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Donkey - Thursday Dec 24, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5


Ugh, struggled with food last night again,  with the desserts. Handful of cookies,  piece of spice cake,  slice of apple pie, and then another small piece. Total emotional eating.  Grandma passed yesterday morning...  Missing my son...  Cramps that would not stop... Completely lost my focus. 

But I'm ok now, and I will enjoy this Christmas Eve in its entirety. 

Christmas party at work, come home early.  Today would be a good day for the treadmill in the afternoon. 

Merry Christmas to all my DD friends!

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/24/2020:
You know Donkey....Back around 1999...when I was going to weight watchers...and losing well.....there was a lady who sat in the back at every meeting......and she ALWAYS..every single meeting.....would say.....I lost weight over Christmas when everyone else gained...the leader seemed to have difficulty making her stop it.........so the leader once again...one week...asked how every one was doing SINCE the last meeting.....that threw that lady off...but she couldn't resist...she raised her hand again...and was called on as always...and once again...she said...I lost weight over Christmas when everyone else gained.......The leader was ready for her this time...and said Yes You Did BUT...Christmas was months ago and does anyone have anything to report for the last 7 days? The leader was finally sticking up for all that had gained over Christmas...( several months before).........for months that woman had been basically putting everyone else in the room down...and did it with a sneer on her face...and was finally put in her place......because we and the leader all knew that we had enjoyed holiday treats....and that woman probably ate lettuce for Christmas and it made her be and feel better than us...........and she never said that again.......because instead of feeling superior...now she felt some other kind of way...so she stopped bragging......and I never forgot it....now 20 years later...I think about it......we aren't robots...we live lives and we celebrate and we have no reason to be sad or ashamed or less than or guilty.....we need to just have fun sometimes and be happy about it.....so I say to you this morning that I'm glad you had that little food fit or snack or indulgence....because it was kind of fun and who says eating good tasty food is bad.....cake cookies and pie are AMAZING!!!! And you don't eat them every day or even every week.....and you can do that and it's okay. You had a sad and uncomfortable day.....and it's the holidays and there are lots of goodies around....there is no bad food.....sorry this is so long.

Donkey on 12/25/2020:
Oh my goodness, that lady! Ha ha ha ha - I guess it takes all kinds to make a world, doesn't it? I can just see the other members shifting uncomfortably in their chairs, rolling their eyes!

Jacky82020 on 12/24/2020:
Lol. So what did she do? Lose weight over the holidays & gain 20 pounds in January?

bearcountrygg on 12/24/2020:
I don't know because she never looked liked she lost any.......but she was sure making it known that she lost during the after Christmas weigh in.

grannyannie on 12/24/2020:
Don't worry about behaving right now. You've got enough to worry about.

Anyway, hope you can have a happy xmas.

Donkey on 12/25/2020:
Thank you! I'm right on course with feeling bloated and such. I imagine that after today, I will be very tired of eating.

happy-1 on 01/02/2021:
^LoL Jacky82020. She shopped the post-holiday sales and gained on the cheap, then paid extra to lose it again.

Donkey - Wednesday Dec 23, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

 Not a good day yesterday.  TOM is here, and yesterday was Cramp Day, so I didn't go home for lunch as I had planned to do all week. 

Then,  much worse, Husband received a call from his niece that his grandma has been in the hospital with COVID for the past 2 weeks,  and they were taking her off the oxygen,  etc., so if he wanted to say good-bye, he needed to FaceTime immediately. 

Well,  we have android phones so we can't FaceTime - that's an Apple iPhone thing.  So daughter had to come home to set up her iPad,  and Husband said goodbye. 

Needless to say, I didn't handle this well:  4 cookies,  1.5 piece of spice cake (single layered), and a dark mint chocolate candy. 

And it was hard to get up this morning,  knowing bad news awaits.  Bleah....

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/23/2020:
((HUGS))....I'm sorry to hear about your sad news....How old is his grandma?

Donkey on 12/23/2020:
Grandma was 90, I believe. She passed away this morning, around 11am.

legcramps on 12/23/2020:
I am so sorry to hear of your sad news...hugs!

Donkey on 12/23/2020:
Thank you!

grannyannie on 12/23/2020:
So sorry for you and husband's loss. Hugs.

Donkey on 12/23/2020:
Thank you!

Jacky82020 on 12/23/2020:
So very sorry to hear that, Donkey. I watched a new episode of some medical drama recently & it focused on ppl in the hospital dying from covid, The nurses were holding these big iPads up to the patients so they could see their loved ones. Very sad & depressing.

Donkey on 12/23/2020:
I was still at work when Husband said good-bye. My daughter was here, and I believe she did say good-bye but did not converse otherwise.

grannyannie on 12/23/2020:
I did not get to say goodbye to my son.

Donkey on 12/23/2020:
I'm so sorry... (((hugs)))

Husband was very fortunate that the nurse took time from her schedule, to use her personal phone, to reach out to the family for this.

I can't imagine saying good-bye, and yet, I can't imagine not saying good-bye either.

Jacky82020 on 12/23/2020:
I am so sorry, Annie.

I know a cousin is no comparison to a child, but I didn’t even know my cousin was sick enough to die! It all happened so quickly. I miss her so much. She was 60 and there for me my entire life. Now she’s gone. Makes me so sad.

Did I mention my niece, an RN in her 20’s , got the vaccine in California? This is where my cousin died earlier this year. Think her cousin, my nephew, a police officer, got one too or will soon.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/23/2020:
I'm sorry to hear about the Covid on hubby's side of family and that they are taking her off life support. that is very said news, I'm very sorry.

my nephew, 2 yrs old, got Covid at school! they don't wear masks at the school (teachers do). but somehow, teacher tested positive and i'm sure several kids now have it. my nephew and sister (his mom) were sent right home from my parents once it was known there was covid at the school...my dad has asthma and that would be terrible if he got it...fingers are crossed, everyone seems to be OK for now...

i hope you feel better too...cramps are the WORST.

soon it will be Christmas, time for some at-home time to rest up.

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 22, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

Good morning! I am practically all wrapped and ready for Christmas!  Whew!

Work.... oh Work,  what shall I do about you?  I can't believe we got 7 new contracts over the weekend! That is crazy!  That's typical of what we get in March,  not the week of Christmas!  So I will be busy next week,  but Mistakes Girl is busy this week,  opening up the files.  

I don't know how much of Monday I will be able to take off for my 25th wedding anniversary....

Yoga was very good. I explained to Jean what had happened over the weekend and the hip pain I was having. She made small adjustments to the session, and afterwards,  I felt as though my hips had been "reset".  I'm a little sore this morning,  but nothing more than the usual aches. 

The gym doesn't have group class right now,  because of COVID restrictions, but they have classes posted on YouTube, including the Basic class that never fit into my schedule,  when it was offered. I'm going to start doing these at home. 

Also, a local studio is offering a "yoga basics" package in January, a flat fee for 31 days of yoga,  whether it be a meditation,  Q & A, basic moves,  etc.  I'm thinking of getting that for myself.  Although I may be beyond that, my reasons are:

  • Get any questions answered,  especially the questions I don't even know I have!
  • Get fundamental explanations for poses. 
  • Establish 31 day yoga habit
  • Thinking this might open some doors for me in this journey.

IDK, maybe I'm being too self-indulgent.  There are things i could be doing at home on my own,  and I haven't. How is spending another $50 going to change things?

I did ok with eating, but did have 2 cookies after dinner. 

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 12/22/2020:
Happy Anniversary! I hope you get some time to spend with your husband. Congratulations that is a major accomplishment - probably more than half your life.

Can we really be ready for Christmas?

grannyannie on 12/22/2020:
Happy anniversary to you and hubby!

Why would it be so busy this week? Strange!

Glad your hip is better.

Jacky82020 on 12/22/2020:
Happy anniversary! The 31day yoga may be worth it, ya never know. Good the hips’ better!!

bearcountrygg on 12/22/2020:
Happy Anniversary!!!It's okay to be self indulgent......we need to take care of ourselves in ways that are important to us!!! You work all day.....you NEED to do something that you enjoy too!!! Work is the vehicle that we do in order to have a life we love!!!

legcramps on 12/22/2020:
Spending another $50 will change things because it will keep you more accountable than you would be if you just decided to do these things at home. It's way easier to let it go when you are only accountable to yourself. At least this way, you will be accountable to a group or a leader, as well as to the money spent! I think it's a great idea!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/22/2020:
Just want to reinmd you - even if you don't love your work - you have those skills and should feel good that you have training in paralegal and you put it to good use because you work in the field. That's an accomplishment and a reason to feel good about your choices and decision to have gotten that paralegal training in the first place. i think it feels good to, when that is the case. when i go back to work, it will not be for something i was looking for, but something thru only networking and not personal to me. Totally different feelings and meaning than the work you do and why you do it.

I'm glad you'll spend your 25th with your hubby! how nice!

and that's so true...lots of those classes that community centers and gyms offer never fit into a working woman's schedule...ah, so be it...that's the give and take of being a working woman! i totally can relate ;) (relate from former experiences!). I think i've gotten to do everything and anything i ever thought of doing these past 9 months. what a refresher, huh!...but if i had a family, i'd have had to use my savings to pay for living...thankkfully that's not my case! whew!

Donkey - Monday Dec 21, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

 We'll see if this week will be a quiet one or a crazy one. I  think it will be alright, unless I let it get to me.

Tonight is yoga with Jean on Zoom.  I really like her but her seedings are all the same,  it seems.  That was one positive thing to come out of the Saturday Yoga Disaster - tried some new poses. 

If nothing else,  having yoga at 7p means that I need to leave the office promptly at 5p, no later. 

Oh I wanted to mention that I did get my butt on the treadmill and jogged for a bit. I did well.  Again,  why don't I use this more often?

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/21/2020:
Well done on the treadmill. I miss being at the gym and using the treadmill and other machines.

At least you learned some new poses.

Are you off Xmas eve?

Donkey on 12/22/2020:
I have to work Christmas Eve, but Male Co-Worker is emphasizing that we get to leave after the lunch party at noon. I am planning on being there until 2p.

Jacky82020 on 12/21/2020:
Congrats on the treadmill! Do you jog? The husband runs very fast. I prefer a quick walk up a steep incline, but am temporarily sidelined.

Donkey on 12/22/2020:
I have been jogging on the treadmill after a short walk to warm up.

I used to walk slower on inclines, but the last couple of times I did that, my hips complained.

I think I could get better results from jogging anyway

bearcountrygg on 12/21/2020:
Taking the first step is usually the hardest....glad you are past that...getting on the treadmill will be easier now.

Donkey on 12/22/2020:
Need to make this a habit, and I'm not quite there yet. Therfore, treadmill usage will be on my list for January goals, too.

legcramps on 12/21/2020:
Enjoy your yoga tonight, even if the poses are all the same. Consider it a steady constant in life around all the other chaos :)

Donkey on 12/22/2020:
True! I hadn't thought of it this way.

It was a wonderful session. I will write more about it today.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/21/2020:
the reason i was asking about the ground cloves is that i also have them, bought them for something i made (not sure what!?) and hardly any recipes are calling for them. so they just sit in the cupboard. and they smell so nice. i'll have to google when/where/how i can used them more often bc it's got to be healthy to ingest them! :)

well, about that yoga and trying to find yoga you like...there's so much yoga on zoom and online, you may want to google and find a whole new yoga instructor to follow...there's a lot of great yoga teachers out there, so you don't need to settle with mediocre.

nice job using the treadmill. you know, that's the same question i ask myself about my stationary bike and stepper...why don't i use it more?! and the same question i ask myself when i do squats: "these went by fast, why can't i do them a bit more!?" haha.

Donkey on 12/22/2020:
When I was a girl, I made a gift for my grandmother by taking an unpeeled, whole orange, and piercing it with whole cloves all around it. Pinned a ribbon to the top of it, and she could tie it in her closet. Smelled very good!

I'll have to Google things to make with clove. It's a delightful scent in the winter!

Donkey on 12/22/2020:
Also, I'll write more about the yoga class and plans for my next step. However, I stick with this lady because something tells me having a connection with her could be more beneficial some time down the road.

Donkey - Sunday Dec 20, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

 Was in some pain for most of yesterday - damn that free "yoga".  I received an email asking for feedback, and I'm inclined to give it.  Went to bed relatively early, thinking that rest would be best for the pain.  Going to bed at my usual earlytime allowed me to wake up at my usual early time this morning.  Rode my bike, did some stretches, took different meds this time, rather than Aleve.  We're going to see how Motrin does.

I have some presents to wrap before Daughter wakes up for the day.  The gifts for my husband are in her room, so I won't wrap them until she wakes up.  Then I have 3 things to bake: 

  1. Spice cake
  2. Oatmeal buttermilk cranberry cookies
  3. Eggplant.

All three require a 350F oven, and the eggplant may be too soft already.  Kept forgetting it was there.

I made some good peanut butter cookies with the Hershey's Kiss candy on top.  My family thought they were good enough to keep (versus disposing of them at work, LOL).  I did quite well with eating only 2.  Later on, as I was setting up the coffee pot for the morning's brew (on a timer), I wanted another cookie, but then told myself, "Just wait - you have some yummy gummies upstairs waiting for you," and that worked.  Now that I think about it though, they are about the same amount of calories...  Well, at the time, it seemed to work well.  

I plan to write more later today, but I should get started on wrapping those gifts.

LATE AFTERNOON UPDATE:  Feeling kind of empty and aimless.  Ate 4 or 5 oatmeal cookies, and they aren't even that good.  Then I had some dip with carrot sticks, and then dip with a handful of tortilla chips.  I'm done eating for now, and I think I'll walk on the treadmill a little to help stretch out my aching hips.

Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/20/2020:
You are really tough eating only 2 pb cookies with chocolate on top!

Where was the pain from the yoga? Everywhere? I'd send in a review.

Husband puts aubergines (eggplant) in curries often.

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
I did leave a comment. My pain is mostly in the hips... so the hip flexors, I would say.

I did not do so well with the oatmeal cookies -- and I don't know why because they don't taste very good. I guess I keep eating them hoping I'll like them better, ha ha ha.

Jacky82020 on 12/20/2020:
I am taking ibuprofen for the knee. Same as Motrin, but 200 mg each instead of up to 1,000. I am taking 4 (200 mg) tabs. Supposed to be doing prednisone but it was aggravating my ever present insomnia. Helpful.

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
I've taken 4 Motrin at a time, before, for cramps. Not at this time.

Jacky82020 on 12/20/2020:
Oh, I see Motrin is OTC now. Used to require a RX. This old man across the street from me was always giving me these 1,000 mg pills. Big!

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
Getting 1000mg requires a prescription - and yes, they are big, honkin' horse pills.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2020:
My comments regarding your entry for yesterday: - no weight progress is good maintenance and no harm done! excellent. - the sandwich/catering idea sounds VERY TASTY and satisfying! enjoy it! always can bring yourself your veggies or some light drink/diet coke to wash it down/seltzer/tea/coffee...i'll take free food, plus, it's a change of pace from your own food = win win!

What was the ingredient for the spice cake that you were looking for, Cloves?

I'll tell you, the park clean-up thing has been great. They are only two hour sessions, most of them - the tulip bulb planting was 4 and a lot more physical because of that...but for two hours, it's good when you can work with a partner, to help bring the garbage bag around to fill up...or if it's a leave bag, that's even easier to work as partners. i have found it nice to always find someone to work with, thankfully. it can be lonely by oneself!

cat adoption is nice if you can cuddle with them, but, you have your own and this is a lot of sitting...? perhaps it's ok once in awhile?

the stocking / expiration date is a standup job i'm sure, could be counted as somewhat of a moving task / light exercise not a desk job...sorta sweet.

for sponsering the park? is that a volunteer thing or just a donation?

regarding the high-impact aerobics that the yoga became...yuck...i cannot really jump and do those things myself either anymore...it irritates my left ankle too much as well. too bad you didn't know and they didn't make it clear.

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
The spice cake was a gift, in a jar. The dry ingredients come in a jar, and I added the wet ones, plus sugar, because sugar is always mixed with the wet ingredients first.

I don't believe it had cloves, which I LOVE. It tasted more like allspice and nutmeg. It was very similar to the spices in the oatmeal cookies.

I'm not sure what is involved with sponsoring a park. I'm thinking it would involve trash pick-up, and then notifying the parks department when naughty kids wrap the swings on the top bar of the support frame. If it's just money, then I think I'd have to pass.

Your summaries of the other volunteering ideas are correct, unless the cat thing involves cleaning. Not sure I need to be cleaning more cat boxes.

I can't tell you how disappointed I was in the yoga.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2020:
Do you ever add the cloves seasoning into your desserts or food?

ohh how i love eggplant. if i can break my lazy spell, i should cook up my brussel sprouts so they are ready to eat tomorrow after volunteering (?) if it really happens for composting. i will go and hope for parking and hope everything works out!

if you are getting so snacky all the time and give into your treats more than you want, perhaps you need snacks so you aren't as ravenous between meals? or drink more liquids as well.

that's why i'm eating so many carbs and sweets, it seems i am able to eat them and my cravings have gone away mostly...because i'm eating such a carby diet during Covid.

as far as volunteering, thank you for saying i motivated you ;) i'm glad i could do something positive for you!

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
I've baked with cloves before, but I've never been spontaneous with cloves. I have ground cloves. Any suggestions?

I did give into my sweets today, figuring that I have all week until next weigh-in.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2020:
don't worry about your comments to me, i don't are if they are about you - because i can relate to them anyway! i am totally with you, could not do the skip meals thing while working at a desk, lol...no way. it's a break, yes.

even this job, i will have to take breaks to snack. there's no way i'll last till lunch. just can't do that. I'm contemplating coming in earlier than my job starts to eat breakfast at my desk...do you do this?

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
Thank you for understanding. I'm sometimes tell my stories as a way to say, "I can relate." But then, that can come across as rude and self-centered. It's not intended to be that at all.

OMG you get me! I used to bring my breakfast to work and eat it at my desk around 10am. However, now that I wear a mask all day, I do come into work early, to eat without my mask, because usually no one else in my area has come in yet. Yes, I've done that!

Jacky82020 on 12/21/2020:
Holy ****, Donkey. 4 Mortrin. How many mgs is that? I do 4 or 5 200mg generic ibuprofens. And occasionally the big 1000 Motrins that were given to me, in years gone by.

Donkey - Saturday Dec 19, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.5

A quick entry before my online Zoom (free) yoga class at the Garden!  Then, I hope to write more, when I have more time.  

So weigh-in was about expected.  In fact, the way I felt this morning, kind of bloated, I was rather expecting to see numbers around 145.  Essentially, I made no progress this past week.  OK.

The Paralegal Party at work was fun.  Not everyone drank, because the wine was "sweet red", and not everyone ate the stale pretzels - hey, nothing's too good for our law firm - but we all congregated for about 30 minutes or so, with good cheer and good  fun.

It turns out that we may have a catered party on Christmas Eve after all.  The Boss' daughter (down in the PT clinic) had her office party catered by the same gourmet sandwich place that Male Co-Worker initially wanted to use for our party (before the Boss bah-humbugged it and it was canceled).  But because now his daughter did it, the Boss thinks it's a WONDERFUL idea and we should do that too. 

(This is nothing new for the Boss; this has happened many times before, where an idea is shot down, but when the daughter does it, then it all of a sudden becomes a great idea.)

But enough about work - this is the weekend!

In addition to yoga, I have the usual laundry and fill up the birdfeeders outside.  I'm also making another type of Christmas cookie today.  If Husband can find an ingredient, then I will also be able to make a spice cake - maybe not today, but soon, for Christmas.

Inspired by Horn, AND because it's so slow at work, I took the opportunity yesterday to research some volunteering options for myself in my area.  I was discouraged by some, but I found a handful that look like things I want to do:

  • Volunteer at a cat adoption agency near work - maybe
  • Stock shelves & rotate food (check for expiration dates!) at the township food pantry, nearby - maybe
  • In the spring and fall, volunteer to clean up some nature parks, neither of which are near to me, but within driving distance - BIG maybe
  • Bell ringer for the Salvation Army -- oh I definitely want to have the courage to do this next year!!!
  • Sponsor the little neighborhood partk that my backyard opens up to -- definitely!  I just have to work up the courage to contact the village.

And I'm thinking that I just might keep volunteering at the legal clinic, at least for now, once we re-open.  It's a worthy endeavor, and just because the procedure has changed, it might not exactly change for our clinic.  So I'm going to wait and see what happens with that.

Post "Yoga" update:  Wow, was I ever disappointed by the free yoga.  I'm so glad I didn't make any monetary donation.  This wasn't yoga - it was high-impact aerobics with a yoga warm-up. Why would anyone want to do high-impact aerobics when you're in a beautiful, peaceful garden?  That seems to be a severe mismatch to me.

It's very dangerous to do high-impact activities - jumping, running, etc. - while barefoot.  This is something that I cannot even THINK about doing, due to a previous plantar fasciitis injury in my right foot. 

Also, I hurt something in my left hip.  Usually, it's my right hip that torments me. Well, now, I have both sides yelling at me. WOW is my left hip ever angry today.  I took a walk around the block, which felt good while I was doing it, but now that I am sitting, it is angry with me again.  I took Aleve - not helping.  I'm going to do some stretches here in a minute.

One thing though - I notice that I don't really jump - EVER.  Maybe I need to do that, with proper gym shoes, as an intentional act (and not unexpected during yoga).


Progress as of today: 43 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/19/2020:
Terrific of you to consider volunteering, Donkey! You’re a good girl, you are.

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
I was inspired by Horn's efforts! I will edit my entry to reflect that. ALSO, as I was *thinking* about leaving the legal clinic this year, that I'm thinking of back-up plans NOW will make that decision easier (maybe?) to make, if it comes to that. does that make sense?

bearcountrygg on 12/19/2020:
Awww...cat adoption place......or I would go to the hospital and rock babies....

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
I thought about that, too, but for reasons I won't go into here, it's not for me. But I always thought that is a wonderful way to volunteer!

grannyannie on 12/19/2020:
Good for you looking into volunteering!

I've had plantar fasciitis 3 times. Last time was nearly 5 years ago and I practice prevention because I don't want it again. I'm afraid to do anything involving jumping as well. I've got a rope for jumping and think about using it.

Jacky82020 on 12/19/2020:
Thought of volunteering at the local cat sanctuary too. No kill shelter, but even so, I’d find some situations depressing & may bring too many home. But my stock market gains enable me to donate generously to them, the Wild Animal Sanctuary in Colorado & Limbe in Cameroon, Arica. They rescue primate & African Greys. Sometimes another that rescues many species, including Bald Eagles, but the former are my favorites.

Donkey on 12/20/2020:
Yes, it is very depressing. I did do some volunteering at a Pet Smart adoption center. Room enough for 6 cats. I cleaned the cat cubbies where they lived, and socialized/played with the cats. I wanted absolutely no part of adoptions.

When this Pet Smart closed, I stopped volunteering because the new location was not convenient for me.

Not sure I want to get into that again. But maybe, if the legal clinic thing ends. Or if for some reason, I'm able to retire or work part-time.

Jacky82020 on 12/20/2020:
I am waaaay too sensitive when it comes to animals. Better for me, since I can, to focus on trading & donating. But so admirable of you & HOP et al to do what you do. I can’t risk covid exposures & have my heartstrings yanked

Donkey - Friday Dec 18, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

Yesterday was good until the evening but I suppose that turned out OK,  too.

Work has gotten very quiet except for a few files that are just hornets' nests. To liven things up,  I thought we'd open a bottle of sweet red wine a realtor gave me a couple of years ago. Couldn't find a corkscrew in the whole building,  so I'm bringing one today. I mentioned this plan to Mistakes Girl and she perked up to this idea. So a little party this afternoon!

I received a "happy holidays" email from a realtor (mass marketing thing), and somehow, I ended up on the website for the Garfield Park Botanical Gardens? Any way, they offer a free yoga Zoom class every Saturday!  I did not know this until yesterday! So I signed up!  They do ask for a donation but I figured I would try a class first,  and then if I liked it and signed up again,  I would contribute. So this Saturday, I'll be doing yoga in the garden!

The bad part of the day came at dinnertime. IDK, I was a little perturbed with Husband, and Daughter's boyfriend made a rude & thoughtless comment, directed at me.... it just wasn't great. 

But I had only half a cookie and 9 sugar-free gummies. Overall,  it was a good eating day. Had wine at dinner. I'm thinking wine might help me relax a little. 

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/18/2020:
Yes, wine is very relaxing as I well know. Sorry dinner wasn't great and the bf was rude.

Are you off next week?

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
I have Christmas off, and I'm hoping - we're ALL hoping - that we can go home early on Christmas Eve, like around 2p.

Some title companies are closed on Christmas Eve, and some are only open until 1p. Nice Lady thinks it will be very quiet as some people will indeed take the whole week off.

innerpeace on 12/18/2020:
Never got the hang of wine, but you enjoy! We could use more thoughtless people in the world. Some just spout off before thinking.

I hope you have a happy day at work with your wine tasting party!

Have a great weekend.

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
I like most wines, the drier (bitter), the better. I also like light-colored beers, but I'm not into the heavy stout beers. And I'm not a fan of mixed drinks any more. Of course, if it's a pretty drink, like pina colada I may not resist, lol!

bearcountrygg on 12/18/2020:
Sounds like there will be a lighter work load now...hopefully until after the new year. You have the goodies under control...always a great feeling!

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
Oh I hope so... I mean, I know that the firm needs the business, so busier is better, but I'm just done with it.

Surprisingly, I do seem to have a better grip on the sweets this year. I hadn't really acknowledged that until you said something. Thank you!

Jacky82020 on 12/18/2020:
Got those low carb wraps and says something like 18 total carbs, 15 fiber & 3 net. So what’s the deal here? You poop out the insoluble fiber and it doesn’t count? Are they counted in the total calorie count? Back to the drawing board. I can always make enchiladas and feed these to Matt if the carb count is too high for me. I am going for an average glucose level of 70. Or better!

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
Yes, fiber is deducted from carb count. That's why I said NET carbs. Also, for other foods, sugar alcohol grams UP TO 8g can be deducted from total carb grams.

There are keto beads out there that are very good and lower in carbs - and are actual slices of bread! - but they are hard for me to find in the stores... when I used to shop in stores, that is.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/18/2020:
sounds like your eating is getting a bit better, that snacks are more in moderation!

next, you'll be doing some yoga outdoors in the park!?!?! how cool is this!? well, it may actually be COLD rather than cool...but this is cool, i can't wait to hear more about it!!!!

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
I'm sorry I wasn't more clear about the yoga. It's a Zoom session, so I'm at home. The yoga teacher is in the greenhouse garden (huge). So everyone stays warm!

When there's no covid, they do offer live yoga classes at the park, it seems, but that's too far for me to drive into the city, for that.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/18/2020:
oh yeah, i seem to have been having troubles with my own sugar gummies - i have decided your plan to count them out first, then close the bag and put it away, might help me, rather than eating out of a multi-serving bag of gummies! thanks for the tip.

Donkey on 12/19/2020:
Counting them out and then putting that bag away has helped immensely!

These are generic gummies. The store i bought them from has a huge selection of candies that they bag under the store brand: chocolate covered nuts, gummies, hard candies, gum, etc.

Donkey - Thursday Dec 17, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

 If you wrote an entry yesterday,  I have left a comment.   I'm not sure how many of you go back the next day to read additional comments. I read DD throughout the day,  but I seldom have the opportunity to log in again,  after the morning,  to write & comment. 

Yesterday was better.  It was quiet,  and, rather than feeling bored,  I appreciated the emptiness. 

There was a small event,  with a client,  that made me realize,  as with that other awful client I hung up on,  that most clients do not read what I send them. Some don't even read their emails,  I think. But now I realize that MOST aren't really reading anything I send them.  Then,  when a problem comes up,  it's our fault that they didn't know (whatever) before. 

So once I realized this,  I told my boss this,  and he agreed!  I told him that once I've resolved this fact with myself, it will make for better communications moving forward. 

With this latest client who didn't read his documents,  I started getting into contract obligations, which was negative,  so then I pulled back and said,  "I'll have to ask the attorney what our client's options are" and didn't get involved. 

Not stepping into another drama.  Let the Boss handle that.  Perhaps that is a dereliction of my duties,  but the attorney is better at handling these types of problems and these types of clients. 

Maybe I'm not the best person for this job any more. 

No weights or yoga  last night. I had half a cookie and 2 chocolates.  Hmm, that's not as good as I thought i had done.  Then,  after my bike ride, I went a little wild with the sugar free gummies. 

  • Need to count out the gummies,  so I know what I'm eating. 
  • Need to work on either  a suitable "dessert" or  night snack.
  • Need to stretch  more.

I'm sorry to fill this up with so much work drama. Thank you for your patience. 

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/17/2020:
Work is life....for so many years.......just a fact!!! We have all been there and understand. It makes my heart happy when I see that you have eaten a carb.......I know....you get mad at yourself for what you consider an indiscretion.....but I see it as happy food...mood lifting.....self soothing.....one of the easiest and finest enjoyments of life. To me...it's always about not going overboard ( hard for me and probably hard for most)...but none the less....I had to learn to savor it.....enjoy it.....appreciate it's deliciousness......old days...I wolfed them down like I was in the closet and afraid someone would notice that I ate the whole bag....There is a huge difference in savoring.....and scarfing it down without tasting it.

Jacky82020 on 12/17/2020:
Wow, amazing how these people are so lackadaisical about contracts. I google mine until my fingertips go raw.

grannyannie on 12/17/2020:
Annoying clients! I don't miss not working at all!

I go back and see if their are more comments the next day.

grannyannie on 12/17/2020:
Oops I meant I don't miss working!

innerpeace on 12/17/2020:
that's a fact - people don't read things they are not interested in...and it's always your fault. I hope you have a better day. And to answer your question...NO down numbers yet!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/17/2020:
what sf gummies are you eating?

also, maybe it's not in your job description to "get into it" as much with clients...if possible do save it for attorney / boss if it's no longer your "job territory."

next, like the others are saying, i couldn't agree more that work is life.

instead of volunteering at legal clinic, you could always in the future do my types of volunteering that occur at both parks (for nature organizations for volunteer cleanups) and pantrys (if you do some research and see what looks best in your area so it's a decent experience). you can still have your job and do something nice on the side.

and if you run out of time, when you retire, since you are pretty fit, that's more the time to give your time...or perhaps you'll work part time later in life, and have time to volunteer...

a job is necessary. i will need to go back to the working world at some point!

Donkey - Wednesday Dec 16, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

 Yesterday was not a good day.  Had a bad experience on the phone with a client.  Had to hang up on her.  I was shaking both inside and a little on the outside, too.  These incidents - as few as I try to mitigate - really do shake me up. 

To calm myself down,  I had 4 Christmas cookies,  then 15 or so sugar gummies,  and then a couple handfuls of sugarless gummies. I should have gone to bed early,  to put the day behind me,  but I still felt rattled up inside. 

I'm definitively feeling stressed,  even without a lot of work to do. This anxiety makes me more prone to a more salty self. Wearing the mask all day just drives me nuts. I don't know how healthcare providers do it. 

I find myself overwhelmed with sadness, tinged with gratitude for my blessings (if that makes any sense), in the evenings. I probably need a good cry but I don't want to do that. 

Well today is a new day,  and I don't want to drag yesterday's negativity into my fresh start. 

I need to find ways to get calm and remain calm, rather than to react. I think yoga helps with that. Need to do more yoga. 

Also, I haven't been drinking enough water this week, at all. I do believe that the beginning to well-being begins with water.  So I'm definitively going to work on that today. 

Just going to work on keeping my mouth shut today... even if it means feeling left out or isolated. 

Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/16/2020:
Oh, Donkey! I’m so sorry about that nasty client. Wish I could come and pimp slap the ****! I had a similar problem with someone in a DM room. Much drama! I left & returned. Laying low now. And yes, I bawled. Not that they will ever know. I am not a weeper. Usually only when a pet dies. Glad you’re doing better now. Upwards & onwards. It all passes.

Donkey on 12/17/2020:
Yes, yesterday was much better in that it was very quiet. I'll write more about this today.

bearcountrygg on 12/16/2020:
Sometimes a good cry is needed......not crying can easily end up in a sinus infection and nobody needs that! I try to remember that the only person I can control is myself and that always makes me feel better knowing that karma will get them....Hope today goes easier for you.

Donkey on 12/17/2020:
Funny, I did wake up with the feeling that a sinus infection was starting!

grannyannie on 12/16/2020:
Sorry about the idiot client. A good cry can help.

Donkey on 12/17/2020:
Thank you! I'm not feeling as vulnerable now, so maybe the feeling was partially hormonal. Knowing that helps too, but dang these hormones!

innerpeace on 12/16/2020:
crying helps! I hope you have a better day.

Donkey on 12/17/2020:
You've made me realize that I shouldn't dead a good cry. That there's some value in that, and maybe it's not something to avoid, but rather, to embrace a good cry, at the appropriate time and place.

Maria7 on 12/16/2020:
We are living in stressful times...We all have different things we are dealing with ongoing. It is easy to tell ourselves to RELAX but it is another thing to make ourselves do it. Yes, drinking more water is a good thing, to stay hydrated. And I agree with you...many times, the less we say, the better. I find myself holding back from saying things I would usually say in response to different things. Sometimes I feel like what will my saying anything accomplish, anyway? I find that reading verses in the Bible about peace when I get up each morning and after I pray, helps me to stay somewhat calmer during the day. I wish you a relaxing, peaceful day. Yes, a good cry does help sometimes.

Donkey on 12/17/2020:
You make some good suggestions that I am going to take to heart. I definitely feel the need to pray more.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/16/2020:
Wow...how did i miss this entry of yours yesterday!? maybe you wrote it really late on Wednesday night?

grrrr....so sorry the client rattled you up so much! i can understand that that is the business, $$$/real estate, and that is def something that causes a lot of frustration with people. I'm so sorry it had to affect you too! grrrr!

If you have washable masks, i can recommend you change them every 2-3 hours and just wash them back at home. Mine get sweaty and gross after a bit. When i volunteer in the cold, my nose even runs in them, even if i am blowing my nose a little bit to mitigate it and not have the inside of the mask get soaked and disgusting (decided to bring tissues today and just sneak in a couple blows...yeah not the best when serving people but i don't have covid as of now...)...but yeah, after i'm done volunteering, in the car i always have a fresh mask to put on and i throw the used one on the floor of my car...to take out of the car whenever i am not carrying a lot of things to my apt, to wash, to wear again. Masks are cheaper now, so i recommend the washable types. some are really, really cheap. and some are not. Like, when i bought mine, with shipping they averaged $10 each but now you can probably almost get five plain cotton ones for $10-$15, which is a lot better.

I think some of your emotions stems from not a lot of downtime since your trip. at least it will be Christmas soon, some needed time off...and then New Years...looks like it will be at least two 3-day weekends? enjoy them :) !!!

Just try, as best you can, not to let these clients throw you off. Try to take an "outsiders" view on them / the situations. What i mean is, try to distance yourself from the issue MORE. Try to remain cool and collected because it really is NOT your problem and realize that you can give them extra sympathy and kindness bc it's NOT your problem. Try and see if this works, to soothe them extra, listen harder, not to fight back, let them speak their minds...and see if it helps. and to always realize, they are angry with their situation, not you. let me know what you think about this?

Horn_of_plenty on 12/16/2020:
like a psychologist, who sits listening to so many people's problems, and never seems to need to cry WITH the patients...never really affected by the patients.

try to think of yourself as a therapist...they can get upset, but their probem isn't your problem so you see through it and can only help them with their problems but their problems will never affect you, personally...? what do you think about this?

Donkey on 12/17/2020:
Yes, I have often felt like a therapist, and I don't mind that :-)

My boss pointed out (to someone else), why is there so much complaining when it's Christmas time???

Horn_of_plenty on 12/16/2020:
*...they can get upset = i meant the patient can get upset

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 15, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 143.0

 I did well yesterday but DID struggle with temptations:

  • Struggled at around 10am to want to dive into dried fruit and nuts, at work.
  • Wanted a cookie after dinner but on Sunday,  I told myself that was it.  So I had some sugar free gummies. Maybe too many of them.  Malitol (sweetener) can cause gas. My corker will love me today. 

I feel like work was a little more stressful than it should have been - or needed to be - but I had time to do some online looking for gifts for Mr. Donkey. So he's done. 

I really want to reach my weight goal in 2021. I still have time to get into the 130's this year,  although,  with the eating challenges ahead,  I'm not so sure this can be done. But this is a good feeling to have. 


Progress as of today: 43.5 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 12/15/2020:
Can relate! 2021 is creeping up on us! But we have a few good weeks left.

grannyannie on 12/15/2020:
I've bought sugar free hard candies before and if you eat too many you get more than gas! Werthers toffee is the worst for that. But they taste so yummy!

I need to reach my goal weight before summer.

horn_of_plenty on 12/15/2020:
Lol I don’t understand why the makers of so many sf candies and sweets still use maltitol when there’s much better alternatives ! More people would buy the products if they knew they could finally digest it!

Take your time with the 130s. Nothing is a rush during Covid. There’s too much stress now to rush things or push too hard...Jeep up the good work and it will work out for you as it always does!

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