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Donkey - Sunday Mar 21, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Good morning!  I slept in this morning, almost 9 hours of sleep!  But I had waken up a few times during the night.  At one point, I woke up with my neck in a lot of pain - Yikes!  I adjusted my pillow and my position and fell back asleep.  I don't have pain this morning in my neck, thank goodness.  My left hip is feeling a little sore, not sure why - maybe from the gym?  I can't see why, since I did upper body weights yesterday.

I belong to a body-building group on Facebook, and I recently read a post from a woman who said that once she started focusing on weight training, she didn't care what the scale said any more.  How wonderful to have this freedom!

So I've been thinking of making some changes, since what I'm currently doing isn't really working.  However, what did I do this morning?  Same ol' workout, same ol' breakfast.  Oh how HARD it is for me to change my habits.  When I'm in my comfort zone, I don't like to move from there.  Even if that "comfort zone" becomes slightly uncomfortable, I'll stay there and make it work.

The problem with me making changes is that I do try to make changes, and then the scale goes up!  Or I get really weird readings varying up to a 1.5 pound difference!  The scale is becoming an unreliable source of reward (positive re-inforcement), and yet, isn't this what this is all about?

The weather is one of the nicest days in our area today, so I will be filling up my birdfeeders, and hooking up the exterior garden hose, so that Husband can clean off the garage floor from the winter salt.

I do plan to go to the gym, perhaps this afternoon - hoping that it will be emptier than usual, while people are away enjoying the outdoors.  Will I take an outdoor walk myself?

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/21/2021:
Habits are hard to break......Shake it up time....shock your body with something new and unexpected....it will be all confused and then it will get out of it's routine......Sometimes I will stop the oatmeal and have a scrambled egg or omelette with peppers.....and the scale usually drops when I do that. Funny thing with celery too.....that seems to work really well for me with the scales...

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
I agree, just not sure how to do it, what to change. I don't want to be making a change, having problems coping with it, and being "stuck" at work unable to do anything about it.

Well, maybe that's what I need, so that I have to live with the change, as uncomfortable as that might be. Ugh... I have to think this through a little more. I can't think about it right now.

Jacky82020 on 03/21/2021:
Maybe you need a new scale! I use the Fitbit one, connects to an app on the iPad. Also use a Fitbit to count steps/bike revolutions.

We go through a 40 pd sack of wild bird seed every week. A Walmart staple.

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
I think I need a new scale.

OK, I don't feel so bad going through the bird seed like I do, then.

Maria7 on 03/21/2021:
I am pasting what I replied to your comment to my yesterday's entry, in case you haven't seen it today: 'We have to take into consideration that muscle weighs more than fat, so only relying on what the scale reads can be deceptive to how we are truly doing. We could have more fat on our bodies and weigh less and we could have more muscle on our bodies and weigh a little more. So, if we are very active, we are probably carrying more muscle weight, so we should not be discouraged if the scale shows we weigh a little more than we would like to weigh.'

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
Possibly... I do think I've put on some muscle weight, but I'm still at 32% body fat. Also, my doctor doesn't really look at anything but the weight number. I don't mind adding muscles, especially to my arms, but could I please lean out a little? That would require calorie restriction, and right now, that's really, really hard to do, for some reason. I think it has something to do with having to wear a mask all day at work.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
is there a way that hubby can help yuo and clean kitty boxes when they need to be done so you don't have to do it alone?

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
The new bag of litter did not arrive in time to do all of the boxes this weekend, so I did one of them, and the other 3 will have to wait.

This is not a chore that Husband can do, due to the bending over and such. Also, it's kind of a tacit deal that we have that I do most of the cat clean-up. I wanted the cats, so I clean them up.

I may only do 1 box this next weekend - taking them in order of necessity - so that it's not such an overwhelming chore. That's a good idea, thanks!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
i'm reading what you wrote in your previous entry, about the time you initially lost 50lbs and being able to resist foods more easily = yeah, me too! it's harder and harder to resist food as we get more experienced with the weight loss...and we do not like how it felt to resist and do not want to if we can help it, again.

you shouldn't have to be as resistant as you were in your initial weightloss because now you know of alternatives and ways to not binge like initially. you should be a little better at not bingeing than you were at the VERY BEGINNING. try to use all the helpful things - teas, coffee, but with a chocolate or snack. try to include the things that were once off limits, but then you have to fit them in...you can't just indulge and lose weight, but, you can fit things in and eat your veggies at meals to balance out...i'm saying nothing needs to be restricted or totally off limits.

when i had the chemical process done to my hair this week, i wasn't sleeping well...the smell and all...and also the stress of work had me waking up like you are in the middle of the night...i think i'm passed it now, i'm glad you were able to sleep 9 hours...

...i was reaading about a lady that is the oldest lady in the world in Japan at 116 yrs old...she attributes it to sleep and her family! ha!

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
Good point! I have to agree that it's better to weigh a little bit more than to engage in repeated binge-eating behavior. That's a good point!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
you say it yourself: when you make changes the scale goes up!

therefore, you do not need so many cchanges, just far less , smaller changes...much less. stick with what you like and know works, try to have smaller pieces of cake / pie and fill up on tea / coffee with the food. that's how i do it. small granola bar, and drink with it (especially at work, drinking liquids with food helps me gREATLY)

you do NOT need to be pushing yourself out of your comfort zone all the time...it's taking SMALL steps. not frustrating large ones.

you want to do it all at once, but you do not have to!

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
THIS was mind-blowing. Like a lightbulb went off. And also very reassuring. You're right, maybe my changes don't have to be big ones after all. Hmm... I'm going to explore what little changes I can make AND psychologically handle.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
i am sooo lucky! found the metrocard in my bed! it fell out of the back of the phone when i was sleeping, i must have moved it out while sleeping! so glad i have it! money saved!

good idea of a swap from wrap to oats. if you swap to oats, your breakfast will be more voluminous. i think it'd be good to either have the pb or an egg with the oats or after when you are hungry again, as the oats may be very filling at the time if you also have coffee.

i tend to not be able to do very voluminous breakfasts at work because i get gassy and don't do well using public bathrooms since they are right near people's workstations at work! but if you can "pooooop," then i encourage the oats! :)

cool thing is oats have same calories as the wrap, but lots more volume.

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
I too cannot have a big breakfast. Just not my thing. I find it very annoying in others who enjoy a big breakfast. I don't know why, it just bothers me to hear Associate Attorney talk about his big breakfasts. It annoys me when Husband has a big breakfast, too.,

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
maybe make them with a low cal milk like almond milk.

if you want to make the oats with regular types of milk, like 2% milk, then you will stay fuller longer than if no protein in the oats. then, you can have the egg/pb later or any snack really...if you can hold out to almost lunch, i'd say a dark chocolate is also something small to shoot you over to lunch! :) ha!

Donkey on 03/22/2021:
I don't consume milk. I do love almond milk, but that's not something we always have in the house. I much prefer my oatmeal, made with water, and with a TBSP of peanut butter. I'd much prefer some walnuts in my oatmeal, for texture, but oh my goodness they are so high in calories! Even a little bit has a lot.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
over a pay raise, if i were making more, i'd totally take 5 weeks vaca! ha, i'm sure attorney's salary is quite nice anyways! time off = luxurious! :) lucky attorney, he must do things well enough that boss appreciates him....as he MUST appreciate you too!

Donkey - Saturday Mar 20, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.5

Good morning!  Happy Spring!  I almost missed the fact that it's the first day of Spring today! I've got so much chaos swarming around me, that I'm missing what's important to me.  I'm losing - or I've lost - my focus.  

The scale says I lost 2 pounds, but I'm still feeling bloated in my stomach.  I've been able to eat red meat this week, so my appetite has returned. I'm wondering if it's excess stomach acid from stress that's causing this sensation.  You would think that this unpleasant heaviness in my middle would stop me from eating, but it doesn't.  It's like an automatic response that happens without me even thinking it:  Stressed out = eat food.  I suppose its an inate reaction, but I can't seem to be focused or mindful enough to steer away from that route.

Also, you would think that because I'm wearing a mask all day at work, that it would keep me from eating.  (Hard to eat while wearing a face mask.)  But it doesn't!

When I had originally lost the 50 pounds, I was able to focus enough on resisting foods. I didn't let the work stress or family stress deter me.  It's not working this time.

We found out this week that my husband has indicators that he has Celiac's Disease, meaning that he's got to modify his diet to exclude foods with gluten.  He took a blood test on Friday, so we should have the results this coming up week.

Well, if I can maintain my focus enough, I plan to enjoy this weekend and do things that make me happy or at least content.

EVENING EDIT:  Went to the gym this afternoon with my daughter.  Because the weather is nice today, the gym was not too crowded.   However, what we DID have was people taking up 2 weight machines at a time, while they did their routine.  So, one guy would alternate between 2 machines.  Except that it wasn't just ONE guy, it was a few guys.  So Daughter and I left without doing the ab machines, but that's because all 3 of the machines had personal property on them - indicating they were being used.  Enjoyed some time in the steam room and came home.

Now I'm about to have a nice salmon dinner with my husband and enjoy an evening of British mysteries and folding & putting away laundry.

Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/20/2021:
i wanted to say thank you to the comment you left me so i'm replying back here so you don't miss it: yay for the weekend, i appreciate your empathy for me here because you gave me what nobody else would be able to. my parents don't give it the same way and neither my friend in westchester.

nobody could give me what i have been needing, which is your comment, quite literally.

other people, a monthly call with therapist last night - gave me suggestions. as well as my mom - and those suggestions were mostly what i had in my mind anyways but the therapist and my mom where able to making me see things a little clearer, especially the therapist - she's fantastic. i don't know her by face, only phone calls, it's a cool deal from my insurance offered to people who's "health profile meets having these monthly nurse calls opportunity."

also, i haven't caught up on you diaries yet.

Donkey on 03/20/2021:
You are MOST welcome! :-) I have to say, despite my work complaints, the Boss usually has a receptive ear. (Not always, but I'd say more often than not.)

The ironic thing about a bad boss is that they don't realize that they are actually hindering their own team, but not being a better boss. I wish I had a solution for your situation. I suppose you could do a self-evaluation of your procedures. Perhaps try to think outside of the box? Or just say that you've got too much other, more important stuff going on in your life right now, so deal with it Mr. Boss.

Mistakes Girl usually acknowledges her mistakes and then just keeps on doing what she's doing. I think that's actually a healthy perspective.

Donkey on 03/20/2021:
That should read "by not being a better boss".

Maria7 on 03/20/2021:
Congrats to you! Happy for you! Hope you have a good day. I know what you mean about stress-eating. It helps temporarily, but then there is a price to pay.

Donkey on 03/20/2021:
Actually, I'm having a GREAT day :-) I'm really glad, because it's been a while since I've had a day like this.

I just need to short-circuit that automatic response to turn to food. That will be my tool.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2021:
i promise to catch up, but my comments back to you for your comments on my entry yesterday:

it did smell nice. it underccooked, i may have to cook it more, used coconut milk instead of evap / condensed milk. it's ok. :) may have needed one more egg.

being in union 10 years, i am entitled to 3 weeks, not the two that is up to 7 years in union. damn - sorry you only get two weeks. that's harsh. i also get 5 sick days that if you don't take, you can opt to get paid for at the end of the cycle year.

i was at times slightly below 110 like a month ago, i think my weight may be back up, because i've also had many days that are 2100 or so...higher days i mean.

it's been fun enjoying a variety of foods, bigger variety than ever, it became possible to do this as i learn to be more and more moderate...and keep weightlifting / working to add some cardio.

Donkey on 03/21/2021:
3 weeks is nice! I think Male Co-Worker has worked his way up to 5 weeks' vacation. This is in exchange for a pay raise. My Boss doesn't give raises much.

Donkey - Friday Mar 19, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 147.5

Well...  I would have to chalk up yesterday as an eating failure.  I was doing OK, until after dinner, when I overindulged in some heavy whipping cream that I had whipped up and froze.  Ended up eating the whole container.  Damn... (sorry, Maria)

No gym last night.  Ended up mopping all the floors and that took a whole hour of my evening time.  I was exhausted from work, came home and had to unload the dishwasher, after eating dinner, had to mop up the floors.  Rode the bike for a little bit.  Then proceeded to eat the whipped cream.

Thank goodness it's Friday.  I know that this weekend will just fly by, but I definitely need time away from real estate.  Unfortunately, with the weather being nice, there may be extra work to do, since the cat boxes - all 5 of them - need to be emptied, rinsed, cleaned, dried, and refilled.  That is a LOT of work.  And there's nothing to say that if Kitty has problems, that I might have to mop the floors again.  Oh my...

We'll see what this week's weigh-in will be.  Last night's eating won't help none, but this is not a good number to be at, and I'm tired of struggling here.

Progress as of today: 39 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 03/19/2021:
That whipped cream had to have been very good! Well, you are still holding off 39 lbs. you have lost and that is fantastic! We have to have SOMETHING good to eat sometimes, with all the stress we all deal with from time to time!

Donkey on 03/20/2021:
You hit the nail on the head: STRESS MANAGEMENT. I keep losing my focus on this. Same way that I lose focus on that feeling of being (slightly) hungry. For losing weight, that little feeling of hunger is something that I should be REVELING in. That means that I'm doing it right.

Something in my brain bypasses that and thinks, "Me want cookie" This happens at work, at home (like with the frozen cream), etc.

Can't focus on my goals!

Jacky82020 on 03/19/2021:
All them Xtra chores is bound to burn off them Xtra cream Cals! Never had it frozen, but love my desserts frozen. I buy canned whipped cream. Great in coffee.

Donkey on 03/20/2021:
I ate out of fatigue and stress/anxiety. Next time, any extra heavy cream is going down the drain. Won't whip it up.

Jacky82020 on 03/20/2021:
We all do that upon occasion!

Donkey - Thursday Mar 18, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 147.5

How on earth is is NOT Friday yet???

I was all set to write that my stomach problems seem to be resolving themselves, as I had chicken for dinner last night, except that my stomach is doing flips this morning.  It's not preventing me from eating, but I feel like there's a lot of churning going on in my middle.  Still, I will take leftover chicken for lunch.

The Boss joined a gym on Tuesday night, so I guess he realized he's gained weight, as was so obvious to me when we got the pictures from the office photo shoot.  So yesterday, he brings in an apple coffeecake and St. Patrick's Day iced butter cookies.  I took 2 cookies home, one for my daughter and one to share with my husband, which we did.  Boss was pressuring me to partake of the coffeecake, but I don't like coffeecake, and especially NOT the ones from this particular bakery, as they have a layer of cake (sponge cake) as a filler, so that it looks like there's more fruit than there really is.  Coffeecake is a pastry dough, not a cake dough.  A streudel not a Swedish flop.

I did not go to the gym Tuesday (exhausted from work) nor yesterday (wanted to chill out at home, and then many chores to take care of).  I have been thinking about going tonight, but I think I will not go, and instead mop the floors, ahead of the weekend.

Thinking that I would make it to the gym this week, I haven't done any weights at home this week, either.  Ugh...  Well, maybe a work-week off is a good idea.


Progress as of today: 39 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/18/2021:
Sorry to hear about the stomach problems. Any idea what’s up with that? The apple cheesecake sounds delish! Love frozen chocolate cheesecake the best of all.

horn_of_plenty on 03/18/2021:
glad your stomach is practically resolved, this week does suck big time...

i feel like it's THE neverending week! yes.

let's celebrate once tomorrow is here!

horn_of_plenty on 03/18/2021:
1771 cals for yesterday is very nice...very light. will def help you with weight loss / maintenance. undoubtedly! just saw that part of your entry now!

Maria7 on 03/18/2021:
I hope your stomach feels better. I wouldn't eat any cake I didn't like, either. Hope you have a good day. Take care.

Donkey - Tuesday Mar 16, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 147.5

I'm not sure what happened yesterday, but I never heard my alarm go off.  I'm awake, lying in bed, decide to look at my Fitbit watch and see that I'm an hour late! 

This morning, quite like the past 2 nights, I've been waking up way too early (like 2am, 3am) and just lying in bed "awake", except that I must drift off, because the next time I look at my watch, 45 minutes has passed.  Still, it does not feel like I've drifted back to sleep; it feels like I've been lying there awake. 

When I finally got out of bed - heard my alarm this time - I came down to coffee all over the countertop.  I must not have set it up properly last night. 

Despite having prepared a week in advance for the time change, I have not adapted well.  This is the worst year yet.  I find myself missing the darkness from the previous time - which is rather uncharacteristic of me (I'm a Leo).  Although... sometimes, when cats are injured or sick or unhappy, they will hide in dark places, too.

Stomach still isn't quite right.   

EVENING EDIT:  I weighed or measured most of my food today and found that I took in 1771 calories.  I'm actually quite surprised, because I thought I was being more restrained in eating that I actually was.

I could easily have eaten more, to feel satisfied.  I was so tempted to have a glass of wine before/with dinner, but I didn't because I knew I was counting calories.

I cannot imagine cutting calories more and being able to cope with what I have to deal with daily.

Progress as of today: 39 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/16/2021:
You will adapt very soon, Donkey. It’s a change alright & I wish it never happened. Sorry you’re waking up all those times! Sucks!

innerpeace on 03/16/2021:
Who knew one hour could wreak some much chaos? I too am having issues getting acclimated to this one little hour...I never noticed it so much before. I am blaming DH and having to get up at 3:15....

bearcountrygg on 03/16/2021:
That beginning transition after the hour change is weird. We never did adjust last fall...so this time we are kind of forcing ourselves to work with it. Getting up to go to work would be hard though...I'm sure a lot of people suffered yesterday. Hope you feel better...tummy troubles are miserable.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/16/2021:
that's what happened with me on Monday, with alarms. I don't remember them going off, but they did because they were still going off when i finally opened my eyes...ugh, i sure hope i'm beyond wakeup issues for tomorrrow! maybe i'll stay away from an urge to take a benedryl...! yup, no benedryl tonight!

try not to be too distressed about the middle of the night / very early morning accidental wakeups...if you get to aggrivated over it, it will just stress you even more and you will just have even more problems with the sleep / wake thing!

but i'm glad you write it, at least you do not have to keep these bothers to yourself, which is even worse!

i can understand you missing the darkness...you were used to it...

Maria7 on 03/17/2021:
Your last sentence says it all...how do we eat less and deal with stress? Some days are easier than others. Hard not to give in. I think stress makes a person hungrier! At least it does for me! Smile! I think I'd rather be a little heavier than I am comfortable with if I can eat a little more and feel happier, anyway! Have a good day. You are doing well. You are still keeping off about 40 pounds that you lost overall. That is SUCCESS!!! We can be happy we don't weight our highest weights! We should celebrate!!!

Donkey on 03/18/2021:
This is true! Still, I know I'm not at a comfortable weight for myself. I do feel much better at around 135.

Donkey - Sunday Mar 14, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 147.5

Still trying to work out my stomach issues.  I feel a little better today.  That is to say, at least the idea of eating meat seemed feasible, and the morning coffee is actually enjoyable today.

Went to the gym yesterday and did upper body weights.  This was not the best workout.  On some exercises I had to reduce the weight and by the 7th rep, I felt like my brain was going to explode or stroke out.  I had no temperature, and felt OK aside from my stomach and my head.  Weird.  It was a nice day outside, though, so the gym was practically empty.

Today is still nice, but not AS nice, weather-wise.  I don't know if I will go to the gym today.  If I do, it will be lower body weights.

My attempt to adjust to the turning of the clocks did not go as well as I had planned.  Even though I worked up to the change, I did stay up a little too late last night, and then getting up on time today was just not happening.  I slept in until 7:30am.  Thank goodness this wasn't a work day! 

I've done all my weekend chores, and I think this afternoon, I will do 1-2 loads of daughter's laundry.  Just wash & dry for her.  

I'm getting my haircut today.  Time to chop off the COVID growth and return to a length that works better for me.

Progress as of today: 39 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/14/2021:
OMG! I totally forgot about the clock change, but Matt moved them 1st thing. At one point, until I read this post, I was surprised I woke up so late.

Glad you’re feeling a little better & here’s hoping it gets better yet.

Maria7 on 03/14/2021:
I got up this morning and changed 10 clocks in the house to one hour forward! This does not include my watch, nor the stove clock in the kitchen. Then when I saw Mama at her window, I had to ask someone inside the nursing home to change Mama's watch and her clock on her side of the room there, too, which they did. Mama likes the new time, she said. She said it feels like it is making the day longer. To me, it feels like it is making the day shorter, so to speak. Smile.

horn_of_plenty on 03/15/2021:
I wrote a few words of encouragement to you for your previous entry below :) <3

I know how when you aren't feeling well physically, it's a mental slam in the face too, i could relate to that.

bland foods certainly work best for stomach upsets.

nice job going to the gym as an "out" to feel better, not every workout will be 100%, but it shows you have gusto and a passion for exercise and well being to still show up.

LOL, i totally missed it with adjusting to the clocks and was late by just over a half hour today! OOPS!

i cannot wait to see your haircut! I've been starting to want one, too, but i plan to get it processed with straightening again towards more of the warmer weather when it's humid so that my hair will stay straight even on "bad hair days" bc of heat and humidity...so i'm going to push and wait to get the haircut the same day as i get the treatment done...i guess that would be around June - really, you know my hair is short, i may just do a trim in the back this week, but really waiting till June to get a real cut / style per se!...i will take off a lot of my hair in the back, but keep it longer in the front is the real cut i want, around June, taking the hair off my neck area.

i cannot wait to see your cut! :) Please show it off.

Maria7 on 03/15/2021:
I hope your stomach is feeling better today. Try to eat on the 'bland' side of foods...and watch out for acid from drinks. Drink more water and that will help everything be more bland.

legcramps on 03/15/2021:
Sounds like you need a little time for yourself right now. It's ok if your days aren't going as planned, or you're not feeling your best lately. These times happen, they will always happen, and I think it's more about how you respond to them. Take the time, try to discover what it is your body is asking of you, and don't beat yourself up for not staying on your perfect track. That's not a reasonable expectation, and you don't need to incur further stress if you can help it. Take care!

Donkey - Saturday Mar 13, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 147.5

 I'm not in a good place right now.  I've been "off" all week, with my stomach, and then the sciatica, and mentally-spiritually too.  I thought about not weighing in today, but hiding from reality won't change reality, so I stepped on the scale.  Again, I had different readings based on which foot I stepped onto the scale with, but overall, I seemed to average around 147.5.  The 0.2 scale had me at 148.0, and that usually weighs me about a pound heavier, so 147.5 this morning it is.

The 0.2 scale shows me pretty much at the same body fat, but higher water content.  That is consistent with the bloated feeling that I've been experiencing and the extra carbs I've been eating to "self-medicate".  Just off altogether.  Sciatica on Monday, raw throat on Tuesday (thought I was getting sick, but now I think it might be allergies), too much dessert on Tuesday, Wednesday was chocolates at work in the afternoon, and a big ol' pile of fries at dinner.  Thursday and Friday were lighter days of eating, but heavy on the carbs.  I am hungry, but my stomach feels heavy and bloated.  Last night I had spaghetti for dinner with no meat, because it was the only thing that seemed appetizing.

And I really don't feel like talking, although I do too much of that.  I just want to stay silent and keep to myself.  So why am I writing here, right?  I guess just to get it all out and organized. Mentally, I feel very unorganized, which prevents me from functioning optimally.

Spiritually, I feel empty.  I'm sorry I'm not commenting on diaries.  I just can't do that right now.

Progress as of today: 39 lbs lost so far, only 12.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/13/2021:
Tomorrow’s another day, Donkey. And so is the day after that and so forth and so on. Plenty of time to get back on track. Appetite is particularly difficult to control when you’re feeling lousy, be it physically or mentally. Hugs.

Donkey on 03/14/2021:

horn_of_plenty on 03/15/2021:
I'm really sorry you are not feeling your best at all. I want to tell you to listen to Jacky, time does heal, and you will get back on better footing <3 Have trust.

Donkey - Thursday Mar 11, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 146.5

Yesterday was so stressful at work. Lots of deadlines that weren't met,  which made more work for me. 

Started to feel unwell,  like a sore throat. Self-medicated with too much ice cream. Went to bed early,  but could not wake up early. I will try go to bed early or earlier tonight as well,  although if I go to the gym,  that won't happen. 

Husband is getting an endoscopy at the hospital tomorrow. I just realized that this means an extremely early morning for me. I'm taking the morning off of work to help him with all that. Oh my...

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/11/2021:
Went with my Dad when he had an endoscope.....Once they take them back...it's pretty quick and they wake up quite well to...hopefully it goes fast for you guys too....Hope you aren't coming down with something and that that immune system kicks in fast for you.

Maria7 on 03/11/2021:
Hope you feel better. Don't forget that gargling 3 or 4 times a day with very warm, salted water is very beneficial.

Jacky82020 on 03/11/2021:
Sorry to hear you weren’t feeling well & hoping things are better today. Hugs!

You are one busy Donkey! Take care, my friend.

horn_of_plenty on 03/12/2021:
Happy Friday Donk Donk! I hope all goes well with your morning and also getting your hubby to his appointment and assisting him with all the related activities today.

I have come to a realization about work / stress / deadlines not met. i want to say that we become creatures of habit at work. try to make sure that between your work activities you take breathers - even go on your phone to see the news or facebook or google something or look over your schedule.

the reason i mentioned the above is because that is what works for me. in order to be able to have had the somewhat more active weekends lately like the volunteering, i need to make sure i work myself up to them...and do not deplete my entire mind and energy both mentally and physically leading into the weekend. i have gotten better at that with this job...and i have been trying to get more sleep as well...but i'm getting a little better and working on "maintaining" my energy levels so that everything weekend is not just a wish to be in bed but i can accomplish things and feel better 7 days of the week and not have a weekend, every weekend, where i feel horrible because i didn't maintain any energy stores and used them all work during the workweek. I'm just saying it could be a habit that you can improve upon (or perhaps this doesn't really relate to you - but it does to me)

Get some extra rest this weekend, maybe some airborne or Vit C...i hope you feel better. I liked maria's salt water gargle tip.

Donkey - Wednesday Mar 10, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 146.5

I did not go to bed early,  as I wanted to,  so I did not get up early,  to start adapting to the time change this weekend, as I wanted,  but I did get up on time,  so I suppose that's technically getting up early,  LOL...  At least it's Wednesday,  and we're half way through the week. 

I survived the photo shoot. Fortunately,  I didn't have to take a new headshot,  just group pictures,  and the photographer put me in the back.  During the whole ordeal, we were also dealing with a very smelly gas leak in the building,  so the whole thing was literally nauseating. 

But I'm relieved to report that Queen Bee did not lose any more weight.  In fact,  she may have gained some back. 

I told my husband,  and he was like,  "I called that one." I wasn't going to mention it to Daughter,  because I didn't want to put my issues with weight and body image on her,  but, at dinner, that was the first thing she asked me - LOL!  And Husband told her,  "I called that."  My funny family!

I did a great upper body weights workout at home! But unfortunately, beforehand,  indulged in too much of the Husband's birthday brownies.  If it had not been for the brownies, it would have been a good eating day. 

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/10/2021:
Oh, YUK on that gas odor!!! Glad the photo shoot went well.

I am on my recumbent bike for hours and hours everyday. Hop on first thing in morning & read the newspapers & trade etc. Get off and go downstairs for the treadmill, should do that more! Also should give that spinner another try. Burns my ass they said if accommodates down to 4’10” and I need a huge block or step stool to climb aboard.

Donkey on 03/10/2021:
Why just sit when you can bike too, right? That's kind of how I feel about it.

bearcountrygg on 03/10/2021:
Gas leaks aren't to be messed with!!! Hopefully that was resolved....and glad to hear that your photo shoot went well.......

legcramps on 03/10/2021:
I may have missed the entry about Queen Bee and losing weight...was it starting to look unhealthy / is that why you are relieved that she has not lost any more weight?

Sounds like things are getting a bit easier for you; glad you have been able to get in some good Yin Yoga and it was just what your body needed :)

Donkey on 03/10/2021:
Queen Bee is a very mean, nasty person. She's always made a big bragging deal each time she started a new diet program. It sucks when mean people are successful.

horn_of_plenty on 03/10/2021:
first i want to comment here and leave my thoughts on your lovely entry from yesterday! i'm so glad you had a good yoga session, that you are "ready" for the photo shoot (WONDERFUL!) and that you are trying to accelerate yourself into getting used to the change of clocks (smart). i have read that too, that it helps to change them a little over time...

lol, i had to laugh...how you all had to pose in a smelly room due to a gas leak....i swear, i feel like i'm watching a sitcom on tv with all the strangeness occuring at the same time like a photoshoot in conjunction with a foul smell! lol, donkey!

your funny family indeed...in terms of queen b, what comes around goes around! she's not nice so weight is not nice to her! LOL...

well, at least the brownies were good, birthdays are a wonderful time to celebrate with cake/brownies. also, i did upper body too yesterday - we rock!

Donkey on 03/10/2021:
Trying again tonight to go to bed early :-)

We do rock!

horn_of_plenty on 03/11/2021:
all i'm doing this week is sleeping as much as possible...last night, i fell asleep directly after dinner on the couch (i eat on the couch) with a guinea pig in my hand...woke up from cute Ricky (the sick pig) nipping me softly bc he wanted to go back in the cage / be off of me!

Donkey - Tuesday Mar 09, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 146.5

Oh my I'm so limited on my time this morning!  But I woke up feeling so much better today.  Yoga last night really helped.  I texted my teacher at around 11am and told her what had happened, and asked her if we could do just a Yin session, which is basically holding stretch poses for longer periods of time.  Ohhhh that was so nice!  I could feel how tight I was in my right leg.  Poses that are  normally easy and enjoyable were a little more difficult and "strained" -- that is to say, I could feel that the tension in the muscles was tighter than usual.

I did an easier bike ride this morning - not as vigorous - and I am thinking I will not go to the gym tonight.  Maybe just a light bike ride this evening or a stroll on the treadmill.  MIGHT do upper body weights at home.  I will definitely walk at lunchtime.  That felt SO GOOD yesterday, and I will do it again.  

As I told Horn, I want to start shifting my sleep to accommodate the change in daylight savings time this weekend.  I read an article this morning that it helps to start going to bed a little earlier and waking up a little earlier, each day this week, leading up to the hour change on Saturday night (to Sunday morning). 

I thought I ate well yesterday, especially at dinner! but then kind of lost it with the sweets afterwards.  It was controlled, but relied on the sugar-free gummies too much.  And had an extra chocolate Kiss.  Maybe 2 Kisses.

I'm psychologically ready for the photo shot for the office today.  It is what it is.  I am what I am.  What I really want to do is just sit back and watch Queen Bee.  I want to see if she's lost more weight, maintained, or gained some of it back.  Also, because she is such a strong personality, it's better if I just fall back and stay silent, except of course, to be kind and say hello and stuff.

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 03/09/2021:
Glad your starting to feel better. Take it easy.

bearcountrygg on 03/09/2021:
I agree with your approach to Queen bee totally.....RIGHT ON!!! I'm finding that a cup of herbal tea in the evening is helping me some nights to stay away from snacks....I have several flavors so I pick something different each time and it feels kind of decedent

Jacky82020 on 03/09/2021:
Daylight savings! I totally forgot! Thanks for the reminder. Nice the yoga class went so well. YAY!

grannyannie on 03/09/2021:
We set our clocks ahead March 28th.

Maria7 on 03/09/2021:
Glad you are feeling better. I know the photo will turn out awesome!

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