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Donkey - Friday Feb 05, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

 Well,  here I am,  up early to get back into the old routine. 

The snow plow came by last night at 7:40p, so I went out to shovel last night,  rather than wait until this morning. This was a good call. 

We had plans to order Chinese takeout for lunch today,  so my family is going to bring me over something to eat, while I'm at work. That's so sweet of them to do that. 

I must be mindful and careful not to let my fear,  anxiety,  and dread, which I am feeling now, translate outwardly into crabbing & tension to others at work.  I do want to incorporate some of the things I gathered while soul-searching during my time off. Everything in its own time. 

Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2021:
Friday would be the perfect type of day to head back to work...because the weekend comes right after it!!! amiright!?

i'm glad you will have just this friday, as like a pre-view to set up for your Monday...it's a good day, today, to get organized and see what needs to be done and have yourself perfectly organized for next week, i'm sure.

also nice is Chinese. you can be healthy with it.... ;) ....you can!

also a diet coke is nice after chinese! the sweet to counteract the salty...

you make me want chinese...but i will save my cash for now...i have so much food at home....i'm busy this month paying off extra credit card expenses (not usually something i need to do...) because i bought some used shoes/cardigans and now these socks for work amongst buying more food and also new things for my new guinea pig, etc...i'll catch up with my credit by March, no biggie ;)

but you enjoy the Chinese...i'm sure i'll have either Chinese or Thai in the next couple weeks or so too! <3

I'll comment about your previous entry when i read it, later today!...I'll make my comment here so you do not miss it.

Jacky82020 on 02/05/2021:
Hope your first day back ar work goes well, donkey, Have a positive feeling it will indeed! Nice about the Chinese food, sweet gesture.

grannyannie on 02/05/2021:
Enjoy your lunch!

Donkey - Thursday Feb 04, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

As Horn pointed out, today is already Thursday.  If I were at work, today would be greeted with much more anticipation than it is, knowing that my time off is soon coming to an end. I'm very grateful for this experience. I definitely learned a lot about myself, maybe what other folks are going through with self-isolation (because of this awful COVID), what I want in life, how I would use free time if given to me... 

We are anticipating another weather system - OK, let's just say it:  SNOW - starting around noon.  They are forecasting 5 more inches of snow, and then frigid, frigid temperatures coming in from Canada.  (Legcramps - I thought of you while watching the weather forecast last night!)  I went to fill up my car with gas, so that when I do return to work, and my car has to sit out all day, it will be OK, and it will have plenty of fuel to warm it up before I hit the road.

I thought about goals.  I have determined that I think what really works best for me, right now, is to have goals for the day, so that I don't just sit around doing nothing or watching TV, but not anything too long-term.  Yesterday, I got out my ankle weights and did some inner and outer thigh exercises.  Then, I did a 10-minute ab video on YouTube. I also did shoulder exercises, using 3 & 5 pound weights - have to be careful because of pain.   I'm not sure I did those ab exercises correctly because I am feeling no pain today. 

Today, I did quads and hamstrings weights.  I may do some more upper body, or perhaps a yoga flow, or maybe just some push-ups.  I guess I've reconciled myself that if I'm going to be larger than I would like to be, that it might as well be muscle instead of flab.

Dinner last night went reasonably well.  Measured out portions, BUT then there were a few leftover fries, and THOSE I *didn't* measure.  But it was less than 1/4 cup.  I have been drinking remarkable amounts of water.  With this I am pleased, and I can only hope that I can maintain this when I return to work.

Things to Do Today:

  • Mop main level 
  • Mop basement floor
  • Daughter's  Husband's laundry
  • Puzzle
  • Read 
  • Treadmill

EVENING EDIT:  I did OK at dinner, watching portions.  However, right now, I'm feeling very anxious - I'll explain - and I feel like diving into the sweets. However, once I am done posting here, I will shut down the kitchen and move away from the food. I have the sugar-free gummies and sugarless gum if I need a crutch.  Right now, I'm working on a cup of decaf coffee.

The reason for my anxiety is because I am going back to work tomorrow, rather than Monday - much sooner than I had anticipated.  I got a call around 3:30pm from Mistakes Girl, explaining that she will be out of the office tomorrow afternoon from 1pm to possibly the end of the day, translating for Associate Attorney (and he tends to draw out closings for the longest time possible).  So there will be nobody to work on my emails.  

Male Co-Worker said, it's either you come in or we have Nice Lady work on your files.  Well, that did it.  I don't want her working on my files.  She has her own way of doing things, which messes things up, and she doesn't link everything (emails, attachments, etc.) to the database.  So you have NO idea what she has done because there's no record of it, without going back and searching through eons of old emails.

It's probably better this way.  (Horn:  this is one of those moments where I feel like I've got an angel or higher power looking out for me.)  It would be much harder to come back on a Monday, which are very busy.  Fridays are usually quieter because everyone is at closings. 

And coming back wasn't going to get any easier.  This way, rather than having a whole weekend to think about it and binge eat, now I have only a couple of hours to process this, and I can manage the stress of it much better.

It has been snowing heavy, wet snow.  Husband went out to shovel around 3p.  I went and shoveled around 5pm.  Then it stopped, but it looks like it's going to snow until about 10p.  I think I will start preparing to go to bed, maybe do a facial or something, have herbal tea or water, read my meditation books (10 minutes minimum), and then watch the weather before I go to sleep.  

I would much rather wake up a little earlier tomorrow, and do any shoveling then. I'm sure that I'll have to shovel the mouth of the driveway from the load that the ####### snowplow will leave when it comes by again.  

Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 02/04/2021:
Such a busy girl! Good for you, getting all that accomplished.

grannyannie on 02/04/2021:
Good workout! Ankle weights are very effective.

A goal a day is a great idea.

Jacky82020 on 02/04/2021:
I’m glad you’re going back tomorrow since that’s better for you. Hugs.

Donkey on 02/04/2021:
Psychologically, I think it will be better and less painful to do it this way.

Jacky82020 on 02/04/2021:
Makes perfect sense! Nice it played out this way. You have good karma.

Donkey - Wednesday Feb 03, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

The last Wednesday of freedom - oh, I mean quarantine.  I've got to stop thinking about this time off in these terms.  It's not uplifting nor positive.

Last night's dinner was not a practice in moderation or portion control.  Way too many carbs.  Way too many calories.   Today is a new day to do better.  It seems that drinking more water didn't do much to curb my appetite nor reduce my deisre to eat. 

  • Hamburger 150 calories
  • Swiss cheese slice 200
  • Hamburger bun 120
  • Salad w salad dressing 100
  • Cheez Its (Buffalo Wing flavored - oh my!) 180
  • Hershey's Kiss 25
  • Coffee w Creamer 50

And this is on the conservative side.

I caught myself this morning, preparing and eating breakfast out of habit, even though I wasn't really "hungry" per se, but rather just keeping to a routine.  It didn't even occur to me to delay breakfast until around 10am - staving it off with coffee until then.  

I think yoga 2x a week is fine.

Getting through the meditation books as I can.  Sometimes, at the end of the day, I just don't have it in me to read. 

I think I will find certain activities to be more enjoyable if I do them as I want to, rather than setting up structured goals like "a chapter a day" or "30 days of push-ups".  I would appreciate any feedback on this statement.

Portion control, portion control, portion control. 

Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 02/03/2021:
I'm with you on the breakfast thing but Hubby, who is retired, is used to my cooking breakfast for us and so I do it for him and I eat what I want in moderation and it keeps me going for hours.

Jacky82020 on 02/03/2021:
Depends upon the person, your comment re activities. Some like rigid structure and others not so much. A day or days off would be ok with me. Even longer, depending. And there are alternatives. Like instead of one exercise you could do another. I am an avid reader and never read anything that doesn’t engage me. So many books I began & quit. Movies too.

legcramps on 02/03/2021:
Yes I agree that you should take the week in a more positive light. No use in thinking about WHEN you go back to work; it will be what it will be. What can you do right now to help yourself be in a better frame of mind?

Your statement regarding structured goals... depends what the goal is for me. If it's to read more books, well, I can only do that if the book i'm reading is actually engaging - so maybe the goal should be "enjoy time spent reading" rather than "read three chapters of book titled How Not To Enjoy Your Life".

If the goal is something like finishing my nutrition course, well that's a little different. That's something I know I will not always enjoy, but must work through anyways. In that case, i'll make it more structured so that I have time already set aside for it.

I have tried to set strength training goals in the past, and will usually get about three weeks into it and then it will die off. I don't have a good answer for this type of goal, except to share what I do, which is to fit it in when the opportunity presents itself. Maybe Monday it's pushups and squats at home, maybe Friday it's structured time at the gym with free weights. Maybe Sunday it's bike-hiking a 40 pound bike up and down hills for an hour.

grannyannie on 02/03/2021:
It's a struggle to feel motivated during this time when things are definitely not 'normal'. I crave carbs as well.

Have you read any books by Thich Nhat Hanh?

horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2021:
I agree about the thing you are asking for feedback about - as soon as we push ourselves to do something more than a reasonable amount it begins to feel like a chore and becomes something we loathe instead of a buoy. Totally yes.

It’s another one of those “less is more,” or simply “moderation.” Which can be so hard for overachievers ;) ;) ;)

Thank you for your comments- so helpful that I’m copying and pasting what you said and emailing to myself bc it’s good knowledge to have on types of courts like probate, then the local bc the state courts, etc....it’s good knowledge for me to actually retain in an email which is my favorite way to remember things !

horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2021:
Your dinner doesn’t sound very out of control, nice job mostly staying moderate ! Really only The chips were an indulgence but still just about a serving. Not bad !!

Oh lastly, I can if nothing hungry I eat breakfast straightaway at work - sometimes I say for myself it’s ok to stick to a routine - or just have breakfast first thing . I totally get your thinking though.

grannyannie on 02/04/2021:
Donkey, you should do jump rope on a softer surface - I do it on carpet. Working out on a concrete floor (Uganda) is I'm sure what cause me to get plantar fasciitis.

Donkey - Tuesday Feb 02, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

I'm having problems getting out of bed, still, knowing that at this time next week, I'll be getting up to go to work.  Mistakes Girl texted me yesterday, to see how I was doing, and I told her I was afraid to come back to work, because I won't know any of the files and I won't remember how to do the job.  Oh well...

In spite of feeling this way yesterday morning, I did manage to have a productive day!  Washed sheets, did upper & lower body weights, had a great yoga session, cleaned the stovetop, read a chapter in both meditation books I checked out, shoveled, took out the trash & recycling.  So I have high hopes that today will be a fulfilling day as well. I think I will wash our comforter today, and perhaps the daughter's comforter tomorrow.

I drank a lot more water yesterday, in an effort to eat less.  I want a new water bottle that has the capacity to hold more water than my current bottle - I'm thinking a half a gallon.  It seemed to me as though drinking more water more often throughout the day helped with eating less.  IDK, I can feel that I'm holding on to excess weight.  It's very uncomfortable.

AFTERNOON EDIT:  I went on the treadmill this afternoon and now my left hip is irritated again.  A 4.0 mph speed is jogging for me.  I jogged 0.75 miles and walked 0.5 miles.  I will try some stretches tonight.  I just took some Aleve.

I would also like to do some upper body *something* today.  I think that I will try to do some push-ups.

I forgot to mention that I tried jumping rope like Annie does.  I was able to do the 2 sets of 25 jumps.  However, jumping rope in the garage is a no-go, because of the concrete floors.  It may be easier to do on the wooden floor in the family room, but the jolt of the impact was quite startling.  

Now I just have to hold it together through dinner...  It's been kind of a carb-y day.

Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/02/2021:
Listen to Bear. You’ll be just fine when you come back to work....I’ll write more later. Rest is nice, sleep in while you can ;)

horn_of_plenty on 02/02/2021:
Oh your idea of a bigger water bottle is great as long as you clean it often!

I would prefer to use a large water bottle as I get up often to refill my cup that I throw out daily, for now, during the pandemic I have decided not to be washing both coffee cups or water cups at work. It’s provided free so I just take a new one daily which is horrible for the environment but that’s the protocol amongst my coworkers and I’m not yet up to breaking it. There’s also nowhere to hang cups/plates to dry so I never wash anything at work like I used to (used to wash my tubberware before going home). Now I just wipe it as work with a towel, and clean it back at home....

Jacky82020 on 02/02/2021:
Dang, half a gallon! That would be heavy if you have to lug it around.

Jacky82020 on 02/02/2021:
I used to jump rope, but not for a while. Excellent exercise.

Think you can freeze cream cheese

Donkey - Monday Feb 01, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

This is my last week of quarantine, and I'm rather disappointed in myself for sleeping in late.  I want to grab as much time as possible, but I just could NOT muster up the motivation to get up out of bed. 

My problem is clearing in the eating.  I had a sugar binge Saturday night, right before my Zoom meeting - I'm sure that's what triggered it, but also, I was just really upset at my weigh-in.  Yesterday, Husband made a delicious pot of chili and I had 2 helpings, plus a bunch of tortilla chips (which I did not bother to weigh nor moderate).  But this is a new month and I'm putting all of that behind me, and focusing on moving forward.

I just realized that I set no goals for myself this month!  But you know, I think that's OK.  I set up goals and then either fall short and feel bad about it, or push myself hard to meet the goals and feel bad about it.  So this month, I'm focusing more inward (nutrition) and not so much on the outward physical aspect (exercise).  This doesn't mean that I'll stop exercising, but I'm not setting any exercise goals for myself.  I'm working  more on food, stress management, water intake, self-comforting.

One thing that I want to do is to start the 21-day meditation book that I checked out from the library.  This will help me in 2 ways:  I can read it before bedtime, and then do the meditation exercise as preparation for sleeping (that's a suggestion that the author makes).  This will keep me from watching the news and/or checking my phone right before sleeping - doing both of those things is NOT recommended for a peaceful sleep.  The chapters are short; there are 21 chapters.  

For today:

  • In the middle of a load of cat laundry, which is in the dryer.
  • Maybe wash sheets once daughter wakes up, so that I can do 1 load.
  • We had a light snow overnight and the city plow just came by leaving a pile at the mouth of the driveway again.  Once I finish here, I'm going to go outside to shovel.
  • Work on the puzzle
  • Read Chapter 1 in the meditation book
  • Yoga class tonight!

(This is NOT a to-do list, but just a look at my day.)


Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 02/01/2021:
Sometimes the best goal is to do as best you can & that’s enough.

Re sugar binges, I am finding frozen fruit delicious, topped with sugar free syrup, the kind you see in coffee shops. The caramel, chocolate and almond worked well. Walmart has a big 4 pd bag of mixed frozen fruit. Also have mixed berries. Bananas are good too. I eat them frozen.

Lots of snow here! And cold! Expecting big gas bill.

horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2021:
Good plans for a beer month. And I have been super lazy since I got home. I think it’s turning into a rest day here, especially since I doubt I’m going to work tomorrow bc my boss basically told me he’s not which means I am not...except he’ll be working at home...but not I.

The chili sounds amazing. Another thing I should learn to cook and often !

Donkey - Sunday Jan 31, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

My entry is delayed this morning because of all the shoveling I had to do this morning!  After my Zoom meeting last night, which ran until slightly after 9:30pm, I went out to shovel  There was about 3 inches of snow on the ground.  This morning, there was another  5-6 inches AT LEAST - PLUS, the snow plow came through the cul-de-sac and packed 3 feet of snow at the mouth of the driveway.  I kid you not - the wall of snow was up to my waist.  The husband got out the snowblower, because not only was there too much snow, but now there was no place to put it.  The snow around the driveway was too high already from previous snows!  The snowblower, though, is able to throw the snow much higher and farther than I could ever do with a shovel.

It is still snowing, so I may have to go out and do some more light shoveling.  I'm not sure where to put it, but at least I'll be able to clear it.

I hope to do some weights today.  I was not able to do my complete bike ride this morning, because of the shoveling, so I will finish that after lunch.

This is one of those days where it's kind of hard to be optimistic or hopeful about anything...

Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/31/2021:
Wow! All that shoveling! No new snow here but will cold the old never melted. I am keeping an eye on Zoom stock. It peaked dramatically a while back and is steadily dropping. So I am not sure if and when I should jump in.

bearcountrygg on 01/31/2021:
Our tractor has a snow blower...and boy do I appreciate that...mainly because I don't know how to drive it........I shoveled enough snow at my parents for 7 years.....and don't miss it at all....yeah...for snow blowers!

grannyannie on 01/31/2021:
Look at the snow shoveling at exercise, which it is.

Hope you're feeling more optimistic soon.

horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2021:
It’s good to hear that hubby’s shot went well! I never realized he was 9 years older than you bc you both look rather young - and his hair is still so dark and plentiful!

As far as weight, maybe bake smaller size things like cookies instead of cake so that when you want to indulge, the amount is smaller for your sweets ?? This is why I don’t buy cakes, the portions are more calories than a few chocolates or cookies.

Once again you are getting far more snow than we are but now we are in the middle of a long (we’ll over 24 hrs) snowstorm that started Sunday around 9pm and may continue thru Tuesday !

Donkey - Saturday Jan 30, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 149.5

 I am running out of time to post this morning, as I need to leave soon to take my husband to the VA hospital to get his first dose of the COVID vaccine.

Once again, I went to bed early, but woke up at 1am, and had difficulty getting back to sleep.  When I woke up this morning, I felt so bloated and not right in the stomach.  I feel like there's a war going on in my stomach.  At least it doesn't burn.  And the scale is up FOUR pounds!  How does this even happen????  Especially since I had that "bathroom moment" Friday morning.I thought that would have "emptied me out", but I pretty much feel the same as I did before the "bathroom moment".  

Well, this is completely unacceptable.  I am almost 150 pounds, and that is far too heavy for my height.  And now I have almost 15 pounds to lose.  AUGH!!!!

AFTERNOON EDIT:  It took longer to drive to the VA than the whole procedure took *at* the VA.  There were a lot of people getting vacines, pretty much all older than my husband, who is 9 years older than I am.   These are vets, so it was mostly men, but there were a few women there.  My husband said that his first shot was painless and he feels fine.  He did take a nap in the afternoon, but he usually does.  And he's been having some neck and upper back pain from his disease (AS), which he usually rests for anyway.  So I don't correlate the nap with the shot at all.

I've taken today rather easy.  My stomach feels like its reconciled itself, I think.  I'm trying hard not to be discouraged by today's weigh-in.  I won't be deterred, but it's hard to see.

I've got a Zoom meeting with the 2 gals that I do legal clinic with - I think it's just to catch up with each other and see where we're at, but perhaps the one lady has more news about us re-opening the clinic.  As I've said here before, if they want to do it virtually, then I am not the person they need for that. 

So because of the Zoom meeting, I won't be doing any working out tonight either.  That's OK.  I also plan to go to bed a little later tonight, to see if that helps with waking up at 1am.  So I will try to go to bed a little closer to 10p tonight.

I'm hoping to wake up recharged and motivated.

Progress as of today: 37 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/30/2021:
Hang in there. You'll take it back off.

Glad husband is getting first vaccination.

Donkey - Friday Jan 29, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

I did manage to go to bed early last night - head was bobbing at 9pm, so the lights went off shortly after that.  However, I woke up at 1am to awful nausea and abdominal discomfort.  I almost got out of bed to see if I should try to expel whatever was causing me problems, but the feeling never got to the point of "I need to get to the bathroom NOW" so I stayed in bed and maintained a fitful state of semi-sleeping, dreaming, and discomfort.  This means that I was very tired when my alarm went off at 5:15am, and I slept in until 6am.

After spending a lot of time in the bathroom, I was able to get my day started, and now I feel fine.  So I don't think this is flu or even food poisoning - which was my main concern  Just something my body needed to deal with in its own way.

I did a slow flow yoga session yesterday, which I quite enjoyed.  The pace was just about right, not too fast, but not too slow.  This time, I didn't get frustrated with myself when I couldn't do certain poses.  Rather, I mentally embraced myself - seriously, it felt like a mental hug - and really appreciated where I was, with respect to position, balance, and flexibility.  I don't know how to explain it other than to say, that I was OK with where I was at.

I did not get around to jump roping but I will try to do this today, if for no other reason than to try something new!  

I'm kind of eager to see what the scale says tomorrow.  I'm sure that you agree that I've got the activity aspect of weight-loss down.  So it's the eating part that I struggle with.  I no longer have a morning snack, mostly because I'm not hungry enough to have one.  (Horn had asked this question a couple of days ago, with respect to hard-boiled eggs, and I kept forgetting to answer her!)  My eating at work definitely differs from my eating at home.  I think the morning "snack" is more to take a break and calm my nerves.  Or perhaps all of that brain activity - with emails and phone calls - burns more calories?  IDK. It would be interesting to see if I could replace that morning snack with a morning break, instead.

Also, one thing that Maria mentioned about maybe actually NEEDING this break from work, got me to thinking about how to approach my work more passively.  I don't have to be so personally involved.  I don't need to have an answer, just a direction to find the answer.  When a client emails or calls (especially the phone calls), I feel a tremendous sense of pressure/stress to have the answer.  No, that's not my job.  My job is to facilitate communications.  I've been working on establishing boundaries for myself.  I can do this better with emails than I can with phone calls.  I can't tell you how many emails I respond to but don't actually send out my response.  

One of my HUGE pet peeves is files with Associate Attorney.  He doesn't do email, really, so Nice Lady monitors his emails.  When people email him instead of me, not only does it delay things, but it's kind of like people are disrespecting my place in the transaction.  And yes, it irritates me that it goes to Nice Lady, rather than to me, but this will not change as long as Nice Lady is still with us, and she will be with us until the very end. 

I can't change that relationship, and I can't change that people may choose to email AA, and leave me out, but I CAN change my reaction and approach for myself.  So someone emails Associate Attorney - oh well, it's not on me if our response is delayed.  Let it go...  Just take the emails as they come in to me.  I will continue to set boundaries for myself,  



Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/29/2021:
Wonder what caused your illness if you're sure it's not food poisoning?

Sounds like you feel you need to take on more responsibility at work than you actually have to.

Yoga session sounds like it went well.

horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2021:
Speaking of using the bathroom, i do not think i had a "BM" this entire work week...as soon as I get home, i'm sure that's what i'll be doing.

nice to hear about you doing yoga. stretching and flexibility are something i do a little of also because once you lose it, it's gone! (flexibility).

personally, i could not do jump roping...it's too much stress on my joints and would cause me ankle pain. i stay away from jogging/jumping/running now. beware that jumping rope would be a lot of stress on your joints, at least in my own opinion.

in regards to breakfast and morning eating at work, just like you, i find i am much hungrier and eat much more on working mornings than home also (hard boiled eggs comments, etc).

Like your job at work, mine here is very similar. I am also a facilitator to get things paid. I do NOT make the checks or anything like that, but my job is to review notarizations and documents, make sure they are correct or get them correct, and forward them to all the correct individuals (6 different people, at six different points in the procedure)...until everyone approves and then a check gets made out...not sure what you do or if it equals someone getting a check in the end?, but that's what i do!

Honestly, the AA's emails should all be CC'd to you...why can't that change be "facilitated" by you....that's an important change to make sure you see all correspondance. and i totally agree with you.

Maria7 on 01/29/2021:
Thanks for including me in your today's post regarding my comment to you yesterday. I am happy that it is helping. We all help one another here and I hope you are feeling better today and just enjoying your current freedom to be home from work. Hope you think of something fun just for yourself today. Smiles.

bearcountrygg on 01/29/2021:
If the emails eventually get to you then I guess it's not something to get too stressed about....You can only deal with things that cross your desk.

Donkey - Thursday Jan 28, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

It is probably just as well that I'm home for several days, as I have been feeling that I've been fighting something off, last week and still this week.  As I mentioned to my Boss on Friday, as he left for the weekend, my plan was to just rest up because I felt like I've been fighting off something (e.g. the cold sore, but I didn't mention that to him).  I had very odd vivid dreams last night, and this morning, woke up congested and coughed up a wad of phlem.  I feel much better now, physically, after some hot coffee and my bike ride.

Yesterday was a good day.  I was very productive!  Walked & jogged on the treadmill for 2 miles, did an hour of Yin yoga to stretch out afterwards. Husband and I tackled the chicken he had bought last week.  He was afraid that it was spoiled, so he was avoiding the package of meat, which then becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy if you will.  If you avoid the meat for long enough - because you think it might be spoiled - then surely it will be spoiled by the time you gather up the courage to see. DUH!  The chicken was fine.  So he made a big batch of chicken noodle soup, and I prepared a buttermilk marinade for the remaining chicken breasts for dinner tonight or tomorrow.

Also yesterday, I thought, Wouldn't it be nice if I came back from quarantine to a noticeable weight-loss to my co-workers?  Then I promptly decided to have a piece of cake for dessert.  This was the last of the frozen Promotion Cake, from my daughter's promotion late 2020.  Glad it's gone!

I stayed up a little too late last night, albeit reading, which is good, and so I woke up later than I like, this morning.  I'm trying to keep my sleep schedule.  I don't want to think that because I'm not working that I can stay up until all hours.  NO.  So my goal is to be in bed by 9pm.  I can read or watch the news or check my phone, but in bed at 9pm.

I woke up to feeling anxious.  Guilty for sleeping in late (6:30am).  Paranoid that they will realize they don't need me at work.  Worried that I'm fighting off something.  Anxious to get as much done as possible today, and yet, always feeling like I'm not getting anything of real substance done. 

To shake things up today, I want to try jump roping in the garage today, thanks to inspiration from GrannieAnnie.  I also want to do a more challenging yoga flow today.  After I'm done here, I plan to work on the puzzle a bit.  Then the yoga, I think.  This afternoon, jump rope?  Or the yoga, if I don't get to it this morning.




Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/28/2021:
Sometimes I have found that if I overthink something....it ends up not working........one trick I use is.....when I begin to make a plan to do something easy......I stop myself and instead...decide...NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT...and just go do it....that seems to be the beginning of getting a lot of those little nagging things done.....if it's a bigger chore that will take more time than I have......I just go gather the items I will need and put them where they are handy to do it when I get the time......I just get a lot more done that way...and sometimes I get started and just don't want to stop....

Donkey on 01/29/2021:
I think the main source of my stress yesterday was this notice I received from the county Dept. of Heath. We have a new law that cats have to be registered, and it hadn't clicked in my mind that I needed to do something about it. I shouldn't have, since this is something the vet SHOULD have taken care of, but with COVID and all, it didn't go smoothly this year. My husband stepped in and took care of it.

Maria7 on 01/28/2021:
I hope you feel better. Might be good that you are off a couple weeks...they will see how much they need and appreciate you and you will be welcomed back with hugs when you go back, I bet. I know you are a hard worker. Just try to 'relax' (yes, I know...easier said than done) and get some extra rest. Take care.

Donkey on 01/29/2021:
I think you're right! Last night, I was thinking that when I go back to work, I'm going to try REALLY hard not to let the small stuff stress me out. It's not for me to judge whether or not a client is being difficult; it's just up to me to keep track of where things are at in a transaction. It's not up to me to have an answer or a solution, but to evaluate the question or problem and then channel it to the attorney for resolution.

So stepping back may help me manage my stress in the future, when I return.

grannyannie on 01/28/2021:
I'm a worrywort but it's really destructive and doesn't help. Hope you can chill out.

Hope you feel better soon!

Jump rope is great! I bought one years ago and cut it to my size so it's perfect. I have to do it in the hallway as the lights in my 'gym' are too low. 25 reps at a time. Definitely good for increasing bone density.

Donkey on 01/29/2021:
I did not get around to jumping rope, but I'm going to try to do it today.

I recently read a quote from some famous person that he disliked worrying because it doesn't go anywhere. (Picture a tire stuck in the mud, spinning to no avail.) If only it were easy to take that emotion and set it aside. But that's what I need to do.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/28/2021:
speaking of coughing and/or sneezing...i heard at my work that they are getting rid of the carpet! yes! i sneeze often and regularly at work. should be better without carpet!

wow! the marinade and the chicken soup sound SO SO SO GOOD!

of all the people i know, you are the winner in terms of who likes cake the best!

they need you at work! :)trust me!

Donkey on 01/29/2021:
Oh yes, I do love cake!!!!!

I bet that carpet is suspect! I've had similar experiences with household objects that were causing me some kind of respiratory distress. Such a relief when they are discovered (as the source) and removed!

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 27, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

 My test came back after I was already in bed, asleep.  The text notification woke me up but not enough to check my phone until this morning.  I have tested negative. 

I will get ready for work this morning,  but won't go in until I speak to my Boss first,  so hopefully he's available to take my call. I think it best to take this approach,  rather than to just show up at the office. 

I have no strong desire to return to work to do work,  but it will be nice to feel productive again. This was an interesting experiment to see if I felt ready to retire,  and I feel the answer is No.  However,  should I ever get that winning lottery ticket,  I wouldn't object to doing something else with my time.  Honestly,  I don't know how my husband stands it, like this. I know part of it,  for him,  is necessary because of the daily pain and chore of pain management. My experience at home would have been completely different had I been symptomatic.

Did upper body weights yesterday. No yoga,  did not read. Spent 2+ hours resting with 2 cats on my lap. 

AFTERNOON EDIT:  So I spoke with my boss, and he said that the CDC is recommending, for circumstances such as mine (living with a COVID positive person), that I must quarantine for 15 days after the fever broke.  So I will be off this week and next week.  It took me about an hour to come to terms with this, to accept that I will have this "down time" of not doing too much with the outside world.  I was not offered a "work from home" option, but the boss said that he would give me a week of paid time off.  So this week comes out of my combined "vacation-sick" time pool, and next week he will pay me.  Okay I guess... It feels so weird not to work.  Well, maybe now I can buckle down and get to that reading I keep talking about but never seem to get to!

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/27/2021:
Good to hear!

Good idea to check with boss first.

I've had no problem with boredom in retirement, and I've been retired 13 years. The past 10 months has been a big challenge though. I mean, I've done 17 jigsaw puzzles - mostly 1,000 pieces. Reading. Having to workout at home.

Donkey on 01/27/2021:
I should keep a proper perspective in mind, that if I were retired, it would not be like this.

Jacky82020 on 01/27/2021:
Hey, terrific the result was negative! I knew it! And even so most ppl I know who test positive are asymptomatic. Looking like I won’t have a vaccine for 6-12 months at best.

Donkey on 01/27/2021:
Yes, this is good news! Although if I were positive and asymptomatic, then that would mean I have the antibodies and would be protected for a little bit (3-6 months?).

bearcountrygg on 01/27/2021:
Great test result.........I love retirement.....I love not having to drive in the ice and snow..I didn't mind the working part and do miss that sometimes but the freedom of retirement is wonderful to me.

Donkey on 01/27/2021:
I'm glad to hear you say this, and Annie too. It's very encouraging.

horn_of_plenty on 01/27/2021:
glad you are ok and returning to work!

in regards to resting with your cats, I rest for long periods of time with my guinea pigs on my lap. in the mornings, before i leave for work, i generally will have one of the pigs on my lap for 5-10 minutes also.

they haven't contacted me in regards to approval to be a pig foster parent...fingers crossed...they are hard to reach, purposely. so i'm just using facebook messaging and email - not calling. don't even know the number!

Donkey on 01/27/2021:
Thank you!

IDK, I felt like I was "wasting" a lot of time just lying around with cats on me. Logically, I know it's not. It's so nice to spend time with my cats.

A lot of places these days don't take calls but rely on FB messenger. Who would have thought?

Jacky82020 on 01/27/2021:
Not sure on the antibodies but some studies showed sick ppl who recovered only had antibodies for a few months

Donkey on 01/28/2021:
That's OK! Right now, if daughter has ANY immunity, that's great, since she is normally exposed to many, many people at work. And not just co-workers, but customers too, from time to time. I'm hoping that corporate will be able to provide their workers with vaccines as part of an "essential worker" thing.

bearcountrygg on 01/27/2021:
Well.....you will have plenty of time to do the things you have been wanting o do!

Donkey on 01/28/2021:
This is true. And knowing that I won't be going into work the next day has given me some freedom in the flexibility of my time.

horn_of_plenty on 01/27/2021:
WELL...enjoy the time off.

maybe you can't go to the gym, but you can sign up for yoga stuff a hair more often...

you can figure out if you can do those donations of clothes...

why not watch some tv.

or cook something you like.

enjoy the time off...try to sleep in!

Donkey on 01/28/2021:
Yes! Yesterday, I walk/jog on the treadmill and then stretched out with a nice Yin yoga session. Today, I would like to do a more challenging Flow yoga.

I totally took your advice yesterday! Husband and I made homemade chicken soup together. Well, he made the soup, and I prepared a marinade for the remaining chicken, that we will enjoy probably tomorrow, for dinner. The soup - with extra egg noodles - was quite good, considering that it's cold and we're all fighting to stay healthy.

And I re-joined watching "The Crown" (about Queen Elizabeth). It's very good! My goal is to finish Season 1 by the time this quarantine is over.

KathyBlue on 01/28/2021:
Yay to reading! Actually I bought a 1-year premium app called Asana Rebel, and I want to do their workout routines at home. I was looking at them but still couldn't find the time / opportunity (motivation?) to actually do one of them. Eventually I will, though. I work like that, if I pay for something, it will bug me not to use it and I will end up using it. haha...

Donkey on 01/28/2021:
I'm like you, if I pay for it, I will do it. That's where I struggle with yoga. I do the once-a-week yoga I pay for, but doing free yoga on YouTube is a harder step to take.

legcramps on 01/28/2021:
Take care! This is a great opportunity to get some well deserved rest and relaxation in, as long as you can shut off the work or guilt over not being at work. You are where you need to be right now!

Donkey on 01/28/2021:
Oh yes, the guilt. And then there's the paranoia that they at work will realize that they don't need me and I'm overpaid, meaning they can get someone to do my job at a lower wage.

I'm not so sure I'm resting more... Well, mentally resting more, but not doing so well on the sleeping habits. Tonight's goal is to be under the covers by 9pm.

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