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Donkey - Wednesday Oct 28, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.5

 I was unable to resist having a slice of the Promotion Cake last night,  after dinner,  but I'm in the right mindset now to resist tonight. 

Was not very motivated to do weights last night but I ended up doing a few sets of different lifts for the back. So triceps it shoulders tonight.  It helps to say that here, so that I feel more obligated to follow through. 

TOM starts very soon, so I'm dealing with the monthly fatigue. I'm so tired of taking iron supplements and having to deal the the subsequent constipation,  but if I don't take the iron,  then the fatigue is worse. Plus,  in a pandemic it's probably a good idea to have healthy blood. 

Mistakes Girl is out of the office for the rest of the week.  She takes a LOT of time off,  and the Boss never tells anyone no. 

Nice Lady and I were talking about the stress of training the new lawyer.  She had mentioned to me before how change is hard for her,  and I realized that I'm having a harder time with the New Guy too. Not him personally,  or even professionally  - he'll be fine.  Just the process of integrating someone new,  watching him learn,  hoping he picks things up quickly,  etc.

But he better learn quickly,  because the Boss came back from vacation less inclined to work more than ever. (shrugs shoulders)

I want more of my life back. 

Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/28/2020:
Promotion cake? Sounds good! Send me a piece, ok?

grannyannie on 10/28/2020:
Good for you resisting having more cake. You're stronger than me.

It can be stressful having a new person in the office and having to train them.

I post my stuff here early in the morning so I feel obligated to do what I say I will.

Donkey on 10/29/2020:
Good point about posting in advance to feel obligated later!!!

legcramps on 10/28/2020:
I take iron supplements as well; one week on and one week off. I haven't had any trouble with constipation, but my fiber intake might be pretty good right now and that might be helping.

I understand about feeling stressed having to train new people; i've been there too! It's even more difficult when you don't have the same working style.

Donkey on 10/29/2020:
I never considered taking the iron one week on, one week off! I'm going to consider that. At least I won't feel too guilty if I miss a day.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/29/2020:
Change is certainly hard at the workplace and especially with integrating new people. it's so sad when they don't last! !!! (i've seen it time and time again thru my last 9 year "tenure" position at my last job).

that being said, it will help for you to realize that it's not easy, but, some of the stress you are undoubtably feeling is your empathy for the guy that should be stressing most - new guy. try not to take in all his stress, if you can....

like Jacky said, "promotion cake" sounds so good...does eating it give me a promotion too!?

Horn_of_plenty on 10/29/2020:
i wonder if you can take something to combat the iron supps...like probiotics? (capsules).

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 27, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.5

It seems as though, when I workout with weights lately, I'm not feeling the after-effects until the next day in the afternoon!  A few times I've told myself, "Wow, I'm going to feel this in the morning!" but then I don't.  I seem to feel the soreness more in the afternoon.  That's OK.  Last night I really had to push myself to do weights - I was all ready to go upstairs to retire for the night, when I realized that I said I was going to do biceps.  So I did it.  I could have done more, but I did alright.  I'm ready to feel the soreness this afternoon!

My daughter got a promotion at work!  And now she makes more money than I do!  We got her a cake to show her how proud we are of her.  So... I had a small slice on Sunday, and then I had another small-ish slice last night.  But I'm not going to make it into the 130's (my October goal) if I keep eating cake.  So I think that's it for now, and I will suggest to daughter after  tonight, that the rest of the cake go into the freezer.  It's a beautiful cake.

TOM will be kicking in soon - hence the fatigue - and that plus cake, I am already not anticipating a favorable weigh-in on Saturday.  I won't be discouraged, though. I'm going to refrain from additional cake.  I'm going to write things down.  I'm going to continue my weights schedule.

PS  Thank you for all of your comments on Sunday's entries.  I did respond, if you are interested :-)

Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/27/2020:
Congrats to your daughter!

I do my workouts in the morning, so when I get sore it's usually that evening, and moreso in the morning.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/27/2020:
Nice job sticking to your word and doing biceps. It's much better when we do it on the day we are supposed to instead of pushing it to the next day / skipping sessions. I am a bit weaker due to the latter...ha!! but i'm also not concerned right now as I have some other things more important to me lately than just the weights.

just WOW WOW...congrats to your DAUGHTER! it's great to hear she is doing well and received a raise / promotion. Happy for her!

Donkey - Sunday Oct 25, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.5

 I accomplished so much yesterday, that I don't have much on my "to do" list for today.  The things that I said weren't going to happen:

  • Move futon mattress to son's bedroom
  • Disassemble futon frame (separated this task, for clarification)
  • Winterize patio furniture; AND
  • Bring in ladder to check out ceiling leak

These are all things that I cannot do on my own. They are at least a 2-person project.  That is why I know they won't happen, because Husband cannot do these things (even if he says he can do them, he should NOT do them, and he's very unmotivated to do them) and Daughter is too busy.  Today is finally her day off, but she really needs that day for herself (beyond voting with her parents, which is essentially, doing something for herself, too, in the long run).

So that is my dilemma.  And this is not necessarily a criticism of my husband, because some of this stuff, I should not be doing either with my back issues.  UGH, getting old!

My Little Gym Story from Yesterday:

It was not empty, and the cardio area had more people than I would prefer, although we're all socially distanced.  Not enough mask wearing while not on the machines, people!  Grr!!!...

Anyway, long story short, due to reasons beyond the gym's control, the air ventilation system was shut down and, because of COVID, the manager felt that it was best to close the gym, because the air could not be properly filtered for the virus.  You would not have known this if he hadn't said this, because it felt fine in the gym at the time.  (Gee, I wonder how long the ventilation system had been off, while I was there before he made this decision to close down for the day.  I *just* thought of this.  That's not good!)

Of course, I had a really good workout going, and I was already starting to think of what machine I would try next, because I was enjoying the workout so much.  I am grateful that I was able to get a 30 minute solid cardio workout (intervals).

The problem with the power source for the ventilation system was an external and temporary situation, and the gym will be open today.  Hmm...

I did chest weights last night - yay!  I think my eating went well EXCEPT that I had too much Ranch salad dressing in order to be able to finish the leftover chicken in my salad.  It wasn't particularly good chicken.  I just realize now that I probably should have salted and seasoned the chunked chicken FIRST, as I probably could have saved myself some of the salad dressing.

I don't have this is as a daily goal but you should know that I am still writing down what I eat.  I will continue to do this until I announce that I'm not doing it any longer.

Sunday's Goals:

  • Vote early with the family
  • Gym
  • Legs weight-training session
  • Walk in neighborhood
  • Sign up for continuing ed loan originator license - DONE

Those other "not happening" goals that I wrote about above and yestesrday - if any of those happen today, I'd be most grateful, but I'm learning to adjust my expectations so as not to be disappointed, crabby, naggy, etc.


Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/25/2020:
Is your gym very large? Staff needs to be tougher with those who don't have their masks on.

I really, really miss my gym but not enough to go. It's tiny and you have to book a slot in order to visit it. Very limited numbers of members. Anyway, I've cancelled my membership.

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
Yes, it's one of the biggest in the area. Not sure if that's a good thing or bad. I definitely don't utilize all of what they have to offer.

thinkpositive on 10/25/2020:
Sorry about your gym & the ventilation system. Tough when you need help with chores & the help isn’t there. I can identify with that but so far I’ve been able to handle most normal chores.

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
I figured it out that, while I'm working hard on these chores and right afterwards, I'm very angry and resentful of my husband. Then, those feelings go away and I'm left with relief and pride that I got the job done.

So I just need to keep my mouth shut and avoid my husband immediately after completing said chores. LOL.

jacky82020 on 10/25/2020:
Wow, the ventilation system is scary! I wouldn’t join a gym to save my ass; a lot can be done with free weights & walking.

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
Agreed! I got a nice set up here. Not fancy but definitely adequate.

legcramps on 10/26/2020:
Expectations set on people other than ourselves can prove to end up being quite disappointing, i've learned!

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
True 100%! Finally learned last night, after 25 years of marriage, too let the anger pass. It will. Then I feel great in getting it done!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/26/2020:
hi Donkey! I'll start by saying sorry not to comment sooner, I have been prioritizing other activities before commenting this weekend...I was surprised to see a new entry from you today, what a nice surprise. I have also left some short comments on yesterday's entry that you wrote.

the gym situation sounds unreliable in terms of health safety, in my viewpoint, knowing that you have equipment at home.

and with the chicken, salt/pepper/garlic goes a long way so that is an interesting point you make that seasonings may replace the need for more ranch. that's a reminder to me as well. lately i'm trying to cook meals with more cheese / sauce, but i do not end up liking them very much because i do not like these extra calories or tastes. i feel like it covers up the taste of the actual FOOD in the meal. (my preference).

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
I agree. Also, I commented on your comments from earlier today.

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
I hope you will read them because you helped me figure out the gym thing.

Maria7 on 10/26/2020:
Hope you had a nice walk in your neighborhood.

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
I did! I was checking up on the neighborhood Halloween decorations :-) It cheers me up! I'll do the same for Christmas - especially Christmas- too!

Donkey - Sunday Oct 25, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.5

I was going to do an "Evening Edit" and then decided that I wanted/needed to do a separate post altogether, so consider this to be my Monday morning post as well, because a lot of times, I don't have time to log in, in the mornings.

Sunday's Goals:

Vote early with the family - DONE
Gym - did not happen (see below)
Legs weight-training session - DONE (and it was amazing!)
Walk in neighborhood - DONE
Sign up for continuing ed loan originator license - DONE
Winterize patio furniture - DONE!!!!
Move futon cushion into Son's room - DONE

I ended up not going to the gym.... [pause]
I had intended to go in the early afternoon, but I decided I would rather try to winterize as much of the patio furniture as possible, by myself.  Then, because she was home today, I managed to get my daughter to bring in the glass-topped table, which is something I cannot do alone, as it takes 2 people.  Everything else was accomplished except the umbrella (for the glass-topped table) which my husband can certainly manage on his own.
Then, I intended to go to the gym in the evening.  But I was thinking about what you all had commented on my entry from this morning.  I want you to know that I considered what you had said, and I thank you for your comments, because it really made me stop and THINK about where we're at with this virus.
Here are some of those thoughts:
  • I spoke to my daughter about our membership dues, and mentioned that perhaps she might want to think about putting her portion on hold until we're in a better spot.   She said that because her days off schedule changed./changes and because the gym is no longer 24-hour, that it's not realistic to think that she would go to the gym.
  • For myself, I was thinking about maybe going really early in the morning.  They open at 4am.  I could probably get there around 5am.  It would be cleaner, because they santize at night.  It would be emptier, because only the die-hards come that early.  But in the mornings, my exercise is light (but lengthy) to warm up my muscles and loosen my joints & ligaments (especially my back).  So I wouldn't want a strenuous workout that early in the morning.  (When I was younger, I did this all the time.  Can't do that any more.)
  • OK, so how about going later in the evening, like 8pm, since they close at 10pm.  It would be emptier, especially by 8:30p, but there would be very little wiggle room for extras.  And it would be hard to get motivated to go in the dark, late. 
  • 'm wondering if I should suspend my membership too.  It's a lot of money for just 1x a week.  And after what happened on Saturday, I'm not sure about going 1x a week, even!  I thought the early morning idea was a good one, but geez, it would mean a total re-vamping of my routine.  I just don't know if I could do it.

Anyway, I'm proud of myself for getting the patio furniture winterized - bring on the snow!  (lol)  Before I get ready for bed, I'm going to see if maybe I can slide the futon matress myself.  If I can, then I'll move it into the other room.

Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/26/2020:
sorry i haven't been commenting as quickly. been distracted thru the weekend with time spend outdoors, i think :)... glad to catch up with you now though!

well, you prob know that I, for one, will be in support of putting your membership on hold. and maybe your daughter should cancel her membership if she's saying she will not go anymore.

with the gym, i think masks need to be worn when at the gym, at all times. When i volunteer at the farm, our masks remain on at all times outdoors, unless we are drinking some water and we try to do that away from each other...

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
I think I keep talking about the gym, hoping to get to a different conclusion, and that's not going to happen.

If they made masks mandatory while working out, none of this would be an issue.

Thank you for your support in this decision-making process.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/26/2020:
also, you got a lot done yesterday. i think you should be satisfied. glad to see the legs workout and a walk! very nice!

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
I did get a lot fine and I was quite pleased with my efforts!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/26/2020:
...i'm now inspired to do my upper body workout after i finish with a few more comments :)

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
Yay! Oh my legs workout was awesome! Had lovely soreness the next day. Not bad, just a gentle "hey" from the muscles.

Donkey - Saturday Oct 24, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 140.5


Please see my goals list below for what was accomplished today.  I was going to write more about my gym experience, but I think I'll save it for tomorrow's entry, since I'm not sure I'm entirely done processing it yet.

I'm very skeptical of this morning's weigh-in, but I'll take it.  I'm so close to breaking through back into the 130's!  I think the monitored eating is helping.  I guess this makes those times of hunger a little more worth it.  

I stayed until 5:45p ar work. My husband doens't like me to stay late on Fridays.  Neither does my boss.  I probably could have gotten out of there at 5:30p but stayed a little later to talk with New Guy.  I have to say, this past week was a brutal week.  And I didn't have a chance to look at the calendar for Monday, before I left, but I guess a couple of more closings were added, so it will be a crazy day on Monday too.

I did not do weights last night.  I cannot remember why I didn't, but I think that taking Friday's off of weights works better for my schedule.  I like to do more weights on the weekend because I have more time.  I still don't know if I will do chest or biceps but this is where I will start for this rotation.  (So my weights week is Saturday-Thursday.)

It has been a stressful morning, as I went to my boss' house with my daughter to take care of his cat.  It was a bit overwhelming, because his wife is a hoarder.  Daughter was concerned that maybe they hadn't actually left on vacation, because there was a car in the driveway.  There is a car in the driveway because the garage is too full of stuff to park in it AND have a pathway to walk.  You can get the car in there, but then there's no room to get out.

I think it would be easiest if I listed my weekend goals to let you know where I'm at:

(Extra tasks in red)

  • Return Lewis & Clark book to library - DONE
  • Vote early (Sunday)
  • Move patio furniture to its winter location - not going to happen
  • Move futon mattress out of Yoga/Plant Room into son's bedroom (temporary) - not going to happen
  • Fill birdfeeders - DONE
  • Yardwork (fallen branches) - DONE
  • Gym (Saturday) - DONE
  • Gym (Sunday)
  • My laundry - COMPLETELY DONE
  • Husband's laundry - DONE
  • Cat laundry - DONE
  • Run coffee maker on clean & rinse cycles - DONE
  • Bring ladder into house to investigate wet spot on ceiling (Sunday)

Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/24/2020:
Busy, busy! You'll be into the 130's very soon!

Hoarders are such a nightmare. I'll never understand it. At least you don't have to clean the house!

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
Get this - the Boss has a cleaning lady come every 2 weeks! What on earth is she cleaning???? There's so much STUFF - EVERYWHERE - I can't imagine what she could clean other than vacuum the carpet in the living room, once the stuff on the floor there is picked up.

Jacky82020 on 10/24/2020:
Was she as bad as those people on TV?

If you see a low number on the scale, even if it doesn’t last overnight, it will reappear soon. Happens to me all the time.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
In the kitchen/dining room/living room - the only areas I really feel comfortable entering, it's bad, but not like you see on TV.

However, January 2020, while they were away in Florida, their daughter went over and had to "clear out" the master bathroom because there was SO MUCH STUFF that it was becoming dangerous to walk in there, i.e. trip hazard. You couldn't walk in there without knocking stuff over, stepping on stuff, etc.

I visited the cat after the daughter did a "clean-out" and the bathroom was a complete WRECK. I kid you not - there were at least 20 bottles of shampoo in the shower. The separate bath was full of clothes, drawers so full that they couldn't be shut, countertop full, still piles of stuff everywhere....

I would say that this time, the house was worse than before, so I dare not even try to go into the bathroom.

Maria7 on 10/24/2020:
Lists are good to make. Helps one get things accomplished because it reminds one of things to do that need to be 'checked off'. You are SO CLOSE to the 130's...You've got this!!!

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
THANK YOU for the encouragement!!!! I'll remember this, Maria, when I reach for that extra bite.

Jacky82020 on 10/25/2020:
What Maria says

Donkey on 10/25/2020:

Horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2020:
You must be very proud of yourself. You certainly should be. So you are doing it. You are losing weight and breaking into a lower bracket. (140s) I am proud of you.

and for those times of hunger, small snack, one small chocolate with a big tea sweetened with stevia, helps greatly. especially when i'm at my parents house....

Weights are def an ongoing process...i also sometimes don't find opportune times for them...like after farm i feel tired and not up to it...i feel it's never a good time for them lately! just kidding on never a good time - but i run into challenges even though i'm not even working LOL...how crazy. i have no excuse LOL.

i hope that the line moves fast for you to vote...i am hearing crazy stories! good luck! can't wait to read more later if you log in!

Donkey - Friday Oct 23, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

Oh how I wish it were Saturday!  It is gray and cloudy and raining - the perfect day for just staying at home.  If I could only take today off.....  Or even this morning....

No lawyers in the office today, because they are either on vacation or at closings all day.  So I'm wearing leggings and an oversized comfy flannel shirt to work.  No face powder, but I am wearing lipstick. 

I stayed at work until 6pm last night - this was planned.  I felt that I left in a good place for today.  My ability to leave on time will depend on how early in the day I get settlement statements for Monday's closings.  If I get them at 4:50p, that will be at least 30 minutes of time spent following up with the clients.

I felt I was doing OK with eating until dinner. I was hungry, so I had a big serving of scrambled eggs (OK) and then 2 pork sausage patties - this is what killed me.  That was about 6 oz, which was 550 calories.  I'm not tracking macros or calories on my write-down lists, but for some items, like the sausage or the mini-Snickers bar (for desserts), I do figure out the calories and put them down on the list.

I think my intent will be to calculate calories for the week.  So Saturday or possibly Sunday (?), I will sit down and figure out calories.  I haven't made up my mind yet if I will  do old-school pen, paper and calculator, or if I will use an app.

I missed a little of the debate, to shower and get ready for bed, because I worked late.  Worked late meant dinner late, meant clean up late, meant bike ride late, etc.

No weights last night either. I watched the debate in my bedroom, so that I could watch the commentaries afterwards and then go to bed as soon as my head started bobbing.  Lights out around 10:15p.  Tonight will be chest or biceps, whichever I feel inspired to do. (Right now, I feel inspired to do none of that, so I'll have to practice some self-discipline and choose the lesser of the 2 evils - cue wicked laugh and lightening & thunder here).

I drink over 100 oz of water a day and am getting over 20,000 steps a day.  Yet here I am at a higher number.  Oh well, I know in my heart that I am doing the right thing.  Perhaps I will have a loss this weekend, but if not, I'm still sticking to my new routine.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/23/2020:
Never used an app for calories but spreadsheet works well. It adds up the total calories for each day.

Well done on 20K steps a day.

I LOVE pork sausages! I could eat them every day. We have 2 packs in the freezer that I'm pretending aren't there.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
A spreadsheet (or even old fashioned calculator) would tell me calories, but an app would tell me macros too (depending on the app, of course). Do I care about macros, though, to try to struggle through an app? I don't think so - at least not yet.

grannyannie on 10/23/2020:
Don't know if you saw my comment to you on Bears, but my brother and his wife sometimes go to Saugautuck. I had been taking my son and his daughters to Ludington every summer and was supposed to go this August.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
I did! I commented that I looked up on Google maps to see where Saugautuck is. The photos are magnificent! However, I don't think they're getting the best weather this weekend.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2020:
yes, you are a good walker and good with your cardio.

i think tracking calories may help you, yes.

also, reading your entry, i'm thinking back to the old days of BCBG's entries. she use to had double portions of things...like two portions of a snack that comes in singles - like 2 rice krispie treats, or two english muffins...she was having a hard time with the portions (i think this doesn't happen as much with her now...)

and the two sausage thing sounded a bit like BCBG when she would be having doubles. see if you can have one portion of the meat/protein part of meals. i feel like as long as you get veggies in, a little fat, some carbs, that protein doesn't need to be big and you'll save calories.

i see a little snickers or two as something really nice to include...remember everything is OK to eat, just moderate the bigger elements with more veggies.

i know you love cake, somehow i cut my pumpkin pie into 8 slices and the nutrition facts make it so they are only 200 cal each. idk...it is a smallish slice, moderate slice, but, i cannot believe they are so low calories. could be a mistake. then again, it says it's without sugar added and still tastes so good! what a good find at the supermarket!

ah, but the cake - that's an example of something that is HARD to moderate. a slice of cake, in general, is bigger than a couple cookies. i find that cake can sort of mess up a person's daily calories, but is good for celebrations. the thing about cake is how big the slice is and what it's made with (chocolate filling?)...it can add up. and why cake just take like 4 bites to finish!

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
Good point! Portion control is everything, isn't it? That was a good thing to do with the pumpkin pie slices, cutting them smaller.

I do measure some things with a measuring cup right now. Some foods I don't, and I probably should, e.g. tuna salad. I may get to the point of using a food scale, as I know I've talked about it here. That would be most accurate.

Maria7 on 10/23/2020:
I was hungry last nite, too...hadn't planned to eat more but scrambled 2 eggs and added cheddar cheese and had one piece of bread...was soooo good.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
I'd say you were hungry! :-) At least your foods had some nutritional value, and wasn't things like Streupwaffle cookies (lol).

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2020:
Wow ! You have so much experience and insight regarding the essay I wrote! That is so interesting - the emotional aspect - and how you concur and support even more that important part of taming and soothing clients / emotions so that the mediation can continue and not become a failed endeavor with an unsuccessful closure ! Wow! I can see you’d do very well if you took this course !

So now when you talk of difficult clients and even partners, I guess remember how important and difficult this emotional aspect can be for all and how important it is to get experience and be familiar with dealing with it - like young new lawyer needs !

Your response was so thoughtful ! I could still revise the paper but I will probably leave it as I have more work to do for the class and PM .... but your response has me thinking to take 5 minutes when I’m home to make the paper even better - so I will add a little more to the emotional aspect as it’s also considered huge in the book I am reading for the course

Donkey - Thursday Oct 22, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

 To echo Legs, this week is taking FOREVER.  And it hasn't been a pleasant time, I gotta tell you. Not even listening to Christmas music at work yesterday helped.  Now that's bad,  when Santa can't cheer me up. 

So we were fired by a client yesterday and what a blessing. I don't think I could have worked with these folks after our egregious error.  My boss so much as said he can't cope with the workload,  when I asked him to read the clients' emails thoroughly.

I'm so backed up, I'm going to have to stay late today. Husband wants to watch the debate together, so I can't stay too late. I'm so busy with emails that I've fallen behind on correspondences and checking new files for mistakes (by Mistakes Girl, when she opens them). 

This is ridiculous. We should not be this busy this time of year!  Boss is going on vacation starting Friday. Mistakes Girl will be out next week,  Wednesday-Friday. Meanwhile,  I'm so busy I struggle to take a walk at lunch!

Did well with eating,  but the hunger is real. It's not a painful hunger, but just a more annoying,  nagging feeling.  Well, that's what it takes to lose weight. 

Did shoulder weights last night. I'm not sure if I will do weights tonight.  Kind of depends on where I watch the debate. I have chest and biceps available to me. 

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/22/2020:
Some client in Hong Kong fired the company my husband works for and they are glad to see them go!

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
Yes, I'm quite relieved. As long as the real estate agent understands, then we're OK. And he does. He said it's a difficult client.

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
And 2 less files for me - even better! Ha ha ha!

grannyannie on 10/22/2020:
I find that if I get hungry in the middle of the afternoon I can drink a cup of tea with soy milk and it takes the edge off. Or a coffee with coconut milk.

The debate starts at about 2:00 am here. I will catch the 'noteworthy' parts of it in the morning on the news shows.

Hope your work slows down at least a wee bit!

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
I usually have a cup of coffee with creamer with my high fiber snack around 2p or 3p. I want to say I was truly hungry but now I'm wondering if I was too stressed. It's those days that I need to leave on time or a little early and can't.

Same thing happened yesterday, too, and had to stay until 6p! (tears)

legcramps on 10/22/2020:
Good riddance to the client that fired you then! If it made for a stressful environment, no need to mourn the loss.

Enjoy watching the debate today; I might tune in if I have the time. Always interesting until anger overwhelms me and forces me to stop watching ;)

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
Yep, not devoting one more iota of time to that client. Good riddance!

Maria7 on 10/22/2020:
I love listening to Christmas music, too. That is usually quite cheerful to hear.

Donkey on 10/23/2020:
It worked better for me yesterday! :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2020:
re your comment yesterday back to me in your entry...yes, i do have been feeling conflicted over some ingredients / snacks. some taste really good, but they are really fake but i like the taste so much i eat them....other desserts, mostly frozen lately, sound so good but they are so fake that they taste fake (there's basically no nutrition in them and the serving size is quite large) and the strangest part is i'm not even satisfied after and don't even enjoy eating them...

i've been eating a lot of snacks and less healthy food and sometimes i realize i don't even like the food and can't even finish the product bc the taste is just so unnatural and doesn't even resemble anything healthy....i'm glad to realize when at the store that i actuallly don't like every product that's unhealthy ! and when i see those products, i can actually know i tried them and do not want to buy them again!

With dealing with "hanger," please try to keep snacks at your desk for eating every couple or three hours. try not to wait too long between meals without a snack. a snack can be a piece of fruit with water/seltzer/tea/coffee at work... or a small chocolate or two. Try to ingrain a small snack into your world :) or drink water on your commute home before dinner...i know it's hard...big salad or just salad before your dinner...

Donkey - Wednesday Oct 21, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

 It's a new day. It would be better if it were Thursday. 

I did end up feeling a little muscle soreness in my legs yesterday,  as the day progressed,  so my legs workout DID do something!  Last night,  I worked triceps. No soreness this morning,  yet. 

I think I'm liking writing down what I eat. I have a 3-inch tall notepad "cube" on my desk at work. I write what I eat on one of those pages. I bring the little pages home and put them in a small folder.  Perhaps some day,  I might calculate calories. Right now,  this new habit is just keeping me aware of what I'm eating. 

It was tough eating less at dinner last night.  I didn't feel completely satiated, but I was satisfied with my effort.   However ,  when I was on the computer here last night,  I did have 1/2 cup of frozen whole cherries.  

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/21/2020:
Oh, yum! Frozen cherries! I love desserts frozen, like cakes and cookies. Which I’ve been pretty good about avoiding recently. Not perfect, but better than usual. Quitting zolpidem after 10 years helped immensely. Stuff gave me nocturnal munchies, big time.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/21/2020:
sorry i took long to write back...my mind is elsewhere lately...i wrote some on your entry yesterday too.

a little soreness is GREAT. I was actually somehow sore today from my workout last night?! i have been doing the same workout for awhile now, so, i guess i was weak going into the workout and it just had a larger effect than it usually does on me!?

yes, those Post-it cubes...just so you know, that is what i used for MANY years at the job i was previously at...when i didn't log into DD during work, i was using that post it cube every day to write down also!...later logging onto DD with maybe just calories or a summation...

frozen whole cherries sounds delish.

do you still have evening decaf coffees or are you bored with that?

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
I still have the decaf but with real cream not flavored Coffeemate. It was the flavored fake stuff that was helpful to satisfy cravings. But it's FAKE.

Very conflicted about this.

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
It's easy not to see what you are eating or drinking all day until you write down every single thing.

OMG post its kept my life together when I was working in an office at a university. I loved when there were no more post its stuck around the outside of my computer screen!

Maria7 on 10/21/2020:
I got very tickled at what you wrote in comments about election nite...SMILE....even told Hubby and he smiled, too.

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
:-) I sincerely mean it when I said it was completely unintentional!

Frankly, I'm ready to eject this whole year. I don't know if I've every felt that way about a year before, even during tough times.

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
Glad I made folks smile :-)

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 20, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

I want to write this now, to get this off my chest, so that hopefully I can sleep better tonight and won't dread going into the office tomorrow.

My boss made a significant mistake last week, and it came to light late Friday afternoon.  I followed up on it today, and the clients didn't get their way.  The husband called and spoke to me - because, of course, my boss is out of the office (I'll explain) - and the husband said he was so upset with us because we didn't address his concern properly that he's probably going to fire us.  Yes, I think he should fire us.  I would fire us.  But there was nothing I could do, other than to take a message for my boss.

(BTW, firing us isn't going to fix the problem, but I would still fire us.)

I then went to Mistakes Girl and Male Co-Worker and asked them to stop working on anything on these deals (it's a sell/buy on the same day), because we're probably going to get fired.  So at least we're not wasting any money nor any more of our time on these people.

I was very upset when this error came to light on Friday afternoon, at my boss.  In a way, I feel somewhat responsible because I did not highlight (with a marker) EXACTLY what needed to be addressed in the attorney negotiation letters.  However, I'm really mad at my boss for not reading what the clients are requesting in the emails.  He's in such a freakin' hurry to write his letters so that he can surf on the computer or go chat with anyone who has time to listen to him...

So, like Monday, I start highlighting things in emails, so that my boss can clearly see what needs to be in his letters.  Nice Lady makes a semi-snide remark, "Now we're highlighting things?"  And I said, "Yes, I have to highlight things or they will get missed. (Gesturing at my boss' office)  This is where we're at." and she seemed to accept that, and agree by saying, "That's where we're at."

My boss was not in the office this afternoon, to speak to the very upset client, because he had a follow-up stress test at the hospital to see if he has another blockage somewhere.  This is a result of his ER visit last week.  He didn't feel like coming back to the office afterwards, and heck, I don't blame him, but on the other hand, then why am I left talking to these people who are really upset?  

So now, not only do I feel angry, but I also feel sad and very guilty for being angry with someone who isn't feeling well.

Despite all of these negative feelings of anger, frustration, sadness, helplessness, guilt & shame, I have managed not to eat everything in the house.  I suspect that cheese would make all of this go away.... but I know that it won't.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
OMG so much work stress! So sorry. It's clearly your bosses fault, not yours.

Donkey on 10/21/2020:
I suppose at the end of the day, it's his fault, but I still feel partially responsible for this.

That's the thing about working in this field. There's not much room for mistakes... and real estate is one of the more forgiving fields in the legal world.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/21/2020:
Yeah, little things (salad dressing re - your below entry) can do it. I was making a meal that was supposed to include blue cheese dressing for the salad and i ended up not including it because i'm not a big cheese/sauce person. i looked at the calories of each package: 200 cal! that's a lot for just dressing. I find my olive oil works well these days. i used to also use vinegar more often with it, but, i tend to break out when i include too much vinegar/kombucha/acids in my diet....oh ok, too much about that...

Concerning the "fire your firm" situation of the client, i'm reading now about negotiation...and one important thing i'd say involving "disputes" is creativity and an openness to look for how both sides could still make out well....?....it's developing an emotionally sound reaction to problems so that you can logically see if there's a way to mitigate without causing a total dissolvement of a relationship with a client? i'm sure you try this already with many clients...to create a feeling of a "win win" situation where both your company and the clients ending up fairing well...

OK - i've read your entry to the end now: you cannot feel guilty because you are doing your job as well as YOU CAN. that is it....

you can only do your very best. if you've done that, you need to seek solace and comfort in yourself from the fact you are working your best.

in terms of the upset clients, possibly repeat the fact that you understand their feelings / situation that is causing them to be upset and that you will do everything you can to make sure your boss is aware and deals with the matter at his earliest convenience. you can, i think?, just try to give these clients an ear, try not to interrupt them if they are upset on the phone, try to be comforting and understanding and on their side, per se....that's just my opinion, i'm not exactly sure how it would work out, but that's my feeling.

Donkey - Tuesday Oct 20, 2020
(Low carb eating w recumbent bike, yoga, weights)
Weight: 144.5

A quick entry this morning.  Yesterday I wrote down what I ate, and found that I'm eating way too much salad dressing.  I'm not counting the calories, per se, but just writing down what I eat.  In a way, it keeps me accountable, knowing that I'll have to write it down.

Another thing I noticed is that when I eat at work, I'm very aware of what I'm eating.  When I eat at home, for dinner, I don't give it much thought, which leads to overeating, e.g. salad dressing.  I found myself reaching for that square of dark chocolate without giving it a second thought.  Then I realized, Oh, I need to write this down.

Had trouble drinking enough water yesterday. 

Sunday was back weight training.  Last night was legs.  I thought I'd wake up to some serious soreness, but it turns out, no pain at all.  I find it helpful to do 4-5 different exercises.  That seems to bring a nice feeling of fatigue to the muscles.  This is also helpful, I think, for sleeping well, although I did wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom and to show Old Kitty the new location of her litter box.  She figured it out; she's such a smart kitty.

(Recap: I have 3 cats:  Old Kitty, Good Boy, and Baby/Sick Kitty.)

I stayed a little later at work last night and missed my daughter at dinner time.  I left around 5:45p.  UGH.

Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/20/2020:
I write my meal plans for the day ahead of time, sometimes with editing later, but not usually. I just copy and paste it into here in the morning. And I have a spreadsheet that I've been keeping for years with all the calories which are easily totalled.

Of course, being retired means I've got plenty of time to do this.

What kind of salad dressing do you use? I use a fat free Italian that's 7 cals per Tbsp.

Donkey on 10/20/2020:
I use regular salad dressings, really. I like Hidden Valley Ranch - full calorie. The dressing I was using last night was Wishbone Creamy Caesar, but only because we're out of Ranch. On tonight's salad, I had Olive Garden Italian.

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
My family all loves Ranch - full calorie including to dip raw veggies in. Even my granddaughters will eat a salad if it's drowned in Ranch. Their dad did as well. I used to love Ranch but they don't have it here so got used to not having it.

Funny story - when we took my sister to France in 2006 she kept asking the waiters for Ranch and they had no idea what she wanted. She thought Ranch was universal.

Donkey on 10/21/2020:
Ha ha that IS funny. Ranch dressing is definitely an American thing.

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