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Donkey - Wednesday Sep 15, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

Yesterday, the Boss and the New Guy met with a top producing real estate agent at her office at 4pm.  If New Guy gets her business, our office will become VERY busy.  I don't work with New Guy's files, so it doesn't affect my workload directly, but if this happens, Mistakes Girl will become more of his exclusive assistant - meaning less help for me.  New Girl will become full-time and be the one to help me.  She won't be helping me directly, but she will be the one opening up contracts, ordering title, and fixing problems on title. 

This was all unkwown to me until yesterday, that this was the plan. So we'll see if this happens.  And we'll see how I feel, and re-evaluate.  See, that's why I didn't make any changes or moves before, because not enough has changed to make it worth a move.

Nice Lady made a friendly jab at me yesterday by saying I'd better brush up on my Spanish.  She and I talked a little bit about the changes.  She will be with Associate Attorney until the very end.  I made no overtones about working for him, if something happens to the cohesiveness of the firm, so that she doesn't feel threatened.  (Also, not sure I would ever want to work soley for him.)

I came across an article, from a major news network, that said something like, "6 Reasons to Leave Your Job".  Two of the 6 apply to me for sure.  So we'll see what happens.

Yesterday was very humid and rather warm until the sun went down, so we had take-out.  Schwarma - Pakistani food.  They don't have ANY vegetables on their menu, and unfortunately, I kind of dove into the carbs a little too much - a samosas (Google it and you'll see what I'm talking about), naan, Jasmine rice -- OOF!

I'm liking this phase of "refueling"  - I guess that's what I would call it - as I start to lift heavier and have incorporated regular HIIT training into my cardio, but this feels almost as wrong as over-restricting calories.  I'm not panicking, just expressing my thoughts for now.  October will bring about changes, and so now would be a good time to mention....

Next week, my Husband and I are taking some time away to visit a bed & breakfast in Wisconsin for a couple of days.  There is some hiking that I want to do.  I don't know if Husband will be up for it, but at least he's willing to try.  If he's not up to all of it, or even any of it, he can come with me, do as much as he can, and then sit while I go on ahead, and then return to him.  If we have cell phone service, it will reduce risk much more than if there is no cell service.  If no cell service, then we'll have an arrangement where I go ahead for 15 minutes (or whatever) and then return promptly, so that he knows if I'm not back in about 30 minutes (or whatever), something went wrong.

So it will be VERY nice to be away from work.  I hope to use the time to think about my yoga journey. (This little trip is why I don't have yoga 2x next week.)  There are other things I want to think about.  I hope Husband doesn't talk too much, so that I have time to think.  I'm also bringing my books to read, and my Gratitude Agenda too.  I'm looking forward to this.  

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/15/2021:
Get away sounds good! Nice break! Well deserved.

Hope work settles in soon. Wonder if they’ll get the big real estate agent? Always wished I had taken Spanish in hs & college instead of French. Useless & I had many Hispanic students in California.

Unfamiliar with that food, but bet I would like it. Not many exotic dining opportunities here.

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
It is sounding like the Big Agent will give New Guy a chance. It will just take a little time to get started, but I think once it starts, hold on folks.

Husband was like, It hasn't even happened yet, and he's right, but my gut is telling me this WILL happen, and we should be prepared.

bearcountrygg on 09/15/2021:
How nice that you guys are going for a vacay!!! Sounds like it's a good thing that you didn't make a quick work decision...it will be interesting to see how this all plays out.

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
Despite all of this new "buzzing" around the office with changes and stuff, after my self-realization over Labor Day, I've come to a comfortable spot where I'm at. It's really hard to explain, except that I know that no matter what happens, I'll be OK.

horn_of_plenty on 09/15/2021:
maybe do yoga 1x a week instead of 2!?...writing more later.

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
I have been doing yoga 1x a week over Zoom with a live instructor. It's nice because the instructor will tailor the routine to my requests. For example, "My hips are sore, can we work on stretching those tonight?"

I thought I would try yoga 2x a week, because I was SO busy at work and getting SO stressed out. Taking Yin yoga 2x a week FORCES me to take a time-out from stress, weights, bike rides, everything and focus on my inner well-being.... except that then I feel stressed out because I'm missing out on weights, evening bike rides, etc. LOL....

horn_of_plenty on 09/15/2021:
i look forward to hearing about your upcoming trip!!! (once you've been on it!) def my style of a nice couple days away if i had a hubby. you can fake reading a book if you just want to sit in silence ;)

those authors of the (when to quit articles) also cater to what you wanna hear...i'm sure i would meet at least 1 of the article's scenarios too.

you do you. seems many are planning now on what to do once boss is "no longer boss."

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
LOL on the fake reading - now I'm *definitely* going to bring at least 1 book with me! JK - I will bring at least 1 book, just in case the opportunity rises. And if it doesn't, that's OK too.

That's a good point about the author conveying what readers want to read. I hadn't considered that, but I see your point, and I think it's valid.

Yes, I will do me. I'm actually finding myself feeling like I'm watching a soap opera or TV show. At first, my feelings were a little hurt, because I found that I was being excluded from conversations and input. Now, I'm just sitting back, thinking, Gee, what will happen on the next episode?

It helped my stress level tremendously to have a plan if the changes become either too much for me to endure or if I'm actively squeezed out. There's no one path to my plan, either. It has several options and choices.

Donkey - Tuesday Sep 14, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

Running short on time again - DANG IT.  I even had to cut short my morning weights because I just ran out of time, if I wanted to login to DD and comment and write.  Did 2 exercises instead of 3.  Oh well, that just means that tonight's session will be longer.  

Stayed up until just before 10p - that was my mistake.

Yoga, once it got started, was very nice... but I have to confess that I've just lost my focus with it.  I'm not sure if it's the yoga itself, if it's the type of yoga, if it's feeling stress from the time commitment, if it's the teacher, if it's because it's Zoom & not an in-person studio... I just don't know.  But it's not feeling the same as it has in the past.  I have yoga again on Thursday.

I've been eating more (fruits, vegetables, protein), in hopes (???) of building more muscle.  It feels odd.   Very odd.  

Oh that reminds me:  Anyone thinking of trying a frozen protein shake as a substitute for ice cream, DO NOT BOTHER with this.  Nope, not even a fudge-cicle like experience.  I consumed the 2 dishes I had frozen, but I will not do this again.

Thought for the Day:  It is easier to stay healthy than to get healthy.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/14/2021:
YOUR thought for the day is PERFECT!!!!! You did seem to enjoy yoga in person more.....good job with the eating...especially the protein....

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
Thank you! I feel that the increase in protein will help me build bigger muscles. I don't want BIG muscles per se, but looking for larger muscles to reduce the look of the flab.

Jacky82020 on 09/14/2021:
I need to try the frozen. Curious.

Maybe another kind of yoga? Can you do it alone at home, no classes?

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
Felt it again today with the yoga - it's just not feeling right, where I'm at, that is. Maybe I'll work on it on my own soon. I'll see if I have time this weekend to look into that.

horn_of_plenty on 09/14/2021:
the good thing is that you started the weights and did some, if not all! way to go on it.

well, try the yoga again one more time...you should have your mind made up by 2-3x trying again.

Like Bear, i couldn't agree more on your thought of the day!

Remember, you don't need to double up on proteins...but more vegetables never heart a person.

Donkey on 09/15/2021:
I have this week with yoga 2x and then the last week of September with yoga 2x a week. I'm already feeling the tightness of anxiety of having the time commitment tomorrow night (Thursday) for the 7pm class.

Donkey - Monday Sep 13, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

Short on time this morning so just a few thoughts:

  • Headache returned in the late afternoon, so had to take more meds, and then I was fine.  The key, for me, is to catch it early with the right drugs.  Advil doesn't help me with headaches.  Tylenol alone won't help erradicate the headache altogether, it just dulls the pain.
  • Yoga resumes tonight.  This week will be the first week of 2x a week.  I'm already "resenting" the free time that it will take up in my evenings, but logically, I know that I need to relax, and if this is a way to do it, then that's what I need to do.  But this is why it's a trial, to see how it works.
  • Had a good chat with Husband last night about finances.  This can be a hot topic, so it's good that we could talk about this calmly.
  • Focusing on myself this week at work.  Keeping quiet, working on preserving an inner calm that no one can touch.
  • Running errands at work, rather than taking a long walk.  I will take a short walk around the block before driving off, though, because a walk is very restorative and a priority for me. If I have enough time, I'll take another walk around the same block, after I return from my errands.

OK, time to get ready for the work day! 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/13/2021:
Hopefully those headaches will go away entirely. Do you get them often?

Smart to make yoga a trial in case it doesn’t work as well as you’d like.

Yea, walking outside good. Used to park car close to a mile away when I worked downtown. Had free parking in a garage next to the school too.

Donkey on 09/14/2021:
I should be more clear: Sunday was the only day that I had a headache. The fact that it lasted all day - masked by pain killers - tells me that it's sinus related. I don't headaches all that often.

Donkey on 09/14/2021:
I should be more clear: Sunday was the only day that I had a headache. The fact that it lasted all day - masked by pain killers - tells me that it's sinus related. I don't headaches all that often.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/13/2021:
what do you mean by replanting? for this year or for next?

it's easy to get itchy gardening. that has frequently happened to me at the farm. just in general, from weeding, usually. not necessary poison ivy, but i still have gotten itchy from touching the plans for so long a time period at once.

great job going to bed early last night! that was my plan but decided to stay up later, just relaxing, listening to tv, holding pigs ;)...not the best idea, but, early in the week so i can still stabilize my sleep somewhat (i am not the best on getting the right sleep all the time - i do not think most people are though?)

i've only had a really painful headache once. like jacky is mentioning, i hope you don't get them often...if you do you should get it checked..

.like you, i have always loved the mostly positive energy at gyms! so nice to watch people doing well; watch the regulars keep coming! it's motivating!

well, you may not be moving forward at work, but you have other burners that are on now. like your exercise, taking care of husband, and other things you do for yourself. you read, you have hobbies, you take care of pets. i do not feel that all burners of your life should be burning at the same time. it's give and take...and the new guy at work is just starting out...

Donkey on 09/14/2021:
I should be more clear: Someone dug up extra plants. I replanted them in my yard. The plants are done for the season, but the roots are still there, and if they have survived the replanting process, they should come up next year. They are perennials.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/13/2021:
replying to your comments today on my entry, you are right in that i agree to eat in and by itself. at work, i do not work while eating. i like to focus on the food and tasting it, etc. there's a man i work for; he is one of my bosses and everyone is basically my boss in this trailer, but he's basically the 2nd highest...he eats fast and eats while speaking to people...and never stops his work to relax. he has gained weight over the years as i am sure as a teenager he was sporty and fit. he actually is good with his portion sizes, considering he's over 6' tall and a big guy, big boned too - he has some muscle, not a skinny type. like i was saying, he must have been an athlete as a kid. his issue is never stopping to relax, not really focussed on eating. i assume at home he eats bigger portions. he may not realize what he's eating...bc at work he does pretty well, actually.

Jacky82020 on 09/14/2021:
Could it be allergens, Donk? Running amok around here Taking Cloroform Tabs. The 4-6 hr ones seem to work better for me than 24 hr’s

Donkey - Sunday Sep 12, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

A late log-in for me here today, and that's fine.  In fact, I kind of changed my activities so that I would have not much to do in the afternoon.  If you commented on my recent, previous entries, I have commented.  I believe I'm caught up, except to find out which models of Schwinn recumbent bikes we have for Jacky.

I did replanting yesterday. Probably shouldn't have.  My back was complaining for the rest of the day.  Also, I had a hard time digging holes in our very hard, clay soil.  IDK, we'll see if any of the plants survive and come up next year.  

So it kept me active, but ouch!  AND, I must have brushed up against some kind of bad plant because the top of my right ankle itched like crazy.  Finally, I put some hand sanitizer on it, thinking the alcohol would act like an astringent, and that helped.

I came home from the gym (awesome upper body weights - getting stronger!!!), and Husband wanted to run a spontaneous errand.  I felt good, so I agreed to go with him, and I'm glad I did.  This will develop into something that perhaps we can do together.  I'll talk more about it, maybe, as it develops. Came home, and a nice dinner.  I went to bed early, which actually ended up being "just on time" at 9:45pm, as I made good progress on the books I'm reading.  A good day.

I woke up at 3:24am with a sharp headache.  Went back to sleep and when the alarm went off at 5:30am, had the same headache.  It feels like sinuses, so, after coffee and bike ride, I took some Tyelonol and a decongestant, which really helped.

I went to the gym this morning, before Daughter was awake, so that I was done, cleaned up, and back home, so that I could see her for about 10 minutes.  That was so nice :-)  Had a good leg day too - sad that not enough people are wearing masks - hopefully those folks are at least vaccinated.  As I left, it seemed as though more people WERE wearing masks.  I really do wish I could get to the gym more often than just on weekends.  It's slowly becoming my happy place.  It didn't bother me this morning that it was busier (except for the mask thing).  I enjoyed feeding off of other peoples' energy.  

While I was exercising, I realized that not only am I in a maintenance phase of weight-loss, but I am also in maintenance in my work life, too.  I commented on Friday that I see the under-attorneys doing things to improve their careers (example, taking tax preparer classes).  It makes me feel like I'm just a donkey stuck in her stall, but in truth, I'm putting it in neutral gear until I can figure out what my next step will be, and for now, that's OK.  If I don't come to a decision or impetus to get moving - this Donkey is inert - it WILL become uncomfortable for me.

I also came to the realization that with New Girl, I don't need to feel threatened or imposed upon  or anything like that, because I realize that she really doesn't want to work for anyone but New Guy.  She does not want my job.  She has zero interest in working for Boss or Associate Attorney.  So really, the less I have to do with her, the better it will be for me.  I will take Horn's advice and really work hard to hold my tongue and keep the conversation to a minimum with her.

I'm going to continue to work hard at keeping a balance at work, remaining calm and detached.  By doing this, it will help me to be more observant to the things & people around me and help me in my own journey forward.


Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/12/2021:
Yes, please let me know about your recumbent. The pricey spinner we have is a Schwinn. Need a step ladder to mount & it tugs at my hips. Never hardly use it. Couldn’t find a way in town to test drive any. Ordered online from California. Seller said ok for even very short ppl. Liar!

Glad you were able to tamp down that headache!

Seeing a few more masks here, not a whole lot.

Donkey on 09/13/2021:
Keep in mind that there's a difference between being a liar and being wrong. If the Schwinn salesperson isn't a short person him/herself, then there's really no way s/he could say for sure if the bike is proper for short people.

I had a similar experience with an elliptical machine. Saw the fancy ads for it on TV. Had the fortune to try it out at a local sporting goods store, and I'm SO glad that I did, because it did not fit me, and caused almost immediate back and shoulder strain.

KathyBlue on 09/12/2021:
Oh I read a lot of wisdom in this entry! Yay for the gym being a happy place! It is for me, too. While I ignore other people, I feel that I am being more accountable by their presence - if this makes sense? Although I enjoy working out anyways, for me it's much harder to get it done at home or outdoors - well, mostly because I'm a mess and my organizing skills are below zero, plus my home is a constant mess (not ideal for working out, to say the least, toys are everywhere, and many other things. It is a workout just to prepare a clean, wide area for an actual workout...). About the masks - we are not required to wear masks while working out. We have to keep distance (not always possible), and the monitors (staff) have to wear masks. We can take off the mask when we arrive to the gym area, and have to put it back when prepare for leaving for the locker room. As for the rest - BALANCE is key. I also feel wiser these days in that sense. I feel that I am taking no sh*t from nobody anymore. I'm more conscient than a few years back... While I also feel the need to have action in my life, I observe more from a certain distance and take better conclusions from that point. I don't rush into things anymore, I'm not taking leaps of faith that often. YAYYY, the blessed Forties!

Donkey on 09/13/2021:
Oh it DOES make sense to me! I'm not a mask Nazi, so I get it if you're on a cardio machine, you might not want to wear a mask. I'm only one of a few that do that. I'm talking about walking around the main lobby, the locker room, the grand stairway from 1st level to 2nd. Come on people, we can do better.

Taking no sh*t -- LOVE THIS.

KathyBlue on 09/12/2021:
By the way, how did you manage to get on the bike with a sharp headache? That's a great willpower! OMG when I have the headache / migraine I can't do basic things. Exercising would kill me I'm positive...

Donkey on 09/13/2021:
The coffee helped me until I could take meds. I don't know if I could have done any other kind of exercise, other than sitting on a recumbent bike, drinking coffee...

bearcountrygg on 09/12/2021:
Sounds like a pretty good day...except for the headache..I always hope that when i go to bed with a headache...that it will be gone when I wake up....but that rarely happens. If the sinus meds worked than most likely that's it. I massage my forehead when i have a sinus headache and it makes it drain easier...I can always depend on horseradish to get things moving too.

Donkey on 09/13/2021:
Same - which is why it was so odd that it was still there when I woke up. That's what made me think it was sinuses.

The headache came back in the late afternoon. Started getting short and cross with my Husband. Ran upstairs and grabbed the Tylenol and decongestant. After that kicked in, it was a pleasant evening :-)

Donkey - Saturday Sep 11, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 132.5

One of the joys about the weekend is that, even if my mornings start off the same, I don't have to rush.  So what I would have pushed to do in 15 minutes took me 45 minutes today.  Woke up slower, got out of bed slower, got dressed slower, made my coffee slower, etc.  OK, yes, there was the weigh-in, but that really didn't take all that long to delay my timeline. It was just a slower morning.

It's going to be a hot one here today - I'm hearing high of 90F and hazy.  I'm hoping maybe it's the last of the hot weather...  So I will be doing some pulling of plants, and replanting others that I received for free (sage and cone flowers, for bees next year).  

Also, public television is airing all of its "Cake" episodes from the seasons of Great British Baking show that they still own the rights to.  Isn't that just grand?  I'd much rather lose myself in cake baking, rather than focusing on the sadness and frustrations over 9/11.  (I'm having a very hard time with that today; I'd much rather focus on something delightful and happy.)  I think there's 5 episodes of cake baking.  Lovely!

I also have the gym today, on the agenda.  My husband is taking in electronics recycling today.  I'd like to read more of my library books too.

I've had a much better week at work too.  I'm sure it was due to the time alone I had over Labor Day weekend.  It is also better to be not so quite as busy.  Mostly, though, I feel that it's been a change in my inner attitude, knowing that for now, I'm where I need to be.

There have been a couple of startling changes at work, that on the surface, don't affect me much.

  • The Boss is having New Guy & Associate Attorney enroll in HR Block tax preparing classes, so that they can prepare tax returns.  (Meaning:  the Boss won't be preparing tax returns in the future.)
  • Associate Attorney is getting his real estate broker's license.  (Meaning:  Not sure yet.  This was his own idea, from what Nice Lady says.  This was not prompted by the Boss.  However, the Boss is a real estate broker - owns his own real estate agency - and so maybe that's what Associate Attorney is leaning towards emulating.)

So other people ARE making plans to prepare for future changes, it would seem.  Donkey is not.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/11/2021:
You do sound so much more relaxed and I'm sure that is making you time at work more enjoyable.......... I sold real estate back in the 80's........so different from the way it all happens today...so much safer for the agents.....( I ended up in some scary situations with clients I didn't know and now feel lucky to even be alive......) We didn't even have cell phones back then....so no way to call for help. A coworker always carried a gun......it is a much safer thing to do now days....and they can see things online first so there is a lot less showing houses that they would never want....basically they are halfway sold when they go see them now. PLUS....it's a great time to sell with houses selling for over asking price on day 1 so often.......

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
Funny you mention this, because the Women's Realtor group that Associate Attorney belongs to just had their monthly meeting, and the topic/presentation was "Realtor Safety" taught by a self-defense guy. I didn't attend, but AA posted snippets of video from the talk.

Frankly, at least in this area, open houses aren't really effective any more - and like you mentioned, not really needed in this market.

It can be difficult to maintain this "relaxed" or "calm" mentality at work, but it worked for me last week, and I'm going to keep working on keeping this up.

Jacky82020 on 09/11/2021:
Donkey can when Donkey wants!

I saw some cake TV shows. Were those things even edible? Beautiful!

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
My Husband just told me today that Cake Boss is a completely fake show. I've never watched it, but good to know.

bearcountrygg on 09/11/2021:
I think your idea to kathy is terrific...I may just try that one myself.

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
Thank you! Coming to that suggestion made me realize that I will do that for myself too! In fact, that probably should have been my very first sentence written in the agenda.

Maria7 on 09/11/2021:
I answered your question to my yesterday's post on there in case you want to read it. Looks like you have reached a place of peace regarding your job and not expecting more nor less but hoping for the best. Honestly that all any of us can do in all situations, I think. I hope you have a good day.

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
Not that I want COVID, but I was sort of thinking, jokingly, to myself, that I could do with having a dulled sense of taste for a little bit. I wouldn't be so eager to eat (as much).

It would be interesting to see if you ever regain ALL of your accustomed tastes, e.g. diet Coke, or if somethings will never taste the same again.

horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2021:
Write you a comment on your Thursday entry :)

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
Responded! :-)

KathyBlue on 09/12/2021:
I learned that while it's good to be busy at work because time tends to fly when we have something to do, and also it proves that we are needed and our salaries are justified, it's also good to have those not too busy, lazier days. I had a crazy week and it got improved from Thurs to Fri, and I haven't done too much on Friday itself. I just felt the steam was going off, and I just occupied myself doing cleaning and maintenance stuff.

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
I think we had a series of 4 weeks that were just *brutal*. At the end of each week, Friday, I would mention this to co-workers, who completely agreed to me. I think things have settled down. There's busy and then there's TOO busy. When we're TOO busy, the flaws in our organizational system become magnified: mistakes, allocation of workload, certain attitudes, etc.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/12/2021:
Also wrote you back now on Friday; will come back here later to catch up on Saturday/Sunday. :)

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
Responded! :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 09/12/2021:
same thing here, warmer. i think yeseterday was the 86? and today 84F. so not too hot, actually, here. Summer comes back!

so you are replanting now? I want to plant an elephant ear plant in front of my building for next year. i will need to look this up - so i can see it grow next year! :) being that i will be a longtime resident here, i would love to plant some things in front of the building - neighbors would not mind. i have another neighbor who gardens and plants flowers. it would be nice to do something for the building!

I took a pic of the outside only of the cake i was given from my parents for my bday. i should have got an inside pic too; it had some really nice mouse along with dark choc cake and a raspberry jelly filling! they did it last year, too. amazing choice.

maybe associate attorney, i forgot his age, will try to acquire boss' business?

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
I replanted only because someone had given away plants she had dug up to thin out her own garden. Ideally, this would have been done earlier on in the season. I'm not sure any of these will actually take, but we'll see. Won't that be interesting to see next Spring?

I hadn't thought about it, but maybe Associate Attorney would be interested in buying the brokerage - or at least the name. Hmm...

Jacky82020 on 09/12/2021:
I heard most if not all of those reality shows are scripted fakes!

Donkey - Friday Sep 10, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 133.5

I have plenty of time this morning!  Woke up at 3am, dozed on & off, and finally got up at 4:45a.  After my morning bike ride, I tried some new upper body weights, even though today is not a weight day.  I was just trying these for fun.  Did my daily push-ups.

Yesterday was not perfect by any means, but overall I think I did OK with keeping things positive at work.  I'm not even sure why I try talking to New Girl but I felt it was positive, or at least encouraging.  Mistakes Girl was out yesterday, so when she returns today, the office balance will be better.  I even approached a very negative Male Co-Worker and that went well.  Some of my files tested my patience, but really the best way to handle those is to focus on just getting the deal done, so that the file can be closed out and put away (far away), physically, figuratively, and mentally.

However, I found myself getting very anxious during/after dinner.  All I wanted to do was eat eat eat.  Kept it in control, for the most part, but had that "impending food fit" feeling that lasted into the evening.  Used some mental tools to keep a handle on it. I did have an extra piece of salted caramel, but that was after a bike ride, so I felt that kind of evened things out.

BUT - and here's where the story gets ugly - I came downstairs to where I left my phone charging (mad at myself for forgetting it), and Baby Kitty had peed AGAIN on the stairs & floor that I had just mopped up.  I was so tired, and so anxious, only to find that she left me ANOTHER MESS to clean up.  And there's Husband, staying up late, watching a movie on his computer (with his headphones on, so he's totally unaware of what's going on), eating tortilla chips LOUDLY.  WTF.

My anger just kind of exploded (briefly).  I just get so frustrated with him.  What is the point of enrolling in a 16-week weight loss program (starting in October), what is the point of talking about weight-loss surgery, when the problem is right there in your face.  And some of us are trying SO HARD, and you are not trying AT ALL.

So my "explosion" involved me yelling 2-3 sentences and then storming upstairs to go to bed.  Poor Husband was like, "WHAT!!??"  I just couldn't take that loud crunching when I was struggling so badly.  Went to bed.  End of story.

This was a very valuable lesson to me though.  This is really my own journey.  It is not his.  His journey is not mine.  I don't blame myself for exploding - we all have our breaking points.  I will need dedication to my journey, if I want to reach my health goals & live the way I want to live my life.  It's just really hard to live closely with someone who seems to be living a contradictory life, but it's kind of where we're both at right now.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -1.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/10/2021:
You are more ambitious than me, exercise wise. Can’t do anything but plant my butt on the recumbent bike & read on the iPad. Some crazy stuff going on in my Twitterverse.

“impending food fit!” Love it! Know the feeling well. Comes with on rather suddenly.

You are so correct. One can’t control another’s behavior.

Sounds like things ok at work, stable?

Donkey on 09/11/2021:
If you only knew... It is NOT easy to switch from warming up on my older, easier recumbent bike to the newer, much more difficult recumbent bike for the higher intensity training program. This is even HARDER to do during the work week. I'd much rather just sit on my easier bike and coast along, drinking my morning coffee, checking out social media, zoning out....

This week at work was better, I think. The "reset" from Labor Day really helped a LOT - plus, I can see that real estate is starting to slow down just a tad, which really makes a big difference on managing workload.

Maria7 on 09/10/2021:
When we realize that we cannot control things, we can only manage them, I think that helps our perspectives. We want the BEST for everybody but THEY have got to want the best for themselves, too. We can't do it all. We can only love and pray for them and hope for the best for them. As for the little candy nugget, you did GOOD, Girl! Pat yourself on the shoulder! That was nothing to add to your daily calories! Better than having a 'food fit', as Bear calls it. Smile. So, take a break and 'breathe'.....Love you!

Donkey on 09/11/2021:
Love you too!! I'm so grateful for your support and patience with me and my entries. Reading your comments here, I'm wondering if this is preparing me for approaching whatever comes next in Husband's journey. That is to say, this may have been a "splash of cold water on my face" to see that whatever he decides to do with his journey - weight-loss support group, surgery, no surgery - it's on him. I will need to step back and let him steer his own ship. There is a difference between helping, supporting, and controlling. I sometimes overstep these boundaries, especially with Husband, whom I love very much.

Donkey on 09/11/2021:
You know, he bears pain so well, that I often forget that he's really enduring much more than I'm aware of. I'm too close to see things clearly, perhaps? Or maybe it's wishful thinking on my part?

Jacky82020 on 09/11/2021:
What’s the model & brand of your new recumbent? Think I have the kind old ladies use in the nursing home. Actually how I got the idea to buy mine. No one ever using it when we went to visit Matt’s old bag mom. So I did! LOL

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
I will have to let you know. I'm not sure. The older one is a manual tension (probably why it's easier) and loud. The newer one is a computerized tension/programs, and very quiet.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/12/2021:
the pushups are what prob keep me looking the most fit of all exercises. I am better at them compared with any other upper body exercise - nice to see you doing them, they work many muscles!

regarding talking to new girl, best be positive but limit conversaion. that's what i think i have to do - and am doing - with 45yo mom of twins. the way she communicates, bluntly, usually catches me off-guard and i read her intentions the wrong way and then i get upset when it's just her way of communicating. best i talk with her less to limit my own confusion/feelings getting hurt for no reason. she doesn't mean to; at all. very very different upbringings - she grew up in the "projects," which is low income housing in NYC.

and one piece of caramel is very good, compared with a food fit. today, i felt like having a food fit at breakfast the day after a large meal with parents that ended in dessert last night. but i rarely have breakfast food fits anymore - as i've learned to be more moderate. i will have a coffee, which helps fill up after eating; and also on weekends mostly i may have the kombucha which i don't drink as much anymore (hello, money savings!). reason i don't drink it is it doesn't fall in with my routine as well and drinking it at wrong times can bloat me for a long time.

well, it's true, husband's routine of watching tv and eating tortilla chips is not going to help him. so, it's def something he needs to alter. maybe turn the chips into cucumber slices with some salt / pepper. he does need new coping mechanisms....

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
Yes, good advice about dealing with New Girl. I will limit what I say to her, period, moving forward. I think it's just for the best, for both of us.

Because he is retired, Husband operates more on a 2nd shift schedule. I think this is him, naturally, but also, he tries to stay up to make sure Daughter gets home OK. So if he doesn't have a morning breakfast, then a later night "meal" makes sense. He will learn on his own, that he just won't be able to handle certain foods in certain quantities, if he elects to have surgery.

Donkey - Thursday Sep 09, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 133.5

Ran out of time to post this morning.  It's going to be an interesting day -- needing extra coffee this morning, but feeling pretty good and very positive.  I'm not letting anyone's negativity bring me down today. 

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -1.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/09/2021:
You go, Donk!

I love good coffee & grind fresh beans every AM. The Starbucks annual after Xmas sale was once the highlight of my year, but have since found an online roaster that has same quality beans, a lot cheaper. Stock up when they go on sale.

Donkey on 09/10/2021:
Nothing like waking up to a fresh pot of coffee. Many a day when that's my main motivation to get out of bed physically. I try hard not to waste any coffee. Anything left over, either here or at work, many times goes into the refrigerator, to be served cold over ice the next day, during the day. This probably won't last as the weather gets cooler...

bearcountrygg on 09/09/2021:
Great way to start your day.......Nothing can get you down when you have that kind of attitude.....

Donkey on 09/10/2021:
Oh I hung in there until the very last of the day... then I kind of stumbled. I'll write more about it. Not a very proud way to end the day.

Maria7 on 09/09/2021:
Stay Strong!!!

Donkey on 09/10/2021:
#DonkeyStrong <<< I think that's my new motto ;-)

Jacky82020 on 09/10/2021:

Donkey on 09/12/2021:

horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2021:
You say the pain came back after you stopped massaging it bc the massage prob diverted your attention away unless it’s some kind of nerve thing but that’s just a guess as I’m no doctor !!!

horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2021:
Also yes I’m trying to reintroduce the wheel in terms of introducing veggies to one coworker in particular. One other one is into weightlifting, a female, 45 yrs old. She thinks tomatoes aren’t keto! Except that isn’t right ! They are. Just sauces with added sugars are not ! I can’t try to change her mind as she’s pretty set in her thinking and it would cause an argument for me to try discussing any of my ideas with her - it’s the men who listen! Haha

Donkey on 09/12/2021:
I think tomatoes are a limited food on keto. See, that's why keto would just never work for me. I love fruits too much. I just can't equate that it would be better to have as much peanut butter as I wanted - and believe me, I can eat a LOT of peanut butter in 1 sitting - but having an entire grapefruit or apple or orange is "BAD".

I wouldn't argue with her. Oh carrots, like baby carrots - big no-no in keto because they have sugar. Well, I use baby carrots when I've got the stress-munchies but don't want a lot of calories. At work, I've saved many a day with those baby carrots.

Donkey - Wednesday Sep 08, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 133.5

I think that out of all my co-workers, I had the best holiday weekend!  Which is funny because I was the one that was alone and didn't do much of anything, but I'm in a good place, to be able to enjoy my own company.   I could feel that I had a new attitude walking into the office, now knowing that for now, I'm where I belong.  And I noticed that Male Co-Worker is really a bitter person.  He's toxic - UGH!!!  I stayed away from him, mostly, and just did my own thing.  I would like to maintain this inner positive connection as long as possible.

Eating was good yesterday.  Didn't have my afternoon snack so I was very hungry at dinner.  When I came home (still alone), I did a few chores before preparing dinner and sitting down to eat.  Yes, I was hungry!!!  I supplemented my planned dinner with carrot sticks and hummus.  If I went over calories, oh well...

Husband came home at 8:30pm last night and we talked as he got ready for bed.  His flight was delayed a couple of times due to strong storms here in Chicago, so he had had a full day either at the airport or on the airplane.  He's glad to be home, and he missed me :-)

I'm glad he's home - and relieved that he's home safely.  However, if I'm honest with you, it took me FOREVER to fall asleep last night.  I just couldn't get comfortable with him there.  And then this morning, he's been a chatterbox during my "quiet time" when I post here. LOL, same ol' Mr. Donkey.  It really is nice to have him home :-)

My left hip is nagging me slightly (started yesterday), so I did not do the higher intensity section of my bike ride this morning.  With it being leg day, I'm OK with that. I'd rather do the leg weights than to push myself to do the HIIT on the bike; the benefits of the weights is better/more.  It's the newer bike - it hurts my hips.  It supposively hurts Husband's hips too, which is why he doesn't use it.  Eventually, we will get rid of it, I'm afraid.  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -1.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/08/2021:
I think that alone time was so good for you....you needed that and you used it wisely!!! Glad hubby is back home safely and that you made some changes in how you are dealing at work.......it all sounds so much more peaceful......toxic people need to be ignored...they corrupt everything around them and delaying dinner was excellent!!!

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
Thank you -- And rather than feeling critical of my toxic co-worker(s), I find myself feeling sorry for them - a blend of pity and compassion. It is SO HARD though not to let THEIR actions creep into MY emotions.

Jacky82020 on 09/08/2021:
Congrats on that positive attitude! That coworker needs to take a Kong walk off a short pier. lol

My hips hurt occasionally too, also right thumb & sometimes toes. DX’d in 30’s with OA! Got all these age related things young, such as high blood pressure too. Partially genetic. Keep it in check to a degree with exercise & weight control.

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
The hip pain didn't feel like arthritis this time, and the pain is gone today. This felt more like a bursitis, but it might have been a small muscle pull or ovulation. How do you like those selections? (not)

"Keep it in check to a degree with exercise & weight control" -- THIS. YES. 100%

bearcountrygg on 09/08/2021:
I have hip and some knee pain...hands are getting quite painful......I think it's just a part of aging.....back hurts loading the dishwasher every day......and then I'm thankful I don't have to wash the dishes by hand...LOL

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
Oh yes, I have my share of aches that I know are due to aging. Fortunately, they are manageable, and they tend to come and go, depending on usage, weather, etc.

This hip pain felt different, and it's gone this morning, which makes me feel like it was a small injury. We'll see - I'm definitely going to keep an eye on it, to see if it comes back.

legcramps on 09/08/2021:
I’m glad you had some you time, it’s nice to be able to be by ourselves from time to time I think. Maybe you could find a way, talk with hubby, about having some alone time each week?

You really do sound so positive and cheerful!

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
I have been thinking about your comment all day yesterday, about incorporating time alone on a regular basis. I think that bears serious consideration. I feel so renewed!!!!

Maria7 on 09/08/2021:
Happy that you enjoyed your holiday weekend. Hope that today is a good day for you.

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
It was still a pretty good day! Perspective is everything, I think. Wow, you should have seen my Boss light up when I asked him if he'd ever taken an Alaskan cruise - I think I made his day!!! (lol)

Horn_of_plenty on 09/08/2021:
i'm glad the extra time away from work led you to be able to relax a bit with yourself and i'm sure that added to the reason you were in a good place! i was in a great place today; coming into work after a 4-day weekend and 3 days only of work! it's so "doable!" anyways, time off to regroup and recharge did you well..

gotta say, carrot sticks and hummus are a great, healthy snack :) my coworker today who is really one of my managers; he mentioned hummus. it would be great for him to use it; bc he's a really tall, big guy. he could use those healthy, more dense calories well also,,.he said he had a sandwich today for lunch with mustard and i told him he did great. he said "not as healthy as a salad." i told him he was wrong! i said, you just need to supplement your healthy sandwich with veggies. i'm trying to open up his mind to options...and not so "black and white." since when does a 6 foot man over 200 lbs think a whole wheat or similar sandwich with turkey and mustard is not healthy!? the world and media have confused people who haven't had their own time to study any nutrition. :) he has asked for my help. so i talk to him during lunch quick or in afternoon...about his lunch! :) i give him a "grade!" literally! as well as two other coworkers. i always have input for everyone and one guy of the three knows a lot and sometimes we have a great debate and i come away from it thinking of new ideas too! (they can't get an A if they do not have grains/carbs with lunch. and they also can't get an A without having veggies at lunch).

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
One of the things that I didn't like about tracking my macros on Lose It was that fruits and vegetables count as carbs (and calories, which cut into the allotted amount). I don't want to be to the point of where I'm counting carrots, fearful of getting too many carbs. I feel that most vegetables are "free foods" and having fruit is better than having chocolate chips.

Maybe try to help your co-worker(s) explore a new world of vegetables. Something along the lines of "I never knew vegetables could be so tasty!"

Horn_of_plenty on 09/08/2021:
thought you'd find my second paragraph above interesting! he just asked for my help; i never offered; so i figure he likes my help! :)

that's rough - a full day traveling! i'm glad he's home too. I would have been very, very tired also! hope he can put his legs up a bit now! i'm glad you both missed each other!

sorry your hip has been bothering you. you think it's related to TOM? this month, i have had strange digestion not even during TOM and sometimes a little extra pains. ahhhh, that must be me turning 39!? haha.

anyways, keep on. I do hope you hip feels better. def smart to either stretch it (if it feels good), massage it (if it helps) or rest it (if that's what you need). never push when a body part already hurts.

Donkey on 09/09/2021:
It occurred to me last night that maybe my "hip" pain was actually ovulation. Sorry if it's TMI, but ovulation is painful. I feel like an ice pick or awl piercing my groin, and this was very similar to that, except that with the interval training, I thought it was related to that. Took a day off of the interval training (using steady-state cardio instead), and this morning, the pain was gone.

Massage/pressure last night felt good on it, as long as it was being applied. When I removed my hand, then the pain came back. Odd. I will keep an eye on this for correlations.

Donkey - Tuesday Sep 07, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 133.5

I truly enjoyed my last day of solitude yesterday, although I did see Daughter for a bit, and I went to the gym.  (Nobody talks to me at the gym, so it's almost like being alone.)  I had a kick-butt session on the ellitpical -- probably pushed myself a little too hard, but it was fun. 

Today is upper body weights, and I did 3 of them - one for chest, two for back - with the plan to do 2 or 3 more tonight (tricep, bicep, shoulders - 3, that's the plan).

Lights out at 9:30pm and slept pretty well, I think.  I don't recall waking up in the middle of the night, as I often do when Husband is home, but I did not wake up particularly early, and it was hard to get up out of bed when the alarm went off.  Woke up feeling OK - not too bloated, but not "empty" or hungry either.  Maybe that's the way I'm supposed to feel - just THERE, not bloated, not full, not hungover, not hollow, not empty, not hungry.

Husband comes home later tonight, around 8pm I think?  It will be good to have him home. And it's good that my Son is back at base.  I miss him, but he needs to have his own life to live, with adventures and other people besides family around.  I'm so glad that he's thinking about going abroad for his next assignment.  Of course, it's risky & dangerous, but oh to see other countries is a real gift.  I never appreciated living in the US until I went abroad to the UK.  I feel that experience made me a better citizen to my own country.

I've decided to stay put at my job and work on improving things there, for another year.  If Mistakes Girl leaves, that will change things.  If the Boss makes a move, that will change things, so things may change all on their own.  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -1.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/07/2021:
Nice you can use the elliptical! We have one that the husband uses on a regular basis. I’m too short & it pulls at my hips too much for comfort. Same for the pricey spinner. And both purchased under the assumption they were rated for petite ppl. Sad! Leaves me with treadmill, recumbent bike & rower.

Donkey on 09/08/2021:
It depends on the brand of elliptical. Some of them do not "fit" me and cause back or foot pain. Precor fits me best, and I feel kind of bad that I limit myself to that 1 machine, but everything else they have there doesn't quite fit.

bearcountrygg on 09/07/2021:
I'm happy to hear that you enjoyed your alone time.....we all need some solitude sometimes. D and I sleep better alone and over the years we have started sleeping in separate rooms.....no more waking each other up.....and I think we are both resting a lot better. Will your son get to pick where he is stationed? I'm sure you will be happy to see hubby get home tonight...it's always a relief to know they are off the road. Giving work another year seems like a good idea....that place is in a state of flux and could change very quickly.

Donkey on 09/08/2021:
Son has a list of places he'd like to be stationed, and I'm told that they really do try to honor the 1st choice, but ultimately, it's a decision made by the higher-ups. I think wherever he is stationed, we will go visit him, except maybe Turkey (too dangerous)... South Korea would be a big stretch out of my comfort zone, but I feel like if he's there, we shouldn't waste taking advantage of a double opportunity (see him + visit new country).

See my comments to Horn below, regarding a job change :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 09/07/2021:
Comments on your previous entry: ohh nice. no fireworks over here last night! :) I fell asleep on the early side also.

I agree that a 1/2 cup oats is probably enough. like you, i had a bad feeling of constipation and bloating that lasted me about half a week, at the minimum. i'm really thankful for this extra day off bc i ccan say i am back to normal finally. i know what you mean with that uncomfortable feeling. i was thinking mine was from also not enough cardio/movement as i moved a lot less towards middle of last week.

I certainly DO think you should apply to the title company job. you are not a slave to your current, "old, forgetful" boss. you have more years to work and be fulfilled. i feel you should definitely see about it. perhaps that would give you the job length you need for the extended future and less uncertainty from this one, which is uncertain in my mind (my opinion, i may be wrong.)

ohhh, love you did your roots/hair. that always makes me feel youthful - as much youth as i can achieve, it's prob achieved best when i color my hair - even though i'm basically all brown, i do have a few grays :)

Donkey on 09/08/2021:
If I cut back on the oats, I think there will be too much protein powder to make it not a good blend. I'm going to stick to the bigger breakfast for at least a week. It seemed to hold me quite well at work!

I'm holding off on the title company job. If Husband has weight-loss surgery next year, I will need a job that is flexible and understanding, if I need to take off, which I'm sure I will. I have mixed feelings about this, but my gut is telling me that the right thing to do is to wait and watch.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/07/2021:
so true. the US is so different from most other countries on so many levels. some of my trips to poorer countries have also reminded me of everything we have here! thank you for reminding me!

that would be great if your son could experience some travel; as in training somewhere else. i'm sure most of the time he will not see the ohter country much; but it will still be an experience that will shape him.

another year is very short at your job. leaving you up to the unknown in a year again. i recommned you see about the title company. you have a lot of experience. you would just have to learn the norms of the title company. and your experience will help you the rest of the way.

Donkey on 09/08/2021:
I know the manager of the office at this branch of the title company. I'm thinking that if I want to go that direction, that I have an "in" with her. I'm keeping this in my back pocket. I'm just not so sure I want to stay in this career field.

Donkey - Monday Sep 06, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 133.5

Had a very nice quiet evening, spent reading the various books that I checked out.  Two of the books that I kind of "wrote off" as not being very interesting or inspiring are actually quite good, and I will keep reading them.  I turned off the light before 10pm, but the fireworks went on until after 10pm.  After that, I fell asleep easily.

Woke up feeling less bloated, but still not completely back to normal.  Along with this bloating is a feeling of constitpation, but that's not a reality.  I tried my new breakfast today: oatmeal with a scoop of vanilla protein powder and mixed with almond milk.  Whoa, this will hold me.  Oof!  I'm not sure I like this, but I'll give it a try for a few  more days.  I will make it without the almond milk, for starters.  Also, I may cut back to 1/2 cup of oats, not 3/4.  Still overall calories were around 300 calories, which is a good breakfast.  Let's see how this works for a workday, if it gets me through the mornings better.

Friday, I got the sense that my Boss was getting impatient with me, like he noticed I've been slacking off, and getting mad about it - and this is a guy that never gets mad. Have I?  Maybe -- I've written here a few times where I saw opportunities to jump in and carry an extra load but just mentally, physically (energy-wise) just couldn't.  Hmm... Anyway, I had a conversation with him Friday afternoon, about someone who worked at the title company, and I realized that I didn't want to be like that person.  The person we were talking about quit at the title company because he was not promoted.  Well, he wasn't promoted because he has a "can't do that" attitude, rather than "what CAN be done to make this happen".  I'm usually the "can't do that" person, but what I *have* been saying lately is, "Let's see if the attorney knows a way around this, because he can work magic."  Yes, I say this even about Associate Attorney.  

So what can I do to help things at work?  I'm thinking about dedicating 1 hour of my day, depending on the day, to opening up purchase (not sales) contracts, since these are the files I will work on from beginning to end.  Rather than laying this all on Mistakes Girl, what can I do to help her out?  I'm going to mention this to my Boss and see what he thinks.  He probably doesn't care, but I want him to know that I'm making this effort.  I also want this to be an extra voice in mentioning that New Guy is almost busy enough to have his own assistant, and he's only going to get busier.

I also realized that if I worked at Walmart, I wouldn't be having a holiday weekend.  The only holidays this year are Thanksgiving and Christmas.  Otherwise, you work your 40 hours a week.  So maybe my job isn't so bad after all.

Then I thought, maybe I should try for the vacancy at the title company, left open by Mr. "Can't Do".  I'm sure it's a much higher salary with benefits.  However, the man's job was problems on title.  All day long, anything and everything is "Fix this problem".  I'm not sure I want that extra stress and negativity.  Oh sure it's rewarding to fix a problem, but I know that this guy worked really hard.  And it's defintely one of those jobs that, if you take any time off, you come back to twice the work. Still, it's very tempting. If I were to work at a title company, that's the job I'd want.

I think I'm going to head off to the gym for some fun cardio, just something light and fun, soak up the energy there.  It would be much more crowded, I anticipate, and sometimes it's good to be in a crowd, to soak up the vibes from other folks. I've still kept it in my mind to sign up for a class. Haven't done it yet, especially now with COVID rates on the rise.... Not sure this is the right time for that.  Still want to do it though.

I also need to do the paperwork for my next round of yoga classes.  After this week, we'll start sessions 2x a week, Mondays and Thursdays, to see if this helps manage my stress.

I also wanted to mention that in all this chaos, I did manage to do some nice things for myself, including coloring my hair (was supposed to be a lighter brown w copper highlights, but ended up being just brown), and 2 facials with stuff I already had.  One was exfoliating and the other one is moisturizing.

I also want to read more today.  It's harder to find that time once the workweek starts up again.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -1.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/06/2021:
Very true about walmart but it is the kind of job that you leave at work...so home is totally free of stress........but a job at a title company with better pay and benefits sounds tempting too.....but then the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.......so....lots to mull over there....I've been thinking of having a spa day at home myself...i also have the stuff.....sounds very tempting...Enjoy your day of peace and quiet...I love those kinds of days.

Donkey on 09/07/2021:
I've decided that now is not the time to make that move - or any move, I think.

Jacky82020 on 09/06/2021:
The breakfast certainly sounds nutritious enough! If it’s not quite to your liking, I’d try taking the protein powder & almond milk on the side.

Your job sounds so challenging! Think you’ll go for the title co position? My Spidey Senses tell me our Donk would be good at any new venture (and the current one too!)

Donkey on 09/07/2021:
Did some more thinking, and I do not think I will pursue the title company job. It would be towards the end of the spectrum that I'm trying to move away from. The money and the benefits would be really nice, but so is my well-being. Not the right time to make this move.

Let's see if it becomes available in a year or so. I might have a better idea of where things are at, at that time.

Right now, I'm going to focus on being better at my current venture - thank you for the encouragement!

Jacky82020 on 09/07/2021:
Smart move! Best to look long & hard before leaping. What’s that saying? Stick with the hell you know rather than the unknown. Not saying your job’s hell, just an expression with some truth

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