I lost the chocolate war today. But I feel only comfortably full and not stuffed. This may be hormonal or in response to getting sick again, possibly. Well... hopefully I'll have lots of energy for tomorrow.
Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!
I wanted to mention a couple of positive things that happened yesterday...
I felt really good yesterday and had little problem waking up & getting started on my morning workout. I finished cardio early, so I decided to do a little upper body weight training instead! Usually I reserve weight training for the evening, but it felt so good to feel healthy again, I could not resist.
Heard from my/our son yesterday! He did not test yesterday because his dorm had to be evacuated due to the really bad weather in Texas, so he has a whole extra week to keep training to pass the push-up test! However, he said that he was able to do 34 push-ups earlier in the week, so now he is confident that he can pass the test. So he has mastered the mental part of the challenge, because once you know you can do it, it becomes easier to do it again. We're really hopeful for next week's testing.
Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!
I am so happy to hear you are doing better. i think the reason my definition in my shoulders is bigger now is due to planks...these are a really good exercise to hold as long as you can for 3 rounds of them. They are one of the new exercises i do. now you got all your exercise in...that's good too!
I've been dealing with an issue the past few days -- maybe even since Sunday...
OK, so I happen to have a large box -- like 50 pieces? -- of Frango chocolates from Marshall Fields. For those of you who do not know, I would say they are like the Fannie Mae chocolate mint squares -- meltaways? I've had this box for about year. I had other chocolates to finish first, and then had other goals to achieve, so the box remains unopened.
However, Monday I had an urge so strong to open the box after dinner and eat as much of the chocolate as I could to the point of being full and sick to my stomach. Stopped myself by having a cup of decaf with chocolate creamer and a sweet-n-low packet.
Had the same thought on yesterday, instead had a chunk of raw cacao, which was probably more calories than one Frango, but wasn't ready to open the box.
So here I am tonight, wanting to open the box. I think that if I did, I could have only one. But then I'd want a square every night --- and that would be OK too. My mom --- who has lost almost 100 pounds of weight and kept it off for several years --- said that this is what she does to satisfy her need for a sweet.
I just do not like that feeling like I want to eat the whole box. That feeling is not specific to the box of chocolate. I have had those feelings with cartons of ice cream... cans of nuts... Funny how I never have that feeling with a bag of carrots, LOL.
Having talked about this, I think I will wait to open the box another day.
Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!
Just a quick log in right now.... Today was the first day I felt healthy -- except for the crunchy cough I have, you'd never guess I had been sick. I skipped my lunch walk yesterday and shortened it today. Dear Lord, we just need some warmer weather here in Illinois to show us it's really Spring...
Snow expected over the weekend. *sigh*
Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!
A "successful" weigh-in today, but that's what being sick with a loss of appetite gets me. I'm thinking rather than stirring up drama (with myself) with weigh-ins, what I need are self-affirmations that this is all just part of a healthy maintenance program. Plus or minus a few pounds, depending on what life brings. As this progresses, then I can start weening myself off of the scale, because I know that my body will take care of the numbers, as long as I take care of my body.
Needless to say, though, this journey has had a lot of ups and downs, not only on the scale, but also emotionally.
It's deceivingly beautiful here today. Beautiful blue sky and bright sun... but still very chilly outside. So for the most part, I plan to stay indoors, except I'm tickled pink that a library book I've been waiting for has come in. Perfect timing since I just returned what I had checked out yesterday, and was wondering what to do next.
So I have an errand to run, which is great. As you know, I need tasks to do to keep myself active. So why can I do this with an activity like going to the library, but when it comes to things that would help us move, e.g. organize my closet, I just can't get myself to do these sorts of chores?
Breakfast: 2 coffee w/creamer, 2 slices of diet bread toast w/Nutella.
2nd Breakfast: 1/2 cup whole milk vanilla Greek yogurt. Yes, I am a hobbit.
Lunch: Salad w/ranch dressing, more delicious leftover oregano chicken. Cantalope melon -- I'd say 1.5 cups at the most.
2nd Snack: raw vegetables with 2TBSP dressing of some sort. And then add a small piece of raw cacao to that.
Dinner: homemade nachos (tortilla chips, seasoned ground beef, black beans, corn, Salsa, cheddar cheese) , 1 large apple.
Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!
Going out to the library is possibly easier to do because it's a change of scenery. The same walls and setting can make it harder to do tasks... e.g is I think why people sometimes struggle when they're working from home. When I want to get stuff done at home, I like to put music on, and the music reminds me that I am doing a specific task. Music without lyrics is what I find most helpful, otherwise I'm pausing to listen to the words. I don't know if that's something that could work for you. Also setting a schedule and having a time-frame to complete the task?
i think you are doing great. Maintenance is a beast of itself yes. I'm dealing with it too...but it's better than having a big weightloss to have to deal with, surely. It's better waking up and being around the weight you'd like to be.
i also struggle with home tasks. I'm worse than you...i hire a cleaning service every month or 2. (once a month or once every couple months) just to make sure that everything is cleaned up here every so often...i debate getting rid of the service and doing it myself but it seems so daunting that i keep making appts with them....although i'd be fitter and get exercise cleaning, for some reason, i keep putting it off and leaving it to a service whom i pay $100 plus a $30 tip every 4-8 weeks....
keep on. now you know how to keep on with healthier eating and also you know how to include exercise in your routine. this is most what you need...
I forgot to weigh in today. I woke up and felt well enough to exercise on my stationary bike (light setting, just to get muscles moving), so my "auto-pilot" kicked in, got dressed, got my water & coffee and went downstairs. Hopped on the bike and realized - OOPS! Oh well, that's OK. I think it might be better for me not to weigh in for a while... of course, I won't take my own advice. I'll try to remember tomorrow.
So I woke up with more energy, less achy, and my sense of taste seems to be coming back, which is great, because I've missed wanting vegetables. After my session with the bike, though, I feel a little tired, so I'm going to rest a little bit before I start my errands for the day.
Still not biting my nails. Looking to go to Goodwill and look for a pair of pajama bottoms to match the new, free T-shirt I got for that stupid work party I went to a few weeks ago. Also might look into getting some slacks that actually fit me, if I can find a size that fits. I'm a shortie at 5'3" (more like 5'2") but "Petite" sizes are cut not only shorter but smaller. Well, that satisfies the short part but I'm still a larger frame. So I'm a size larger in "petitie", which doesn't feel good seeing on a size tag. Mind games!
I realize that with my entries this past week, I need to work on self-acceptance. How does one do this? How does one find his/her center, focus, Zen?
EVENING EDIT: Did not do any clothes shopping, not enough energy. Not sure how I feel about tracking food. Downloaded 2 apps, one for guided meditation and one for yoga, but I just remembered I can find really good yoga on YouTube...
Food:
B 2 slices of diet toast w/Nutella, 1 cup of coffee with half and half
L: 1 cup "oregano chicken", large sweet potato w butter (2 tbsp?) & paprika.S: 1/2 cup whole milk Greek Greek (vanilla ), 2 cups coffee w half and half, approx. 20 as almonds.
D: pot roast (~3 oz.), boiled potatoes ~1/2 cup, some cooked carrots and onions, 2 servings of green salad w Italian dressing
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
When I got my Fitbit, I wanted one with a HR monitor for accurate calorie output, but I'm not sure that I really use it like I thought I would... Does that make sense?
So expensive!!!! https://www.rei.com/product/863020/cycleops-fluid2-bike-trainer
I noticed with you, always, that you certainly DO set high expectations for yourself which motivates all of us here! for sure.
but if you can at least stick to ONE just one of your expectations, you should definitely be happy with yourself. keep setting all expectations, and i guess realize that it's a give and take - time and energy-wise - and choose what you are ok with skipping or missing to do something else. or shorten some of the length of other things. i also want to sometimes do more than i have time for...
i'm glad you are using your bike.
that's what i should have done, instead of buying two pairs.
good news tho is that i know own black pants, to wear to a funeral, i hope they fit...otherwise, i'll have to wear my leggings. i also have a nice blazer that i'm glad i kept. :) the suit jacket. comes in handy to have at least a couple things that fit right for the occasion you have to wear them. but truthfully, you don't need more than 1 or 2 - that FIT - not too big or small...i'm now talking to myself!
I would like to thank Happy-1 on the suggestion of changing my DD name to Cougar Booty Babe. LOL!!
Still very tired, but no fever and now just mostly coughing and tired. I can live with that. I'm going to bed after I write this and rest until I fall asleep.
Ate more today than I did yesterday: slice of bread w/Nutella, protein shake, scrambled eggs & 1 baked potato, then sweet potato & oregano chicken for dinner, with fresh fruit. My sense of taste is starting to come back too.
Tomorrow's weigh-in won't be reflective of my normal weight, but sticking to my routine. I've kept up with the push-ups. Wore my rings to work today, but only worked 9a-3p instead of until 5p. I wanted to leave at lunchtime to go home and rest, but the workload just wouldn't allow it.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
Turns out I'm sick... Very difficulty night from the minute I turned off the light, but woke up with a fever and aching muscles.
Had to go to work because there were deadlines that had to be met or extended. Plus we have a client who is closing tomorrow, so I had to get her file all set for the attorney.
Got to work and found out my boss has the flu, so I pretty much know how I got sick. Praying this isn't flu because I do not have insurance at the minute.
So today was a wash, but last night, I realized that if I want to be the person I strive to be, I'm going to have to be tougher than this. Real change takes hard work and self- discipline.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
i hope you feel much better soon though. I had no idea you didn't have health insurance. That is something i am very lucky to have, being in the union here in NYC, most if not all unions (teachers/professors,my electrical union, other trade unions, college teaching unions, healthcare workers unions) generally provide health insurance. i am so sorry! keep on and stay tough. i know outside the NYC area and other big cities, health insurance is a beast in its own outside the unions.
As it turned out, my boss offered to cover me for medical only if I would agree to sign up for only myself and if I would sign up for the HMO. It kicks in on April 1st.
I think I am getting sick. I am hoping this right now is as bad as I get. I could live with that. This started with a dry cough and then evolved into some sneezing, and now I have a headache and fatigue. The cough has not left. Fortunately, it's only occassional, but I can feel it in my chest and throat, which is how I know it's something, rather than nothing.
Didn't notice until now that I have some muscle soreness in my arms from last night's weights. It was a short workout, did what I wanted to do. I don't know about doing push-ups tonight... I'll try.
Speaking of push-ups, today was a re-test day for my son and he still did not pass. He has to have perfect form or they do not count, and some of them get a little sloppy at the end of a minute. *sigh* He told my husband that he is working out with a few friends now that are in his same exact position and he has access to weights. So he has another week to train. Having him pass will be such a relief...
In spite of this stress, I have not chewed on my fingernails (yet). I wore rings today too, but I took them off before typing this up. I might give it another try, but you know... I think I'm just not a ring person. Also, I don't think I'm a fancy fingernail person either. This conflict -- between who I want to be versus what I really am -- mirrors how I am about my weight. Oh how I wish I had thin legs. Instead I have these thick legs.... Took a look last night... I don't know if surgery (lipo) would work, even. They are shaped a certain way that I don't like. What I really wish is that this didn't bother me and dominate my thoughts & life so much.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
As for your legs, i wish i also had the "skinny legs." I think i probably would have them if i was in shape in my lower body.
The reason you think about your legs and weight etc is it's a habit that you comfortably go back to thinking about to take your mind off something else. OR, at least this is MY case.
Everyone has things they want to change, but you will have to accept yourself for what you are as long as you are proactive and try your best to make yourself your best...
Weighed in this First Day of Spring at 133.0...
OMG work was so busy today. It was like I left for 4 days and the real estate market exploded. My co-worker did a really nice job of maintaining my files while I was gone. I'd like to get her a gift. I was thinking a gas card, maybe? Money is very tight for her, so I want to get her something that would help her out too. Any ideas?
My plan for spring is to start strength training again. Starting slow, with 2 sets of 3 exercises: shoulders, triceps, biceps. Ugh, but I like to train my chest and back too.... But then my sessions will take too long. And push-ups, if I can remember to do them.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
If she drinks coffee and buys it outside, Dunkin Donuts card? Remember something - she was just doing her job...it's not mandatory to compensate her further...you can bring in a coffee for her, also. You can buy her lunch :)
Good plans for Spring - weight training really shapes up a body nicely! starting with a few exercises is enough - you dont have to bog yourself down with too many exercises... My plans are cardio :)
Today i a snow day...even my gym closed...but going into work to prob come home early!
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Just gone done watching some Youtube videos where they're comparing different candies / chocolates. Would really like to devour a couple bags myself.....
graindart on 03/29/2018:
I just read your other entry from yesterday, so now I know about your big chocolate box. If it were me, I'd throw the rest in the garbage can and take it out to the dumpster. But that's because once I get started, I don't stop until it's gone. If I were able to stop halfway through, I'd need to throw the rest away or else I'd finish it later that night or the next day.
I don't like being wasteful and throwing stuff away, but I know my own weaknesses and throwing it away would be the lesser of the evils for me.
Fortunately (?), it wasn't the box of chocolate... It started in the afternoon with the office candy dish with 2 dark chocolates, and ended with an entire thick bar of "cacao & coffee" dark chocolate bar which had 475 calories. I had my next treat in line, but then my husband woke up, so I spent time with him instead.
horn_of_plenty on 03/30/2018:
Keep on, Jdonk! I'm glad it wasn't totally overdone. be proud!
bearcountrygg on 03/30/2018:
It called you, you answered and satisfied that chocolate urge....it's ok!