My weight is UP!!!! 135.0!!!! This is just driving me nuts. I'm tired of being in the 130s. I'm tired of having a big butt. I'm tired of having thick thighs. I hate this.
But on the happy side, I felt well enough to do the elliptical today. I tried both the Precor and the Life Fitness (with the moving handlebars), and in spite of loving the LF model better -- it's just more fun -- I will be doing the Precor, because of the position of my foot on the pedal. My foot does not lift nor flex on the Precor (it's more straight across), whereas, on the other ellipticals, I lift my heels up, which flexes my arch, which is where my foot is sore.
I think I'm going to change up my cardio routine. I actually appreciate riding the recumbent bike now. So I think I will do 30 min on the bike and 30 on the elliptical. A nice mix and keeps me limited to an hour of cardio.
Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
Memo to Donkey:
STOP WEIGHING YOURSELF EVERY DAY.
IT WILL DRIVE YOU CRAZY.
SINCERELY YOURS,
DONKEY
Thanks, thinnside40, for suggesting I get Husband to put away the scale. I had forgotten about Maria having to go weigh herself at the supermarket. Ha ha, that brought a huge smile to my face. I could totally see myself doing something like that. :-)
Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
i am glad to see you on here. :)
Here we go again... Up, down, up, down. I shouldn't weigh myself every day. I don't know why this started up again.
This isn't a REAL loss. Just one of those odd fluctuations, I'm sure of it.
Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Have a good evening.....
OK, well, at least I was at 134.0 again this morning. But why am I weighing myself every morning?? No weigh-in tomorrow.
Maybe it's the change in the exercise routine that has me paranoid. Must learn to *breathe deep* and *let go*... No weigh-in tomorrow.
I had not planned on writing tonight but I am feeling depressed. I am going to start seeing a new therapist. The old therapist and I had a conflict of morals. I was going to see him again, but Husband said, "No way, he's a JERK!" and put his foot down. And I don't object, because I know he's right and he's only looking out for me, even though it saddens me that I failed myself with yet another therapist. Am I really that unrepairable?
Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
Hang in there with the therapist situation(s).... Sometimes I think those type of things area bout like buying a "sued car"... Have to go through some lemons to reach a dependable...... Feel your self-worth my firend, cause you are worth the effort you put into bettering your physical & mental health, but within reason of course (hint hint)...
Not to sound corny or anything Donk, but everyone (or most I should say) here @ DD has a piece of my heart and I say "I love you" just as you are.... I'm far from perfect and have a long ways to go, but I think it is important for us to spread what love or positive vibes each other's way in each of our struggles, no matter what that may be.....
Have a good evening and I'm thankful for you hubby stepping foot down to protect you!
OK, bear with me. Donkey is having a VERY BAD DAY.
First -- WTF with the weight? Up, down, up, down, up, down. I'm so sick of it. Just read 120 and be done with it.
Second -- I went to the doctor. I told both the nurse and the doctor that I was a compulsive exerciser. They didn't seem too concerned about that. So I guess it must be OK.
I injured the bottom of my foot which has compromised my gait, which in turn injured my knee. The good news is that the doctor could feel no structural damage to the knee. No misalignment either. The BAD news is that I can't use the elliptical for at least a week. Maybe longer. I can use the bike, which not only puts my butt to sleep but doesn't do anything for me. He said it would help me from "losing your edge". So at least he empathizes.
I'm to wear running shoes at all times, from the minute I wake up to the minute I go to bed. No barefoot, no flats, no slippers, no heals. He gave me some honkin' horse pills that don't DO anything. If I feel better after my prescription is out, then I'm set. If I don't, then we're talking either cortizone shots in the foot (OUCH!) or a referral to the orthopedic doctor.
Needless to say, Donkey is very displeased with ALL OF THIS. If you're going to give me a pain pill, make sure it DOES something. I don't think it's too much to ask to be able to exercise. I'm p*ssed but I'll get over it.
I just wanted to get this off my chest before I try to stuff it down with food.
Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
Thanks for stopping by & for the "cheer"... Appreciated very much!
As always, make sure your running shoes are fresh--pain somewhere is usually my first clue that I need new ones.
Well, since I'm logged on, I thought I'd report a weigh-in. I don't know why I weighed in this morning. The weight is heading on down slowly, once again.
I hate this. It goes slowly down, I binge, it goes way up. Repeat.
No --- wait! Don't repeat!
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow afternoon to see if my compulsive overexercising has caused any long-term damage or if the doctor can help me with my knee foot hip back whatever problem.
Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!
I ended the month as I started the month, with binge-eating. I'm not proud of this, but I'm committed to keeping it real. No denial. Just what it is.
In spite of the misleading number on the scale this morning and the bad 1st and 31st, it was not a bad month. Oh, it was painful enough, but I made a lot of progress on the inside: realizations, subconscious motivations, etc.
I'm looking forward to this month. 4 weeks even, starts on a Sunday, ends on a Saturday. Lent begins. Maybe some of the snow will start melting away.
My biggest regret is that I doubt I will be able to resume outdoor running, due to my knee and foot problems. I see a doctor THIS WEEK for sure.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!
Good Evening!
Well, well, look at me. Have I ended the month pretty much where I started, weight-wise? If so, WOW.
I can't believe I didn't weigh myself this morning to do so. Actually, I'm planning on doing so tomorrow (weighing in) and doing measurements too, I guess. ??? I hate measuring. My butt sags so much that my hip measurement is not truly indicative of how big my rear end is. Plus, it's so self-defeating to see my chest measurement decreasing and my hip and waist measurement stagnating. Oh well, at least they aren't increasing....
I'm having some serious problems with my knee and foot, connected with my hip and back (disc) problems. I plan on seeing a doctor this week. This is what overexercising has done for me. I'm hoping it's something that can be healed quickly, but I already know what will be prescribed: NO EXERCISE.
And THEN what will I do???
Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
I wonder if your symptoms are similar to this: http://www.aafp.org/afp/20050415/1545.html
It is fantastic that 99% of your body is muscle, and the definition will come with proper training. Don't kill yourself trying to get to the end, otherwise you will create a new end. Wish I could be there in person to support you. As I cannot, I'll just wish you all the best from where I sit! Stay strong, Donkey!
Thank you for your kind words in comment.... I honestly DO NOT know where my weight would be, over this last year but up up up up up had I not came to DD when I did... I can't leave that behind.. It has been the greates thing for me in the last 30+ years of up/down/up/down/up/down...Not moving "down" none too quick as of late, but workin' on that to :O)
Have a great Sunday!
as for you, why not just exercise less?? rather, if you feel pain, STOP. meaning, if you are on the treadmill and you start to feel some pain, lay off or stop so it doesn't get worse. i know it must be easier said than done but exercise should not hurt.
Now I know what I weigh....
Needless to say, I am conflicted. It is very unusual to see ACTUAL changes in one's body for the better and yet have some stupid scale tell you something negative. However, logically, I was prepared for this. I told you when I started my new weight training program that I anticipated gaining around 5lb.
I have a scale that tells me my body fat %. My % is around 21 (would like it to be lower so that my muscles are more defined). BUT the more important figure is my muscle weight, which supposively -- according to this scale -- says is 99lb. So 99lb of me is muscle.
So I have concluded logically (of course) that the only way for me to really lose any more weight is to have my liver and possibly a lung surgically removed. Perhaps my uterus too. I figure that should take around 15lb off of the scale.
Yep.
Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
Thank You for your "sympathy".. I feel like it would of felt better to be dismembered than to look in my dad's eyes as I asked....
Have a great day!
Have a great Thursday!
oh, and muscle is VERY important. you probably look better now than before the shift to weight training!
I have no idea what I weigh. Last Sunday, I had a binge, and then I struggled again on Wednesday. I think Wednesday was worse, but I can't remember. All I can remember thinking was "If this binge had a title, it would be "Pop Tart Party"." Each Pop Tart has 200 calories EACH. And I can tell you, I had more than one.
But that was last Sunday, and this is THIS Sunday.
My weight training program is going well. Cutting down my excessive cardio to 1 hour is also a good thing too. But it seems now that I have replaced the excessive cardio with more weight training, and now --- if I do everything I WANT to do at the gym --- I am there for 3 hours. If I don't allow myself to do all the weight training, then I can cut it down to 2.5 hours. Which is still too much time, in my opinion, but nobody seems to mind, so, so what?
And then I do another 15-30 minutes of training at home in the evenings.
You would think I would be chiseled or buff, but unfortunately, I am not. I have so much leftover fat and skin from my pregnancies and prior abuses in weight. It's like I have this thick layer of blubber covering up all the muscle.
I've tried going low carb to bring out the muscle definition, but all that has lent me is an offensive smell of ammonia when I workout (because my body is burning protein for energy, not carbs or fat). This is not right.
I was so angry and disgusted with my therapist on Friday that I've decided that I will probably not do much more work with him. We've been working on the issue of "Forgiveness". He seems to think that crimes committed against children are indeed forgiveable. I told him he was a sick, sick man.
Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!
Sorry to hear of your difficulties with the therapist... Forgiveness is a HUGE word!... God will take care of those that have been the offender... They will have to deal with Him ultimately either way...
Have a good evening.... Take Care!
Thanks for the comments on my cats, they are indeed a lot of fun!
Wishing you a great week!
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Tiredness/BLAH ~ I think it is the let-down after all the "stuff" I've been going through the last 2 weeks, TOM showed up, hip pain that I took 1/2 Vicodin for last night & getting woke up this morning by kids arriving EARLY without prior notice (grrrrr).... Plus not being the greatest @ keeping on track, getting in 14 miles of walking within the last 2 days.... Etc.....
So, I have been outside raking leaves, weeds, cutting back peonies & roses, sweeping the front porch trying to get in the "right" frame of mind & NOT back to "who cares?"..... I have 10 months to reach this goal and by grab I'm going to keep telling myself yes/no at the RIGHT times.....
Good day..... I'll trade ya butt & thighs :O)
loveray on 02/09/2009:
sounds like a great plan! i know it sounds counter-intuitive, but try thinking positive thoughts about your butt and thighs and see how this might change your relationship with your body and your mind. xoxo
haha_love2laugh on 02/09/2009:
i think yuor exercise plan seems reasonable and fun. i dont know what it is, but unless i'm actually running to go somewhere i cant run. hhmm
starfish on 02/09/2009:
*hugs* for you. Great job with the exercise :-)
panda22 on 02/10/2009:
Changing up the exercise makes it less monotonous...at least I think so! =) Yeah the roller-coaster is a bummer but hang in there and don't give up! If you are able to keep making good choices with food/exercise it won't matter what that darn number says because you can stop and think "Hey my weight may have gone up a pound, but it's probably muscle or water"...as opposed to.... "Mannnnn there's that quarter pounder with cheese from last night!" lol Hang in there Donkey! Have a great Tuesday! PS - Weren't there plots of blowing up the scale or making it disappear until next week...See memo below! lol =P **hugs**
legcramps on 02/10/2009:
Big butt, thick thighs. All my problems, too... yikes, I hope we can BOTH get through it!