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Donkey - Monday Aug 19, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Yoga Disaster Afterthoughts: 

The yoga studio is 2 doors down from this really good Mexican restaurant.  I hadn't had lunch before class, because yoga on a full stomach is not a wise choice.  Oh my word, after leaving the studio, as the cool air hit my brain --- so did the wonderful aroma of tortillas, salsa, Mexican spices.   Oh my....

(I mentioned this in my comments)  One of the first things the yoga instructor said was, "Yoga is not a workOUT, it is a work-IN".  Trust me when I say:  THIS WAS A WORKOUT.

Today was a bit stressful at work.  Again, people not showing up to work, phones start ringing, etc.

You know, it's OK if my boss wants to start pulling back a little bit and not being at the office as much, but then he needs to set boundaries, because otherwise I get stuck doing twice as much work, sending out extension requests on deadlines, because he isn't in the office.

He's not admitting to anyone -- in fact, I've heard him deny that he's pulling back.  But truth be told, he's just not here as much as I need him to be.  Well, I guess I'll just keep on extending out deadlines, asking for more time.

Got marvellous sleep last night.  Wasn't too sore from yoga, although I did feel some aches in my neck and my left hamstring and my right hip flexor.  I'm going to try to use my new weight bench tonight, but if I don't get to it, then tomorrow night might be a better option.  We'll see.


Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/19/2019:
You sound like you are having fun...I love your stories!!!

happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
Ha!!!!!!! I’ve actually made this mistake myself... and I am so glad that I am not the only one to do that. I hope you rated the instructor as “two farts up”.

Probiotics, greek yogurt, and kale/broccoli will also add to the general atmosphere of the class.

I had to find the Mad TV Sunrise Yoga class clip for you... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=y_1NajgvvaY

happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
We’re not alone!!! https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/why-yoga-fart

happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
You know what... I just reread your post and realized I totally thought you did what I did and went for a big old bean burrito before class like who-not-me-not-ever did. Nevermind...

happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
Gah, just reread my own comment and realized I wrote that wrong... sigh...

grannyannie on 08/20/2019:
Yea, eating before yoga would be awful for digestion, not to mention calories. I learned the hard way not to eat before a massage.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/20/2019:
i'm guessing things at work will stay as per this new status quo unless your boss miraculously feels better :(

i'm glad you aren't too sore from yoga and mexican does smell nice!

i'll be using my weight bench tonight also :)

Donkey - Sunday Aug 18, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

(I thought that my free yoga class deserved its own entry, even if it's still Sunday...)

Donkey Yoga Adventures, Chapter 1 

Have you ever gotten yourself into something and then realized, I do not belong here -- whether it's the deep end of the pool or a really bad movie or the wrong gender restroom -- have you had that happen?

I got to the yoga studio early, like they said to do, and the door was locked!  Oh my word, I almost left right then and there.  But no no no -- we're going to give this a fair shot.  So I stayed in my car until I saw someone come and unlock the door.  Went in.
Very pretty studio, but very disorganized.  No sign-in sheet, oh wait yes just sign in here. Oh wait, you're new? then fill this out instead. "I didn't bring my own mat, can I still participate?"  Yes, we have mats over there, but not the pilates mats.  (How the heck do I know which mats are for pilates and which are for yoga?  They all look like mats to me!  It was at this point where I almost put down my clipboard and wanted to say, "I don't think I can do this now" and walk out.  If I had the courage to maintain BOUNDARIES, that is exactly what I would have done, but Donkey is a chicken butt, so here we go...
Found an area WAAAAY in back, next to the wall, which is actually a wall of mirrors, with a ballet bar.  Thank goodness for that bar - I used it a few times to prevent myself from crashing into the mirrors., especially towards the end when we were doing one-legged positions and then HOLDING them for a  minute.
So we get started and right away, I can tell that this is not a relaxation yoga class but one of those where you move, move, MOVE!  It was taught by a "trainee" who is actually a polished instructor, but just wants to take it to the next level -- and dragged this poor ol' Donkey butt with her...
Almost everyone there was either already a member or a yoga teacher.  I think the girl next to me was maybe a newbie, but she was a lot younger -- and flexible -- than me.  But Donkey endeavors to give it her best.  I sweated, I twisted, I held positions, breathed, stretched, balanced (well, sort of...), I moved, moved, MOVED - over and over again.  This was NOT a beginner's class by any means.  I'm used to a slower, more meditative, relaxing style.  It was like going from Math 101 into Advanced Calculus - like walking at lunchtime to running the Boston Marathon.  
So I'm trying to keep up with the moves - thank you to people in front of me who know what they are doing so that I could tell what we're supposed to be doing, because I couldn't hear the instructor's voice over the guy singing in the music - and trying to avoid being caught in the video tape or pictures being taken by the instructor's husband and studio owner -- just praying it's over soon.  Look at my watch, we're 10 minutes into it -- But I held on!!!
I was so glad at the end to just lie there and breathe, but afterwards, no instruction on where to clean your mat, where to put stuff away.  I was so shaky and dazed and warm (no AC, apparently) that I just needed to get out of there and into the cool breeze and breathe and sit.

I'm SO glad I did not bring my daughter with me.  At least I have a minimal knowledge of yoga, but she would have been lost.  Hey, let me tell you, if you don't know what a downward dog position is, in this class you'd be SO lost.  So at least I knew that, but I do not think that my daughter knows any yoga.  Plus, I am already feeling my muscles ache and tighten up.  I am glad that I did not subjugate her to embarrassment or achy muscles.  I would have felt awful.  So at least I had a happy feeling about that --- which, I'm not exactly sure is the intent of the instructor or studio owner.  Glad that you DIDN'T bring someone along?

So I'm left with the following thoughts:
  • How on earth does Donkey keep getting her into these kinds of situations?
  • After looking in the mirrored wall, why didn't anyone tell Donkey how huge and thick her legs are????  Yikes those things are like the trunks of an oak tree!
  • Will Donkey go to any more of the free yoga classes at this studio (LOL)? (There are 5 more free classes, with 3 of them in September, and 2 in October)


Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/18/2019:
OH MY!!!! You had me laughing!!! Great story telling..it was as if I was there messing up right along with you!! Hope you aren't too sore tomorrow......but you got a good workout !!

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
Thank you - Yes, I was the disaster Donkey in the back corner. It was a good workout.

Which reminds me, first thing the instructor said: "Yoga is not a work-OUT, it's a work-IN." Um..., no sweetie, this was a workout. Trust me...

happy-1 on 08/18/2019:
Yech. Try another studio until you find one that feels like home. It took me like 20 studios on classpass till I found a couple of comfy ones.

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
I think so... the owner was nice. Also, i think now that I know what to expect, the next time - if there is a next time - would be a much smoother experience.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/18/2019:
you are def quite a story teller today! i also laughed quite a bit reading this!

I still think it's wonderful that you tried the class and stayed. i KNOW that your legs look a lot better than you are describing them!

also, the class does sound hard. it's ok to check things out and see if it's for you. even if it was hard for your daughter, she'd have it as a learning experience i'd say.

i miss the days of HOT YOGA when i used to do it. now i do not have time for that, really. it was challenging and many of the poses were also for 1 minute.

i'm glad you did it. you'll have to let us know if you do end up getting sore from the class or not.

after this class, maybe take a couple days to see if it's worth going back. it's sorta nice that they are free. nicer if they benefit you. i do think that there's so many types of yoga/teachers/studios.

also, you can figure you the style of yoga you like and see if any nearby studios have that type....

i'm glad you went!

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
I'm glad I went too, as difficult as it was. I need things like this in my life to keep me on my toes!

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
This was not Hot Yoga - to anyone but Donkey. I cannot imagine people actually WANTING a hotter yoga experience. I was dyin'!

innerpeace on 08/19/2019:
Sounds pretty much like my experiences. I was in a class where more experienced people attended and they let me know it...I was slowing down the class when the instructor took a few extra seconds to put me in the right position. It was horrible, the under their breath comments and whispers. "oh she's new" "they should have a beginners class" stupid comments like that. OH HELLO, it was a free introductory class!! Not to mention it was so crowded we were basically one on top of another...so not a pleasant experience to even something I want to try again.

But please go and do your free classes, you might like it better especially if you know more of what to expect.

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
I'm going to see what kind of yoga is with the next "free class" offering in September. Now I know enough to ask "what type of yoga will be offered?" instead of going in blindly.

happy-1 on 08/19/2019:
You know, if you are that thick in the butt and legs... should you be using those to your advantage? like jiu jitsu instead? at least that way instead of lamenting your butt you can view it as a lethal weapon...

Donkey - Sunday Aug 18, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Oh how much I appreciate my weekend mornings!  I didn't realize it until I compared this morning with yesterday's morning (with legal clinic).  I love doing the legal clinic, but I confess that it does make my weekends feel shorter.

So today is a typical Sunday morning - with the exception of doing laundry today instead of yesterday - EXCEPT that .... a local yoga studio is offering a free yoga class today at noon, and I want to go, but it's really scary for me to do this.  My daughter had to work today or I would drag her with me.  As this is regular yoga, this is not something that my husband can do with me.  I have no one else to call on to go with me.....  and actually, that's OK because **IF** I do this---- like with the Cat Yoga --- it's something I want to do by myself, for myself.

It's funny that I write this, because this is the yoga studio I intend to join eventually.  They are offering 6-7 free classes, taught by yogi trainees (so folks training to be certified yoga instructors) about once or twice a month.  Today is the first one.  

So you KNOW I will be agonizing over this, all morning.  

MORNING EDIT:  So I just learned that the Catholic yoga at my church is now going to be a regular thing -- Tuesay and Thursday MORNINGS.  So that is no longer an option for me, whether or not I was going to try to attend it again.

I did a little more poking around and learned that the form of yoga for today's free class might be too advanced for me.  I also should arrive early to fill out paperwork, since I'm not already a member.  Neither of those bits of information are encouraging, lol.  IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS STRESSFUL!


This week's goals:

  • Mindful eating:  portions & selections.
  • Sleep:  aiming for that 7 hours a night again.
  • Weight training:  start using my new bench!  Do I want to start this week, or wait for the beginning of a new month?  Hmm...
  • Water intake (100 ounces) & step goals (FitBit) remain ongoing.

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/18/2019:
I keep thinking of started yoga lessons. Good goals for the week.

Donkey on 08/19/2019:
Do your research! Pick a beginners' class, even though you are already in good shape.

Maria7 on 08/18/2019:
Good goals...You will know when you want to start using your new bench..enjoy!

BearCountryGG on 08/18/2019:
Great goals!!!

happy-1 on 08/18/2019:
You deserve something that is all for you and only you!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/18/2019:
your goals are good and i like how you are looking for something "to do by yourself" as it's very healthy of you to do!

it's nice to have your own passions and hobbies and now that you hubby cannot do certain things with you, it's important you challenge yourself still!

Donkey - Saturday Aug 17, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Crazy day... Friday was crazy at work.  It would help if co-workers would actually show up for work.  Way too many people taking time off lately, and nobody seems to care.

Today was legal clinic, so no time to post in the morning.  Left  my cell phone at home and while I missed having it - may have been able to post here from the clinic in between clients -- it was actually kind of nice to be free of it.

Came home and found my weight bench put together!  Oh my is it so much nicer than the very old, basic bench I have.  I am looking forward to using it!

I did not weigh in this morning.  I had already gotten dressed for my morning workout when I remembered.  I said to myself, "I don't have time to play scale games today" and went downstairs to start my bike ride. 

Recap on this past week's goals:

  • Mindful portion control on proteins. Ate more mindfully but not specifically on proteins, more on portions.
  • Drink more water!  (I've been slipping on this; my goal is 100 ounces a day.  Unless I use one or 2 of those flavor packets with artificial sweetener, it's hard to meet this goal.)  Did better but did not succeed every day
  • Weigh-in on Saturday.  Did not do.
  • Concerted effort to get at least 7 hours of sleep.  There were a couple of nights that I fell short of this goal, but a few nights, I got some really good sleep, for more than 7 hours!


Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/17/2019:
Portion control is tough at first...but luckily it does get easier....I'm one of those that belong to the clean plate club....had to retrain myself....

Donkey on 08/18/2019:
I too have a membership to the Clean Plate Club. It was really ingrained into my head as a child not to waste food. And I agree -- wasting food is not a good thing, especially if it's meat.

I'm going to keep trying.

grannyannie on 08/18/2019:
I depend on my food scale as I don't trust my judgement as to portion sizes. Nice that your new bench is ready for you!

Donkey on 08/18/2019:
THIS is fabulous advice. I need a food scale, I think.

"Dear Santa..."

Horn_of_plenty on 08/18/2019:
you did good this morning! i left my phone home recently too and it was not the worst thing in the world, thankfully.

good for you on going to the legal clinic and doing something extremely constructive on the weekend. i applaud you because i know it's a personal commitment and your choice and i think it's great to be able to do something more with yourself and lend your talents/skills to this group!

congrats on the weight bench! you will be happy! i should have bought the weight bench that holds the ankles/feet for situps...i totally wish i had bought that one! for now though, i get my feet under my couch and it holds them just fine...

100 ounces of water may not be necessary for you. remember it's just a cool sounding number. if you eat fruit / veggies with water, that adds in too. when i visited my naturally thin (thinner than me) friend in Paris this year, she drank/ate very little throughout the day until a main meal for dinner!!!! she didn't like to be inconvienced by needing the bathroom all day (her schedule is very much on the go for work and travels a bit - plus she has use of only one hand so it can be understand why she would want to simplify certain things). what i mean is, i'm not saying to be like her (i personally don't like her style of really just one main meal a day), but i'm saying humans have lived a long time without exactly 100 ounces and that you will be ok....also, she would drinks LOTS of tea at home in evening since she wouldn't be going anywhere and could use the bathroom easily at home LOL.

I also am working more on sleep lately ...my plans are bigger and have to wake up early for them lately...so today i was grateful to sleep in a bit / go to bed early last night.

i feel i def have better workouts when i recover more with the extra sleep.. for my body, i think 8 hours per night is best. like you, i do like more than 7 hours.

Donkey on 08/18/2019:
That's very interesting about your Paris friend. More like the "One Meal A Day" (OMAD) philosophy. I watched a show on PBS - wow, I wish I remembered the name of it - that addressed food, weight, cultures, etc. OMAD seemed to be the most effective in weight loss and health benefits.

It wasn't really OMAD, but 2 very light snacks, and then just one meal. So snack 1 might be a small apple and a hard boiled egg. Snack 2 might be a small garden salad and an ounce of cheese. Then the Meal would be a real meal, with say, a piece of dark chocolate for dessert.

I am going to keep working on sleep as a specific goal this week.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/18/2019:
That was what she ate!!! she started the day with an orange and sometimes tea if she had a longer morning at home. and days she was extra hungry, she also inluded the egg. and this was her style of eating!

her bigger meal would be full and balanced.

happy-1 on 08/18/2019:
I like your goal recap. Maybe I should do that.

Donkey - Thursday Aug 15, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Lights out before 9p last night.  Woke up twice during the night,  but forced myself to just go back to sleep for more glorious rest,  and it worked. 

Chair Yoga 2 was good.  Turns out,  one of the guys who goes to Regular Chair Yoga also goes to this yoga.  Says he's been going for over a year!  That really helped husband feel better.  Otherwise,  he would have been the only guy there. 

The yogi is a movement therapist,  which I really liked.  She teaches folks how to do movements correctly:  posture,  how to get up off a chair correctly --- body mechanics.  I loved that! 

There were a lot of neck exercises that husband couldn't do because he can't turn his head any more.  Still,  he said he'd go on his own if I couldn't go with him.  I liked it - and enjoyed having the afternoon off from work! - but I don't know that I can do that every month. 

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/15/2019:
Nothing like a good sleep! I've thought about getting a yoga instructor. I'm very flexible but do not have good balance. I'm sure it would help.

legcramps on 08/15/2019:
Oh, I love that your yoga teacher is a movement therapist! I love picking their brains! And I think movement pattern is SO SO important for daily moving!!

BearCountryGG on 08/15/2019:
I slept like a log last night too.......it makes the day go by so much nicer!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/15/2019:
i'm glad you enjoyed chair yoga. sounds good for everyone.

also good to get some sleep....i'm currently looking for that!

Maria7 on 08/16/2019:
Always good to know how to move without injuring one's self. I know you are happy your Hubby going to this. Hope you have a wonderful day.

Maria7 on 08/17/2019:
Hoping you have been having a good day today.

Donkey - Tuesday Aug 13, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Today was a stressful day at work.  In fact, I had almost forgot that I was leaving at 4pm today to take New Kitty to the vet.  I found myself getting so stressed out with one file because the other party (not our client) wanted the repair AND a credit for the repair.  Well, that's not how it works.  You either get the repair done or you get a credit instead of the repair so that it can be done once you own the property.  Not both.  I felt that I was disproportionately honked off about this.  It didn't help that it was before lunch.  Also, I think I'm having some emotional sensitivity due to hormones, but not TOM.

See - this type of situation is what I'm talking about, when I refer to the desire to be more mindful at all times (working, eating, etc.).  Instead of getting caught up emotionally, I should have stepped away and taken a break -- take a walk, get a drink, eat lunch, go visit a co-worker.  Anything but get more honked off!

If I could just catch myself before I get consumed by these dark forces.....

Took New Kitty to the vet and they doctor said we are doing the right things.  There a few more options than we could be doing, but we're not ready to have a litter box on the main floor of the house yet, and not ready to try drugs.  The doctor could not get a urine sample for the UTI, so we might try again next Wednesday.  However, we have changed our routine in the morning, so that New Kitty is not so stressed out by Daughter getting ready for work in the mornings (she has a new schedule).  And so far, for a few days anyway, it has worked out well.  Right now, she is curled up on my lap taking a nap.  I swear that she looks like she's smiling.

Thanks to your comments about the weight bench, I realized that what I want it for - leg curls and leg extensions - in addition to what I've been doing before, is almost done.  Like 95% done.  The last part that's taking a while is a squat rack, but I don't need that right now because I do not have a weighted bar.  So maybe this weekend I can work on getting the leg extension part finished.  The rest of the "bells and whistles" can wait.  That might be our happy ending for now, and that's OK.


Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 08/14/2019:
Happy that you got your weight bench done to where you can use it...yes, bells and whistles can always be done later as needed... Good plan to take a break when the stress begins building...a coffee, a walk, or simply enjoying outside nature for a few minutes or even talking with a friend...are all good distractions from stress...Hoping you have a good day today...

grannyannie on 08/14/2019:
Work stress is awful! Do you ever use ankle weights? They make a huge difference when focusing on thighs and bum.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/14/2019:
agree with the above. and you are starting to catch yourself and try more to not be consumed. at least you can see it where it's happening and where you can help yourself..

good idea on weight bench. at least you can start using it. sounds like me when i was getting my fitness equipment, it wasn't all right away but in bits and pieces.

Donkey - Monday Aug 12, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Had a very unsettling dream about work that woke me up at 4:15a.  I could have gone back to sleep but decided to get up.  I did not want to risk going back into the dream,  and once I figured out it was Monday,  I just decided to get my day started.   Maybe I can go to bed early,  which would be great. 

Woke up somewhat dehydrated, although it was nice not to wake up needing to use the bathroom.  Hopefully this will help me drink more water today. 

Husband and daughter spent about 1.5 hours trying to put together the weight bench.  Out of 14 steps,  they finished at #7.  My daughter came up to tell me how difficult this was for my husband, physically.  Oh dear...  I'm not sure what to do, if there's anything I can do to get him to turn himself around.  I know he has an appointment with the rheumatologist this month,  and this time I'm going with him. Not that this doctor is involved with his weight, just the AS (arthritis).  She is very clear on boundaries,  as to what she will treat and what she will not. 

Trying a new approach this morning with kitty.  If it doesn't work,  at least I will have the extra time to clean up any mess. 

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/12/2019:
Sorry your hubby is having issues.

I keep a glass of water next to my bed and when I get up to pee, take a few sips.

Donkey on 08/13/2019:
I was too lazy to get up and get more water!

legcramps on 08/12/2019:
That weight bench sounds like a lot of work! Would hubby consider seeing a dietitian or nutritionist? Even a healthy living coach?

Donkey on 08/13/2019:
I think the main issue is that he didn't want to work on it alone. So I bear some fault in this as well.

Frankly, I do not think my husband would seek help or counseling. I'm not sure what would work. I know that when my son was at home, they would go to the gym together - most of the time, which is OK.

Exercise is great, and he needs to do more of it, but mostly for him, it's pretty much about the diet. His inflammation could be improved by eating differently/better, but even that is not enough to inspire him to change his ways.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/12/2019:
i was also dreaming last night.

so your weight bench is 50% done...it's getting there!

interesting how the dr is clear on boundaries...makes sense i guess bc AS is related to so many other things?

good luck with Kitty...i am sure eventually things will work out right...

Donkey on 08/13/2019:
It's getting there! I can use it for almost everything that I wanted it for... Hmm... maybe it doesn't have to be finished completely - just enough for what I wanted it for in the first place.

A lot of AS patients have other issues, namely pain management, which she does not do. That is an entirely different area of medicine altogether. I do appreciate that she has these boundaries, actually.

We love kitty so much. We will find a way to help her live with us. She came from a house that "had too many cats". If it was a hoarder or collector situation, then these behaviors might not have been "bad" at her old house, when she was a kitten.

Maria7 on 08/12/2019:
Wow, that weight bench sounds like it is complicated to put together...maybe you could pitch in? Even if it is your bd present...I would...so I'd have my weight bench put together...but it is up to you...Smile. I know you will be happy when it is done. Have a good day.

Donkey on 08/13/2019:
You are 100% correct: I need to put on my big girl pants and pitch in. I think that might be a nice project for Sunday afternoon together, if he and daughter do not finish on Saturday.

BearCountryGG on 08/12/2019:
If your hubby is anything like mine...the minute I make a suggestion...you can actully see his wall going up...and kind of deflecting anything I say...a defense mechanisim I guess.....but If I casually mention something...but not specifically about him...he is more receptive..

Donkey on 08/13/2019:
LOL!!!! Right??? I absolutely have to find the right way to approach certain tasks or either resistance or rebellion take over.

I won't press the bench issue much further. I'm almost at where I need it to be for my workouts anyway.

Donkey - Sunday Aug 11, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

I've replied to your comments on my last entry -- you have been extremely helpful in giving me "food for thought".

I feel that I need to work on portion control on foods - other than vegetables.  I have not given consideration to moderating my consumption of protein, but this is something I would like to do, and that I think would be beneficial for my overall well-being.  I had a conversation at dinner last night, asking my husband to start preparing less meat for dinners.  A lot of the meat I eat is to get rid of leftovers.  

I do need to weigh in regularly to make sure that I'm truly maintaining.  It doesn't have to be every week, but it should be regularly, at least for a little bit longer.  

Maria had mentioned something about establishing healthy habits as key to maintaining.  I agree 100%, but why is it easier to maintain a habit of drinking enough water, but much, MUCH harder to maintain a push-ups/sit-ups habit --- even after establishing for 2 months!  Taking a week off, I can tell already that it will be a struggle to get back on track.

Goals for this week: 

  • Mindful portion control on proteins.
  • Drink more water!  (I've been slipping on this; my goal is 100 ounces a day.  Unless I use one or 2 of those flavor packets with artificial sweetener, it's hard to meet this goal.)
  • Weigh-in on Saturday.
  • Concerted effort to get at least 7 hours of sleep.

This week is our first session of "Chair Yoga and Mindfulness" on Wednesday. I am looking forward to this with the husband.  

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 08/11/2019:
Good goals!

BearCountryGG on 08/11/2019:
100 ounces of water a day is a lot of water....I don't think I could do that.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/12/2019:
you know, one of the reasons i keep my weights routine as steady as i can is because i know just how hard it feels to have to struggle to get back to the level i am at! (and i have had to do that struggle quite a few times already - after sickness/vacations/prolonged time off)

if your hubby prepares extra meat, can you freeze it?

Great goals for this week. some people say that the water goals are overrated - like if you are having soup/other drinks/veggies with lots of water in them - ? that is something i have heard recently.

i reallly love your sleep goal. it is mine, too. i will try hard to stick with a good sleep schedule this week. since it's important for me if i want to "feel good" on Friday.

i am looking forward to hearing how your Chair Yoga goes!

Donkey - Saturday Aug 10, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

Amen for weekends!  How nice it was to sit down at my laptop and visit with you all on this nice leisurely morning.  No kitty issues this morning, and she used her litter box properly over the course of the night.  I'm pretty sure that this is a behavioral problem, but kitty has a vet appointment on Tuesday just to be sure.

All of the plastic has been cleared off the couch, and my husband started putting the weight bench together.  He didn't get very far, but he started. He claims it's a 2-person job, but daughter is never around to help him.  I'd rather not put together my own birthday present, but maybe I'm being a baby about it.

Last night, I was feeling a little anxious/sad/lonely... and maybe a little hungry?  IDK, but I had a few spoons of peanut butter - out of the jar nonetheless - until I had had enough.  At first, I was wondering if I should feel guilty about that, but then I realized that with the keto diet, I did exactly what I'm supposed to do:  limit your carbs, meet your proteins, use fat to meet your saitety.  When I was full, I stopped.  Woke up feeling OK - not gross like after a binge or bloated or any of that.  Had a great bike ride this morning, too.

Losing weight was OK (not easy per se, but OK) once I got started and stuck with it.  This maintenance thing is HARD.  What do I eat?  How much do I eat?  

I've recently been plagued with thoughts that run along the lines of:  What if I did everything I could do to lose/maintain and found out I was actually gaining weight and unable to stop?  

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 08/10/2019:
Yes, I agree with you...losing weight to goal weight is one thing, but maintenance is a 'horse of a different color'... It is easy to become complacent in maintaining and get back into old habits, which we can't allow ourselves to do. (Not talking about your little peanut butter last nite..) We have to stay constantly vigilant lest we regain and lose what we worked so hard to achieve...There are no rights or wrongs, as each of us is different and we know what works best for ourselves... But for me, it is simply about forming new habits to replace the old habits and sticking with the new, healthier habits...just sayin'...

Donkey on 08/11/2019:
Funny you mention that about habits, because some stick with me and some don't.

For example, that push-up and sit-up habit -- not a problem letting that one go.

Portion control and limited servings --- oh the STRUGGLE!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/11/2019:
yep, sounds you are going to have to help hubby put the weight bench together!!! lol. they aren't really hard to put together, they aren't so many pieces, but they are usually quite heavy and awkward. don't feel bad at writing how it's not done yet - when i moved from gym to home workouts, some things took over a month to get set up...and it took me several months to organize the whole thing, and be happy with my at home set up! like, it took me from mid summer to mid fall to be satisfied and set up completely...some pieces of equip i even had to purchase and return bc i wasn't happy with the weights of the weighted bars, etc. lots of guess and test...and waiting for Ricky to help me put everything together.

You are smart and good at managing yourself. Maintaining is hard you are right. for me, i have a TON of tactics to help me. you know them - seltzers, lots of veggies at least at one meal usually a day, good amounts of fruit, iced coffee, stevia...list goes on further. find your tactics. you know some - your raw veggies you like to have at work. there are so many choices. have you tried raw fenel??? not sure you like the flavor, but it's a good change of pace from celery!

but maintainence, like maria mentioned above, is different. instead of being happy with the scale only - you have to definitely be happy with YOURSELF! instead of eating less to make the scale lower, you have to keep that eating less calories to keep where you are at. but its true - the body is everchanging - and part of maintenance is learning how to moderate tings and live a normal life where maintenance fits in.

as i have maintained, i have had times of weight loss and DEF weight gain...increasing cardio was always the easiest way to increase my calorie burn. but with injuries, i cannot even do that so easily anymore, and i more have to work at food choices.

this is one of the first summers in several years where i haven't lost weight "easily" and it's more of a maintaining summer for me.

really, what i want to say is, we (me, you, all the maintainers) def have to be ready for change (most of us - expcept for the few people that prefer extreme routine eating same thing all the time) and variety and learn how to work them in.

i have an example - Ricky. he is able to limit his servings of sweets and the size. he eats sweets often, so it's nothing new to him. he'll buy a huge slice of cake, but break it into just smaller few bites each night.

when you order a slice of cake at the diner after dinner, you can eat just a part and bring the rest of home to freeze. you can order a decaf coffee (low cals!) to drink with it if you want to feel full.

many times, i use a drink with higher calorie food to slow myself down and learn how to have less.

with us, we both have to learn how to stick with the idea that the first bite tastes best and it's only with us while we taste it in our mouths....and if we can limit the number of bites, we are more well off.

another tip i'd like to mention - proteins. i actually learned this style of eating from my former very thin friend. she was mostly a carb eater...ordering chicken fried rice as a meal. she'd eat mostly the rice and just a little chicken. but thinking about it over many years of knowing her - it sorta makes sense. we don't need huge amounts of protein (not even on keto), and eating large portions of protein has become to me a waste of calories. i do not eat large portions, at all, of protein except once in awhile. i make sure to have some at most meals,but, more importantly FOR ME is to have plenty of veggies, some carbs because i personally am not able to do keto, and a little protein. def my servings are more typically not bigger than a deck of cards for beef. for chicken sometimes a hair bigger. when i make my turkey burgers,i usually cut them in half and it's enough unless i'm craving protein....

the above paragraph is how i have worked to shave a few calories off.

if i have a hot dog, it's typically the whole thing lol, but proteins that i eat a lot of and often, it's easier to limit. especialyl when i'm freezing portions, i try to keep them on the smaller side for protein.

Donkey on 08/11/2019:
That's very interesting about smaller protein portions. I do not know why I feel compelled to have large servings of protein - especially if it's not meat.

I'm going to have to think about that.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/11/2019:
the last thing that is bothering you that you wrote about is negative thoughts that i recommend you kick to the curb. it's stemming from maybe not believing you are capable. but you fully are. unlike your hubby, you know how extra weight is also unhealthy to being able to move your body...it's harder to exercise with excess weight as well. it's more important to you than many people to keep it off. keep working on it. try to shave some calories here and there. and come up with little things that help you.

at work, i drink tons of water, and some herbal teas after having a littlle fruit if i'm actually feeling low energy / and that is my snack 2-3 hours after lunch most days...but after the fruit, it's more water, more herbal teas. and when i have almonds now, i have 100 cal servings (half the serving size) and stretch it...

Donkey on 08/11/2019:
One thing I HATE about clients is when they start spinning the "what ifs". A **LOT** of wasted time and energy spent on that.

I think I just answered my own question - LOL

Donkey - Friday Aug 09, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 136.0

 I do not need all this stress before I go to work.  Son is struggling,  daughter is driving into the city tonight for a concert,  and new kitty is having litter box issues again.   Turns out,  nobody took her to the vet the last time she had problems! Hopefully this time my husband will get off his fat butt and do something. 

I'm still waiting for my weight bench to be put together.  Parts are wrapped in plastic on the sofa in the basement.  The cat is peeing on the plastic. WTF. I don't have TIME in the morning to be dealing with this $#!*.

So after it happened this morning,  I got off my bike to do some quick cleaning,  and lost my workout stats on the bike,  because it times out after a minute or so.  Grrr!!! Don't mess with my morning workouts!!!!

Husband has gained a lot of weight.  Really noticed it last night.  There's no talking to him about it.  He has enough difficulty moving around with his disease, much less with ask this extra weight.  

And now I get to go to work and deal with all that crap!!!

Progress as of today: 50.5 lbs lost so far, only -0.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 08/09/2019:
Hang in there, Sister...At least today's Friday and you have the weekend ahead...Our kids will always have their struggles, just as we do, too. As for kitty...can she be an outside cat where you live? Our three are outside cats and do well outside here at home. As for Husbands, ha...We, as their wives, want the best for them in every way but there is only so much we can do concerning that and the same with them to us...So, we accept reality and hope and pray for the best for them and for us and our kids and everyone else, too. As for the weight bench, you know, Sister, we have to remind them about these things...sometimes more than one time...(don't give up!)...Sorry about losing your bike workout data, I know that was disappointing...Hoping you day at work goes well and you have a pleasant, relaxing weekend...Try your best to let go of the stress. Hugs to you and wishing you a good day.

Donkey on 08/10/2019:
You're right about kids. It's just hard to hear it, especially when son is far away. But I think in the past, I've tried to do too much when he was having problems. Growth comes from the struggle. He'll make it somehow; you are right.

I actually ended up having a pretty good day in the end after all.

BearCountryGG on 08/09/2019:
YUP...What Maria said....

Donkey on 08/10/2019:

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/09/2019:
awwwww Donkey!

first, i'd like to know more about your son...it's NOT going to be easy for him. but if he can just stick with it, and remain well behaved, he'll make it. try to talk this into him. it's not easy i am positive of it! but, it's a well paying career!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry about your new kitty seems this kitty is particularly finicky and difficult.

sorry to hear about your husband also. it's too bad he isn't concerned with his health as you are. some people just continue to hurt themselves which is rather sad. similar to my friend R who smokes...every time he's just pushing the limits he no longer has.

with hubby, perhaps do not purchase or purchase limited amounts of what he eats or perhaps tell him he should eat what you eat.

but if your hubby won't listen, i guess you should just ...let it be...if that's really how it's going to be,very unfortunately.

other than that, your kids will have struggles at times as they are just beginning life. try to get your son to stay engaged.

and as for you, you are doing very well!! we are always encouraged by you!

Donkey on 08/10/2019:
Yesterday, it just seemed as though all the forces were lined up against me. Thank goodness it was on a Friday -- and the day got better as we moved along.

I'll write more in my entry for today.

innerpeace on 08/09/2019:
I'm sorry to say this but you had me laughing out loud...at work. I swore I could have wrote your entry, I just recognize the frustration. I agree with HOP, as long as your son stays out of trouble he will be fine. Is he having difficulty with one thing or many. The military offers many opportunities for retraining, so they don't give up on people very easily. They will work with him and make sure he gets the training he needs. He may be disgruntled but there is hope. Remember I spent 20 years in the military so he'll be fine.

Cat issues...grr. Husband issues...grr. I hope he sees the affect the weight gain has. I am so uncomfortable with my extra weight. Have a great weekend! IP

Donkey on 08/10/2019:
It kind of was a comedy of errors, wasn't it? Looking back, it was kind of funny -- kind of like dominoes.

Thank you for reassuring me about the military. I know that because he was able to pass boot camp, unless something really bad happens, the AF will make good use of him, whether it's in this job or in another capacity. I think he just needs to get out of Texas. It's brutally hot there.

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