In spite of being caught up at work yesterday, I still stayed until almost 6:30p.
Sure enough, at 2:16p, started getting that craving. I came prepared today. I had 7 almonds and most of a large apple. In my container of almonds, I brought 33 chocolate chips, at the suggestion of Bear, which is 77 calories, according to the package. But the apple and almonds worked. Then I had raw vegetables and a cheese stick at around 4p. So I consider this a success!
Certain truths became evident to me today, though. I am stuck at this right because of what I eat, i.e I eat too much! Also, if I hadn't made time to change my habits, I could easily weigh 200 lbs., which is where I almost was when I started this journey, this time around.
Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
Yesterday was such a disaster of a day at work, that I vowed to do better by me today. I set my alarms much earlier for a start. I usually have 2 alarms: one that goes off at 5:30a and then one that goes off at 5:45a. Then I spend over 20 minutes trying to convince myself that it's worth getting out of bed. In the process of this conversation with myself, I stretch my back out to release some of the tension I get overnight.
Today, I set my alarms for 5:15a and 5:30a and 5:45a. So I turned off my 2nd alarm, stretched out my back, and got up before the 5:45a alarm went off. I was dressed and downstairs to work out by 5:55a. Excellent. Finished working out at around 7:10a and got ready for work. Left the house at 7:45a and made it to work a whole hour early at 8:02a.
Worked my butt off all day until 6:14p. Came home, had dinner, and now I'm going to get ready for bed. I'm going to have to put weight-training aside for a little bit -- didn't do legs yesterday, didn't do upper body today... IDK I might try to do legs tonight, but I'm really tired from the extra long day.
Anyway - I AM CAUGHT UP A WORK.... at least for today.
I came to realize the following today:
At around the 2 o'clock hour, I start getting these really strong cravings for fatty carbs, usually sweet (chocolate) but sometimes salty (chips). Even though I finished lunch less than an hour ago. My lunch today was substantial - around 560 calories - with plenty of protein, fiber, and plant-based carbs (beans). I thought I was going to go out of my mind with this craving. I had 3 choices today: sweet potato, grapefruit, or raw vegetables. I settled for raw vegetables with ranch dressing (for the fat). That carried me through 3:30p and then I felt OK. Not really satisfied, but really full.
What can I do about this? Yesterday, I had microwave popcorn (light). That was the last packet, and I'm not buying more. I've found, in the past, that if I start with the chocolates, it's REALLY hard to stop at just 1 -- it usually carries over to about 4. Then I feel like crap for the rest of the afternoon. I have hot chocolate that I could make, but that's not eating, that's drinking, and that doesn't work. Sugar free candy doesn't work. I'm drinking plenty of water throughout the day, and I suppose I could chug down some more but that's not really satisfying.
I'm sure this is stress related, because at around 2pm is when I start to realize that I've got to address any deadlines that haven't already been met during the day. (I can't really tackle these sooner, unless they come to fruition on their own, because I have until the end of the business day to send out notices.) Chewing gum sometimes helps but not always...
Maybe it's just something that I have to put up with and push through, just by the nature of what it is. I don't know. Half the battle is being able to identify our weaknesses, and so I'm halfway there. Just wish I had a solution to help me get through it.
Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
I can see that after today, I'm going to have to come up with an approach for this real estate season, to help me maintain a healthy work-life balance. Today I knew as soon as I woke up that I couldn't wait for the day to be over. And sure enough, I struggled all day long, trying to keep up with emails and keeping the files straight. I didn't feel confident enough to leave until 6:15p. At least I do get paid overtime, so there's no great loss without some gain. And the extra money will be very helpful coming into the home stretch this month. (finger's crossed - hoping for an improved financial situation come June)
I cannot do the low carb thing that my husband is doing (as a result of being busted with eating pizza for lunch). At around 2pm my sugar levels drop and my stress levels rise, and I can't function. I think if I were doing something else in the aftenoon, I would be able to pull through. Today, I had a 100-calorie bag of popcorn -- promptly burnt most of it in the microwave but that didn't stop me from enjoying it. BUT I think for the remainder of the week, I will use sweet potatoes (halves), and see if that does the trick. I think the problem was that I didn't have any meat, and the plant-based protein I had wasn't enough to sustain me. Meat tends to just sit in my stomach like a rock.
So today was a not a good day, living wise, but overall, life is pretty good. But I *do* definitely have to put limitations on my time at work. It might have to be working until 6pm..... I hate that. And I don't want to come in really early because that's when I exercise.
Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
Not feeling particularly energetic or spectacular today, but I still had an AWESOME cardio performance this morning, weight training session, and accomplishments in yard work! Sunny and warmer weather -- not actually warm, but warmer at upper 50's -- really does me well.
I already did my upper body weights today, and I used my heavier weights. I'm going to try to use the heavier weights this week, for upper body. I only use my own body weight with my lower body -- not so much so that I don't bulk up - but rather because of my hips, knees, and back. I took a "before" picture of my tree trunk legs. I want to see where I'm at by the time the wedding comes on May 20th. I remembered yesterday how I was going to use the wedding as a "goal" event, but that disappeared after the bridal shower, as I came away feeling sad, rather than empowered and motivated like I thought I would. That I remembered that I could still use the wedding as a "goal" kind of cheered me up yesterday, actually.
Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
if not - remember this: weights will NOT cause women to bulk up. So if you able, weights can be used at times. However, there's many exercises that you don't even need them for...so you are probably more than ok with whatever you are doing.
I dislike some things my legs a little too...they have no muscle. but, due to my persistence in doing lots of exercises that i don't even enjoy, certain things are getting better :)
Donkey, it's up to you to want to make yourself happy. It's not easy. I face a lot of the same issues with social events. But remember this, you ARE in charge of your own happiness. I totally think you should make the wedding a goal :)
And then, besides that, remember that it's one point in your life...and not the end all be all....but do your best and if you do your best, you can be happy about it.
I also have the wedding in August, and i have a goal to look good there, too.
Right now, i'm not going on any special diet and may not even closer in August...my goals this year are to get my cardio back to par and i'm thinking i may lose a few pounds doing that....
anyways, we both know fad diets aren't the best...so i wouldn't recommend you go crazy just to have weight come back on afterwards? so, instead, i recommend you keep on doing your thing...and yes keep the wedding as your goal of the "why" you do what you do know. I agree with Gains...goal dates help immensely.
and after the wedding, you have to pick a new reason "why."
actually, with most of my exercise, i've always had a reason "why."
Did the right things, gained another pound...
EVENING EDIT: It was a productive day: legal clinic in the morning, yard work in the afternoon, laundry. I *really* wanted to see the high school musical tonight -- it is the last one that will have any friends of my daughter's since they all graduate next month. However, I missed the matinee this afternoon because of the yard work. And I just felt too rushed and conflicted to go this evening, for the last performance. "Once Upon A Mattress". I don't know the script, other than it's based on the fairy tale, but I just love the gal who has the lead.
Alas, I had to really dig deep and evaluate my priorities. Truth be told, after the busy and stress-filled week I've had at work and with family, I just need some calm, down time tonight. So instead of going to the musical, I took a walk with my daughter, and we're all just chilling out here tonight, doing our own thing.
I hope to go to sleep early tonight, 9:30p tops.
Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
I'm thinking it might be water retention from the consistent weight training I've been doing. Like you, I changed up my routine a bit, and also took all the movements much slower, to feel the muscles get to the point of fatigue. Thought I'd wake up really sore, but not really.
Still, I remain hopeful to start seeing some progress on the arms and tree trunk legs.
Warmer weather will bring a change in routine. I'm kind of excited to see where this summer will take me :-)
Thank you for the very helpful feedback to my previous entry. My time is short here this morning, but I wanted to thank you. I hope to write more tonight regarding my insights on my son's decision, not so much what he will be doing, but rather, my reactions & pro-actions so that he is encouraged and motivated to keep moving forward. I realize I can't make his choices for him, but I do recognize that how I act & re-act could influence him significantly. Encouragement and kindness go a long way, sort of thing.
EVENING EDIT: Whatever positive feelings I was having this morning have totally vanished after 9 grueling hours at work. I think I was going to comment that if my son decides to try to re-enlist in 6 months, and USE the 6 months at home to train, that this would be motivation for me to work harder too. I can get a pretty decent gym membership at the park district, but it's not really convenient for me to get to. I can buy a punch-card for personal training sessions, which might be a worth investment of money for myself.
The biggest blow today came from a family arguement about my husband's eating. You might be thinking, "I thought Donkey said she was at work for 9 hours today." YES, you are RIGHT -- but that didn't start a HUGE flare of texts between myself, my husband, and my daughter, who caught my husband eating a pizza. He lost (some) weight to qualify for the hip surgery, still has at least 25 pounds to go to where he can be just out of the "obese" category. So he has supposively been trying, but I haven't seen much progress on the scale, quite frankly, since his surgery in November.
It's not so much the "cheating" with the pizza, as it is that we just had a discussion about how he needs to lose weight as there are certain physical things that are harder to do when one is so fat in front. I have lost all of the weight that I can, which is nearly 55 pounds, and I have a bad back. So I feel like I've done my part, now he needs to his part, and he's not.
The other thing that REALLY irks me is that he wanted a "date night" and I suggested pizza, and he said he wasn't really in the mood for pizza, doesn't really think about pizza much any more, blah blah blah. And then this.
So yeah, he chose a pizza over me. That's pretty much how I see it.
My daughter went out with friends tonight - thankfully - so it was just he and I for dinner, and believe me, I did not feel much like eating, much less with him, but I did, because I was a little hungry. I had a big salad w/croutons & dressing and a sweet potato w/butter. I didn't want anything to do with the steak that he had prepared. WOW I hadn't realized out "beefed" out I was. It was so nice to have a meatless meal for a change.
So now I'm thinking that I'm under no obligation to eat everything that he cooks. He's a meat-eater. If the meal doesn't have meat, it's not a meal. I can just have the vegetables and open a can of beans. I think I'd like to try this more often and see where it takes me. I'm not sure how I would formulate this. Maybe eat meat dinners 3x a week? 4?
It's difficult, especially because the high-protein low-carb works so well for me, appetite wise (definitely helps decrease the binge eating), but every time I've tried to go vegetarian (not vegan - just cutting out the meat), it's backfired on me BIG TIME. And by BIG I mean, gaining weight back again. And that's NOT going to happen again...
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
It's late, for me, so this will be short.
Lunch was surreal. The original lunch with the realtor, was canceled because of the weather, but I didn't bring a lunch to work. So the attorney took the assistant and myself out to lunch. I felt like I was a third wheel on their date, lol. Had a wonderful chicken wild rice soup, half a chicken sandwich, and a small fresh fruit cup. I have other half of sandwich for lunch tomorrow.
Came back to the bad news that my son will be coming home. He was unable to pass the push up test and he is out of extensions.
So really full and bad news don't really go well together. Add in a bunch of really crazy emails, clients, agents... Well, today kind of sucked.
Didn't let that stop me from doing some additional cardio on the bike tonight and then lower body isometric. I'm determined to work on my tree trunk legs.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
...there are many civil service jobs he can continue to train for: Police, Firefighter, Garbage, Court Officer, different types of police - like highway patrol, specialized, etc..
he is first a man, not a woman like myself, so he already has a better strength advantage for these tests. If he can still live at home and train himself with running and more gym strength training, he can pass those fitness entrance exams and have a job for life...something i haven't been able to achieve now 80% due to my lack of fitness. He is young, can train...get a simple job at home just to make some cash for now, and have a good job for all the years to come - if this is what he's looking for. that's just how i view the world, of course there's many other options. also, i am truly very sorry to hear your son didn't pass. but he's young and this is not the end of his life!!!!!! he can go on and he will be ok.
Today was a MUCH better day. Unfortunately, my boss did not have a good day today. I even commented that I was sorry that it seemed as though he had "caught" the bad day I had yesterday.
So I had a very good workout this morning -- had my Fitbit on my shoe to count my bike strides. (The Charge HR that I have can't distinguish different types of workouts -- one of the downsides of the model I have, which is why I really want to upgrade, but I'm not ready to let this one go yet.) Did pretty well eating wise. Excellent on the water intake.
My one co-worker who is an older male (but not one of the attorneys) noticed my new pants: "Oh, you're wearing pants that fit! What are you, a size 0?" I know that sounds kind of catty, but this time, it didn't honk me off, because I think he really meant this as a congratulations/way-to-go thing. Two weeks ago, he saw me looking quite unhappy when I realized that the pair of old pants I was wearing would no longer work and had to be retired, which is what prompted me to buy new pants in the first place. So I didn't tell him what size I am (but I will tell you: 8 petite), but told him no, it's an actual number that's even.
Funny thing, two days of wearing pants that fit and Queen Bee hasn't said a WORD. I'm not sure if she hasn't noticed or if she has noticed and just opted not to say anything -- which is FINE by me. The skeptic in me thinks she has opted not to say anything, because she usually notices EVERYTHING.
Tomorrow, I am going out to lunch with one of the attorneys and another assistant, to meet up with a real estate agent who just had a major heart attack. This is for marketing purposes. So I got the name of the restaurant and just looked up the menu online -- it's a sports bar - ugh! - which means bar food. Great. Well, maybe I'll get a salad...
I'm going to do some weight training and then get ready for bed. No staying up late tonight for me - everything seems to go better when I get more sleep.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
You know, if you are evil like me.
you don't need to apologize for your boss getting sick...it may have been from you or it may not have! :)
stay strong, J donk!
Great job on your exercise and good luck at the lunch today!
Not a good start... My back was stiff, so getting up took too long. Didn't want to face the snow but there it is. Not much, just enough to make things messy. Started riding my exercise bike and almost 10 minutes in, realized I didn't move my Fitbit from my wrist to my shoe (to register steps), so I lost about 10 minutes worth of steps for my daily count. Then, had to interrupt my workout to use the bathroom, and didn't make it back on my bike soon enough so I lost all my stats, and had to start over. Can I just go back to bed and hide?
EVENING EDIT: Oh my word, you would not believe the crap that was waiting for me at work this morning, after I wrote what I did. Here's a sample:
The best thing about today is that I got through it. I'm charging my Fitbit now, and then I will go upstairs to get ready for bed and watch TV with my husband. I'm supposed to do upper body weights but I think a day of rest will do me better mentally and physically.
Besides, I think I've proven to myself enough already today that I am strong enough to survive a day like today.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
The point is to do the exercise - this you did...the recording and everything else is secondary. We all make mistakes and learn from them! Twice, i have walked into a turnstyle (once at work - bc we have to swipe into the building! and once at the train to swipe and walk thru a turnstyle to the subway train)...i just walked into it and that hurt and i realized - "duh! swipe your card dummy!"...so...we all make a mistake and that's how we learn! so your experience this morning has taught you some things you def will change for the next time...next time you go to the bathroom you can even write down your numbers that you were up to - if you need to get off the bike midway! :) there's ways around it - so the same thing doesn't happen again!
A much better end to your day...remember - work is one of the games of life...and you are good at it.
And actually, it was a better day than that because my day shouldn't be defined by a number. :-)
The weather here in Illinois has done nothing for encouragement. Woke up to icy rain. The trees in the backyard were covered with ice and we lost a major branch that will need trimming down and chopping up. Guess who will do that, since Mr. Donkey can't do things like that any more... Then it started to snow. So we have ice covered with snow, covering everything. My neighbor down the block commented to me that the wind last night knocked down a stop sign at the corner. Totally flat to the ground. This is ridiculous.
I will write more when I'm in a better place, mentally. This weather just has me beat.
Took a half-nap - rested with my eyes closed but not really asleep - and then had another workout, just to be moving. It feels good to move. Then I rested while I knitted in the afternoon when the TV reception came back (lost most of our channels due to the ice/snow).
Developed an upset stomach right before dinner, but that didn't stop me from having my last piece of birthday cake and some ice cream. I've got my water bottle to finish, some mint tea to drink (for my tummy), and then some seltzer water -- all to drink before I go to bed.
PLUS I forgot that I still have my leg exercises to do. I'm determined to get my legs toned up after I had daughter take front and back pictures this weekend to prove to myself that I really do have tree trunk legs. I do.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
sorry about your weather, our weather is also chilly but not snowy just rainy...it will warm up...i've been moving more also - even though it sorta tires me out to move, it's been better and i feel better by the end of the weekend.
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Portion control has always been my demise. I don't want 1 slice of pizza, I want half the pizza. I don't want 7 almonds, I want the entire package. I don't want 33 chocolate chips, I want an entire king size chocolate bar. I don't want a cookie, I want to eat the entire package.
I've gotten better at portion control over the past year, but there are still some foods that I pretty much have to avoid because I know that I have no self control (cookies mainly).
Good job on coming prepared with a plan of attack for your snack cravings.
bearcountrygg on 04/26/2018:
Yup...me too.....putting large portions on a plate because I would PLAN to eat them...and in actuality....wasn't hungry enough to eat them...but I WANTED them...we can alter that thinking...we can change old habits.....writing these things out here really helps me see patterns.
horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2018:
i came to the realization that i was eating TOO OFTEN at work in the mornings and that i need to cut it down to less times in the morning..
like you, if i didn't learn how to be full on less calories, healthy alternatives, i'd be overweight also.
that being said, lately i find that adding more fat into my diet has helped to lessen cravings !!!
Maria7 on 04/26/2018:
You and me, both! We may not weigh what we would preferr to weigh but we don't weigh as much as we once did! Smile!
horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2018:
you should be soooo darn proud of yourself so far, to keep your weight at this lower level...we all get complacent (especially in winter as exercise levels decrease which can lead to a little weight gain) and it DOES TAKE EFFORT and an effort to remember how hard we once worked to lose that weight at first. i'm glad i did it...and now i'm back to feeling better like i can keep on! and get stronger again!