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Donkey - Sunday Sep 22, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 1 of 100:  A goal is not always meant to be reached.  It often serves simply as something to aim at.  (Bruce Lee)

I dedicate this time to my overall well-being, mental and physical health.  

A few semi-fluid goals:

  • To incorporate weight-bearing exercises in my weekly routine, to help maintain muscle and bone.
  • Mindful choices and portion awareness in eating, including conscious evaluation of my hunger status.
  • To begin a regular practice of yoga, not as a routine, but as a soul-searching tool.  More of an art, than an exercise.
  • To work on becoming more consistent in letting go of many things that I allow to bother, anger, or worry me -- not letting things get to me. 
  • To embrace and appreciate the changes in the seasons.

It was forecasted that we'd have storms all day.  However, we've had a break for about 2 hours, and now it looks like the sun is coming out.  I *do* anticiapte storms around noon, though.  Today will be a slower day, to recharge for the week ahead.

I signed the husband and I for October's Library Chair Yoga, and I am signed up for Yin Yoga (at the same library) for next Monday, September 30th.  I was going to sign up for October's Yin Yoga (free), too, but on the same night, the same library is having a seminar on "Zero Waste Mindset" - providing tips on reduicing waste, saving money, and improving health.  Well, I'm all about all three of those things!  So I might sign up for that instead.  There will be other opportunities for Yin Yoga (free or paid) at other times.

Yesterday, on my walk, I was sorely tempted to jog, but I had this odd feeling under my left knee cap that reminded me that my running days are over. I had a little of that same feeling this morning, but then it dissipated and I feel fine now.  With today's rain, I probably won't get in a walk today, and that's fine.  Best not to tempt fate.

My daughter says I'm making excuses for not attending next Sunday's Yoga Hike.  Yes.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/22/2019:
Good goals! Seems like everyone is getting rain/thunderstorms. Same here.

BearCountryGG on 09/22/2019:
WEll.....that pouring rain has passed you and is hitting us right now...quite the downpour. I love it though...kind of like a cleansing......of the earth and trees....yup...like a bath for the earth and everything on it....Love your goals.....

Donkey - Saturday Sep 21, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

I know I said I would not try to post things in the past tense.  However, I wanted to mention that yesterday's intention:  Today is devoted to my health -- really helped me stay focused.  Title Company Man came by to drop off treats at the office, and I had no problem resisting. I just kept reminding myself, Today is devoted to my health.

I am trying to decided if I should sign up for a Yoga Nature Hike for next Sunday (September 29th) morning.  Several things holding me back:

  • $40 "investement" fee
  • Not sure the weather will cooperate
  • New situation: new people, new drive
  • The instructor seems like she'd be annoying.

Believe it or not, I think it's the "new drive" part that's holding me back.  I never go that direction.

The "investment" fee might be better applied to some classes or different yoga event.

Contemplating adding even more vegetables to my meals.  Although high in carbs, might be thinking about adding 1/2 beans to lunch and/or dinner. 

AFTERNOON EDIT:  I'm really struggling with making sane nutritional choices for myself right now.  With the exception of adding more vegetables, I'm all over the place.... Not a happy place to be.


Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/21/2019:
I've never heard of the yoga nature hike...do they stop and do poses?

Donkey on 09/21/2019:
Yes, I think that's exactly what they do. I have 99% decided I am not going to go, for all of the reasons listed above.

grannyannie on 09/22/2019:
Sounds interesting!

Donkey - Friday Sep 20, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

Lately,  I've been finding myself writing in the past tense.  I'm not so sure that is a healthy perspective or what I want for my diary here. 

Of course,  juicy work stories are the exception (lol).  I do a lot of venting about work here,  too. It's nice to have a safe place to unload,  but again,  should this be my focus? 

Food for thought...

I've decided to focus on the guidance of the Zen Teen book and return the other stress book written for adults.  I'm looking for tools,  not analysis. 

Today's intention is dedicated to my health.  As I mentioned earlier this week,  this Sunday starts the 100 day countdown to the end of the year.  I want to make the most of what's left of 2019.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/20/2019:
Yes, some Zen Buddhism is always helpful!

innerpeace on 09/20/2019:
I and intrigued with the 100 days left in the year...i will have to find me something to strive for.

I too search for stress relieving activities and exercises.

BearCountryGG on 09/20/2019:
We do head for what we are thinking about...a good test is to walk with your eyes straight ahead on some object...and you will walk a straight line to it. Now walk watching your feet...and you will zig zag all over the place and when you look up where you wanted to go will be all off. It's a good place to vent for sure....s long as you can let it go after.....kind of getting it off your shoulders....but for you...if it makes you think about it more it may not be helping. I agree...don't keep books that don't appeal to you.....no need to waste time on those.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
woohoo for a GOOD 100 days till the end of the year...that's serious food for thought on my end - to make it a good end, right?

Donkey - Thursday Sep 19, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

Not much time to post today.  My husband is having a flare-up with his symptoms, so that took a lot of my extra time today.  And there wasn't all THAT much extra time because I couldn't get my butt out of bed.  I actually lay in bed for over 30  minutes contemplating whether I should get up or not.

Yesterday was not as successful, with my intention and mantra, as I was feeling the stress manifest itself in my neck at around 1pm.  I think the intention:  "I extend kindess and mercy to myself and others" wasn't the right one for yesterday.  And I did not return to my mantra enough throughout the day. 

Also, I have decided not to participate in the remainder of the free yoga sessions at that yoga studio I tried earlier this month.  It's not the right place for me at this time, where I am in my yoga journey.  I am going to continue with the free chair yogas, I am still signed up for free Yin Yoga at the public library.  And I really do want to try the local yoga studio nearby (the one I can ride my bike to, it's so close).  The anxiety over spending the money is what is holding me back right now --- or is it the social anxiety?  Hmmm.... I hadn't considered that.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/19/2019:
I keep thinking about taking yoga. Might try a private lesson when we go to Thailand, then if I think it's for me I'll join in the easier classes.

Donkey on 09/20/2019:
That's a good idea!!! Ah yoga in Thailand... sounds so relaxing!

BearCountryGG on 09/19/2019:
I have used yoga CD's and now you tube for yoga.......not as agile as I used to be, and I'm more at ease just doing that at home....somewhere in all the moving I guess i got rid of my yoga mat...so i haven't been doing any floor poses...in fact my blocks and belt are gone too....hmmm...

Donkey on 09/20/2019:
I just can't seem to get myself to use my yoga DVD. I just learned last week that I can watch YouTube on the tv we have in the living room! I'll have to have my daughter show me how to do that.

grannyannie on 09/19/2019:
I'm very flexible but I don't have good balance and also have low blood pressure so if I get up too quickly I get dizzy.

Donkey on 09/20/2019:
I have balance issues too. I feel that the yoga is helping with that, but I sometimes have to modify the moves, which is ok. In fact, with the exception of that disaster yoga class, most instructors encourage us to move within our limitations.

legcramps on 09/19/2019:
Anxiety can manifest in so many ways, can't it? I hope you are able to work through it as you need to!

Donkey on 09/20/2019:
Awareness is hugely important. If I can catch it early, I can do things to bring it down and dissipate the tension.

I'm learning that awareness is huge. Most of us go through life, not being fully aware. At least that is what these meditation books are saying.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/19/2019:
you can always try one new session, you don't have to go to all of them :)

Donkey on 09/20/2019:
This is so true. Kind of like breaking away from the Clean Plate Club... same thing, different scene.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/19/2019:
maybe one day you'd teach yoga ?! teach chair yoga!?

Donkey on 09/20/2019:

grannyannie on 09/20/2019:
I had a hard time finding out about yoga classes and private instruction. Most of the yoga is for several days at some spa and costs a bundle! I chickened out last winter but I will definitely give it a try this winter. I do have orthostatic hypotension (when I get up too quickly all the blood leaves my head and my bp drops a lot leaving me dizzy and have to sit or hold on to something). So I'll mention this in my first private lesson.

grannyannie on 09/20/2019:
(in Thailand)

Donkey - Wednesday Sep 18, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

As of this Sunday, September 22, there will be 100 days left in the year. 

Yesterday,  I added more things to my office area to help provide a more peaceful work environment.  Coworkers were like,  "oh look at you decorating!" (wth) but I said that i was just fixing things that have been bothering me for a while. 

As I explained to my boss,  We make our own happiness.  

The day was less stressful.  Part of it is that we're beginning the slow down in real estate.  Subtle,  but it's happening. 

My intention yesterday was "Today I want to chill,  and not take anything too personally or seriously."  I think it worked!

I find myself needing something lately, like a retreat,  a group,  a craft,  something to look forward to. 

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/18/2019:
Nice to have a pleasant work area. Hope you find something to catch your interest. A book club, maybe?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/18/2019:
you sound good! you know that coworkers will comment on whatever change they see !!! duh! wouldn't you maybe comment if you saw someone changing things or not?? i would comment...

i know you don't like the attention, but at least you were able to quickly explain to them why you were changing things ;) don't worry about their comments, you got this. you do what makes you happy!

Donkey - Tuesday Sep 17, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

I did not post yesterday, but it was a very good day.  I started out feeling stressed, knowing which files I'd have to deal with, and no boss, and stuck with Associate Attorney who just can't get things done quick enough.

I was dwelling on the stressful and contentious Friday I had, but I quickly turned my mood around by saying to myself, "Today is my chance to do better."  And I think I did just that.  Tried to focus on making my dialogues productive and moving forward, rather than argumentative.

One of the helpful tools I've learned so far from Zen Teen is to set a daily intension for myself, and then a mantra.  My intention was the "today is my chance to do better" and my mantra was "life is a sacred adventure."  I repeated the mantra to myself several times throughout the day, and it really helped keep me grounded, but looking forward.

My boss did not go on his road trip after all.  At the very last minute, his wife had a meltdown, and they didn't go.  I know he had such high hopes for this motor scooter for his wife, but she wasn't having any of it.  It's difficult when someone doesn't want to help themselves.

But for myself, I can only observe this from where I'm standing.  My main energy has to be focused on my husband's health, my family, and my own well-being too.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/17/2019:
Great attitude! Glad you had such a good day.

BearCountryGG on 09/17/2019:
I love that mantra.....!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/18/2019:
i have to say, your positive attitude is a breath of fresh air for me at least over here! thank you for staying positive and realizing what's important to you..

Donkey - Sunday Sep 15, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

I didn't return to DD after my errand.  After many days (weeks) of contemplation, I decided to reach out to someone locally who was selling  2 framed photographs that I could hang on the blank wall I face every day at work.  They fit perfectly with the other decor that is in the room in which I work.  I've been looking for something that would change, for the better, the environment in my workplace, and I think/hope that this will help.  The seller wanted to meet up right away, and because it's hard to meet up during the week, so did I, so I had to leave right then and there.  My husband came with me, for safety reasons.

It was my full intention to come back to DD and post some more, but my husband brought up a conversation, regarding his illness, that kind of threw me for a loop.  I hadn't expected it, nor did I realize that he was at that point where we need to look into options that indicate that ... well, that he's not doing so well.  I know that he is sore almost every day, all the time, but it's not always at the forefront of my attention.  And I was aware that as the disease progresses, that more options would need to be brought in, but it's just quite startling when you realize, Now is the time.  You always think it's far off in the future, and then it's here.

I still need time to process our conversation.

Afterwards, we went to the library.  Husband wanted a book, and it was my intention to just return the 2 books I had, but of course, I walked out with 4 more books.  I still have one book at home to finish.  Two of the new books I checked out are about reducing stress.  The one I started is very helpful, called "Zen Teen" -- yes, it's written for teenagers!  But I like it because it's very easy to read, with definitive steps and exercises, to help oneself reset and refocus.  

The other stress book I haven't started, but it is written for adults, but it is not a long book, and one of the things that I like about it is that it has a plan for a 100-day reset.  I've been toying, in my thoughts, about doing a 100-day challenge of some sort, as we approach the 100-day countdown tot the end of the year.  (As I calculate prorations at work, I'm keenly aware of how many days are left in the year on nearly a daily basis.)  So, I am excited for he potential guidance this book may have to offer me as well.

With this reset, I also want to incorporate a contemplation of diet and exercise.  Going into the fall and winter months, I know myself and I know that having a plan is necessary for self-care, and will help me greatly with nurturing myself, physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/15/2019:
I'm sorry to hear that your husband isn't feeling well at all.....The books sound interesting...and I agree...a book written with teenagers in mind will really start at the beginning...a really good lace to start.

Maria7 on 09/15/2019:
Always good to have plans. Very smart.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/15/2019:
I really enjoyed your entry, it's so positive and has so much thought to it. i'm sorry though to hear about your hubby. what is his exact disease again?

it's good you did the errand yesterday and not during the week after work. weekends to me are also for changes in plans and doing out of the ordinary errands.

that's interesting to know that sometimes you are keenly aware of the # of days of a year that are left. i'd like that info too, it's good for us planners lol.

lastly, i also would have taken out teen zen if it spiked my interest and yes sometimes those books can be just as enjoyable to read as the "adult" ones..

Maria7 on 09/16/2019:
Hoping you are having a good day.

Donkey - Saturday Sep 14, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

Glad to have finished up a very unpleasant week.

So what was supposed to be a nice 5-day mini-vacation for my boss is ending up being a quick "there and back" ride to Detroit.  If he's lucky, he'll convice his wife to visit the Henry Ford Museaum.  Frankly I can't see her doing that, but oh well.  He'll probably be back at work on Wednesday, so just a short break. 

Even Male Co-Worker came to the same conclusion that his wife doesn't want to go.

In my exhaustion, frustration, and every other negative feeling you can think of, I kind of sank into peanut butter oblivian last night.  We celebrated my daughter's completion of her management class, we had macarons (cookies) and dark chocolate cake with raspberry filling.  And that was very good and a very nice way to end the week.

But then, after my evening bike ride, I was still carrying around the negative feelings from work, and the only thing that would help was peanut butter.  I'm not sure how much of it I ate, several spoonfuls.  And then I had a piece of dark chocolate.  I wasn't stuffed, but just satisfied, and then I went upstairs to get ready for bed.

So not the best.

I feel like if I could just stop myself from getting dragged in, getting dragged down, and taking this work stuff so seriously (or personally), that I could turn this around.  I don't know how to do this without drinking or smoking.  The walks at lunch help but the effect, sadly, doesn't last long.

I will post more later.  I have to run a quick errand.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/14/2019:
Donkey....if you and I could put as much energy into ourselves as we do everyone else...we could be so happy.......I suspect that if we both spent time planning our own time for us.....and let others adjust to our needs...we would probably be a lot happier......we have given and given to our families and put ourselves last for so long we don't know how to make ourselves happy anymore.....can you imagine if we actually made them adjust for a change...LOL

Donkey on 09/15/2019:
LOL! Yes, my focus is on others. I really need and want to turn that around.

Maria7 on 09/14/2019:
When you are retired, all of these important things to do at work will be a distant (if any) memory...Hope this helps.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/14/2019:
perhaps you were hungry after your bike ride.

perhaps instead of the several spoonfuls of pb, to plan to have just a little or plan to have a spoonful each night.

have you ever seen the mini rice cakes that are square and like 20 calories per slice? you could put it on that.

i'd like to say my whipped pb spreads easily and i am able to eat it moderately since i usually eat it quite often, during or after exercise.

perhaps plan to eat after your exercise, so it's "allowed" and you don't have to feel guilty doing it....

sorry to hear about your boss/his wife. he will figure it out sooner or later.

you were doing really well with work for a couple weeks, but then this week bc of the boss' plans, it seems you were caught up in them with your thoughts due to the unexpected changes.

grannyannie on 09/15/2019:
Sorry about your bad week!

Donkey - Friday Sep 13, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

The mental reset at work never happened. 

I walked up to our building,  only to see the boss's  car in the parking lot.  Get inside,  boss is there,  power is out.  Long story short,  boss stayed the whole day,  power didn't come back on until 2p.

The boss's trip is delayed because his wife had a hearing aid appointment.  Not sure what's going on,  but the time and day of this appointment kept changing.  I don't know if she couldn't get it straight or if my boss was confused. 

There is a possibility that he could come into the office this morning. When my boss said that to me last night,  I finally realized that his wife doesn't want to go on this trip. 

They are driving up to Detroit to try out this specialty motor scooter for her,  so that they can go on trips.   Her health is too poor for her to have knee surgery,  and she's not doing anything to improve her situation.  So my boss thinks that this scooter will be the answer.  

I'm not so sure about that. 

Kind of broke down yesterday and gave in to my munchies with 3 handfuls of nuts. 

Stayed up too late,  very tired today. 



Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/13/2019:
Well...at least nuts are healthy...it could have been worse. I hope he can get the scooter into their vehicle.....my inlaws are having trouble just getting sister in laws wheel chir into their cars.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/13/2019:
i overate sorta accidentally, should have stopped before my small dessert last night...either way, i slept it all off well..

sorry that yesterday was an off day. and about your slight indulgence. just remember today is a new day...and that means a new start even if you don't believe it, it's true ;)

grannyannie on 09/13/2019:
Nuts are healthy but hard to stop eating. I weigh mine, but it's so easy to dip into the jar and take more.

Maria7 on 09/13/2019:
Yes, at least if was not potato chips, it was something healthy. Nuts are good for you.

Donkey - Thursday Sep 12, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

Cooler, cloudy, early storms passed through...  

I hope to meet up with my daughter for lunch today.  Her lunch starts at 10:30a, which is a little early for me, so I'm hoping we can meet up at 11am.  I have a little shopping to do.

Going to try really hard to turn the corner with my mood today, with the boss being out of the office until next Wednesday.  Even though I'm still at the office working, I hope to use these 4 days as a "re-set" for myself.  Unfortunately, I did not come up with a plan or concrete steps to achieve this.  However, I do know that my first step will be to take one email at a time.  I deal with the file that is in front of me.

The complications come when telephone calls interrupt me.  I've learned to wait to pick up the holding call, so that I can finish what I was doing, and then grab the file and look at my notes.  This is an improvement but not perfect.

I hope to update this evening.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/12/2019:
Hope you're feeling more positive soon.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/12/2019:
Your "reset" planning sounds good. you can think about it a little today if you have time also...or maybe share your thoughts with your daughter for advice?

with coming up with my current fitness plan, my friend Christine helped me put the plan on paper, actually. she helped me a good deal with writing it out. i think i had a "brain fart" doing it myself as it doesn't include the weights which was such a habit, i had to make sure to change things up and she helped me.

Maria7 on 09/12/2019:
Hope you and your Daughter have a nice lunch together and all goes well at the office.

BearCountryGG on 09/12/2019:
One thing at a time is always good......I think that gets more done than multi-tasking usually...where aa lot of things just get partially done....

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