I was unable to resist having a slice of the Promotion Cake last night, after dinner, but I'm in the right mindset now to resist tonight.
Was not very motivated to do weights last night but I ended up doing a few sets of different lifts for the back. So triceps it shoulders tonight. It helps to say that here, so that I feel more obligated to follow through.
TOM starts very soon, so I'm dealing with the monthly fatigue. I'm so tired of taking iron supplements and having to deal the the subsequent constipation, but if I don't take the iron, then the fatigue is worse. Plus, in a pandemic it's probably a good idea to have healthy blood.
Mistakes Girl is out of the office for the rest of the week. She takes a LOT of time off, and the Boss never tells anyone no.
Nice Lady and I were talking about the stress of training the new lawyer. She had mentioned to me before how change is hard for her, and I realized that I'm having a harder time with the New Guy too. Not him personally, or even professionally - he'll be fine. Just the process of integrating someone new, watching him learn, hoping he picks things up quickly, etc.
But he better learn quickly, because the Boss came back from vacation less inclined to work more than ever. (shrugs shoulders)
I want more of my life back.
Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!
It seems as though, when I workout with weights lately, I'm not feeling the after-effects until the next day in the afternoon! A few times I've told myself, "Wow, I'm going to feel this in the morning!" but then I don't. I seem to feel the soreness more in the afternoon. That's OK. Last night I really had to push myself to do weights - I was all ready to go upstairs to retire for the night, when I realized that I said I was going to do biceps. So I did it. I could have done more, but I did alright. I'm ready to feel the soreness this afternoon!
My daughter got a promotion at work! And now she makes more money than I do! We got her a cake to show her how proud we are of her. So... I had a small slice on Sunday, and then I had another small-ish slice last night. But I'm not going to make it into the 130's (my October goal) if I keep eating cake. So I think that's it for now, and I will suggest to daughter after tonight, that the rest of the cake go into the freezer. It's a beautiful cake.
TOM will be kicking in soon - hence the fatigue - and that plus cake, I am already not anticipating a favorable weigh-in on Saturday. I won't be discouraged, though. I'm going to refrain from additional cake. I'm going to write things down. I'm going to continue my weights schedule.
PS Thank you for all of your comments on Sunday's entries. I did respond, if you are interested :-)
Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!
I do my workouts in the morning, so when I get sore it's usually that evening, and moreso in the morning.
just WOW WOW...congrats to your DAUGHTER! it's great to hear she is doing well and received a raise / promotion. Happy for her!
I accomplished so much yesterday, that I don't have much on my "to do" list for today. The things that I said weren't going to happen:
These are all things that I cannot do on my own. They are at least a 2-person project. That is why I know they won't happen, because Husband cannot do these things (even if he says he can do them, he should NOT do them, and he's very unmotivated to do them) and Daughter is too busy. Today is finally her day off, but she really needs that day for herself (beyond voting with her parents, which is essentially, doing something for herself, too, in the long run).
So that is my dilemma. And this is not necessarily a criticism of my husband, because some of this stuff, I should not be doing either with my back issues. UGH, getting old!
My Little Gym Story from Yesterday:
It was not empty, and the cardio area had more people than I would prefer, although we're all socially distanced. Not enough mask wearing while not on the machines, people! Grr!!!...
Anyway, long story short, due to reasons beyond the gym's control, the air ventilation system was shut down and, because of COVID, the manager felt that it was best to close the gym, because the air could not be properly filtered for the virus. You would not have known this if he hadn't said this, because it felt fine in the gym at the time. (Gee, I wonder how long the ventilation system had been off, while I was there before he made this decision to close down for the day. I *just* thought of this. That's not good!)
Of course, I had a really good workout going, and I was already starting to think of what machine I would try next, because I was enjoying the workout so much. I am grateful that I was able to get a 30 minute solid cardio workout (intervals).
The problem with the power source for the ventilation system was an external and temporary situation, and the gym will be open today. Hmm...
I did chest weights last night - yay! I think my eating went well EXCEPT that I had too much Ranch salad dressing in order to be able to finish the leftover chicken in my salad. It wasn't particularly good chicken. I just realize now that I probably should have salted and seasoned the chunked chicken FIRST, as I probably could have saved myself some of the salad dressing.
I don't have this is as a daily goal but you should know that I am still writing down what I eat. I will continue to do this until I announce that I'm not doing it any longer.
Sunday's Goals:
Those other "not happening" goals that I wrote about above and yestesrday - if any of those happen today, I'd be most grateful, but I'm learning to adjust my expectations so as not to be disappointed, crabby, naggy, etc.
Progress as of today: 46 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!
I really, really miss my gym but not enough to go. It's tiny and you have to book a slot in order to visit it. Very limited numbers of members. Anyway, I've cancelled my membership.
So I just need to keep my mouth shut and avoid my husband immediately after completing said chores. LOL.
the gym situation sounds unreliable in terms of health safety, in my viewpoint, knowing that you have equipment at home.
and with the chicken, salt/pepper/garlic goes a long way so that is an interesting point you make that seasonings may replace the need for more ranch. that's a reminder to me as well. lately i'm trying to cook meals with more cheese / sauce, but i do not end up liking them very much because i do not like these extra calories or tastes. i feel like it covers up the taste of the actual FOOD in the meal. (my preference).
I was going to do an "Evening Edit" and then decided that I wanted/needed to do a separate post altogether, so consider this to be my Monday morning post as well, because a lot of times, I don't have time to log in, in the mornings.
Sunday's Goals:
well, you prob know that I, for one, will be in support of putting your membership on hold. and maybe your daughter should cancel her membership if she's saying she will not go anymore.
with the gym, i think masks need to be worn when at the gym, at all times. When i volunteer at the farm, our masks remain on at all times outdoors, unless we are drinking some water and we try to do that away from each other...
If they made masks mandatory while working out, none of this would be an issue.
Thank you for your support in this decision-making process.
EVENING EDIT:
Please see my goals list below for what was accomplished today. I was going to write more about my gym experience, but I think I'll save it for tomorrow's entry, since I'm not sure I'm entirely done processing it yet.
I'm very skeptical of this morning's weigh-in, but I'll take it. I'm so close to breaking through back into the 130's! I think the monitored eating is helping. I guess this makes those times of hunger a little more worth it.
I stayed until 5:45p ar work. My husband doens't like me to stay late on Fridays. Neither does my boss. I probably could have gotten out of there at 5:30p but stayed a little later to talk with New Guy. I have to say, this past week was a brutal week. And I didn't have a chance to look at the calendar for Monday, before I left, but I guess a couple of more closings were added, so it will be a crazy day on Monday too.
I did not do weights last night. I cannot remember why I didn't, but I think that taking Friday's off of weights works better for my schedule. I like to do more weights on the weekend because I have more time. I still don't know if I will do chest or biceps but this is where I will start for this rotation. (So my weights week is Saturday-Thursday.)
It has been a stressful morning, as I went to my boss' house with my daughter to take care of his cat. It was a bit overwhelming, because his wife is a hoarder. Daughter was concerned that maybe they hadn't actually left on vacation, because there was a car in the driveway. There is a car in the driveway because the garage is too full of stuff to park in it AND have a pathway to walk. You can get the car in there, but then there's no room to get out.
I think it would be easiest if I listed my weekend goals to let you know where I'm at:
(Extra tasks in red)
Hoarders are such a nightmare. I'll never understand it. At least you don't have to clean the house!
If you see a low number on the scale, even if it doesn’t last overnight, it will reappear soon. Happens to me all the time.
However, January 2020, while they were away in Florida, their daughter went over and had to "clear out" the master bathroom because there was SO MUCH STUFF that it was becoming dangerous to walk in there, i.e. trip hazard. You couldn't walk in there without knocking stuff over, stepping on stuff, etc.
I visited the cat after the daughter did a "clean-out" and the bathroom was a complete WRECK. I kid you not - there were at least 20 bottles of shampoo in the shower. The separate bath was full of clothes, drawers so full that they couldn't be shut, countertop full, still piles of stuff everywhere....
I would say that this time, the house was worse than before, so I dare not even try to go into the bathroom.
and for those times of hunger, small snack, one small chocolate with a big tea sweetened with stevia, helps greatly. especially when i'm at my parents house....
Weights are def an ongoing process...i also sometimes don't find opportune times for them...like after farm i feel tired and not up to it...i feel it's never a good time for them lately! just kidding on never a good time - but i run into challenges even though i'm not even working LOL...how crazy. i have no excuse LOL.
i hope that the line moves fast for you to vote...i am hearing crazy stories! good luck! can't wait to read more later if you log in!
Oh how I wish it were Saturday! It is gray and cloudy and raining - the perfect day for just staying at home. If I could only take today off..... Or even this morning....
No lawyers in the office today, because they are either on vacation or at closings all day. So I'm wearing leggings and an oversized comfy flannel shirt to work. No face powder, but I am wearing lipstick.
I stayed at work until 6pm last night - this was planned. I felt that I left in a good place for today. My ability to leave on time will depend on how early in the day I get settlement statements for Monday's closings. If I get them at 4:50p, that will be at least 30 minutes of time spent following up with the clients.
I felt I was doing OK with eating until dinner. I was hungry, so I had a big serving of scrambled eggs (OK) and then 2 pork sausage patties - this is what killed me. That was about 6 oz, which was 550 calories. I'm not tracking macros or calories on my write-down lists, but for some items, like the sausage or the mini-Snickers bar (for desserts), I do figure out the calories and put them down on the list.
I think my intent will be to calculate calories for the week. So Saturday or possibly Sunday (?), I will sit down and figure out calories. I haven't made up my mind yet if I will do old-school pen, paper and calculator, or if I will use an app.
I missed a little of the debate, to shower and get ready for bed, because I worked late. Worked late meant dinner late, meant clean up late, meant bike ride late, etc.
No weights last night either. I watched the debate in my bedroom, so that I could watch the commentaries afterwards and then go to bed as soon as my head started bobbing. Lights out around 10:15p. Tonight will be chest or biceps, whichever I feel inspired to do. (Right now, I feel inspired to do none of that, so I'll have to practice some self-discipline and choose the lesser of the 2 evils - cue wicked laugh and lightening & thunder here).
I drink over 100 oz of water a day and am getting over 20,000 steps a day. Yet here I am at a higher number. Oh well, I know in my heart that I am doing the right thing. Perhaps I will have a loss this weekend, but if not, I'm still sticking to my new routine.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
Well done on 20K steps a day.
I LOVE pork sausages! I could eat them every day. We have 2 packs in the freezer that I'm pretending aren't there.
i think tracking calories may help you, yes.
also, reading your entry, i'm thinking back to the old days of BCBG's entries. she use to had double portions of things...like two portions of a snack that comes in singles - like 2 rice krispie treats, or two english muffins...she was having a hard time with the portions (i think this doesn't happen as much with her now...)
and the two sausage thing sounded a bit like BCBG when she would be having doubles. see if you can have one portion of the meat/protein part of meals. i feel like as long as you get veggies in, a little fat, some carbs, that protein doesn't need to be big and you'll save calories.
i see a little snickers or two as something really nice to include...remember everything is OK to eat, just moderate the bigger elements with more veggies.
i know you love cake, somehow i cut my pumpkin pie into 8 slices and the nutrition facts make it so they are only 200 cal each. idk...it is a smallish slice, moderate slice, but, i cannot believe they are so low calories. could be a mistake. then again, it says it's without sugar added and still tastes so good! what a good find at the supermarket!
ah, but the cake - that's an example of something that is HARD to moderate. a slice of cake, in general, is bigger than a couple cookies. i find that cake can sort of mess up a person's daily calories, but is good for celebrations. the thing about cake is how big the slice is and what it's made with (chocolate filling?)...it can add up. and why cake just take like 4 bites to finish!
I do measure some things with a measuring cup right now. Some foods I don't, and I probably should, e.g. tuna salad. I may get to the point of using a food scale, as I know I've talked about it here. That would be most accurate.
So now when you talk of difficult clients and even partners, I guess remember how important and difficult this emotional aspect can be for all and how important it is to get experience and be familiar with dealing with it - like young new lawyer needs !
Your response was so thoughtful ! I could still revise the paper but I will probably leave it as I have more work to do for the class and PM .... but your response has me thinking to take 5 minutes when I’m home to make the paper even better - so I will add a little more to the emotional aspect as it’s also considered huge in the book I am reading for the course
To echo Legs, this week is taking FOREVER. And it hasn't been a pleasant time, I gotta tell you. Not even listening to Christmas music at work yesterday helped. Now that's bad, when Santa can't cheer me up.
So we were fired by a client yesterday and what a blessing. I don't think I could have worked with these folks after our egregious error. My boss so much as said he can't cope with the workload, when I asked him to read the clients' emails thoroughly.
I'm so backed up, I'm going to have to stay late today. Husband wants to watch the debate together, so I can't stay too late. I'm so busy with emails that I've fallen behind on correspondences and checking new files for mistakes (by Mistakes Girl, when she opens them).
This is ridiculous. We should not be this busy this time of year! Boss is going on vacation starting Friday. Mistakes Girl will be out next week, Wednesday-Friday. Meanwhile, I'm so busy I struggle to take a walk at lunch!
Did well with eating, but the hunger is real. It's not a painful hunger, but just a more annoying, nagging feeling. Well, that's what it takes to lose weight.
Did shoulder weights last night. I'm not sure if I will do weights tonight. Kind of depends on where I watch the debate. I have chest and biceps available to me.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
The debate starts at about 2:00 am here. I will catch the 'noteworthy' parts of it in the morning on the news shows.
Hope your work slows down at least a wee bit!
Same thing happened yesterday, too, and had to stay until 6p! (tears)
Enjoy watching the debate today; I might tune in if I have the time. Always interesting until anger overwhelms me and forces me to stop watching ;)
i've been eating a lot of snacks and less healthy food and sometimes i realize i don't even like the food and can't even finish the product bc the taste is just so unnatural and doesn't even resemble anything healthy....i'm glad to realize when at the store that i actuallly don't like every product that's unhealthy ! and when i see those products, i can actually know i tried them and do not want to buy them again!
With dealing with "hanger," please try to keep snacks at your desk for eating every couple or three hours. try not to wait too long between meals without a snack. a snack can be a piece of fruit with water/seltzer/tea/coffee at work... or a small chocolate or two. Try to ingrain a small snack into your world :) or drink water on your commute home before dinner...i know it's hard...big salad or just salad before your dinner...
It's a new day. It would be better if it were Thursday.
I did end up feeling a little muscle soreness in my legs yesterday, as the day progressed, so my legs workout DID do something! Last night, I worked triceps. No soreness this morning, yet.
I think I'm liking writing down what I eat. I have a 3-inch tall notepad "cube" on my desk at work. I write what I eat on one of those pages. I bring the little pages home and put them in a small folder. Perhaps some day, I might calculate calories. Right now, this new habit is just keeping me aware of what I'm eating.
It was tough eating less at dinner last night. I didn't feel completely satiated, but I was satisfied with my effort. However , when I was on the computer here last night, I did have 1/2 cup of frozen whole cherries.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
a little soreness is GREAT. I was actually somehow sore today from my workout last night?! i have been doing the same workout for awhile now, so, i guess i was weak going into the workout and it just had a larger effect than it usually does on me!?
yes, those Post-it cubes...just so you know, that is what i used for MANY years at the job i was previously at...when i didn't log into DD during work, i was using that post it cube every day to write down also!...later logging onto DD with maybe just calories or a summation...
frozen whole cherries sounds delish.
do you still have evening decaf coffees or are you bored with that?
Very conflicted about this.
OMG post its kept my life together when I was working in an office at a university. I loved when there were no more post its stuck around the outside of my computer screen!
Frankly, I'm ready to eject this whole year. I don't know if I've every felt that way about a year before, even during tough times.
I want to write this now, to get this off my chest, so that hopefully I can sleep better tonight and won't dread going into the office tomorrow.
My boss made a significant mistake last week, and it came to light late Friday afternoon. I followed up on it today, and the clients didn't get their way. The husband called and spoke to me - because, of course, my boss is out of the office (I'll explain) - and the husband said he was so upset with us because we didn't address his concern properly that he's probably going to fire us. Yes, I think he should fire us. I would fire us. But there was nothing I could do, other than to take a message for my boss.
(BTW, firing us isn't going to fix the problem, but I would still fire us.)
I then went to Mistakes Girl and Male Co-Worker and asked them to stop working on anything on these deals (it's a sell/buy on the same day), because we're probably going to get fired. So at least we're not wasting any money nor any more of our time on these people.
I was very upset when this error came to light on Friday afternoon, at my boss. In a way, I feel somewhat responsible because I did not highlight (with a marker) EXACTLY what needed to be addressed in the attorney negotiation letters. However, I'm really mad at my boss for not reading what the clients are requesting in the emails. He's in such a freakin' hurry to write his letters so that he can surf on the computer or go chat with anyone who has time to listen to him...
So, like Monday, I start highlighting things in emails, so that my boss can clearly see what needs to be in his letters. Nice Lady makes a semi-snide remark, "Now we're highlighting things?" And I said, "Yes, I have to highlight things or they will get missed. (Gesturing at my boss' office) This is where we're at." and she seemed to accept that, and agree by saying, "That's where we're at."
My boss was not in the office this afternoon, to speak to the very upset client, because he had a follow-up stress test at the hospital to see if he has another blockage somewhere. This is a result of his ER visit last week. He didn't feel like coming back to the office afterwards, and heck, I don't blame him, but on the other hand, then why am I left talking to these people who are really upset?
So now, not only do I feel angry, but I also feel sad and very guilty for being angry with someone who isn't feeling well.
Despite all of these negative feelings of anger, frustration, sadness, helplessness, guilt & shame, I have managed not to eat everything in the house. I suspect that cheese would make all of this go away.... but I know that it won't.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
That's the thing about working in this field. There's not much room for mistakes... and real estate is one of the more forgiving fields in the legal world.
Concerning the "fire your firm" situation of the client, i'm reading now about negotiation...and one important thing i'd say involving "disputes" is creativity and an openness to look for how both sides could still make out well....?....it's developing an emotionally sound reaction to problems so that you can logically see if there's a way to mitigate without causing a total dissolvement of a relationship with a client? i'm sure you try this already with many clients...to create a feeling of a "win win" situation where both your company and the clients ending up fairing well...
OK - i've read your entry to the end now: you cannot feel guilty because you are doing your job as well as YOU CAN. that is it....
you can only do your very best. if you've done that, you need to seek solace and comfort in yourself from the fact you are working your best.
in terms of the upset clients, possibly repeat the fact that you understand their feelings / situation that is causing them to be upset and that you will do everything you can to make sure your boss is aware and deals with the matter at his earliest convenience. you can, i think?, just try to give these clients an ear, try not to interrupt them if they are upset on the phone, try to be comforting and understanding and on their side, per se....that's just my opinion, i'm not exactly sure how it would work out, but that's my feeling.
A quick entry this morning. Yesterday I wrote down what I ate, and found that I'm eating way too much salad dressing. I'm not counting the calories, per se, but just writing down what I eat. In a way, it keeps me accountable, knowing that I'll have to write it down.
Another thing I noticed is that when I eat at work, I'm very aware of what I'm eating. When I eat at home, for dinner, I don't give it much thought, which leads to overeating, e.g. salad dressing. I found myself reaching for that square of dark chocolate without giving it a second thought. Then I realized, Oh, I need to write this down.
Had trouble drinking enough water yesterday.
Sunday was back weight training. Last night was legs. I thought I'd wake up to some serious soreness, but it turns out, no pain at all. I find it helpful to do 4-5 different exercises. That seems to bring a nice feeling of fatigue to the muscles. This is also helpful, I think, for sleeping well, although I did wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom and to show Old Kitty the new location of her litter box. She figured it out; she's such a smart kitty.
(Recap: I have 3 cats: Old Kitty, Good Boy, and Baby/Sick Kitty.)
I stayed a little later at work last night and missed my daughter at dinner time. I left around 5:45p. UGH.
Progress as of today: 42 lbs lost so far, only 9.5 lbs to go!
Of course, being retired means I've got plenty of time to do this.
What kind of salad dressing do you use? I use a fat free Italian that's 7 cals per Tbsp.
Funny story - when we took my sister to France in 2006 she kept asking the waiters for Ranch and they had no idea what she wanted. She thought Ranch was universal.
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Promotion cake? Sounds good! Send me a piece, ok?
grannyannie on 10/28/2020:
Good for you resisting having more cake. You're stronger than me.
It can be stressful having a new person in the office and having to train them.
I post my stuff here early in the morning so I feel obligated to do what I say I will.
Good point about posting in advance to feel obligated later!!!
legcramps on 10/28/2020:
I take iron supplements as well; one week on and one week off. I haven't had any trouble with constipation, but my fiber intake might be pretty good right now and that might be helping.
I understand about feeling stressed having to train new people; i've been there too! It's even more difficult when you don't have the same working style.
I never considered taking the iron one week on, one week off! I'm going to consider that. At least I won't feel too guilty if I miss a day.
Horn_of_plenty on 10/29/2020:
Change is certainly hard at the workplace and especially with integrating new people. it's so sad when they don't last! !!! (i've seen it time and time again thru my last 9 year "tenure" position at my last job).
that being said, it will help for you to realize that it's not easy, but, some of the stress you are undoubtably feeling is your empathy for the guy that should be stressing most - new guy. try not to take in all his stress, if you can....
like Jacky said, "promotion cake" sounds so good...does eating it give me a promotion too!?
Horn_of_plenty on 10/29/2020:
i wonder if you can take something to combat the iron supps...like probiotics? (capsules).