what happened to me once at one of my office parties and it worked wonders. A whole plate of nuts went to waste at that party, and that has never happened before at any other party where I've been present.

I'm sorry to hear about the treadmill affecting your hips. Wish I had some advice for you but I haven't done much treadmill running, and hips aren't my problem area (mine is the knees, and that seems to be worse on concrete). I know my husband had to give up cross-country running because of his hips, but I always assumed that was because he's so tall! I'll ask him if he has any advice for you.

Look, let's take it easy this weekend and not stress out too much about the food. Maybe just try to make healthy choices rather than count calories because the pointlessness of it might just drive us to a weekend-long binge instead. I know I'm in danger of that myself at the moment!

greengirl on 12/14/2007:
Please dont get downhearted Donkey !! You are my hero!!

mylifechanges on 12/14/2007:
i agree with greengirl- i think you are doing GREAT...we all have those times where our weight fluctuates...and although the 120's may have "felt" great- remember that 130 is your goal! If you've reached that, you've already succeeded!!!

Donkey - Thursday Dec 13, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 127.5

How nice it is that we have Moody back now too :-) Scruffy, where are you?

Tomorrow is weigh-in. I don't have much to say tonight, except to say that I did not run at all this week. My mornings seem to be consumed by running errands, which stinks. I could have pushed myself to run this afternoon, but for once I just wanted to rest. I've been wanting to rest during the day all week because AF is here. But suffice it to say that it would not have been a good day to run. Running errands today was bad enough.

So I have not done all that I could before weigh-in, but oh well too bad.

On Saturday, a few of the neighbors are having a house to house party, where all the guests go from house to house and stay for about 30 minutes and sampe the food and drink, and then move on to the next house (houses of those guests participating; no strangers). I received the menu today. There are 6 houses. Oh. My. Gosh. I... I don't know how I"m going to survive this. Fattening foods, alcohol out the ears, chocolate and cheesecake.

I know I can tell you guys this here but I am DREADING this party. I didn't want to do it in the first place, but then I thought I was being anti-social, and being relatively new to the neighborhood and having been invited to OTHER people's parties, I thought we should do this. But I'm quite shy and retiring. I don't really drink liquor unless I'm sick or ready to sleep. (If you want me to be the "life of the party", give me a cup of coffee to pep me up, not booze, which makes me quieter and more sleepy.) So this has disaster written all over it, in more than one way. I know I should be more positive about it. I should. I should hold my head up high and go in there with confidence. Well, my house is the first house, but you know what I mean.


Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

mylifechanges on 12/13/2007:
oh donkey...i hope that the party goes well for you. I too always try to skip social functions out of fear of overdoing it...but then I have to remind myself that sometimes i just have to step it up in my self-control so I don't stop living my life out of fear. But is SO hard!! Please let us know how it goes. :(

fritters on 12/13/2007:
Your house hopping party sounds like a lot of fun - I know that eating will be hard - but it still sounds like fun! Try to enjoy yourself.

hollybelle on 12/14/2007:
i used to hate all the food being around, too. I have found some things that help. I need to remind myself of them, too, this year before our parties start: Plan, plan plan-decide how you want to eat at the party before you go and plan your eating day around it. Eat healthy stuff before you go so you aren't starving when you get there. Once there pick the healthiest stuff available and eat in moderation. As for alcohol - I never feel obligated to drink. I am almost a T totaller-I enjoy a beer once in a while. It rubs some folks the wrong way. I have even been accused of acting "holier than thou" although I never think I act that way at all - but eventually everyone just accepts the fact that I am not a drinker. One of my favorite lines when challenged or put down about this is "I don't mind if you drink, why do you mind if I don't"? I find that simply saying "I'm good with my coffee, (or my whatever), thanks" works with most people, though. Stick to your gun about your food choices and your drinking choices - you have every right be be an individual-it's nobody's business but your own!

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 11, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 127.5

I didn't get in my run today because the kids were home from school because of the ice storm advisories in the area. However, all it did was rain. Hey, if Donkey thinks the roads aren't bad, then trust me, they ain't bad. So I couldn't get my running time in at the gym because I didn't have my running shoes with me when I went in the early morning, and because the kids were home, that meant no second session (treadmill running stinks).

On the other hand, it is supposed to get frigid tonight, so all those wet roads are sure to be nice and icy tomorrow morning. I am figuring another day with the kids home from school. Hopefully though I can make it to the gym in the early morning. With the kids home all day and Husband working 12 hours, I'm gonna need something to save my sanity.

Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2007:
sorry donkey...i also DESPISE that cooped up feeling when forced to stay indoors!!! :) i would suggest getting a couple blockbuster tapes!!! that would occupy you and the kiddies. also, you can put it on for them and go exercise on the treadmill...and they'd know where you are if they need you.

Donkey - Monday Dec 10, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 127.5

I found out some very disappointing news today. I won't start my job training until after the New Year. So that means I won't be bringing in a paycheck until at least February. This bites.

On the other hand, now I have time to keep up with my running program through the holidays.

Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Donkey - Sunday Dec 09, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 127.5


Now I know why yesterday was so hard eating-wise: TOM is here and much to my relief. For ONCE in my life it is cooperating with me in life. On Thursday, I'm starting job training and I cannot be having one of those heavy days where I am in the bathroom every hour. (Yes, even with double protection.)

So of course, today, I was a total *****. I can't believe that Husband is always this annoying, and that I just normally let it slide. My goodness, every little thing he did today just drove me NUTS. Fortunately, he does realize why this happens, but it does not make for a happy day, for either of us. :-(

Well, maybe the cramps won't be so bad...

Regardless, I feel like a total failure today, as far as weight-loss is concerned. I do not know why. I feel like I ate too much, didn't exercise enough, blah blah blah. Maybe I'm just bloated, or maybe I'm now annoyed with myself, now that I'm through harassing Husband (poor man).

Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/10/2007:
hey, life can get messy at times! lol. but you'll always get through it!

i think my head has been on another planet, because i only recently looked at some of your comments on my journal for this past week. first, i do like the pumpkin and yogurt mixture because i add a TON of cinnamon and the overall taste is a sweet one! If I had to choose between oversensitive or undersensitive, i'd say that everything i taste tastes stronger to me. meaning, one bite and i want more more more. I think that my taste buds are pretty strong and everything is just 100% tastier than it should be, lol.

I did have a happy chanukah, although we really didn't celebrate. we didn't light candles or anything together. then again, chanukah is not supposed to be considered one of the biggest jewish holidays. however, i do think it would be nice if my family did a card exchange or something. we're all busy, sorta in our own worlds.

vent all you want. that's what a diary is for. i certainly have been venting lol. i know my entries lately have certainly some degree of insanity. :)

Donkey - Saturday Dec 08, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 127.5

UGH!!!!! I am REALLY STRUGGLING with my hunger today. I don't know if it's PMS or because I didn't work out today or what. I feel like I could eat several jars of peanut butter right now.

Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

workingit2 on 12/08/2007:
what IS it about peanut butter that makes us want to just chow down on it like it is going out of style? I just bought two jars today to tide me over for my recovery...I sure could dive into one right now! Hold on, Donkey!

Soon2BThin on 12/09/2007:
Maybe if you go do some exercise the hungries will go away. Anyway, that's what "they" say. I know, I don't feel like exercising either. So it's up to you. Weigh your options. And if you decide not to exercise, that's okay too. But stay far away from the peanut butter, haha! Have a great week!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/09/2007:
umm, i feel your pain. PMS can definitely do it to you! Try to get outside and exercise! :)

Donkey - Friday Dec 07, 2007
(Calorie Counting & Exercise)
Weight: 127.5

I waited until my Weigh-In Day to make an entry for the beginning of the month. I would say I have been fairly successful in maintaining since my American Thanksgiving Day weigh-in and have managed to lose a little more for "insurance". Actually that was a fluke, but it just goes to show what measuring out your portions can do for you. Portion control is everything for my success (weight-loss speaking ONLY, of course).

I managed to pass a class for certification for my new job. It was a 2 night class and of course, they had coffee and two packs of the most delicious store-bought chocolate cookies. The first was chocolate stuffed Oreos. The second was those vanilla cookies that have a chocolate coating on one side and chocolate fudge stripes on the other side. *sigh* That was really hard to pass up, but I knew that cookies and stressful situation wouldn't mix well together. So I just had coffee. Then I had a healthy snack when I got home (because I hate going to bed hungry and or waking up hungry or even worse -- having dreams about being hungry or eating).

Like BornToCry, I have managed to keep up a base running (on the treadmill) mileage of anywhere from 9-10 miles. I still do the elliptical 6 days a week, and every night now, I take a walk after dinner around the neighborhood, which is anywhere from 0.8-1.2 miles. (I'm sorry I don't know the metric conversion.) This is no small feat with all the cold, snow and ice that Chicago has had lately.

Once I start job training, I'll still be able to maintain my exercise, but once I start working (probably some time in January) it will be harder to get in my exercise time. I concede right now that the first thing to go will be the running. My hour on the elliptical always comes first. I can do weight training at home, which I've already been doing for a week. I much prefer the machines at the gym, but it's good to try something different for a few weeks.

All of this coming at the time when the gym will be PACKED with newbies signing up for the new year (with all the weight loss resolutions). That should last until February at most. Actually, some places, the New Years gym rush only lasts a couple of weeks. Then people give up.

Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

workingit2 on 12/07/2007:
Congratulations on surpassing your goal! Great work!

biscottibody59 on 12/07/2007:
Maybe a certain donkey can ask Santa for a treadmill for Christmas;-) She's certainly been an unnaughty donkey whether she gets it or not--keep on truckin' girl!

greengirl on 12/07/2007:
I am so proud of you!!! Look at you go!!! :o)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/08/2007:
yay!! when they give up, lol, it's better for us! :)

borntocry on 12/08/2007:
So how are those chocolate-stuffed Oreos? Oh, wait, you didn't have them. Good for you!

Thanks for your comment. I have to admit, I've been using quite a high-calorie crust lately. I just discovered this recipe lately and can't get enough of it. But I rolled it really thin for my sweet potato pie, and didn't do a top crust. So it wasn't too bad. In the past, I used a reduced-fat crust - about a quarter cup butter for a cup of flour. I also sometimes use a biscuit crust. Those have less fat, but then they're usually thicker. I'm also going to try what looks like a really great relatively healthy crust recipe here:


And thanks for your advice about cutting down on my running to shock my metabolism into dropping a few pounds. I totally believe that myself - that's why I used to keep nagging Runner to quit (or cut down on) running for a bit. But having said that, I must sheepishly confess that I'm not planning to do that myself at the moment. The reason being that I'm actually feeling quite motivated again right now, and that never lasts long for me. Also, who knows for how much longer the weather will hold out here? If it starts snowing and the roads ice over, I'll be forced to cut back on my mileage (or join a gym!).

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