Quite a bit of snow last night, and there's still a light snow (flurries) coming down. This is one morning I'm glad that I don't have the pressure of having to go to work!
My routine is off this morning, because I had to shovel first thing, rather than ride my bike. I had to shovel, you see, because today is garbarge & recycling pick-up, so I had to get the cans to the curbside, but had to shovel first. It took me a little over an hour to do. Afterwards, I was hungry, so now I'm eating breakfast, rather than riding my bike. Because I have no work today, waiting for my COVID test results, I can ride my bike later this morning. It's just unusual to eat before I ride the bike. My back is a little achy from shoveling, so I will take some Aleve and then ride the bike to stretch out the ache.
Yoga last night was wonderful! I was able to keep up and stay coordinated. I was trying to connect my movements with my breath, and stay in the moment. I had a little trouble remembering the sequences, so if I didn't have the verbal cues, I wouldn't know what move to do next. Well, that's what the teacher is there for, right?
I do not have high ambitions for today. I'd like to work on the puzzle, READ, upper body weights (maybe), looks like I'll have to shovel again, perhaps.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
It feels odd to be at home today, and I imagine that this feeling will only increase as the day progresses. Even though I've been tested before, I'm still a little anxious about my appointment today. I'm also feeling a little edgy about the anticipated snow storm we're supposed to get this evening into tomorrow morning.
I did so much laundry yesterday. I asked daughter for ALL of her laundry, which ended up being something like 5 or 6 full loads. I did not sweep. I did not do any yoga. Opted to watch football last night instead, while doing laundry. I read last night, but stayed up a little too late to finish the chapter I've bene chipping away at. I do not want to spend whole my day today watching TV. I can see myself sinking into re-watching Great British Baking Show or reruns of Midsomer Murders.
I have yoga class tonight. I would like to do upper body weights. I would like to do treadmill.
I think it will be a quiet day.
EVENING EDIT: Feeling quite a bit anxious. Is it because my boss texted me to see how I was doing? Is it because Nice Lady got rapid-tested today and I don't have my results yet?Is it the impending snow storm we're supposed to be getting (which I think we will indeed get a ton of snow)? Is it the tightness in my left hip? Everything? Nothing?
Funny enough, I don't feel stressed about yoga tonight. I'm looking forward to it. I did walk on the treadmill, but no jogging - just my "usual" lunchtime walk.
I decided not to do any weights today. I decided to conserve my energy instead. It's hard to explain, but the efforts to weight train differ than the efforts involved with walking or riding on the recumbent bike - at least for me they do. I did sweep the floor, did a litlte reading, and took what felt like a much needed nap.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
Hope you enjoy the yoga class.
Hope you and especially your husband avoid catching Covid from daughter!
naps are ok on your day off...lol, i haven't napped so much in a long time...on the weekend, i napped both days which is not like me...but i'm still getting used to my job/commute...
good luck on your covid test....it is nice your boss checked in on you :) and nice lady...LOL....hopefully her test is negative.
rest up while you can and don't overdo on the time off....unless you want to overdo!
Good morning! Happy Sunday!
I accomplished almost everything on my list yestserday with the exception of the following:
I plan to accomplish these things today, except for the nap, unless I need it.
Let me just get all of this out there: I'm sad that I did not do any yoga yesterday. Why is it so hard for me to do? Last night I could have done yoga in the evening, but I was a little full from dinner and opted to walk on the treadmill (no jogging) instead. I think I'm a person that needs to be in-person. The Zoom yoga I do on Monday nights has to be live or I'm inclined not to do it, even if I pay for it. I've been very tempted to say, "Screw COVID", buy an annual class pass to the local yoga studio, and attend as many in-person classes as I can. But then I see posts on FB from the yoga studio and realize that there are too many people there for my comfort level. PLUS, then I struggle with paying for yoga that I can get for free if I would just get my butt to the gym that I belong to and already pay for! Am I trying to be someone I'm not?
My daughter's sense of smell returned yesterday afternoon. Her temperature has been normal since Friday night. Having said that, last night she received her COVID test results, and she is positive. I'm kicking myself that we weren't more careful with her and with ourselves on Thursday and Friday. I feel fine; husband feels fine. I will need to call my boss to see what he wants me to do, as far as work is concerned.
Today's List
AFTERNOON EDIT: I am scheduled to have a COVID test tomorrow morning. My boss asked me to stay home until I at least get my test results back. So that would mean I'm off Monday for sure, probably Tuesday, and maybe a little on Wednesday.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
Maybe you should hold off on yoga until it's safe to go to a studio?
next, you asked a question above saying "am i trying to be someone i am not" or something like that.....don't even attempt to question yourself like you don't deserve to be someone you want to be, etc....you do you and never think you aren't good enough....because you ARE GREAT! listen to me, i'm telling you the truth!...i have been starting to have a lot more confidence in myself, too, despite all my "failures," or learning experiences, like i was saying the other day i finally feel much more mature and experienced with a lot in life...and i'm not going to give everyone the credit that i used to give....and i am finally understanding the fact that what i do, the choices i make, what i do, IS WORTH IT being me. and that i'm not going to try to consider the fact that i'm not living up to the standards of society...i am trying to move on from this and it's what i suggest you do. life is too short to debate if we are good enough.
Happy Saturday! I seem to be swaying between 148 and 145 this month. Nice to see that I shed most of the bloat from TOM, at least.
One thing I've noticed this month is that I really enjoy dessert after dinner. I'm done fighting this craving or need or whatever it is. It is who I am. I love dessert, and want to make peace with this aspect of myself, rather than to be at a perpetual war, which sometimes implodes into a food fit. So, I've decided that life is too short, and I need to find a way to incorporate a "dessert" into my life that is compatable with my goals. I've been able to be satisfied with 2 Hershey's kisses, or graham crackers. I think I can expand on options, with the help of my food scale.
I"m not giving up on my weight-loss goal, though. I'm still very motivated to reach a more comfortable weight of 135.
My goal for this weekend is to rest. Last weekend, I felt so busy with chores. Even though it was a great weekend, I need to rest until I feel back to 100%. I want to do some of the following today:
I still have things to do today, though:
Hmm, that doesn't look too relaxing, does it? The laundry chores, is a relatively passive activity, except for folding & putting away (a chore I detest, so it's just better to get it out of the way)
Next weekend will not be so relaxing because I have to drive Husband to the VA hospital to get his 1st COVID vaccine shot. Very, very glad that he is able to get this sooner, rather than later. This will take up my entire morning next Saturday, unfortunately, but it's totally worth it.
Progress as of today: 41 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!
I got a hook for a hummingbird feeder from Santa. I put a birdseed thing in the shape of a bell, and the little birds love it. I'm going to get another birdfeeder for either seed or maybe a suet holder (to hold the block of suet & seed) to use when it's not hummingbird season. :-)
If you need dessert you can find some lower calories treats. Or smaller amounts of higher cal ones.
I'm seriously missing my popcorn, and if I could stick to one bag a day I'd buy more.
You nailed it on the head about portions. Like you with popcorn, I really struggle to keep it down to 1 portion. I struggle with this at work, I struggle with this at home. Most days I'm OK, and then I'll have a day where I want to eat the whole thing.
Rest is so important. I am doing that this weekend too. I have saved both laundry and weights for today, because of changes to the day yesterday :) and I have a nature walk...but i'm planning so that the day is actuallly very enjoyable and not rushed :)
I saved cat laundry for today, in case there was more to clean up on the floors today. It's never-ending.
Last night, as I was cleaning the thermometer after taking daughter's temperature, I just felt I was at a breaking point. At that point, all of my goals just seemed so overwhelming and impossible. This doesn't feel like what goals are supposed to do. What is the point of goals, when I'm doing all I can do to keep it together?
My family has no idea I had this storm inside my head last night. Had a pleasant dinner, the evening was fine... but I stayed up a little too late to make sure that I was exhausted and would drop off to sleep immediately.
I did a couple of leg weights, and I actually did 2 miles on the treadmill! So maybe that's the point of goals, to nag you and eat away at your conscience until you get them done.
It's easier to say what I didn't get done: I didn't read, I didn't write in my journal, no yoga (home or work). And I did have a small slice of that frozen cake, which actually didn't taste all that great so maybe it's time to toss the rest.
I don't want to edit my old post from yesterday, so let me correct it here and say that my daughter can't SMELL. She can still taste. This is typical of a sinus infection. However, she has a fever, so she is getting a COVID test today. Her boyfriend is also sick. She will isolate in her room until we know. I feel relatively fine, just the usual winter complaints. My husband felt fine last night.... wait and see.
Progress as of today: 38 lbs lost so far, only 13.5 lbs to go!
I think I need to step away from the "checklist" mentality. That would give me more flexibility.
I think everybody is struggling for this past year so don't beat yourself up for sometimes losing motivation.
You'll get back on track. You've come a long way.
when your goals feel unreachable, you can cut them, think smaller. you have a tendency to have HUGE goals...with this virus pandemic, give yourself a break. do what you can do. it's ok. you've been working the whole time thru it. and you are doing a good job.
on a side note, i have felt very sad the past 2 days and the only reason i can really think it is because is lack of sleep. perhaps this adds to your seasonal depression? i have realized that lack of sleep has always hindered me emotionally....will post this and keep commenting before i lose these comments...
Also, I still do not think I am allocating my free time correctly. I just wish I did not need as much sleep, I guess. But you're right - not enough sleep leads to other problems. I wouldn't doubt that your feelings of sadness are related to the lack of sleep. See if this improves over the weekend, when you are able to rest up more.
i'm also someone who wants it all or nothing...but it's ok if you reach half the goals...there's always something more to attend to. try to be OK with not reaching all the goals...especially if your list is a long one..
i crossed my fingers to pray for your daughter not having covid.
take care, sleep is very important. i think if both you and I could sleep more, we would both be emotionally happier in general.
Goals become counter-productive when I push myself too hard or feel disappointed in myself at the end of the day. WOW, I'm going to work on that!
I've been fighting off something this week. I can tell because I have a cold sore flare up, which means that my immune system isn't as strong as it might otherwise be. I put off treadmill, weights, and yoga to conserve some energy. Even with this tactic, I still woke up late this morning.
I'm not sure what I'm fighting off. Daughter has had a sinus infection and lost her sense of taste, but can still smell. If course, we're very worried about COVID, but I figure if she had that, the husband would REALLY have it since his immune system is suppressed.
I don't like living in this state of paranoia and high alert all the time.
Progress as of today: 38 lbs lost so far, only 13.5 lbs to go!
If it were the other way around, I'd definitely be more concerned!!!!
Hope you are both okay!!
Grannieannie asked why we want to lose weight.
your legs are FINE...totally good! give your mind a break. be happy that you have strong legs. I know you want the opposite, but, just be glad you can use them for exercise. btw, i don't love my legs either. I'm blessed with very weak legs, due to little exercise growing up...i could never strengthen them enough....and they aren't as strong or lean as i'd like either. but that's it...i'm happy as is now. i try my best to keep working them, making little changes if any each year...and see where i am the next year :)
and yes, the lighter i am, the lighter my step is, the happier I feel.
I ran out of time this morning to post. I posted comments on my phone while I was at work becuase it was so slow. (That's why there were a lot of typos in my comments, but I think you all got the gist of what I was trying to say. Stupid phone!) I did have quite a few emails, but I got through them relatively quickly. Then things got very slow... The boss called in around 10:30am to say that he might be in later. I took my walk at 11:15am instead of later in the afternoon. Still slow. Verrrry slow....
I told myself that if the boss didn't come in by 2:00pm that I would leave at 3:00pm. Well wouldn't you know it - he came in at 2:45pm. WHY??? Dude, just stay home! What's the point of coming in with only 2 hours left in the day? He wrote 1 letter and then spent the rest of the time talking to everyone. I slunk out at 4:59pm and headed home.
Dinner was a light vegetarian affair, but then I went had had a bowl of apple crisp, which has a lot of sugar, relatively speaking. It was delicious!
Just finished up yoga, so I'm going to do my Monday evening chores and get to bed.
PS My arms and back are a little sore from yesterday's upper body weights workout :-)
Progress as of today: 38 lbs lost so far, only 13.5 lbs to go!
not lovely the boss showed up, but that's work for you! work....what you get PAID to do...! haha ;)
It is snowing again today. It's making everything very pretty outside. However, I will need to shovel soon.
I accomplished everythingon my task list yesterday. I did not log back on, though, because I was STRUGGLING with my self about eating a piece of frozen cake (back from the days of the Promotion Cake for my daughter). Oh I really wanted a piece, but this is NOT the time to be indulging in cake. I mean, if there was a special occassion, then that would be fine; OR if I were at goal, that would be fine, too. But my weight is up, I'm not at goal or anywhere near there, so now is not the time for cake.
I told myself that if I was going to have a piece of cake, that I'd have to log on here and make the announcement. That was enough to stop me. What also helped is having the sugar free gummies upstairs in my nightstand drawer. Going upstairs kept me away from the garage freezer on the first floor. And the sweetness of the gummies was a little treat - enough to satisfy.
I checked out 2 books on meditation. One is a 21-day program, and one is a 12-week program. I'm going start with these books. The 12-week program is written by a yoga instructor, so it's from a different (and helpful, I hope) perspective than the 21-day program. I started the 12-week book last night, and I can get into it. I also read a little more on a book called "Stillness" written by a man who was isolated for 3 months (?) over a winter, as a caretaker for a summer lodge. So he wrote about his experience of solitude and unplugging from society, and how he used his time to think and reset his life. An easy read, but I seem to be dragging this one out for some reason.
Today's To-Do:
Well done on resisting the cake!
Keep us posted on how your meditation is going. When I used to do it I would count my breaths, and when I started to think I'd put the thoughts in a bubble and let it float away. Or I would chant. Whatever works.
so, to answer your question if i did any more cardio on Saturday after I did a couple errands: NO. i was pretty busy the rest of the day with exercise and getting organized. i forget what it was i also did? but the day passed and it was mostly a rest day.
to answer your other question about if I notice I am eating less / less calories: YES. i say a big YES. As you know, i'm a calorie counting queen and there hasn't been a time in my life that i wasn't aware of how much i was eating, since i was 21.
Moreover to answer your question, i was able to eat a little less due to less stress at home when i wasn't working. Now, i'm working ...but it is a NEW experience and when i have these type of new, challenging experiences, i'm able to manage my appetite better because it's not a priority. I'm so into the job and new commuting that my appetite, for the time being these two weeks and probably this whole month, i have not been as insatiable as, per se, when working a boring job i've done for years. i'm sure you understand. When i'm bored is when i'm hungry. I'm not bored so i'm not hungry. but don't get me wrong: i've started getting hungry for lunch at work and i do have an appetite but i've been using what i learned on covid to try to dial it back and keep being moderate in general ....I am learning, continuously, what is best for me in maintainence. like you, i'm not done learning what works for me / weight maintenance / health!...
Great swap from cake to gummies. I also drink seltzers with my snacks. or coffee if it's early in the day. i LOVE jacky's tip about the cereals, tho, i will not be going out and getting them. but a great way of also swapping, just like you did with the gummies. i like how you had something, instead of nothing (to eat).
All books sound good. I know the meditation is right up your ally. I'm sooo missing having a local library to go to right now. My go-to is indefinitely closed for now. I'm going to research a city library to see if there's any by my work. but for now, i'm going to read a book on kindle on my phone.
as for that Isolation book about the guy isolated, that sounds SO INTERESTING. if you like the book, i'd like to know the title. i want to read it next!!!!!
Well.... I'm not sure what happened with my weigh-in. I did eat more yesterday in the afternoon, but it was carrots and celery sticks. And then I get this number on the scale?? REALLY??? I'm wondering if it's the small glass of wine I've been having some nights this week (like 1/3 measuring cup), or TOM bloat, or too much salt (?), but frankly, I'm too distracted by cramps to evaluate thoroughly. Just VERY DISCOURAGING, especially since I KNOW I was hungry a few afternoons at work.
I was not expecting snow this morning, so I've already been outside to shovel. It wasn't a lot but I want the driveway to melt, so the snow has to go. The direction that the driveway faces doesn't lend itself to melting very well. We face north. Anyway, now my hands are feeling a little shaky, but my driveway is clean, and I got in more steps. Shoveling is great for steps, but I have to wear the fitbit on my ankle or the arm movement doesn't count accurately.
I have a long list of things to do today, most of which bring me joy. I'm sharing it with you so that you can see what I planned for my day, but I'm not going to check things off here, unless I happen to update my entry for some other reason. However, I have a written list that I will cross off tasks as they are completed. Something very satisfying about checking things off a list.
Saturday's Happy Tasks:
I like checking things off a to do list as well.
I have some Happy Tasks too! i will be buying a book to read on my phone...or maybe it'll be practically free...I would go to the library, but, it's temporarily closed by me and i don't know where the library is in the city where i work yet...so i'll just use my phone app to read a book this time around....i'm going to read a famous George Orwell book that i never got to reading in high school.
enjoy cutting the nails, so much better than paying at the vet for something you care capable of.
i may do weights tonight also.
bye!
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Wow, shoveling is a lot of hard work...that is exercise, itself. Hope you have a good day.
bearcountrygg on 01/26/2021:
Hope your test comes back okay! Is your daughter still staying in her room?
legcramps on 01/26/2021:
My lower back always gives me a little trouble when I shovel. Must not be using proper body mechanics; I do tend to only throw snow on one side of my body rather than switching it up and using both sides.
horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2021:
I'm so glad you are home too..
the storm is coming down here but not sticking due to warmer than freezing temps, thankfully.
grannyannie on 01/26/2021:
Shoveling is a good workout.
Glad you had a good yoga session. Hope your test is negative.