Still feeling the effects from the Saturday Night Chocolate Chip Massacre. Yowza, I hope I remember how awful I felt, and how this has lingered on. Definitely do not want to feel like this again.
Had trouble getting out of bed this morning -- this, after I lectured Horn about her not getting up promptly, LOL -- so I'm running a little short on time, which does not add any joy to a day.
But I'm determined to keep this reluctance (dread?) and discomfort (physical, from the chocolate chips) away from spoiling this day. I have the whole day ahead of me, with interesting aspects to it:
So there's lots of opportunity for a good day, a great day :-)
Progress as of today: 57 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!
August Goals Revamp:
Did not want to leave today's entry on a totally negative note. So there's half a month left for August. I scrapped the 2 goals that aren't really working for me and added 3 that I was contemplating for September but I can & WANT to start now.
Progress as of today: 57 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!
So I don't know if going to bed earlier helps all that much, to be honest.
lately, i'm having continuous small breakouts (i get one, it goes away, anther shows up, etc)...i think due to the summer weather. i can hardly even wear moisturizer at night bc when i wake up my skin feels so greasy...it even feels greasy later in the night...i'm sure this will pass when the weather changes!
I did not do well last night. I think the forces of nature were just against me, and what I should have done is gone upstairs, relaxed, and get ready for bed - because it's more important to take care of yourself sometimes.
This did not happen.
What happened instead was that I stayed up too late doing 3 loads of Daughter's laundry that she had strewn across Son's bedroom. I need to change the sheets on Son's room, and couldn't do that until after all of her damn clothes were moved. While the laundry was churning, I went downstairs, and I think my boy cat was really upset, because it smelled like he sprayed somewhere. The stench was just overwhelming. So I worked to try to find where he peed - never did quite identify where. Sprayed and wiped down the sofa sectional that we have in the basement. Cleaned the half bath, mopped the floors, cleaned the cat boxes --- it still really stank.
Texted Daughter who said she would try to work on it when she got home. I don't know if she did but it smells OK down there today, I think. It's a basement, so it's kind of musty down there anyway. As long as the dehumidifier is on, cycling, it's OK. Once that fills up and shuts off, then it starts to smell, but not like urine.
This was just all too much, so instead of just leaving it, I had a bowl of mint chocolate chip ice cream, and about half a bag of chocolate chips.
Rather than going to bed at 9pm, or even 9:30pm, I ended up finally going to sleep at 10:30p. And I was not comfortable, because of the ice cream and sugar. Oof.
Woke up this morning - later than I wanted to but oh well it's Sunday - feeling quite hungover.
However, I did track everything, and I was not over calories too much. I just tried to do too much on too little, I think. Also, I *know* that I don't cope very well with Husband not here, so my safety net or anchor was not around.
Today is a new day. Took some Tums and cut my morning bike ride in half. I still plan to go to the gym, but my only other task, really is to get Son's bed made, and bring up a window fan (or 2) for his window(s).
Progress as of today: 57 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!
i do not dread going to work, it's just the waking up part. coworkers are very good so it's not the a bad experience; even if workload is unpredictable/light.
I recognize that it is completely unfair that my Daughter doesn't keep up with her laundry. She's kind of a clothes horse, loves to shop. I have to ask her if some of the clothes I washed are up for donation. We already have 6 bags of clothes to be donated.
It was an early start to the day for Donkey! Husband flew out west to meet up with our son to help him drive home for leave. Son will be with us for nearly 3 weeks! They should be home Monday evening or Tuesday sometime. Anyway, Husband was up at 2am (woke up), came up to shower at 3am (woke up), and then opened the front door to take out his bag for the car, and I thought he had left, so I got up to try to catch him before he drove off. Turns out he was just taking the bags out and not ready to actually leave.
So I just stayed up after he left and started getting stuff done. Rode my bike, filled up my birdfeeders, mopped up the floor thanks to my cats, washed out a litter box, on laundry load #2.
I gained a wee bit this week. Oh I can't tell you how tempted I was to have ice cream or chocolates last night, but I resisted. And how was I rewarded? With a gain!!! Grr... Well, such is life on maintenance with Donkey. This is how I roll. I've been here before.
Today will most likely be a higher calorie day anyway, because I'm already on my 3rd cup of coffee, the creamer has calories, and it's just barely 8am. And I might have a small dish of ice cream later today or tonight... maybe. Not sure about that. If I'm going to have a higher calorie day, Saturday (after weigh-in) is the day to have it. It might end up being a more active day anyway, so it would all balance out.
And so since I'm on my own this weekend (Daughter has to work), I might spend a little more time at the gym. Perhaps partake of the hot tub and/or the steam room. The hot weather has left us - thank goodness! - and so these warmer treats aren't so adverse.
I've been reassessing my August goals, because I can see that some of them just aren't working for me. I just can't seem to get the afternoon "time out" done at work. I'm in too much of a rush to get the time-sensitive stuff done. I still have my alarm set for the time-out, but I may delete that soon. The morning "vesper" seems to be happening regularly though. Also, as I mentioned earlier, the whole "walking around my neighborhood 1x a week" is... well, maybe not the best. After all, I already take a walk at work every day. And once school starts, I do not want to be dealing with kids and moms and bus stops. School starts for us this Wednesday. I'm so glad both my kids are done with all of that.
I've been inspried by a lot of you to have a sleep goal for September. And I miss my push-ups challenge (!), so I might start that up again. Other ideas I'm tossing around are a skin-care goal, maybe a 5 minute knitting goal? Is there some kind of weight-training goal I could set up? Hmm... I'm not sure what that would be or how to go about that...
Progress as of today: 57 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!
Mistakes Girl is encouraging me to take a little time off to spend time with him.
also, you have done well getting to where you are - less mistakes ;) #truth - so some of your habits are obviously helping you...
but yes, some people do not think about the consequences of a better work/life balance (the think only of the pros and just do it...).
gaining a wee is ok...it could also just be maintenance. but, yes, work to not let it keep being small gains....if you can...I remember starting maintenance after i reached 115 for my sister's wedding...after her wedding was a little hard for me compared to now it was harder, to still work on maintaining that weight. i remember it went up a couple pounds soon and then i worked at it to keep the habits that helped me get there...and learned new habits as well since....
you inspire me to perhaps have a sleep goal or take a better look at why i am so tired and see if going to bed earlier can help some of this; as well as *trying* to not lie in bed so much after my alarm on workdays??
if your other goals you mentioned do not seem to work; i'd say adjust and don't force something that doens't work...i have some readjusting to do, too.
You have a good point about not waiting until September to make new goals. Tomorrow is the 15th - halfway point - and so I think I will make some changes.
Male Co-Worker made a comment earlier this week about how he woke up and laid in bed, thinking if he just laid there long enough, he would die and not have to come into work. We laughed, because I think on some level, we can all relate - this past week was brutal at work. (Even the Boss said so)
Are you dreading going to work?
I often complain that I waste too much time sleeping. "Oh what I could get done in life if I didn't spend those 6-8 hours sleeping every night..." Right? So how come I don't say this about eating? Both are essential, yet I don't view eating as a waste of time, LOL.... LESS EATING - duh!
I did well with weight-training yesterday. I had a very good leg workout in the morning (which I wrote about), and then I repeated the same 3 exercises in the evening.
I think I did well with eating too. IDK... I'm a little nervous about this week's weigh-in.
I wish I could say that work was a good day. It was OK, until 2pm when my Boss left unexpectedly to take the grandkids to a movie. He left a bunch of files that needed his attention - one of them needed a letter THAT DAY -- and he just leaves. "Oh well, let one of the other guys take care of it." Um... well Associate Attorney was out all afternoon on a boat ride with realtors, and New Guy had a closing and an estate planning meeting (which take a long time). So what the hell was the Boss thinking??? He wasn't.
I had hoped with the Boss gone that I could leave early. That was my downfall -- setting up an expectation that no way would happen, because starting at 3pm, the phone calls, emails, and crisises started POURING in. Just WTF... When I left work at 5:30pm, I was quite cross and very tired.
So I realized this morning that this is NOT how I want Chapter 51 to play out in my Book of My Life. I NEED to be ever mindful of this and let all of that go. I don't know why I let myself just get swallowed up in the chaos and negativity at work. NO, NO, NO! Is it an attention problem? Is it a memory problem? Why do I find it so hard to establish boundaries at work and stick to them?
Don't misunderstand me - I'm GLAD that the Boss left early. What I'm upset about is how I handled all of the stress.
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
This is my "fault" but it's also their fault for taking that for granted.
I admire your consistency. I’m slacking off on weight training. Pretty much using dumbbells for muscles that show, arms & shoulders. Legs great from hours on bike & some treadmill.
Wish those meanies let you leave early too!
It took some discipline, but I do think I'm getting to really like weight training.
It is just amazing how inconsiderate clients and agents can be. Yesterday, Friday afternoon AFTER 5pm, we had 2 callers that kept calling and calling and calling... trying to catch someone at the office, I suppose. But HEY, it's 5pm on a FRIDAY. Geez...
It drives me nuts when my Husband said, "I'll call first thing in the morning." I tell him NOT to do that -- believe me, people don't want to hear from anyone first thing in the morning. Call at around 11am, or maybe 2pm.
i think you should not set other expectations for yourself compared to grandkids. if everyone is taking time off, i still think you should enjoy similar perks to an extent. but i may not be right!
She definitely seems to have a better grip on the work/life balance thing for sure. I do try to learn from her example.
I love Thursdays... I always have. It's the anticipation of the weekend, but still having the social contact at school (when I was younger) or work (adult), although lately, I have not been content to be at work --- but I still love Thursdays.
I woke up at 3:39am to use the bathroom and could have stayed up, but opted to try to get some more sleep. Ended up waking up to my alarm as I was in the middle of a very volatile dream where i was fighting with my sister and mother at a restaurant. Like Bear's dream yesterday, I think the only way to get out of it was to wake up!
Anyway, had a great bike ride and a GREAT leg workout. I'll do more legs tonight, presuming the workday doesn't wipe me out. Love Leg Day -- another reason to love Thursdays :-)
Work was draining. Mistakes Girl did a great job of keeping up with my emails; I must tell her that again. But the phones were heavy at times (no New Girl, which is fine by me, except that means I have to answer the phones more) and the emails were just so tiresome. No one was particularly mean though, so that's good.
Associate Attorney was out for most of the day. I think I saw him for 20 minutes. He stayed at his morning closing until 1pm, came back to the office, and headed off to IHOP (a restaurant) to "work on a file". WTF. What the actual F. How is that OK??? The Boss doesn't care. In fact, Mistakes Girl made a comment that it feels like that part of the law firm (AA and Nice Lady) aren't even a part of the firm any more. She's right.
Mistakes Girl again told me that she and her husband will be trying again for a baby towards the end of the year. If/when she finds out she's pregnant, she will probably stop working immediately. I told her that's what I would do, too, so I didn't blame her. But oh my goodness, I do NOT want to be at the firm working with New Girl full time.
I just wish that Boss and Male Co-Worker would be honest with themselves and retire. Or at least announce, Hey I'm pulling back, cutting my hours. Seriously, just be honest about it, because I feel like I'm being lied to every day.
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
why don't you want to just work with new girl...at least mistakes girl will be out of the picture, maybe!
And you are 100% -- there will be more changes to the firm, drastic changes. I'll be there for some of them (if Mistakes Girl leaves)... I don't know if I'll stick it out until the end, though.
Now, life goes on... I didn't realize how much this Continuing Ed class was holding up my week -- it feels like I've been holding my breath, and now I can exhale and move forward with real life.
I was able to do dumbbell upper body weights during the class, in the afternoon (after the hard math part was over), which was great, because it freed up my morning. However, I think I must have improper form - or maybe it was from the jog on Monday night - but my hips/back started twinging again by the evening. I'd move a certain way, and my back would remind me who's in charge. I rode my bike - felt good after sitting for most of the day, took a hot shower, and 2 Aleve. Rest seemed to help more than anything, because I woke up A-OK this morning.
I'm sure that there will be some catching up and straightening out this morning, when I return to work. Ugh... I really did enjoy being at home. I made 2 signs for the work refrigerator (one for the door and one for my cold coffee cup), so I should have some cold coffee available to get me through the afternoon. Mistakes Girl said that the emails were OK, so we'll see what that means. I told her that I would appreciate anything she could do to help keep my files moving forward.
This work stress is just ridiculous.
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
your entry yesterday just sounds like you are dreading the course, you will be OK! i think the overall change in the day's schedule threw you. you prob view the course as a waste of a day off...at least that's how i'd view it and with still having to do work, i guess you were dreading the course lol...ah, don't worry...
Hopefully a main responsibility of new girl is to answer the phones so you can get off that.
glad the course went well, overall!
today as i walked slowly before work, i stopped a few times to stretch!!!!
I hope you are able to make great strides at work ! :) you will ;) xoxxoo
The stretching is to help get the hips back into correct position so that it doesn't touch the spine.
I am so short on time this morning that it is not even funny. And I didn't even have to change my clothes this morning or prepare lunch/snacks for work, because I'm home all day. My first mistake was riding my bike for the regular time, rather than the shorter time, so I ran out of time to do much upper body weights. (Did 3 exercises, maybe I can do more at the lunch break.) Then my husband started laundry, so I had to finish that for him (if I want it done energy efficiently the way I like to have it done). Then 2 cats left me lovely messes to clean up..... Oh my....
Actually, this all started when my alarm went off this morning. It was SO HARD to get up out of bed. Just zero motivation to face the day... Even though I'm home all day, I am stressed out about having this webinar work on my tablet. I'll have my laptop ready to go, just in case the tablet doesn't work. And then, of course, there is ZERO wanting to be in a webinar from 9am to 6pm. Dinner will be late, which means less time for weight training tonight, but oh well....
BUT - I was full of motivation last night after yoga. I went for a walk around a shorter neighborhood loop, and jogged for most of it. I'm so surprised that I felt no aches this morning in my legs.
I'm so surprised, too, because work was just so freakin' draining. Nothing specific... but I could feel it getting very difficult to be cheerful around New Girl. Not because of anything she did, but rather just the way I was feeling (tired, battered, overwhelmed, overworked). I did speak very gratefully of her help though - TWICE - that I hope she overheard. I still don't like her, but at least she answers the phones.
Nice Lady was off, to take her grandson to a sleep study something-or-other, so naturally, Associate Attorney took the day off too -- Lord only knows why, but that's how those 2 roll together.
Someone in the building threw away the coffee I keep in the Lunch Room refrigerator. I consume it every afternoon and replace it every morning. I think they thought it was the same cup there for a week -- it's in the same cup, which is cleaned every night and refilled to be chilled for the next day's afternoon. So that sucked. The Boss said to put a sign on the refrigerator, so I will do that tomorrow, when I return to the office. At first, I thought it might be Male Co-Worker, but he said it wasn't him. So then I think it was the office manager for the PT clinic. Not to be mean, but that she just thought it was old and disgusting and tossed it, to keep the refrigerator clean.
MORNING EDIT: So far, it seems as though I can attend the webinar on my tablet. SO RELIEVED about this....
EVENING EDIT: Turns out -- the packet I printed out and studied and worked on was for LAST year's class, not this year's. All that time I spent was pretty much 90% wasted. There were a couple of times during the class where the instructor said, "We went over this last year, so I won't cover it much this year..." so it wasn't a *complete* waste of my time, but I immediately took that packet and recycled it. Then, I printed out the packet for this year -- over 100 pages. I'm giving it to one of my co-workers in the loan office to use when he takes HIS continuing education class.
It's done, I passed, and that's all that counts. It wasn't all that bad. I love the instructor!
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
And YES, I am relishing time away from the office. That was my MAIN motivation for taking the class now, rather than in a slower real estate season.
You would not BELIEVE the time off that people are taking in 2 weeks. Oh. My. Word -- just saw it on the calendar yesterday. I was like WTH...
Needless to say, I did not do very well on the first quiz, because I was so distracted. However, that just meant that the day got better as we moved forward & I settled down.
I'm still basking this morning in the relief that it's OVER. Thank you!!!!
I just decided to NOT use it and bring my lunch bag everyday.
Glad your class wasn't as bad as anticipated. Hope your day back to work turns out better too. Have a great day!
I was so tempted to add an entry here last night... In fact, I had a LOT of little things to do last night, but my attention was diverted by Husband, so none of them got done. I kind of resent this, of him, but he needs attention too, so OK. One of the most important things I MUST do tonight is to try the test link from the Continuing Ed place, to make sure that my tablet will work for the webinar. I also need to login in and test my password. They assign me a new password each year, with no option to change it to a password of my choosing. I almost didn't write down the new password, and then thought, Gee, maybe I should. I certainly don't need any technical difficulties tomorrow morning.
I am already dreaming of having more ME time in the morning, since I won't have to get ready for work.
I finished the discussion questions, and started to go back and re-read Section 1 --- it was like reading it for the first time. I'm afraid I didn't retain much of Section 1. I assure you that 95% of the information I learn from this class will go into "short term memory".
I had a great time at the gym, once I got there. It started to feel like an imposition on my free time. I'm sure this is because of the impending class on Tuesday, and the general anxiety I feel on a Sunday, that "time is running out" until Monday morning (work). I added 10 minutes on the stairclimber machine, and I thought I'd have problems walking this morning, but nope -- legs feel fine. Husband came with me. No hot tub, and that's fine by me.
My eating was good, I think... The ratio of carbs/fat/protein were spot on, but the calories were a little higher than I usually take in. Still within "acceptable" range, according to Lose It, but just higher than I normally eat. Ya know, if the ratios are OK, then I think that's probably more important to me than the actual calorie count. I can fudge a little bit because of the exercising.
However, today, I am back to focusing on my goals.
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
it's so frustrating how when we don't "use" the things we learn, we lose them. i have forgotten SO MUCH music info, it's crazy. I can hardly play any scales even on the horn anymore. i have forgotton so much (as i do not do it ever, the reason why.)
I know EXACTLY what you mean when you talk of feelings like everything is imposing on your time. oh yes. the class, too, shall pass !!! :)
yes, it's ok for calories to sometimes be up...shouldn't pose you too many issues at all. and you are doing a great job at this lower weight, it seems meant to be for you <3 YES.
It was a nice day off yesterday. Everything was oriented towards the goal of turning on the AC in the late afternoon or early evening. So, all the laundry got done yesterday. Dishwasher was run at noon. Birdfeeders filled in the morning, recycling organized (involves a lot of in-and-out of the house), etc. It's pleasant outside now, so after I'm done here, I plan to go outside and enjoy it, because it will get very hot and humid this afternoon. It will be like this for the next 5 days, or so. All the rain is in Wisconsin, just missing us.
I think I ate a little more than I had planned to yesterday, especially for dinner. We drove up to Daughter's new store, to deliver keys. Turns out, Husband left the keys at home, but we kept on driving. Dropped off plastic bags (a LOT) to be recycled at her store, visited with her, and picked up deli sandwiches to eat at home. They have a very good Reuben sandwich (which I ordered) but oh my it's so heavy. I ate 1/4 of it. Then, my husband ordered a bag of fried dill pickle chips. I thought I could stop at 2 but had a 3rd one... And of course, these aren't as good unless you dip them in the creamy dill sauce, LOL... We ate outside, and then I turned on the AC after dinner. So glad that I did because the upstairs bedrooms were unbearable.
Anyway, back on track today... I am the person that will always need to be mindful of what she's eating and how much. The sooner I reconcile myself to that, the better off I will be.
Almost finished reading for my Tuesday class, but started nodding off, so it was time to turn off the light. I'm on the very last section with maybe 10 pages to read. Then, I can go back and review the formulas and rules like I wanted to. I anticipate that this will take me no longer than an hour. It will also leave tonight and tomorrow night completely open. I am downloading the app that I need for the class right now. I want to be prepared... but mostly, I want this to be over, LOL.
I had a good workout at the gym yesterday, although it was busier than I thought it would be, being so busy. Husband did not come with me, but also, I did not do the hot tub, so that I could come home sooner, to go visit Daughter. For most of the time I was in the weight machine section, I was the only female. Looking forward to going back today -- it's leg day.
Progress as of today: 57.5 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
I think we turned in 10 bags. I have 2 at work, so I might make a trip to Walmart, for a "me" trip, and turn those in. The trick is to stay on top of it. I did end up throwing away quite a few during the last COVID shutdown.
i have never had fried pickles, though i've heard about them! i bet they were great :) great job on 1/4 of sandwich. those things are hard to moderate. i would have broken down and had a diet coke or other drink to get me thru. nice job, donk!
i keep thinking how i want to be able to once again go to the gym like you do, because i KNOW i'd have better workouts. but every time i think about it, i realize that time-wise it's a total waste for me because i wouldn't even go each weekend...i wish it'd work for me, but it seems i cannot balance it right now with the job i have. we shall see.the gym def offers more tools, if you use them.
I wouldn't worry too much about the gym right now. My daughter hasn't used her membership in months, and now that she has switched job locations, I don't think she'll ever go back. On her days off, she spends her free time with either her friends or boyfriend. Going to the gym with her ol' mom isn't a priority for her (LOL, which is 100% OK with me).
A gym has gotta be convenient to get to, or it doesn't really work. That is probably the main reason I do not go during the week - not the most convenient location.
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Sounds like a good day!! How is new girl behaving since you had a talk with her?
We seem to be getting along "better". It's hard for me to gage where she's at in the learning process. And I am trying to watch my voice and how I react.
I'm also more willing - I think - to taking phone calls.
Jacky82020 on 08/16/2021:
Sounds like a relatively peaceful day! Yay!
Ya know... it was fine until about 2:30p. In fact, I was kind of chuckling to myself watching Male Co-Worker getting bombarded, meanwhile I'm coasting along. But then in the afternoon, things started going off like bombs and I didn't leave until 5:45p -- and I probably could have stayed longer if I had been willing to make phone calls.
horn_of_plenty on 08/16/2021:
i wrote you back for your entry yesterday....
I will tell you, it's nice sometimes i listen to the radio a little before getting up...but it's true that it was beginning to get too long just laying there / partially asleep listening to the radio. i THINK it's like a waste of my "awake hours." as i do spend a LOT of time also relaxing in the evenings on the couch (at least like up to 3 hours especialyl when it's not a weights night...)so, in terms of getting out of bed, maybe make a pact to lay there for like 15min...i'm doing that now...and set your clock so you don't have to rush out after laying there....? i'm attempting something like that..
in terms of the rushing feeling and not feeling good about it; you can feel you are in good company of people rushing in the morning. don't feel alone in that ! however, you can adjust it and feel better...another habit to adjust...i am sure you will...it's an easy one to slide back into ;)
I answered :-)
I just wish I woke up naturally on my own and early. I envy people who wake up at 4am and "can't fall back asleep, so I get up" -- wow, I would love that.
I'm going to change my mindset about getting out of bed. Rather than dread, I'm going to get fired up to seize every free minute I have.
Jacky82020 on 08/17/2021:
Shame it didn’t last! Does that place specialize in real estate and estate (wills)?
I sold 2 houses myself, but paid the same attorney to do the contract. Seemed all boilerplate to me, same as contracts I purchased online. But would have involved out of town trips to file deeds etc at county courthouse. Decided to let him handle it. Paralegal did all the work.
I did not care for the nerd attorney when we bought this house. I’d gone over the boilerplate contract with a fine toothed comb & he kept reading it. Told him I knew how to read 10 times & he wouldn’t shut up. Earning his money I suppose