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Donkey - Friday Oct 23, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

Oh how I wish it were Saturday!  It is gray and cloudy and raining - the perfect day for just staying at home.  If I could only take today off.....  Or even this morning....

No lawyers in the office today, because they are either on vacation or at closings all day.  So I'm wearing leggings and an oversized comfy flannel shirt to work.  No face powder, but I am wearing lipstick. 

I stayed at work until 6pm last night - this was planned.  I felt that I left in a good place for today.  My ability to leave on time will depend on how early in the day I get settlement statements for Monday's closings.  If I get them at 4:50p, that will be at least 30 minutes of time spent following up with the clients.

I felt I was doing OK with eating until dinner. I was hungry, so I had a big serving of scrambled eggs (OK) and then 2 pork sausage patties - this is what killed me.  That was about 6 oz, which was 550 calories.  I'm not tracking macros or calories on my write-down lists, but for some items, like the sausage or the mini-Snickers bar (for desserts), I do figure out the calories and put them down on the list.

I think my intent will be to calculate calories for the week.  So Saturday or possibly Sunday (?), I will sit down and figure out calories.  I haven't made up my mind yet if I will  do old-school pen, paper and calculator, or if I will use an app.

I missed a little of the debate, to shower and get ready for bed, because I worked late.  Worked late meant dinner late, meant clean up late, meant bike ride late, etc.

No weights last night either. I watched the debate in my bedroom, so that I could watch the commentaries afterwards and then go to bed as soon as my head started bobbing.  Lights out around 10:15p.  Tonight will be chest or biceps, whichever I feel inspired to do. (Right now, I feel inspired to do none of that, so I'll have to practice some self-discipline and choose the lesser of the 2 evils - cue wicked laugh and lightening & thunder here).

I drink over 100 oz of water a day and am getting over 20,000 steps a day.  Yet here I am at a higher number.  Oh well, I know in my heart that I am doing the right thing.  Perhaps I will have a loss this weekend, but if not, I'm still sticking to my new routine.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/23/2020:
Never used an app for calories but spreadsheet works well. It adds up the total calories for each day.

Well done on 20K steps a day.

I LOVE pork sausages! I could eat them every day. We have 2 packs in the freezer that I'm pretending aren't there.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
A spreadsheet (or even old fashioned calculator) would tell me calories, but an app would tell me macros too (depending on the app, of course). Do I care about macros, though, to try to struggle through an app? I don't think so - at least not yet.

grannyannie on 10/23/2020:
Don't know if you saw my comment to you on Bears, but my brother and his wife sometimes go to Saugautuck. I had been taking my son and his daughters to Ludington every summer and was supposed to go this August.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
I did! I commented that I looked up on Google maps to see where Saugautuck is. The photos are magnificent! However, I don't think they're getting the best weather this weekend.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2020:
yes, you are a good walker and good with your cardio.

i think tracking calories may help you, yes.

also, reading your entry, i'm thinking back to the old days of BCBG's entries. she use to had double portions of things...like two portions of a snack that comes in singles - like 2 rice krispie treats, or two english muffins...she was having a hard time with the portions (i think this doesn't happen as much with her now...)

and the two sausage thing sounded a bit like BCBG when she would be having doubles. see if you can have one portion of the meat/protein part of meals. i feel like as long as you get veggies in, a little fat, some carbs, that protein doesn't need to be big and you'll save calories.

i see a little snickers or two as something really nice to include...remember everything is OK to eat, just moderate the bigger elements with more veggies.

i know you love cake, somehow i cut my pumpkin pie into 8 slices and the nutrition facts make it so they are only 200 cal each. idk...it is a smallish slice, moderate slice, but, i cannot believe they are so low calories. could be a mistake. then again, it says it's without sugar added and still tastes so good! what a good find at the supermarket!

ah, but the cake - that's an example of something that is HARD to moderate. a slice of cake, in general, is bigger than a couple cookies. i find that cake can sort of mess up a person's daily calories, but is good for celebrations. the thing about cake is how big the slice is and what it's made with (chocolate filling?)...it can add up. and why cake just take like 4 bites to finish!

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
Good point! Portion control is everything, isn't it? That was a good thing to do with the pumpkin pie slices, cutting them smaller.

I do measure some things with a measuring cup right now. Some foods I don't, and I probably should, e.g. tuna salad. I may get to the point of using a food scale, as I know I've talked about it here. That would be most accurate.

Maria7 on 10/23/2020:
I was hungry last nite, too...hadn't planned to eat more but scrambled 2 eggs and added cheddar cheese and had one piece of bread...was soooo good.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
I'd say you were hungry! :-) At least your foods had some nutritional value, and wasn't things like Streupwaffle cookies (lol).

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2020:
Wow ! You have so much experience and insight regarding the essay I wrote! That is so interesting - the emotional aspect - and how you concur and support even more that important part of taming and soothing clients / emotions so that the mediation can continue and not become a failed endeavor with an unsuccessful closure ! Wow! I can see you’d do very well if you took this course !

So now when you talk of difficult clients and even partners, I guess remember how important and difficult this emotional aspect can be for all and how important it is to get experience and be familiar with dealing with it - like young new lawyer needs !

Your response was so thoughtful ! I could still revise the paper but I will probably leave it as I have more work to do for the class and PM .... but your response has me thinking to take 5 minutes when I’m home to make the paper even better - so I will add a little more to the emotional aspect as it’s also considered huge in the book I am reading for the course

Donkey - Thursday Oct 22, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

 To echo Legs, this week is taking FOREVER.  And it hasn't been a pleasant time, I gotta tell you. Not even listening to Christmas music at work yesterday helped.  Now that's bad,  when Santa can't cheer me up. 

So we were fired by a client yesterday and what a blessing. I don't think I could have worked with these folks after our egregious error.  My boss so much as said he can't cope with the workload,  when I asked him to read the clients' emails thoroughly.

I'm so backed up, I'm going to have to stay late today. Husband wants to watch the debate together, so I can't stay too late. I'm so busy with emails that I've fallen behind on correspondences and checking new files for mistakes (by Mistakes Girl, when she opens them). 

This is ridiculous. We should not be this busy this time of year!  Boss is going on vacation starting Friday. Mistakes Girl will be out next week,  Wednesday-Friday. Meanwhile,  I'm so busy I struggle to take a walk at lunch!

Did well with eating,  but the hunger is real. It's not a painful hunger, but just a more annoying,  nagging feeling.  Well, that's what it takes to lose weight. 

Did shoulder weights last night. I'm not sure if I will do weights tonight.  Kind of depends on where I watch the debate. I have chest and biceps available to me. 

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/22/2020:
Some client in Hong Kong fired the company my husband works for and they are glad to see them go!

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
Yes, I'm quite relieved. As long as the real estate agent understands, then we're OK. And he does. He said it's a difficult client.

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
And 2 less files for me - even better! Ha ha ha!

grannyannie on 10/22/2020:
I find that if I get hungry in the middle of the afternoon I can drink a cup of tea with soy milk and it takes the edge off. Or a coffee with coconut milk.

The debate starts at about 2:00 am here. I will catch the 'noteworthy' parts of it in the morning on the news shows.

Hope your work slows down at least a wee bit!

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
I usually have a cup of coffee with creamer with my high fiber snack around 2p or 3p. I want to say I was truly hungry but now I'm wondering if I was too stressed. It's those days that I need to leave on time or a little early and can't.

Same thing happened yesterday, too, and had to stay until 6p! (tears)

legcramps on 10/22/2020:
Good riddance to the client that fired you then! If it made for a stressful environment, no need to mourn the loss.

Enjoy watching the debate today; I might tune in if I have the time. Always interesting until anger overwhelms me and forces me to stop watching ;)

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
Yep, not devoting one more iota of time to that client. Good riddance!

Maria7 on 10/22/2020:
I love listening to Christmas music, too. That is usually quite cheerful to hear.

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
It worked better for me yesterday! :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2020:
re your comment yesterday back to me in your entry...yes, i do have been feeling conflicted over some ingredients / snacks. some taste really good, but they are really fake but i like the taste so much i eat them....other desserts, mostly frozen lately, sound so good but they are so fake that they taste fake (there's basically no nutrition in them and the serving size is quite large) and the strangest part is i'm not even satisfied after and don't even enjoy eating them...

i've been eating a lot of snacks and less healthy food and sometimes i realize i don't even like the food and can't even finish the product bc the taste is just so unnatural and doesn't even resemble anything healthy....i'm glad to realize when at the store that i actuallly don't like every product that's unhealthy ! and when i see those products, i can actually know i tried them and do not want to buy them again!

With dealing with "hanger," please try to keep snacks at your desk for eating every couple or three hours. try not to wait too long between meals without a snack. a snack can be a piece of fruit with water/seltzer/tea/coffee at work... or a small chocolate or two. Try to ingrain a small snack into your world :) or drink water on your commute home before dinner...i know it's hard...big salad or just salad before your dinner...

Donkey - Wednesday Oct 21, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

 It's a new day. It would be better if it were Thursday. 

I did end up feeling a little muscle soreness in my legs yesterday,  as the day progressed,  so my legs workout DID do something!  Last night,  I worked triceps. No soreness this morning,  yet. 

I think I'm liking writing down what I eat. I have a 3-inch tall notepad "cube" on my desk at work. I write what I eat on one of those pages. I bring the little pages home and put them in a small folder.  Perhaps some day,  I might calculate calories. Right now,  this new habit is just keeping me aware of what I'm eating. 

It was tough eating less at dinner last night.  I didn't feel completely satiated, but I was satisfied with my effort.   However ,  when I was on the computer here last night,  I did have 1/2 cup of frozen whole cherries.  

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/21/2020:
Oh, yum! Frozen cherries! I love desserts frozen, like cakes and cookies. Which I’ve been pretty good about avoiding recently. Not perfect, but better than usual. Quitting zolpidem after 10 years helped immensely. Stuff gave me nocturnal munchies, big time.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/21/2020:
sorry i took long to write back...my mind is elsewhere lately...i wrote some on your entry yesterday too.

a little soreness is GREAT. I was actually somehow sore today from my workout last night?! i have been doing the same workout for awhile now, so, i guess i was weak going into the workout and it just had a larger effect than it usually does on me!?

yes, those Post-it cubes...just so you know, that is what i used for MANY years at the job i was previously at...when i didn't log into DD during work, i was using that post it cube every day to write down also!...later logging onto DD with maybe just calories or a summation...

frozen whole cherries sounds delish.

do you still have evening decaf coffees or are you bored with that?

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
I still have the decaf but with real cream not flavored Coffeemate. It was the flavored fake stuff that was helpful to satisfy cravings. But it's FAKE.

Very conflicted about this.

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
It's easy not to see what you are eating or drinking all day until you write down every single thing.

OMG post its kept my life together when I was working in an office at a university. I loved when there were no more post its stuck around the outside of my computer screen!

Maria7 on 10/21/2020:
I got very tickled at what you wrote in comments about election nite...SMILE....even told Hubby and he smiled, too.

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
:-) I sincerely mean it when I said it was completely unintentional!

Frankly, I'm ready to eject this whole year. I don't know if I've every felt that way about a year before, even during tough times.

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
Glad I made folks smile :-)

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 20, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

I want to write this now, to get this off my chest, so that hopefully I can sleep better tonight and won't dread going into the office tomorrow.

My boss made a significant mistake last week, and it came to light late Friday afternoon.  I followed up on it today, and the clients didn't get their way.  The husband called and spoke to me - because, of course, my boss is out of the office (I'll explain) - and the husband said he was so upset with us because we didn't address his concern properly that he's probably going to fire us.  Yes, I think he should fire us.  I would fire us.  But there was nothing I could do, other than to take a message for my boss.

(BTW, firing us isn't going to fix the problem, but I would still fire us.)

I then went to Mistakes Girl and Male Co-Worker and asked them to stop working on anything on these deals (it's a sell/buy on the same day), because we're probably going to get fired.  So at least we're not wasting any money nor any more of our time on these people.

I was very upset when this error came to light on Friday afternoon, at my boss.  In a way, I feel somewhat responsible because I did not highlight (with a marker) EXACTLY what needed to be addressed in the attorney negotiation letters.  However, I'm really mad at my boss for not reading what the clients are requesting in the emails.  He's in such a freakin' hurry to write his letters so that he can surf on the computer or go chat with anyone who has time to listen to him...

So, like Monday, I start highlighting things in emails, so that my boss can clearly see what needs to be in his letters.  Nice Lady makes a semi-snide remark, "Now we're highlighting things?"  And I said, "Yes, I have to highlight things or they will get missed. (Gesturing at my boss' office)  This is where we're at." and she seemed to accept that, and agree by saying, "That's where we're at."

My boss was not in the office this afternoon, to speak to the very upset client, because he had a follow-up stress test at the hospital to see if he has another blockage somewhere.  This is a result of his ER visit last week.  He didn't feel like coming back to the office afterwards, and heck, I don't blame him, but on the other hand, then why am I left talking to these people who are really upset?  

So now, not only do I feel angry, but I also feel sad and very guilty for being angry with someone who isn't feeling well.

Despite all of these negative feelings of anger, frustration, sadness, helplessness, guilt & shame, I have managed not to eat everything in the house.  I suspect that cheese would make all of this go away.... but I know that it won't.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
OMG so much work stress! So sorry. It's clearly your bosses fault, not yours.

Donkey on 10/21/2020:
I suppose at the end of the day, it's his fault, but I still feel partially responsible for this.

That's the thing about working in this field. There's not much room for mistakes... and real estate is one of the more forgiving fields in the legal world.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/21/2020:
Yeah, little things (salad dressing re - your below entry) can do it. I was making a meal that was supposed to include blue cheese dressing for the salad and i ended up not including it because i'm not a big cheese/sauce person. i looked at the calories of each package: 200 cal! that's a lot for just dressing. I find my olive oil works well these days. i used to also use vinegar more often with it, but, i tend to break out when i include too much vinegar/kombucha/acids in my diet....oh ok, too much about that...

Concerning the "fire your firm" situation of the client, i'm reading now about negotiation...and one important thing i'd say involving "disputes" is creativity and an openness to look for how both sides could still make out well....?....it's developing an emotionally sound reaction to problems so that you can logically see if there's a way to mitigate without causing a total dissolvement of a relationship with a client? i'm sure you try this already with many clients...to create a feeling of a "win win" situation where both your company and the clients ending up fairing well...

OK - i've read your entry to the end now: you cannot feel guilty because you are doing your job as well as YOU CAN. that is it....

you can only do your very best. if you've done that, you need to seek solace and comfort in yourself from the fact you are working your best.

in terms of the upset clients, possibly repeat the fact that you understand their feelings / situation that is causing them to be upset and that you will do everything you can to make sure your boss is aware and deals with the matter at his earliest convenience. you can, i think?, just try to give these clients an ear, try not to interrupt them if they are upset on the phone, try to be comforting and understanding and on their side, per se....that's just my opinion, i'm not exactly sure how it would work out, but that's my feeling.

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 20, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

A quick entry this morning.  Yesterday I wrote down what I ate, and found that I'm eating way too much salad dressing.  I'm not counting the calories, per se, but just writing down what I eat.  In a way, it keeps me accountable, knowing that I'll have to write it down.

Another thing I noticed is that when I eat at work, I'm very aware of what I'm eating.  When I eat at home, for dinner, I don't give it much thought, which leads to overeating, e.g. salad dressing.  I found myself reaching for that square of dark chocolate without giving it a second thought.  Then I realized, Oh, I need to write this down.

Had trouble drinking enough water yesterday. 

Sunday was back weight training.  Last night was legs.  I thought I'd wake up to some serious soreness, but it turns out, no pain at all.  I find it helpful to do 4-5 different exercises.  That seems to bring a nice feeling of fatigue to the muscles.  This is also helpful, I think, for sleeping well, although I did wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom and to show Old Kitty the new location of her litter box.  She figured it out; she's such a smart kitty.

(Recap: I have 3 cats:  Old Kitty, Good Boy, and Baby/Sick Kitty.)

I stayed a little later at work last night and missed my daughter at dinner time.  I left around 5:45p.  UGH.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/20/2020:
I write my meal plans for the day ahead of time, sometimes with editing later, but not usually. I just copy and paste it into here in the morning. And I have a spreadsheet that I've been keeping for years with all the calories which are easily totalled.

Of course, being retired means I've got plenty of time to do this.

What kind of salad dressing do you use? I use a fat free Italian that's 7 cals per Tbsp.

Donkey on 10/20/2020:
I use regular salad dressings, really. I like Hidden Valley Ranch - full calorie. The dressing I was using last night was Wishbone Creamy Caesar, but only because we're out of Ranch. On tonight's salad, I had Olive Garden Italian.

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
My family all loves Ranch - full calorie including to dip raw veggies in. Even my granddaughters will eat a salad if it's drowned in Ranch. Their dad did as well. I used to love Ranch but they don't have it here so got used to not having it.

Funny story - when we took my sister to France in 2006 she kept asking the waiters for Ranch and they had no idea what she wanted. She thought Ranch was universal.

Donkey on 10/21/2020:
Ha ha that IS funny. Ranch dressing is definitely an American thing.

Donkey - Sunday Oct 18, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

Good morning!  It is cold and gray.  The rain started around 9am.  It wasn't raining when I woke up but now it's wet, and I believe it will rain for most of today.  So no putting away the outdoor deck furniture, but I may clip down my dead milkweed in front and move the clippings to the patch of soil I'm trying to restore, to ferment and decay over the winter.  Apparently, bugs and small creatures love the large milkweed leaves in the winter (shelter, etc.).  So that's something.  I also managed to fill up all of the birdfeeders yesterday, in the cold., cold wind, so that's done.  The important stuff will get done this weekend.

I did go to the gym yesterday afternoon, and I have to say, I was quite dismayed.  I think there are people there now that haven't been going lately, because the weather has turned, and they aren't really on board with the mask-wearing and social distancing.  There was one couple there who used machines next to each other so that they could talk, even though the one machine is clearly marked as "not available, for social distancing". 

You're supposed to wear a mask until you are actively engaged in your cardio activity.  Well, there were a LOT of people walking around the cardio area, NOT engaged in cardio activity, without masks.  I wore mine.  I wear mine until I start working out.  When I'm done, I take my last swig of water, and then the mask goes back on while I sanitize my machine and walk to the next machine or walk back to the locker room. 

It also seemed that whatever area I was in, there were people.  I went to the right side of the gym, and people came to use the machines around me (albeit social distanced).  I cut the workout short and went to the left side of the gym, which was empty, and within 10 minutes, there were 2 people behind me and one person in front of me working out; the right side had since been abandoned.  Oh well....  So yes, I predict that gyms will be closed down again, if our numbers keep going up, and if this is any evidence of what people are doing, the numbers will keep going up.

Daughter told me last night that she would like to hang out with me today, on her day off, either nature walk or gym.  Well, it's cold and rainy, so perhaps the gym, where she can show me how to use some of the machines.  I can't think of another activity I'd like to do with her.  She'll be having dinner with her boyfriend, so it's nice to have this little time with her.  Maybe I'll ask her if there's something else she'd like to do.

I've been thinking about my weigh-in yesterday.

  • I remember what Maria has said, about being happy and healthy, and being happy WITH being healthy, right where I'm at.  She is 100% right.  I woke up with a little foot pain, and I was like, "Uh oh."  That's how quickly good health can turn to bad health.  So I put on better shoes today, and my foot pain has subsided.  I'll do some foot stretching tonight too.
  • On the other hand, I'm tempted to get a food scale and seriously track EVERYTHING I eat/drink. 

I guess it's hard not to be discouraged.


For several reasons, I opted not to go to go the gym today.  My main reason was the foot pain that I've been having today.  I had it in the morning, so I switched from wearing Crocs to actual running shoes.  The pain went away... but then it came back around noon.  I took off my shoe and rubbed the arch, where it meets the ball of my foot.  That felt better, put on my shoes, and no problems since.  

I don't know if this is the beginning of plantar fasciitis.  I have PF in my right foot, which has healed and behaves if I treat it right.  I can't remember if what is happening with my left foot is what happened with my right foot, but I *DO* remember that I should not press my luck.  I developed PF in my right foot by ignoring the pain, trying to push (exercise) through it, and not wearing proper footwear.

So I'm taking NO chances with my left foot.  I will do my PF stretches on both feet tonight.  I will rub my left foot tonight.  I probably will be wearing gym shoes to work tomorrow.

With this potential injury, you would think that I would be *extra* careful with my calories.  After all, that is what I would recommend to you, DD friends.  But of course, this is NOT what I did.  I ended up having a very carby dinner, then 3 streupwaffel cookies, and then 6 pieces of small mini-candies (like for Halloween).  

All of this sugar set my uterus on fire.  It feels like I have a pin cushion in reverse in my lower abdomen.  

This is how NOT to do things, people.

On the plus side, I did manage to do weight training tonight for my back.  If my cardio is going to be curtailed, then even more reason to switch to weights.  I can do this.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/18/2020:
I don't know how my gym is handling this but I know you have to book a time to go. It's a very small gym. Anyway, I quit my membership but will rejoin when it's safe.

Enjoy your time with your daughter.

Is your foot pain from plantar fasciitis?

Jacky82020 on 10/18/2020:
Wow, that gym sounds scary, but then I worry too much. Not sure if they are even open here. Do know gyms around the country are going out of business from this covid crap. I don’t see an end in sight for a good year or two at best.

Maria7 on 10/18/2020:
That is SO SWEET what you wrote about me in your entry today! THANK YOU! Yes, it is very important to be happy with where we are, else what good would it be to be a lower weight if we weren't happy at that weight? My 'happy-place' of what I weigh, I think is 152, although it is higher than my goal weight. SMILE! Have a very happy day!!!

Donkey on 10/18/2020:
You are so welcome! :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 10/19/2020:
So sorry you got the rain yesterday. Our weekend was another sunny one...and tomorrow says a short amount/time of rain...i hope it doesn't happen until afternoon...! and rain the next day too. whoa...also sorry to hear it's so cold by you!

about the gym and safety in terms of Covid - it doesn't sound very safe to me. I don't know how people think it's OK to not wear masks at a germy place like a gym..

i gotta tell you, i hope your foot feels better...and i KNOW it will. you do well with managing any injuries / pain from what i hear from you in your entries.

i feel you and not eating right and suffering. i'm suffering some serious indigestion / gut issues right now after a rather carby lunch of unhealthy crap food followed by gummies with too much fiber...huge problems tonight now.

i have a tendency in the past to "torture" myself because of food choices and then suffering with digestive issues in the next 1-3 days (usually it doesn't go up to 2-3 days, but it used to). anyways, some habits are really hard to break but at least we are doing better than in the past.

Donkey - Saturday Oct 17, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

I'm not surprised to see the higher number.  Even though I was eating less during the day earlier this week, I've been having issues with protein shakes.  Also, yesterday, I did eat more - more fruit, more nuts - so I'm not surprised.  Disappointed - yes.  Discouraged - somewhat, but not giving up.  This is a way of life for me.

Things seem to be returning back to normal, and my universe has been restored:

  • Downstairs PT office manager found my monitor.
  • Boss is back to work.  They adjusted his heart meds, and he has an appointment for a scan for blockage on Tuesday.  But he was in good spirits.
  • Husband bought coffee supplies, so I have sufficient to drink at home and bring to work, because the Kreurig at work is breaking, and cannot handle my demand for coffee.

There were only 2 days this past week that I did not leave work before 5:30pm.  However, in looking ahead at my task calender, I can see that this next week and the following week will be - once again - extremely busy for me.  I don't see an end to this unless there's another COVID shutdown.

COVID positivity rates are rising, somewhat alarmingly (to me).  We had gotten down to around 3.9% and now we're at 5.1%.  Nevada is a quarrantine state for Chicago. (So if I lived in Chicago, I would have to self-quarrantine after returning from Nevada.)  All of the surrounding states are quarrantine states too.  I'm not so confident now that I'll be able to visit family in Vegas for Thanksgiving, although my brother just texted me this morning to say that the state is opening up again, slowly.

I plan to go to the gym this weekend, because I have a feeling that they might need to shut down again in the near future.  Hopefully, I'm wrong about that.  I'll have to see.  It is cold, gray, and very windy here today, so folks will want to workout indoors, rather than be outdoors.  I can't say I blame them, but I much more enjoyed an emptier gym.  Well... we'll see.  If I'm not comfortable, I'll cut it short and come home.

I had hoped to do some winterizing work outdoors, but today is not the day for it.  It is a good day to be inside.


Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/17/2020:
Glad your boss is okay. Don't fret about the scale. I'm staying away from mine except for once a month.

What state do you live in? My family is all in Michigan. It looks like almost every state is getting an increase in cases. I hope I can get over there in the summer, safely.

Donkey on 10/18/2020:
I live in Illinois, in a suburb of Chicago.

Jacky82020 on 10/17/2020:
Glad many things are on an upwards sway. You live in Nevada? I got married in Reno, second time. First was in SF.

I was just wondering about positivity rates after hearing Iowa is up to 20% now. Wisconsin is over 10, and I know parts of nyc are very high. Need to check my state.

Tried the nut butters last night and didn’t care for either, rather bland. Had cashew and honey almond. Will put in small plates & feed to the wild Birds. They love peanut butter, so guess they’d like any nut butter.

Donkey on 10/18/2020:
Most of my family now lives in Nevada. We all started out here in Illinois, but then my folks moved up to Wisconsin, and then moved to Nevada, to be near my brother and his family.

My sister lives in Minnesota.

I'm still here in Illinois. I don't know that we'll leave any time soon, although a couple of years ago, we talked about moving out to be with Mom in Nevada, but then I decided that it's better to maintain a long-distance relationship with my mother.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/18/2020:
yeah...it's not like your weight is up 10lbs...it's just minor fluctuations and minor fluctuations are EASIER to fix than major ones xoxoxoxoxo

omg! cheers to finding your monitor and not needing to replace it!

even if work is busy, perhaps you can set a limit for yourself. I may not understand as i'm not in your workplace...but, i was thinking to force a 2-day (or three) leave by 5:30 limit...and the rest of the days you work till the time you see fit...i think you should try to give yourself some peace in knowing that some days you will go home "on time"

i agree with you - those colder, dank days are not the days to spend winterizing...wait for sunny days if you have that opportunity to wait.

also, enjoy the gym :) i'm guessing you always wear your mask right?

i give you so much credit for being able to work throughout the quarantine/covid. although many are unemployed, more are employed and i'm glad you are in that majority.

Donkey on 10/18/2020:
These next 2 weeks, I should anticipate having to work late most nights. So I will give myself a break, if I need to, and stay late if required. There are just so many files that need tasks on every day this coming up week. That all takes time. Then I have to juggle incoming emails, telephone calls, and new contracts.

You know, I AM grateful that I'm employed during these uncertain times, BUT what I don't like is seeing behavior in buyers, sellers, lenders, and agents that just ISN'T rational. I don't like deals of desperation. I don't like deals where the buyer isn't really qualified but the lender is trying to push the loan through. I don't like deals where the closing is rushed too fast because the lender is ready at the last minute and wants to push to close on time.

I'll write more about masks and the gym today.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/18/2020:
i replied to your comments on my entry for Saturday. ;)

Donkey - Thursday Oct 15, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.5

Sadly,  I did not do weights last night either.  I had forgotten,  as I was distracted by other events,  and when I had stepped out for a night walk,  I remembered the weights.  So I may wait until the weekend.

I did not make it to the gym either.  Daughter went out with her boyfriend,  and again,  I was distracted by other events,  so I just fell into old,  comfortable habits of riding my bike at home and then going for a walk outside around the neighborhood. 

So what distracted me?

What most distracted me was that husband did not go shopping and sent daughter instead for 1 item that I really didn't need (and the store did not have) instead of going HIMSELF and getting the coffee that I desperately need. So there is just enough coffee for me this morning, thank goodness.  He said he could go without until he gets up off his butt and goes shopping like he said he would. 

However,  more concerning (but not as distracting) was that we learned at 4:45p that the Boss is having heart problem again. He had a heart attack about a year ago. Well Tuesday night,  without telling anyone that this happened,  he was in the ER until 2am with symptoms again and a blood pressure of 250 over something. 

His daughter,  the physical therapist downstairs,  comes up to the office at around 11a with her blood pressure cuff,  they shut the door,  20 minutes later,  she leaves and then this doctor's appointment shows up on the calendar. 

Boss said he expected to come back over the appointment,  but he did not return. So... we're just kind of left wondering what will happen today. 

Finally,  the plumber is coming early today to fix our kitchen sink, which has been unusable since Friday evening. So order to the universe will be restored today,  or at least the beginning of it.

Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/15/2020:
Funny - I typed this and it won't give me the option to edit. What the heck?

grannyannie on 10/15/2020:
Wow! What an awful day!

This site does have a lot of editing problems, but it behaved for me again today. Doubt it will again tomorrow.

Jacky82020 on 10/15/2020:
Wow, hope the boss is ok. That’s a very high number.

I love coffee and order beans online, enough to last a year when they have their annual sale. Get several 5 pd bags. Used to freeze it, but roasting company said fine for up to a year in the unopened sealed bags.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/15/2020:
gotta tell you, at least you did some exercise last night...so, you did the comfortable route...this route still is helpful to your overall health. I also like my stationary bike at home and hope to get into a habit of riding it more, especially during the Winter while watching TV shows!

gosh...your boss is older, too. i think his health problems are unreliable for you to have to deal with...meaning, you never know what's gonna happen with him...

...thank gosh you have para experience. i certainly think you can/will find another job if need be. you are skilled and have the experience to back it up....that's what these firms want. ...then again, your boss just hired a new attorney, so, he must believe this office of his is continuing for the next 5 years or so....

lastly, i'm glad your sick is getting fixed. i guess you'll be getting coffee after work.

Donkey on 10/17/2020:
I was told that the new attorney is the answer to the longevity of the firm, because, supposively, it has come to the Boss' realization that Associate Attorney would not be able to lead the law firm if something were to happen.

I'm not sure I would want to work in another law firm.

Donkey - Wednesday Oct 14, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.5

Happy Wednesday....  I'm not a fan of Wednesdays, but I saw something on Facebook today that calls it Wellness Wednesdays, and it relates to self-care.  I like that so much more than any other reference to Wednesdays that I've heard of.  Rather than the hardest day to get through, this is a day of self-care.

Last night, I picked up those dumbbells to train back muscles, and after 10 reps of rows, I just didn't have it in me, so I took the day off.  I'm glad I did because I did a little searching online and found 3 more exercises that I can do for Back Day.  So my goal is to lift weights for Back Day tonight, unless I end up going to the gym.  Husband has something with his online gaming group tonight so perhaps I will venture out.  We'll see.

I read more of the Lewis & Clark book last night, until I realized that the section I want to read - as they approach Montana - is what I should be spending my time reading.  So I've marked the chapter to start on tonight.  To answer Horn's question, I was motivated to read this book after our visit with Son in Montana.  I saw signs for the Lewis & Clark Trail, and as we drove through mountains, I wondered what it was like for those who came first.  These are abridged diary entries from the L & C expedition team, mostly Lewis' writings.

Yesterday, I made a conscious effort to eat less.  My breakfast was less, my lunch was less, my dinner... well, I had 2 helpings of green salad, but the Italian beef sandwich was less.  I experienced some discomfort (hunger) during the day, but I told myself that this is part of losing weight.  This is true. It's not a pleasant feeling. It is particularly unpleasant to be hungry - even a little - and stressed out at work.

If I want to lose weight, I have to eat less.  Whatever I have been doing in the recent past, my body has adjusted to maintenance.  So time to change it up.  That's another reason why I want to learn the gym machines:  time to change it up.

Finally, I did not find my monitor.  So it is what it is.  It is of no expense to me, as it was free.  Still, I don't like the feeling of not having everythig in in its place, and I feel pangs of its missing from time to time throughout the day. 

Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/14/2020:
When I still went to the gym one of the resistance machines I used was for your lat muscles. When I am ready to use my dumbells again I'll find a youtube video which shows back exercises.

You are nearly to goal weight which typically means your body is trying hard to hold on and not lose. Seems the last 5 lbs is always the hardest.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/14/2020:
Wellness Wednesdays sounds like a perfect renaming of the most dreaded day! (or is that Mondays!)

next, because i've been skipping weights a bit much, i had to switch today to a lower weight on my chest press using dumbells! ugh! so, i will have to try to be more regular and do my 3x a week sessions!

sounds like an intriguing part...maybe one day when i'm not focused on current readings, i'll pick up the L&C book!

I gotta agree that you DO have to eat less to lose weight. but, not veggies. remember them at your meals...i have pretty much fogotten them during COVID (but DO have them 1x a day at least)...but they will help me always...and when i want to indulge, like i did for lunch, i did it on veggies.

lately, with veggies, i'm getting some cravings for cooked ones. I may need to do more experimenting in the kitchen ;)

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 13, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 141.5

I lost a monitor that I wear.  I realized this last night when I went to charge it.  (Not my Fitbit, but something else.)  It is held in my pocket with a magnetic holder, and when I reached into my pocket at night, it was gone.  Sometimes it sticks to the car or to anything else that is metal, so I looked for it a bit, but I think I either lost it at work or on one of my long walks yesterday.  So I'm going into work early -- HATE THIS -- to look for the monitor.  Drat.

I met all of yesterday's goals.  I use dumbbells and a barbell.  The shoulder work is 3 pounds only, because otherwise, it really starts to hurt.  So I do a lot of sets with light weights.  As I get older, I am definitely more aware of the joint pain I'm experiencing.  I hope that learning how to use the weight machines at the gym will help - that is, that they will allow me to work harder with less soreness.

I like having a list of goals, but no time for that right now.  I do hope to read the Lewis & Clark book tonight.  I did not, last night. 

Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 6.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/13/2020:
Hope you find your monitor.

Good for you meetng all your goals. I still have to be careful of my right shoulder that I injured using extra heavy dummbells a few years ago.

Will staff show you how to use the resistance machines at the gym? They are great in combination with dumbells.

Donkey on 10/14/2020:
I have a free PT session available to me, but I'd much rather have my daughter just show me how the machines work.

But actually, I've been thinking about investing in a physical trainer, to change things up.

Jacky82020 on 10/13/2020:
Hope you find it. I’m forever misplacing things & finding them later

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
Hope you can locate your lost monitor......That is so frustrating...we lose our phones around here...but at least we can call them to find them...LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 10/13/2020:
Sorry about that monitor, maybe in the future (when you hopefully find it), there's a way for you to get it to stick better to what you are wearing? that's annoying, indeed. i have never worn a monitor, even after a friend gave me her old apple watch? i think that's what it was. for some reason, i don't care to track my steps (i would def fall very short on steps per day compared to the recommended 10k steps!)

ha! i use both dumbells and a barbell too. I use the barbell on leg days - weighted squats with the barbell resting over my shoulders.

yes - the weight machines should def be a big help to you doing more exercises with less strain...i do think so!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/13/2020:
what pushed you to read the lewis and clark book?

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