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Donkey - Wednesday Dec 02, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Work is definitely slowing down,  yet I come home at night,  after sitting on my butt all day,  and feel mentally and physically exhausted.  All I want to do is sit and relax with my phone,  catch up on the day's news and events. And the pain is real. I feel achy in my knees,  sometimes hips. 

Oh last night was a struggle not to dip into chocolate... or even dates.  As Horn said,  there's nothing to say that I can't have a couple of dates after dinner - as long as it stops after a couple. That's one issue.  However,  my goal,  for December at least,  is to stick to decaf after dinner,  so that's what I did. Having this goal in mind helped a lot.  And,  moving forward, I will remind myself of Jacky's self-discipline, to help me.  Also,  brushing my teeth, chewing gum.  So those 4 tools I will use, to prevent me from going off the deep end at night. 

I felt pressured and stressed to get to my knitting goal last night, but after completing 2 rows, I was glad I had done it. 

I am dreading starting up yoga again, which is silly, but I'll be mailing my payment today. I think it's the demand on my time that is stressing me out,  even though this is something I want to do.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/02/2020:
You'd probably feel better is you started yoga again.

I find that if I brush my teeth right after dinner that's a signal to me that I'm done eating for the day.

Donkey on 12/02/2020:
That's what I think - that once I start up yoga and actually DO it, I will feel much better.

I'm doing OK tonight, but I will try the brushing teeth thing soon, and see if that helps.

Jacky82020 on 12/02/2020:
The only way I can resist things like chocolate and Reese Cups is to keep them out of the house. Couldn’t stop at 2 dates either! Unless there were only 2 in the house.

What do you think the pain in your joints is? I am reading just about everyone over 30 has some degree of OA. Gets worse as ppl age and can become devastating. I have it in my right thumb of all places. Surely other areas too that I don’t know about. Never had any images. But when I was 30 or so, the damn thumb got swollen & painful, so I thought I fractured it when I ran up the stairs to catch the trolley and fell, The doc said it was OA. Pain comes and goes.

Donkey on 12/02/2020:
I hadn't thought about it being OA. In the morning, I presume it's because I don't sleep well. After work though... Hmm... Now today I came home and I was fine.

grannyannie on 12/02/2020:
Guess I'm lucky, so far. No joint problems. I did injure my shoulder getting too ambitious with heavy dumbbells, but that was my fault. It's okay now but I'm careful. My husband has arthritis in a couple of fingers but doctor said that's expected when he had football (soccer) and rugby injuries when he was young.

A lot of elderly get new knees or new hips here.

Donkey on 12/02/2020:
If you had asked me 5 years ago, I would have predicted that I would eventually need a new right knee, but now I'm thinking hip replacement in about 15 years.

Maybe it's tightness from not doing yoga. There are yoga moves to help stretch and relax the hip flexors.

horn_of_plenty on 12/02/2020:
Just wanted to say thank you for reassuring me how my familiar isn’t a total failure and that a lot of the work I did was still worth it. I appreciate it. My French friend said the same. And I know you are both right and I appreciate your caring thoughts sent my way the other night when I took the test. It’s been easy for me to forget about it and I just wanted to thank you bc I know I didn’t previously.

If the yoga is too much, try to do a shorter set of it or just do half. Some is better than none. You did love your yoga practice.

I remember the times were the ample sitting at work, then too much OT sitting, also made me feel excessively tight and pained my legs. Do get up or set a timer if you can during the slow periods just get up and stretch will help. However, I do think the pain may be more THe mental game of getting thru work than actually the physical- maybe. Bc I spend loads of time on my couch ...and I’m not necessarily in pain but then again it’s a more relaxed position for me than at a desk.

One thing I can suggest is that you rest your legs on a garbage or something under your desk so that they aren’t constantly on the floor. Not sure though if you’d like that, I can’t picture you doing this at all actually!

Not sure these comments are up your ally....haha

Donkey on 12/03/2020:
You are most welcome! I think you got this, but I wanted to offer my observations, from afar. I wanted to share some objectivity.

I hope you are right about the pain and fatigue I am experiencing. You know, I just realized, from your comment, that I may need to adjust my chair and sitting position at work! I know some of the fatigue is mental - maybe more than I realize!

When I start yoga up again, I know that I can pause or modify the poses if I need to. There are cheaper options than this class, but I needed something to get back into yoga. The $ expense will help me stick to it.

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 01, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Happy December!  I am looking forward to all of the possibilities this month!

When I returned to work, my file racks were noticeably thinned out, which is good for where I'm at mentally.  I'm really looking forward to a slower, calmer real estate month.  Mistakes Girl did a good job of keeping up, although she does things differently.  So about 5-6 times, I had to ask her, Where is this?  What is this?  What about that?  That's actually not too bad at all!  I remember one year, I came back from Thanksgiving week to something like 60 emails.  It's not a vacation if you have to come back to twice the work.  So I am blessed and grateful.

 While I was out of town, I decided that I was going to try to revert back to my habit of having decaf coffee after dinner with a flavored (artificial) creamer, rather than a more natural, heavy whipping cream, to help satisfy my sweet tooth after dinner.  I thought that having 35 calories of Coffeemate was better than having 90-120 calories of candy.  So I did that last night, and now the flavored creamer does not quite satisfy like it used to.  Maybe I need a smaller coffee cup?  It was very hard not to succumb to the candy craving.  I was even thinking about diving into the dates!  However, I was able to remain disciplined and went to bed instead.

  • Oh wait that's not entirely accurate.  I had the last 4 sugar-free gummies I've been saving.  Well, those are gone, so tonight will be a test.

My December Goals:

  • Get back into the 130's - quite difficult with all of the eating this month.
  • Use my treadmill 1x a week
  • 100 ounces of water a day - that's almost 3 liters
  • Knit 2 rows of the Prayer Shawl I've been working on for 2 years - I need to complete this project and donate
  • Read 10 pages or 20 minutes a day
  • Start yoga again - going to sign up with my old teacher Jean via Zoom.  I'm purchasing a 10-class ticket, and then I will see what other options are available to me

I have semi-goals that I want to work on too, for this month:

  • Leave work before 5:30p
  • Abstain from sweets after dinner and opt for the decaf & flavored creamer combo

These 2 things aren't going to happen all the time, but I would like to establish these as HABITS, not goals.  I won't always be able to get out of work on time, and I probably won't pass up dessert on any holiday celebrations, but these are exceptions.  


Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/01/2020:
Wonderful goals! I have some terrific decaffeinated coffee beans. A little shot of canned whipped cream doesn’t add many Cals. Maybe 30. You can add cocoa & an artificial sweetener to the coffee too. Sounds like you work for a real estate attorney?

legcramps on 12/01/2020:
I like your goals for December!

grannyannie on 12/01/2020:
Very good goals. Glad work wasn't as bad as expected.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/01/2020:
regarding your entry a few days ago...i also find a lot of people, even just my sister's 2yr old, actually...a LOT to handle! so i understand you completely!

when staying at someone's house, boy it can be hard. it's not a full vacation as you have to watch yourself somewhat and you cannot just always do exactly what you want to if you were "free" at a hotel. but at least you were able to go there, enjoy nature, and not have to pay for a hotel!? ha. i'm sure the hotel rate would have been crazy low, but we're not talking about that!

what about a coffee after dinner with one or two dates / one or two chocolates? nobody says you can't...

Donkey - Monday Nov 30, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 Just a quick post before I leave for the day.  I am dreading going back to work.  My brain feels like mush when it comes to recalling how to do my job.  I'm sure it will all fall into place as soon as I sit down and figure out where each file is.

My lunch is leftovers.  I eat breakfast at home now, since I wear a mask all day (pretty much) at work.  I'm not sure what to take as an afternoon snack.  I'll take some frozen fruit.

I just realized that I will need to sanitize my workstation and phone, so I'll log off and leave for work now.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/30/2020:
I remember how hard it was to go back to work after a holiday, or just time off.

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
This time seemed particularly difficult - as though I couldn't get my brain to switch to "work thinking" as I started to prepare, mentally, for work on Sunday. Maybe that was my brain just trying to squeeze out the very last minute of my time "off".

Maria7 on 11/30/2020:
Hope all goes well at work and you enjoy getting back into your familiar routine. Fruit is always a good choice.

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
I just realized, from your comment, that in the summertime, it's easier to reach for raw vegetables for a snack or in a meal. This enjoyment fades in the colder months. So yes, I should switch to fresh fruits to hold and fill me. Not as good as vegetables but much better than chocolate, cookies, etc.

Thank you!

Jacky82020 on 11/30/2020:
It’ll be like riding a bike, Donkey. You’ll get the groove back soon!

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
Yep, you were right - it all came back to me. A little wobbly at first, but some of that may have been due to an unwilling brain, lol.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/30/2020:
I Plan to write more later and comment about your previous entry...

for now, i'll just comment on today's entry, since it is shorter and i can tend to it now...

I'm sorry you have to go into work on a Monday. I hope you try not to rush at things and take it easy. I remember in my experiences, I had my sister's wedding one weekend and after that weekend, i felt HORRIBLE going into work on Monday. I felt outside of myself, just not relaxed or back to myself after a weekend of nerves and stresses.

good luck today, you will do great.

if i can give you advice for this week, really try not to overdo it at work...ease in as much as humanly possible. try not to get a regular cold bc of being rundown after a vacation and working right after.

to make you feel better, in just a few weeks, you'll have Christmas and new years off from work xoxo

Donkey on 12/01/2020:
It was a very busy closing day that I came back to, this time - the last day of the month. I saw my boss for 5 minutes at the beginning and about 20 minutes at the end - LOL!

Anyway, busy closing days mean that the phones are quiet, and they were. It was odd.

Donkey - Sunday Nov 29, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 I'll say it again:  OH IT'S GOOD TO BE HOME!  And I've started making up a list of goals for myself for December - not all of them are directly weight-loss related, but also include things to help develope my well-being (mental health, so to speak), which I feel is equally important - maybe more so in the midwest winter months.

My COVID test was very easy and efficient.  I adminstered it to me myself, so it was not as comfortable as my test in August.  Perhaps the swab was bigger?  But quick and easy.  I should have my results in 2-3 days, which would be... Tuesday?  Not ideal for going back to work, but that's kind of how the Boss operates.

It was a nice visit - I really love mountains and hiking.  BUT there were a few things that, I suppose you'd call regrets:

  • The plane was way too crowded.  When I flew Delta over the summer, I felt very confident that they were taking measures to protect everyone in the plane.  This time we flew American Airlines, and I felt like, COVID be damned, we're packing the plane tighter than washboard abs.  We ended up paying more to sit up closer to the front, with the extended leg room, and this was 100% worth it.  Oh Lord, thank you for not having us sit way back in the plane, as I worry a LOT about those folks.  
  • I found myself losing patience with my family.  Not a pleasant feeling.  Kind of disappointed in myself for feeling this way, but on the other hand, be true to thine own self.
  • I found myself wanting to spend this time in my own way.  I'm really much more introverted than I realized.  My brother has 5 kids - a set of twins and a set of triplets - and just their family alone is a LOT to handle.  
  • As always, the food was out of my comfort level.  My brother and SIL always have so much food around - candy, cookies, snacks.

Oh well, I've definitely had enough travel for now - I definitely pushed myself way out of my comfort zone this year.  I am ready to hunker down for the winter and brace for the next surge. 

One thing I wanted to mention:  although we did our best to clear out the refrigerator of food before we left, I came back to find that my daughter's supervisor gave her a delicious flan cake for Thanksgiving.  So I came back to many slices of this beautiful cake that need to be eaten.  Not exactly what I wanted to face when I returned home.  The cake is almost gone.  I had 2 slices on Friday, when we returned, and 2 slices yesterday.  I've had enough, so any slices that nobody else eats will get thrown out.

I went for a walk after dinner last night, and it's nice to see so many people with Christmas lights up this year.  I have Christmas lights in my house on, all year round, as nightlights.  I have a flickering, mult-colored string in my kitchen, a string of white around my front door, and a short string on our balcony upstairs, if anyone needs to make a trip to the bathroom or go downstairs in the dark.  So I love Christmas lights any time of the year!  But it's especially nice to see this year.


Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/29/2020:
I love to travel but not during this time.

Families can be difficult!

There is a plot against you by cakes!!!

Donkey on 11/29/2020:
The flan cake is gone. Please, no more cakes! (lol)

Donkey - Saturday Nov 28, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 HOME SWEET HOME!  It's so good to be home!  And although I think I would have been OK with a quiet week at home, it was good to see family again.  I'm not a good traveler, although I tried to be this year, so I'm glad and relieved to be home and stationary for a while, as we hunker down for winter.

I am waiting for my appointment to get COVID testing, so I'm doing laundry, catching up on internet stuff that I only do on my laptop, filled my birdfeeders, etc., until I leave at around 11:40am.  My appointment is at noon.  I'm not nervous about the test or the results, but just the anticipation of having something new to do, with new people, makes me very nervous. Once I've taken the test, I am free to enjoy the rest of the time off I have.

 I did manage to weigh in this morning, and although I am not happy to see this number again, I do understand why it happened.  

  • Way too much eating out (carry-out only) - out of my control, even though I tried to make wise choices most of the time.
  • Not enough activity - we did some hiking on Tuesday, but after that, we kept to ourselves at my brother's house.  I fell below 10,000 steps on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday.
  • Not enough water, especially on traveling days.
  • TOM - oh the joys of traveling with TOM.  This should be over in time to go back to work on Monday.
  • Constipation - like I said, I'm not a good traveler.
  • Some anxiety-eating on snacks and sweet things.  I don't know why I can't just "go with the flow".

Now that I am back home, though, I do anticipate being able to shed most - if not all - of these pounds and get back to work, although....

Thanksgiving usually kicks off a month of eating.  I kid you not.  Usually by New Year's Day, I'm so sick of eating.  We have:

  • Thanksgiving
  • Office Christmas Party - this wll definitely be different or not at all this year
  • Office Card-Signing Party - this may not happen.  It's bad enough to be sitting around each other signing cards, much less eating, drinking, talking, laughing with each other.  No thanks.
  • Christmas Eve
  • Christmas Day
  • Anniversary (Dec. 28th)
  • New Year's Eve
  • New Year's Day

That's a LOT of eating.

However, I am still going to set some December goals for myself, a couple which may be repeats of some of the goals I had for November.  This month, unfortunately, just didn't pan out the way I had planned.


Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2020:
I think i am JUST as happy as you are...to hear that you are HOME! I'm sure that home never felt as good to you as it does during THIS year, Thanksgiving weekend! Welcome HOME!

Will this be a "rapid" test with results in two days or less? Yes, enjoy your time home!

You know, i've got to say, i REMEMBER your writing from last year (possibly other years too) because it is SERIOUSLY very, VERY SIMILAR to what you wrote today!!!! i remember you, in the past, listing those holidays (no, i'm not teasing or telling you that you shouldn't NO,NO...). but i remember your nerves about the eating situation on these particular dates and this time of year.

i honestly feel, with your son away, with your hubby and his health needs, with your wonderful daughter home...i honestly think that if what you want is to have better choices, rather, MORE options at holiday time, THIS IS THE TIME / YEAR to do it!

what i mean is, with this covid situation, less and less people are enjoying meals together. less of the family is getting together. it's almost like an open invitation to make different food / prepare different sides....AND DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO this holiday season. do you feel this way?

even in my family, nobody's being held to any standard. my mom made brisket, not turkey, since nobody really wanted it aside from myself / my dad...that's not enough to prepare an entire turkey for!

OK...this is getting VERBOSE!..haha the VERBIAGE is tough in this comment.

what i'm saying is, anything goes this holiday season. try to be open to "new" and ways to get thru it in possibly a SLIGHTLY different way. can you get thru it in a way where you are more satisfied and do not gain more than a couple pounds or even maintain? what can you do to make this season go easier than in past years?

if what i wrote is too anxiety-provoking to think about, leave it be! :)

also, your weight is good, you got this. you did a great job with maintenance these past few months.

Donkey on 11/29/2020:
I will write more about my COVID test in today's entry. I'm told that I will have the results in 2-3 days, but with today being Sunday, I'm not sure if they count that as a day or not.

I know *exactly* what you are talking about with making holidays our own this year. I love doing that, and I kind of feel like, with Thanksgiving, I didn't have that opportunity. It was more structured. I'm actually looking forward to celebrating Christmas, anniversary, New Year's, in our own way, with my own little family.

grannyannie on 11/29/2020:
Hope you and husband's tests are negative. I'm sure you enjoyed seeing family, and yes, travel and eating right are difficult.

Donkey on 11/29/2020:
You know, visiting family is like having cake. At first it's really good, but at the end, you've had your fill and now it's time to get back to vegetables and proteins.

I hope so too, regarding the test results. So far, we both feel fine. I could use another day or 2 to self-quarantine, but my employer doesn't think the same way I do.

Donkey - Sunday Nov 22, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 139.0

 Soooo....  Today was crazy.  Several times today I thought that maybe I'd be staying home, but it seems as though we are moving forward as planned.  I have a cloth mask and a disposible mask, and I'm going to add a few more disposible masks to my bag.  Santizing wipes.  Hand sanitizer.

My goals are:

  • To drink as much water as possible.
  • To keep my Fitbit goal of 250 steps per hour from 7am to 7pm
  • To make healthy food choices/portions and then leave it at that. 

At my brother's house, all they eat are carbs.  The kids are very particular eaters.  My sister in law is very tiny and doesn't eat much.  My brother is happy with meat and potatoes.  I could easily fill up on carbs and more carbs.  I have to pick my portions and then STOP with that.  So even if I'm a little hungry at the end of th meal, that will be OK.  REMEMBER THIS, DONKEY.

I would like to spend as much time as possible outside, even though it will not be very warm outside - 60's.

I will be thinking about December goals for myself.  I feel like this month just slipped through my fingers far too quickly.  I had GOOD goals for November, but unfortunataely, circumstances didn't allow me to partake in them.  I'm going to try again, and I think I have some more to add, as well.

I've wanted to talk about somthing, after I've struggled this past week with eating well, since I was not feeling good.  Low carb went out the window.  Had toast at home for breakfast.  Had trouble drinking enough water (drank enough water for a body, but did not meet my 100 oz. daily goal). Had some chocoaltes, etc.

The day I had all those chocolates at work - I realized, just how hard this healthy eating is to do.  I thought of Happy's dad, making unhealthy food choices, and how she battles with him on that.  Happy is absolutely right, but for a moment, after having eaten the chocolates, the difficulty of this struggle is - and I'm relatively healthy!  I don't have any major health issues that would prompt me to mandate that I eat better.  

I can see WHY and HOW it's so, so hard.

Progress as of today: 47.5 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/23/2020:
So hard to eat right when a guest at someone's house!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
well, please buy some fresh veggies to cut up so you can eat the carbs and just fill up on veggies for the rest of the meal when you want to stop on the meal!...eat the meal and follow up with your veggies, just cold veggies, for that week...when you get there, or if she can pick up for you - not sure she will - you can go out, get a load of veggies to last the week.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
others will prob want your healthy veggies too...whenever i bring a veggie platter to a party, people love it and love to eat it...

Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
who knows, just do a big shopping trip for extra veggies...it'll be worth it and easy to prepare. just cut.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/23/2020:
eating healthy is hard. but, at least you get your veggies in, etc. you are a step in front, more than a step in front, of people that don't try or plan. all the efforts you have put in have got you to where you are and that's even many steps in front of where you used to be.

Maria7 on 11/26/2020:
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your Family!

Maria7 on 11/27/2020:
Hope you are having a good day.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/27/2020:
Safe travels to you on your way back home from the holidays!

Donkey - Saturday Nov 21, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 139.0

 I was completely surprised by my weigh-in this morning, considering how I had struggled with chocolates and marshmallows earlier this week.  The only thing I can think of is that it's the weight training that causes me to gain weight.  Well, at least I won't have to struggle with the box of chocolate any more. 

I am off for an entire week.  I plan to take Horn's advice to enjoy it, regardless of what we decide to do.  I will not go into the office this next week if we end up somehow canceling our trip.  I do not think we will though because Husband has already made plans with our son, to help him with some laptop issues, during the visit.

I struggled yesterday with a cough.  Some of that is because wearing a mask dries out my throat more, it seems.  And some of that was just part of the sinus infection moving along. (It's always the same stages when I have a sinus infection, just sometimes it's very mild and sometimes it's raging.)  I realized that if I'm in a terminal or perhaps on a plane, with this dry cough, they may not let me fly!  My husband asked me not to cough any more (what?!?) and said that he can't make the trip alone.  (This is true - he is just too encumbered by his limitations that he really truly cannot travel without assistance.)

In Illinois, the gyms can no longer have group classes, and we're supposed to wear a mask AT ALL TIMES.  I just don't know if my particular gym is enforcing this policy.  I admit:  yes, it is uncomfortable and can be very difficult to do cardio with a mask on.  I have no plans to visit the gym this weekend.

However, I am putting up more Christmas lights outside today, to help get into the Christmas spirit....  well, the house will look pretty when it's lit, anyway.  Bah humbug...

Progress as of today: 47.5 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/21/2020:
Enjoy your time off. Get lots of rest.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/21/2020:
my comments for now...great weigh-in! way to go, so proud of you! just keep being moderate, that's what it is about. moderate, what you want, trying not to overeat. just way to go!

please try to also be moderate with your sleep and how much you are going to push yourself with this trip. not not to overdo, if you can. or, try to at least be able to unpack and rest a bit when you come home. if you have to quarrantine or something when you get home, just do it. bc i don't remember the last time you had a week off!

i'm sure your cough and sinus infection will continue to heal. maybe keep that to yourself (don't mention at the airport!)

yeah, i wouldn't trust the gym for anything. it's not the place to be.

show us a pic, if you want, of your lit up home!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/21/2020:
also, i wrote you back on my entry for both your comments. i wanted to be productive today...i still have an hour plus to be productive now, and that is my plan :)

Horn_of_plenty on 11/21/2020:
i appreciate your comments a lot. they help me a lot.

Donkey - Friday Nov 20, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 139.5

 I have a mish-mash of things to say. 

Woke up with my right ear feeling clogged,  so I have a sinus infection.  I will take a decongestant to help my ear feel less clogged. I'm still wearing a mask at work.  I will wash my hands even more and sanitize my desk area a couple of times today. 

Nice Lady did not come in yesterday.  She had a fever and chills and fatigue.  She is getting COVID tested today,  she says.  This may be as a result of the flu shot she got on Tuesday.  You should have seen the reaction of my co-workers when they found out. Everyone is wearing a mask when they are not at their desk.  My problem is that my desk is in the middle of everything so I have to keep my mask on almost all the time because of people walking by. 

The training session last night was very informative.  It helped me make some decisions for myself as far as my future with the clinic:

  • I will not volunteer in a virtual or hybrid clinic. If they want to run the clinic virtually,  then I am not the volunteer that they need. 
  • When we return to an in-person clinic, I will need to reevaluate if I can do the new procedure without it being too stressful. I will give it 2 clinics to try it,  and if it's too much,  then I am not the volunteer they need. 
  • If the clinic leader leaves,  I will not continue with the clinic.  The friendships seem to be the only reason I'm hanging on.

I had trouble with food again last night. Had some marshmallows, some peanut butter. It wasn't overindulgent but definitely not good choices. Definitely stress and fatigue. 

I am only now starting to tell people online but my husband and I will  be flying to Vegas next week,  to spend a week with my family.  We made these reservations in August when COVID  numbers were down.  Unfortunately,  our nation did not do enough to keep the numbers down - "we're turning the corner on this" - A BIG LIE - and now we're flying in these insane conditions.  I'm very stressed,  very conflicted,  we've talked about canceling,  but I guess we're going. 

Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/20/2020:
Glad you wear your mask at work. Scary that someone in the office is sick.

I get plugged up ears often - very waxy so use ear drops once a week. Sinus headache pills might be helpful.

Turning the corner on this was always a lie as was anything he said. It's getting up to 2,000 deaths a day now.

All I can say in response to your traveling to see family is yikes!

Donkey on 11/20/2020:
I know, I know. I mean, I'm a skeptical, cautious person. Traveling is out of my comfort zone to begin with. How on earth did I not foresee that we would be in this dangerous situation?

I cringe when I think back to August when I was encouraging my boss to book a tour trip to Italy again, with his daughter, in November. Good thing he didn't do that!

But again - what the bloody &^%$ was I thinking???

Jacky82020 on 11/20/2020:
I saw some tests done on planes on TV. Because of the ventilation system, the air quality was excellent. So it should be fine.

Donkey on 11/21/2020:
I have seen this too, and New Guy also brought this up (before I saw it myself online and TV), to help me (?).

They are talking about how you should wipe down everything, and use hand sanitizer - yes, if she can remember to bring the sanitizer this time!

There seems to be conflicting opinions about whether a long direct flight or a layover (2 shorter flights) is better. You know, this makes me MAD. Get together and get it right!

It's kind of like the mask thing - if CDC had just said at the very beginning, We're not sure, but wear a mask, it couldn't hurt, it probably would help -- rather than saying (back in February), No you don't need to wear a mask. I feel like if they had gotten it RIGHT at the beginning, we wouldn't have half of the conflict and problems we are having now.

Jacky82020 on 11/20/2020:
I saw some tests done on planes on TV. Because of the ventilation system, the air quality was excellent. So it should be fine.

legcramps on 11/20/2020:
I think you might find that the airports/planes/travel process are much safer than you think. Although I can understand the hesitation and if given the choice would not travel right now, but if you do everything you can to mitigate your risk, you can at least say you took all the precautions you possibly could to safely travel to see your family.

I haven't seen my family in a long time; my immediate family lives about 2,200 km away from me, and through two provinces. I can understand wanting to take a mitigated risk to be able to see them. It makes me tear up every time I think of them :(

Horn_of_plenty on 11/20/2020:
regarding your job, it is hard to come into work 5x a week and it sounds like you all are getting a little run down. Regarding weitz & lux, whom i interviewed with, they are only in the office 2-3 days a week and work from homme the other days. i think it's really hard at this covid time to come into work everyday like it's no big deal and there's no other challenges. but you are doing a great job!!! xoxoxo

i'm looking forward for you, for your trip to Vegas. Please relax when out there and enjoy the time. just be safe and mask up and take those extra precautions on the flight.

a neighbor has returned from Florida and she is just fine, no Covid. my next door neighbor, in fact.

grannyannie on 11/20/2020:
No way I will travel until I've had a vaccine and even then will wear a mask. It isn't the flights and airports you have to worry about, it's family members who are positive and don't know it.

My sister won't get together with family for Thanksgiving or xmas. Someone in her grandsons school was positive. How would she know if one of her grandkids has it?

Just found out my favourite aunt and uncle who are in their 80's are going to have family for Thanksgiving! I hope they are both still around for xmas with them.

grannyannie on 11/20/2020:
Donkey, I hope you reconsider. My son was only 46 when he died of Covid. High BP and his weight were his only health issues. Unless all your family is going to get tested before you arrive....

Donkey on 11/21/2020:
I know. Believe me, I have struggled with this a LOT. I suppose a small consolation is that we're going from a red state (IL) to an orange state (NV).

Jacky82020 on 11/21/2020:
Annie, same for my cousin. She was a little older than your boy, but in good overall health, except overweight with hi blood pressure, like most Americans. And probably most everyone else. I grew up with her in California. Our fathers were brothers and the families were close. Lost another cousin to covid as well. Didn’t much know him, never lived in the same area, but very sad. Young guy.

grannyannie on 11/21/2020:
I am in a FB group for those bereaved by Covid. There are about 6,000 members. Horrific stories. If you read a few you wouldn't take any chances.

An expert on tv said stay home on Thanksgiving so you aren't in ICU on xmas.

Donkey - Thursday Nov 19, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 139.5

 I did better yesterday but did have 2 chocolates at work at the very end.  I'm almost done with the chocolates,  but let's see if i can hold off eating the last 2, shall we?

This week is almost over and I've done no weight training.  Mostly because I've been trying to get into bed as soon as possible,  and there's always a million chores to do beforehand.  

Tonight,  I have a training webinar for the legal clinic, to discuss ways to reopen the clinics during COVID.  Here's my suggestion:  DON'T.  I have absolutely zero interest in holding/running clinic once a month right now. But I'm willing to hear what they suggest. 

Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/19/2020:
nice job on treating yourself with a couple chocolates...certainly within a portion and does no harm and is delicious! :) good for you.

sorry about no weight training, rest is more important though. you don't need to have lingering colds all winter.

i was talking to my friend about how just about nobody is going to be as produtive as they were pre-covid. like, even at work, with the anxiety and stresses of covid, i feel that most people are not able to be as efficient or productive (to a degree...). My opinion. so i totally agree with you about the reopening of the clinics and how it poses another level of stress on top of regular stresses right now. you do what you can right now...and at least the webinar tonight can hopefully educate / inform you in some helpful way whether you pursue it or not. you do you.

legcramps on 11/19/2020:
It would be different if you had a lot of downtime and would be able to put a full effort into the clinics, but it seems like you've been busy from the get-go, non-stop. I really don't see how adding hours of work to your life is going to benefit you or any of the other staff in your office right now.

grannyannie on 11/19/2020:
Agree the clinics should not be opened. Cases of Covid are rising rapidly everywhere.

If you need extra rest then you should skip muscle work for now.

Jacky82020 on 11/19/2020:
Haha, love your advice: DON’T Do you eat those low fat chocolates or whatever they call them? Supposed to be very healthy.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/19/2020:
i also love your "DON'T" ...see above in your writing in reference to the clinics. lol.

grannyannie on 11/19/2020:
I've bought 85% dark chocolate. Not exactly low in calories but a lot less than others. And it's good for you!

Donkey - Wednesday Nov 18, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 139.5

I'm so frustrated with myself.  I had too many chocolates at work,  and then,  after an unhealthy dinner,  had one of those jumbo oatmeal raisin cookies from the bakery. What is wrong with me?  I know part of it is from not quite feeling good,  but how does eating a whole bunch of sugar help anything?


I was having difficulty with wearing a mask at work,  and used the chocolates to get me through that. 

I have been feeling fatigue in my joints,  cut short my walks (I think). No bike ride last night,  went up to bed and relaxed until 9p. Lights out. Felt better rested this morning. 

Well,  all I can do is what I have done.  Today is a new day. 

Progress as of today: 47 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/18/2020:
Sugar is like a drug with me too. Good while you are eating it but not so great later.

Hope you start feeling better and more energetic.

My mask is a washable one - 2 ply I think with a slot for the filter, so 3 ply. I only wear it for about 15 mins once a week at the supermarket and can't wait to take it off! It's just so hot. I'd have a tough time wearing one all day.

Jacky82020 on 11/18/2020:
I’d be wealthy if I had a dollar for every time I gobbled down a plumb cookie when I sure didn’t need the extra calories. We all do it.

Hate the masks. Stuffy and fog up my glasses. Using one since March now and see no end in sight. Even with the vaccine.

grannyannie on 11/18/2020:
I find that if the nose grip is tight enough I get very little fog on my glasses.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/18/2020:
if you feel fatigue, do rest. i support that!

next, it's ok to have the cookie. remember this. perhaps plan it into your day no matter what. if it's big, cut in half and have it with your tea / coffee or as a late evening reward. you deserve sweets. you can do this.

it's hard to get used to mask wearing all day.

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