Time for another Donkey Update:
1. We are going to try to save my Stinky. The vet seemed to think that she was not beyond impossible, so we will try. As long as she is able to endure the treatment and it's somewhat affordable, we will do what we can. This means I give her 2 medicines 2x a day PLUS an IV (which requires a needle in the skin) 2x a day. I hate needles. That is a good impetus for me never ever to get diabetes. I could not stand giving myself insulin shots.
2. Husband took today off to go to the hospital and meet up with family and visit Grandpa. He has yet to leave.
3. I thought yesterday was Friday, so I weighed in, which I realized last night it was only Thursday. So I could have waited another day and maybe had a better weigh-in if I had weighed in this morning.
Last night, I was so tired from the stress and from crying the night before (really screws up my contact lenses), that I just ate and ate and ate. On the plus side, I had lots of energy for a workout today. Did the elliptical and ran and some weight training.
When I eat more, I can do more.
RUNNING MILES TOTAL: 5.0 miles
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
Time to face the music...
That's what the scale said this morning.
It seems as though 2008 is not starting off very happily.
1. My beloved Stinky (cat #2) is dying. Husband took her to the vet yesterday. Her liver and her kidneys are failing. She has lost over half of her healthy body weight. To respect her quality of life, I think we will be putting her down on Friday, unless a miracle comes back from her blood tests, which I highly doubt.
2. Husband's grandfather is... well, essentially, he is dying as well. He is in the hospital with a broken back, because his bones have deteriorated so much that his spine can no longer support his head. They are running tests to confirm what kind of cancer it is. Sunday is his big family get-together (LOTS OF AWFUL FOOD). Won't that be fun?
3. This is not bad news, but just stressful to deal with: My brother is moving to Japan for 3 years in a couple of weeks. We are thinking about buying his mini-van. We are thinking about asking my folks if they would like to purchase my car. I guess I'll be undergoing a colonoscopy because I don't know where else we would pull the money out from.
4. Let us not forget that I still have job training looming in my future next week. Ta-dah!
Ever play dodgeball? That's what I feel like I"m doing right now, with Life or maybe God on the other side, throwing all these things at me. The urge to eat my sorrow was very strong last night (ice cream). But I held off. Eating isn't going to resolve any of my grief.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
(PS... the line about the colonoscopy made coffee come out my nose!!!! I'm glad to know you have such a good sense of humor with all of this.)
Sorry to read about all the rough things going on..it sure does make the sweet times that much more enjoyable. Have a better day =)
One day at a time, one thing at a time. That's all you can do. Let me know if the colonoscopy idea works!
My weigh-in on New Year's Day was SOOO BAAAD, that I decided to wait (no pun intended) until my regular weigh-in day of Friday (tomorrow) to enter in any weight on my progress chart.
On the positive side, I went running today! (sort of) Unlike yesterday, I remembered to bring my running shoes to the gym today, and I ran 2 miles on the treadmill (after doing an hour on the elliptical, of course). It's not much but it's a start, and everyone has to start somewhere. Another plus was that I ran faster than I ever have on a treadmill and felt just fine. So I think I will continue to try to run at faster speeds.
(Mind you, when I say "faster" I am probably talking about "average", as I am a slow runner.)
I think it would be fun to see how many miles I run this year. Henceforth, I will keep a running tally of running miles. This will not include elliptical miles nor cool-down miles on the treadmill. I use www.mapmyrun.com to calculate my outdoor running miles, unless I get myself a gadget that will do the counting for me (e.g. Garmin Forerunner).
RUNNING MILES TOTAL: 0 + 2.0 = 2.0
So I see now that you are to blame for my recent struggles. Thank goodness for that - I thought it was my own gluttony! I couldn't help but laugh when I read about your Christmas cookies - those are the culprits which brought me down as well! So how many did you have? I think I had, like, twenty a day for three days.
Anyway, I think it's Horn's turn to suffer now, so can you please start doing well again?
I also keep track of my running miles, both "fast" and "slow". In my case also "fast" is not all that fast - basically I consider anything timed to be "fast" no matter what my actual speed is, because at least I'm *trying* to run fast. But for the last few months I've chalked up hardly any "fast" miles. I wish I had access to a treadmill. Instead I'm going to have to start trekking out to the sports center so I can do my timed runs on the track and try to improve my speed before my half-marathon. Otherwise if it's just going to be another 13 mile jog then there's no point even doing it...
Have a great rest of the day!
I have read about many runners who are slow runners. They say it means little and that endurance is most important for running. So, great job today! :) One day I will be a runner...I hate saying that. I wish I could say, today I'm a runner. Maybe i don't want to be a runner? i need to think about this!
P.S No one should suffer!!!!hahaha that whole thing made me laugh!
The last day of 2007. I am happy to say that my car is working again, albeit somewhat reluctantly, so I was able to make it to the gym this morning. Life goes so much better when I can take care of myself FIRST, even if it means waking up at the ungodly hour of 4:30a to do so.
Which means that I will be asleep by 9:30p for sure. No midnight toasting for me!
I know that my weigh in tomorrow will not be a true reflection of my efforts in 2007, sadly. I did so much better than the past 3 days have put back on. But that just gives me more reason and motivation to get back on track.
I see now that I must find a happy medium in my eating patterns, because it seems to me that when I do very well, Horn of Plenty suffers. And when I do very poorly, Born to Cry does not fare as well. My wish for all is to find a happy medium of optimum health.
And to the person who thinks I do not enjoy my cats at all: This is not true, but I sure do get damn tired of cleaning up sh*t, diarrhea, hemorrhoids, vomit, and hairballs every GGG DDDD day. Ya know? It gets a bit old after the 68th time. You tell me I should find homes for my cats. Oh yes, like there's such a high demand for old cats with these "character" traits. Not to mention the $ that I shell out in food and litter very month. Thanks Nerak, I really needed your comments yesterday like a kick in the head.
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
I think you hit it on the head - that we all need to find that happy medium.
Hope you have a happy, healthy, peaceful new year!
Look at your overall progress from April through December of this year! That's success! Good Job! :) Maintenance is difficult, but can be done. Weight does fluctuate between a few pounds, its expected. I also HATE knowing the number just for that reason. there are so many factors that contribute to what our weight is from one week to the next.
I am so utterly discouraged and defeated this morning. I had another awful binge last night. Just horrible.
And today I cannot get to the gym because my car won't start. Dh left the key in the ignition all night, and I think it has run down my battery. The engine won't turn. It's either that or there's some moisture/corrosion on the battery electrodes, because it seems as though there's not enough juice getting into the engine to make "catch".
And it is not even 9a yet, and I have already had to clean up a hairball and a diarrhea (with hemorrhoids) from one of the cats already. I have 4 cats. One is deathly thin. One is getting deathly thin. The other two are fat. So I've been feeding the very thin one special canned food. Not only is it disgusting, but it makes her stink and it gives her diarrhea (but not the one with the hemorrhoids, that's someone else). Of course, she wants to sleep on my head every night. PU! Then the cat that is approaching deathly thin craps on the floor every night with his hemorrhoidal poop because he is upset. Or sick. Or something. The fat one coughs up the hairballs. I do not have the money to be taking them to the vet. Oh I just want to throw them all out the window.
I found out last night that dh has to work New Years Eve AND New Years Day. I thought we'd be able to have our celebration on Eve. Alas no. The house is a mess, and I have this stupid impending job starting next week.
Alls that I ask is that I be able to go workout. And I can't even do that. Last year for Christmas I was promised an elliptical and a treadmill. I am still waiting for my gifts. I got nothing last year. And here I am a year later, still waiting.
This is not going to be a good day, I can tell this already... Now I am off to wash 2 blankets that had hairballs on them, thanks to my fatty cat.
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
I also hate car problems, I flip out when I have them. If it wasn't so blasted expensive to get them fixed, it wouldn't be a big deal. *sigh*
I hope your day brightens and that you connect with that natural strength you have and are able to accomplish the things in your immediate area that need your attention so that you can lessen the load on your heart.
Are the thin cats elderly?? Sometimes kidney problems manifest in this way.
haha, we ARE such opposites on here!
(And maybe the car and your husband as well--assuming he's the gift giver you're referring to!)
Alot to have to put up with--I'd probably be running away right about now;-)
And as for your binge, forget about it. it's one binge. you have to consume 3500 calories to gain 1 lb. Since you've already lost 16lbs (which is so awesome, congrats!) and have 2 to go, you're doing so well so don't give up!!
if you can't get to gym, do your own workout at home: jumping jacks (200 or more) and jogging on the spot or jump rope for your cardio, then do simple resistance training with arms, abs, legs, butt (basic things like sit-ups and squats will take up to 45 minutes if you do 3 reps of say 25). and that's gonna be a good hour's worth or more of exercise!
Does your dh have another wife, cause he sure sounds like mine! That's why I do my own shopping - although I do feel a bit guilty about spending that kind of money on myself....Mine gave me 'permission' to get a rebounder - like I needed his ok??? It's still in the box, as I just got it last night (from his daughter for Christmas). Tomorrow will be a better day to get it out and use it. (I'm a wee bit hungover this morning...)
I think you need to run a hot bath, light a few scented candles, lock the door and read a good book. Tomorrow is another day - a new year and a new start.
Let me just confess to you now how much I ate yesterday. I am SURE that my calories exceeded 3000, although not all in one sitting. My calories were pretty high throughout the day. (One of those "hungry days" -- hmm, must be time to ovulate) >:-(
After a hefty Italian beef dinner, I had numerous - NUMEROUS - cookies, then corn chips, then ice cream. I didn't feel all that sick or anything. I mean, I was full, but satisfied.
Today was a sloth day, because I do not go to the gym on Saturdays. Curses! I hate being old that I cannot workout every day. But this near-40 body needs a day off or my joints start hurting really bad. So I took the kids sledding today. I spent an hour standing out in the cold, but I admit Donkey went down the hill 2 or 3 times with the kids. I only fell on my donkey twice, so that wasn't too bad.
I am ok with the eating, I just don't want to destroy my numbers for the start of the year. Well, if they are a little higher on Jan. 1, then I just need to remember that they will look GREAT come next Dec. 31st (2008) when I do my final weigh-in for the upcoming year.
BAH to Donkey! :-(
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
Sledding is great fun! I wish I had folks here who still enjoyed it, but my kids don't like it anymore. It is so very cool that you are below your goal..you did great!
Well, I decided to go ahead and weigh in today. Might as well face the truth. So I was very pleased to see that i have essentially maintained my weight loss even with the cookie fiasco on Christmas Day. (I gained 0.5lb.)
This is my final weigh-in for 2007. I started this year out at 136.4, but as you can see from my ticker, I gained weight up to 144.0 at my highest weight this year. The stress of moving and not having a gym are probably the big reasons behind that number.
So whether you want to say that I lost 8.4lbs or 16lbs is up to you. Gee, I guess I never thought of it that way. I feel that I am at a very comfortable, healthy, maintainable weight right now.
Peace.
Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!
Tomorrow is weigh-in, but I'm not so sure I will do so. I had that disastrous encounter with those cookies on Christmas Day. Just not sure I'm ready to face the music.
I might wait until New Years Day to weigh in, so that I have a reference point for anything that happens next year. I started 2007 out at 136.4. If I had a starting weight, then I should at least have an ending weight for 2007, too, don't you think? So I should probably weigh in tomorrow. Ugh... I know it will be bad.
Then I will weigh in on New Year's Day as well, for 2008.
...yuck, I don't know what I will do. Maybe I will just forget to weigh in tomorrow, lol ....
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!
as for me, i like that idea of doing a weight comparison...but i think it may impede my progress...that's what's happened in the past with me. so, i think i will continue to eat well and exercise. oh, the weight i will record for the New Year will be a weight I know I am hopefully around by then take 1 or 2 lbs...125. I will use that as my baseline for Jan. 1st.
I'm cheering for your continued losses! Go, Don-key! Go, Don-key!
Hugs!
Merry Christmas!!
Survived the Christmas party last night. Ate sparingly of the meal because I knew there would be cannoli for dessert. I had one -- oh it was so good! Then I had a homemade anise cookie. Then I grabbed 3 cookies on my plate and started nibbling -- so I put a piece of gum in my mouth. Had like 4 cups of coffee, and 2 Liters (8 cups) of water. Bringing my own water bottle saved me, that's for sure! I will never go to another party without my own water bottle.
Only one person asked if I had lost weight, and I hadn't seen Uncle Joe in over 10 years. I think that I actually weigh the same as I did last time I saw him (possibly even weigh more now), but I'm older, and it shows in my face. I've seen pictures taken of me lately. I'm not sure I like how I look. Maybe I do look too thin in the face. (Or maybe it's age; I'm almost 40.) Too bad my hips and thighs don't look as thin (old) as my face does. Ick.
May check in later; not much planned for the rest of the day except Mass.
EVENING EDIT: Well, the cookies got the best of me this morning. I've learned a couple of things: For one thing, I've got it through my thick head that regardless of whether I exercise or not, I've got to make breakfast more substantial than a bowl of cereal. So from now on, I'm having my slice of peanut butter toast no matter what. (The protein holds me well.)
I still think that with the amount of exercise I do and the way I eat normally (i.e. not so many cookies), having a day of cookies will not change my results all that much. That is to say, it will work itself out by week's end or so.
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!
I hope that you have a lovely day with your family. ...Sending you Christmas hugs!!
You sound like you are being extra hard on yourself and how you look in this entry. Honestly, i think the family stress of this get together got you feeling frazzled and you are punishing yourself with a lot of negative talk. You've been exercising and doing most things right, so don't judge yourself so much on the holidays! I understand well how a new job can be stressful and certainly this time of year. Be proud of your achievments. :)
And listen to what HOP said!! She knows!
sorry, I digress! You're doing great, are down under 130 - almost to 125! You can do it! 2008 will be your year!
Just checking in really quick. I have some company due in about 30-60 minutes. I wanted to notate my weigh-in for today. Normally I don't weigh-in on any other day other than Fridays, but I weighed in today because I was involved with a Christmas Challenge on another message board, and today was the final weigh-in.
As you can see, my overindulging on Saturday (and then Sunday and Tuesday) has been rectified. I am much relieved and happy to be motivated. Enjoying the momentum!
Tonight is the last holiday obstacle that I can foresee. We are going to my stepfather's family's party tonight. They are Italian, so the cooking is to be outstanding. I think cookies will be my downfall, if anything. But this should be the last family gathering. We are making our own beef roast for Christmas Day. Then I have my anniversary, New Years Eve (which we don't normally do anything for) and New Years Day (which we don't do anything for either). So hopefully I will be set after I get through today.
No gym tomorrow, because it's closed. But I'll be here, hopefully logging in on what a successful time I had with tonight's celebration.
Progress as of today: 16.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!
thanks for acknowledging the fact that i am not the only antisocial person on the planet! LOL
Merry Christmas & happy anniversary!
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Awww, I hope that things go well with Stinky. I am a huge animal lover and know how hard it is when they are not doing so well.
What a great workout you had, good for you!!
dearerdiarist on 01/04/2008:
Sending you a REALLY great {{{hug}}}. You are going through so many things at once I am amazed that you can get out of the covers. Be very kind to yourself. See you tomorrow.
hollybelle on 01/04/2008:
So sorry to hear of all the troubles. Not surprised husband hasn't left yet. Men have such a hard time facing very emotional situations - we all do, but men sometimes resist it fiercely. When it rains - it pours. Sending you a big cyber (((((((HUG))))))) Hang tough!
workingit2 on 01/04/2008:
I hope the treatment helps your cat! It is very difficult to watching them be so sickly, I know after watching my brother's cat *sigh*
Congrats on the exercise!
Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2008:
I am very glad to see you are doing better today. I definitely can identify with how you felt yesterday! It seems these days me and you are having lots of similiar emotions!
I hope your cat is doing better. :)
biscottibody59 on 01/04/2008:
I know you want the best for your cat, but today's vets are not the vets of yore--there are some very unscrupulous people out there and sadly many of them are vets. These unscrupulous people not only don't want to put your animal to sleep until "everything's been done for it," they want to squeeze every dime out of you, the animal's owner.
Do all you can for your cat, but beware. I've had one firsthand experience with putting a pet to sleep, and will have at least another eventually. It wasn't easy and I'm sure it's even more difficult with children around--I certainly feel for you. I also saw a friend go into major CC debt to postpone the inevitable for a few months. She was beside herself for the entire time of treating a cat for diabetes--personally I don't know how she did it, work and live--all at the same time.
Not saying this is your situation, just wanted to sort of commiserate in some way. It's hard no matter what.
greengirl on 01/04/2008:
Donkey, I am so sorry to hear about your problems. I hope you can get them sorted out. I agree, somewhat, with biscottibody that some vets try and squeeze every last penny they can out of your misfortune. Let's hope the vet is not raising your hopes up to the detriment of the animal. It is understanable that you're upset and wanting to turn to food for some consolation. I know its what I do ! I will be thinking of you, keep your chin up
shadetree on 01/04/2008:
Great run today! I find that exercise helps me a lot when I'm stressed/frustrated/upset. (I either eat or exercise....I TRY to exercise, but sometimes it sneaks up on me and I find myself eating...)
I hope things work out with the cat. I'm with you - I hope I never have to face diabetes as there is no way that I could inject myself. They have to give me gas at the dentist in order to get me relaxed enough to give me novacaine. I just can't do needles!
Hope you get a little bit of sunshine tomorrow - it always helps lift my spirits a little bit!
biscottibody59 on 01/06/2008:
RYC: Thanks for your comment! I can always use a vote of confidence and you know the feeling is mutual!
Your explanation made me think of a cat we had when I was in HS. At about 2 yrs she was diagnosed (and I use that term loosely after she lived another 12 or so years) with leukemia. The vet gave her a death sentence and a vitamin injection. Oh and we were told to feed her only dry cat food. She never showed signs of illness again. She became arthritic later on.
She was a rather small, typical "scaredy cat" and, after her miraculous recovery, became this loving as all-get-out to us, bully to cats twice her size. She'd get into these fights, though she never seemed to pick them--haha--and never get a scratch. So I'm hoping yours has a great recovery. With cats it seems anything is possible. (To this day--I don't know what it was with that cat, but it was kinda weird;-)