After gaining a little weight -- and then getting back on track! -- I lost a little bit more (0.5) and weighed 151.0 this morning. Yay!
Life seems to be getting busier by the day. Not only is school (mine) kicking into high gear but the Wedding Hostess ministry that I help coordinate at my church is starting its new round of volunteers. 9 of them have email and 6 of them do not.
So I emailed the 9 with training dates and nobody has responded yet. I'm kind of wondering what's going on. I'll need to start making phone calls soon, for those who do not respond and for those who did not list an email.
But just about every Saturday in October, I'm busy with a wedding. It would be nice if I could fit into my Wedding Hostess dress by October.
Progress as of today: 17 lbs lost so far, only 16 lbs to go!
Yep, I gained a pound, but I am not at all discouraged. In fact, I am almost glad that I gave myself a week to slack off a bit and indulge my hormones --- and stress eating tendancies too, I'm afraid :-( THAT I'm not too happy about but oh well.
My downfall this week was clearly the overindulgence of cheese baked crackers. Definitely comfort food, but not binge eating by any means. Just overdid it.
Plus it is TOM soon, so I can really feel the bloat. It may be more psychological than anything -- can you feel 2 lbs? -- but I am ready to make better choices for myself this week.
Progress as of today: 15 lbs lost so far, only 18 lbs to go!
Anticipating a TERRIBLE weigh-in this week. TOM must be coming soon because I have been really irritated by my husband's lack of anything other than sitting in front of his computer. And then today, I am feeling despair and sadness. So this sounds cyclical, and i know that if I can just hang in there, it will pass...
Unfortunately, I have been indulging in crackers quite a bit this week. That plus any water weight from the salt and carbs or water weight from PMS/TOM -- none of this bodes well.
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!
Up half a pound, but I attribute that to PMS and humidity. Keeping a clear perspective on things, a half a pound is really not a change and just a fact of maintenance.
I am not maintaining at the moment -- still trying to lose the weight I gained over the winter -- but I'm taking a maintenance approach to weight loss this time. If it's something I can't really do for the rest of my life, I won't use it to lose weight, because I am tired of gaining 20-30lb every time life deals me something bad, because bad things are going to happen; it's part of life.
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!
I thought this deserved its own post:
I am at the halfway mark to goal!!!
Actually, I'm a little past it, by 1/4 a pound, but in essence it's halfway...
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!
I'll look out for the 80% bar you mentioned--hope you're having a good week!
As promised, I am entering in my weigh-in. Having an upset stomach from anxiety really helps with weight loss. Too bad it feels so awful.
The lesson to be learned is that it really is about what goes into your mouth. With only 254 cardio minutes this week, I think this proves my point. (Took a day off from walking one day.)
I decided yesterday to start taking an acid blocker for my stomach problems. It says to take before eating, though, so I waited until this morning to start. The box says may take 1-4 days but some people feel relief within 24 hours. I predict that I will feel better tomorrow.
I was feeling better last night, actually. Psychologically, I'm sure -- once I knew the problem would be taken care of, I relaxed enough. But this morning it's all started again. I don't know if it's because I know most of the day will be spent reading and studying for my classes or if it's because the kids are starting their first days of school and that I'm nervous FOR/WITH them, or what.
Normally, I would think about taking an anti-anxiety medicine, but mostly, these are tranquilizers and even with the slightest dosage, I get sleepy. (I used to take anti anxiety meds and anti depressants when I was in my 20s. Neither helped with my problems, which is why I don't take them today.)
So for now, I will see if the anti-acids help. Have a wonderful day everyone!
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!
I am sorry I have not been on here this recently. School has started for me this week and it has been extremely stressful.
On the plus side (if you can call it that), all that stress has made me sick to my stomach. My stomach produces too much acid when I get really anxious, and all that acid makes me feel very nauseous. So I have not been stress eating, at least.
In addition to all of this stress, my children are starting school tomorrow (Wednesday). This is always stressful, especially for my son, I think, but maybe for my daughter too. I think this year may be the hardest yet for my daughter. I have heard that the 5th grade (10 yr old) is BIG on the **drama** for girls. Her class seems to be ripe for the picking for dramatic candidates.
Tomorrow is weigh-in day, so I promise to log in with that, at least. That's the good thing about having a dedicated weigh-in day --- keeps me honest!
Anyway, I have been trying to drop in and read people's diaries but I don't always have time to log in and reply. Having been a SAHM for many years and not out and about with a lot of people, it's been really really REALLY hard to get back into a thinking mode, a social mode, a deadline mode -- everything.
I hope to buy some anti-acids tonight.
Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!
Not much to say, just putting in my weigh-in for this week. And still taking it one day at a time.
School starts next week for myself and the kids (I start before they do, LOL), so the remainder of this week will probably be focused around getting everyone set up.
Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!
I want to thank those who read my last diary entry -- and especially those who responded. Thank you hollybelle for the serenity prayer.
What I should have done is cut and pasted Horn of Plenty's diary entry right here, because that is exactly how I feel, except that I know that I have real constraints that hold me back. So in some respects -- well, many actually -- the comparison is unfair.
I guess the point that was missed is that from time to time, I simply CANNOT ACCEPT unchangeable things in my life. I can't. It's beyond me. I'm not capable of it. This non-acceptance is always there. Even when it seems as though I'm making progress or being a "happy person" --- no, this is always there. It doesn't go away.
So, dear people, I ask you, humbly, to forgive me when these feelings errupt, as they do often. It's very hard being in the same body with someone you detest.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!
I think we BOTH do a great job looking at the misfortunes, the bad parts of our lives. We both need to open our eyes and focus on what's good. For me, getting a job would solve almost ALL of my problems. This is the one area that could fix MOST everything for the most part right now.
My whole feelings of worthlessness are from a lack of job. Of course, I need to work on other things, but if i had a job I could soon move out and become the independent person i want to be. funny how this one thing could change my life.
we do have different lives, but it's understandable that we could both be feeling the same way.
I think about death and dying OFTEN. I don't give too much thought to "how i would kill myself" because I really am TOO afraid right now. Also, I wouldn't want people going through all my belongings...sounds kinda dumb but that's just how i feel. I wouldn't want this computer even looked through.
I wouldn't even want a funeral aside from my immediate family. there's something wrong with all of this, i know.
hopefully i can get a job and move on out of this mess.
I'm here today because I'm very upset and there's no one I can talk to about my feelings.
I don't want to get into specifics but just sometimes, it's very hard to live with oneself and the unchangeable circumstances. Some things cannot be changed. Yet I cannot live with this. Nor can I accept it.
Thank you for listening.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6
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Hello thereeee! Missed you! Don't forget to post a photo in October, you in your Wedding Hostess dress! I'm absolutely sure you make it!
liza36 on 09/15/2010:
Yay for that 0.5 pound gone! I know you can make it in the dress by October. Keep it up!
moogy on 09/15/2010:
Well done on the loss. It all counts - good for you! How much do you need to lose to fit into the dress?
V on 09/15/2010:
yes i cannot wait to see you in that dress and you will be able to fit into it :)
moogy on 09/20/2010:
I am just dropping by to let you know that I was thinking about you and hoping that you are doing OK.