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Donkey - Monday Mar 08, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 146.5

I stayed up too late reading Twitter posts after the Meghan & Harry interview with Oprah last night. So not only am I short on time this morning,  but I woke up with awful sciatica in my right leg. So I'm moving slower.  I think I can still drive to work safely.

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2021:
I hope you feel better!

I also watched all of the Meghan & Harry interview, I thought she was well-spoken and quite smart. I thought her answers overall were better than Harry's / more thoughtful / more thoughtful.

grannyannie on 03/08/2021:
We've seen lots of clips of the interview but we'll have to wait until tomorrow morning to watch on the station that will show it tonight at 9pm. We can replay anything on iplayer.

Sorry about the sciatica - I know it's really painful.

Donkey on 03/08/2021:
I'd be interested in your thoughts on the interview. I think you have a rather unique perspective, being an ex-pat.

Jacky82020 on 03/08/2021:
Sciatica sucks! Have it off and on, mostly off. Hope it’s better today.

bearcountrygg on 03/08/2021:
Sciatica is the worst.......I watched the interview too...interesting......and I have to wonder if Harry really is Charles son...and if that had some sort of impact on their decision.

Donkey on 03/08/2021:
Harry looks so much like Diana's father. I don't think there's any doubt that Charles is his father, in my opinion. I remember being young and thinking what a fairy tale royalty was. My goodness, what a train wreck this all turned out to be.

Maria7 on 03/08/2021:
Try to get some extra rest to get better, if you can.

Donkey - Sunday Mar 07, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 146.5

Good morning....   I didn't mention it yesterday, but Husband and I did not attend Chair Yoga on Friday, because of his GI problems.  Yesterday was awful for him, with pain and exhaustion, and nothing I could do to help that I knew of.  Finally, we tried something new, and that seemed to bring him some relief so that he could at least sleep. He took a nap, and then went to bed early, slept through the night (thank goodness).

However, because he want to bed early, I was not able to do my usual night-time routine, so my laundry remains unfolded.  Yuck.  I did not mop floors yesterday, so that remains in progress today...  I had a nice time with Daughter at the gym, though.  I did a little cardio on the elliptical and then we did an upper body circuit.  A little hot tub, a little steam room, and then home.  I relaxed with working on the puzzle a bit. I won't finish it today, but that's OK.

Ideally, I would like to go back to the gym today, to do lower body, but I'm remaining flexible on that.  I'm struggling with cramps and other things related to TOM.  So if I go, it will be for enjoyment and relaxation.

I have to prepare myself, psychologically and also wardrobe-wise, for the office photo shoot on Tuesday.  I need a combination of black, white, and dark gray.  I also need clothes that fit.  I'm 10+ pounds heavier than I was before.  To top things off, Queen Bee will be there.  I'm sure she's lost more weight, and that will be even more added tension (for me).  I'm taking your advice, and NOT getting my haircut just for the photo.  I'm not ready yet, so it will be what it will be.  And I will wear powder and lipstick for the photo.  Truth is, I'm getting older and it shows in my hair and skin.  It is what it is.  

To Do Today:

  • My laundry - fold & put away
  • Mop floors - basement (done), main, upstairs
  • Gym - lower body weights
  • Puzzle
  • Wipe bathrooms that Husband has used


Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 03/07/2021:
Just do the best you can and don't worry about it. I know your photo will be beautiful!

grannyannie on 03/07/2021:
Hope you hubby gets relief from his issues.

Don't stress about a photo. You'll look great! We all get older. Better than the alternative!

grannyannie on 03/07/2021:
Don't worry about mopping floors or housework. Not the end of the world if you don't have spotless house.

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2021:
i still need to do the molding of my nightguard,somethign about boiling it. of course i didn't look into it fully yet so that's my activity for tonight if i want to start wearing it!

does hubby need to have a screening of hi GI to make sure there's nothing else causing his issues that you need to attend to?

i'm sorry you didn't attend chair yoga. i loved it when i did it last Spring during the height of the pandemic.

ohhh nice. hot tub and steam room = luxurious. def take advantage!

and the least the photography color combo is great. if you don't want to stand out, mostly black always works...good luck, have fun <3 don't worry too much about what other people think as soon enough this whole photo business will be behind you. and 10lbs heavier is far better than 30+. try to stay in the mindset that you are worth it.

Donkey on 03/08/2021:
Husband has 3 tests relating to GI. He has taken 1 test, with negative results. The 2nd test is this Friday. The 3rd test is pending because he has to prep for it. It involves eating a limited diet and with him still having problems he's not ready to do that, I guess.

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2021:
yes, i like the verbage that the nyc parks uses to call these special volunteering experiences "stewardships." they also have something called a "super steward!" haha, not for me, too much commitment.

also, yes, i should bring the pig back...and i may just bring all 3 back...and then bring the other two back for their second dose too...seems you do need two doses...i wish i brought all my pigs...i'll just work on this one, see if it fixes everything. i think mites are very hard to find / see, even with lab equipment.?i'll update you on the progress of Ricky's (my pig) healing..

Donkey - Saturday Mar 06, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 146.5

(Edited this morning to add more relaxing, enjoyable things to my "to do" list...)

Good morning!  This will not be an ideal weekend.  My husband is still struggling with GI issues, and he woke me up at 2:11am to help him with medicine.  So of course, I got a later start in the day, due to the interruption in sleep, and woke up rather exhausted.  I know it's not really in his control, but I did mention to him that if he could wake me up either at 1am or 3am, that seems to work better with my sleep cycle.  Still, I realize it's not in his control.  

I'm rather frustrated with my weigh-in.  I weighed in twice, with right foot first -- got 146.5 both times.  Then I weighed in twice, with the left foot first -- got 147.5 both times.  Tried one more time with the right foot first on the scale, and got 146.5.  So here's the thing:

  • Why on earth am I getting 2 different readings depending on what foot I use to step on the scale first?
  • Why on earth am I gaining weight when I'm eating moderately, increasing my activity level, staying active?

IDK....  I'm so frustrated and feeling overwhelmed with everything.  And right now, I DON'T NEED ANY MORE STRESS IN MY LIFE!!!

My morning so far has been consumed with helping Husband manage his pain & symptoms.  I did ride my bike - thankfully! - and I've been able to start my load of laundry, and finish up Daughter's load that she did late last night.  The floors need to be mopped but I am saving that specifically for tomorrow, so that I don't stress myself out too much today!  However, now I'm feeling like mopping might actually relax me a little bit.  So whatever works for me, to reduce my stress levels, that's what I'll do.

Anyway, especially because of my husband's problems, the bathrooms that he uses need special attention, even though the cleaning lady is coming on Monday.  (I would not ask anyone to clean a bathroom beyond the basics.  I do the scrubbing, if you know what I am saying.)

I just got Husband into bed, again, to try to catch a few hours of sleep.  I hope this time it works and he can get some sleep.

My daughter and I are planning to go to the gym today.  She tried to go yesterday, but there was a really bad accident (see my comment in Horn's entry from yesterday -- it's a short commute, but 2 dangerous zones with construction, and this accident was at the worse of the 2).

I want to work on the sailing ship puzzle.  So relaxing...  And I think I might be able to finish it today, possibly tomorrow.

To Do Today:

  • My laundry - wash & dry
  • My laundry - fold & put away
  • Puzzle
  • Fill birdfeeders
  • Spend time with my plants
  • Gym - ideally, upper body weights
  • Organize plethra of recycling for the bin, for pick-up on Tuesday.
  • Maybe take an outdoor walk around my neighborhood?

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 03/06/2021:
The work stress is making you eat and gain.

Hope your husband feels better soon. A sore gut is horrible.

Strange about the scale!

Donkey on 03/06/2021:
You have a good point. I may THINK that I'm eating more moderately this week, when in reality, maybe I'm not. I'm considering getting a little notebook to log in calories via weighing foods.

I was very anxious Friday morning at work, but refrained from eating anything extra that I hadn't brought to work myself.

The sure way to help Husband feel better is to go see a doctor. He makes the appointments but by the time the doctor can see him, 2 weeks later, he's much improved. So nothing gets done.

IDK about my scale. Maybe it's time to let that go....

Maria7 on 03/06/2021:
Hope your Hubby feels better. That is wonderful that you know how to do puzzles. I cannot do that but I can play the piano. My Mama likes to draw. I guess we all have different things we can do to relax us and bring joy. I know your puzzle will be beautiful! That is nice that you got a bike ride in yesterday. Hope you have a good day today.

Donkey on 03/07/2021:
I used to play the piano - for many years! - so I know of the joy that you get from that activity. AND it is also very relaxing - well, it can be, until you get to a tricky part that you have to practice a little more, LOL. I'm kidding - even that is relaxing and enjoyable.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/06/2021:
its funny how you say people talk too much - not in my industry!...rather, not in the depts i have been in! (but i KNOW what you mean!) i bought a night guard and will try it out tonight !..i may use at work also, but try only at nights first i guess!

thank you so much for those jaw exercises.

i need to write you back for your entry today but i didn't read it yet...

Donkey on 03/07/2021:
I just realized I hadn't commented on your entry yesterday, so I'll be doing that today. It was kind of an overwhelming day for me...

Good luck with the night guard. If you find that the store-bought one works, then you may want to invest the money to have the dentist make you a professional one.

On the other hand, there's something to say about a minimal investment in the store-bought kind. Just switch it out when you want, try a different brand/type, etc. It breaks or you lose it - no biggie.

Donkey - Friday Mar 05, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Went to the gym last night and got home late in the evening.  Spent some time catching up with my daughter, so I didn't turn off the light until after 11pm.  Did not get up early, so I'm short on time, but I wanted to thank everyone for your very helpful insights on managing the work stress this week AND insights on eating & menopause.  THANK YOU!!!

Tonight is Chair Yoga with the Veterans group.  I'm looking forward to spending time with Husband. 

PS  Husband did NOT go to the gym with me.  He's going through some stuff right now, so it's whatever.  It's all good. 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/05/2021:
i went to comment and it got deleted ugh...my fault i believe.

i'll change up my comments from what i initially was writing to benefit you more, i think. it was mostly about my workout plans and how i realize my lower body is such a short bit of exercises that i actually completed 75% of it in like 5-10 short minutes this AM. and i'm considering 1x per week lower body on workdays in the AM. i realize it's so minimal, perhaps i can find extra time in the AM to do it, and not have to ever worry about it after work...

Donkey on 03/06/2021:
Switching it to the morning might help you feel energized too. I've not been able to incorporate weights into my mornings. I would not want to, if I had to go to work right afterwards. I find it better and more effective to do them at night - if I do them at all <<<I'm getting better at that!

horn_of_plenty on 03/05/2021:
i think it's wrong your boss is bringing all that junk in so often. i would def recommend the veggie or fruit tray. fruit / veggies could last the whole week, you can keep it in the fridge after the first day, it may save you money and time on packing your own stuff, too! another perk!

Donkey on 03/06/2021:
This past week, I've been bringing an extra piece of fruit to eat. If I don't want it, that's OK, but if I do or if I'm tempted - it's there.

Also, if I'm tempted, I give myself permission to have a can of Diet Coke. I know that's not the ideal substitute, but for me, it's a real treat when I have one. I miss it, but stopped drinking Diet Coke because of the aspertame. However, when the situation is desperate, I'm willing to make that trade-off.

horn_of_plenty on 03/05/2021:
there are times when you have to wake up or early in the day make a promise to yourself that you will not let your workday stress interfere with your commitment to yourself. I have told this to myself, many a days, on my evening workout days for upper body as well as if i were attempting upper/lower in one night. I tell myself, this is the one thing for me, and i try to stick with my habits at work, drinking water around 3pm-3:15 so i can use the bathroom right before i leave at 4ish, having a small snack at 3pm also like a chocolate or two or whatever i want, to power me thru walking if i'm including walking on the commute, and the snack also gets me thru the last hour at work so i'm feeling perked up at 4pm to go home....

i snack somewhat at work and gear myself to not be unsatisfied or stressed due to food at work...i try to take a breather inbetween some tasks i do at work as well...i will do an internet search or something to clear my mind or log onto fb /instagram (on my phone, not work laptop for those lol).

i am a little better these days at moderating myself at work and trying to keep a balance so that when i go home (yes, i am still tired of course), i can get home around 5:30 on workout days, eat dinner, relax on the couch, and feel good about rousing myself back into a workout that evening. I tell myself that there's no reason i can't do it, that i have prepared to be able to fit it in.

that being said, i no longer would think to go to a gym with my current schedule as too much time is wasted in my commute (minimum 2.5 hours a day commuting without any extra walking)...and i'm not about to add gym commuting time too...it's too much for me, a person that likes to sleep! ha! so, make sure being a member of a gym is worth it to you - or understand that some days it's just easier to workout at home with gym not all the time...try to see what works for you, and understand that it's your choice and doesn't make you lazy but smart about your workout plans.

side note: i do one day hope that i may be able to go back to the gym, i would probably do additional exercises, particularly legs maybe? but for now, i'm set.

Donkey on 03/06/2021:
The commute to the gym is the main reason why I objected to joining THIS gym. It's not a long distance, but it's completely out of my way. Also, even in the short 15 minute commute, there are 2 AWFUL construction zones. Awful, as in dangerous! However, it is a lovely gym, above the "basics".

My point is, I don't blame you for saying no to a gym right now. Had we not joined, I think I'd be quite OK with my home set-up.

horn_of_plenty on 03/05/2021:
CHAIR YOGA - sounds amazing. I like it, too.

Donkey on 03/06/2021:
It's not strenuous for me, but it IS very relaxing. However, we canceled this -- we did not go. My husband was having problems again, and he felt that he was not up to it. It would not be appropriate for me to go alone, because I'm his "guest", since it's a VA program.

grannyannie on 03/05/2021:
Hope all the advice helped you deal with the stress. And it's Friday so weekend is nearly here!

When I went through menopause I thought I was having weird hormone problems. Night sweats, hot flashes, weepy. Never though it was menopause since I was 40. Went to the doctor and yep, menopause. He put me on HRT and within 3 weeks I felt soooooooo much better. I had also been quitting smoking (after 25 years) at the same time. So I was a mess!

Donkey on 03/06/2021:
I have concerns about HRT, if that is an option presented to me. I've been hearing a lot about the "bio-identical" HRT, which uses plant-based estrogens. Not all mainstream doctors go that route, though.

Donkey - Thursday Mar 04, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Oh. My. Word.  The stress at work yesterday was just unreal.  UNREAL.  I have about 3-4 files with VERY high maintenance clients/agents that are behaving just OFF the walls.  I am SO glad that I had not planned on going to the gym last night, because I think I would have just scratched that off the list.  As it was, I went to bed (too) early, because I was feeling so fatigued. Not just mentally but also physically.  I felt beaten.

Unfortunately, when I go to bed before 9pm, I usually wake up at 2am ready to go - and that's exactly what happened.  Went back to sleep - not well - and woke up to Daughter leaving for her overtime shift at 4:33am.  Vowed to get up in 15  minutes, but that ended up being 30 minutes later. 

I DO plan on going to the gym tonight, to use the lower body weight machines, with probably either a treadmill or elliptical to warm up with.  I'm going to be p*ssed off if work is so stressful that it wipes me out from fulfilling my goal.  I will not let anything stress me out like it did yesterday, to prevent me from doing what I want to do with my *own* time.

So mindful eating was not really happening yesterday, too much, although I did resist the sugary foods at work.  The Boss was complaining that nobody was eating the iced cinnamon rolls he brought in on Monday.  He ate one.  Later, I told Male Co-Worker and Mistakes Girl that I've been sorely tempted to take a spoon, and just scrape off all of the gooey icing on the rolls and eat that, leaving the bare, scraped buns left in the tray.  They said I should do that. (Ha ha ha)  There's still half a coffee-cake from last week.  My hope is that the boss gets the message.  I don't think he will.

Overall, I did well with eating - I think - but it was not very mindful.  I did try, from time to time, to slow down at dinner. I think I did a good job with that.  Husband finished eating before I did.

Lord, give me strength to get through this day... 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/04/2021:
BREATHE>>>>>>and know that you work to live...not live to work.......work allows you to have a life.....since money is a necessity. My motto may not work for everyone but it sure worked for me.......I worked my butt off at work...gave them more than they paid me for.....made myself so reliable there that they feared they might lose me.....Every job I ever had...I quit them...and every job called me and begged for me to come back to work for them....I did return to 2 of them because they were in a pinch at the time......but ultimately...I was the one that won....because working hard during work hours made my day go by so much faster....made me feel in control of my job and they knew they could rely on me. BUT...on my way out that door every night....that job stayed there...and it was now MY TIME......and I enjoyed my time to the fullest........until I had to go back to work. Luckily I enjoyed my jobs so that made it easier..BUT...it didn't take away from the fact that they ere paying me to achieve what they needed there from me....but they were not paying me to worry about work when I was on my own time.....D had trouble leaving work at work and he ended up with an ulcer......I paid attention to that and learned that lesson......in fact on one vacation he ended up in intensive care because of it.....( that is when the ulcer was diagnosed)....nothing like being on vacation.....husband in the hospital, truck in the hospital parking lot that I couldn't drive because it was a stick shift........trailer in a campground miles away...and a 5 year old foster child that they thankfully let me bring into the hospital........if it wasn't for the help of the hospital finding me a car dealership that picked 5 year old and me up at the hospital...gave me a loaner car and pretended to do an oil change on our truck so that I could have the loaner.....I don't know what I would have done......to top it off....5 yr old and I went back to the campground that night....and when i closed the trailer door and locked it...the lock broke...and I ended up tying the doorknob to a cabinet door so that I felt safer....then discovered that the water tank was empty...so no bathroom or kitchen sink water......but we lived through it......there are a lot of irritating things that happen and at the time they seem overwhelming....but they are also the things that one day you will look back on and think..."I DID THAT AND SURVIVED IT"...and now I know that I am tougher than I thought.....and you will do that too......these are the things that make us...US...

bearcountrygg on 03/04/2021:
I also want to add that I've had plenty of failures in life...it hasn't all been roses......but those things too...make us who we are...teach us where we need to change and grow.....failures are just another way to find out what we need adjust.....so they are also helpful along the way. You are doing great.....and you will deal with whatever comes your way.....as long as you learn the lessons that the hard things teach!!!

grannyannie on 03/04/2021:
Sorry you had so much stress!!!!

Working out at the gym is great to help relieve your stress after work. Otherwise it's tempting to just say f*** it and go home and eat what you shouldn't. Then you feel guilty.

Maria7 on 03/04/2021:
That has got to be tough, resisting cinnamon rolls and iced coffee cake in the office. Would be nice if your boss would substitute fruit and veggie trays for that, instead. As for today, yes, we can count on the Lord. Take care.

Donkey - Wednesday Mar 03, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

 I've been getting less than 7 hours of sleep and yet still getting good sleep scores in my Fitbit. I'm also able to get out of bed in the morning more easily. Rather than *dragging* myself to the edge of the bed, I'm somehow finding the energy or motivation to just get up and get started, which is great,  because I can waste a LOT of time with struggling to get out of bed, like an hour,  sometimes more. Not recently,  though. I'll take it!

I didn't do so well with the "mindfulness" part of eating yesterday. However, I ate only the food I brought with me to work and left an orange that I just didn't get to. At around 4:30p, I thought about opening up the orange but by then it's almost time to go home.

Oh but I struggled with myself not to get into the chocolates at work. THE BATTLE CONTINUES.

I took a longer walk at lunchtime. I ate moderately at dinner,  because I had planned to go to the gym later in the evening. Which I did,  go to the gym,  but I went alone because Husband changed his mind. I could have chickened out,  but I overcame my social anxiety and inner laziness and went.  VERY PROUD OF MYSELF FOR OVERCOMING MY FEAR. 

I did the rowing machine to warm up,  and then upper body weights. I wasn't very organized in my routine. Just grabbed machines that I thought I could figure out how to use and that were available. The 2 back muscle machines were always occupied, so I decided just to go home. I'll do back weights here at home this morning. 

I wore my mask the whole time and cleaned everything. 

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/03/2021:
I’m proud of you too! Well done, girl!

I like rowing machines, got a terrific used one years ago. Had another used rower before this. It croaked on me after a few years.

grannyannie on 03/03/2021:
Good job!! Yes, chocolates are so tough to resist.

Do you have to wear a mask while you are the gym? Is it a big gym? I miss mine!!! I had a very set routine I did when I went. Still did the dumbbells and floor exercises at home though.

Donkey on 03/04/2021:
It is a big gym. I wear my mask all the time at the gym. I even walked into the shower stall with my mask on! When I started the water, I was like, Oh, I need to take off my mask.

Masks are mandatory when not at your machine. However, the weight trainers go from machine to machine, so they pull their masks down, because they are constantly on a machine. Not ideal.

horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2021:
if you are borderline those 7 hours, that's not too bad for me for a day or two. but then after that I start to feel it and need more sleep.

lately i'm in the habit of taking my time to get out of bed, not sure if it's such a bad thing, feeling like i have to "warm up my brain" lately and i lay in bed waking up the the radio / talk radio...but i think it'd be better if i were sitting up out of bed using that time to watch the news, holding a piggie, is probably better and less rushed! LOL.

speaking of mindfulness in eating, i'm going to probably need to eat slower and more carefully soon because i've been indulging lately :) just because the hours are longer in my days and i've gotten used to the job, pretty much.

great job walking at lunch, i'm trying to do this also even if just around the block which is what i do these days (just to get the body moving/digesting, etc) and i'm glad you were able to get out to the gym! wonderful!

the rowing machine is great isn't it.

Donkey on 03/04/2021:
The thing is, what would work is if I went to bed at the same time and just slept in later in the morning, to get more sleep. That would cut into my exercise and DD time.

So then, I go to bed early and wake up at 2am ready to go. That's too early to start, so then I dose on and off until 5am, and I'm exhausted.

Maria7 on 03/03/2021:
Very smart about not letting fear rule you. Especially easy to do these pandemic days. But you were very smart wearing your mask and cleaning everything. Good for you.

Donkey on 03/04/2021:
I think so too. I mean, there's a fine line between being careful and courteous for others' safety, and the need to do what one has to do.

What drives me NUTS is people feel that they NEED to eat out at a bar or restaurant. No you don't. Stay home.

bearcountrygg on 03/03/2021:
Good job deciding to just overcome the fear.....!!!

Donkey on 03/04/2021:
It's the introvert in me that holds me back. And I'm probably a little Aspie (Aspburger's) too because I'm very focused on routines. Anything out of the routine is painful --- until it's not. :-)

Donkey on 03/04/2021:
Asperger's -- I can spell, but sometimes my fingers are a little clumsy in the morning.

Donkey - Tuesday Mar 02, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

I got myself out of bed a little early, so I have more time to write here, using my laptop.  I could be walking on my treadmill, but I'm (sort of) planning on going to the gym this evening, so that's why I'm making DD a priority this morning.  And lots to tell!

I felt that i was eating more mindfully at work.  I never was able to step away from my desk to eat at a separate table, but I was mindful of my bites, and made a concerted effort to drink more water while I was eating.  I think I did better.  And the damn Boss brought in more damn pastries!  This time it was a tray of iced cinnamon buns.  Sorry for the swears, but it is so damn frustrating.  And there's still half a coffee cake (the cherry almond walnut thing) from last week!  I was very tempted to cut myself a big slice of that and put it in the trash, so that it would disappear quicker, but then I realized that the correct course of action is to show the Boss that nobody is eating the stuff he brings in.  He's a 70 year old man who had a heart attack and needs to lose about 20 pounds.  Complete denial.

I will continue to focus on mindful eating and no eating while I am at work.

For my lunchtime walk - and I'm pretty proud of this - I did a little jogging during my walk outside!  Jogging outside is completely different than jogging on a treadmill.  I won't do this every day - I won't do it today, I'll just walk - but I am hoping to do this more frequently at work.  

Yoga last night was a little surreal.  I was definitely struggling with balance issues.  I think it's because TOM is coming soon, and so I'm a little "off" overall - more emotional, bloated, a little constipated.  Still, it was a very nice session, and I did not feel that anxiety/dread that I have been feeling in the past, of having a time obligation   I didn't feel that this time.  It was just another thing to do in my day.  So that is good.

In trying to get back into the gym, Husband and I are planning to go tonight, to do a little cardio, and then weights.  Since, for me, this will be mostly weights, it should not take too long, but that may depend on how busy the weight section is.  Usually, after 8pm the crowd thins out.  This will mean staying up later, but I'm starting to wonder if I don't function better with closer to 6 hours of sleep, rather than the 7 hours I've set as a goal for myself.  Anyway, the "plan" is to make it to the gym on Tuesday and Thursday evenings., and then over the weekend.  This is my goal/plan for March.  I can do anything for a month, if I can just break out of my comfort zone and get my butt off the home bike tonight.

WORK STORY:  So yesterday afternoon, Associate Attorney comes up to me and says, "We may not be able to come into the office tomorrow.  I broke my key off in the front door lock."  WHAT????  I know how this happened.  His key is a little bent, and he uses the key (in the lock) to pull the door open.  You can't do that.  You unlock the door and PULL the door open with the HANDLE./KNOB.  So he tells the Boss, who starts scrambling to find the contact info for the locksmith.

20 minutes later, New Guy gets the key reminent out of the lock, and order is restored.  

That's just so typical.  Associate Attorney causes this drama.  New Guy handles it.  Seriously, I think that this is why New Guy was hired, because it's so obvious that Associate Attorney could never take over the firm from the Boss.  He just constantly steps in piles of ****.  (Sorry for the swears, again...)


Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 03/02/2021:
LOL re dude breaking key in door & declaring office to be closed.

Office foods can be very difficult to resist. We had much in the faculty lounge when I taught hi school. I consistently overindulged. EVERY summer I began a weight loss program, hours & hours on the treadmill while watching HGTV & MTV. Lost 10-15 pounds by fall. Only to regain more often than not. Cycle repeated, but better than continuing to gain as my average coworker did.

Walking at noon is a great idea. I did that when the school was near downtown. Also parked some distance away, forcing me to walk to school, sometimes.

horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2021:
noticed a new entry here from you...to be read by me later :)

horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2021:


either way i guess they aren't exactly donkeys but related i'm sure! just by their names there is relations! xo

Maria7 on 03/02/2021:
I had to SMILE about your office story!!!

grannyannie on 03/02/2021:
What's with the pastries?! Does the boss eat them as well?

Pretty funny bending the key in the lock!

Donkey on 03/03/2021:
Usually, the Boss will eat the pastries, which he doesn't need to be doing. Nobody has touched the cinnamon buns yet. Not even Mistakes Girl.

Donkey - Monday Mar 01, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Good morning!

As the weather was warmer over the weekend, let's see how many real estate contracts we get today.  February, usually a slower month, was much, much busier than usual.  (I did the month's statistics on Friday.)

Trying not to get grumpy about work.  Trying to remain calm, so that I remain thoughtful and intentional in eating, and not falling back on an old vice/crutch/habit of using food to cope. 

I did not do upper body weights last night. I toyed with going to the gym yesterday, but that didn't happen.  Instead, I walked and jogged a little on my treadmill at home.  I know this is an excuse, but I figured that I would use the gym and weight-training thing to start today, March 1st, for this month.  That's ridiculous thinking - there's no "start date" to make changes.  I can start making changes ANY day, ANY time, ANY moment.

And tonight will not be the gym anyway, because it's yoga night.  Trying not to dwell on that too much, but just looking at it as something that will be woven into my day.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/01/2021:
GOOD.....you walked and jogged on your treadmill at home!!! Any improvement is an improvement!!!

Donkey on 03/02/2021:
True! Once I started using it, it has become easier to hop on it. My boy cat doesn't like the treadmill, though. He runs away when I start it up.

legcramps on 03/01/2021:
My exercise in letting stress go for Lent was a massive fail haha, but at least I tried. Trying is the most important part!

Donkey on 03/02/2021:
Well... Lent isn't over yet! Keep trying? It's hard to do, isn't it?

My major source of stress is my job. I just realized, maybe it should be that my husband's health issues are my major stressor - but it's not.

I don't know if any job that isn't stressful, though.

grannyannie on 03/01/2021:
Walking and jogging is good. Anything is better than nothing.

Donkey on 03/02/2021:
True! I don't spend a lot of time sitting unless I'm at work in front of the computer.

Jacky82020 on 03/01/2021:
Yep, Annie has that right: walking/jogging are the best!

Donkey on 03/02/2021:
I agree! As I get older, I need to be more careful about jogging. My lower back and hips sometimes object.

Using the treadmill, I sometimes focus on speed, but sometimes I do use the ramp to increase the incline. On an incline, I keep my speed lower, though. Otherwise, I start hearing those objections I mentioned above. (LOL)

horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2021:
i took my own deep breath when you spoke about not being grumpy as i'm sleepy this AM...and just relaxed a bit with your own reminder!

nice use of your home treadmill in lieu of gym, that is convenient when the gym isn't.

Jacky82020 on 03/02/2021:
I do a whole lot more walking fast on an incline than jogging!

Donkey - Sunday Feb 28, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

Good morning!  It is gray and cloudy, rather misty or moist in the air.  Even though it's a little on the darker, "gloomy" side, I'll take it!  The snow continues to melt away.

I think I did OK with eat yesterday, BUT definitely had more carbs than usual.  For lunch, I had a seasoned combo of sweet potatoes, potatoes, and carrots (Birdseye).  Then for dinner, I had a larger serving of French bread which I used to soak up a lot of juice from the leftover Italian beef we had.  I'm OK with this - I think - because yesterday was my "relax" day on calories AND I also went to the gym with my daughter, in addition to my bike rides at home. 

Not only was I exercising more, but overall, I was quite busy.  I pushed myself to finish everything on my list yesterday.  This is why I like to have these lists, because it helps me get things done.  The only thing from my "To Do" list I didn't get accomplished was getting the late birthday cards out in the mail.  I could not get Husband and Daughter to sign until after the mail came.  I will finish preparing the cards today, and mail them from work tomorrow.  They are already late, so a couple of more days won't make much difference overall.  There was a lot more laundry than I thought.  I ended up doing 2 extra loads.

I did the treadmill at the gym - so much nicer than the one I have at home - and my daughter showed me how to use the lower body and ab machines that she uses at the gym.  I think I feel comfortable enough to try to use some of the upper body machines on my own.  I may go back to the gym this afternoon.  My daughter just left to go this morning, because she works this afternoon.

My husband had NO DIFFICULTY with his 2nd vaccine shot yesterday.  The procedure was much more efficient this time.  He continued to struggle with his GI issues yesterday (not related to the vaccine).  I was SO surprised when he woke up this morning and felt OK.  His shoulders are quite achy this morning, but this could be part of his disease - it's not unusual for him to wake up with  his upper back/neck/shoulders feeling like they are on fire.  Let's see how the rest of his day goes, but this is a postive sign, to me.  Today will be a quieter day anyway, with Daughter at work, and me resting a bit more from my hectic day yesterday.

I just realized that today is the last day of this morning, so tomorrow starts a new month!  Looking at my stats this morning, I lost approximately 2 pounds, even with my wonky weigh-ins and my unpredictable scale.

So this is the month that I want to work on eating.  I touched on this at the beginning of February and struggled with it.  I'd like to try again, with a stronger mindset.  Things I've identified:

  • Really MUST stay away from food offerings at work.  I tried to participate moderately but it just doesn't work.  So for now, for a month, I need to cut this out of my life.  I can do that for a month.
  • Also, I want to incorporate other moments to help me eat more intentionally, including:
  • At work, eat away from my desk.  THIS WILL BE DIFFICULT TO DO.
  • At work, pause & pray before I eat a snack.  Eating in an area way from my desk would help with this, too.
  • At home, focus on eating peacefully: prolong the start of a meal, eat slower, maybe take a drink of water between bites, etc.

Coffee's comment to Horn about eating peacefully startled me - kind of made me "wake up" to where I'm at.  I definitely do not eat peacefully.  Most of my eating is either a rush to get through it, a diversion to cope with stress at work, and/or a struggle with choices, with overeating.  Way too much conflict, not enough peace.

To Do:

  • Cut cats' nails (3)
  • Readjust birdfeeders that squirrels knocked down.
  • Puzzle
  • Spend time with my plants
  • Bake my 2 eggplants today
  • Return library books & get gas for my car
  • Prepare late birthday cards for mailing


Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/28/2021:
Glad hubby had no trouble with his vaccine.

Do you have to wear a mask in the gym? I really do miss mine and all the machines.

We've got a red squirrel that climbs on our bird feeders and eats the nuts.

Eating slowly and mindfully is a good way to do it.

Donkey on 02/28/2021:
Because Illinois rates are down, they are back to wearing a mask until you are at your station. Then you can take your mask off to exercise. I wrote my mask the whole time. There were a couple of other older folks like me, who also wrote their masks the whole time.

Sadly, in the weight training section, I did not see many masks at all Social distancing was difficult too. If I knew what I was doing with the machines, I would have been in and out much quicker.

coffee&calories on 02/28/2021:
I relate to sooo much of your food woes. Like so much. Especially the offerings at work. If it’s delicious, available and free, I have a hard time not indulging. More so if it’s in a place that can have stress too (like work for example) I really want that food comfort to de-stress. With a coffee. It’s how my brain tells me I’ll be relaxed and happy.

Donkey on 02/28/2021:
Coffee and a sweet at around 3p is my weak zone. I've just got to find an alternative to stop myself. I don't know if that means stepping away, a prayer, a short walk. Sometimes I've been able to stop myself by grabbing a Diet Coke. That doesn't always work though.

thinkpositive on 02/28/2021:
I hear you about the carbs. For me low carbs is around 100 carbs. I

Donkey on 02/28/2021:
That's about right. When I was doing keto, getting adjusted to that lower level was difficult but I got through it. I could not maintain that because I like fruits too much, plus sweet potatoes. Beans, too.

thinkpositive on 02/28/2021:
I hear you about the carbs. For me low carbs is around 100 carbs. I

bearcountrygg on 02/28/2021:
Good to hear that hubby is feeling fine......Back around 2000....work food totally undid what I had worked so hard to lose.....i hear you.

Donkey on 02/28/2021:
Thank you!

horn_of_plenty on 02/28/2021:
One thing I do is with the larger serving of the carbs I also have lessened my servings of protein abs know I told you about that ...

Sometimes I get on my own nerves with my lists too and hate that I have so much coming up and feel like I cannot escape my own list !

How will you prepare the eggplant ?

I plan to write back to you and coffee (coffee is a good writer in making her points well understood!) but I can’t do it now bc I’m not in the mindset to think so much at 10pm before bed ....but I do plan sometime to get back to you both in one of my entries. You both gave me things to consider - I’m such an introvert I’m not sure I could do a daily YouTube but it seems so reasonable....and appropriate with not too much competition .... in order to do anything we must make it thru the uncomfortable like being on camera when we just want to relax ....things to think about.

Donkey on 03/01/2021:
You might feel more comfortable writing things down rather than a video blog. Then that could become your book, eventually, if you wanted to go down that path. Either way, the idea is to get your insights and thoughts organized, and then decide if you want to share them. We've been warned that DD won't be forever, due to the changing technology.

I slice up the eggplant, into 3/4 inch slices (approximately - thinner will cook faster). I spray non-stick spray on a cookie sheet, but you could use a better pan or maybe a light coat of oil. I sprayed the slices and then seasoned. I usually use oregano, salt, pepper and sprinkle parmesean cheese. Sometimes I use "Everything But the Bagel" seasoning. Yesterday, I used some garlic and onion powders, and salt. Cook for 30 minutes (more or less) in a 350 oven. Thinner slices might not need as long. I don't remove the peel; that's where all the vitamins are, plus fiber.

Donkey - Saturday Feb 27, 2021
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 145.0

I had trouble getting a consistent reading on my scale again.  So I used my other 0.2 scale, which usually weighs me in a pound heavier, and that's how I came up with 145.0 - which was one of the readings I got on my regular scale.  

I expected this number, maybe even higher, as I had some eating problems yesterday.  In a word, chocolate.  I have GOT to stay away from the food at work.  I know where I failed, I know what I need to do.  IT'S THE EATING.

I'm surprised I had enough time to write here today, before taking my husband to the VA hospital for COVID shot #2.  Let me tell you what I've seen so far in folks I know:

My Mom:  she had been experiencing an allergic reaction (rash) right before she had shot #2.  No reaction to shot #1, other than a slightly sore arm, which I think is expected out of ANY shot.  The day of shot #2, she was fine.  The next day, she woke up and felt like she had been hit by a truck.  She tried to go for her morning walk and was too woozy to do so.  She came home, went to bed, finally had some broth soup for dinner, and slept some more.  The next morning, she woke up 100% fine and resumed her daily routine, which starts with an outdoor walk/jog.

Male Co-Worker:  Had no reaction to shot #1, other than a sore arm. Not dealing with anything else beforehand.  Had shot #2 and went home.  The next day, he came to work and said he felt fine, but his knees felt a little achy.  By 3:30pm he was feeling VERY achy and couldn't think straight.  He went home early and went to bed.  An hour or 2 later, he woke up with a fever.  Sweat it out, slept some more, woke up the day after and felt fine, came to work, put in a full day.

Now my husband had no reaction to shot #1 other than a sore arm.  He has been dealing with some internal GI problems - feeling like his lower guts are on fire.  Will he have a bad reaction, like my mom, because he's also battling something else?  We shall see.

Things to Do Today:

  • Go to VA
  • My laundry - wash & dry
  • My laundry - fold & put away
  • Cat laundry
  • Daughter's laundry
  • Weignts of some sort - because "I love weight-training"
  • Mail out late birthday cards
  • Call mom - if this does not happen today, then tomorrow.  She has limited availability this weekend, so we'll see.

I got a jump start on chores by mopping all the floors last night.  They just could not wait other day.  Also, I filled my birdfeeders on Friday, so they are still OK.

Progress as of today: 41.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/27/2021:
Those were some rough reactions...thankfully they were over in a day......looks like their immune systems really kicked in. Hope hubby does well with this 2nd shot...sounds like he does not need any more pain.

Jacky82020 on 02/27/2021:
Glad you posted. Good to know most reactions don’t last long. I stopped get flu shots due to intense arm pain lasting over a month. So expecting flu symptoms to go away soon, not sure about the arm.

grannyannie on 02/27/2021:
Sorry about your mom's reaction.

A sore arm is common.

horn_of_plenty on 02/28/2021:
Don’t say it like it’s a failure with the chocolate.....

Having a bit of chocolate sounds ok to me !

Btw I had a challenge tonight staying within calories when I got into a snacky situation but the way I’ve mostly been eating better is to eat the foods I crave, with veggies and sometimes without

My mom had a bad reaction to her second shot only. Fever and chills lasting longer than 24 hours. My dad was fine.

I hope your hubby doesn’t get a reaction but he might

You’ve got a lot done so far. -

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