Thought I'd follow up with my own little update:
Kitty is still not using her box, so she has a vet appointment tomorrow afternoon, to rule out a UTI. This is money I don't have to spend freely on a cat, until we figure out what's going on with my husband's pension/disability stuff. This Friday is the last of his paychecks from work, I'm sure. Then we will start dipping into savings. Dave Ramsey advised well on this one; we are prepared.
Also, spoke to my boss about our psychotic client. He said I should have called 911.
Tomorrow (Tuesday) I am taking my husband to Milwaukee for his VA medical evaluation. He said he is nervous. I'm nervous for him.
I am eating more this week, so I have no high hopes for Saturday's weigh-in. (Yes, I'm saying this on Monday.) This really bothers me, but I'm going to give it up to God and trust the biological process. Like Horn, I'm at the point where I need to find another focus.
Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!
Today is cold, cloudy, and wet. May see some snow today...
I will be cleaning litter boxes and setting them up again, so that "somebody" doesn't feel the need to protest by refusing to use any of the 4 boxes available to her. Needless to say, having one of the cats turn psychotic on me this past week has NOT done me ANY favors with respect to my stress levels.
My husband has some medical evaluation appointment in Milwaukee on Tuesday for the VA. I would like NOT to take him, as this is the last week at work before I'm out for a week, and there is a LOT of work to keep up with. On the other hand, if I don't take him, then my son will have to, and I hate to place that burden on my son. Yes, son has the whole day off, but he had stuff planned. And this appointment will take the whole day.
My husband's illness is so selfish and demanding of EVERYONE in the family.
I've come to some kind of reconciliation on the 3.5 pound weight gain this week. Not happy about it, but maybe this is what I was meant to go into the Thanksgiving holiday with. My week with my brother/family will be a rest week; as of right now, I am planning to leave my Fitbit at home. Any thoughts on that?
Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!
stay positive and keep doing what you can do. worry less about what you cannot.
happy to not have to run again, for as long as i don't want to - taking a major break....sometimes that's what a body needs.
have a good week, you can do it, Donkey. I think it's wonderful how well you do - providing for yourself, your family, your husband. You are remarkable.
I responded to comments on my last entry, although, with this week's weigh-in, I'm not sure that matters any more...
I knew that this would be a heavier weigh-in this week -- could feel it physically. I was able to maintain my level of physical activity, for the most part, and kept to the low-carb plan, too. I know some of this is hormones (gotta love PMS -- so painful), too, although I'm not letting that be an excuse. I will continue to do what I'm doing, and let my body settle where it may, within reason.
Work has just gotten completely insane. After last week of being abused (or feeling that way, at least) by lenders and clients, this week was just complete Twilight Zone, ending with a shouting match between myself and a client who came in just to argue with me. I told her, "You have the advice from YOUR ATTORNEY (not me) and the title company; I will not argue with you on this topic any more." The associate attorney was in a consultation downstairs and he came up because he was worried that he would have to physically intervene. OMG can you believe this???
Of course, my boss managed to skip out at 4pm so he didn't have to put up with any of this ****. I'm seriously thinking about becoming "conceal and carry". This is just getting way too dangerous.
Progress as of today: 56.5 lbs lost so far, only -6.5 lbs to go!
Seriously though, my family is telling me to bring this up to my boss.
try not to let anyone rustle your feathers. if someone screams / shouts, try not to also do it....
xoxo
I feel a lot better about my journey today. I read an article about a research study done with contestants from The Biggest Loser. They found that for weight-loss, diet (calorie intake) was the biggest factor determining success. For maintenance, though, the contestants that managed to increase their activity level considerable and consistently had the best results in keeping the weight off.
I came to a point yesterday where I realized that I'm going to need help in getting the house Fixed and clean enough to list.
So today, instead of being the only one here killing herself to work on the house, I am taking time out for myself. Got 2 new library books and checked out a movie to watch this afternoon.
And so help me, this week had better be nicer to me. Taking Thursday off so that I can drive my husband to a bunch of medical appointments.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
Listen, I was always horrible at maintaining also. I have lost weight 2-3 times in my life (i say 2-3 because it was 2, but then i additionally lost the last 10 which took me over a year that second time, and it took like a whole year to lose the last 10, so i can really consider that last loss a third loss even though it wasn't because i gained again.!).
In my life, just like you, i have had ups and downs in weight loss. and it SUCKS. but it was my choice. I chose to indulge and not take on maintenance.
maintenance is DIFFERENT.
The scale isn't going to keep saying "congratualations, you are losing!" NO. it's going to say if you are up or down a lb or 1/2 pound each time you step on it. You have to take that info, think about what choices you are making, think about how to make this maintenance easier.
You have to eat in a way (and YES, eating is the biggest part of maintenance ALONG WITH KEEPING STRENGTH SO YOU CAN BURN MANY CALORIES THE MORE MUSCLE YOU HAVE!)...but yes, your diet needs to work for you so you can maintain easily and also have treats here and there.
my trick to maintenance is veggies...of which i don't eat as many of as i used to. partially bc i have gotten better at maintenance and like the taste of including more carbs, but still only moderate amounts! and still not really the high carb noodles, pastas = no. or if i do, it's a small amount pasta, large amount veggies, moderate or small amount meat.
my trick is veggies, i eat more of that still (usually, sometimes not) than grains and meat. but i eat it all. i eat some fat, lots of peanut butter bc i don't always crave any other kind of breakfast. although i might switch to another nut butter bc i am finally getting bored LOL.
anyways, you have to now find the tricks. YES TRICKS. or if you don't like that word, 'tricks,' think of it as the formula or the solution. Maintenance is NEW and different from weight loss.
The scale will not reward you.
You have to learn how to feel that this maintenance you are doing is worth it. Because you love yourself.
You have to hold onto this pattern, the one of loss...turning to maintenance.
do not allow yourself to fall again, like we have (me too) in the past. do not make that same decision to spiral backwards.
You know how to spiral. and it doesn't make you feel good - the gaining again, the feelings of sadness.
J donk, you can do this. It's hard. It's a challenge. But all because this is a new step in your journey, you have to take a stand and be strong. approach it. take it. with maintenance, my last time i've been maintaining for 1.5 years now, i think. ever since my sister's wedding. yes.
anyways, with my last maintainance period, i did gain some pounds after her wedding (like 5 or less), and i realized that in order to keep in maintenance, i would really have to change my ways / keep my ways of what i was doing to keep the low weight.
it's a struggle, but NOT all the time. As you maintain, it'll get easier. you'll learn to give into some cravings, you'll be able to have the one cookie (i generally eat them by themselves between meals as a pre-exercise treat with 2 cups of sweetened water (with stevia) when i'm driving home from work lol, it works).
Maintenance is different. You do not gain tons of weight and have to lose it all.
You will learn to actually be able to go each week maintaining after a while. Your weight should start to be stable, bc you know how to eat to maintain. You know when you've indulged, and the scale will show it after a couple weeks you'll know, and that's when you have to dial it back or eat more vegetables the following week and less of all the other stuff.
maintenance will help you ... but you have to help yourself and notice what works and what doesn't. listen to your body. nothing is off limits.
After being in maintainence for this period, i am a lower weight and able to eat EVERYTHING in moderation.
my diet is more balanced now than it ever was before, even when i was heavier and bingeing on sweets.
Maintenance has helped me.
I know my clothes fit each morning. I don't ever think about feeling fat.
Maintenance is a good thing. you learn to feel your body at thsi weight. Soon, looking in the mirror, you won't judge yourself...you'll see it's you.
Maintenance is when you get used to yourself at this weight. It can take many months. It can take a year.
Don't give up on yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm reading one of the best books i've ever read, it's about just this...i'll give you the title if you are interested. It's about what we deal with...life's up and down spirals...and how to stop the periods of highs and lows....and make more success lasting and less of the falls.
but you are doing fine. always think the positive for yourself.
always know that your actions everyday are more important than a one time goal.
what you do everyday is what will help you maintain. you do it day by day. it's a process.
learn to enjoy this new process. the SMALL ups and downs...and you will therefore not have BIG ups and downs.
I'm very bad at maintaining... This is making me sad.
Progress as of today: 60 lbs lost so far, only -10 lbs to go!
A new approach for this month (and perhaps for the winter months ahead) to help me deal with the winter weather and the darker days ahead:
Last night, at dinner, I refrained from having second helpings, unfortunately because my husband had stormed off rather than eat with us as a family. I had a taco (on a lo-carb tortilla) and then a tomato/cucumber side sald. Instead of eating more, to prolong the dinner hour, I drank more water. Then, after dinner, I suddenly felt very tired. Instead of pushing myself to go on an evening walk or fighting my fatigue with food, I decided to get ready for bed and relax before going to sleep. I usually read before bed, but decided to watch a documentary on public television instead. Then I went to sleep - EARLY.
It was still difficult to get my butt out of bed this morning, despite more sleep, but I think this is the way to go. Note: Sometimes, when I feel tired, I don't handle that feeling correctly and eat, instead of rest or drink water. I confuse both thirst and fatigue with hunger. So if I'm thirsty or tired, I'll eat instead of dealing with the actual issue correctly. Going to work this month on changing that.
So the plan:
The week I go to Nevada to visit my relatives for Thanksgiving is exempt because it's warmer and lighter out there. Plus I want to use every waking moment to visit with family!
Thoughts on this approach?
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
Like you, I have gotten better, but, i also have the problem of when feeling tired thinking i am hungry and/or getting VERY snacky and craving carbs. I used to really limit my sleep and especially in college and stuff and in my 20's and i was always battling the carb addiction and stuff and i do believe it had to do with sleep. I'm always able to better deal with cravings and eat way normal portions when my sleep is good.
for the first time ever, my sleep is very decent this year. eating has been easiest this year.
when my sleep is really rotten, it's hard to do things, yes. and your mind will want more food oh yes.
so i like your approach for sleep. when it's cold and dark, we will want more sleep. Sleep is underrated and you may need MORE than you think. It's true to listen to your body when you are tired. Like you, same thing happened with me last night.
Yesterday when i woke up in the morning,i already knew i wasn't ready to go to the gym yet after after work for thursday bc i could tell my body wasn't rested enough and an early sleep would be better than a powerful workout. So just like you mention that you are giving yourself options to skip exercise if you really need sleep, i did the same.
tonight i'll push just so i get it done and can therefore go again sunday. but this week i skipped both jogs bc it was a very busy week and already included more walking and i didn't want to include everything which would just exhaust me.
you do have to make good choices as suitable for everything in your life that's going on. I support you.
Like i was saying, there are many studies that more than 8 hours is sometimes helpful. Not every night, but if you body is wanting sleep, sleep.
I've really been struggling this week... Not sure what to do, but I know I can find support here.
Start with the mint brownies I made this past weekend. I have not been able to resist these as well as I was able to resist the previous batch of brownies I made several weeks ago.
The cold weather is really packing a punch this year. I do not know how on earth I will cope once we turn the clocks back this weekend and living becomes encased in darkness. Get up - it's dark. Exercise - it's dark. Leave for work - still dark, just starting to get light. Get off of work - it's dark. Drive home - it's dark. Eat dinner - it's dark. Go for a walk - it's dark.
Plus, my lunchtime walks will be coming to an end soon once the snow/ice hits.
Now I'm stuck with all this d*mn Halloween candy: Snickers, M&M's, Starburst (can pass on this), Skittles (pass)...
Tomorrow (Wednesday) is a new month. I'm going to use this "new beginning" as a jump-start to my motivation as well. I CAN DO THIS.
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
With the brownies, if you don’t want them at all, bring them to work to share with office. Otherwise, throw out after a few days. Or, get used to having them around and after always eating them, you’ll get used to having them around and want them less. This is at least what happens for me. Remember that NOTHING is off-limits and all foods are ok in moderation.
Work treats / brownies into your diet plan if you want. Like, have one before you walk, a small piece, with an herbal tea to fill your stomach up the rest of the way. I always eat treats, followed up with a sweet liquid I usually use a lot of stevia and sometimes equal. I eat a serving of the treat (like a granola bar or fiber one cookie) and have the drink which is usually around 2 cups. Then, I feel satisfied.
I also hate the time change that comes with Daylight Savings Time Ending. But you WILL COPE because you have NO CHOICE but to cope. So don’t get all nervous about it – because you’ll fall back into the time change like you did all the other years of your life, my pretty J !
If you really don’t want the candy, bring it to work, give it away, or throw it out. In my apartment, they gave me a ton last night because they still had a lot at 7pm when I got home, I will save the candy bc I am better at moderation now than I ever was. I am good with taking a normal amount and having a drink of 2 cups at most and then feeling satisfied without needing more candy or getting tempted anymore by more.
Of course you can do it. Why be “average” when you can be super? It’s all a mind game!
I'm not sure if this week's weigh-in should count, since I had a couple of bad days and didn't eat much dinner Thursday or Friday. On the other hand, I give myself credit for not eating when I'm completely stressed out (Thursday) and not forcing myself eat something I don't like (Friday -- really tough meat, no thanks).
I'm wondering if I should try to lose 2 more pounds, so that I have an even 60 pounds gone...
Not too many issues with my back this week. Never take good health for granted. I'm grateful for every day that I can move.
Cold weather has settled in Chicagoland. I realized last night that I'm going to have to start wearing my long, puffy winter coat on evening walks, now. As long as the field lights are on at the park for soccer practice, I feel comfortable walking the loop at the park. Once soccer season ends, then I'll have to resort to finding another route.
Work is still a little too busy for me, for this time of the year... I guess this is a good thing though, as we want to make money, and it also means that we have a healthy real estate market. Losing my grip on the work-life balance though. Walking is about the only thing keeping my sanity preserved through all the chaos.
As I didn't get to it last weekend, tonight is the night I will carve my pumpkin!
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
J Donk….yes, count this week. Weighing in doesn’t only mean counting losses or counting only the gains. A weigh-in is a weigh-in – my opinion. And what you are tracking is exactly that – keeping track of the weight and/or weight fluctuations so that you can learn from the week and try to repeat the good and do away or lessen the choices you made or things that happened that weren’t as productive to maintaining and/or losing weight.
Weirdly enough, lately, the MORE I eat, the more I lose. I simply do not get this on my end!!!!
But yes, count the week, unless I see – you think you’ll regain and don’t want to keep moving your scale here…I get this. I understand what you mean now. ..but either way, the week counts overall, even if you don’t move the scale here….got ya.
I was reading something that helped me so much with weight loss – that if you want to lose weight, the end product (weight loss) is based on your ACTIONS the PROCESS leading up to the actual weight loss. So if your goal is to lose two more pounds, you will have to make the small changes or keep your current way (if it supports losing more weight) and you have to be content with knowing that choices you make will eventually cause weight loss. What I mean is, you have to welcome the process. I support you losing the 2 more…if you are happy as you are, don’t worry about round numbers. If you feel you could lose 2 more and it would make you feel better overall, do it! Both ways, maintenance of your current weight is very important. You don’t want to ever slip and gain it back ! I like that you are focused on improving yourself and also that your back is much better.
Same here, it’s dark during my evening runs also. And when I jogged at the track at the college, the kicked me off after 1.5 miles because there was a game taking place on the field in the middle of it…makes it hard for us to train, you know! But like you said well – you simply have to find another way, another route.
It is up to YOU to say NO or leave on time some days. My dad gives up his work life balance, but I am grateful it’s not a choice I have to ever make. Your kids are a little older too…right?...so this should help you gain more independence at least at home? Make time for yourself and for what makes you happy.
I did not have the opportunity to write earlier today because this is the day of the month that I volunteer at the legal clinic. Seeing other people's problems really helps put one's own situation into perspective. And we helped a lot of people today, too. (Not to mention that there was free coffee, although I brought my own creamer to share with all.)
This week was an interesting experiment in Maintenance Land. I don't typically have sandwiches for lunch but rather opt for a low-carb, high protein w/vegetables lunch. But this week, we had 2 visits from the title company, and each time, they treated us to lunch. The first time was Panera -- had the vegetable mediterrainian sandwich (because the turkey sandwich I originally chose had too much meat for how I was feeling that day) -- and the second time was Portillos (hot dog/beef place) - where I had another vegetarian sandwich, which had a lot of mushrooms. Yum! On Friday, I finished the turkey sandwich from Panera that was too much for me at the time. LOL. Finally, I brought home all the leftovers which my family had for dinner on Friday. So that's like 4 sandwiches -- quite a diversion from what I usually have. Oh, and we had BLT's for dinner one night, so there's another sandwich.
I do love sandwiches - so convenient! But I was very worried about what the scale would say and if I'd be able to handle it. Happy to say that the scale was very kind. I can start relaxing a little bit, then, about what I do eat, as long as I balance it out with exercise and water intake.
Since I can't ever seem to take full credit for any success, though, I wonder how much of the weight loss is due to muscle loss from taking a break in weight training this month (because of my back problems). I hope to resume a light training schedule in November. "Light" meaning either lighter weights or not very many reps per set. Not sure yet. We'll see what my back will allow, LOL.
I didn't hear from the doctor's office about my MRI. I'm disappointed, but I was warned that I might have to call to follow up. So that will be on my list for this next week.Also, took some first steps to consign some business attire at the high-end resale shop. That is something that I've been putting off forever. I have to call again in November, but now I know what to do. And I continue to downsize the house in preparation of selling next year.
I would say that my back is 95% better, just from the drugs, plus stretches recommended by the PT, and cold/hot treatments. I just have to be very careful and listen to it. It does give me little reminders of "you moved the wrong way today" or "you're doing too much, stop, rest, and give me a treatment", etc.
And I just wanted to let you know that, despite how much we planned for it, my husband has worked his last day, at least at this job. We had initially planned that he would work up until his hip replacement surgery November 29th. But it was decided that he is unable to work at 100% capacity because he's in so much pain during the day.
So, dear Diary Friends, if you can learn anything from my/our journey, please know that you can plan or prepare for the future only so far. Sometimes, life just makes the decisions for you.
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -7.5 lbs to go!
I am sure they were happy with some creamer from you! Always love the free coffee…and so nice you volunteer in that way. Yes, it should feel so rewarding to you….I think I may volunteer at a pet shelter before I get my dog. Or, I plan to not get a dog except from a pet shelter…this is my 1.5-2year plan. Totally getting a doggie! I wanted a Pomeranian, but not sure they can be found in the shelters?
The scale changes only based on CALORIES. I am doing the same thing myself…calories are in general higher for me bc I seem to be able to maintain…but…but my other point was the type of calories also includes more breads and fries and it also feels good right now…but if I were to increase calories drastically, I’d gain too. So I also have to balance what I eat….and it’s still easier to balance when you can fill up on veggies when you crave a full feeling…but the nice diversion to breads is nice right now for me, too. Just keep in mind that breads add up…so you simply can’t have the volume of veggies equal to the volume of breads lol…you get me. I usually drink a low cal drink after the meal, to being me to the fully satisfied feeling. So, when I eat the higher cal stuff (fries, breads), I include a low cal drink at the end of the meal…that’s been my trick....for now…I’m glad that your eating has turned sort of like mine – nothing should be totally “off limits.” Also, if a sandwich has too much meat, you can modify that yourself lol…pull it out ;) When vendors come, I typically enjoy the food too! Unless it’s pizza or something completely outta my comfort zone. I don’t like pizza – just too many calories – bread and cheese – both high cal – I typically stay away, unless I could get a small piece with a huge salad.
So yes, you balance it…and no need to get too anxious. This is also the first time in my life that balancing my weight was this simple at such a low weight I mean! Last time I weighed this low was actually around 12-13 years ago and I was not able to be as moderate. I’ve learned so much since then – as I’m sure you have learned also! We both rock at this self-discovery stuff!
STOP – YES, you should take full credit of your success. Don’t even start putting yourself down. It’s you…you are the full reason of your success.
YES – continue to listen to your body as many times Less = More :-P
Life may make some decisions for us, but we maintain the ability to use our free will to decide how we will respond to life’s challenges. There’s two responses mainly – let life decide for you or stand up the those challenges and do your best you can at them. I do the second. And you do too…don’t forget that!
I hurt my back again last night. Trying to use home remedies and I feel better this evening. Moved my right leg the wrong way last night, and I immediately knew it was a mistake. I hoped it would feel better in the morning, bu alas, my back was still complaining. Rx dosage of Aleve, back brace, cold compress --- to which tonight I will alternate with heating pad -- and back support pillow at work. I think this might work.
I have not heard back from the doctor's office regarding the MRI results.
I'm losing my health insurance, because my husband will not be able to work much longer and he carries our insurance. (My employer does not offer insurance.)
In fact, my husband may have already worked his last day :-(
So I am the new face of TrumpCare.
Tried on my wedding ring last night and now it's loose. I have big knuckles, apparently, so no worries that it will fall off, but now there's no tightness. However... I am not so inclined to wear the ring anyway, any more.
It's been another rough week at work. Training a new gal -- she's wonderful, but it's still a learning process. She's making all the right mistakes though, and I think given more time, she'll be fabulous.
Progress as of today: 55.5 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!
Bear & Maria - thank you for your encouragement!!
Happy-1 - I hope you're OK. I think about you...
First and foremost, I still recommend that you get the appropriate amount of sleep at least most nights and that you find time for quiet, relaxing activities such as reading or knitting or tv or whatever it is you enjoy doing that relaxes you. I even relax when I have the tv on and I’m petting my sleepy hamster on my chest I love to put it and it falls right into a snooze once I start petting it.
And then I’m usually so tired that I promptly fall to sleep without reading my book at night – so that’s why I’m I guess pretty thankful for my hour lunch at work – I use it mostly productively and read. Today I walked 5 min to the park and laid on the bench, comfortable under a fully sunny and blue sky, warm temp, reading for half an hour. Life is GREAT. Keep your head up. You will feel better, I promise you that.
Why don’t you like t wear the ring? You aren’t used to it anymore? Or fear of losing it? Eh, I don’t enjoy even wearing expensive jewelry…but a wedding ring also defines you – on first appearance, people see you are married. My mom def always wears her ring. It’s like a “marriage status symbol.” In my mind, anyways.
Breathe , the week is basically over, and enjoy your weekend. Take your mind off of work since nobody else will be thinking about it either.
You seem to have a great position – training others also below you. You have skills and knowledge to give others. Keep up the great work.
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I agree....then kitty must either be sick or protesting something.....I hated taking our cat to the vet...her hair would fall out in my hands every time they made me put her on the scales...she was scared to death...silly cat...the scales were the easiest part...I'm praying that you get the answers you need about your husband...and Dave Ramsey is awesome...good for you...preparing financially for the future. Don't worry about dieting...you are under too much stress to add that to the mix...Thinking of you and your family.....health problems are so stressful.
horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
i wrote back to you on your comments for yesterday and today....I will write more to you for today here later :) THANK YOU. xo.