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Donkey - Tuesday Jun 28, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 142.5

My muscle soreness, especially in my upper right arm is much better this morning.  Yoga last nighit REALLY helped work through a lot of the tightness I was feeling in my arms & back but also in my legs, which I wasn't really aware were as tight as they actually were, when stretched.  The muscle tightness "pain" in my upper back was very different from the usual pain I feel in my lower back when it's out of whack.  That kind of pain is more nerve & connective tissue, deeper. 

I guess on the good side, I'm experiencing the muscle sensations that come with weight training and muscle buildling.

No walk this morning, but spent time with my plants instead.  The evenings have been quite cool lately, so I bring in some of the tropical plants from the backyard deck into the garage in the front of the house.  I plan to do some kind of weights tonight.  What shall I do?  I might do some arm exercises with lighter weights, to work out more of the soreness.

Today is election day, for primaries, and since I didn't manage to vote early (which I usually do), I'm going to try to leave work early - ha ha ha - and meet Husband at the polling place.

I slipped up a little bit with ice cream last night.  Not a food fit at all, but more than I needed, for sure.  I probably could have avoided this by drinking either flavored water (e.g. Crystal Light) or carbonated water (e.g. Bubly or LaCroix).  Speaking of which....

Yesterday at work, someone took my can of blackberry flavored Bubly (carbonated, unsweetened, flavored water).  I put it in the refrigerator thinking how nice it was not to have to label my food and cans any more, and then this happens. 

Progress as of today: 44 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/28/2022:
It was 45 here this morning...where is our summer???? Don't blame you a bit for leaving work to vote!!! They need some of their own medicine around there. Now they are stealing your food!!!! Time to put your name on everything in that fridge.

Donkey on 06/29/2022:
We're going to have another couple of hot days - today and much more so tomorrow, but the mornings and evenings are quite lovely. I'm OK with the cooler temperatures, to be honest.

Most of the time, I don't have to worry about other people taking my food, because nobody wants vegetables, LOL.

legcramps on 06/28/2022:
Glad your arm is feeling better today and that yoga helped! Yoga is so awesome, BF and I really should do more of it. It's the first thing to fall off the schedule when things get busy, unfortunately.

Donkey on 06/29/2022:
Same, same, SAME! It really is SO awesome, both mentally and physically -- and maybe sometimes insightfully/spiritually, too.

But it's also the same that it's the first thing to fall off the list. Why do yoga when I can ride my bike while playing on my phone? Or weights while watching dumb TV?


happy-1 on 06/28/2022:
I will never understand the psychology behind eating other people’s lunches.

Donkey on 06/29/2022:
Maybe like "Thou shall not covet thy neighbor's lunch..."

(Cue thunder sound effect in the background)

Donkey - Monday Jun 27, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 142.5

Running late, even though I did not walk this morning - just a bike ride.  That's OK. I woke up with my right arm feeling VERY sore, like it had been punched or I got a vacine shot in that arm!  I'm not sure why!  All of the weights that I did yesterday were symetric - meaning I worked both arms at the same time.   I did repot 2 of my LARGE plants yesterday, and maybe I did something with that.  OUCH! 

So yes, I did an upper body weight machine (only 1 for the back) yesterday at the gym.  Both gym episodes were only 30 minutes on the elliptical, not 40.  I did more back exercises yesterday at home, just like on Saturday, I did more leg exercises at home, after the gym.  I'm glad that I'm starting to use the weight machines at the gym again.

We did not hike yesterday. Husband was feeling very sore (his disease) and I was busy with my plants.  After my plants, I was tired. 

I'm so glad that we will have a 3-day weekend after this week.  This is the week that will test us all at work, since Male Co-Worker and Nice Lady are off Friday and most of next week.  I think Nice Lady comes back Thursday, but Male Co-Worker is off all next week.  I plan to just keep to myself. 

Progress as of today: 44 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/27/2022:
Lots of good exercise there....but sorry about the sore arm mystery. Keeping to yourself is often the easiet and most productive thing to do anyway.......I usually did that at work too......

Donkey on 06/28/2022:
I sprayed some Icy Hot on my right arm, where it was really sore, and that seemed to help a lot. After I sprayed, the pain seemed to "even out" so that the left and right arms had about the same level of (lower) soreness.

legcramps on 06/27/2022:
Do you have full range of motion in your arm? I wonder if you pinched something while working out - it's easy to do it on one side only, sometimes you just lift something the wrong way just on the one side. If you have full range of motion it may just take a couple of days to work itself out. If not, something more may be at play there.

Wishing you luck this week at work!

Donkey on 06/28/2022:
I do have full range of motion. This was truly a build-up of lactic acid from the recent weight activity and gardening (re-potting of big, heavy plants), I'm sure. I say that I'm sure because during yoga, I really felt the tightness in the muscles dissipate, and afterwards I felt a little better/looser.

This morning, I feel much better too.

Jacky82020 on 06/27/2022:
I wanna see pics of your plants!

Donkey on 06/28/2022:
I will attempt to do this, especially since Husband took some very nice photos of my banana tree and bird of paradise.

Maria7 on 06/27/2022:
Hope you have a good day. I know you are looking forward to your 3 day weekend.

Donkey on 06/28/2022:
Work-wise, I cannot complain. Not too busy, was able to leave on time, not too much interpersonal drama. Not like Male Co-Worker who got chewed out by a very unkind realtor. (This unkind realtor has been very nasty to me, too, in the past, so I really empathize with MCW. Nobody needs that.)

Donkey - Sunday Jun 26, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 142.5

Thank goodness I get TWO days off, because most of Saturday was spent decompressing emotionally.  Today, I feel more myself.  I'll have to push everything back, deep inside, and go numb for work on Monday.

The pig roast lunch was delicous, but it was rained out, so it was held indoors instead.  I think had it been outdoors, I would have been able to handle it better.  I just felt so sad.  One old guy, Wally, kept telling me not to look so sad, that this is a happy time.  Oh my goodness, what do I even do with that?  

But the food was very good.  Not at all diet-friendly though.  Tried to take small portions of what I ate, passed on some things that looked "too much" -- either too rich or too big or not special enough, e.g. dinner rolls -- and allowed myself some desserts.  Probably could have passed on the cupcake - not that good - and the 2nd helping of some kind of s'mores dish made with graham cracker cereal.  The s'mores thing was delicious but way too sweet, to the point that I did not feel "right" afterwards.

Very difficult, emotionally, but it was a free lunch, and I think Husband enjoyed getting out and talking with other people.

Came home, went to the gym, repotted my one plant - need to check on her this morning to see if she's OK! - and worked on picking out the right pots for repotting some of the larger plants.  I think only Gargantuan will get repotted, since he has roots coming out of the bottom of the store pot I bought him in.

I'll get my laundry started, get to the gym, repot my plant... rest & relax.  I'm not sure about a hike.  I think I'd just like to chill out at home.

Progress as of today: 44 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 06/26/2022:
Hi Donk! i'll be back later to comment more. I wanted to tell you i replied to your comment on my Saturday entry. It's sorta long, but since i replied i just wanted to let you know.

Donkey on 06/27/2022:
OK :-)

horn_of_plenty on 06/26/2022:
I'm so glad that on Friday, your visit to the dr was worthwhile and helpful. very good to hear. i'm also glad you were able to get outside & walk. ;)

Re your entry below, Spending time with your plants also keeps your body moving a bit, not on the couch. that is good for your health.

aw, I think Wally was just trying to cheer you up... Some people notice things more than others. The pig roast does sound DELISH. little jealous of the food, over here!

Did you have the pork? It is def difficult at these things to take smaller portions. i usually find the need to do that too, but i do not usually have the nerve to overeat veggies that are not mine at parties and events. i would have prob found a drink to occupy my mouth, even if water. it sounds you did a pretty decent job yourself.

it's nice you've had some time off work. it seems you've been able to be a little more physical and get more done than you would with work every day of the week. i find this to always be the case with me, too, on longer weekends - most of the time.

Donkey on 06/27/2022:
I had a little bit of the pulled pork, which is just shredded pork, cooked well. BUT they had these pork tenderloins wrapped in bacon that I heard were to DIE for -- but they were huge! So I passed on that. If they were half the size they were, I might have had one, rather than desserts.

Oh yes, I'm sure that Wally was coming from a good place. And he was right - it was a time to be happy. That just seems light years from where I'm at.

Donkey - Saturday Jun 25, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 142.5

A gray and rainy day...  It's cooled off a bit.  It is most likely that the Veteran's Pig Roast event will be held indoors at the vet center, rather than at the park, as had been planned.  Not nearly as nice, but it should still be delicious.

I'm very relieved to see a favorable weigh-in.  I've been feeling bloated, and YOU know that I haven't been disciplined with eating at work.  I came to realize on Thursday that I really do need to do better with my food choices.  Although hypercalcemia cannot be corrected with dietary changes, there are things that I can eat and can avoid to help myself.  I don't seem to remember this until AFTER I've eaten.  I have resumed taking Vitamin D and iron supplements. 

One of the things I can do for myself, that I read online, for this condition is to drink more water.  I did better with this yesterday, and I will continue to try to drink as much as I can.

It is raining today, so I think I will delay my laundry until tomorrow, since I can't dry my clothes outside.  It is not ideal to repot the larger plants that need it, but I can work on choosing and prepping the pots I'll use.  I may repot one of the smaller plants that needs it, if I have time today.  Spending time with my plants is very theraputic and relaxing for me, so please bear with me on this.  

I would also like to get to the gym today.  That may be this afternoon after the luncheon.  I think today I will work on leg weights, if not at the gym, then at home.  Or perhaps both.  While I don't really like weight training and it's a struggle to motivate myself to do it, it DOES feel hopeful and productive to lift weights.  I think the reason why I don't like it is because I can't just go on "auto-pilot" and do it while I'm visiting websites and playing games on my phone.  It requires discipline and focus - at least for me.  

Anyway, once it gets late in the afternoon, it gets harder to find the motivation to get to the gym, for sure.  So we'll see how that goes.

Progress as of today: 44 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/25/2022:
Hugs. This sounds like a perfectly wonderful day. Congrats on the favorable weigh in.

Donkey on 06/26/2022:
Thank you! The lunch thing was... difficult. Too much, too soon, I think. But great food!

Donkey - Friday Jun 24, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

Thanks to Horn, I took a 15 minute walk outside this morning.  I'm so glad I did because it is going to be beastly HOT today, before we get a break in temperatures.

The surgical consult was wonderful.  I'm so glad I sent.  This doctor (female) is fabulous.  She asked a lot of questions, answered thoroughly -- she's definitely up on what other medical schools are doing and trying as far as surgical techniques and approaches to parathyroid problems.  She  explained why we should not rule out surgery even though the scans came back fine.  We worked together on a plan, and will have follow-up blood work and another ultrasound in 6 months.  I definitely have a better grasp of what is going on with me, why some of the things I've been feeling or experiencing are actually related to this issue, rather than just "getting old", and an idea of what to expect if I end up having surgery.  

I did well with water and got in my steps -- barely, but that's OK -- I didn't push myself and was still able to meet this goal.  I couldn't really push myself, because my body batter was already at around 20, so there wasn't much energy left in me.  

Two parts that didn't go so well:  had some toffee-coated almonds at work for afternoon snack.  They really aren't that good, so definitely NOT worth the calories.  Also, I had a slice of apple pie for dessert, but that's all I had --- I was sorely tempted to have ice cream too, but didn't go down that food fit path.  Had a "normal" dessert and was happy with that.

I had extra time last night, and wasn't too concerned about my step-count (see above), so I did some shoulder exercises with weights while finishing up a TV show (which was the real motivation).  It feels hopeful to be returning to weights.

There is a pig roast on Saturday for lunch, with the Veteran's Group (the ones that also host chair yoga and the hike we took last month).  Husband really wants to go to that.  Then, he proposed going for a walk on Sunday, to "do something" instead of staying at home moping.  IDK, I kind of need that time to decompress and grieve.  I keep evertying tightly "packed in" during the week at work....  And besides, I have some plants that need repotting.  Plus the gym...   

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/25/2022:
Downtime is critical. He should go on his own!

You amaze me everyday.

Donkey on 06/25/2022:
I kind of feel like he should go on his own, but he won't go by himself. As he is home all day all week (although he does run errands occasionally), I think it's good for him to be out in social situations (not always errand-oriented). And he gets a lot of joy about talking about his military service with other folks.

I was thinking about this on the drive home from work last night. Why do I have to play the social wife? Can I just go and enjoy a free meal and sit on the sidelines?

But it might not be so bad. I had a good cry this morning, so maybe I'm in a better spot to handle this situation emotionally.

Many days I feel like I just can't go on... But for some reason, I do.

Donkey - Thursday Jun 23, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

The endocrinologist wanted me to keep my appointment with the surgeon, so that's where I'll be this morning.  Husband is going with me.  I'm really resistant to having surgery, in light of the scan results that I received.  If they were going to remove the parathyroid (4 nodes), then why have the scans in the first place???  IDK, I want to go into the appointment with an open mind, but this seems a bit ridiculous to me.   

I did not do well yesterday with food or water.  No binge-eating food fits, though, so that's good.  Actually, that's pretty darn good.  I just need to stop eating crap at work and drink more water.  It's not the workload that is stressing me out at work, because things seem to have tempered down and are manageable (thank goodness).  It's grief, it's frustration. 

I'm going to look at the calendar at work and see if I can't take a week off in September. 

No walk this morning, just a bike ride.  Spent time with my plants.  Not sure what I have in mind for this evening.  Today might just be a lighter day.

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/23/2022:
Good luck at the Drs.....hoping that you are comfortable with what he reccomends.

legcramps on 06/23/2022:
I hope you are able to schedule some time off in September. Hugs.

Donkey on 06/24/2022:
YES - it was already on the calendar, and I added another day to it, because I didn't want to come back on a Monday.

horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2022:
lol replacement guy is young and probably can eat lots without issues. nice of him to bring in the trail mix, very thoughtful!

yes, def no need for surgery unless necessary is what i tend to think...unless a dr is just trying to make a profit by doing a procedure...make sure that's not it!

sounds nice to get a bike ride in this AM.

i could have walked / planned to be active this AM...but bc it was just a different morning with a meeting planned at a new destination and ability to leave my apt later and the fact i had showered last night...i totally stayed in my warm bed as long as i could LOL. i can do better tomorrow. i am planning on a good walk before work so that i can do weights at night...maybe tonight i take it a little easier and rest..

Donkey - Wednesday Jun 22, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

I ran out of time yesterday morning to write a full entry.  In fact, I just finished writing replies to comments made on Monday's entry.  I ran out of time partly because I took a morning walk outside Tuesday morning.  It was very nice, but that wasn't going to happen today.  Instead, I did upper body weights this morning, which was GREAT.  I'm glad I'm coming back to weights. 

Anyway, there's always my lunchtime walk, and I might walk this evening if so inclined, and if the weather is cool enough to do so.  And if not, that's OK too.  Stupid step-counts. I have to let that stuff go.

Eating yesterday... well, maybe not the best.  I did OK, until it came to the trail mix at work.  I found out that it was Replacement Guy who brought that big container to work.  Still, that did not stop me from finishing it up.  He said he'd bring more, because I like it so much, even though I asked him not to.  (This was all said and done in a joke-y, good-natured way.)  Ultimately, it's up to ME to not eat these types of food at work, especially when there are apples, bananas, and grapes available.

Work was just mentally exhausting.  Not super busy -- I'm all caught up.  But just trying to keep everything moving forward, when I'm feeling sad & tired.  The Boss got confused again with the AC. He turns it off, and then can't figure out why it's not working.  Also, he lost his cell phone at home and can't find it.  Finally, once again, last week, he put the stamps on the wrong corner of an envelope he was mailing out.  The stamps thing is the most concerning out of all of those, but it's just these little dramas that *DRAIN* a lot of energy. It's painful to witness this, and it's exhausting trying to fix these little dramas.

No Replacement Guy today. Let's see how my stress level is.  Queen Bee hasn't been too bad.  Husband is coming into the office this morning, because the Boss said he'd help us with Son's tax return for 2021.  We'll also have to file something for Son next year too.  *sigh*

Going to try really, really hard to drink enough water today.


Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/22/2022:
Sounds like dementia for the boss......Heart probles often seem to help cause it from what I have seen.......getting old stinks.

Donkey on 06/23/2022:
Yes, I've heard the same thing, about heart problems affecting mental ability. Also, he's on several medications, and I *know* that influences his ability to think clearly.

Donkey - Monday Jun 20, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

Yesterday was a "good" day, or at least as good as it could be, I guess.  Husband seemed pleased and so was I, to the extent that we could be, if that makes sense.  We went to an aboretum that I have been wanting to go to for YEARS.   It has a paved trail and then woodsy trails. We stuck to the paved trail for the most part.  Husband plods along and I walk up ahead or I'll make short divergences and return to the path. He's quite a bit slower than I am, but this way, we both get an experience we're happy with.

Afterwards, we met up with Daughter on her lunchbreak, since her store is kind of on the way home.  I think that made Husband the happiest. We had lunch at the nearby Subway, before driving home. It's a long story but we ended up stopping at the Walmart near OUR home to pick up ice creams, and somehow I ended up walking out with 2 plants.  I had quite a bit of buyer's remorse.  I should not have bought such a huge plant, but there was this clump of leaves with 2 significant roots growing out of it, that someone had just pulled out and left to die on the shelf.  So I stuck those in the pot with the big plant and brought them both home.  

I kind of rationalized that I was getting 2 for the price of 1.  And I had been thinking about getting these plants, but just hadn't sold my heart on them, but  now I have them, so here we are.  The pulled root thing is part of a yucca plant.  The big leafy plant I think is a "corn plant" with no stem yet. Just big green & yello leaves, so it might actually be a different plant, since there's no stem.  Somehow, though, this purchase has told me that I think I have enough plants, at least for this year.

You read that correctly, that we bought ice cream.  I'm so sick and tired of having food issues.  I want a balance in my life.

I wrote a message to the endocrinologist asking for the doctor's consent to cancel the surgeon appointment.  If I do not get a response by tomorrow, I will call the office.  I have to cancel my appointment soon.

Tonight is yoga, and I'm looking forward to that a lot.  I just hope that work isn't too insane to ruin the day ahead.  Mistakes Girl gets the circlage removed today, so she might have her baby today - how exciting!!!!

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 06/20/2022:
That is nice that you got 2 more plants.

Donkey on 06/21/2022:
Yes, it is. I am not sure why I was feeling so conflicted about the new plants. Maybe it's because the 1 is so big and obnoxiously green and beautiful. Husband has named it "Gargantuan".

bearcountrygg on 06/20/2022:
I'm glad to hear that you met up with your daughter on Fathers day.

Donkey on 06/21/2022:
It really was a very nice treat. If their freezers hadn't been malfunctioning, we would have gone into her store to shop (for ice cream). Oh well, that just means we'll have to go back again some day (soon).

legcramps on 06/20/2022:
Glad that you had a good day yesterday; I agree that yoga could be helpful to you right now.

Donkey on 06/21/2022:
Yes, I think NOW I am in a good spot for more yoga. At first, the grief was too raw for something like that.

Jacky82020 on 06/20/2022:
We had the biggest prettiest yucca plants in San Diego. I never appreciated all the stuff that did so well with very little attention out west. I miss the Ivy geraniums and bougainvillea the most.

Have a great time at yoga! I really should try that or at least some stretches.

I’m really good at canceling appointments via MyChart. Also, they put up scan results quickly. Explained in great detail. Used to be in this state they waited 48 hours for the physicians’ to call etc, but not lately. I see them up the same day in most cases. Often they have a warning that the info may be disturbing & not to look if it’s gonna bother you. I can’t wait to look! They send emails when the charts are updated.

Donkey on 06/22/2022:
MyChart is really neat. I was glad that I was able to send a message to discuss my appointment with the surgeon. I've done messaging with my primary care doctor too. And I love that we get the results back, so I don't have to wait days for the doctor to call.

horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2022:
Yes! that is such a good idea when walking with people who are either slower / faster. I explained to my dad / mom that that's what they can do at beach if he wants to be so fast he should walk and then walk back to her, etc.

why are you deciding to cancel the appt?

also, lately i am working on weight management too because i don't want mine to go upwards anymore. it is hard to pull back.

but a little ice cream can be done..maybe with a decaf coffee to follow to fill your stomach.

Donkey on 06/22/2022:
I was thinking about cancelling the appointment with the surgeon because if all of the scans are normal, what is the point of surgery? The cause of my hypercalcia would be something else, not an enlarged parathyroid. Right? I'll write a little more about this today (Wednesday).

A little ice cream can be worked into a day. However, I'm not going about this in the best way, and I know I can do better. Anyway, with regards to the ice cream, having this little bit (in a custard cup) is definitely an exercise in moderation and satisfaction. And that I'm OK with.

Maria7 on 06/21/2022:
That is so cute what your Hubby named your plant. Smile!

Donkey on 06/22/2022:
LOL - yes, that made me smile too :-D

Donkey - Sunday Jun 19, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

Happy Father's Day to the dads out there...

Husband and I made tentative plans but if he's not up to them, then I'll just go to the gym. 

I tweaked my back yesterday, chopping up large branches with the axe.  And I knew that it was not a good idea when I was doing it, because I could feel my back/hips complaining. Sure enough, it's very "tweaky" this morning, so I need to be careful with what I do today. No side-to-side activities, nothing high impact, lots of stretching.  Walking would probably be a good idea since it's a front-to-back activity and helps with hips.

I may need to do a walk/hike with or without Husband.  Ouch!

I think I managed to get most of the spider mites off of the banana plant, but just in case, I sprayed her with diluted soapy water (Dawn soap), and I will rinse her off outside, before returning her to the isolation of the master bathroom.  My Husband, bless him, said to keep things in perspective, and if the plant has to go, then she has to go. This is true.  She is quite a vanity project anyway.  Obviously, banana plants don't grow in Illinois, naturally, so it's kind of twisted to try to have one as a houseplant.  I won't get any bananas, but they have beautiful foliage.  However, keeping things in perspective, there are other plants that also offer beautiful huge green leaves, and composting is part of the cycle of life.

I struggled yesterday with diet.  So first of all, I did not drink nearly enough water.  *sigh* I don't know why it's so hard for me this year, this summer to drink enough water.  Secondly, after dinner, there was some peanut butter involved.  That's mostly because we didn't have any ice cream in the house, and I didn't want to drive out with Husband to get some.

So, if you're reading this diary for diet & exercise inspiration right now, this is not the place to find it.  I am struggling in these areas right now.  And that's OK because that's where I'm at, and life is like that. 

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/19/2022:
Happy fatheres day to your hubby......I can see it may be a difficult day. Hope your hip feels better......and that a walk helps out. The banana plants that are for sale here are likely a hybrid......but I see you used Dawn ....I was going to suggest dish soap to was the plant down. It is no wonder why we gravitate to comfort foods.......we don't even need to think about them...they just show up without a need for explanation.......we all do it......don't worry about that.

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2022:
Re your Friday entry - most of my coworkers also have fine time Managment and leave on time. One leaves on time but comes extremely early like to the tune of 5:30a and works long hours although he likes to leave by 3p latest it’s a very long day for him - he is a great project manager and always on the ball. He has a long drive and by coming early he skips out on all traffic in AM. I wouldn’t want his schedule as it’s not enough sleep for my liking

I hear you on not rushing to work after appointments

Some coworkers of mine that never work late - and mostly I don’t either now - are the admin assistants.

Being you assist so many and have a special skill set I can see why sometimes you need to work late

I’m behind on your dr appointments and what the surgery is for but will prob figure it out as I read your 2 later entries

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2022:
My weekend here re your Friday entry still is also pretty restful and now at beach I’m with my parents and finding the time to catch up on here ….I ended up mostly staying home as I welcome the feeling and not rushing

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2022:
Nice to hear you getting back into weights and also keeping with your cardio. I wish your husband strength this Father’s Day and hope he feels better in the future it takes time

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2022:
Although you are knocking yourself on diet in this last entry, you had some great days previously. Keep on !!! I’m still not sure on your surgery

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
Hugs. Starting a new pacing for fatigue challenge cycle. Rewriting it completely. https://www.vimify.com/yn0ae

Donkey - Saturday Jun 18, 2022
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

 I thought I had a good weigh-in (maintenance) until I logged in and saw it was actually a 2-pound gain.  I know I'm holding onto some water weight, due to too much salt yesterday.  Like Happy wrote earlier in the week, I'm starting to lose motivation.  

In fact, I'm really struggling to find motivation about anything - even going to the gym! -  these days.  It seems as though after the memorial service at church, the grief is settling into its next phase.


AFTERNOON EDIT:  I ended up having a fairly productive day, so far, and it's not even over, although I will probably relax tonight.

Local Grief Group was OK./  We decided not to drive to the town that the meeting was held, so everyone attended via Zoom.  There 6 of us in total, with 4 being 2 couples (husband/wife).  I did more talking at this meeting.  The meeting lasted about an hour.

My laundry and the cat laundry are drying outside.  I'm sure everything is dry now, so I'll bring it in after I'm done here.

I went to the gym and did my usual elliptical PLUS 15 minutes on the treadmill, because I was determined to meet my step-goal at the gym.  I did not make 10,000 steps for the first time yesterday.

I sadly discovered that my treasured banana plant has spider mites.  I should isolate it from the other plants, but I have no other rooms that are away from plants and away from cats.  So I physically removed the spider mite webs (found 2 of them) and sprayed the plant and the plant next to it with treatment.  Then, I moved the banana plant away from the other plants but they're still in the same room.  I think I will try to find a spot to move it to, where the cats can't get to it. 

I suspect that there may be more webs in the new leaf that has not yet opened up.  Oh it would be crushing to me if I had to compost this plant.  Mistakes Girl gave it to me, and I really treasure it.  

One thing I've been meaning to mention is that I discovered that the yoga studio I had been considering trying, to attend live classes again, is closing at the end of this month.  So I may have to limit my practice to just at home OR try the gym again.

I do think that I would benefit greatly with more yoga in my life.

Finally, I realized that my Husband is having a hard time with this weekend, being Father's Day.  He tells me he's "all over the place" which is EXACTLY how I felt on Mother's Day weekend.  We have something in mind for tomorrow, but I completely understand that it might not happen... and that's fine too.

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/18/2022:
There are times for taking the next phase......and I also agree that the memorial service likely did cause the next step to begin.....Elizabth Kubler Ross has books that outline those...but I'm sure you are familiar with those....I remember getting one of her books for my aunt many years ago.....Maybe you can find a happy medium with the gym or anything.....but foremost...you need to give yourself time and grace......

Donkey on 06/18/2022:
I'm glad that I had an opportunity to talk a little bit about this "new phase", only because it has taken me by surprise, I think.

Jacky82020 on 06/18/2022:
Aw…. You’re doing great! Your charts look good. I’m always up & down a few for no apparent reason. You’re maintaining nicely. You are doing extraordinary well under difficult circumstances

Donkey on 06/18/2022:
That's a really good point, about maintaining. I will be content with that, until I am ready to make a change. And it's OK if I am content to stay here for as long as I need to be.

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