I'm posting through my phone, which I do not like doing.
Not saying who, but 2 people at work have decided that we're having a breakfast bash on Thursday to celebrate the boss' birthday. I HATE casseroles, and 2 certain coworkers are bringing breakfast casseroles. I was assigned meat. So I will be bringing sausage links.
As you may recall, my stepfather passed away in January after a long battle with liver cancer. Saturday, his brother died... after a long battle with esophageal cancer. So my mom, brother, and (half) sister are coming to Illinois for the service on Saturday.
So this has been on my mind...
I had planned to try some keto baking this weekend. Now that probably won't happen. Also, no evening bike ride on Friday, and will be eating out Friday night with mom. No hopes for a satisfactory weigh-in on Saturday.
I had an epiphany that I really want to focus more of my life on my health and happiness.
Progress as of today: 60.5 lbs lost so far, only -10.5 lbs to go!
I wasn't going to write an entry because today is not a weigh-in day, and I didn't want this weight to be my mark on the progress chart for October, since this number is really for September. But then I thought, this number ain't so bad. This week's weigh-in could be - and probably will be - higher.
I was so cold at work today. I realize that I need to adjust my meals and snacks from cold foods, i.e. raw (salad, raw vegetables, fruit) to something that can be heated up, so that it warms me up.
I will also need to add an extra layer of under clothing, to help with warmth.
Ate too much bacon at dinner, feeling out of sorts afterwards.
Going to bed soon. Need sleep.
Progress as of today: 60.5 lbs lost so far, only -10.5 lbs to go!
it helps to keep your neck warm with a scarf.
Thank you for your comments - I replied as well. :-) I meant to update my entry last night, with a recap, but ended up heading upstairs for the evening, and never got back on the laptop to update.
I has been a very productive, satisfying weekend for me. I accomplished picking up, breaking down, and bagging all of the small to medium willow branches that fell down last week during the big storm. So all that is left are big branches that have to be chopped up with an axe. It loooks like drizzle for most of the day, on and off, so that might not happen. It was very satisfying to see the lawn bags fill up and pile up. I have 6 bags and 1 can going out to the curb for yard waste pick-up on Tuesday.
Got my laundry washed, and now it's ready to be folded while I watch morning TV.
Had a nice date with my husband at the hardware store in the morning, and then another "date" at Wal-Mart in the late afternoon to do a little necessary shopping. Ended up buying a "take-and-bake" fresh pizza, and had that for dinner. It was very good; I had a big salad with my dinner, too. Funny when I do have carbs (pizza crust, in this case), I don't feel that craving for dessert to "top off" the meal.
It is cold, cloudy, and drizzly here today, so probably not doing too much outside today. My son is home; my daughter has to work this afternoon, so she won't be home for dinner. Tacos is the plan.
Tomorrow, my husband is meeting up with his mom (who is blind and deaf, and lives in assisted living) and his brother to discuss what to do with mom. Mom asked to live with her son (BIL, not my husband), which he doesn't want, even though he lives in a 4-bedroom house alone. I do not think that she can come here, and even if she could, she would not be happy here. I believe that my brother-in-law will ask my husband to do more, after all - husband is home all day doing nothing, right? They don't seem to understand that my husband is SICK and in constant PAIN, and can hardly take care of himself, much less his needy mother. He cannot drive, safely, alone any more -- brother didn't know that.
Mom is very self-centered and very upset that her husband left her (died), so now she needs to take care of herself, and she doesn't want to. I get that, I've been there - but that's not how life works. All those years when dad was around, she never learned how to be self-sufficient, and so now that he's passed, she's bitter, lonely, and helpless. My BIL has always been the favorite son, and neither parent did much of anything with my husband, with our family, with our children - EVER. And I think she wants someone who will step in and entertain her, drive her around, take her out, do things with her, etc.
She really cannot live alone, so assisted living is probably right for her, and she might be able to move into an apartment or condo, and have a homecare person come by for a few hours a day. She would probably need to get one of those "Life Alert" systems, though, for nighttime. I don't know. I don't think that would make her happy either.
I apologize if I sound ungrateful, which I'm not, but that family dynamic is so messed up. It's not my place to say who should do what to any of them, but I WILL stand up for my husband and not allow him to be railroaded or dumped on. I think my daughter said it best: We here are all working to help (my husband) with his limitations. Taking care of another person - who never showed us much of anything - would just not work, on many levels (ours and hers).
So we'll see how it goes.
AFTERNOON EDIT: My step-father's brother passed away last night. Like my step-father, he had cancer. I will attend any services if there are any and if someone will tell me what, when, and where.
Progress as of today: 60.5 lbs lost so far, only -10.5 lbs to go!
And I do feel bad. I mean, how awful is it that your kids don't want to take care of you when you're old. But she really needs to be as self-sufficient as she possibly can be -- and she CAN be more independent. I think a lot of it is -- and has been -- her choice not to be so.
Also, you have a good idea to fold laundry while watching TV...what a pleasant way to do a routine task. I'm not joking when i thought it was a very nice idea! Most of my laundry, like 90%, i hang, so i fold only really t shirts and things i wear around the house (that's how i get outta folding!) haha...otherwise, i'd take up the TV idea.
I totally am with you with the carbs in meal vs craving after the meal. I am same exact way as you. if i satisfy my carb needs in the meal, far less cravings after. same! Taco dinner can be hugely healthy. Bulking up on veggies, good meat, some grains but you can choose how much of the tortilla / shells you want. one taco shell is surprisingly low cal if you look at the packages i was impressed when i checked many years ago! i think it said 60 cal per shell! So, i'd have 2-3 of them if that were a dinner for me!
Let me add this comment, before it gets deleted :)....
Wow. your daughter said it quite perfectly i would say.
if she is in assisted living now, can she afford to stay there? i would think that it's the perfect scenario for her.
Good weigh-in. I guess I wasn't as stressed out as I thought I was. OR perhaps everything after 127.5 will be hard-earned << That's probably a more accurate assessment.
So I actually got an apology from Male Co-Worker -- in an email, but I'll accept that. He seems to have felt bad about this past week, and I told him that I understood. We all have our days/weeks that are difficult. I did tell him I would try harder to keep lines of communication open; I do believe that this last incident was completely due to miscommunication in our office (mostly because he's been so unapproachable that I didn't want anything to do or say with him).
Anyway, I'm not thinking about work any more this weekend.
I have a date with my husband to go to the hardware store. They remodeled recently and are having a "grand re-opening" with some good sales. I try to support the smaller businesses when I can, and if they're having a sale, well, sign me up! (Bird seed, lawn bags, duplicate key service...)
We had a bad storm earlier this week, which knocked down several branches - a few of them quite large (5 inches in diameter, 15 feet long), so I will try to spend some time working on those, if the mosquitos will let me.
I have other misc. shopping to do for the week. And of course, the neverending laundry...
We're starting a new month in a couple of days, and I've mentioned here a couple/few times here that I have the urge to change things up or set new goals for myself. However, I'm not yet inspired to make any specific changes, right now. Maybe that's a goal unto itself. We're visiting my mom in Vegas for 3 days, so that will be a much welcomed change/break.
Getting to and staying at a Maintenance Mentality is not as easy as one might think...
Progress as of today: 60.5 lbs lost so far, only -10.5 lbs to go!
When I visit her, I'm going to ask my mom about her maintenance journey, how she managed to step away from the scale.
wow! huge branches indeed, maybe you can get some help from son...either way, good exercise! i have decided to totally be lazy with laundry and wait till my day off, monday, to do it. lately, with my schedule of not even attempting gym during the week anymore since i have my equipment ready and at my apt, it seems gym looks more and more inconvenient (but it is a slightly better / longer workout there due to even more equipment)...but thank gosh for the home workout this year!
anyways tho, my point, i kicked laundry to the curb just to know that there's one key thing to do today...and to alleviate stressing when i'll go..i can go anytime now that laundry is not being done (lol, unless i have time early in the evening..)..a friend female is coming to sleep over before a long day trip to Philly tomorrow...hence my strategy to keep today as a major exercise day with everything else on the backburner!...ok too much...let me continue to comment on your entry relating back to you! :) :) :) ....
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Vegas for 3 days is a nice, short trip. try not to overdo there. get out and enjoy the weather. and take things with a grain of salt - vacation mode.
also, about changing things up for a new month, changes can be small. changes can also just be to continue to brainstorm and keep in mind that you want changes...it took me forever to work out at home...and i had to think about those changes for a long time to do so. just to get all equipment in order and ordered and delivered with back and forth returns till i had it right, it took me all of September!
so changes take time...remember this.
a month is a long time actually...
changes do not have to happen even each month. you just started with your weights again right?
also, i had a goal of cardio increase for September. i reached that goal i'd say 75%...like just passing on a test.
i did cardio, but it wasn't always running. maybe this is enough to get me thru the Winter if i progresss in the same manner each month. see!? you just helped me think of my cardio goal - knowing i will have limits on my energy and with daylight hours decreasing...
it's important goals are attainable....this is something i have learned big time during the last 5 years...attainable without hurting oneself in the process... :)
I completely agree with you about goals being attainable. You know, I might not have any for October. Kind of what Gains was saying a week or 2 ago, not really inspired but just doing the same ol' same ol'.
It was a learning lesson for me: we have complete different styles of parking (where to park, how to park), bagging (bringing your own versus getting plastic), checking out (self-checkout versus cashier), etc.
I kept telling him (in a joking way) that he was impossible, and he kept saying, I'm never shopping with you again, and then after we're in the car, he says, "I guess that wasn't too bad" - ROFL!!
Yesterday, work was awful. I cannot work productively with Male Coworker because I'm afraid to go anywhere near his desk. So I make changes in the computer but not on the physical file, and if it's not on the file, Male doesn't look any further.
I felt very bad and anxious all night about yesterday's incident, but this morning, I realized that this is Fate telling me to get up off my butt, and get some difficult administrative things done, which I've been putting off - because they are painful to face and deal with - to clean up and sharpen my portfolio, so that I can feel that I would have the freedom to look for other employment, and not feel that nobody else would ever hire me, so I'm stuck at this job forever, because I am not good enough for anything else.
I've learned that if I ignore these hints from Fate, they end up happening anyway, but not in a good way. There is something to be said about the doctrine of pre-destinstion.
Did alright with food and exercise yesterday. Daughter finished Oreo dessert Wednesday night. THANK YOU!!!
Oh I forgot the most important thing that happened at work yesterday: Queen Bee announced that she's going on another diet! Yet another diet - this one is keto for 2-3 months. (What??)
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
you always do good work so i don't know if you should leave or considering leaving your job...you seem to always leave due to politics...but you always do good work...
LOL...2-3 months keto before Christmas...she'll be even fatter by January 2019...once she goes off keto and into the holidays.
You're absolutely right that I tend to leave jobs due to emotional reasons, like stress, long commute, conflicts, rather than the work itself, although my last move was because I knew I really wanted to do real estate and contracts, and not litigation. I'm just not cut out for the agony of litigation.
Still, I'd like to have options for myself, maybe not for now, but in the future - say, for example, if we move to Las Vegas, where real estate procedure is completely different. And I think cleaning up these "administrative" things will help me make a transition if/when necessary.
Accessing DD through my phone, so my access is limited as far as convenience in commenting on other entries. Please know that I'm reading all updates and cheering you all on.
I had to log in though to tell you that the hostile work environment is really helping me stick to better eating. Today, Queen Bee & Male Coworker (who is not talking to me this week) took the girl who makes a million mistakes in every file she touches out to Panda Express for lunch. Didn't mention it, just slammed the door on the way out. Saved a bunch of calories for myself.
Then, we had cheesecake for Associate Attorney who had a birthday today. Male Coworker and Queen Bee deliberately did not attend, out of animosity. Had a few bites of cheesecake, excused myself, and threw away the rest. So rude of them... I'm so sick of this toxic work environment that has come about. The other lady who was excluded said, "I've never worked in a place where everyone was so angry."
Well, anger is great for weight loss. That's all I can say.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
Good job on weathering the storm without turning to food for "comfort".
also, nice job on taking a taste of the cheesecake...best way to keep calories low is to allow for tastes! if you have it with coffee, your stomach will be satisfied too...or water :)
nice job!
Lost power at home right before I got home, so dinner was salad and cold cuts again. Drama is high at work again, so it's been easier to stick to lower calories. I was excluded from an office cookout, because the chef isn't talking to me this week. Whatever.
Right now, though, I feel like asking husband if he would split the last of Oreo ice cream dish that's still out in the freezer. It's probably melting, you know, and should be eaten.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
good idea to split it.
This week's focus is on food and intake. Last night, as I was getting my jammies on, I felt, strongly, that I ate too much over the weekend. It was a munchie weekend.
So my focus is on portions and making the most optimal nutritional choices.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
I realize that I am sabotaging my own romantic life by eating foods (or too much of a food) that makes my stomach feel bloated, heavy, and upset. I will be tossing the remainder of the oreo ice cream dessert. There are healthier treat options that I can choose for myself.
MIDDAY EDIT: I'm getting kind of ticked off: when I make entries or comments at DD, and I autocorrect spelling errors, the correction doesn't go through when I submit. I'm rather honked off by this, so please know that if I type something very unusual as a comment or entry, it's my **** phone.
I've been fighting the munchies today. Took a brief afternoon walk with my daughter around the neighborhood to scope out 2 more houses that just came on the market this weekend. I told my husband yesterday that I'm kind of sad that it's not us moving, but what I am really feeling is the urge for something to look forward to, rather than the same old hum-drum. I think the change in season has something to do with this hum-drum too. And munching certainly won't help fix this feeling either.
I'm done with cardio today, and my plan is to pick up the dumbbells for something brief with the upper body - biceps and shoulders probably.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
All i know is one thing: when you are hungry, try to make it a healthy meal. Try not to eat ice cream like for a meal. but also on the same thinking, i have learned that if i want a snack or treat, to eat it INSTEAD of a meal or as a snack, but not after a meal...because the calroies just add up to too much in one sitting...for me, it's best to separate the two if you know what i mean?
I thought for sure I'd have bathroom problems this morning, but I didn't.
I learned a LOT with this lesson, believe me.
I FINALLY DID IT: reached the 60 pound weight-loss mark! Even if it was just for a day, an hour, a minute -- a "snapshot in time" - I did it! I really think that what did it was having a few meals that were meatless, i.e. vegetables. Fats are OK: salad dressing, cheese (as a condiment), butter.
I'm still undecided on what changes to make to my exercise routine for autumn/October. I had considered doing a Fall routine/challenge for myself, but missed Day 1. I know it's not too late to get started -- ANY DAY can be Day 1 -- but I have nothing in mind.
As I commented in a few entries this morning, cooler weather has settled in. Mentally, I need to make the switch to my cooler weather wardrobe, which means wearing clothes that actually fit me properly, rather than loose-fitting bottoms.
In addition to the never-ending laundry, I will go to the library today. I just finished the book I was reading last night. I was thinking, "Well, what will I read next?" but checked into my email this morning and saw that the library has my next "hold" book in, so I will go pick that up and get started.
I just realized that although I'm contemplating changes in my routine - maybe my menus, too, to incorporate more vegetable-centered meals - the biggest challenge ahead for me is going to be mostly mental: motivation, determination, follow-through, etc.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
i love your other thoughts regarding goals! 100% on the same path as you and supporting you.
It can take time to make changes and think what they need to be?
Like my home workout, it's def starting to take speed now. I did it once on Friday night even being home late and starting ultra late, i was able to be here and home when i was done...it was so much simpler than going out to work out.
I may be working out at home all this week until Monday, actually. Just because it's so convenient and makes it easier to fit cardio in, which i'm doing...it's staying at the same level, so like you, i will have to keep working on it!
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PS my husband's meeting with his brother and mother was okay. She wants to move to a different facility, so BIL is reviewing her contract to see what she needs to do to move out.
Horn_of_plenty on 10/02/2018:
i am so sorry to hear of the passing of your stepfather's brother! it's so terrible how cancer seems to run rapid along the genetic / family lines. i have been witnessing this myself on facebook in certain families. it is so sad!
you can still have a good weigh-in. when you go out to eat, you can order healthy things that still taste good as long as you go somewhere that has that option.
i thought those keto brownies looked mad awesome too....
is your family coming in on friday or saturday?
are you sure you cannot do a bike ride Friday?
My mom is coming in on Thursday. I have not yet heard about my brother or sister.
On Friday, I will have my morning leisurely bike ride while I watch the news, but I also like/need to unwind at the end of the day with another ride, to work out the stress. So it is not as though I won't have ANY exercise. Maybe I can get in a longer walk at lunchtime...
It's all about the stress management, lately.
bearcountrygg on 10/02/2018:
I’m glad that your mother in law has a good plan. I’m also glad to hear that you are focusing on health and happiness