Up half a pound, but I attribute that to PMS and humidity. Keeping a clear perspective on things, a half a pound is really not a change and just a fact of maintenance.
I am not maintaining at the moment -- still trying to lose the weight I gained over the winter -- but I'm taking a maintenance approach to weight loss this time. If it's something I can't really do for the rest of my life, I won't use it to lose weight, because I am tired of gaining 20-30lb every time life deals me something bad, because bad things are going to happen; it's part of life.
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!
I thought this deserved its own post:
I am at the halfway mark to goal!!!
Actually, I'm a little past it, by 1/4 a pound, but in essence it's halfway...
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!
I'll look out for the 80% bar you mentioned--hope you're having a good week!
As promised, I am entering in my weigh-in. Having an upset stomach from anxiety really helps with weight loss. Too bad it feels so awful.
The lesson to be learned is that it really is about what goes into your mouth. With only 254 cardio minutes this week, I think this proves my point. (Took a day off from walking one day.)
I decided yesterday to start taking an acid blocker for my stomach problems. It says to take before eating, though, so I waited until this morning to start. The box says may take 1-4 days but some people feel relief within 24 hours. I predict that I will feel better tomorrow.
I was feeling better last night, actually. Psychologically, I'm sure -- once I knew the problem would be taken care of, I relaxed enough. But this morning it's all started again. I don't know if it's because I know most of the day will be spent reading and studying for my classes or if it's because the kids are starting their first days of school and that I'm nervous FOR/WITH them, or what.
Normally, I would think about taking an anti-anxiety medicine, but mostly, these are tranquilizers and even with the slightest dosage, I get sleepy. (I used to take anti anxiety meds and anti depressants when I was in my 20s. Neither helped with my problems, which is why I don't take them today.)
So for now, I will see if the anti-acids help. Have a wonderful day everyone!
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only 16.5 lbs to go!
I am sorry I have not been on here this recently. School has started for me this week and it has been extremely stressful.
On the plus side (if you can call it that), all that stress has made me sick to my stomach. My stomach produces too much acid when I get really anxious, and all that acid makes me feel very nauseous. So I have not been stress eating, at least.
In addition to all of this stress, my children are starting school tomorrow (Wednesday). This is always stressful, especially for my son, I think, but maybe for my daughter too. I think this year may be the hardest yet for my daughter. I have heard that the 5th grade (10 yr old) is BIG on the **drama** for girls. Her class seems to be ripe for the picking for dramatic candidates.
Tomorrow is weigh-in day, so I promise to log in with that, at least. That's the good thing about having a dedicated weigh-in day --- keeps me honest!
Anyway, I have been trying to drop in and read people's diaries but I don't always have time to log in and reply. Having been a SAHM for many years and not out and about with a lot of people, it's been really really REALLY hard to get back into a thinking mode, a social mode, a deadline mode -- everything.
I hope to buy some anti-acids tonight.
Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!
Not much to say, just putting in my weigh-in for this week. And still taking it one day at a time.
School starts next week for myself and the kids (I start before they do, LOL), so the remainder of this week will probably be focused around getting everyone set up.
Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!
I want to thank those who read my last diary entry -- and especially those who responded. Thank you hollybelle for the serenity prayer.
What I should have done is cut and pasted Horn of Plenty's diary entry right here, because that is exactly how I feel, except that I know that I have real constraints that hold me back. So in some respects -- well, many actually -- the comparison is unfair.
I guess the point that was missed is that from time to time, I simply CANNOT ACCEPT unchangeable things in my life. I can't. It's beyond me. I'm not capable of it. This non-acceptance is always there. Even when it seems as though I'm making progress or being a "happy person" --- no, this is always there. It doesn't go away.
So, dear people, I ask you, humbly, to forgive me when these feelings errupt, as they do often. It's very hard being in the same body with someone you detest.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!
I think we BOTH do a great job looking at the misfortunes, the bad parts of our lives. We both need to open our eyes and focus on what's good. For me, getting a job would solve almost ALL of my problems. This is the one area that could fix MOST everything for the most part right now.
My whole feelings of worthlessness are from a lack of job. Of course, I need to work on other things, but if i had a job I could soon move out and become the independent person i want to be. funny how this one thing could change my life.
we do have different lives, but it's understandable that we could both be feeling the same way.
I think about death and dying OFTEN. I don't give too much thought to "how i would kill myself" because I really am TOO afraid right now. Also, I wouldn't want people going through all my belongings...sounds kinda dumb but that's just how i feel. I wouldn't want this computer even looked through.
I wouldn't even want a funeral aside from my immediate family. there's something wrong with all of this, i know.
hopefully i can get a job and move on out of this mess.
I'm here today because I'm very upset and there's no one I can talk to about my feelings.
I don't want to get into specifics but just sometimes, it's very hard to live with oneself and the unchangeable circumstances. Some things cannot be changed. Yet I cannot live with this. Nor can I accept it.
Thank you for listening.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6
Here I am, craving salt....
Last night -- OMGosh I wanted to eat so badly. I think a lot of it was genuine hunger because I would have been satisfied with carrot sticks. But I knew, too, that some of it was fatigue and stress. I managed to resist, but it was very difficult.
This was after returning from our old house, which we have been trying to sell for over a year. And for 5 years, off and on, before we finally just said, "Forget it, let's move and hope it sells." It never did sell.
Anyway, dh and I went up there and I mowed the whole lawn. At 7pm, the bank therometer - as you drive into town - said 92F (33C). At 7pm. And I'm out there mowing a big butt yard. It took me at least an hour. And when I went to bed last night, I could feel the ache in my legs.
It took me so long to mow the lawn that my daughter called us up on the way home, worried that something happened or we went someplace else. My husband said, "Well, sweetie, it's a big yard."
That was the only cardio I got in yesterday, because it was so freakin' hot. And it's just as well because for dinner, we had pizza. And I had too much of it. I realized that if one is having salt cravings, pizza is probably not the best thing to have for dinner.
Still, I think between the hunger and the cravings and the lawn mowing, I broke even.
I just need the d*mn house to sell.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!
your advice is good, actually...it is not really the time for me to lose weight by focussing my energies on it. i have too much time at home, no schedule. definitely not the best circumstances for someone like me to do so. i am usually best when i have lots of free time, but not if it also involves pressures like job hunting. i'm so glad the test is done, and i will SLOWLY incorporate better eating into my diet, but i really shouldn't be putting all types of restrictions or plans for weightloss as my first choice endeavor right now. :-)
So, cheers to moderation?...
Greetings,
I don't have much to say, but of course, I will log in and record this week's weigh-in. I must say that I am pleasantly surprised with the 1 pound loss this week.
It has been incredibly hot and humid again, and between compromising my walking workouts and huge salt cravings (not to mention TOM coming around the weekend more or less -- see my comment to SkinnyGrlWithin about hormone issues), I was NOT expecting anything good.
However, I took a look back at my exercise log and found that I did quite a bit more exercise than I had thought.
AND
Last night, the urge to snack late at night was SO STRONG. It was very very very very difficult to resist. Especially when Donkey's 10-yr old fit, trim, athletic daughter comes in and says with a big smile, "I'm ready for some birthday cake, Mommy." Yeah, me too sweetie. Let me get my bathing suit on so I can dive into that cake....
Instead, I gently reminded her that we did not need cake or dessert every night and that we would have cake tomorrow night (which is now tonight). I did NOT tell her it was because it was my "Stay Sane Day", when I tend to eat a little more or indulge a little more, to help stave off binge urges.
So putting off my indulges paid off for me this week. With TOM coming along, it will be imperative to keep all chips out of the house over the weekend: tortilla chips, potato chips, Donkey chips (which happen to be ON SALE this week!!!!)....
My efforts and patience will be rewarded. Amen.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!
As for the law job search... you don't find out until at the very earliest Nov. which definitely is annoying. I am applying for attorney positions, and places with hire you as like a legal secretary or an assistant to an attorney with the understanding in your contract that once you get your results that you pass you will be moved up as an attorney. As for the places that I have been looking... hotjobs.com indeed.com, capitalareahelpwanted.com, craigslist.com ...and then I'vebeen googling "attorney jobs in albany ny" and checking out all the sites that come up with that.
Having a hard time staying focused. Did not drink 8 glasses of water on Saturday, but still managed to walk every damn day...
Yesterday, I spent most of my morning up at our old house, the one we are trying to sell but may end up renting if nobody buys it before winter sets in.
I found out that the toilet in the kids' bathroom has a crack at the base, and was leaking water. So I mopped it up and turned off the water to that toilet. I didn't flush it again (to empty out the basin), but hopefully it will be OK. I am headed up there later this week to mow, and if dh comes with me he can take a look at it.
Trying not to let the stress get the better of me. THREE nights in a row, now, I have heard the emotional eating urge beckoning me. And all three times, I have been able to resist.
It's that after-dinner snacking urge that I'm fighting. It's when I do the most damage. It's very hard to resist. And of those 3 nights, there were at least 1 where I just wanted to drown myself in buttercream frosting.
Still, even with resisting this temptation, I am worried that I will not lose this week. I just have not been putting forth 100% effort. My own fault.
Progress as of today: 11.5 lbs lost so far, only 21.5 lbs to go!
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That's a wise thought, girl! I missed you, glad to see you posting. :)
hollybelle on 09/01/2010:
Amen, sister!
moogy on 09/01/2010:
Hey, if you maintain and sometimes lose a bit, in the end you will reach your goal, plus, it's not too far away now. Come next summer and we may have a goalweight Donkey.:)
Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/01/2010:
yeah, do take the maintanance approach :-) gaining and losing is the WORST. i can attest to that, too!
V on 09/01/2010:
I hear you on that!!!! This WILL be the last time for me! I am determined to keep it off! You can too Donkey
Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/03/2010:
no, i definitely DON'T weigh everyday. it would drive me crazy. i'd rather not weigh in at all, lol. but once in awhile, i will go down to the basement and step on the scale(s). haha, we have two old scales that work well. i have a digital once, but i figure these do the trick right now!