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Donkey - Sunday Oct 20, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 27


 The remainder of the week has been most difficult.

I decided to leave early (1:00p) on Wednesday, did not go to Chair Yoga, stayed home, rested, napped, trying to feel better, taking zinc and a decongestant to avoid getting the full-blown sinus infection that my co-worker (Nice Lady) has had for the past 2 weeks.  I'm really angry that she has come to work, hacking up a lung, obviously sick.  She's not that busy.

While I was out Wednesday afternoon, my co-workers were left to deal with a high drama client & her agent (who is high drama too).  This High Drama Client carried on through Friday.  So on top of trying to catch up on my other files, this High Drama took so much time - and the client was condescending and berating, just going over and over the same thing, how awful I was, how much the attorney messed up, etc.  

On top of fighting a cold and dealing with High Drama and LOTS of work, TOM decided to hit, so I was battling that too.  

You'd think I'd get a break from all of this, but yesterday was Legal Clinic.  I'm seriously giving thought to giving this up, because it is starting to feel like an extra work day.  I come home and my daughter has a house guest that stayed until I started getting ready for bed!  So no relaxation yesterday.

I would love to relax today, but I have that Mindful Eating workshop today at 12:30p.  I hope to do some yardwork, which usually helps me decompress.  I hope.

Monday morning I'm signing papers to re-finance my mortgage before I rush off to work.

WILL THIS EVER STOP???

All this crap is making it really hard to reset myself for this week, where I'm sure to deal with more High Drama.  

THIS is why I hate my job. That I cannot even be sick for HALF A DAY without everything falling apart.


I did some research and found out that becoming a certified yoga instructor is very expensive and quite intensive over a short duration of time.  So, I've come to the conclusion that rather than have surgery on my fat, that the money would be put to better use learning yoga.

 

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2019:
all because certain things go south when you are not at work doesn't mean that you cannot fix them in a decent timely manner when you get back to work...i wish you wouldn't feel so upset about this part - i would say it comes with the job. you can't take their mistakes personally, right? i'm trying to give advice...

also, good decision about the fat removal and not doing it. also, are you wanting to be a yoga instructor?

Donkey on 10/20/2019:
A lot of my work is time-sensitive, so I was dealing with a LOT that needed to be done NOW - plus dealing with the big mess from Wednesday.

My boss says that it's job security. In his defense, he knows that High Drama Client is way Outer Limits, and he has offered to deal with her whenever. That did kind of help me to feel better.

You're 100% right - can't take this stuff personally... BUT it DOES feel personal. It's hard, it hurts.

Donkey on 10/20/2019:
That is the problem with high drama files - they consume SO MUCH time - unnecessarily! - so that I fall behind with everything else, much of it which is time sensitive.

That is what I meant to say above. And it's not just me. Male Co-Worker gets this too. All the time.

Donkey on 10/20/2019:
I'm toying around with the idea of getting a yoga teaching certificate. Not sure about teaching, per se, but rather as a step in my yoga journey towards my own self-improvement.

If I were to get my certificate, it would only be so that I could teach the classes that I want to see more of, namely Cat Yoga, Chair Yoga, Cat Chair Yoga, and Chair Cat Yoga.


grannyannie on 10/20/2019:
Oh no! One thing after another! Hope you feel better and there's not so much drama this coming week.

Donkey on 10/21/2019:
I am going into this week with an open mind and a positive attitude :-)



Donkey - Wednesday Oct 16, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 23:  Intention:  Get through the day.  Mantra:  Get through the day.


 I woke up this morning feeling like every major joint in my body is on fire.  I also feel sick to my stomach.  Emotionally, I'm not at 100% today.  This is the hell that monthly hormones can do.  So I believe that this too shall pass.

Some of the aches and pains are because I did too much yesterday... and probably Monday too.  So my body does need to rest.  And when I don't feel so tired, I will be able to organize my emotions more clearly.

Hoping to come home after Library Chair Yoga this afternoon, rather than returning to work.  I think that's a very good idea.

I'll be alright.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

legcramps on 10/16/2019:
That sounds quite painful and uncomfortable...I hope you're feeling much better after chair yoga and some rest.


grannyannie on 10/16/2019:
How awful! Hope you feel better very soon.


BearCountryGG on 10/16/2019:
I remember those hormones well....for me I was lucky to only have them for about half a day.....but I was able to warn D that they were kicking in...and that he shouldn't take anything I say or do too seriously....he would look at me with fear in his eyes and nod....he usually kept his distance for a few hours...LOL


grannyannie on 10/16/2019:
I haven't had a period for 27 years. Don't miss it!


innerpeace on 10/16/2019:
i had the uterine ablasion procedure done...what a God send, best decision of life. No periods.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/16/2019:
How did your afternoon go? I hope you do feel better soon!


Horn_of_plenty on 10/19/2019:
I hope you are feeling better! do you have any idea what caused all of this?



Donkey - Sunday Oct 13, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 20Intention:  Although I may have regrets, I am thankful for where I'm at right now.  Mantra:  Gratitude is the attitude.


I continued to make small progress in winterizing my yard for winter.  It was VERY windy yesterday, which made the cooler temperatures down-right COLD.  Daughter did not want to go for a nature walk, so we just hung out, and I walked on my mom's old treadmill.  My back was still a little too achy, so I did not practice any yoga (on my own).  However, I *did* do weights, so I'm happy with that.


I had an epiphany of sorts on Friday night.  I like to learn things for my own journey by learning from others, what they have experienced on their own travels.  I was watching a certain British baking show, when the lady who lost this week, said that she had gotten to a point in her life, where she was stuck.  She decided that until she figured it out, she was just going to do things that she enjoyed and made her feel better. 

Wow - just WOW...  Oh how it would have been so helpful to me to realize this myself much earlier in my life.  When feeling "stuck", rather than try to cater to unrealistic ambitions, if I had just stepped back a bit, things might have been entirely different.  That is to say, rather than violently struggle against feeling "stuck", sometimes the solution is a more gentle approach of determining what really brings fulfillment and happiness and contentment.

However, it's best not to dwell on what might have been and appreciate where I'm at now, and where I'm going.


I came to the realization this past week that perhaps my knees and thighs are big for a reason.  Knee problems go way back in our family - I already have problems with my right knee, but they usually pass.  I'm wondering if the extra padding is there for some kind of preventative reason, perhaps for when I am much older.  As Horn related her experience of having a cosmetic treatment on her abs, if I were do something with my knees & inner thighs -- say, like that subcutaeous procedure where they freeze the fat cells with laser or ultrasound - and then had nerve damage or pain, that would be not be good.  Or suppose my legs would look disproporationate after having lipsuction?  That wouldn't be good either - in fact, that would probably be worse!  (Who spends $$$$ to look worse???)

And while I was at Self Love Yoga, how wonderful it was to assume various godess positions (a fancy name for variations on a sumo squat) easily because my legs are strong and solid!

(Unfortunately, it was this fabulous self-showing-off that led to straining my back, but lesson learned -- on many levels!)


It's just as well that I did not sign up for the Yoga Nature Walk -- it's been canceled 2 times now, and this time, I do not think they are going to reschedule, unfortunately.  Perhaps if they do, I will sign up.  I would like to have some friends that I can hike with.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/13/2019:
I like the way you are thinking!!!!! I agree with we are built this way for a reason!! You have strong legs...that is a blessing and have you ever watched them do lipo on someone??? It is down right scary....maybe thre is a video online.....you could watch...they look like they are ripping and tearing things that shouldn't be torn...it actually looks violent. But i titally agree...when stuck...stop...and find a nwe or refind an old enjoyment and enjoy....the answer to getting unstuck will appear when the time is right.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/14/2019:
Yeah, we gotta forget about the past and concentrate more on what we have now :)

awesome you did weights! i'm off for the holiday...and realize today is a "pushup" day....so i should get on those - or skip until Wednesday ;)

with the negative feelings / feelings of being stuck (which i feel now), my coworker, smart lady project manager, has said to NOT make any big decisions and do just as the baker you watched on TV said...yes.

yeah, cosmetic procedures...i think how i'll want botox or something similar in my face when i'm ...older...lol who knows what that means. but now because $ is not flowing as freely as i thought it would by now, i'm changing my course too and realizing it's more just about "living life" and not paying for things that really will not help me...the abs thing was a waste.

are there any walking clubs in your area? there may be one you don't know about...also, if you can go walking at a park, some people are friendly to talk to. i used to walk with random people at a park near me when i was younger - i became friends with them (all ages) and they liked to walk and talk..i haven't done that as much recently...at all. partially because i don't walk regularly anywhere anymore i guess....

at another park i went to a couple years ago, women also were walking together and they may have met at that park. - parks with walking paths.


grannyannie on 10/14/2019:
Great attitudes! And yes, living in the past is pointless and harmful - I know!


Maria7 on 10/15/2019:
I like your 'day 20' that you wrote above. Hope you are having a wonderful day.



Donkey - Thursday Oct 10, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 17:  Intention: I love and accept my body for the way it is.   Mantra:  This too shall pass.


Hurt my back.  I think it was from a specific move during Tuesday's Self-Love Yoga.  I like to impress myself (ha ha ha) that I can do all of the moves in a session, even though I'm new in my journey.  Well, this vanity has come to bite me in the back.  I started feeling a little bit of it, but this morning, I'm having active "reminders" from my back that I did something wrong..

Again, a valuable lesson. I must accept my limitations.  This yoga thing is a journey, not an accomplishment.  It is more like practicing a craft, writing rough drafts - it's not about the finished product.  When I was doing this move, I knew that I was testing my limits - not in a good way - and I *could* have modified the move so as not to put so much stress on the back.  I did not respect my body.

So kind of a mind-body disconnect.  


I did have the courage to purchase a 10-class ticket though at New Yoga Studio.  So now the next step is to actually USE the ticket and attend classes.  I wanted to try a more challenging yoga (one that flows rather than just practicing holding positions), but this should will wait until my back feels better.

If I go to the other yoga studio (remember Donkey's Yoga Disaster?), it seems as though most of the classes I can attend are of the same variety as Library Yoga.  So not so sure I want to duplicate...  So, still thinking about this.

I was also brave enough to sign up for the Mindful Eating workshop on October 20th.  Something fun to do on a Sunday afternoon.


My daughter is not in a good spot right now.  Not sure what's going on EXACTLY, but she needs a break, so I'm looking into some quick getaways to do with her, before the retail holiday season starts up.  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 10/10/2019:
Good on the getaway w your Daughter to have some good Mother-Daughter time. I like what you wrote on your day 17 above and also that we must accept our limitations. So true. And be happy with our abilities, too. That is another good one. Sometimes we take for granted our abilities that the Lord has blessed us with and get caught up in concentrating on negatives instead of positives.

Donkey on 10/12/2019:
YES! What has been echoing in my mind is "God doesn't make mistakes" -- so I'm thinking that maybe the fat around my knees has a purpose, if not now, maybe later on.


grannyannie on 10/10/2019:
Love your attitudes.

Donkey on 10/12/2019:
Thank you! Sometimes I don't feel them consistently or strongly, but that's when "fake it until you make it" comes into play.

That is to say, sometimes it's about effort, rather than the result. :-)


BearCountryGG on 10/10/2019:
AWWWWW poor back....I like how you work on impressing yourself. My young nephew who was about 6 at the time told his Mom that he wanted a suit...she asked why...and he said "I want to impress my Dad"...totally oblivious that Dad was going to be the one paying for it...LOL I like the way you guys think!!!

Donkey on 10/12/2019:
Oh my is that too cute, or what? Yet sometimes, I find myself, in this journey, thinking at that child-like level.

I'll write more about impressing myself...


legcramps on 10/10/2019:
I love your mantra today. We all need to say this to ourselves more often. Just imagine if we loved ourselves as we were?! What a beautiful thing that would be :)

Donkey on 10/12/2019:
Right??? I wasted so much time and energy in my youth hating on my body. When I had my daughter, I worked very hard not to poison her with body-image issues. She's 19 now, and I'm still working on her. She seems to be in a better mindset than I ever was.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/12/2019:
i thought that all yoga included holding positions?

i used to do a HOT bikram yoga around 13 years ago and it was def challenging, but we did hold the poses for one minute each.

i want to hear how the mindful eating goes next weekend.

also, great to hear you are thinking of & helping your daughter...and how is your son?

Donkey on 10/12/2019:
Some forms of yoga are more about movement - the flow in between positions. You hold the positions for only seconds before transitioning into the next position. Think of something like Tai Chi. Ashtanga yoga is very flow-y.

New Yoga Studio has just added Hot Yoga on Saturday mornings. It is a slow flow style. I might try that. After that, they turn off the humidifier, and the next class is only Warm Yoga, LOL...

I'm waiting a little longer for my back to feel better first, I think. IDK, I might do a little yoga on my own this weekend.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/12/2019:
make sure to keep letting your back rest, and to know it will heal as long as you don't "push it" or do poses that are going to irritate it.

might as well do as you said - honor your body, treat it well, know what helps and what may not...and work with it in a positive manner rather than destructive (i should take this cue!!!!)



Donkey - Tuesday Oct 08, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 15:  Today I devote to my Chill (state of relaxation and serenity).  Mantra:  Let go and let God.


 Library Yin Yoga was very relaxing last night.  Very nice, deep stretching.  I arrived at class almost too late, so I didn't have time to grab any props to assist me with my movements.  I am flexible enough that I do not need a cushion or support blocks, but having a strap to help with stretch extensions would be helpful.  So I learned something about myself last night.  

The instructor also gave us some good news that the library is allowing her to offer more classes in a bigger room come December.  I hope that she will be offering a 2nd class at night; right now, she offers 2 classes per month:  one during the day, and then one at night.

Tonight is Self-Love Yoga.  I hope I remember to bring my checkbook so that I can get a 10-class pass and sign up for the Mindful Eating workshop.  Must remember...


I came across something last night that was rather mind-blowing to me.  It put into words exactly what I've been trying to articulate lately:

Does working full-time make you feel like you're living part-time?

YES!  This is exactly what I've been trying to say. 

I have a friend who thought that she would find her happiness in her career/job.  She studied the same coursework I did to become a legal assistant, but ended up not leaving her current job because of the salary and benefits that she already has.

She is about 5 years older than I am, and she has come to the realization that she has found her passion - her vocation, if you will - as a lay minister in her church.  As she has nutured this passion, she has taken on more responsibilities in her church.  She even wrote a book (although she had to self-publish)!  She laments that her calling is not her job, but she sees this as maybe being her retirement job.  In the meantime, she continues to study and grow in her work (not in her job, but in her calling).  

I have come to realize that this friend has taught me a very valuable lesson.

 

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

legcramps on 10/08/2019:
Yes, YES!! I've realized this myself as well, as I continue to grow and learn more about the fitness industry. My wish is for fitness to persevere long and well in my life, until I am at retirement and can devote more time to it!

Donkey on 10/10/2019:
It's nice that you are able to incorporate your interest and passion into your job/career. (That's actually fabulous.) But even so, I see that it's not perfect - red tape, workplace politics, grumpy co-workers, rude-ass people, etc.

I guess there's always something, right? Still, that's pretty cool that you get to do this :-)


grannyannie on 10/08/2019:
Working full time at a job you don't like certainly feels like you're living part-time. If you are lucky enough to love your job, all is good. I never had a job I loved, but some were a lot more tolerable than others.

I do not miss having to work! So I guess I'm living full time.

Donkey on 10/10/2019:
I used to love this job; now I only tolerate it. Have I changed? Has the job changed? Have the clientele changed? Hmm...


Horn_of_plenty on 10/09/2019:
I had no idea there is such a variety of props for yoga. sounds to me like you are really enjoying it! this is wonderful to hear!!

that's good for the woman she has found something she loves she can do past the time she retires from her job.

yes, it's important to just be able to support yourself with a job, and i, for one, believe that while it's wonderful to love what you do, that many people are just counting on their job to be able to live off of. (i know, not the most positive comment on my end).

but yeah, it's good to have other involvements going on in your life outside of your job. i'm now looking for those as i have changed around my exercise and still changing it, and i now seem to have more time to myself at home again...plus all these days off recently due to holidays and stuff - i find myself not being so stressed as i used to be. it's a good feeling, but also a dull feeling...that i should be doing something more.

Donkey on 10/10/2019:
I agree: I think most folks work to be able to live; some barely survive, so I'm quite grateful that I have a little extra money to do things, etc.

I think we all need something to look forward to, though. :-)



Donkey - Monday Oct 07, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 14:  Intention:  May I see the positive in every situation.  Mantra:  Let go and let God.

I decided to sign up for Library Yin Yoga tonight rather than the Waste Free seminar.  I attended a recycling seminar earlier this year, and I think most of the information will be duplicated.


A few steps for my Yoga Journey:

  • Return to the Hard Yoga Studio:  They have the cheapest 10-class ticket for newbies, and most of the classes that fit into my schedule are a slower paced yoga style [Yin and Vinyasa (slow flow)].  After the newbie ticket is used up, the price goes up, to just a little less than New Yoga Studio.  However, one of my goals (can I say goals?) is to return to that disaster class - with a different teacher - that I wrote about, and master it.  Okay, maybe "master" is too strong of a word, but to get a solid grip on the technique.  I don't want my  last memory of Ashtanga yoga to be me huffin' and puffin' in the back row.
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  • Commit to New Yoga Studio:  While their 10-class ticket is more expensive, I want to support THIS studio's endeavor.  I like their workshops and all, but a solid commitment would probably help them more - and help ME more. 
  •  
  • Study common yoga poses at home:  so that when someone says, Child's Pose, I know what to do instinctively, because I have the knowledge.  I have an old yoga book that's just been sitting on the shelf here, and I dusted it off (literally) to take a look.  This will help me immensely - and it's something that I already had!
  •  
  • Work on converting an area in my house for my own "yoga studio":  Some place that I can go to - at home - that looks nice, smells nice, and relaxes me.  My plan is to do yoga videos at home, as part of my practice.  I'm not holding off on practicing, but I think that having a retreat space would be nice.

I came across a blog or a YouTube video from a woman who is a part-time yoga instructor.  She said that when she started HER yoga journey, she was so shy about it that she only did videos in her home - for years - before she sought out a public class.  She wrote (or spoke) that she wished that she had had the courage to reach out for real-life instruction sooner.  The videos were fine and all, but that her practice came into a whole new level once she had that human connection. 

I found this insight to be helpful in formulating my own Yoga Journey.  It's hard for me to step out of my comfort zone - introvert that I am - and join other people.  However, I can see that to get to the level I want to reach, I will have to do some homework on my own, at home, as well.  I want a nice balance of real life and at home.  

I may seem indulgent in seeking out guidance from TWO yoga studios - plus the free opportunities that I keep finding - but I want to learn from a diverse group of teachers, with different approaches and perspectives.  I don't know if that is the BEST method to becoming adept at yoga, but for now, at least, this is the path I'm laying out for my journey.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

legcramps on 10/07/2019:
I don't think it's indulgent at all, I think you're working towards a better balance and there's nothing at all wrong with that!


Horn_of_plenty on 10/08/2019:
Great, GREAT plans with yoga and the studios you plan to attend. EVEN BETTER, awesome idea to supplement your practice at home. CONVENIENCE will be helpful!

I want to comment on the introvert situation - one good thing is during yoga the focus is not on conversation but on your practice. so, it's more structured. as an introvert, i prefer that type of social situation, maybe you also do.

like legs, i like your approach and you are def branching out and learning a TON about yoga and the styles / and teachers!



Donkey - Sunday Oct 06, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 13, Supplemental

This is not part of my Yoga Journey, but I wanted to mention that I did dye my hair last night.  This was nothing related to age, grey hair, or feeling old.  This was about wanting a change.  Something about the change in seasons and change in the colors outside, just wanted made me want to warn things up with the image I see when I look in the mirror.

My hair is medium to dark brown (and grey), so I went with a dark blond, to light everything up, but I ended up with a lovely, warm reddish brown color, which is just what I wanted.  I used a better quality product, which was much kinder on my hair and scalp.  

I'm quite pleased!

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/07/2019:
what brand of hair dye did you use ? can we see?



Donkey - Sunday Oct 06, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 14:  Life is a journey to explore, not a war to be fought.  Mantra:  Let it be.


A few weeks ago, I found an American flag in the wetland area that I pass on one of my walks.  I took it home and washed it.  Then I realized which house this belonged to.  This morning, I *finally* got around to returning the flag to its proper home.  And I got a morning walk in (to return the flag) early on, which was great.  I jogged a little bit during my walk too.  It was a beautiful morning, and it felt good to put the flag back in its proper place. 

I have formulated some "next steps" in my yoga journey, which I will write more here about in a bit.  Lunch beckons... 


AFTERNOON EDIT:  I will write about the next steps in my Yoga Journey in a separate entry.  I want to keep it separate from my daily journaling.

This weekend has been incredibly productive.  I'm doing the winterization for my yard in steps, and I got the first step done (FINALLY) yesterday, which was weeding and cutting down a smaller strip of landscaping in my front.  So that section looks nice.  There is another section in front that also needs weeding and cutting down, but I will do that later this month, as there are still insects and animals benefiting from the milkweed plants and dandilion leaves. 

Next weekend, hopefully, will be laying down some soil in my back, prepping for next year's flower bed for my butterfly, birds, & bees garden.

My eating this weekend hasn't been the best.  Some of this is due to the change in weather, I know.  I decided to go back to the heavy whipping cream in my coffee.  I looked at alternatives and just couldn't make up my mind.  HWC is most effective in keeping hunger away, so at least for the next container, it will be what I use.  

Still trying to decide if I should sign up for Library Yin Yoga or the Zero Waste Mindset seminar tomorrow night.  I'm running out of time to make a decision.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/07/2019:
that's so thoughtful of you to return their flag!

if the heavy whipping cream works best and you like it best, i see no reason to change it :)

you have so many great options to do after work tomorrow. sounds good, good for you mind!

Oh, the woman i sent you the photos of - she used to not exercise and gained a lot of weight with her pregnancies. so some of her body shape may be due to being heavier previously in her life too...



Donkey - Saturday Oct 05, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 13:  Life is a sacred journey.  Mantra:  Slow & steady


 I replied to comments.  I invite you to have a look, if you like.


Lately, I've been thinking about letting some carbs back into my life.  Mainly, a morning bowl of oatmeal for breakfasts and sweet potatoes for other meals.  Maybe high-fiber wraps, too.  

I made a switch from heavy whipping cream in my morning coffee to half-and-half.  This is because we had some H & H that had to get used up.  I can tell a difference.  With the heavy whipping cream, my coffee kept me satiated.  Not exactly "filled me up" but satisfied me.  With the half & half, the coffee isn't holding my hunger back as well.  Interesting.  I'm almost done with the half-and-half.  I'm not sure what my next step will be.

I thought that it would rain all day today, but the storms aren't coming in until this afternoon.  I just realized that it's sunny outside now, so I'm going to end this early and go do the yardwork (weeding, namely) that I've been wanting to do the past 2 weekends, but couldn't because of the rain.


I would like to use this weekend to think about the next step in my yoga journey.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/05/2019:
I like to take a sheet of paper with pro and con colums.....and then start writing...it helps clear me clear things up.

Donkey on 10/06/2019:
I do this too! However, I did not do this with my coffee creamer situation and made a decision rather at the last minute. I was not too impressed with the alternatives, truth be told, and I didn't want to spend $3.50 on a big thing of alternative creamer, if it wasn't going to work.

I don't drink milk, but I love dairy products WAY too much, I'm afraid.


grannyannie on 10/06/2019:
Sounds like you are doing well. Love your mantras. I will log my yoga experiences here when I start it.

Donkey on 10/06/2019:
I hope you like it. Even if you never do more than one class, think of it as a wonderful athletic stretch.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/06/2019:
I have come to realize that shopping second hand saves a pretty penny indeed! i was in Target and cannot believe how expensive the clothes are. Clothes in general are expensive!

Lol, slow and steady does win the race ;)

I like how you mention you are going to be planning phases in your journey. - yoga journey. i haven't done a lot of planning lately - just living by other's coattails / living on the edge right now. i realize i need a plan - at least i have the court assistant as backup.

anyways, failing to plan is planning to fail - so i'm happy to read about your plan....i'm going to send you a few photos of her she posts on fb or instagram...ones already out there i'll send you privately.

Donkey on 10/06/2019:
The photos were so helpful - thank you! They really helped me discover what I think I already knew deep down in my heart -- about self-acceptance, and being grateful for a functional body.



Donkey - Friday Oct 04, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 12:  Devotion:  Life is meant to be celebrated.  Mantra:  Step away.


 Just didn't have the time to log in yesterday.  I did have an intention and a mantra, because I have found it very helpful in reducing my daily stress to devote my day to a goal, and then a phrase that I can repeat to myself often throughout the day, to keep myself in check.  I believe I carried Day 10's intention & devotion into yesterday (Day 11) - I'm sorry, I just don't remember.

Last night, rather than log in here, I chose to spend some time with daughter, just hanging out.  I notice that these opportunities are becoming more and more rare.  Sometimes, when she does things with me, like Cat Yoga, I get the impression that she's there to humor me, rather than for her own enjoyment.  

One thing that she's been interested in lately is going to the local roller-rink to skate.  She doesn't go alone, and lately, her friends have not been available to skate with her.  I love to skate, although I'm not very good at it, so I've been thinking about buying a used pair of rollerblades or skates (old-school) so that I can go with her if she wants.

Also - too late for this year's baseball season but maybe for next - the rink has a large screen TV where they have the Chicago Cubs games.  My husband LOVES the Cubs, but they are not on TV very much because we don't have cable.  In 2020, they are going to be exclusively on cable.  So I was thinking, if he wants to watch a game on the weekends or at night, we could go together - with or without the daughter - and he can watch TV and I could get in some good exercise. 

Well, just a thought for possible future family things to do.  And trying to stretch my horizons a little bit.  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/04/2019:
I haven't skated for years. Wouldn't try rollerblades but I'd be happy to try skates again.

Donkey on 10/05/2019:
That's kind of what I'm thinking. I think I need the 4 wheels as a solid base for more balance.


legcramps on 10/04/2019:
That's a lovely idea!

Donkey on 10/05/2019:
:-) This is something I would do, I think, even without daughter, if it meant husband would come with to watch the games on TV. Kind of pseudo-date night.

Sadly, that is my/our reality, that if I want to do active things with husband, he will have to sit on the sidelines or find an alternative, for most of them.


BearCountryGG on 10/04/2019:
I think it's great to have the same mantra day after day.....okay to add new ones too.....but repeting a mantra just drills it into the brain even more.

Donkey on 10/05/2019:
THANK YOU! I've been trying to mix it up, kind of running shallow on ideas. It never quite occurred to me to have a mantra that I use for several days. I will do this!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/04/2019:
LOL i'll send you some photos of her!!! hahahaha. you do have slightly diff body types (she is very short as well!)

i think you legs have a lot of muscle that you aren't accounting for.

do they have skates to rent first at the rink? in case you don't end up going often? or perhaps , just perhaps, you can find used ones online??

Donkey on 10/05/2019:
Actually, I think photos would be very helpful, if your friend doesn't mind you taking photos of her.

I do have very muscular legs. They aren't well-defined, or "ripped", so to speak.

And some of this too, is loose skin from my heavier days. There is a price to pay.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/04/2019:
ricky got me into buying used clothes / boots.

i still like new, but, i have found that SHOES are costly and i luckily (realizing now) will not need any shoes this year at all...even sneakers i realize i'm sorta GOOD on them too. i got a pair of flat boots and a pair of a suede very low heeled boot at a thrift shop for unbelievably low prices - now let's see if i actually wear them! they are both comfortable and seem well-made.

Donkey on 10/05/2019:
I am looking for 2nd-hand skates, but they do have skate rental, and that might be a better use of my money. Depends on what I can find on Marketplace. A $5 pair would be worth the investment, I think.

I LOVE shopping second-hand.



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