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Donkey - Thursday Dec 16, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

I woke up this morning thinking it was Saturday morning.  So that's how today is gonna be...  It's not even Friday and I'm feeling like the weekend.  I have to do this one more day after today!

I went to bed early (even earlier than 9:30pm) and slept soundly.  I woke up this morning feeling tired and fatigued.  Not the blatent muscle fatigue that I felt yesterday, but just tired all over.  It was harder to push through my bike ride this morning.  I did a few upper body weights (one for back, chest, shoulders).  Each one was difficult, and now my left arm, where I had the COVID booster hurts a little bit, like it was bruised.  Mild but noticeable.  So I probably could have done with a rest day or a shorter bike ride.

Somebody gifted the law firm with a box of Frango sea salt milk chocolates.  Fortunately, I don't like milk chocolate as much as I like dark chocolate, but really?  Thank goodness I have my "no candy at work" goal for this week.  Seriously, i think that's the only thing stopping me from having one.  As I commented in another entry, the Bundt cakes are very stale and no longer a temptation.

I had a "difference of opinion" last night with my Husband, but instead of expressing my frustration vocally, I just kept quiet and went to bed (hence, going to bed much earlier than usual).  It was HARD not to self-comfort with chocolates or peanut butter, but I remained strong.


So yesterday, Male Co-Worker unilaterally declares that I am no longer working on Associate Attorney's sales files.  That from now on, Nice Lady will be working on them.  So just because MCW doesn't want to work on AA's sales files, now I am no longer allowed to do so either.  WTF!!!!  (Sorry Maria for the swears) 

Male Co-Worker made this announcement to a realtor, so now we have to go with that, because it's been announced publicly.  I went straight up to the Boss and said, Does this mean I'm not working on the attorney review portion of AA's sales files too???  The Boss looked very confused, and then said, Let's ask AA when he returns to the office (today). 

I left it that, and I'll tell you why.  Male Co-Worker actually did me a huge favor.  That's less work and less headache for me to deal with.  Also, it makes much more sense to divide the workload that way:  one assistant works on purchases, one assistant works on sales.  That's how the Boss should do HIS files, but Male Co-Worker pushed the attorney review portion of the process onto my position because he got tired of dealing with bickering and petty negotiations.

Nice Lady was as happy as can be yesterday, because now she's "important" and has work to do.  Kind of felt like salt on an open wound.  But truth be told, I don't begrudge her work to do.  If that's what she wants, that's fine with me. I get paid for my time whether I'm busy or not.  And now I won't be as busy.

Also, I feel that in a way, this is the beginning of my end as well, with my workload reducing.  Yes, maybe it's time for that.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 12/16/2021:
I guess it is how your office is set up but how can a co-worker dictate what you are or are not working on? Is he 'in charge'? Just asking. I guess I am in a good position. I work alone and have one boss. I offer to do things for other people, but it is at my discretion. Workers, in other departments, may bicker amongst themselves, I usually just hear it or about it - not involved. I am glad this will be less work - maybe less work + less stress. I hope you feel better.

Donkey on 12/19/2021:
RIGHT??? That is exactly why I wrote about it here. How surreal is that someone just out of the blue makes office-wide policy that affects 3 other people???

I know that if I felt really strongly about it, I could raise a stink and "fight" for my workload, but see my comment to Maria below. She's right, and THIS time, my brain was quick enough to see & realize this too, before protesting. This way, everyone remains a little happier than if I had made waves.


bearcountrygg on 12/16/2021:
Sounds like there may be less stress at work now......

Donkey on 12/19/2021:
At least it's not stress from being so busy and overworked! I'm still coming off that wave and being bombarded with the "not enough work" wave. Plus, I see things that aren't being done correctly, but I'm not in charge of them, so I keep my mouth shut and mind my own business.

THAT part of stress is definitely something I can control. I will be focusing on that while work remains slow(er). I'm definitely working on work stress that is more emotional in origin rather than actual work. I'm looking forward to doing this. I think it will serve me quite well.


Maria7 on 12/16/2021:
You have a very 'healthy' attitude about this restructuring at your office. Perhaps the MCW is able to see that you have more than your share of the work and this is his way of trying to be fair with the amount of work not being put mostly on one person (even though you are well qualified to handle it). A blessing in disguise, shall we say?

Donkey on 12/19/2021:
DEFINITELY a blessing in disguise - and I'm so grateful to God that I could see this clearly right away. I truly believe that God speaks to us, but we're not always listening. THIS is one of those examples.

This is a much better, more logical distribution of the workload, and everyone ends up a little happier, for different reasons - at least for now.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/19/2021:
I totally get you on these "tired" days and i have them on and off myself. when i have them, it usually feels that way for a couple days, before i bounce back.

with the chocs you cannot eat at workk right now, perhaps take some so you don't miss you, put them away for later?

i hate missing out on free / tasty baked goods, cookies, and candy at work. i find it hard to turn down. i even took cookies home this week...and you just reminded me i should have one before i work out! they were outrageous...bakery cookies with fruit fillings and chocolate drizzled on top...not your typical...

lol, i remember last time you were talking about nice lady being so happy to be working...and then she got overworked! ha...

Donkey on 12/19/2021:
Some of the dark chocolates, I've taken home, to eat - one at a time - after dinner at night. Those are individually wrapped, so those are easy to do. I did the same with the title company cookies. Treats that are free-standing are harder to deal with. I suppose I could bring a container, but I'd rather be able to resist such temptations altogether.

Oh yes... I see this whole work drama backfiring on Nice Lady, and then we'll have to hear all about how busy she is, why can't she retire, she's so tired, etc....



Donkey - Wednesday Dec 15, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

I am up early so that I can take my car in for an oil change and maintenance.  There's something wrong with the battery, because I've been having recent problems getting the car started. Once it starts, it's fine, but it's alarming not to be able to start my car when I need to go! 

My arm is much less sore this morning - thankfully! - but as I headed to the bathroom to get dressed, I felt that deep muscle fatigue in my legs.  It was only for about 10 seconds, but wow, I really noticed it.  That didn't stop me from riding my bike this morning, though, because, first and foremost, I need to loosen up my hips and lower back, and second, I didn't have any difficulties (with leg fatigue) while riding.

Because of my sore arm, I didn't do any weights yesterday, and I did minimal leg weights today.  Yes, even with the fatigue felt earlier, I decided to do leg weights because my arm is still a little sore, and I didn't want to tax that any harder.  My plan is to do upper body weights tomorrow.


 Eating yesterday went well, but I can definitely tell when I'm "dieting".  I can feel that I'm running at a deficit, even though I'm not feeling hugely hungry.  The Boss brought in these mini Bundt cakes from a realtor -- except that he got these on Monday, and brought them in on Tuesday.  So they were a little stale and they had all tossled a bit in the box.  I took one, and had a small taste of the cream cheese frosting.  Nice, but not great and not worth the calories.  I dug out a chocolate chip out of the cake, and then threw the rest of my little cake out.  Blasphemy, I know, but frankly, just not worth it.

I had a conflict with Male Co-Worker yesterday. You know, I work on my files, and he has his files to do.  But for some reason, he thought that I was neglecting my Boss by not making sure he went to his sale closing.  You see, because of COVID, sellers now pre-sign documents ahead of time, and the seller's attorney's don't attend closings, but are available by phone in case something comes up.  So I thought that the Boss didn't need to go to this closing.  Apparently, he did, but I'm not sure why it's MY responsibility to make sure when it's not my file.  The Boss seemed a little confused too as to "why am I going to a sale closing?"

It seems though that the Boss was not having a very good cognitive day yesterday, and this I did not realize was happening.  That is to say, I didn't realize that we were at the point where the Boss has "good days" and "bad days" cognitively.  I've always looked up to him as being very wise and knowledgeable, which I think he still is, but I guess on some days, he just lacks the ability to be organized - ???  The knowledge is there, but the ability to apply it effectively is waning... I guess? 

Anyway, now that I know, hopefully I can do better.  Yesterday though, with the pain in my arm from the booster, I was a little distracted, too.  It's hard to be 100% when you're not feeling 100%, which is why good health is everything.

 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/15/2021:
You mentioned something about catching shingles yesterday that I wanted to address....from my understanding....only people who have had chicken pox can ever get shingles...the chicken pox causes something to remain in the spine that can later cause shingles.....shingles is not contagious...BUT...someone with shingles can cause chicken pox in someone else that has never had chicken pox.....it happened at our house.....actually stress causes shingles to flare up in a person who has had chicken pox and I believe that is the only cause....


Jacky82020 on 12/15/2021:
Did you say the Boss has been DX’d with some kind of dementia or is he experiencing age related cognitive decline?

Sounds like many goodie temptations at your job! Same for when I taught school, but not so bad. Here’s an interesting observation I made. The heavier people, women more so than men, would eat all daintily, raw vegetables etc & the thinner people would pig down the pastries. I was a pastry pig. Never kept that kind of good at home, so it was a real treat. People asked how I could eat like that & stay thin. The obvious answer was I didn’t eat that often.

Donkey on 12/16/2021:
No, the Boss has not been diagnosed with a cognitive decline, which allows him to remain in denial. Some of the medications he takes, related to his heart attack, cause him not to think as clearly -- I guess?

At my work, it's the opposite. And that's how I gained weight back, by indulging at work. Not going down that path again. It just isn't worth tempting that fate, especially since I know we'll have temptations here at home (gifts, leftovers) that are fresher and probably better. I think I'd rather have those.

Does that make sense? Perhaps I am faulty in my thinking.


bearcountrygg on 12/15/2021:
I see where your boss is having some difficult days.........I saw it happen with our parents and it's happening in our house as I speak....for both of us......friends are experiencing it as well....it's a part of aging....D says his brain is full so he has to forget something to remember something new....that "explains" it about as well as I can...LOL...it's a fact of life...and possibly the most common reason the elderly decide to just relax and enjoy what is left of their lives.....at our house we see it...acknowledge it.....and basically keep a better eye on each other.......funny how the old memories are still strong....but it's harder to remember something recent like "breakfast".....I remember visiting my Grandma in the nursing home....she had quite the day....according to staff...she had somehow "collected other peoples belts and hung them in her closet"...then she proceeded to the bathroom where she put her hearing aid battery in her mouthwash bottle and washed her hands in the toilet.......I arrived and was encouraging her to eat her lunch when she told me that she had spent the morning picking green beans on the farm.......old age stinks but it's probably better than the alternative......


Maria7 on 12/15/2021:
Both Hubby and I are getting more forgetful, it seems. Yes, we're getting older. We're retired. Thankful we have each other to look after each other with our good Lord's help.

Donkey on 12/16/2021:
I agree that age has something to do with it. I'm not sure if it's me that is just having problems coping or if it's as bad as it seems/feels to me.

Oh well, not my place. All I can do is what **I** can do, so I will try to be more aware of the "bad days" and be patient. Part of MY problem was that I wasn't aware that he/we were in this phase.


happy-1 on 12/15/2021:
Donkey... Read your comment on Bear's logs... there's nothing stress inducing about your posts. I like them as is.

Donkey on 12/16/2021:
THANK YOU! My workplace is not conducive to a healthy lifestyle. I would say that by the nature of the work, most (if not all) lawfirms are not healthy environments. So in a way, my work stories ARE an essential part of my weight-loss journey.


bearcountrygg on 12/15/2021:
Yup...I agree with Happy....no problem!

Donkey on 12/16/2021:
OK :-) I got a doozy of a story from yesterday...


happy-1 on 12/15/2021:
Oh... in addition to the cod liver oil for thinning hair, get your amino acids checked. It's a symptom. I'd spend on amino acids before Romaine because that would improve literally everything. GPs can order the tests but they can't help you with the results. You need to go to a naturopath for that.

https://ninaross.co/blogs/health-wellness-posts/7-amazing-amino-acids-for-hair-regrowth-you-should-know

Donkey on 12/16/2021:
Good points! OK, let me do a little more research on this. I would rather go the supplemental route rather than Rogaine, to be honest.


horn_of_plenty on 12/15/2021:
You know, re below entry, dr scale may be off as well!

You just reminded me to also get the flu vaccine and Covid booster at my union hall dr office close by to me ! Forgot I need to make those appointments.

Sometimes fit a good push to do an extra something during the week like take your car in - but you also have to then find a way to balance it with self care


horn_of_plenty on 12/15/2021:
Smart of you not to push the sore arm but to still not create more excuses and still exercise a bit as it’s your routine !! Nicely done.

Good for you to not waste calories on a slightly stale cake ! This week is pumpkin pie brought in by the executive and I am LOVING it !!!

I’m sure your boss isn’t as focused as he used to be bc other things like the passing of his business onto another or just how he will maximize his money as a business owner must be dominating his thoughts …



Donkey - Tuesday Dec 14, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

I have to leave work early today, so I promised I would come in to work early -- which I forgot, so I am short on time to post here, unfortunately.

The doctor's appointment went well.  My weight was higher than I had thought -- 136.5!!!!!  So one of these scales is LYING to me. (LOL)  Actually, I'm OK that it's a little higher than I had thought or wanted.  If had been low - say 133 - then there would be a LOT of self-inflicted pressure to weigh that or less at next year's appointment.

Because I wasn't fasting, I have to go in early next week for blood work and the shingles vaccine.  I got a flu shot and the COVID booster.  My arm is quite sore this morning -- actually started last night.  I went to bed early and slept REALLY WELL.  Today, I feel fine, except for the soreness.

I can donate blood as long as the blood tests come back OK.  And she gave the OK to use Rogaine but cautioned me that I have to commit to using it in the long-term if I want to maintain any hair growth, because once I stop, i will lose the added hair.  OK, so I have her blessing and I'll give this some more thought before I make the commitment (if I decide to do so).  I'm not sure I want a regular payment of $30 for Rogaine added to my budget, if that makes sense.

My morning time to post is becoming crunched.  Leaving for work early today.  Leaving VERY early for work tomorrow, so that I can take the car in for a much needed oil change & maintenance appointment.  Ugh, I don't need this added stress in my life right now.

Well, let's see what fires I walk into at work today.  I had to leave early yestserday, at 1pm, so naturally, a couple of files started flaring up with problems at around 12:15p.  It never fails... 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/14/2021:
I'm glad for you that the drs appt is done.......the 130's is a great place to be.....nothing wrong with that at all. I haven't had the shingles vaccine but have had shingles...on my face.....and it damaged the cornea in my left eye...I wonder if the vaccine would prevent another case...My Mom had it twice so I guess there may be no limit about the times you can get it.

Donkey on 12/14/2021:
My Boss had shingles a couple of years ago and then earlier this year, started feeling a twinge, so his doctor gave him some medicine that stops the shingles from progressing to a full blown outbreak. Kind of like what Abreva does for cold sores.

So yes, you can get shingles more than once, and if my boss is going to keep getting breakouts, I definitely want to be protected against catching them from him!


legcramps on 12/14/2021:
Glad to hear the appointment went well; that's interesting that you need to commit to the long term use of Rogaine - interesting that it actually reverts back once you stop using it.

Good luck at work today!

Donkey on 12/14/2021:
I'm wondering, when I stop taking Rogaine, does the hair fall out in chunks or something drastic like that? I don't want that!

Work was a little rough at the beginning... ugh.


Jacky82020 on 12/14/2021:
We’re always higher on the doctor’s scales. Never fails.

my husband tried rogaine years ago, very expensive then & didn’t help with male pattern baldness on him. Maybe a little lousy peach fuzz. He quit after a while, can’t remember how long. He still has thick brown, no grey, hair & that typical male bald spot is about the same.

I have heard of some men & women getting decent results.

Donkey on 12/14/2021:
Thin hair runs in my family. On my husband's side, they all have beautiful thick full hair.

My daughter is already starting to get thin hair, just like her mom, and her mom before her.


happy-1 on 12/15/2021:
Have you tried cod liver oil for hair growth? It worked on my over-plucked brows.



Donkey - Monday Dec 13, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

Well, dieting friends... I did not do well last night at dinner.  I was right:  chili and cornbread are hard to resist.  I had small 2nd helpings of chili and cornbread.  The problem really started at lunchtime because I did not have a good lunch after my time at the gym.  So hunger started creeping in at around 3pm.  When (early) dinner came around at 5pm, I was ready for it. 

Yes, I am very disappointed in myself. I'm trying not to be too down on myself, because nobody needs that kind of negativity in their lives.  Oh well, it is what it is, and I can't change it now. 

I am getting nervous about my doctor's appointment, mainly because this is so out of my comfort zone.  Oh I hope I don't get Nurse Letty.  Also, I can't complete the online pre-check-in because they don't have the right insurance on file for me, and I can't upload a picture of the correct primary insurance card.  So I'll have to check in at the front desk to get this straighened out.  I'm sure they'll be deeply disappointed in me.  I'm disappointed in me, too.


 On the positive side, I had a great workout at the gym beforehand.  And I had some relaxing time in the afternoon, although I might have done better with some structure to the day, rather than just wondering what to do next >>>which is how I ended up making the cornbread.


Maybe it's a good thing to go into work today to get "lost" in other people's problems for a while.  Also, my Daughter has an important interview Tuesday (tomorrow) morning, and I'm getting nervous for her too.

Thank goodness, I guess, that there's yoga tonight.  

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/13/2021:
It's ok if not everything is working out smoothly. Usually that's how it goes, right?! Take it one thing at a time, and stop being disappointed in yourself. That stuff will get you nowhere. You're doing your best.

Donkey on 12/13/2021:
True, true - and this way, I have room to lose more. (Not room to gain, though.)


Jacky82020 on 12/13/2021:
Yum! Chili & cornbread! Two of my favorite things. I make ground turkey chili in the crockpot. Less calories & salt than other recipes.

Let that PCP’s office sit on it! So what if you don’t pre checkin. I rarely do & it makes no difference. All these people really care about is payment,

Donkey on 12/13/2021:
It was much easier to let the intake clerk correct the insurance issue. It would have been a HUGE pain in the a** for me to do it.


Jacky82020 on 12/13/2021:
They should! It’s their job!

Donkey on 12/14/2021:
True! I think it's mostly to get the patient to pre-pay any co-pays, but they didn't ask me for any money. I think I have a $15 co-pay. I'm sure I'll get a bill in the mail soon...


horn_of_plenty on 12/13/2021:
Hello! I wrote you on yesterday’s entry as well :)

I also do poorly if I wait too long between meals.

Ah donks I am sure you aren’t the only one with issues on their site - do not worry just go early so you can take care of your insurance ! Nothing to be disappointed in yourself for a glitch in the system !

Sometimes I enjoy the structure of work also, keeping me on track like that.

Also, I do far better with a little structure too on the weekend. I did pretty well yesterday due to making plans with friend Jen :)

Donkey on 12/14/2021:
Thank you!


happy-1 on 12/15/2021:
YUM. Chili and cornbread. I should make this.



Donkey - Sunday Dec 12, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

Good morning!  It is bright and sunny today. It's almost 9am and I'm still the only one awake. I plan to leave for the gym soon.  I had delayed going to the gym until the afternoon yesterday, hoping to see Daughter before she left for work --- TURNS OUT she left for work before I even got up!  Instead of going in at 1pm, she went in at 6am.  If I had known THAT, I definitely would have gone to the gym earlier.  She is off today and plans to do not too much. 

I don't have much planned either, although I should be wrapping Christmas gifts. I'm a little disorganized today with thoughts, plans, etc.  I'm hoping that once I get the gym time done, I can decide what I'm for next. I'm feeling a bit sleepy and maybe a little bit down today.  I'm not sure why.

Will need to stay strong with food today:  chili and cornbread at dinner.  Both are difficult to eat in moderation, for me.  Last night, I felt a pang of desire to start eating a lot of peanut butter.  What's up with that???


Week #2 Goals Recap:

  • No candy at work - DONE
  • Bed by 9:30pm (except Thursday) - DONE *
  • No 2nd helpings at dinner - sorta **

* Except for the night with the Zoom meeting, I was in bed, lights out before 9:30pm but a few nights, I had a lot of trouble dropping off to sleep.  So while I was resting & relaxing, I wasn't actually sleeping until perhaps even after 10pm.  (I don't know because I did not look at the clock.)

** I say sort of because I found myself reaching for other foods, even though I had already finished what was on my plate.  So even though I didn't have a 2nd helping of something, I added it to my plate after I was done with what I had put on my plate.  


Week #3 Goals:

  • No candy at work.  If this isn't a goal, then I don't stick to it.  That's how strong the call chocolate has at work.
  • Bed by 9:30pm.  This is a good goal. I like it, even if I've had trouble falling asleep some nights.
  • Doctor's appointnent:  will ask about taking Rogaine and if I can donate blood, with anemia issues
  • No 2nd helpings at dinner -- gonna try this one again.

These are unambitious goals.  I'm sorry.  I just have to get past my doctor's appointment before anything else.

 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 12/12/2021:
Peanut butter is my ultimate weakness! I admire your will to get to the gym...I need to find this. Chili and cornbread dangerous for me as well...good luck.

Donkey on 12/13/2021:
I don't know what it is about the gym that gets me to go. I like the way it smells. I like the energy that people bring to the gym - being around other people working out motivates me to do the same. I also like using equipment that is "better" or "more challenging" than what I have at home.


horn_of_plenty on 12/13/2021:
Wow everyone sleeps in late by you!

Regarding peanut butter, I bought this chocolate almond butter to find out it has chocolate liquor in it ….and I brought it to work without realizing - now I’m leaving it at work ! It’s very spreadable and stays homogenized. I may have to but it again bc I like it so much. Haha and it has some chocolate liquor in it lol.

Let me know what doc says about rogaine bc I have thin hair and may see about it also and I’m serious as my hair is thinning in the front



Donkey - Saturday Dec 11, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

Good Saturday morning!  It is cold, windy, gray, and snowing.  Nothing on the ground yet - it's not a pretty snow.  It's a swirling windy snow.  This captures what my week has been like, but hey, at least I'm not at work, so let's roll with it.

I should have a doctor's appointment every month.  I am pleased with the number on the scale this morning.  If I can maintain this for the next 3 days, I should be able to weigh in decently at the doctor's office (being fully clothed, having had breakfast, quite a bit of water, and a light lunch).

If it weren't for the holiday(s), I think that I could maintain this moderation mindset for a while longer, and perhaps settle into a new maintenance weight that actually IS maintainable.  I would love to be able to maintain at 127, keeping the muscle I've built up and getting leaner.  I just can't ever seem to get lean.  It's like biologically, I'm meant to be soft.  You know how some people have muscles that just *pop*?  That ain't me.  I always have a layer of fat or flab that keeps everything looking soft.

But I feel like this "moderate" way of eating, where I'm not "full" but just "content" in my stomach is maybe the way it's supposed to be.  ????

I am grateful that I haven't had an emotional eating episode nor have I had maddening cravings to clean out a jar of peanut butter or "rationalizations" of eating multiple chocolates.  THAT is a good thing.


I found the answer to my question at work, all on my own.  The Boss has a resume on his desk for a new (Spanish-speaking) assistant.  She is much younger, graduating high school in 2017.  

Male Co-Worker had such a bad day yesterday.  I heard him mutter to himself that he "never wants to come back to the office after today."  Ugh...  As awful as he has been to me in the past, I do feel bad for him.  However, I also don't appreciate the negative energy he brings to the work environment.  On the other hand, seeing him struggle makes me appreciate where I'm at, at least.  That's a little selfish, I know, but it helps me keep my perspective balanced.

What I can say for sure is that I'm tired of coming home from work being crabby.  Taking a shower before sitting down to eat helps a little, but I'd rather leave with a feeling of having contributed productively to the firm's accomplishments.  I don't feel that at all.


I am looking forward to a relaxing weekend.  I'm REALLY looking forward to Daughter being home tomorrow, but I always keep in the back of my mind that if she makes plans with friends at the last minute, that's OK too.  

Today, I will go to the gym this afternoon, after she has left for work, so that MAYBE I'll see her for 10 minutes or so.  But tomorrow, I think I'll go earlier in the morning, if at all possible.  Not taking the dumbbell class, but just doing my own thing.  I have toyed with the thought of sitting in the hot tub.  That might be a nice change.

Also, time to start thinking of Week #3 Goals :-)

 

 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2021:
Oh and if the clinic is not right for you now, you can decide that too…didn’t read that part of yesterday’s entry until now !

Donkey on 12/12/2021:
It was right for me at the right time. The position has changed quite a bit, and I think that's why it's no longer right for me.

Also, I've changed too, with my time priorities. Those 2 things make me think that perhaps it's time to say good-bye. However, I do want to give the new changes a chance, hence trying to remain open-minded.

I think I'll be able to tell really quick, though, if I'm still needed or not, and if it's right for my needs as well.


Jacky82020 on 12/11/2021:
Hope the coworker’s attitude improves. Maybe he’s just having a bad day. Sounds like you’re on a roll, doing good things all around.

Donkey on 12/12/2021:
I think he's had a bad week, but the thing is that he's had a string of a few stressful weeks, and it just wears a person down after a while.

I'm doing all right, right now, which means that things WILL eventually slow down for Male Co-Worker, too. I think his January will be stellar.


happy-1 on 12/11/2021:
Lol, you need to set out those weird yoga crystals or salt lamp to discharge negative energy or something. Or a joke of the day calendar so you can tell him a bad joke everytime he goes negative.

Donkey on 12/12/2021:
Right? I kind of feel that way too. I've taken to lighting a scented candle by my desk, but that's probably not strong enough to ward off the negative energies. I've tried sprinkling holy water around my desk area, but it's been a couple of months. Maybe I'll do that again on Monday.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2021:
I like the "joke a day" calendar idea!

Donkey on 12/12/2021:
LOL - it might help me more than Male Co-Worker. And there's nothing wrong with that, actually :-)


Horn_of_plenty on 12/12/2021:
oh you got snow!? yesterday was warmer here, but rained all day. i was home :)

it's amazing it's already almost your dr appt...you are good for 3 days...i stay be real down to business for these 3 days...so short a time frame, i know you are up to the challenge!

honestly, i think MOST people's muscles aren't popping. not mine either, btw. honestly, i think unless the job you work is very physical or you are training at a very high rate, muscles popping doesn't happen so don't feel like that is a standard that is normal to achieve....

i do agree it may not be good to stuff ourselves, as we like to, and it's more 80% or something we need to feel full in our stomachs. i don't look to meet that goal, as i do still crave the full feeling....but if you can manage it some days, to reach this goal,that is good. and of course liquids after the meal can help achieve 100% fullness...a reminder to myself too!

Donkey on 12/12/2021:
The snow accumulated a little bit and then melted away a couple of hours later.

It's my diet. It's definitely not "on point" to achieving a leaner look. I'm not talking about the extremes that people competing in shows do, before leading up to a competition. I'm talking about just getting a little leaner, and yep, it's my diet.

I had thought about hiring a nutritional coach to help set me straight so that I could move forward on my own, but haven't done this.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/12/2021:
well well, so glad to see boss is potentially hiring a new assistant. sometimes young is good. i will say i do think younger people DO learn quicker...i have noticed i'm slowing down with being able to work quickly/learn quickly...i noticed it this year at 39...that i'm not as quick to learn or remember as i used to be during the rest of my 30s.

Can't wait to hear your weekly goals!

Donkey on 12/12/2021:
I think that bringing in someone young will bring new energy to our firm. Having extra help will also help alleviate the work load imposed on the rest of us, especially answering the phones when most of them are Spanish speaking clients calling.



Donkey - Friday Dec 10, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 134.5

Happy Friday!!!!  Thank goodness it's here - couldn't come soon enough.

Well, things are FINALLY starting to slow down at work for ME.  That means, the workload for the Boss and Associate Attorney is going into its holiday slump, which is fine by me.  New Guy (and thus, Mistakes Girl and New Gal) is still REALLY busy.  Male Co-Worker is still really busy too, because he works on New Guy's files.  But not me.  In fact, I ran out of work to do yesterday, to the point where I was making up work for myself to do.  The Boss left at 4:30p, and when Male Co-Worker checked out shortly thereafter, I left too, at 4:40p.

Having nothing to do is just as bad - or worse - as having too much to do. However, I recognize that this will at least be a little time to recharge, reorganize my priorities, and refocus my goals.


I did OK with eating yesterday.  Oh I wanted to reach for an extra piece of chocolate or something after dinner, after my Zoom call, but I resisted.  Because my Zoom meeting was at 8pm, I was able to get in a bike ride and shower before the call.

So it would seem as though the Doctor's appointment is an effective motivator, but it also kind of sucks.  For example, Daughter is off on Sunday and her only plans are to hang out with her parents and watch football.  Husband asks if we want to do something "special" for dinner.  Frankly, I don't want any temptations around me until after I weigh in at the Doctor's office on Monday.  Besides, nobody here needs temptations or "special" anything.  But still - what a wet blanket.

Weight loss is boring and tedious.  Unrelenting.


My Zoom call was nice, in the sense that it was so nice to see my friends again and catch up with them.  We didn't do a lot of personal catching up, because we were mostly talking about the future of the clinic.  I'm trying to remain positive and go into the new changes with an open heart and mind.  And that's where we all kind of left it.  Some of us recognized that we may be in a semi-state of denial that our time together may be coming to an end, since our roles are changing.  The clinics are set up so that those who DO get paid and DO get benefits are not doing the actual clinic work, and those that do actually operate the clinic are 100% volunteers.  It's a not-for-profit Christian organization, but it doesn't seem quite right to me that some get paid - quite well - and some do not. 

I'm not against volunteering, but I feel that my time is more precious to me now.  It's hard to explain, but I have to get some personal benefit, and if all I'm getting is frustration and resentment, then this is not the best way to allocate my time.  Whatever my civic endeavor(s) is/are, they should come from and bring forth joy and fulfillment.  Positive energy, not negative emotions.  The world doesn't need any more negative emotions.

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2021:
HAPPY FRIDAY and SATURDAY! (i am so thankful, i slept like 12 hours into the weekend, most a very deep sleep, with a very vivid new dream first time in a LONG time).

We are also at a holiday slump at work...i took a sexual harassment course while at work yesterday to get it done as requested by someone in the company that i finish it ahead of time...and didn't really do much else...and even had a shot of alcoholic puerto rican Coquito. (it's like an alcoholic egg nog).even lunch was eaten at 3pm...just a weird day..and i am embarassed bc i had two assignments to do, finishing neither....Monday I will work better :)...but the reason it's easy to pull things out and not finish them in better timing is because nothing else is too much on the horizon in the future.

Donkey on 12/11/2021:
I'll write this here to you because I think you'll appreciate it most: Last night Husband came to bed early to read. He kept moving and sighing, which woke me up every time I started to drift off. So instead of getting mad, I just figured, "Hey this is a nice time just to relax. There's no pressure to fall asleep because tomorrow is Saturday; I can sleep in."

This change in perspective really helped, I think. As soon as Husband went to actual BED, then I was able to fall asleep.

I hope that due to the lack of work, this won't mean layoffs for your group?


Horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2021:
yeah, the good thing about being less busy is the timeline and ease to go home on time, recharge more. I cannot say it's a bad thing that i'm not very busy at work. I just have to train myself to use the time more wisely; use my brain my wisely when NOT at work, as well.

After all, if the work busy work is so repetitive that you / I aren't learning, then i feel it doesn't matter if the work slows down as you / I weren't learning so much anyways...I especially *WANT* to believe that because it's happening to me. HOwever, I almost always learn something when i'm given these new assignments at work...or i try hard to think of a way to make the assignment "mine," by how i format the excel charts, etc...

Most of the time, I always try to add my "signature," (i mean my two cents, my flair) to what i do, if possible.

If very repetitive, the above will not work...

and that is why i'm thankful that my job is not exactly what the other two admins are doing, but what it's ALWAYS been....a job which is a little more flexible...doing a little more of an assortment.

Donkey on 12/11/2021:
I stopped giving my 2 cents when I realized it didn't matter to anyone AND sometimes would be used against me.

I have varied what I do at the law firm. At the best point, I was that "hodge podge" person, where I did a little bit of this, and a little bit of that. When the Purchases person left, her job was offered to me, and I took it, because it's a "higher" position, and I love it - or at least I did.

No, I do love working on purchases; it's the office environment that has changed, making it less pleasant.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2021:
But if you go to dinner with hubby, isn't it possibly to order a side dish (or even large size dish) of veggies and just take grabs of hubby's food as your main meal?

still try to think outside the box with the restaurant eating / eating...(i do admit it's easier for me in NYC where restaurants are have more healthy choices, only second up to LA-California - based on what i hear and photos of a woman i know who orders a lot and used to live there).

Donkey on 12/11/2021:
I'm torn between eating, being very careful with portions, versus filling up with vegetables. Maybe a little of both.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/11/2021:
Any anyway, do you really consider yourself in weightloss....? you are still so close to maintenance, do not forget your ability and how you lost 5 pounds in like one month not too long ago!

Donkey on 12/11/2021:
Right now at this very moment, I am considering myself in weight-loss mode because of the doctor's appointment. LOL, right?

I'll write more about this in today's (Saturday's) entry, because I HAVE been thinking about this for a day or 2 - that is to say, which mode I'm really in.


Jacky82020 on 12/11/2021:
Donk, great of you to volunteer unless of course the downside is too down. What kind of clinic is this? Do they have doctors & nurses & help underprivileged sick people?

Donkey on 12/11/2021:
It's a legal clinic. This clinic handles intake. So potential clients meet with an attorney for a consultation, to see if our organization can help them for free, or maybe the clients can help themselves. My role is mainly administrative and hospitality oriented: forms, paperwork, sometimes a little online research, making coffee, putting out tray of cookies, greeting folks at the door.


happy-1 on 12/11/2021:
Geez Donkey... You're superwoman.



Donkey - Thursday Dec 09, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 134.5

Oh my goodness, I had typed out a whole entry and lost the page!  Well, here are the highlights:

  • Ate 4 crab ragoon at dinner, when I really could have done with 1-2.  Disappointed in myself, a little bit. Tried to have 2 and then some lunchmeat, but ended up reaching for 2 more, to finish them up.
  • Did a full leg workout last night.
  • Looking forward to my Zoom meeting tonight, to hear what the story is behind our clinic leader steppingn down.
  • Something is going on at work.  Asked Male Co-Worker if anyone is working on getting some back-up for Mistakes Girl, either as extra help, or for when she's on maternity leave (or leaves altogether).  He sat back and smiled, which means that he knows something but can't tell me, which is totally fine.  At least I know that the problem isn't being ignored. 

I anticipate being up until 10pm with the Zoom meeting tonight.  *yawn*  I've been doing very well with going to bed before 9:30p.  Excellent sleep scores, even if it sometimes takes me a few minutes to drop off.

Ending this now, in case I lose this entry too...

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/09/2021:
Did you get the dreaded yellow screen? That’s what I got when I did a long-assed post following the harrowing ER visit from hell. Maybe just as well & the small recap was better. LOL

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
I didn't get the yellow screen. I changed between 2 open tabs, one with my entry on it, and when I came back to the tab with the open entry, my entry was gone and I was back at the DD homepage.

I agree - shorter was better.


horn_of_plenty on 12/09/2021:
regarding below comment back, maybe see which one is easier to get first so it's less of a wait for the next one. i agree, maybe not get them both at once.


horn_of_plenty on 12/09/2021:
regarding below comment back, maybe see which one is easier to get first so it's less of a wait for the next one. i agree, maybe not get them both at once.


horn_of_plenty on 12/09/2021:
how large are the crab ragoon?..sounds small, will google an image!

nice job on your leg workouts...i'm def getting mine in tonight :)

that's so annoying that male coworker cannot tell you! like what!? anyways, my guess is QB is coming in more !? or maybe someone new? or maybe they will not replace...and just keep new girl.

how do you track your sleep scores? Garmin?

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
My Fitbit tracks sleeping and gives me a score based on awake/light sleep/REM/deep sleep.

I'm not sure what's up about work. I'm not even annoyed that he can't tell me anything.

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
My Fitbit tracks sleeping and gives me a score based on awake/light sleep/REM/deep sleep.

I'm not sure what's up about work. I'm not even annoyed that he can't tell me anything.


horn_of_plenty on 12/09/2021:
I think i'll be trying crab ragoon the next time i see it on a menu by me! looks good. nice to see fried protein rather than fried potato/veg.


horn_of_plenty on 12/09/2021:
and a change of pace to fried shrimp.



Donkey - Wednesday Dec 08, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 134.5

Good morning!  Happy Wednesday!  It's gonna be a great day!

I think I did pretty well with food last night.  We had Chinese take-out and I ordered lots of vegetables.  I was careful with my white rice and passed on the crab ragoon this time.  I confess that I had 2 fortune cookies, but damage was minimal. 

Yesterday, I didn't have time to do weights in the morning, but I was able to find motivation (mainly because I had time) to do upper body weights.  This morning, again, I did not have time to do weights (thanks to a messy kitty) but I hope to do some leg exercises tonight.  If I leave on time, and if dinner is ready when I get home, I should be able to manage this.  If dinner is not ready, I will take a shower.  I may do this anyway, as a nice way to relax before interacting with Husband.  The past 2 nights, I've been a little crabby (short) at dinner. I'm just so done by the time I get home. 


So Associate Attorney tested positive for COVID.  He will be out for 14 days in quarrantine.  My Boss was panicking.  This Friday and next week, there are a LOT of closings.  So we'll probably have to ask another attorney from another practice to help us with coverage.  I could write more about how careless Associate Attorney has been, with being out in public in large gatherings, family reunions, etc..  Male Co-Worker has always said that whenever we needed someone to step up, we could always count on Associate Attorney to fail us miserably.  And yes, he has done so again.  Perhaps not his fault, but then again, I feel like more could have been done to prevent this.

We're going to try to have  Associate Attorney continue to write his own letters; everyone in the world will have his cell phone number, because he's really big on calling everyone (client, agent, then client again, then agent again) before he writes anything.  I am hoping that my workload is not too inconvenienced, other than having to text AA, with what he needs to do, e.g. call Mr. Client, write a letter, etc.

The rest is for the Boss to figure out.  I can't make it work if others don't work with me; I'm done trying to work with something so dysfunctional that it can't work.

 

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/08/2021:
Happy Hump Day!

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
Amen to that! Got through it - that's all that counts :-)


Jacky82020 on 12/08/2021:
Wow! Can this guy do all his work from home? is he asymptomatic? You know if he’s had all three shots?

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
He can do some of his work from home. He can call clients, write letters (which I sign on his behalf as his proxy) - these are the most important to ME. However, he cannot attend closings, which is a huge inconvenience to the Boss. (Oh well, he's the Boss, figure it out.)

Another huge inconvenience - which he's never been really good at recognizing - is that sometimes we just need an attorney in the office who can answer the unexpected. That happens A LOT. That's where Associate Attorney really falls short. If he knows he has something to do or somewhere to be, he does it. But if there's nothing to be done at the office, as far as known tasks, he's nowhere to be found.

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
I do not know if he's symptomatic or not, but he's able to drive to the office to pick up the laptop and things that Nice Lady has him pick up. (I told them BOTH, do not touch my files - yuck!)

He had both shots, and then just recently gotten the booster -- but frankly, I'm skeptical about him getting the booster. His wife, who is vulnerable to upper respiratory problems has it pretty bad, apparently. Gee, could that be because she smokes?


horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2021:
yum. nice warm chinese food and veggies in it! my type of dinner! i've been enjoying starting my dinners lately with warmed up cooked veggies.

i do agree if someone continues to be careless, they will get covid.

my friend C's SISTER got it. i don't know if she's vaccinated and haven't been asking bc that's not the point and it can backfire if i ask.

the POINT is to get vaccinated so if you get covid, symptoms are less. that is the POINT.

i doubt shell get the shot after seeing her sister get covid, unelss her sister gets it reallyl bad...doubt that...obv i don't wish that anyways.

Donkey on 12/09/2021:
I'm wondering now if I should get boosted first and then get my shingles vaccine in a couple of weeks at the drugstore. I'm going to ask my doctor what she thinks at my appointment.



Donkey - Tuesday Dec 07, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 134.5

Just trying to get through today.  I woke up with a headache.  It is gray outside and quite cold outside. 

I realized - after the fact of course - that I had 2nd helpings of salad at dinner last night, counterproductive to my Week #2 goals.  I'm not going to be too hard on myself because it's green salad (with a splash of oil & vinegar dressing, which isn't good), BUT my main point is how EASY it is to reach for second helpings so mindlessly.  I didn't even THINK TWICE about this behavior until I was in the middle of yoga.  

Yoga was wonderful last night.  We worked on a full body stretch. I don't know if it was because I was tired or TOM or what, but I found the session to be soooo relaxing.  I wish I could have just picked myself up and gone to bed after that, but unfortunately, I could not -- not unless I wanted to shower in the morning, which I do not do.

Of course, when it was time to turn out the lights, shortly before 9:30pm, it took me a while to drift off to sleep.  I think I slept well, although Husband wakes me up when he comes to bed.

I feel like I will need to be extra vigilant today because of a number of unhelpful conditions:  TOM, tired, cold & gray day, headache.  This is helpful to realize and to write it down here.  Awareness seems to be half the battle, for me. 

I apologize for an uninspiring post. A lot of successful dieting and weight-loss is boring, to be honest. Ha ha, so maybe it's a good thing that I have nothing fantastic happening.  Aside from the 2nd helping of green salad (with salad dressing), I've been sticking to moderation.  I don't feel "full" but just "content", except that it's not a very satisfying feeling.  A few hours later, I start to feel little feelings of "I could eat", but not actual tummy-growling hunger.  If I'm at work, that's when I have my snack.  If it's after dinner, I just go to bed, or I'll drink flavored sugar-free water (think like Crystal Light), and then go to bed-ish --- away from the kitchen is the key.

So far, this seems to be working.  I also think that this is something I could keep doing on a longer term basis.  IDK, I just gotta get through the Doctor's appointment, and then go from there.

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/07/2021:
Doesn’t sound like the salad had many calories. I haven’t eaten salad for a while, but always had spinach, cherry tomatoes & a zero or low cal dressing. Sometimes just malt vinegar.

Nice the yoga session went well! Yay!

Here’s hoping that headache is better by now. I find ibuprofen helps.

Donkey on 12/08/2021:
My headache subsided for most of the day, but had to take more meds in the late afternoon.

The salad was fine, but the dressing is where I fall short. I try not to use a lot, and I did choose the least caloric dressing we have. The salad greens tasted bitter, though. Now is not the season for salads.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/07/2021:
cold here too. all day around 40F!

yeah, i would say that second helpings of salad are OK. i was going to eat only one of my two very long peppers (picture an 8"-9" pepper but not as thick circumference as the shorter ones). so i was going to have one, but then realized i should just cut them both up and eat what i wanted. ate almost all of them both before hitting the rest of my lunch.

i also try not to shower in the AM...especially in winter when it dries my skin out too much to shower/go outside soon after.

i notice that even if i start drinking to much in the AM after breakfast at work it could start to make me picky/anticipate eating. normally, after breakfast, i try to wait a bit before continuing to drink anything much.

not sure about you, but lately i have a coffee when i get to work and a second one that is decaf midway thru the AM....it helps me cut down on my hunger.

Donkey on 12/08/2021:
Interesting... I usually drink my 24oz. orange drink in the mornings. The water and the flavor help curb the desire to eat more - but maybe I'm wrong about that. I drink this because it has Vitamin C, which I think helps with the immune system.

I usually want something warm when I get to work, because the building is still cold and I'm still sleepy. I hadn't considered decaf. No caffeine but all the calories of the creamer? Usually that's a no, in my book, BUT that's exactly what I do at night, after dinner, so why not?

I will consider what you have written, as I had not really thought of these options.



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