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Donkey - Friday May 08, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Despite being very tired yesterday,  I had a lovely Flow-Yin yoga session last night!  I think the teacher went a little easy on me,  and she said she was tired too, so the slower pace was just what I needed. I was able to maintain balance and transitions well.  I'm proud of myself.

Eating was a little iffy. Had a stroopwaffel AND a piece of dark chocolate,  but after yoga,  had a lovely cup of decaf,  and I was fine after that. 

The physical therapy office on the first floor of our little office house building is starting to take patients now on a limited basis, so the Office Manager is back.  She had bariatric surgery 2 years ago,  and I've enjoyed her weight loss  journey .   She had been working from home since the shelter-down. 

So she comes upstairs to my desk and says that because she was so worried about binge eating, being at home,  that she started running.  She lost track of her eating, which she wasn't eating,  and ended up losing 20 pounds!  So more she's trying to gain a little weight, and she feels disappointed in herself,  because she neglected herself being so focused on taking care of others. She's disappointed because neglecting herself is how she gained so much weight to begin with. 


I'm not sure how I feel about hearing all of this,  especially since I've GAINED 10 pounds and have been struggling a lot lately. 

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/08/2020:
Stress eating is real.....and sugar and fat...are comforting...put sugar and fat in the same food ( like chocolate or ice cream) and you have the perfect storm. It is sad to me...that food causes us all so much grief.....we put so much importance on it while in other countries...people are just happy to find anything that is edible for survival. I keep thinking about how in the long ago past....the wealthy drank from pewter cups to show their wealth...and ended up poisoning themselves with the lead in the pewter. It's interesting how the PT lost wt and now fears being at home with food and ran to avoid food and lost too much weight.........we put so much on food and the way we deal with it.......what has happened to us?

Horn_of_plenty on 05/08/2020:
Nice job on yoga transitions and moves ! I’m glad the class was what you were looking for last night !

Try to go with the enjoyment of the stroopwaffle and chocolate. I am also doing this. I find that allowing the indulgences also makes me feel more in control like I’ve had what I wanted and can move on.....I know it’s so hard!....but that’s why I am sure to have chocolate around now and not be limiting too much bc in the past when I limited the most I also binged the most. Sorry if that was a little bit too much info?

So I know it’s hardest to lose weight. As for the woman who had the surgery, try hard not to compare yourself as I am sure her weight will continue to fluctuate.

As for you I can only suggest to have the little things that you enjoy but really try to keep portions smaller. Like even the meat portions at your meals - last night I had a half a meat portion just because I knew I could eat it today for a meal again and that I’d save half the calories. Try for more liquids with low cals. And for dinner I have been adding the veggies in more - maybe add prayer into the mix ?

I know it is so hard and for myself I may have gained a pound or so at this time which is not much.

The longer the time passes and years go by, the harder it seems for me to lose weight.

It’s not about perfection but more about having a healthy weight and muscle to make it all look proportional- my idea anyways.

I would suggest not to go about trying to lose 10 lbs at once but to make a few changes to help you.

They sell mini stroopwaffles so maybe in future you can buy them and have 100 cals worth with your coffee.

Just suggestions - remember it’s your one life and not to hate yourself for enjoying something sweet. For me, it’s the calories I watch most on the sweets more than anything and I guess calories mean the portions.

Horn_of_plenty on 05/08/2020:
I am sure that the weight is from the cakes and desserts and that you do have a healthy menu. I know it’s hard !

I have a nurse friend that has gained so much weight bc of her desire to enjoy sweets like every day and the size of like a piece of pie daily ! Lol. She exercises but would look great if she didn’t have pie everyday! She just doesn’t seem to care what people think ! But in my mind I’d think she’d be healthier if she cared.

Donkey - Thursday May 07, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

I told myself last night that I had to wake up early today, in order to get something done.  When I woke up this morning, I could not remember what that reason was, to wake up early.  But I got up early anyway, hoping I'd remember what it was I had to do.  Nope. 

Stayed up WAY too late last  night.  Just could not get myself to start getting ready for bed.  I did push-ups but could not get myself to do crunches.  I *REALLY* hate any core exercises.

Tonight is Flow-Yin Yoga by myself, with the good yoga mat (lol). 

Trying to stay positive, trying to stay motivated today.   

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/07/2020:
Well I do minor core exercises on the days that I do upper body. I switch off exercises Of pushups and core actually ! So after I do a set up pushups when my arms are tired, I can relax them with crunches ;) !!! I think you are talking yourself into hating the exercises more than you really do?

So did you ever remember why you were getting up early ?

Enjoy your good yoga mat and yoga seems that you were always on the fence about yoga and you have learned to appreciate at it so much :)

legcramps on 05/07/2020:
To be honest, I really think you probably get a good amount of core work done during yoga. If you continue to breath deeply through your diaphragm, you should be contracting and activating those core muscles the whole time.

I would *only my opinion* skip the crunches and do planks instead.

Donkey on 05/08/2020:
Good point about getting core work in yoga! The flow classes I take tend to focus on ab work. The Yin sessions not so much, but I love those classes for a different reason.

Planks is an interesting thought! That's a good idea! I'll consider that option!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/08/2020:
Omg core work on doing yoga - you might be doing enough is right ?!

Donkey - Wednesday May 06, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

 Tried the new yoga class last night!!!  

We were so funny.  We're waiting for the Zoom meeting to start, and the instructor comes on the screen.  My daughter says, "What do you think?  Is it Crazy Lady?"  LOL!!

I could tell by her voice that it wasn't,  so we joined in with video.  There was another lady too,  so 3 students and the teacher.  Nice!

It was nice to have a new teacher,  with new ideas and approaches.  However,  I felt it was more like the Flow-Yin class on Thursdays,  rather than a Slow Flow class. 

Also,  if I'm allowed the luxury of complaining,  my space at home is not very good for yoga.  There wasn't enough room for both of us,  I had to use a mat that is not good for balancing,  because my daughter had the good mat.  Also,  cat fights and husband's unintentional interruptions....  Not ideal. 

It would be better to have this teacher in real life class.  There were a few lapses of cues (left or right?) that would have been very helpful for me, because this is my particular issue, lack of coordination.  And I think there were a couple of times whe we did a move on one side but never did it on the other side.

Still,  I like the class.  I'm going to work on creating a better space over the weekend, so that my daughter and I can have ample room - or at least more room.  

And to be honest,  I have to evaluate if I can afford 3 classes a week,  with my daughter attending 2 of them.  I know she could pay her own way,  but I don't want her to do that. I hope that makes sense.  And I do want to support the Studio during this shelter-down time, too.  

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 05/06/2020:
I like doing Zoom workouts; it's fun to see everyone else in the class and it feels more like a group workout than just watching a video or live facebook stream.

Hopefully this weekend you can work on giving yourself (and your daughter) more space for yoga!

Donkey on 05/07/2020:
I think having a better yoga space will help a lot :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 05/06/2020:
I totally understand you wanting to give your daughter the gift of yoga and to do it together !!!

Hopefully with a a few changes to space issue will be improved in your home - but I think you should use the better mat ! :-) mother comes first !

Donkey on 05/07/2020:
Yes, that's my intention - to give my daughter the gift of yoga at an early age. I wish I had started at a younger age. Yet - I know there are yogis out there who are older than I, who started when they were older than I was when I started.

Donkey - Tuesday May 05, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Yesterday was a good eating day.  However,  still feeling bloated.  I'm sure this is hormone related.  It was somewhat easier to do crunches,  and I did my maintenance push-ups too.  The crunches were difficult,  but I enjoyed the push-ups!  I can't believe I said that about push-ups!

Last night was Yin Yoga but I just wasn't feeling it.  I was energized!  So a fast flow class would have felt better.  Also,  we did a lot of twists and my back really felt it.  I feel good today though,  so no harm done. 

I showed the online picture of the new yoga teacher to Nice Lady at work,  to see if she thought it was Crazy Lady, and she said no.  So I feel more confident about taking the new class tonight.  I still have to sign up for it; I'll sign up my daughter too. 

It's on Zoom, so I could "mute" the video. There's an option to do that,  and actually,  there was a new student last night that did just that.   She could hear us but we couldn't see her.  We'll see how it goes!


Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 05/05/2020:
I'm glad to hear that you had a good day yesterday, although it's too bad you didn't really enjoy your yin yoga.

A big reason why I do a lot of yoga on my own is so that I can modify moves so that it's not taking a toll on my body - like my lower back right now. Also, I am not very flexible at all, so this is a really beginner starting point for me until I can gain some flexibility and move into more difficult poses.

Really, I started doing yoga to help calm my anxieties over the past two months, but i've grown to really enjoy it! It *almost* makes me more motivated to get out of bed early! LOL

Donkey on 05/06/2020:
That's very interesting to hear why you line to do yoga on your own. I hadn't considered that. I don't know (yet) how to sequence moves so that they flow together. Also, moves should counter each other, and I'm not sure I know enough.

Finally, and most importantly, I find myself "cheating" the pose, by slouching my shoulders, bending a leg or arm, or not aligned correctly.

However, I do practice individual moves on my own, e.g. crow, warrior 3, dancer, to become better - not a routine but isolated practice.

Horn_of_plenty on 05/05/2020:
Glad to hear you are enjoying pushups !

Interesting mute approach, thinking it’s more fun to see the students !!!!!

Donkey on 05/06/2020:
I think it's fun to see everyone too! Most definitely!

Donkey - Monday May 04, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

 Did not sleep well.  My one cat was scratching at my daughter's closed bedroom door, which was so loud it woke me up,  once at 2:50am and then again at around 4am.  When my alarm went off at 5:15am, I was exhausted.  So I'll have to talk to daughter about what can be done about this. 

Eating went well yesterday.  Had  half a Stoopwaffel cookie after dinner,  no decaf. However I was experiencing bloating again,  to the point of discomfort.  Did crunches but was so uncomfortable,  I'm not sure how effective they were.  I did push-ups,  tried to do other ab exercises, but again,  discomfort. 

I spoke to my daughter about the new yoga instructor. She says the photo looks like Crazy  Lady if she lost weight and wore make-up. So that didn't help calm my nerves much. I couldn't find her on Facebook...  I guess I'll try the class and if it's her,  it's just a click of a button to log off...  Very unnerving.

Going to focus on eating well today... that's my main goal. 

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/04/2020:
Can she keep her door open so the cat doesn’t scratch ?

I have done crunches while being bloated lol I know exactly the feeling !!!! I think it’s good you did them anyways and I do think it still helps.

I’m sure that stroopwaffel hit the spot . They are nice and sweet so they hit your brain and stomach equally as well :) to me anyways !

Have a good day ....and you are off today right ?

Donkey on 05/05/2020:
I had to work on Monday. No extra days off for me this week.

We can't leave her door open because Sick Kitty will go in and mess up. Poor Sick Kitty is struggling to control her lower half and has accidents. So her space is limited.

Last night was not bad. I slept right through it until my husband woke me up when he came to bed. Grr...

legcramps on 05/04/2020:
Are you a light sleeper? I am, and I keep a pair of ear plugs on my nightstand if i'm woken up by noise in the night. I plug them in and usually it helps, although I try not to use them too regularly.

Donkey on 05/05/2020:
I am a light sleeper. We sleep with a loud box fan on. All year round. The white noise helps me sleep and the noise drowns out the sound of my husband's CPAP machine. Some noises transcend the roar of the fan, unfortunately.

If I wore earplugs, then I couldn't hear the fan. :-/ However, if I continue to have difficulties, then I might go that route.

Donkey - Sunday May 03, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

I am not feeling as positive today as I did at this time yesterday, so I'm going to work hard at turning that around.  I'm quite concerned for my daughter's safety at work.  Customers are being very aggressive when they are told they cannot come into the store without a mask on.  This is ridiculous.  If you don't want to wear a mask, don't go to Walmart!  And by the way, good luck getting into any other grocery store around here, because masks are mandated.

Another problem:  I noticed that the new yoga instructor (Tuesday nights) is not the person I thought I had met previously.  In fact, she looks very similar to a person we had working at the law firm a few years ago.  She was hired, and then we found out that she was a complete fraud (because my boss doesn't do any background checks).  After she was let go, she got into some problems with the law.  Now, I have my own opinion about law enforcement, but she assaulted a police officer, which in my book, crosses the line.

So I'm going to have my daughter look at her picture to see if she thinks it's the same person.  It's the same first name, different last name - and I wouldn't put it passed the former co-worker to totally re-invent herself with a new persona.  Creepy...

This may be my own paranoia causing my discomfort, which is why, after I talk to my daughter, I'm going to focus on my mental well-being.

 My eating went well yesterday and, especially last night.  I feel back on track.

I took Friday and Monday (1st and 2nd of May) off of any challenges.  Friday I needed a day of rest, and yesterday, I wanted to be sure that I could stay disciplined with evening eating.  It was NOT easy.  I had a piece of sugar-free candy, and then a stick of gum.  Lots of water... got through it.

Today/tonight, I will start my crunches challenge of which I'll have 4 solid weeks and an extra day (the 31st). 

I jogged yesterday, a little bit, and then a little over a mile this morning - yay!  I wanted to measure the distance it is to run my neighborhood loop, and my Fitbit says that it's 1.07 miles, from the front door and back again.

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/03/2020:
I agree ! Wear the darn mask If the store demands it !

Let us know if your daughter thinks the two women as one in the same though that is sooooo strange indeed !!!

That’s a perfect loop ! A mile is a good distance to use and then to be able to repeat it!

Donkey - Saturday May 02, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

 Good morning!  The sun has come out, even though it's cloudy outside (no blue sky) and the weather promises to be warm and lovely - THIS is my kind of weather!

Before I talk about my weigh-in, let me confess that I had some eating difficulties last night, after dinner (of course).  I ate too many cookies.  Also, it was a more carb-y day (rice, beans) than usualy, so I'm hoping that some of the weight is just water retention....  But who am I kidding?  My weight is up because I'm eating too much!

Maitenance is NOT easy!  Weight loss is JUST the beginning, not an end!

So of course I'm very disppointed by my numbers, but all I can do is try to do better.  And so that is my goal for May, to focus on eating better.  I must find a coping mechanism for munching throughout the day and then at night after dinner.  I've been drinking too much coffee during the day - dare I say I'm sick of it!  So my evening cup of decaf is no longer a working option for me.  I'm thinking of popping a stick of mint gum in my mouth immediately after dinner, to cleanse my palate.  Mint has a wonderful way of curbing an appetite.

I took yesterday off from any challenge entirely.  I just needed a rest.  And maybe that's what triggered the cookie fit.  But like my push-up challenge, I think my crunch challenge will be 3 sets of 20.  Also, to maintain the progress I've made in my arms, I plan to continue doing 3 sets of push-ups, but only 10 per set, rather than the 20 I was doing.

I decided NOT to sign up for a monthly yoga pass for The Other Yoga Studio, because most of their evening classes are at 5:30p, which is not enough time for me to get home be prepared to start on time. 

However, I am delighted that the Yoga Studio (my regular studio) is now offering an extra class on Tuesday nights!  Yes, I will sign up for that.  So that would make Yoga 3x a week:  

  • Monday night Yin
  • Tuesday night Slow (new)
  • Thursday night Flow-Yin

And I will look for 2 online YouTub sessions to do on Saturdays and Sundays.  Yes, I can do that.  This works!  Oh I hope the Tuesday night teacher stays with it!

Now I must get my day started :-)

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/02/2020:
Remember that nothing needs to be off limits! Why not have two cookies and tea in the evening?

Or a couple small chocolates with tea or seltzer ?

For me, I’m having total issues with not eating sugar and just going with it and quite a bit everyday. More than usually and less protein bc it works for me for now. But if I were working I think i would be too hungry to eat like what I’m doing now with far less sleep and more time awake ....Meaning I think my diet is good for now but not for going back to work ....

I’m glad the yoga classes worked out In your favor :-)

Donkey on 05/03/2020:
You are absolutely right! It does NOT have to be an all-or-nothing thing with sweets. I just wanted to have a "reset" day with nothing after dinner.

I definitely have something sweet after dinner on my plate tonight - either a piece of dark chocolate or a stroopwaffel. One is 90 calories, the other is about 200 calories. So we'll see how the day goes. Thanks for the gentle observation! Again, you're right!

Donkey - Friday May 01, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

 Today is Friday!  A new month,  a new me!  Well that's my challenge this month,  anyway...  I struggled in April,  but here's another month to work on me :-)  

If things were normal,  I'd be so busy at work that I wouldn't have time for anything.  So while this isn't good,  I can make the most of it for my own well-being. 

I did not weigh in this morning,  to see if anything happened over April.  I was halfway dressed before I remembered,  and I just wanted to get my day started. I'll try very hard to remember to weigh in tomorrow morning. 

I went to bed early last night at 9p and yet I still had trouble getting out of bed this morning.  I've been having very stressful dreams so I don't feel rested in the morning.  I wake up feeling tense,  mentally and actually physically too.  Probably a sign that a bedtime yoga routine would do me well. 

I've decided to do a crunch challenge this month.  3 sets of something.  My abs need help,  and I've been feeling quite a bit of fatigue in my thighs, like they are filled with lead.   So I thought it better to focus on the abs instead. 

I haven't signed up for a monthly pass with the Other Yoga studio.  I'm still thinking about it, but if I'm going to do it,  i should do it soon. 

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/01/2020:
Happy Friday and happy weekend !!!!!! For you weekends mean something ! I was thinking if you need to take a day or two offf make sure you haven’t been working too much without a day off ?

Your crunch challenge is great are there any details ?

My challenge is to improve greatly on my weights and get used to the new weights of higher weight !

Donkey on 05/02/2020:
Yes, for me, weekends are absolutely necessary, but I think only because I am still working.

I do think I'd have a LOT of problems if I were not working or if I were working from home.

I'll talk about my crunch challenge in today's entry! :-)

Donkey on 05/02/2020:
And I should add that I'm having enough problems coping with everything that's going on as it is. Please see today's (Saturday's) entry regarding cookies to cope.

Donkey - Thursday Apr 30, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

 Yesterday was another trying day.  We had another closing in the office (downstairs conference room) -  actually,  it was part 2 of the closing we tried to do on Tuesday.  Tuesday took about 4 hours.  Yesterday took about 4 hours too.  Ridiculous.  These folks can't really afford to be buying,  and that was a huge part of the problem.   But oh well,  it's done,  they own the home. 

With that out of the way,  today should be ok at work. 

I'm undecided about my May challenge. Trying to decide if I want to do squats or crunches. In the meantime,  today is the last day of this challenge,  so I guess that means I'll be weighing in tomorrow to see how I did with the weight.   It was not a stellar performance with food,  but I'm not going to beat myself over that.  May might be a better month to focus on food.  No birthdays,  so no cake...

My main goal for today is to go to bed early.  Not only am I having difficulty getting out of bed in the morning,  but I'm feeling fatigue in my legs.  So more rest is required. 

Peace be with you all...

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/30/2020:
So if they can’t afford to be buying, why are they buying? Downsizing ???

I have always found great recovery with rest ! Maybe that’s why I have been doing so well with my upper body weights this month!

Donkey on 05/01/2020:
Buying their first ever house... sheesh. Exactly - why are you buying??? If you need financial assistance for the downpayment, doesn't that tell you something???

Donkey - Wednesday Apr 29, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.0

 Okay, I'm going to be completely honest here and say that I'm really feeling the apathy creeping in.  I have no motivating reason to go to work,  even though there's good work to be done. 

I realized that this apathy is the reason why paying for online yoga classes works,  and using free online yoga doesn't work.  If there's no push,  I don't do it.   Making the monetary investment is enough to prompt me to start,  and once I get started,  I'm okay.  So something to think about,  if I'm going to sign up at the Other Yoga Studio for the month of May.  (I would sign up for a monthly pass. )

Tomorrow is the last day of the pushup challenge,  and I am thinking of starting a squat challenge for May.  I guess I'm taking this week off from weights, lol...

Progress as of today: 46.5 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/29/2020:
I do think that apathy is a good word to describe how moods are everywhere....We are weary....and stressed....and just plain bored and blah. Finding ways around it that work for you is the answer....and great that you discovered a way around it......run with it Donkey!!!!

Donkey on 04/30/2020:
I see this time as an opportunity. I think that's the main motivation to keep battling against the apathy.

WOOT! :-)

innerpeace on 04/29/2020:
Though you may feel apathy - i find your commitment inspiring. You have resilience and commitment. These are things I look for but have yet to find.

I will try a challenge for May! Have a good day.

Donkey on 04/30/2020:
Thank you!

It just occurred to me that it may be this encroaching apathy that I'm really tired of, and not so much the trying.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2020:
Great idea on a squat challenge!

Speaking of squats, I haven’t done a lower body exercise in awhile so that should be good for me to do tonight thank you for the reminder !!!!

I totally get the apathy and I have also paid more for things that get me up and going. And perhaps you do like the pay classes maybe better than the free ones ?

Donkey on 04/30/2020:
I hadn't thought about the paid classes being better than the YouTube classes. That could be!

I'll talk more about my thoughts on a May challenge in my entry today. :-)

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