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Donkey - Wednesday Feb 06, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.0

So yesterday I did pretty well until dinner. Got home and was hungry and dinner wasn't ready yet because my husband forgot to cook the bacon.  Bacon takes FOREVER because I like it extra crispy.  So I started "snacking" on olives, cheese, lunchmeat, etc.  I was very full afterwards.  Didn't have a fat bomb, didn't even have my customary decaf coffee!

But this was enough to trigger a "come to Jesus" moment, where I realized that if I want to see a lower number on the scale, keto or not, I will need to stop eating too much!  That's one reason why keto & low-carb eating work.  Because of the increased fat, you naturally eat less because you're satisfied with less.  

So after that big dinner (yesterday), I went and did my customary 30 minute bike ride and then heavier weights.  I was able to do 3 sets this time - all with the heavier weights.  I did not feel as fully afterwards, which is a nice bonus.  Hard to explain.  after dinner, I was FULL.  After cardio & weights, I was comfortably satisfied.


One thing I have to say about eating more fat is how GOOD I feel - so much more energy and focus.  Much better workouts - cardio AND weight training.  I haven't had that "heavy leg" fatigue feeling in my legs in weeks.  Lots of energy to get things done - which is great!  But if I want a lower number, then I gotta watch what I eat, and that's exactly what I did today.  It went well!

I had food choices today that were slightly higher in carbs, e.g. I had a plum instead of grapefruit, AND I had to remind myself that when I had dinner, I could not go hog-wild.  No snacking before the actual dinner like yesterday!  And both cardio sessions (morning and evening) went well.

  • For new folks, the main purpose of my "cardio" on my recumbent stationary bike is to loosen up my back (especially in the mornings) and stretch out my legs, since I sit at a desk for most of my workday.

Work is starting to get crazy again - not crazy busy, but people just being insane.  How about you keep your attorney in the loop if you change lenders?  How about you stop giving your client bad information so that we as the attorney don't have to tell your client "no"?  Buying a house but too busy to attend the closing?   Then I guess you're too busy to buy the house!  Make it happen?  Oh sure, let me just pull out my magic wand - how about you just come to the closing like a RESPONSIBLE adult.

And to top it off, my boss is returning from his fabulous 1-month vacation in Florida.  I hope he is considerate enough to realize that the rest of us have been stuck in this freezing, icy, snowy icebox called Illinois, working away, while he's on vacay.  Doubtful.  


Speaking of work, though, today, Queen Bee co-worker - after she got done talking about her long weekend vacation in New Orleans all morning - was boasting about how she bought a treadmill for her home, because she can no longer take her health for granted.  So after spending SO MUCH money on countless diets (Jenny Craig, WW, NutriSystem) and supplements (AdvoCare), she's now plunked down some money on a treadmill.  Well, let's see if this time around, with WW and now the fancy treadmill, she can lose the weight she wants.   She made a special point of telling me all about the bells and whistles on her treadmill.

If this sounds witchy, don't worry -- she also made a few snide remarks today about taking joy in giving me a hard time over some little mistake I made by mentioning that the Associate Attorney went to one of her closings, which I guess I wasn't supposed to say anything, because she doesn't want him touching her files.  You don't want Associate to go to your closings?  Then don't go on vacation!!!  BE AT WORK AND DO YOUR JOB!  That's why you get paid 3x as much as I do and have full insurance for your family --- I don't have either of those perks, and I come to work. 

Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2019:
I know what you mean about being too full and then comfortably full after at least doing the exercise. Awhile ago, long time ago, in my mid-late 20's, when i did overeat to the point of it being very unhealthy, i was starting up my exercise routine again and i'd do it, even when i was uncomfortably full...it helped me get to where i was today. I'd be sweating out all the food, and i knew it was totally unhealthy what i had eaten and quantities, but i made the effort to stick to the weights routine which helped me in the end to get to where i am today!


Horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2019:
Like you, if i don't have the food already prepared ahead of time for dinner when i get home from work, i do run into problems or i choose something less healthy. it helps to have things prepared...which i know everything was for you except the bacon! maybe next time, text your hubby a reminder :)

i had no idea that your bike is to loosen your back!? and it does work, right? this is interesting! i have a few back exercises that i should send you, very easy. i could even write about them next time when i'm not in a rush to shower / leave my house!


Horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2019:
yeah, i do not think your boss will be thinking about the cold weather he has been escaping ;)

...will write about more soon...because i just glanced that you mentioned New Orleans of which i plan to visit this summer.


horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2019:
LOL, the treadmill can have all the bells and whistles, but let's see how long she uses it before it turns into a clothes hanger!

i think one thing maybe you can try to attain this year is full insurance for YOUR FAMILY? can you try to reach and get this from your boss??????


horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2019:
plus i agree, she went on vaca and people have to pick up the pieces, if need be, and go thru her stuff!


legcramps on 02/07/2019:
I hate these work phases where one week or month it's crazy and the next it's ok and then we're back to crazy again. Like, a little consistency would be nice, am I right?!

Good to hear your weight sessions are moving along nicely :)

I was trying to eat more fat for my breakfasts so that I would feel fuller during the day, but it didn't end up making me feel great. I know that might be customary, when changing the diet up a bit, to feel that way, but I just didn't like it. I stopped after a few days and went back to my normal breakfast routine.

P.S. Also, I went back because I got a bit of ribbing from people about eating bacon for breakfast every day. Obviously, I am still swayed by popular opinion :(



Donkey - Tuesday Feb 05, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.0

I'm hoping that with the vitamin supplements, I will have more energy and my hair will stop thinning out.  One of the side effects of iron pills is constipation. I'm challenged enough in this area, I don't need anything else to slow me down.  Ugh...

I won't go into the challenges I had yesterday with food, motivation, etc., because at the end of the day, I came to a resolution that my goal for February and possibly March is to keep the weight at 130 (or lower), and then when the warmer weather comes around, work on getting back to a more comfortable weight of around 125.   Winter has always been correlated with regaining weight and giving up.  This time, I'm not giving up, I'm just readjusting my goals to adapt to my circumstances.  (Does that sound like an excuse?)

I do realize that the weight-training results might have something else to say about staying at 130.  I will cross that bridge if I get to it, at which point, I will rely on how my clothes fit and feel.  Yesterday - either due to bloat or actual weight gain - my pants felt tight around the waist. Oh I can't have THAT feeling, no way.

Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/05/2019:
You are doing really well maintaining. Hope you have a good day.

Donkey on 02/06/2019:
Thank you for your encouragement! :D


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2019:
i have a coworker who also doesn't take the iron pills due to the constipation. could you add in a probiotic to counteract the constipation? a probiotic pill like taken before bed?

AND you didn't give up last winter either on your weight loss goals! This year is better, maintenance goals for you. keep at it.

i know what you mean about the tight clothes and not wanting to revisit that. with that knowledge, try to watch your calories / choices so that the weight doesn't continue to climb. you are catching it now...keep on with drinking water at work (i do so much better with water during the work week than on weekends!)

keep with getting sleep and feeling good. def the supplements should help and some of the hairloss i know is hereditary. my mom has that. there can also be shampoos to look into if you have to? if i were in your boat, as i'm younger so that's not yet something i'm facing too much, i would probably once again have to delve into shampoo / conditioner choices for combatting those hair issues.

Donkey on 02/06/2019:
Yes, I had that epiphany yesterday. I've had about a week of overeating - some because of the weather, some because of the weights, and some just because I've been hungrier.


SilverySparkles on 02/05/2019:
Iron does have a bad rep for that. Beef is a very good sourse of iron.

Donkey on 02/06/2019:
That's a helpful reminder - thank you!


SilverySparkles on 02/05/2019:
Cooking in cast iron pans also gives you iron ( they do need special care, but are worth it)

Donkey on 02/06/2019:
We have one! It has been a while since we've used it. I will do some searching for recipes tomorrow (at work - if it's slow). Thanks!


thinkpositive on 02/05/2019:
Ir looks like you are doing great and that your goals are realistic.

Donkey on 02/06/2019:
Thank you! I have many issues... The problem I'm having is that in December, I weighed around 124-125 and now I'm up to 130! It's just hard to reconcile the numbers on the scale with how GOOD I feel.



Donkey - Monday Feb 04, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.0

Very short on time, but I wanted to respond to questions regarding the fat bombs.  Since I use an ice tray as molds for the fat bomb recipe, the portion sizes are smaller, so thus the calories are lower.  I think for the ones I make with peanut butter, the calores are around 70-75.  For the ones I made with the almond butter, the calories are probably closer to 80, but some of them have a small almond in them - as a "surprise bonus" - so those are probably closer to 90 calories.  The peanut butter ones taste like Reese's peanut butter cups but with more chocolate.  The almond ones are a delight unto their own.

I received my blood test results, and it seems as though I quite low on several things, one of them being Vitamin D.  I'm taking the print-out to work, and if I have downtime, I'll look up what the acronyms mean.

Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 02/04/2019:
I love making peanut butter balls every so often; same kind of thing as yours, and sometimes I add chocolate chippets which makes them taste like Reese's. BF and I both love our Reese's!


horn_of_plenty on 02/04/2019:
GREAT calories on these fat bombs! totally awesome so you can have 1-3 of them per day!! nice.

let us know what you find regarding the blood test - it can also be a reason why you've been feeling down at times.

regarding vitamin D, that's a typical one. do you take a multi everyday? of course, i'd hope you do!

let me know what you find, it'd be interesting. maybe there's something you are lacking that is an "easy fix" to help you feeling better for the rest of the winter.


SilverySparkles on 02/04/2019:
Not bad calories for the fat bombs, they sound good.



Donkey - Sunday Feb 03, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.0

So yesterday was a struggle, but I stuck to keto choices.  Too many choices, probably, but those were my choices.  

Did some cooking yesterday - sugar free stewed cranberries, gummies, fat bombs made with almond butter (this time, instead of peanut butter, for a change) - and my dear husband made keto friendly Phillly cheesesteak stuffed green peppers.  I added my own kale salad and was quite content.  Had decaf and 2 fat bombs afterwards.

I was proud of myself last night.  I was going to indulge in some 85% cacao chocolate right before bed, which I didn't need because I had already had the 2 fat bombs while watching TV with my dahguter, SO... I decided to brush my teeth and get ready for bed instead.  That's ME being in control of food and NOT the other way around.  Just because I CAN have it doesn't mean I MUST or SHOULD have it.

Yesterday's workout was awesome.  Pushed those heavy weights.  It doesn't take a lot of time, really, and I usually indulge in watching TV shows while I work with weights.  So I had fun.  However, later last night, as I was getting my pajamas on, I thought to myself:  I think I'd rather not work as hard and just eat less.  That is to say, I'd rather see a lower number on the scale myself than to show visable results on my body.  Hmm... I will see if I feel the same way at the end of the month.  Because I also had the thought of, Wouldn't it be SO COOL to wear a sleeveless shirt in the summer and show off some fabulous arms?  AND, Wouldn't it be awesome to wear a skirt and show off some fabulous lean leg muscles?

(I wonder what Queen Bee would think about THAT! - ha ha) (Seriously though, her thoughts or reaction have NOTHING to do with ANY of my motivations.)

So today is a more relaxed day, althought I would like to make a fathead crust - turns out like pita bread, for dipping in hummus or to use as a flatbread to accompany any meal.  I plan to run errands with my husband - as many as he wants and can handle - while the weather is nice.  They are HIS errands, but he really can't do these things on his own any more, with his physical limitations.  I'd rather stay home, but time-wise, I think it will work out better if we try to do these things today.

PS  I forgot to mention that even though I struggled with eating yesterday, eating way more fat than I usually do and fighting cravings, I had a very nice level of energy for my cardio workout this morning.  It feels good to have energy like this.

PPS  My weight training schedule this week, then is Saturday (yesterday), Tuesday, Thursday, and then either Saturday or Sunday to start again.

Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2019:
yup, yesterday i moved one of the 3 frozen bags of cranberries in my freezer to the fridge so i can make the sugar free cooked cranberries too! :) just yum and very low calories.

omg that meal sounds just amazing. stuffed peppers! meat! and dessert. yum! goodness yum!

nice job staying i control. i had to do the same thing last night. started having minor cravings, but was already past my calories for the day and didn't want to do further damage, so i also just went to bed!

Queen Bee would be rather jealous of course if you rock the sleeveless shirt and skirt! :) this is why i continue to press on, the results have made themselves worth the push to continue lifting. also, each time i workout i'm reminded how heavy some of my exercises are and they don't get easier. but then if i went down in weights, then those lower weights would also become hard. so, i'd rather just keep pushing to keep where i'm at than to default back to anything less. i thought of that when you mentioned maybe reverting back to lower weights. Sometimes i also remind myself it'd be good to try harder, do more reps or higher weights of things, like situps. I feel it's really hard to keep pushing, but it's the only way to keep seeing a change. of course, we want to push in moderation and not all at once!


Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2019:
Nice job pushing thru the struggle with food and making it so you felt good this morning. you can do this.

yesterday and today my schedule is rather lighter than it used to be when i was in a semi-relationship with the older Ricky. he used to distract me from my day as we'd have plans often.

finally i'm able to do less and temptations of food are back. so i'm also working on keeping some kinda of order around here :)

like you are cooking, i'm inspired to get back to some cooking of my own especially when i run outta food. i guess i have too much food right now - which is why i'm not cooking too much. except i have meat that needs to be cooked or will spoil soon - it's a corned beef in the freezer. it says to cook by end of january...hopefully cooking it next week is close enough...?

cooking is something i haven't been doing as i'm just not up for it right now. i guess once i get in a couple weekends of good workouts and clean the bathroom lol...then i'll feel totally ready to delve into the kitchen for a new recipe!


SilverySparkles on 02/03/2019:
How many calories are the fat bombs?


horn_of_plenty on 02/04/2019:
yeah, how many cals are your fat bombs, like 100? 80 ? 50? I'd say anyhting 100 and lower is great to add to a diet anytime :)


legcramps on 02/04/2019:
I can understand the internal dialogue about losing more weight or gaining muscle mass. I know for some people, it's about looking good, but for me - lifting weights is about feeling good. I can (and have) lost loads of weight by just eating less, but then I have zero energy and no zest for life. And aren't we here to live? When I eat better, and lift weight to increase muscle mass - I have energy, I can run after things without fearing that I might lose my balance, fall and break something because my bones are so fragile. I feel good. Who cares what I look like? In the end, for me, it's about how I FEEL, not what I look like or what the scale tells me.



Donkey - Saturday Feb 02, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 130.0

DISCOURAGED


Chair yoga with Mr. Donkey was OK/nice.  Different (and some were challenging!) poses that I felt a very good stretch.  However, I didn't feel as relaxed as I sometimes do afterwards.  Didn't get lost this time, so walked into the session with less stress.  However, there's a guy there who -- if left to his own devices -- would crack jokes and make comments throughout the whole session.  The instructor has to reign him in.  Really breaks up the "zen" of the session, but I guess for free and only once a month, you get what you pay for.  The last 2 times, I thought about saying something to the instructor, but I don't because I do not want to do anything to discourage this man from attending.  I think it's really good for him to do this yoga.  My husband and I talk about the session after each time, and we're both on the same page.  As long as my husband wants to go, I support him 100% and will go with him (because I know he won't go alone).


Afterwards, we met up with our kids at the local mom-and-pop diner.  I did very welll with adapting my meal to keto.  had French onion soup with melted cheese, minus the croutons.  Chicken and avocado sandwich with melted Swiss cheese and mushrooms - ate everything but the bread.  Instead of fries, had fresh fruit, which I split with everyone.  Had 2 thin slices of cantalope and honeydew -- that was all I got, LOL. 

But honestly, eating has been a struggle all week, with the colder weather, and then the muscle fatigue from shoveling and from the higher weights workouts (even though I got in only 2 sessions).  I had to do some self-affirmations this morning to NOT be discouraged by the scale.  Keto and heavier weight training are often not in sync with the numbers on the scale.  I said I was going to give the higher weight-training a month, so I just have to hang in there, I guess. 

"Warmer" temperatures here this weekend, but it's supposed to rain - on top of all this snow that we still have on the ground.  I don't have any specific plans other than laundry and weigh training.  I haven't decided what I want for breakfast yet; everything sounds good:  cheese, pepperoni, protein bar, almonds, IDK...  Had a 2nd cup of coffee and a fat bomb while trying to figure it out, but I still do not know what to eat.

UGH THE CONSTANT STRUGGLE IS REAL.

 

Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/03/2019:
I find that the more I exercise, the more I weigh also sometimes...but have to keep it in perspective, as in muscle weighs more than fat. That is wonderful that you and your Hubby are doing the yoga together. Try to not be discouraged and think about happy things. Spring is on the way! Smile.

Donkey on 02/03/2019:
Yes, this is 100% correct. Must stay POSITIVE! Negative thoughts will serve no purpose here.


Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2019:
oh yes, i'm missing out on having any "fat bombs" and really am craving them! I do have sugar free chocolate chips at home though, that i keep forgetting about...i think you've just enticed me into having some later in yogurt :)

lol about this nutty man in your yoga class. Try not to take it to heart, maybe take his nuttiness as "part of the class!" like, it's expected that he's part of the class when you go :)

It's great you have a bunch of choices to eat. Better than being bored!

And keep on with your weight training and keto because it's only the 3rd of February so if you quit now, well, you didn't even give it a full week in Feb :)

the feelings of discouragement will pass. remember that the # on the scale shouldn't be your only source of happiness!

and if it does keep going up though, you do have an approach which worked before, the initial way you go about losing weight, without keto, come March, if you have to.

i do like things keto too at times, it takes away the highs and lows of sugar cravings between meals and after meals.

i must order my favorite peanut butter atkins cups on Amazon.



Donkey - Friday Feb 01, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 126.5

Logging in from my phone - which I hate doing...

I did not write anything yesterday, but it was such a struggle.  Yesterday was HARD.  Struggled a lot with eating...

OK DD is being weird with formatting  so I'm quitting for now.

Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2019:
I KNOW it's gotta be particularly hard for you right now with the extensive cold and snows...you will pull through. Sending you a virtual hug and warmth which i know is coming back to your area soon.

You can do this. The seasons will eventually change back. Keep your J donkey head up and smile. YOU GOT THIS.


horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2019:
Chicago has been on our news about the cold for around a week now. so, your struggles are known!


legcramps on 02/01/2019:
You've got this! I always find it so difficult in the winter, when it's so cold :( but you can do this!!



Donkey - Wednesday Jan 30, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 126.5

I'm not even sure what "feels like -51F" feels like.... I'm almost afraid to go outside, but today is timesheet day, and I also did not check to see if there are any deadlines to be met today (contingencies).  Finally, one of our clients, a simple man, is closing tomorrow, so he will need his final figures today.  

My plan is to probably work a shortened day, but if I do that, THIS time, I will plan ahead of time, so that I do NOT come home and just eat.  No, I will do better this time.


 Last night, I had an awesome weight training session.  I actually like lifting the heavier weights.  I do not know when my next session will be.  It probably should be Thursday.  Friday is Chair Yoga, and I do not want to lift the night before weigh-in on Saturday, after yoga and date night.  I could lift on Saturday, but then I could not on Sunday, which is preferred, I think.  Not sure...  Now that I think about it, I am leaning torwards Satudray, and then just adjusting the rotation after that.


AFTERNOON EDIT:  I decided that I would work up until lunch, whether that be 12p or 1pm or 2pm.  (Well, probably not 2pm because I didn't bring enough food to eat.)  I would work until there was no more work.  It was myself and Male Co-Worker and that's it.  Nobody else showed up.  The office was definitely chilly; the furnace couldn't keep up.  I wore 2 pairs of pants and 3 layers on top (4 if you count my sports bra), and a knit hat, and by the time I left, my fingers started feeling cold, making typing a little slower and more clumsy.

For my 2nd breakfast, I had a more calorie-dense meal/snack, so that when I came home, I wasn't very hungry.  Craved raw vegetables more than anything, so that's what I had at home.  I wasn't going to spend the time to prep them before work if I had no plans on staying very long.

I'm hoping to convince my daughter to let one of us driver her to work, because it's so cold.  Her car will start, because it's in the garage, but my main concern is after work at 11pm, being an older car, she may not be able to get it started.   I would take her and then my son would pick her up.  She's talking about leaving early because the store has been empty due to the cold.  Last night, they had her bringing in carts from the parking lot, even though she works in the apparel department.  She said when she came in, her face had turned completely purple except for around her eyes.


EVENING EDIT:  So tired - the cold has really sapped a lot of energy from me, it would seem. I'm not sure why, as it's not like I was out there shoveling.  (BTW, we're getting a couple of inches of snow tomorrow afternoon when it "warms up".  I really hope they are wrong about that.)

Dinner was sausage and peppers, with a salad and giardinara  Definitely an early bedtime for me.  I hope to have the lights out by 7:30p.  

The plan is to go to work tomorrow, but the morning temperatures are supposed to be almost as bad as today's.  And like I said above, just when it will warm up, it's going to start to snow -- which I absolutely HATE to drive in.  *sigh*

Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/30/2019:
Brrr!!! Hope you are able to stay warm for most of the day today! Glad to hear you had an awesome weight session :) keep it up!


horn_of_plenty on 01/31/2019:
I would def be afraid or anxious rather to be outside for more than 10min in -51 wind chill. Yesterday, my face got soooo cold and burning as i walked home 10min in 10 degrees F with a very strong wind chill factor (not sure what). it was bad and i knew i'd have to cover my face today with a scarf which helped so much this morning!

yeah, if you PLAN to leave early and PLAN how you'll use the time, maybe PLAN a snack and an activity AFTER the snack, you'll be A-ok! :) and bed early!? that's what i'd do! :)

i also had an awesome weights session tuesday and another one scheduled for tonight :) and i'm leaving at 4pm :) not 5pm ! woohoo...easy to fit in weights today :)

i'm surprised the furnace couldn't keep up - maybe they didn't even set it as high as usual since it's a lot of energy to heat things up with the outdoors being such a drastic cold.

i can't believe they had her working outside...her face should be fully covered by a scarf!

Lovely dinner :) perfect for this cold, the sausage and peppers.

at least you can leave early today - do you?


Horn_of_plenty on 01/31/2019:
hoping everything is ok by you, J donk :)



Donkey - Tuesday Jan 29, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 126.5

A quick entry before I leave for work this cold, cold Chicago morning...  And tomorrow will be even colder!

Last night, still feeling the satisfying ache from the previous heavier weight training episode, I had an epiphany that this approach (heavier weights) is the right path for me.  Hard to explain it, but just had this overall feeling that I summarized in a statement to myself, "Yes, this is the right path." I just wish I could have these "God moments" when it came to bigger things in life - relationships, jobs, children, moving, aging, etc.

I've decided, just now, that February (along with this last week in January, since February is a short month) will be a "test run" of what heavier weights can do for me.  I want to see where I'm at, physically, at the end of February, and then re-evaluate.  So this will be a fun challenge for myself.


The colder temperatures and all the snow that came on Monday make walking at lunchtime very difficult.  As a result, I've been taking longer bike rides in the evening - also because I'm watching a TV series that has episodes that run about 55 minutes.  After the cold leaves Chicago, we will have rain, which is not helpful either.


I've been having back spasms in the morning, when I ride my easy bike.  As you may recall, the purpose of riding the bike is just to limber up my legs, back, etc., while I watch the morning news and catch up on social media on my phone.  These are little twinges that say "Hey! I'm here!"  My fear is that these twinges will develop into something worse, as what happens some times.  I'm not sure if this is due to all the shoveling, or lifting the heavier weights (nooooo!), or stress (?), or just my back reminding me that it can ruin my life any time it feels like it.  

I'm almost wondering if I should take a Flexerall to work with me, to take at work, to help my muscles relax.  I would take the pill at work, after I've driven there.  I guess if I fall asleep, I can just take a nap on the boss' couch, since he's not around.  That's not really good to do, though, with all the sharks I work with.  IDK, my main concern is that these twinges don't lead to another misalignment with my hips and spine.  Can't do that again...

Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/29/2019:
Which TV series are you watching? Sorry to hear about the spasms; could it be your alignment on the bike? When you check social media while riding, do you tend to sit upright rather than having your hands at the handlebars? That might increase tension to your lower back. I always have to change position on the bike every few minutes because my back also gives me issues when i'm riding.

Donkey on 01/30/2019:
Confessions of a Serial Killer: Ted Bundy -- on Netflix. There's only 4 episodes, unfortunately. I find true crime stories to be fascinating.

My bike is a recumbent bike, so I am always sitting back, against the back support. I took some CBD drops yesterday, and the spasms stopped. I had no spasms today.

The thing about my back is that if I can catch it right when it starts acting up, and address whatever it is that's bothering it, I'm usually almost always 100% good to go. It's when I ignore it or don't notice/think/catch it early on that I run into HUGE problems.


horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2019:
we are getting a "cold snap" but nowhere near as cold as by you...it will pass :)

The God Moments may be few and far between but they have a tendency sometimes to leak (in a good way) from one part of your life into another. is your son still set to go back to ... air force was it? i keep forgetting the branch.

GREAT idea for February test run on the weights...keep on, you will not be disappointed. ..i know it's hard this time of year to muster up the energy to get weights into your routine. I'm struggling at work to remain awake and wondering how i'll pull it off tonight. ...but i will try. :) ......

Donkey on 01/30/2019:
Right? I do not think I will be disappointed either!!! Just gotta get over that number on the scale. This is where my fancy Ironman scale will come in handy, because it measures muscle and fat percentages. I'm hoping that will be something to be proud of!


horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2019:
nice job to incorporate a little extra biking to counteract less walking! I was trying to walk outside and did both Friday and Monday coming home from work but Wednesday will also be too cold in NY to do it - i plan to rest...hoping to make it to Friday and feel ok then - have another planned lunch date with the same man.

my first guess is back spasms from stress. Next guess is from shoveling.

listen to your body and don't overdo.

remember all the shoveling is exercise...


Horn_of_plenty on 01/30/2019:
Stay warm and think positive thoughts, this cold shall pass!!!



Donkey - Monday Jan 28, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 126.5

Fortunately, my muslces are not too sore this morning.  I have that pleasant ache in my inner thighs - the area I want to target!   Therefore, I was able to handle shoveling this morning - although I had to come in and yell "I need help!" So my son ended up coming out to help me shovel half of the driveway.  So thankful for him.  Next year he will be gone, so we'll have to think of a plan B for sure.

Anyway, there was about 6-7 inches of snow.  Not too wet/dense (thank you, Jesus!) , but because there was so much, it was somewhat heavy to lift and heave over the already existing snowbanks.  I *did* notice that my upper left arm was still a bit sore from where I had the tetanus shot.  There was 2 feet of snow in the street though from the half-done job the city snowplow did.  So I had to flatten enough for my little car to pull out, because something like that I would definitely get stuck.   That would be worse than going into work late.  Male Co-Worker barely made it to work and texted me to stay home until the roads are cleared out better. So I plan to leave around 10am or so.  

My next heavy weight-training will Tuesday or Wednesday.  If I catch myself at certain angles in the mirror, I think I see a nice muscle cut between the shoulders and bicep/tricep, but then when I turn front, I cannot see it any more.  That's OK, with CONSISTENT heavier weights, it will come.

Hopefully, with work to keep me busy, I can keep my appetite in check today.  I was glad for the extra energy from the nuts yesterday, but would rather not make this a habit.


A few years ago, when I was doing South Beach Diet (basically low-carb), it came to January and I fell off hard with binge eating cashews (not recommended).  I think that as long as I live in a colder winter climate, I should realize that in January, I crave more nuts, and learn to accept this and adjust, rather than to fight it and then fail/fall.  Perhaps I should consider adding smaller portions of nuts every day, during the winter.

Going into Spring, I would have a slightly higher weight, but that would come off during the warmer months.

Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/28/2019:
Just got myself caught up on your weights journey :)

I feel like you could go either way if you are having trouble with form when you're lifting heavier - you could lessen the weight and continue as you were, or you could lessen the reps and try to get 8 or even 6 instead with good form. I would never compromise form, so whatever you need to do to make sure you're performing each exercise with integrity of form, that's what you should do!

Donkey on 01/29/2019:
I agree - I do not think there is anything wrong with using a lighter weight, proper form, and higher reps. The results will just be different.

And something is better than nothing.


horn_of_plenty on 01/28/2019:
don't give yourself such a high expectation always lady!!!! i am no pioneer either. i prefer to follow the path others have set, always. however, that being said, i am forging ahead as best as i can :)

well, your son is here now, thankfully! glad he helped you! everyone cannot believe the temps and snow you guys are getting in Chicagoland!

Yes, leave when the roads are more clear and take your time ;) safety is more important than being exactly on time to work, for sure!!!

yes, i am sure the results are starting to show, for sure! how long have you been at it on and off, like a year? or more?

yeah, my appetite came back yesterday ugh! not enough protein and fat i think, too many carbs also...revved up my appetite...you know, when you overload the carbs at one meal, you just want more at the next which is what happened for me into today.

same here, it's def harder in the Winter months with weight...but it does usually come off by the end of summer.

Winter is def the hardest. but you are 35% complete lady with Winter!

Donkey on 01/29/2019:
it's really hard to say how long I've been doing weights because it's been so on/off. I seem to go through spurts of maybe 6-8 weeks and then I quit for about the same amount of time or longer.

I started up with the lighter weights again this month.

I do not know if it's the winter lighting (with the sun) or just the colder temps. Cold and dark are not conducive to keeping one's appetite in check. It's biology, I'm afraid.


horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2019:
yes, the cold plus the days of longer darkness are definitely not a stimulus towards weight loss. I hear you on that. we can do what we can, but we should also know that during these periods our bodies may need more sleep, rest, and self care....



Donkey - Sunday Jan 27, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 126.5

Last night was my first attempt at making a keto pizza, and I think it went pretty well.  My daughter and my husband said that I should have used more sauce, but I thought it was just fine the way it was.  I would definitely make that again.  Everyone was happy and satisfied with Family Pizza Night.

However... then "something bad" happened.  Not really bad, but definitely not ideal.  As you may recall, Saturdays have been my "relax" day - not cheat, but just increased carbs if you will.  In the freezer, I had a bag of frozen banana slices that's been sitting in there for a few months.  Bananas are really high in carbs, but my daughter eats them regularly in her meals.  However, if they get "too brown" in her sensitive opinion (I think - LOL), I slice them up and freeze them to use at a later date, either as a substitute for oil in making a boxed cake mix or in the summertime, blending them up to make "ice cream".  They can also be used in my daughter's smoothies, if she could get past the "too brown".

Anyway, so I've had this bag in the freezer that this weekend had been calling my name.  After dinner, I sat down to watch TV with my daughter before going out to shovel AGAIN -- and ate the whole bag!  Yikes!  There were at least 3 bananas, maybe 4.  Talk about carb overload!  Might as well have had a small chocolate milkshake from McDonalds - YES!

The thing with working a keto plan though is that once your blood sugar levels spike like that, you have to work to get back into the metabolic ketosis state again, which can be difficult.  I'm feeling it this morning.  Very difficult to prolong any kind of overnight fasting, cravings, etc.  So I'm back on track today, but I have a lot of mixed feelings about the bananas.  "Planned binge"?  Probably.  Don't like it when any type of excessive eating happens. 

You may think I'm being too hard on myself.  After all, "cheating" with bananas?  That's a valid argument to make, I think.  I could rationalize it by saying that it's not "that bad" because bananas have additional nutritional value, so this wasn't the  same as eating complete junk.  I would admit that there's truth to that as well.  And on the PLUS side, any and all bathroom issues reconciled, which is always a wonderful thing.

So anyway, that was Saturday night.  Today is Sunday, back on track.  Hopefully, I will feel motivated enough to try the heavier weights today.  In fact, that's what I'll do right now is set those up.


EVENING EDIT:  Probably not a good idea to do a heavier weights workout the day before a huge snow storm.  My muscles have been feeling fatigue for most of the day.  I've struggled with appetite, between the fatigue and coldness in the house.  

Ate what was probably too many nuts today again, but not a binge.  Just more than I should have had.

Going to do my best to get to bed early tonight, as I will set an earlier alarm to allow for shoveling time tomorrow morning.

Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/27/2019:
A happy digestive state is worth a couple of bannanas.

Donkey on 01/27/2019:
I'll give a big AMEN to that - It's very uncomfortable when I'm off.


happy-1 on 01/27/2019:
And as my nutritionist would say, if you are hungry enough to eat a bag of bananas, you were actually hungry and your body is telling you it needs more food/calories than you are giving it.

Donkey on 01/27/2019:
THANK YOU!!!!!


happy-1 on 01/27/2019:
And she’d applaud you for eating an unprocessed food. Look how far you have come... you thought nothing of eating ice cream cake leftovers that had been in the fridge forever, but instead you treated yourself well and had a favorite frozen treat

Donkey on 01/27/2019:
Well, there's that truth too. Thank you for helping me see the glass as "half full". It is my regret that I couldn't do that on my own initiative, so I appreciate you steering me in the right direction. THANK YOU AGAIN!!!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/27/2019:
i agree with what you wrote on happy's diary entry about ok to cheat on keto / diets...lol....you are either following it or not...i cannot cheat either. i prefer it to be my lifestyle and that's it...not one day this and one day that...!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/27/2019:
well, now the bananas are now in the past!!! in the future, you can also have some other fruit mixed with the bananas...or a greek yogurt iwth bannaas....

instead of eating all of one thing, try to say, ok, i'm having some of that banana...and mix it with some things...

or have a decaf coffee or two with the bananas...you were probably hungry and tired from all the shoveling...i totally can see that. it's hard when doing that type of exercise in winter!

Donkey on 01/27/2019:
Those are options to think about. I didn't even think to consider mixing up the frozen bananas with something else. I could have put the bananas in a bowl (portion control) rather than eat them out of the bag.

Truth is, I think I wanted them to be gone, more than anything else. I mean, I had a craving, but I didn't want to revisit that again.

The cold weather is really playing with me. I gotta be stronger than this. I *AM* stronger than this. I'd suck as a pioneer...



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