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Donkey - Sunday Mar 04, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.5

This weekend has been kind of low-key because the balance in the checking account is low, so no spending errands for me this weekend.  That's okay - and we'll be ok once my deposit clears on Monday. 

I went for a walk yesterday afternoon, to check out if there are any houses in my neighborhood for sale.  This will help drive up the property value (possibly) for my house if/when we sell -- now slated for probably next year, once we see what Daughter does with her next step in life.  I was thinking of Maria7's post about springtime coming.  Sure enough - saw 2 robins and trees with buds on them!  The neighborhood I work in must have slow trees because they do not show much sign of budding anytime soon.  But the trees out here are just waiting for a little more sunlight, a little warmer temperatures... 

Felt I did well with eating and exercising.  It was good to start walking outside again.  And I'm SO proud of myself for not letting agorophobia get the better of me and keep me inside until May, which is how it has worked the past 2 years.  I feel braver getting out there, and who cares what the neighbors think of me.  (This has been a HUGE issue to overcome since 2009.)  This morning, though, I am feeling a little stiffness or something in my back and right hip.  Not sure if it was the walking or what.

No plans today again, other than to either walk outside or maybe pick up branches that have blown down in the backyard.  Another "no spending" day, and I'm ok with that.


AFTERNOON EDIT:  Perhaps I spoke too soon because we have snow forecasted as a possibility for Monday through Wednesday, with chances for rain increasing as we get towards Wednesday.  Oh well, it's Chicago, where you're wearing your winter coat one day and shorts the next.

I tried the new exercise bike this afternoon, after programming everyone's profile into the console!  Super proud of me for taking the initiative in this, as in the past, I would ask a million times for my husband to do this.  See, I'm tech savvy 

Cons:

  • I'm too short so the console blocks the TV screen - LOL!  I can only see the top 1/3 of the screen unless I lean forward and hold on to the handlebars.
  • Not good for watching TV shows where I need to pay attention to the screen action.
  • The arc in the back rubs my lower spine very badly, so I fixed this by putting a small pillow.  

Pros:

  • Super quiet - HUGE PLUS
  • Great resistance - I did the Ride in the Park program for 30 minutes and my leg muscles are buzzing.
  • Fun programs to try! 
  • I do not have to change the resistance manually as I do with the old bike.
  • Read-outs (calories, miles) are probably more accurate, since my age and weight are programmed into my profile.  

 

Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/04/2018:
I too am timid about going outside.....I have a tendency to stick close...not let the house get out of sight....( of course we have bear...so...LOL)....but...I do notice it is getting worse with age...I love hearing that you are going for walks....gives me hope that I will be doing the same soon...we still have icy roads..so I will wait a bit....but I am eyeing the metal table over by the barn that needs to be sanded and painted and brought up on the deck..along with it's chairs..I tried to ignore it last year ( and was successful)...but no more..I'm getting it done this spring...


trishpiglet3 on 03/04/2018:
You're doing amazing. :)

I had agoraphobia in my teens and, though I don't have your direct experience of being you, I know some of how horrible and limiting it can be. More power to you!

We had snow here (London UK) until yesterday but Spring is finally springing... or at least it's stopped snowing


bearcountrygg on 03/04/2018:
Is it a recumbent bike? It sounds like it will be a great addition to your workout......The ride in the park sounds like fun....it will keep the time you spend on it a lot more interesting.

Donkey on 03/04/2018:
Yes, it is! Too many back issues with me to have an upright bike unless I ride my real bike outside.


Maria7 on 03/04/2018:
That is wonderful that you are getting some outside walking in...good fresh air and get to see what's going on around you. Even tho you are expecting snow, it won't be long that spring will be here (actually later this month, smile!). We had temp of 33F this morning here in SC. Happy for you about your bike. It sounds really wonderful. :-)


horn_of_plenty on 03/05/2018:
you can maybe raise up your tv on books or another type of platform so you can see it again...

proud of you also for programming the bike :)

proud of you also for getting outside.

i have also started getting outside already to start the jog / walk program of mine up again.

keep active as you are. the purchase of the bike was def worthwhile.

i did the opposite of you - i realized i didn't own any black dress pants that fit and ended up going to a store for them...and picked up a few nice shirts to wear under cardigans, as well as a black blazer to go with the dress pants in case i ever need to wear a "full suit" for anything and it's in my size (hadn't had one full suit in my size since well over 10 years ago) and bought a jacket that was 50% off bc mine is a size too big and doesn't look nice on me so i switched this one for my old one which now needs to be hung up in the closet and not for wearing to work (it's so ugly) anymore. i spent $300 and somehow saved $200...most i spend on clothes at once in a VERY long time. Splurge, but some of it was needed - as i haven't, like i said, had my size dress pants that fit appropriately for a long time. now i do. and the blazer. a jacket that looks better (thought not that warm) and a few nice dress shirts. now i don't need to shop for another long time....and i hope also to have more weekends like you - going outdoors as long as the weather is working...and if it's not, to go to gym or use the stairs in my apt bldg for exercise!



Donkey - Saturday Mar 03, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.5

Responded to comments to my last entry - thank you all very much!


Lost a pound, but not quite where I want to be.  However, I do feel much better:  not so bloated, not so anxious or edgy, more centered and focused mentally.

I'm thinking that maybe the "GET TOUGH AND DO IT" attitude isn't right for me.  I was initially inspired by Horn and BearCountry when they pledged to step it up and just do it.  For whatever reasons, that did not work for me this time.  So while I appreciate enthusiasm and love to bask in others' excitement and dedication -- I really do like a group effort! -- this just wasn't the time.  Not sure if it's seasonal, hormonal, situational, or what, but it didn't work for me this time.

So I do feel that with the oatmeal breakfast, everythint else falls into place.  Again, this morning, I thought about going back to protein shakes in the morning, but I'm trying to stay with real food as much as possible.

The new bike is almost put together.  One of the programs is called a "Ride in the Park" -- I want to try this one first   Another thing that I think will help is that it has an interval program that will deliver results. It will deliver because the new bike has more resistance.  Can't do HIIT if you don't have resistance, and my old bike isn't set up well for that.  However, I think my old bike will still be my anchor.

Final word for this morning:  to those of you who have expressed frustration with dieting and always struggling with food, moderation, exercise:  I share your pain.  Why can't I just be naturally thin?  Why must this always be a battle?  I still get uncomfortable with the level of time, energy, and thought this whole experience takes.  How about those people who say, "Oh I just forgot to eat" -- WHAT??? Who ARE you??  Who forgets to eat when I'm planning out meals & snacks for next week?  Who ARE you that forgets to eat when, for me, I have an internal war with every bite???  

I love my family, but visiting my brother is very hard because his wife is very slim.  She has to work to maintain at 100lbs.  And her daughter, while she looks a lot like our side of the family, will be very thin, just like her mom.  And nobody there seems to show much interest in eating.  And when they do, it's all carbs.  I get so frustrated sometimes...  Life just isn't fair.

Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/03/2018:
The exercise bike sounds like a great idea to me...I had a couple of them over the years...and the boys ended up taking them to their houses...now I just have one of those little ones that you sit in a chair and peddle...and it definitely not the same thing....


horn_of_plenty on 03/05/2018:
i am not a "forgot to eat" type either...i also have to work at it...i think most people do!



Donkey - Friday Mar 02, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

So yesterday was weird. I was not feeling good about how Husband and I left things with our money "conversation" and our future --- in this house, in this state, etc. 

But I did go to the store with him to look at the exercise bike.  It's much nicer than what I've been working with right now, and if he will use it too -- which I remain skeptical, because he's like that -- then that will be a bonus.  My bike, while beloved, is very basic, loud, and doesn't offer much resistance or variation.  The new bike does offer this.  (Plus, lately, I've been worried if my old bike is breaking down or going to break soon...  It will be nice to have a back-up.)

Food is going much better this week, so far.  To answer Maria7's question:  my bag of raw vegetables usually consists of baby carrots, celery sticks, broccoli heads, and cauliflower.  Sometimes I have these small red/orange/yellow peppers that are not hot.  Sometimes I will bring a cucumber to slice up.  Ooo, this week I have a treat with radishes and green onions!  These are ALL eaten raw, mainly for stress eating situations at work, and bulk, to keep me full. 

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2018:
My new very much overweight coworker but also he's quite strong and his huge circumference stomach is the only thing that seems a problem also brings the veggies for between meal munchies which i believe is a great idea like you do - i generally don't need it bc i eat so many veggies at lunch it'll usually just bloat me too much...

his problem i've noticed for him is his portion sizes. he likes a big egg sandwich with cheese and prob bacon for breakfast and devours it...and at lunch if he orders a sandwich, it's huge...i mean the size of 2 sandwiches and he finishes it.

so while it's good he's getting the nutrition, i've noticed that he always is capable of finishing off really big portions of calories at a time during meals and noticed that this is his dilemma...be happy you watch your servings and portions.

there's a veggie that tastes like licorice that you should try that he brings...it looks like celery...i'll think of the name later.

Donkey on 03/03/2018:
Portion control is everything, isn't it? Well, it's most of the struggle, at least...


innerpeace on 03/02/2018:
It's fennel.

Donkey on 03/03/2018:
Yes! at first I thought it was anise Horn was talking about, LOL. I'm not sure I could eat something that tasted like licorice.

What I'm really interested in trying are leeks, but I have no idea how to eat or prepare them!


graindart on 03/02/2018:
I tend to get the cart before the horse when dealing with exercise equipment. I think that buying some fancy new equipment will motivate me into using it. Over the years this has almost never worked. The new philosophy I'm trying to embrace is using whatever I've got to get started on exercise. With the intent that if I stick with it for a set period of time, I'll reward myself with the fancy piece of equipment. Maybe you and your husband could make a deal on the bike? If he successfully uses the current older one daily for 2 weeks straight (or whatever time period), you splurge on the fancy new one together?

Donkey on 03/03/2018:
I tried this with my husband. He said that because of his arthritis, he had a lot of trouble getting on the bike and maneuvering the pedals. IDK, now that both bikes are side by side, I took a look, and they looked pretty similar to me: position, decline, pedals. WHATEVER... Sometimes I get really frustrated with him, which is why the new bike had to be for ME as well as for him, because I'm pretty sure he'll grow tired of it soon.


horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2018:
YES....it's fennel....


horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2018:
and this fennel is healthy...low cal like celery i believe...just a nice, sweet and fresh flavor.

Donkey on 03/03/2018:
Yes, but I'm not a big fan of licorice flavoring... Hmm, well, maybe I'll buy a little.


Horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2018:
I was tempted to buy some fennel after work yesterday when i stopped at grocery store before walking home from bus but i decided i didn't need to also carry it home - with other planned groceries - lol i felt it was too heavy an addition to my cart!

Donkey on 03/03/2018:
LOL!!!! Ok, I'll keep that in mind ;-)



Donkey - Wednesday Feb 28, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

Went to bed super early for me - 9:17p and probably would have slept until 5:30a but Husband was up at 1:30am with pain and didn't turn off his alarm clock which went off at 5am.  *sigh*  So I stayed up when I got up to turn off his alarm...

Did a longer route with more resistance on the exercise bike this morning.  The rest of the week will be lighter and shorter.  I am planning a shorter walk today at lunch.

There are lots of leftovers from yesterday's lunch, plus the lunch that I brought over because I forgot that the title company was coming over.  I have raw vegetables and a big apple, 2 containers of almonds, 1 container of vanilla Greek yogurt...  So all I need is my breakfast, I think.  Debating on whether to pack some sweet pickles or not, for munchies.


EVENING EDIT:  I texted my husband that I was coming home from work, and when I got home, both he and my daughter were sleeping!  So no dinner made, no company, no nothing.  My daughter work up and sat with me, but later she left to go get herself something to eat because she didn't like the leftovers we have left.

I had several thin slices of leftover ham and a salad - second helpings on the salad.  Decaf coffee, and now I think I'm done.

Husband and I were supposed to go try out a recumbant bike he wants to buy for himself/us but he didn't wake up until 7p.  So by then, I didn't really feel like going out shopping and spending a whole much of money.  He was not happy about that, but oh well, then be up and awake and fixing a dinner when I get home, please!  (didn't say that, just thought it)

Then we start talking about the estimates for the home repairs, and the guy he likes is a contractor, not a handyman, not a painter, and will do everything for a flat fee of "less than $6000" -- oof!  WAY more than what I had planned on spending.

I'm like, Where are the written estimates?  and there aren't any (yet).  I was tired of Husband yelling at me because all the money talk was getting really overwhelming to me, so I said, When the estimates come in, we can talk about what we're getting done, and what we're not getting done.

He gets mad when I say we're not spending money.  And by the end of THAT conversation, I was REALLY glad that we weren't looking at any bicycle tonight.

Part of this is because I'm dealing with a co-worker who is telling me - almost boasting to me -- that he's going to start aggressively paying off his mortgage.  In the meantime, the Donkey family is saddled with this stupid 2nd mortgage that my husband thought was a good idea, and now is this chain around my neck.  (Doesn't seem to bother him one bit, because what he can't see, he doesn't think about.)

 

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/28/2018:
it's important to change up your routine, the exercise etc, as you see will be more beneficial to you - i am working on this too...and working on getting accustomed to getting up even earlier and fitting everything in. i'll be glad when my class is over and i'll have tuesdays back and freed up during the week...

Donkey on 02/28/2018:
Once the weather warms up on a more consistent basis, I will be walking more.


bearcountrygg on 02/28/2018:
Well..at least you didn't have to pack a lunch!

Donkey on 02/28/2018:
True - although there were only 3 sandwiches left! And I took one! I think one of the assistants took home most of them to feed her 2 hungry young men and herself for dinner. I'm glad that she did :-) Also, all the desserts were gone too, which is a great thing.

I'm telling everyone right now - if that last sandwich is still there in the morning, it's mine!


Maria7 on 02/28/2018:
Hope you are having a good afternoon.

Donkey on 02/28/2018:
I did well, I think. If I had my way, I would have eaten more of my raw vegetables, but I'm not at work to eat. I'm at work to work. And I'd like my vegetable bag to last at least one more day -- if it could last the week, that would be even better.


Maria7 on 03/01/2018:
What veggies do you put in your vegetable bag? Do you eat them raw? Just curious.



Donkey - Tuesday Feb 27, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

Something is going on: fell asleep before 9:30p last night, could not get out of bed this morning. Slept in too late, so exercise will be cut short, but will be sufficient. My first feeling this morning was dread of going to work. Dinner set very heavy in my stomach. Husband thinks it was the carbs from the chips. Damn. I feel like my motivation - for many aspects of my life - is at a low. I thought about this a little bit last night and then again this morning. Exercise (and thus diet, because they go hand in hand for me) motivation might be picked up with a new pair of workout shoes. Meh... not in the mood to spend more money. Work motivation might be picked up with a vacation, which will happen when we visit our son in March. The thing about vacations is that I come back to more work than I leave, so then I get resentful and mad.


EVENING EDIT:  Today, one of the title companies came by to show us their new website and brought us lunch.  Sandwiches, salad, and dessert tray.  I had a buffalo chicken sandwich and filled the rest of my plate with salad (no dressing) that had bacon, avocado, and turkey toppings.  I was careful to take mostly salad and just a tad of the toppings.

Before the title company came, I had a nectarine.  After the title company left, about 2 hours later, I had some raw vegetables w/dressing.

Two things I think have made a difference so far this week:

  1. Cutting back on my steps, from over 15,000 a day to just above 10K at around 11K-12K.
  2. Returning to my regular breakfast of 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/4 cup walnuts, 1 cup almond milk, and then either pumpkin pie spice or a few teaspoons of cocoa powder.

I know it's only been 2 days, but I have high hopes for the rest of the week.  Let's see what the scale will say... if it will be forgiving of the weekend's transgressions, if it will like the menu this week.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/27/2018:
Do you think our behaviours may have anything to do with it being winter season? I know there is such a thing called seasonal affective disorder I have read. Also I wonder if we might need more calories in the wintertime? Maybe we'll feel better with springtime coming in soon. Hope you feel better. Hope you have a good day. :-)

Donkey on 02/27/2018:
I am starting to think it's the winter blah's catching up. Like when a New Year's Resolution wears off. It honestly feels instinctual or biological, but not hormonal (e.g. PMS), and not really emotional. I've been taking care to rest more, and that has helped a lot, I think.


bearcountrygg on 02/27/2018:
Lots of big things prying on your mind right now.....that's hard for everyone.

Donkey on 02/27/2018:
I agree, so I certainly do not need this weight thing being one more thing to carry around, hanging over my head. I'll write more about it in my diary.


bearcountrygg on 02/28/2018:
Returning to your old breakfast will probably help reset your determination...power of suggestion is there...if it worked before...it will work again...GOO YOU!!!


horn_of_plenty on 02/28/2018:
i agree that you need to push through this "low feeling."

i am having similar issues...

i am quite positive there's more to this, an underlying cause.



Donkey - Monday Feb 26, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

I'm going to be accountable to myself and to you, dear DD friends:  I'm sadly disappointed in myself for last night.  Sunday was already a higher eating day to begin with, so I feel that I should have been satisfied with that.  And then after dinner, I just caved. I'm not sure what overtook me, if it was anxiety about work, or missing my son, or hormones, or bathroom issues (or lack thereof) or what.

  • Finished the Oreo & chocolate ice creams:  about 350 calories, but also added whipped cream so make it 450 calories
  • Finished a milk chocolate w/hazelnut candy bar:  100 calories?
  • Ate an entire can of lime & jalepeno peanuts 960 calories (oof!)
  • Ate half of a dark chocolate & coconut candy bar:  250 calories.

I was full but not stuffed, amazingly enough.  I mean, that's an entire days' worth of calories right there.  This morning, though, I woke to a sour stomach, which I would naturally expect.  

Oh well, get back on track, keep moving forward, because that's what us donkeys do.


EVENING EDIT:  So today went better, but that could be because I was full from last night - ?  Even with everything I ate last night, I felt hungry this morning.

I think I'm going to have to pull back a little bit on my walking.  Seriously, I do not know how people get 20,000 steps on a regular, daily basis.  I'm burning out at 15,000 a day.  So I'm reducing that now to just 10,000 by 1pm ish and then anything else is extra.  

I finally got to the drugstore to buy more melatonin, to help me sleep at night. This really works for me.  While I was there, I took a walk down the block and came back.  Very short walk, but that's all I wanted today.  

Dinner was chili.  I added shredded cheese (OK) but then I probably had too many tortilla chips to dip in my chili.  Had a Fiber One brownie for dessert with my decaf coffee.

I'm ready for an early bedtime tonight - yes, I think that would be nice... although that means I won't see my daughter until tomorrow morning for about 3 seconds. 

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/26/2018:
Sounds like the classic food fit! Good for you getting back on track......you can do this!


happy-1 on 02/26/2018:
Oh those sound yummy. I'd have eaten them too. I've started putting my treats in my bear vault but I might start putting the lid on it too. At least I'd have to work to get at them.

Donkey on 02/26/2018:
LOL - whatever it takes, right? ;-) I'm not there yet... Gotta turn this thing around.


horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
Me and you are going thru something....although i have been back on track much better than i have been since Saturday i've been back on a good streak. join me! i also commented below on your earlier entry!

take a breather. stay in charge. keep on. stay motivated. you look great so keep at it!

me too - i'd hate to buy all new big clothes again. i'm working at it, again. with the new commuting, i guess my calorie needs increased but not to as much as i was eating...so i guess i'm working at figuring it out and maybe planning better breakfasts and snacks since i start at 7am and i get hungry like twice for snacks in the morning before noon...maybe i should plan a breakfast and TWO morning snacks at work! sounds like a lot but maybe this is what i need...

Donkey on 02/26/2018:
I will join you!


horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
i would also have a sour stomach from a can of the lime and jalepeno peanuts!

Donkey on 02/26/2018:
Yeah - Oof! And they weren't even really that good. Just wanted to get rid of them.


happy-1 on 02/26/2018:
Maybe you need to take a salsa class for more steps


happy-1 on 02/26/2018:
Maybe you need to take a salsa class for more steps


Horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
trust me lately i'm so negative i thought to leave DD for awhile...but it's a good support group :)



Donkey - Sunday Feb 25, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

Not particularly inspired this morning.  Changing up my routine to exercise later this morning, after breakfast, rather than first thing -- one of the privileges of a weekend.  

Did not get all of my shopping done yesterday, so I went to one store to get fresh produce yesterday afternoon, and today, I will go to the other store to get meat, packaged groceries, etc.  I like to be active during the day, so having a task helps me.  What I should really do though is organize a closet or 2...   Things on that list don't ever seem to get done.

Went shopping with Mr. Donkey yesterday to get a replacement medicine cabinet and kitchen lighting fixture, for the handyman to install.  I feel that we should probably get these little fixes done now, even if we're going to stay here for another year or so.  Everything is on hold until we can determine our income versus expenses, since things are changing right now, but it seems as though it might be cheaper to stay here rather than move and rent, until we know where we're going to end up, which will probably be either closer to daughter or closer to Mom.


EVENING EDIT:  It was not a very good day eating-wise.  I only ate until I was full, and cleaned up some leftovers.  Still, it felt like all I did was eat all morning, and food was on my mind for most of the afternoon (going grocery shopping).

This past week, too, it felt  like all I was doing was eating all day, even though I did not eat everything that I brought to work.  (I bring some "emergency" snack food, in case I start having a carb craving or a stress breakdown, where I gotta have something sweet/salty ASAP.  

 Perhaps with the inclusion of more carbs in my meals during the week, e.g. oatmeal for breakfast, this will not be such a bothersome issue to me this week.

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/25/2018:
We were in that limbo too for years...we ended up keeping the small up north cabin ( 800 sq ft)...selling the bigger house....D moved to the cabin...and we got an apartment a few minutes from my Mom so I could take care of her....D and I lived apart for 7 years...and one of us drove 3 to 4 hours every 2 weeks to see the other for a couple of nights...it was rough...but my Mom refused to live with us....we did unload the cost of the big house and that gave us the finances to get an apartment......When my Mom passed away I came up here and we put on an addition to make it more comfortable for both of us...and now have 1,300 sq ft......I will say..that while renting is maintenance free...there are issues....you can count on the rent going up every year....if you go month to month after your lease is up.....and it felt so temporary. But...home ownership has plenty of costs too...but the feeling of security is better. D and I have talked about what we will do when one of us passes away...I would sell this and move closer to a son...probably a condo.....he would stay here as long as he could if I go first....neither of us want to live with our kids either...but I would want to make it easier on them and not do what my Mother did.....D figures he will live till he dies here unless someone moves him out against his will. But I will say...this place is about half the size of our bigger house and that is a big help.

Donkey on 02/25/2018:
I feel that we need to downsize soon, although maybe not as soon, depending on what happens to Daughter after she graduates high school. If her job promotes her, then she should consider staying here, at least until she has her Associate's Degree completed.

In addition to downsizing, there is the effort/cost of maintaining the property. My boss pointed out though that paying association dues (for a condo) cost just as much as hiring a lawn service or snow service.

I have to wait to see how our finances settle, which should play out this year, I hope. I do worry about my mom; she really misses my step-father. Fortunately, my brother and his large family are out there, to ease the pain. Also, she lives in an active senior community (55+), so she's putting her association dues to good use by joining some groups.


horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
i have those times at work also where i simply crave the carbs. i've been giving in right now as i'm at a new job...so i am being more lenient right now...but also i'm working on my lunches ...because there's a healthy place across the street, i make sure it's a healthy meal. i've been meaning to also include healthy carbs in this meal, but today i already ate lots of carbs during the morning, so i laid off as my calories were very high for the day already...nice to have so many good lunch choices in one store across the street - a huge buffet that i plan to eat at for at least the next 2 weeks. and when i say huge, i mean huge.

Donkey on 02/26/2018:
That is nice that it's right across the street. I mean, can't much better than that.


horn_of_plenty on 02/26/2018:
sounds like your daughter may get lucky when getting her associates if she can stay with you and retain her job there...



Donkey - Saturday Feb 24, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.5

 OK, I promise that I am happy today, BUT...

Gained half a pound!!!  I'm so beyond frustrated.  This is not where I belong, this is not where I should be.  What is going on with my *&^% body???

Then, on top of that, I forgot to put on my FitBit until I was over halfway done with my cardio -- so all of those steps won't count.  I just wasn't focused this morning.  I did sleep in until 7am, which I think I really needed.  But then the disappointing weigh-in.. and then the disappointing workout -- well the workout was good, but the messed up step count sucks.

I don't think I can do the Whole 30.  I end up way too hungry and tired from lack of carbs.  The level of fatigue this week was just overwhelming, too.  So I'm going back to having oatmeal for breakfast; I seem to do better with that.  This morning I had diet toast with Nutella.  Whole 30 works for my husband because he cannot workout due to his health issues, but for me, who does workout, I need something that will sustain me a little more evenly.

I'm wondering if I should go back to protein shakes in the morning.  I liked those, but I dislike the throught of artificial food.  Plus, the powder is kind of expensive.

Much needs to be replenished in this house:  groceries (fress foods only), home improvement items for handyman, and I need a trip to the drugstore for the vitamins I like.

I hope to watch the Wonder Woman movie with my husband tonight.   It's kind of nice getting to spend more time with just him, although I miss my son a lot, and I wish my daughter were home for dinner more often.  

Speaking of my son, please keep him in your thoughts and prayers this week. He starts "Beast Week" which is a week-long exercise in defending a post.  It is very difficult work, and it's 24/7 for a week.  I cannot even imagine...

Progress as of today: 55 lbs lost so far, only -5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/24/2018:
Glad to hear you are happy too...even with the disappointments....a half pound could be anything...don't dwell on it....glad you and Hubby are enjoying your alone time...and will keep your son in my prayers....

Donkey on 02/25/2018:
Thank you for your prayers - that means so much to me.

I'd rather see numbers in the 120's... IDK, maybe it's just meant to be THIS way instead.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/24/2018:
the important thing is that you got the steps in - even if they weren't counted!

....i am not sure whether to quit practicing...i failed the beep test miserably. I have time to improve...i can try to improve by starting up my cardio again.

Donkey on 02/25/2018:
True! I would have had something closer to 17K steps if I had done everything correctly. This SNAFU motivated me to get 250+ steps every hour for 12 hours. (Another FitBit goal that can be difficult to achieve.) DID IT.

I was reading more about the BEEP test. To be honest, I'm not sure I could get past step 1 successfully. I'm a slow runner, although you'd think with these big legs, I'd be a sprinter.



Donkey - Monday Feb 19, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.0

I've been easing into the Whole 30 program with my husband.  I can definitely tell that I'm "detoxing" from having more carbs than I'm having on this plan.  I don't follow it strictly (me so bad) because I will have a little cheese.  I attribute my "blue" feeling today to the decrease in carbs.  It was very hard.  In the afternoon, I felt better, as though I had turned the corner...  I do think it was the carbs - lack thereof - but it could have been just all of the change and stress catching up with me.

Whole 30 is only meant to be done for a month, and then I think you get 2 weeks of incorporating some carbs back into the meals.  My plan is to follow this through until we leave to see my son in March, which is not quite 30 days, but almost.

I would really like to start re-incorporating strength training into my weeks, whether that be daily push-ups or lifting weights a couple of times a week.  I don't know how that would go being on this eating plan.

As you may recall, I volunteer at a legal clinic once a month.  One of my co-volunteers said that last month, she almost said something to me about losing too much weight, but this month, she said that she was glad that she didn't feel that way any more.  As I pretty much weigh the same now as I did last month, I think it was either the choice of clothes, or the stress I was under coming through in my facial expression, or both.

Still very dissatisfied with the shape of my thighs...  Very bulky.

Progress as of today: 55.5 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/19/2018:
I just looked up Whole 30... wow!!! No added sugar or substitutes or lightened up treats? Oy vey!!!! That's some strict stuff but super healthy!!!


happy-1 on 02/19/2018:
Also... don't you hate comments on how you look when you are just trying to be healthy and happy?


bearcountrygg on 02/20/2018:
IT is quite irritating when people think they have the right to critique your weight....if they are doctors...or you hired them as a trainer..ok...otherwise they really should keep their thoughts to themselves......you are at a healthy weight and you worked hard to get there.....maybe she is jealous?


horn_of_plenty on 02/20/2018:
love yourself and do what you can to work on your thighs...but don't hate things that take a long time to change...maybe squats will help you - they help so much in general. there are many types of squats (and i totally skipped the more challenging ones yesterday at the gym bc my legs weren't ready after the walk...lol...but i'm happy with my overall progress in general).


happy-1 on 02/20/2018:
Could have been worse... she could have told you you look like someone she knows and then shown you a photo and the woman was hideous.


happy-1 on 02/20/2018:
Could have been worse... she could have told you you look like someone she knows and then shown you a photo and the woman was hideous.


Maria7 on 02/21/2018:
Hope you are having a good day.



Donkey - Saturday Feb 17, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 131.0

My weight did not change.  Trying to be accepting of this.  

My husband is getting back on track with Whole 30.  He originally asked me to join with him, but then today, he was saying that I didn't have to.  Today is my "relax" day, as far as foods, and there were some leftovers that I wasn't about to throw away.  So today will be my "relax" day and then I would be happy to join him in Whole 30.  Since we have dinner together, I will definitely do Whole 30 the best I can.  Breakfast and lunch at work, though... that might be another story.

I do not know why this is such a struggle for me.  

 

Progress as of today: 55.5 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/17/2018:
oh man...you didn't get a 3 day weekend? Well that is a bit of a bummer. How did you husbands hip surgery go? Is he feeling good now? D needs a knee replacement...and was scheduled 2 years ago...until he got shingles and they had to cancel it...he still hasn't set it up again. There is a lot to be said about keeping certain things out of the house...that is for sure.

Donkey on 02/18/2018:
He has recovered from his surgery, but it was a very difficult 2-3 weeks afterwards, mostly because he had both hips done at once, which is not the norm.

He said that he'd rather have hip surgery than knee replacement. The knee replacement patients in PT seemed to really be having a hard time with pain, especially in the beginning.


happy-1 on 02/17/2018:
Aaaaaw sounds like a good co-support system.

Donkey on 02/18/2018:
It's easier to do when everyone's on board, that's for sure.

For example, I brought home leftover donuts from the legal clinic that I volunteer at every 3rd Saturday of the month. When my husband saw the box, he was like, "Really?" He gets very upset when temptations are around, like that.


happy-1 on 02/18/2018:
OMG... A box of donuts would ruin me...


Maria7 on 02/19/2018:
Hope you are having a good day.


horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2018:
Do what's right for you :) you can take parts of the whole 30 with your hubby or make dinners together or whatever that work for the both of you !!

Weight may not change in 1 week it might take longer to reflect the progress - I realize that I've done damage and I think it's take me at least a month to lose a pound or even 3 months to lose 2 lbs.


horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2018:
I don't plan to change much - just drop some calories here and there and have weekly averages around 20000 - honestly if I could do that for a month I'd be ok.



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