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Donkey - Tuesday Aug 27, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.0

Just a quick check-in to say that mindful eating went well yesterday.  I was very deliberate in the amount of meat I put on my plate last night, and then took no more.

Did not do weight training, but should get to doing some of that tonight. 

Trying to convince my boss to take a mini-vacation (long weekend) up to the Detroit area, to buy his wife a motorized scooter.

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/27/2019:
It is so nice when plans work out easily......hoping that that trend continues for both of us!

Donkey on 08/28/2019:
I hope so too... Oh there's always some fly in the ointment.


grannyannie on 08/27/2019:
Well done!

Donkey on 08/28/2019:
Thank you!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/27/2019:
Is boss' wife older than him to need a motorized scooter?

I'm glad you are doing well. I really don't like to eat big servings any more of meat. like i was telling you. i took two meatballs with my lunch and even that seems like a lot. my friend Christine had made me some but she added some veggies into them and mozz cheese so they look bigger than they really are as there's more than meat in them. lately i don't eat a lot of meat so i am craving it. like at the water park, i was so happy to eat the huge hamburger. one of my goals for this Winter is to cook more meat/chicken.

i hope you are able to weight train. i had a good session last night...and i was reminded that i should prob not skip another day for awhile since last week's session was weak in some areas.

Donkey on 08/28/2019:
My boss turns 69 in October, and his wife turned 70 this year, but she has many, many, many health issues, some which have affected her mobility.

My boss likes to travel and do things. With his wife unable to walk much at all (she uses a walker now), this has curtailed his wanderlust greatly.

I'm training fewer muscle groups during my sessions, it seems. I need to get a couple of weight plates for my weight bench.


happy-1 on 08/27/2019:
"^^Thank you, Happy - I've been looking for an alternative to heavy whipping cream or half-half for my coffee!"

I bought the flavored sampler pack... so far... they are ok if you want a specific flavoring and are into flavored coffee creamers. After this though I will just buy the unsweetened plain flavor in bulk.

This is actually a really good way to do MCTs / bulletproof coffee. You can stick some in a ziploc or canister and put it in your purse for work/out and about. I still pour in a little of my dad's 2% milk, but at least the transfat and cholesterol profile is waay better.

Donkey on 08/28/2019:
Ohh, that's a thought - I love flavored coffees (or flavored creamers, in coffee).

I'll have to do some more research. I had a Amazon list going on, but then my husband went and ordered stuff for himself on his own. So now my list will have to wait. (Had a fight about it last night, now going for the silent burn...)


happy-1 on 08/27/2019:
Why did I read this post and picture him carrying her in his lap on a hoveround and their silver hair blowing in the wind?

Donkey on 08/28/2019:
LOL - oh Mrs. Boss is going to be Hell on wheels, quite literally. I told him to try out the scooter too, just so he can tell if it's a quality machine and if it can take corners tightly. I had to clarify that I didn't mean for his own usage, LOL...



Donkey - Monday Aug 26, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.0

The wonderful thing about books & libraries is that whatever crisis you're going through, someone has probably already been through it and written a book about it.

My library never has any of the books that I want at the moment that I want it - I usually have to do an inter-library loan request - but I think this was meant to be, because I found a book yesterday written by a woman who has gone through this whole debate about coloring her hair!  I hope you realize, it's not really about coloring the hair, but rather, one's approach and acceptance of the aging process. 

I would have started the book last night, but I also checked out another book about aging, but more so towards the end of life -- and I still have the book I held onto, to finish up.

I admit that I'm fascinated by the whole process of aging.  I think what really started it was my memberships to a couple of FB groups for "weight training over 50".  It's mostly men, but there are quite a few women.  However, some of the women are trying to look older than they really are.  And that's fine if that's how they want to carry themselves, but I see some of these pictures and think that they're trying *too* hard - it looks so unnatural that it's almost embarrassing for them (although they obviously don't see it for themselves).

Back to my friend who got an old-lady haircut, I believe, from what my daughter told me, that she got this hair style for convenience.  As her hair was getting greyer, it was also changing the texture, and this new haircut will be easier for her to manage/control.  I get that.  And her hair won't change any of the admiration that I still have for her.

So just as I made peace with this whole hair thing, my 19 year old daughter comes bouncing in with a box of hair-dye, wanting to change her hair and her life -- "happiness in a box".  So I asked her how come she didn't get me a box - after all, I want to be happy too - but then I was OK that she did not get me one too.

(More to say in my responses to your comments in yesterday's entry...)


 Goals:

  • Start weight training again (did a little on Sunday)
  • Get some awesome sleep (did this last night)
  • Keep aiming for 100 ounces of water.
  • Mindful portion control
  • Weigh in on Saturday -- MUST DO

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/26/2019:
I totally understand the joy of finding just the right book when it's needed.....so uplifting....and probably why the internet is also so addicting...type it in...and there it is....but a book, when you find it...is extra special.


happy-1 on 08/26/2019:
If you really have to buy a box, I’m really happy with the new loreal anti brass shades


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/26/2019:
yeah, your hair is very fine and easy to manage. i don't share the same type of hair as you...i like your hair in all your photos it looks really nice long or the chin length.

totally agree about the books...lots of advice / authors in same situations or same emotions. books help me a lot to mentally "toughen up" or to expose myself to tough people/tough situations.

you've gotta share what you read about the woman & her "hair color crisis" as i'd like to know anything of interest..

i totally understand your friend and the chopping of her hair. after all, i did it myself. if my hair was thicker/smoother/more naturally fine with more keratin to keep it smoother, i'd have probably not cut it. but it tends to get damaged as i used to put it up a lot for exercise and i had a lot of split ends. i don't see myself struggling with long hair any time soon, either.

i've been getting more sleep like you also and i also am restarting weights tonight (took Sunday off / weekend off) as to relax a little more and give myself some extra down time to "feel good" in my attempt to not run myself into the ground (it worked).


grannyannie on 08/26/2019:
I quit colouring my hair when I was in my early 60s'. As for ageing, I think I was my most fit at age 60.



Donkey - Sunday Aug 25, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.0

I'll recap some thoughts, and then I want to talk to you all about something I'm having an awful time processing, and I don't know where to go with these feelings and thoughts.


RECAP:

I moved my evening exercise bike yesterday afternoon and it has made all of the difference in the world!  Wow, I should have done that months ago.  I can see the TV better, and I have more room for my weight bench and my morning exercise bike.  I have not yet really done weights on the weight bench, but it's on my list of possibilities today.  

I was most productive until about 10:30a today.  Now I've had a breather for about an hour.  I still have stuff to do on my list, but I've gotten done what I wanted/needed to do.  The rest is optional, if I am looking for something to do.  This includes weights and yoga (easy yoga, DVD at home).

Beautiful sunny day, cooler temperatures. Need to enjoy these days before winter...


OK, now on to what has been bothering me.

My daughter's best friend's mom is about my age, give or take a few years.  Seriously, I'm 49, and I don't think she's much older, if she IS older.  She might actually be 46, 47...

Anyway, she has had this beautiful full head of naturally curly hair, very dark brown or black, but like the rest of us, the grey hairs have been coming in, but I'd say at least half of her hair is still dark.

So my daughter tells me yesterday -- yes, this is how long I've been chewing on this, I was so shocked! - that Mrs. B got an old lady haircut!  Rather than this beautiful mane of shoulder-length hair, now she has a shorter, bowl-cut, cap-like hairstyle!  Because her hair is so full and curly, though, it looks like a short afro, almost.  My daughter says that the shorter hair makes Mrs. B look like a little old-lady, with her hair looking much greyer with the short style.

Let me first say, there is nothing wrong with short hair styles for women. They can be cute, stylish, cutting-edge, etc.  But to have a hairstyle that makes you look older, that brings out the grey.... I cannot handle this.  And this is from someone who I've always admired as being modern, gutsy, forward-thinking.

I've been struggling with whether to color my hair or let it go grey.  I have only grey in the front, framing my face.  The rest of it is still brown.  I stopped dying it because my hair is thinning out and I was afraid that the harsh chemicals were causing more harm than good.  But now, seeing one of my PEERS turning into a "little old lady" --- ACK!  I'm freaking out!

Please understand, I have no problem with grey hair.  If my whole head were grey or even 50-50, I'd be OK with it.  I don't like where I have these whisps and patches of grey.  Once I have more grey, I do not think I'll have a problem keeping it grey.

I know some of you here are older than I, and therefore, have had the experience and wisdom of having gone through this already.  I guess emotionally, I didn't think this would happen for another few years???  Why would anyone willing want to look older than they are?

 

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/25/2019:
Well...about the grey hair...i had always had thick very dark brown hair.....and then the grey started...and got worse...i started dyeing it.....and it and that was fine for a few years...but then...what was coming it got to be all grey...and I seemed to always have a grey streak across the top of my head ( along my part)...I took my Mom to her doctors visit...and the dr ( a middle eastern man)...looked at the top of my head ( the grey part) and said...."If you were a horse, you would be worth a lot of money".....apparently he made note in my Moms file of my NOT getting his JOKE...(I got it...but acted like I didn't)...because 6 months later at her next appt...he tried to explain himself....I still acted like I wasn't phased.....after that...i stopped dying my hair alltogether...let it grow out...still kept it long and just put up with it....a couple of years ago...it finally ended up about 80% grey...but for some unknown reason...the back continues to want to come in a darker shade of grey...my grandmothers did this too.....Not coloring it has been great...i'm now just letting it be natural and it's still very long...although I recently cut about 4 inches off.....I figure....that since I have never been one to follow the crowd...I don't want to start now......and one thing that had always botheered me was that when I dyed it...it took the natural look away...my hair had never ever been such a solid color...it also took the shine and health away....so...i tried to hide it...and al it really did was point out that I was dying it because of that apparent "HORSE STRIPE" that always showed up about 2 weeks after I colored it...but my hair grows supeer fast anyway...I've always taken the attitude that it wasn't my business what others thought of me though so i don't really care what they think.....I'm just me.

Donkey on 08/26/2019:
This really helped me put things into perspective with my friend. She has always lived her life, at least seeming as though she doesn't care what others think.

That is to say, I'm sure her feelings do get hurt and stuff, but at the end of the day, she's very comfortable in her own skin. At least that's how she comes across to me.

I also like your comment about how it takes away the natural look away. Yep 100%


Horn_of_plenty on 08/25/2019:
it's a beautiful day here too. i did go for a bike ride but i'll admit i was on the couch most of the day.

maybe she was just sick of all her hair so she cut it in the summer for ease? for instance, the only real reason i keep my hair short is that it's not really wavy or totally straight and i have trouble maintaining it, so i cut it because it's easy for me to get ready in the mornings. that's the reason.

maybe she did the same.

i am almost 37 and do not have many grays. i started getting them a couple years ago, but, they have stayed for now at minimum. i was dying my hair with highlights to cover them up, but now i don't care again because for now it's just a few.

Donkey on 08/26/2019:
Yes, I believe she did the same - her hair, as it got grey-er, also changed in texture, and it became unmanageable.

I suppose I should embrace my grey highlights. I think that's what I should do.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/25/2019:
there are a lot of natural hair dyes if you do choose to dye your hair. but i have seen some women with lots of gray and long hair that looks nice. i do think keeping hair long keeps you looking younger most of the time.

Donkey on 08/26/2019:
I have so many cowlicks that I cannot do short hair. Also, being so fine, it tends to just fly every-which-way when I have short hair (layered).

However, I do OK with a cute bob, just under the chin, as long as it's all one length. I've been toying about going back to that, but for now, I'm going to keep it long.


happy-1 on 08/25/2019:
I wish I didn’t have to dye my hair to hide my roots. I should have shaved my head in solidarity with my mom... I’d rather have grey than dyed hair. Such a pain. Why not buy that brown hair powder spray and see if you like it and feel like it makes a big enough difference to be worth it?

Donkey on 08/26/2019:
GREAT idea! There are some sprays/powder applications that are temporary, that I could try. And I don't have to stop at medium brown. I could go for bright red, and see how I like that.

And if I don't, just do a shampoo, and I'm back to Donkey brown (with grey).

I might pick up a few kits of this stuff and give it a try...


innerpeace on 08/26/2019:
I go through this all the time. My hair is lighter brown and I will let it go for as long as I can stand it...it gets grayer/silver first around my temples and then moves to the top. I am one of the oldest people in my office and I wanted to just let it go, but then it starts making me feel older than I am and I'll get a comment from DH or the girl about how much gray I'm getting and I'll go get the gray covered up again. I once read an article that women over 50 shouldn't have hair past their shoulders... I have always kept my hair above my shoulders - maybe its a thing from being in the military for so long - but when it gets longer I think it starts looking raggedy and uneven and even feels different, so I'll cut it off again. Maybe it's vanity, i don't know, but I think if I feel better about myself than it just makes my whole life feel better and go better. I hope you can come to a decision and be happy with it.



Donkey - Saturday Aug 24, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.0

 Well... I was writing, and then the page decided to update itself and I lost everything I wrote....


I slept in this morning - a gift to myself - so I did not weigh in, but I know I will definitely weigh in next Saturday, to mark the end of Summer (in my mind at least), the beginning of the last trimester of 2019, and set some goals for myself.

I often realize that it's been about a month since my birthday, and I feel as though I have not made the most of any of the days that have since passed.  Most of my time, it would seem, is consumed by the mundane.

I do not have much planned for today, other than to go to the library.  I need a new book to read at night. I'm not enthralled with what I'm reading right now, and my husband says he'd like to go too, so that's something we can do together.  Other projects:

  • Repair backyard birdfeeder from squirrel damage - waitng for it to dry, then will get the super glue out.
  • Place black dirt in patch in the backyard, prepping for next year's butterfly & bee garden.  This way, I will have an ecologically productive place to put my coffee grounds, too.
  • Move furniture around, both in basement and in guest room.  
  •               For the basement, it's so that I can use my weight bench more effectively.
  •               For the guest room, we'll be taking in a black cat from one of my daughter's co-workers who is moving & can't take him with her.  So he'll stay in the guest room until he's acclimated.  He's 10 years old, so his owner was having a hard time re-homing him, unfortunately.

My laundry is done washing, which means it's time to start my day!

 

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/24/2019:
I've reached a point in my life where if I don't enjoy a book...I just stop reading it...there was a time when I would still finish it.....but since i was daydreaming while reading......and I finally acknowleged that I was enforcing some self imposed rule...that didn't need to be......now I also skip articles in magazines.....I'm working on letting go of crosswords now...they are hard for me to ignore....but will be happening soon I'm sure.

Donkey on 08/25/2019:
I kept one of the books - going to try to finish it. The others I took back. However, I may not finish the book I kept because now I've moved on to another topic of interest. We'll see...


Horn_of_plenty on 08/25/2019:
sorry your entry got deleted that is the worst! LOL.

i never have really thought of the year in trimesters till you wrote it here. what an interesting view - and of course reality.

i can totally relate to your feelings of mundane and not making progress. i have spent the summer just trying not to overdo and as you know i laid of cardio a lot in order to not hurt myself but now i'm feeling a struggle again to push forward.

i see you don't love the book you are reading! what a coincidence...mine is starting to get repetitive on the subject matter and i'm not even 50% through so i will prob start skipping around a few pages here and there and then return it. same with the next book...i don't think i'll read the whole thing (the nazi story you read).



Donkey - Friday Aug 23, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Had a terrible time sleeping last night.  I kept dreaming that my alarm was going off!  The first time, at 1:27a, I realized I hadn't put on my FitBit - left it in the charger, so I got up and put it on, but I woke up at least 3 more times thinking my alarm was going off, and it wasn't.

Yoga was fun last night, but I wore the wrong shirt, so I was a bit uncomfortable.  Also, because I had my daughter with me, I chose a different area, so on the other side of me, I had a man, and that was a little distracting (not that he was handsome or anything, but rather, that I was more self-conscious, which kind of defeats the whole purpose).

There was a lot of hissing and growling with the cats, too.  Last month, it was also noticeable, but I thought it was because the weather was so hot and humid.  I don't know if there's bully cats or if having all these strange people in the room is stressing out the cats.  My daughter said it was all too "Lord of the Flies", which was sad to think about.

I will try to remember to weigh in tomorrow morning, but TOM is about to start, and so... my mindful eating results might not be quite so evident (if there are any actual results) due to hormone issues.  I'm not expecting to see anything, because...

I put on a pair of fall/winter pants today, because the weather is cool enough, and they still fit.  Not baggy or saggy or any signs that I've lost weight or tighted up...  Well, that's OK, because I'm supposed to be on maintenance, anyway, right?  Right???  

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/23/2019:
Sorry about your sleep - hate when that happens.


BearCountryGG on 08/23/2019:
Cat yoga...are you working your way up to goat yoga? I see that is a thing too......Too bad that the cats weren't getting along...you would think they would love all those people on the floor...maybe dog yoga would work better......lots of doggy kisses...

Donkey on 08/24/2019:
That's a NO to the goat yoga. Dog yoga might be fun, but I haven't found any offerings around my area (yet).

But I kid you not, there is a women's retreat not too far from me that offers Horse Yoga. Yep.

I'm not really a horse person.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/23/2019:
so will you go to yoga again of this Cat type? i am sorry you were uncomfortable but you KNOW this man was probably not paying attention to you ;) did your daughter like the yoga?

good to hear your pants are fitting...that's a good thing, Jdonk!

it was cooler here today too. If the weather stays this way for awhile, it will be nice (upper 70's,low 80's)

Donkey on 08/24/2019:
Oh I will definitely do this Cat Yoga again. I support the cat shelter that it's held in - this is really more of a fund raiser, but I like the instructor, too.


happy-1 on 08/23/2019:
Oh to be able to wear fall pants... 90+F here.

Donkey on 08/24/2019:
My mom lives in Nevada - she's enduring the heat wave too. I confess that this is one of the things holding me back from moving out there. I love the mountains, but I don't think I can do the heat.


happy-1 on 08/23/2019:
If he was a dude at cat yoga, he was probably gay. You weren't on the menu. He was more into the cats.

Donkey on 08/24/2019:
Ha ha ha ha! TRUE -- gay or whipped husband, either one.



Donkey - Thursday Aug 22, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Signed my husband and I up for the Library Chair Yoga on September 11th.  I registered him first, so as to be sure he had his seat reserved, but there's still enough room for me too, so I did it, too.

Had reservations about taking more time off, just for Chair Yoga, but being that it will be 9/11, I already know that I'm probably going to welcome anything that is positive, calming, and uplifting.  It's a difficult day.


 Cat Yoga tonight with the daughter!  I hope she likes it!  I want to introduce her to George, if he's still there.  I'm quite smitten with him.  He's orange.

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 08/22/2019:
Cat yoga sounds very entertaining! I love that you have access to all these different styles of yoga; it sure does keep things fresh doesn't it?

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
I have to tell you -- all these different types of yoga have shown me that my practice is still very young. It's like opening a whole new world for me.


happy-1 on 08/22/2019:
Somebody is getting a cat.

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
Yes, but not like you think. We'd be getting Orange George, but one of my daughter's co-workers is moving and cannot take her 10 year old cat with her. So sometime in September, we'll be adding Black Jack to our family.


happy-1 on 08/22/2019:
And if I went there I would end up with all the cats.

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
100% RIGHT -- it's really hard to leave.


happy-1 on 08/22/2019:
And getting hubby to chair yoga is amazing!!!!

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
It was very helpful that we know that his one Veteran man goes to Library Chair Yoga too. Otherwise, it would be an entirely different endeavor.

In Library Chair Yoga, he's in the minority. In Veterans' Chair Yoga, I'm usually the only gal.


grannyannie on 08/22/2019:
The yoga sounds good!


innerpeace on 08/22/2019:
cat yoga..oh my. We have a cat cafe near, but no yoga yet. Enjoy.

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
Have you gone? Are the cats friendly? There was a lot of growling amongst the cats last night.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/22/2019:
have fun with George the cat and with your daughter tonight at Cat Yoga!

and that's nice you are doing something positive on 9/11.

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
Thank you! Got to spend more time with George. :-)



Donkey - Wednesday Aug 21, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Unfortunately, I did not have the opportunity to log in last night.  I had planned to ride my bike, workout 100% with my weight bench, and then log in.  I was so tired that I could hardly finish the bike ride!  Went to bed early, but woke up at 2:30a ready to start the day.  That is too early, so I tossed and turned for a long time...  I must have gone back to sleep because when the alarm went off at 5am, I was so tired.  But I got up anyway, because I still wanted to start the day.  The best way to shake that sleepy feeling is to get up and get started. 

So now I have the extra time to log in here.

It would have done no good to log in and write about yesterday anyway, because it was pretty much the same as Monday.  I'm so frustrated with my boss.  He's usually out at closings, that seem to be taking longer than usual, so I'm thinking he stops and shops or goes home before coming back to the office.  When he is in the office, he doesn't want to work.  But he doesn't want to go home.  He wants to sit around and chat, joke, gossip, etc.  He almost had Male Co-Worker write his attorney letters for him yesterday!  (I realized I could have done it, but then I would have been way far behind in my work.)  And I feel bad for our clients!  They shouldn't be getting bad news from one of us - that's for the attorney to do!  That's what they're paying him for!

Monday night I did a brief run with the weight bench, just trying out different settings, without using any weights.  I was very clumsy, so I put off doing a real workout, but as I wrote above, that didn't happen last night.  I need to move around some furniture so that I have more room. Tried to do that this morning, but it's going to require more effort than I was ready to put out this morning.  Besides, then I would have had the time to write here this morning, and I really did want to check in.

Please know that if I do not write or comment, I'm still reading your entries and thinking of you all.

Anyway, speaking of clumsy, the yoga studio from last Sunday's epic is having a FREE session where all 5 (or 6) trainees are teaching one session -- I think where they are switching off during the session.  Sunday's drill sargeant yoga instructor is included (of course, as she is one of the trainees).  I decided to pass on this, because if I do decide to attend the other sessions, I would like it to be with one instructor at a time.  So I will wait for the next free instructor session in September, and decide if there will be a Chapter 2 to my Yoga Adventures.

The yoga studio owner is offering a 5-session ticket for $100 on meditation.  The sessions are 1 to 1.5 hours long...  Unfortunately, they are in the late afternoon on Sundays, and that's family dinner, and calm down time for me, before I start the workweek.  (Yes, I need that down time on Sunday, starting around dinner, to mentally prepare for Monday.  Otherwise I'm a wreck of anxiety.)

Chair Yoga for Veterans is canceled for September, so I'm going to sign the husband and myself up for the other chair yoga offered at the library.  I'll have to miss half a day, but if nobody else wants to work at work, then I think I can take some time off too.

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/21/2019:
Can you post a photo of your new bench?

Donkey on 08/23/2019:
I have to do that. Hopefully this weekend!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/21/2019:
I really enjoyed reading this and all about what you are up to. I think you said good and that things are a bit more balanced (aside from your boss). but it sounds like you aren't taking ALL the work on at work that isn't yours and just you are prioritizing well.

I like your plans regarding yoga both regular and chair. I do hope you will enjoy that afternoon of it with your hubby.

I also like to have down time at home and it really helps me relax as well.


innerpeace on 08/21/2019:
I will have to look for chair yoga. I went to bed at 9:00 last night and like you I was wide awake at 2:30 a.m. ready to go. I fell back asleep and woke up with a headache.


BearCountryGG on 08/21/2019:
Meditation is relaxing.......but if it stresses you to think about having a specific time on Sunday to be there....you can just meditate at home....although for some reason...whenever I tell D I need some alone time to meditate/ or pay bills/or balance bank books/or do taxes....Okay....enough....for some reason that does trigger the immediate need in him to 1. Need to tell me something 2. Need to show me something or 3. to turn the tv volume up...or blow leaves under my window......on second thought...a class would be nice.


happy-1 on 08/22/2019:
The thrill of new gear...



Donkey - Monday Aug 19, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Yoga Disaster Afterthoughts: 

The yoga studio is 2 doors down from this really good Mexican restaurant.  I hadn't had lunch before class, because yoga on a full stomach is not a wise choice.  Oh my word, after leaving the studio, as the cool air hit my brain --- so did the wonderful aroma of tortillas, salsa, Mexican spices.   Oh my....

(I mentioned this in my comments)  One of the first things the yoga instructor said was, "Yoga is not a workOUT, it is a work-IN".  Trust me when I say:  THIS WAS A WORKOUT.


Today was a bit stressful at work.  Again, people not showing up to work, phones start ringing, etc.

You know, it's OK if my boss wants to start pulling back a little bit and not being at the office as much, but then he needs to set boundaries, because otherwise I get stuck doing twice as much work, sending out extension requests on deadlines, because he isn't in the office.

He's not admitting to anyone -- in fact, I've heard him deny that he's pulling back.  But truth be told, he's just not here as much as I need him to be.  Well, I guess I'll just keep on extending out deadlines, asking for more time.


Got marvellous sleep last night.  Wasn't too sore from yoga, although I did feel some aches in my neck and my left hamstring and my right hip flexor.  I'm going to try to use my new weight bench tonight, but if I don't get to it, then tomorrow night might be a better option.  We'll see.

 

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/19/2019:
You sound like you are having fun...I love your stories!!!


happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
Ha!!!!!!! I’ve actually made this mistake myself... and I am so glad that I am not the only one to do that. I hope you rated the instructor as “two farts up”.

Probiotics, greek yogurt, and kale/broccoli will also add to the general atmosphere of the class.

I had to find the Mad TV Sunrise Yoga class clip for you... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=y_1NajgvvaY


happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
We’re not alone!!! https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/why-yoga-fart


happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
You know what... I just reread your post and realized I totally thought you did what I did and went for a big old bean burrito before class like who-not-me-not-ever did. Nevermind...


happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
Gah, just reread my own comment and realized I wrote that wrong... sigh...


grannyannie on 08/20/2019:
Yea, eating before yoga would be awful for digestion, not to mention calories. I learned the hard way not to eat before a massage.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/20/2019:
i'm guessing things at work will stay as per this new status quo unless your boss miraculously feels better :(

i'm glad you aren't too sore from yoga and mexican does smell nice!

i'll be using my weight bench tonight also :)



Donkey - Sunday Aug 18, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

(I thought that my free yoga class deserved its own entry, even if it's still Sunday...)


Donkey Yoga Adventures, Chapter 1 

Have you ever gotten yourself into something and then realized, I do not belong here -- whether it's the deep end of the pool or a really bad movie or the wrong gender restroom -- have you had that happen?

 
I got to the yoga studio early, like they said to do, and the door was locked!  Oh my word, I almost left right then and there.  But no no no -- we're going to give this a fair shot.  So I stayed in my car until I saw someone come and unlock the door.  Went in.
 
Very pretty studio, but very disorganized.  No sign-in sheet, oh wait yes just sign in here. Oh wait, you're new? then fill this out instead. "I didn't bring my own mat, can I still participate?"  Yes, we have mats over there, but not the pilates mats.  (How the heck do I know which mats are for pilates and which are for yoga?  They all look like mats to me!  It was at this point where I almost put down my clipboard and wanted to say, "I don't think I can do this now" and walk out.  If I had the courage to maintain BOUNDARIES, that is exactly what I would have done, but Donkey is a chicken butt, so here we go...
 
Found an area WAAAAY in back, next to the wall, which is actually a wall of mirrors, with a ballet bar.  Thank goodness for that bar - I used it a few times to prevent myself from crashing into the mirrors., especially towards the end when we were doing one-legged positions and then HOLDING them for a  minute.
 
So we get started and right away, I can tell that this is not a relaxation yoga class but one of those where you move, move, MOVE!  It was taught by a "trainee" who is actually a polished instructor, but just wants to take it to the next level -- and dragged this poor ol' Donkey butt with her...
 
Almost everyone there was either already a member or a yoga teacher.  I think the girl next to me was maybe a newbie, but she was a lot younger -- and flexible -- than me.  But Donkey endeavors to give it her best.  I sweated, I twisted, I held positions, breathed, stretched, balanced (well, sort of...), I moved, moved, MOVED - over and over again.  This was NOT a beginner's class by any means.  I'm used to a slower, more meditative, relaxing style.  It was like going from Math 101 into Advanced Calculus - like walking at lunchtime to running the Boston Marathon.  
 
So I'm trying to keep up with the moves - thank you to people in front of me who know what they are doing so that I could tell what we're supposed to be doing, because I couldn't hear the instructor's voice over the guy singing in the music - and trying to avoid being caught in the video tape or pictures being taken by the instructor's husband and studio owner -- just praying it's over soon.  Look at my watch, we're 10 minutes into it -- But I held on!!!
 
I was so glad at the end to just lie there and breathe, but afterwards, no instruction on where to clean your mat, where to put stuff away.  I was so shaky and dazed and warm (no AC, apparently) that I just needed to get out of there and into the cool breeze and breathe and sit.

 
I'm SO glad I did not bring my daughter with me.  At least I have a minimal knowledge of yoga, but she would have been lost.  Hey, let me tell you, if you don't know what a downward dog position is, in this class you'd be SO lost.  So at least I knew that, but I do not think that my daughter knows any yoga.  Plus, I am already feeling my muscles ache and tighten up.  I am glad that I did not subjugate her to embarrassment or achy muscles.  I would have felt awful.  So at least I had a happy feeling about that --- which, I'm not exactly sure is the intent of the instructor or studio owner.  Glad that you DIDN'T bring someone along?

 
So I'm left with the following thoughts:
 
  • How on earth does Donkey keep getting her into these kinds of situations?
  • After looking in the mirrored wall, why didn't anyone tell Donkey how huge and thick her legs are????  Yikes those things are like the trunks of an oak tree!
  • Will Donkey go to any more of the free yoga classes at this studio (LOL)? (There are 5 more free classes, with 3 of them in September, and 2 in October)
 

 

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/18/2019:
OH MY!!!! You had me laughing!!! Great story telling..it was as if I was there messing up right along with you!! Hope you aren't too sore tomorrow......but you got a good workout !!

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
Thank you - Yes, I was the disaster Donkey in the back corner. It was a good workout.

Which reminds me, first thing the instructor said: "Yoga is not a work-OUT, it's a work-IN." Um..., no sweetie, this was a workout. Trust me...


happy-1 on 08/18/2019:
Yech. Try another studio until you find one that feels like home. It took me like 20 studios on classpass till I found a couple of comfy ones.

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
I think so... the owner was nice. Also, i think now that I know what to expect, the next time - if there is a next time - would be a much smoother experience.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/18/2019:
you are def quite a story teller today! i also laughed quite a bit reading this!

I still think it's wonderful that you tried the class and stayed. i KNOW that your legs look a lot better than you are describing them!

also, the class does sound hard. it's ok to check things out and see if it's for you. even if it was hard for your daughter, she'd have it as a learning experience i'd say.

i miss the days of HOT YOGA when i used to do it. now i do not have time for that, really. it was challenging and many of the poses were also for 1 minute.

i'm glad you did it. you'll have to let us know if you do end up getting sore from the class or not.

after this class, maybe take a couple days to see if it's worth going back. it's sorta nice that they are free. nicer if they benefit you. i do think that there's so many types of yoga/teachers/studios.

also, you can figure you the style of yoga you like and see if any nearby studios have that type....

i'm glad you went!

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
I'm glad I went too, as difficult as it was. I need things like this in my life to keep me on my toes!

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
This was not Hot Yoga - to anyone but Donkey. I cannot imagine people actually WANTING a hotter yoga experience. I was dyin'!


innerpeace on 08/19/2019:
Sounds pretty much like my experiences. I was in a class where more experienced people attended and they let me know it...I was slowing down the class when the instructor took a few extra seconds to put me in the right position. It was horrible, the under their breath comments and whispers. "oh she's new" "they should have a beginners class" stupid comments like that. OH HELLO, it was a free introductory class!! Not to mention it was so crowded we were basically one on top of another...so not a pleasant experience to even something I want to try again.

But please go and do your free classes, you might like it better especially if you know more of what to expect.

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
I'm going to see what kind of yoga is with the next "free class" offering in September. Now I know enough to ask "what type of yoga will be offered?" instead of going in blindly.


happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
You know, if you are that thick in the butt and legs... should you be using those to your advantage? like jiu jitsu instead? at least that way instead of lamenting your butt you can view it as a lethal weapon...



Donkey - Sunday Aug 18, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Oh how much I appreciate my weekend mornings!  I didn't realize it until I compared this morning with yesterday's morning (with legal clinic).  I love doing the legal clinic, but I confess that it does make my weekends feel shorter.

So today is a typical Sunday morning - with the exception of doing laundry today instead of yesterday - EXCEPT that .... a local yoga studio is offering a free yoga class today at noon, and I want to go, but it's really scary for me to do this.  My daughter had to work today or I would drag her with me.  As this is regular yoga, this is not something that my husband can do with me.  I have no one else to call on to go with me.....  and actually, that's OK because **IF** I do this---- like with the Cat Yoga --- it's something I want to do by myself, for myself.

It's funny that I write this, because this is the yoga studio I intend to join eventually.  They are offering 6-7 free classes, taught by yogi trainees (so folks training to be certified yoga instructors) about once or twice a month.  Today is the first one.  

So you KNOW I will be agonizing over this, all morning.  


MORNING EDIT:  So I just learned that the Catholic yoga at my church is now going to be a regular thing -- Tuesay and Thursday MORNINGS.  So that is no longer an option for me, whether or not I was going to try to attend it again.

I did a little more poking around and learned that the form of yoga for today's free class might be too advanced for me.  I also should arrive early to fill out paperwork, since I'm not already a member.  Neither of those bits of information are encouraging, lol.  IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS STRESSFUL!


 

This week's goals:

  • Mindful eating:  portions & selections.
  • Sleep:  aiming for that 7 hours a night again.
  • Weight training:  start using my new bench!  Do I want to start this week, or wait for the beginning of a new month?  Hmm...
  • Water intake (100 ounces) & step goals (FitBit) remain ongoing.

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/18/2019:
I keep thinking of started yoga lessons. Good goals for the week.

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
Do your research! Pick a beginners' class, even though you are already in good shape.


Maria7 on 08/18/2019:
Good goals...You will know when you want to start using your new bench..enjoy!


BearCountryGG on 08/18/2019:
Great goals!!!


happy-1 on 08/18/2019:
You deserve something that is all for you and only you!


Horn_of_plenty on 08/18/2019:
your goals are good and i like how you are looking for something "to do by yourself" as it's very healthy of you to do!

it's nice to have your own passions and hobbies and now that you hubby cannot do certain things with you, it's important you challenge yourself still!



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