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Donkey - Saturday Dec 29, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

Things are back to normal in the weigh-in world.  My 0.5 scale weighed me in lower than my 0.2 Ironman scale by about 1.5 pounds.  After last night's anniversary dinner, I'm surprised that the numbers were pretty much where I've been.  Maybe I would have had an awesome weigh-in if it were not for the fancy dinner, but it was a wonderful night out with my husband.

Tried to keep the choices along the keto guidelines, but had hummus with roasted vegetables.  (Beans are a no-go on keto but great on paleo.)  As a gift, the server brought us a little champagne (delicious but not keto) which was so nice.   Little did she know that I would have preferred a chocolate covered strawberry, but that's OK. It was a lovely gesture on her part.  And the overall experience was better, too.  Sometimes it gets really loud and really crowded.  It was not so loud this time.  And it was busy, but not packed.  Perfect for what I like.  It's definitely a "special occasion" place for us.  I would not go there for just any dinner, although you could.

I was very full when we left.  And I could tell that the food had been salty (as to be expected when dining out), so I was rather delightfully surprised this morning with the weigh-in.  I almost didn't weigh-in.  I mean, why set myself up for an end-of-the-year disappointment.  In the end, I decided to stick to the routine and hold myself accountable.  After all, if I had gained 4 pounds this week, feeling all bloated and stuff, then I need to know that so that I can work on it.


In addition to the list of holiday eating events list, my church lady retreat group is meeting for an end of the year party tonight.  *sigh*  I had been debating with myself as to whether I should go or not.  It's definitely out of my comfort zone, and the last thing I need is another eating event, right?  But sometimes I have to push myself to be more social, and I haven't seen these ladies in a LONG time, and it's good to have connections and hear how everyone has been doing this year.  Most of us are connected on Facebook, but sometimes it's just nice to be face-to-face.  Me going to this dinner will allow husband and son to see Aquaman and then grab a hamburger somewhere.  I have NO interest in either of these things.  Daughter has to work and has no interest in the movie.

If this dinner were not happening today, I'd be completely A-OK with just staying home and doing Donkey things, resting, relaxing, etc., and getting back on track with eating!  (As I finished typing this out, my stomach is starting to give me the queasies, as in, this could be the flu.  I'm definitely staying home if I'm feeling sick; I might just need a little more to eat, so I'm going to try to have some yogurt.)


Today is my last weigh-in for 2018.  I started the year out at 127.5, and finished out with a 3-pound loss.  While that may not sound like much, my weight has been higher than my starting point, so I took that off, plus the 3, and seem to be keeping it off, give or take a pound.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/29/2018:
oh yes, possibly a keto flu? though, you've been on keto awhile and also you eat things that are not always keto. hmmm, Bear has a good question!

I totally get you wanting to be home. as a working woman who's always out (talking about you here, not me lol), i can understand you wanting to be home when you get the opportunity.

I specifically didn't make too many plans this weekend, knowing i really just wanna be home by myself for a good amount of it. :)

don't feel bad if you don't go. i really do understand you just wanting to be home...and not being in front of a lot of food again.

the socializing is nice though and i do hope you feel better!

oh, and congrats on the excellent weigh-in to end the year! what a huge success this year was for you in that regard! you maintained and even dipped under where you started! excellent!

Donkey on 12/30/2018:
I did end up going, and while it lasted WAY longer than I had thought it would, I'm glad I did go because I learned a lot from the older women in the group.


graindart on 12/29/2018:
Love when the weigh-in cooperates. I'm sure it feels good to end the year with a good number.

I'll find out what my final weigh-in is the morning of December 31st after I wake up from my own bed again. It'll have been around 10 days since I previously weighed in before the trip. I know it's just a number and doesn't really matter, but I'm still hoping it's a "good" one to end the year.

Donkey on 12/30/2018:
I'm hoping it's a number for you too, because you're 100% right: it's a very good number.

Nothing more frustrating (to me, at least) to do the right things and find either no loss or even a slight gain in the numbers. I think my lowest points have come when I go off-track, e.g. having a bowl of ice cream late night snack (breaking 2 of my rules) and then finding a lower number on the scale. It's like, What the heck - why even bother?



Donkey - Thursday Dec 27, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

I have not had the time to log on lately, and normally, I would be upstairs getting ready for bed, but I didn't want to let another day pass without writing.   I do read your entries every day.  I check in on my phone when I'm on my bike and quite a few times when I'm at work (since we're not so busy) using my phone.  I refuse to log in on my work computer, because I think the boss' son-in-law checks what sites we visit.  He will be disappointed to see how many times I visit CNN to watch the stock market and keep abreast of the headlines.  (At work, I can easily miss major events, as I'm quite isolated from everything except real estate.)

I feel as though I am struggling.  I am not doing anything fantastic or great in the dieting world, but just doing the same old stuff.  IDK, I feel like I'm eating too much...  I feel bloated, but my rings are not tight.  The scale will tell on Saturday for the last weigh-in of 2018.

Tomorrow night is anniversary dinner.  Then New Years Eve will be take-out Chinese (lots of vegetables!!!) and no plans for New Years Day yet.

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

graindart on 12/27/2018:
Not looking forward to NYE and day. Have 2 long days of travel and should be back home on NYE. Have some work that came in while on vacation that is due 1/2/2019, so will have to get to work on NYE and day to be able to get those things in on time. Definitely not looking forward to it, but don't have much of a choice. Thankful for the work, just not the timing.....

Don't know what I'll be doing as I hopefully enter maintenance in January some time. Thinking about making some type of fitness / strength goal while maintaining weight, but haven't made any decisions yet.

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
You may find that staying in maintenance is a goal in itself. But I agree that having a different type of goal might help you stay in maintenance. I know it's helped with me.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/28/2018:
Yes, i also (obviously you know i do by now!?) go online and use the internet while at work. I do not think it's a bad thing at all though.

A quick five minute (lol or maybe in my case it's 10min!?) scan of something else besides your work can relax your mind and also let your mind focus on something else for a little bit and then you can return to the task with your mind relaxed and ready to work harder. if you are ever questioned, i'm sure studies prove it. it's the same as getting up and stretching / walking at least every hour. it's BETTER for your productivity than just sitting at work, doing real estate all day with no break and no getting up, spinning your wheels and getting farther than you would have you taken the breaks and got up to clear your head! :) it's ok, jdonk i'm sure others are on the internet more than you at work. Don't worry!

Didn't you just start Keto not too long ago? does it count as doing something different in the dieting world?

yum yum to the chinese! it's sooo easy to eat well when you like veggies! enjoy it. another thing i like is the veggie and tofu soup they have at chinese restaurants. enjoy....

and, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to you and Mr. Donkey <3

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
I try to keep DD very private and separate from other aspects of my life, except for the few of you I know on Facebook. I don't do Facebook at work either. Of course, I check a billion times on my phone throughout the day. But nobody at work needs to know me on either DD or FB.

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
I think I'm down on myself regarding the "keto" experiment, because I'm not really hard-core keto. I'm more of a keto-paleo blend. I feel like a failure at both, rather than successful overall.

Who needs that kind of negativity? NOT ME. I gotta change that up. :)



Donkey - Tuesday Dec 25, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

Merry Christmas to all!  Even if you don't celebrate Christmas, ANYONE can have Santa in their heart:  kindness, mercy, sharing, giving, welcoming, forgiveness.  And it's not just limited to Christmastime, but all year around.  

Waiting for my grown-up kids to wake up, LOL, for presents.  So in the meantime, husband and I are doing some food prep for our Christmas dinner of Italian beef sandwiches, fruit salad, hummus with raw vegetables, deviled eggs, perhaps a green salad, and Patti LaBelle's sweet potato pie with whipped cream for dessert.

Fortunately (?), I didn't have many problems with all the sugar from yesterday's late lunch surprise.  I learned that when the unexpected comes up, I really need a go-to plan.  I did not have dinner yesterday, because I was still full.  I felt munchy around 8p when we settled down for games, and could have had raw vegetables with dip, but opted to continue to fast from 4:38p until about 9am this morning when I had 5% fat Fage Greek yogurt.  

Looking forward to just chilling out with the family today, but I hope to log in again at least once more.  Thinking of you all, wishing you peace and glad tidings!

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
Yes, I totally had Santa in my heart today <3 It was a nice day and like you know i even saw my dad :)

OMG love those 5% fat yogurts. also the 2% i like because they are bigger, lol. but they are good to hit the spot.

i think your plan to fast was good as if you were hungry, maybe veggies wouldn't be good? Veggies never fill me, no matter how many...does this ever happen for you?

Enjoy your family. By me it was so restful my dad and i were just relaxing after lunch and the walk. so nice.


graindart on 12/25/2018:
Our day was a wide mixture of things. Calm early morning with wife and daughters. Stressful couple hours with extended family that likes to yell a lot. Mostly enjoyable family lunch. Pretty low-key afternoon & evening with wife, daughters, and their grandparents.

Keep reading about people eating the Fage yogurt. Have a couple other yogurt brands I eat on occasion, but still haven't tried Fage yet. Probably will pick up some to try when we get back home.



Donkey - Monday Dec 24, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

The keto gods must be watching over me...  I suggested that since we're all together this afternoon and evening, that we go out for a late lunch at a loca pizzeria.  The last time I went there, I saw someone getting a deep dish pizza (not Chicago style with all of that tomato stuff on top, but just covered in cheese) and I've been wanting one so badly -- even though there's no low-carbing my way around that crust.  So everyone thought that was a great idea.  Turns out the restaurant, family owned, is closed for Christmas Eve.  It's like a blessing from Above.  

So we're meeting up at another restaurant that also makes great pizza, but has a very varied menu.  I will get something that is more aligned with my plan.  I hope that I can get the family settled down tonight for a couple of games of Yahtzee or Uno.  


It seems to be rather cruel of my boss to have us go to work for 3 hours.  Not so much that we have to work, but that we have to get up early to do so.  I was up early anyway to workout and watch news, but had I not had to work, I might have slept in a half an hour or maybe an hour.


My charmed life book spoke about discretion last night, running along the lines of SHUT UP.  In a nicer way, to be more selective of who we speak to.  This is a chapter I think I need to re-read often.  It hadn't occurred to me, but that might apply to social media too.


EVENING EDIT:  So I didn't do so well at the restaurant.  I did very well until dessert.  My daughter ordered a chocolate brownie with a scoop of vanilla frosting and was too full to finish it.  She ate about half, so I finished the other half.  It might have been more than half actually, that I ate. 

I didn't even need it, as I was full from the big salad I had chosen.  But I won't lie: the dessert was SO good, especially since I haven't had sugar like that in so long.  BUT one of the side effects of laying off the sugar is that when you do have a lot of sugar, like I did, it can upset your tummy.  I took 2 Tums when I got home, and then I proceed to remain active, to help with the digestion.  I may or may not have bathroom issues later on.

My plan is to get right back on track with my plan, whether that be a snack tonight of raw vegetables or tomorrow morning for breakfast.

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/24/2018:
The restaurant situation worked out well. Bummer about work......Boss must have his reasons. I've been thinking about getting the games out around here too.......D said he would like to play a few of the old ones......good way to decide which ones to donate!!!


Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
oh yeah - one of the hardest things about a workday is waking up for it!!!! yes, indeed. Waking up later is much less stressful, but you did it and it's done. Your boss obviously didn't have the early wake-up on his mind - most i don't think would be thinking that way for others?

hey donkey what's the name of the book and author? it sounds good. i may have to read it after the two i have in my possession now. and yeah, i will get it out of the library next if you can tell me what you are reading...i can use all the "selective speaking" help i can get :) it's def not more forte.

you know, you may have a sugar intolerance then ? or perhaps it's just because you didn't have it in awhile. at least it was GOOD. and at least you had a salad beforehand. those are the plusses :)


Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
Merry Christmas to you, hubby and your family!


graindart on 12/25/2018:
I've been saved by that type of situation several times. Sometimes I've decided to indulge in a dessert only to have them tell me they're out of it. Other times we've been going somewhere out to eat and decide to switch places because the line just looks too long. Not the ideal way to stay on-plan, but I'll take the win however I can.....



Donkey - Sunday Dec 23, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

Late morning entry for me because I was busy wrapping gifts.  I've wrapped up with wrapping - ha ha, get it? - and the husband and son are shopping for our Christmas meal right now.

I was reading the keto cookbook that I checked out of the library last night, only to find out that I'm not really doing keto because I eat sweet potatoes and eggplant.  I also enjoy having beans once in a while (and would probably eat more, except that I know they're high in carbs).  So then it goes on to explain that my approach is more "paleo" diet --- except that I eat dairy, which is not part of that diet!  I still think it's better to have a sweet potato with a little butter and salt than it is to have a bag of potato chips.  I'd rather have eggplant than a dish of pasta.  Bananas are better than candy. 

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/23/2018:
That's funny how you are not a diet, but mixture of diets! but i think that's AWESOME and similar to how i eat. I take the best from all the dieting guides out there to make one that i like! :)

sweet potatoes, even better than bananas, are so healthy. i wouldn't exclude them from your diet as the health in a sweet potato (NOT YAM as those are more sugary) is so healthy it'd be sad for you to stop. better for me during exercise would be a sweet potato, but i'm not there yet...

eggplant tho is nice and low calorie. and so tasty with a little olive oil, salt and pepper and grilled or baked i guess is the preferred way right?

Wait, why is eggplant bad! it's very low cal, just the oil adds up but so healthy! i love eggplant!

and yeah, bananas are high cal too, but, their nutrients are better than a serving of the real gummy bears (not yours) any day.

it's up to use to believe the hype or know that we are ok and are choices are ok for us!

you are doing wonderfully. go by what you believe sometimes you'll realize you have more gut feelings and knowledge about what's right than the author of a book or article on the internet.

Donkey on 12/23/2018:
Apparently, eggplant has a lot of carbs? which makes it bad? I looked it up, and a cup has 4.8 carbs, half of which are fiber. Um, that's NOT too much carbs.

I always brush olive oil (not bad) and sprinkle with parmesan cheese, salt & pepper, oregano. Nice side dish and fills me up.


BearCountryGG on 12/23/2018:
Rather your diet has benn mixed or not...it definately worked...and it gave you a wider range of foods which results in a wider range of nutrients.......I'm all for variety.

Donkey on 12/23/2018:
I think that's why it works for me. Those words you said, "No bad foods, just bad portions" is really staying with me!


Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
I wanted to comment last night, but my server was having issues all night and this site as well as others like Groupon weren't working! :(...so here i am now !



Donkey - Saturday Dec 22, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

So here's a twist:  Today, my usual scale, which usually weighs me lower (weighs on the 0.5 lb) weighed me higher than the Ironman scale (weighs on the 0.2), which is usually reads 1 to 1.6 higher.  I don't think that's ever happened before!  And I weighed in on both scales twice -- just to be sure that they weren't lying to me, of course.  The Ironman scale weighed me in at 124.4.  I'll take it!

Here's a fantastic gift from the boss:  he's letting us go at 12p NOON on Monday, instead of 3:00p as previously notified.  I know that this isn't really him being generous out of the blue, as the Christmas service (an "entertainment show" really) he is attending at the mega church Willowbrook is having their first service at 3pm.  IDK a church where you have to have a ticket to watch the service, doesn't really make it in my book.  But whatever.  He goes to church no other time during the year. (eye roll)

So today is my present to myself, by going to the library (LOL - you know me).  I have a book on hold for easy keto recipes.  I also plan to make gummies and chocolate keto ice cream today.  There is a recipe for dark chocolate mug cake -- cake you make in a mug - that I want to maybe have tonight.

Finally, wanted to let you know that our new kitty is coming out of her shy, skittish shell very well.  She's still skittish, but she does ask for pets, loves to play, will sit on your lap if she wants to, and joins any one or all of us at any given time.  She also let me trim her nails very nicely, even though I know she doesn't like it.  I don't like doing it either, but I told her what a good girl she was afterwards and gave her lots of praise and pets.  

 

 

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

graindart on 12/22/2018:
Good job maintaining another week in a row.

Donkey on 12/23/2018:
Thank you -- I almost didn't notice :) Seriously, every week I can stay +/- 1 pound of this weight is good.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/23/2018:
Darn those crazy scales :) i admit, living with my parents several years ago, there was a choice of scales :)

I'm SO HAPPY you are getting out early for MONDAY! :) well deserved, lady!

haha, well, i guess it's not really a service as you said. it must be a "money making" type thing to have this entertainment and people pay to go! it must be good / entertaining.

the cake in the mug sounds good because it's a single portion, nice.

i see nothing wrong with sometimes have a keto dessert for breakfast or dinner. tell us the ingredients for your chocolate ice cream. that's cool!!

what book?

ohhh, your kitty sounds so playful and cutie!!!

question, if i got a kitty, in the future, would she destroy my "fake leather couch"? do i have to "kitty-fy" my apt?



Donkey - Friday Dec 21, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

I was so disrepected yesterday at work, but I didn't let it get to me, other than a little venting to my family at home and now here.  Goes back to "Do your job and SHUT UP."  But I did learn something:  Queen Bee is apparently quite upset that I took the bag of beef jerky that came in one of the gifts from a title company.  I didn't just take it; my boss GAVE it to me.  But that wouldn't make any difference in her reaction.  I found this to be quite amusing.  

My "Charmed Life" book once again had a timely chapter about talking less and listening more.  I find that a lot of people around me talk just to be talking. My husband does this, my Nice Lady co-worker does this, Queen Bee does this.  My boss continually repeats the same stories over and over.

Found 2 keto recipes for ice cream and mug cake this morning that I want to try.  Male Co-Worker is doing keto and yesterday was the first day I could really tell that he has lost weight.  I caught my reflection in the window (at work) and noticed that my Christmas-y outfit wasn't very flattering.  I'm not sure if it was the outfit or just the red Crocs that ruined the silhouette.  Darn my bad feet.  I admit that some of the pants in my rotation need to be taken out.  Yesterday's pants weren't one of those pairs, though.  However, my point is that I think that Male Co-Worker's outfit is what really showed off his weight loss.  My clothes could do the same, but they don't.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/21/2018:
Oh, wow. Queen Bee really is a queen isn't she. I know what you mean about people talking just to hear themselves talk. I can get that way sometimes, but for the most part I do a lot more listening than talking, and I definitely notice when people would rather hear the sound of their own voice than actually have a meaningful conversation.

Donkey on 12/22/2018:
She actually, literally slapped my hand away :(


horn_of_plenty on 12/21/2018:
Before i read your entry...isn't so funny how just "Do your job and SHUT UP" seems to be the cure-all at the office!? right!? There's a new guy (moved from other location into my NYC location) and he seriously says almost NOTHING. he really knows how to lay low. It seems it's also his personality. so, yeah. Suits him perfectly in the office he's in now, my old room, where talking is HUGE. he just stays out of conversation completely which is easy since the 2 women there can just talk to each other and he's input isn't necessary...

WOWWWWWW....so Queen B thinks she's gonna go all KETO and that you took "her" beef jerky huh!!!!!!!! hilarious. she needs to let this go that he gave it to you! I'm glad it didn't get you down as it's pretty hysterical.

Yep, if you just talk you will eventually forget there's anything new to learn from anyone. talking in general can get old in the office especially. yes yes yes!

the keto recipes both for ice cream and the mug cake sound AWESOME!

red crocs! how fun! that's so cool you have red crocs and wore them!

yeah, dress to flatter Jdonk! come on!

Donkey on 12/22/2018:
Your new co-worker is my hero.


graindart on 12/21/2018:
Went shopping with the wife about a week ago. I don't enjoy shopping, but wanted to get out of the house and spend time with her. Caught my reflection in a tall full-body mirror and wasn't happy with what I saw at all. It wasn't my body / face / etc that was the problem, it was my clothing. I've hung on to some of my old clothes that I didn't want to spend money on replacing. Namely jackets and a few other things. Medium is now my current size in most things, so anything X-Large tends to make me look like I'm sickly or something. While I look bad in the way too large coats, I'm also too cheap to go spend a few hundred $ to replace them right now. Made a mental note to replace my jackets at the end of winter when everything goes on sale. So at least next year I should be looking normal with my winter clothing.

Donkey on 12/22/2018:
The last time I bought new pants, I went to Goodwill and found very nice slacks (for work) for like $5 a pair. Since then, though, I've lost about another 5-6 pounds, so they do not fit as well as they might. Also, the Crocs totally ruin the effect. But they are so foot-friendly. I do not have a solution for that yet.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/22/2018:
re the question you asked about why is one person being treated so well in the office:

She's a really, really nice woman. She pretty much has the lowest job on the totem pole in the office as the one "secretary." She is a hard worker and her personality is the best there is as she's pretty much a happy person with quite a bit of responsibility. She's just turned 46 with a teenager and a 20 year old. One in HS and one in college, boys. She's divorced and her "happily ever after" dream of marriage and maybe not having to work so hard changed even before she got divorced. he has a good job as a sanitation worker which pays around 100K believe it or not! However, the ex, the sanitation worker, is into drugs - pot - and blows away his money even actually borrowing from her sons!!!! one of them works and the father asked for money, the son told her! the father doesn't act like a father but as a friend and isn't so helpful to her.

anyways, like many, this lady, my coworker, obviously didn't expect her life to turn this way. Some of her choices didn't end up in the way she'd expected....

JUST LIKE MY LIFE! JUST LIKE YOUR LIFE, DONKEY! SHE'S NO DIFFERENT, REALLY.

however, she's well-liked and i think she might make less $ than me but i don't really know at all. how that works in our office. i really have no idea who makes what. it's a bigger office, around 25 of us working at the address where i am. and i really do not know. i can tell you my salary is also probably in the bottom third. I say this because besides for this secretary, the only other people which will make "lower salaries" are the CAD workers which work under the engineers to produce drawings. and i know for a fact my salary is similiar to theirs because my old friend Ricky (who i don't talk to anymore) had a salary very in line with mine.

Therefore, this secretary probably does have a salary sorta close to mine. it could be more, actually, or the same or slightly under. but i'm in the bottom also in our office in terms of salaries, now that i gave it some thought.

Everyone else in my office is an engineer or project manager. they make more.

So, to recap, i'd say 40% make around my salary and 60% make a bit higher or much higher.

OK...this is getting long.

So this woman. She's well liked by this man who actually has a title i haven't mentioned. he's special because he used to be an electrician before getting injured badly. he chose to come back to work YEARS ago (15?) instead of staying out on permanent disability and has tons of knowledge. he likes to work and be around people and he has a lot of information to share. he's married with twins and another daughter all in their late 20's . he's a happy man and enjoys life and he also gets along really well with...THE SECRETARY....


Horn_of_plenty on 12/22/2018:
So, she's (secertary) is nice and he (the "Coordinator/Manager" used to be field electrician) is nice. They have known each other a long time by both working at this company awhile (she's been here i think one year longer than me) and he's been here like 20 years.

Ok back to the point.

He is very generous to her. I think he feels bad for her and her story of divorce and how her ex even ruined any savings she could have had. she (supposedly) has no savings.

all is not bad though for her. she lives with her mom, father died, in a nice community in queens that i had the opportunity to drive thru and see.

her father passed away early in his retirement, unfortunately.

her parents had a house upstate, that she's now responsible to sell. Supposedly she has the share the profits with her other two siblings which makes no sense since SHE is the caretaker and closest now with her mom.

but like i said, all is not bad, she will inherit some of the price of what the house sells for. It is in the middle of nowhere tho, so it's not a market price similar to those here in queens or suburbs. it will not guarantee as high a price as she would have liked, but, once she rids herself of the house, she can have some savings. she wanted to have it sold, but is having trouble finding a buyer now as it's not seasonal anymore for homebuyers until the Spring. i guess she's in your boat with that, Jdonk.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/22/2018:
Supposedly, the main office (back in Queens where i used to work) does a Christmas collection for the secretaries (admins)). And Dennis wanted to "take care of her" this year like that.

It was his doing. He thought of Administrative Asst Day and he called it that, but i told him it was in the Spring. he wanted me to do the collecting part, so i did and he wrote the email for people to see me if they wanted to give for "administrative professional's Christmas Day!" i thought that was cute way of saying it.

She's the only secretary and around 20 people contributed varying amounts. the total came to $300.

In the scheme of things, if you REALLY think about it, $300 helps with a bill or one thing. or you an save it. but it doesn't change your life. So, i thought it was a nice gesture and i'm happy for her.

it was ALSO her birthday on THURSDAY.

usually for bdays, we don't go all out in the office.

we get cake or go to lunch. there's no "gift."

i don't know why they wanted to get her this workout bag.

i considered it over the top, outside of the $300, outside of any other little gifts people give.

i'm glad i wasn't asked to be a part.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/22/2018:
she gave me a scarf that i really like. (the secretary) and i looked the price up because i didn't get her anything else besides contributing to the $300. it was 15 from LOFT outlet, originally $30 i think. it's NICE.

also someone else, my neighbor grrr, got me something. also a scarf (color is very boring beige and really not nice) and gloves to match. It's on the NY&Co site as being (both items sold as a set) being $3.99. I'm not kidding. the scarf and gloves together are $3.99. I think originally $10. You'd obviously think more, but, i wasn't expecting something from my neighbor and now i have to repay obviously $10 or more.

i'll buy them both drinks next week for the secretary and the week after for the other one (my neighbor), since my neighbor is off next week.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/22/2018:
lol, i think i overwhelmed you.

i don't like gift giving. i'd rather save my $.



Donkey - Thursday Dec 20, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

I did get a nice, long walk yesterday for lunch - about 45 minutes - but then by the end of the work day, I was really dragging.   I thought it might just be not enough calories, or hormones, but my feet hurt too, which is usually a sign that I've exerted a lot of activity.  So maybe long walks at lunch aren't conducive to a good afternoon at work.  Hmmm...

What I really love is that you could say I'm at "goal", and yet here I am, still trying to figure things out (walking, steps, keto, calories, stress management), experimenting (amino acids, collagen, etc.), and deciding what works and what doesn't.  

I've been reading a book that I bought at the library about a year ago (!) about living a charmed life.  Short chapters, an easy read.  It just so happens that last night's chapter was about taking time out for yourself and how important that is to do, to make yourself a priority -- and it doesn't have to be a huge chunk of time. I think they were talking about 5 minutes to be effective.  Wow, did that ever speak to me!  Especially in light of the desired coffee break I wanted yesterday and then my long walk today.  Maybe my breaks don't have to be consumed with walking or eating, but just really doing nothing.

I went to bed very early last night, around 8:30p was lights out.  I was glad to get the extra sleeping time.  I will check my fitbit later on today to see how much time I slept.  Once again, I've been falling under the 7 hour mark, which is not good and is probably contributing to this feeling of fatigue.


EDIT FOR HORN:  I was thinking more of prioritizing with respect to goals, not necessarily stronger workouts, as I feel like I'm more about pulling back, rather than ramping up.  That is to say, incorporating stretching or yoga, taking those real breaks, walking to destress, getting enough sleep (HUGE), staying positive & cheerful (you don't seem to have this problem, LOL), etc.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/20/2018:
I keep crossing the line between...Do it perfectly...balance everything out....and what the heck...i could get hit by a bus ( or more likely a tractor around here). So....I just smile....LOL


horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2018:
Sometimes you gotta just take 5min of the workday and relax. It will help you.

I also cannot do, yet, superlong walks and feel recharged. For my 3mi walks home, i'm good up to 2mi and the third mile i'm still getting used to! Then again, sometimes my backpack is quite heavy or has some stuff in it so it's an extra weight on walk. But i do what i can and wear the backpack so it's least offensive on the walk and on my posture.

Remember, when adding in cardio, each week the rule is to only add like 10%. so, if you were walking 30 min, 10% = 3 more minutes. so, i'm sure in the future you could do a longer walk, but little by little. or maybe after your walk is a good time to re-energize with a coffee and small keto thing or carb.

this book sounds good. lately my books are on autobiographies and biographies of people who struggled in life lately it's due to prejudice but they come out on top despite the odds. the books i'm reading i'm doing so to keep reminding myself and learning how different life used to be for people and how much easier it is for me. it also is teaching me what traits are necessary for perseverance and dedication and reaching a new goal. What's required for change in your life despite the fact that it seems that everything is pushing you to remain the same or when i forget what it's like to lift myself up and realize that life is everchanging and it's in my own powers to make changes and not remain COMPLACENT. ________________________

wow an edit just for me!!!! yay!!!!... lol, you know in the past i have been SUPER NEGATIVE in regards to life situation and work. :) I have learned positivity a LOT from past and current coworkers. i see people who could complain and be negative and they don't. they live life on the bright side. lately i know that basically where i'm at in life now is of my own doing (and not doing). so, i know that if i want to change i have to make changes to get there. if that's making sense to you.

I'll say more on the sleep thing since you mentioned it as a goal. I agree 100% that it is bigger than big. It is huge. I see what top athletic people (but in normal jobs like ours) look like and see the difference between them and people who don't prioritize working out or don't work out at all. There is a BIG difference.

That difference that i see between the exercisers at a high level and the rest of the crowd is that i see that on continual lack of sleep i don't believe you can reach higher athletic levels without the risks of injury, exhaustion or sickness.

the reason i feel this way is due to my personal experiences and my perceptions. I had a boss, who is still a boss but back in Queens, NY in my old office not in Manhattan. He was super athletic. He had more flexible hours. He was a boss that's why. If he was out late, chances were he would be in late the next morning. If he was in early in the morning, chances were he'd leave early in the afternoon. He prioritized his sleep pretty well BECAUSE HE COULD. and also because he wanted to. He's 36 now. He got married, had two kids and did a ton in the 7 years i worked in the same area as him. He had energy.

But the reason he could look one way and feel decent is because he was able to prioritize better than most. And had a flex schedule.

However, that's NOT to say we can't. We just have to be smarter. And that's where i am at.

That's why i don't go out to the gym anymore. It's too time consuming, too tiring after a full commute.

I sound like i am complaining.

ok back to you. I do stretch. and so should you. the stretching and yoga is beyond important. I have to stretch. Sometimes in the morniing waiting fort he bus, i have no cares what other people think. I'll stretch my back and arms as i stand on line. i sometimes get up and stretch at work in my room or quickly in the bathroom.

Stretching is best AFTER you exercise when your body is warm and muscles have been in use and not cold and rigid.

Back to being cheerful. The reason i am "cheerful" and I admit a bit "complacent" with where i am at right now is because things are very good now. I have been moved to a room (and i'm alone today yay bc coworker is out with her daughter having a big deal with a cracked tooth at dentist). But even when i'm not alone, i'm here doing work with just one person.

It's actually hard to get into trouble at this point AS LONG AS I BASICALLY KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT! :)

but i'm still working with FAR BETTER STAFF here at this office since last year. and my boss is OUTSTANDING. she's creative, just a year older than myself but intellectually i admit she's a superhuman type and can manage many different projects at one time as well as thoughts and conflicts. she's special. i got lucky.

lately the thoughts of being fired have gone. I have vacations in the near future. I'm getting some credit back on the problem i had with paying for the transit service i didn't use. I won $283 at a union meeting.

not to boast!

things in my life have improved from 2-3 years ago when i felt litterally dragged into hell with how things were going at work and with the coworkers back in queens and nasty queens women who thought it was fun to run other women over out of evil and spite. Literally.

but through my commuting and being among a different crowd here at work as well as on the bus and in the subways, i see life differently. and i see how lucky i am. with the union meetings, i no longer dread going. i realize it's one event every other month that i should want to go (lol, especially after winning $283 earlier this month). but also, it's good to challenge myself to do more than the minimum. to go there in hopes to take back with me the "one sentence of value" that someone spoke during that hour meeting.

and with exercise, not that IN GENERAL i work far less overtime and have better balance than i did a few years ago at this company, i GENERALLY (outside of this month) feel good on the weekends and can do the exercise better. and also i have learned to be more open to working out ANOTHER NIGHT and not the same night as a union meeting. i've learned to better balance with time and learned to switch things around and be more creative with plans. and also, a little bit, i've learned to say no and to realize when something or someone is "just not worth it."

I have a lot of learning to do and i'm sure even in ten years, when i'm 47, i'll be learning.

and in terms of your goals and mine, this is the year - THE FIRST YEAR - where a goal of mine in terms of FOOD is not only calories anymore. now i have JUST STARTED to think of nutrition.

because nutrition affects your mood and your energy and your body's overall condition.

it's important to see the big picture.

all your goals, they do tie into each other. they are influence each other.....


horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2018:
oh...about you being at goal...

The word "complacent" comes to my mind again.

You aren't being complacent, no! But in order to be always changing and making yourself a better you, you may reach a weight goal, yes. But new goals must come into play or it sure does get boring. This is the good part for you. You've reached a good weight for yourself. Now, your goals can start to get more interesting. You have moved beyond needing to reach a minimal goal. Your ability to improve on yourself and your goals has reached a new level. and no, it doesn't all need to change at once. little by little. it's a good feeling when you do NOT always have to start back at beginner square one.

<3 <3 <3


horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2018:
and of course, always, most who reach a desired weight will definitely need to keep it moderate, but it's no longer as aggravating or frustrating to do as you learn more and more in the process!


graindart on 12/20/2018:
I tend to get so focused on a major goal that when I final get there, it's almost a let-down because I just realize that the thing I've been working so hard towards didn't magically transform my entire life. Logically I knew all along that it wouldn't change my entire life, but I still dreamed it would. At that point, the achieving of the goal did change that thing for the better, but often times exposed other things that I would like changed. So that means setting another major goal. But I'm already so burnt out from working so hard and long to achieve the previous goal, that the last thing I want to do is fully commit to a new one. Which leaves me asking myself "when do I get to just relax and live a carefree awesome life like all of the TV commercials tell me I can?".

Anyways, Merry Christmas. Try to relax and enjoy Christmas-time with friends / family and I'll try to do the same.



Donkey - Wednesday Dec 19, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

I'm having too much fun here on DD to go to work today...  If only that would work :)

Having a lower energy day today, so I will be focused on trying to get to bed earlier tonight.  I'm feeling muscle fatigue in my legs.. this is hormonal-related, but it's still my body telling me to rest, so I do plan to do that. It will be a nice day here in Chicagoland, though, so I do plan to take a longer walk at lunchtime again.  Hopefully, though, there won't be any negativity today, motivating me to walk more. 

My boss takes the month of January off to go down to Florida.  I plan to use his hiatus to take longer walks during January, too.  Of course, the weather has to cooperate.  I also renewed my supply of amino acid supplements to take after exercising, which is supposed to help with muscle recovery.  I'm actually just hoping it contributes to a leaner appearance -- oh Vanity, you always win in the end.   

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/19/2018:
Well, if it helps you drink more water, than those aminos are a win-win!


legcramps on 12/19/2018:
P.S. glutamine also helps with muscle recovery!

Donkey on 12/20/2018:
Thank you! Will do some research and keep this in mind. I started taking the amino acid supplements as a substitute for some stupid Advocare product that costs over $40. I can get 2 jars, more quantity in each jar, for just under $40.


BearCountryGG on 12/19/2018:
When the boss is away....the mice will play....for real>>>>LOL....Sounds like January will be extra stress free.

Donkey on 12/20/2018:
I hope so, although there may be additional work & stress because I will have more to do. The boss said that I should not be afraid to ask the associate to do as much work as possible. I would agree except that the level of confidence is not quite the same, and he's out of the office a lot, supposively in court, but sometimes he goes to the gym, to the bank, to lunch with his mom, home, etc.


horn_of_plenty on 12/19/2018:
yes, my body is in total low energy mode. Def need more sleep. I may just skip my workout Thursday, YES!, and do it Friday as i'm feeling quite beat. I think i'm going to need to sleep well a couple days in order to up my energy :)

Enjoy your longer walk. We enjoyed going into Sephora where i've gotten 6 free perfume samples over the past two days :)

Yes, i think the aminos are good supplements. I have them in my caffeine free drinks that i use before and during workouts.

have a good day, sleep extra. :) i think this time of year you need to.



Donkey - Tuesday Dec 18, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

I wanted to log in this morning to recap yesterday.  I went into work with such a different attitude of serenity and patience, and yesterday, this served me well.

So I went into today feeling the same way, and until noon, it served me well.  Then I had a very ugly encounter with a title company representative, who had gone off on our buyer-client (yelling, aggressive, swearing), who called me all distressed. So I called the title company to find out what the problem was, and I got the same treatment!  Turns out they completely dropped the ball and then got mad because we (the buyer and myself) asked them to do what I had asked them to do last week!  WTH????

I immediately went for a long walk for my lunch hour, after letting my boss know what happened -- he won't do anything about it.  The walk helped a lot.  AND I found out that the secret to getting a higher daily step count is --- can you believe it? --- to talk longer walks at lunch time.  I get a whole hour, I can use the whole hour to do what I want.  Folks that stay at the office and eat in - either in the conference room or at their desk - usually only take 40 minutes. 

But it was really hard to recover from this episode...  I did not take out my frustrations by eating. In the past, I could have gotten a big bowl of potato chips and stuffed down my emotions with chips.  What I really wanted to do, after my walk, was to have a cup of coffee and just sit, but instead, I finished my lunch salad at my desk.  I didn't really get the chance to just sit and relax.

Male Co-Worker is doing a strict keto diet and having really good results with it.  He brought me several different flavored "fat bombs" to try:  chocolate, blueberry, and cinnamon.  During the course of the day, I had 1 chocolate and 1 blueberry.  I am saving the cinnamon one for tomorrow's 2nd breakfast.  In turn, I brought him a piece of the keto gingerbread cake I had made a few weeks ago and had to freeze because nobody here would eat it --- and I couldn't very well eat the whole thing by myself.  (I mean, of course I COULD, but that would not be helpful...)  I brought him only 1 piece because gingerbread isn't for everyone, and he uses monkfruit as his sugar substitute, while I use Swerve.  He said he loved my cake, so I will bring him a few more pieces and the recipe.  (I asked him to be honest, and if he didn't like it, that would be fine because I would be happy to finish what I gave him.)

You can be assured that I will be making my own fat bombs in the future!


EVENING EDIT:  I've been fighting the urge to eat something more, after dinner.  However, I'm trying to resist, because I don't think it's hunger.  Stress from work?  Hormones?  Fatigue/tired?  Anyway, I thought I'd log in to stay accountable.

PS  Remember that copy machine guy incident I was upset about on Friday?  Turns out that it was the Girl Who Makes a Million Mistakes made a mistake, and forgot to mention that she had gone ahead and said that someone could stop by on Friday.  When this was relayed to me on Monday by our regular copy guy, I said, "Well, that part about letting me know, never happened, and I think that caused a LOT of problems."  Everyone in the room agreed.

So it was a simple misunderstanding, that I mishandled, and learned a valuable lesson.  It's really too bad though that Million Mistakes Girl couldn't own up to this.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/18/2018:
It sounds like you handled everything really well!!!! I've heard of fat bombs....they sound good!


graindart on 12/18/2018:
Made chocolate fat bombs nightly when I was on low-carb for a month this Spring. Mine were basic with coconut oil, stevia, and cocoa powder. Then I'd refrigerate until it hardened. Tasted pretty good, low-carb, but high calorie.


graindart on 12/18/2018:
After dinner is always the time that I have such a struggle. I can go most of the day without eating much of anything. But as soon as I start to eat dinner, I don't want to stop. I've purposely been keeping the kitchen / pantry pretty sparse, with not much in the way of temptations. But it doesn't matter. I'm still tempted to eat non-stop on the same mostly boring foods I ate for dinner.

Donkey on 12/19/2018:
HUGE habit to break. Especially if I stay up late and watch TV. I've completely changed my evening routine now, which has helped. It's boring, but that is what has made the difference.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/18/2018:
sounds like a nasty title representative! hey, nothing you can do but realize that they probably reacted that way KNOWING it was their fault! maybe it's one of those people that never accepts they are in the wrong & the just get angry at the other party involved! at least it sounds sorta like that.

yup, same here regarding lunch. in general, i'm over-taking the time. i'm lucky, nobody is watching at all. it's pretty lenient and lately i make sure to go out. it's very healthy to go out, move around, before coming back to work for the next half the day! i feel better, for sure, after being outside. it's so healthy, not a joke! you know i'm in the city, so the variety of stores to go in and where to walk is pretty endless..i usually take 30min up to an hour sometimes. we are only given a half hour, but, like i said nobody is watching or saying a thing!

listen, have the coffee...is someone not allowing you to? i don't think people would even notice, no!? you have to do what's best for you, within reason, to feel good at work to do your best work and feel decent doing it, right? i'm just saying, do what makes you happy - people don't notice as much as you think.

oh nice! he made fat bombs! that is awesome. definitely somethings that i enjoy. so what else is in the fat bomb? cream cheese?

i also like fat bombs because they are small usually and just skip the sugar but have the nice sweet taste anyways with fat. satisfying snack or such!

so did you let the girl that makes a million mistakes know to speak to you, next time!??? i hope she knows...or she'll make a million AND ONE mistakes! hahaha

i'm glad you found out what happened. i'm glad everyone agreed. see? sometimes the truth comes out!

enjoy your night.

Donkey on 12/19/2018:
I really should have had the coffee. I wanted to have a fresh cup of coffee & a fat bomb and sit in the small conference room, just looking out the window for about 5 minutes. What stopped me? The fact that I had 1/2 cup of old coffee still in my cup from the morning... When will I learn to make myself a priority?



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