So yesterday, I finally managed to get caught up. The day was exhausting, busy, chaotic... and then at the very end, one of our clients - who was spazzing out all day about her transactions - crapped all over me, accusing me of not caring about her closings. Just great. So after all that hard work, I get to go home and feel like crap.
It is getting to the point where it's just not worth it, but I know that any other job that deals with people has the same kind of crap, too. What is wrong with people?
I've been witnessing another work drama at a nonprofit that my boss is involved in. The director lady has dedicated her life to this organization, only to be fired in the end. I get it. I mean, she's 81, has been missing a few things, missed the deadline for a $ 40000 grant. My point is, you can't give too much of yourself to your job because in the end, they'll break your heart -- every time.
I apologize for this entry this morning, as it's not really weight loss related. I will try to write a new entry that is more goal focused, later today or tonight, but if I don't have time, I'll write tomorrow after weigh-in.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
Weight training never happened last night. Long story short, I ended up staying late (again) yesterday to finish opening up new files. I am quite pleased to say that all of our files are opened up. I just have to order 2 titles, and then Nice Lady can contact the clients to welcome them.
This peace of mind was totally worth the tradeoff, except that then we didn't finish up dinner until 8p! That's why no weights.
So what will I do tonight? I missed upper body last night? Do I do lower body tonight? Or a shortened combo program? My daughter is home today and wanted to spend time with me tonight by running some errands. And then, there's the possiblity that I'll have more contracts to open today! I think I will opt to forego weights and overtime in order to come home and spend time with my family. These days with any kids home are getting more and more limited. I want to seize them while I can.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
good job finishing your work and getting organized! i know exactly how nice that feels!
Pulling back.... I am now finished with my supply of fat bombs and not making more. I seem to be running into issues in the evening wanting a lot of dessert. This is turning into an ongoing problem, so I'm going to start working on it.
I want to be a mindful eater, in food choices and at the pace in which I eat. That's going to be my new focus and goal.
Work: it was disheartening to receive 3 more contracts. Will I ever catch up? Nice Lady offered to help, so I have her reaching out to clients to welcome them and getting more information and answer any questions they have now at the beginning. I am grateful for this, as it is out of my comfort zone and it can also be very time consuming.
If I get no more contracts today, I should be able to catch up completely on new files.
I found a huge error Mistakes Girl has been making on all files on a very important deadline date. I will need to show her what she's missing and then figure out a way to correct her procedure so that this doesn't happen again moving forward. It could bite us/me hard if we miss this in the future.
Male Coworker started harping on me yesterday about opening up these new files. I said, Working on it! He is out of the office for the remainder of the week. In fact, this morning, it's just me, the Boss, and Queen Bee, whenever she decides to show up. (She usually comes in at about 9:30a.)
Tonight is upper body weights. Hopefully, I will have the time and energy.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
Mindful eating is a good habit. I am sooo not even close with that!
Great job on getting thru your work and i'm glad that you are getting some help from nice lady! awesome!
yeah, in order to fix mistakes you've gotta explain it to the person making them or they'll just keep happening!
Have fun doing upper body. Do an extra rep for me, ok!?
i always have better weights sessions when i'm well rested...hence my eagerness to get to bed early tonight to have a great workout tomorrow!
This reminds me that I can discuss joining a gym with the family tonight at dinner. My son's training was the only thing motivating anyone else going to the gym. Now that he's gone, no one goes. I wish I could go, but I have no membership... and no time.
Work is busy! Mistakes Girl is on vacation for 1.5 weeks, just in time for the spring real estate rush! I stayed 1.5 hours late and stopped about halfway through. If we don't get any more contracts today, I'll be able to catch up. Initially I was resentful of her taking vacation during the season, but when I quit last night, I decided it's a miracle she's still with us. What a mundane, thankless job... and so totally against her creative, artistic personality. She should get a raise. And I can completely understand why she makes so many mistakes! So frustrating!
So a few of things...
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
it takes a LONG time to have more msucle definition. usually you start to feel a little bulky before that feeling goes away bc the fat is turning to muscle and taking up less room. at least that's been the case with my body.
even if you have less definition than you want, your clothes should begin to fit a little better as you build muscle.
moderation is key...i see nothing crazy wrong with opening something you have at home as you wait for the monkfruit. i have tried monkfruit sweetener and like it. only reason i use stevia is i always have and why change something that i like!?
i keep forgetting i even have the supplements at home - i'm trying to use them with my home workouts. the taste is bad. i have to sweeten it, for sure, with stevia. i forget the brand of the amino powder i am using at the moment. bought a few brands as there was a sale to try them all from Vitamin Shoppe. 3 brands / flavors.
remember that even a little change is something to get used to. change is goood and so is routine. the more you practice something, the better you get at it and more change of the body to show that change (all my own opinions here).
But either way, it's not good. However, I can now see how it's easy to miss those mistakes. Unlike her, though, I find them, because I take the time to look, which is fine I really don't have to spare.
I'm hoping to get some keto baking in today. While yesterday was sunny and everyone was outside, today is cloudy and the rain keeps teasing us here. I imagine that maybe not so many people will be outside today.
Thought I ran all my errands yesterday, but it appears that I didn't get everything needed at the grocery. Hmm...
Lower leg workout today sometime.
AFTERNOON EDIT: Due to lack of autos in our family at the current moment (daugher's car is in the shop again), I decided to just stay home, which is fine.
I am expecting a library book to come in on Monday or Tuesday, and I can go to the store at that time and get whatever it is we may need.
My keto baking did not go so well today. The stewed/jellied cranberries I made are delicious, by cooking them down an extra 2 minutes, and I got the Swerve sweetener just at the right balance. However, the keto "fat head dough" flat bread I made did not turn out well, as it stuck to the parchment paper. I was able to salvage like the upper half of each slice, leaving the melted bottoms stuck to the paper. Wah wah.
My lower body workout was excellent! I was very mindful when during lunges and it paid off. I am ready to get ripped!
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
Cranberries sound great - i don't think i'll be making any more till next year since i used mine all up :)
sorry about the fathead...will it be better to grease the bottom or was it too greased and that was the problem?
last night at gym i was more energetic than usual, so i did a full upper/lower workout. glad to knock legs out of the way for several days (i think 2x a week will be enough for me and legs right now!) it's not optimal 2 days, but it's enough with everything else and i know i won't lose anything - although gains don't come so well with 2x a week...like i said, good enough for now!
most of my leg work is lunges (in place, not walking ones) and squats. great exercises.
OK, this will sound silly, but I'm happy to see that I've lost half a pound. I know that this is really just maintenance. I don't know what it is, but there is something terribly rewarding about seeing a lower number on the scale - even in maintenance. You know, this is almost *disturbing* if I think about it.
I have remained consistent or maybe even stepping up a little bit with the weights, but I am not seeing any visible changes -- no muscle cuts, not getting leaner -- and I am losing a little weight?
I'm proud of myself for curbing the sugar free candy habit in the evenings. I'm down to having just one, and now I'm out. I am not going to buy any more for home. I still have a bag at work, but that's going to stay at work, to use as a crutch/vice with the stresses at work. Also, I do not think I will be making any more chocolate peanut butter bombs. I would rather enjoy a square of dark chocolate (the darkest I can go is 90% - and I love this. Not sweet, but anything higher tastes like baker's chocolate, which I cannot do - way too bitter).
I mentioned this in my response to Maria's post, but I have noticed just how much I love and miss sugar. My biggest downfall is needing sugar in my coffee. I LOVE saccharine (Sweet N Low - the pink packets). Just one packet is a sweet treat in my coffees! But it's awful for a body - that stuff is poison. So I've been searching for a substitute that works. Unfortunately Stevia leaves a very tinny bitter aftertaste. Swerve leaves an unpleasant cooling aftertaste and requires 3 TBSP to be sweet enough. I've had mild success with Lakanto Monkfruit blend but that is expensive and it takes about 2 TBSP to get to an acceptable level of sweetness.
I can drink my coffee unsweetened, but I do not like it unsweetened every time. And sometimes I use sweetened coffee as a substitute for eating dessert.
While I was at the grocery store, I was giving some serious contemplation to adapting a plant-based diet. I've tried that before and it just doesn't work for me, but I really wish it did.
Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!
You are right, I need to come to terms with numbers on the scale and then move on. That's why I feel that weight training would help - if I could only start to actually see results!
A half a pound is not enough to see cuts i don't think...but give it a few pounds and you will. Maybe a few more months of your upper body weights!
YUP, that 98% cacao chocolate i bought -omg too much taste like Baker's indeed...i will probably do something with it like melt it into yogurt or something. it is too strong is right! well, at least i can't overeat it!...it's just too strong to want to overeat on!
i also am sorta "off" of the fat bombs. lately, it's just smaller pieces of things, with some sugar...but i do love my "good fats" bars i've been eating, but i'm eating them as i have a "mocha coffee" made use the k-cups and since it's free at work, i use two kk-cups: one of coffee, and one of chocoalte lol. and i mix it into one cup, 4 ounces for the coffee and like 6 ounces for the chocolate, then add a little milk and it's a mocha coffee! there's some sugar but not a ton. and with the "fats bar" it's still ok. change of pace for awhile, i'm bored of coffee plain and needed something to go with the fats bar and find that having NO sugar in the AM doesn't give me an energetic feeling at all in the mroning at work and i do not like that feeling, at least not right now as of late! i sort of crave an energy boost when i get to work...probably because i don't eat before work, only when i get there after commuting so i am craving energy i guess? who knows!
i will say that i cannot take caffeine without some kind of real sugar too. that's why i'd always mix a coffee (with stevia usually) with a granola bar on the side. i don't do well having caffeine without any sugar. that's why when i USED to have energy drinks, there was a granola bar or fruit involved too!
Still struggling with my GI system a bit. These iron pills really throw me for a loop. I am supposed to take them on an empty stomach, which makes me nauseated. They also cause some mild constipation. I have also been feeling very bloated in the abdomin this week. My daughter suggested hot water with lemon, and I have found that this is such a nice thing to drink even if I wasn't having problems. I will probably stop this once the weather gets really warm, but I must remember to do this as often as I can. I had a cup of this in the morning, instead of a 2nd cup of coffee, and now I am enjoying a cup of it right now.
When I went to my GI appointment, of course, they had to weigh me. I must remember going forward that ANY doctor that I see will weigh me.
When I stepped on the scale, I shut my eyes, but no worries, because the doctor sent me home with a print-out of the summary of my appointment, and sure enough, there was my weight: 137.8.
Skipped my evening bike ride and had a dinner date with my husband (had a very nice salad with chicken, brought home the cornbread for my vegetarian daughter, and skipped the ice cream dessert), and then we went grocery shopping together. It was fun.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
i'm not sure if it was an evening appt...?
next, yes, the hot water with lemon is just like drinking kombucha and it helps move things along.
i tend to have GI issues at certain times during the month....hormones def affect my GI system too.
perhaps you can find something to help you bc of the iron pills...perhaps taking the probiotics or something.
if i were in your place, maybe google what people do who take iron pills to combat GI issues...you may find some good tips!
Logging in from work, because I do not see that I will have time to log in later.
Had an awesome leg workout yesterday! Still not quite seeing the results I think I should be seeing, though. Finished up the branched chain amino acids and will not reorder them. As I mentioned when I started my "Advocare" experiment last year, I wanted to see if I could find Advocare supplement products for cheaper (i.e. same stuff, but different brand) and have results. I wanted to prove to myself that one does not need to spend a $$$ fortune on Advocare stuff in order to successfully lose weight. I have proved that to myself. Unfortunately, now the next new thing in MLM is "Thrive" products. I'll pass. I really hate gimmicks like that.
I"m still struggling with fatigue. It's a very odd feeling - I'm not tired, like I didn't get enough sleep. And it's not the muscle achy that I get after weight training - it's not that. It's almost like a tired feeling from not eating enough, but I *AM* eating enough -- in fact, I'm finding myself not really hungry, but eating because it's time to eat and because I like to eat.
I am scheduled to be scoped in April. The GI doctor said she is concerned about elevated lipids in my liver, i.e. signs of fatty liver. She wants more blood work. I looked at my test results and I didn't see anything that indicated there was a problem there. I sent my test results to my mom, who is a retired nurse, to look at the blood work. Doing a little Google research (for what it's worth), I'm already doing the right things to fight against fatty liver, although I suppose I could cut back MORE on red meat. But cutting back on red meat won't help my anemia.
Tonight is no weights, so I will be spending some time with my daughter on her night off, which isn't very often I get the chance to do something like that with her.
EDIT: Queen Bee, who made a HUGE deal about going on Weight Watches - on and on, blah blah blah - has been seen eating shamrock sugar cookies at work and ordering French fries and cheese curds at Culvers for lunch.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
now that you've stopped the Aminos, i have started, though i just realized i forgot to take them on the regular while i'm working out as of late! oops! i did it more for the taste, though...and for something else besides water and setlzer. not sure i'll continue either, but i did buy a lot...they don't all taste that great i have noticed!
i am also struggling with fatigue though i am starting to actually feel better now that the week is done tomorrow :) i tried pretty hard to get to bed earlier the past couple nights and it has helped immensely. i think i've also begun to get used to the time change. i also think my own fatigue was due to hormones / TOM.
so Queen Bee will soon find another diet to start & never finish! LOL.
better QB do this than either of us! yuck...no need to lose all the weight just to gain it back, just horrible.
I was watching her today (her back was to me) and I was trying to decide if she has lost any weight. I could not tell yet.
Logging in today from HOME because I have TIME! Doctor's appointment is at 10am. I am taking this free time to do ME things and enjoying every minute of it!
My husband and my daughter are in Chicago to watch my son get sworn in again to enter the Air Force. At least that's what we hope. He was told yesterday that he was a no-go because he had a band-aid on his finger. So after spending 3+ hours in Urgent Care to get a doctor's note to say that this was not an open wound. Hopefully, that was acceptable to whomever the decision maker is about these sorts of things. My son has the worst luck of anyone I've ever met. My husband just texted me to say that it's a go. He'll be sworn in at 10am. RELIEF.
With this extra time, I decided to do my upper body routine with heavy weights this morning. This will make the evening more relaxing, especially if I end up staying later at work to catch up on emails. I was motivated and enjoyed the workout, although now I feel a little sore in my arms. That's OK. If I want, I can do some exercises tonight with lighter weights. Funny how all this weight training using heavier weights isn't bringing the results like 30 days' worth of push-ups. I never thought about adding push-ups to my routine. Hmm...
Yesterday was so stressful at work. I have 2 computers that I use, one has Windows 7 and the other has Windows 10. I don't use the one with 10 - even though it's the better computer - because my templates are not saved on that computer. Well, yesterday, our lawfirm database wasn't working on my old Windows 7 computer, so I had to try to work with the Windows 10 computer while trying to fix my 7 computer, while fielding calls and actually work. It wasn't just my computer, but not all of the Windows 7 computers were affected. Male Co-Worker ended up going home and getting his laptop to install the lawfirm software because he could not get it to re-install on his work computers.
After this fiasco, I decided NOW was the time to start copying templates that I use to the 10 computer. So I went home for lunch and got my thumb drive and stayed late at work to copy files. I suppose eventually I will transfer them over to the hard drive on the 10 computer, but at least I have them now, and they are portable. The bright side of all of this is that I put in enough extra time at work to make up the time I will lose this morning because of the appointment. So no losing sick or vacation time for me - YAY!
It's all about balance!
Funny thing about this morning is that I realize that if I worked part-time, I could manage to do the things that I like to do and have availability for my husband AND still have something to keep me in the game. I was uplifted today by a post in one of the fitness Facebook groups I belong to, where the lady is turning 56 and getting ready to start her new job as a pilates instructor. How cool is that? One of my biggest real fears is that I will be in my early 50s and out of a job. Once you are 50, it is REALLY hard to find a new job. This is not a myth. I have this first-hand from many people who have been in this position. That is one of my biggest fears about leaving the job I have now - if we were to move and I'd be unemployed, 49, and looking for a job. However, I might be in that position anyway if my boss decides to retire.
I think Someone is trying to tell me something... It is my true belief that God speaks to us all the time. We just have to know how to hear Him.
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
And I don't mean sore as in "holy something in there is very painful and feels torn or broken", I mean "oh when I touch that spot it feels kinda tender, and geez it kinda hurts to bring that cup of coffee to my mouth".
I think it's awesome that your friend is starting a new job as a pilates instructor. That's why i've been working so hard to get my fitness certification in now, because when I retire from my full time job, I want to be able to continue what i'm doing as a coach.
and by law employers are not supposed to discriminate age, so you know you can get a job...you probably don't look a day over 25. lol.
We have windows 10 now and it takes a bit to get used to, good luck with that. Great job on your weight training.
Congrats again to your son. Keep motivating him. It can be a struggle, but it will be so great if he continues on...
I highly recommend pushups. if you cannot do them yet, doing ones on your knees or even "wall pushups" is a start. pushups do wonders.
we were JUST talking at work (my supervisor and i) how we need to save all the files so she especially will be able to take them with her when this project finally ends (not close yet!)
yeah, i have heard that employers do not generally like to hire older, but, i will tell you that where i work now, i have seen 50's get hired..so..not sure what to say about that!
Wow, I had a great upper body workout last night -- who thought I would ever say that? So, the way I have my weights set up is that I have my bench and heavier weights downstairs in the basement, and then I have a floormat and medium weights (8lb dumbbels) in my bedroom. I did 2 sets of heavy weights downstairs, while watching reruns of the Great British Baking Show -- falling in love with the show all over again -- and then went upstairs to watch the news (I'm a news junkie) and do 2 sets with lighter weights upstairs. Same exercises -- added one more exercise for the back -- but with lighter weights, and I felt like that gave me an extra "oompf!"
I would like to see if I can sustain this during the workweek.
I might try to take a walk outside today. It's still quite chilly (40F) but nice and sunny. I want to see if there are any new houses for sale in the area too - LOL...
Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!
Back is very important. my fave back exercise i stopped doing as it required two types of machines (2 options) at the gym. however, i do recall there is one exercise i sometimes do, when i'm thinking about it. also, i Do always stretch my back. it's important for us - office workers.
i was walking yesterday do. it was around 37F. i brought along all the essentials including some foot warmers in my shoes. so i was comfortable :) also the sun helps.
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All because a client acts / reacts a certain way, try to realize she may be acting that way just because of her own things going on in her head. try not to take people's outbursts like they are all aimed specifically at you.
Not everyone treats everyone respectfully..like hello!?...Ricky!? he's so rude to the public.
don't expect to be treated well by everyone...and when they do rude things to you, try to realize they've got the problem, rather than go home feeling sour.
you are right! there's always work drama. just observe it and keep working. if you keep quiet, the drama will not be about you, most of the time.
I don't think I expect people to be treated well, but maybe I do? Do I start lowering my expectations of other people and prepare myself to be a punching bag?
horn_of_plenty on 03/29/2019:
Remember to stay positive, there will always be drama around you - WHEREVER HUMANS ARE, wherever you work, whatever industry, whatever town, whatever country, whatever place, whatever family, whatever anything! it's crazy, trust me, but i've seriously seen it ALL.
i've been in several industries, and teaching it seems, by far, was the LEAST dramatic. probably bc i spent only 4 years there.
but there's drama everywhere. best way to avoid it is to lay low. let the big mouths be big mouths, even if they are wrong.
it's just not worth it...unfortunately, to teach anyone any lessons otherwise, especially as in trying to teach a bully. bullies are bullies forever. now i'm just speaking in general, not to you, but from my own experiences.
life is short. remember that work is work...and that those people are not necessarily who you'd choose as friends - same as your clients. and they aren't acting like your friends.
I really feel like what you wrote, "There will always be drama around you, wherever humans are" should be a meditative session or two. Does that make sense? I mean, It's really something to work on accepting. You are 100% spot on.
legcramps on 03/29/2019:
Ugh, I hear you. It's so frustrating to know that there are people in the world who just don't care, or who won't take the time to realize that you're trying to help them, or who constantly vent on you instead of trying to resolve their own issues. I've had my fair share this week also, so I totally know where you're coming from and I feel for you!
Sometimes, it seems like every time you try to be positive, there is someone just around the corner ready to take you down a notch or two. Chin up! Life will be better the faster you can let it go without letting it get to you.
Thank you for your words of encouragement. I will write more about this, but this whole thing was a teaching moment for me. I really learned something about myself and life, in general, from this experience.
horn_of_plenty on 03/29/2019:
I agree with Leg's last few lines and that's the point i'm making too! that the evil coming outta some people is their issue and try not to let them suck you into their dark cloud!
AMEN.
AMEN.
AMEN.