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Donkey - Friday Dec 13, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 83:  feeling paralyzed by stress and sadness. 

I did not go to yoga last night.  I was debating up to the end of what was a sad, stressful day, only to receive the final bad news blow when we learned that our son has been set back again in his training.  As this is his third setback, they may decide that he is not fit for this job and reassign him to another job. That would mean he would have to stay all over again with job training.  So disappointing for him. 

I've missed a few yoga opportunities recently.  Missed Library Yin Yoga,  missed Library Chair Yoga, missed Difficult Yoga...  

My eating yesterday was not good.  Succumbed to some chocolates and a couple of cookies at work.  They are gone now.  Not dwelling on this,  but just being accountable.  

Can I just put this out there,  that I'm feeling incredibly frustrated that I'm spending all my time at a stupid, thankless job,  dealing with stupid,  petty drama,  when I should be home taking care of my poor kitty, my home,  my family...

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/13/2019:
I'm sorry to hear about your son, that must be very stressful for him to have to deal with - not knowing what will come next.

Do you think you are feeling extra stressed/sad because you haven't been able to vent through your yoga sessions? I find when I haven't been to the gym, I start to feel a lot more anxiety (which i'm feeling this week). We all need our vices in order to deal with life. I hope you are able to get back to a session soon.

In regards to the job, I too find the majority of my workdays to be thankless and stressful. I don't know what the answer here is - the easy one is to leave and do what makes you happy, but the action of that is often impossible to achieve. If we figure out a better solution, we'd better bottle it! Hugs.

Donkey on 12/14/2019:
You are so right that some of the stress is because I'm NOT practicing yoga. I completely agree with your comment.

I'm eager to get back to yoga, but very protective of my back. There is a Slow Flow class today that I was thinking about going to, but then I realized that it's during the 1 hour I'll get to see my daughter today, before she goes to work. Lately, I've been making this a priority.

Maria7 on 12/13/2019:
Can you perhaps take some 'time off' since it is Christmas holidays? Just a thought. You seem overwhelmed and unless you can take you job less seriously and 'detach' somewhat, you may be miserable at a time when you should be extra happy. As for our children, know you are not alone in your worries over your child's struggles...We, as their Mamas can only do so much for them and just put them in God's Hands, asking his help for them. We only want the best for them but sometimes things can be very challenging. Ever heard the old sayin'...'when you're at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on'? Smile. Hoping you feel better. Love, Maria

Donkey on 12/14/2019:
I've given myself permission to take the time off. In fact, I think the yoga classes I "forgot" were actually subconsciously intentional, because I was so overwhelmed.

I feel bad about missing classes, but then again, maybe not really.

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
If he's anything like you, this is just a bump in the road he will barely remember when he has found his groove. More frustrating for you than for him... He's got your "donkey" genes for endurance and carrying a load. He'll make it through and be successful and have a shot at all the things you want for him in life that don't fit under a Christmas tree in a neat little package.

Donkey on 12/14/2019:
So true! Also, please see my response below, which was intended for both of your comments :-)

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
Honestly, if you think back you might have tried a job or two that weren't a fit. I SUCK at sales.

Donkey on 12/14/2019:
With respect to this comment and yours above, and also part of Maria's comment, I strongly feel that my son's setback was for a good reason. I told him last night, You may have dodged a disaster, or perhaps you have something really good coming in the future, because of this change.

I don't know if that sunk in with him, but I sense this so strongly, knowing that this is the right thing.

horn_of_plenty on 12/14/2019:
I don’t think it’s a major blow for your son as long as they are keeping him and if they have to reassign him. It means he’s still going to work in the program he has wanted to - Air Force? Or was it Navy ?

But they aren’t throwing him out to not have anything for work. Remind him that before this he didn’t have anything and now it’s just trying to find his groove and stick with it for the career path that’s stable as he continues. It’s all still new and not for him to give up on at all- tell your son - I recommend going with the flow and getting what is possible for him and not to put too much emphasis on what isn’t. To try his best and know there is something for him in this career and not give up and know it’s meant to be challenging!

horn_of_plenty on 12/14/2019:
Your job may feel thankless but I am sure everyone there appreciates your work :) even the people coming to you - the clients. I’m sure you don’t get told enough. I’m sure even nice lady and associate attorney appreciate you tons <3

Donkey - Thursday Dec 12, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 82:  

I don't even know where to start.   Stress Relief yoga was awful!  I was not in the right frame of mind to do a restorative yoga session,  and frankly,  I think the teacher was not all that inspired either.

In the middle of it,  I started having back spasms.  I came home,  took 2 Aleve, and went to bed.  Yesterday,  not many spasms,  but my lower back ached.  This morning,  still dealing with difficulties,  with a couple of small twitches and a tight left hamstring. 

So debating if I should go to difficult yoga tonight.  I know that if I don't go,  there probably won't be any class,  because I'm the only one that shows up.  Plus,  if they are changing the schedule or format in January,  there are only 2 more classes of THIS class. 

Still struggling with eating.  I need all these codes at work to GO!  NOW!

Big work drama between Associate Attorney and Queen Bee,  even though Queen Bee isn't in the office!  I thought AA was in the wrong,  but my husband said,  Why are you taking Queen's side in this??? So then I hated them both even more. 

And the Boss doesn't want to work any more...Good grief! 

Forget all of this.  Forget calories,  Fitbit steps, work drama,  yoga drama,  forget all of this. 

I need to sit and be still,  and just be. 

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/12/2019:
Forget and just be....my sentiments exactly.....whatever happened to just living? My next step is going back to living one day at a time and finding joy in that. Back to when I could breathe! ENJOY!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2019:
That is a lot of work drama, better just do your work as best you can and leave the rest for all their Mamas! for real.

i hope you feel better soon. With time, you will.

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 10, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 80:  Intention:  whatever happens, I know I have it in me to land on my feet and start walking forward again. 

Yesterday,  I decided to go low carb.  Had oatmeal for breakfast,  had a Subway sandwich for lunch.   Dinner was pretty much keto, though.  I thought I was doing more plant based choices,  but looking back,  I can see that this is not so. 

Frustrated but not worried.  I'll figure this out. 

One of my first thoughts this morning was the realization that it's not Friday yet.  Then I realized I have Stress Reduction yoga class tonight.  Oh that inertia that Happy was taking about.  How much easier it would be to stay home tonight.  

But I will go, even if I have to give myself a little mental push.  Tonight's class will be very slow and restorative.  Very relaxing.  Probably just what I need. 

 Today I feel a little more lifted.   It will be a good day. 

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/10/2019:
Please let us know how your yoga practice was!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/10/2019:
now i get you regarding the FLOW ....oh....yes, best not to attend practice if you are uncomfortable like that.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/10/2019:
now i get you regarding the FLOW ....oh....yes, best not to attend practice if you are uncomfortable like that.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/10/2019:
if that happened to me, i'd prob try to practice at home, regarding yesterday's comment back!!

Donkey - Monday Dec 09, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

Day 79:

The best part about today was that the bathrooms at work are working again, and we have running water.  I had not realized how much this was stressing me out until I was preparing my lunch, because I had to prepare extra water bottles in case there was no water to drink.

But even with this good news, the day was a struggle.  I'm not sure if it's Christmas that's got me down, or being out of focus with eating, or tired, or what, but today was just a down day.  I'm just not feeling the Christmas spirit.  My clothes felt too tight.  I was feeling uncomfortable all day, and not just clothes, but in my body and in my thoughts and in my mood.

I think a big part of it is realizing that we may have to make a decision to put down Baby Kitty.  She continues to improve every day, but the fungal infection hit her nervous system hard, and her eyes, I think, may not recover at all. We finished a complete week of medicine; the vet said to give it 1-2 more weeks, but even she said that we might have to face the possibility of a "quality of life" decision eventually.

Oh my... 

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/10/2019:
So happy to hear that the water is back on.......And kitty...I'm sad for her and you...but i agree with the vets suggestion to wait a while longer. Is she getting around better now? Our last cat whom had a very long life spent her last 4 years blind and she did very well...although I believe that her blindness was caused by high blood pressure.

Donkey on 12/10/2019:
Kitty still has no movement in her legs and tail, and so she is not able to use her litterbox. Her good eye is starting to turn cloudy. But her infected eye is starting to open up. The vet said that the nerve recovery, if any, will take the longest.

I guess we'll take it one day at a time. Perhaps it would help me more not to look too far ahead.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/10/2019:
i don't think the yoga retreat would have been unrealistic, but you are still new at it so now you have a chance to practice more before the next one. they are for all abilities, i am thinking. i'd say it's ok to be the newest one, someone has to be!

I'm really sorry about your kitty. you have tried to help her as much as you could.

Donkey on 12/10/2019:
The yoga retreat would have been unrealistic edith such a heavy flow. You have no idea. I was saturating "super plus" products in a half an hour. Some yoga poses put additional pressure on the abdomen to cause more... My doctor is aware of this.

You are right about Kitty: we have done everything we can for her. The rest is out of our control, so best not to dwell that which I cannot control.

innerpeace on 12/10/2019:
So many feels going on here. So sad for your kitty.

I hope the spirit of Christmas catches up with you soon.

Donkey - Sunday Dec 08, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 78:  today I am aware of my blessings. 

The breakfast was a good time,  but husband was struggling with bathroom issues and we had to leave sooner than we might have otherwise.   I had eggs,  sausage,  and fruit.   Next year,  I'm bringing more fruit and asking if we may donate the usage of our big coffee maker. 

Did well with eating all day until after dinner.  Then I had frozen fruit,  walnuts,  peanut butter,  and finally some  shredded cheese.  Not a binge,  just snacky munchie...

Did yoga at home with the phone app late yesterday afternoon.   I have trouble figuring out some of the poses if I'm not facing my phone. But I finished the 30 minute session.  Keep on practicing,  keep on trying,  keep on learning...

This month's TOM is really hard.  Yesterday was difficult,  and I'm not so sure I should go to yoga this morning...  I could do another session at home,  but I'd much rather go to the studio to practice...  We'll see where I'm at after this morning's bike ride. 

The studio is having a yoga retreat this afternoon,  but I cannot attend it because husband and I are going to me an old movie at the theater (Meet Me in St.Louis  - a special anniversary showing).  Long story short,  I made a big deal about this to husband,  so he bought tickets,  which made the decision about attending the yoga retreat moot.  Oh well, the movie is the cheaper option.   And with a heavy TOM, the retreat may not have been the best option,  but I can never tell with this thing. 

So frustrating to be at the mercy of one's uterus.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2019:
i have heard of yoga sstudios doing special classes like the retreat you mention. hopefully, there will be another chance for you to go! i think it's relatively typical of a good yoga studio to offer this once in awhile having special teachers come and teach and share.

enjoy the movie!

lately, i'm snacky too...i think it's TOM also as i had that this week and now it's just about DONE! woohoo.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
At the end of the day on Sunday, I realized how unrealistic a yoga retreat would have been for me. There will be other retreats. AND another reason I'm glad I missed this one is the instructor canceled all of her classes because she's sick. So either she was sick at the retreat, or someone at the retreat got her sick.

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
Well...you are at the stage in life where TOM was so difficult for me too. Hot flashes started yet....That is truly about 10 years of craziness too......Even with a hysterectomy at 48 the hot flashes were there with a vengeance....but... to think I laughed when D asked my Dad how long they lasted and my Dad said 10 years...thinking he was kidding...he wasn't...LOL...oh well...once you are through that it is smooth sailing......oh yeah...that's when you start having to pluck chin hairs....

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
No hot flashes yet, thank goodness. From what I've seen and heard, those can be so interfering and quite uncomfortable.

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
About no bathrooms at work...for the whole building..how can they expect anyone to work under those conditions....that may not even be legal.....They may be able to circumvent that issue by bring a porta potty to the site....but I don't know how they can expect anyone to work like that.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
It's probably an OSHA violation. Had we had to work under those conditions for a prolonged period of time, I would have had issues - meaning: gone home!

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
The Diva Cup will change your life. You can even go swimming in the ocean with sharks during your TOM.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
I don't do well with inserting things. Could never manage a diaphram. Is it like that?

Funny about the sharks though ;-)

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
The more you move, the more you will eat. Raw veggies, ranch seasoning with greek yogurt.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
I thought I was doing well with the frozen fruit. All of that sugar - albeit natural - was a slippery slope.

Donkey - Saturday Dec 07, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

Day 78:  Intention: ___; Mantra:  Just go with it.

 Today is the Veterans' Christmas Brunch, so this will be short.  Frankly, I'm getting tired of eating. 

Work was extremely stressful yesterday.  First, I walk into a couple of emails from a realtor that we've done a bit of business with, and we've helped her with her Will and estate planning.  Anyway, I emailed her something Thursday before leaving, which was misinterpreted, and her feelings got really hurt, which made me feel just awful.  Not really from even a business perspective, but just personally, I felt really bad.  I explained to her what I really meant - that I was really frustrated with a lender for not keeping her and I in the loop, but sharing information with the opposite lawyer & agent all the time.  She took my comment to mean that I wasn't appreciative of all of her efforts in trying to get the lender to tell us what's going on.  

This lender was so bad - they wouldn't even respond to their own client!  But heck yeah, let's let the other attorney and other agent know what's going on.  Sheesh!

So I explained and apologized profusely.  She admitted that emotions are running a little high on this deal and she would chalk it up to a misunderstanding.  Ugh - try explaining all of this to my boss...  He was actually quite understanding, but geez just more stress for him and for me.  We just have to get this deal done, if for no one else, for our poor client.  I think our agent is probably desperate for her commission check, too.  So for them, I really want to work hard on trying to get this done.

On top of this, our plumbing at work has backed up, so we could not use the toilets and no running water after 3pm.  Unfortunately, I had eaten a cranberry-carrot salad earlier in the morning, and I think the carrots were a little too old or something, because the words "explosive diarrhea" don't even begin to explain it.

My gluteus muscles are so sore today, from Thursday and Friday's yoga sessions.  

Also, dealing with a lot of cat drama here, too, which is added stress.  New Kitty and Old Kitty want to kill each other, it seems.  I've started calling the New Kitty "Darth Jack" because the dark force is strong with this one, let me tell you.  Sick (Baby) Kitty is improving, but still has no use of her hind legs.  Laundry continues to be an issue.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/07/2019:
You meant well...unfortunately the way other people take things is not the way we meant them and emails and messages are often misunderstood.....just let it go...you two have talked it out and that's all you can do. Well...bathroom situations are the worst....been there done that....are there other bathrooms in the building??? Hope for your sake there were....and the kitties...sad to hear that their health and behaviors aren't working out too well.....like living in a war zone I'm sure. Does the sick one scoot around? Does she just lay all day?

Donkey on 12/08/2019:
Alright - I will let the misunderstanding go... after all, there's nothing more I can do to change what happened. I can only endeavor to do better.

There are NO other useable bathrooms in the building. It's a system-wide problem with the discharge pipe that runs from the building to the city sewer line.

This is going to be a problem on Monday, for me, because TOM is here. I NEED to have regular access to a bathroom.

Yep, Sick Kitty scoots around on her butt. I can see her gluteal muscles working hard. Legs and tail are not mobile, just limp. One leg seems to be better than the other.

I'm trying to remain hopeful...

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
They have to have bathroom facilities. "OSHA requires employers to provide all workers with sanitary and immediately-available toilet facilities (restrooms)."


happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
Also, borax in the laundry for smell and sanitation with the cat pee.

Donkey - Friday Dec 06, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 77 (???) - I looked at my scheduling book at work,  and I think somewhere there,  I missed tracking 10 days... this number seems right. 

Thank you for your comments on my entry yesterday.  I didn't reply to comments as fully as I wanted to because I'd like to include my thoughts and gratitude here. 

Helpful lessons:

Change can be uncomfortable,  even if it's something I want to happen.  Rather than resist in fear of the process,  being open to the opportunity can make the change a positive experience. 

Remain calm,  because a year from now,  the only thing that will matter if there was a change or not.  So go for it. 

I'm really glad I went to support Associate Attorney.   The lunch was not buffet,  but I stayed away from the potatoes and ice cream and bread.  Had double salad, green beans,  beef and chicken. 

It was a good time. 

Vinyasa yoga ("hard yoga" as I describe it to my husband) was very good! I wish I wasn't the only student there. It would be helpful - and more fun - to have a classmate or two.   The instructor is great. 

The studio is thinking of changing up their class offerings and times.  They are thinking about blending this class with a slower yoga.  I would be open to that.

Tonight is Veterans Chair Yoga with the husband . Then a date night dinner.  

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/06/2019:
so the book i'm reading, MENTIONS YOGA as a mind-opening, sometimes uncomfortable and new opportunity too! and it's NOT a yoga book at all! def mentally connected, me and you, right now!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/06/2019:
Lunch sounds wonderful, thankful for a double salad i am quite sure you are. i do not eat enough salad (only when i was with my parents) as most of my food is actually veggies that are cooked. ...can't wait to see what i'll bring to lunch for next week....

enjoy the chair yoga...i never got my chance....maybe i'll do it at home, when i have a chance...

BearCountryGG on 12/06/2019:
Tonight sounds like fun...have a nice evening.

happy-1 on 12/06/2019:
I love that you guys are doing yoga together then going out to dinner together. That sounds like an ideal date night.

happy-1 on 12/06/2019:
And kudos on the positive meal choices!

Donkey - Thursday Dec 05, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 66:  I think I miscounted.  We are already into December so there are less than 33 days left for the "100 days" challenge...  none of this went the way I had intended anyway. 

I was driving to work the other day,  feeling like my life is a mess:  not keeping track of finances,  off track on diet,  off track on yoga,  just feeling a mess. 

I stopped myself and thought,  maybe this is exactly where I'm supposed to be, maybe this is how I'm supposed to be doing things for me at this time.  Maybe things aren't a total reason wreck.  I'm not sure what that's all about,  but it helped me feel better. 

Stress yoga was ok.  Got confused at one point about left- right,  so the teacher had to help me out.  Also,  could not maintain balance on a one-legged position.  It was hard to let go and relax at the closing meditation (savasana).

Tonight is Vinyasa yoga,  and I'm quite divided about going.  Why am I afraid?

Sick Kitty is taking her medicine,  and eating and drinking more.  This is good except that now she's peeing all over her bedding,  because she is still too weak to get off the bed and use her box.  So that's not good.  We clean her and her bedding,  to keep her dignity intact,  but it's stressful. 

Today,  Mistakes Girl and I are going to a  2.5 hour luncheon to watch Associate Attorney's  inauguration as Treasurer for a local realtor group.  He initially joined this group (even though he's not an attorney) for networking purposes.  Becoming treasurer is the last thing he needs on his plate right now, but that's his drama,  not mine.   Hard to watch a train leaving the station knowing what wreck lies ahead.   Nice Lady will end up doing all of his work on this. 

I hope I can make good choices.  I'm hoping it's a buffet so that I can load up on vegetables, lol...


And I hope I can make up my mind about scary yoga tonight...

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/05/2019:
It's such a busy time of year....and life in general is in such a turmoil....it affects us...all of us.....and probably the best thing we can do is try to just keep calm...and think about how really so few things in life will matter a year from now...deal with things as they come up...and deal with ourselves in a way we would deal with a dear friend. Try to treat yourself kindly and be you...you deserve to treat yourself kindly. I'm so happy that kitty was able to get her meds....and glad that she is eating and drinking....sounds positive for her.

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
Very wise and helpful insights - thank you!!

Maria7 on 12/05/2019:
I agree with BC...Just keep calm...If we can do that and don't be hard on ourselves, we have won half the battle. That is nice that you and Mistakes Girl are showing your support to your fellow colleague, regardless. Everybody needs to know they have friends...we all do...that is one reason why I LOVE DD...You all are my friends here and you are each one very dear to me. Have a good day, chill out, and RELAX. Love, Maria

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
I'm very glad that I went to support the attorney. Had I not, I think I would have regretted it.

legcramps on 12/05/2019:
glad to hear kitty is feeling better, even though she is still weak; hopefully soon she will be back on track

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
Thank you... I hope so too. She's trying, I know she is. And I keep telling her to hang in the and fight this.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/05/2019:
I'm reading a book....we are driven of course as you know towards what we are used to, towards habit.

HOWEVER, if we want change or if we want anything else, we must get UNCOMFORTABLE. you want some change, you want new things in your life...that is the uncomfortable part.

the more you can get uncomfortable, the more chances you'll have also at change and for good things to come out of what you are learning.

not everything may be good right now, but you are learning from all of your experiences. so, although sometimes everything feels wrong and you get upset over it, there's things to learn and grow from these points of feeling uncomfortable and it's during this time that you learn...even yoga too!

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
I'm telling you, we're psychically connected. I'm reading a book about what happens mentally during yoga. He writes that saying yes welcomes opportunity and opens doors. I kept this and what you wrote about your book in mind as I worked myself up to going to class.

It worked!

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
"I was driving to work the other day, feeling like my life is a mess: not keeping track of finances, off track on diet, off track on yoga, just feeling a mess."

I think that's the point of meditation and prayer rituals... Like going to sit in your meditation spot... Putting on an essential oil... Opening the space by lighting a candle... Saying some specific intention... Chilling and doing the meditation, then closing the space... Snuffing the candle... etc. It's about putting your mind back in order so you can do the next thing. Staying calm in the midst of chaos is power. I read this off of pinterest the other day and found it soothing:


"First, Things To Remember During Moments Of Inner Turbulence And Tough Emotion; Do not hide from what you are feeling: This current discomfort is not permanent. Rest is an important way to calm the mind. The struggle can be a space of deep growth."

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 03, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

Day 64:

Up early to get in my morning bike ride before catching the 8a train into Chicago.   My mom is in town for a quick visit,  and we are meeting her downtown for lunch.  Initially, it was going to be my husband coming too, but he has opted to stay home.  It's quite a bit of walking,  too much, for him.  In addition, he thought someone ought to stay home to take care of Sick Kitty, as her medicine is supposed to arrive today.   Plus,  he woke up with a cold this morning,  which rather sealed his decision. 

I'm a little behind in this,  but I've been thinking about switching back to low carb rather than keto - to revert for about a month.   It would have been grand to start this on December 1st but missed that opportunity. 

I realized this morning that I missed Library Yoga last night.   This is only offered once a month, so I'm rather disappointed with my forgetfulness.  

(This is the class with the teacher who had weight loss surgery.)

Library Yoga is Yin Yoga,  which I find so relaxing... a missed opportunity indeed. 

Oh well, tonight is Stress Reduction Yoga so perhaps I will enjoy that even more. 


Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/03/2019:
Enjoy your visit with your Mom....sorry to hear that Hubby is sick but he is probably better off staying home , now you don't have to wonder about kitty and her meds. Yoga classes are all over where you live...that is so nice!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/03/2019:
Yes, enjoy the visit with your mom and wishing you safe travels on the train! Our public transportation was running very smoothly this morning and I got to work ON TIME with a few minutes to spare, haha! I did good :)

Also, hoping you make it to yoga.

What was for lunch!?

happy-1 on 12/04/2019:
Yay a mom outing!!!!!!!!! Only so many of those... love or hate every minute of it... but good on you for getting to it.

Donkey - Monday Dec 02, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 63:  Just going to get through it.

I did no yoga.  I'm keeping a hand-written yoga journey in a planner that my daughter bought for herself and then decided she wasn't going to use it.  It's been 4 days without yoga, and today will probably be day 5 without yoga.  There are a million excuses, but primarily, I'm so worried about my poor cat.

Her medicine is supposed to arrive tomorrow, and we will be downtown for most of the day, visiting my mom in Chicago.  (Mom came out from Vegas for this.)  It's a tradition with her to go to the Walnut Room dining room at Macy's (the old Marshall Fields).  My heart just isn't in it.

Oh and gained 2.5 pounds over the holiday.  Well... the pie is completely gone now, so hopefully this means I can get back on track.  I do not want to go over my Goal Weight.

On the positive side, I was very proud of myself for weight training on Saturday.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/02/2019:
Try to remember that whatever happens is what is supposed to happen........have fun with your Mom......and hopefully kitty will have a nice quiet restful day until you get home and give her the meds.

happy-1 on 12/02/2019:
Hugs. I can't think or do anything when my dog is sick or can't walk. I know the feeling. You take good care of your kitties and it's all about quality.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/02/2019:
nice job weight training...i think i'm about to do it now, too! gotta keep at it, such nice definition / muscle when i do!

also, you can totally keep maintaining, how could you not!? you've come tooooo far to quit. :) i'm totally with you xoxoxoxo

even though your heart is not in it with your mom, try to enjoy her company as it's limited and you don't get to see her always. <3

that's what i'll be doing tonight, with my dad for dinner. the weather is so bad, he should just drive home but wants to have dinner with me after he gets outta work!

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