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Donkey - Thursday Oct 31, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 132.5

Day 35:  Happy Halloween!


 I did not have time to post this morning, as I had to prepare my house for trick-or-treaters (since it's hard for my husband to do this) and also shovel wet, heavy snow on the driveway.  However, I ended up coming home at 2pm anyway because my husband wasn't answering texts or calls or gmails.  My daughter was worried, so I drove home in a blazin' snow storm to make sure he was alright.  He was/is.  He had turned off his ringer, since he wasn't expecting our son to call, and then left his phone to charge in the basement while he took a nap upstairs.  

So I got a nice little repreave, which was nice, after finishing up with 3 just awful, horrible clients.  That, and I had very little to do at work.


Our new kitty Jack is settling in nicely.  He is very friendly, but prefers to hide under the comforter (duvet).  He's short-haired, very smooth and soft.  I have not heard him meow or purr yet, but he's still getting used to everyone and everything, so that's fine.


My son is back in class, crisis resolved, but his graduation date has been pushed back AGAIN, now to February 13th.  We are just relieved that he's OK.


I did not make it to Gentle Yoga Wednesday night.  Got home just before 6pm again.

I have come to the realization that the 6pm yoga classes just aren't going to work for me right now -- we are still too busy.  Things are just now starting to really slow down.  Once my daughter gets her promotion at work, she will switch back to a 2nd shift schedule and not have dinner with us most if not all nights, THEN I might be able to go to yoga at 6p - provided that husband is willing to eat dinner at 7:30p.  Or he could eat without me, of course, but then that would go against having a sacred dinner hour.  And I think that's more important to me.

I still have yet to practice at home, although I went back and tried the fish pose that the Sunday class instructor did not guide or correct me on - and I did it correctly.  (Thank you, You Tube!)

I think the new cat will like yoga. Binge-watching TV too...

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/31/2019:
Scary when you go wondering if someone is okay......add thee snow driving and that ramps it all up too....glad that he and your son are both okay.....sounds like the new kitty will be just fine....and just in time for halloween.


legcramps on 11/01/2019:
Yeah, I would not have been happy with hubby. Sounds like Jack is adorable!


happy-1 on 11/02/2019:
why are you stuck shoveling snow? you have a daughter

Donkey on 11/02/2019:
She's at work :-(


happy-1 on 11/03/2019:
Tell her to get up earlier and shovel the snow!



Donkey - Wednesday Oct 30, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 132.5

Day 34: 


 My morning Me Time was consumed by doing things for others, so I hope to be able to update this post later this evening.

Self-Love Yoga has come to an end.  Although there was meditation and affirmations, there was also a lot of challenging yoga moves.  I can totally see how one could get some serious muscle traning from yoga - especially if one practices often.

I would love to go to Gentle Yoga tonight, but it starts at 6pm and that's so hard to get to from work, with the dinner hour and all.  The New Yoga Studio is closed on Thursday for Halloween, and of course, the class I really want to try (Vinyasa) is only on Thursdays.

I will try to have the time to go tonight, BUT... tonigh we are getting our new family member, Jack the Black Cat.  My husband wants me here for that, but perhaps it's better than I'm not?  I'm sure that this will be difficult for Jack's owner.

Must get to work - it is snowing here for the first time of the winter season (even though we've got about a month to go until Fall ends), and the roads may be slippery!

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 10/30/2019:
Oh, I LOVE black cats!!! Is he short-haired or long-haired? I think they are all beautiful but the fluffy ones are even more so! I hope you get to your yoga class tonite. As for snow....ohhhh!!! I think snow is so beautiful as it is falling, watching it come down but not fond of slippery roads you mentioned, at all. Be careful on the roads and hope you have a wonderful day.

Donkey on 10/31/2019:
He is short-haired and very smooth and silky soft. He is also very solid.


grannyannie on 10/31/2019:
All those kinds of classes - yoga, thai chi etc are in the evenings here so people can go after work. But it's a 10 drive for me and when I'm home for the evening, that's it. But I plan to go to yoga in Thailand in December.

Donkey on 10/31/2019:
I'll write more about this, but it has become obvious that 6pm classes aren't going to work for me unless I go directly from work and then have dinner at 7:30p - which I do not want to do, nor would I ask my family/husband to do this.


happy-1 on 11/08/2019:
Snow!!!! How delightful. I love seasons that change. It is just hot and dry here all the time in my concrete jungle.



Donkey - Tuesday Oct 29, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 132.5

Day 33: 


 Today I have a dentist appointment.  I am fortunate enough to work within walking distance of the dentist's office, so I get a nice 10 minute walk, endure the dentist, and another nice 10 minute walk.  I don't really enjoy going to the dentist, but I'm happy for the break from work. 

Tonight is the last class of Self Love Yoga.  I do not do well with endings.  I am seriously thinking of signing up for the next series Stress Reducing Yoga (with the same teacher), which is great for going into the holidays, right?  But then I realized that maybe I'm signing up to avoid saying good-bye.  I hadn't considered that.


 My daughter and I are still planning on going away in November for a mini-getaway.  I keep saying I'm not ready for snow, but we're thinking of going up to Wisconsin to do some easy hiking.  I'm sure by then, they will have snow that is sticking to the ground.  I'm not so sure about this, but she says that she does want a break before she starts the retail holiday season.  And I get that.


My son is still awaiting his fate.  I texted him this morning, wishing him luck, and letting him know that whatever happens, he'll be OK.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/29/2019:
I love all of your yoga posts.....they speak peace and contentment, yet involve fitness...Hoping all goes well for your son....


legcramps on 10/29/2019:
Well done on self love yoga. Stress reducing yoga sounds like something that would be very beneficial for you.


innerpeace on 10/29/2019:
One day, I will try yoga again. I hope your son fairs well.


Maria7 on 10/29/2019:
Hope your dental visit went well. Good on taking a walk and get some fresh air, too.



Donkey - Monday Oct 28, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 132.5

Day 32:  Intention:  Peace and serenity are mine.  Mantra:  Let go and let God.


 Not really feeling that intention but rather, whatever today brings, I'll be OK.  How do I know this?  I've been knocked down so many times, but somehow, somewhere within in me, I know I've got the strength to pull myself up, even if it takes a while to recover.


I weighed in on Saturday, but did not speak of it.  The scale was all over the place, from 133.5 down to 130.5.  Then I got 3 consistent readings at 132.5, so that's what I went with.  So lost a little weight, but I think that's because I haven't been doing any weight training for the past 2 weeks, trying to recover from my back problems, and then overall fatigue.

Which reminds me... I am ready for work ahead of time, so I wanted to do a little shoulder work with light weights.  

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/28/2019:
I love your new found attitude Donk.....it sounds so peaceful and relaxing....as in things happen, things move along...and everything has a lesson to be learned....scales are fickle....they change their minds all of the time.....how do you feel??? Much more important. GOOD JOB!!!


happy-1 on 10/28/2019:
“I've been knocked down so many times, but somehow, somewhere within in me, I know I've got the strength to pull myself up, even if it takes a while to recover.”

I love this. I feel the same way.



Donkey - Sunday Oct 27, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 132.5

Day 32:  Intention:  I am brave.  Mantra:  I am not afraid to try new things.


 I am quite proud of myself for going to a different class at the New Yoga Studio.  I have 9 classes left that I've paid for, plus this Tuesday is my last Self-Love Yoga class.

I tried Yin Yoga. It was similar to Libary Yin Yoga, but it seemed to me that we held the positions longer than we do at the library.  Also, the owner of the studio teaches this class, and her voice is not soothing but rather more instructive.  It is the difference between being told a bedtime story to fall asleep and listing to an active storyteller.  Also, this teacher uses props (yoga blocks, a yoga blanket, etc., and I prefer not to use these if at all possible.  Oh well....  Finally, we did the fish pose, and I had forgotten what to do with  my legs.  The teacher did not correct, guide, or instruct.  I guess she thought that we'll put ourselves in the position that we need to be.  Well, OK, but I'm still learning and want to know - NEED to know - how to do the poses.

I was sorely tempted to say something to the teacher, "Why didn't you correct me?" but then I decided that I wasn't going to bring anything negative - complaining, blaming, etc. - to this class. As it turned out, I was OK with what I did with my legs - not correct, but a correct modification.  

I thought for sure I was going to have hip problems or back problems after class, but amazingly, I did not.  In fact, I felt as though I had been given a deep massage.  That was nice.

So it was a very nice way to start a Sunday morning.  I would like to try Yin Yoga with other teachers at the New Yoga Studio.  Also, I think I'm ready to try something that moves a little faster.


The weather cleared up nicely today.  I think Bear is getting all of the rain we had yesterday and last night.  I was able to work in the yard a bit, setting up most of my butterfly garden for next year.  We'll see what comes out of my efforts today.  And I'm not completely finished.  I might still have a weekend ahead in the near future where I can do a little more.


This week (Tuesday) we say good-bye to our most unpleasant client.  As awful as she is to deal with, I'm so glad that she came into my life - temporary only - because she showed me exactly how I do not want to be.  So when I catch myself sounding like her, or thinking negatively about a situation (see yoga story above), I remind myself that this is not who I want to be, and I quickly change my direction to stay on the path I want to take.

 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 10/27/2019:
Yes, when people around us act negatively, it teaches us to make sure we are acting the exact opposite of their behavior! You have a very positive attitude about the situation.


happy-1 on 10/28/2019:
Hugs. A bad yoga class is a bummer.

Donkey on 10/28/2019:
You know, I didn't think that it was a bad yoga session at the time, but now that you've said it, I'm thinking maybe you're right.

It did feel good afterwards though, so it wasn't all lost. I'm having fun exploring the different types of teachers I encounter.

So far, Library Yin Yoga Lady is my favorite! I must find out her name (lol)!


happy-1 on 10/28/2019:
Hugs. A bad yoga class is a bummer.



Donkey - Saturday Oct 26, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 132.5

 Day 31:  Intention:  Today I devote to my home life:  family, home, love, rest.  Mantra:  Enjoy the day.


After a horrendous work week, I am doing things that I enjoy, although going to the library isn't one of them, today at least.  

I continue to work on completing my designated steps/stages for winterizing the yard.  Our patio furniture is put away.  Tonight the pumpkins are getting carved for Halloween on Thursday.  My dear husband went to the store and bought me birdseed and corncobs (for the squirrels). Where I'm sitting right now, I'm enjoying the little birds discover the filled birdfeeder in front.  I see some finches and chickadees.  Very calming to me.

I have the corncobs on the back deck to amuse the cats.  The squirrels will find them.

I'm expecting the rain to come soon, so tomorrow, when it stops raining, I'm planning to prepare my backyard butterfly garden for next Spring, and put up the backyard Christmas lights.  I love Christmas lights.  I have 3 strands in the house that light up year round:  front entry way, staircase, and kitchen.


Speaking of Christmas, I found that listening to Christmas music at work this past week really helped change my frame of mind.  I know, I know - it's really too early to start listening to Christmas music, but what's wrong with having Christmas in your heart a little early?  And if music inspires that Christmas feeling - to be giving and kind to all - then, why not?


My 100-day challenge to the end of the year has gone terribly off-track.  I think the problem was that there was no definitive end-goal.  I have not been able to keep an intention or mantra except "Just Get Through This Day".  I don't want to "just get through" -- I want to have a better existence.

So I'm thinking of doing 30 straight days of yoga and evaluating the result. 


We still don't know what's going on with my son.  He's been pulled out of his training class, so for now, he's free to spend his time as he wants.  Ridiculous, but at least he's not being deployed. So I guess I should be thankful for that.

On the plus side, my daughter is soon to be promoted at work.  This means her schedule will shift to 2nd shift, which I'm kind of sad about, but this is a fantastic move for her, if she likes it.


We will soon be getting an addition to the family.  Long story short, due to a change in housing, a family can no longer keep their kitty, so we are getting him.  His name is Jack and he is all black.  He's 10 years old and rather shy, I've heard.  I wonder if he likes yoga...

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/26/2019:
All the preparations sound nice!

The cat will love to help you with yoga - climbing on you or trying to join in. LOL.


happy-1 on 10/26/2019:
Black Jack Kitty!!!! Maybe you can go as a pirate for halloween with him!


happy-1 on 10/26/2019:
And hugs for your son. That is very stressful.



Donkey - Friday Oct 25, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 30:


I was so busy at work that I didn't even have time to take a walk.  I ate lunch at my desk, dealing with one email emergency after another.

I was supposed to go to Yin Yoga at the New Yoga Studio last night, with Mistakes Girl and Male Co-Worker.  We were all too busy and too stressed from the workday to make it. Ironically, yoga probably would have helped us all feel better.

As it was, I walked into my home at 5:58p last night and Yin Yoga started at 6p.  


Added on to this incredibly stressful work-week, Wednesday night, we received news from our son that something bad happened.  I really had nowhere to turn with this, to talk about it.  I did mention it to my boss, because I felt like this was really just too much to deal with, on top of all the work stress.  He was sympathetic.

Logically, and in my heart, I know that what is meant to be will be.  There's nothing I can do from here, and whatever happens today is not entirely in my son's control either.  So we'll hope for the best resolution possible.  He is alive and healthy and OK, and at the end of the day, that is what really matters.


Funny how derailed my 100-day challenge to better being has become.  Who would have thought that October would be so stressful?

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/25/2019:
Thank goodness it's friday...hope all works out for your son......


legcramps on 10/25/2019:
I hope things work out for your son...but you're right, all you can do is support him from where you are and hope for the best. I hope you are able to de-stress somewhere along the way.


grannyannie on 10/25/2019:
I hope everything turns out okay with your son! I worry about both of mine even though they are in their 40's.


happy-1 on 10/26/2019:
Hugs. Breathe.



Donkey - Wednesday Oct 23, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 29:  Intention: Today I put myself first.   Mantra:  (private)


Work continues to be a disaster.  I'm STILL dealing with the fall-out from the afternoon I took off last week because I was sick.  I keep thinking maybe I'm caught up, but each day seems to bring a new cyclone of drama.

Last night's Self-Love Yoga was wonderful.  It was a different kind of yoga - Restorative Yoga.  I'm so glad that the teacher (Becky - who I thought I wouldn't like, but I really do like her!) decided to incorporate this type of yoga, because I do not think I would have ever tried it on my own.  You go into a position and hold it for about 5 minutes, just concentrating on breathing and relaxing.  After each move, my body felt like it was waking up from a wonderful, deep sleep.

Next week is our last class.  Her next series is "Yoga for Stress Reduction".  I might sign up for that, but I must also start using my 10-class ticket.  I want to practice yoga more - so why DON'T I - especially during the week, when my stress levels are the highest?

Male Co-Worker is looking into yoga, to help with anxiety and high blood pressure.  I am recommending my studio to him, because it's very close to his home, very easy-going, and frankly, I want this studio to remain in business.  So even though I'd rather be selfish and keep this little gem to myself --- and frankly, again, I would rather keep work people out of my real life --- the studio needs more attendance.  Mistakes Girl says she's interested too...  I might take her to the Disasterous Yoga Studio, because the first class is free.  It would get me started there...  Not sure.


I am going to try to get my daughter to go with me to some of these classes.  I feel like if I had had the influence of yoga and stress reduction earlier on in my adult life, I would have been so much better off than where I am now.  It might not work for her, but then again, it might start her on a wonderful journey of her own.  


Work has been so stressful lately, that I'm going to listen to Christmas music at my desk.  I think that will help.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/23/2019:
Tried and true things remain around forever......yoga and meditation are things that have always spoke to me as being peaceful and a comfort.....I'm glad to hear that you are thinking about inviting others to enjoy that with you.


legcramps on 10/23/2019:
I am sorry to hear you are under so much stress lately, but i'm glad you are using your yoga tools to manage it! I used to meditate each evening before bed using an app on my phone. It was a nice way to unwind and de-stress. I should dig it up and try it again.


grannyannie on 10/23/2019:
Sorry about work stress! Very difficult.


happy-1 on 10/23/2019:
Hugs. I am glad you are at yoga. Very good to release, relax, and rejuvenate.



Donkey - Sunday Oct 20, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 27 Addendum:  Mindful Eating Workshop


 I'm glad that I paid only $5 for the workshop.  I met a nice group of ladies, including one who is in yoga teacher training (she was the youngest of the group).  I also met another woman  who is a retired yoga instructor (oldest of the group).  We were a group of 5.

I feel like an hour was not really enough time to get into truly what Mindful Eating is or how to eat mindfully, like we just touched the surface.  The instructor leads a 6-week series, and I feel like THAT is probably the better way towards behavior modification.

As far as practical advise, she recommended:

  • Slowing down
  • Observing your food (looking at your full plate before eating, smelling your food before beginning)
  • A little deep breathing before eating, to relax.

The book that she was trained with is Slow Down Diet by Marc David.  I'm not in any hurry to check it out.


  The one thing that I came away with from the workshop is how stressed out everyone is.  I could have sworn that every one of those ladies, except the retired yoga teacher, worked for a law firm or a real estate company.  None of them did, though, and yet, they were just as stressed out as me!  I'm not alone!

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

Grannyannie on 10/21/2019:
Sounds good! I think most of us eat too fast and really taste or enjoy the food, and aren't satisfied after a meal. I've read to eat with your opposite hand which forces you to eat slowly and mindfully.

Donkey on 10/21/2019:
Yes, please know that at dinner, I was completely aware that I was NOT practicing mindful eating at all.


BearCountryGG on 10/21/2019:
Mindful eating is something I continually have to remind myself to do...it definately does not come naturally to foodie.....if we were leisurely eaters we wouldn't be on a diet site...LOL



Donkey - Sunday Oct 20, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 133.5

Day 27


 The remainder of the week has been most difficult.

I decided to leave early (1:00p) on Wednesday, did not go to Chair Yoga, stayed home, rested, napped, trying to feel better, taking zinc and a decongestant to avoid getting the full-blown sinus infection that my co-worker (Nice Lady) has had for the past 2 weeks.  I'm really angry that she has come to work, hacking up a lung, obviously sick.  She's not that busy.

While I was out Wednesday afternoon, my co-workers were left to deal with a high drama client & her agent (who is high drama too).  This High Drama Client carried on through Friday.  So on top of trying to catch up on my other files, this High Drama took so much time - and the client was condescending and berating, just going over and over the same thing, how awful I was, how much the attorney messed up, etc.  

On top of fighting a cold and dealing with High Drama and LOTS of work, TOM decided to hit, so I was battling that too.  

You'd think I'd get a break from all of this, but yesterday was Legal Clinic.  I'm seriously giving thought to giving this up, because it is starting to feel like an extra work day.  I come home and my daughter has a house guest that stayed until I started getting ready for bed!  So no relaxation yesterday.

I would love to relax today, but I have that Mindful Eating workshop today at 12:30p.  I hope to do some yardwork, which usually helps me decompress.  I hope.

Monday morning I'm signing papers to re-finance my mortgage before I rush off to work.

WILL THIS EVER STOP???

All this crap is making it really hard to reset myself for this week, where I'm sure to deal with more High Drama.  

THIS is why I hate my job. That I cannot even be sick for HALF A DAY without everything falling apart.


I did some research and found out that becoming a certified yoga instructor is very expensive and quite intensive over a short duration of time.  So, I've come to the conclusion that rather than have surgery on my fat, that the money would be put to better use learning yoga.

 

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2019:
all because certain things go south when you are not at work doesn't mean that you cannot fix them in a decent timely manner when you get back to work...i wish you wouldn't feel so upset about this part - i would say it comes with the job. you can't take their mistakes personally, right? i'm trying to give advice...

also, good decision about the fat removal and not doing it. also, are you wanting to be a yoga instructor?

Donkey on 10/20/2019:
A lot of my work is time-sensitive, so I was dealing with a LOT that needed to be done NOW - plus dealing with the big mess from Wednesday.

My boss says that it's job security. In his defense, he knows that High Drama Client is way Outer Limits, and he has offered to deal with her whenever. That did kind of help me to feel better.

You're 100% right - can't take this stuff personally... BUT it DOES feel personal. It's hard, it hurts.

Donkey on 10/20/2019:
That is the problem with high drama files - they consume SO MUCH time - unnecessarily! - so that I fall behind with everything else, much of it which is time sensitive.

That is what I meant to say above. And it's not just me. Male Co-Worker gets this too. All the time.

Donkey on 10/20/2019:
I'm toying around with the idea of getting a yoga teaching certificate. Not sure about teaching, per se, but rather as a step in my yoga journey towards my own self-improvement.

If I were to get my certificate, it would only be so that I could teach the classes that I want to see more of, namely Cat Yoga, Chair Yoga, Cat Chair Yoga, and Chair Cat Yoga.


grannyannie on 10/20/2019:
Oh no! One thing after another! Hope you feel better and there's not so much drama this coming week.

Donkey on 10/21/2019:
I am going into this week with an open mind and a positive attitude :-)



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