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Donkey - Wednesday Jan 23, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.5

Woke up super early so that I'd have enough time to shovel after riding my bike.  Oh my, there was like 6 inches of snow and this time it was heavier and wetter than the snow we had over the weekend.  I'm running out of room to putt the extra snow, so not only was I pushing the snow to the sides, but then I had to lift and throw it.  That was like a whole 2nd workout - and when I stopped, it was still snowing out, so the kids had to shovel again around noon when the snow finally stopped.

When I woke up, I couldn't believe that I "felt" hungry -- after all those almonds and cashews???  But that went away quickly, so I don't think it was true hunger.  The extra calories didn't bother me because of the energy I exerted while shoveling.  I think though that, like Gains mentioned, nuts are going to be something that I just can't keep in the house in bulk.  IDK, I have bags of unsalted almonds and then walnuts, and those I haven't been eating very often - mostly because of bathroom issues -- but this cannister of salted almonds, etc., is just too hard to resist.  The fact that it came from my mom probably has something to do with it as well.

So even though I'm in maintenance - sort of - I'm still a train wreck when it comes to food issues.

Tomorrow morning, it's plain water and black coffee until I get blood drawn.  Yuck... that's going to be difficult.


One last thing -  If I could please just maintain at one pound LESS, so that I've lost an even 60 pounds, rather than this "59" thing that's just hanging out there.  Gotta keep trying...

Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
maybe plan to have some pick me up after the appointment. like something that will help you...nothing too big...then a bigger meal later after that. when i wait very long periods to eat and then i eat big, i get very, very tired. try to plan to make it work out best :)

even if in maintenance, we still have to try and plan for the difficult days. it's Winter, lots of snow...more to take care of lately.

i know what you mean about it not being true hunger. today i think i was hungrier than usual, also because of being tired but not actually hungry.

yeah, i know what you mean with the nuts. i had days where even around peanut butter was a disaster. I'm so glad i've improved myself to overcome temptation by having so many options around that work in my plan!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2019:
good luck today with your blood work! take it easy and remember that you'll be extra hungry afterwards!

interestingly, by me, we don't have to completely fast anymore for the blood work! they say a light meal is ok at my dr's! interesting, right!?

talk soon! :) you can do this. i know the doctors are stressing you! you'll feel better when it's all done xo


legcramps on 01/24/2019:
I hear lots of places are getting or have gotten a good dump of snow lately. Thankfully, we haven't here YET. I'm sure it is only a matter of time, but i'll be thankful if it stays away until the weekend, when I might actually have some extra time to clean it up. I hope your appointment goes well today!



Donkey - Tuesday Jan 22, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.5

I came home early today, because they were forecasting icy roads, possibly snow, etc.  So I left work at 3pm-ish, got home at 3:30p, only to find that the driveway was an ice rink and nobody bothered to put ice on the driveway.  Great.  So when I finally came inside, I was a little crabbier than I would have liked.

So there was nothing to do... and I think I was feeling a little guilty for leaving work early, but I had just had it, and there was very little left for me to do.  I will be busy or busier tomorrow, and that's actually probaby a good thing.  My plan was to come home and walk on the treadmill, since I didn't take a lunch, but rather tacked on my hour lunchtime onto the end of the day, so that I'm only out 1 hour, instead of 2.  Plus I didn't want to walk on the icy roads/sidewalks PLUS at 12:30p, I found that I was the only person left in the office!  People either left or hadn't come in at all!  So I stayed indoors.

Came home, crabby, as I said above, and couldn't get motivated to get on that treadmill.  So what did I do?  I ate a bunch of salted almonds and cashews that my mom got us in this HUGE tin container for Christmas.  (Yes, still working away at that.)   Ate way too many, but didn't realize it until after the fact, when I started drinking water.  Oof! 

Got on the treadmill though and did a great 60 minutes.  I wish I could do that every day.

So now it's dinnertime and my tummy feels so gross.  And I imagine that I will have some bathroom issues to come...  It makes me think that I should have just stayed at work.  VERY SAD.

Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/22/2019:
Hugs. Sounds like you need some fun and to get the household to pitch in. If momma ain’t happy ain’t nobody happy.


graindart on 01/23/2019:
Nuts. They're on my list of things I have to avoid buying in bulk. I have no desire to eat a normal portion size of roasted nuts. "My" portion size for nuts is usually 4 or 5 times the suggested portion size. I've tried buying the packages with single serving 100 calorie bags in them, but it's depressing. I don't know the exact number, but it seems like each 100 calorie bag contains like 5 nuts.......

Donkey on 01/23/2019:
Yep, this is going to have to be me too. Not good.


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
so now i'm caught up on all your entries! lots of nice reading on your diary entries, J donk! so positive. you seem to have broken out of any rut and you are doing really well! I'm proud and happy for you.

don't feel guilty going home early. ...you work a ton ;)

even though you indulged, it's nice to read you got on the treadmill and got the exercise in! that's good...it means you can get your mind off the indulgence. it's a HUGE improvement to the days when a binge would totally crush you (or me).

As a reminder, J donk, you indulged bc of unstructured time and emotions. That's something i have trouble with too.

Next time, try to plan for it better...have veggies or pick them up...have seltzer...have a snack planned so you don't want to eat so many nuts...

instead of just saying "VERY SAD," know in your head that you can use this to do better NEXT TIME.

i wasn't perfect on my vaca....but i also didn't let one bad day turn into a loss for the rest of the trip.

it's important for you to remember where you came from, that you DO know how to plan and make good choices.

remember that you are now more at maintenance than struggling and that hating yourself for making one mistake is hurtful.

remember to LOVE YOURSELF :)

you just had an excellent dr appt a few days ago ;) it's not all "VERY SAD!"

<3 xoxo

Donkey on 01/23/2019:
Yes 100% correct. I even knew when I typed "VERY SAD" that this is not what I wanted to say -- sounds too much like someone ELSE who posts too often on Twitter. You're correct - NEXT TIME.

And actually, as it turned out, it wasn't such a bad thing this time either. I'll write a little bit about this tonight.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
who's the negative twitter person? i hope not you?!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
i also used to have a huge problem with nuts. but doing far better with these issues lately!



Donkey - Monday Jan 21, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.5

Good morning to all -- very cold here this morning, which I suspect is the main reason for lack of any motivation to go to work this morning, but I am ever so grateful that I seem to be feeling more myself this morning.  One problem with keto is that it can play with one's digestive system, and it's been a rough couple of weeks.  Ah I bet it was the kale I ate yesterday!

My morning cardio was not as brisk as usual.  I seem to be dragging.  I think this week, I will set my bike on an easier level, all this week.  Glad I did weights (upper and lower body) yestserday. 

Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/21/2019:
Cold here today. Will probably only venture out for a little bit to do the weekly grocery shopping. Other than that, just planning on enjoying a down day with the family.


happy-1 on 01/23/2019:
Hugs. You're my hero.


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
How did you make the kale? sauteed?

NICE JOB ON WEIGHTS!

one of my coworkers is doing a routine i gave her...love hearing women doing weights.

oh, it's soooo worth it!



Donkey - Sunday Jan 20, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.5

Same here with not too much to report today.  I do not think I will make any significant progress with decluttering today.  I took one look at the pantry this morning and said, "Nope."  Going to be a bit self-indulgent today and focus on relaxing and staying warm.

I am still holding onto extra water as my wedding band was still tight.  Last night's dinner was very salty, although I am now wondering if this weight gain is in my fingers.  According to FitBit, I am now back at where I started, in July, at 127.5.  *sigh*

Just because my focus today is staying warm, I still want to go outside and trudge through some snow.  I have to fill up one of my feeders in the backyard.  If I'm brave enough, I'll just keep walking.  We'll see. It's sunny outside which makes it enticing to be outside, but at "feels like 1F" I'm pretty sure I won't last too long.  Just gotta get my outdoors fix of fresh air, I suppose. 


LATE AFTERNOON EDIT:  Logging on here to prevent myself from eating more nuts.  I've had a generous portion already.

Had fun walking out in the cold and snow.  Because the walking path on the main road isn't cleared by the village yet, I had fun breaking a path.  It was hard work!  The walk was good - no, it was GREAT!  So glad I got outside for some fresh air and sunshine.  Checked on my one feeder, added food to my other feeder in the backyard.  


My daughter is delving into vegetarianism with a slant towards the vegan, so I've been reading up on some tofu recipes to help her.  Interesting -- I think I could help her with this.  I'm not so sure I'd want this exclusively for myself, but of course, I will take tastes to see what it's like, especially if it's something that I make for her, so that all she has to do is reheat when she gets home from work at midnight.  Good for her if that's what she wants to do -- and I might learn a thing or 2 too.

I never did find that 150 veggie burger recipe book when I went back to Goodwill.  I should have grabbed it the first time I saw it.

 

Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/20/2019:
Sounds like you need lots of peppermint tea to help you stay hydrated/warm and flush out salt/toxins.

Donkey on 01/20/2019:
That is a good idea - and I happen to have peppermint tea on hand. I will have a cup tonight.


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
yeah! i cannot believe how cold it got here as of the weekend!

try to help your daughter along not to get like i was ...too restrictive and lost my period for a couple years. so unhealthy. lost calcium i'm sure.

at her age, "kids" do like to experiment and grow and learn....omg i learned for YEARS.

aren't you glad you have some good experience on you already in terms of eating and diet?!



Donkey - Saturday Jan 19, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.5

Weight routine for legcramps, Horn, or anyone else to comment on:

Upper body, 2 sets (sometimes 3 but not usually) of 15 reps, first set using 5lb dumbbells, 2nd set using 8lb dumbbells:

  • Shoulder press
  • Hammer curls
  • Tricep kickbacks
  • Tricep rows
  • Incline chest press on the bench (using 10lb dumbbells)

Lower body, 3 sets, 20 reps each, no weights:

  • Plie squats (standing)
  • Regular squats (standing)
  • Standing side-leg lifts - can only go to about 45 degrees without rotating my hip
  • Lying side leg lifts
  • Lying inner thigh lifts - I've seen these called side sweeps, but my upper leg is over the leg I'm lifting, not behind

Usually do one or the other, so that each (upper and lower) gets worked out for 3x a week.  

Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/22/2019:
First, nice job! Kudos for putting in the weight work!! I know it is not well-liked by most, but I love working with weights!

Your upper body workout is already well-defined. My suggestions for upper body: do all 3 sets AND add more weight. You can move the reps from 15 to 10. Those chest presses could use A LOT more weight. Do you have weightier dumbbells handy? I would START you with 15lb dumbbells, and work your way up from there! You can do it. Same thing with the shoulder press, you can definitely do more than 5 or 8lbs, and once you do this for 4-6 weeks you'll see more definition in your upper body for sure.

I would also add weight to your lower body workout and lower your reps. Check out how to do a goblet squat with a dumbbell, and add that to your workout instead of regular squats. Another one I would start doing, with weight, is the reverse lunge or forward lunge. I like the reverse lunge better because it's much easier on the knees. You can hold a dumbbell in each hand, or you can hold one dumbbell goblet-style. If your knees can handle it, I would also add in lateral lunges. Google it so you know what it should look like. The only other lower body exercise I would add in right now is a deadlift. You can do this with dumbbells in each hand - careful with this one if you have any lower back issues - make sure your form is bang on!

My opinion - add that stuff, work on it for 4-6 weeks, then see if it makes any changes (it will) and slowly progress from there. I would love to hear if you end up making any of these changes!


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
Loving that you wrote out your routine. Loving the variety and amount of different types of exercises. Loving that you do two types of triceps moves because triceps are so hard to train and form, i totally think it's good to do the 2 types of exercises, yes!

Loving the two types of squats (my routine has 3 different squat exercises i do, so, yeah, keep on with that!) squats are major for shaping your body and keeping the important musclces for posture and to help you when you do cardio.

I wish you did 3 sets of upper body, also.

i def recommend a 3rd set for the upper body because that's the general recommendation that everyone follows. i really do feel you should add the 3rd set in.

i think that your exercises are all good and are all the best ones to be doing. i have nothing to critique negatively only to suggest you do the 3rd upper body set when you feel you have the time to put it in.

remember, to save time, you can do your whole 5 upper body exercises, 3 times in a row the whole series if you wanted...

i like to do a mix of two exercises at once: like biceps move, then a leg move...3 times in a row...instead of 3x biceps and then 3x legs...it saves me less resting time. i still do rest betweeen exercises especially during the second half, more tired, part of my workouts, but, i like to do at least alternating two moves as a way to save time and rest my muscles. not sure if i'm explaining this right.

i will say that i think your workout weights routine is excellent and to keep following thru. NICELY DONE.



Donkey - Saturday Jan 19, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.5

So many mixed emotions this morning, I do not even know where to begin. OK, let's begin with the number on the scale.  Up 0.5 lb;  the fancy Ironman scale had me at 129.6 this week, as well.  At least it's under 130, so that's good, but still a little disappointing.  As a "sanity check", I put on my wedding band this morning, and it was quite tight, so I'm retaining water, probably from too much salt and not hormones.  Not sure.  I do not blame the pepperoni incident one bit for any of this.  Bone density measurement on the Ironman scale is at 5.0 which is always good to see.

I weighed in at the doctor's office.  I had shut my eyes, as I told you all I would do, but the nurse taking my vitals was announcing everything to me aloud, so no escaping it.  The good news is that I'm taller than I thought!  I've always thought I was 5'3" standing up straight -- 5'2" if I relaxed in my normal state, or maybe part of "old lady shrinking".  Turns out I'm almost 5'4"!  She put me down as a SOLID 5'3.5".  Woo-hoo - on a couple of levels.  1)  I'm taller! and 2) I'm not shrinking yet!  YAY!!!!  (Bone health is very important to me.)

I have to go back on Thursday for fasting bloodwork, which means a morning of black coffee and plain water. Bleah.  The bloodwork will be able to tell the doctor a better picture of my health, but she said I was doing very well.

Two things I took from the appointment:

  • I weighed in on the doctor's scale at 132.0, which the doctor said is within normal range for my height. (Good!)  But after I went to the bathroom, I snuck back on the scale, waiting for the doctor to come back, and I was down to 129.5.  UH-HUH!
  • The doctor told me that she's the same age as me!  But she has no grey hair and her skin looked so much better than mine.  Less wrinkles, no brown patches, less wrinkled on the cheeks.  I wonder if she's vegetarian.  It may be that she gets facials and her hair done.  (I stopped dying my hair for a while.)  Sadly, it may just be genetics, too.  I'm really glad she told me that though.  I felt like she could really relate to me, then.  

All of my events were canceled due to the impending snow.  Church ladies could have happened last night, sadly, as the majority of the snow didn't come until after 10p; church building closes at 9pm.  There had been a dusting of snow around 4p and then it stopped.  So that was too bad.  But I'm quite relieved that legal clinic - my favorite thing I do - was canceled, because there was 8 inches of snow on the driveway.  I think the kids shoveled last night - probably after midnight - because both good shovels had been moved.  I shoveled about half of the driveway and then one of my neighbors - bless him - offered to snowblow the rest.  I took him up on that offer.  There's nothing so good in the world than good neighbors, that's for sure.

In order to shovel this deep snow, I put on a pair of windbreaker running pants from YEARS ago when I was running.  The thing is, these are a size Men's Small, because I got them on sale at such a good price.  I've been able to fit into them before, but they were always a little snug across the hips - not uncomfortably so, but just enough to notice, especially since my hips are not narrow.  Well today, they are completely 100% comfortablely loose.  So that is a non-scale victory there!

 

 

Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/19/2019:
Good job on another week of maintaining!

I'm always excited for any signs of progress. The scale is the easiest to see since they measure in such small amounts (tenths of a lb). It's been awhile since I've had a non-scale change that I've noticed. The one that I keep waiting to see move is my belt notch. It seems like I've been stuck in notch #6 for the past few months. It's slowly getting to the point of being between notch #6 and #7, but hasn't quite moved to where #7 feels comfortable. It will be a happy day when #7 becomes the new normal......

Donkey on 01/20/2019:
I play this game with my FitBit wrist strap. When I first got it, last summer, I had the band at notch 4 - a comfortable, loose setting (i.e. not tight). (FitBits are not supposed to be tight on the wrist but rather slightly loose so that they do a little sliding.) Then notch 3 became a "tight fit" - so I stayed on 4. Now 3 is where I'm at at "slightly loose" and notch 2 is a tight fit.


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
well, well! congrats on a well done dr's appt! and on being taller ;)

lots of people do lots of things to look younger. she has money, probably, as a dr.

try not to compare yourself too much, focus more on continuing to work on yourself :) remember also you know your weight...so the scale is just saying what you know...maintenance stuff i mean...keep the perspective that you are in charge, not the scale :) the scale is a result of your work or unworking.!

you are getting LOTS of snow in Chicago. NY has been escaping it, as it keeps turning to rain.



Donkey - Friday Jan 18, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.0

Yesterday afternoon, for my 3pm snack, I ate an entire package of pepperoni.  Yep.  No shame.  Not a binge.  Just putting that out there to stay accountable.


So I am enjoying a "relaxing" morning before my doctor's appointment.  I was  anxious about this appointment yesterday.  Today, though, I feel strangely calm.  One thing that helped was that my daughter - who sees the same doctor - said that if they do bloodwork, they take it right there.  For some strange reason, that helped.  It is completely illogical that I am this stressed about the appointment.  I don't dread a weigh-in (I'll keep my eyes shut), I am in pretty good health, this is a wellness exam, I know this doctor (from my daughter's appointments).  It should be fine.

Then I'll come home, have lunch, change clothes for work and go to work  -- because, as I commented on legcramp's diary -- I am a slave to emails.  


I'm a little nervous about the impending snow storm we'll be getting here.  Depending on which source I check in with, the snow should start anywhere from 3pm to 6pm, with definite snow by 8pm.  I just wish my car handled the snow better.  If I had 4-wheel drive, like a Jeep, I would be unstoppable, LOL.  


Back to yesterday and eating observations, it was an odd or off day.  I was definitely hungrier in the morning.  This has been a struggle with me all week, actually, at work.  I try hard to keep my overnight fast until 9:30am but that has not been easy to do this week.  In fact, I'm having a protein bar right now and it's only 8:30a...

One thing positive to note though was that yesterday morning, I had very good weight training workout.  I scheduled myself to go into work at 9:30a, which allowed me the time to do weights.  I did upper and lower body, and the upper body session was very good -- I could really feel that I was challenging my muscles.  However, I am not in the least bit sore this morning.  Not sure if that's a good thing or not, LOL...

Revisiting the pepperoni:  my meals and snacks for the workweek have NOT been on target - they seem skewed and off-balanced. The pepperoni incident is probably just this imbalance catching up with me.  It was just such an odd occurance.  I don't ever eat like that at work.

 

 

Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/18/2019:
Can I ask what weights you are using during your workout and how many reps and sets you are doing?

Donkey on 01/19/2019:
Yes, I will post this independently, for your comments. It's really not much that I do -- and I'm sure I do it all wrong too.


graindart on 01/18/2019:
Love pepperoni slices fried (or on top of pizza of course).

We got our snow yesterday and this morning, but was only a few inches total. Tomorrow's supposed to be right back to 50 for a high, so just a little blip in this otherwise very mild Winter here. Wife has an all-wheel-drive, similar to Bear's and it's great in the snow. But with so little snow this year, hasn't really mattered.....

I dislike any dentist / doctor appointments and tend to get nervous about them a few days in advance. There's rarely a rational reason for my nervousness, but it just happens. As soon as the appointment's over, I'm instantly back to normal.

Donkey on 01/19/2019:
I'm the same way about appointments! Not sure why either because my teeth are really good and I'm in pretty good health.

Growing up, though, my experiences with the doctor were less than pleasant.


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2019:
I hope your doctor's appt went ok...i will read the next entries or finish reading this one to find out....!

Yes, those jeeps are def way better than cars at handling the snow. my car also doesn't handle the snow well at all and it's a rather major inconvenience to have to drive in it!

i do think the pepperoni indulgence may have been to calm you emotionally about the dr appt.

try to see...have you had less meat lately? that is weird, honestly in my opinion, to want so much pepperoni. ...have you had enough fat? or salt? is there something you were missing for a couple days?



Donkey - Wednesday Jan 16, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.0

I do NOT know where the love has gone, but it is not here.  Feeling so unmotivated, so unspecial.  I had that "special" feeling last week where I felt good about working a plan.  Today would have been the opposite of that feeling, although, do not get me wrong:  I still work the plan, I still exercise, but I'm just not feeling it.  That's OK, because I'll just fake it until I make it.  It could be seasonal, hormonal...

Actually, I tell you what a HUGE part of what's got me down is -- once again, no surprise here -- work.  So my boss is out of the office this month, and I feel like morale is just at an all-time low.  I was speaking to Male Co-Worker about this while everyone was out at lunch.  I was mostly listening, but turns out Male Co-Worker is feeling this too, and he has relayed this to the boss.  (HIm and the boss go way back, so Male Co-Worker can say things like that to the boss.  If I say it, I'm just being negative and not a team player.)  I'm at the point where if I thought my boss wasn't coming back, I'd start making other plans for myself.  In past years, he's come back, and everything is happy again - at least for a while.  The sad thing is that this year, I don't think the boss' return is going to make things better around the office.  CHAOS.

Or maybe it's the impending doctor's appointment I have Friday morning that I'm dreading.  Just going in for vitals and to request blood work.  Seems like a waste of time, but I have to have this "wellness" appointment to establish this doctor as my primary care doctor, so that when something DOES go wrong, like my back or cancer, I will have a doctor who can refer me to a specialist.  MADNESS.

Or maybe I'm somehow stressing out about the potentially big snow Friday into Saturday.  Had plans on Friday night with my church ladies -- not sure that's going to happen.  Have legal clinic on Saturday morning -- that will be really hard to miss, so I won't miss it but then that means death-defying driving to the clinic location.  If you drive in snowy or icy weather, do NOT get a Prius.  That's all I'm saying.  INSANITY.

Going to get ready for bed.  At least, hopefully that will be one thing that goes right for me.  SMART.


EDIT:  Oh and while I'm at it, would it be too much to ask to lose 0.5 pounds this week, so that I'm at an even 60 pounds gone?  Is that too much to ask???

Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/17/2019:
I agree, 60 does look so much better than 59.5.

I've been struggling with motivation / direction for the past couple weeks myself.

Donkey on 01/18/2019:
EXACTLY - YOU GET IT! HUGE difference, right?


horn_of_plenty on 01/17/2019:
It's a very difficult season - harsh winter - that could be part of the low morale and also at all work morale goes down when some people are off but not everyone .... it will change again back you will see. Remember work everyone gets monotonous and I like your saying fake it till you make it. It's ok to feel down a little some days


horn_of_plenty on 01/17/2019:
I have the whole workup dr Appt in February - haven't been in 3-4 years so it's time -

Sounds like you have a few Appts and events in the future which is on your mind - one day at a time - try to prep some healthy food for storm !

You got this !!



Donkey - Tuesday Jan 15, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.0

Today was so mind-numbing -- the weather, the job, my mood, my physical self (still feels like I'm fighting something, may be hormonally linked) -- even my clothese were grey today.

But I did manage to do some things for myself that were good.  I did the mouthwash thing again after lunch.  Also practiced portion control with the ranch salad dressing for my afternoon vegetables snack.  I don't measure, but it was just a little bit over 1 TBSP.  

One thing that I'm especially proud of happened Monday night.  After I rode my bike, I took off my FitBit.  Got distracted... then did a bunch of walking around the house to clean up before bed. Upstairs, downstairs, upstairs, downstairs, back and forth.  Then when I was upstairs for good, I realized that none of those steps counted because I had left the FitBit in the basement.  UGH!!!  I had a moment where I was quite distraught and discouraged -- mostly discouraged -- but then I realized that the important thing is that I was doing the walking, not whether or not FitBit was counting those steps or not.  So I calmed myself down and took pride in knowing that exercise still counts, even if it's not being counted (by the FitBit).  

I'm hoping to get to bed early tonight.  Not sure if it's the feeling blah, feeling tired, tired of feeling blah, or the blahness of feeling tired.

Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/15/2019:
But you made your weight goal, so everything is supposed to be perfect and easy now.

Obviously just kidding. But that's what we're lead to believe, right? Deep down we know it's not true, but we still hope that it will magically make everything better......

Good job on getting the exercise in and not obsessing about getting FitBit "credit" for doing it.

Donkey on 01/16/2019:
LOL - I have to say, of the most unmotivated days in the World of Maintenance, today was the unmotivated-est. Suffering from a serious case of the Blahs. It WILL pass, but it's so boring.


horn_of_plenty on 01/16/2019:
Yes !!!!! The important thing Is you did the walking and even if you don't have the measurement by a piece of electronic equipment - you know you did it.

Keep on stay positive it's the winter season :-)

Donkey on 01/16/2019:
Trying to -- trying hard. I'll write about this in my entry.



Donkey - Monday Jan 14, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 127.0

Rather frustrated with myself this morning.  After having "nothing to do" yesterday, of course I thought of a million things I should have done and, thus, really wanted to get them done TODAY -- the only problem being that I had to work today. 

I managed to get most done, in spite of it being a workday.  Right now, I am waiting for my baked eggplant to finish in the oven.  Then I will go downstairs to ride the bike to decompress.

It was *wonderful* going to bed early last night. I  would have gone to *sleep* earlier but stayed up 20 minutes extra trying to get my dumb FitBit to sync with my phone in order to update my stats.  I still got over 8 hours of sleep -- despite the fact that someone had a loud late night snack and then the smoke detector batteries downstairs decided now would be a good time to expire.  

I think I did well food-wise as well.  Had lunch late, so I didn't have to deal with that 1p-2:30p uncertain time, because I was finishing up lunch at around 2:15p.  One thing that I'm going to try next time is swishing my mouth out with minty mouthwash.  I did that one day, and I had no problems.  Killed my craving for munchies for about an hour, maybe even a little longer.  I was also proud of myself today for limiting the amount of ranch salad dressing I used for my raw vegetable snack.  Sometimes I use too much of that.  I'd like to stop doing that.

Hoping for an early bedtime tonight as well!

Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/14/2019:
AHHhh I must make more eggplant this year yes yes yes !!!!

Smoke detectors have the most annoying chirps ;)

Can you pour out a certain amount of dressing to use and put the bottle away so you don't overindulge ???

You sound good, stay focused and healthy !!

Donkey on 01/15/2019:
I always put away the bottle, but it doesn't help if I pour too much or if I go back for 2nds. Portion control is definitely needed here.


OhioRaven on 01/15/2019:
I gave up on my fitbit. A sore developed on my wrist. I dont know it it was the rubber strap or what...

Donkey on 01/15/2019:
FitBit was a birthday gift from my daughter, so that's not an option for me at this time.



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